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I know, I know, I promised something from me weeks ago.. still haven't really written anything new

*slaps self*
Bad Kurt!

All that said, I figured you out there in the interwebs might be interested in what I'm up to..
Ok, the big thing is that I'm looking for an apartment and a new full time job. My current one sucks up the whazoo, because it really isn't my thing (housekeeping).
The main reason for needing an apartment is that I'm not in school anymore.. and I didn't graduate
I need to take a year off and get my "priorities" straightened out before I attempt school again. :sigh:

As boring as all that sounds, I'm fairly happy with my life. Except for the lack of writing... GRAWR!


Oooooh, I just had an idea.. or, rather, you may have an idea which I want?
Post some story ideas if you have them, and I'll see if I can write up something from them!!!!

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]]> ~WindShaman http://WindShaman.deviantart.com/journal/19687971/ http://WindShaman.deviantart.com/journal/19687971/ Wed, 30 Jul 2008 20:04:28 PDT
I've been a butt about writing this summer (yeah yeah, surprise surprise) so not much for you any time soon. Add to that how my computer went... well... [link] <--- scroll to 0:16

Yeah, it bombed, tanked, went by-by. I can probably save my files, but I need to get an external harddrive and password cracker since my computer registry files are fcked beyond all recognition.. seriously, even God would want to go "WTF is this?" He wouldn't, because he knows and all, but it's so bad that it would be tempting.

Aaaanyhow, hopefully I'll have something soon on Maddy's Boyo. Which, if you don't know, is what I've titled the Coffee Burn series for the time being.

So yeah, Hi

]]> ~WindShaman http://WindShaman.deviantart.com/journal/18423522/ http://WindShaman.deviantart.com/journal/18423522/ Tue, 20 May 2008 22:13:45 PDT and I were going through one of the weird music quiz things that she took, then we looked at one of my old ones in a journal on here (no, I'm not going to link it ). You know, those quizzes that ask you to select all of your itunes (or windows media, whatever) then put it on shuffle. Whatever song you get is the answer to a question! For instance, the third question is answered by whatever song song plays on your third shuffle!
Then, I got this crazy idea... why not make our own for two friends?!
So, we did just that! At Sindarin's house we played some music on her computer for questions that we created, and came up with some very cool and interesting ones and the answers were even cooler...
Then we decided to do it on our own as well, with the same questions. Here's Sindarin's! [link]

Here they are!


Questions answered at her house:


What's your going out theme? (You're in my brain/Angels Fall Down; by Skillet)

When one of you does something stupid? (Titanic Set; by Gaelic Storm)

When one is love-struck & the other is teasing? (Psalm 23; by E Nomine)

What's your Drunken Togetherness song?! (When the World Ends; by the Matrix Reloaded Soundtrack)

What colors of the rainbow do you make together? (Surazul; by La Ley)

When both of you are out of it? (Dissolved Girl; by Massive Attack)

When one/both of you are having a bad day? (Teardrop; by Massive Attack)

When you're at the beach together? (Beautiful Sound; by Newsboys)

When you fight with each other? (Gift; by Rocco Deluca & the Burden)

When you engage in death defying feats together? (The Contest; from the Sweeney Todd Soundtrack)

Theme song when you play music together? (Mettsän Tytto (Forest Maiden); by Hedningarn)

How about if you're being dorky together? (Beau Soir; by Heifetz)

Troublemaker Song?! (Cool Thing; from the Hellsing Soundtrack)



aaaand, here's my answers from my own itunes!!

What's your going out theme?
Be Yourself (audioslave)
Neither one of us could be anything but ourselves... we're too quirky, haha
When one of you does something stupid?
Sing for Absolution (Muse)
... need I say more than the title? We pray to God for forgiveness, and ask the other for help and understanding if we need to talk about something. She's always been there for me, and given a friendly brand of Absolution all her own.
When one is love-struck & the other is teasing?
Time is Running Out (Muse)
Ha, Sind and I have a similar view of passion in relationships (I believe). This song would definitely show how love comes out no matter what we do.. and Sind would smack me over the head if I ever tried to repress any feelings. (for which I thank her)
What's your Drunken Togetherness song?!
Stuck With Me (Greenday)
HAHAHAHAHAHAHAHAHAHAHAHAAAAAA!!!!
What colors of the rainbow do you make together?
Hold On I'm Coming (BB King & Eric Clapton)
[link] These lyrics tend to show when we're both, I believe, at our best. And that is when we are helping others. Our "rainbow" I suppose^^
When both of you are out of it?
War Within a Breath (Rage Against the Machine)
We can tend to get mad at ourselves when we're out of it... breathing exercises help. But there is definitely a war within that breath.
When one/both of you are having a bad day?
The Flowers (Regina Spektor)
I can tend to get a bit obsessive about small things... not sure if Sindarin does as well, but I'm betting we share that mannerism as well. Lyric-->"I never know if I'll go to sleep"<--Perfect Description
When you're at the beach together?
Crosstown Traffic (Jimi Hendrix) PERFECT
I'd be drinking off to the side while Sind's off bouncing a beach ball, 'til it hits me in the head and I'm forced to chase her... then she runs off to a dune buggy or something, and I find another one.. the chase ensues! Smiles abound, but I finally get her to stop by reminding her that she ne... ]]> ~WindShaman http://WindShaman.deviantart.com/journal/18083663/ http://WindShaman.deviantart.com/journal/18083663/ Tue, 29 Apr 2008 09:28:35 PDT [link]



~WindShaman http://WindShaman.deviantart.com/journal/16759105/ http://WindShaman.deviantart.com/journal/16759105/ Wed, 06 Feb 2008 17:59:46 PST )

I need to finish my short "Death's Disgression" before class tomorrow, since I'm using it as part of an assignment now. Originally, it was a personal work for Halloween, but I got lazy about it (as I often do). Anyhow, I'll be working on that tonight, and probably tomorrow before my 6:15-9:30pm class 50 miles away.... yeeeah, it's still worth the drive though. We've got little groups to share our stuff with in class going, and... yeah, mine rules all ruliness!


Take Care Guys!

-Kurt-

]]> ~WindShaman http://WindShaman.deviantart.com/journal/15964939/ http://WindShaman.deviantart.com/journal/15964939/ Wed, 19 Dec 2007 02:13:15 PST fav, but really truly enjoy!



(however, I still don't know how to post thumbs, despite being told by Joel/doomedmarshmellow about 3 times now... so just go link through link )


[link] <---Missing by Raccoon-with-a-cigar
Why, just look at it, it's gorgeously intimate! This is probably one of my top 's of all time, not just recently!!!


[link] <--- One Day I'll Fly Away by AquaSixio. Another of my all time 's!!!!



[link] <--- I wish I were this flexible!!! And she's oh so very very pretty.... the coloring is awesome too

[link] <--- Ridiculous Shit by GunnerRomantic. I found this by accident, despite the fact that I watch them, and somehow managed to overlook it the first time around . All the same, another Love piece, but oh so very very very.... sexy, lovey, intimate, oddly 3rd party, scar-y (as in scar)......

[link] <---another by AquaSixio... a cute elfish girl having a cigarette and soaking her her feet, mmmm.....


[link] <--- BEST CHRISTMAS WALLPAPER FOR YOUR DESKTOP EVER!!!!!!!!!



[link] <--- Oh hell yes, I am so a moth! Too close to the flame... hehe....


[link] <--- Oh...dear... Lunch Time by super-sheep.... Not my kind of lunch, but it looks beautiful... in a morbid kind of way....



[link] <--- Ravenclaw Hilarity yes, I am, in fact, a Ravenclaw.... Almost a Gryffindor, but much smarter (and alot less humble)


[link] <--- another nice little kiss... but in a summer-ish kind of way. Very cute, definitely cool when tiled across your desktop.


[link] <--- An Artists Hands by Equivoque. Just look.... you'll be very glad that you did


[link] Delta Waves by Tranevoneineingel, a good friend of mine from back in high school. Ben doesn't post much (or when he does I accidentally get it out of my watch list without s... ]]> ~WindShaman http://WindShaman.deviantart.com/journal/15456559/ http://WindShaman.deviantart.com/journal/15456559/ Sat, 10 Nov 2007 23:30:25 PST

[link]





.... that is all!

]]> ~WindShaman http://WindShaman.deviantart.com/journal/15102488/ http://WindShaman.deviantart.com/journal/15102488/ Wed, 17 Oct 2007 14:05:29 PDT " There is a house in New Orleans,
They call the Rising Sun,
And it's been the ruin of many a poor boy,
And God I know I'm one,

My mother was a tailor,
She sewed my new bluejeans,
My father was a gamblin' man,
Down in New Orleans,

Now the only thing a gambler needs,
Is a suitcase and trunk,
And the only time he's satisfied,
Is when he's all drunk,

Oh mother tell your children,
Not to do what I have done,
Spend your lives in sin and misery,
In the House of the Rising Sun,

Well, I got one foot on the platform,
The other foot on the train,
I'm goin' back to New Orleans,
To wear that ball and chain,

Well, there is a house in New Orleans,
They call the Rising Sun,
And it's been the ruin of many a poor boy,
And God I know I'm one."

]]> ~WindShaman http://WindShaman.deviantart.com/journal/15044216/ http://WindShaman.deviantart.com/journal/15044216/ Sat, 13 Oct 2007 13:09:00 PDT
Wonkie

Disturbingly odd. Creepy. Unsettling.

I can't help but stare at her wonkie eye.





]]> ~WindShaman http://WindShaman.deviantart.com/journal/14719826/ http://WindShaman.deviantart.com/journal/14719826/ Thu, 20 Sep 2007 18:55:42 PDT

I've written a few little things in the past week, nothing worth mentioning really, but it's still the first time I've had any sense of the Muse in quite a while. At this point I'm telling myself that Hadrian and Sarah's story should be finished in time for VDay in '08, since it started as a short story for said day last year. We'll just have to see if I actually get anything done. If I don't that hopefully means I will be busy with school, I dunno about that though. I'll make it this time in school... I just don't know if that means my feet have fallen on the correct path.

Some lady told me today that I'd be a good leader... all that came out of my mouth was, "Huh?" Goes to show how you can't really trust your leaders, since you can't tell who they are just by hearing their opinions and what they tell you on issues. I'd cave under the pressure, is what I'm saying, but she couldn't have seen that.

The fact is that I honestly don't trust a single representative in our government, unless they aren't well know. Career politicians play a game with ruling people, whereas the only game we should be playing at all is... well... life, I guess. Tying down something important to any sort of give-and-take-game is dangerous. You say that one side of an issue is right and the other is left, but is that really how they are? If you said yes then you're wrong.

Think about it: was an issue already a certain way or did someone tell you how it is? The correct answer is the latter. Now, that's not to say that sometimes there is a definite moral left or right, but I don't believe in such a thing as our own society currently views it.


... I'm babbling again.





Take Care.

-Kurt-

]]> ~WindShaman http://WindShaman.deviantart.com/journal/14258683/ http://WindShaman.deviantart.com/journal/14258683/ Mon, 20 Aug 2007 15:29:57 PDT try and keep this short ! If I don't then this will take me way too long to write, and you'll never want to read it.

Basically, when it comes to politics, I completely and absolutely despise both primary parties within the united states political system.


Democrats claim to be openminded, yet I see them being more close-minded to anything outside of what they choose to believe in than anyone else. Honestly, conservatives and republicans have got nothing on them when it comes to this! Yes, that's right, I just called the democrats anal. This is where I'd normally put in an example... but that would take too long, so I'll get to it another time (next journal issue, perhaps?)


Republicans.... oh, how can you possibly be more open-minded than the dems? I don't know, now that I think about it. Let me just sum all of the thoughts I could put on the table with this: "You claim to be the party of good family values, upholding what has been right and good for centuries past and to come; yet, representatives from your party have played the game and become corrupt. You have become the thing which destroys good from the inside."








These are not the best statements for explaining my beliefs, but I think those of you who know me personally can agree when I say that I only want to keep things this brief so that I don't go on a huge and incomprehensible rant.






"Coming Soon: An Issue On Society"





Oh, and my internet access is sporadic at best. So if I don't add to this or respond anytime soon... sorry

]]> ~WindShaman http://WindShaman.deviantart.com/journal/14122126/ http://WindShaman.deviantart.com/journal/14122126/ Sat, 11 Aug 2007 16:33:29 PDT



"Ladies, ladies, ladies! Stop tonguing the foyer!"

]]> ~WindShaman http://WindShaman.deviantart.com/journal/13949914/ http://WindShaman.deviantart.com/journal/13949914/ Tue, 31 Jul 2007 01:01:17 PDT

"Left alone
I hit myself with a stone
Went home
And learned how to clean up after myself."

-White Stripes-

]]> ~WindShaman http://WindShaman.deviantart.com/journal/13539162/ http://WindShaman.deviantart.com/journal/13539162/ Fri, 29 Jun 2007 12:45:09 PDT . I've just started up summer classes, and spend most of my free time either reading or (occasionally) writing Love's End (the story with Hadrian and Sarah).

Other than that, I'm doing alright for the most part. Just trying to get going then keep myself busy more than anything.


Take care everyone!

Owain Phyfe:

Kind friends and companions, come join me in rhyme
Come lift up your voices in chorus with mine
Let us drink and be merry, all grief to refrain
For we may and might never all meet here again

Here's a health to the company and one to my lass
Let us drink and be merry all out of one glass
Let us drink and be merry, all grief to refrain
For we may and might never all meet here again

Here's a health to the dear lass that I love so well
Her style and her beauty, sure none can excel
There's a smile upon her countenance as she sits on my knee
Sure there's no one in in this wide world as happy as we

Our ship lies at harbor, she's ready to dock
I hope she's safe landed without any shock
If ever we should meet again by land or by sea
I will always remember your kindness to me



p.s. I'll try and respond to your comments and journals and works if I can, but I have to go paint the trim in my bathroom right now then clean out the garage so it may be awhile. Please, just bear with me

p.s.s. Thanks for posting Owain Phyfe as your music on your myspace! (you know who you are ) I love it!

]]> ~WindShaman http://WindShaman.deviantart.com/journal/13426090/ http://WindShaman.deviantart.com/journal/13426090/ Wed, 20 Jun 2007 22:39:27 PDT
It's probably the caffeine speeding up my heart rate and making me feeling nervous .

]]> ~WindShaman http://WindShaman.deviantart.com/journal/13389712/ http://WindShaman.deviantart.com/journal/13389712/ Mon, 18 Jun 2007 05:34:13 PDT Shakespeare:


"How can I then return in happy plight,
That am debarr'd the benefit of rest?
When day's oppression is not eased by night,
But day by night, and night by day, oppress'd?
And each, though enemies to either's reign,
Do in consent shake hands to torture me;
The one by toil, the other to complain
How far I toil, still farther off from thee.
I tell the day, to please them thou art bright
And dost him grace when clouds do blot the heaven:
So flatter I the swart-complexion'd night,
When sparkling stars twire not thou gild'st the even.
But day doth daily draw my sorrows longer
And night doth nightly make grief's strength
seem stronger."

]]> ~WindShaman http://WindShaman.deviantart.com/journal/13234831/ http://WindShaman.deviantart.com/journal/13234831/ Wed, 06 Jun 2007 00:14:33 PDT



"Give in to the rhythm and the echo of a solitary sour chord that pushes me along..."




Oh, yeah, I turned twenty one yesterday....

Guinness sucks and so does Bacardi Rum, but I could get used to the thoughts in my head being quiet on the weekends.


Ha ha, don't worry, I don't hear voices... yet.

]]> ~WindShaman http://WindShaman.deviantart.com/journal/13073742/ http://WindShaman.deviantart.com/journal/13073742/ Thu, 24 May 2007 11:30:46 PDT

The past two weeks were fantastic. Seeing Katie (SindarinShadow) again, well, it made the decade for me, if not my life. Sounds a tad dramatic, I know, but I haven't ever felt this content & strung out at the same time.

Life is at its best when both ache and comfort are rolled into one, as I'm sure you know, my dear reader; if only by instinct. So many feelings are instinctual, things we already know from birth, yet we have to truly realize them through the constant contrast. It's like seeing that a new friend wears glasses, but a few months/weeks after you've met them it actually occurs to you. You noticed, of course, but you didn't really think about them.

I'm not sure which direction is which within my own mind anymore, and my heart is much the same. Everything in my life has followed a pattern, up until now. Everything on God's gift of Earth has never seemed to deviate from this, to me. But now, for the first time in my existence, I'm questioning this.

I've always know that my own perspective has blinded me in some ways to the full patterns of the world, and I've always driven myself to find and overcome these "limitations." Yet I never had any true faith in Love, or in people's own goodness. Human beings are fallible, and despite all we say about how hard we will fight for something good or someone we care for, I've not even met a handful of people who truly would. We all fall short at some point for the things we care about, and my arrogance has been revealed to be my greatest weakness.



Love is supposed to be the bridge between all things, the one constant. Yet I look around, and I seldom truly see Love. Perhaps I'm merely blind but even the people closest to me seem to be faking Love, albeit unknowingly. I've seen nearly all people as slaves to the mere idea of Love, declaring its presence where it isn't within their lives. Since they didn't know the difference between their lies and reality, their pursuit of the lie led them down the wrong path. They never knew the difference... and they were still happy.



But now I wonder. Is there something outside of all that I see and feel, all of the sameness, that could truly save a soul from itself?

I have very little experience with caring for others, I'm not the kind of person who has close relationships; relationships where something intimate flows between two people. I honestly can't remember ever having one before now. (Well, there was a shadow of this one before, but it had to play the part of the phoenix to become what it is now)

I don't know whether or not to trust in this, or accept what experience has taught me... that all fades, and anything seemingly new is nothing more than a ripple. A ripple from the repititious drops of water into the pool of the world, from the same points, over and over again. I want to believe in Love, and in something Greater and Good. But even the moments of goodness and peace in the world seem tainted, and nothing more than a part played by actors who don't even realize they are acting...





P.S. I have no right to question the feelings and thoughts of others as I have been, I know.




By Brandi Carlile: (Wasted)

"Every time you close a door and nothing opens in its place you've wasted
And when you speak the words you know to those who know the words themselves you're wasted,
You're such a classic waste of cool, so afraid to break the rules in all the wrong places

Then again it's good to get a call
Now and then just to say hello
Have I said I hate to see you go...hate to see you go..."


]]> ~WindShaman http://WindShaman.deviantart.com/journal/12818407/ http://WindShaman.deviantart.com/journal/12818407/ Wed, 02 May 2007 22:24:15 PDT
So now I'm off to finding a job for the summer, and summer classes start in June.

Other than that, not much really going on. I'm trying to write some, but the more and more I try it seems to be slipping away from me. Either my characters resemble my own life and myself too much in their actions and personalities, or most of the words turn to mush on the paper of before I can put them on paper. All the same, what I have is still slightly better than what I had before .


Take Care,

-Ezzie-






Quote:

"Our lovely view was the best I've known..."
-Sleepthief-

]]> ~WindShaman http://WindShaman.deviantart.com/journal/12746373/ http://WindShaman.deviantart.com/journal/12746373/ Thu, 26 Apr 2007 18:19:21 PDT


So, today you'll get my Playlist of the Day!



Take Care of Yourselves Everyone! I'm thinking and Praying About All of You!! (yes, contrary to what I'm assuming are some of your impressions, I do pray pretty regularly)

-Kurt-





*Playlist of the Day*


Tear Away, by Drowning Pool

By Gnarls Barkley:
Crazy
Gone Daddy Gone

By Kamelot:
Farewell
Descent of the Archangel
Mirror Mirror

By Korn:
Another Brick in the Wall: Parts One to three (this one is a remix of Pink Floyd's)
Did My Time
Falling Away From Me

By Marilyn Manson:
Disposable Teens
The Nobodies
mOBSCENE
I put a spell on you (a remix of the oldie)

By Mudvayne:
Fall Into Sleep
Not Falling

By Muse:
Hysteria
Supermassive Black Hole
Assassin
Knights of Cydonia

By Rammstein:
Sonne
Ich Will
Nebel

Bus Ride, by Rocco DeLuca & the Burden
Through the Glass, by Stonesour

By Tool:
Aenima
Lateralus
Sober




p.s. Could you pray for me too (or at least keep me in your thoughts, if that's not your thing)? I'll need all the help I can get on my exams and passing my classes with fair marks

]]> ~WindShaman http://WindShaman.deviantart.com/journal/12563193/ http://WindShaman.deviantart.com/journal/12563193/ Thu, 12 Apr 2007 11:31:44 PDT [link] ... he has some pretty cool stuff. Just click "next picture" to keep scanning his fine art gallery....

I've also been really struck by this [link] piece by Cypherx...





Take Care!

-Kurt-






Quote:


"You say you want an evolution,
the ape was a great big hit.
You say you want a revolution, man
and I say that you're full of sht!"

]]> ~WindShaman http://WindShaman.deviantart.com/journal/12557983/ http://WindShaman.deviantart.com/journal/12557983/ Wed, 11 Apr 2007 18:35:42 PDT
Ahh, well, I'm going to try anyways. At least for a time, for a time, I'll believe I'm moving towards a new beginning and redemption. So don't worry, I'll be fine, I'm always fine.





Quote:
"I remember long ago
When the sun was shining
And all the stars were bright all through the night
In the wake of this madness, as I held you tight
So long ago..."

]]> ~WindShaman http://WindShaman.deviantart.com/journal/12498742/ http://WindShaman.deviantart.com/journal/12498742/ Sat, 07 Apr 2007 15:46:48 PDT

Right now I'm in love with "The Noose" by A Perfect Circle (haha, big surprise there), and the accompanying artwork [link] by *GraySapphire. I actually found it quite by accident, and hadn't actually listened to the song before; although I do have the album. So I, being the curious person I am, played the song and looked at the art.... you should do the same, if you're able.

So yeah, onwards to my home of shattered scarlet glass and black beauty... (my story-writing)



Take Care!

-Ezzie-








Here's some interesting stuff I've found:

[link] <--<---<---<--- Circumcision and AIDS

[link] <--<---<---<--- Arabian Nights Translations and A Site With A Bunch of Weird Stuff

[link] <--<---<---<--- Top 10 Reasons Women Don't Want Sex Don't worry, it's WebMD so no "naughtiness"

[link] <--<---<---<--- Women, Wine, and Weddings from the father of the groom's perspective

[link] <--<---<---<--- "Sushicam.com" A Japanese Photo Blog

[link] <--<---<---<--- A European Photo Blog;their bench shot [link] is so much cooler than mine :/ [link]

[link] <--<---<---<--- The Homepage For A Museum of Icelandic Sorcery & Witchcraft

[link] <--<---<---<--- A Webpage For (I believe) Homeschooled Christian Children To Learn and Practice Logic; I enjoyed seeing other christians- even more so because they are homeschooled children and homeschooling parents- taking time for lessons in logic. I don't agree with everything on the page, but the statement below is one of the ones I do agree with; although the words right afterwards make me wonder if the person writing the essay has actually had to defend their faith before. You can't always expect God to pick of your mental slack, especially if the "slack" is willful ignorance upon the part of the speaker: ie "Blind Faith"


And when they bring you unto the synagogues, and unto magistrates, and powers, take ye no thought how or what thing ye shall answer, or what ye shall say: [Literally: "do not be anxious about how or what ye should reply in defense or what ye should say:"] For the Holy Ghost shall teach you in the same hour what ye ought to say. (Luke 12:11-12, KJV)

But before all these, they shall lay their hands on you, and persecute you, delivering you up to the synagogues, and into prisons, being brought before kings and rulers for my name's sake. And it shall turn to you for a testimony. Settle it therefore in your hearts, not to meditate before what ye shall answer: [Literally: do not give painful attention to what ye should reply in defense] For I will give you a mouth and wisdom, which all your adversaries shall not be able to gainsay nor resist. (Luke 21:12-15, KJV)

"This text is not saying, "Do not study your Bible, do not search out the truth, do not think through matters. Just go in with a blank mind and expect the Lord to fill it with momentary wisdom." Rather, this text is saying, "Always be prepared to defend your faith so that you do not have to anxiously prepare a reply at the last moment." We should be prepared to go in and address the situation out of the treasury of matters which we have already studied through and stored in our mind. "







My Stuff:
(for those of you who don't know me too well)


[link] <--<---<---<--- My Last fm User Page; although it's not entirely accurate, since I don't have all of my music... ]]> ~WindShaman http://WindShaman.deviantart.com/journal/12473401/ http://WindShaman.deviantart.com/journal/12473401/ Thu, 05 Apr 2007 16:50:27 PDT so not writing poetry anymore! Honestly, how did I even call the stuff I just deleted anything but crap in the first place?

Hmm, well, tonight should be for writing some more... but we'll have to see how that turns out!

Other than that, I have no school tomorrow (I bet none of you do either) so I'll be either catching up on late work and editing..... rrrg, editing!


Take Care!

-Ezzie-






Here's some interesting stuff I've found:

[link] <--<---<---<--- Circumcision and AIDS

[link] <--<---<---<--- Arabian Nights Translations and A Site With A Bunch of Weird Stuff

[link] <--<---<---<--- Top 10 Reasons Women Don't Want Sex Don't worry, it's WebMD so no "naughtiness"

[link] <--<---<---<--- Women, Wine, and Weddings from the father of the groom's perspective

[link] <--<---<---<--- "Sushicam.com" A Japanese Photo Blog

[link] <--<---<---<--- A European Photo Blog;their bench shot [link] is so much cooler than mine :/ [link]

[link] <--<---<---<--- The Homepage For A Museum of Icelandic Sorcery & Witchcraft

[link] <--<---<---<--- A Webpage For (I believe) Homeschooled Christian Children To Learn and Practice Logic; I enjoyed seeing other christians- even more so because they are homeschooled children and homeschooling parents- taking time for lessons in logic. I don't agree with everything on the page, but the statement below is one of the ones I do agree with; although the words right afterwards make me wonder if the person writing the essay has actually had to defend their faith before. You can't always expect God to pick of your mental slack, especially if the "slack" is willful ignorance upon the part of the speaker: ie "Blind Faith"


And when they bring you unto the synagogues, and unto magistrates, and powers, take ye no thought how or what thing ye shall answer, or what ye shall say: [Literally: "do not be anxious about how or what ye should reply in defense or what ye should say:"] For the Holy Ghost shall teach you in the same hour what ye ought to say. (Luke 12:11-12, KJV)

But before all these, they shall lay their hands on you, and persecute you, delivering you up to the synagogues, and into prisons, being brought before kings and rulers for my name's sake. And it shall turn to you for a testimony. Settle it therefore in your hearts, not to meditate before what ye shall answer: [Literally: do not give painful attention to what ye should reply in defense] For I will give you a mouth and wisdom, which all your adversaries shall not be able to gainsay nor resist. (Luke 21:12-15, KJV)

"This text is not saying, "Do not study your Bible, do not search out the truth, do not think through matters. Just go in with a blank mind and expect the Lord to fill it with momentary wisdom." Rather, this text is saying, "Always be prepared to defend your faith so that you do not have to anxiously prepare a reply at the last moment." We should be prepared to go in and address the situation out of the treasury of matters which we have already studied through and stored in our mind. "







My Stuff:
(for those of you who don't know me too well)


[link] <--<---<---<--- My Last fm User Page; although it's not entirely accurate, since I don't have all of my music copied to my computer & I forget to turn on the connection to upload my playlist sometimes, if I turned it off the last time

[link] <--<---<---<--- My Xanga Page; I haven't been on since January, however, and I doubt I'll ever use it again

http://WindShaman.deviantart.com/journal/12458485/ Wed, 04 Apr 2007 15:12:12 PDT moody, after all.




Here's some interesting stuff I've found:

[link] <--<---<---<--- Circumcision and AIDS

[link] <--<---<---<--- Arabian Nights Translations and A Site With A Bunch of Weird Stuff

[link] <--<---<---<--- Top 10 Reasons Women Don't Want Sex Don't worry, it's WebMD so no "naughtiness"

[link] <--<---<---<--- Women, Wine, and Weddings from the father of the groom's perspective

[link] <--<---<---<--- "Sushicam.com" A Japanese Photo Blog

[link] <--<---<---<--- A European Photo Blog;their bench shot [link] is so much cooler than mine :/ [link]

[link] <--<---<---<--- The Homepage For A Museum of Icelandic Sorcery & Witchcraft

[link] <--<---<---<--- A Webpage For (I believe) Homeschooled Christian Children To Learn and Practice Logic; I enjoyed seeing other christians- even more so because they are homeschooled children and homeschooling parents- taking time for lessons in logic. I don't agree with everything on the page, but the statement below is one of the ones I do agree with; although the words right afterwards make me wonder if the person writing the essay has actually had to defend their faith before. You can't always expect God to pick of your mental slack, especially if the "slack" is willful ignorance upon the part of the speaker: ie "Blind Faith"


And when they bring you unto the synagogues, and unto magistrates, and powers, take ye no thought how or what thing ye shall answer, or what ye shall say: [Literally: "do not be anxious about how or what ye should reply in defense or what ye should say:"] For the Holy Ghost shall teach you in the same hour what ye ought to say. (Luke 12:11-12, KJV)

But before all these, they shall lay their hands on you, and persecute you, delivering you up to the synagogues, and into prisons, being brought before kings and rulers for my name's sake. And it shall turn to you for a testimony. Settle it therefore in your hearts, not to meditate before what ye shall answer: [Literally: do not give painful attention to what ye should reply in defense] For I will give you a mouth and wisdom, which all your adversaries shall not be able to gainsay nor resist. (Luke 21:12-15, KJV)

"This text is not saying, "Do not study your Bible, do not search out the truth, do not think through matters. Just go in with a blank mind and expect the Lord to fill it with momentary wisdom." Rather, this text is saying, "Always be prepared to defend your faith so that you do not have to anxiously prepare a reply at the last moment." We should be prepared to go in and address the situation out of the treasury of matters which we have already studied through and stored in our mind. "



My Stuff:
(for those of you who don't know me too well)


[link] <--<---<---<--- My Last fm User Page; although it's not entirely accurate, since I don't have all of my music copied to my computer & I forget to turn on the connection to upload my playlist sometimes, if I turned it off the last time

[link] <--<---<---<--- My Xanga Page; I haven't been on since January, however, and I doubt I'll ever use it again

[link] <--<---<---<--- My Facebook Profile; I just started the page, so I'm on definitely at least twice a day

[link] <--<---<---<--- My Myspace Profile & [link] <--<---<---<--- A Good Myspace Profile Layout Creator

]]> ~WindShaman http://WindShaman.deviantart.com/journal/12449257/ http://WindShaman.deviantart.com/journal/12449257/ Tue, 03 Apr 2007 20:06:45 PDT
Yeah yeah, I know it's night-time but I didn't get out of bed 'til three, and I'm probably gonna pull another all-nighter if I can manage it. The days just seem so much better when I do...



Here's some interesting stuff I've found:

[link] <--<---<---<--- Circumcision and AIDS

[link] <--<---<---<--- Arabian Nights Translations and A Site With A Bunch of Weird Stuff

[link] <--<---<---<--- Top 10 Reasons Women Don't Want Sex Don't worry, it's WebMD so no "naughtiness"

[link] <--<---<---<--- Women, Wine, and Weddings from the father of the groom's perspective

[link] <--<---<---<--- "Sushicam.com" A Japanese Photo Blog

[link] <--<---<---<--- A European Photo Blog;their bench shot [link] is so much cooler than mine :/ [link]

[link] <--<---<---<--- The Homepage For A Museum of Icelandic Sorcery & Witchcraft

[link] <--<---<---<--- A Webpage For (I believe) Homeschooled Christian Children To Learn and Practice Logic; I enjoyed seeing other christians- even more so beause they are homeschooled children and homeschooling parents- taking time for lessons in logic. I don't agree with everything on the page, but the statement below is one of the ones I do agree with; although the words right afterwards make me wonder if the person writing the essay has actually had to defend their faith before. You can't always expect God to pick of your mental slack, especially if the "slack" is willful ignorance upon the part of the speaker: ie "Blind Faith"


And when they bring you unto the synagogues, and unto magistrates, and powers, take ye no thought how or what thing ye shall answer, or what ye shall say: [Literally: "do not be anxious about how or what ye should reply in defense or what ye should say:"] For the Holy Ghost shall teach you in the same hour what ye ought to say. (Luke 12:11-12, KJV)

But before all these, they shall lay their hands on you, and persecute you, delivering you up to the synagogues, and into prisons, being brought before kings and rulers for my name's sake. And it shall turn to you for a testimony. Settle it therefore in your hearts, not to meditate before what ye shall answer: [Literally: do not give painful attention to what ye should reply in defense] For I will give you a mouth and wisdom, which all your adversaries shall not be able to gainsay nor resist. (Luke 21:12-15, KJV)

"This text is not saying, "Do not study your Bible, do not search out the truth, do not think through matters. Just go in with a blank mind and expect the Lord to fill it with momentary wisdom." Rather, this text is saying, "Always be prepared to defend your faith so that you do not have to anxiously prepare a reply at the last moment." We should be prepared to go in and address the situation out of the treasury of matters which we have already studied through and stored in our mind. "



My Stuff:
(for those of you who don't know me too well)


[link] <--<---<---<--- My Last fm User Page; although it's not entirely accurate, since I don't have all of my music copied to my computer & I forget to turn on the connection to upload my playlist sometimes, if I turned it off the last time

[link] <--<---<---<--- My Xanga Page; I haven't been on since January, however, and I doubt I'll ever use it again

[link] <--<---<---<--- My Facebook Profile; I just started the page, so I'm on definitely at least twice a day

[link] <--<---<---<--- My Myspace Profile & [link] <--... ]]> ~WindShaman http://WindShaman.deviantart.com/journal/12435161/ http://WindShaman.deviantart.com/journal/12435161/ Mon, 02 Apr 2007 18:24:42 PDT
Anyways, I have a few excerpts done from my Love's End (though I doubt that's what I'll eventually call it) story. I've set a deadline to at least have a few more pages (two seems too lazy, even for me), this wednesday. Yeah, me, deadline, HA! But I promised some to a friend, and she'll kick my ass (verbally or physically) if I don't finish it.

I'm not posting it here though, even when I'm done with it. I'll let you all know when I'm done, and you can ask me for an email but DA doesn't get this one!

Alright, I can't think straight anymore and my eyes are going funny along with my motor control, so off to bed! (wow... it's early....)


Take Care!

-Ezzie-






Quote:
"It's the weirdest thing. I feel like I've been in a coma for twenty years, and I'm just now waking up."
-Amercian Beauty-
(The Movie)

]]> ~WindShaman http://WindShaman.deviantart.com/journal/12417477/ http://WindShaman.deviantart.com/journal/12417477/ Sun, 01 Apr 2007 18:26:19 PDT ), and some of my own writing to edit/add to. All in all, I aught to feel tense, but the blues just keeps me goin' without a hitch....





Quote:

"When Love cast me out, it was Cruelty who took pity upon me."

]]> ~WindShaman http://WindShaman.deviantart.com/journal/12409577/ http://WindShaman.deviantart.com/journal/12409577/ Sun, 01 Apr 2007 00:13:39 PDT

"I'd like to live forever... but only for a little while."

]]> ~WindShaman http://WindShaman.deviantart.com/journal/12405066/ http://WindShaman.deviantart.com/journal/12405066/ Sat, 31 Mar 2007 17:04:19 PDT

Quote:
"Jag blev född förr än tuppen gol
-Mina stigar de ligga så vida
Min moder blev död innan upp rann sol
-Själv måste hon sorgen förbida

Min fader drager så vitt om land
Så ond en styvmoder han på fann

Först skapte hon mig i nåler
och sade jag skulle tråna
Så skapte hon mig i kniver
och sade jag skulle icke trivas

Så skapte hon mig i saxer
och sade jag skulle icke växa
Så skapte hon mig i ulven grå
och sade jag skulle åt skogen gå

Hon sade jag skulle ej få bot
Förrän jag druckit min broders blod

Så lade jag mig under lida där
styvmodern min skulle framrida

Så lade jag mig under spånge
Där min styvmoder skulle framgånga
Där tager jag till med mäste
Min styvmoder utav häste

Så tog jag till med harme
hennes foster ur hennes barme
När jag hade druckit min broders blod
Så blev jag en riddare bold och god







Before the cock crew I was born
- Far are the paths that I follow -
My mother was dead before the dawn
- Long, long she awaited her sorrow

- My father travelled the country round,
An ill stepmother to me he found.

Into a needle she conjured me
And said that longing would torture me
And then she turned me into a knife
And said I would suffer all my life.

She turned me into a pair of shears
And said I'd be stunted all my years.
A grey wolf then she made of me,
And said no good would come of me.

Under this curse I was to suffer
Till I drank the blood of my own brother.

So then I lay in hiding
Till my stepmother came riding.

By the bridgehead I lay watching
Till I saw her horse approaching.
And as she passed I caught her
And down from her horse I brought her.

In vengeance cruel and bloody
I took the child from her body.
And when I had drunk my brother's blood,
I became a knight, gallant and good."

]]> ~WindShaman http://WindShaman.deviantart.com/journal/12364412/ http://WindShaman.deviantart.com/journal/12364412/ Wed, 28 Mar 2007 15:17:05 PDT
"Mistook the nods for an approval
Just ignore the smoke and smile ..."

]]> ~WindShaman http://WindShaman.deviantart.com/journal/12349495/ http://WindShaman.deviantart.com/journal/12349495/ Tue, 27 Mar 2007 12:20:07 PDT By the by, sorry I haven't responded to your comments on my last journal, I promise I'm getting to them !



]]> ~WindShaman http://WindShaman.deviantart.com/journal/12341996/ http://WindShaman.deviantart.com/journal/12341996/ Mon, 26 Mar 2007 19:54:43 PDT cking feel without the trappings of the world which for some stupidly societal-ly engraved reason they actually dare to believe they have shucked the shackles of.

All they hear is a seemingly typical rant, never guessing that every fcking sentence is in fact a trap door, a window, a trail of bread crumbs leading to the outside. How in God's name have they become so blind, so willfully ignorant?! I know the answer of course, they keep choosing such a mindset without ever thinking twice, and taking for granted the nano-second of time taken for such an all important choice.


This probably seems to make little sense to any of you... but at the moment I'm just saying it like it is. Feel free to comment if you wish...





Quote:



"I wait all my life,
Just for the rush,
The fear and the fight towards the inside,
Into the light, ready to burn,
I wait no more or hang on my turn,
Move too slow, it's like waiting to die,
To diffuse my mind,
A dream less defined,
Into the hands to the floor,
This feeling is pure,
They're shooting up love,
Into my blood,
Into my blood."


-Carina Round-

]]> ~WindShaman http://WindShaman.deviantart.com/journal/12316129/ http://WindShaman.deviantart.com/journal/12316129/ Sat, 24 Mar 2007 22:23:24 PDT "She's like the swallow that flies on high
She's like the river that never runs dry
She's like the sun beaming on the lea shore
I Love my love, but Love is no more..."


.....

]]> ~WindShaman http://WindShaman.deviantart.com/journal/12296483/ http://WindShaman.deviantart.com/journal/12296483/ Fri, 23 Mar 2007 12:38:41 PDT !

Well, you may have noticed that I deleted the Love's End story. I'm really having fun with it and I want to take it even further, but DA doesn't deserve the rights to it simply because I posted it for others to read. I'll let you know when I finish it (yeah, I'm actually planning on finishing it within the next few months) so if you want a copy I can give you one. At the moment the story could turn into quite a long piece, as I don't think I'm even truly done with the beginning (I have a bunch of ideas that would be perfect, but very lengthy) and will have around fifteen to seventeen pages once I'm done editing what I have.

Right now I'm adding scenes, switching 'round & removing words as well as sentences. I was at Kava House (a coffee shop) from around three to eight o'clock editing my printed version yesterday, then came home and (once my family was finished with me) started adding and changing some portions from my original piece to the new version on my computer. Before I knew it I had eight hours until class... and I had pulled an all-nighter the night before .

When I came home today I told myself I was going to try and finish my edits... but this journal and the first time my nephew [link] [link] [link] had met my brother [link] (on the left), his father, kinda got in the way. I can't go into any more detail about that though, but Reid (bro) was ecstatic

Well, speaking of editing, I'm off it. I need to have something reasonably acceptable for a writers-sharing-&-drinking-coffee thing.

]]> ~WindShaman http://WindShaman.deviantart.com/journal/12256442/ http://WindShaman.deviantart.com/journal/12256442/ Tue, 20 Mar 2007 09:58:20 PDT
"...in Darkness there can be Light,
in Misery there can be Beauty,
in Death there can be Life..."

]]> ~WindShaman http://WindShaman.deviantart.com/journal/12226203/ http://WindShaman.deviantart.com/journal/12226203/ Sat, 17 Mar 2007 23:19:29 PDT The Boondock Saints for the first time (well, parts of it...)...... OMFG I wish I had the money to buy it!!!

]]> ~WindShaman http://WindShaman.deviantart.com/journal/12208152/ http://WindShaman.deviantart.com/journal/12208152/ Fri, 16 Mar 2007 15:24:15 PDT


Quote:
"Don't take life too seriously,
it's not as though you're getting out alive..."

]]> ~WindShaman http://WindShaman.deviantart.com/journal/12171958/ http://WindShaman.deviantart.com/journal/12171958/ Tue, 13 Mar 2007 17:26:20 PDT

"You may tire of me as our December sun is setting
because I'm not who I used to be,
No longer easy on the eyes,
...The youthful boy below who turned your way and saw
Something he was not looking for: both a beginning and an end
But now he lives inside someone he does not recognize
When he catches his reflection on accident ..."
-Death Cab for Cutie-

]]> ~WindShaman http://WindShaman.deviantart.com/journal/12158269/ http://WindShaman.deviantart.com/journal/12158269/ Mon, 12 Mar 2007 15:21:58 PDT
Anyways, the last week has been...ahh... "lively" I guess is the best word I can use. Asbury was fantastic, even though they'd probably make me cut my hair and take out my piercings if I go there. But that's going to be a pretty long ways off anyways, even if I do go, so no biggie. I had alot of fun modeling for Katie (Sindarinshadow) and just generally checking out the area and meeting people... as well as working out a few messes in my brain. In the end, I choose to feel the way I do because I can no longer do anything but that. The facet of myself that once drove me forward to my ends is seemingly on "vacation," rather like a dried up pond, so choice is all which I have anymore.

I will not be contained, or controlled by anyone ever again. I will play nicely and follow the rules if I must or if they parallel my own values but I will not bend to the ways of the world. This is the point in my life where I'm supposed to "grow-up" and follow the rules of the real world... the real world sucks, I'm going to make my own way and the real world be damned.

It's my way or the highway world, your pick. But don't think you can break me for even a second or I'll break you.





*For those who need to know, I've done nothing which I regret in the past week. I cannot be unhappy with moving on and I expect nothing. I'm content with simply being as I am, for now, so don't worry

]]> ~WindShaman http://WindShaman.deviantart.com/journal/12150418/ http://WindShaman.deviantart.com/journal/12150418/ Mon, 12 Mar 2007 10:20:05 PDT

Quote:
"We are the nobodies,
wanna be somebodies,
when we're dead,
know just who we are...

yesterday I was dirty
wanted to be pretty,
I know now that I'm forever dirt...."
-Marilyn Manson-





"In loving thee thou know'st I am forsworn,
But thou art twice forsworn, to me love swearing,
In act thy bed-vow broke and new faith torn,
In vowing new hate after new love bearing.
But why of two oaths' breach do I accuse thee,
When I break twenty? I am perjured most;..."
-William Shakespeare-


"Because he loves me," says the Lord,
"I will rescue him; I will protect him, for he acknowledges my name.
He will call upon me, and I will answer him;
I will be with him in trouble,
I will deliver him and honor him.
With long life will I satisfy him and
show him my salvation."
-Psalm 91 (verses 14-16)-
... the bible....duh...

]]> ~WindShaman http://WindShaman.deviantart.com/journal/12030790/ http://WindShaman.deviantart.com/journal/12030790/ Fri, 02 Mar 2007 18:29:10 PST

]]> ~WindShaman http://WindShaman.deviantart.com/journal/11969256/ http://WindShaman.deviantart.com/journal/11969256/ Mon, 26 Feb 2007 02:20:25 PST
"Past cure I am, now reason is past care,
And frantic-mad with evermore unrest;
My thoughts and my discourse as madmen's are,
At random from the truth vainly express'd;
For I have sworn thee fair and thought thee bright,
Who art as black as hell, as dark as night."


-William Shakespeare-

]]> ~WindShaman http://WindShaman.deviantart.com/journal/11954856/ http://WindShaman.deviantart.com/journal/11954856/ Sat, 24 Feb 2007 23:45:51 PST

Quote:

"Space; it seems to go on forever...
but then you get to the end and a monkey starts throwing barrels at you."


]]> ~WindShaman http://WindShaman.deviantart.com/journal/11937600/ http://WindShaman.deviantart.com/journal/11937600/ Fri, 23 Feb 2007 16:58:48 PST



Quote:

"If you wanna swim
you've gotta be ok to sink..."

]]> ~WindShaman http://WindShaman.deviantart.com/journal/11875875/ http://WindShaman.deviantart.com/journal/11875875/ Mon, 19 Feb 2007 14:44:19 PST
For the past few months/weeks I've been kinda at a crossroads. I've waited for it for a very long time, and is the only thing I was ever sure of. I've waited for other things in the past, but none of them were truly... well I can't put this a better way so "a part of my soul." You see, whenever I have an intuition or the force is guiding me or whatever you wanna call it, a part of me has resonated in time with whatever foreshadowing essence touched me. It's probably pure instinct and subconcious deduction of a sort, but it's what's guided me through many things all the same. My mind gets in the way of it alot, so I don't always trust what it shows me, and for good reason.

The point of this is that I knew this time would come, and that I'd have to finally change. I wanted to before, but felt incapable. A great portion of myself dug its heels in like a child that doesn't want to do something, and there was nothing I could do about it. Now, however, I can push and make everything start what they should have a long time ago. Although I believe that nothing could have happened but the way it did in my past, I still feel that something should have changed sooner.

All of the sht I've been going through, the rage, depression, and desperation, has all been welcome to me. I've had moments of relapse, when I've done things that I feel terrible about, and won't speak of... but it's all been to get me here. I draw on this, and on the feeling of rightness that I have for my future path. I've been hurting, I've been really pissed (mainly at myself), but it's all kind of like an example I'm going to steal from Dragonlance.

ex: Basically, I'm a sword. All of this pounding and chipping and loss of "dead-weight" is making me into what I am. Like any sword I can cut both ways, for good or ill, and I'm sure that I will. I am, after all, still a sinner. Yet once it's done I'll be ready, and I'll be what God always meant me to be (to the best extent any human can be).

This is a good thing, so please don't worry about me... too much . And thanks for caring, it really means alot to me!




-Ezzie-













Quote:


"Two loves I have of comfort and despair,
Which like two spirits do suggest me still:
The better angel is a man right fair,
The worser spirit a woman colour'd ill.
To win me soon to hell, my female evil
Tempteth my better angel from my side,
And would corrupt my saint to be a devil,
Wooing his purity with her foul pride.
And whether that my angel be turn'd fiend
Suspect I may, but not directly tell;
But being both from me, both to each friend,
I guess one angel in another's hell:
Yet this shall I ne'er know, but live in doubt,
Till my bad angel fire my good one out. "

-William Shakespeare-

]]> ~WindShaman http://WindShaman.deviantart.com/journal/11869252/ http://WindShaman.deviantart.com/journal/11869252/ Sun, 18 Feb 2007 17:26:15 PST


Quote:

"Don't you know that I'll be around to guide you
Through your weakest moments to leave them behind you
Returning nightmares only shadows
We'll cast some light and you'll be alright for now
Crosses all over, heavy on your shoulders
The sirens inside you waiting to step forward
Disturbing silence darkens your sight
We'll cast some light and you'll be alright for now
Crosses all over the boulevard
The streets outside your window overflooded
People staring they know you've been broken
Repeatedly reminded by the looks on their faces
Ignore them tonight and you'll be alright
We'll cast some light and you'll be alright."


-Jose Gonzales-




oh yeah, you all NEED (yes, it is an actual factual need!) to check out this stuff!:

[link] make sure to wait 'til after the credits for this one to finish!
[link]
[link]

]]> ~WindShaman http://WindShaman.deviantart.com/journal/11855688/ http://WindShaman.deviantart.com/journal/11855688/ Sat, 17 Feb 2007 13:42:28 PST


Oil & Water: by Incubus

]]> ~WindShaman http://WindShaman.deviantart.com/journal/11838796/ http://WindShaman.deviantart.com/journal/11838796/ Fri, 16 Feb 2007 15:57:28 PST






Quote:

"...give me
One more medicated peaceful moment
One more medicated peaceful moment

And I don't wanna feel this overwhelming
Hostility
Because I don't wanna feel this overwhelming
Hostility..."





I just weighed myself on my scale... 183 lb.'s!!!!!

~WindShaman http://WindShaman.deviantart.com/journal/11836042/ http://WindShaman.deviantart.com/journal/11836042/ Thu, 15 Feb 2007 21:56:04 PST !:



" Courtney hates me. She called me a media whore once. Isn't that great? I have the distinction of being called a media whore by Courtney Love."

-Maynard James Keenan-

(Frontman of:
-Tool
-A Perfect Circle
-Puscifer)

]]> ~WindShaman http://WindShaman.deviantart.com/journal/11830546/ http://WindShaman.deviantart.com/journal/11830546/ Thu, 15 Feb 2007 14:25:43 PST
Other than that, just meeting a friend for coffee tonight and working out the details of my trip to Asbury.


Take Care


-Ezzie-

]]> ~WindShaman http://WindShaman.deviantart.com/journal/11806396/ http://WindShaman.deviantart.com/journal/11806396/ Wed, 14 Feb 2007 20:00:44 PST



Quote:



"In faith, I do not love thee with mine eyes,
For they in thee a thousand errors note;
But 'tis my heart that loves what they despise,
Who in despite of view is pleased to dote;
Nor are mine ears with thy tongue's tune delighted,
Nor tender feeling, to base touches prone,
Nor taste, nor smell, desire to be invited
To any sensual feast with thee alone:
But my five wits nor my five senses can
Dissuade one foolish heart from serving thee,
Who leaves unsway'd the likeness of a man,
Thy proud hearts slave and vassal wretch to be:
Only my plague thus far I count my gain,
That she that makes me sin awards me pain. "

-William Shakespeare

]]> ~WindShaman http://WindShaman.deviantart.com/journal/11797155/ http://WindShaman.deviantart.com/journal/11797155/ Tue, 13 Feb 2007 10:35:39 PST .

The first short story will probably end up being the longest as it is the most involved, and (quite honestly) I can't write a bunch of these stories if they're all going to be this long. It takes up too much time when I edit it later, since my original sentences are rarely coherent these days. I think the adderall has fried the speech-controlling area of my brain.... (I had to rewrite that last sentence, believe it or not)

Anyways, I'm off to pick up my moms car from the shop, shovel the sidewalk, and take a cat nap before finishing my first story.


... I really hope I can spit out three stories by tomorrow, at least.


Quote: (perfect for a day of editing!"



"The Devil's in the details."






On a side note, my comments apparently:

[are]"... cool"

[are]"...like some sort of crazy, crazy thing!!"

[are]"...like an army!!"

"...makes my eyes dance with joy."

[are]"the kind of spam I like 8D"

[are"so hypnotic...ive been sitting here expressionless for 5 minutes"

]]> ~WindShaman http://WindShaman.deviantart.com/journal/11779051/ http://WindShaman.deviantart.com/journal/11779051/ Mon, 12 Feb 2007 15:01:08 PST
I just had this image in my head of "the lip bite." Ya know, the one where your significant other bites your lip? I just love those shots... yeah I have a fetish, get over it. The thing is that I had a really hard time actually finding a shot that got the effect right.

The thing is that I bite my lip ALL the time, whenever I'm doing something. Right now I'm pretty much demolishing the edges of my mouth with my teeth... it's just my thing.

I was thinking though, that these sorts of shots are really what intimates who a person is. Some people don't bite their lips, but their nails. Some actually just sit ridgidly in their seats, either from strict discipline or personal preferance. Still others have their tongues sticking out halfway through their lips while they work on something (Katie!!).

Just wondering here, if you have any odd mannerisms. I think that I've been neglecting them in my work, and I may just add them to the stories that I plan on starting tomorrow night and tuesday as a primary focus. I know for sure the lip bite will be in one of them, but I think that the idea of mannerisms may lead to something else, so any ideas that you have on them would be great!


Take Care of Yourselves!

-Ezzie-






[*edit*]

I slept in again today...silly me . I was up waaay to late (early?) writing my english paper and messing around with other stuff. You'd think that I'd have learned by now that the less sleep I have the less willpower I have in the mornings and throughout the rest of the day. At least I got my paper done .

I started writing out one of my valentines stories during class today, while I was waiting for the line of paper-checkings to die down so I wouldn't have to stand up there and do nothing. I'm pretty sure that one is going to be religious-based fantasy, while some will be completely realistic fiction. There may be a sci-fi bit thrown in there somewhere's but whatever.


The quote for today is from (yet again) Regina Spektor. I'm in love with the lyrics, and the music with them is fantastic as well. I've always really enjoyed the blues, but never could find something that has the sound I like except in the occasional thing that I hear here and there.

"Lady," by Regina Spektor


"Lady sing the blues so well
As if she mean it
As if it's hell down here
In the smoke-filled world
Where the jokes are cold
They don't laugh at jokes
They laugh at tragedies

Corner street societies
But they believe her
They never leave her
While she sings she make them feel things
She says, i can sing this song so blue
That you will cry in spite of you
Little wet tears on your baby's shoulder
Little wet tears on your baby's shoulder

And I have walked these streets so long
There ain't nothing right, there ain't nothing wrong
But the little wet tears on my baby's shoulder
The little wet tears on your baby's shoulder

Lady lights a cigarette, puffs away, no regret
Takes a look around, no regrets, no regrets
Stretches out like branches of a poplar tree
She says, i'm free
Sings so soft as if she'll break, says
I can sing this song so blue
That you will cry in spite of you
Little wet tears on your baby's shoulder
Little wet tears on your baby's shoulder

I have walked these streets so long
There ain't nothing right, nothing wrong
But the little wet tears on my baby's shoulder
The little wet tears on your baby's shoulder

But on this stage
I've learned to fly
Learned to sing
And learned to cry
Little wet tears on my baby's shoulder
Little wet tears on my baby's shoulder

But now it's time
To say goodbye
Some might laugh
But I will surely cry
Little wet tears on my baby's shoulder
Little wet tears on my baby's shoulder

Lady lights a cigarette
Puffs away, and winter comes
And she forgets"

]]> ~WindShaman http://WindShaman.deviantart.com/journal/11777305/ http://WindShaman.deviantart.com/journal/11777305/ Sun, 11 Feb 2007 20:28:58 PST favorite songs of all time! I remember listening to this before the album came out, at about 3 to 4 am in the morning and it was just so prefectly trippy to me that i just had to by it! (*hint**hint*!!) The rest of the album is even better, but this is the song that caught my attention, and I hope it catches yours too!


Wolfmother homepage:[link]


"Woman" (by Wolfmother)


"Woman
You know that you're a woman
You got to be a woman
I got the feeling of love

When you're talking to me
You see right through me
I got the feeling of love

She's a woman
You know what I mean
You better listen
Listen to me
She's gonna set you free

Well you're kinda looking at me
Like I've got to set you free
You know I can't be nobody

She's a woman
You know what I mean
You better listen
Listen to me
She's gonna set you free

Woman
You know that you're a woman
You got to be a woman
I got the feeling of love

When you're talkin' to me
You see right through me
I got the feeling of love

She's a woman
You know what I mean
You better listen
Listen to me
She's gonna set you free"






[*edit*]


Ok, I just wanna add a few more musicians that you all aught to look at!:

Regina Spektor
Muse
Carina Round
Aveo
Rocco DeLuca & the Burden
Breaking Benjamin
Eve 6
Interpol
Jose Gonzalez

]]> ~WindShaman http://WindShaman.deviantart.com/journal/11745940/ http://WindShaman.deviantart.com/journal/11745940/ Fri, 09 Feb 2007 12:22:31 PST
I woke up this morning, but fell asleep after I had turned off my alarm clock... and woke up at what I thought was 9:00am, 30 minutes before my math class. So I ran my butt into the shower, and ran out, all set to get to class late again. I run downstairs to put my shoes on, get them on, then look at the clock.... it was about 8:20. I was so happy, because I've been meaning to go out early and take some photograph's for a while, but I knew that I'd never really be able to do it on purpose (no willpower when I'm that tired, so no way I'd actually get out of bed). So I went out, had some coffee, and took a TON of shots. Most aren't that great, but I had alot of fun.

The funny part was when I went to Kava to have some coffee to start out the morning. I was walking on the sidewalk when a young mother and her child are coming out from her car. The little guy's shoes were awesome! They made this little squeaky toy noise whenever he walked, and he was so happy and was having quite a bit of fun with them. I just looked at the mother, who was smiling at me with this "happy mother" smile on her face, you may or may not know the one.

I simply said, "Best shoes ever!" and laughed my way to the door of the coffee shop. I ordered my Mint Mocha and waited for the barista to dish my coffe up... then the young lady and her child walked in, squeaking away. Everyone looked, and the barista had that "Such-a-damn-cute-child" look on his face, and I simply said "... again, Best Shoes Ever!" and laughed at how happy this little tyke looked. It made my morning.

One of the best parts so far was classes...

I have a "B" in Math! I haven't had this high a grade in well over six years, in ANY math class! I'm still not sure how, but I'm pretty damn happy. My test grade was absolutely terrible, and it was simply because of stupid little mistakes (as always). But with combined with my B quiz grades (two of them) and my A homework grade, as well as the extra credit that I've been given a few times for being one of the people who was in class I actually managed to get a B! Many of you are thinking that a B isn't that great a grade, but for me (since it is my least favorite and hardest subject) it's like bench pressing 300 lb's or having one of my short stories published/mentioned in a major magazine!

I'm late with an english paper, and I have to write another one and call my Bio lab Prof for a make up of the lab I missed yesterday (the all clear after the "suspicious package" was 5 minutes before my class was supposed to start... but I didn't know that, so I have a good excuse). But I honestly am so happy because I can fix those and everything should be alright!

I can also email myself pictures from my cell phone now, and I have a ton of good ones, so expect to see a few from that.

The best part is what happened on my way home from classes today. I was thinking of what I'd do for Valentine's Day (DA wise), and was thinking of writing a kidna weird journal entry about the different sides and not going to mention them because it would be pointless, then use those as a sort of way to actually mention them all and leave [you] wondering whether or not I had meant to do that... but I had a better idea.

I'm not going to reveal too much, but simply I want you to expect a bunch of short stories and to please ask me about them until the day of and on the day of Valentine's. A little bit of motivation from others should help me finish a fair amount of them in time, and I really think that this could even be a set of publishable ideas.


I hope you all have great weekends, and great days today!



Take care of yourselves!

-Ezzie-





The quote for today (a joke, actually) is pretty sexual in nature, so don't read any further unless that's ok with you!:
















"A mother walks into her daughters room holding a condom in her hand, "I found this while cleaning your room today.... Are you sexually active?" To which the daughter replies, "No, I just lay there."


Pretty uncomplimentary to my own gender... but for the most part it's true. Guys, if you're having sex with someone (I don't advocate anything before marriage) then make sure she's enjoying it as well. Spend alot more time on the woman you're with than she does on you, (...if she does "spend time" on you beforehand) women a... ]]> ~WindShaman http://WindShaman.deviantart.com/journal/11733924/ http://WindShaman.deviantart.com/journal/11733924/ Thu, 08 Feb 2007 11:16:43 PST bomb. Apparently there was a bomb threat or suspicious package or whatver at CC today... so I didn't have any classes again! Most people are like "yay for you" but I need to be in class and getting stuff done or else old habits will come into play....

Other than that, not much is going on. I'm going to have to go out and buy new pants soon, I've lost quite a bit of weight in the past month or so... although my mom is doing her best to get it back on me!



seriously....!


Yeah, other than that, not much going on at all....

]]> ~WindShaman http://WindShaman.deviantart.com/journal/11724621/ http://WindShaman.deviantart.com/journal/11724621/ Wed, 07 Feb 2007 15:48:26 PST
Well, my math teacher is not so much of an ass as I thought he was... he just has shitty handwriting when he's in a bad mood. Seriously, how the hell does he make a 25 look like an "E"?!?! Dunno, but math wasn't looking so bad after that... then I saw my test grade. What the hell, I studied for 4 hours for that test! I probably just made stupid mistakes like always though....

I am not getting stuck here for another semester, I'll do whatever it takes to get A's and B's in all but my math class, and the only reason for not getting an A in that is that I'll have to have a miracle to get anything better than a C+... I suck at math.

I have a test in psych tomorrow, but because my stupid alarm clock is broken I missed the class before the test... which really isn't helping me any. I know the material, though, and I have my book so I'll just go over that and that notes online.

Also, I got really jealous when I saw Katie's post of the day [link] so I went out and took some really crappy shots of the sun setting, and just put the not so horrible ones in my scraps after I'd messed with them a bit.

Other than that, not much to report. I'm just trying to get out of here so that I can go someplace I really want to be. I don't know where that is yet, but I'm looking for places. I can't wait to get the hell outta here....

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