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The flavor was "Butt Naked" and it amused me. It smelled very fruity, I had to buy it.

Huzzah for supporting fellow crafters and their butt naked candles. I wanna be butt naked on a tropical isle. ]]> ~Wings1012 http://Wings1012.deviantart.com/journal/4803532/ http://Wings1012.deviantart.com/journal/4803532/ Sun, 13 Mar 2005 15:51:58 PST
However! That is not the subject of this journal. I am journalling because I learned a new technique, one that I am having waaaaay too much fun with.

Hammering wire! I just made the coolest little thing that I need to make more links to to I can make it a bracelet and then I will post.

Also! I figured out how to punch holes in pop tabs, so there will be some poptab stuff up too.

And, randomly, this little five-year-old-ish girl stopped me in the street after buying groceries to tell me that my earrings were pretty. I shall have to post these because the little girl said that they were pretty. ]]> ~Wings1012 http://Wings1012.deviantart.com/journal/4672817/ http://Wings1012.deviantart.com/journal/4672817/ Fri, 25 Feb 2005 19:01:03 PST
I just spent 4 hours beading after two whole weeks of doing nothing of the kind. I think beading is therapudic, I'm starting to feel better already.

Still not doing so well though. I think I need to buy more head pins. ]]> ~Wings1012 http://Wings1012.deviantart.com/journal/4608668/ http://Wings1012.deviantart.com/journal/4608668/ Thu, 17 Feb 2005 17:27:55 PST
I also have scores of love poems with serious inspiration behind them. It helps to have a sweetheart when you're a hopeless romantic.

Besides poetry, there's a short prose piece and a load of earrings including one earring/necklace set with these seed beads I've been dying to use. Eventually, I'll get off my lazy ass and take pictures, but for now, all you people get is a lousy journal entry. ]]> ~Wings1012 http://Wings1012.deviantart.com/journal/4431391/ http://Wings1012.deviantart.com/journal/4431391/ Thu, 27 Jan 2005 18:29:33 PST
I wonder what they would have thought if I submitted my latest two poems, the most real poems I have as of yet. I do admit that Eyesight is very real, but I don't feel so attached to it because I'm not too close with the guy I wrote it about. The other two, though...? Meh.

I need to make some new jewelry. I'm finally making some money for it at school. Look out, Winged Designs!

Too bad I have the most inane projects to work on. Bah!

Random: I love my art teacher. I hate how the Drawing 2 class is split with Studio. I wanna be in Studio. ]]> ~Wings1012 http://Wings1012.deviantart.com/journal/4414245/ http://Wings1012.deviantart.com/journal/4414245/ Tue, 25 Jan 2005 18:31:17 PST
See, I liked this guy. But now I'm starting to see flaws in him (not like he'd have me anyways), and I'm seeing good qualities in a guy I never thought I'd see such things in before.

And my Religion teacher said (oblivious to my internal problems) that teenagers, in general, should date as many people as possible in high school; it gives you a feel of what kind of people with whom you want to spend the rest of your life.

And this makes sense. In theory. But there's always three parts to every act, the object, intention, and circumstances, and even though the object and intention seem sound, the circumstances are all akilter.

My friends keep telling me that I don't need a man to be whole. I keep proving them otherwise.

What would Shakespeare be without his dark lady? Where would he derive his inspiration? My art has been but a shadow of what it could be. I briefly considered writing a romantic poem to Poe, much like was written to Anne Bradstreet by a poet of a much later time period, his name is not forthcoming.

If I have no companion to write about and draw and fantasize about while listing to sappy music and doing beady things, what am I? I have nothing else.

Mayhap I need a direction. Something I can do without a man. However, it seems as everything I could do would be made better with someone near me. Bah. *beats self upside the head and dreams about Valentine's Day* ]]> ~Wings1012 http://Wings1012.deviantart.com/journal/4321390/ http://Wings1012.deviantart.com/journal/4321390/ Fri, 14 Jan 2005 19:17:01 PST
I see my life, fading...can't...go on...must speak...in more...dramatic...pauses...

Well, I suppose it's not that bad. But it is pretty crippling considering that I've made several new pairs of earrings that I have no hooks for.

Plus, I'm kinda anal about buying sensitive solutions nickel free hooks, and the next chance I'm going to get to go to the only store I know of that has them is Tuesday.

However! I found a new fun thing to do! Bead cages! Restraining the errant beads of the world into cleverly crafted wire cages. I made some with crap wire today and my physics teacher laughed at me for punishing my beads by putting them in cages. But then again, he doesn't understand... Silly little beads must be kept under control! I love being dramatic. That's why I'm writing things.

And a pox on being under 18. I so almost had a PayPal account set up because I found a site that will give you money for participating in quizzes and they'll transfer them to PayPal. Plus, I migh be able to sell some of the stuff on display in my locker on Ebay. However! I am too young. I will be patient. By the time I get around to building a time machine, I'll probably be 18 anyways. So! I'll work on making more jewelry until then.

That is, if I get some bloody hooks. ]]> ~Wings1012 http://Wings1012.deviantart.com/journal/4302302/ http://Wings1012.deviantart.com/journal/4302302/ Wed, 12 Jan 2005 12:00:38 PST this.

People are bitching about characters and traits being stolen, and I'm not quite sure what to think anymore. I know that someone stole Neogeen's character, and someone else is bitching about "traits" being stolen, and I want to shut them all up.

I mean, it's not right to take characters witout permission, but where can you draw the line of "your" character? There are many many characters out there that are similar, and arguing about copyrighted traits? It's like saying that only one person's character can have feathery wings.

Mayhap I'll stop drawing for a while. Mayhap I'll go buy s'more beads. Mmm...beads. ]]> ~Wings1012 http://Wings1012.deviantart.com/journal/4286848/ http://Wings1012.deviantart.com/journal/4286848/ Mon, 10 Jan 2005 14:48:26 PST
Plus, wire doesn't give me these bloody blisters. I have really stupid friends. Too bad the smart friends are all guys and thus don't wear jewelry.

*eats them all* ]]> ~Wings1012 http://Wings1012.deviantart.com/journal/4264304/ http://Wings1012.deviantart.com/journal/4264304/ Fri, 07 Jan 2005 18:07:11 PST
Yet, am I beyond simple repair? Am I beyond the point where a kiss could cheer my darkest days? Am I ready to trust another again? I’ve been hurt so often before, why do I reach out now? How do I know that he won’t break my heart again?

The simple answer is that I don’t know. This is the true meaning of faith. Putting yourself out on the line for an idea, a thought, a belief that you don’t know will come, in the scant hopes that your wishes will come true. I admit that I’m not too keen on the idea of a divine being, but I have faith in other things. People, for instance. And sometimes, myself. But not too often anymore.

Which is why I need another to cleanse the stains of betrayal and nurse the gashes of pain. Too many small shreds have been ripped out to ever be whole again, but sometimes, a wish for just an emotional Band-Aid keeps me sane. The knowledge that there’s someone out there who understands fuels the tiny flame I still harbor. How long must I wait? ]]> ~Wings1012 http://Wings1012.deviantart.com/journal/4264195/ http://Wings1012.deviantart.com/journal/4264195/ Fri, 07 Jan 2005 17:53:18 PST
After four boyfriends, three of them very serious, I still don’t understand. Why must I lust after the outcasts who have never loved? Is it an automatic response to the needs of others? Am I a humanitarian? Or am I just a sick, twisted person who knows that if I am the first, they will have no one to whom to compare me?

I am afraid. I am afraid of baring myself to him. Baring my emotions to a being I wish to love and be loved in return. But is that all I want?

No. I want self-satisfaction; I want to feel whole. It’s been so long since I felt that I could breathe. Once, I felt I was tied down, yet the amusing aspect of love is that when you’re in it long enough, you begin to doubt. Your lover’s flaws become apparent and the reality of the situation emerges. No one is perfect until you fall in love with them, but once you step back from the façade and come to see who that person really is, to you, to the world, you wonder why on earth you let that person have such a large piece of you.

And that’s what love really is. Giving a piece of yourself to the person you love. You’re trusting that one person with a sacred piece of your heart. They may do as they wish with it then. Too oft is that piece destroyed and the trust shattered. No matter how it is jaded, once you are in love, you are very vulnerable, not only to the person in question, but the world. That one person is free to that that sacred piece of heart and smash it, eat it, burn it, destroy it, or take a picture and post it on the internet. The confusing part of love is who to trust and how large of a piece of your heart to give. Ideally, both partners should give comparable pieces, but this is not always true, and causes divides in the trust.

So do I trust him? Do I wish him to hold my heart in his hand and do what he pleases with it? As of yet, I believe that I do not, but time will reveal all. ]]> ~Wings1012 http://Wings1012.deviantart.com/journal/4262886/ http://Wings1012.deviantart.com/journal/4262886/ Fri, 07 Jan 2005 14:58:26 PST
First, I think that "Artisan Crafts" should be a subtopic under Traditional Art. Because that's really what it is.

Also! Sculpture now seems out of place. Maybe a better solution would be to call this AC category 3-D Art instead.

And people are stupid. They were applauding because now their pottery had its place...it's always had its place. It is Sculpture. The only things I think really needed a new section were Jewelry and Metal/Glass work.

But...I'm too scared to say anything to any one who could change it, so I'm going to sit here and move deviations.

But what do I know? Well, I do know that I have a lot of stuff to move. And I'm fairly new to DA. I feel sorry for the people who have 3485798 pieces to move. There should be a way to move a bunch of stuff at once... *sigh* ]]> ~Wings1012 http://Wings1012.deviantart.com/journal/4227317/ http://Wings1012.deviantart.com/journal/4227317/ Mon, 03 Jan 2005 07:52:11 PST

And I only got 5 hours of sleep. But in those five hours, I had really crazy dreams about sleeping in the wilderness with a wolf. Well, an anthro wolf. And I can remember it all, it's like I wasn't sleeping, but there...I need to draw Quin again. It's become an obsession. He's stolen my brain!

And I don't want to go back to school. I need to write a research paper about The Good Earth. Good book, I hate papers.

And my mother is giving me anxiety pains. Bitch.

And I'm going all dehydrated because there's no fruit juice in the house. I might go down to the drugstore to get some before I faint. I just can't handle anymore eggnog... ]]> ~Wings1012 http://Wings1012.deviantart.com/journal/4207858/ http://Wings1012.deviantart.com/journal/4207858/ Fri, 31 Dec 2004 23:45:44 PST
Why must they take her away from the people she cherishes? Why must she ring in the New Year with people who bore her to death? She could have been merry and laughing and attempting to kiss attractive men rather than being made to kiss her 70-odd step grandfather. Sometimes life just isn't fair.

However! Karma fixes everything. For making the little girl miserable, they bought her beads, bead fringe (not sure whether or not to rape it for the beads or to sew it on something), and a Visa gift card to buy more beads. So yes.

Now, the little mousy girl plans to draw a pretty picture for a very nice guy who invited her to a party she wished she could have gone to. ]]> ~Wings1012 http://Wings1012.deviantart.com/journal/4201770/ http://Wings1012.deviantart.com/journal/4201770/ Fri, 31 Dec 2004 11:36:30 PST ~Wings1012 http://Wings1012.deviantart.com/journal/4189283/ http://Wings1012.deviantart.com/journal/4189283/ Wed, 29 Dec 2004 22:10:00 PST
Driving through, with only the headlights as a guide...I understand the Romantic Poets obsession with nature. It's dark, but a comforting dark. And one can't see too far ahead or back, so the mystery intrigues. Yet, one must cling close to the person you came with, the ideals that you hold, or the forest will strip them all away.

Dang. I wish I wrote poetry well.

I need to do something about the inspiration. Perhaps a digital image. Must mess around with PS. ]]> ~Wings1012 http://Wings1012.deviantart.com/journal/4188741/ http://Wings1012.deviantart.com/journal/4188741/ Wed, 29 Dec 2004 20:53:50 PST ~Wings1012 http://Wings1012.deviantart.com/journal/4179427/ http://Wings1012.deviantart.com/journal/4179427/ Tue, 28 Dec 2004 17:45:58 PST
And I went bead shopping! Bought this huge expensive dichroic (sp?) pendant. Also bought some cute little clay butterflies and tubes of seedy beadies. Hooray for beads! Plus, with the new pair of pliers from Xmas, I should be earringing it up.

Plus, once I finish this journal, I'm going to scan in an image of me from this summer as a scrap. It's kinda cute...I might mess with it in Photoshop to make it a deviation. ]]> ~Wings1012 http://Wings1012.deviantart.com/journal/4170103/ http://Wings1012.deviantart.com/journal/4170103/ Mon, 27 Dec 2004 14:20:33 PST Beside the fact that I haven't gotten dressed for days and that my brain is fried because I've been playing Hit and Run. At least I've been showering at the prodding of my mother... How am I ever going to get through college? I've got a bunch more ideas for earrings...maybe I'll do those as a reward for after I force myself to clean my room and write thank yous.

Plus, Shrek 2 is awesome...can't wait until they come up with another one. ]]> ~Wings1012 http://Wings1012.deviantart.com/journal/4036610/ http://Wings1012.deviantart.com/journal/4036610/ Fri, 10 Dec 2004 16:43:26 PST
And then there's that whole thing about me being obsessed with this really cool guy, but that whole thing about me doubting that he reciprocates so I'm not going to do anything about it. Wow, that was a bitchy run on.

And after surfing DA, I am much humbled. My crappy work does not equal some of this absolutely awesome digital art produced by some people. *in awe*

So now I need to work on something. Anything to procrastinate from Xmas. I haven't slept well in days. I need a nap. ]]> ~Wings1012 http://Wings1012.deviantart.com/journal/3967767/ http://Wings1012.deviantart.com/journal/3967767/ Wed, 01 Dec 2004 20:15:37 PST
Ahhh!!

So I'm not so invisible anymore. But I'm still scared because people comment lots and they're all tight knit and I'm scared that I'll mortally screw up and they'll exile me from their quaint society. I feel like such a n00b.

So I'm going to attempt to be invisible again. Just to watch how people act. Just because I'm too scared to come out into the light. Not just yet. ]]> ~Wings1012 http://Wings1012.deviantart.com/journal/3959366/ http://Wings1012.deviantart.com/journal/3959366/ Tue, 30 Nov 2004 19:41:03 PST >
Well, most of life is posted on LiveJournal (username: Wings1012), so I suppose I could use this for artistic angst.

Like yelling about how I have writer's block (always).
Or how I don't have enough time to bead (usually).
Or how I need more money so I can stop using cheap floral wire and buy something good online.
Or how I should keep using the stupid floral wire because I haven't turned out anything worth using good wire on.
Or how my Computer Design teacher is a silly woman, but does the best she can with high school students who use her art classes as blowoff classes.
Or how yesterday, a ring my friend made me for Xmas broke and I can't find the bead (It's an important bead too...the big center one and I don't think I have one like it so I can remake it).
Or how I get kinda frustrated because beadwork kinda goes under sculpture but not really, and how cool it would be if there was a beadwork section.

Ooh. I need to scan in my peyote work. I like peyote.

A friend suggested that I make my prom dress out of beads. Glass is much too heavy, but it's kind of a fun idea.

I wish I knew how to embellish stuff with beads.

I wish I had a real life.

I wish my father respected my art.

All my beads have been cast into the basement (now my lair) because he didn't want beads in my room. I hope he's happy that I freeze down there with beads and pliers. No, it's not respectable, but it's a lot more fun than staring at more and more college junk so that I can become a clinical lab scientist. Or something.

Rawr. I feel the need to bead. ]]> ~Wings1012