http://search.deviantart.com/?q=by:WindyLily18&section=today deviantART RSS for by:WindyLily18 en-us Copyright 2009, deviantART.com Sat, 19 Dec 2009 20:20:12 PST deviantART.com http://blogs.law.harvard.edu/tech/rss http://s.deviantart.com/minish/widgets/apple-touch-icon-precomposed.png http://WindyLily18.deviantart.com/journal/28693645/ http://WindyLily18.deviantart.com/journal/28693645/ Tue, 01 Dec 2009 15:26:24 PST An odd time for me. In recent years, it always has been. There always seems to be something clinging for acknowledgment, and sometimes it scares me. December is supposed to be a time in which we embrace our love for one another using objects (cynical, I know); and for those who are truly human, through affection and kind actions.
But in recent years, when someone says "Christmas", "Sharing", "Kinship", "Together", "Gifts", "Love", or "Memories"... I don't know whether to cry my eyes out or scream in terror. This is always the month of perpetual fear for me, and I really hope that someday it will change. Someday, I'll make it change...when I'm stronger. When I'm less afraid. As for now, those remnants from before continue to pick me apart-- leaving this human with no defenses and an easily breakable demeanor.
"This weakness will pass" I say to myself. I want those words to come true so badly. Logically they will, but everyone's impatient.

Enough self-indulgence though. In truth, I'll be away for a while. I'll come back when all of this is over.
ohgodmakeitstop

]]> ~WindyLily18 http://WindyLily18.deviantart.com/journal/28228847/ http://WindyLily18.deviantart.com/journal/28228847/ Sun, 08 Nov 2009 23:51:23 PST

<sup>Stolen from
Step 1: Put your iPod or whatever on random.
Step 2: Post the 1st line from the first 30 songs that play, no matter how embarrassing the song. And it doesn't have to be perfect if you can't understand the lyrics word for word.
Step 3: Let everyone guess what song and artist the lines come from.
Step 4: Identify the songs when someone guesses correctly.
Step 5: Looking them up on Google or any other search engine is CHEATING!

1) Wake up everyone! It's not too late
To save the remnants of our hearts,
So stop giving up our last shot at love,
Our only chance to find the meaning of
The beat beneath the blood

2) How many times have you been pushed around?
Was anybody there?
Does anybody care?
How many time have your friends let you down?
Was anybody there?
Did anybody stare?

3) (All Time Low: Remembering Sunday) -IcyEmo15
He woke up from dreaming and put on his shoes
Started making his way past two in the morning.
He hasn't been sober for days.

4) Well I woke one morning,
found you staring down at me,
you said "I'll take my share now, father please",
and you took your money,
and you took your leave,
you drilled my heart and turned your back on me...

5) I have changed, I have changed
Just like you, just like you.
For how long, for how long?
Must I wait, I know there's something wrong.
Your concrete heart isn't beating,
And you've tried to make it come alive.
No shadows, just red lights.
Now I'm here to rescue you...

6) Gunned up, brain dead and can't decide (is it Gummed up or Gunned up?)
You can't pray enough, you can't hide
You can be cool or you can cry
Do it wrong
Not at all
Or do it right

7) Is this everything, I've dreamed of so much more
between the end and where we lie
here all our hopes and dreams are scavenged from the floor
and fed into machines that feed on vacant eyes
all of my dreams, always find me
far beyond these fake fluorescent skies
I know there must be something more, if I could only find the door
then I could free myself and see the world outside

8) This is morning. It's when I spend the most time...
Thinking 'bout what I've given up.
This is a warning, when you start the day just close the curtains
You're thinking 'bout what I've given up

9) ~If you get this, I'll make you something.
Our course is coarsely plotted
On a map of shoddy dreams,
But hindsight will reveal
Time's moving faster than it seems.
Maybe I'm just selfish,
I've got nothing left to give.
I'm still a foolish boy,
I've got a lifetime left to live.

10) Bonus points if you state my favourite cover :3
I'm sitting in the railway station.
Got a ticket for my destination.
On a tour of one-night stands my suitcase and guitar in hand.
And ev'ry stop is neatly planned for a poet and a one-man band.

11) it's been so long, and tin cans and string for years
is all that we've known, could it be you're really here

12) I've seen the darkest things
Crawling inside of me
I've seen the monsters come alive
I've seen the enemy
The nightmare follows me
Searching the darkness for a light

13) Here on my journey, I have walked alone
Only my heart stood still.
Now it's clear to see, when you're here with me, the emptiness has been filled.

14) (Jack's Mannequin: Kill the Messenger) -IcyEmo15
Oh my God, this hurts like hell.
I've had that dream again when I was lost for good in outer space...
Tell me doctor, how to shake a waking nightmare that is worse when I am sleeping?

15) (Switchfoot: Dare You to Move) -IcyEmo15
Welcome to the planet...
Welcome to existence
Everyone's here, everyone's here.

16) One is for envy
And one just for spite
The cuts in my heart
They show in your eyes

17) If you let your feelings go, dear
It's scary what you'll find
I find I'm on your street, dear
And you're always on my mind

18) I'll give you this confession
I am taking you with me
Where we can contemplate our chemistry.
And your eyes were lined with questions
With the blood rushing to waste
To take this feeling with us to our graves
To our graves

19) I know what lies beneath, I've seen the flash of teeth.
Conspiring with the reef to sin... ]]></sup> ~WindyLily18 http://WindyLily18.deviantart.com/journal/28188983/ http://WindyLily18.deviantart.com/journal/28188983/ Fri, 06 Nov 2009 23:00:19 PST THE PAIRINGS MEEEME! *flail*
Warning you, I don't have really exotic tastes in couplings so pretty much all of these are canon or really damn regular, lol.

SIX PAIRINGS I LIKE:
1. Snake x Meryl
2. Jin Uzuki x Pellegri
3. Mitsurugi x Setsuka
4. Jade x Dist x Peony
5. Daigo x Ann
6. Jecht x Auron (Braska can be added too)

TWO SHIPS I'VE ABANDONED:
7. Snake x Otacon
8. KOSMOS x chaos

THREE SHIPS I'VE NEVER LIKED / ALWAYS HATED:
10. Shuji x Fuyumi
11. Satou x Hitomi
12. Jak x Ashelin

TWO SHIPS THAT HAVE PIQUED MY INTEREST:
13. Yamazaki x Satou
14. Asuka x Hwoarang

1. Why do you dislike #11 so much?
I despise Hitomi. I was revolted when she lied to her offline meeting buddies about Satou being an abusive boyfriend, even though clearly she has her own relationship with another really nice guy. She's such a fucking user.

2. Who do you know that ships #13?
I haven't met anyone yet, let alone someone who has seen the show without me telling them to.

3. What would be your ideal scenario for couple #3?
They meet quietly during the night most likely. She tries to attack him...she fails, and he has a moment of sympathy for a wench like her. I have such a hard-on for that scenario, lol.

4. What is your favorite moment for #1?
Too many! Any time Enclosure or The Best is Yet to Come plays my inner fantard hops around. If I had to say one...I think when Meryl got shot or the epic bathroom conversation.

5. How long have you been following couple #6?
Since FFX got released. How long is that now?

6. What's the story with #8? What made you stop caring?
KOS-MOS annoys me to no end now. Like I used to ship her but for some odd reason I started not giving a shit about super-powered androids and her ridiculously impractical design. I guess it's the overlove I see of her..maybe, I dunno.

7. Which ships do you prefer--#2 or #4?
Rock and a hard place much? Uhmm...at the moment I'm leaning towards 2, but 4 has more evidence. I mean dude..All Jin 'n Pelle get is the Colonel drama. WHERE IS THE LOVE GODDAMMIT.

8. You have the power to make one ship non-existent. Choose from #10 or #12?
12, since 10 ends by itself.

9. What interests you about #14?
The fact these two would argue to no end...over the dumbest things. That and their designs match up really well. THERE JUST NEEDS TO BE ONE SCENE TO PROVE MY POINT. JUST ONE. And T6 apparently doesn't.

10. When did you stop liking #7?
I think around when MGS3 first got released. Sorta just stopped caring. I'll giggle every now and then, but Snake/Meryl is OTP. FUCK YEAH.

12. What's a song that reminds you of #5?
That cool one they got for the live action film. Oh, and Natsu no Nichi ni Youkoso (Welcome to the Summer Days) by Pearl Kyoudai.

13. Which of these ships do you love the most right now?
Mix between 3, 2 and 1 atm. Though I pretty much like all of them.

14. Which do you dislike the most?
11, I think...I'm not sure.

15. Have #2 kissed yet? Elaborate if yes.
IN MY DREAMS *tear*. Frigging game canon gave two scenes! Two scenes! And there was only a short blurb of violence afterwards! No happy makeup sex or ANYTHING!

16. Did #4 have a happy ending? Do you think one is likely?
I really really really hope they do. Though one of them died >__>

17. What would make you start shipping #14?
One canon scene. That's all I ask.

18. If only one could happen, which would you prefer--#2 or #6?
2, since I'm sure Tidus would be mad at me if I said his new mom is Auron.

19. You have the power to decide the fate of #10 . What happens to them?
They dissolve by volume 5 and she's dead by the last one. Purging rocks. <3

]]> ~WindyLily18 http://WindyLily18.deviantart.com/journal/27881223/ http://WindyLily18.deviantart.com/journal/27881223/ Tue, 20 Oct 2009 22:42:08 PDT
Oh wait, I got one.
I FOUND SHEET MUSIC TO TOTAL RESULT. GO LILY. GO LILY. UMPH.

Aaaaand art fart wise I'm writing crap more. Ain't that swell?
Now if only it failed less.

]]> ~WindyLily18 http://WindyLily18.deviantart.com/journal/27259901/ http://WindyLily18.deviantart.com/journal/27259901/ Thu, 17 Sep 2009 10:01:10 PDT Usually I don't give a flying crap about birthdays but this one is special.
Therefore, IMPRESS ME WITH YOUR GIFTS. ...Actually, you don't have to but it'd be really cool if you did.
SPAM ME WITH YOUR GREATNESS.
With Snake.
Or Lance.
Or Vergil.
Or Jinnegri.
Hell, just GIMMEH PEOPLE I LIKE! COUPLINGS I SHIP! ORIGINAL JAZZ I'VE POOPED! Or write something. ACKNOWLEDGE THIS HALFASSED CELEBRATION AT LEAST!
...
If you don't I'll feel sad.

]]> ~WindyLily18 http://WindyLily18.deviantart.com/journal/26716791/ http://WindyLily18.deviantart.com/journal/26716791/ Thu, 20 Aug 2009 15:44:44 PDT Awright, here we gooo. If you wanna get featured comment and I'll shove you on in. Remember that in return of me featuring you, you gotta put me in your meme. What a price to pay-- I'mma gonna taint your page! XDD
1.
Sparrow Man: Ur colours make me happy. The fluidity in this too is just so touchable! I think that's the only way I can coherently describe this..
33 Bandages: Two words. Bandage fetish. *coughs*33issexy*cough*
ad Marker Jin Uzuki: I love his expression! It totally fits him. It looks like it should be a digital art but you pulled it off in traditional! Like GAWDI'MSOINLOVE.

2.
Moonanimal: To say I want to rape this would be a giant understatement. The grayish blues and swirl spam is amaaazing X3
Goodbye: I squee so hard at fanart already but when you took that scene and made Serenity look so torn I died in fangirlish joy. I LOVE THIS SO MUCH. URGH! YOUR BACKGROUND COLOURS ARE SO PERFECT!
Whether it's a Freezing Dawn: I would've thought this was a vector if I had not seen it close up. That's how f*ckin' good your solid colours are. ACKYOURWOLVESHAVENICEREARENDS!

3.
Brawl Pumpkin Snake: If I didn't think this was adorable I wouldn't be a Snake fan. GODTHAT'SADORABLE.
Hedgehog Design: Heavy, heavy, HEAVY blacks make this look eyecatching and sexy. It makes me kinda dizzy...but that's a good thing! XD
Scrapbook FMA Wrath: The way you did this makes me want it as a wallpaper... I'm kinda ignorant when it comes to scrapbooking but I like this! The nice little lines and blocks of solid colour make it professional :3

4. 'Cause what are the odds 14 people are going to contact me.
No Reading: Lol.
Cloudy Lake: This looks like it was drawn...I love the starkness of it. I feel kind of stupid for not including it in my previous one. LURVELY photograph...I'm glad I'll get to see more of your work soon :3.
Tigers: KITTYLOVEYAY!!!! Plus you did a background, which is an incredible feat within itself.

5-14 Haven't been done yet...if you want in just comment.

]]> ~WindyLily18 http://WindyLily18.deviantart.com/journal/26384380/ http://WindyLily18.deviantart.com/journal/26384380/ Tue, 04 Aug 2009 15:57:09 PDT Reluctance must be my forte, I haven't found joy in social interactions for a long time now. Every time the people I'm surrounded by try to get close to me, even just a few inches apart I feel uncomfortable and even irritated. I don't know why. I'm angry for no apparent reason and it makes me even more angry. WTFH. GYAH.
On the brighter side of things I seem to be on a drawing rampage with my sketchbook being a quarter full already (that's an accomplishment for a lazy child like me). What's funny is that I haven't improved one teensyweensy bit. LOL FAIL. And about 90% of those pages are full of Vergil. It's sickening and kind of scary to me, lol. GET THAT GUY OUT OF MY MIND. NOT EVEN LANCE IS WORKING. OR SNAKE'S BUTT.
Help me.

Oh right, this is probably my last journal entry for a little while, so do keep that in mind.
ANOTHER THING I'll put up the Feature meme when I get back but you guys can just comment here if you wanna be put in. If you don't remember what the rules were it's essentially that if I feature you, you have to make your own meme and feature me. If you want in just comment here (do be aware, I'm going to be doing 14 lucky duck members only. Lol, like 14 different people are actually willing to feature my gallery.), and I'll go through your gallery and pick out 3-4 things I like and rant about why I riek it. SOUND GOOD YES? So far =-ek- is the only one up. 13 spots now, folks.

ONE MOAR THING. I'm still working on my doujin of retardity...second page is getting there, sorta. I wonder if anyone cares.
NAH.

_{EDIT:Jack's Mannequin was fucking amazing. The whole band (especially Andrew McMahon)'s energy was invigorating to the core, my throat is still sore from screaming and singing along. They totally out performed The Fray and Vedera or whatever by a long-shot. Andrew's voice carried out with such power and passion, and his fluent movement was awe-inspiring to the point in which he wasn't just 'sparkling', he fuckin' shone. Like a star. ...Sometimes I wish he was single and a weeee bit younger... XD
God I am so retarded.}

]]> ~WindyLily18 http://WindyLily18.deviantart.com/journal/26028842/ http://WindyLily18.deviantart.com/journal/26028842/ Sat, 18 Jul 2009 15:38:29 PDT Haven't done a WERD meme in a while...and since I'm bored and kind of sleepy here goes. I could've sworn I've done this one before but as I stated I am so unamused right now.
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Post these rules. Each tagged person must post 10 things about their self on their journal. At the end, you have to choose and tag at least 10 people and post their icons on the same journal. Go to their pages and send a message saying you tagged them. No tag-backs.

1. I have a giant hard-on for 1950's fashion.
2. I riek Martin Mystery (That's right. The Faux-animu series.)
3. I absolutely positively abhor impractical design. (EX: ninjas with high heels/giant breasts, anorexic teenagers who wield giant swords..etc)
4. I really don't like being touched. Even by family.
5. I love my fandoms, but I love making fun of them juuuuuuuust as much.
6. Andrew McMahon is considered to me, as The Jonas Brothers are considered to prepubescent females. TEH SEX.
7. I am an eye and nose fancier.
8. I've resented or even heavily disliked/hated nearly everyone who is 'close' to me at some point.
9. There's a bookmark section in my browser called "Therapy". 95% of those links are fandom-related.
10. Despite how long it takes me to explain it, my magnum opus of stupidity will probably only be about 150 pages max for the whole series (including side stories). Lol, that's anything but epic.
Tagging is for people with social lives! >O
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And now to ramble about life.
So I totally got tickets to see Jack's Mannequin...live. LIVE. I get to hear Andrew McMahon rock out and sing with his beautiful voice harmonized with Bobby Anderson...IT'S GONNA BE AWESOME. Even though the chances of me meeting them/getting them to sign my cds are so low it shares the probability of a snail beating a cheetah in a foot race. Possible, (if the cheetah gets shot, lol) but most likely not gonna happen. I AM SO STOKED ANYWAY. The crap happening in the near future will probably suck balls but at least I get to see/hear my teenybooper idol...not sure if I'll be able to handle his excessive pretty pretty pretty sparklyness in person. *dreamy fangirl sigh* I like him for his music, I swear.

Riiight. I think this'll be one of my last updates for a while since I'm leaving on a bit of a halfassed get-the-flying-f*ck-out-of-this-town sort of thing. I still have a few things I need to get done before then (LIKE SEE MISTER MCMAHON. *diesofexcitement* Though the other crap I have to get done is super ghey. Urgh.) so yeah...I suppose I'll try to get In Acoustic's page 2 done at least, and get a few other things up. Other than that I don't really have much to work on. EXILE's major for me but by the looks of it nobody else seems really taken by the idea. ....About three fans so far. Whoooot. *headdesk*

I also am feeling incredibly angsty and in a rut of self-hate. ..Well, a deeper one than before. Ish.
Random concluding notes: (1.) I have now proven that Kenta > Ash since I replayed Pokemon Gold with the main character as Kenta. It was frigging hilarious. (2.) From the second I laid eyes on it almost 2 years ago I wanted Mirror's Edge. I can't believe I haven't bought it yet even though I have a PS3 now. DAMN YOU MGS4.

Hah, fooled you-- THIS is the random concluding note.
Exclamation Point!

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