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]]> ~Whispered-Scream http://Whispered-Scream.deviantart.com/journal/29041169/ http://Whispered-Scream.deviantart.com/journal/29041169/ Sat, 19 Dec 2009 13:38:11 PST My reason for saying such a thing? I screw myself over.
Most people say life screws them over, but I'm not so ignorant as to blame a theoretical third party unless I'm in denial, but that doesn't have often.
ANYWAY, I'm selfish enough to think that I cause all my own problems.
The latest in the string of events that I have caused is as follows...
[i know its cheesy and stupid to write in these things about personal problems but i'm mainly doing it for myself, but if i don't actually put it out there for at least one other person to read i feel like i've wasted time AND i don't give a shit]
So my last day of school was this past Tuesday, and I made plans with my dear friend [who is of the female origin] to go see a movie and then hang out at her house. We had joked in the past about dating and of coarse sex, but don't worry this is going to remain in the PG-13 region. So we made plans, I didn't really intend to act on the jokes we had made cause she is talking to some other guy, and I sincerely doubted that she actually liked me. Anyway, we went to movies and maybe 45 minutes into 2012 I give in and kiss her. From there we only watched the action parts of the movie. I was pleased with myself for growing a pair cause I've had an off and on crush on her for the past year but again I didn't think she liked me, so I just let it go. Her mom took FOREVER to come pick us up, so we walked about the mall for a bit, where we ran into the guy she had been talking to. I felt completely subordinate at that point. I expected to just be in the back round from here on out, but surprisingly she just said hi and we kept walking and talk going about to different stores until pick up. We got to her house and went on a walk so she could smoke a cig cause she was craving one. It was cold as fuck! Anyway, on the way back I got bored and sat down in some leaves and possible poison ivy [not itching yet!]. I pulled her down next to me, and we just sat there for a bit, on the side of the road, in dead leaves, looking at the lake. Then me, being the ultimate seducer that I am [hahahaha yeah right], again began to kiss her. So there we were, making out on the side of the road, in dead leaves and possible poison ivy. It was great, despite the cold which made us leave very soon. We continued back to her house. Her little sister had a friend over also, but he was too young to pay more attention to her than the video games. We grabbed the ps2 and took it to her room, where we played midnight club 3 dub edition for about ten minutes. Then again we made out for the next hour or so. We were briefly interrupted by her little sister however, who was spying on us through the crack in the door [she can't close her door with a boy over]. She dealt with her sister and we carried on until I had to leave. Her father drove me home because I couldn't get a ride due to my little brother [i'll tell you about that later, its more important anyway]. When I walked in the empty house [home alone] I instantly felt terribly lonely. After spending a whole day with her laughing and joking [we DID do more than kissing], there was nothing I could do to entertain myself. There was however, one consolidation. I could still smell her perfume, and as cliche as it is, I could still taste her lips on mine. Every now and again I'm still getting wiffs of the scent of her hair. I miss that day.


The problem now is, I don't know what our status is. Cause we both know that neither of us actually wants a relationship. I mean with her I could probably manage to stand being tied down [commitment issues], but I don't think she wants that. and THERE in lies the problem. I'm usually scary psychic when it comes to reading people and what they want or don't want, but when I myself get involved with them it gets thrown off. So I'm really confused right now, but I honestly don't care. I know its not a good idea to continue this infatuation. I know I'm being really stupid, and more importantly I know all the consequences of what I'm doing. but really, i don't care. I'm giving into the surrounding bliss while I have it. It doesn't visit often, and I can handle the fallout.

]]> ~Whispered-Scream http://Whispered-Scream.deviantart.com/journal/27948579/ http://Whispered-Scream.deviantart.com/journal/27948579/ Sat, 24 Oct 2009 20:17:35 PDT It was GREAT!
Won a few games of pool.
Attempted and failed to complete a game of apples to apples.
Got to meet my friends new gf. She's cool. He's lucky.
Overall this was a great fall break.
I needed it.
Now its back to French class and all that other good stuff that goes along with highschool.

]]> ~Whispered-Scream http://Whispered-Scream.deviantart.com/journal/27805264/ http://Whispered-Scream.deviantart.com/journal/27805264/ Fri, 16 Oct 2009 20:34:52 PDT When theres no one you desire to love,
Suddenly with ease, there's creation,
For all that life truly is, is love.

I am single.
I am alone.

I am ignoring the fact that I usually don't do the right thing anymore.
I am stupid.

I am finding life simpler when it is only me.
I am happy.

I am finding life colder when it is only me.
I am alone.

]]> ~Whispered-Scream http://Whispered-Scream.deviantart.com/journal/26978025/ http://Whispered-Scream.deviantart.com/journal/26978025/ Wed, 02 Sep 2009 13:42:35 PDT this new year of school and such is interesting
i have accomplished reintroducing myself into the circle of friends i cut myself from and then got shunned by for cutting myself out of them cause i didn't want to fall into what they all started doing.
and i find it's not what i thought
everytime i thought they were all happy and getting along
its like they are all on drugs or something
and it only happens about once a month,
hahaha IRONIC YES?
erm.
anyway
i'm trying to balance all this crap cause being a junior is MUCH more work than being a sophty as i like to call them
and i am also taking french class this year
so keep fingers crossed that i will actually REMEMBER some of what i learn
and this weekend i am going back to murfreesboro for a few days
its going to be INCREDIBLE
haha and i'm going to get fat from the munchies

]]> ~Whispered-Scream http://Whispered-Scream.deviantart.com/journal/25500264/ http://Whispered-Scream.deviantart.com/journal/25500264/ Tue, 23 Jun 2009 16:44:32 PDT so
last night
i went on a complete rampage of photography
i took 42 photos in 3 hours with my 4 megapixel and had at least 7 massive costume changes
and i have already begun posting those photographs that at first i was gonna make a new folder for but decided against it
ANNNNYWAY...


......



I'M REALLY HYPER!
with no excuse whY!
except that im excited
cause this weekend i am going to either six flags or some place called carowinds with my youth group
cause we are going to mfuge
and usually we have a free day in the middle
BUT
this time we don't
soooo
instead we are having it ahead of time this saturday!
and then sunday starts off the week of mfuge in south carolina!!!
can you say fuN?!
oh
aNNNNNND
btw
i have a new friend
he is new to dA so he only has a few things out but they are REALLY good things
he is extremely cool and even funnier so check him out and please cause i expect great things from him
but yeah that is all
love you guys!!!

]]> ~Whispered-Scream http://Whispered-Scream.deviantart.com/journal/24968675/ http://Whispered-Scream.deviantart.com/journal/24968675/ Tue, 26 May 2009 19:53:33 PDT for all the collections
for all the favorites
and dev-watches
I thank you

and also
sidebar here
I have to add something to my journal here
*Shutter-Vision
They're good
They have good art submitted
Check them out

]]> ~Whispered-Scream http://Whispered-Scream.deviantart.com/journal/24796152/ http://Whispered-Scream.deviantart.com/journal/24796152/ Sat, 16 May 2009 23:34:34 PDT
Jesus sees this and says, "I'm going to try to walk on water again." He walks up to the water, takes a step on top and sinks.

Moses says, "Try it again, Jesus. It's been a while." Jesus tries again, and once more, he sinks.

Jesus comes out of the water and says, "I know what the problem is. When I walked on water before, I didn't have holes in my feet."

]]> ~Whispered-Scream http://Whispered-Scream.deviantart.com/journal/24795818/ http://Whispered-Scream.deviantart.com/journal/24795818/ Sat, 16 May 2009 23:00:46 PDT Then I realized that the computer i wrote it on was SO crappy I couldn't get the story off of it.
It had well over a dozen viruses despite the fact that I had no internet on it.
The real reason though is because the new computer my parents got, is vista,
so it won't comply.
Yeah....
Anyway, after having written an entire book and edited over half the chapters, I STARTED OVER!
With a years work down the drain I started over.
Went with a new idea because the old one seemed....
idk old.
So now I'm on chapter four,
and with idea's and side plots for future books, come the oh so dreaded writer's block.
Long story short,
I would like some help.
Basically my two heros are trapped.
They were just chased down a long hallway to a dead end and suddenly the ceiling extended over them to make a staircase, so they were saved from the monsters,
but now they are trapped,
and I don't know what to do.
I mean I could have a secret passage open up to the next building that I was going to put them in,
but I sort of want them to be outside.
I could have the main hero girl have some device for them to get out of it with, but that seems too cheap, cause I've already done something like that.
What I'm leaning toward is the stairs turn back into the ceiling.
Which you would think is too convenient.
But it's not once you read through the whole book.
Plus I want them to go back up through the building they were just in so they will run into one of the main 'baddies'.
But I'm not sure how to do that.
I already had them fall down an elevator shaft that is now obliterated.
They could go up the stairs.
But idk.
It would probably be too boring.
Help.

]]> ~Whispered-Scream http://Whispered-Scream.deviantart.com/journal/21450894/ http://Whispered-Scream.deviantart.com/journal/21450894/ Wed, 12 Nov 2008 08:37:40 PST So to all those I never said thank you too, THANK YOU I appreciate you all very much

]]> ~Whispered-Scream http://Whispered-Scream.deviantart.com/journal/19689769/ http://Whispered-Scream.deviantart.com/journal/19689769/ Wed, 30 Jul 2008 22:01:00 PDT haha fire man joe puked down the puke on the big red puke!!! XD

]]> ~Whispered-Scream http://Whispered-Scream.deviantart.com/journal/19101965/ http://Whispered-Scream.deviantart.com/journal/19101965/ Sun, 29 Jun 2008 00:15:29 PDT I feel almost conceited and stupid but i want people to see my work.
Anyway to the point. I tried to post it again in a different section to get better reach of audience and when i click the button this big thing comes up that says FORBIDDEN! and i see that deviant thing with its hand out like a crossguard holding a stopwatch.
At first I laugh my ass off at the shear humor of the way I kept saying FORBIDDEN! in my head. Then I actually laughed harder at the deivant thing.
I never realized how stupid people look when they look at a watch and tell you to hold on.
It's like "WAIT NO DON'T DO THAT! I KNOW THE APPROPRIATE TIME FOR WHAT YOUR ABOUT TO DO! YOU DON'T KNOW WHAT TIME YOU SHOULD DO IT!"
It almost made me kinda angry.
Then I said FORBIDDEN in my head one more time and turned up Dr. Acula

OH AND ONE MORE THING!!
go and show some love to my dear friend connie
she is new to deviant art
doesn't have much up at all
but what she does is good i think
this is her


]]> ~Whispered-Scream http://Whispered-Scream.deviantart.com/journal/18808220/ http://Whispered-Scream.deviantart.com/journal/18808220/ Thu, 12 Jun 2008 18:48:27 PDT i took my first pictures ever where i actually tried to do something with the camera
and i wasn't in front of it either! for once
okay i was a few times
but only like twice
anyway
im quite happy with myself
but this only furthers the theory that i am good at almost all art forms except actual art, like painting it.
its rather ironic and depressing
but im not about to be picky 8]

]]> ~Whispered-Scream http://Whispered-Scream.deviantart.com/journal/18781183/ http://Whispered-Scream.deviantart.com/journal/18781183/ Wed, 11 Jun 2008 09:37:20 PDT hmm summer so far has been kinda sucky
i mean don't get me wrong there were moments that i could call the best times of my life
but really the bad outways the good by far
especially when the bad is having to babysit my lil brother and half my friends at the same time
i mean i love them but they just seem helpless at points
then of course my lil brother is a demon from hell
but lets focus on the good shall we?
i logged a a good 4 hours on an awesome game with one of my best friends
then i had an incredible picnic with my youth group and played some stellar kickball
got to hang out with some friends went to see a movie [the strangers SUCKS BALLS!]
oh but the pinnacle?
going back to murfreesboro and kickin it old school with some of the most magnificent people i have ever met
yeah so it has been pretty good so far

conceptually i really haven't done much
all that stuff up there is kinda old
im mainly putting all my focus on the book im writing and you guys better buy it when its published cause i have worked my ass off on it!

im gonna try and do some pictures soon with our fav photog dana fkin mason
i might even attempt my own amatuer pictures
who knows

anyway
my brother is screaming his head off
i gotta go
stay cool kiddies

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