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So even if I do make lots of new drawings, I wont be able to put them up until I go back home to use my scanner. Not that anyone but Khi will read this lol khi i love you, we should hang out again... but this time not sleep the day away and ACTUALLY hang out XD

Anyways thats the latest with me, there you have it.

]]> ~WhiteRose-of-Blood http://WhiteRose-of-Blood.deviantart.com/journal/20884833/ http://WhiteRose-of-Blood.deviantart.com/journal/20884833/ Wed, 08 Oct 2008 05:25:22 PDT

1. Grab the book nearest to you, turn to page 18, and find line 4.
Dr. Halsey stretched once more and then strapped herself back onto the navigation couch. "Speaking of pirates," she said with her back no to him, "weren't you supposed to be monitoring communication channels for illegal signals? Just in case someone takes undue interest in a lone, unescorted, diplomatic shuttle?"
[yeah, just betting your think'n "wtf!?"] XD

2. Stretch your left arm out as far as you can.
Josh poked my hand! XD

3. What is the last thing you watched on TV?
Some anime called Oban Racers...its actually really cool. >.>

4. Without looking, guess what time it is:
6:30am

5. Now look at the clock. What is the actual time?
6:06am wow i was to early

6. With the exception of the computer, what can you hear?
Josh talking to me...

7. When did you last step outside? What were you doing?
yesterday afternoon, putting boxes of jars in some lady's car.

8. Before you started this survey, what did you look at?
Shini's journal...reading this very same quiz. yeah.

9. What are you wearing?
Red half-hoody thing, black tank top underneath, jeans, socks.

10. Did you dream last night?
About the stupid movie called Tremors, its a horror movie about these... creatures that move underground through dirt and pop up eating people and well anything that moves and causes vibrations, animals, people, ect. But I dreamed of me, in that situation, but instead of underground, they had legs, i was with Josh and then the people in the movie. I almost got my leg bitten off...But then we caught one, and we were in this lab place, and it was in a cage, and i kept running in front of it as it could see heat and i laughed at it every time it screamed and smacked its face against the cage bars.... then i woke up.

11. When did you last laugh?
less than 2 seconds ago. X3

12. What is on the walls of the room you are in?
a halloween decoration of a black cat, religious pics, a plate, and really old fashion keys.

13. Seen anything weird lately?
A chick make out with what i thought was a chick but she slowly undressed that chick and it turned out to be a dude and then she re-dressed him but in dude clothes.... yeah that was messed.

14. What do you think of this quiz?
i've done this about 50 times already, why am I doing it again? Because it's 6am and I haven't slept at ALL.

15. What is the last film you saw?
Babylon A.D. with Vin Diesel <3

16. If you became a multi-millionaire overnight, what would you buy?
paint stuff.... clay....plasma screen t.v.(s)... car... new hoody... one of them bowflex things... a new trampoline...aaaannnnnddd... honestly i have no idea.

17. Tell me something about you that I don't know.
For all you know... you don't even know me so um... that'd be alot of things... but just ONE thing... lets see.... I'm Nessa. >__>

18. If you could change one thing about the world?
To keep this one simple.... i don't know.

19. Do you like to dance?
of course!

20. George Bush:
Honestly... he's a child but still I feel better than having Obama or Micane[sp?]

21. Imagine your first child is a girl, what do you call her?
Kallan, Lorenna, Elenore, Malia.

22. Imagine your first child is a boy, what do you call him?
Nothing that starts with "J"....

23. Would you ever consider living abroad?
In a heartbeat

24. What do you want God to say to you when you reach the pearly gates?
You have done well, I'm proud of you.

]]> ~WhiteRose-of-Blood http://WhiteRose-of-Blood.deviantart.com/journal/20076308/ http://WhiteRose-of-Blood.deviantart.com/journal/20076308/ Thu, 21 Aug 2008 10:57:27 PDT 1. THE DARK KNIGHT
2. HOWL'S MOVING CASTLE
3. The Lion King <3
4. Labyrinth<33

♥FOUR PLACES I´VE LIVED:
1. Springville Utah
2. Some waste land in Nevada
3. Pleasant Grove UT
4. Eagle MT. UT

♥FOUR CURRENT FAVORITE VIDEOS:
1. The Dark Knight
2. Iron Man [Robert Downy Jr<3]
3.

♥FOUR TV PROGRAMS I WATCH:
1. dont watch much tv.
2. Batman the Animated Series
3. Family Guy
4. Robot Chicken (XDDDD)

♥FOUR FAVORITE CHARACTERS OF ALL THE TIME:
1. Yukari Tanizaki [Azumanga Daioh]
2. Tomo Takino [Azumanga Daioh]
3. Batman
4. Spiderman

♥FOUR PLACES I´VE BEEN:
1. Alaska
2. Canada
3. Cali [who hasn't? XD]
4. Florida

♥FOUR PEOPLE WHO REGULARLY SEND ME MAILS:
This does not apply to me. XD

♥FOUR OF MY FAVORITE DISHES:
1. Garlic Sirloin
2. Spinach/cornbeef wrapped up in apooloo leaves [Tongan dish]
3. Pana [Italian white sauce much like alfredo]
4. Alfredo, of course.

♥FOUR PLACES I WISH I WERE RIGHT NOW:
1. Italy!
2. Six flags
3. In cali with Josh <3
4. At Khi's house XD

♥FOUR INSANE THINGS I´LL LIKE TO DO:
1. Get blue streaks!
2. Sky diving for my wedding [that actually might happen though XD]
3. Bunjee jump!
4. Go to one of them illegal raves and go sit in some random person's car then blame it on drugs that I never really took. 83

♥FOUR SONGS I LIKE: [currently]
1. Trance
2. Trance
3. Spoooooky Trance.... >__>
4. Nah jk abunch of stuff...idk the names

♥FOUR REASONS TO KEEP ON LIVING:
1. Millions of fans in love with me ;O
2. Josh
3. Khi
4. Traveling the world, having kids...with Josh. XDDD

♥FOUR THINGS I´LL NEVER DO:
1. Be like anyone else
2. Hate anyone [life is to short]
3. Give old 40yr old ladies wedgies when they wear thongs... EVER AGAIN! DX [they shouldn't wear them hang'n out of their pants in the first place!]
4. Eat at Mc D's eeeewwww!

♥FOUR UNFORGETTABLE DATES:
1. When you're taken out to eat, but then the date who planned it doesn't pay for your dish D<

2. When the date doesn't do anything but drive around and race other stupid people who think they know how to race! Sorry... driving up the curb and scratching the hell outta the bottom of your car is NOT race drive worthy!

3. When you're date tells you, you're going to do a bunch of fun things, but when he picks you up... all you do is drive around for 3hrs to places that don't even relate to what you were SUPPOSED to do.

4. When you're date starts hitting on other girl right in front of you, then tells bad jokes about you... But thats okay... I might actually be able to forgive that one considering I literally kicked his ass and where the sun dun shine, leaving on the ground.<3

♥FOUR FAVORITE DRINKS:
1. Dr. Pepper
2. Red Bull
3. Chocolate Milk
4. Guatana

♥FOUR WISHES:
1. Get married to Josh<3
2. Travel the world
3. Have kids...later though XD
4. Go to one of them huuuuge raves in Europe

♥FOUR THINGS I´LL DO BEFORE I DIE:
1. Fall in love
2. Draw an AMAZING picture
3. Sky dive
4. Go to Tonga

♥I HOPE THIS YEAR (2008) I CAN:
1. Finish school =/
2. Get my life in order the way it should have been a year ago! DX
3. Go to Italy
4. See my real dad

♥FOUR TRAUMAS IN MY LIFE:
1. Death of my gramps
2. Breaking the commitment to Josh the first time. No...really... that hurt... I don't think I've ever felt so much emotional pain in my life! D:
3. Other things the rest of the world doesn't need to know ¬_¬

♥I CRY WHEN:
1. When Josh left me to go become a Marine
2. When he surprised me by coming back
3. When he left again for S.O.I.
4. When I'm emotionally hurt.

♥FOUR WORDS THAT DESCRIBE YOU:
1. Outgoing
2. Funny
3. Blunt
4. Nessa <--totally thats the one that explains all!

]]> ~WhiteRose-of-Blood http://WhiteRose-of-Blood.deviantart.com/journal/20059617/ http://WhiteRose-of-Blood.deviantart.com/journal/20059617/ Wed, 20 Aug 2008 12:39:45 PDT
whoever reads this... is an idiot.
Yes Khi, I am calling you an idiot XD
-points and laughs...then runs-

]]> ~WhiteRose-of-Blood http://WhiteRose-of-Blood.deviantart.com/journal/19803215/ http://WhiteRose-of-Blood.deviantart.com/journal/19803215/ Wed, 06 Aug 2008 06:08:46 PDT Don't know guys, still just debating I guess. -shrugs- Who knows, I might just keep doing what I'm doing... whatever that is. XD

I AM DONE WITH THIS JOURNAL! DX

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]]> ~WhiteRose-of-Blood http://WhiteRose-of-Blood.deviantart.com/journal/18975532/ http://WhiteRose-of-Blood.deviantart.com/journal/18975532/ Sun, 22 Jun 2008 00:06:16 PDT not that I expect any from anyone but Khi... so i guess this only applies to Khi... and maybe RyumasBride XD

lol! love you guys! see you in a couple of days!
[summer break]

]]> ~WhiteRose-of-Blood http://WhiteRose-of-Blood.deviantart.com/journal/18600069/ http://WhiteRose-of-Blood.deviantart.com/journal/18600069/ Sat, 31 May 2008 20:40:37 PDT So as I make these awesome random stupid little phrases with my best friend [which by the way i hope I will marry someday when he comes back] its like random moments that are between just me an him... Y'know when you go off and do something with your BEST buddies and do something stupid together and not care what others think because your with friends... its like one of them really good moments that's JUST between the lot of you. [how ever many that is]

Well no we didn't make up the whole "Are you for cereal?" But answers and such we made up together for that question. I'm just not going to share moments like that with anyone anymore. I'll be blunt! I told a friend about this stupid answer when ever Josh or I asked each other "Are you for cereal?" [translated for the elderly that dont know: Are you serious?] And then suddenly one of her friends says that same answer, sure this IS stupid and i have no idea why its digging in me but it is. I feel as though something was taken away from me and spread out there for others to see, like i was exposed. Just no I'm not talking anymore!


ANYWAYS ON A BETTER AND BRIGHTER NOTE!

I got up and had my mom's awesome pancakes for breakfast! Then took a shower! [thats not surprising... -_-] Then I played some Guitar Hero III and got more songs on my profile! My mom watched me try "Through the Fire and Flames" song by Dragonforce on expert. Surprisingly enough I got the first part of the song... [that was just lucky though] and she made fun of me cuz i sucked but its ok because i did and it was funny! Then we all went to the provo mall to see Iron Man. I'm guessing we decided to go all the way over to provo instead because my brother works there and we can get in for free. We watched Iron Man! it was teh awesome!

IDONTCAREWHATANYONESAYS!!! Robert Downy Jr. is hawt!

Movie list!:

[x]Iron Man
[]Indiana Jones
[]Narnia
[]Baby Momma

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"Shut up! I'm sick and tired of your overly happy personality, and the fact that you think you can turn any and every single person on this planet into a happy go lucky freak. Go sit in the corner and screw yourself with something hard and sand papery! Your rainbow hair makes me think you can vend skittles out of it. But you don't have any skittles to offer me so your absolutely worthless!!"


And if they continue to try and talk to me I'll simply cut them off and continue my ranting of hilarious bluntness.

"Dude seriously! Just shut up, I've told you to go sit in the corner, if you don't want to do what I said before, then go have some self pitty for a little while. Cut yourself and let some of that oh so joyous overkill personality of "omg happy rainbowness of love and overkill insistent happiness" of your's and come back when your a real mellow understanding person. That wont be all "omg my hair color is rainbow and thus i must spread happiness all around the world in a non realistic retarded way that is me." you freaking idiot."

No this does not apply to anything that happened in real life. I just saw a pic of a rainbow haired chick, and she had a character profile to the side of her. It was almost "insisting" that she could turn old grouchy farts into lovable happy kittens. So I just HAD to make fun of it. Though it sounds like I'm talking about a girl in real life, thats just the way I felt like putting it.

]]> ~WhiteRose-of-Blood http://WhiteRose-of-Blood.deviantart.com/journal/18404785/ http://WhiteRose-of-Blood.deviantart.com/journal/18404785/ Mon, 19 May 2008 18:40:55 PDT
That babies make cheerios look soooo appealing?

Yeah just think about it for a sec. XD

]]> ~WhiteRose-of-Blood http://WhiteRose-of-Blood.deviantart.com/journal/18374115/ http://WhiteRose-of-Blood.deviantart.com/journal/18374115/ Sat, 17 May 2008 21:54:24 PDT
So after about two days of dealing with its idioticness, she decided that we needed a new printer/scanner. So we got this really REALLY nice one, it was awesome cuz we got like $10.00's off. It's one of them really fancy photo print ones. HP Photosmart C5250 All-in-One. Yep thats what it is. We can burn photos onto a disc and stuff, and it has one of them niffty things so that when you want to label a disc, you just put it in this thingy and BAM you have a niffty pro look'n disc! Instead of a lame-o burning disc [bleh] I is sooooo happeh!

]]> ~WhiteRose-of-Blood http://WhiteRose-of-Blood.deviantart.com/journal/18359981/ http://WhiteRose-of-Blood.deviantart.com/journal/18359981/ Fri, 16 May 2008 23:57:20 PDT
It wont let my upload my pics, it wont let me a do a bunch of stuff. But the thing that I find really odd is that when I'm looking at a deviation, and want to go back or something... I click back, it just reloads the page... wtf is up with THAT!? I click it twice in a row and it STILL doesn't do anything, it just reloads the same darn page! So I have to like... have a clicking seizure JUST to go back ONE page. It's so friggin stupid... I'm wondering if its only happening to me or not. Meh what ever, I'm thinking of getting off this site anyway. I hardly ever post anything anyway.

Yeah I'm complaining, I'm human, I need to every once in a while. If you don't... what the hell is wrong with you? >_>

]]> ~WhiteRose-of-Blood http://WhiteRose-of-Blood.deviantart.com/journal/18205791/ http://WhiteRose-of-Blood.deviantart.com/journal/18205791/ Wed, 07 May 2008 02:12:30 PDT
THREE NAMES YOU GO BY:
1. Nessa
2. Jan
3. and now "N" Thanks to Khi XD

THREE SCREEN NAMES YOU'VE HAD:
1. Kinta
2. SerenityKin
3. Shinikins <--OMG IZ TEH KYOOT! <3

THREE THINGS YOU'VE DONE IN THE LAST 33 MINUTES:
1. read "NekoMachi (Cat Town)" its a webcomic its funneh.
2. Learned my bro's ex is a whore
3. laughed at the whore's stupidity! hahahaha!

THREE THINGS YOU LIKE ABOUT YOURSELF:
1. mah hair! is so pretty! <3
2. mah personality!
3. mah....I just love me, no I'm not selfish or self centered. I just know how to appreciate myself! :3

THREE THINGS YOU DISLIKE ABOUT YOURSELF:
1. weight, I'm too heavy, but im totally losing it so ha! >:3
2. so many ideas but can't draw them out quick enough
3. Never satisfied long enough, always driven to have more!

THREE PARTS OF YOUR ORIGINS:
1. 25% Danish! Thanks Grandma!
2. 25% Irish! Thanks Grandpa! (thanks mom for being both! ...of course)
3. 50% Tongan! Thanks Dad!

THREE THINGS YOU'RE AFRAID OF:
1. my mom when she's mad
2. being alone
3. my love returning to me a different person that wont love me back.

THREE THINGS YOU ARE WEARING RIGHT NOW:
1. black hoody with skullz!!!! but all mah hoodies are like that XD
2. black shirt!
3. Jeans and black shoes!

THREE OF YOUR EVERYDAY ESSENTIALS:
1. hugs
2. insanity
3. .........MORE INSANITY! YAY!

THREE IMPORTANT OBJECTS:
1. MAH BEST FRIEND KHI AND JOSH! even tho they aren't objects!
2. pencil w/paper
3. musix....HAVE. TO. HAVE. MUSIX!

THREE OF YOUR FAVORITE BANDS:
[I don't have favorites I love all musix but I DO go through phases
as of right now I will list the few I am attached to "for now"]
1.Paramore pfft heck yesh!
2. um... a bunch of Trance/Techno/Psytrance!
3. D00D! this is friggin to hard! So I'll just say what ever's on mah PSP!

THREE WAYS TO BE HAPPY:
1. laugh at random thoughts i think up for comics
2. computer with musix! internet with random stupid webcomics!
3. chocolate milk or anything with sugar

THREE OF YOUR FAVORITE SONGS AT PRESENT:
1. The Gay Barbie Song [parody of the one by Aqua XD]
2. The Great Escape
3. Misery Business

THREE NEW THINGS YOU WANT TO TRY IN THE NEXT 12 MONTHS:
1. get a fricken job...[i'll leave this answer, i need to get one also ]
2. get a tan...pfft that wont be hard X3
3. draw my ideas, and have them be great and satisfying!

THREE THINGS YOU REGRET:
1. I regret nothing! [i'll leave this alone as well cuz its true for me 2]
2. I live as myself and even though society says they are different..
3. ...they are... FROM ME! only a select few are the black sheep of society, I am one of them!

THREE THINGS YOU WANT IN A RELATIONSHIP:
1. hysterical laughter [yet another thing this Musan guy and I have in commen ]
2. hugs, must have da hugs [thats just... an er duh]
3. constant desire [for love not lust!]

THREE IMPORTANT THINGS YOU'VE GIVING TO THE WORLD:
1. entertainment thats cheap and free! 8D
2. A shoulder to lean on
3. An ear to listen to its problems

TWO TRUTHS AND A LIE (in order):
1. I have long hair CURLY hair thats healthily shiny! and flowy!
2. I'm a chick!
3. I'm....Normal... [HAHAHAHAHA NOT EVEN AN IDIOT COULD FALL FOR THAT!]

THREE PHYSICAL THINGS YOU LIKE IN THE OPPOSITE SEX:
1. Taller than me
2. well built but not to big
3. I love the emo hair style and eyeliner, mix this with soft gentle hazel/golden colored eyes... I'm gonna melt. -dreamy sigh-

THREE EMOTIONAL THINGS YOU LIKE IN THE OPPOSITE SEX:
1. random and hyper [when the time calls for it which is most of the time... XD]
2. Honest
3. Loyal [are those even emotions or they just traits?]

THREE THINGS YOU JUST CAN'T DO:
1. I
2. Can't do what now?
3. PFFT HAHAHAHAHA! I do what EVER i want! there is NOTHING I can't do!

THREE THINGS YOU MISS FROM YOUR PAST:
1. swimming every weekend!
2. walking to the gas station and getting slurpies with my best friends
3. playing night games with every one in the neighborhood.

THREE GIFTS YOU WOULD LIKE TO RECEIVE:
1. courage to get a job
2. a car
3. new cord for my ps2 and more ps2 games

THREE REASONS WHY YOU ARE WHO YOU ARE:
1. my mom, dayum her attitude lol no WONDER i have it! xD
2. overcoming some hard obstacles to... ]]> ~WhiteRose-of-Blood http://WhiteRose-of-Blood.deviantart.com/journal/18104765/ http://WhiteRose-of-Blood.deviantart.com/journal/18104765/ Wed, 30 Apr 2008 16:18:42 PDT So RANDOM SUBJECT!!!

It was like...what.... 4am? I had this awesome drawing spree BUT! nothing ever turned out how I wanted it, or I just started something but never came close to finishing it! But all the ideas are great it was like I had....Half of an artist block... Instead of it having my full name it only had part. "Nessa" yep it...it sucked but was kinda cool at the same time because they're all random! Yep short journal but i dont care!

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1. Who was the last person of the opposite sex you had a conversation with?
Y'know for how many times I mention this Josh kid in my journals... I would be thinking that who ever reads them would guess... Josh... well congrats you win a cookie!

2. Where is the last place you went out to eat?
Arbys... I prefer home cooked food.

3. What was the last beverage you consumed?
A Sprite... I was really thirsty and that was the only thing in mah friends van that hasn't been opened yet...I was really thirsty... but even still that didn't really help... XD

4. Thoughts at this moment?
"Was Khi having a ridiculously good time while doing this quiz?"

5. Do you bite your lips a lot?
When I'm in deep thought.

6. Where's the question?
That IS the question dur.

7. Medical, fine arts, or law?
arts... OBVIOUSLY!

8. What do you want?
To have a house that looks like a box in the wal-mart parking lot but is really a mansion on the inside!

9. Best kind of pizza?
Costco's pizza

10. Favorite drink?
idk um Guadana? That um one drink... that i get from that restaurant... Tukanos... over by Borders... XD

11. Do you miss anyone?
My baby brother... ViKelly...

12. What were you doing at 11:59 PM on Friday night?
At my friend Amanda's house... Watching the Silent Hill movie... Y'know after watching it a third time... It's SO cheesy...

13. What's a lyric from the song you can hear?
There can be miracles
When you believe
Though hope is frail
It's hard to kill
Who knows what miracles
You can achieve
When you believe
Somehow you will
You will when you believe

Chyeah! When you Believe from that movie Prince of Egypt..
Shut up!
I love that movie!
I dont care what you think!
Shut up! >.<

14. Besides your own, who's room were you in last?
My rents room

15. What should you be doing?
Um... entertaining myself so I don't die from boredom?

16. Can you speak another language?
A really REALLY ridiculously tiny bit of Tongan XD

17. What are you going to do tomorrow?
Going to church

18. What are you doing on the weekend?
um... its pretty much over...

19. Who was the last band you saw live?
I can't remember.

20. What are you waiting for?
The week to start so I can go over to Josh's

21. Do you take care of your friends while they're sick?
Yes...one... X3

22. Do you like to read?
I love to read, the problem is finding a book that will actually catch my attention for more than just a few mins.

23. How do you feel about your first love?
I love him... And I still love him. :3

24. Where is somewhere you have always wanted to share a kiss with a significant other?
... Why...would you care?

25. Favorite colors?
um i just like colors is that good?

26. Who is your favorite person to have a serious conversation with?
DanYkah! and Josh!

28. Where did you go today?
Clearfeild

29. What's the next book you will read?
I dont know yet... I haven't found one that has caught my interest yet.

30. Where do you want to go right now?
Josh's... or Bush Gardens.. or Lagoon... or Danykah's...

31. What's your next concert?
idk... I'm just kinda blah right know and don't care so um... questions like these... they wont go anywhere XD

32. What are you wearing?
hmm a black shirt i got from trick or treating rofl!
Tripp shorts

33. What brand of digital camera do you own?
I dont have a camera of my own... I dont really mess with cams much so um idk.

34. What do you think about people who party a lot?
idk... and um.. i dont care?

35. Are you bored?
if I wasn't would I really be doing this?

36. When is your birthday?
lets just say its in spring

37. What's your favorite song?
for now... I dont have one. But I must say... that I'm very attached to a remake of This Is Halloween

38. Who gave you your last compliment?
...actually...at the moment... i can't remember.

39. Who/what last made you smile?
my f... ]]> ~WhiteRose-of-Blood http://WhiteRose-of-Blood.deviantart.com/journal/17373482/ http://WhiteRose-of-Blood.deviantart.com/journal/17373482/ Mon, 17 Mar 2008 04:15:23 PDT [link]

Resident Evil for Retards!
[link]

Residuck Evil!
[link]

Resident Evil Foar!
[link]

Just watch! X3

i wanna play the "Lets Practice Caressing Ppls Faces By Slapping Them" game
(uh.. yeah Khi is the only one who will get that XD)

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Now I usually don't go off like this on one person but I cannot hold anything in anymore. I thought she was like me, witch in a sense disturbed me very much. Our appearance, and our likes are pretty much the only thing we ever had in common. She thought it was a friend of ours that we had in common, no it was never that friend that we had in common. I knew worlds of this amazing girl that lay between us that she never would have ever known. I'm sick and tired of just being the one to back down. "Oh she always fights with people." "There is no point in arguing she will never back down." "If you get her started its like she'll fight to the death, till she has the last word." Well she isn't the only one like that.

I sometimes have to have the last word, I will stoop lower than what I am just to get that last word, or that last laugh sometimes. We all do it, it's nothing new. But most of the time others just let it go because it simply is just to immature to go on. Then I send her a note simply stating that I don't want to be in the club she has going on. I only told her that I didn't want to be apart of any club, I never have been good with clubs and so on. Hypocritical people can never make "best friends" unless you consider a best friend to gossip like jr. high students then sure. But they will never have friends that are true to the heart, friends that you can tell everything to, tell your life's story to.

If it seems that I write high-moral speeches then so be it. I don't see them as "high-moral" speeches. I see them as...Me getting my feelings out! If I'm not allowed to express myself in the manner I am comfortable with, then neither should she. She can't see how amazing that friend thats between us is. I think that friend is better off without this girl, I think that friend should simply leave her behind, I see that she is better off without her anyway. It is the girl that is pulling this friend down, not the other way around. But what do my words matter? They are nothing but "high-moral speeches" I love this friend with all my heart and would never hurt her.

I'll admit that I could have waited to send this girl that note. Obviously it hurt her considering shes acting like I just simply threw a bunch of spears at her from the back. I'm sorry to her if she saw it that way. I have no desire to hurt her but I guess I did. I guess she is going through some hard times right now, but that is no reason to blame ME as the one to have broke her. Saying I was the one to of pulled the last straw in her support, not wanting to deal with some one she doesn't even know. Thats right she doesn't even know me in the least but she sure acted as though she knew me for years. In a sense she is like me but will never see it. I see that she is suffering on the inside, I see that she's obviously scared to ask for help from a real friend, she never trusts anyone and so therefore she is scared to ask. Well if you don't trust anyone how will you ever meet anyone you can trust and get help?

She displays the very person I was in jr. high. I can't stand being around her at all really. Just because she mirrors all of my bad traits. ALL. OF. THEM. and then some. People usually don't like to hang out with other people that tend to mirror a lot of their bad traits. If you are going to judge the world just by its cover then don't claim to be open minded. Yes, she is open minded.... but only to one part of the world. Well she isn't the only one thats open minded in that department. Just... it seems... everyone else is open minded with not only that one part of the world... but they're open minded to the rest of it as well.
I don't think she is a bad person, I just think she is slightly lost. I don't think I'm better than her. I guess I am kinda hurt by the fact she doesn't want to be friends anymore. As to why I'm hurt and would like to stay friends... I don't know. I don't know how to approach my 14yr old self, so therefore I don't know how to help her.

I want to help her, I wish I could but I can't really ask her to come to me for help when she doesn't trust me. And I can't really ask her to trust me when she has no desire to get to know who I am. I know she's suffering from the i... ]]> ~WhiteRose-of-Blood http://WhiteRose-of-Blood.deviantart.com/journal/16392038/ http://WhiteRose-of-Blood.deviantart.com/journal/16392038/ Sun, 13 Jan 2008 17:28:32 PST
1. Do you think you can last in a relationship for 4 months?
yes

2. What color are your eyes?
brown

3. Who was the first person that you texted this morning?
I don't text.

4. Do you have a best friend(s)?
yes, to most that know me may think im one to trust easily but no im most certainly not! I only have two BEST friends. Khi and Josh yes I will say who they are because I am proud to be their friend! so ha in joor face!

5. What is one thing you question a lot?
why nature is the way it is

6. Do you lead people on?
I didn't know that I did till recently and I don't mean to.

7. Are you married?
no, I think I need to explore my life a little bit more before I take such a huge step like that in life

8. Have you ever told someone you loved them?
all the time!

9. Is there anyone that doesn't like you because of something you didn't do?
ch! pfft! yeah! but do i care? no!

10. Do you miss someone?
yes a lot!

11. Did any of your friends go out with any of your exes?
yes, they were stupid for doing it, they learned why but whatever y'know? i mean some people have to learn the hard way.

12. Are looks important?
i think so, but to a certain extent. for ex: in a relationship there has to be SOME kind of physical attraction, doesn't matter what but there just has to be some. other than that I think personality boosts a person's looks for the most part... depending on the person's personality.

13. What are you wearing right now?
a ridiculously huge hoody i got from josh, jeans, black shirt.

14. Are you mad at someone right now?
i hardly ever have any reason to be mad at anyone unless they wake me up at the butt crack of dawn calling some stupid store just to see if they're open! So um... no not mad just annoyed...

15. Are you taking anyone for granted?
no

16. Where do you keep your money?
in my wallet.

17. When was your last kiss in the rain?
does snow count? I mean its like rain but frozen and falls slower!
-sigh- im a dork XD

18. Would you rather sleep with someone else or alone?
after sharing my bed with Khi when she came over... Id say ALONE!!

19. How did you wake up this morning?
pissed off almost to the point the very gates of hell would open. Cell phones... no the use of any phone should be forbidden to use at 6am in this house!

20. Which is more romantic: sunrise or sunset?
sunset. sunrise just speaks.... "perkyness" to me. >_>

21. What was the highlight of your day?
watching some baby laugh for no reason with my mom and josh

22. Would you die for anyone?
yes actually i would

23. What's the last bone you broke?
never broke a bone surprisingly enough!

24. How many different letters are in your last name?
five

25. Do you love anyone besides family & friends?
um...

26. What book did you read last?
eclipse

27. How was your day?
crazy, up and down!

28. Who was your last missed call?
idk

29. Are you scared of spiders?
i hate them

30. What do you think of Fergie?
Shes stupid and obsessed with herself.

31. Do you believe in love?
yes, i don't believe that its just hormones, because what you have for someone is more than just hormones, hormones fade!

32. How old do you want to be when you have kids?
when ever that just happens, 22 maybe but 24 or 25 sound best.

33. When was the last time you were so drunk you threw up?
i don't drink, drinking may sound fun but it makes you stupid and ruins your body. There are other ways of having fun.

34. Do you curse a lot?
more than i should, curse words just aren't my thing. sure they are just words but as much as people think they don't hurt you, because society considers them rude and that is what we grew up to believe, they can and will hurt.

35. What do you know about the future?
it's going to be AMAZING.

36. Do you hate your last boyfriend/girlfriend?
no in fact we still love each other, but rather explore our lives a bit more before we do anything we might regret.

37. Do you only drink bottled water?
no

38. Are you happier single or with a boyfriend/girlfriend?
i don't mind both, a relationship can be good if you both can take care of each other and yourself, but if you can't do that then your better off being single.

39. Do you believe everyone deserves a second chance?
yes sometimes even a third....... ]]> ~WhiteRose-of-Blood http://WhiteRose-of-Blood.deviantart.com/journal/16361285/ http://WhiteRose-of-Blood.deviantart.com/journal/16361285/ Fri, 11 Jan 2008 17:36:52 PST
I had no idea that I had so much stress on me. I thought I had gotten it all out by talking to one of my friends, venting. But then today had to happen. All I was going to do was go to ANOTHER family party, just when I thought they'd be all over but nuuuuu! We had to do one more on the 11th. I really wanted to go because its my real family and not my step! So I was thinking to myself "It will be a nice change to have a party with real family that treats you right and knows who you really are. But no just because I wanted to ask if I could stay at a friends house on for the weekend after the party my mom lost it.

I have no idea what to do. I know that I'm not being all that I can be right now and I at first never wanted to admit it. Always telling myself "I'll do it later." Thats so unlike me! But being caught up in crap like this really sux. Especially when you finally admit to yourself that everything that has happened to you that has effected those around you was all because of you. Then you get frustrated with those around you. Then they say things that are true and then you freak out about it.
Then you have a fit or whatever it is that you might do. Then you get so angry, all you think about it hurting that one person that hurt you. But you want to hurt them so much that it just might ruin them on the inside, emotionally forever! At one point I shut myself off from the idea of talking to anyone! That it might be better to just shut myself off from the world. But I thought better of that once I REALLY thought about the situation. And when I thought about it, I realized that I am mad at myself not anyone else around me. It's me and I need to fix it but I don't know how just yet.

Yes I know that pretty much no one will read this and if they do that they'll be bored and see it that I am complaining and simply stop. Well I think right now I don't care what anyone else thinks. [not that I ever do care what anyone else thinks anyway] And really thats ok because I only wanted to type it out. I have to get it out somehow!

]]> ~WhiteRose-of-Blood http://WhiteRose-of-Blood.deviantart.com/journal/16324066/ http://WhiteRose-of-Blood.deviantart.com/journal/16324066/ Wed, 09 Jan 2008 01:23:56 PST Single or taken: Taken...
Gender: female
Birthday: May 22
Sign: Gemini
Hair color: Dark brown with a tint of red
Eye color: brown
Height: 5' 5"
Are you straight/bisexual/gay?: Straight

-----------• × • F A S H I O N | S T U F F • × •--------------

Where is your favorite place to shop for clothes?: Hot Topic, Kohls, Zumiez, Pac-Sun, Asian gifts
Favorite designer?: I don't have one
What is your sexiest outfit?: Don't have one...yet muwaha!
What is your most comfortable outfit?: Jeans, t-shirt, hoody
What do you usually wear?: Tripp "shorts" shirt and hoody

--------------• × • S P E C I F I C S • × • -------------------

What kind of shampoo do you use?: Matrix color care
What are you listening to right now?: Paramore: Hallelujah
Who is the last person that called you?: Josh <3
How many buddies are online right now?: idk XD

-------------• × • F A V O R I T E S • × •-----------------

Foods: Chocolate, Pana, Garlic sirloin!!! [most fav stake!]
Girls names: Lorenna, Malia, Melany
Boys names: Kajitan, Dante, Lucan
Subjects in school: Art.. anything thats art... Message therapy..>_>
Animals: Cats, Panthers, Tigers, ect. Dogs, wolves um... yeah wolves. XD

----------------• × • H A V E | Y O U | E V E R • × •-------------

Given anyone a bath?: yes
Smoked?: No
Bungee jumped?: No [want to really bad!]
Made yourself throw up?: once >_>
Skinny dipped?: Never
Ever been in love?: Yes
Made yourself cry to get out of trouble?: Yes
Pictured your crush naked?: Yes
Actually seen your crush naked?: No
Cried when someone died?: Yes
Lied: Yes
Fallen for your best friend?: Yes.. lots of times X3
Rejected someone?: Yes
Used someone?: In a way yes. But never really meant it. make sense?
Done something you regret?: Kind of...

------------• × • C U R R E N T • × •---------------

Clothes: Jeans, Shirt, Hoody XD
Music: Paramore: Misery Business
Smell: Josh's...Hoody's...smell...
CD in player: Chloé
DVD in player: um...idk
Currently doing: This...obviously..

----------------• × • L A S T | P E R S O N • × •----------------------

You touched: Josh
Hugged: Russ
You IMed: Mercedes
You yelled at: Josh's younger brother
You kissed: my mom

------------------• × • A R E | Y O U • × •---------------------

Understanding: yes
Open-minded: yes
Arrogant: yes
Insecure: No
Random: yes
Hungry: Kinda
Smart: When I want to be
Moody: Sometimes
Hard Working: yes
Organized: kinda
Healthy: more than what i was...
Shy: I can be
Difficult: yes
Obsessed: Can be
Angry: Hardly
Sad: Sometimes
Happy: almost all the time
Hyper: DUH!
Trusting: Try to be

---------• × • W H O | D O | Y O U | W A N N A • × •--------

Kill?: my step family
Slap?: everyone just for the heck of it! XD
Get high with: no one I don't get high
Talk to offline: most everyone
Talk to online: anyone
Sex it up with: thats for me to know <3

------------------• × • R A N D O M • × •---------------------

In the morning I: am wtf who the fack are you!
Love is: a beautiful thing when you know you can handle it!
I dream of: what I will be like in a few years
What do you notice first in the gender you're into: PERSONALITY!!! AND...hair and clothes. XD

---------------• × • W H I C H | I S | B E T T E R • × ---------------

Coke or Pepsi: DP if you don't know what that is its Dr Pepper because... Dr Pepper makes the world taste better X3 [yes retarded I know..]
Flowers or candy: ... Flowers...
Tall or short: um in between?

---------------• × • W H O • × • ---------------

Makes you laugh the most: Myself and my best friends Josh and Khi!
Makes you smile: all my friends
Gives you a funny feeling when you see him/her: Jason

--------------• × • D O | Y O U | E V E R • × •-----------------

Sit on the internet all night waiting for that someone special to IM you?: nope
Wish you were a member of the opposite sex?: not...really...
Wish you were younger: no
Cry because someone said something to you?: yeah

-----------• × • N U M B E R • × •--------------

Of times I have had my heart broken: none
Of hearts I have broken: lots
Of guys I've kissed: how am I supposed to remember that?
Of girls I've kissed: none
Of CD's I own: l... ]]> ~WhiteRose-of-Blood http://WhiteRose-of-Blood.deviantart.com/journal/16248073/ http://WhiteRose-of-Blood.deviantart.com/journal/16248073/ Thu, 03 Jan 2008 23:03:20 PST
We made the promise that we both would never touch alcohol, thats not all that hard... XD
Well, yeah... But he really needs to take care of his body now and he's getting ready for boot camp. Leaves May 27th just a few days after my birthday. Anyway after 3 months he'll graduate boot camp, they even hold a graduation ceremony. So after three months, his mom and I are going to take a small road trip over to Cali to go to it. We all know he's going to be this huge buff guy. So I promised him that I would work on myself too! So that he doesn't have to feel alone!

As cheesy as we both are, it's very important to the both of us. He was very excited when I promised him, and is really going to hold me to my word. So I am going to start a little earlier than him because I am a girl and all of us girls know that it is harder for us to lose weight than it is for guys. If not harder it is a slower process.
I saw this as a challenge, and I love a challenge! So I decided that I am going to get rid of the comp permanently. I'll admit I am very lazy when the net is just sitting there and no one else in the house is using it.

So to rid the temptation I am seriously going to get rid of the comp. I won't be able to put up art as much as I usually do.... not that I really put it up as much as everyone else I know on here roflmao!
I'm really excited and very determined to do this! Hopefully I'll reach my goal before he leaves just so I can say "Haha! It looks like I'm the one that held her end of the promise first...Again!" Yes we both kinda feel like its a race when ever we promise each other something....and it always ends up with me reaching my end of the promise first.

Anyway I'm very excited! I burn on the inside just thinking about it! I love the feeling I get when a challenge pops up into my face! I take it very seriously and will do anything thats good for me to get to my goal! You feel invincible, like nothing can touch you, its only you and your goal! Everything else stands on the sidelines! You on a straight road. Nothing but your goal at the end, and the obstacles that stand in your way. I love it, its so exciting!

Well thats pretty much whats going to happen. I'm glad that I have friends that support me and believe in me. Telling me "I know you can do it!" boosts up my confidence, I know I can do it. I did it once before, but this time, I'm going to keep it that way!

]]> ~WhiteRose-of-Blood http://WhiteRose-of-Blood.deviantart.com/journal/16211989/ http://WhiteRose-of-Blood.deviantart.com/journal/16211989/ Tue, 01 Jan 2008 18:13:49 PST Isn't it sad for how stupid the world we live in is? Sure its sad that people see us this way but, that doesn't mean we really are. All I have to say is be who you are and say what you feel because those who matter don't mind and those that mind don't matter.

Stereotypes!
RULES:
1-Put a cross in the things you are, so you can see the stereotype the world has of you. Crude!

[ ]I'm EMO, so I MUST cut my wrists.
[ ]I'm BLACK, so I MUST carry a gun.
[ ]I'm HISPANIC, so I MUST be dirty.
[ ]I'm ASIAN, so I MUST be smart.
[x]I'm NOT LIKE EVERYONE ELSE, so I MUST be a loser.
[ ]I'm JEWISH, so I MUST be greedy.
[ ]I'm GAY, so I MUST have AIDS.
[ ]I'm a LESBIAN, so I MUST have a sex-tape.
[ ]I'm ARAB, so I MUST be a terrorist.
[x]I SPEAK MY MIND, so I MUST be a bitch.
[ ]I'm OVERWEIGHT, so I MUST have a problem with self control.
[x]I'm RELIGIOUS, so I MUST shove my beliefs down your throat.
[ ]I'm an ATHEIST, so I MUST hate the world.
[ ]I DON'T HAVE A RELIGION, so I MUST not have morals.
[ ]I'm REPUBLICAN, so I MUST not care about poor people.
[ ]I'm DEMOCRAT, so I MUST not believe in being responsible.
[ ]I'm JAMAICAN, so I must smoke weed.
[ ]I am LIBERAL, so I MUST be gay.
[ ]I'm SOUTHERN, so I MUST be white trash.
[ ]I take ANTI-DEPRESSANTS, so I MUST be crazy.
[ ]I'm a GUY, so I MUST only want to get into your pants.
[x]I'm IRISH, so I MUST have a bad drinking problem.
[ ]I'm INDIAN, so I MUST own a convenient store.
[ ]I'm NATIVE AMERICAN, so I MUST dance around a fire screaming like a savage.
[ ]I'm PREPPY, so I MUST shun those who don't wear Abercrombie & Hollister.
[ ]I'm a CHEERLEADER, so I MUST be a stuck up whore.
[ ]I'm on a DANCE team, so I must be stupid, stuck up, and a whore.
[ ]I wear SKIRTS a lot, so I MUST be a slut.
[ ]I'm a PUNK, so I MUST do drugs.
[x]I'm YOUNG, so I MUST be naive.
[ ]I'm RICH, so I MUST be a conceited snob.
[x]I WEAR BLACK, so I MUST be a goth.
[ ]I'm BLONDE, so I MUST be a stupid ditz.
[ ]I'm a WHITE GIRL, so I MUST be a nagging, steal-your-money kind of girlfriend.
[ ]I'm CUBAN, so I MUST spend my spare time rolling cigars.
[ ]I'm MEXICAN, so I MUST have hopped the border.
[ ]I'm NOT A VIRGIN, so I MUST be easy.
[ ]I FELL IN LOVE WITH A MARRIED MAN, so I MUST be a home-wrecking whore.
[ ]I'm a TEENAGE MOM, so I MUST be an irresponsible slut.
[ ]I'm POLISH, so I MUST wear my socks with my sandals.
[ ]I'm ITALIAN, so I must have a big peter.
[ ]I GOT A CAR FOR MY BIRTHDAY, so I MUST be a spoiled brat.
[x]I'm PRETTY, so I MUST not be a virgin.
[ ]I HAVE STRAIGHT A'S, so I MUST have no social life.
[ ]I DYE MY HAIR CRAZY COLORS, so I MUST be looking for attention.
[x]I DRESS IN UNUSUAL WAYS so I MUST be looking for attention.
[x]I'm INTO THEATER ART, so I MUST be a homosexual.
[ ]I'm a VEGETARIAN, so I MUST be a crazy political activist.
[x]I HAVE A BUNCH OF GUY FRIENDS, so I MUST be fucking them all.
[ ]I HAVE A BUNCH OF GIRLS WHO ARE FRIENDS, so I MUST be gay.
[ ]I HAVE BIG BOOBS, so I MUST be a whore.
[ ]I'm COLOMBIAN, so I MUST be a drug dealer.
[x]I WEAR WHAT I WANT, so I MUST be a poser.
[ ]I'm RUSSIAN, so I MUST be cool.
[ ]I'm GERMAN, so I MUST be a Nazi.
[ ]I hang out with GAYS, so I MUST be GAY TOO.
[ ]I'm BRAZILIAN, so I MUST have a BIG BUTT.
[ ]I'm PUERTO RICAN, so I MUST look good and be conceited.
[ ]I'm SALVADORIAN, so I MUST be in MS 13.
[ ]I'm POLISH, so I MUST be greedy.
[ ]I'm HAWAIIAN, so I MUST be lazy.
[ ]I'm a STONER, so I MUST be going in the wrong direction.
[x]I'm a VIRGIN, so I MUST be a prude.
[x]I'm a FEMALE GAMER, so I MUST be ugly or crazy.
[ ]I'm BLACK, so I MUST love watermelon and fried chicken.
[ ]I'm BI, so I MUST think every person I see is hot.
[ ]I'm ASIAN, so I MUST have a small penis.
[ ]I'm a GUY CHEERLEADER, so I MUST be gay.
[ ]I'm SKINNY, so I MUST be anorexic.
[ ]I'm PREP, so I MUST be rich.
[ ]I don't like the SUN, so I MUST be albino.
[x]I have a lot of FRIENDS, so I MUST love to drink and party.
[ ]I wear tight PANTS and I'm a guy, so I MUST be emo

]]> ~WhiteRose-of-Blood http://WhiteRose-of-Blood.deviantart.com/journal/16168356/ http://WhiteRose-of-Blood.deviantart.com/journal/16168356/ Sun, 30 Dec 2007 14:51:29 PST _>


Natural Hair Color:
[x] Brown - $100
[] Blond - $50
[] Black - $15
[] Bald - $5
[] Red-$300

Total: $100

Eye Color:
[x] Brown - $1
[] Green - $75
[] Blue $50
[] Hazel $100
[] Other - $15

Total so far: $101

Height:
[] Over 7' - $200
[] 6'8" to 7' - $175
[] 6'0" to 6'7" - $150
[x] 5'5" to 5'11" - $75
[] 4'9" to 5'4" - $45
[] Under 4'9 - $45

Total so far: $176

Age:
[ ] 31 to 40 - $100
[ ] 26 to 30 - $75
[ ] 21 to 25 - $50
[ ] 19 to 20 - $25
[x] 0 to 18 - $100

Total so far: $276

Birth Order:
[] Twins or more than twins - $300
[] First Born - $300
[] Only Child - $250
[x] second born - $150
[] Middle child - $100
[] Last Born - $100
[] third born - $100
[] fourth born - $100
[] fifth born-$100

Total so far: $426

Drink? ---> alcohol
[x] No - $400
[] Only Holidays - $250
[ ] Sometimes - $215
[ ] YES - $200
[ ] only weekends - $300
[ ] Every other day - $50
[ ] Once a day - $15
[ ] I live from the bottle - $Bankrupt$

Total so far? $826

Vision?
[x] perfect vision - $300
[] need or have glasses/contacts but don't wear them - $200
[] No correction $100
[] Glasses $50
[] Contacts $25
[] Surgical correction - $25

Total so far: $1126

Car Color?
[ ] Pink - $2,000
[ ] Maroon - $1000
[ ] Gray - $950
[ ] Blue - $900
[ ] White - $475
[ ] Black - $450
[ ] Red - $400
[ x] Green- $350
[ ] Silver $300
[ ] Purple- $250
[ ] Metallic - $200
[ ] Yellow - $100
[ ] Primer - $75
[ ] Tan- $20
[ ] Rusted - $15
[] No Car - $0

Total score: $1476

Shoe Size:
[ ] 13+ - $300
[] 12 and a half to 13 - $250
[ ] 11 to 12 - $700
[x] 7 to 10 - $500
[] Under 7- $550

Total so far: $1976

Favorite Colors (two):
[] Green-$750
[x] Red - $600
[x] Black - $100
[] Yellow -$475
[] Brown - $50
[] Purple - $225
[] White - $400
[] Aqua - $350
[] Orange - $300
[] Blue - $300
[] Pink - $100
[] Other - $ 50

Total: $2676

Did you use a calculator to add it all up?
[] yes-add $500
[x] no-add $1000
[] on some $750

Final Total: $3676

]]> ~WhiteRose-of-Blood http://WhiteRose-of-Blood.deviantart.com/journal/15980676/ http://WhiteRose-of-Blood.deviantart.com/journal/15980676/ Mon, 17 Dec 2007 23:26:14 PST
That was just something I made up when I was like what 12? and I was really into the "goth/emo" thing no I didn't care if anyone called me a poser or anything like that. If I like something then I like it, just like how I like Tripp pants from Hot Topic, no they are not just for Gothic people, just because Goths like to wear them most does not mean they are "only" for Goths. If I like something I"ll wear it, it does not make me a poser for doing so, it dose not make me a freak, it is just an inanimate object that I am wearing!
BIG! FACKING! DEAL!

Anyway I might get rid of this and just be done with DA but then again its one of the most frequent ways I talk to Khi so I can't really get rid of it. But I could just make a new one I don't know. Anyway I have to many 's to get rid of, I don't want to go hunting for all my 's again, I guess I'm just complaining and I just simply don't care right now.

]]> ~WhiteRose-of-Blood http://WhiteRose-of-Blood.deviantart.com/journal/15599228/ http://WhiteRose-of-Blood.deviantart.com/journal/15599228/ Wed, 21 Nov 2007 02:21:00 PST
What's more important? Your mother? or your stupid trance and pervert freaks that can WAIT FOR A WEEK!! Now I know how my mom feels when she asks him to do something for her or asks for help and my brother makes her feel like crap. I never understood how he made her feel like crap. Well after cleaning the house constantly after him and his friends (omg boys are messy!) for 3 days, cooking dinner, breakfast, ect. for everyone, Oh and we can't forget that I straighten his hair too almost on a daily basis... He acts like I do NOTHING for him. He has dogs to take care of... I ask him to do it he says just a min, a min goes by, ask him again he says just a min, 10mins go by, I ask a 3rd time and he yells at me "I'LL DO IT IN A MINUTE OK? CHILL!" yeah ok im gonna chill when i asked you three times and I've gotten the same answer three times and I've even left you alone for a while... yep I'll just chillax... Oh don't mind the neighbors calling the police because YOUR dogs are disturbing the peace...

The third day everything went down hill. I fall asleep around 4am, get back up at 9am because my mom needs some surgical tape and other things, I go into town get all the items she asked for. Get my brother a coffee because he asked for one, then go back, he goes back to his comp, drinks his coffee then goes back to bed. Me? I come back help mom with her drains, tape the padding around her waist back on, help her drain the drains, measure how much medicine came out and mark what time we did all of this. Later I go down and draw because my nerves are shot from being so frustrated with my brother. My dad comes home, first thing he does is scream at me because a light was left on, in a room I never entered that day. He then screamed saying that I'm not helping, or I don't do enough of this on this side of the house, I'm not paying close enough attention to mom, I'm letting the house get ridiculously messy ect.

At one point of the day I did stop cleaning the house, I was cleaning that kitchen every hour on the hour because of how many boys there were, I dont think they understand that they can use the same cup they used 5mins ago over again... So they just leave it in the sink, I was doing dishes all morning, running up and down the stairs cleaning and then tending to mom when she would call... Finally I stopped, waited for mom to pass out into a deep sleep, went down stairs and started drawing. Preston complained at me, my dad complained at me, both say I don't help mom enough... Well the only GOOD part of that day is that when mom woke up, (and called for me, wondered why I didn't come, found me in my room frustrated and crying(because i was so pissed off].) She more or less ripped my dad and brother a new one. She said that they were really pathetic, for going low enough to say that I didn't do anything when really I did everything. So I told her that I want to go to my friends house. She said that I deserved a break from running on only 5hrs of sleep during the 3full days of doing everything.

The first thing I did when I got to my friends house was....SLEEP and omg it was the BEST i'v had in well 3 days lol. Yeah not that any of you care to read or hear me complain but I feel so much better getting all this out.
Oh and I miss another really good friend of mine....Khi, I've been thinking about her alot, I wanna chillax with her again soon and just talk or something... ok ok what i REALLY wanna do is run into her arms and be all KHIIIIIIII ;_; I WANNA HUG!
I know im being a baby right now... but I think I have every RIGHT to be so.. NYUUU!

]]> ~WhiteRose-of-Blood http://WhiteRose-of-Blood.deviantart.com/journal/15563635/ http://WhiteRose-of-Blood.deviantart.com/journal/15563635/ Sun, 18 Nov 2007 14:02:46 PST Back to drawing!

]]> ~WhiteRose-of-Blood http://WhiteRose-of-Blood.deviantart.com/journal/15526144/ http://WhiteRose-of-Blood.deviantart.com/journal/15526144/ Thu, 15 Nov 2007 20:15:45 PST ...I don't know but WHAT EVER! woo!

...this song pwns... XD I'm listening to Rihanna "Shut Up and Drive"
is great, even tho its a remake but hey! FOB is providing the beat so its all good! mah fave part of the song is-

I got class like a 57 Cadillac
Got all the drive but a whole lot of boom in the back
You look like you can handle whats under my hood
You keep saying that you will boy I wish you would!

and of course the chorus!

Got you where you wanna go if you know what I mean
Got a ride that's smoother than a limousine
Can you handle the curves? Can you run all the lights?
If you can baby boy then we can go all night!

IT IS A SASSY SONG! its kinda like say'n "Can you handle me?" or like "Do you dare touch this?" and y'know what? THATS WHAT I FEEL RIGHT NOW!

ok ok so this journal sounds totally stupid but y'know what? I don't care! cuz I'm happy! so there! screw you! no not really i love you all XD

]]> ~WhiteRose-of-Blood http://WhiteRose-of-Blood.deviantart.com/journal/15515075/ http://WhiteRose-of-Blood.deviantart.com/journal/15515075/ Thu, 15 Nov 2007 01:02:30 PST
-sorry joey i couldn't remember your name off the top of my head... and was to lazy to copy and past that part....


1. Which video game character you hate the most ?
i like kirby... but i hate him... at the same time... does that count?

2.Do you love Animals ?
of course

3.What's your favourite colour ?
Black,red/crimson, maroon, and what ever dark emerald green is called...

4.Do you have a boyfriend ?
NOT ANYMORE

5. Do you fancey a Sonic character
...If I did it would be Shadow.

6.Are you a vegetarian or a meat eater ?
MEAT! mmmm stake!

7.How many Animals you have ?
a cat inside and 2 dogs outside

8.What do you perfer ? Sonic or Mario ?
um... Sonic cuz he's fast and just flat out cooler! But Mario because he's who i played in mah very first video game.... dose this answer count?

]]> ~WhiteRose-of-Blood http://WhiteRose-of-Blood.deviantart.com/journal/15488253/ http://WhiteRose-of-Blood.deviantart.com/journal/15488253/ Tue, 13 Nov 2007 03:48:35 PST

Well anyways! I'm stuck with her for this weekend and probably the week after. Her surgery is this weekend and I have to take care of her while everyone else is doing their own thing. Dad has to work and my brother.... My brother.... Who the heck had heard of Preston ever helping my mom after surgery? pfft HAHAHA now THAT would be a miracle. The most he does is say "Mom I love you, take it easy for today ok?" umm sure its sweet, considering he's a 19yr old boy. Most guys his age aren't like that.

Anyway... This means I have to be an adult and serious, no time for drawing... I draw all the time... just never put alot of the stuff on DA cuz its fan art. Not something I like to share because everyone does fan art... bu yeah so no time for drawing... no time for spazing on the net... no time for me... and right now... I kinda need a break from everyone. I love you all... But I need my own space for now... So if I don't talk to you, or you don't hear from me... You know why.
Just to let you all know whats going on.

Oh and after that she will go to NY [have fun going around with tubes in your gut mom! ...NOT! I don't want you to go! Something might happen!!! Something bad! like your guts ripping out somehow! ;_;] OMG NESSA! don't think of that! You'll cry! Anyways.... So when she's in NY I'll be at a rave... MY FIRST RAVE!! WOOT! I is excited!
When she gets back we all get packed and go to Park City for a week for family vacation on my step dad's side.... [distance self from all the greedy family members] You childish brats! Go away! I don't know you! And you don't know me! NO IM NOT IN A CULT JUST CUZ OF MY TRIPP PANTS! You're all just a bunch of strangers trying to get me to come to your house by bribing me with stories and candy!!!

well yeah thats pretty much it!

SHUT UP!
YOU DON'T KNOW ANYTHING!
YOUR JUST A STUPID 14YR OLD GIRL!
IN A HAIRY MANS BODY!

]]> ~WhiteRose-of-Blood http://WhiteRose-of-Blood.deviantart.com/journal/15217800/ http://WhiteRose-of-Blood.deviantart.com/journal/15217800/ Thu, 25 Oct 2007 15:19:47 PDT
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1.Grab the book nearest to you, turn to page 18, and find line 4.
:Ann Marsters was given the opportunity to investigate Lily Dale"

2.Stretch your left arm out as far as you can. What do you reach?
air...

3. What is the last thing you watched on TV?
hmm... what WAS the last thing? My brother play the wii XD

4. Without looking, guess what time it is:
4:00pm

5. Now look at the clock. What is the actual time?
WOW I WAS RIGHT ON!!!

6. With the exception of the computer, what can you hear?
my music [Fall Out Boy: Infinity On High ]

7. When did you last step outside? What were you doing?
yesterday I was outside all day. didn't get back till 9 at night.

8. Before you started this survey, what did you look at?
This.... I laughed at this question when I ready Khi's LOL KHI I LOVE YOU!

9. What are you wearing?
jeans, black and white striped shirt low cut.... maybe its to low....

10. Did you dream last night?
Im sure I did. I just don't remember it.

11. When did you last laugh?
Last night when some friends and I walked home in the dark making fun of each other! good times! good times.

12. What are on the walls you are in?
puzzle poser thingy, antique keys, pics of Jesus.

13. Seen anything weird lately?
um.... to YOU im sure I am weird...But to ME everything I do is normal... if thats possible... for me to be normal XD um... no?

14. What do you think of this quiz?
Its a weapon that both Khi and RyumasBride used to bombard me! x__X

15. What is the last film you saw?
The Night Before Christmas in 3D
I love that movie!!!

16. If you became a multi-millionaire overnight, what would you buy?
Well ever since I found out my collage is payed for.... um a car and a house!

17. Tell me something about you that I don't know.
hmm... I like to eat burritos with a fork... I like to dissect them then eat the rest XD

18. If you could change one thing about the world, regardless of guilt or politics, what
would it be?
Restart the government with fresh and trust worthy people! Until they get corrupted with greed then do it again! oh and that there should be MORE amusements parks! and that they shouldn't be so expensive.

19. Do you like to dance?
yes very much so. I can dance really good Just no one knows cuz I do it only when there is a group not just me. LOL


20. George Bush:
he's a retarded child that thinks he can run the country....

21. Imagine your first child is a girl, what do you call her?
Serenity or Lorenna

22. Imagine your first child is a boy, what do you call him?
Koda or.... There are to many I like XD

23. Would you ever consider living abroad?
Of course!

24. What do you want God to say to you when you reach the pearly gates?
"You did a good job I'm proud of you"

25.Tag 6 people who must also do this in THEIR journal:
I don't know if I CAN get six people.... So Im not going to! XD

]]> ~WhiteRose-of-Blood http://WhiteRose-of-Blood.deviantart.com/journal/15196118/ http://WhiteRose-of-Blood.deviantart.com/journal/15196118/ Wed, 24 Oct 2007 00:10:21 PDT
So yeah we has a wii now, something I thought would NEVER happen! yeah I played it and now my arm is sore cuz I played tennis over and over again, fallowed up by baseball and then bowling... Yeah she's going to buy another paddle to it and we are gonna play it this weekend together. She hasn't even got to play it yet because she works and then over half the time after work she's working! She practically is picking up her hubby (step dad) from where ever he is just because they ALWAYS have to be together. Witch is ok, I don't care....anymore that is XD

So yeah its totally cool! I'm still trying to grasp reality that we even have one! KHI YOU NEED TO COME OVER AND PLAY THE WII WITH ME SOME TIME!!! i command it! LOL!

]]> ~WhiteRose-of-Blood http://WhiteRose-of-Blood.deviantart.com/journal/15196083/ http://WhiteRose-of-Blood.deviantart.com/journal/15196083/ Wed, 24 Oct 2007 00:04:28 PDT
1. Post these rules
2. Each person tagged must post 8 random facts about themselves
3. At the end of the post, 8 more persons are tagged and named.

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8 Random Facts about me:

1] I've ran into a mail box
2] I've ran into a tree
3] I've ran into a parked car while walking
4] I've ran into other people
5] I've ran into pretty much anything you can think off
6] I'm retardedly random
7] I honestly don't know 8 REAL facts of myself XD
8] I don't know why your reading this ROFLMAO!!!

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THE TAGGED PEOPLE!

~MasterChefX
~DarkKenjie
~ViolationMachine666
and 5 random people that I don't know... if thats possible LOL!

]]> ~WhiteRose-of-Blood http://WhiteRose-of-Blood.deviantart.com/journal/15121823/ http://WhiteRose-of-Blood.deviantart.com/journal/15121823/ Thu, 18 Oct 2007 21:14:25 PDT
So I'm enjoying myself for the last month that I do have to myself and ignoring them for the time being. My mom got in a fight with my step dad's ex wife. It was awesome! I liked it for one because his ex wife...for SOME reason likes to get at me about not being moved out yet and for not having my own car. Its like... Dude I just got out of skool... I kinda have to work for things.. and UNLIKE you who has a facking brother as a car dealer and slip through cracks to getting new cars and what not... chyea I have to work for it all from scratch!

Sorry I totally started babbling about my life... But really from my point of view... its VERY interesting. For one because I let her do it and she gets pissed when ever I ignore her. And the fact that her dad is my step grandpa... in a very nice mansion... witch is lame... because I can't go over there and watch movies for a while... -_-

I don't know.. I guess I just like watching my entire step family have these ridiculously childish arguments. All of them are greedy and care only about who will get the money and the mansion when my grandparents die. I just stay out of it and watch it all. But besides that I'm very relaxed and I don't know why. Life is good!

]]> ~WhiteRose-of-Blood http://WhiteRose-of-Blood.deviantart.com/journal/14949584/ http://WhiteRose-of-Blood.deviantart.com/journal/14949584/ Sun, 07 Oct 2007 02:13:09 PDT


1. Do you like animals?
Yes

2. Have you ever met an online friend in person?
Yesh!

3. Are you athletic?
Sometimes, believe it or not.

4. Are you thin, fat, athletically built etc:
I'm not fat but I could lose 20 or so pounds anymore and I would be anorexic!

5. How much do you weigh?
Hey I admitted enough in the last question!

6. What's your height?
About 5'5"

7. Shoe size?
9

8. Girls- are you tomboyish, girly, normal, etc?
I'm Nessaish

9. How old are you?
18

10. When is your birthday?
May 22

11. Do you like to receive gift art?
like? No... Love it!

12. Are you sociable?
Yes... A lot.... I love meeting new people and talking to random people I don't know! XD

13. Do you have many friends?
Of course! I have tonz! although... I want more XD

14. What's your race?
Half Tongan, Half Irish woot!

15. Do you like to talk on the phone?
Yes but I don't like to be the one who calls.

16. Are you single or taken?
Taken. 8D yay!

17. Do you eat meat?
I'm a carnivore

18. Are you paranoid?
At times, but so is everyone else.

19. Do you read alot?
Before bed

20. Do you listen to music, what kind?
All kinds. I don't have a fave kind. Music is music. If I like it I like it.

21. Do you play any instruments?
Guitar[kinda still learning] I sing! 8D

22. How long have you been drawing?
Forever ago! I don't know when that is though XD

23. What's the meaning of life?
ME!!!! haha naw j/k um... happiness... I mean the whole package of it!

24. Tag a buncha people! They MUST take this quiz and post in their journal!!!
Everyone. Everyone in the whole world!
....You're telling the kind of person who doesn't do what others tell her to do.... So um... NO!!

]]> ~WhiteRose-of-Blood http://WhiteRose-of-Blood.deviantart.com/journal/14894281/ http://WhiteRose-of-Blood.deviantart.com/journal/14894281/ Wed, 03 Oct 2007 04:10:02 PDT
Anyways! So as of late I really haven't been doing much because of the artists block that has his me. But while this artists block was going.. A ton of emotions have just practically bulldozed themselves right into me... They weren't even nice enough to wait! -_-;
So yeah because drawing is one of mah favorite ways to express myself it was really hard! Because I was STILL in the artists block... But because all of those emotions toppled over me I more or less forced myself to draw! And thus came out "The Child Within Me" [link]
Its just the beginning of the images I've seen... I will draw more... lots more... so much more... Most of them will look depressing when they are actually... confusing? I don't know... I see confusion in them because thats whats intended but what of you guys? You see what you see.

-shrugs- meh.

]]> ~WhiteRose-of-Blood http://WhiteRose-of-Blood.deviantart.com/journal/14730308/ http://WhiteRose-of-Blood.deviantart.com/journal/14730308/ Fri, 21 Sep 2007 15:09:46 PDT
Lately I have been having the urge to draw and so thus I have been but nothing is coming out right or the way I want it. I'm sure that happens to everyone every now and then but why does it have to happen? Why can't we just draw freely and have it always turn out the way we want it? Maybe its the ideas and not just freely expression. Well I guess I'm not gonna draw what I see and just go back to drawing random things that I think up. -shrugs- I don't know...

]]> ~WhiteRose-of-Blood http://WhiteRose-of-Blood.deviantart.com/journal/14506188/ http://WhiteRose-of-Blood.deviantart.com/journal/14506188/ Wed, 05 Sep 2007 17:13:28 PDT [link]
of hers. I didn't really have a name for my lil hyperactive character so now that she told me that... I thought his name backwards.... It sounds really kool to me!

]]> ~WhiteRose-of-Blood http://WhiteRose-of-Blood.deviantart.com/journal/14457798/ http://WhiteRose-of-Blood.deviantart.com/journal/14457798/ Sun, 02 Sep 2007 14:55:01 PDT Why they have to be on note book paper... I have no idea but I love it, I just want to draw and draw and draw! It's so weird, why it hit me all of a sudden.... But hey at least I'll be filling up my DA. Well yeah I want to do more tribal tattoo looking stuff! I seem to be very good at that... and when I draw normal... I end up being really good at drawing sad/bored people. It's so messed but what ever as long as I get to draw I'm fine with it!

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]]> ~WhiteRose-of-Blood http://WhiteRose-of-Blood.deviantart.com/journal/13420796/ http://WhiteRose-of-Blood.deviantart.com/journal/13420796/ Wed, 20 Jun 2007 14:37:42 PDT Anyways.... We all got into this deep conversation about how most American men are sickening bastards. Then it suddenly...and oddly... Led to personalities... and me.... Well apparently I'm half angel half demon with my personality... My friends mom told me, even though I have all this good and peace within me, within a split second my world can change to pure evil... I looked at her weird not understanding how thats even possible with me... I mean me almost always feeling happy and satisfied with my life... How could anything go wrong? Or so I thought... So I couldn't sleep that night, I was thinking about what she had said about me to much.. Then suddenly I had this feeling that I was swimming within this black abyss. It looked as though nothing was around me but there was this evil feeling that hugged around my body like a huge thick blanket. I was my simple self swimming along what looked to be nothingness and then suddenly a small ray of light came from above but it wasn't "good" or anything like that. It was simply to show that I was some where deep inside myself, showing that I was to stay put and not do anything as my body does what it wants on its own....
It scared me at first but then I continued to think about it, curiosity easily taking over. Then I realized that I couldn't control myself.... Well I could but at the same time I couldn't, like there was another me but full of hate, rage and more thats beyond words, pure darkness.
I saw another me staring at me smirking, wide evil grin but I never understood it. I obviously fell asleep while thinking about it and dreamed about it... The scary thing is that I believe dreams tell you things, things that happen, have happend, will happen and what could easily become of you and so on. I thought I knew myself until all of this happend... And now theres a whole other side of me that I never allowed myself to fall into, to get to know... I'm still a little confused but some what understand it...

]]> ~WhiteRose-of-Blood http://WhiteRose-of-Blood.deviantart.com/journal/13399022/ http://WhiteRose-of-Blood.deviantart.com/journal/13399022/ Mon, 18 Jun 2007 20:17:51 PDT I still need to go with Khi to 7peaks, I told her I would when I got back but I have no money... So I will have to wait till I get some... But yeah I'm happy that I have them because they will be really tan, I'm just not to happy about the pain!

]]> ~WhiteRose-of-Blood http://WhiteRose-of-Blood.deviantart.com/journal/13360903/ http://WhiteRose-of-Blood.deviantart.com/journal/13360903/ Fri, 15 Jun 2007 20:03:56 PDT

1) What is your full name?
Nessa ..... thats all you need to know... *shifty eyes*

2) What are your favorite colors?
crimson, red, anything blood colored and black

3) What kinds of Anime?
I'm picky but I'm not going to name them all.

4) What do you usually do when you get bored?
listen to music, sleep...

5) What is your favorite soda?
Dr. Pepper

6) What kind of guys/girls do you like?
ones I can get along with.....................

7) What would you do if your brother or sister bothers you?
walk away when they are in the middle of talking/screaming at me and piss them off

8) What's your favorite animal?
Dun have one. I love alot of animals.

9) What time do you go to sleep?
when ever!

10) What is your favorite day of the week?
friday

11) What kinds of stuff do you do on the weekends?
go to my best friends house.

12) What job would you want when you're older?
traveling the world doing art!

13) What are some things that you liked in the past?
an old anime that was here before anime was ever popular called Nights of the Zodiac!!!, Sonic, Beast Wars

14) What is your favorite body part?
jaw line.... (yeah... weird....)

(The 'HOW's)

15) How many fan characters do you have?
alot?

16) How do you say your username backwards?
doolb-fo-esoretihw

17) How old are you?
shut up

18) How good can you draw?
I like the way I draw even tho some times I have the habit of comparing my style to others but I still like it.

19) How long can you run?
a proud 2.3 seconds XD j/k I dun know.... more than that for sure!

20) How tall are you and your main fan original character?
Hahahaha! I don't have a fan original character....

21) How many languages can you speak? Can you try them?
only one fluently... but learning five others.

22) How many Anime DVDs do you have?.
I dun know....

23) How many years have you liked Sonic?
FOREVER AGO!!!

24) How many times do you play Sonic games?
I don't play Sonic games anymore.

25) How many pets do you have so far?
three, two dogs and a cat.
*****

(The 'WHO's)

26) Who is your favorite DA Family member?
ME!! j/k I don't like to play faves thats wrong!

27) Who is your most favorite dubbed Anime actor?
I dun know...

28) Who do you want to be if you were in an Anime Cosplay Convention?
I don't really like to dress up but um... Haruko-san from FLCL

29) Who are your favorite Sonic characters?
Shadow hahaha! He's red and black XD

30) Who lives with you in your house currently?
Step dad Mother, Brother, Me

31) Who do you usually play with, if he/she comes over to your house?
a couple of people you don't know XD

32) Who do you want to be like?
My mom but still be myself.

List ten things that bring you joy, then tag ten more people to do the same. In no special order:

1. friends
2. swimming
3. my cat
4. my room
5. anime
6. Japanese culture
7. Night
8. the ocean
9. chocolate
10. things that I like XD

I tag: ..... Meo... Khi.... you both tagged everybody I know.... yay I don't have to tag people Meo Khi you guys do it for me

]]> ~WhiteRose-of-Blood http://WhiteRose-of-Blood.deviantart.com/journal/13356267/ http://WhiteRose-of-Blood.deviantart.com/journal/13356267/ Fri, 15 Jun 2007 12:57:09 PDT
-this has been an intresting entery from the one and only Nessa-
-....Nessa -

]]> ~WhiteRose-of-Blood http://WhiteRose-of-Blood.deviantart.com/journal/13167491/ http://WhiteRose-of-Blood.deviantart.com/journal/13167491/ Thu, 31 May 2007 17:57:59 PDT
1.Grab the book nearest to you, turns to page 18, and find line 4.
The structure of civilization cannot endure after its foundation has rotted away.

2. Stretch your left arm out as far as you can.
nothing but air.

3. What is the last thing you watched on TV?
Queen of the Damned

4. Without looking, guess what time it is:
6:12

5. Now look at the clock. What is the actual time?
6:43

6. With the exception of the computer, what can you hear?
Zelda OC ReMix: Prayer:: Remixer: pixietricks

7. When did you last step outside? What were you doing?
around 3:00 something. Coming home from Khieki's house.

8. Before you started this survey, what did you look at?
A message

11. When did you last laugh?
just a hour ago

12. What are on the walls you are in?
antique keys, pics of Jesus and candle holder things.

13. Seen anything weird lately
how big a goose egg was....

14. What do you think of this quiz?
Uh... What is there to think of this quiz?

15. What is the last film you saw?
Delta Farce (Comedy) could go without -_-;;;

16. If you became a multi-millionaire overnight, what would you buy?
Seven Peaks pass, and a bunch of stuff to help tone my body, so I can get in better shape....

17. Tell me something about you that I don't know.
I'm worse than you think.... (But I want to become better)

18. If you could change one thing about the world, regardless of guilt or politics, what would you do?
For all the crappy things in the world to go away.

19. Do you like to dance?
Some times

20. George Bush:
Looks like a monkey and needs to step down and let a person with more experience take over.

21. Imagine your first child is a girl, what do you call her?
Lorena or Serenity (can't choose love 'em both)

22. Imagine your first child is a boy, what do you call him?
Dakota

23. Would you ever consider living abroad?
Sure

24. What do you want God to say to you when you reach the pearly gates?
I'm proud of you.

25.Tag six people
I don't want to... the two I know have already been tagged...

]]> ~WhiteRose-of-Blood http://WhiteRose-of-Blood.deviantart.com/journal/13095917/ http://WhiteRose-of-Blood.deviantart.com/journal/13095917/ Sat, 26 May 2007 02:02:10 PDT

Layer One: On the Outside

Name: Nessa
Nicknames: Haruko-san (just because ppl think I'm crazy with a guitar....XD)
Birthday:May 22 1989
Birthplace: Utah, U.S.
Eye colour: Brown
Hair colour: Dark brown
Height: 5'5"
Righty or lefty: Right
Religion: Mormon
Sex: Female


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Layer Two: In the Inside

Your heritage: Irish, Tongan, tiny bit of Danish
Who do you look like: Dad -_-
Your weakness: It's to hard to explain.
Your fears: Losing all my loved ones
Goal you’d like to achieve: To fully understand myself


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Layer Three: Yesterday, Today & Tomorrow

Your most over-used phrase:
Your thoughts first waking up: ......damn.....
Your best physical feature: Eyes
Your bedtime: When ever
Your most missed memory: Being care free with my friends


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Layer Four: Your Pick

Pepsi or Coke: Dr. Pepper
McDonalds or Burger King: Bamboo Hut
Single or Group Dates: Group
Adidas or Nike: DC's
Chocolate or Vanilla: OMG!!!! CHOCOLATE!!!! -shoots the question-
Cappuccino or Coffee: Espresso


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Layer Five: Do You?

Smoke: Nah
Curse: Some times
Sing: Yes
Think you’ve been in love: .... I "AM" in love.
Want to get married: Of course
Believe in yourself:Yes
Motion sickness: No
Think you’re attractive: Some times
Think you’re a health freak: Nah
Get along with your parents: Mom yesh, real dad don't know him well enough, step dad kinda
Like thunderstorms: No I love them
Play an instrument: Two


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Layer Six: Have You Ever

Smoked: Nah
Done a drug: Nah
Gone to the mall: Ya
Eaten an entire box of Oreos: I don't think I could...
Eaten sushi: Nah
Been on stage: Ya
Gone skating: Ya
Gone skinny dipping: No
Stolen anything: Ya
Played a game that required removal of clothing: Yes.... for about 3 mins
Been caught ‘doing something’: Nah
Been called a tease: Ya
Gotten beat up: Almost but then beat the sh!t out of them instead for calling me the "N" word
Shoplifted: hahaha! ....ya....


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Layer Seven: Getting Older

Age you hope to be married: 19 or 20
Number and names of children: 2, Lorena and Haukinima (<- Tongan name)
Describe your dream wedding: In Japan or one the beach of Italy or just simply on a beach
How do you want to die: from old age or in my sleep.
What do you want to be when you grow up: Artist or something else
What country would you most like to visit: JAPAN!!!! Ireland, Tonga, Italy and Scotland.


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Layer Eight: In a Partner

Best eye colour: golden/brown
Best hair color: dark
Short or long hair:dun matter
Height: taller than me
Best articles of clothing: The pants


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Layer Nine: In the Numbers

Number of drugs taken illegally: 0
Number of CDs that you own: 256 (I recently cleaned my room thats how I found out o.o)
Number of piercings: 3
Number of tattoos: 0
Number of times your name has appeared in the newspaper: once

]]> ~WhiteRose-of-Blood http://WhiteRose-of-Blood.deviantart.com/journal/13042398/ http://WhiteRose-of-Blood.deviantart.com/journal/13042398/ Mon, 21 May 2007 18:31:32 PDT I know I'm not perfect, and I don't live to be.
Nobody's perfect, I know I have done screwed up things, screwed people up, and even been screwed up!
We all have been through a small part of hell, some people linger there, to sit in their own darkness they have created for themselves and sulk.
I've done many things in my life, have made many mistakes, done millions of things, taken a lot of hits most would regret if they would have taken them.
But every hit was worth it because I felt it. I know it was real. Life is real and I'm living it MY way!
My life is MINE and not one stupid snobby, immature, self pittiful retard can screw it up for me! So keep trying to step all over me, keep trying to douse my inner flame! keep labeling me, calling me a fake, continue to say that I'm some one else! Because I know that I'm the real deal.. And I would love to see you try and break me!

Just something to to remind me that I need to continue on my way, keep going forward no matter what anyone says. Not to pay attention to what they say or think, if they try stepping on me just simply push them off but do not bother fighting with them untill they deliver the first hit. Let them be who they are even if they don't agree with who I am. Let them be ignorant and blind if they want.

]]> ~WhiteRose-of-Blood http://WhiteRose-of-Blood.deviantart.com/journal/12960385/ http://WhiteRose-of-Blood.deviantart.com/journal/12960385/ Tue, 15 May 2007 00:10:35 PDT
And of course I would say yes and point them in the wrong direction. That night was actually pretty fun when ever I would actually participate. Anyway, the next night Josh and Eem went on another walk, this time without me. So I went on a short walk over to the elementary school, swung on the swings for a bit then headed back. On the way back.... Some kids threw a fire work out in the middle of the road, perpously in front of a certain house. The same people living there when I used to live down there, I used to hate them. They were snobby and selfish. What I found out is that the girl that is my age that lives there is a hit and run artist. I also found out most of the neighborhood doesn't like them as well.

Anyway, the fire work made a really loud noise, enough for the people to come out. It all happend right when I turned the corner, coming back from my walk. She stared at me and just because I was waring Trippe pants she accused me. I simply said "Other people did it not me. If you don't believe me then who cares its not like you can call the cops and tell them that I did it. You have no proof." She shut her mouth and went back inside. I laughed and continued on my way. I wasn't about to fall for something that I didn't do, or take the fall for some one else.

When I got back home to my house, my cat had got fixed. Man was he acting weird, of course... He was on drugs. He missed me so much and came walking down the stairs and suddenly started licking my leg like a dog. It was funny but yeah, then I held him and he just sat there trying to give me kisses. I love my cat, he's an odd ball and thats why I love him... well I would love him regardless actually. This cat likes veggies.... yeah he likes meat... I think every cat does but its just funny that he likes veggies too. Anyways... This is a long enough journal entry... And I'm tired as heck so... Im going to bed.

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