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Home violated by indifference

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http://ViviPhalloids.deviantart.com/journal/26334097/ Sun, 02 Aug 2009 09:24:55 PDT

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http://ViviPhalloids.deviantart.com/journal/24714479/ Tue, 12 May 2009 03:10:57 PDT
but enough said. I'm in love with alchemy and the ars magna, and suddenly i fall on one of baudelaire's poem, wich is a perfect combination, as if extracted from my mind and poured into the past. i hate him.

Alchemy of pain

"Nature! -- One man illuminates you with his ardor,
Another sets you to mourning!
What says to one: Sepulcher!
Says to another: Life and splendor!

Unknown Hermes who assists me
And who has always intimidated me,
You render me the equal of Midas,
The most wretched of alchemists;

Through you, I change gold into iron
And paradise into hell;
In the shroud of the clouds

I make out a beloved corpse,
And on the celestial shores
I build great sarcophagi."

Lately i've been deep into the trip of tool. insane compositions and one of most intoxicating lyrics i have ever read.

What's coming through is alive.
What's holding up is a mirror.
But what's singing songs is a snake
Looking to turn this piss to wine.

They're both totally void of hate,
But killing me just the same.

H. - Tool

..Pure intention juxtaposed will set two lovers souls in motion
Disintegrating as it goes testing our communication
The light that fueled our fire then has burned a hole between us so
We cannot see to reach an end crippling our communication{...}
The poetry that comes from the squaring off between,
And the circling is worth it.
Finding beauty in the dissonance.

Schism - Tool

As below, so above and beyond, I imagine
drawn beyond the lines of reason.
Push the envelope. Watch it bend.

Over thinking, over analyzing separates the body from the mind.
Withering my intuition, missing opportunities and I must
Feed my will to feel my moment drawing way outside the lines.

Lateralus - Tool

would someone make me stop ?? i can go on forever..
damnit.

to my beautiful creature.

and of course, i missed you all terribly

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ParanimA
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http://ViviPhalloids.deviantart.com/journal/23825785/ Sun, 22 Mar 2009 05:25:46 PDT

A stunning breathtaking piece by =C-Hass
This makes me dream so much

On eating

When you kill a beast say to him in your heart,

"By the same power that slays you, I to am slain; and I too shall be consumed." - Khalil Gibran

Erase me

Days when i had so much words,
now i find nothing to say

feels like an altar ego evesdropping fuckin propaganda in my industrial mind
it is eschata logical oh my oh my [link]

ParanimA
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http://ViviPhalloids.deviantart.com/journal/22519779/ Sun, 11 Jan 2009 07:21:33 PST

First, i would like to extremely thank

for buying me a one year subscription

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i was like "i wish i had a subscription

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*ping new mail message*
"u just had a one year subscription" -________-

her for me, and tap tht ass if u want.. no m kdn.

Here's some of her great dev

i'd like also to thank

for featuring me.. one the best poets in DA

I miss writing that's for sure...
There's this calm vib lately... maybe too calm.. lots of things hapening around but none seems affecting... im sure sooner or later somthn will bloom . or rot -.- im hungry for art as well.. feed me @_@

Lake of tears were amazing... couldve been better though. fkn lame organisers and fake metalheads.

There was

and

.. (eheh i noticed u) but there wer TOOO COOOL in the vip section waaawww haha 7AYAWENET. w ma besalmo kamen

basita!

The last series of deviations are actual frames from a stopmotion movie i made in december...
u can chek it out here [link]

And if ur rly bored, u might as well have a look at my masterpiece [link] ...try not to have nightmares on this one.

byby ya 7alwin

ParanimA
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http://ViviPhalloids.deviantart.com/journal/22146638/ Tue, 23 Dec 2008 16:58:58 PST
almost 10000 pageviews O_o
Hope you're all good anyways... try not to expose your anus to the sun. update me here or somthn.

]]> =ViviPhalloids Phantasmagoria http://ViviPhalloids.deviantart.com/journal/20318936/ http://ViviPhalloids.deviantart.com/journal/20318936/ Thu, 04 Sep 2008 04:46:20 PDT So last night..... i came home drunk, and i went to wake up my dad and told him screaming and goring:
"BABAAAAAA BABAAAAAAAAA, I TOOK LSD BABAAAAAAAAAA" baba: "CHOU? CHOU?? CHOU BEK WLE? yih YIH".. so he had a heart attack. i took him and stuffd him in my closet and went on playing with my honky tonk piano while watching teletubies. wuldnt tht mak a hilarious short movie ? :'( haha

SO hey... ive been dreaming a lot... like rly.. alot

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around 3 dreams evry night. never sleeping continuously, always waking up in he night with an image of my latest dreams. Yet all seems perverted in a very funny way, immensly surreal and incredibly symbolic... that i dont feel like tlking abt them anymore :/ khalas lol. from eating a soup of herbs between a woman's thighs, to.. shit i forgot.. but in fact, we all have those dreams we're afraid to reveal, sometimes even unconsciously denying them instantely. Those little nosturnal pollutions. And no don't tell me you never felt these gruesome images where you hated yourself for ever thinking abt it. but even monks do (oh.. i knw lol), many spiritual ppl do.. inevitable someways. wether incestual or macabre, it is of most annoying reflection of life, but definetly powerful. but if you ever wana share intersting dreams with me (not tht i wana knw ur sexual tendencies or wtver lol -_-) m always eager to listen, n i love surreal images and analysing them.

I decided not to get drunk for quite a time lol.. from the last suicidal hangover...i still feel the throat ache (been a week!) from the last dominating vertigo. This painful feeling of puking ur lungs out until only weird acid coms out... latly been waking up with a blurry vision and a drumming stomak (very bad for movie shootings wen i demand silence for recording the sound).

IT is weird how alcohool accentuate your emotions, and rly inflame the acuteness of our senses. it's sad to feel our real selves behind the wine. Nothing matters to a point, only the spining smiles and the acceptance of an ecstatic illusion . Unfortunatly thers always the aftermath of the climax :/ lol. still feelin sick since the joker makeup (i actualy lifted my head out of the window on the highway... and kind of half slept hanging there all the way to my hom haha.. i hav seen many middle fingers smudging pass the road) a really weird moment, is when one of my closest friend n ex, didnt reconize me, n even more crazy, was afraid of me. Some eyes i can never forget.

oh well... there's always halloween comin up

hope ur all good.

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http://ViviPhalloids.deviantart.com/journal/20079496/ Thu, 21 Aug 2008 14:15:49 PDT
The "I" in me, my friend, dwells in the house of silence, and therein it shall remain for ever more, unperceived, unapproachable.

I would not have thee believe in what I say nor trust in what I do -- for my words are naught but thy own thoughts in sound and my deeds thy own hopes in action.

When thou sayest, "The wind bloweth eastward," I say, "Aye, it doth blow eastward"; for I would not have thee know that my mind doth not dwell upon the wind but upon the sea.

Thou canst not understand my seafaring thoughts, nor would I have thee understand. I would be at sea alone.

When it is day with thee, my friend, it is night with me; yet even then I speak of the noontide that dances upon the hills and of the purple shadow that steals its way across the valley; for thou canst not hear the songs of my darkness nor see my wings beating against the stars -- and I fain would not have thee hear or see. I would be with night alone.

When thou ascendest to thy Heaven I descend to my Hell -- even then thou callest to me across the unbridgeable gulf, "My companion, my comrade," and I call back to thee, "My comrade, my companion" -- for I would not have thee see my Hell. The flame would burn thy eyesight and the smoke would crowd thy nostrils. And I love my Hell too well to have thee visit it. I would be in Hell alone.

Thou lovest Truth and Beauty and Righteousness; and I for thy sake say it is well and seemly to love these things. But in my heart I laugh at thy love. Yet I would not have thee see my laughter. I would laugh alone.

My friend, thou art good and cautious and wise; nay, thou art perfect -- and I, too, speak with thee wisely and cautiously. And yet I am mad. But I mask my madness. I would be mad alone.

My friend, thou art not my friend, but how shall I make thee understand? My path is not thy path, yet together we walk, hand in hand

- Gibran Khalil Gibran

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http://ViviPhalloids.deviantart.com/journal/19910081/ Tue, 12 Aug 2008 05:28:28 PDT tell me what you think

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i want your own interpretation if u find it too abstract.
don't tell me it's good or bad. why's and how's

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=ViviPhalloids Matter http://ViviPhalloids.deviantart.com/journal/19821407/ http://ViviPhalloids.deviantart.com/journal/19821407/ Thu, 07 Aug 2008 05:46:47 PDT ... dont ask).

I've been lost lately... wake up a day to write around 4 poems, then an other one with absolut emptiness. ive reached a state of "nothing matters" and that's pretty bad i think... sleep and laziness. i wake up after 12 hours and feel extremely sleepy . i can't sleep before 4am. it feels like wasting time. it feels all the things i written , the music i recorded, the pics, the movies i workd on... rly didnt mean anything. come to think about it, it drives me mad, rly. hobbies sure and amusing, not looking for fame, just asking for a little respect for my 'unusual?' point of view. or is it truly for the impression. they last but we don't. but does it matter? pooh.. akh.

In the crowd we're all just posers with delusional plans. maybe everyone belongs to himself.

just a thouhgt.

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http://ViviPhalloids.deviantart.com/journal/19531164/ Tue, 22 Jul 2008 05:38:10 PDT
hows evryone ? missed you all.
i was out of internet for several weeks now. bt its finally back #_#. i was playing silent hill4 in the mean time lol . damn im back in its mood. im in love with it... i also brought some luis bunuel work, n looking forward for old german gothic movies. i startd writing for my diplome movie... n its going pretty well . wht can i say more then "its a nightmare of love and despair". i also been hesitating; i have this idea of adapting a chapter of marilyn manson's autobiography.. but its not very simple hah .. though it would be fasdcinating. thers too much to say.

On another hand, something related to my country... more of a music fight scene with groups. hah tht wuld be great

to make lebanese relate to it, showing more a true identity (exagerated of course) of the social scene and the nightlife. the lebanese bands vs psyleb vs housefans vs metalheads vs gemayze vs monot ... with weapons and stuff ... :Y hahaha... m laughing.. alone

now im in final fnatasy 10. i never got to play it before... m bak to the gaming platform. oh well, they're all just the best example for my style. specialy Surreal art realy makes me high.

batman is out on thursday wouuw.

what else is in the teaches of peaches..

oh btw, go to

's page and kiss his butt. he's new. u probably seen him in my pics before.
he's a great graphic designer

bt he still need his ass to be kissed.

we went for a photoshoot in a castle near tripoli.
ill be updating the pics soon . it's an amazing place.
update me ppl .

jayyy

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=ViviPhalloids Monks invented alcohol http://ViviPhalloids.deviantart.com/journal/18691076/ http://ViviPhalloids.deviantart.com/journal/18691076/ Fri, 06 Jun 2008 04:24:04 PDT

i didnt even know until a week later. lol . chek it out

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i want feedbaaa333cckkk .

if it wont load, u cn always chek it in my profile
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and my favorites... THE rubber johnny is a fkn creepy movie u cnt miss
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CHRIS cunningham is a genius. i met him yesterday in my dreams.

JOU3AAANNN MAMA JOU3AAAAAAN

Other then that,

- ive been doin good. doing som projects and helping others n stuff.

- MY ante- nferno nin film festival submission is over, but m waiting for my uni's persmission to upload it

hop the contest will still be on .

- I still want a cello

- violin is amazing. i wish i had more time to play. you'll know wt m talking abt wen u hear kate nash's nicest thing. do it

- DAnte's inferno has really taken me deep. the further i go down the uglier it gets. the images are just fantastic. i rly need to get an illustrated one.

any one suggest a book ? HIT ME. with ur fav ones as well

- as for movies, has anyone seen "southland tales" ? from the director of donnie darko. its.. full.. of .. i dk. amazing in it's weirdness and complications.

oh well.. eat fasoulia its good for ur health.

shine on you crazy diamonds

]]> =ViviPhalloids New deviants and a thought for the day http://ViviPhalloids.deviantart.com/journal/18236918/ http://ViviPhalloids.deviantart.com/journal/18236918/ Fri, 09 May 2008 04:35:15 PDT Give them a warm welcome and chek their great galleries

!

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(hug her, and play her violin in a very very bd way)

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(don't give her donuts or chocolat...

)

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(give her a sandwich djej bala kabiss ma3 toum)

... oh and fuck civil war.

]]> =ViviPhalloids Hare Krishna http://ViviPhalloids.deviantart.com/journal/17711221/ http://ViviPhalloids.deviantart.com/journal/17711221/ Sun, 06 Apr 2008 07:46:56 PDT . write me somthn n tell me hw u been ok ? ok ? ok ? yalla batta.

mmm ill jst leave random thoughts. if ur so bored u might as well read them.
missd u all

- my hare krishna friend is back

(been 2 weeks) . its crazy how he changed. m taking vedic scriptures lessons and sankrit reading lol. i jst love the stories of the bhagavatam-gita (i thnk its tht.. yeh

)

- my brthday was on the 24th

. had a small surprise, and another lame mcdonalds party and got a cake on my face

fukn friends. thk god the party mascots culdnt mak it haha... but i got a violin from 3 great great friends

cnt stop playing. m fkn 22. adel jahch

- A girl told me she fell in love with me recently..... in the most awkward place and silence. i shuldve knwn, it was too obvious. i just hugged her and uttered rly meaningless words a333 wt an idiot. i suk at it anyways. unfortunately, i hav 0 feelings for her n i dn even knw y... she's a great person, beautiful, spiritual, ambitious, and im a retard. oh well... i had my love nervous breakdown . fuk it. i feel bad

so bad.

- i still wnt a monkey

- its been so long since i wrote...

- shuld i still write somthn?

- kakapoopoo

- THERE WILL BE BLOOD IS THE BIGGEST OMEN EVER. wnt to feel the apocalypse comin your way? watch it. fukn movie... i lov it. the title at the end made me shiver

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u might as well chek magnolia if u havent bitches.

I think art is the most spiritual thing in this world. no person can ever own the copyright of what god really is - marilyn manson.

lov this guy

big love and mushrooms

]]> =ViviPhalloids ♠ http://ViviPhalloids.deviantart.com/journal/16882303/ http://ViviPhalloids.deviantart.com/journal/16882303/ Thu, 14 Feb 2008 13:46:55 PST

j'attend que la mer tombe dans le ciel

]]> =ViviPhalloids Cover me with the endtimes http://ViviPhalloids.deviantart.com/journal/16639376/ http://ViviPhalloids.deviantart.com/journal/16639376/ Wed, 30 Jan 2008 06:27:12 PST
]]> =ViviPhalloids Salam! finaly http://ViviPhalloids.deviantart.com/journal/16413493/ http://ViviPhalloids.deviantart.com/journal/16413493/ Tue, 15 Jan 2008 06:39:24 PST

How's everyone? missed this place so much. missed writing that's for sure.
I've been stuck with uni lately, fuking me up so much i had to fail a class. fukers. but good news, i finished my photo movie. n m proud eventhou didnt hav the time to complete entirely the sound

. Wt a fuked up one haha . never thought i would do such a thing hehe. Well i hop i'll b able to upload it here so u cn all see it and tell me wt u thnk.
Hope all is gd with you guys. ''ll try cheking ur updates (theres tooooooooooooo fkn manyyyyyy) but update me here

or die.

P.S: DAMN i jst heard an explosion.

]]> =ViviPhalloids zouzou in the sky with babaghannouj http://ViviPhalloids.deviantart.com/journal/15503162/ http://ViviPhalloids.deviantart.com/journal/15503162/ Wed, 14 Nov 2007 06:06:59 PST
so say somthn

]]> =ViviPhalloids all the children are insane http://ViviPhalloids.deviantart.com/journal/14994369/ http://ViviPhalloids.deviantart.com/journal/14994369/ Wed, 10 Oct 2007 02:19:06 PDT just where im goin....
but i.... am gonna try... for the kindgom .. if i can
cause it makes me feel lik im a maaaannn
When I put a spike in..to.. my.. vein
Then I tell you things arent quite the saaame

When Im rushing.. on my ruuun
And I feel just like jesus son

And I guess... I just dont know

And I guess...

that I just dont know

]]> =ViviPhalloids If u read this journal i will lick your boobs. http://ViviPhalloids.deviantart.com/journal/14936589/ http://ViviPhalloids.deviantart.com/journal/14936589/ Sat, 06 Oct 2007 05:53:48 PDT
euh
hi !

So yeah im back for good this time... at least i will do my best

so much things i am preparing. Im not even finding time to finish my first movie.

But im glad cuz i'll be bringing to life a poem i wrote called "mila in loulouland". But it'll be a still image movie. only pics, narrator, music, sfx... more lik a children's fairy tale for adults. weee

I came back to see a new category

ewww we can submit movies !! amazingg.

Ive been constantly falling sick for some reason. i feel weak and weary but nonetheless inspired. unforetunately couldnt stay home and rest. i hate the fukn AC in uni

selfish bastards never let me turn it off. i even stoped smoking (mmmmmm... hope i can keep it up *sigh*) cigarettes are floating around me evrytime i feel lik watching smoke ... i love smoke... but smoke hates me... bitch. i took off my goatee

shuldnt have done that. why do i get attach to evrything i let grow ? loool... spank me. the unpleasant muscus keeps on rumbling between my trachea and oesophagus like a boiling tea bursting next to a staggered shuddering butler smiling EEEEEEEEEEEEEK . shut up jim.
i never saw so many birds today... reminds me of hitchcocks movie. i mean fuuukk an army of flying creatures turning in circles above me. wish i had my cam. sa7teeeen

my (old) best friend is becoming a monastery priest in the harekrishna group.... FUK . hahahaa. shit. he took it too far. damn its been 2 years.

i've been taged by ~SaintlyDark ... i don't usually do these lol but i feel like letting some things out thou i cant quite think of much right now

...

If you get tagged:
1. Post these rules.
2. Each person tagged must post 8 random (hopefully interesting) facts about themselves.
3. Tags should write a journal of these facts.
4. At the end of the post 8 more bloggers are tagged and named.
5. Go to their page and leave a comment telling them that they're tagged.

(There is no way in hell I am going to be one of those people who go to other peoples journal and write "YOU ARE TAGGED!) {yeh i copy pasted that too haha}

1) euh... i love to dance naked in the woods. hahaha. no rly. at night. with music and a fire... maybe summon spirits... close my eyyes.. twirl, jump.. drink wine. smoke hash. feed the fire. scream poetry... evryday i think abt it . yet i never did tht . alone or with somone. don't really care .. (call me if you wnt !!) hahaha

2) i cry and laugh a lot. my worst days are when i feel empty. when i don't have anything else to say. Music kills me. i feel its a part of me. i rly do cry sometimes and i just dont
care (ppl goin: "awwwwwwwwwwww viviiii")... but no im not that soft. i just let the things greater then my matter control me.
If for 5 minutes i kept thinking of wt i shuld do, and still havent came up with something, i crack.

(am i combining 78623 facts in 1 ?)

3) i was never good in grammar. even thou im a writer . i just love metaphores and the vocabulary lol ... not intersting huh .. moving on
euihh oh yeh. im an agnostic.

4) my parents are divorced it's been 10 years. and my father had financial problems and is the most nervous, furious, lost person i ever met in my whole fucking life. i still feel myself in a prison when he fukn yells and tries to correct me. i learned not to listen thats for sure.

5) at the age of 15 they took me to a cristian school since it was the only school that could take me. i had a 5 on 20 on my final (MAN i wish i was kicked out at tht age.. damn) since i kept making jokes and was like a popular bich in a rich privat... ]]> =ViviPhalloids In a meadow of catastrophy http://ViviPhalloids.deviantart.com/journal/14699508/ http://ViviPhalloids.deviantart.com/journal/14699508/ Wed, 19 Sep 2007 10:35:39 PDT
so anyways, my shooting was ca-tas-tro-phic. i have never had to deal with so much bad luck in two weeks... i was the main actor and the director.. and producer . wich was A VERY BAAAADDD IDEAA.
everyday somthing came up !!! i had a very bad feeling abt it since i even first started writing the script. But the craziest part, is when i was making the flshbak/kiss scene, priests cam stoping it, and threaten me from calling the cops (or wtver we call them here) i swear i was gona burn them all. fkn demons. i was so nice, they were even meaner then unsatisfied bitches. they told me the place was holy, and blaablablabl... then awhile the camera and the equipments wer stuck in uni , since i had to takl to the director so he cn call the security n tell them to let me pass, bt he wasnt here nor replying on his cell, so i waited and waited. and in the morning i had to go donw in an hour with no car bslabnleihqdnhiowq3jd every day it was even worse.. the best part was at the end. we couldnt shoot a scene anymore since we had a deal tht i shuld get my materials back be4 18, and all this time i thought the deadline was 20 . without mentioning the fever i had most of the time, som crew members never showd up, a sucky drug addict actor who was gd in casting bt culdnt memorise a sentence and had a 2sec short term memory loss,
the extreme nervous pissed off look i had, ppl had to travel...... FUCK TEAM WORK

so . i had lik an unconscious depression all this time... gd thing i finishd .. unfotunatly one scene is mising, and around 8 shots. i even forgot to say "its a wrap !!" so the camera operator said it be4 -.-
this m0vie is rly cursed. Like somthng was pushing me, and telling to drop it all or somthn very bad wil happen soon. bti kept resisting. i mean, its not even big i dont understand. the obstacles were numerous. bt i was determined to wtver how its gona turn out, i was gna do my best.. and i did.

so much up and downs lately... i miss writing. i miss music. oh well.. i hope you all had good times

gd night everyone

]]> =ViviPhalloids Close your eyes.... Rigamortis http://ViviPhalloids.deviantart.com/journal/14252458/ http://ViviPhalloids.deviantart.com/journal/14252458/ Mon, 20 Aug 2007 08:23:03 PDT
I had a dream... i was sitting next to my friend in his car.. we were driving a familiar road when suddenly children started warning us not to continue... filthy, poor children... then a thousand corpses appeared everywhere and between them some were alive... all children. i was screaming to stop the car but my friend, petrified, didn't want to just to escape the horror we got into. We kept on crushing kids and the corpses, the blood, the organs... my head was out of the window trying to scream for them to move... the road never seemed to end... the screams, the chaos... the corpses later on stated reducing.. kids with no legs and organs exposed .. still breathing. .. and we just ran to escape it all...

last time it was my leg being chopped off by 4 lunatic fake doctors who started pretending they're trying to heal it (since i had the biggest cramp in the night before i culdnt walk, and i kept imagining a tumor since i never tht huge amount of pain for hours) they kept cutting and cutting and i was screaming nd they laughed.. and they started pulling veins ... sorry for the image.. but it's just too much lately.

looking forward for another dream... or maybe not

It was Only you that i despise....

... .... .. Here's a lullaby to close your eyes [link]

goodbye

]]> =ViviPhalloids Paranoid Android http://ViviPhalloids.deviantart.com/journal/13897154/ http://ViviPhalloids.deviantart.com/journal/13897154/ Fri, 27 Jul 2007 07:13:56 PDT
e7em ok.. Hello evryone

n m sorry for not commenting or replying, bt thers somthn wrong with da, and i don;t have time nor the patience to w8 since each page is lik taking 5 min to open n i hav no idea why. i reached 5000 pageviews

but i rly miss u all !

some updates:

im having lots of problems and obstacles in my movie. m reporting the shooting days evrytime somthng unexpectd come up and blows the whole optimism thing i promisd myserlf with ekh. but im not giving up. i never thought it would be that hard. the stress is not easing up. but fuk it.

my concert was cool. not a lot of ppl showd up, bt it was fun. they were mochpiting on stage, so it was hard not too laugh while singing . lol .

hf8u93ur9023

..uh.. wt i wrote was spontaneous here.. i cnt even remember wt it was... an amount of sighs and moans tht soundsed lik that:

i feel changes.. not in me.. but you can not feel secure and stable in a world of constant changes..
the people, the feelings, the perceptions... the aura..
growing up. staring at the past. staring at the young, for the old is too ugly to stare at.
What i witness lately is just an amount of fakery.. what i thought was real just turn out to be a lie... i sold pieces of my broken souls, to turn out useless in the hands of what i htought was true, and virtuous... i saw their distorted facade... but is it just a mask Â¿

but i don't know

the energy is lost... the whole mood is twisted.. like a cataclysmic dance of turmoil.
What i want seems to morph... what i dreamt seems to vanish... or is it just hiding Â¿

but i don't know

it's like a cup with bitter water, where your white dusty passion disappears..
and sometimes when you take a sip, it tastes sweet. sometimes it doesn't.. and sometimes you just fill it up with no thirst to quench.
i guess that's what i am.. a gazer. i love watching. wether a collapse or an ascend. the sunset and the sunrise..

With lots of love and other unnamed feelings...
and i dont know why

-Viergo-

]]> =ViviPhalloids Viergo's Labyrinth http://ViviPhalloids.deviantart.com/journal/13692360/ http://ViviPhalloids.deviantart.com/journal/13692360/ Wed, 11 Jul 2007 07:22:22 PDT

ive been preparing so much stuff lately

well first ! I'm searching for actors. i need ppl for my movie, wich wil p[robably be shot between 20 and 25 of july. a big big thks for *Lynnelle my awesome producer for helping in evrythng ! + she got me a budget (wasta w osass

) so pass by her galery n giv her a kiss or a hug.
M having small problems (as usual) bt m trying my best to find quick solutions, but i never thought it would be tht fkn hard

its exhausting. oh well ... i hav my ups and downs, my optimism and my doubts.

And second of all ! im having a concert in TROY (nightclub) in 3en saade, so for my lebfriends dont hesitate to come ehh ???? 2 bands. chek the flyer if u wnt, i made it

[link] (our band name swastika... and yeh fuk!! i never agreed on tht

bt it is not the nazi symbol tht we mean. the indian one)
thats my bassist in the backround lol . we'll be playing thrash metal . the other is into classic and som led zep. so itll be cool

10$ entrance + 2 free drinks ! cheap ehh ??

Have anyone seen pan's labyrinth ??????? NO ??? WT THE FUK R U WAINTING FOR ??
it's...

.... in my fav list.. wich is

*natural born killers
*final fantasy (and advent children)
*silent hill
*spirited away
*euh.. i forgot.

wts ur list ? give me movieeeessss

mmm wt else ?? .. . hare krishna hare krishna hare hare rama rama hare krishna krishan losp lrey 8 kd3/

-vivi-

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http://ViviPhalloids.deviantart.com/journal/13443158/ Fri, 22 Jun 2007 07:21:37 PDT

ive been preparing so much stuff lately

well first ! I'm searching for actors. i need ppl for my movie, wich wil p[robably be shot between 20 and 25 of july. a big big thks for *Lynnelle my awesome producer for helping in evrythng ! + she got me a budget (wasta w osass

) so pass by her galery n giv her a kiss or a hug.
M having small problems (as usual) bt m trying my best to find quick solutions, but i never thought it would be tht fkn hard

[link] (our band name swastika... and yeh fuk!! i never agreed on tht

bt it is not the nazi symbol tht we mean. the indian one)
thats my bassist in the backround lol . we'll be playing thrash metal . the other is into classic and som led zep. so itll be cool

10$ entrance + 2 free drinks ! cheap ehh ??

Have anyone seen pan's labyrinth ??????? NO ??? WT THE FUK R U WAINTING FOR ??
it's...

.... in my fav list.. wich is

*natural born killers
*final fantasy (and advent children)
*silent hill
*spirited away
*euh.. i forgot.

wts ur list ? give me movieeeessss

mmm wt else ?? .. . hare krishna hare krishna hare hare rama rama hare krishna krishan losp lrey 8 kd3/

-vivi-

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http://ViviPhalloids.deviantart.com/journal/13217791/ Mon, 04 Jun 2007 16:35:06 PDT

how you all doing ? rly hope you're all good. Sorry for late replies and if ur not receiving any comments from me anymore

bt i cnt even find time to chek my page... more then 400 deviations to chek arggg

I've been busy completing my script, wich is now euh.. complete

fkn awesome !!! m so stressed thou, htinking abt the shooting in summer (managing around 100 ppl. thers a scene with a goddamn rave

) but m very excited. its my first big professional movie project, wich m giving all my soul to it.

thx to ~Lynnelle, we made up the title . it's called "in a meadow of yesterdays" thk u dear

she's the best. always there to help u in like even puting ur schoes (wich i seem to be in need of

) my finger is much better now

I've been intrested in wicca lately... i don't know. i love it. Lots of ppl call it bullshit when it comes to spell but ive been having this thought. Due to my old experiences in meditation, i used to feel this energy. Of course, the peace within, this high trance you give in to, and i thought... everything is probable. why not control this energy and unleash it to the otherside. let there be peace outside, free your soul... bullshitbullshitbullshitbullshit blablabalbal the old guy groans "BULLSHIT" The little anoying kid screeches "BULLSHIT" the horny shemale slut moans "BUUULLLLLLLLLLSHIIIIIIIITT".......... WELL evrything is a stick tirred into shit a bull (who ate of ur grass) just offered you to have fun with... why not believe in the things. why not give it a shot. the funny fact is that evryone believs in the bull shit -.- well the bull is better god then his shit i htnk. wtf am i tlaking abt now ?

ok i think i shuld get some sleep. Have a bullshit euh..
i mean have a good night sleep evryone ^_^

take care !

-vivi-

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=ViviPhalloids oh well... http://ViviPhalloids.deviantart.com/journal/12911327/ http://ViviPhalloids.deviantart.com/journal/12911327/ Thu, 10 May 2007 13:46:29 PDT
i missed my DA friends so much. im so busy lately i barely have time to check on my sites. i'll be cheking ur dev's and journals hopefuly next week

im so tired

****from friday till sunday i'll be out of home, sleeping and working on a short movie

****ive been writing a script that i hopefully be filming in summer.

****i love bazooka joes

****i kinda hurt my finger while putting my shoe (

can u imagine that???)

****i dont feel like shaving, nor cutting my nails

****i think i have a tail

****i want a black cat

ok. or my life is boring, or im just to dead to focus on telling recent stuff...

anyways

take care evryone..

-vivivivviivvivivviiv-

]]> =ViviPhalloids damn dA... and boring updates http://ViviPhalloids.deviantart.com/journal/12714231/ http://ViviPhalloids.deviantart.com/journal/12714231/ Tue, 24 Apr 2007 06:55:14 PDT

in other news ... things are really normal lately. nothng big, nothing small. just boring and empty. and i HATE That. i just miss so many thngs and i barely hav time for anything. i hate my uni, cuz i cant fix my schedule and i hav to follow their time. some days i hav only two classes , for example one in the morning, and the other at night, but i hav to stay there and bore my ass off or just visit the library, since icant just go hom and come bak. no car, and my home is lik an hour far from it. its pissing me off, specialy tht lately the classes hav nothing to do with my major. i just wana mak a goddamn movie damnit.

im also very pissed since m not writing anythng. i feel bad about it i dk y. just the need to write but i cnt mak up my mind on wt to write abt.. its crazy.. m going crazy

i saw "all that jazz" last night, and its just a motherfkn insane movie tht u shuldn't miss. rly wonder wt went on in fosse's mind (the director).

in other news, i hav completed songs long time ago, but i just decided m gona record them in studio. well demo versions first. its kind of gothic/doom/alternative/soft accoustic style. som drums in parts of songs. may be featuring opera, mayb psychedlic guitar solo's. well honestly its not tht m trying to mak it differnt or very unusual from other styles and music, bt its jst me. never meant anythng, bt its jst how it turnd out to be.

oh and i just rememberd, lik weeks ago, i startd drawing

i dnt usuly do tht bt ekh . i cnt seem to mak photomanips as i imagine them. its hard, n i need lots of tutorials. my drawing are somhw mor related to my imagination. its more of a surreal style. i culdnt scan anything since my scanner is fkd its been weeks...

well as u see i had nuthng on my mind at first, i jst rememberd im doing lots of thngs bt m too tired to focus O_o i hav very baaad memory loss.. i wana do so many thngs, thts y m ending up always failing probably. blah.

well it felt good boring u

hop ur all fine. take care evryone

-vivi-

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=ViviPhalloids The great below http://ViviPhalloids.deviantart.com/journal/12492408/ http://ViviPhalloids.deviantart.com/journal/12492408/ Sat, 07 Apr 2007 06:01:15 PDT
Everytime i listen to loreena mckennit, i truly feel im in the wrong shelter. Here where i am, i do not belong, here where i laugh and cry, i do not exist.
Nothing is somehow real, there's no taste of this reality within. There's no taste outside of the sweet wind and the soft warm kiss.
How come everything i touch seems so much alive, when dwells in my soul an alien ghost.

i am no artist. nor talented, nor wise.. i am just you in a different world. And you are them in a different world. and they are us in a different world. How sad but true. we truly are doomed to be alone.. always in search of this soulmate... are you there ? you are my only. And i long for u... and i call for you within this stolen art of my ancestors.

i swear, sometime, someday, i will go to this place, where my tears are sweet and salty, and my smile's a perfect arc... and i'll go alone if u never show.

-vivi-

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=ViviPhalloids A birthday and 4000 pageviews http://ViviPhalloids.deviantart.com/journal/12348473/ http://ViviPhalloids.deviantart.com/journal/12348473/ Tue, 27 Mar 2007 10:44:58 PDT

it was my birthday on the 24th of march (as well as ~IrondoomDesign)

so go ahead and wish me somthn, or i will cut ur balls n spit on ur daddy

There's an awesome contest in

for B&W photography. And i need you to help me, so go ahead, run through my galery, and tell me wich B&W pic is the best

if u hav time

. ~Lynnelle suggest "i want you".. and me too (i spelled it rite this time

)

I went to a photoshoot on sat, to my usual place (mar chaaya), the clouds were splendid. this time in a color vision of my world

will submit them as soon as i'll print them off.
Still using my minolta XD7 . im faling in love with it even thou she offers me no zoom and a 50 mm focus lens

oh, hope you like some of my old B&W pics that i'll submit now. dark side of nature

and two manips on the way... not much time for poetry

300 is out this week

(yeh, here it takes awhile be4 it comes) m so excited

c'mon babies grease your lips !
put on your hats and swing your hips.
dont forget to bring your whips
i got my 4000 pageviews

[link]

-vivi-

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http://ViviPhalloids.deviantart.com/journal/12155402/ Mon, 12 Mar 2007 11:17:55 PDT i grew up with him since childhood, then 2 years ago he traveld to canada to mak music. he was a jimi hendrix blues vai satriani halen freak, and used to play guitar lik 20 hours a day. eating while playing, even playing while shiting !

anyways, its been lik months (more then 6 actulyy) that m not hearing from him. friends there are telling me that he joined a group of canadian monks, called the hare krishna.
he became a veggie, shaved his affro, stopd playing guitar (there i was shokd, bt the rest made me laugh

) but the worst thing, is that thers a rule he shuldnt talk to anyone! he goes from mornin till night at a fkn temple, sing weird songs (som monk meditation technique) and i dont know...

i know he always passed by periods and teenage crisis and stuff (we both did lol, from lil' antichrists, to anarchists, to demented clowns wich was the most hilarious thng we got into

etc etc. ) but i believ its serious now. and its been quite a while, and now that he's grown he shuldnt waste his life on it since he stopd his studies and soon will be on the street if it wasnt for his parents

but wt PISSES ME OFF THE MOST is that he lost his passion. wt he adore the most in his life ! trust me i knw wt im talking abt. he had a soul in his guitar. i rly thought he was gona mak it top the top, for ther was no doubt.

so any suggestions u guys? anyone knows more abt the hare krishna?
any way i culd wak him up? (beside druging him lik :devlynnele: suggested

)
i cnt do much here, he dont answer on his phone and my other friends there gave up since they tried a thousand times . but sometimes i thnk, if it makes him happy and he's where he wants to be, i mean why the hell not... i asked a hash addict friend there to try putting som weed in the monks tea, mayb thngs will be cool in the temple

lol .

anyways, if u knw anythng abt this cult or w/e this thng is, inform me.
thks

vivi-

Clubs im in

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http://ViviPhalloids.deviantart.com/journal/11921189/ Thu, 22 Feb 2007 12:43:33 PST ) bt m motivated. thats good. the only thing thats real... so it seems.

" the childrens of tomorrow ? " yeah and we got no futur. sing the death song kids
ive been watching some documentaries on "phantasmagoria" in movies. there was som paragraph that i still rememebr in a movie "i had a dream.. fucking with an old man.. he was disgusting, his smell was horrible... but he told me that evrything is erotic... the rotten flesh, the repugance... evrything"
(cant quite remmebr the words) yeah, you feel this rejection, this taboo ? what are you afraid of, beside these ignorant mortals

inside, i feel i will become lik that later on, a gore/erotic kind of movie director.. involunterly. thou i dont know why these macabre/horror thoughts always accompany my work. i never mean to express it, but it just manifest itself insanely... the result always frighten me. i fear the beauty.. just like the silent pain.. but why the fuck, is my deep mind floating into this dark aura... y are my emotions such a big deal in this evrything... go ask him.

thk u evryone for all the support, and i will miss u ..
specialy u my tigra

...

vivi-

Clubs im in

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]]> =ViviPhalloids lots of SEX ad BONDAGE SHIT http://ViviPhalloids.deviantart.com/journal/11800041/ http://ViviPhalloids.deviantart.com/journal/11800041/ Tue, 13 Feb 2007 14:35:30 PST (always wanted to do that)

now that i have ur attention, please read:

first, there was a bombing that happened not far from my city. for those who know , the one in bickfaya. som ppl are having fun in this country, planting bombs evrywhere, but this one rly angered the shit out of me. the put one in a bus, and 10 min later, another exploded wen it came by the first (the terrorists wer trying to hit som specific place, thou i rly dk i never watrch even the news, i bet u knw better then i do ^_^) anyways !!
the thing that hapened was; i had uni, and as usual i take the bus to get down. As soon as i entered, the radio started telling abt the incident, and yet it was only the first bus who exploded. i was pissed off very bad, since i bet i took once one of these buses. as we wer going down, a stranger got on the bus, with lik a T.v box scotched very badly on the sides, and ripped on som parts. the guy was looking SO FKN SUSPICIOUS. bt i didnt care. then the radio started telling abt another who got hit. here i suddenly felt creepd out -.- i mean shit! any bus can be exploding in any fkn moment ! then i lookd at the guy next to me holding (very tight) his box, and he was constantly playiing with his wrist lik ther was som kind of a watch or somthn, not talking like evryone else abt the incident... i felt paranoid and my heart startd beating fast n shit

i dk wt got in to me ! i didnt want to go down, since it was raining and i was late for my course.. i thought abt EVRYTHNG ! lik how its gona explode, how my flesh will be ripped and my bones will be broken and the blood.. and of course i thought abt how the world will be when im gone. the ppl who love me, their reaction .. the cries, the anger, the chaos... i rly plunged into this panic and farewell to my home. oh how i felt like writing, bt then shit evrythng will b gone anyways. and the first thing i thought abt, was my girl. well.. ex i mean. i wntd to send her a last "i love you" ... i felt so sad, bt i wasnt afraid of leaving with the consequences of physical pain. but afraid for my love ones. then after 30 min of road, the guy finaly talkd, asking the driver abt how to get to wer he;s going. anyways i got off the bus, and realised how dumb i can be. bt at least i knw a bit of how i wil feel

back home at night, i saw the pictures on the news and all. in one word.... horrible. lik nothing was left of these buses, and the ppl at the hospital.. crying, shokd, panicking.. even the ppl who helped them wer horrified. lik som guy saying " i dragd som1 with no legs" and another one who was in the 2nd bus "parts of ppl wer on us after the explosion.. we couldnt hear anything for 5 seconds" ...i thought again abt5 physical pain . rly . its fkn disgusting. i hate it. im tired of it. i thought of my self ther, or a friend.. rly, i had a very different perception of how i usually see things on tv . i kinda lived 0.00001% of it. ..

blah. horrible daysssssssss m tired. i just hope to sleep and never awaken..

good night evryone. hop ur all having great days.
and happy valentine.

vivi-

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http://ViviPhalloids.deviantart.com/journal/11658744/ Fri, 02 Feb 2007 11:49:36 PST

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]]> =ViviPhalloids The days of chimeras...and features ! http://ViviPhalloids.deviantart.com/journal/11393978/ http://ViviPhalloids.deviantart.com/journal/11393978/ Thu, 11 Jan 2007 09:59:54 PST

HAIL TO

who guessed who my baby was on the pic

. Giv her a kiss for me on her page if u hav time

and of course the crazy sadistic cute little girl

as a runner up

i was talking to =hitsfrznglass, and i thought i should post it in my journal. i realised how much we should cherish our dreams... "we always rush things but when i think abt it and all the dreams and the satisfied needs, i realise i wnt to go back, and walk again the path i once ran, and feel its magic, its mystery... "

it may be only words or just poetry sayings, but i did experience a period of extreme elevation, times where i used to meditate, love to the point of dreadful passion, had this urge, this strong motivation and erupting inspiration, all of this at the same time (6 months i guess).. but this experience compelled me to find an answer to my mournful addictions, beyond the concept of drugs and closer to a world where roads became meadows, and i could run in its beauty and cry in it's freedom.. and the thing is.. i didnt see it. my eyes were somhow veiled for i could only think of getting to the end of this round paradise planet. with time, my accomodation to reality, the morals, the corruption, society... all of their steps crushd my garden, even flower got their throats slit... and the path was once again clear as the cloudless sky... and how i missed... the days of chimera's..

The dark pure melancholy...

"long for neverending dreams .. long for beyond, for extreme, for passion !! and feel the love, the heartdropping and breathtaking step to the otherside of the wall, and the dark magnificent side of our lost souls... "

P.S: i knw im not commenting or faving a lot of your deviations or journals lately, but my devwatch is growing and i am rly not having the time to view your submitions, even thou i of course enjoy and love all the artists and art in da.
i have my upcoming exams next week, and a biiigg portfolio to present with all my best photography and my photo lab work.

Thk u very much my friends for all the comments and favs. you truly motivate for more work.

-vivi-

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=ViviPhalloids Back to our dark paradise... http://ViviPhalloids.deviantart.com/journal/11047705/ http://ViviPhalloids.deviantart.com/journal/11047705/ Wed, 13 Dec 2006 05:44:36 PST hey evryone!!

been away for quite a long time i know .. but uni is truly killing me. im spending much more time there then i do at home. schedules are fukd n i dnt know y.

GREAT NEWS !!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!

im dating ..my .... muse

its too good to be true. cnt believ it !!!!!!!! arggggggggggg i lov lov lov lov lov lov her

since i first enterd DA, she came into my life. i started writing romantic poems because of her. she drew my worlds upside down, everything changed, that is when i truly felt my heart... after all this sufferings, all the sadness, the madness.. but still .. m so pessimistic but m trying my best .

OK im gona do a little competition !! yayyy

the first who find ma baby in this pic

[link]

will be featured in a spotlight in my next journal

exept for cholly and the ppl who know her

!!!

VERY VERY BAD NEWS!

i went to tak landscape pics . i took around 28 . went to places and all, in the cold and the rain and all the shits... FOR NUTHING .. my negatives got ruind in the lab

.. i dk wt happend, som mix with the products mayb .. but oh god, thers somthn with me and photography. its lik im cursed

in other things
i hav to write a 5 to 6 minutes script. if i'll get the highest grade in my groupe, we will mak it a movie... im so paniking, i rly need an idea abt somthn expressive, with a moral or somthn. . anything if u hav, to help me start

... I WANNA WIN !

but life is going pretty well.. missd u all ! hav a nice day

-vivi-

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http://ViviPhalloids.deviantart.com/journal/10863580/ Mon, 27 Nov 2006 02:29:09 PST

journal

*heres how this works, open your music player on your comp and play your entire library on random, fill the places in with the song and artist... that will give you the 'sound track of your life" this is mine*

ok m not gona do that

m just gona fill 'em

~~~~~~~~~~~~~~~~~~~~~~~~~~~~~~~~~~~~~
First Day at School: blitzkrieg bop - the ramones

Falling in Love: gone with the sin - him

Fight Song: The fight song

- marilyn manson

Breaking Up: love is not enough - nin

Prom: jesus built my hotrod - ministry

Life's OK: wishmaster - nightwish lol

Mental Breakdown: ewwwwwww lottsss ... O_o ... evryhard corish metal and psychedelic trance probably

Driving: wicker man - iron maiden :S

Flashback: inquisition symphonie - apocalyptica

Getting Back Together: 5 to one - the doors

Wedding: new model - marilyn manson

Birth of Child: dreamer - ozzy osbourne

Final Battle: domination - pantera

Death Scene: for my fallen angel - my dying bride

Funeral Song: in the shadows of the valley of death - manson

End Credits (2 songs): highway to hell - ac/dc / memories never die - morphia
~~~~~~~~~~~~~~~~~~~~~~~~~~~~~~~~~~~~~~~~~~~~~~~~~~~
~~~

just random things that cam into my mind, since my songs or not on this pc.

-vivi-

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http://ViviPhalloids.deviantart.com/journal/10610800/ Sat, 04 Nov 2006 06:31:05 PST (dun ask abt the title) ive been away lately, specially that my log in wasnt working (another DA bug pffffffff damn u deviant art

)
i hav 350 deviation to chek out

well wen i hav time

im really out of inspiration, and been a long time since i wrote anything or workd on phtoshop. ive been repeating my photoshoot

since everytime the film wasnt catching any of the pics. so basically, ive been tearing my hair apart.

i have a new myspace !! so friends dont hesitate to add me

here's the link [link]

i miss the old days. i even miss depressions.. i miss passion, hate, loneliness, ghosts..

n specially i miss u all

-vivi-

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http://ViviPhalloids.deviantart.com/journal/10452122/ Fri, 20 Oct 2006 04:12:59 PDT
First a very close friend of my dads, fell on the floor and died in front of him.
And i ve been hearing lots of death going on around me... it makes u wonder, what if som1 close to u pass away this instant? the thought of it haunts me lately, n i couldnt bare any of it. i hate it. fuk it

Second, i had a project in photography that went into a fkn disaster and im SICK OF IT ! the film got rippd, another time, the cam wasnt working , after lik taking a 100 pics and working on them for dayyyyyys and bringing models and blablabla none of em wer printed on the negatives. its like ive been playing dum with a toy the whole week.

and what is this feeling, this crack that hates me? ive been playing weird games lately, things i never thought i could do. well at least, imagine them.
in search of this element that completes me.. this whole world is beating himself up, evry thought shatters and waves in selfishness among its stupidity. what im learning ? kids are units of production. man and woman should be gays and lesbos (actully they are). my parents are the last ppl i should save... well thats wat i get from uni.

"little fragile monster-freak-drugaddictsattanic-looking 20 year old bastard! welcom! (again) to the real world..."

there should be changes in me. move one or somthn..
tc everyone.

-vivi-

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=ViviPhalloids GOD.... damn! .... *it* http://ViviPhalloids.deviantart.com/journal/10149501/ http://ViviPhalloids.deviantart.com/journal/10149501/ Fri, 22 Sep 2006 05:22:29 PDT no photo shooting nor manip, not even guitar or singing or band...

. i dk how i did find time to write this journal

thou FINALY tomorrow i can sleep. it was a bit hard for me to get accepted, cuz ther wer no places anymore, and i had to talk n talk
for 2h abt my hobbies, my influences and blablabla . thnnk god a teacher knew NIN so we talkd abt trent

but at the end they took me in,
since im one of the best between others

. so we started with theories, and some boring stuff, but thers a lot of work...

damn!... car accidents. a friend of my friends died in a horrible car crash 2 days ago, near my place.. ther was a panic and screams, since it blasted and flew to hit a big electric pole. r.ip.
and damn it

i have to talk about a story that changed my life on monday, in front of the whole class. since im not very open and social, it gonna be tought and tragic somhow

.

*it* is slithering in my basement lately. yes, a huge snake

but oh so fkn beautiful. my brother is keeping it for lik 2 weeks. His skin is a mixture of yellow and white, his eyes the color of sand, and his mouth so amazing. i kinda creepd out while touching it, but i never seen so beautiful really. i hope i will have time to take pics of it eating a mice or somthn . thou poor thing. but wat the hell.. freakin nature.
and 'it' is a person in my class

i still dunt know if its a guy or a girl. so weird

i miss everyone in DA

i feel lik ive been away for weeks.

and woohoooo

!!!!!!!!!!!!!! 2000 pageviews

i hope ill be writing soon or somthn. tc everyone

-vivi-

song i've been listening to: memories never die - morphia

book ive been reading : none

movie ive been watching: none

THX for

for catching my pageview

ViviPhalloids
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http://ViviPhalloids.deviantart.com/journal/9996627/ Thu, 07 Sep 2006 08:54:11 PDT , and only DA ! i mean everything was working fine.

anyways...
this summer was sooo fkn boring! thank god im going in audiovisuel thing

i decided to make movies, since it combines all the fkn stuff i love !!! photography, script writings, drama, soundeffects and music, and much fkn moreee .. ill be fkn working my ass offff for sure, but im still on this project of a poetry book, im so excited to publish it... im gonna try to work on the manips and stufff.... wish me luck everyone

id like to feature a small poetry piece of

I love evry part of it , from the meaning to the structure... i hope u agree with me everyone, heres the link : [link]

and thank u so much for the lovely comments that always cheer me up !!!
take good care ppl

-vivi-

song i've been listening to: mein herz brennt - rammstein

book ive been reading : none

i want a new one

movie ive been watching: crash (absolutely amazing! CHEK IT OUT!)

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=ViviPhalloids Devious Journal Entry http://ViviPhalloids.deviantart.com/journal/9996614/ http://ViviPhalloids.deviantart.com/journal/9996614/ Thu, 07 Sep 2006 08:52:30 PDT =ViviPhalloids Devious Journal Entry http://ViviPhalloids.deviantart.com/journal/9996590/ http://ViviPhalloids.deviantart.com/journal/9996590/ Thu, 07 Sep 2006 08:48:48 PDT =ViviPhalloids Deviant friends... i thank you. http://ViviPhalloids.deviantart.com/journal/9701266/ http://ViviPhalloids.deviantart.com/journal/9701266/ Sat, 12 Aug 2006 10:56:39 PDT SaintlyDark for featuring me and my deviation [link]
"beneath the fearsome sky" it really meant to me, and im truly hopnoured since im a big fan as well. check out his amazing poems everyone! he sure deserves the best...

i would like to say that i've been writting a lot, yet a lot of poems are still unfinished, and unfortunately i couldnt work on photoshop nor take pics, due to the sucky state of staying home with a formated computer and no cam.

My inspiration these days are so far: the ghosts, betrayal and long distant passion...

its wonderful to write abt so many different things, yet if not experienced, imagined! oh how i imagine the things so real, how books can offer such splendid reveries... and the gift of creation is the wisest way to deliver that message, each one of us in his unique way of seeing life and death, pain and sorrow, euphoria and lust...

listen to your souls my friends, let it flow in this heart of yours, to spread from the mind, and aiming to the ones that listen and share...

i thank everyone in deviant art for such emotional sharing, for such motivation and appreciation...

for the past month, you were my only home,
my delightful shelter form the raining flames.

thank you ...

-vivi-

song i've been listening to: The death song - MM

book ive been reading : l'assomoir (the dram shop) - emil zola

movie ive been watching: secret window

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http://ViviPhalloids.deviantart.com/journal/9445610/ Fri, 21 Jul 2006 07:37:20 PDT
up there u can see the bombs falling, but that day was somehow blessed.
it was so quiet and the air was so refreshing, that our thoughts wer filled with hope and joy.
a feeling that nothing was over... nor apocalypse or chaos presently occuring in our psychological and physical pain. this war thats leaving us scars and blood is nothing but a phase..

An experience..
A dreadful but enlightening period..
An inspiring scene...
A time for us to wake through this bitter brainless and blind conflict... yet , not worthless.
A time for us to understand the mere complexity of our lifes and the way the sun shines and the night glows without it...

...but the simple begining of the rest of our lifes... a fresh start of a painting to draw, of a song to sing, of words to write.. and the journey begins...

[link]

please guys check out

and his new deviation im honored to feature [link]

song i've been listening to: wasting the dawn - the 69 eyes

book ive been reading : l'assomoir (the dram shop) - emil zola

movie ive been watching: scary movie 4 (blaahh)

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=ViviPhalloids The apocalypse by tyson http://ViviPhalloids.deviantart.com/journal/9402029/ http://ViviPhalloids.deviantart.com/journal/9402029/ Mon, 17 Jul 2006 05:45:23 PDT
must be primay an INTERNAL, spiritual event, and only in a secondary way, an EXTERNAL CATASTROPHE. The gates of the watchtowers, are MENTAL constructions. When they are opened, they will admit [satan] not into the physical world but into our subconscious minds...

The apocalypse is a mental transformation that will occur, or is presently occuring, within the collective unconscious of the human race'

- donald tyson, ''the enochian apocalypse''.

song i've been listening to: dead can wait - dreadful shadows

book ive been reading : l'assomoir (the dram shop) - emil zola

movie ive been watching: plenty

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=ViviPhalloids The usual fall http://ViviPhalloids.deviantart.com/journal/9373050/ http://ViviPhalloids.deviantart.com/journal/9373050/ Fri, 14 Jul 2006 08:05:23 PDT when i most need to talk to people !!
sorry for no comments or favs but i barely hav time now

ill try to check out later ur deviations. i did a very different one, not very my style, thou i lov it n it has so much feelings in it : "schyzophrenia"

And theres the war on the other hand (thou im far from the bombs and stuff) but its pissing me off lik fkn hell. im so feeling weird these past few days

oh well.. just another bump in the road hopefully

arghhhhhhhhhh i wanna break freeeeeeeeeeeeeeeeeeeeee ...

song i've been listening to: dead can wait - dreadful shadows

book ive been reading : l'assomoir (the dram shop) - emil zola

movie ive been watching: plenty

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http://ViviPhalloids.deviantart.com/journal/9220048/ Thu, 29 Jun 2006 10:51:24 PDT is revealed.. the more we start to hate, the more we realise where we are.. who we are.. whos with us.. whos not..
the more we realise that the truth is somthn we regret seeking for... we realise thers no one else, exept this ugly
being we've become,wich actually we always wer always will be. this cursed feeling kept for our minds to suffer,
this old foe, this traitor.. curiosity.
We wer young and naive, even the nights drew a sunshine in our hearts.. we had our savior. mother,
u wer even powerfull than god himself.. y havent u kept me this lie? now that i am doomed to know the truth...
alone for a lifetime. "at least i know" he said, hiding in the depth of his eyes a sea of sorrow and remorses...
i canot search anymore.. compelled by this nefarious temptation, this tunnel to hell... but wait.. what if?
how can i know the truth? i can never! forevermore the lies? it's insane. it's beyond.. how far? how where? who?
and we keep on living asking the same old clueless question... why. a woeful turmoil, the sore of the 'dominating'
entity.. slaves to the thoughts, to the acts, to the feelings, to wisdom and knowledge, to good and evil...
only lies will forever remain. only dreams for eternity.
we once wer pure.. opened our eyes, with pure in our hearts,
beyond intelligence, beyond plastic and lucid, beyond culture, a blind yet strong, inner power... instinct. once in
the arms of the minacious uninlightened holders, in their minds affection.. infection we wer givin.. our life 'gift'..
and again and forevermore to the one that doesnt exist, we raise our voice to release our demons, in the nigths
and days, from dusk till dawn, echoeing in the sky and sea, the shadows and lights, in the warm and the cold,
to fade once high, and disappear before the wicked stars, in the quiest void... 'why...'.

song i've been listening to: fall into oblivion - evereve

book ive been reading : none

movie ive been watching: none

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amazing manips O_o

again

and agaaiiin

one hell of a lebanese photographer

creative one

simply O_O

http://ViviPhalloids.deviantart.com/journal/9028903/ Sat, 10 Jun 2006 14:51:44 PDT
APOCALYPTICA was fantastic. shredding like hell on their cellos, it was amaazzinnng. i cant wait for lake of tears.

As soon as ill finish my exams, im gona work on a poetry book and pics,
and compose some new songs to finish the band album.
i hope everything works, cuz it neeeverr does...

song i've been listening to: apocalyptica- inquisition symphonie

book ive been reading : my exam books

movie ive been watching: interview with a vampire

THX for

people check out these amazing gallery's

amazing manips O_o

again

(tears of joy)

and agaaiiin waiiiihhh

one hell of a lebanese photographer

creative one

simply O_O

awesom gallery n hardworking deviant

amazing drawings!

also amazing

best stocks

=ViviPhalloids Upcoming concert http://ViviPhalloids.deviantart.com/journal/8527016/ http://ViviPhalloids.deviantart.com/journal/8527016/ Sun, 21 May 2006 10:00:04 PDT

the 'auquaholic' event in solemar jounieh, the 27th of may (starting at 10pm the band) its a music fusion event, means all type of music (rap, r&b, trance, metal...) open from 6pm to 8 in the morning.

Entrance 22$ at the door, 15$ if u buy the ticket from me including 2 drinks n open shots.

willl be playing slayer, metallica, megadeth and pantera.

thank u everyone for your support. itlll be great to see some leb DA faces!

for more info of the band, visit the [link]

on May 16, 2006:
hello everyone im back! had som connexion probs n i hav my upcoming fukn exams

and
1) i graduated last friday

2) my cloudfall pic will be published in a book called "endless journey" [link]
3) love wants me dead

4) im will soon start working on a poetry book. i love my muse

5) im going to see:
Macbeth, apocalyptica, and lake of tears

live in leb

song i've been listening to: KIMAERA- my dying embrace

book ive been reading : 'the mozart season'- virginia euwer wulff

movie ive been watching: (too embarassed to say

)

THX for

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amazing manips O_o

again

(tears of joy)

and agaaiiin waiiiihhh

one hell of a lebanese photographer

http://ViviPhalloids.deviantart.com/journal/8465547/ Fri, 14 Apr 2006 03:53:05 PDT i never wrote anbything here

so wat the fuk ill try somthn!

song i've been listening to: nepenthe - sentenced (over n over agaaain)

Book ive been reading: the strange case of doctor jekyll and mister hyde- r.l.stevenson (amazingly well written)

things ive been doing: getting drunk, stopd smoking (been fukn 6 years), meditating, composing..

well its been som crazy year.. cannot escape my ups and downs.. its fukn exausting each time i think im going up, like im heading to that tempting light n i feel everything is getting better, forgetting my regrets n past depression n awfull years in the gloom of my room, n realise that this light is just another train coming to send me back to hell.. feels like som1 or somthn lifts u up just enough to bring u down n hit that filthy ground.

som things u can never change...

...um
.. ok .. now wat ..

im having a concert!

here in leb ..

im the vocalist n we yet practiced one time only :S but the band is great chek out the cheap flyer i made

i mean just for fun cuz it's mostly our friends showing up n its a night club so *la7 netda77ach*

try to figure that out. but any DA member is welcom!
flyer : [link]

people check out these amazing gallery's

amazing manips O_o

again

(tears of joy)

and agaaiiin waiiiihhh

one hell of a lebanese photographer

creative one

simply O_O

awesom gallery n hardworking deviant

=ViviPhalloids euhh... http://ViviPhalloids.deviantart.com/journal/7572837/ http://ViviPhalloids.deviantart.com/journal/7572837/ Fri, 20 Jan 2006 07:39:59 PST Clubs im in:

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