http://search.deviantart.com/?q=by:VolcanoNinja&section=today deviantART RSS for by:VolcanoNinja en-us Copyright 2009, deviantART.com Sat, 19 Dec 2009 20:04:50 PST deviantART.com http://blogs.law.harvard.edu/tech/rss http://s.deviantart.com/minish/widgets/apple-touch-icon-precomposed.png http://VolcanoNinja.deviantart.com/journal/25645508/ http://VolcanoNinja.deviantart.com/journal/25645508/ Tue, 30 Jun 2009 07:30:09 PDT Gotta find my way back here.

This is more or less a check to see who is still around If you are then great If not then it was nice knowing you I think I needed that break away from devarts drama. Now I can come back and hopefully resume where I left off

So hello ^_^ I'm VolcanoNinja and it's a pleasure to meet you ^_^

]]> ~VolcanoNinja http://VolcanoNinja.deviantart.com/journal/20730172/ http://VolcanoNinja.deviantart.com/journal/20730172/ Sun, 28 Sep 2008 18:41:04 PDT
And the scanner is in good shape too by the looks of things so I can finally get back to submitting work on a regular basis. I have missed all and sundry whilst I have been away and I hope to see all my awesome dirthole friends soon ^_^

]]> ~VolcanoNinja http://VolcanoNinja.deviantart.com/journal/18244765/ http://VolcanoNinja.deviantart.com/journal/18244765/ Fri, 09 May 2008 16:09:20 PDT I must extend sincerest apologies to all as there was no warning for my rather sudden absence. My computer had a funny turn and keeled over. And I was not able to inform everyone. However, I am back and ready to kick bottom so here goes.
Concerning my Ninja story, that is bck on track now I wanted to offer people a chance of submitting ideas for installments to use. I keep thinking of things that could be used but I want to involve other people so if you are interested (I hope you are) just send me the general idea like location, what the problem is, antagonists, protaganists (besides VN) and yourself as a character if you like although I may or may not be able to make the character completely accurate to how you would see them reacting in the situation they are faced with. In fact, send me a personality profile ^_^. In short, a bastardised CV/resume will do
I am also preparing to submit more pictures on here. Been 4 months since my last submission so I feel kinda bad. I am very happy to be back though.

May all merriment continue as I remember it ^_^

]]> ~VolcanoNinja http://VolcanoNinja.deviantart.com/journal/16746782/ http://VolcanoNinja.deviantart.com/journal/16746782/ Tue, 05 Feb 2008 22:06:57 PST Anyway, my computer has decided to perform hara-kiri on itself and now I am restricted to when I can get on.
Also, I am preparing to leve for m first holiday abroad Yep, the ninja is going nternational so spread the word and idiot-proof EVERYTHING! Minnesotta (I think that's right) be the place of which I go for a week ^_^ I am kinda ner ous seeing as it's not only my first trip abroad but, you may have guessed, my first time on a plane so...not sure what it's gonna be like. But it's because of these reasons that I have been away. I wanted to let all you awesome people know though. I miss you all very much and hope you are well ^_^ I leave on the 11th of February and return on the 18th of February so I am not gone long.

I have been contemplating my ninja story. Would it be better as a comic? I ask because I don't wanna lose any progress i have made. Aw well, anyway...I shall be checking back here frequently before I go and please, feel free to send me a note if you so choose as, chancs are, I shall have access to computer.

So...tally ho! See you soon

]]> ~VolcanoNinja http://VolcanoNinja.deviantart.com/journal/16168810/ http://VolcanoNinja.deviantart.com/journal/16168810/ Sun, 30 Dec 2007 15:24:04 PST A Happy New Year to all the awesome people I know on this fine website ^_^

May 2008 hold new challenges and oppurtunities, provide insight to a bright future, answer many questions, present fewer problems, eradicate past transgressions and solidify alliances both old and new. Now is the time to be awesome!

]]> ~VolcanoNinja http://VolcanoNinja.deviantart.com/journal/15990334/ http://VolcanoNinja.deviantart.com/journal/15990334/ Tue, 18 Dec 2007 17:23:12 PST And all through dirthole
Not a member was stirring
Not even a mole

The stockings were hung by the chimney quite well
Hyugo put them up with a stapler. Can you tell?

The members were snuggled all safe in their beds
Whilst new topics for ranting danced in their heads
And Ashlin with her dragons and grimm's scythe too
Had just settled down for a long festive snooze
When inside the hole, their arose such a clatter
The holers sprung from their beds to see what was the matter
Into the hole they rushed in a flash
Zandaa tripped over the washing machine with a crash
Sara wasn't happy to be awoken by the noise
She was getting impatient. She wanted her toys!
Then what to their wondering eyes would appear
But a burning sleigh and 8 traumatized reindeer

A little old driver was in the midst of a fight
This must be the noise that tore through the night
They knew in a moment it must be Saint Nick
And his attacker...VN. What a dumb *****
One after the other, the vicious attacks came
He whistled, he shouted. He pleaded by name
'HELP ME DASHER! DANCER! HELP PRANCER! VIXEN!
OUCH! COMET! HELP ME! CUPID! DONDER? BLITZEN?!'
To the top of the porch to the top of the wall
The reindeer decided to dash away all
As dry leaves before the wild hurricane fly
The took of like bullets into the sky
Up into the sky, VN flew
With the reindeer, the stars and Chris Cringle too

And then in a twinkling, the holers heard in the air
Explosions and screams. All they could do was stare
As the holers questioned, they heard a strange sound
And Saint Nick plummeted into the ground
His fur coat was burned from his head to his foot
His body was tarnished with ash and soot
He was without sack. Completely toy-free
This sight made the holers very unhappy
His eyes were all blackened. His face not too clean
His cheeks were swollen. His nose like an aubergine
His little mouth hung open as he began to tire
And up in the heavens was an advancing fire
Slowly, he clmabered back to his feet
He clicked his fingers and like magic...he was neat!
His broad face looked up, his hands came to bear
And he snatched the ninja out of the air
All the holers knew what to do
They told Santa killing VN just wouldn't do
With a wink of his eye as VN's mind was rocking
Santa stuffed the poor ninja head first in a stocking
He shook their hands and continued with his work
Laid presents under the singed tree and turned with a jerk
Hung VN gently against the chimney so tall
And disappeared like magic. That is so cool!
So the holers were pleased. They got all their gifts
No one was complaining. No one was miffed

Except VN who got a note. He read by candlelight
'Merry Christmas to all and VN, a good fight'

I liked that ^_^ Apart from the bit with me losing ¬_¬
I even lose when I'm making it up Not bad for someone with the flu So my Christmas is kinda...dull right now but you guys be awesome or by the onion rings of Ming The Merciless I'LL BLEED YOU!!!!!
But the point is..Merry Christmas to all the fantastically uber-swell people I know on dA ^_^
I hope you get everything you ever wanted during this festive season. Just don't forget the true spirit of Christmas. Jesus' sacrifice for our sins. Remember that and not the commercialisation of Christmas.
So Merry Christmas too all and a Happy New Year too



]]> ~VolcanoNinja http://VolcanoNinja.deviantart.com/journal/15617222/ http://VolcanoNinja.deviantart.com/journal/15617222/ Thu, 22 Nov 2007 08:30:20 PST Much like your Independance Day only it isn't the 4th of July. That would be like having Halloween and Christmas all in one night. Can you imagine an undead santa Claus knocking at your door asking for sweets and then throwing a present at you? Hmmmm......actually, that doesn't sound too bad. Anyway, Happy Thanksgiving America and Happy Thanksgiving to all the awesome people I know on dA ^_^
I have no idea what you do during this holiday so all I will say is have fun doing it



]]> ~VolcanoNinja http://VolcanoNinja.deviantart.com/journal/15306609/ http://VolcanoNinja.deviantart.com/journal/15306609/ Wed, 31 Oct 2007 18:20:43 PDT
The Raven by Edgar Allan Poe

Once upon a midnight dreary, while I pondered weak and weary,
Over many a quaint and curious volume of forgotten lore,
While I nodded, nearly napping, suddenly there came a tapping,
As of some one gently rapping, rapping at my chamber door.
`'Tis some visitor,' I muttered, `tapping at my chamber door -
Only this, and nothing more.'

Ah, distinctly I remember it was in the bleak December,
And each separate dying ember wrought its ghost upon the floor.
Eagerly I wished the morrow; - vainly I had sought to borrow
From my books surcease of sorrow - sorrow for the lost Lenore -
For the rare and radiant maiden whom the angels named Lenore -
Nameless here for evermore.

And the silken sad uncertain rustling of each purple curtain
Thrilled me - filled me with fantastic terrors never felt before;
So that now, to still the beating of my heart, I stood repeating
`'Tis some visitor entreating entrance at my chamber door -
Some late visitor entreating entrance at my chamber door; -
This it is, and nothing more,'

Presently my soul grew stronger; hesitating then no longer,
`Sir,' said I, `or Madam, truly your forgiveness I implore;
But the fact is I was napping, and so gently you came rapping,
And so faintly you came tapping, tapping at my chamber door,
That I scarce was sure I heard you' - here I opened wide the door; -
Darkness there, and nothing more.

Deep into that darkness peering, long I stood there wondering, fearing,
Doubting, dreaming dreams no mortal ever dared to dream before
But the silence was unbroken, and the darkness gave no token,
And the only word there spoken was the whispered word, `Lenore!'
This I whispered, and an echo murmured back the word, `Lenore!'
Merely this and nothing more.

Back into the chamber turning, all my soul within me burning,
Soon again I heard a tapping somewhat louder than before.
`Surely,' said I, `surely that is something at my window lattice;
Let me see then, what thereat is, and this mystery explore -
Let my heart be still a moment and this mystery explore; -
'Tis the wind and nothing more!'

Open here I flung the shutter, when, with many a flirt and flutter,
In there stepped a stately raven of the saintly days of yore.
Not the least obeisance made he; not a minute stopped or stayed he;
But, with mien of lord or lady, perched above my chamber door -
Perched upon a bust of Pallas just above my chamber door -
Perched, and sat, and nothing more.

Then this ebony bird beguiling my sad fancy into smiling,
By the grave and stern decorum of the countenance it wore,
`Though thy crest be shorn and shaven, thou,' I said, `art sure no craven.
Ghastly grim and ancient raven wandering from the nightly shore -
Tell me what thy lordly name is on the Night's Plutonian shore!'
Quoth the raven, `Nevermore.'

Much I marvelled this ungainly fowl to hear discourse so plainly,
Though its answer little meaning - little relevancy bore;
For we cannot help agreeing that no living human being
Ever yet was blessed with seeing bird above his chamber door -
Bird or beast above the sculptured bust above his chamber door,
With such name as `Nevermore.'

But the raven, sitting lonely on the placid bust, spoke only,
That one word, as if his soul in that one word he did outpour.
Nothing further then he uttered - not a feather then he fluttered -
Till I scarcely more than muttered `Other friends have flown before -
On the morrow he will leave me, as my hopes have flown before.'
Then the bird said, `Nevermore.'

Startled at the stillness broken by reply so aptly spoken,
`Doubtless,' said I, `what it utters is its only stock and store,
Caught from some unhappy master whom unmerciful disaster
Followed fast and followed faster till his songs one burden bore -
Till the dirges of his hope that melancholy burden bore
Of "Never-nevermore."'

But the raven still beguiling all my sad soul into smiling,
Straight I wheeled a cushioned seat in front of bird and bust and door;
Then, upon the velvet sinking, I betook myself to linking
Fancy unto fancy, thinking what this ominous bird of yore -
What this grim, ungainly, gaunt, and ominous bird of yore
Meant in croaking `Nevermore.'

This I sat engaged in guessing, bu... ]]> ~VolcanoNinja http://VolcanoNinja.deviantart.com/journal/15169294/ http://VolcanoNinja.deviantart.com/journal/15169294/ Mon, 22 Oct 2007 07:17:00 PDT
Seems like only yesterday I hit 1000 so for me


That...was...really what this journal was all about
So you can tell I have nothing to do

]]> ~VolcanoNinja http://VolcanoNinja.deviantart.com/journal/14506489/ http://VolcanoNinja.deviantart.com/journal/14506489/ Wed, 05 Sep 2007 17:33:33 PDT
Equality
I have heard so many people say that they would like mankind to give war a rest. To decide to get along for a while. Even if it was to see what it is like. I'm the same. A bit of world peace won't kill anyone. But this won't happen because their are so many different people in the world, each with different views on things such as religion, politics, the way in which a child should be raised etc. People don't deal with confrontation very well. Everyone wants to be right and this can breed confrontation. Confrontation from people in a higher authority. And so, war is born from the raised voices and the difference in opinion. People are entitled to their opinion, no matter what it may be, but that doesn't mean that the opposition is going to like it or, indeed, stand for such a thing.

Soulmate
People will always be hypocritical when the category, 'Soulmate' is involved. Of course, the lovers are going to treat one another differently to how they treat their friends. But, you will often find, the friends become mistreated. Put to one side. I cannot say for sure why, but isn't a lover just like a friend only you are willing to share deeply intimate feelings with them because their is an invisible connection that bonds the pair?
It's noticable and there is nothing wrong with having a lover. There is when it affects the friendships you once held dear.

Internet
A favourite of mine ^_^ Because there are so many people trying so very hard to prove a point. The same could be said for me and this journal. The amount of people who choose to be destructively critical or condescending is staggering. The way I see it, only adolescent schoolkids and sad adults are arseholes on the internet because I see little point in being rude...especially online. You have no face on the internet. You just become a paragraph of words and the odd still image of that 2 week holiday in the Costa Del Sol. I see it as these people aren't noticed in real life because they aren't very interesting. So they go online because you can say whatever the heck you want because the other person can do jack all about it. I can understand getting nasty to put people in their place when they have acted unfairly, but being an arse online is sad.

Racism/Political correctness
Go hand in hand really. Political correctness has reached the stage where it is just ridiculous. For example, in the Uk (might be elsewhere too) you aren't allowed to say 'black board'...you have to say 'chalkboard'. It occurs to me that this is people deciding what is offensive to other people. White people in suits, sitting in a big room, decide that 'black board' is offensive to black people. When did that happen? Never used to be a problem. Black guys and girls would say they are black. If someone said I was white, I would say 'yeah and?' I'm hardly going to take offense from someone pointing out the obvious unless they were being sarcastic. I have not heard a single ethnic minority say that 'black' or 'mixed race (or caucasian) is offensive. And I truly believe that people should mind their own bloody business and worry about what offends them rather then other people. Let other people decide what they find offensive. They are big boys and girls now.
Sexism is the other part. men aren't better than women and women aren't better than men. We are both just as stupid as each other. Seriously. Neither of us can drive, neither of us should be in charge of the money and neither of us should host political debates because we are gonna rule more in favor of our gender. I, for one, love racist, sexist, and dirty jokes. Sometimes all those combined make a cracking good joke. But, it remains a joke. Nothing more. Nothing less. People laugh at each other anyway. If you can laugh at yourself then why the hell not?

In closing, we all live on this big rock, spinning through space around a gas giant. I often wonder if we are the same creature at all. Are we all homo sapiens or are we each our own unique species of creature? Because we sure as hell don't act the same.
Anywho, those are my thoughts and if you made it this far then I thank you for taking the time to read this. What do I know? ^_^
Just another paragraph of letters with an opinion.

]]> ~VolcanoNinja http://VolcanoNinja.deviantart.com/journal/14384383/ http://VolcanoNinja.deviantart.com/journal/14384383/ Tue, 28 Aug 2007 17:27:20 PDT
1. Pet peeve.// People acting like they think they are right all the time

2. Dislikes.// Bullying

3. Habit.// Polishing my katana...(man, that sounds like a euphamysm )

4. Habit.// Looking through my anime DVD's even when I don't plan to watch any

5. Fact.// I have a weakness for anime models

6. Fact.// I'm scared of females

That took a while. Next...

1.post these rules
2. post 8 random (hopefully interesting) facts about yourself
3. tags should write a blogpost of these facts
4. at the end of the post 8 more bloggers are tagged and named
5. go to their blog and leave a comment telling them they're tagged


Fact 1: I like to write poetry

Fact 2: I'm a sucker for a girls smile

Fact 3: I want everybody to like me

Fact 4: Small things make me angry whilst the big things irritate me a little

Fact 5: I've been told I am a good negotiator

Fact 6: I'm effective at unarmed combat

Fact 7: I have the utmost respect for Bruce Lee...so much so that I don't make jokes about him and I don't appreciate jokes about him. I'm kinda wound tight in that area

Fact 8: I hate alcohol with a passion

There is nobody left to tag

]]> ~VolcanoNinja http://VolcanoNinja.deviantart.com/journal/14193828/ http://VolcanoNinja.deviantart.com/journal/14193828/ Fri, 17 Aug 2007 08:01:40 PDT I know a tightness in the chest can be the warning signs for a heart attack and that anyone of any age can have one. So yeah...I'm a little scared to tell you the truth ^_^

I'm not submitting this to scare anyone. But you are my friends and my family and you have a right to know. Anyway, I'm currently talking to you, Tiger, about it And I'm also going to book an appointment at the doctors. True, there may be the odd person who might rejoice at news like this. But I don't care. My main concern (and you know you always think the worst in situations like this), I'm more concerned about the people who care. Don't worry about me ^_^
I'm thinking positive Tiger

UPDATE

Ok...the latest appointment I can get is the 31st of August...if anything iswrong then I will certainly know by then. Heh...seems like a new 'Diagnose Yourself' scheme from our good friends at the NHS.
Or I could walk into the practice at 8:30am and sit and hope there is a slot. They expect it to be busy that day...
So, in short, there is sweet Football Association I can do about it. If there is something serious...well...that's that.

]]> ~VolcanoNinja http://VolcanoNinja.deviantart.com/journal/13604289/ http://VolcanoNinja.deviantart.com/journal/13604289/ Wed, 04 Jul 2007 08:49:53 PDT HAPPY 4TH JULY TO ALL OUR STAR SPANGLED BUDDIES ACROSS THE WATER!!!!
Have a great day doing what you do
Aaah, 4th of July...the day when Bill Pullman unites the world against the alien scourge that threatens our planet......it's beautiful

lol joke. Not mocking your national holiday...just sounds like I am But seriously, have a great time you guys and gals in the United States ^_^

]]> ~VolcanoNinja http://VolcanoNinja.deviantart.com/journal/12608937/ http://VolcanoNinja.deviantart.com/journal/12608937/ Sun, 15 Apr 2007 17:21:04 PDT
2) Male/Female: Male

3) Were you named after anyone?: Yes, many people. And the funny thing was...they all have the same name as me!!!!

4) Does your name mean anything?: Yep, it means 'He with love as his guide'

5) Nick Name(s): VolcanoNinja, VN, Ninj

6) What do you think you look like... name wise: A ninja

7) Date Of Birth: 4th December 1986

8) Place of Birth and Current Location: Hospital and my house

9) Nationality: British

10) Astrology Sign: Sagitarrius

11) Chinese Astrology Sign: Tiger =^_^=

12) Religion: Not too sure. Christian

13) Whats your favorite smell?: Perfume. When a girl wears perfume and she is meeting you, it's the best smell in the world ^_^

14) Political Position?: Say what?

15) What do you prefer to drink in the morning?: Cola

16) Hair + Eye color: Hair: Black hair and brown eyes

17) Do you look like anyone famous?: If I do, they aren't famous enough

18) What do you look like?: A human being

19) Any unusual talents?: I can twist around anything people say

20) Righty, Lefty, or Ambidextrous?: Right. I would give my left hand to be ambidextrous though ^_^

21) Gay, Straight, Bi, or Other?: I am straight

22) What do you do for a living?: Breathe and work

23) What do you do for fun?: Draw, write, talk to friends and play computer games ^_^

24) What are your favorite art materials to work with?: Pen and pecil

25) What kind of materials would you like to work with?: It would have to be Photoshop

26) Have you met your grandparents?: Yes...but I only have 1 left. My dad's mother. She's a very sweet lady ^_^

27) Boyfriend/Girlfriend: ...yes and no...it's complicated

28) Crush: I did...but I'm not going into that...too painful...

29) What celebrity would you date if you could?:

30) Current worries?: Being single my entire life

31) Favorite online Guy/Girl(s): Oh shoot! VN has enough love for EVERYBODY! Yeah, that's a cop out but anyway...

32) Favorite place to be?: In my sweethearts arms

33) Least favorite place to be?: 6 feet under

34) Do you burn or tan?: BURN! >_< Oh the irony!

35) Ever break a bone?: Yes. My left hands ring finger. It felt all numb with a dull pain. Seriously, don't try it >_<

36) What is your favorite cereal?: It was Lucky Charms But now it's Sugar Puffs!

37) Person you cry with: I don't have a person to cry with

Do You Have...

38) Any sisters: Jennifer and victoria

39) Any brothers: David

40) Any pets: My kitty cat, Maya! =^_^=

41) An Illness: Not really

42) A Pager: Nope

43) A Personal phone line: Yep

44) A Cell phone: Yep

45) A visible birthmark: Not visible. It's on my chest

46) A Pool or hot tub: Only an inflatable paddling pool...does that count?

47) A Car: Haven't needed one yet. Anyway, I'm more of a bike person

Describe Your...

48) Personality: I would say warm and caring. Hot headed at times but I like people trusting me ^_^ I want to be there for my friends and offer all the help I can. When I'm up, I'm on Cloud 9...but when I'm down...I'm a drag -_-

49) Driving: I drive people up the wall but good!

50) Your clothing style: urm...casual and sometimes formal I guess

51) Room: A mess. I've tried tidying it up but my brother won't help. he makes it messy again. I give up

52) What’s missing: Stability. I never know what's going to happen to me

53) School: Filled with the biggest losers the world has ever seen!

54) Bed: Comfy and warm. The only safe place I can run to

55) Relationship with your parent(s): My dad and I get along like a house on fire (which isn't actually a good thing. the house on fire. That's usually bad isn't it?) But my mother and... ]]> ~VolcanoNinja http://VolcanoNinja.deviantart.com/journal/12501102/ http://VolcanoNinja.deviantart.com/journal/12501102/ Sat, 07 Apr 2007 19:30:59 PDT
That, and I am actually in a good mood once more. I gotta stop this feeling good then feeling crap then feeling good stuff. I'm getting dizzy and quite frankly, it's annoying. So here we are...EASTER! Many eggs for all, especially the chocolatey kind
I'm gonna feel so sick, but who cares right? It's like Christmas but santa is a bunny

Everyone reading this remember, stay strong and keep socking it to whoever it is you be socking it to Fight the good fight, stand fast, stand tall and celebrate
Right now, life is pretty damn good

]]> ~VolcanoNinja http://VolcanoNinja.deviantart.com/journal/12270159/ http://VolcanoNinja.deviantart.com/journal/12270159/ Wed, 21 Mar 2007 11:06:04 PDT
Today, someone tried to kill me. And I don't mean in a technical sense. Someone has actually attempted to take my life. And I have never seen this person before in my life...

I don't know why this has happened. And I'm afraid. I can't stand it. I don't get it. Why is it so fucking difficult? Why? Why can't they just leave me alone? Even Valentine's Day...a lit firework thrown at me from a passing car... I try to put on a brave face. I try to act like nothing is wrong. I don't like worrying anyone. I hate it. I hate being a burden.I appreciate the friends I have and i love you all for it but...

Right now, I feel so alone. So hated and wretched.
I can't stand it. One day, they are going to get lucky...and VolcanoNinja is going to fade away. No goodbyes...no tears...no farewell...just gone.
It seems I'm more hated than liked...I know this to be true. But I never imagined that hate would be to such a degree that anyone would want to kill me...
So if the worst happens, I want you all to know that I have appreciated your company and your love.
It gave me something to live for. I love you all for it. If I vanish and never return, know that I died fighting...trying to keep the spirit of heroism and decency alive...

I'm done. I haven't overreacted. I just feel numb inside. I know you are all there for me...but right now...I need someone to hold...

]]> ~VolcanoNinja http://VolcanoNinja.deviantart.com/journal/11865161/ http://VolcanoNinja.deviantart.com/journal/11865161/ Sun, 18 Feb 2007 08:41:23 PST

That's right, it is the Year Of The Fire Pig!
May your year be filled with much fortune and happiness. That's it. Seriously. All of the journal entry. No more. Just a Happy New year greetings. The second one this year. Mmhmm. Absolutely.

Anyway, catch you guys later!

]]> ~VolcanoNinja http://VolcanoNinja.deviantart.com/journal/10814740/ http://VolcanoNinja.deviantart.com/journal/10814740/ Wed, 22 Nov 2006 18:15:32 PST I am ready to be a hero now. It was so clear now that I stop and take a look at the world around me and the people in it. To be a hero, I must make it happen. I have a few orders of business to clear up so that I may begin to perform my deeds as a hero.

1) The festive season draws close and the time of merriment is upon us. A time when people need love the most. I realise, however, that people hurt during this time of year. My heart goes out to you. Know this though, no matter how bleak things might seem, you can pull through. And know that I have faith in you. So what? you might ask. A person of whom you have never met has faith in you. You haven't had to prove yourself. Just reach inside and find your strength. To one person in particular though,

2) We all have times when we face hardship. It doesn't matter who you are. We all hurt some time in our lives. I have felt great pain in my life. It is from here that you must decide whether you let the pain defeat you or you make the pain strengthen you. The hurt shall pass and light shall be let back into your life. I speak from experience. I lost a friend of mine to cowards. I felt pain but it got easier. It's ok to cry. You are only human and tears show you have a heart. That you aren't dead inside.

3) Don't ever let someone else's life dominate your own. Focus on your own life. If someone is more popular than you, if someone is better looking don't falter. What really matters is your heart. Nobility, courage and honour are rare traits that are barely holding onto the thin fabric of mankind. After all, the heroes of the past did not make a difference because of their looks. They made a difference because they believed in themselves and that they had the courage to face anything.

4) Put things into perspective. Decide what is most important. The things that really matter. Being popular isn't the most important thing in the world. It's an illusion. People believe popularity to be measured by the quantity of your friends. It is the quality that really matters. The people who won't stab you in the back are the important ones. And to the ones I know, I want to extend a very grateful thank you for believing in me. For never leaving my side. It's my turn now guys.

5) Though this might sound dumb or corny, I believe in this. We are all human inside. No one is an enigma. No one is too hard to understand. Everyone is the same and yet, everyone is so different.

So there we go. I've had my say. Please read this and decide on your own what you shall do. I just wanted to let everyone know that finally, after so much, I am finally ready to act on my dream. I am going to be the hero I know I can be.

I just want to say a very special 'Thank You' to draconianspirit, Merenwen323, Hyugoman and Zandaa. You guys have been with me all the way. I love you all!

Thank you for taking the time to read this. I appreciate it.



VolcanoNinja

]]> ~VolcanoNinja http://VolcanoNinja.deviantart.com/journal/10394423/ http://VolcanoNinja.deviantart.com/journal/10394423/ Sat, 14 Oct 2006 19:51:42 PDT
Not good

Gonna be hated for what I'm gonna say

The thing is...

...I don't feel that I'm the hero I so want to be. In fact, I feel I couldn't be further from being considered close. I have shamed the very ideal of heroism. The very way of life. The acts performed. The people saved. Rescued from their torment. Those heroes of the past. I have shamed them. And they now look to me with disgust
With disdain. I feel that all doors are closed to me now. And I'm hurting because I realise this. How can I possibly be thinking about heroism. About achieving such a title of 'Hero'. I fear that now, I am doomed to fade into the past and become an unwritten chapter in the ongoing book of life.
I fear I'll just disappear.

To those who know me...

...I'm sorry I lied to you.

I'm no hero.

Never was

And now...

...I never will be.


Good bye

]]> ~VolcanoNinja http://VolcanoNinja.deviantart.com/journal/9954548/ http://VolcanoNinja.deviantart.com/journal/9954548/ Sun, 03 Sep 2006 18:22:37 PDT

Looks like my mother's boyfriend is moving back in. Trust me when I say no good sack of shit. I just can't seem to win. I try to tell my mother he is no good but she never seems to take me seriously. And this is all I need. Everyday, when I wake up, it seems there is another challenge, another battle to fight. I won't give in, but I can't see an end in sight. But I do know that I am losing
My efforts just don't seems good enough. But for my mothers sake, I won't give in. That way, I'll never really fail her or my family. I just hope that I'm the one that can set things right and save my mother from making a terrible mistake by letting him back into the house. ]]> ~VolcanoNinja http://VolcanoNinja.deviantart.com/journal/9487867/ http://VolcanoNinja.deviantart.com/journal/9487867/ Fri, 27 Jul 2007 17:44:53 PDT

1. Introduction
2. Love
3. Light
4. Dark
5. Seeking Solace
6. Break Away
7. Heaven
8. Innocence
9. Drive
10. Breathe Again
11. Memory
12. Insanity
13. Misfortune
14. Smile
15. Silence
16. Questioning
17. Blood
18. Rainbow
19. Gray
20. Fortitude
21. Vacation
22. Mother Nature
23. Cat
24. No Time
25. Trouble Lurking
26. Tears
27. Foreign
28. Sorrow
29. Happiness
30. Under the Rain
31. Flowers
32. Night
33. Expectations
34. Stars
35. Hold My Hand
36. Precious Treasure
37. Eyes
38. Abandoned
39. Dreams
40. Rated
41. Teamwork
42. Standing Still
43. Dying
44. Two Roads
45. Illusion
46. Family
47. Creation
48. Childhood
49. Stripes
50. Breaking the Rules
51. Sport
52. Deep in Thought
53. Keeping a Secret
54. Tower
55. Waiting
56. Danger Ahead
57. Sacrifice
58. Kick in the Head
59. No Way Out
60. Rejection
61. Fairy Tale
62. Magic
63. Do Not Disturb
64. Multitasking
65. Horror
66. Traps
67. Playing the Melody
68. Hero
69. Annoyance
70. 67%
71. Obsession
72. Mischief Managed
73. I Can't
74. Are You Challenging Me?
75. Mirror
76. Broken Pieces
77. Test
78. Drink
79. Starvation
80. Words
81. Pen and Paper
82. Can You Hear Me?
83. Heal
84. Out Cold
85. Spiral
86. Seeing Red
87. Food
88. Pain
89. Through the Fire
90. Triangle
91. Drowning
92. All That I Have
93. Give Up
94. Last Hope
95. Advertisement
96. In the Storm
97. Safety First
98. Puzzle
99. Solitude
100. Relaxation

Let the challenge and creation BEGIN!!

]]> ~VolcanoNinja http://VolcanoNinja.deviantart.com/journal/9396432/ http://VolcanoNinja.deviantart.com/journal/9396432/ Sun, 16 Jul 2006 16:01:38 PDT 02) Your nickname: Mikey-chan
03) Birthday! 4th December What year? EVERY YEAR!
04) Horoscope sign: Sagitarius
05) Birth town: I can't remember. I was only a baby
06) Religion: Let's see. Christian if anything
07) Nationality: British
08) Parents: Yep, two of those. Kath and Paul. Guess which is which.
09) Do you love them: Absolutely
10) Brothers or sisters: 1 brother, 2 sisters. David, Victoria and Jennifer
11) Do you like the place where you live: Apart from the scum that surrounds me, it's not too bad thanks
13) Colour of your eyes: Brown
14) Height: 6ft 0in
15) Weight: Not sure.
16) What school/grade are you going to: No more school for this mortal.
17) What marks do you have: Well, I have a scar on my left hip. Or did you mean grades?
18) Do you work anywhere: Yep
19) What do you want to be in your life: Popular
20) Your life style: My life, I like to be different
21) Personal quote: Ok guys, let's GO!
22) Lucky number: Urm...10
23) What are you interested in: All sorts really. Too many for this answer though. Anime and comedy to name 2.
24) Good side of your character: I am understanding and generous.
25) Bad side of it: Short fuse. Lose my temper over things that don't matter.
26) Is your life happy: Stressful but I'm getting there
27) Do you think that you are crazy: In the good way
28) What is the time: 11:21pm
29) What is the date: 16th July
30) What’s the weather like: Clear and kinda dark
31) Favourite day in a week: Pay day
32) Favourite music: Whatever I like the sound of. But not R 'n' B. Never that.
33) Singer: Alice Cooper
34) Band: Aerosmith
35) Song: Don't Wanna Miss A Thing
36) Best concert you have been: Yamato Japanese Drummers
37) Actress: Kirsten Dunst
38) Actor: Jim Carrey
39) Film: Enter The Dragon
40) TV serial: Corn Flakes????
41) Theatre play: Lieutenant Of Inishmore
42) Film director: James Wong He did The One
43) Do you want to be famous: Yes I do
44) Do you want to be an actor/actress: A famous one. Much loved and not because I'm a nasty person
45) Do you want to be a singer: Impossible. How can I be a famous singer if I am no good at the trade?
46) Book: PHD Phantasy Degree and Michael Crichton's The Lost World
47) Colour: Red
48) Flower: Chrysanthumum
49) Food: Yep. I like food Especially pasta
50) Drink: Cola!
51) Sweet: It WAS Jolly Ranchers. Now it's Fruit gums
52) Fruit: Berries

53) The worst food: Brussel Sprouts
54) Drink: Horlicks
55) Singer: 50 Cent. Exactly. NOT A SINGER!
56) Band: That one that loser Pete Doherty is part of. *mumbles profanity*
57) Acter: All the guys in Malcolm In The Middle
58) Actress: Likewise to the females.
59) Movie: Get Rich Or Die Tryin. We live in hope.
60) Book: JADE!!! NOBODY CARES!!!

61) Do you drink alchocol: No
62) Do you smoke: No, it's a disgusting habit.
63) Do you take some drugs (and what): Disgusting habit. Drugs as well. Not that hard to say no.
64) What do you adore to wear: Clothes
65) Do you think that you are pretty: I don't think I'm ugly. I have a rare moment when I do.
66) What languages do you speak: English (duh), american , this and that of various european countries and the odd bit of japanese.
67) The most beautiful person you have ever seen/male: Errrr
68) The most beautiful person you have ever seen/female: Best we move on.
69) The most beautiful person on dA/male: Errr Hyugander! The fusion of Zandaa and Hyugoman
70) The most beautiful person on dA/female: Ashlin. For supporting me even when you have your own problems.
71) 5 your best friends on dA/male: Z... ]]> ~VolcanoNinja http://VolcanoNinja.deviantart.com/journal/9274303/ http://VolcanoNinja.deviantart.com/journal/9274303/ Tue, 04 Jul 2006 18:52:35 PDT I'm trying my best to be someone that everyone wants to know, but it's difficult considering everyone's feelings and staying on top yourself. Just felt so alone these last few weeks. Maybe I'm a person who will, eventually, end up (and maybe even be better off) on my own
I'm not going to start about how terrible the world is. That's just pathetic and I'm not pathetic. But am I too proud? Do I overestimate myself as a person? I want to have all the answers and be there 24/7 when I am needed but I know this cannot be possible and then I feel I have let that person down. And with that, they move that little bit further away. Pretty soon, everyone is going to be so far away that they either can't or won't find their way back.
I've been promised things in the past and been betrayed by people I held very close. I've been cut deep. Deeper then most. And yet I try to understand when people are shitty and try to remain the level headed one. My problems come last in my book.

By the way, if this seems out of place in the journal, just say so and I'll remove it ]]> ~VolcanoNinja http://VolcanoNinja.deviantart.com/journal/8961697/ http://VolcanoNinja.deviantart.com/journal/8961697/ Sat, 03 Jun 2006 17:50:39 PDT Hope that's ok.

1)Am I sweet?- Yep
Am I crazy?- Nope
Am I lovable?- I'd say yes
Am I funny?- Uh huh
Am I ugly?- Absolutely not
Am I psycho?- You haven't tried to kill me...yet. lol No
Am I annoying?- Nope
Am I a good person?- Yes you are

2)******Would You******
Hug me?- Yep
Miss me if i was gone?- Yes i would
Listen to my problems?- Always here to help
Hug me if i cried?- Yes
Be a good friend?- Absolutely

3)******If You Could...******
Give me a new name it would be?- Urm...... Maya. For no reason whatsoever
Do one thing with me it would be?- Spend a day doing whatever
Drop me one piece of advice it would be?- Don't let anyone tell you anything bad about yourself. Believe in yourself.

4)******Just A Few Questions******
What do you like about me?- Your friendliness
What do you hate about me?- No such thing
What is my best quality?- Good taste in friends. I'm your friend. lol

1. Who are you?- Michael
2. Do you have a crush on me?- Can't really answer.
3. Are we good friends?- I hope so.
4. Do we know each other in real life?- No. But that would be cool
5. Am I hot?- Um...
6. Is my avatar hot?(oO)- yeah, it's cool
7. Will you put this in your journal so i can answer these questions about you?- Certainly ]]> ~VolcanoNinja http://VolcanoNinja.deviantart.com/journal/8679485/ http://VolcanoNinja.deviantart.com/journal/8679485/ Fri, 05 May 2006 07:37:40 PDT
This is a test to see who's paying attention. It serves to eliminate people who are desperately trying to add "friends" like its a popularity contest in High School. This is a test to see how many people in my friends list actually pay attention to me. Copy and repost in your own journal. Lets see who the true friends are and I think I know who you are...repost this if you are a friend.. if you don't, you get deleted...don't reply...just copy and paste this in a new journal as "Fake Friends".

This enough hyugoman? lol, sorry this took so long, anyways, hope I havnt been deleted. ]]> ~VolcanoNinja