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]]> ~W0E http://W0E.deviantart.com/journal/16384578/ http://W0E.deviantart.com/journal/16384578/ Sun, 13 Jan 2008 08:56:49 PST
I will be patient. it's the only thign that i am good at.

]]> ~W0E http://W0E.deviantart.com/journal/16151736/ http://W0E.deviantart.com/journal/16151736/ Sat, 29 Dec 2007 11:48:50 PST
now, this passage of my young life has taught me so many things. I broke many vices, and alot of ill friendships because of it. I clensed my spirit with a lot more than meditation. I was finally feelign free.

i think that life has its moments. we have to make the best of them when we encounter them. nothing lasts forever. I will be pleased to inform everyone that my main focus will be school from now on.

thank you all for reading, i love your support.

]]> ~W0E http://W0E.deviantart.com/journal/16134381/ http://W0E.deviantart.com/journal/16134381/ Fri, 28 Dec 2007 06:58:19 PST
Things have been very negative, sense i recreated my DA account. things have been going slow and often depressing. I love her, i will let her go, let her be happy.

]]> ~W0E http://W0E.deviantart.com/journal/15998280/ http://W0E.deviantart.com/journal/15998280/ Wed, 19 Dec 2007 09:44:04 PST
Everything is going smooth now. I have nothing more to say. My job is hectic. I am working for my uncle and i am really hoping to find a new job. I careless about the profession. I just want somethign that would fill my life.

I don't know what i am going to do with my life. I want to stay in school and prhaps die in school. I love to learn. I love to study. I just really don't know what i am doing. i don't have many talents. I've always wanted to be a teacher. For now, that's what i have in mind.

I've been writing alot. None of what i've written is here because i am afraid of judgement. in my opinion, i really don't like alot of what i write. I've come to notice that alot of people do. I often end up burning stuff.

W0E needs a little encouragement.

]]> ~W0E http://W0E.deviantart.com/journal/15881994/ http://W0E.deviantart.com/journal/15881994/ Mon, 10 Dec 2007 18:41:14 PST
THE BASICS: Write a Christmas/HoLiday wish List. It can be any 10 wishes you'd Like to have granted, no matter what they are. PossibLe or seemingLy impossibLe. PeopLe Look and grant the wishes if they can. It's not about "OMFG PRESENTS", it's about making someone eLse's hoLiday a LittLe brighter by giving. PersonaLLy, I get more out of giving than receiving sometimes. It's just a good feeLing to give.

STEP ONE

** Make a post in your journaL. The post shouLd contain your List of 10 hoLiday wishes. The wishes can be anything at aLL, from simpLe and fun ("I'd Love a Snape/Hermione icon that's just for me") to medium ("I wish for _____ on DVD") to reaLLy big ("ALL I want for Christmas is a new car/computer/house/TV.") The important thing is, make sure these wishes are things you reaLLy, truLy want.

** If you wish for reaL possibLe things, make sure you incLude some sort of contact info in your post, whether it's your address or just your emaiL address where Santa (or one of his eLves) couLd get in touch with you.

** ALso, make sure you post some version of these guideLines in your journaL, so that others can join in and participate to spread the hoLiday joy!


STEP TWO

** Surf around your friend List to see who has posted their List. And now here's the important part:

** If you see a wish you can grant, and it's in your heart to do so, make someone's wish come true. Sometimes someone's trash is another's treasure, and if you have a Leather jacket you don't want or a gift certificate you won't use--or even know where you couLd get someone's dream purebred Basset Hound for free--do it.

** You needn't spend money on these wishes unLess you want to. The point isn't to put peopLe out, it's to provide everyone a chance to be someone eLse's hoLiday eLf--to spread the joy. Gifts can be made anonymousLy or not--it's your caLL.

There are no ruLes with this project, no guarantees, and no strings attached. Just...wish, and it might come true. Give, and you might receive. And you'LL have the joy of knowing you made someone's hoLiday speciaL.



So, here's my List:


10: i wish for my mother to have better health. she had cancer, and she is going through reabilitation. I just want her to be patient and strong.

9: i wish to find a job as soon as possible. college is not going to pay for itself. i need money for college.

8: i wish to move somewhere else.

7: i wish i could please everyone i care about, as probably some of you know, i love giving my self to the world without expecting anything back

6: i wish for everyone to have happy a wonderful christmas or whatever you celebrate, and a happy new year.

5: i want a new computer.

4: i want a good camara

3: i want jackie to be happy, regardless of the price.

2: i want everything to work for the best of everyone.

1: i wish i was more selfish.

]]> ~W0E http://W0E.deviantart.com/journal/15660642/ http://W0E.deviantart.com/journal/15660642/ Sun, 25 Nov 2007 07:23:41 PST
My father seems happy. we've trained recently. Like always, we end up fighting. not literally fighting, but physically punching eachother. ~shity eyes~ well, we simply box for entretainment. for some weird reason no one is worried. everyone seems to be at their best, including my mother. It seems like we've beeen through this so many times that we already know what's going to happen. We don't worry.

My shoulder is happy too. (mom drew a smily face on it) I can't believe how fucking fast i heal. I will go to my massage therapy tomorrow, and i hate to go there coz it seems like the doctor fucks me up more in order top go there more often. I am happy that i already payed and have to pay nothing more because it would be costy if i pay session by session. I feel relaxed after some bones are cracked. which reminds me, i need a back massage. i couldn't sleep on my bed so i slept on the floor with some other stuff. Now my back, and my neck hurts.

I feel terribly bad for telling jackie that i was going to delete some stuff in my deviantart.com page. you know, i think that this is the cause of some problems. my privacy... I open my self to her. i want her to be under my skin which is the key to my privacy. I am so exposed to her. I really try to show her. But, it is in my journals where i fail to do this. I keep them so far away from people. I am willing to give them to her, but i don't know. I didn't delete anything, but a single journal entry which simply explained what happened in black firday. I will clean this error. how can i say sorry? how can i ease this feeling? I love her, i really do. I think that this is the "bad feeling" i had when i posted here, in deviant art that i was so happy that no one really read this. now, CHINAROSE kinda made me feel more open about my journals. so i will post the samething that i post in in live journal. I welcome everyone to read. please, come.

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]]> ~W0E http://W0E.deviantart.com/journal/15602389/ http://W0E.deviantart.com/journal/15602389/ Wed, 21 Nov 2007 09:18:59 PST
On other terms, I talked to jackie about our relationship again. it seems like i've been forcing it into her. I think that i amstressing her out and anopyying her. i feel like a bother. yes, i feel like i bother her. I told her that i was going to leave her, and she kept quiet for a while and felt hurt, then tried to say that she didn't want me away. Then she asked me to stay. after that i had a kiss and the whole nigth went silent, with nothing more to say. now, i don't know what to do. i will limit my self. i will give her her space. then wait for whenever she needs me. if she never calls or anything. i knwo that she does not need me. then, soon she'll forget. i love her so much and neglet forgettign her. not that i will not move on. i will, but I love her. and she will always be with me, no matter what. If it is meant to be, she will be with me. I will give her to choose.

]]> ~W0E http://W0E.deviantart.com/journal/15585654/ http://W0E.deviantart.com/journal/15585654/ Tue, 20 Nov 2007 05:29:49 PST
i decided to let her listen to my voice ( we were talking through IM) conviniently the phones were disconnected. I wanted her to comprehend my feelings more deeply. I think that my voice and my tone helps relax the mood because my voices defines my mood. she had to know that i was calm. i wanted to know what was in her heart. perhaps i am pushing it too far, but Forgive me, i am trying to find the girl i fell in love with. i still wodner if she was listening to me. i feel like she wasn't because she never said a word. she was quiet, distant. I tried. I really did.

I think that i will let her go. I love her so. but, i won't keep her if she is uncomfortable. this pains me. i wodner if i did something wrong.

I want to know deeply what she thinks. i really want to, i asked her yesterday if she had anything to say to all of this and her reply was "what are the magic words that i can utter to make it all better?" i don't have the answer to that. but i don't want words that could make everything better, though i want everything to be better. i only want to know her feelings.

]]> ~W0E http://W0E.deviantart.com/journal/15577902/ http://W0E.deviantart.com/journal/15577902/ Mon, 19 Nov 2007 14:30:52 PST
I have a bad feelin about this, but i will go with the flow of it.

]]> ~W0E http://W0E.deviantart.com/journal/15573962/ http://W0E.deviantart.com/journal/15573962/ Mon, 19 Nov 2007 08:50:50 PST
lately, i've been heartbroken. i think that my current social, and active, relationship with my girlfriend is crumbling down because of my seriousness. i try to push, force my self, to please her, to make her feel the joy that she once had when we startd dating.

I am tired of this akwardness between us, I think that some time away from eachother would work. Now, we only see eachother during the weekends, and talk every day on the phone. we run out of things to talk about, and often we engage into a silent phone call.

i think that easing on the phone calls and seeing her more often could work too, but i don't know. soon, she'll grow amused by something, or someone else. I fear loosing her, but i can't help it. I won't hold her if she is uncomfortable.

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