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just a quick update - i'm moving to my own apartment tomorrow (sunday 16.8.) 'nd i'm in the worst case without internet about two weeks @__@''
i'll check my messages always when i can ~
'nd i'll work on that sketch-thingy ! there's still slots open *u*
but now. some rest. thxbye~


.: free sketches


copied from ~Lefrin's journal ~

the first 10 people that comment in this journal will get a free __sketch__ of anything you want. but, in exchange, you have to put this and the free offer of 10 __sketches__. if anyone already has done this or something like that, simply put the link of your journal with the offer in your comment to the journal you ask a __sketch__ to... its just for fun !

.... i can draw almost everything. 8'D or, at least, i can try X'D
i don't draw just canines or people, i can draw for example felines, birds, any animals you suggest, dragons, meccha, fantasycreatures et cetera et cetera.
you can always ask. 'D

~ W


.: slots

I ~labassistant008 - Xigbar meets Cid Highwind >8||
II ~Lefrin - Baz [link]
III ~Wempuli - Waka
IV ~Wican - [link]
V =ShadeofShinon - Fala
VI ~variksenpelatt - Green and Charizard from Pokémon [link]
VII ~Ficasahn - Mortal Sielumarionetti (as human)
VIII ~haarukka - ?
IX ~Glowcrow - Nuru Nia [link]
X ~Sumu-Sazu - ?

]]> ~Weenyah http://Weenyah.deviantart.com/journal/26562210/ http://Weenyah.deviantart.com/journal/26562210/ Thu, 13 Aug 2009 05:07:07 PDT Art status || 100 themes challenge



... 8'D
oh god i have been dead. 'D sorry for being so lazy t' update u__u

but well.
i came, as you see, alive from greece - though it was hot like hell all the time. 8'D
but i loved the night ;w; it was just .. perfectly warm and the life and lights in the athens at night and that sky OH GOD. i want to feel it sometime in the future again. <3
... we were good tourists and visited some ruins, went shopping 'nd swimming et cetera. 'D
it wasn't anything special, that holiday, but it was nice enough~

after that was animecon, which was held in helsinki. we were with ~Emju at ~Wempuli's place four days, 'nd i sure had fun~ *u*
though my sunday's costume, zack fair, was just .. horrible. @__@''''
i'm going to remake the whole costume to next year's tracon.

........ and after all this was ropecon 31.7. - 2.8. X'D
it just was so great, better than animecon or desucon to me *uuu*
i cosplayed cid highwind's ac version, and i - got - finally - the whole costume - ready, i had gloves in the right size etc. >'''D now my soul can rest in peace u__u
i worked there 8 hours and got the ticket to convention for free, and it was actually fun as well. i did'nt sleep much and all the time was happening and asdasdasd 8''D <3
thanks for everybody for that, it was great. <3 ... though i had to leave early on sunday :00 i went to my place to clean up and sort things.

oh, right - i'm moving to helsinki on this week's sunday 8'D i were at my place last saturday as well, and that apartment starts to be ready. i have to get just couple of things anymore~
and next weeks tuesday i'm going to helsinki's upper secondary school of arts. *u* i'm just so, so happy that i got there, it has been my dream about five, six years. <3
so yes, i'm actually waiting for the school to start. >'D


so that was it, what has been happening here 'D
...... aaand then. free sketches. >8"D i haven't drawn so much lately, i guess that i have been so busy and i just have been too lazy to draw all the time. so, new start !


copied from ~Lefrin's journal ~

the first 10 people that comment in this journal will get a free __sketch__ of anything you want. but, in exchange, you have to put this and the free offer of 10 __sketches__. if anyone already has done this or something like that, simply put the link of your journal with the offer in your comment to the journal you ask a __sketch__ to... its just for fun !

.... i can draw almost everything. 8'D or, at least, i can try X'D
i don't draw just canines or people, i can draw for example felines, birds, any animals you suggest, dragons, meccha, fantasycreatures et cetera et cetera.
you can always ask. 'D

~ W


.: sketches

I ~labassistant008 - Xigbar meets Cid Highwind >8||
II ~Lefrin - ?
III ~Wempuli - ?
IV ~Wican - [link]

]]> ~Weenyah http://Weenyah.deviantart.com/journal/25447231/ http://Weenyah.deviantart.com/journal/25447231/ Sun, 21 Jun 2009 05:23:05 PDT Art status || 100 themes challenge




mawr~~

just updating. ''D
.. sorry that i haven't uploaded anything for a while, but i promise that you'll soon see some new stuff. u_u
i have to finish couple of pictures and believe, i have a lot of ideas that i want to try out. 'D
i just don't have enough time D8

i'm going to Greece tomorrow, 22. of June, 'nd i'm coming back on 29. day.
i'm not going to be active here on those days since we don't have a computer there, but let's see if i can finish some drawings and take some pictures~~
and i still should upload pictures from our photoshoot (which was held in May) and Desucon. 'D well, lot's to do ! u_u

and now i'm stressing about Animecon - yes, still X'D - since i can't do my costumes in Athens and asfdghlslf. D::
... hope that i will get them ready before the deadline. u__u''
i should still finish a shirt, do some straps, finish my armors and buster sword, make couple of shoes and and .. lot's of stuff. o_o''

.......... hmm. hopefully i will get back alive, since there are fires in the ground, earthquakes and about 30-40 degrees. X'D
i'll melt and sent back in a bucket .. okay okay, i try my best to enjoy my time here and so on and so on, since i haven't been abroad for years. ''D though i don't have a lot of money o-o
i'm getting my paycheck from my summejob a day after i'm coming back to home. 'D but well, at least i have then some money to animecon and to next years conventions~
.... hmm, i should do a status to my next cosplays, too. >8| i just updated my art status (........ at last) dyn~ :3

i guess that that was all. 'D just a random journal entry to tell, why i'm not online for a week. \o



...................... and deviantART's mood's are not working, again 8|



always yours,
Weenyah ♥

]]> ~Weenyah http://Weenyah.deviantart.com/journal/25273532/ http://Weenyah.deviantart.com/journal/25273532/ Fri, 12 Jun 2009 13:10:28 PDT Art status || 100 themes challenge || Feature!



... okay, sorry for spamming yer message centres, but i had t' say this out loud since i'm not so sure yet by myself, that is this really truly happening .. 8''D

but well.
as i said in m' last journal - i got the results to upper secondary schools today.
and - i got to that school that i wanted ! ;www;
i'm now a student of Helsinki's Upper Secondary School of Visual Arts, and i'm all like .. wut? X"D and i'm just so happy. ;W; many of my friends will stay here, in a small city where i live, and i have to move to helsinki since it's 115 kilometres from my home town ó---o'' and yes, i'm 15 and moving away, but can't help it 'D and i'm happy that i will _at last_ get away from here, since i just need some .. own peace and space. m' mother is okay as a mom, but let's say that she's a little bit too strict. but i will miss all my dear ones; although i'm coming home almost every week at first. ._.

oh well, my results. from 20 points i got 17,33 *u*
.. i got from my certificate 9,33 points, and 8 points from the boards *uu* in that exam, i had to draw three pictures in four hours, and i didn't think that i could get so much points .. o---o but well, as said i'm just happy. <3

now all my plans are working 'D
all the planning and dreams and such are really coming true now ;w;
from that fuckin' pathetic, suicidal, bullied little girl, i have grown and living now my own life, my own dreams. and i'm happy in my life first time in 9 years, so this all is meaning a lot for me.

i can't say how thankful i am to several people, i hope that you know who you are - if you don't, i'll let you know. ♥
and a lot of people have let me know how they wish me luck, and have congratulated me - thanks a lot for that too ! *U*

so well, nothing more too special. ''D i just wanted to write this down and tell, that gosh, i'm really getting to that school that i have dreamt about six years at least. X"D
tydyn~ <3


with love, exhaustion and mushrooms,
Weenyah

]]> ~Weenyah http://Weenyah.deviantart.com/journal/25249310/ http://Weenyah.deviantart.com/journal/25249310/ Thu, 11 Jun 2009 06:59:47 PDT Art status || 100 themes challenge || Feature!



che, just updating~

first - tomorrow i will know, did i get to that school that i wanted .. @__@'' .. gyahh i'm stressing and hyperventilating and panicking and and .. brr. oh well, let's see about that on friday. D::

but not more about that, and to the happier things. 'D
i spent my last weekend in finland's cities helsinki and lahti – on friday i left to our capital to *Wempuli's place, and on saturday morning we left to lahti after sleeping like, an our? X”D desucon was held there. :3 i was cosplaying just yuki eiri from gravitation and my costume was really simple, but i was asked to be yuki by ~ffracture since she cosplayed shuichi and wanted yuki too. 'D so well. i'd have loved to cosplay larxene from KHII too, but i didn't have enough money to make an organization coat, so that costume will move to a later convention.~
but well, though my very simple costume, i had fun *u* it wasn't the best con where i had been, but because all my friends it was great. <3 saturday just .. went, mostly because i was so tired and all the time like ”...”, and i stressed with my mom since she was nazi as always, and .. well. thank god things settled down with her and i didn't have to go home already on saturday. u_u but i had _still_ fun, and later on saturday was great *uu* ... we slept on ~Meripihkassa's place, and when i took my binds off it was just ... ghh. X”D on sunday i wasn't so tired 'nd it went a little bit better, and i saw more official shows too. n_n though, i started to panic FFFight on the noon, 'nd i started to feel dizzy 'nd collapsed onto the floor. 'D i was 'kay after a while but when the fight came 'nd i got out of the stage (i lost, but it didn't matter, i had fun 'D), my head was aching, i guess that i had some temperature 'nd it really started to blacken in m' eyes, and i felt kinda .. light? ''''D i guess that feeling was due to loss of sleep, food and air, since i hadn't still slept nor eaten so much, and i had binds.. 8'D but well, after i got some water and medicine i was al'right, and so on~
we left desucon with wempu at six since we had to catch a train, but shit, we missed it. X”D but thank god my mom didn't get later angry to me at all, though i was an our late. *u* 'nd our pretty journey back to helsinki was interesting, thanks to ~umiyo and co. for being there. '''D
..... laa. i think i forgot to say lots of things, but well, thanks to everybody who was in desucon and kept me company, especially wempu since ya didn't left me anywhere to wander alone. ''D .. i think that people with us changed all the time, but still, you all made my con better so thank you ~ <3
and now it seems that I have only things to complain. X”D .. no, although everything didn't go so well, desucon was great, really. *ww*

hmm. something more? now i'm earning some money on summer job, i was lucky enough to get one. u__u and i'm working on animecon's costumes like crazy, i will cosplay ANBU!Sasuke Uchiha from Naruto and Zack Fair from FFVII: CC there. ~ .. i just hope that i will get my costumes ready. o-o''

but, nothing more, see ya fellas 'nd take care~~
with love, Weenyah ♥

]]> ~Weenyah http://Weenyah.deviantart.com/journal/24852821/ http://Weenyah.deviantart.com/journal/24852821/ Wed, 20 May 2009 08:22:42 PDT Art status || 100 themes challenge || Feature!


meowrr ~


some signs of life again. ''D
sorry again about the quietness, i'm just fuckin' lazy t' upload anything. 8'D
well, stay on the channel, i'm putting here some stuff at the moment i find some time and get my computer back. 'D [my mom took it 'cause i stood up too late, but well, that's not gonna last very many days anymore~]

short review - i'm stressing a hell out in the moment. 'D oh well, school is going to end in a week and blah blah but i will get the results of m' highhschool in 12. june. -ö-'''
well, i hope that all exams and numbers and all stuff like that have went well, so i could get where i want, but still .... argh. X'D

and well, i'm in the moment very happy in m' life. those who have read m' journals and know me, knows as well that i haven't had very good time in about ... nine years..? but things are _finally_ setting up and i'm happy, even that there's some downhills - 'cause i can be positive nowadays. *u*
thanks t' some special persons, you know who you are. ♥

...... eee X"D ... i don't have anything very clear or clever in m' head in the moment, so .. just to add, i stole this thingie from *Wempuli, sorry dear~ n_n




Centaur:
[x] You are rather wild, and let your instincts run you.
[ ] You get drunk a lot.
[/] Bravery and boldness is second nature to you.
[ ] You have a deep love for astronomy and the universe.
[/] You like to read your daily horoscope. [.. sometimes? 'D]
[ ] You have a high level of pride in yourself.
[/] In the woods is the best place for you to be.
[x] You are spiritual.
[ ] The horse is your favorite animal.
[/] You are possessive and territorial.
Total: 4

Elf:
[/] Your ears are slightly pointed at the tips (be honest). […. yes. my left ear is slighlty pointed, right one isn't. X”D]
[/] You are very intelligent.
[/] Your five senses are extremely keen.
[ ] Your weight is quite a bit lighter than the average person at your particular height.
[ ] You always wear elegant clothes and speak as politely as possible.
[x] You are most at peace when you are gazing at something beautiful, like nature.
[ ] You look very young for your age.
[x] You rarely get sick.
[/] You are a very hard worker.
[/] Above all other superpowers, you would love to read minds or see the future.
Total: 4.5

Fairy:
[x] You are happy a lot of the time.
[x] The best superpower to you would be to fly.
[ ] You are very shy.
[x] You love the forest and plant life in general.
[x] You are always willing to help others, even if you might not be the best to offer aid.
[ ] You are young and short.
[/] Dancing is one of your favorite pastimes.
[ ] If someone ticks you off, you are very clever with getting them back.
[x] Your clothing isn't always presentable, but you are comfortable with what you wear.
[/] Circles are a wonderful symbol of unity to you.
Total: 6

Gnome / Dwarf:
[/] You are excellent with crafts and handiwork.
[ ] In social situations, you tend to be a little awkward.
[ ] You are short for your age.
[ ] You are an isolationist.
[ ] You love to play practical jokes on people.
[ ] You are extremely fascinated with jewelry.
[x] You look older than your age.
[x] You love the woods and the mountains.
[ ] You are well off, or come from a family that is well off.
[/] You have a short temper.
Total: 3

Harpy / Siren:
[ ] You are best at talking bad about people behind their backs and not to their face.
[ ] When you are annoyed, you will go to a great extent to torment whoever did so to you.
[ ] You often take things that aren't yours.
[ ] You are easily angered.
[x] Death fascinates you.
[x] You are female, or a feminine-looking man.
[/] You associate yourself with the wind element.
[x] You can switch quickly between your light and dark side.
[ ] You love to trick others.
[/] You have a ravenous appetite.
Total: 4

Mermaid:
[x] You love the beach moreso because of the water than the shore itself.
[/] Fish are some of the most beautiful creatures to you.
[x] The ultimate superpower to you would be to breathe underwater.
[/] You enjoy looking at ships, but not riding them, as well as you like ships for traveling, not hunting in the sea.
[x] You are good at swimming.
[x] You like to collect shells.
[ ] You use sea items as jewelry or decor... ]]> ~Weenyah http://Weenyah.deviantart.com/journal/23982346/ http://Weenyah.deviantart.com/journal/23982346/ Tue, 31 Mar 2009 09:01:08 PDT Art status || 100 themes challenge || Feature!


GYAHH.
.. * crawls in * ... i'm .. alive ... ''D
why th' hell i'm always starting all the journal entrys and submissions with that sentance? u__u'

but anyway, i am ! 8'D
.. really guys. sorry that i have been so unactive here, i just hadn't have any strength to upload anything - those couple of pictures of my cosplay were only signs of m' living. 'D
i should upload some pictures, the oldest are from december @_@

.. what should i say? 8''D
a lot had happened since my last journal, which was some shitty angst, but the first thing that comes to my mind is absolutely that i'm okay, now. like ... let's say that i haven't been much in past 9 years.
so, it's great - of course i'm not dancing on roses as we say in finland, i have m' bad days as ev'ryone else but it's not a big deal, as i know that things are always going t' settle downn and better days will come. :3
..... 'nd now you're like "wuut, what happened to that angsty child >8O" ... X'D
it's just better t' be positive, really. i'm surviving from everything with that. 'D

hn. i promised some time ago tell 'bout tracon, that was held in february, but i guess that i should just say that i had hell fun there, cosplaying cid highwind, meeting people et cetera. 8'D
.. there i fell for the pairing of cid x vincent, and it became m' otp so soon that i cannot do anything else than wonder .... X'D .. i'm staying up late all the night's with all the fanfictions 'n' *Wempuli, as she was m' gorgeous vincent and fell with me. X'D thank ya dear fer ev'ry bright and not-so-bright conversation, tha' we have at nights. 8'D
and sorry people, if my gallery will fulfill with cosplay pictures and some drawings about these, i try to be decent and upload some other things, too. 8"D
after tracon i have been in anniversary photoshoot, too, which was held in the last day of february - i was at wempu's place and visited her school, too - it really was a culture-awakening. u_u * serious face * ...... i don't admit anything about all the scetches in my notes, especially in my math's notebook ......
it was fun there and i met new people ~ *w* .. but my cosplay prop, cid's spear, broke. D8 .. i have to repair it for the next photoshoot.

mm, nothing else? i'm stressing out like hell all my school numbers 'nd stuff, 'cause i will go to the upper seconday school next, and .. gyahh @_@
i _try_ to get t' da Helsinki upper secondary school of visual arts.. this is one thing, that is making m' life so difficult in this moment; stress, loss of money, fear 'cause i'm not so sure at all that can pass the test - not to mention all the personal life problems. ._.
oh well, let's see if i really am alive after sommer. 'D

and one thing, too, that's complicating my life is money. or well, that i don't have it. @__@
i have promised to do about four costumes for next couple of months, and gosh, i'm stressting that too. X'D .. oh time, why you fly so fast ~
well, guess that i can handle this u_u''' .. hopely.

then - the last thing, i promise! - i have been tagged at least twice during some past months. 8'D .. i have already done this about three times, but blame ~NorieCat and ~Ficasahn. 'D


_____rules

I. Post these rules.
II. Each tagged person must post 8 things about their self on their journal.
III. At the end, you have to choose and tag 8 people and post their icons on the same journal.
IV. Go to their pages and send a message saying you tagged them.
V. No tag-backs.

_____tag

I – weenyah has an earfetish. 'nd a nosefetish. 'nd bellyfetish. '''D shapes <3
II – weenyah likes to bite >'D
III – weenyah has no brains anymore. they're replaced with pink cotton candy because of *caugh* otp. u_u
IV – weenyah wants t' learn latin :3
V – weenyah drinks too much tea, goddamnit.
VI – weenyah sleeps nowadays usually 2 – 5 hours at nights ...
VII – weenyah has a goddaughter ~
VIII – weenyah eats few times a day, but too much. u_u

.... 'nd ..... i'm not tagging ya. 'D .. sorry but i'm too lazy t' find some victims now, i'm just a while ago eaten feline. u_u
go ahead and steal this, if you want ~ *u*



that's it, ev'rything from this day. 'D see ya, fellas ♥

~ Weenyah

]]> ~Weenyah http://Weenyah.deviantart.com/journal/22434173/ http://Weenyah.deviantart.com/journal/22434173/ Tue, 06 Jan 2009 13:31:44 PST Art status || 100 themes challenge || Feature!



mau.


sorry that i have been so unactive here, it seems that i'm "on" my account all the time, but really i just don't logout when i left da. n_n' .. but i promise to answer al my messages soon~


but well. some selfish, angsty text, sorry.


....... in this moment .. i just don't want to communicate with anyone. i feel bad, pissed and jealous, and i don't have right to that. u__u .. so i'm just angry with the world and angry with myself. i taught today that i'm not that angsty person anymore - and that's kinda true, yes - but still .. i have my sins. i'm selfish, jealous bastard, and no wonder why so many people hate me. i have lived with that about nine years, so no big deal, but in this moment i would just like to scream. .... no, i'm not doing it, it won't change a thing. i know. i know that i'm a reasonable person, who can control her feelings. i know. i know. but i still feel bad, and i cannot do anything else than keep it inside and wait that it goes by. unluckily, i have to go to school tomorrow. and there i have to communicate, want or not. fuck.
in this moment, i should be doing math. no, i should have done that hours ago. but i didn't, and now i'm stressing again. i have really started to hate this subject - after solving about 30 high school-grade math exercises. they were horrible, i solved them about 12 hours ! and still, if they aren't right, all the work was wasted. i'm a little bit panicking my math number, and whole school report. i have a half of year left school, so those numbers are important.
and i hate stressing school.

... i don't have enough strength to be positive now. i'm hurting all the ones i love, and when i try to fix things, i make everything just worse. i guess that it would be better if i would just be locked in my room. then i wouldn't hurt anyone. i feel so fucking unfamiliar in my home and when i'm staying by my dad, too. yes, my parents have divorced, and i live with my mother. i just was five days visiting my dad's side of family, and it was nice, but .. i feel like a guest there. here i feel empty and .. not wanted. i don't have a place in this world - i know that i have to make it as myself, but in this moment i'm really lost, and it's hard to have enough strength to everything. i guess that it would be better to everyone if i wouldn't exist at all.

.. and i feel so damn cold every moment.


ah well. sorry for this, i just had to shed something out. i cannot talk about everything i fear, want or think with anyone - i don't trust even myself so much. i have cleared to myself, what i have to do, but in this moment i will just recoup and keep continuing day after day.
i love ya all, thank you for everything ♥


- always your, weenyah


ED/ of course, happy new year to all ! .. i didn't have a christmas spirit, or holiday spirit at all, but well .. i had fun with my friends, before the new year's eve and in that evening too. thank you for that <3

]]> ~Weenyah http://Weenyah.deviantart.com/journal/21284128/ http://Weenyah.deviantart.com/journal/21284128/ Sun, 02 Nov 2008 13:22:08 PST Art status || 100 themes challenge || Feature!


hiya. n_n

... i'm way too lazy here, i admit that. |''D i just have too much to do, and drawing and stuff in here just have to wait. 8< .. so, don't wonder if i'm answering all of the sudden in a comment, that you left like.. two months ago or somethin' like that. XD * shames * .. sry. ;------;
and i'm always having something in my mind, that i could write here - but when i really start to write, all of that is just.. gone from my mind. XD well. * winnie the pooh - syndrome * think, think, think.

right.
.. hum, first of all. my last weekend, 25. - 26.10, was FUCKIN' AWESOME. we were - me and a dear friend ~Emju - in the capital of finland, helsinki, in a book fair. and it just were.. great. BECAUSE. we cosplayed. and met some otakus. and i bought yaoi, hell yeah. <3 .. and stuff like that, i think that you get it? n_n .. so, it wasn't just a ordinary book fair, there were a cosplay competition too. it was great to see all of those costumes. <3
that was on saturday - on sunday we crazy cosplayers made some own program. >83 .. first there was some spin the bottle-game ( of course i and ficci chose a misson, not a truth, and we had to strip there - in a fair ! XD ) then we had L's and some random boy's wedding. yea, they were both actually boys, and they had a liquorice-kiss. <3 it was sweet *,,* .. and and then we had a FFFight, hell yeah ! i wanted to join so much, but i was scared that i would screw up, but then we had some pairfights and i fought with my wife ( who was cosplaying itachi XD ) ~Ficasahn. THAT WAS SO FUN. we made some very .. exotic moves. XD
on sunday i met some such sweet persons. <3 .. i raped momo, who i hardly knew - well yea, we got to know each others later. 8""D she was on TWO handcuffs AND a collar ! XD .. another handcuffs and collar were from me <3 ( yes, i'm having 'em always with me, beware >|DD ) and and then there was a pink uke, who were hugging us and she just were so cute uke! n_n .. she wanted a name, so she let me name her "hikaru". <3 hikaru-chan, i miss u too ;----;
oh, i guess that i should go back on saturday and start over? XD well, me, emju and two of our friends woke up early and we went by train to helsinki. i and emu were staying at ~Ficasahn's place, so we all went there and changed our clothes. i was cosplaying saule from sugar sugar rune in school uniform. n_n [link] -- i'm in right, AND YES, i'm having a collar in this picture. u_u .. my friend in left was kinda cosplaying houx from SSR, but we couldn't have blond hair for her. .__. but, the main thing was that we thought first that houx would be seme. so that's why i have a collar. u_u .. but then we found out with an one friend of mine, that yeah, saule is seme, and the collar was .. well .. very fast on houx' neck. XD .. phew, luckily i was uke just couple of hours, it was too terrible already. n__n' .. oh, and i had my binds like the whole day, it was interesting. i couldn't breathe well and i felt that i could faint at any time. XD but i survived ! .. and i didn't eat anything in 13 hours on saturday, but i was okay with that. n_n'' .. in the night in ficci's place there were i, emju, ficci, ibi, tirppa an L - and we had fuckin' fun ! <3 .. we ate some pizza and watched happy feet ( it's a dirty movie >83 .. ie, i luv it, it's so beautiful <3 ) and then we.. ehm.. well, had VERY fun. |"""""D .. not gonna tell here what happened. XD
but well, the main point was in this whole messy text, that i had really, really fun weekend - even that i was a little bit angst on saturday. >|3 .. sry for that, btw. ._. hope that i didn't ruin anyone's day or anything like that?

wheea. what else? >|D
... yea, i'm uploading some stuff now in couple of days, mostly some human practisings. n_n'' hope ya will like em'. 8 D
i'm still having a little bit hurry in school, so i'm not drawing all the time - but i'm doing some gifts nowadays, you guys deserve it.
AND, not only school, but i'm addicted to kingdom hearts. XD .. i got KH's first game on my birthday, and i will hope the second one on christmas. n_n ... i just luv sora. ;--; .. i have to do some art 'bout him and riku when i'm getting better with people. 8DD
and now, when i started to think about rikusora, i started to think about sasunaru too. XD .. soon i will start a new fic, hopely i get enough time for that. :3
AND. this have been annoying me some time now. u__u'' .. yes, i'm an ab... ]]> ~Weenyah http://Weenyah.deviantart.com/journal/20840248/ http://Weenyah.deviantart.com/journal/20840248/ Sun, 05 Oct 2008 10:53:36 PDT Art status || 100 themes challenge || Feature!


hiyaa. :3

.. we broke up with my boyfriend. |'D .. oh well, it wasn't a surprise that he didn't stand me, 'cause i'm such an annoying person but well.. it actually doesn't depress me or anthin' like that. o_o .. we're staying friends, che. |D .. and like he said, it was like from a book: don't ever start to be with a guy, when you are good friends with him. .. or somethin' like that. |'D .. i guess that only thing that i'm gonna miss is nearness; hugs and kisses and * caugh * that kind of stuff. |DD

but well, everything else is fine. 83 ... yes, it's an exam week, but i'll survive. |'D
.. or not. i'm not sleeping enough - i wrote FINNISH in ENGLISH exam. XDD .. it was like the blooper of the year, and yea, i'm ashamed of it. XD happy now?

and i found some new bands that i'm interested in. one is japanese Gackt, and the title of this journal is from a song called Vanilla, so you know. |DD .. Gackt is having pretty much songs that i like. n_n <3 .. it was fun to cook today with some new music. XD
andandand i have watched and readed maybe too much sasunaru ( all the yaoi and gay haters, don't come here to whine u__u ), for example sasusaku, narusaku and naruhina are only making me feel .. well, they doesn't feel right. ;----; .. yhyy. XD .. oh well, if u didn't already know, i really love sasunaru. <3 .. my dear friend, ~Emju gave me a link to one sasunaru fan fic, and it was great. *,,* .. i'm gonna now just read some moar.. and moar. >83


.. eoh, this was kinda random journal entry. 8""D

FEED MAH DRAGON.
.. it'll die. ;------;
and yea, i got hooked to this dragon-thingie too. XD

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]]> ~Weenyah http://Weenyah.deviantart.com/journal/20630744/ http://Weenyah.deviantart.com/journal/20630744/ Tue, 23 Sep 2008 06:06:49 PDT Art status || 100 themes challenge || Feature!


i can't believe, that this is happening again. it's less than a year, when a hooting in a chool happened, in Jokela.. and now, again. today, tuesday 23.9. in Kauhajoki has been a school shooting again, when 22 years old, young man have shooted nine people in his school. he just started to shoot in an exam situation, and now the whole school is on fire.

when you read this, fire a candle and remember those students who died.

i'm feeling... dunno. i cannot explain. this all is just something which feels that it's not happening here in Finland. there, in my home country, is a school in fire and students, who are scared, angry and depressed. it's all happening. i'm feeling bad, that i can say. i can't just sit, i have to do something, talk - anything. i'd love to here my boyfriend's voice right now, but he's not answering to his phone.

all my angsty thoughts are coming to my mind, too. that's why i cannot just be, doing nothing. i don't want to think about anything. i'm just praying for those ones who died, and hoping that someone would call.
i guess, that now BBC, CNN and everything else are painting horrible pics about Finland and about that, how dark and depressed people we are. well, i guess that is true, that depression is growing all the time and there's not finding help to that. but still.. i'm not going to have a gun and shoot some people. yes, i'm not so happyhappy person all the time, but that doesn't mean that me or everybody else here would be a depressed killer. i think, that all of this is just so fuckin', that i'm not having words for it.
it's just not fair to take anyone elses life away. those who died, were young students, having a whole life in front of them. and now it's all gone because of an one guy. yes, i know that life ain't fair, but still - no one is justified to kill anybody. no one.

.. oh, my candle is almost fizzled out. that flame is so small.

]]> ~Weenyah http://Weenyah.deviantart.com/journal/20599438/ http://Weenyah.deviantart.com/journal/20599438/ Sun, 21 Sep 2008 10:10:10 PDT Art status || 100 themes challenge || Feature!


sry, but i stole this from ~lunanen~~ |DD .. i have seen this before, but i have been too lazy to do this. -n___n-

and yea, i'm having now like.. 160 messages after i uploaded many pics. 8"""D .. so, sorry if i haven't answered - but no worries, i will answer to every comment, i really approacite those favs and comments. <3
thank you. n_n

but well, to tag !


I. Put your media player of choice on shuffle.
II. List the first fifteen songs that come up. Add "in my pants" to the end.

1. Glassy in my pants || ...
2. Bonzai in my pants || GERONIIMOO!
3. Iron birds in my pants
4. Vladivastok in my pants || ... omgdh? |D
5. Cross in the neck to hell in my pants
6. Fireflies in my pants || oh my, should i be worried about this? o,o
7. Chains in my pants || not so improbable. >8""""D
8. Planet of the sun in my pants || i guess that i'm having huge pants.. >|DD
9. Crippled in my pants
10. Caramell dansen in my pants || not tanslated, if you don't know caramell dansen you should be ashamed. >8o .. "caramel dance" <3
11. The moment of our love in my pants || .. well that's pervert. 8D
12. Carnival of rust in my pants || really, OHMY. D8 .. should i do something about that?
13. Here and now in my pants || .. so perverted. <3
14. In the end in my pants || did it end in my pants? 8O
15. Flappers in my pants || whou. 8DDD

... just.. lmao? 8""D .. there are kinda lot 51Koodia's songs, i got 'em ages ago from my sis. .___. .. and everything else is random. |D
i translated finnish names to english, but it was hard to translate a song called "Lepattajat" - it's that "flappers"-thingie. 8""D

.. i tag yo all. >8D
do this, if you're bored. <3

]]> ~Weenyah http://Weenyah.deviantart.com/journal/20405239/ http://Weenyah.deviantart.com/journal/20405239/ Tue, 09 Sep 2008 11:15:20 PDT <sup>Art status || 100 themes challenge || Feature!


.. yes, i finally mad ethis one, tagged me. |D
it was kinda nice to do. -n___n-
and yea, all the charas are my canine characters from Aleksandria RPG~~


Rules:

1. Choose a few of your own characters. Five at the most.
2. Make them answer the following questions.
3. Then tag three people.
4. Feel free to go ahead and add some question yourself!

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Characters:

Verevan: Morning, you-who-i-don't-know ~~ <3
Tristine: Tch, what tha heck is this?
Koda Yönsiipi (Nightwing) : Have you done something to my bro?
Kyu: .. hi.

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Who / What are you?
Verevan: I'm Rev, internally man, seme.. stuff like that. What am I? .. a dog, if you can't see.
Tristine: .. My name is Tristine, if you didn't knew it. I'm a killer from mafia. <3
Koda Yönsiipi: .. seriously, have you done something to Senjo? .. oh well, I'm Koda..
Kyu: * turning her ears * .. you can call me Kyu. I'm a half dog, half wolf.

How old are you?
Verevan: .. about 18 - yes, basically I'm an adult, if you can't see it. u_u
Tristine: Why should I tell you that, you moron?
Koda Yönsiipi: As the same age as Senjo, of course.
Kyu: .. go to hell.

WANT A HUG?
Verevan: YES PLZ. <3
Tristine: .. want to die?
Koda Yönsiipi: No thanks, help me preferably find my twin brother, please.
Kyu: What a fuck? ............ actually .. if you just want to .. then yes..

You got any bad habits?
Verevan: .. raping, I guess? -n______________n-
Tristine: Is murdering or tormenting a bad habit?
Koda Yönsiipi: OF COURSE I have no bad habits! No way! I'm not stuck up with my bro!
Kyu: .. fuck you. I guess that swearing and fighting are bad habits..

Are you a boy or a girl?
Verevan: absolutely a male. (Weeny: Rev.. you are a female, deal with it..)
Tristine: FEMALE, you blind idiot.
Koda Yönsiipi: Male.
Kyu: I'M A FEMALE! I LOOK LIKE A GIRL! ...... oh fuck, oh fuck, OH FUCK. I look like a female. I look like a female, I don't believe others.............. * sob *

Do you have any brothers or sisters?
Verevan: oh yea, three sisters, but I haven't seen them for years.
Tristine: ..... I have a brother and sister..
Koda Yönsiipi: Haven't it came clear to you already, that I have a twin brother called Senjo?
Kyu: .. yeah, a sis and three brothers. * caugh *

Are you a virgin?
Verevan: ... yes.
Tristine: You're gonna die.
Koda Yönsiipi: wha--? .. oh, shut up, and tell me where Senjo is.
Kyu: .. hah, why would I tell it to you? ............. i am.. ._.

Who's your crush / mate / spouse?
Verevan: tch, nobody's interested about me in that way. |D ( Weeny: yes yes, I’m going to mack you <3 )
Tristine: .. yes, you're so gonna die.
Koda Yönsiipi: of course I don't have! the most important thing in my life is my bro, so no, i don't have time for girls.
Kyu: .. further, i don't have to tell you anything, so go to hell.

Do you have any kids?
Verevan: * laughing my ass off * .... oh well, maybe someday in future.
Tristine: * death glare *
Koda Yönsiipi: .. I don't want to persist about those females..
Kyu: hey hey, I'm too young for that kind of stuff.

What's your favorite food?
Verevan: salt and coffee. <3 .. well, not together. |D .. and I haven't had those in ages.
Tristine: Blood tastes good. <3
Koda Yönsiipi: .. dunno. I like to hunt with my brother.
Kyu: Tch. …. I like strawberries.

Have you ever killed anyone?
Verevan: NO! Killing is wrong!
Tristine: … you remember, that i’m part of mafia? * laughs * .. of course I have. <3
Koda Yönsiipi: no, i haven’t. but i could, if i would have to choose between my brother and someone else.
Kyu: No. I. Have. Not. Even that I’m fighting a lot.

Do you like to destroy things?
Verevan: * caugh * .. oh well, not really.
Tristine: sometimes – if I’m pissed off, like now.
Koda Yönsiipi: no?
Kyu: I think that it’s good way to give vent to some of my feelings. <3

Do you hate / dislike anyone?
Verevan: yes.
Tristine: .. tell me a person who I don’t hate. =_=
Koda Yönsiipi: yes, anyone that’s trying to hurt... ]]></sup> ~Weenyah http://Weenyah.deviantart.com/journal/20388873/ http://Weenyah.deviantart.com/journal/20388873/ Mon, 08 Sep 2008 10:20:30 PDT <sup>Art status || 100 themes challenge || Feature!


haai. 8D

.. don't eat me plz. XD i know, i have been here very, very anti-active in the whole summer and autumn, but well.. there's many reasons for that, mm'kay? 8''''D and yes, i have too much to tell about, and some tags to do, and of course - I REALLY SHOULD UPLOAD SOMETHING NEW. i made all my old trades etc etc but i'm too lazy to put them here yet, sry. ;------;

..
....
.....
.
.... the one thing, that i really want to tell you, is that i'm having a boyfriend now.

yes, me - anti-social, ugly fat girl, who has been thought to be a lesbian - is having a boyfriend. 8"""D
AND IT's FUCKING SWEET.

.. it's hard to explain. XD .. but well.. i met him in my confirmation camp. it was such a lovely time there, in Lapland ( in Finland ) and i learned new things about myself. and no, we didn't crush on there, we were only friends. |D .. we talked a lot during the time we wandered in fells, and we really are kinda alike. n__n .. we can talk about everything. :3 .. but then, last friday we went to huge gig with many artists and bands - it was in another city here in finland. and we really didn't paid a much of attend to that gig 'cause we were so close and did kind of interesting things and and.. ya know. 8"D .. then last sunday we were outside five hours, in some nearby cliffs and well.. then we started to be together. <3 .. and yes, i'm having some red markings on my neck. >|DDD
and the last thing happened today.
we kissed.

..
... and i'm not good at it! XD .. it was my first time ever, but well, i could have been there, in his fold ( dunno what word do you use in england ) like forever. i really love him. <3 .. this is really a new feeling and experience to me, and i'm enjoying about it. -n_n- .. when my life is just messed up, and the past summer has maybe been the worst in my life - i haven't been able to eat or sleep sometimes and things like that - .. when i'm with my boyfriend, everything feels so simply and clear. it's a great feeling.

and yea, i'm not used to that i'm somebody's girlfriend. |DDD



.. oh well! i have to add, that no, i haven't forget you guys. ;--; .. i'm just too lazy to answer to anything. D| .. but i hope that i'll get some inspiration to activate myself here soon.~~


~~ W


ED/ .. i'm having a birthday in 14.9., i'll be 15 - kinda scary. 8""D
oh well.</sup>

]]> ~Weenyah http://Weenyah.deviantart.com/journal/18255081/ http://Weenyah.deviantart.com/journal/18255081/ Sat, 10 May 2008 09:57:15 PDT <sup>Art status || 100 themes challenge || Feature!


morgen ! <3

.. i have been so lazy few weeks now, sry. |'D
and i'm having an horrible stress about everything. @__@ .. i have promised too much pics and characters and rpg games, and i'm now having those fuckin' exams in school. ._____.

eh well.
.. i'm just finishing my trades etc, and hoping that i would get time somewhere. X'D

MY STEPDAD TOOK ME TODAY ON THE RIDE WITH MOTORBIKE. @___@ .. that wind and speed and everything.. it was love. i'm seriously fallen love with that, i want a motorcycle. <3


oh and i stole this tag-thingie from *Mustamamba - she bid everybody to do it ! |'D .. and it looked fun so.. here it is.



THREE NAMES YOU GO BY:
1. ida
2. weenyah
3. weeny

THREE SCREEN NAMES YOU'VE HAD:
1. weenyah
2. yöeläin ( .. )
3. .. and some old shocking names what i won't tell. 8"D

THREE THINGS YOU'VE DONE IN THE LAST 33 MINUTES:
1. drew
2. submitted pics
3. sang ( yeah. |'D )

THREE THINGS YOU LIKE ABOUT YOURSELF:
1. my eyes. 8'D
2. crazyness \../
3. .. self-assurance?

THREE THINGS YOU DISLIKE ABOUT YOURSELF:
1. my face
2. all of my fat
3. my selfishness. >:B

THREE PARTS OF YOUR ORIGINS:
1. my parents divorced |'D
2. .. i was bullied and despised about 9 years 8"D
3. and then i got friends. |D

THREE THINGS YOU'RE AFRAID OF:
1. being left alone
2. being without love
3. .. i'm having a mild claustrophobia, i guess 'cause i'm fat 8"D

THREE THINGS YOU ARE WEARING RIGHT NOW:
1. black jeans 8"D
2. black t-shirt
3. BLACK 'n' WHITE STRIPED SOCKS, HELL YEAH <3

THREE OF YOUR EVERYDAY ESSENTIALS:
1. thinking
2. sleeping
3. listening to music

THREE IMPORTANT OBJECTS:
1. bracelet, which includes a little lock and key
2. computer ( my friends in net <3 )
3. COPICS

THREE OF YOUR FAVORITE BANDS:
1. linkin park
2. three days grace
3. sum41

THREE WAYS TO BE HAPPY:
1. being perverted! <3
2. quality time with friends !
3. .. lmao, i won't tell why i'm always so happyhappy >8D

THREE OF YOUR FAVORITE SONGS AT PRESENT:
1. sum41 - we're all to blame
2. three days grace - never too late
3. cmx / 51koodia / kotiteollisuus - vapaus johtaa kansaa

THREE NEW THINGS YOU WANT TO TRY IN THE NEXT 12 MONTHS:
1. cosplay ! <3 ( in animecon djgfsk )
2. "raping" some new guys? >8D
3. swimmin' at the night ( mean at the night night, like.. 2 am? )

THREE THINGS YOU REGRET:
1. being selfish
2. being defenceless
3. .. oh, there are many of them. .. too many.

THREE THINGS YOU WANT IN A RELATIONSHIP:
1. love and caring
2. trust
3. loyalty

THREE IMPORTANT THINGS YOU'VE GIVING TO THE WORLD:
1. ALWAYS MOVING CRAZY GUY \../
2. whinings about my life |'D
3. horrible singing voice. >8D

TWO TRUTHS AND A LIE (in order):
1. i started today changin' some of my opinions
2. i want a motorbike. <3
3. i liked those practices with condoms and carrots in health educations lesson ( .. )

THREE PHYSICAL THINGS YOU LIKE IN THE OPPOSITE SEX:
1. back ( 8"D )
2. neck <3
3. .. hair? >8D

THREE EMOTIONAL THINGS YOU LIKE IN THE OPPOSITE SEX:
1. honesty
2. ability to appreciate the personality, not the looks
3. ability to have fun and understand my humour ( X'D )

THREE THINGS YOU JUST CAN'T DO:
1. fly, even that i would really love to.
2. lie about serious things
3. kill - except bugs.

THREE THINGS YOU MISS FROM YOUR PAST:
1. ability to feel things so strong. 2. .. those several visits to my dad ( i go there nowadays like twice in year )
3. .. nothing moar. o--o

THREE GIFTS YOU WOULD LIKE TO RECEIVE:
1. art from people <3
2. handmade thingies~~
3. money. |'D i need it for everything. @__@

THREE REASONS WHY YOU ARE WHO YOU ARE:
1. i was bullied about 9 years~
2. my friends and family
3. .. dunno.

THREE OF YOU YOUR FAVOURITE HOBBIES:
1. drawing
2. dancing and singing lmao. |'D
3. having pervert fun? 8'D

THREE THINGS YOU WANT TO DO REALLY BADLY RIGHT NOW:
1. get some loving kindness. ;;----;;
2. finish some things BUT I'M TOO LAZY
3. draw?

THREE CAREERS YOU'RE CONSIDERING:
1. .. something that involves art.? o_o... ]]></sup> ~Weenyah http://Weenyah.deviantart.com/journal/17698910/ http://Weenyah.deviantart.com/journal/17698910/ Sat, 05 Apr 2008 12:33:09 PDT Art status || 100 themes challenge || Feature!


my spring has begun <3

i found the first flower of the spring in last week, it totally stopped me when i was riding by my bike to home from school. it was so yellow and pretty, it was coltsfoot which is not the most beautiful flower, but it's the first flower here in finland. <3 so, it really cheered my day up.
and then, couple of days later, i saw a first butterfly too. <3 it was small, but pretty. -n____n- i was then outside, without my coat - so my spring really started with those three things. 8D

.. not really me, you think? XD
but i'm having my feminine and fine side, too. u___ú
. .


u remember, that i got tagged?
well, tagged me too. XD so now she, and has tagged me. |'D
~ ..here are now 24 facts. 8'D

The rules:

I Post all the rules.
II Write eight things about yourself.
III Post these things into your journal.
IV Tag eight other people.
V Visit their journals so that they have no excuse not to do it.

The facts ( that you didn't know about me. >8D ):

1. Weenyah has two families.
2. Weenyah talks to herself now and then. XD
3. Weenyah looks older than she actually is.
4. Weenyah loves hugging <3
5. Weenyah was rich ( XD ), but now she is poor.
6. Weenyah acts.. a different way than the normal people. X'D
7. Weenyah can swing her ears. 8'D
8. Weenyah can bite. >3

1. Weenyah is uncertain about her life.
2. Weenyah wanna a person, who could really give her some fondness ;_; <3
3. Weenyah loves two of her friends especially~ <3
4. Weenyah needs money. >8B
5. Weenyah loves to "rape" her frends. XD ( not really.. XDD )
6. Weenyah has a msn-fear. ,___.
7. Weenyah says always "Morning!" when she meet people.
8. Weenyah wants black and white roses on her grave. |'D

1. Weenyah is what she is; and she don't want to act somebody else. She is proud of that she can be herself.
2. Weenyah wants a dog. ;-;
3. Weenyah love to meet her internet friends <3
4. Weenyah's mother don't like that ^. u___u
5. Weenyah has sometimes difficults in communicating.. |D
6. Weenyah has muscles in her nose. >8D
7. Weenyah was bullied about 9 years.~
8. Weenyah is always movin'. 8DD


I tag!









Done her journal

Done her journal



Done her journal


.. still waiting you, for doing your journals >8D

]]> ~Weenyah http://Weenyah.deviantart.com/journal/17626050/ http://Weenyah.deviantart.com/journal/17626050/ Tue, 01 Apr 2008 08:44:06 PDT <sup>Art status || 100 themes challenge || Feature!


so i herd u liek mudkips??

zomg! 8D
.. when i visited quickly here earlier, i was first like " oh my gosh, has somebody logged in my account? " D8
and then i realised, that everybody else's having the same avatar, too. XD

. it's kinda fun, those are cute <3

.. but at the same time they're irritating .. u____u'
we had fun ( me 'n' my friends ) because of those lil guys. |'D



i don't have enough time. ;-;
i'm having so much to do, lfhaskd D8
.. but i'm now gonna finish my trades, be patient peeple~ <3



nothing else? o-o
well, my kiriban is coming closer and closer.. C'8
and i'll still draw for that, whoo catch it. -n__n-</sup>

]]> ~Weenyah http://Weenyah.deviantart.com/journal/17424339/ http://Weenyah.deviantart.com/journal/17424339/ Thu, 20 Mar 2008 10:48:44 PDT Art status || 100 themes challenge || Feature!


zuh. 8D
.. i'm sick. C:

yea, i've been a very healthy child. i guess that the last time when i was sick was about six years ago. XD
being sick isn't fun. ;__; and i don't like drugs. .o. * having too many of them *
i have 38 degrees fever, cough, throatache and my nose drips. great. |D

but well, i had really fun last week. <3
i was in a spa.! 8D and i was like a raisin after three days in water. XD
and i kidnapped a ball from there. >8D .. don't ask, long story.

the spa was in Nokia, near Tampere ( citys in Finland ) and at Saturday, after that when we had gave up our hotelroom, we went to Tampere's centre and i bought 16 copics~ <3 and couple of weeks ago my grandma visited in Helsinki ( capital of Finland ) and bought 15 copics for me. 8D
so i have now 104 copics! n_______n * dances * hii~ <3

and the last thing, my kiriban is soon again.! 8o
zomg. o-o but yea, if you catch up my 4000 pageviews, i'll draw something for you~ -n____n-


see ya, darlings.! <3

]]> ~Weenyah http://Weenyah.deviantart.com/journal/17114553/ http://Weenyah.deviantart.com/journal/17114553/ Fri, 29 Feb 2008 09:01:18 PST Art status || 100 themes challenge || Feature!


warning. angsty stuff.
i don't like to angst in my journals.. but now i think that i will scream if i'm not gonna tell this somewhere.

so, where should i start.?
.. i have felt now about three years a little bit.. unfeeling? i don't mean, that i wouldn't care about people.. i just don't feel love, sad or angry so strongly that i did when i was younger. it started when i was 11 - maybe beacuse of puberty, maybe because i hadn't reason to live. who knows. i hardly had a one person, who talked to me. my mother shouted me all the time. so.. i'm still unfeeling. what's wrong with me, or is this normal? cause if it is i don't wanna grow up.
fortunately i still feel some feelings strong.

and i'm uncertain of my life. of everything.
i think, that when i was so long without friends.. i can't still believe, that ia have 'em. so i'm sorry, if i'm sometimes "baggy" - i feel, that if i don't hold my most dearest friends tight, they will vanish.

i guess i'm lonely, even that i have people around me.
i'm lonely, if i can't hold someone.
i can't fall asleep very well.. cause every night i scream in my mind, that someone could be there, near me.
when i was one day on my one most precious friend's home, we had fun - and when we just lied on her bed side by side, i said "caress me.. please" she looked me surprised and answered, " i can't?" and i said " please, try". and she caressed me. and i felt so warm and safe. but that was just an one moment.

now i had had couple of days.. pain in my chest. no, i'm not having a heart attack or something. it's like mental pain. and it feels horrible.
and when a car almost drove over me couple of months ago.. i have taught sometimes, when i'm alone, what would have happened, if that car had really drove over me? would people be just couple of days sad.. and then go on? i don't want, that people would be sad because of me. but would they remember me? or am i just a meaningless..?

i need communication.
almost everyone of my dear friends was on "busy" mood in msn, and i didn't want to disturb them.
i'm stupid. but i feel so tired of everything.. maybe i don't want to call anybody, cause i'm afraid that i would explain just my own miserable, little problems. and i'm afraid, that one of my best friends.. isn't my best friend. she didn't want to tal me today.

i guess that i need a meaning to my life.

sry for this angsty stuff, you can ignore this journal - i promise i won't write many of this kind of journals. .___.



well.. more bad news.
i haven't been able to get to Steel Blood RPG for two months! ;o;
this has happened to me before, but now i can't do anything to it. i'm so sorry, that i haven't answered to the games, but i really can't log in. ;;---;;
so.. all the player in SB, who are here in deviantART, if you don't wanna wait more you're free to get your characters out of the games - iäm not gonna be angry.! o-o
i just hate that i can't get in the forum. -_____-'



and well.. even something good - those copics, which i ordered from local art-equipment shop in December, came yesterday and i went to pick up them today.
but they said, that they would come in a week, and i had to wait 77 days - that's like eleven weeks.! D8
and i noticed, that on those twenty copics were fifteen copics, what i had already. -_________________-

..sorry, complaining again. ,_______.'


.. i just had a bad day, i guess.

]]> ~Weenyah http://Weenyah.deviantart.com/journal/17069752/ http://Weenyah.deviantart.com/journal/17069752/ Tue, 26 Feb 2008 07:43:21 PST Art status || 100 themes challenge || Feature!


hii 8D

and caught both of two my kiriban~ <3 n___n

i'm not gonna fight with that, who of you two caught it first, so i draw a pic for Diiri and Mc-Rayzer. 8'3
and i'm gonna draw to ~Evlon-Shape-Shifter too, even that she didn't actually caught rigft that 3000 pv - but she really hoped, that she could have the closest pv and she wrote so nicely about meh~ <3

so i daw three kiriban-pics. 8'D

please say, which character you wanna have a pic~ n__n


so, that's it.? 8'D

]]> ~Weenyah http://Weenyah.deviantart.com/journal/17050603/ http://Weenyah.deviantart.com/journal/17050603/ Sun, 24 Feb 2008 23:42:52 PST Art status || 100 themes challenge || Feature!


nuu, just some random journal. 8D
but i noticed that i have been lazy, my next kiriban will be 3000 pw.! 8o
that's a lot, for me.
so, if you catch it, take a screenshot so i can draw something to you~ 83

THANK U GUYS! that kiriban it's just because of you, and i'm very thankful that even some people likes my scraps.! -n____________________n-



hii, we had a winterholiday last week, and i had really fun. well, i have to go to work on Tuesday and Friday, but still..
~Ficasahn came from Helsinki to Salo! 8D oh, she's so dear to me, like ~Emju too - and they both were over the night in my home. -n_______________n- <3
oh we had so fun. of course! we all are perverted, so.. XDD

yy. ,_____,
the hoilday was too short. ;-;

]]> ~Weenyah http://Weenyah.deviantart.com/journal/16897196/ http://Weenyah.deviantart.com/journal/16897196/ Fri, 15 Feb 2008 11:01:52 PST Art status || 100 themes challenge || Feature!


i just wanted to write this here.

yesterday was Valentine's day.. horrible day actually, it's too pink for me. >'3 and i feel that nobody loves me. ;-;
but..
there was one thing, what changed my v-day.
actually it happened today.
just a normal thing. i got a v-day's card.
but it was from one of my most precious friends.

and she told something in that card, what changed something inside of me. i'm not gonna tell what she wrote there. but..
i cannot stop smiling.
i just smile.
and everything else turned today better, when i smiled. when i had had that card.

i feel now so.. happy
and plain ..
.. and peaceful
like the light would have cleaned me or something. and i don't want to lose this feeling.

i just want to hold my friend and never let her go away. ;_; <3
cause now i feel, that i have a meaning even just for a one person in this world.
thank you.

]]> ~Weenyah http://Weenyah.deviantart.com/journal/16736480/ http://Weenyah.deviantart.com/journal/16736480/ Tue, 05 Feb 2008 10:09:13 PST Art status || 100 themes challenge || Feature!


Hiya, guys! -n____n-


Well, i suppose that you have seen my pic "Safety". There i mention, that we finally got three pets - three lovely gerbils. <3
They have actually been in our home now almost a month, and they have stole our hearts. @____@
i just love those little guys, they are so sweet and trusting~ <3
their "real names" are Aavehaltian Wormwood, Aavehaltian Weasley and Aavehaltian Wilson, cause they are from the educationalist. But of course we could choose names that we want, and we call they Wormi, Viisukka and Trappi. Wormi is my little sister's gerbil, Viisukka my mother's and Trappi is mine gerbil~ <3
They are black, except Wormi has some bigger white markins. We recognise Trappi and Viisukka for that Trappi has a white line in her neck, and Viisukka has a spot.
well, we hope that they feel theirselves safety~ <3


Badabimbadabum, and you got the fins.
.. sry .. XD
i have repeated that now couple of days.. it's from Ariel, a Little Mermaid, but i haven't see it for years. 8'D
so wonder why i remembered that sentence.. o__o


. . .
And I got tagged by . XD
..and again by , so here are now 14 facts. 8'D

The rules:

1. Post all the rules.
2. Write eight things about yourself.
3. Post these things into your journal.
4. Tag eight other people.
5. Visit their journals so that they have no excuse not to do it.

The facts ( that you didn't know about me. >8D ):

1. Weenyah has two families.
2. Weenyah talks to herself now and then. XD
3. Weenyah looks older than she actually is.
4. Weenyah loves hugging <3
5. Weenyah was rich ( XD ), but now she is poor.
6. Weenyah acts.. a different way than the normal people. X'D
7. Weenyah can swing her ears. 8'D
8. Weenyah can bite. >3

1. Weenyah is uncertain about her life.
2. Weenyah wanna a person, who could really give her some fondness ;_; <3
3. Weenyah loves two of her friends especially~ <3
4. Weenyah needs money. >8B
5. Weenyah loves to "rape" her frends. XD ( not really.. XD )
6. Weenyah has a msn-fear. ,___.
7. Weenyah says always "Morning!" when she meet people.
8. Weenyah wants black and white roses on her grave. XD

I tag!





Done her journal
Done her journal



.. still waiting you, for doing your journals >8D

]]> ~Weenyah http://Weenyah.deviantart.com/journal/16657061/ http://Weenyah.deviantart.com/journal/16657061/ Thu, 31 Jan 2008 10:45:44 PST This is Weenyah's art status.
I'm trying to update this as often as I can 'nd remember, but ... I'm very lazy and I don't have a very good memory, so sorry for that. ''D
.. but be patient, please? c:



First things first ..
.. so, some people have asked, what pens I use.
Well, nowadays I use colour pencils, markers and watercolours.


The list of what kind of colour pencils I use:

Derwent's Studio pencils ( 72 )
Derwent's Artist pencils ( 72 )
Derwent's Pastil pencils ( 72 )
Derwent's Graphitant pencils ( 24 )
Derwent's Inktense pencils ( 24 )
Derwent's Watercolour pencils ( 36 )
Derwent's Soft Color pencils ( 24 )
Derwent's Metallic pencils ( 12 )


The list of what kind of markers I use:

Copic Ciao markers ( 88 )
Copic Sketch markers ( 15 )
Copic Too markers ( 3 )
Faber-Castell's gray shade markers ( 8 )



.: Trades :.

~ not open right now

| 10 % |



.: Requests :.


~ not open right now



.: Comissions :.

Should I start t' make comissions? If even one person says "yes", I will. They would of course be very cheap.



The list of pictures I've thought to do in the near future

[ ] The pic(s) of Ôkami Amaterasu
[ ] The group pic of Ôkami's gods
[ ] The pic of my alter ego, "Running Colors"
[ ] Fanart of Simoun
[ ] Fanart of FFVII
[ ] Something for ~Emju as a birthday card
[ ] All the zodiac signs
[ ] Some watercolour experiments



Updated last: 21.6.

]]> ~Weenyah http://Weenyah.deviantart.com/journal/16396163/ http://Weenyah.deviantart.com/journal/16396163/ Sun, 13 Jan 2008 23:38:39 PST Hiya, darlings! <3

Just random stuff this time, or then not.. i have to tell about something what happened last Friday 11.1.


I was in Hanoi Rocks' private gig. Really. And that was awesome.

MTV3, finnish tv-canal had a competition where you can win tickets to the gig for yourself and your friend - and my dear friend won! And she took me with her! *.* <3
We got off the school two hours before it would end - yes, we had a permission XD - and we went to the train. 'Cause we don't live in Helsinki, capital of Finland, we had to travel by train. It took about two hours, and in the station one of my friend's friend met us there. She was lovely person, anyway~ n___n
But. Then we started lookin' at MTV3's Filmhall, where the gig would start. But we didn't find it! 8< We were searchin' it about hour, when we finally find it.. and we were first. It was amazing!
Okay, waiting' wasn't so amazing - we had to wait about five hours in freezing wind and rain. =__= But the gig was worth it!
When we felt like in ice tomb or something, some guy finally came to pick us - there was only about 100 people waitin', even if 200 won the tickets! o-ô
Anyway, we all walked inside, left our coats etc. on the rack - and then we ran on the Filmhall. And we got to the forefront! And the stage was so close and low, i could almost touch Andy who was just in front of me! *.*
..and then the gig started. and it was so fast over. ,___. The music, that those guys play -it's amazing when it hear like that. And i touched many times Mike, Andy and Conny~ <3 And I got Mike's waterflask, when he threw it! O__O <3
Well, one thing left - when we were waitin' with Viveka our ride, and when we were gettin' on the car, i saw some blond coming to the car. I sad something like this: "Hey, Vivvi, that guy looks like Mike. ..wait a sec.. that guy is Mike! OH MY GOD VIVVI THAT GUY IS MIKE!" And then we rand out of the car, and yes we screamed. XD
Poor Mike. But she was so lovely, even that he was in hurry. We got autographs and we shook hands with him, oh my gosh <3

So, the gig was great - maybe the greatest of my life~ <3



And the next kiriban is 2 500 pageviews. I forgot to ask that 2 000.~
..so, take a screenshot if you cath that kiriban, and i will draw something to you! ; D


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Feature! [ suomeks myäs ]
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100 theme challenge

]]> ~Weenyah http://Weenyah.deviantart.com/journal/16309447/ http://Weenyah.deviantart.com/journal/16309447/ Mon, 07 Jan 2008 23:50:10 PST 100 THEMES CHALLENGE



Rules


1.) Do one hundred pictures, each with one of the themes written below. Each picture should have ONE and only ONE theme each. Do only the themes listed below, do not change the words because it ruins the nature of the project.

2.) There is no time limit but because of that you are expect to finished or finalize EVERY picture. This challenge is made to help build artistic skill so don't upload unfinished scribbles.

3.) The main picture should be drawn but not limited to just that, use any medium you want to create your master pieces.

3a.) Themed pictures can be used for trades, requests, gifts and etc.

4.) The list of themes should be placed somewhere in your journal so that other artist can see that you are participating in the challenge and so they can see how much you have completed.

5.) Make sure to update this list and check off what is done and make a link to the finished picture

6.) The title of the work should share the same name as the theme for it or at least stated in the description. Be sure to note in the description that the picture is for the challenge.

7) You don't have to do them all in order.



This is the variation two.



Theme List


1. Introduction [link]

2. Love

3. Light [link]

4. Dark [link]

5. Rot [link]

6. Break [link]

7. Heaven [link]

8. Away [link]

9. Cut [link]

10. Breathe [link]

11. Memory [link]

12. Insanity [link]

13. Misfortune [link]

14. Smile [link]

15. Silence [link]

16. Spit [link]

17. Blood [link]

18. Under [link]

19. Gray [link]

20. Fortitude [link]

21. War [link]

22. Mother [link]

23. Distastefull [link]

24. Want [link]

25. Lurking [link]

26. Europe [link]

27. Foreign [link]

28. Sorrow [link]

29. Urban [link]

30. Rain [link]

31. Flower [link]

32. Night [link]

33. Wrath [link]

34. Moon [link]
~Weenyah http://Weenyah.deviantart.com/journal/15984725/ http://Weenyah.deviantart.com/journal/15984725/ Tue, 18 Dec 2007 10:06:35 PST ..well, that title.. erm.. never mind. XD

But I'm talkin' about copics, those such of great inks. <3
I were in Tampere - which is a city in Finland - 1.12. in Aleksandria RPG's miiting, and i had so wonderful time there that you can't even imagine that. I love those guys, thank you so much for that day <3
Mm, anyway, we went to the little shop where i bought my 12 first copics, and i tested them in the train - and i fell in love. <3
Those are awesome! Well, i know that i suck in drawing and specially in drawing with inks - but anyway, copics are so great that even my horrible pictures look even a little bit less.. so horrible. >83
i have ordered twenty copics more, i have waited them now over a week and they haven't arrived yet. ;__; ..and i think that i can have some copics for Christmas presents, yai! -n___n- * fallen love *

i will add soon here maybe 10 - 15 pics, and many of those is colored with copics - you can see my copic-tryings then. >'3


And Christmas, ah - it's here soon, only six days left.! 8D
..i really have to draw some of presents, cause' i'm so poor. 8< sry guys, you must hate me. ,__.


My Christmas wishlist ~ <3

1. Subscription, subby - whatever, but it would be so nice. o-o i can draw four pics for one who could order that..~ >83 ..aha. XD * desperate *

2. MORE Copics! <3 Love them, ah~

3. Gifties? ^3^ okay, forget this - they are gifts. XD

4. ah der gerbilen - i think that we, me and my little sister, would get two gerbils..! 83 ..mom has asked them already from the educationalist.. owo !!

5. Own PC - please. ó-ò I hate that i have to be downstairs at the computer - i wanna be in my room. o__Ó

6. Some games to the PS2 - example Ôkami, Tomb Raider: Legend, etc.. -n____n- ..maybe my father will buy me those two.? o_o

7. .. hmm, let's think..

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Feature! [ suomeks myäs ]

]]> ~Weenyah http://Weenyah.deviantart.com/journal/15417683/ http://Weenyah.deviantart.com/journal/15417683/ Thu, 08 Nov 2007 08:58:28 PST It has been long time when i updated this last, sorry guys.


But I have to put this here; 7.11, in Finland, 18 years old student shooted eight person in his school. 8.11, in whole country, pupils, students and teachers remembered deads. I remember them now for fireing the candle, even that i didn't know anybody in that school.

When you read this message, spend silence few minutes for them, who passed away at the Jokela's shooting episode. The exanimates deserve the silence.

[link]
That is screenshot from shooters journal. It's Finnish, I'm sorry I can't translate it.
He wanted the human kind to live with the laws of nature, like animals. Weak animals get killed, strong don't, and he wanted humans to live like that, cause' it was natural. It’s too bad natural isn't going to make anyone happy in the end. Yes, they'd be free indeed, like he said. But people would be scared for their life every single second and eventually lost their minds. A human kind thinks too much to live like that. An animal doesn't feel fear like we do. An animal doesn't understand the meaning of losing one’s life. In his point of view, most of the people are in the same intelligence level as animals. Unfortunately for his ideas, it’s not exactly like that. This is what normal people should do.
Then there are the intelligent people who’re above this animal intelligence. Because normal people have enough intelligence to realize pretty much nothing, he thinks it is okay to kill them. Just like cows are killed for their meat. But because it’s no use for him to really kill them, it’s not like he’s going to eat them or anything, he thinks their better use if they work as slaves, though it still doesn’t matter even if they did get killed. The interaction.

“The intelligent people” in his ideas should rule the world, because they’re the only ones who apparently get anything. And then be free, because they can do whatever they like and, what he liked to highlight, kill anyone they wanted to.

He really killed eight people for that.












Well, anything else.. first snow has fallen, and here is really cold~ .. o-ò And I got that 1,000 pageview, but anybody didn't catch that on the screenshot. .__.

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Want to feature too? 8 places left! [myös suomeksi]

]]> ~Weenyah http://Weenyah.deviantart.com/journal/15012407/ http://Weenyah.deviantart.com/journal/15012407/ Thu, 11 Oct 2007 09:05:58 PDT Finally - winter is coming! 8D

Even that I live in south-west Finland here was less than 0° degrees in morning, and everything was on hoarfrost! It was so beuatiful, everywhere you look you can see white icecristals. <3

Well, that's it. Only thing what I like in winter. x3 ..NAOO, I like snow wars and Christmas and skating and winter sky and fresh air etc. ó-n
Burrh. But I _hate_ cold. In January it can be over -25° C, and then is really cold. And I'm 'vilukissa', in English it's like coldcat or something. ..but it means that I can freeze very easily. ó-ò In winter I'm like in dormancy; I even dress blunter than normal. -______-

I'm so TIRED on hole winter, it's backbreaking. When it's cold and dark, very many people is more tired than usually - including me.~ * hoah *

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Are you the 1 000 pageviewer? Take a screenshot!

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.: Art trades :.

- ready || [link] -

- not started yet -
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Want to feature too? 8 places left! [myös suomeksi]

]]> ~Weenyah http://Weenyah.deviantart.com/journal/14983839/ http://Weenyah.deviantart.com/journal/14983839/ Tue, 09 Oct 2007 11:00:41 PDT Yeah, it's coming closer - 1 000 pageviews!

I have been in DeviantArt now 28 days. I have 46 pics here, and many people have commented on and faved them.
And for that, I'm very, very thankful for you - every person who has even watched my drawings, to say nothing of them who have liked my pics.
I'm very suprised that people even like my drawings. x3

So..
THANK YOU!


I have now 834 pagewiews, and if you are 1 000 pageviwer take a screenshot by PrintScreen for prove it and then I will draw something to you. 8D

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.: Art trades :.

- 60% || done with ink pencils -
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Want to feature too? 8 places left! [myös suomeksi]

]]> ~Weenyah http://Weenyah.deviantart.com/journal/14825736/ http://Weenyah.deviantart.com/journal/14825736/ Fri, 28 Sep 2007 10:53:04 PDT * dancing *
Eh, yeah. ^-^'

So.. I have a trade art with ~NorieCat, and she did her trade already.
It is so bautiful and some kinda strong picture, I just love it!~
[link]

My piece of trade is not yet ready, I have drawed yet just sketches, sry Norriska~ ;-; ..but not to worry, I think that I can get it soon ready. n_____n

ED: It's ready! 8D ..I mean that my half of trade with Norie is ready. >'3
[link]
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- ready || [link] -

- 40% || done with pencils -
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Want to feature too? [myös suomeksi]

]]> ~Weenyah http://Weenyah.deviantart.com/journal/14685597/ http://Weenyah.deviantart.com/journal/14685597/ Sat, 20 Jun 2009 14:04:01 PDT Art status || 100 themes challenge || Feature!



EDIT/// nro. 367900

.. 'kay no. X"D .. but this one's have been such along time in my journal, like .. half of year? o_o'
i managed to finish it at last, 'nd note to self - don't do a feature for a while. X"D
but here are those 10 features, i uploaded them to match the present day. c:





mawr~
... mm'kay this is feature-thingie, be a good child and join, please? 8D .. this has been way too long in my journal. u_u'' and yes, i'm uploading this, so don't wonder too much those old texts. XD


so in english :

dyndyndyy.
.. i got featured by =ShadeofShinon ( really, ages ago XD ) and now I'm going to do this featuring thing too, cause' I think it's interesting - or at least i can spend some time with it. 8D

this is copyed from shinon's journal long time ago :
"The first ten people who reply to this journal and tell me that they want a spot will have me go through their gallery and pick my three favourite deviations, which in turn will be featured in this journal.
In return you'll have to post a journal like this. Let us have fun and have a chance to appreciate others work."

anyone interested? :3


.. ja suomeksi :

dyndyndyy.
osallistuin siis tällaiseen kiertävään featuring- eli mainostusjuttuun =ShadeofShinonin kautta ja koska featuret ovat aina mukavaa ajanviihdettä ja mainosta, niin teenpä tämän myöskin~~ >|""D

kopioitu shinonilta kauan aikaa sitten [ joskin käännetty surkeasti suomeksi myös kauan aikaa sitten 'D ] :
"Käyn kymmenen ensimmäisen ihmisen, jotka vastaavat tähän journaliin ja kertovat haluavansa osallistua, galleriat lävitse ja valitsen sieltä kolme suosikkiani mitkä linkitän tähän. Tämän jälkeen sinun täytyy tehdä tämänkaltainen journal myös. Pidetään hauskaa ja annetaan ihmisille mahdollisuus arvostaa toisten töitä."

.. itse kiinnostuin ja ehdotan ajanvietteeksi muillekin ~~ :3
eli kiinnostuneita ? n_n


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http://Weenyah.deviantart.com/journal/14671750/ Mon, 17 Sep 2007 10:23:35 PDT When I came to home today from school, my mom told me that my stepdad is in hospital. He went to the work as usually but there they said that he looks sick, and then some people from there took him to the hospital.

My stepdad has the heart-infarct. In his heart some blood vessels has been blowed up, and the heart didn't work well anymore for a few minutes. He was lucky; he didn't die. But when man has the heart-infarct, he has 50% change to will have another. And the heart-infarcts can kill very easily, cause' when has had the infarct the heart is getting badly and badly..

We are all worried cause' my stepdad is almost 50, and the heart-infarct make the heart weakly. He can't maybe work anymore. So, let's hope that he cure soon. ,___.

]]> ~Weenyah http://Weenyah.deviantart.com/journal/14614103/ http://Weenyah.deviantart.com/journal/14614103/ Thu, 13 Sep 2007 08:08:05 PDT Okay. Like I said before, my mom is now in Bryssel, and I'm in the forest by my grandmother.

Here is so boring. -.- And even here are two TVs, anyone of those don't work.. It's amazing that my granny bought this computer, and now it saved me. n-n' So, good for me. I had to bring our own mouse for computer but.. never mind. I got this work and that is the main thing. 83

Well.. even that I have computer here I can't stay at the internet very long, and then I don't have anything to do. Eccept drawing of course <3 and homeworks.. nice. The best thing here is that I can stay very long awake at night, and I got one picture ready yesterday. n____n
I put here maybe five drawings at Sunday, let's see then how many of them I will get ready.~ 8D

Narf. I can go to the city only for school and hobbys, and for car there get for the half on hour. 8/ ..I can't anything for that, but I still don't like to be so long in the countryside. -_____- Fortunately I will get to my friend Memitus on Saturday - that will save me devinivitely, and I think we will have lots of fun.. 8D for example we gonna' watch Battle Royal II <3, like I said before too.

Okay, see ya! And sorry again for my horrible English, hope that you can understand it. .___n'

]]> ~Weenyah http://Weenyah.deviantart.com/journal/14572204/ http://Weenyah.deviantart.com/journal/14572204/ Mon, 10 Sep 2007 07:59:18 PDT Yes yes, I lied.. I'm not yet 14. ,___,
But! Not to worry, cause' I have birthday on Friday.! n___n My mom will be on Bryssel, and I have to go to my grandmother.. that's why I had my party on Saturday. ^3^ I had lots of fun with my friends, and we were bowling too. 83

I got some sweets and makeups to birthday presents, but the best thing was that two years older friends came to me for night. But I don't think that is wierd that some of my best friends are older than me..? Anyway,. we had fun, like I said. 8D

I'm very happy too cause' I go on weekend to one of my best friend at night, we will watch Battle Royale 2 and something else.. well, I can tell it later, after that. -n___n-

Mm.. I'm sorry for my horrible English, but have a nice day (like me) guys! <3

]]> ~Weenyah