http://search.deviantart.com/?q=by:Widerstehen&section=today deviantART RSS for by:Widerstehen en-us Copyright 2009, deviantART.com Wed, 09 Dec 2009 17:08:19 PST deviantART.com http://blogs.law.harvard.edu/tech/rss http://s.deviantart.com/minish/widgets/apple-touch-icon-precomposed.png http://Widerstehen.deviantart.com/journal/17622314/ http://Widerstehen.deviantart.com/journal/17622314/ Tue, 01 Apr 2008 06:02:00 PDT
It is shitkip, comes from the arsch of Japanese... I don't want it on my profile... It can go fuck it's arsch and make another, but not on my profile!

Grah...

If it's April Fools joke it's late AND lame simultaneously... Seriously, it's like some idiote is forcing Anime down the throats of people who hate it... I have nothing against people who like it, unless they try and force it on me, at which point I like to force my fist into their mouth and force their teeth into their gut... For those who don't know, April Fools jokes are valid UNTIL 12:00, anything after is late. The current time at my location is: 15:47 PM.

]]> ~Widerstehen http://Widerstehen.deviantart.com/journal/17592571/ http://Widerstehen.deviantart.com/journal/17592571/ Sun, 30 Mar 2008 15:41:41 PDT
Oh, my hair has grown enough for it to be cut... But I don't know... Hair cut or grow it and feel kind of happy to feel it in my eyes again?

This is one strange day... Where I am happy... Extremely happy... And almost drunk on happiness...

Wheee!!

]]> ~Widerstehen http://Widerstehen.deviantart.com/journal/17388872/ http://Widerstehen.deviantart.com/journal/17388872/ Tue, 18 Mar 2008 00:55:14 PDT

I've added all my old contacts... So, you should be on there if you were on my old MSN list...

Danke

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]]> ~Widerstehen http://Widerstehen.deviantart.com/journal/17354615/ http://Widerstehen.deviantart.com/journal/17354615/ Sat, 15 Mar 2008 21:51:14 PDT One of the most deadly insects on earth, one of the most deadly breeds of that insect... And it's my pet... He is a Skorpion from the breed 'Leiurus quinquestriatus'... His venom could most likely kill me in a single sting within a few minutes, such a potent mix of Neuro-Toxins; to see him kill is truly amazing.

My parents (obviously) were against it, not because it is a danger to me, but because they are scared of him.

I'm feeling down, lonely. I wonder is it the medication or just lack of things to do? At least I have my Skorpion to keep me company, and I guess I'd not trade him for the world...

1,284 contacts online, 608 commonly spoken to contacts, 304 'Fun/Amusing' contacts... 0 Conversations... Who'd've thought 'Away' and 'Busy' was simultaneous... Either that, or I'm boring...

]]> ~Widerstehen http://Widerstehen.deviantart.com/journal/17338270/ http://Widerstehen.deviantart.com/journal/17338270/ Fri, 14 Mar 2008 20:43:30 PDT
1 - Go to Rammstein concert

2 - Piss on fences of every U.S. base in Germany

3 - Go to the last remaining part of East Germany (an Island awarded to OstDeutschland by Fidel Castro and not signed into pact)

4 - Visit Kursulisjka Banja, Arandelovac, Baljevac na Ibru, Lazarevac, Donji Milanovac, Mladenovac, Cicevac, Knjazevac, Novi Knezevac, Kragujevac, Novi Sad, Novi Pazar, Zajecar, Kursumlija, Krusevac and Prijeoplje in Serbia (where some good friends live)

5 - Visit North Korea

6 - Visit China

7 - Visit Cuba

8 - Walk on the lawns of the Whitehouse completely naked waving a Serbian flag

9 - Learn Chinese, Serbian, Arabic and Russian and speak them in my trial after being arrested for No. 9

10 - Sell weapons to Afghans

11 - Verbally assault U.S. Government on live TV

12 - Become first Minister for Germany and tell Amerikan government to gtfo our country

13 - Have 20 kids called Bob and one called Jim (gender regardless)

14 - Marry a blonde supermodel

15 - Sell the supermodel in an Arabic country for many camels

16 - Sell the Camels to zoo

17 - Using the money from the Camels, buy my own Island

18 - When the Island's population is 22 (me and my kids) declare war on the U.S.A.

19 - Blame the Chinese

20 - Having started World War 3, sit back, relax, watch the fireworks, laugh and then realise 'Oh, shit... I just killed my own joke and many of my friends'

21 - Invade what's left of the world and build it up

22 - Midway through reconstruction, commit suicide and leave the world in a state of dissaray that takes everyone else with me...

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That was the most awesome 'List of 22 things to do before I die' that you will ever see... By the way, I am sober (really)... I'm trying to brighten up your day/night/morning

]]> ~Widerstehen http://Widerstehen.deviantart.com/journal/17279127/ http://Widerstehen.deviantart.com/journal/17279127/ Mon, 10 Mar 2008 21:45:19 PDT
My parents put a stop to my plans... All of them... By shredding my passport and closing my bank account... I am soooooo pizdo I most likely could kill them...

]]> ~Widerstehen http://Widerstehen.deviantart.com/journal/17164678/ http://Widerstehen.deviantart.com/journal/17164678/ Mon, 03 Mar 2008 13:14:05 PST
My parents are having me hauled back to Britain tomorrow, but they don't realise that it is a pointless endeavour... I will fly as cheaply as possible to anywhere far away from Britain and live as a Hermit or Traveller as I make my way across the land looking for a place to settle down and live.

The most likely plan of action would be to search my home region of Germany - Dingolfing-Landau in Bayern; then move East through many countries, and then through Russia into the Middle East until I find what I seek or lands-end and need a way to cross the vast oceans...

It all sounds a bit far-fetched, but I have survived cancer and will NOT be broken by any other hardship I face. I am not going to survive cancer just to die by my own hand due to loneliness in England... I am not going to die without a fight...

I am currently preparing for this Great Journey, and I must find my destination... The future of my real family rests on the shoulders of this Journey's success... 6 weeks, 1 day... Then I can begin! I'm excited and nervous, but remember what I was taught... I pray to God that I make it to my destination without my wheelchair... July... That is when they say I will be able to walk again... But surely I can force myself to get better?

]]> ~Widerstehen http://Widerstehen.deviantart.com/journal/17123004/ http://Widerstehen.deviantart.com/journal/17123004/ Fri, 29 Feb 2008 19:18:54 PST
Alkohol, sleep, food, drink (water, juice etc.), caffeine, chocolate (as suggested by my Mum)... Non seem to work to make me happy...

I'm feeling down about a girl who I love quite a lot... But she's unsure of how she feels for me (e.g. - 'iss off, you dozy shit'??) and it's making me feel quite bad about myself...

Ach, I sometimes wonder why I am still attracted to women... Shame I just couldn't wake up and say 'Today, I will become gay!' and live happily ever after...

Oh wait... 'Happily ever after'... Is there such a thing?

Meh... Not even Rakija makes it better now... It did to begin with...

I am just a dumb, young, teenage kid who is too messed up and too emotionally charged after getting out of hospital a few weeks/months however long ago...? Maybe that is it? Just a teenage idiot who thinks love is real at young age...

Too late to go back to my old habbits... And I should try to break a new one that is seeming to emerge...

]]> ~Widerstehen http://Widerstehen.deviantart.com/journal/17059187/ http://Widerstehen.deviantart.com/journal/17059187/ Mon, 25 Feb 2008 14:43:37 PST
The tactic involves the following:
1 - Get VERY drunk
2 - Get EVEN MORE drunk
3 - Get SO drunk that you pass out
4 - Wake up wherever
5 - Be sick in a supermarket and shout 'Clean up in aisle --'
6 - Listen to loud musik on the bus
7 - Repeat step 1

This was mostly learned from our Serb brothers, so special thanks to:
Goran, Aleksander and of course Dimitrije! (I owe you how much Rakija now?!)

So now we go get drunk! See you when I am sober/out of a jail cell if I can get the comfy accomodation I deserve!

Long Live Serbia!

(I'm already half-drunk!)

]]> ~Widerstehen http://Widerstehen.deviantart.com/journal/17040545/ http://Widerstehen.deviantart.com/journal/17040545/ Sun, 24 Feb 2008 11:22:46 PST ersuaded' by our Kommandant, as were 6 other guys... Now we spend all our time drinking Slilovijca (I think I spelled it correctly) and laughing about it...

Long Live United Serbien! Down with the Kosova terrorists...

If we do go, we'll fight with Serbien peoples... Alongside... Together....

Fuck United Nazis... Sorry, I mean United Nations...

]]> ~Widerstehen http://Widerstehen.deviantart.com/journal/16919573/ http://Widerstehen.deviantart.com/journal/16919573/ Sat, 16 Feb 2008 19:38:27 PST
If the Serbians decide to attack Kosovo, it's likely the forces that have been stationed here, someplace in Western Poland, are likely to be re-deployed. That includes the few members of the Logistics that have been moved to Artillierie... I'm not sure if that means me too, seeing as I'm a 'Disabled Officer' (Yeah, I can still shout 'Feuer!' for fuck's sake) but if it doesn't, I'm going to press for discrimination.

This is my chance to prove my worth to the men of the Artillerie battery I am with.

Of course, we all pray all the time that the preparations that are being made are a complete waste of time. We pray we don't have to go and sort out another Balkans conflict... If the K.L.A. think they can declare independance, they should prove they can maintain it.

I also have to question why we are supporting the K.L.A. - after all, aren't they terrorists? I thought there was a war on terror, so what's going on here?! More United States Government Hypocrisy? After all, they were the ones who suggested we mobilize... Bastards...

If we do go, I hope they have internet connection, or a Communication Officer may find himself with no testicles... If it's a woman, she may also find herself with no testicles!

]]> ~Widerstehen http://Widerstehen.deviantart.com/journal/16854826/ http://Widerstehen.deviantart.com/journal/16854826/ Tue, 12 Feb 2008 19:41:40 PST The French are here!

They've liberated us from the Yank idiots! Hurray for France!

Never thought I'd hear myself say anything like that; but thank Gott they're here!

Ah well, I'm off to the closest village to get transportation to the Major city we're stationed near to.

]]> ~Widerstehen http://Widerstehen.deviantart.com/journal/16828586/ http://Widerstehen.deviantart.com/journal/16828586/ Mon, 11 Feb 2008 07:19:55 PST
It was either yesterday or the previous day, I forget; but a dumb Texan dropped a box full of Mortar Shells. If one had detonated, we'd all be dead. I told him he was incompetent and idiotic; he ran off crying to the Kampkommandant and when he did nothing for this insubordinate shitbag, he went on strike!

That is Mutiny against your commanding officer, so I, as it clearly states in Bundeswehr Militay Law, had him arrested. He complained again to the KK, and I was arrested to shut this Texan prick up... They leave Saturday, when I regain my post and a Promotion for accepting my duty to stop a 'otential Internation Incident'...

If all U.S. Logistics Corps is like that, then it's a wonder the Combat soldiers have full bellies and ammunition! My men discipline themselves and each other, even if I say not to ask to be beaten by their Kamaraden! They ask to be beaten, or do endurance tests when they feel they have failed me; and they don't fucking cry when I shout at them! They are disciplined, physically and mentally fit. The finest people I have met (excluding you guys).

]]> ~Widerstehen http://Widerstehen.deviantart.com/journal/16789590/ http://Widerstehen.deviantart.com/journal/16789590/ Fri, 08 Feb 2008 18:12:06 PST
I didn't realise I'd been up so long, working on Rot Schnee ideas... Until I saw the dawn light begin to come up over the edge of my paper... I should probably rest soon, but there is no point.

I was almost promised a place in Egypt today, well, yesterday... It was set for Juli 1 in 2012... But I realised by then I'll be serving the Heimaten as a Combat Soldier, and not still serving in the Logistics Corps...

I'm still looking out for a next of kin, unfortunately most of my Honourary family is dead due to a car accident and the mutual feeling of deep depression that 5 of us are 'dead'... They didn't know it was only 4, but Andi, Erich, Emmi and Anja are irreplaceable, as are Arnold, Johan and Richard... I will mourn them when I am at their graves... Until then I must remain strong and keep the trucks moving.
The rest of my Honourary family... Well, I am the last Gerwulf... I would give it all to my girlfriend but therein lies a problem - what girlfriend? I don't have one... I won't leave it to my foster-family; they don't deserve it. They abandoned me in my time of need.

Well, enough of the depressing stuff... Now's the fun stuff:
1 - some of the guys have a new game, where they use me as a sort of... Slidey thing. They sit me on my butt on the Ice Lake between Izbas 12-48 and skid me from one guy to another! It's great fun!!
2 - I've been given the go ahead to join the Spezialkrafte Kommando at 18 IF I AM GOOD ENOUGH to make the grade!
3 - We got more food in! Chocolate, beans, pies... You name it, we got it! Hurray!
4 - I'm probably the richest guy on Kamp! I sell my cigarettes and alcohol to the older blokes and make quite a bit of money from it!!

If anyone catches any football scores from Dingolfing-Landau, Bayern; let me know! The 'Moderators' of the Computer system have blocked all news sites from the Homeland... It's annoying!! I had to beg to get dA and OGame allowed... Bah! Incompetent Russians! Lol...

]]> ~Widerstehen http://Widerstehen.deviantart.com/journal/16760417/ http://Widerstehen.deviantart.com/journal/16760417/ Wed, 06 Feb 2008 19:23:51 PST A - I've proven to the Kampkommandant I am capable of more work
B - I am physically and mentally capable of at least 100 trucks a day
C - That damned idiot of a Feldwebel won't be getting any favours from Kampkommandant anytime soon.

It's still sub-zero here, but these Izba are very cosy! These Russki's sure know how to make a shelter...

I'm not actually supposed to be doing 'rivate Business' on a PC, but the Kampkommandant and the Hauptmann in charge let me out of sympathy... Hehe, they don't know what they've let themselves in for!

I'm being treated well! Fruits and nuts 24/7 on demand, a gorgeous nurse who isn't telling my closest friends I'm dead and of course Russian Television!!! (don't understand a word, but hey-hey, TV!!)

I've heard rumours that next week we're off to Poland... In all honesty, I want to stay here, it's beautiful (if not a little flat) and it's peaceful... Not like the cities in 'more developed' countries. The only disturbances I get on a regular basis is from my nurse and from this Russian girl, Matryoshka, who brings in food or water, chats with me and is pretty much my best friend on Kamp.

Something doesn't feel right about being back, maybe it's because I'm not online enough; but I miss you guys and wish you were here... So I could tell you to quit whining about the cold!!

]]> ~Widerstehen http://Widerstehen.deviantart.com/journal/16740695/ http://Widerstehen.deviantart.com/journal/16740695/ Tue, 05 Feb 2008 15:10:21 PST
First off:
I missed you all, literally, every last one of you! Even those people who I didn't see eye-to-eye with, been missing you as much as everyone else!

I hear that some people refuse to acknowledge that I am alive, but here I am, living proof. I am ALIVE. I am (kind of) well.

At the moment I am phsyically and mentally exhausted by a small job I picked up with the Bundeswehr Logistics Corps, but as soon as I am at full health I'll be dropping back here more and more... Getting on here to even check these things was hard enough, but you guys have suffered enough not knowing whether I am alive or dead... I thank you for your love and support; I also thank those who got the letters from the Verdammt traitor and who have had contact for spreading the word of my return.

It seems I've missed a lot. A hell of a lot.

In the Gott knows how long I was missing (as of yet I have no accurate figures for how long I've been gone without any contact with anyone from here) I have been transported around the world, semi-conscious if conscious at all... Otherwise I'd have kept contact. I underwent extensive treatment, multiple operations and even (thanks to a good friend in Bundeswehr) been to many Holy Sights around the world to be prayed for... I am not sure where I travelled, how long I was gone or anything... But I am alive.

I've realised how much of a gift life is, and I can't help but wonder if Gott used this experience to personally change my views on life. I am bursting with joy and openly express it when I have the energy; I won't be on my feet until June or July, but for now, being alive is enough.

Please, don't flood me with messages asking for details because quite frankly, I don't know or care what happened to me when I was gone. I'm alive, I'm back here with all my friends and I am (apparently) cancer-free. I am cautiously optimistic... I'll answer what I can, so if you message me anytime soon, please be patient with me... It's not easy having a job to try and get back to normal when I'm not ready; but this job may be my future in the Bundesrepublik Armed Forces and I am not ready to let go of that...

Vielen dank, jeder. Ich liebe dich.

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P.S.
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Fuck the hard times, all they serve as is a way to make us stronger. I've looked back at some of my old Journals I kept with me, and have burned them. Now I have deleted the old Journals here into cyberspace... It seems a fitting end to a pathetic life I led, and the fitting begining of a new one. I owe each and every one of you who stood behind me during this hard time. I am back, and I am happy, and I am almost ready to begin helping people with their lives now... I just need time.

]]> ~Widerstehen