http://search.deviantart.com/?q=by:WasabiTheGreat&section=today deviantART RSS for by:WasabiTheGreat en-us Copyright 2009, deviantART.com Tue, 22 Dec 2009 05:50:14 PST deviantART.com http://blogs.law.harvard.edu/tech/rss http://s.deviantart.com/minish/widgets/apple-touch-icon-precomposed.png http://WasabiTheGreat.deviantart.com/journal/29069776/ http://WasabiTheGreat.deviantart.com/journal/29069776/ Sun, 20 Dec 2009 19:36:58 PST I was in a very good mood thinking about posting this, because I had a wonderful weekend with Alyssa and Deanna. We had lots of fun. But then my dad picked me up, and on our way inside he kicked Zoro (our beloved black kitty that we've had for four years) because he didn't want her in the house. >:[

I'm strongly against animal abuse, and I have a HUGE problem when people do it. Especially in front of me. So I'm not very happy with my dad right now.

(he doesn't want her inside tonight, but after he goes to bed i'm bringing her inside<3)

Anyway, I had an amazing weekend with Alyssa and Deanna. I'm so happy that I was able to go and spend it with them. Sadly, though, it's probably the only time I'm going to be able to spend any time with you guys. Well, New Year's my mom said I could have ONE friend over. So, I'll have to see what you guys are doing~<3

I just heard a door slam, and my sister sounds angry in the next room. That's not good. But I'm going to ignore it because I'm starting to get back into a good mood.

I hope that everyone has a Happy Holiday! I spent Christmas with my mom this weekend, and it was very fun. Not a whole lot to say otherwise. She got me this really nice jacket/sweater thing and it's very comfty and I'm going to live it in all Winter Break <3.

Just wanted to say Happy Holidays everyone, don't hit your pets or I'll get you, and see you at New Year's!


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]]> ~WasabiTheGreat http://WasabiTheGreat.deviantart.com/journal/28988949/ http://WasabiTheGreat.deviantart.com/journal/28988949/ Wed, 16 Dec 2009 20:14:44 PST I have been severly depressed for almost a week now. More so than I would like to admit. But it feels like the only way I can get all these messy thoughts arranged is to type them out. I feel overly happy, and then through the floor sad in a matter of minutes. It's a whole week of my life in such a short time that it is starting to kill me. I have seriously just sat in my room and cried because I can't even stand to look at myself in the mirror.

I've thought many times about why I'm even here. I think, 'What am I doing? What's the point? It's not like I'm going to make a change in this world.' And then I become really sad and I can't get out of it. I actually WANT to be at school; it distracts me from all of this. But then, when I'm thinking this, I feel overly selfish and I just feel worse about myself.

I can't help but cry about this. I feel so dumb. I keep wishing that I'll wake up, that this isn't real and I can go back to Friday night and maybe STOP myself. But then I realize that, no, I can't go back and yes, I have to live with myself now. Fuck.

But then I think about that guy who passed out in the office, and how no one was there for him but me. And how serious it could have been. And I think about all of my friends and how happy they make me, and how I wish that I could be a better friend. And I think about my parents, and how much they love me but how much they must hate me right now.

And all of thise just ends up in a whole big confusing mess inside my head, and I can't get rid of it no matter how much people tell me that it's going to be ok. Because it's not. I KNOW that it's not.

No one really has to pay any attention to this, because I'm just trying to get everything down and in front of me so I can sort things out. I'm just ranting, really. So no one really has to care about it.

The world really isn't a 10M tree.


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]]> ~WasabiTheGreat http://WasabiTheGreat.deviantart.com/journal/28869087/ http://WasabiTheGreat.deviantart.com/journal/28869087/ Thu, 10 Dec 2009 17:02:47 PST Today was overly difficult. I had to come home, bake around 60 cookies and then realize I don't need that many, try to get my mom to sit down when she wouldn't, ask my sister for help but then she just sat there, run backa and forth between the kitchen and the dinning room, change my pants, AND email Boddy about Sakura-Con. Yeah, it wasn't that much fun to do and now my back hurts quite a bit.

But that's beside the point. I don't know, I've been thinking a lot lately about how lucky I am to have such great friends. :] I don't know. Just today I felt great and so incredably lucky to have everyone in my life.

For a really long time (up until 8th grade), I didn't have any friends. I really didn't. But then I started to hang out with Anna and Felicia, and later in the year Alyssa, and things just took off from there. After that, I met Mary and Spencer and Maya and Shannon, and shortly after that Deanna, Tori and Mell. I'm just so lucky to have friends like you guys. You guys don't even know.

So, here's just a giant, resounding THANK YOU to everyone. :] I don't know why, but I really feel like I have to give a giant hug to everyone.

I'm just so glad to have long lasting friendships that I have, and I know that in 20 years I'll still be calling you guys up on the phone. And it feels great to think that.

I love you guys so much. :'D


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]]> ~WasabiTheGreat http://WasabiTheGreat.deviantart.com/journal/28755163/ http://WasabiTheGreat.deviantart.com/journal/28755163/ Fri, 04 Dec 2009 21:00:59 PST I don't know. I'm pretty bored right now. This is the first time in WEEKS I haevn't had anything planed for a Friday night. It feels really weird.

All I've done is watch Ohitorisama and read fanfiction all night. That's it. Nothing else. And I feel like a fat lazy person for doing so. I don't know. It just bothers me when I'm not productive. But no, I'm dumb and did all of my homework at SCHOOL. Fuck my life.

I'm just so damn BORED. I don't know. Hopefully I'll have something planned for tomorrow. I really do hope so because I don't want to be stuck here all day with my sister and JOSH. Because seeing them all lovey-dovey will make me want to PUKE up everything and just be a bitch. And I'm trying this new thing where I'm NiCE to people, so that wouldn't really work.

I feel like going to the mall and stealing a whole ton of stuff. That would feel really good right now. And I'm not really sure why.

I got everyone's Christmas gifts all planned out~ :3 I can't wait to get those together.

Well, this was pointless. I'm just giving myself something to do for a few minutes. That was it.

I hope that everyone is having a better day than I am!


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]]> ~WasabiTheGreat http://WasabiTheGreat.deviantart.com/journal/28694958/ http://WasabiTheGreat.deviantart.com/journal/28694958/ Tue, 01 Dec 2009 16:29:45 PST So I came home from a not-so-good-day, had to fight my mom and get her to sit down, ran around the house looking for matches, sat down to check my email, and listened to Christofer Drew's new song. And, after listening to it, I feel so relaxed. Like, everything that's been going on in my life in the past few months was gone. And everything was peacful again. And the people wanted everything to be peacful, too. I don't really know what I'm saying right now, I'm kind of out of it.

BUT. From now on, I vow to spread the love ~<3 And I really mean spread the love. I'm going to try and stop saying mean things about people, even people I don't like ( damn this will be hard D: ). I'm just sick and tired of feeling anry all the time, and I want to show other people some much needed love.

So let's start saying kind things about people. Let's start doing kind things, even if it's just holding the door open for another person. Let's start smiling and laughing along with people and spread some happiness. :]

Who wants to join me?


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]]> ~WasabiTheGreat http://WasabiTheGreat.deviantart.com/journal/28641071/ http://WasabiTheGreat.deviantart.com/journal/28641071/ Sat, 28 Nov 2009 23:13:48 PST

<sub>I am currently working on a drawing that I know will take me a long time to finish. Hopefully I can get it done by the end of the year though. I'm already off to a good start. Got the background done and everything. I may post a WIP, just maybe. I don't know. It still looks ugly. Meeeeh.

Today has been very lonely and quite boring. Well, not really boring. Mostly lonely. I don't know. I'm just pulling crap out of no where.

So I'm going to be going through all of my deviations and deleting a LOT of them, because most of them fail at life and don't deserve to exist. I'm going to try to do that tomorrow. But I have abourt 1/6 of a book to read tomorrow, a paper to write, and another one to start on. Oh, and some Geomtry stuff. It's going to be a fun fun day.

D':

Hopefully things start to get better. I hope so, because I feel like shit right now.

Anyway, this was pointless. Just trying to keep everyting updated.


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]]> ~WasabiTheGreat http://WasabiTheGreat.deviantart.com/journal/28576386/ http://WasabiTheGreat.deviantart.com/journal/28576386/ Wed, 25 Nov 2009 19:59:31 PST

<sub>I got my tablet! It's finally here! Hooray hoorah!

I just installed the PhotoShop trial that came with it, and it's awesome. It's the PhotoShop from a few years ago, but who cares?! I have a tablet!

So, I'm going to be going through all of my old artwork and deleting a TON of it. Like, everything from 2007 and most of 2008 because I can't even stand to look at it it sucks so much. And I'm going to be drawing a lot more with the tablet. So, expect a TON more drawings from me.

With that said, I am officially going to restart the 100 Challange List thing (again).

So, goodbye to sketchbooks, goodbye to crappy pencils. Goodbye to erasers that DON'T EVEN ERASE, goodbye to coloured pencils.




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]]> ~WasabiTheGreat http://WasabiTheGreat.deviantart.com/journal/28510900/ http://WasabiTheGreat.deviantart.com/journal/28510900/ Sun, 22 Nov 2009 14:23:29 PST

<sub>So I started watching another Japanese drama called Ohitoisama. It's really good so far and the main guy is adorable. There's only four episodes on the site that I'm watching, but that's ok. Each one is about an hour long anyway and the site updates everyday.

I'm so excited for my tablet to come! I can't wait for it. It's going to be so awesome. Once it comes, I'm going to resume the 100 Challenge List that I started before summer. I'm just so excited to get it. It should be here sometime this week!

That's about it. Not a whole lot had been going on. I'm supposed to be working on some papers right now, but I'm too tired and lazy to start on them I just want to relax for one day. D:

I have a German and Math test to take tomorrow. Please wish me luck!


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]]> ~WasabiTheGreat http://WasabiTheGreat.deviantart.com/journal/28424317/ http://WasabiTheGreat.deviantart.com/journal/28424317/ Tue, 17 Nov 2009 22:28:06 PST

<sub>Today has been good and bad. Mostly bad, with specks of good. Not a whole lot, though.

While sitting and waiting for Biology to start, my sister started to go on and on and on about how she wants to be a surgon (becauseoffreakingGrey'sAnatomy) and said this exactly: "I'm going to be the only Hammond to make something of myself and become some extrodinary. Actually DO somehting with my life." She said that right to my face. Can you beleive how much that must of hurt? And I said this back to her: "I know you think my dream is nothing. I KNOW you think that. But can you even imagine how much it means to me? I hope that you become a surgon, I really do, but don't belittle my dream's because thery're not the same as yours."

Is the dream to become a mangaka so little? I know that it's going to be a hard journy and I may not save people's live like SHE is going to do. But maybe I can. Hey, anime and manga saved mine, so what the hell?

It just made me so angry that she had the freaking nerve to say that to my face, and not even apologize for it. I wanted to scream.

Besides that, I bought a tablet today! I orderd it off of eBay, so it won't be here for a while. But when it comes, I'm going to be drawing like crazy! I'm so excited for it. It comes with a mouse and a pen. It's pretty small (5.5by4 inches) but that's ok. I'm happy with that. Because now I can start to draw more often and not have to worry about water damage.

I'm going to go have my endoscopy tomorrow, and I'm scared. I don't even know why. I just want to get it done, though. Please wish me good luck! Hopefully there's an ulcer or something.

I hope that everyone's world is a 10M tall treee and the sky is a vibrant blue.


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]]> ~WasabiTheGreat http://WasabiTheGreat.deviantart.com/journal/28401688/ http://WasabiTheGreat.deviantart.com/journal/28401688/ Mon, 16 Nov 2009 18:36:04 PST

<sub>This is a much needed journal that I've been meaning to do for days. But this is the first chance I've been able to freaking BREATHE in three days, so here it is. I'm officially 16. And it feels no different from 15, but we'll just have to see.

FRIDAY: Friday, at school, was pretty good. It was an easy day, not a whole lot of homework left for the weekend. But then when I sent out to dinner with parents, everything started to kind of fall apart. First, we went to the Magnolian Grill in Silverdale. It was really good, until my mom fell "asleep" in the middle of dinner and started to scream at everyone. After and hour of that, we finally got home and packed for my dads. Then I dropped my hand-carved chopsticks that I got for Christmas last year, IN THIER PORCILIN CASE, and part of the case shattered everywhere. My stepdad almost has it fixed, which I'm gratful for.

SATURDAY: Had my birthday party, and it really fun. Had lots of people over and had a blast. It was really fun. I can't really say anything else because everyone was there.

SUNDAY: After everyone went home, I slept for a good three hours. Then went to Wal-Mart before dinner at my grandparants. And, OF FUCKING COURSE, Lainie just HAD to be there and sit across from me and eat like THE COW SHE IS. I don't care if she got me a present. I was nice and thanked her for it, but it doesn't mean that I'm going to like her.

TODAY: Today was quite stressful. I think that I may need a tutor in German and Geometry, because I don't understand what's going on in either of those classes right now. And both teachers are kind of... stuck up, so I don't really think that they are going to help me very much.

With that said, I am going to try and get a tablet with money from my birthday. Hopefully I can find a cheap one at Wal-Mart or eBay. I just really want one because I know that I would be drawing more with one. It just seems like a nice thing to have and I don't have to cart around a sketch book anymore. Ugh.

So there's the story of my life since I turned 16. And I just hope it gets better, because my brain feels like it's going to explode.


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]]> ~WasabiTheGreat http://WasabiTheGreat.deviantart.com/journal/28246491/ http://WasabiTheGreat.deviantart.com/journal/28246491/ Mon, 09 Nov 2009 15:42:39 PST

<sub>They just announced that everyone could have a journal skin, so I'm just trying it out and seeing if it works.

So, everything is going ok lately. Stomach aches are starting to happen less and less, which is a good sign. I still have to go have one more procedure done before the doctor can varify anything, though. I'm just really happy that everything might be figured out soon.

Birthday is on Friday! I'm estatic to be 16. Really, I am. That means just only 6 more years until I should be moving to Japan. I'm actually happy because I'm going to be spending my birthday with friends, unlike the past FOUR years. It's going to be awesome.

Not a whole lot else to say. I'm in a really good mood for some reason. Maybe it's because I kindofsortof talked to Six Months today. Or maybe it's because I can bench-press 75 at a time now. Or because I FINALLY understand what's going on in math. I don't know.

But for now, the world is a 10M tall tree.


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]]> ~WasabiTheGreat http://WasabiTheGreat.deviantart.com/journal/28132891/ http://WasabiTheGreat.deviantart.com/journal/28132891/ Tue, 03 Nov 2009 19:52:19 PST I started watching another Japanese drama. It's called Atashinchi no Danshi. It's REALLY, really good. It has Maki Horikita in it again and a few other actors I recognize. I highly reccomend this series to everybody. It's a fairly new series, so the HD quality is really good.

I started watching LIFE, but I can't find any of the episodes anywhere. I'm thinking that maybe it's been banded because the manga has some pertty heavy shit in it. The second volume was banded from Barnes&Noble. I just hope to find it somewhere sometime soon because I actually really liked it, even though it didn't follow the manga totally.

Anyway, birthday is coming up in a few weeks. Still got to plan everything. I'll either be sending emails or giving you invites to it. Depends when I see everybody again. It's going to be awesome cool. Tracking down Ben today was SHIT. ahaha Right Alyssa?

So this journal was pointless. Just felt like posting something that wasn't depressing for once. I hope that everyone is having a great life so far.

For now, the world seems to be a 10m tall tree. For now, at least.


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]]> ~WasabiTheGreat http://WasabiTheGreat.deviantart.com/journal/28002795/ http://WasabiTheGreat.deviantart.com/journal/28002795/ Tue, 27 Oct 2009 20:31:26 PDT So I went and saw my doctor yesterday. I guess the problems with my stomache is only temporary, it just turns on at random times in my life. Yay. Anyway, I have to go have a camera shoved down into my stomache just to be sure that there aren't any ulcers. I'm kind of hoping that there are. Because that would explain some stuff. But at the same time I don't want one because ulcer's are bad. Bad bad bad. But anyway, hopfully all these doctors can FINALLY figure something out. They better. Or I'll kill someone.

Anyway, Halloween is coming up! ALYSSA, MELL, AND DEANNA. You're all coming to my house. And we're going to go trick-or-treating. And we're going to play the candy game. Although it won't be the same without Luke missing everyone LULZ. So yeah. That's the plan for Halloween. Just have to ask my mom.

Birthday is coming up in a few weeks. It's going to be at my daddy's house. My sister was like "I want to have it in the garage!" and I was like "noyou'redumb. It's 20 freaking degrees out there." So yeah. No garage for that. BUT. We're going to watch Johnny Depp movies and play Gehtto Salon and play the candy throwing game. It's going to be a blast. It better be. Or I will cry. D':

Not much of a point to this journal. Just wanted to post something for once. I hope everything is ok with everyone else!


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]]> ~WasabiTheGreat http://WasabiTheGreat.deviantart.com/journal/27969196/ http://WasabiTheGreat.deviantart.com/journal/27969196/ Sun, 25 Oct 2009 21:45:56 PDT It's been awefully busy lately. I spent an amazingly fun weekend at 's (Alyssa's) house. It was so much fun being there. It was great to get away from my dad since he's been yelling at me a lot this past week. Even though we didn't go to SteamCon. Which was fine by me. We had an awesome time at the mall instead and got to talk to Candy Guy again. He's so nice. : D

School has been better. Not fully better, but getting there. I now have at least one person to talk to in each class, which is good. I'm barely scraping by in German, though. Soon we have to do a group video project, which I'm nervous as hell to do. Even though I talk to one or two people, I don't know anyone real well in that class. So when that comes, I'll probably end up crying to myself a little bit. D: God, I hate German.

Besides that, everything is going ok. Slowly, but surely, I'm starting to not be in my head as much. Which seems to be helping a lot. Talking to people and participating is feeling good. And forgiving feels good, too. And expressing myself. And not complaining as much.

I don't know. Just not thinking all the time and letting things roll is nice.

Doctor's appointment tomorrow, which I'm nervous about. The doctor is kind of stuck up and didn't really listen to me this time. So I get the feeling that he's going to ignore whatever I have to say. And my parent's are going together. That just has bad news written all over it. It's not going to be a fun day tomorrow.

EVERYONE (Alyssa, Deanna, Mell, Luke, Mary, and Maya).
My birthday party is on November 14th. Everyone listed is invited. It's going to be at my dad's house. We're going to have a Johnny Depp movie marathon and play Gehtto Salon. Because I said so. I'll have more information soon because everything isn't planned out yet. I just wanted to tell you guys we're playing Gehtto Salon.

I hope everything is going ok with everyone else. What is everyone doing for Halloween? I'd love to know.


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]]> ~WasabiTheGreat http://WasabiTheGreat.deviantart.com/journal/27825303/ http://WasabiTheGreat.deviantart.com/journal/27825303/ Sat, 17 Oct 2009 22:12:03 PDT So I just trampled through my garage, went through about 10 giant boxes, only to find that my Matchbox Cars were in the smallest box. With all three mats in it. :/ How does that happen?

Then I went outside to smash one of them with a hammer. Which proved more difficult than it sounds. I know, I sound crazy right now.

It's for an English project that is due in December. I want to have my objects on my mobile thing as close to the book as possible. If that means trampleing through my spider infested garage, searching through my nasty Matchbox Cars for the perfect two, and then having to put it all back, then so be it.

I also tried to record "Aleep" by The Smiths on my dad's old cassette recorder. It worked just fine, but then when I went to play it on my boom box, it didn't play. So I pretty depresed about that right now. I was really excited and got the whole house quiet for the four minutes that I needed. All for nothing.

Sorry, I digress.

Anyway, the book that I'm doing is The Perks Of Being A Wallflower. I'm actually excited for the project because I really need a good grade on this. So far my teacher has made me re=write like three of my papers in that class.Hopefully I can do well enough on the mobile and the presentation to make up for any points lost for the paper.

I was going to start watching Kimi wa Petto today, but my cat got stuck in a tree so we spent most of the day dealing with that. It's been to windy and miserable. I hope the power goes out so that we don't have to go to school.

Another docotr's appointment in the next few weeks, and a dentist appointment sometime in Novermber. I have this knarly crooked tooth that hurts really bad and I've had it for 10 years. And today I was about ready to rip it out of my face.

The world was almost a 10m tree, but not quite.

Anyway, what're people doing for Halloween? I'd like to know.

Hope everything is going well for everybody else.


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]]> ~WasabiTheGreat http://WasabiTheGreat.deviantart.com/journal/27735789/ http://WasabiTheGreat.deviantart.com/journal/27735789/ Mon, 12 Oct 2009 21:41:52 PDT I just finished watching Nobuta wo Produce, and I have to say that it is one of the best series (anime, TV, whatever) that I've ever seen. Really. Mainly because there were amazing actors/tresses in the series. Like Maki Horikita (Nobuta), Kazuya Kamenashi (Shuuji), and Tomohisa Yamashita (Akira).

I loved it very much. :'D I highly reccomend everyone to watch it. Really. It was well worth the time. Honestly.

I'm so sad that it's over though, because it's hard to find amazing shows like that nowadays. D: Ah well. It was worth my time.

Next on my list of shows to watch are: Kurosagi, Atashinchi no Danshi, Kimi wa Petto, and... I think that's it.

PLEASE. If anyone can tell me where I can find Kurosagi episodes, TELL ME. I've tried looking everywhere, but they're all in French. D': I'm going to keep looking, but it seems like it's going to be hard. AND. If there are any other Jdrama's that anyone else watches, TELL ME. I live for these kind of shows.

Well, that's all for now. Just wanted to spread the word of how awesome Jdrama's are.

BYE-BYE-CYCLE~!

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]]> ~WasabiTheGreat http://WasabiTheGreat.deviantart.com/journal/27658142/ http://WasabiTheGreat.deviantart.com/journal/27658142/ Thu, 08 Oct 2009 20:05:19 PDT I know I've done this before, but there's just been so much gathering in my head lately that I just need to tell some people some things. Sorry for posting so many journals and then just deleting them.


-1. I'm so glad that I've been able to get to know you. I'm so lucky to be able to call you my brother even though you're not. I honestly couldn't ask for a better sibbling, which is sad because I have two sisters. You're such an amazing person you don't even know. It feels weird to say things like this but it's true. You're the first person that I've met since 7th grade that's held a knife, and I don't feel afraid. I feel safe and protected, not scared and in danger. I am so happy that I can proudly call you my older brother.

-2. I know I don't say this enough, but I'm so glad that we're best friends. And the horrible part is I can't tell it to your face. I wish I could, though. We're going to have so much fun in Canada and at Sakura-Con and anything else that we do together. And I know that you'll never become a vaccuum salesman, even if it means kidnapping you and taking you to Japan. That's all I can say right now before I start crying.

-3. I'm so sad that you graduated before I could get to know you more. You brighten everyone's day. I'm so glad that we're mailing each other now becase I miss you terribly at North. I know that whateer you do in life, you'll go far because you care way too much about other people. But that's a good thing.

-4. I wish that you wouldn't stand behind me and eat at lunch. Everyone knows that I hate that noise. Even when I SCREAMED at you to leave, you just stood there. I don't know what your problem is. Just leav everyone alone, you fat cow.

-5. I wish that you would cheat on my dad and break his heart just so he could find someone better. I feel like a bitch hopeing that would happen, but I can't hide it anymore. He deserves someone that actually loves him, and you don't. You can't even take care of your own son, let alone yourself. I hate the way my dad never laughes anymore. Ever since he met you. I hate you, and I can say that from the bottom of my heart.

-6. I like you so much that everytime I see you, I have to look away and walk past you because I know that you have a girlfriend. And it kills me because she's perfect. And your age. And I'm not. I just hope that whatever you do in life, you're happy. Because you being happy means more than me being happy. Now I feel creepy for writing that.

-7. I wish that you would stop haunting me everytime I see a knife.

-8. I wish that you hadn't of moved, even though I know I'll see you again. It just feels so empty and weird already without you up here. I hope that everything goes ok over there, though. You're going to Sakura-Con in a tutu and taking pictures with Orochimaru. No choice in the matter.

-9. I wish you hadn't of moved because I miss my little gay best friend.

-10. You changed my life, and you don't even know it.

-11. HELLO. I herd you leik mudkipz?


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]]> ~WasabiTheGreat http://WasabiTheGreat.deviantart.com/journal/27587373/ http://WasabiTheGreat.deviantart.com/journal/27587373/ Sun, 04 Oct 2009 20:42:11 PDT Things seem to be getting better. Slowly, but better. I have a doctor's appointment on Friday, which is NOT going to be fun at all. Stupid doctor's and thier stupid proceedurs and being dumb and taking forever to do SHIT.

Sorry, doctor's are DUMB as hell.

Anyway, this weekend was pretty good. I spent it with Alyssa, Tori, and Deanna and Deanna's house. It was very fun to get away and spend time with friends. Very, very fun.

I just found out that "Where The Wild Things Are" and "Astro Boy" are coming out with video games. I'm really excited for this. Especially "Where The Wild Things Are". I loved that book as a kid and I still do. So to play it would be amazing. And it will.

Everyone is being quite rude to me right now and I am no longer happy.

I just wanted to let everyone know that things are starting to look up. The world still isn't a 10m treee, but it's getting close. Soon it will be. Hopefully.

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]]> ~WasabiTheGreat http://WasabiTheGreat.deviantart.com/journal/27525846/ http://WasabiTheGreat.deviantart.com/journal/27525846/ Thu, 01 Oct 2009 17:01:26 PDT This has been the worst week ever. Worse than when my parents divorced. Worse than when Aunt Val killed herself. Worse than my 15th birthday.

I wish that it could be summer again. Just for the rest of my life. Not having to worry about school or homework or that "thing" we call a social life at school or worrying about waking up on time. Not having to deal with stress or worry or anxiety. I just want to lay in the grass and look up at the clouds or the stars and relax and not worry about throwing up in five minutes. I wish that things could just go back to normal. Or something like that.

The world is not a 10m tall tree.

I hate having to worry about every single little thing from friends to school to family to, of COURSE, freaking health problems. I hate stressing out and just sitting in my room, crying over everything because for once in my life everything will NOT be ok. Everything wont just solve itself after awhile. Everything will NOT be ok just because someone says that it will.

If one more person tells me that it'll be "Ok" I have to rip thier head off.

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]]> ~WasabiTheGreat http://WasabiTheGreat.deviantart.com/journal/27492434/ http://WasabiTheGreat.deviantart.com/journal/27492434/ Tue, 29 Sep 2009 18:32:00 PDT Tagged by

Starting time: 6:17 pm

Name: Kindra

Sisters: An older and a twin.

Brothers: One, his name is Ryan Boddy. :]

Eye Color: Greenish blue.

Shoe size: 8 womens, 6 mens.

Height: About 5-4.

Weight: 120.

What are you wearing right now: Jeans, Tshirt.

Where do you live: Washington.

Favorite Number: Sideways eight.

Favorite Drink: Water.

Favorite Month: July.

Favorite Breakfast: None.

***********Have You Ever***********

Broken a bone: No.

Been in a police car: No.

Been on a plane: No.

Been in a hot tub: Yes.

Swam in the ocean: Yes

Fallen asleep in school: Yes.

Broken someone's heart: Yes.

Cried when someone died?: Yes.

Fell off your chair: Yes.

Sat by the phone all night waiting for someone to call: No.

Saved e-mailsnce or twice.

***********What is************

Your room like: Moms: Messyish but clean, organized in my own way. Dads: Really clean, not even mine.

Whats right beside you: Headphones.

What is the last thing you ate: Yogurt.

———————-Ever Had-————————-

Chicken pox: No.

Sore throat: Yes.

Stitches: Yes.

Broken nose: No.

————————-Do You————————–

Believe in love at first sight: No, I don't.

Like picnics: Yes.

———————————————————

Who was the last person you danced with: Myself.

Who last made you smile: This guy in my German class. At 10 in the morning.

————————–Who—————————

Did you last yell at: My self.

Do you wear contact lenses or glasses: Glasses.

———-Final Questions————-

What are you listening to right now: Boston by Augustana.

What did you do today: Went to school.

Hate someone in your family?: Everyone.

Good singer: Better than most, but not that good.

Diamond or pearl: Love.

Are you the oldest: No.

Indoors or out doors: Outside.

——————Today did you———————-

1. Talk to someone you like: Yes.

2. Kiss anyone: No.

3. Get sick: Almost.

4. Sing absentmindedly: No.

5. Miss someone: Yes.

6. Eat: Yes.

—————-Last person who——————

8. You talked to on the phone: Alyssa.

9. Made you cry: .....

10. Went to the movies with: Alyssa and Deanna.

11. You went to the shops with: Alyssa and Deanna.

——————Have you——————-

19. Been to Mexico: No, I'll get swine flu.

20. Been to Canada: No. And probably never will.

——————-Random——————–

21. Have a crush on someone: Eggels and The Other One and Dreamy.

22. What books are you reading right now: Rain Shadow. Not really a book, but it counts.

23. Best feeling in the world: Feeling infinite.

24. Future kids names: Whatever thier names are. I'm adopting.

25. Do you sleep with a stuffed animal? No.

26. What's under your bed: Nothing.

27. Favorite sport(s) to watch: None.

28. Favorite location: My head.

32. Who do you really hate: Myself, other people.

33. Do you have a job: No.

35. Ever liked someone you didn't have a chance with: Yes.

36. You lonely right now: All the time.

37. What time is it now?: 6:30 on the dot.

38. TAGS: Anyone.

]]> ~WasabiTheGreat http://WasabiTheGreat.deviantart.com/journal/27473392/ http://WasabiTheGreat.deviantart.com/journal/27473392/ Mon, 28 Sep 2009 17:48:18 PDT So I went and saw my stomache doctor today. It went HORRIBLE.

He basically thinks that the nerves in my stomache aren't working as they should because of my diabetis. Because of the nerves not working, food builds up in my stomache and creats these horrible stomache aches. It can't be fixed completly and I'll have to live with it for the rest of my life.

They aren't 100% that it's this. I'm hoping it's the second option. It could be a viral infection that's causes my stomache to not digest right. And that option is fixable.

But it's most likely the first one. All day I've felt like stabbed myself. I mean, I know food isn't a person's whole life. And personally, I feel fat just thinking about food. But to know for the rest of your life that you can't eat certian foods, and you have to limit how much you eat even more, AND on top of that you're already a diabetic, it feels like shit. It feels like total shit and I just want to chop out my whole stomache.

I wish it was an ulcer.

So this is where I am right now. I feel like puking. But what's new about that?

Wie geht's?

]]> ~WasabiTheGreat http://WasabiTheGreat.deviantart.com/journal/27437563/ http://WasabiTheGreat.deviantart.com/journal/27437563/ Sat, 26 Sep 2009 21:35:32 PDT Lately has been horrible. For several reasons. But there have been a few goos things.

-FIRST: I recently spent the night with Alyssa and Deanna. I had a lot of fun with them. We went to the mall and had some fun taking some stalker pictures of cute guys. And getting two pounds of candy from the really nice candy guy at the store. And buying hats at Spencer's. And just having fun. By the end of it, though, my back and stomach were hurting really bad. So that's partly why I was quiet.

-SECOND: I've noticed at school, in classes that I don't have friends in (which are like four of them), I shut myself off and don't talk to anyone. I don't like doing this, really. I hate doing it. It makes me feel like I;m back in 5th grade or something. It makes me feel like Nobuta from "Nobuta wo Produce" and like no one likes me. I just can't open up and relate to people at all, like we planned. We planned on making friends this year, but I can't. It's too hard trying to open up to people you barely know and the second you do something out of the box they give you a wierd look like you're crazy. And I can't stand it. But I also HATE being that wierd "emo-looking" that sits in the back of the class and draws and laughes to herself. I honestly don't know what to do.

-THIRD: I feel really detatched from the world. I just look around me... and it's just wierd. Like I don't belong on this plantet. And I just cover it up by being loud and annoying. But even that it starting to get on people's nerves. I can tell. At school I can tell when people are annoyed with me but I can't stop it. I can't stop being that annoying person. And I hate it. It just feels like when I look at people, they're a different kind of creature. I feel like I'm looking at everyone between a glass wall and no one can hear me screaming at them. So to connect on some level I become this loud person around my friends. And I can't stand it any more. I can't stand being this person that just looks at people and can't relate to them on any human level. I hate this. I hate this.

-FOURTH: I'm going to make this part short so I don't start crying again. Tori, I don't want you to move. None of us do. We're all going to miss you way too much and it hurts all of us to think that you won't be here in a short while. It feels like I'm talking like you're dying, and you're not and I know that we'll see you again. But it still makes us cry and sad that we can't just call you up and be like "Hey, you're coming over," or something like that. I'm sorry that at Alyssa's I started to cry really hard again and just kind of left without saying too much more. I'm really sorry. I'll make it up.

-FIFTH: I just decided that I'm going to stop being loud and anoying. I just decided that I'm going to try and start to talk to some more people at school, even though I know it probably won't work. I just decided to push Caelin to start GSA so I can start helping people on a more personal level. I just decided to keep practicing drawing and photography and social interactions and my volume control. BECAUSE I KNOW I'M ANNOYING AND LOUD AND WON'T STOP TALKING. So, from now on, I'm going to try and become a better person. Hopefully. Probably won't, but I'll try.


Sorry for all of this, but I really hate myself right now.

Wie geht's?

]]> ~WasabiTheGreat http://WasabiTheGreat.deviantart.com/journal/27381585/ http://WasabiTheGreat.deviantart.com/journal/27381585/ Wed, 23 Sep 2009 18:59:39 PDT There has been a lot of good news lately, and some bad. Most mostly good. Which evens out the bad. Sort of.

1. My mom called last night and told me that she made an appointment to see the doctor about my stomach. I'm so increadably happy. Hopefully something can be done about this soon. It's been a loooong year and 4 months (about) and it's nice to know that everything will be fine soon. :']

2. I'd like to give a giant shout out to ! It's her 16th birthday today! HAPPY BIRTHDAY ALYSSA. I wish I could have done more for your birthday, but I hope that you like the gifts anyway.

3. I just want to thank everyone. I'm not quite sure why, but I feel like I need to. Thank you everyone for being there and listening to me whine and complain about everything and supporting me through this stomach deal. Thank you everyone for letting me cry about the littlest of things and laugh at some random things in my head. Thank you everyone for just being there. Especially Alyssa and Tori. You don't know how much it means.

I'm going to stop typing now before I start crying and start stressing out. Peace out~<3

Wie geht's?

]]> ~WasabiTheGreat http://WasabiTheGreat.deviantart.com/journal/27329743/ http://WasabiTheGreat.deviantart.com/journal/27329743/ Sun, 20 Sep 2009 21:57:45 PDT So things have been ok. Lately, at least. Not at school, no. Classes are way too confusing with us only haveing 4 classes sometimes, and then all of our classes the other times. I don't like it. Not at all. But I like my classes for the most part.

I just spent the night at 's house. It was fun and I had a great time, but I'm sad. :'[ Tori and :iconlollilala" Alyssa know why. I don't want to talk about it right now.

School is not going to be fun tomorrow, since we saw Shyane and Symone at Pizza Hut. And we all know that they were talking crap about us and whispering even though we weren't saying a thing. School'g going to be SO fun tomorrow. Fuck them.

Sorry, had to rant for a little bit.

's grandpa is doing better! I was so happy when she told me that. Except that picture of him. He looked sick in that picture, but better nonetheless. I was so happy. I still am.

This journal is just kind of a rant. Haven't posted anything in a short while. Just felt like something needed to be.

Sakura-Con is going to be a lot of fun this coming year. I can feel it. Sora's hair is going to be SO freaking hard to do. So will Roxas' hair. EUGH why must Square Enix character have hair that defies gravity? D':

I'm done ranting. Just felt like typing, really.

Wie geht's?

]]> ~WasabiTheGreat http://WasabiTheGreat.deviantart.com/journal/27180580/ http://WasabiTheGreat.deviantart.com/journal/27180580/ Sat, 12 Sep 2009 23:00:59 PDT School started a few days ago, and I already want to die. D: It's too stressful. Everything is moving way too fast and my fried-out brain can't take it. On top of having a lot of stomach problems and getting a cold the DAY going to back to school, I've got too much on my mind. D: And this kind of the only place that I can express it without tripping over my words or staring off into space.

1. I'm worried that I may have too much on my plate this year. I may have to take ANOTHER course of PE next smester because I didn't take 9th PE last year. I have the last lunch of the day, which is at like, 1:00. Which sucks, because school gets out at 2:30. I don't really care when I eat, I'm just worried about going low during the day. Which I dont' want to have happen.

2. I'm stressed about my stupid stomache problems. The doctors FINALLY figured out what's going on after a YEAR of bitching at them. But get this, I have to get a tube shoved down into my stomach so that it can work proporly. Which will take a day out of school. And I'll get behind in everything. And if it doesn't work, then that means it's something else. Which I'm terrified of. I'm terrified that it's not going to work and things are going to get worse. D:

3. I have a reaaaly sore throat. It hurts so bad and I can barely talk. And people keep asking me to talk louder, but it huuurts.

I feel like crap with all of this going on. Plus, my mom set up some stupid-ass rules that now I have to clean the whole house before I can go anywhere. D: Fuck life.

God. Screw life. I'm tired.

Wie geht's?

]]> ~WasabiTheGreat http://WasabiTheGreat.deviantart.com/journal/27045312/ http://WasabiTheGreat.deviantart.com/journal/27045312/ Sat, 05 Sep 2009 23:42:12 PDT This is somthing that's been bothering me for a very long time. A lot of people say the same thing, and it's time to throw it back in thier face and prove them wrong. Or just make myself feel better. Whatever.

COSPLAY: Short for "costume play" is a fan labor type of performance art whoes participants outfit themselves, with often elaborate cotumes and accessories, as a specific character or idea.
(taken from Wiki)

I absolutly hate people that think that when you cosplay, you HAVE to cosplay as an anime/manga character. It bugs the living crap out of me.

Cosplay is not about becoming an ANIME character, or having the perfect cosplay and making everything look right. It's not even about getting the most pictures at a Convention. Cosplay is about HAVING FUN and doing what you love. And enjoying yourself and having fun with others.

It just annoys be so much when people are like "Oh you're going to do an Ivader Zim cosplay? Isn't that a CARTOON?!"

Fuck everyone that says that. Really.

For everyone's information, "anime" MEANS "Japanese cartoon". I'm sure that they have a word for out stupid American shit that you call TV. The bottom line is that it doesn't matter what you dress up as.

My original plan for Sakura-Con was to do an Invader Zim cosplay group. But people gave me so much crap about that not being an anime (EVEN THOUGH THERE WERE PLENTY I.Z COSPLAYERS LAST YEAR) that I had to give it up and switch to Kingdom Hearts. People took the fun out of it. Like, literally took the fun out of it.

The bottom line is, don't let people tell you that you can't cosplay as something because it's not "anime". have you seen Trekies? That's cosplay right there. How about Star Wars fans? Cosplay to.

Cosplay is about having fun. Don't ever go to a Con, dressed as a character that you don't like, expecting to get a ton of pictures, and treating people like crap. You're just going to have a worse time like that and it just takes the fun out of cosplay.


"Cosplay is for fun. It's a misunderstood hobby with a good and bad side. If everything is going good in your cosplay, keep it up just don’t lose your head in its fictional world. Keep priorities like family and school in order. If things aren’t great, do not be disheartened from doing what you love. As long as you are having fun, keep going!

It’s a different kind of happy-high when you are among fellow cosplayers but at the end of the day, it only matters if you enjoyed yourself or not. It’s not about popularity or pageviews, having fans or not, being better than others... no. It’s about expressing yourself through a character you love and sharing it with others.

Hopefully, you’ll make friendships that will last even when the costumes are faded, wigs worn out and cameras stop flashing."

Said by a fellow cosplayer at the age of 12, Ysabel. (I don't personally know her, just on dA).


I'm sorry if this made people angry, because it usually does. I'm so stressed out about EVERYTHING and people talking crap about my cosplay next year for Sakura-Con is making things worse. So here you go.

P.S: I figured out the text/font thing! Yay, I'm dumb.

Wie geht's?

]]> ~WasabiTheGreat http://WasabiTheGreat.deviantart.com/journal/26980508/ http://WasabiTheGreat.deviantart.com/journal/26980508/ Wed, 02 Sep 2009 15:45:36 PDT . I guess that if we don't get our classes switched around a bit, then it'd be ok. The bus ride is still the same as last year, we have English together (I think) and probably will have the same lunch. Hopefully. Augh. I haaate school when stuff like this happens.

The world is not a perfect straight line. D:

Anyyway, I'm pretty happy with who I have as teachers. I got the teachers that I wanted (for once) and can't complain about anyone yet. :]

I hope that this year will be a good one. Alyssa and I plan to make lots of friends. AND SHE'S GOING TO GET A BOYFRIEND. I'll make sure of it. No talking me out of it now. ( aughonlyifshewantsmetoD: )

So, all in all, this year is looking to be a pretty good one. Hopefully.

It better. :<

Wie geht's?

]]> ~WasabiTheGreat http://WasabiTheGreat.deviantart.com/journal/26944527/ http://WasabiTheGreat.deviantart.com/journal/26944527/ Mon, 31 Aug 2009 19:25:29 PDT Alyssa, we were walking near HotTopic, and this really cute guy walked out. And he was wearing the same colourful piano wristband that I was. And I was like "Alyssa, we have the same wristband. He's my soul mate." She gave me a really weird look and was like "You're kidding, right?" and I was like "ahaha Yeah..."

:'D

I'm a little hyper right now, even though I burned dinnerrr. D: I tried!

I didn't want to burn myself again, like last time. It smells aweful. My kitchen smell like burnt felsh right now. Augh.

Anyway, school oreintation is soon. I'm going on the second. I better have some classes with Alyssa or I'm going to punch Anthony. Just kidding. Not really.

I drew something nice today, and when we go back to my mom's I'm going to fix my scanner and scane it in.

Yeeaaahhh~!

Wie geht's?

]]> ~WasabiTheGreat http://WasabiTheGreat.deviantart.com/journal/26875899/ http://WasabiTheGreat.deviantart.com/journal/26875899/ Fri, 28 Aug 2009 13:00:47 PDT Last nigh was horrible, because we were walking and he almost ripped off my arm. D: Litterally. Not even kidding.

Anyway, I've just noticed that I've been going on a lot of walks lately, and it's just kind of odd. Almost everyday since I got to my dads I've been going for a walk. I dunno. Just a thought.

I almost forgot about the Challenge List until last night when my sister reminded me about it. D: I did two at camp, but didn't get pictures of them because I just wanted to give them to Boddy and Emmery. I sure do hope that they liked them. <3

But now I'm going to start and do my challenge list again. So far I have only, like, four or five of them done. I don't know. Lost count a while ago. Anyway, I'm going to try and do one today.

Christofer Drew posted a new music video~! <3 It's so adorable. I love it.

Ima gonna go take a shower, draw something, call my grandparents, go for a walk, then maybe draw some more. Or take a nap. Tomorrow's going to be a busy daaaay~.

Wie geht's?

( Just so you guys know, I don't think I ever told anyone, but "wie geht's?" is German for "How are you?" )

]]> ~WasabiTheGreat http://WasabiTheGreat.deviantart.com/journal/26808503/ http://WasabiTheGreat.deviantart.com/journal/26808503/ Tue, 25 Aug 2009 00:50:03 PDT



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Make a difference.

]]> ~WasabiTheGreat http://WasabiTheGreat.deviantart.com/journal/26806811/ http://WasabiTheGreat.deviantart.com/journal/26806811/ Mon, 24 Aug 2009 21:49:39 PDT AND THEN I SCRATCHED IT
AND NOW IT ITCHES LIKE A MOTHER FUCKER.

I'm angry right now. It was SO CLOSE to being gone. And then I decided to be dumb and scratch it. Fuck life. D:

Anyway, this week is going to be busy (not). I'm going shopping tomorrow with mah daddy, Saturday going to lunch with grandparents, and then after that shopping with Alyssa . I GET TO SHOP WITH SOMEONE COOL. lol I'm really hyper right now.

So. Sakura-Con is in, like, 500 days. I got my gloves for my Sora cosplay, got rides and everything situated, almost got a place to stay, very close to getting a ticket. Almost everything is in place! I'm very happy about that.

I DID A DRAWING OF PETE. I was kidding at 's house, but then I actually wanted to do it. I tried doing one of Anthony, but he just looked like a douche bag. LOL. Pete looks really cute, though. I'll post it sometime soon.

This journal was pointless. And random. And just useless.

Wie geht's?

]]> ~WasabiTheGreat http://WasabiTheGreat.deviantart.com/journal/26786911/ http://WasabiTheGreat.deviantart.com/journal/26786911/ Mon, 24 Aug 2009 00:34:49 PDT
We did so much there. It didn't feel like it, but we did. I was in a cabin with a bunch of girls that ALL ATE LIKE COWS. By the middle of the weeks my sister and I were already bitching at them to stop eating all the time. Because that's what they would do. Not eat at meals, but then eat in the cabin. It was so annoying and they all ate with thier mouths open. I literally wanted to rip my skin off.

Anyway, I can't exactly remember everything about camp right now because I'm about to pass out. Nexy year my sister and I (along with some other people) will be Kitchen Crew! So it will be me, my sister, Jessica (who I don't like), Kenny, Andrew, Dougie, and Alyssa that will be working in the kitchen. We gots lots of people helping out this year. :] Which I'm happy about. Meals can be hard to clean up after, and the more people the faster it gets done.

There is this girl. Jessica. I just want to slap-punch her every time she opens her mouth. And I tell people that I don't like her. She tells everyone what to do, and then does nothing herself. And then when you ask her to do something, she doesn't do it. She boses every one around and acts like she's in control when she's not. Augh, it's so annoying! I had to yell at her so much during camp. But it was worth it.

I can't remember what else I was going to say. I'll be posting all the photography that I took there up here when I go back to my moms. I was too lazy to do it there.

When I remember what I was going to say, I'll post another journal.

Wie geht's?

]]> ~WasabiTheGreat http://WasabiTheGreat.deviantart.com/journal/26598896/ http://WasabiTheGreat.deviantart.com/journal/26598896/ Fri, 14 Aug 2009 21:32:49 PDT
Now I'm nervous and worried.

Anyway, I wish everyone a wonderful week while I'm away! I'll be bringing back lots of drawings and photographs and such. Plus some arts and crafts.

Until then!

Wie geht's?

]]> ~WasabiTheGreat http://WasabiTheGreat.deviantart.com/journal/26553196/ http://WasabiTheGreat.deviantart.com/journal/26553196/ Wed, 12 Aug 2009 17:08:25 PDT And that you can watch movies on them! Isn't that amazing?! I'm being totally serious here, people. It totally amazes me that we have technology like that. I thought that PSP's were only for playing games! Aren't I a doofus?

I really will be stuck in the past forever, huh?

Anyway, this Saturday I'm going to Lutherhaven for about five days. I love it there at camp. This year should be reall good because there will be a lot of cute guys! I know this because of thier names.... and because some of them went years before. Don't judge me. Anyway, I love it there because it's a week away from home and I just get to relax. I'm going to miss everyone very much, but we'll make up for it when I get back! :3 I'm just really happy to see everyone (especially the counselors. I love them all) and get to see friends from last year. Plus there's going to be cute guys.

So, I'm going to be bringig my sketch book and camera with me like last year. Hopefully I will have a drawing or two. And I'll have a lot of picutres to share with everyone! Last year I did, but then my sister went a deleted them all on the last day of camp >:[. I'm still angry about that.

Today I've been in a really good mood. I don't really know why. Maybe it's all the Hana-Kimi.

Wie geht's?

]]> ~WasabiTheGreat http://WasabiTheGreat.deviantart.com/journal/26467535/ http://WasabiTheGreat.deviantart.com/journal/26467535/ Sat, 08 Aug 2009 15:49:29 PDT
I went to my friend Felicia's birthday party last night, and it was fun. Until I woke up at freaking NINE in the morning to everyone screaming right next to me. And I went to sleep around 3 (just like everyone else). Like most people, I'm a night person. NOT a morning person. So I only got about 6 (may be less) hours of sleep. And on top of that, I woke up a 250, which is REALLY high to wake up at. So all morning I felt like SHIT. It was not fun this morning.

Now my mom is all angry at me because I made a small comment about the shampoo she got me. She had to go with a REALLY cheap brand because my sister wanted hair dye that was 9 DOLLARS. I was just like "I hope it works the same as the last," because my hair is really difficult. And she got all pissed at me and started calling me rude and ungratful and shit like that. I apologized. I really did. And when I left the room she was just fine.

So then my sister comes donw a few minutes later. Now she's all pissed because my mom started to yell at her. So my sister thought it was ok just to come downstairs and yell at me about it. I was just like "When Alyssa comes back, I'm going to her house," which I know isn't fair to Alyssa, I know. But lately I've just felt like dying when I'm at home. That's a whole diofferent thing. Anyway, my sister started to yell at me and say "You can't just leave me here by myself! Youre such a bitch!" I just got so angry at her when she said that. That's not fair. Just because she doesn't have any friends right now doesn't mean that I have to stay home, too. The past few summers it's been her that's had friends and me that didn't. And she never once even asked if I wanted to join in. She did the oppisite. She would tell me that I couldn't join in. So, yeah, it's a little mean of me, but she kind of deseves it. That's karma for her. I've offered several times that she can come along with me, but she never asks. She never says anything about it and just sits around and says that she has no friends. Which isn't true. She's just too lazy to try.

I just talked to my mom so now we're all good. I'm just pissed that my sister thinks that she can control me when it comes to things like this. She even said before she went upstairs "I'll kill you if you stay at Alyssa's." WHAT THE FUCK IS UP WITH THAT? God, I'm so angry right now.

I really can't wait to go to camp. Alyssa, Tori, I wish you were there with me because there's going to be a lot of cute guys, but I know that you guys can't. I'm just really angry.

DAMN. I'm pissed. >:[

]]> ~WasabiTheGreat http://WasabiTheGreat.deviantart.com/journal/26391948/ http://WasabiTheGreat.deviantart.com/journal/26391948/ Tue, 04 Aug 2009 23:05:43 PDT Hopefully now I'll be drawing more because those drawing suck really bad, but I haven't posted a drawing in forever, so why the hell not? Anyway, tonight was a big wave of confusion and sadness because of things I don't want to talk about. Everything is good now, but I do one of these whenever I feel sad. Plus I need to update it.


RULES: List eight facts about yourself. When you're done, tag some people.

1. I love cute asian guys. It's not much of a secret, but might as well. It doesn't mean I don't like other kinds of guys. Asian ones are just my cup of tea, though.

2. I will and can find the weirdest, most random videos on YouTube ever. I'm also really good at finding a fanfiction for any couple. I know the right places to look. :].

3. I actually am an easy crier. I cry so easily, it's not even funny. I can usually hide it, though.

4. When I die, I don't want to be wearing any shoes. :]

5. When I was little, I punched a boy in McDonalds because he wouldn't stop throwing balls at me. I was two and he was four.

6. I love Japanese dramas and Chinese dramas. They are so good. Really. So far my favourites are MARS and Hanazakari no Kimitachi (Hana-Kimi).

7. Sometimes, I forget how to read books because I read manga way too much. It's pathetic.

8. My friends are the most important thing to me in the world. Even more important than family. I was once told to choose family over friends because that's the right thing to do. I'm telling you guys to follow your heart.


So here it is. While doing this, my sister came in and started to yell at me. I hate her so much. That's fact number nine.

]]> ~WasabiTheGreat http://WasabiTheGreat.deviantart.com/journal/26373590/ http://WasabiTheGreat.deviantart.com/journal/26373590/ Tue, 04 Aug 2009 05:13:33 PDT Deanna.
For the most part XD

◆If possible, your age?
15.

◆When did you start drawing?
About four or five years ago.

◆Which hand do you use for drawing?
Right. :/

◆Which is easier to draw - male or female?
Guys. Really, you don't need to draw curves or anything like that. Guys are basicall sticks.

◆Which is easier to draw - long hair or short hair?
I like both. They're both pretty easy to draw, anyway.

◆Is it easier to draw the head facing towards the right or the left?
Both is easy.

◆Is it easier to draw the side view of the face or the front view?
Both. Come on, how can one be hard and the other easy?

◆What do you have problems in drawing?
Good looking bodies, hands, feet, folds in clothing, sometimes shoulders.

◆What do you like to draw?
Boys, hair, eyes, and hats.

◆Are you a traditional artist or a digital artist?
I don't even know the difference. Personally, I don't care what the differene is. I draw what I draw.

◆Where do you start drawing from?
The thing that started my interest in drawing was Fruits Basket. Before then I had started drawing realistic, but that wasn't working. Then one day I read Fruits Basket and thought to myself "This is what I want to do." And now it's everything to me.

◆What is your drawing habit that you are aware of?
Habit? My habit is not drawing that often.

◆What do you keep in mind when you do lineart?
Stay in the original line? I don't fucking know.

◆Any tips for coloring/shading?
Don't fuck up? I don't know, you have to be pretty dumb to not be able to draw.

◆How long does it take to finish a piece of art?
Not very long. usually two or three hours.

◆What music do you listen to while you draw?
Anything. I usually try not to because I ge distracted.

◆How long does it take you to come up with an idea?
Not long. If I think "Hey, I want to draw Ashiya." then I'll do it. I dont sit there and think "I want to draw Ashiya in this pose... or this pose! Maybe that pose..." because that is a waste of time.

◆Your favorite drawing utensils?
Pencil. I can't use a tablet worth anything, and Copic markers are not good for me. So just using a pencil, outlining, and then coloring is fine by me.

◆Your favorite color/the color that you use a lot?
Black.

◆Your favorite style(s)?
Styles? Every single person has a different style.

◆Are you satisfied with your current art?
No one ever is. But right now I'm confortable with it.

◆What kind of artist are you aiming for?
I AM going to be a mangaka in Tokyo. No one will ever take that dream away.



So this was really dumb and made me angry because of the pointless quesions in it. I tag anyone that wants to be pissed off.

]]> ~WasabiTheGreat http://WasabiTheGreat.deviantart.com/journal/26120848/ http://WasabiTheGreat.deviantart.com/journal/26120848/ Thu, 23 Jul 2009 01:29:14 PDT
Once I get my room at my dad's all situated, I'm going to have some people over. Alyssa, I already decided you're coming over sometime in the next two weeks. You don't have a choice LOL. Just kidding. But I would love for you to finally meet Patches and Zoro and Felix . Anyway, when Lainie(BITCH) moved out, she left the ENTIRE house a mess. My sister and I tried to clean it up, but my dad didn't have a vaccuum cleaner OR anywhere to put anything, so there wasn't much that we could do. But once I get everything cleaned up and setteled, I'm going to slowly invite people over. I can't have a big sleepover at my dad's because a few years back my sister and I had a huge sleep over, and it got way too out of hand. I actually haven't had anyone over at my dad's house since... 6th or 7th grade. Wow.

Anyway, done with that rant. I've noticed lately that I haven't been drawing, even though I said that I would :/. So I'm going to be drawing, but I have no scanner. Still. I'm stealing your's, Alyssa LOL. No, I wouldn't do that...

Just wanted to update and see how everyone is doing. I've been quite bored this week because I haven't seen anyone since Saturday. D: BTW That was the BEST trip to the mall, EVER. XD

IT'S DENNY.

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]]> ~WasabiTheGreat http://WasabiTheGreat.deviantart.com/journal/26056758/ http://WasabiTheGreat.deviantart.com/journal/26056758/ Mon, 20 Jul 2009 01:26:01 PDT British humor is the best.

Anyway, the past week or so has been a whorl-wind of fun and sadness, great times and times where I want to kill someone. Sounds like a regular week. I was hoping for a relaxing week before I go to my dads this week, but I have to clean my house instead. Ah well. I'll probably put it off until the very last minute anyway.

I hope that everyone is having a good summer. I know I say that everytime, but I mean it.

And Alyssa.

THAT'S SO DENNY. lol We're going to have the WORST karma.

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]]> ~WasabiTheGreat http://WasabiTheGreat.deviantart.com/journal/25911031/ http://WasabiTheGreat.deviantart.com/journal/25911031/ Mon, 13 Jul 2009 00:43:18 PDT
Anyway, I drew something in the first time since... forever. The last thing I drew was Christofer Drew before the concert in Seattle. And before that... I can't even remember! D: But tonight I was like "! Let's draw!" and I did!

It feels so good to draw again. I don't know why I stopped for so long. Seriously. Why did I? So, for now on, I'm going to try and post as many drawings as possible. I'm going to try and fix my scanner tomorrow so hopefully I can start actually posting stuff. Most of what I'll be drawing will probably be Hana Kimi stuff because it's my new Fruits Basket. And I love that series. Anyway, I'm just really happy and excited to be back in a drawing mood. It's taken so long!

Anyway, I'm so very tired at the same time. I just ahd two mega sleep over's two days in a row. I had fun at both of them, but staying up between 3 and 5 at both of them have worn me out. So, for the next few days I'm going to be taking it easy and just drawing. Eventually I'll get bored though. LOL. But seriously, ever since summer started it's been constant movement. So I'm going to force myself to stay put for another day or so. Not too much longer, though, and then I'll be back for some more crazy!

So... yeah. This journal was pointless. I'm just in a really good mood because I'm drawing again. That's all. I hope that no one got wet in our random downpour today! (ALYSSA AND TORI ahaha jk)

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]]> ~WasabiTheGreat http://WasabiTheGreat.deviantart.com/journal/25847247/ http://WasabiTheGreat.deviantart.com/journal/25847247/ Thu, 09 Jul 2009 20:06:36 PDT We just have to clear it with Maya first, and then we're good. Our cosplay group idea is Kingdom Hearts street style. Boddy was very excited about it . I'm very happy that we're all deciding on something together. And it's going to be a lot of fun!

Anyway, I want to try and get my cosplay together soon because I want to take pictures while it's still nice out. It's just a nice thought because it's been so nice and warm out. And that just seems to fit the whole vibe of Kingdom Hearts.

How has everybody been? Summer has been pretty lazy and relaxing. I feel like I should be doing something, but in a month or so things are going to be picking up with camp and then school shopping and all that jazz. Right now I'm just enjoying my lazy summer. Nothing too bad has been going on, and I'm grateful for that.

I am almost done with Kingdom Hearts! I'm so very excited to almost be done with it. Right now it's really hard and the PS2 is going away tomorrow. D: Ah well, I'll have to bum off of you guys for a while. Sorry.

Let me know how you guys are doing!

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]]> ~WasabiTheGreat http://WasabiTheGreat.deviantart.com/journal/25765589/ http://WasabiTheGreat.deviantart.com/journal/25765589/ Mon, 06 Jul 2009 01:37:23 PDT
The Ready Set opened and played for about an hour. He was so full of energy. I tried to take some pictures, but he was just flailing around the stage like crazy. It was awesome though. About halfway into the FIRST freaking song, my camera was like "NO MORE MEMORY" so I had to go through and delete a lot of my older pictures from forever ago. I missed a lot of what was going on, but that's ok. I still had a good time and still got a lot of good pictures. I only knew one song by him, but now I'm definatly going to look into more music by him.

NeverShoutNever was next. God I screamed my lungs out when he came onto stage. He was so cute and adorable. He had great energy. It was so funny because after the first or second song Christofer was like "Are you guys thristy?" and threw water at everyone in front of him. And then he was like "You guys look really thirsty, so we're going to pass out some water. ...Actually, it's not water, it's tea. But it's really good." He was so cute! I can't get over it. Anyway, he kept going on and played another song. Suddenly he got out his ukelele and was like "This is my friend Fred. He wants to play a song." and started playing "Did It Hurt". I was just like "Alyssa names her stuff, too! " But no one heard me because everyone was screaming. :/ After he played that song, he took out a pair of nerd glasses and put them on and was like "These are my professional glasses." and smiled at everyone. Then he was like "Actually, these are X-Ray glasses. That means I can see you all naked right now." and he said that with the most adorable laugh ever.

He played a few more songs. He ever played I Wanna Hold Your Hand! During that song, Christofer made everyone hold someone's hand and jump up and down. It was so fun. Then he was like "I hope everyone got some tea!" and a bunch of random girls screamed "I love you!" and I was just like "You're really creepy!". Anyway, towards the end of his hour and a half or so, he made everyone take a vote for his last song. Thankfully he played BigCityDreams. I love that song. When it was done, I was hoping that he would walk over my way so I could ask for a hug or something, but he went off the other end D:. After that we just kind of left. Spencer's dad didn't really seem like he wanted to be there.

Overall, I had the best time of my life. My hip is killing me, though. I didn't realize it until NeverShoutNever was almost done, but I was standing at a really awkward angle and my hip/leg bent at a weird angle. It hurts now, but at the time I didn't care.

I also got his newest CD, and right now this is my third or fourth time listening to it all the way through.

Alyssa, I'm so very sorry I didn't get anything signed for you. D: I feel bad about it. After NeverShoutNever was done, Spencer's dad kind of rushed us out of there. But I got plenty of pictures, even though they're kind of fuzzy because my camera is dumb. But I hope that it makes up for it!

On the note, Christofer Drew reminds me of Toryn. He does. It's hard to explain. You have to know Toryn.

Anyway, I hope that everyone had a wonderful fourth! I'm going to go eat now because I'm a little low.

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]]> ~WasabiTheGreat http://WasabiTheGreat.deviantart.com/journal/25700554/ http://WasabiTheGreat.deviantart.com/journal/25700554/ Thu, 02 Jul 2009 17:30:18 PDT
I guess what I need to say is that I'm sorry. But that doesn't mean that you guys are off the hook. All of you owe Alyssa a HUGE apology. Big time. Including myself. I can't even express how bad I feel right now. But those things needed to be said at the same time.

So, I will forget if you guys can forget. And by forget I mean don't bring it up again. If you guys can do that, I can do that.

Alyssa, I'm really sorry for what I said. I didn't mean to hurt you. I feel horrible right now. I will somehow make this up to you, I promise.

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On another note, I just got a new kitty today. Right now his name is Bishop, but knowing my dad he's going to change it when he sees him. I'll try to get a picture of him. He's pretty squirlly, so it's going to be hard.

I also saw Public Enimies last night. It was really good. I highly reccomend it to everyone.

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]]> ~WasabiTheGreat http://WasabiTheGreat.deviantart.com/journal/25685892/ http://WasabiTheGreat.deviantart.com/journal/25685892/ Thu, 02 Jul 2009 00:31:50 PDT
This past sleepover at Alyssa's was fun. With Alyssa. I had a lot of laughs. WITH ALYSSA. Are you getting the picture? Probably not. It was fun with everyone in the beginning. But somewhere down the line, I notied that Alyssa was just sitting by herself, so I thought "Hey, what's she up to?" and sat with her. That's when I noticed that all of you guys (I don't even have to explain who) were sitting in the kitchen SCREAMING. I don't fucking care what you guys say, you were screaming and yelling really loud. I didn't really want to join in with you guys because: 1.You were being way too loud and I hate overly loud people. 2.I was having a fine time with Alyssa.

In all the times that I've spent the night at Alyssa's, her dad is always snoring. Because it's quiet enough for him to sleep. But this was the first time I didn't hear him snoring. Actually, he was probably up most of the night. I felt terrible, but at the same time I knew that if Alyssa and I asked, you guys would NOT of been quiet. It's who you guys are. And that's really stupid and disrespectful.

I can't fucking beleive you guys. I mean, really? I'm really disapointed in you guys. I can't beleive that when Alyssa and I gave you that note, Deanna, you basically blamed everything on us. And I know that you tried to apologize, but the damage has already been done. Alyssa and I can't do everything for you. Maybe you should check your volume level. Did you think about that? Mell. I really don't understand you. Here, you and TorI just got into a big fight, and the second you see her you try and tell her what to do. So what if she wants to run away from home? It's technically not running away if she tells her mom. AND SHE HAS A PLAN. So don't fucking put your opinion into it. And TorI. I like you, I really do. I'm just... dissapointed that you just followed what Mell and Deanna did and didn't bring the fight up at all. THAT'S WHY ALYSSA HAD YOU GUYS OVER IN THE FIRST PLACE. SO WE ALL COULD WORK THINGS OUT BECAUSE WE'VE ALL BEEN DRAGGED INTO YOUR STUPID FIGHT.

And don't EVER joke about mentally disabled people or rape EVER again. I swear, the next person that does it constantly like you guys did, I'm just going to slap in the face and lock them outside. And don't doubt that I will. Because I'm serious.

God, I'm so worn out. Ever since this whole thing started, it's been wearing me down. I've tried to stay out of it and just keep to myself. But watching my friends being beat down by this is hurtful and it hurts more than being involved. And Mell, you told me to get involved. So here's me getting involved. By calling you guys out and telling you straight to your face what's pissing me off. And beleive me, I'm not that nice when I'm really pissed off. I'm a flat out bitch. Good luck guys.

Alyssa, I honestly have no idea how you can deal with all of this for so long. I really don't. One night of it for me and I've already cried for over an hour. And I haven't cried because of what they did, I've been crying because of how... aweful it made me feel and how it must be affecting you. How can you put up with this for so long? I really don't know how. It's just... not right.

I can't beleive that you guys come into Alyssa's house, eat her food, drink her pop, play all of her video games, trash her living room and bedroom, and don't even say thank you. I just can't even fucking beleive it. Alyssa's dad does so much for all of us, and you guys hardly ever say thank you. I'm deeply saddened by all of this. I just... I can't do it.

So, go ahead. Bitch at me and say whatever you guys want. I really don't care. I honestly don't. Nothing you guys say right now can make me feel any more worse about myself. I already feel like shit.

Here's getting involved for you, Mell.

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]]> ~WasabiTheGreat http://WasabiTheGreat.deviantart.com/journal/25578394/ http://WasabiTheGreat.deviantart.com/journal/25578394/ Fri, 26 Jun 2009 23:51:54 PDT
She is in a lot of pain. When she starts to feel better I would like to try and have a sleepover thing at my house since I never have any friends over. I usually go to friends houses. Honestly I am kind of ebarrassed by my house. There's not much to do, it smells funny, and people are crowding around all the time. But anyway, when my mom is starting to feel better, I'll be sure to have some people over. I'm sure that she would be very happy to see you guys.

Anyway, Nevershoutnever is on the 5th. I'm very excited about it. I drew Christopher Drew something. I would very much like to give it to him, even though it seizure purple. It's such a bright purple it hurts. But at least he'll notice it. And my sister wants me to get her gutair signed by him, so hopefully I can get that done.

So, that is it for now. My mom is doing fine. Better than we all thought that she would do.

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]]> ~WasabiTheGreat http://WasabiTheGreat.deviantart.com/journal/25548954/ http://WasabiTheGreat.deviantart.com/journal/25548954/ Thu, 25 Jun 2009 18:04:56 PDT
My mom might die tomorrow.

She has cervical cancer, and tomorrow she's going to have it removed. Her cancer is at stage 4, and stage 5 is fatal. The surgury is just as risky as having the cancer itself, and there is a huge risk that she could die while they're removing it.

I mean, I'm sure that she'll be fine. But there's always that chance. And I know people always say "Think positive!" but they don't know the hell my family has been through. So don't tell me that. My family has the WORST luck in the world. So, yeah, I'm not going to keep my hopes all that high because I know that there's a chance.

It's just... what do you do when your mom dies? Most people's moms die when they're older and they know how to deal with stuff like this. I've only ever had one really good familiy member (that I personally knew) die. It was tragic, but it wasn't my mom. I don't know what I'll do. Even if she doesn't die from the surugry, the cancer could still be there and she could die from that. Or if they get rid of it all, she could fall and hit her head to hard one of these days. It's a given. I've known that this has been possible for a long time. But know that it's staring me in te face, I don't want to deal with it. I don't want to set a date for my mom's funral quite yet. Not now.

I just don't know what to do. Deanna, I'm sorry that one time you and I were at Alyssa's and I seemed mad at you. I really wasn't. When I'm really sad like this, it just comes off as anger because... well, I'm used to doing that. So, I'm truly sorry.

I'm jst scared that if my mom DOES die tomorrow, then Lainie won't move out and I'll be stuck with her until I'm 18. Well, scratch that, because I already decided that is that does happen, I'm never going back to my dads. End of story. But that's a whole big mess that will have to wait.

P.S
At least I get to go see NeverShoutNever on the 5th. Yay.

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]]> ~WasabiTheGreat http://WasabiTheGreat.deviantart.com/journal/25440020/ http://WasabiTheGreat.deviantart.com/journal/25440020/ Sat, 20 Jun 2009 18:30:55 PDT
The weather is not what I would like it. I wish it were a little warmer. One of the walks we went on at TorI's, it started to pour down ice-cold rain. D: It was pretty horrible, but thankfully her mom came and picked us up. I just wish Washington wasn't so bipolar when it comes to weather.

I've been in a little bit of a sad mood lately. I found out on one of the last days of school that the guy I like has a girlfriend. :/ Sucks a little bit. There's not a whole lot to do about that though. I just want to say that I'm sorry for my own bipolar behavior. When I get sad like this, I'm either really hyper and crazy or not interrested in anything at all. Just a heads up right there.

I do hope that everyone's summer break is going well! I hope the rest of the summer goes well. Though it probably won't.

P.S
My thing says I'm satisfied, but I'm not. :/ My stupid computer isn't working.

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]]> ~WasabiTheGreat http://WasabiTheGreat.deviantart.com/journal/25338744/ http://WasabiTheGreat.deviantart.com/journal/25338744/ Mon, 15 Jun 2009 21:00:13 PDT
Anyway, I'm getting really excited about Sakura-Con again. We might have to make our own cosplay this year, which actually sounds like fun. Most people don't like to, but I think that it sounds great and like it would be more fun than just buying a cosplay from the store. That way, you can take pride in what you're wearing. You know what I mean?

School is over in two days, and I honestly (HONESTLY, TRUTHLY I HONESTLY THINK [lulz only Deanna and Alyssa will get that]) have mixed feelings about it. I'm excited that we're out of school and we FINALLY get to relax a little bit. But I'm also going to miss everyone so very much. Like Egger's D:. Today was the last day I saw him because he said that he wasn't going to school on Wednesday. Ah well. At least I got to say goodbye and give him a hug.

By the way, I need some help with my cosplay. I know that everyone already has thier own to do, but all my sister and I really need are tips. We've never done anything like this before, and just a few tips on what to do would be great. I'll do anything for anyone that offers any sort of help. D:

Also, I took my German final today. I'm very worried that I failed it. Wish me luck!

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]]> ~WasabiTheGreat http://WasabiTheGreat.deviantart.com/journal/25281857/ http://WasabiTheGreat.deviantart.com/journal/25281857/ Fri, 12 Jun 2009 21:49:53 PDT

"Once on a yellow piece of paper with green lines
he wrote a poem
And he called it "Chops"
because that was the name of his dog
And that's what it was all about
And his teacher gave him an A
and a gold star
And his mother hung it on the kitchen door
and read it to his aunts
That was the year Father Tracy
took all the kids to the zoo
And he let them sing on the bus
And his little sister was born
with tiny toenails and no hair
And his mother and father kissed a lot
And the girl around the corner sent him a
Valentine signed with a row of X's
and he had to ask his father what the X's meant
And his father always tucked him in bed at night
And was always there to do it.

Once on a piece of white paper with blue lines
he wrote a poem
And he called it "Autumn"
because that was the name of the season
And that's what it was all about
And his teacher gave him an A
and asked him to write more clearly
And his mother never hung it on the kitchen door
because of its new paint
And the kids told him
that Father Tracy smoked cigars
And left butts on the pews
And sometimes they would burn holes
That was the year his sister got glasses
with thick lenses and black frames
And the girl around the corner laughed
when he asked her to go see Santa Claus
And the kids told him why
his mother and father kissed a lot
And his father never tucked him in bed at night
And his father got mad
when he cried for him to do it.

Once on a paper torn from his notebook
he wrote a poem
And he called it "Innocence: A Question"
because that was the question about his girl
And that's what it was all about
And his professor gave him an A
and a strange steady look
And his mother never hung it on the kitchen door
because he never showed her
That was the year that Father Tracy died
And he forgot how the end
of the Apostle's Creed went
And he caught his sister
making out on the back porch
And his mother and father never kissed
or even talked
And the girl around the corner
wore too much makeup
That made him cough when he kissed her
but he kissed her anyway
because that was the thing to do
And at three A.M. he tucked himself into bed
his father snoring soundly

That's why on the back of a brown paper bag
he tried another poem
And he called it "Absolutely Nothing"
Because that's what it was really all about
And he gave himself an A
and a slash on each damned wrist
And he hung it on the bathroom door
because this time he didn't think
he could reach the kitchen."


Pay attention to the feeling that you get after you read this. That feeling of hopelessness and lonliness and neverending empty. Pat really close attention to that.

That's how I feel when friends fight. When people are horrible to each other for no reason at all. Now, this isn't everything that's happening to everyone right now. That's only part of it. The other part is studd that's just happening all around me, just gathering in one spot and creating a giant hole in my heart.

Stop it. Stop fighting.

When people fight, it effects others more than you think. Even people who aren't involved.

]]> ~WasabiTheGreat http://WasabiTheGreat.deviantart.com/journal/25226639/ http://WasabiTheGreat.deviantart.com/journal/25226639/ Tue, 09 Jun 2009 22:31:36 PDT
So, today my sisters and I went birthday shopping for my daddy since his birthday is on Saturday. We went into a game store, and guess what they had? Kingdom Hearts! I had enough money for it, and we almost had everything that we needed for my dad, so I figured "What the hell?".

Life is a bitch.

I get home and everything is working smoothly. Until I try and load a new game. When I hit "New Game", it would just go to a black screen and stay like that. We waited for about ten minutes before my sister and I tried it again. And again and again and again. We even cleaned out the ENTIRE memory card. Not even that worked.

My sister decides to call the GameStop in Poulsbo up by Wal-Mart. She asks if they have any other memory cards for a PS2 besides a 8MB and the lady said no, then just hung up on her. How rude! My sister still had another question. Both of us were VERY put off by that. But we kept going and tried to look up some help on the Internet, and of course, we found nothing that could help.

I got really sad and frustrated. So I called the GameStop in Silverdale, and the guy there was so nice! He helped out so much. I told him what was going on (The game wasn't playing, but there was enough memory and other games worked) and he said to go ahead and come on down tomorrow and trade in the disk!

He sounded cute on the phone, too.

Anyway, he was so very helpful. I reccomend going to GameStop in Silverdale (by Target) instead of the one in Poulsbo. The guys in Poulsbo are not nice at all. And the chew thier gum like a cow.

It's just torture to have a game that you've been wanting to play for YEARS in your hands, and then be told no. It just sucks.

I do hope that everyone is having a better day than I. It was a good day until the game decided to be a little moody bitch.

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]]> ~WasabiTheGreat http://WasabiTheGreat.deviantart.com/journal/25177769/ http://WasabiTheGreat.deviantart.com/journal/25177769/ Sun, 07 Jun 2009 11:13:50 PDT
I am also very excited for Sakura-Con. I know, it's a far ways away, but there are about six people coming with me. So planning ahead is better than being far behind. I am thinking that we are doing Kingdom Hearts 2 because that's where everyone seems to be leaning towards right now. My sister wants to do Eureka Seven, but I'm not sure since there aren't a whole lot of main characters. And I just want to find and anime that's not too over done that has enough main characters for six people. Plus, I don't want to be Dominuqe because he has funny pants. D: I'd much rather be Eureka, but that's beside the point.

So, for now, I guess that I'll have to wait and see what's going to happen. I sure do hope that we do something that everyone can agree on, but knowing my sister and her being a big bitch, it's going to be something not fun. I really do get the feeling that the entire time at Sakura-Con, she's going to be bitching at everyone.

Agh, now I'm stressing out. I'm going to go listen to music now.

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]]> ~WasabiTheGreat http://WasabiTheGreat.deviantart.com/journal/25093989/ http://WasabiTheGreat.deviantart.com/journal/25093989/ Tue, 02 Jun 2009 17:47:39 PDT
Anyway, things have been going pretty good for the most part. Except for the fact that it's been so incredably hot! I'm not enjoying it at all. I don't mind the hot weather, but this is muggy weather. The kind of weather that just seems to stick to everyone. It's not the kind of weather I like that much.

I'm also reall excited for Sakura-Con. And, yet again, we're changing the cosplay. I really liked the idea of Invader Zim, but not everyone was really into it as I seemed to be. Plus my friend Boddy is coming with us this year and it's be nice to do a group with everyone included. We were thinking about doing either Fruits Basket, Kingdom Hearts 1 or 2, Star Ocean, The World Ends With You, or Eureka Seven. Any of those will be totally fun. Especially Kingdom Hearts, because there actually were'nt a whole lot there this year. It was kind of saddening. But, with that said, this is going to be the last time that we change cosplays because if we change it again we're going to run out of time to get everything ready. And I know, people keep saying that we still have a little less than a year. But that time flies by so fast.

Also! One of my best friends in the whole world is coming up on the 10th! Of this month! I can't wait to see him. And he's coming for two weeks! After school gets out, or the weekend that I go back to my moms, I'm going to try and have a get together with him and everyone else because I know that he'll be excited to see everyone. So, yay!

Anyway, I hope that everyone is enjoying the warm weather.



]]> ~WasabiTheGreat http://WasabiTheGreat.deviantart.com/journal/25025627/ http://WasabiTheGreat.deviantart.com/journal/25025627/ Sat, 30 May 2009 01:07:07 PDT
My mom is really good at making people feel like they are nothing. She does this to my sisters and I all the time. When I came home, I really didn't do anything to make her start yelling at me. Honestly, I didn't. I just answered her questions and she started yelling. But you know the worse part? I actually stood up for what I belive in today, what I think is that truth, and she screamed at me for it. I just got so tired of being treated like nothing I just put carried my stuff outside. But halfway to the car I realized that I might not have enough insulin, so I went back inside to get some. We didn't have any, what a shocker. But my mom just yelled at me to get out of the house. To just leave. And as I was leaving, I yelled "I can't fucking wait to get out of here. I can't wait to be halfway across the world," and slammed the door.

It felt good to say that, because if I were to die tomorrow, at least my mom would know that she makes me miserable. Don't beleive that nice person that you see when you first meet her. No. She's horrible.

I guess that it could be my fault for causing more yelling, if you want to look at it like that. She asked me "Why does Kaitlyn think that she's in charge around here?!" or something like that. I just honestly replied "Because when me and babe were in 5th and 6th grade, yoou were working and going to school full time, so Kaitlyn probably feels like she still has some control." And then she really flipped, screaming at me "Don't you fucking dare hold that over my head!"

I really can't wait until the day she relizes that she's done NOTHING with her life, and she regrets everything. Unlike her, I'm not going to bore my kids to death with the same "pity stories" over and over again.

No. I vow, right now, to raise my kids the complete opposite than my mom raised me. For starters, I'm actually going to BE THERE for them. Secondly, I'm not going to scream at them whenever something goes wrong. I want to teach them that anger and violence isn't the answer to everything. And, last but not leaat, I'm going to TRY (not TELL, TRY) to teach my kids that horrible life experiences can be dealt with. That they don't have to run the rest of your life. My mom goes on about all the horrible things that happened to her (and yes, they are horrible, but after hearing about them for 15 years they start to... I don't know.) and how she just can't get over them. Jeez, mom, you're not the only one in the universe that has been hit in thier life. Or did a lot of drugs. Or had a crappy boyfriend all through highschool. You can't play the victim card all the time. Especially when you're almost 50 and all of this happened like 30 years ago.

Now, I'm not saying that situations like that are not bad. That's not what I'm saying at all. It just gets really tiring when someone plays the victim card thier whole life. My mom doesn't even have a clue. She thinks that everything horrible happens to her. I've been cornered my by best friend with a knife. I've had to deal with one suicide and two suicide threats all within three months. I've had emotional break downs and drug addicted boyfriends and my own suicidal thoughts. I've been through an eating disorder that no one knew about, I've been through a divorce. But do you hear me whining about these everyday? No. That's because I've grown from them. Granted I don't like knives or the subject of suicide.

The point of this journal is that I hate my mom. I really do. Another point would be I hate people who play the "pity card". Don't ever do that to me.

I'm not saying don't ever come and talk to me about problems. That's not what I'm saying at all. It's just if you do something constantly just to know that someone feels bad for you, that pisses me off.

Anyway, I hope everyone had a better day than I did.

:/

]]> ~WasabiTheGreat http://WasabiTheGreat.deviantart.com/journal/25006299/ http://WasabiTheGreat.deviantart.com/journal/25006299/ Thu, 28 May 2009 21:50:48 PDT

RULES:
1) Put your iTunes, windows media, MP3 player, etc. on Shuffle
2) For each question, press the next button to get your answer
3) YOU MUST WRITE THE NAME OF THE SONG NO MATTER HOW SILLY IT SOUNDS!
4) Put any comments in brackets after the song name

Are you male or female?
Riders on the Storm by The Doors.
Totally.


Describe Yourself!
Take Me Out by Franz Ferdinand.
Um...ok?


What do people feel when they are around you?
Running by No Doubt.


Describe your current relationship:
Lounge Act by Nirvana.


Where would you like to be now?:
The Blister Exists by Slipknot.
What the fuck?


How do you feel about love?
Again by Lenny Kravits.
Yay.
:3


What is your life like?
Having A Blast by Green Day.


What would you ask if you had only one wish?
Time by Pink Floyd.


Say something wise.
Every Picture Tells A Story by Rod Stewart.


If someone said "is that okay?" you would say
Real Mothafuckin G's by Eazy E.
LULZ.


What do you like in a guy?
Smells Like Teen Spirit by Nirvana.
No. I hate smlley guys LOL.


How do you feel today?
There's A Class For This by Cute Is What We Aim For.


What's your life's purpose?
Warning by Green Day.


What is your motto?
Are you ready to ROCK? by Miyavi.
LULZ.


What do you think of your parent(s)?
Ain't 2 Proud 2 Beg by TLC.
ahaha So true.


What do you think about very often?
Around The World by Red Hot Chili Peppers.


What is 2+2?
Numb by Linkin Park.


What do you think of your best friend?
Dirty Deeds Done Dirt Cheap by AC/DC.
ahaha NO.


What do you think about the person you like?
Times Like These by Foo Fighters.
Not realy.


What is your life story?
Fat Bottomed Girls by Queen.


What do you want to be when you grow up?
Clint Eastwood by The Gorillaz.


What will you want to dance to in your wedding?
Duality by Slipknot.


What will they play at your funeral?
Burn Out by Green Day.


What's your hobby/interest?
Barely Breathing by Duncan Sheik.


What is your biggest fear?
Online Songs by blink-182


What's your biggest secret?
What I Got by Sublime.


What do you think of your friends?
Magic Carpet Ride by Steppenwolf.

]]> ~WasabiTheGreat http://WasabiTheGreat.deviantart.com/journal/24965476/ http://WasabiTheGreat.deviantart.com/journal/24965476/ Tue, 26 May 2009 17:05:35 PDT
Well, the good things is that Sakura-Con PreReg is open. I do hope that everyone is getting ready for that. This year I'm going to try and have everyone that I'm going with to be PreReg'd so that they don't have to wait in line. I'd feel terrible if they did and we all went off and had fun. Money also isn't that much of a strssor this year because we decided to walk to the Con instead of driving or getting a hotel. It's going to be so much cheaper. Even more so if we use the Bainbridge ferry since it's free to walk on to Seattle. So that right there takes a lot of stress off. The only thing I really have to worry about now is having everyone get thier cosplay together, having enough money to buy things/buy food/ pay for ferry. Maybe taxi on the last day since we'll all be tired. But over all, I'm looking forward to it.

I'm also excited about summer. This summer I'm going to try and do as much as possible. I don't want to sit on my ass and do nothing like I did last summer. Even if it's just going for a short walk, I'm cool with that. I just want to try and be outside everyday since this summer should be nice. And I don't want to waste it away.

I've been sad about a few things, but I don't really want to talk about them. It's just going to piss everyone off. And, really, that's the last thing that I want to do.

So, for now, I'm just an emotional wreck. Fear me.

]]> ~WasabiTheGreat http://WasabiTheGreat.deviantart.com/journal/24923523/ http://WasabiTheGreat.deviantart.com/journal/24923523/ Sun, 24 May 2009 11:55:45 PDT ! So, go to the site and Pre-Reg NOW! I'm so excited for Sakura-Con, you guys have no idea. And I'm really hyper right now.

So, you guys know that I am going as GIR from Invader Zim. My friend Mary is going as Gaz, Maya is going as Dib, and Izzy might go as Zim if he can come. There's only about a 70% chance that he can come. AH well, if he can't come then Mary can be Zim or if Felicia comes she'll be Zim. I don't really want to think about that because it'll make me sad and I'm in a really good mood right now.

I'm also doing the 100 Theme Challenge. So far I've only got 3 (I think) done, but I'm woring hard on others. Not really. I'm being lazy. But I'm going to try and do some more this weekend since I have no school on Monday. Yay.

Anyway, go get your Pre-Reg! NOW!

<3

]]> ~WasabiTheGreat http://WasabiTheGreat.deviantart.com/journal/24879764/ http://WasabiTheGreat.deviantart.com/journal/24879764/ Thu, 21 May 2009 19:02:10 PDT
Hallo! Wie geht's? Ich heiss Kindra. Wie heiss du? Ich gehe nach Poulsbo und Silverdale. Ich gehe in North Kistap High School. Ich bin funfzehn Jahre alt. Ich mache die Musik hoeren. Ich mache Tennis und Fussball nicht. Was machst du gern? Was isst du gern? I esse Schokoeis und Erdbereis gern. Ich esse Hamburger nicht gern.

Wow, that's as far as I could get. That's only, like, chapter 5. I don't even think I spelled everything right.

Anyway, how have you guys been? I have been much better than before. As you guys know from deviations, I'm doing the 100 Theme challenge thing. I'm hopeing that it will help me with my anatomy and my coloring skills. I have horrible anatomy skills right now. It's quite sad actually.

With that note, I'm going to try and draw as much as I can over the summer. So not everything that I post will be photography from now on. I do love photography, but it also takes away from my drawing time.

By the way, don't be freaked out by some of the couples that I post. I like REALLY weird couples. Also, if you don't recognize four of the people I post, that's because they're my characters. NOT OC'S. Well, kind of. But I don't like to call them that. They're going to be real, published characters one day.

So, please be pateint! I plan to have the challenge list done by New Years. Which will be a LOT of drawing for me.



]]> ~WasabiTheGreat http://WasabiTheGreat.deviantart.com/journal/24809822/ http://WasabiTheGreat.deviantart.com/journal/24809822/ Sun, 17 May 2009 17:33:01 PDT
Instead, we decided to do an Invader Zim cosplay group.

When I told my sister this, she started yelling at me, telling me that it was stupid and that we have to stick the the Melancholy of Haruhi Suzumiya. I told her no, we can't do it because not everyone can and that she's not in charge of the group anyway. She just yelled back at me that I'm not in charge either and that I'm just stupid.

:/

I don't really care, because we already decided to do it. And everyone is in for this, unlike the other idea. We already have characters picked out for each person and everything. So, my sister can cosplay as something else if she wants to. I don't really care. We're all pumped for this idea.

I personally thought it was a good idea because last year there was just a bunch of GIR cosplayer's and no Zim's or Dib's or even Gaz's. It was just GIR. So I thought, "Hey, let's think outside of the box a little bit!". But then my sister went and killed my mood by telling me that I was stupid for thinking of this.

Whatever, I don't care.

So, that's the plan.

]]> ~WasabiTheGreat http://WasabiTheGreat.deviantart.com/journal/24626367/ http://WasabiTheGreat.deviantart.com/journal/24626367/ Wed, 06 May 2009 20:48:28 PDT
1. I think you're amazing. You always make me laugh even when we're both having a bad day. Sometimes I feel like I'm failing as a friend because I can't always make you smile, but that's partly my own fault. I don't even remember how we became friends; I just remember meeting you and BOOM. We were friends. I consider you one of my best friends ever and I hope you feel the same way. I LOVE YOU. But in a friend way lulz.

2. I'm glad that I finally told you that we will never happen again. I'm finally gad that I fully pushed you away and told you that we're NEVER going to get back together. And I was surprised when you told me you told me that you said "I love you" to make me happy. How is that supposed to make me happy? You crushed me and I had to reinvent myself all over again. You don't know when kind of mental strain that put on me. I'm so glad that I'm done being nice to you and I'm sticking to telling the truth.

3. You put more mental strain on my sister and me more than you'll ever know. I know for a fact that twenty years from now, when someone asks "How was your childhood?", I'll reply with "Shit.". And you know why? Because you tell us every time something doesn't go your way that we're a dissapointment. That we're going to end up like Aunt Val. I do hope to be a better parent than you. I really do.

4. I don't know why you don't just break up with him. I know that I can't force you to, but if you ask me how to break up with someone, then you better fucking do it. You had a great chance to do it today, but you didn't because he showed that he cared for ONE MILLASECOND. He's a jackass. He does NOT care about you. He's just dating you because he's bored. Really. And he's that much of a dick to do it, too.

5. I want my dad to kick you out of the house. I really do. You're a fucking bitch that spends 2000+ dollars a MONTH on bingo. I hate you.

6. I like you a lot, I do. But I hardly know you, and what I do of you you're into that whole drug crowd. I can't say "Don't do it." because it's your life and I've already tried that with someone. At the same time, I like who you are. You're honest, and you really don't care what people think about you. I just really like that in a person.

7. If I ever see you again in my entire life, I'm going to rip you apart, You tore my family apart, and I never said what I really thought about that. And that one night when you were crying and apologizing, I didn't belief a word of it. And you know what's extra shit? When dad made us move you're crap into your car. I can't wait to punch you someday for everything you put us thorugh.

8. You're so mean to me, and I don't even know why. I do try being nice, really I do, but it's so damn hard when you're a complete bitch. Really. I've never done anything do make you mad. Maybe it's because I'm not "fake emo/scene" or because I don't eat every five seconds. Grow up. Just because you're friends with Shyane or whothefuckcares doesn't mean you can be awful to everyone else.

9. CLEAN UP AFTER YOURSELF. It's not that hard to put a dish in the dishwasher or to flush the freaking toilet. Really, it's not. Even a five year old can do it.

10. Stop being a douche. Just because I didn't "color it right" doesn't mean you have to fail me on the project. I don't even try in that class anymore. Now I'm probably going to fail that class and will have to make up a VAPA credit. Thanks, asshole.

11. SO I HERD YOU LEIK MUDKIPS. lulz


Go ahead, do it. It actually made me feel a little better. Deanna, I bet you can't guess yours LOL.

]]> ~WasabiTheGreat http://WasabiTheGreat.deviantart.com/journal/24575091/ http://WasabiTheGreat.deviantart.com/journal/24575091/ Sun, 03 May 2009 21:55:55 PDT
Anyway, I'm going to be doing a big art dump soon. I scanned a lot of things, but they were all crooked so my older sister has to fix them all in PhotoShop. So they probably won't be ready for a little while. I actually colored some stuff! I can draw drawings.

I do hope that you guys like my coloring skills when I upload them. Some of them I colored really fast (because I got impatiant LULZ), but hopefully they turned out ok.

Things have been going pretty good recently. As you guys know, I'm going as BB from Death Note next year to Sakura-Con. The only things that I really need to get for my cosplay is red contact lens' and fake blood/ red shit to put on my face. Hopefully I can make a good BB, since his personality is kind of hard to understand. I was dissapointed with myself because I looked like L this year, but I couldn't get into character at all. It was rather depressing.

So if anyone knows where I can get red contacts for cheap, please let me know. I have looked around, but I want to check out some places that aren't online. Please let me know.

And also, I need a pen-name for a fan-fiction account because my sister and I are making a conjoined account. So far we have:

Micah Has Never Had Sex
Asian Sex Slaves
Dungeons and Dragons.

<3

]]> ~WasabiTheGreat