This stupid skin won't show it so:
Reading: HP & HBP
Drinking: Hot Cocoa
Eating: Chocolate Chip Cookies



I'm a little bored on my day off, and I've been meaning to update for a while now anyways. Therefore, journal time.
For one thing, my day off started with a dentist appointment... not that I don't love having a stranger's hands in my mouth, but did it have to be on my day off? *lesigh*

And as I'm apparently too old for toys, I don't even have a bouncy ball to play with. I call bullshit on this, dentist. >:C
You're never too old to enjoy a bouncy ball. Can I get some backup on this?!

Eeh, anyways, I belive I owe you lot an apology... once again I left my deviantart account outside, shivering in the rain, alone and neglected and... you get the point. The poor thing's been a might lonely, and as punishment for my negligence, it has bestowed upon me an ungodly amount of deviations to wade through. Serves me right, I suppose. But don't be alarmed if I suddenly do a ninja leap outta left field and start commenting on old stuffs.

Aaaand all of you who know me in the real world (which is...pretty much everybody who bothers to read these dern things) already knows about the happenings in my life since I last updated (which was freaking AUGUEST, embarrassingly enough, eheehee;; )
BUT. For your enjoyment, if I may, a short recap:

1) Started life as a fresshie at URI. Moved in, got accumulated, made friends with the roomie (she's nice enough, but not as crazy as the rest of us. ... I can fix that.)

2) Began the slow and painful trek uphill (both literally AND figuratively) towards a future career. My personality fits snugly with my major, Wildlife and Conservation Biology, but I'm going to go ahead for a double-major in English. What can I say? I have a sick obsession with playing God to fictional people. Also: *grammar nazi salute*

3) Finally found a sport that I'm semi-coordinated at!! And for once, I'm not the only person who looks like an uber-dork doing it!! (W/ the outfits, everybody looks dorky) Yes, I have joined the fencing team. *pauses for laughter* ...Got it outta your system? Good. Anywhooser, I've already been to "The Big One" (the big meet in Mass. last saturday) It's a long story, but suffice to say that getting up at 5 doesn't agree with me, and it was fun as hell anyways. I won a match, and broke the other person's weapon in the process. Which, believe you me, is much more satisfying than winning all of my matches would have been C:

4) Enter love interest. Yea, there are a few potentials, though I'm not putting anything specific up here, 'cos I've already told a few of you about the major one. I'm not counting my chickens before they hatch, buuuut you never know, right? ^//^;

5) Still writing. Or at least trying. It's hard to find time for art and things of that nature with the amount of work I've got on my plate, but I'm trying to get back into the swing. I've even started to practice drawing again!! *HOLYSHITITSTHEAPPOCALYPSERUNFORCOVER-DIVES-*

6) There is no number 6. I can't believe you're still reading this. *Cookies and confetti*

7) My cocoa is gone ; ___ ; *whimper*


In summation: Things are going well, although I need some motivation ahaha when do I NOT LOLOL RIGHT?! *cough* >.> Aaand, well, I miss you guys like crazy all the time, I wish I could tell you all in person every time something exciting happens to me but c'est la vie. :/
If anybody wants more contact with me, I've finally got around to getting a Skype. Go get one!! Talk to me!! Bother me when I'm doing homework!! Go, go, go!! O:<

So... yea... I'm a little bit bored of college already, which is a little bit sad. But that's just how I do. I already can't wait until christmas so I can bug the crap outta you guys all the time xD

'Case you were wondering, (which I know you weren't!) the most recent numbers are: 43 days, 8 hours, 50 minutes, and less than 30 seconds until x-mas o w o
Bwahaha I got a countdown on my computer, bitches. I can smell the jealousy from here >3

Anyways, I'm rambling on a bit. More than a bit. So I guess I'll finish with this little number:

Tagged by:

The first 10 people who comment on this journal will get a sketch,(OR a piece of writing!) free. However, in return, you must offer 10 free sketches in your own journal. If yo... ]]> ~WonderPain http://WonderPain.deviantart.com/journal/26652292/ http://WonderPain.deviantart.com/journal/26652292/ Mon, 17 Aug 2009 14:40:45 PDT




But I'll get to that in a minute.
Firstly, I'd like to apologize to anybody I promised writing/drawings to that I haven't done yet... been really distracted and in a funny mood, but I swear I'm going to get to it very, very soon. Pinky promise!! ^^

That includes the 6th chapter of "Everybody lies" for those of you who read it and are wondering WTH the rest of it is... SRY SRY SRY. It's coming to a dA near you very soon!

Man, I was on a roll with updating, too. OH WHELL. >|
Besides some requests, I'm not really doing much of anything. Just melting in the heat, getting sick, being in a weird mood, blah blah blah awkward stuffs nobody wants me to talk about. SO I WON'T. x 3 x

Back to tonight's story:


For some of you who didn't know (I should've sent out a memo on sparkly pink paper >.> ) I went to visit my grandma in Springville, NY last weekend.
'Case you don't know your NY cities, Springville is way waaay up there... it's practically in Canada; srsly, they have winter for about 10 months outta the year. D:
So me, my lil brother, and the 'rents piled into the car early early early Friday morning, and drove up there.

It took 8 hours.

8.

Mother.

F***ing.

HOURS.

And that was only one way. ..... x . x

I think I might go deaf in the near-future, b/c I spent the whole 8 hours in the car, there AND back, listening to music non-stop. There are music notes impaled in my brain, WHEE.

At any rate, we had a pretty good time catching up with the family. I hadn't seen my grandma for over a year before this, so I was really glad to see her again C:
It made me really nostalgic, and I wish we'd spent more than a weekend there, but oh well...
I love my grandma's house so very much... we used to spend every Christmas, Thanksgiving, etc. in that house with all of my relatives (The house is freaking HUGE. and PINK! :'D) and I didn't realize how much I missed it there D:

It was just my family and my grandma and her hubby (grandpa don) there, but my aunt and some cousins dropped by to say hi. I got to see my cousin's daughter, who was but a wee baby last time I saw her. Now she's running around like a loose firework and speaking in articulate sentences. It was freakin' adorable, albeit a bit startling. >.>;

Our two dogs, Murphy and Josie, were with us, and we took them for walks in the downtown, which was entertaining, until we did it at night. o ___ o

One night in particular, me and my dad saw some creepy shit... the weirdest being what LOOKED like an attempted attack (We saw this girl and her boyfriend fighting, then the girl yells and walks away, and the guy goes CHARGING after her, like he was gonna knock her over. He just sorta stopped and walked next to her, though, and we were like WTH O__O; ), and a van that said "Friendship express" on the side (NOT kidding... I wasn't sure whether to laugh or run ).
Also, we saw two really REALLY creepy trucks... one went driving past a park while we were passing through. He went about 3 miles per hours and just sorta rolled on by. I thought it was a pedo looking for children to steal, my dad thought maybe they were doing drugs in the car. Idk, but they passed by again a few minutes later. Sketchyyyyy.
The second truck we think was driven by a drunk guy, b/c he was driving really crazy... not as frightening as the first, but still scary. .___.

Where the hell are the cops when you need them?!?! Dx

At any rate, we came home on Sunday, we left early early early again, and I had only gotten 3 hours of sleep the night before because I'm pretty sure the bed I slept on was made of STYROFOAM D<

I'm home now, and so very very glad to be here. x________x

Anywho, I just wanted a quick update, which is never really quick at all. Bah.

Normally writing journals makes me feel better, which is why I'm writing this one... but it's not doing much for me. *mumblegrumble*

I was gonna write more, and now I can't remember what it was about, so meh. Shutting up now.

ILY ALL. 'case you... ]]> ~WonderPain http://WonderPain.deviantart.com/journal/25541797/ http://WonderPain.deviantart.com/journal/25541797/ Thu, 09 Jul 2009 18:07:42 PDT
Well, I'm there already.
For all of today (i had to get here at 8:30 x.x) and most of tomorrow, I'll be stuck here. In case you guys are wondering if I fell of the face of the earth, well I haven't

Be back tomorrow... I'll update this journal later


; - ;

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EDIT:
(if you don't want to read all this crap, scroll to the bottom for the important stuffs! :I )

Lol I promised that I'd update this journal a long time ago xD
well.....whoops? >.>

Bahaa... orientation was so long ago. I already forgot half of what happened xD;
But I told most of you what happened in real life so... w/e man.

Firstly i'll explain the title, cos those of you i haven't spoken to won't get it. When we first got to orientation, we met up with our leader and our group (we didn't get to chose so I was with people I didn't know ) and we needed a team name and a team cheer. And our group leader was SO VERY GAY I LOVE HIM LOLOL.

And I must say, Sir Ramalot is just about the greatest team name i've ever heard ever. Especially because of our cheer. It went a-little somethin' like this:

SIR RAMALOT SAYS:
RAMMY GOT BACK! *smacks ass* WOO!

Bwahaha!! X3 we did that cheer a bazillion times that day... twas quite entertaining to us, while also being terrifying to all the other groups! A twofer!
We also played a buncha games to break the ice, so it wasn't as boring as I thought it'd be, and our group leader threw candy at us!! An offering of love in a violent form, I love it love it love it fufufu~ C:

The team leaders also gave us a MAGICALLY DELICIOUS MUSICAL WELCOME which was GODDAMN ENTERTAINING. I wish I'd had a camera with me, srsly. > w >
Also, there was a talent show. Julianne's cousin did a swing-dancing routine with this guy in her group, and for our group, well... we had a kid that could kick himself in the head.

No, I shit you not.

And then i got to get my classes and a buncha other not-so-entertaining-or-sugar-filled stuffs, but that's okay. Because that night, me and amanda got together and watched Anchor man (BAXTER NOO! D: )while listening to the carnage that was the inhabitants of four floors grouping onto one floor for a MASSIVELY DESTRUCTIVE pillow fight. I feared for my life, folks. And for the lives of the pillows.

That first entry, I might add, was written before any of this fun shit happened, and before i made any friends (Kate and Black-shirt were mah orientation peeps OYEA) and I was feeling very lonely and sad and the like. So ignore the emo saddy face at the end C:


I promised you peeps that i'd give you guys a summary of some of my stories so you could tell me which to go on.... so yea..... If i don't do it now i'll never do it so nya xP

Story 1 that i'm working on whether you like it or not o 3 o

Zemyx (Demyx/Zexion) Fic: Everybody lies:
I already put two of the chapters up and I'm working on the third atm. There will be much fluff and boy-love and all that sexy stuff, as well the type of pain and angst and DRAMA that comes with a story set in a hospital. ^ 3 ^ SO ENJOY THAT. You should go read it... yea... like now, man >.> (there shall be House references in it.... so look foreward to that hoho)

Mah first ever song fic! Akuroku: Fade and forget

If you want to listen to the song, go to youtube and looks up Forget it by Breaking Benjamin. Basically it's a sad fic about what roxas goes through after Axel dies. OH, THE PAIN. THE TEARS. THE MORE PAIN. THE SEASALT ICE CREAM. IT'S ALL TOO MUCH!! D:

...lawl

I may or may not write another Akuroku fic, depending on if people would read it and like the style of my zemyx... ja. This one would not be sad, it would be happy and fluffy and sugar-coating. OH THE LURVE. CAN YOU FEEL IT?

(i'm really diggin' on the caps lock today, canyatell?)

ALSO. I will probably end up writing an Alexander fanfic for Lina and Xiggy... but first I have to see the movie >.>;
Incase you didn't realize by the "for Lina and Xiggy" part... OH YES. THERE WILL BE YAOI. BAHA IT'S JUST EVERYWHERE.

ALSO~ I'm trying to motivate myself to go back and re-start some of my older fics... for two of them I have the first chapter up here, so check those out if you like dark horror stories xD And for the other I have a random chapter in the middle of the story up here...
and... what's that? You gu... ]]> ~WonderPain http://WonderPain.deviantart.com/journal/25472655/ http://WonderPain.deviantart.com/journal/25472655/ Mon, 22 Jun 2009 11:47:16 PDT
(For those of you who haven't taken it yet, It's a test about which level of hell you'll be going to (for the link check dori's journal) )

The Dante's Inferno Test has sent you to the..... *drum roll*....

First Level of Hell - Limbo

Charon ushers you across the river Acheron, and you find yourself upon the brink of grief's abysmal valley. You are in Limbo, a place of sorrow without torment. You encounter a seven-walled castle, and within those walls you find rolling fresh meadows illuminated by the light of reason, whereabout many shades dwell. These are the virtuous pagans, the great philosophers and authors, unbaptised children, and others unfit to enter the kingdom of heaven. You share company with Caesar, Homer, Virgil, Socrates, and Aristotle. There is no punishment here, and the atmosphere is peaceful, yet sad.


Here is how you matched up against all the levels:
Level | Score
Purgatory | High
Level 1 - Limbo | Very High
Level 2 | Very Low
Level 3 | Low
Level 4 | Very Low
Level 5 | Low
Level 6 - The City of Dis | Very Low
Level 7 | Low
Level 8- the Malebolge | Low
Level 9 - Cocytus | Low

For the descriptions of the different levels, go here: [link]
Take the test: [link]


Which tells me two things: 1) I'm better than all of you bastards >:3

and 2) You all lead much funner lives than I do D:


And now, onto the journaling.

I haven't updated in a long, long while, and for that I apologize. I'd like to say I've been busy, but we all know that's a big fat smelly lie, I've just been a lazy bastard as per usual xD (hey, at least i'm aware of it)

Senior year passed by like a freakin' flash, man.... I can't believe it's over already!! D:
So, let's see... in honor of the new step in all our lives (aka college, aka HELL) I got a haircut a whiiiiiiiiiiiiiile ago. Seriously, this is old news, but I'll put it here anyways
The hair-cut really helped when I was cosplaying for Anime boston (I was mello, for those of you who didn't see the pics) And I'm thinkin of making that one of my major cosplays, as soon as I fix up the costume a little. I'll post some full-body pics of me as mello and you can tell me what you think. (Although I may not do the scars.... Xiggy did an amazing job on them for the convention <3 )

HOEKAY. So senior things.... Senior week was pretty freakin' awesome, I must say...

Class day was boring as hell, and a bit emotional for some of us (I say some of us, because I was too far asleep to actual feel any emotion other than SLEEPY. anyone with me there?)
And then there was prom. I must agree with the rest and say that the highlight was the "I'm on a boat" song xD I've never heard a more heavily-censored song in all my life. But did I fill in the blanks at the top of my lungs? YOU BET IT DID. >D
OH. Plus the chocoalate fountain MADE MY LIFE. Freakin amazing. I touched nothing but the marshmallows, though, and who can blame me?
Honors night isn't even worth mentioning... I got no scholarships b/c i suck and it was long and boring and blah blah blah. Congrats to Andi and Cabbage, though, you guys deserve them <3
And then there was Six flags. All I can say is this: F***ING AMAZING I CAN DIE HAPPY NOW. KTHXBAI. xD I plucked up my courage enough to go on the Bizzaro AND MAN WAS IT WORTH THE HEART FAILURE. Srsly, the aftermath of the tea cups was worse than the aftermath of the STEEPEST STEEL ROLLER COASTER IN NEW ENGLAND WTFLOLOL. xD Damn my friends and their epic spinning abilities. I almost heaved, i hope you're happy.

Senior banquet was extremely depressing, with all the vids and the teachers being there to say goodbye... yea. Plus, me and Julianne were the last people there, so we were just.. like... chilling. And freaking Mr. Mcdonald out by taking random pics of things. Lawl.

Aaaand then graduation. Also long and boring, but very sad too. My brother wasn't there cos he was off at Bonaroo in Tennessee, which is basically like a modern version of Woodstock (they found a dead body there after everybody left... which is a little bit creepy o.O ) and I couldn't find where my parents were sitting, but oh well. I still have the rose they gave us, I couldn't decide which family member to give it too, as well as a chocolate rose Hope gave me :'D
And I did like a little pansy-assed v... ]]> ~WonderPain http://WonderPain.deviantart.com/journal/24111901/ http://WonderPain.deviantart.com/journal/24111901/ Tue, 07 Apr 2009 13:05:13 PDT
OKAY. In case any of you guys don't look at your facebook/aren't friends with me on facebook/forget things between the time you look at facebook and come onto devaitnart, I've decided to harrass you guys on here as well.
HORRAH.

Anyways, this is a reminder that my birthday party is on the 11th (this saturday) at my house (ask if you don't know where that is, or are one of the people who forget things)

The party starts at 3, ends whenever you feel like leaving!

My friends requested it be a pirate-themed party. Others suggested a penis-theme. So, It'll probably be one or the other. Or both. Unless I forget.

Uhm... what were we talking about?
>.>

oh yea! The party. You should come. Yea.

I TRIED sending a note to all of you, but FREAKING DEVART WON'T LET ME SEND TO MORE THAN ONE PERSON!! D:<
So um... I ended up accidentally sending one to just Lina. SRY LINA! xD but seeing as this will be the third invite you get, you'd better come

Anywho. I'm assuming if you're good enough friends with me that you read my journals, then you're a good enough friend to wanna come to my birthday party. Even if you don't know what to get me.

that reminds me... for all of you people who don't know what to get me....

FOOD. FOOD. F-O-O-D. FOOOOOOOOOOOOOOOOOOOD. I'm very easy to please!!! If you can't find/are too lazy to get me video games, books, manga, DVDs, or anything sparklie like you all know I like, then for god's sake, go get me food. I like food. The food network is like porn to me.

GAWDS. I'm not so complicated!! >.>


ANYWHO. I WAS TAGGED I FORGET BY WHO.
Oh yea, brady. Goddamn you xD
I add this because otherwise this Journal would be downright small. AND WE ALL KNOW THAT'S NOT HOW I ROLL.
If my journal doesn't make you wanna gouge your eyes out with a rusty spork just so you never have to read again, WELL THEN I HAVEN'T DONE MY JOB.
So here goes


If there were a movie about your life, what kind of soundtrack it would have?
1. Put your Windows media player, iTunes, etc. on shuffle
2. For each scene, press the next button to get your ST for that scene.
3. Do not cheat! You must write down that song (and artist) name, no matter how stupid or unsuitable it is!
4. Tag four people.


OPENING: Good, by: Better than Ezra (Life is gewwwwwd. For someone else, I'm sure. Just kidding. Sort of)

WAKING UP: Breathing, by: Yellowcard (Er, I would hope so. Otherwise waking up would lead to much of the brain-eating, no?)

A REGULAR DAY: Give it all, by: Rise Against (LOL. Look! My itunes understands irony! :'D)

WORK: Sunshine (go away today) by: Jonathan Edwards (Yes, the sunshine certainly does go away when I think about work... Not that I ACTUALLY work, haha, god, no!!)

STRESS: Lucy in the Sky with Diamonds by: The beatles (hmm... so you're saying that when i'm stressed, I should do LSD. Well, I suppose it can't hurt, amiright?)

HOBBY: Walk this Way by: Aerosmith (Why yes, Magical music tag, I do enjoy a good walk now and then. I walk this way, and that way, and slantways. And I didn't even know that way possible)

A DAY OFF: Schadenfreude by: Avenue Q (You're right! I DO enjoy other's misery on my days off! That's uncanny)

SUNSET: Here’s to the Night by: Eve 6 (This one kinda freaked me out when It came up... I think this tag is a witch)

FULL MOON: She by: Greenday (well, the lyrics might not fit, but the screaming does!! I just can't stop myself howling at the full moon like a crazy person. I'm sure i'm not the only one.
...am I? Huh. oh well)

FALL IN LOVE: Love me Do by: The Beatles (Now I know this tag is a witch. It turned me into a newt)

A DATE: 99 Red Balloons by: Goldfinger (holy cripes, If a guy ever took me to release 99 red balloons for a date, I would lose my FRICKIN mind <3)

WALKING IN THE RAIN: Ready to Fall by: Rise Against (well, sure, a-hole, If i was standing on a "rooftop" in the rain, I probably would fall off!!)

FIGHT!: When you’re Evil by: Voltaire (So, you're saying that I'd be FIGHTING evil, or that in a fight I would BE evil...? Eh, either one is probably true.)

HASSLE: Falling Away from Me by: Korn (I'd kinda hope that the problem falls away from me, instead of the other way around. I don't land gracefully)

RECONCILIATION: Who invited You by: The Donnas (I would say something tool-ish like this to someone. lesigh)

A SECRET LOVE: Going the Distance by: Cake (pfffffffffff... ]]> ~WonderPain http://WonderPain.deviantart.com/journal/23886318/ http://WonderPain.deviantart.com/journal/23886318/ Wed, 25 Mar 2009 16:15:50 PDT
I was takin' a little lookie-loo at that dusty, neglected ol' page of mine, and realized that my last journal was a rant of emo proportions. And after about five seconds, my weak little stomach, she clenched in shame. OH THE SHAME o-o. So I decided that 5 seconds was sufficient time to stare at such shamefulness, and I decided that I might update on my oh-so-eventful life, to rid my page of such rumpus.

So... the moment none of you were waiting for. My life. HERE GOES!! *deep breath*

.....



.........


..............................*exhale*


okay, so I don't actually have that much to update on. I dunno if you caught it, but that oh-so-eventful comment was sarcasm. I know, I was surprised too.

Uhh, so instead of writing something you lot might actually give a hoot about, I'll bore you're little brains out with filler!! :'D
DOESN'T THAT JUST SOUND SUPER-SPECIAL-AWESOME?!


HOEKAY. So, well, firsly, I'm pretty suped over here. WELL... as you all know, my art skillz are pretty... well, they're kinda.... erm.... nonexistant >.>
It's like my imaginary friend. Only we don't talk. Or play games. Or do anything fun, really, at all. Ever. Oh, and it's constantly reminding me of my failures, and making me feel inadequate. But besides all that, yeah, it's totally like an imaginary friend.
BUT! Today, praised be to the Gods, it reared its ugly head and actually spewed out something worth mentioning.

YES. Today, my friends, is a momentous occation indeed. For today, I have drawn... A MAN.

That's right. I drew a man. AND HE ACTUALLY LOOKED LIKE A MAN. *vomits joy*
Granted, he IS a slightly affemenate male, but hell, they're the only kind really worth looking at. AMIRIGHT.
And lemme tell ya a little somethin... it wasn't easy. FOR YOU SEE, my imaginary demon.. er... friend, Art Skillz, is a vengful bastard. And everytime I try to draw a man, he turns into some hideously feminin he/she that Bakura himself would twitch at.
And everytime I draw a WOMEN, god forbid, she develops a case of the man-face, so terribly unnatural that Buddah himself would yell "Oh, dear ugly."
If he spoke english. Which he didn't. Probably.

BUTYEA. This guy was different, and he was beautiful. He gave me hope, friends. I had to do quite a bit of fenagaling to get him just so, however. You see, first I started drawing a girl, and after she gained my patented man-face, I quickly turned HER into a HE, and before my imaginary friend could correct the mistake, the damage had been done. I had drawn a male who looked like a male.
May I just say: HUZZAH.
OH! And better yet, this particular male came out, not just masculin, but also like the character I was trying to draw. YEAIKNOWIWASLIKEWTFTOOLOLOL.
But yea, I drew Jamie, from the wee tale I threw up onto Deviantart like... I dunno, A friggan long time ago, man.
So, so long as I don't f*** up the picture between now and then, you lot'll be able to see what he looks like ;D won't that be special?

And that reminds me. I think I might get into that thar story again. Cos I think after a...*mental math* 5 month haitus, It might be time to get 'er a-rollin' again. Because I KNOW you all have been laying on pins-and-needles waiting for me to update, yea??

......*crickets*
oh, fine. I know none of you actually CARE, but Ima go ahead with it anyways, okay?!
.....*crickets*
You know, when I'm dead you all are going to lament my not finishing my story. It'll be unfinished, and you'll NEVER KNOW what happens. how d'ya like them apples?!



*cough* anyways....
IN OTHER NEWS. I'ma write a Zemyx (that's zexion/demyx, n00bs) fic for the lovely and talented Dori-chan ;D

And hey, I need stuff to procrastinate with when I'm suppose to be doing actual work. So if anyone else has any requests, well then, let's hear 'em!! I always got times for a good dirty fanfic.

I MEAN CLEAN. Yea, good clean fun over here. *uncomfortable cough*

LOLOL. Yea, anyways. Wow, long journal is looooong.

OH! I remember now. I was gonna tell you that I've been taggled by some of my bastid friends, so that'll be up soon. Yea.
Plus I have more pictures. I know, just what you wanted, right? More pictures? Maybe of... sunsets?! MUWAHAHA.

HOEKAY I've run out of things to talk about, mkay?

OH HOHOHO I'M RETARDED LOL.
The whole reason I even wrote this damn thing, is cos I got into good old URI, where me nii-san goes. Which is all very exciting. >:3 So, don't expect any sort of actual school work to come outta me any time soon. I've fallen asleep at the wheel, and i'll be very surprised if I don't run into something/someone and set the both of us a-burning aliv... ]]> ~WonderPain http://WonderPain.deviantart.com/journal/21508417/ http://WonderPain.deviantart.com/journal/21508417/ Sat, 15 Nov 2008 20:59:29 PST You should be warned that this is kind of a boring and stupid journal, where I talk about my stupid feelings, so feel free to delete this and avoid the emo >.>

***********************start of me being an emo-bitch

A few of you were bound to notice that I've been MIA for the past couple of months, at least on deviantart. Uh, I doubt I was really missed or anything, but I thought I'd say sorry for not being as attentive to all of you guy's work as I should have been, and for the fact that I didn't comment or reply to any of you for months. It was kinda of a bitchy thing to do, and I'm really sorry.

I don't want to turn this into a rant or whatever, cos I'm the first to complain about stupid, unimportant crap and the last to discuss things that are actually bothering me.... suffice to say, I've been really, I dunno, kinda depressed and not-all-there for the past couple of months.
I've been really preoccupied with things, and I really haven't known what to do with myself... I just kinda looked for things to distract myself from the handful of things that I've been obsessing/emo-ing over and for whatever reason I stayed clear of this site... I don't really have a concrete reason as to why I did that, but I guess it doesn't matter.

so, sorry for neglecting you guys. And sorry I don't really talk about important things on these journals, but I kinda prefer to ignore/supress things instead of talking about them. Just the way I am. And I wanted to apologize If I misplaced any of my frustrations on any of you... I know Andi recieved a face-full of misplaced aggression a while ago, and I'm really sorry about that, andi, I didn't deserve you forgiving me as fast as you did.

But, on a lighter note, I'm starting to get back to feeling like my old self, and I dunno if that means I'm suppressing my frustrations more, or If i'm just letting them go, either way, It appears to be a good thing.

****************************end of me being an emo-bitch

Since I've stopped being so self-conscious, I'm gonna start actually posting stuff again, and I'll start putting drawings up as well as writing more of that story I started half a life-time ago.

Also, If any of you have written anything in the past couple of months, I APOLOGIZE A THOUSAND TIMES TO YOU ALL. I've been neglecting people's written work more than anything, cos I always skipped over them and saved them for later, but I PROMISE with all my heart that I will read them within the next week or so, and so If I comment on a piece that's months old, don't be alarmed, I'm just retarded like that xD

Wow, as per usual writing a journal has made me feel better LOL wow methinks I can be deemed fully retarded now.

Ah yes, I almost forgot to ACTUALLY TALK ABOUT THINGS PEOPLE CARE ABOUT LMAO.

One of those things being, that I am still gonna do that whole "fear" thing that I was talking about in a journal a while ago, It's just been put on hold while I get my footing on another project me and dori are probably gonna do together. More on that in my next journal, when I feel like fully explaining it xD;

Yea, as always there's nothing important going on in my life, but there's plenty of crap going on in my mind >.> lul

Oh yea, as I already told a few of you, I haven't been writing b/c I was convinced that my writing sucked ass... then I went back and read it and now think that it's not so bad as to keep me from continuing with the story. So there's that.

*gag* I need to stop typing and post this before I lose my nerve and become too horrifyingly embarrassed that I talked about my feelings to post this... sorry for the emo-rant.... and sorry for this being so goddamn long...later guys x.x

]]> ~WonderPain http://WonderPain.deviantart.com/journal/20059353/ http://WonderPain.deviantart.com/journal/20059353/ Wed, 20 Aug 2008 12:25:25 PDT
Well, I've taken 's advice and begun drawing using songs as *gasp* ~*inspiration*~. I'm focusing on one song in particular, "Is Anybody Home" by Our Lady Peace.

The line I'm kinda interested in is the following:

Hey, is anybody home?
Has anybody wasted tears on
Lonliness that everyone becomes?
Is anybody low?
Has anybody painted fear on
bedroom wall that save us from...


Awesome freaking song. So have a listen :B

And so...yea, I've already finished sketching out one picture, but I plan to draw like a whole little series of pictures... and I don't want to spoil everything but bascially, I'm going to be drawing different peeple and their greatest fear. Basically look at the last two lines of the song and you know what I'm drawing. So it's not so much of a secret anymore. And I basically spoiled it all for you anyways. Ah, well. SUCKS FOR YOU GAIZ.

...Why does writing journals cheer me up? O.o
*is a freak* Weehaw.


OKAY! so getting back to the point of this journal! I need ideas for my wittle series o' fun, And so I'd like to ask you all If you'd do me a little favor...

Could you please riddle me this: What is your greatest fear?

And I know it's a kind of, well, a REALLY personal question to ask, so If you don't mind my knowing but don't want other people to know, you could, you know, note me or some such rot....

And please and thanks to be serious about this... none of this "I'm afraid of pickles" crap. For cereal.
And if you have any suggestions, hit me baby. I'd like to hear them. BUT AGAIN! No "draw-a-goth-with-pink-things-as-a-fear" suggestions. PLEASE AND THANKYOO!

Um yea... not so quick journal xD lol
what can I say? I wasn't feeling chatty when I started this... but now I feel the need to share. But I draw the line at holding hands and singing "koombaya".... or however you spell that. Nya.

Ima go start doodling somemore... yea. Over and out, betches.

P.S. There are men putting in a new window in the front of my house. O.o they're mexican and I can't understand a word they say... but I'm here alone w/ my kid brother so my mom left me her mace. xD LOL!

P.S.S. I'm sure there's a couple of you wondering about the "..." at the end of the lyrics, and you're thinking "save us from what?" The line is never finished. THE WORLD MAY NEVER KNOW!!!

P.S.S.S ... I'm hungry

]]> ~WonderPain http://WonderPain.deviantart.com/journal/19773802/ http://WonderPain.deviantart.com/journal/19773802/ Mon, 04 Aug 2008 15:16:08 PDT
yea, In case any of you care... Last week I was on vacation with my family in NewHampshire (we rented a cabin up there right beside the lake)

And, well, I only told a couple of people about the vacation... I thought that we had internet access at the cabin, but it turns out, we don't.
Cos, see, I was gonna put up a journal when we got to the cabin about my being on Vacation, and about the fact that I wouldn't have my phone on (cos its against the vacation code... if I had had it on the vacation police would have come and beat me with oars )
Soo yes, no internets = no journal = nobody knowing where I am or why I dropped off the map for a week....
Soooooo.... I sawwy

But, at any rate, it was SUPER UBERLY fun in NH :3
Me and my mom went shopping ALOT, and I got this FRICKIN AWESOME new jacket for 3 bucks. Not at a thrift store, not at salvation army, but at this store called Peebles (its kinds like Macy's or something, idk) and it was on clearance for 20 bucks, and we brought it to the counter and the lady's like, "2.99 please." and we were both like O.o "say whuts? SCORE!" and we danced. in our minds, at lease

Oh yea, and we rented two different boats: a speed boat and a party boat, and I got to go tubing and waterskiing, and it was INSANLY fun, but I was very, very sore from it... I couldn't move the next day, and my back still hurts from being crammed into the tube >.O

Aaand... what else? Idk... we made campfires and ate lotsa smores x3
I make mine HARD CORE! HARD CORE SMORE FTW!!! xD
three pieces of chocolate, bitch. SUCK MY COOLNESS!
Oh! And I watched Garden State. And am now in love with Zach Braff.
OMG GREATEST MOVIE EVER. EVER. If you havn't seen it, go see it now.


....what did I just say? GO!!
Oh, and jeric, I take back what I said about Samurai Jack. I would rather have strange, spacy, gel'd-up-hair'd BABEYS WIV ZACH!!!

*sigh* Anywhoo... my mom also bought me.... >.> <.< *whispers* girl clothes AAARGH!!!!

Yes... dresses and skirts.... *shudder* it makes me twitch just thinking about it.....
And, my brother bought this god-awful lamp at an antique place... it's in the shape of a wooden horse xD lol

And....... huh.... guess that's it for now......

I tired :C

P.S. My phones are busted ATM... Soo no home phones for Sara. The fastest way to get hold of me is to send me a note.... or talk to my on AIM, I suppose. Hey, plus side = no telemarketers :3

P.S.S I took many-a-picture while I was in NH, so I'll be uploading them soon enough.... yea.

P.S.S.S HAI I LOVE YOU WITH MOUTH. <3 LOL K THNX BAI

]]> ~WonderPain http://WonderPain.deviantart.com/journal/19497170/ http://WonderPain.deviantart.com/journal/19497170/ Sun, 20 Jul 2008 09:37:51 PDT
Nothing's really going on lately... *slight rant coming on* but alot of bad, depressing shit happened at the end of the school year, and I'm still alittle blah b/c of it... so that's pretty much why I havn't been myself as of late, and even though I feel like a whiny idiot telling you all this, I'm sucking it up and getting over it... so I'm getting back to my normal (ha normal) self. ^.^
And that's all I'll say about that.

BUT!! Some really good stuff's been happening to me too. For one thing, I've started volunteering at a Wildlife clinic on saunderstown rd. (they take in injured or orphaned animals and care for them, then eventually release them)
So I get to care for them, feed them, clean their cages, ect. And some of the animals that I've gotten to care for so far have been: a bunch of baby birdies, a rabbit, an osprey, and baby mice x3
And they get alot of pigeons and squirrels there too.... so that explains the title xD and contrary to Jeric's belief, I havn't been eaten by any of the animals yet

And honestly, It's the most fun i've had in months, I love volunteering there sooo much

And the other good thing is that there's only a week left untill me and my family go on our "family" vacation to NH! We rented a cabin for a week and we're going to go waterskiing, and play bachi-ball, and buy and set off FIREWORKS!!!
Its the same cabin we rented last year.... but this time I WILL get the hang of waterskiing, dammit!!


Plus, Machi's b-day's coming up soon!! So I get to hang out with all of my wonderfully anti-social friends!! x3 I'm so exited! I miss you all!!! ; - ;

Speaking of which, ME AND YOU NEED TO HANG DORI!! GAWD!


OH! AND!!! I think... i might be getting better at drawing link! y'know, from legend of zelda?? I have an idea for a comic... and I've gotten a good mix of my style and the weird-chibi style of Wind Waker... so yea. Simple minds equals simple pleasures, i guess

...erm... please disregard the "nothing's going on lately" comment at the beginning of this journal.


AND NOW FOR SOMETHING COMPLETELY DIFFERENT!!


Taken from

The first 10 deviants who post comment in this journal will be featured. I will go though your gallery and choose 3 of your deviations I like the most and post them in my journal for everyone to see! Hurry before your slot is taken!!

BUT.

You have to put this in your journal as well if you posted a comment!

]]> ~WonderPain http://WonderPain.deviantart.com/journal/19315968/ http://WonderPain.deviantart.com/journal/19315968/ Thu, 10 Jul 2008 18:12:00 PDT really delayed...
Uhm, yea... I meant to update way sooner than this. Really.

So yea, for those of you wondering, my trip to see my realatives wasn't all that horrible. I got cake!! which is ALWAYS good :3

And I had a go on my cousin's DS, to see what all the fuss was about. And now I am hooked on Sodoku o.O
I WANT ONE!!! D:

*ahem* Anywho, nothing much really going on at the moment... I haven't journal'd before now cause I've been... in kind-of an emo mood, and I didn't want to go on a rant, cos I promised I never would...

CONFIDING THINGS IS FOR NORMAL PEOPLE! I much prefer the whole suppression deal ^w^

Hahaha, just kidding. Kindof.
But that's why thar's been no news as of late. So deal.


Anywhoo... Here's something I've been meaning to do for a long, long while. I was tagged by someone else to do that whole, end-of-the-year quiz, but it seems kinda pointless now its so late.

But hey, If you really want to know if I changed my hair color at all this year, by all means call me out and I'll do the quiz xD

Aaaand, here we go:
I forget who tagged me.. probably
Place an x next to the ones you're afraid of.

[ ] the dark
[ ] staying single forever
[ ] being a parent
[ ] giving birth
[ ] being myself in front of others
[ ] open spaces
[x] closed spaces
[ ] heights
[ ] dogs
[ ] birds
[ ] fish
[ ] spiders
[ ] flowers or other plants

Total so far: 1

[ ] being touched
[X] fire
[X] deep water
[ ] snakes
[ ] silk
[X] the ocean
[x] failure
[ ] success
[ ] thunder/lightning
[ ] frogs/toads
[ ] my boyfriends/girlfriends dad
[ ] boyfriends/girlfriends mom
[ ] rats
[ ] jumping from high places
[ ] snow

Total so far: 4

[ ] rain
[ ] wind
[ ] crossing hanging bridges
[ ] death
[ ] heaven
[ ] being robbed
[ ] falling
[ ] clowns
[ ] dolls
[ ] large crowds of people
[ ] men
[ ] women
[x] having great responsibilities
[ ] doctors, including dentists
[ ] tornadoes

Total so far: 5

[ ] hurricanes
[ ] incurable diseases
[ ] sharks
[ ] Friday the 13th
[ ] ghosts
[ ] poverty
[ ] Halloween
[ ] school
[ ] trains
[ ] odd numbers
[ ] even numbers
[ ] being alone
[x] becoming blind
[X] becoming deaf
[X] growing up

Total so far: 8

[ ] creepy noises in the night
[ ] bee stings
[x] not accomplishing my dreams/goals
[ ] needles
[ ] blood
[ ] dinosaurs
[ ] the welcome mat
[ ] high speed
[ ] throwing up
[ ] super secrets

Final Total: 10


If you get more than 30, I strongly recommend some counseling
If you get more than 20, you’re paranoid.
If you get 10-20, you are normal.
If you get 10 or less, you’re fearless.
People who don’t have any are liars.


Guess that makes me fearless o.o hehe X9
YAY!!!... I guess...


AND YEA!! Some other shit's been going down, but as I said before, it all sounds kinda emo, and noone wants to hear about it!! Huzzah!

D-d-d-d-d-d-d DAT'S ALL FOLKS!!
Peace out~

P.S. OH!! I just thought of something that doesn't sound emo!! I uploaded some puurty new pictures! And in case you're wondering, YES I did enhance the colors in GIMP, cos my camera sucks and all my pics look grey and dull without help.


...and now its starting to sounds like a rant. Dammit. I'll leave it at this.
PEACE AGAIN!

]]> ~WonderPain http://WonderPain.deviantart.com/journal/19052321/ http://WonderPain.deviantart.com/journal/19052321/ Thu, 26 Jun 2008 07:27:04 PDT

But it is true. Tonight around 7 me, my 'rents and my lil bro are driving to New York to celebrate my grandma's 80th birthday.

Not New York the CITY, mind you. I was born and raised in upstate New York, where my famimly lives. And so, this particular drive will be 8 hours. Both ways.

Me. Trapped in my dad's tiny, tiny, company car (because they pay for his gas xD) with my parents and my very loud kid brother. For 8 hours. 16 if your counting both trips.

Woo... But I digress. Anywho, We'll probably be leaving around 7 tonight, and we're gonna go part of the way tonight, then we're stopping in Saracuse, getting a hotel for the night, then going the rest of the way tomorrow morning.

We're coming back early on Sunday, (which always ends up being noon), and we'll probably be home by late afternoon.

So yes, for those of you who have asked me, I will be 8 hours away, and therefore will not be able to do anything fun.
But don't think I don't wish I could be here doing stuff with you guys. I love my grandma to death and really want to see her, but the rest of my family has got MAJOR issues. You don't even want to KNOW what happened last time we were all together

...Hopefully I'll come back in one piece. And at the moment, I don't know if I'll be able to get on the internet while I'm at my grandma's house, so plan on me not being able to come on AIM or Deviantart for the next few days. But if you're really desperate to talk to me (as I will really be desperate to talk to normal people, cause you all ARE normal in comparison) you can call me on my cell phone.

Well I guess i'm outty. Wish me luck...

P.S. Mood: Apathetic

]]> ~WonderPain http://WonderPain.deviantart.com/journal/19026651/ http://WonderPain.deviantart.com/journal/19026651/ Tue, 24 Jun 2008 19:13:46 PDT
Yea, so I have tag's coming out my ass at the moment (Damn you all! ) So here's a journal to try and catch up on some of them..

Tagged by

Rules: List 10 characters from an anime/manga/game/whatever below, then answer the questions that follow and plug in the name of the character in the ( ).

1. Edward Elric
2. Roxas
3. Allan
4. Barry the Chopper
5. Loz
6. Demyx
7. Axel
8. Shippou
9. Inuyasha
10. Komui


WHAT WOULD YOU DO IF...

1.Number 1 (Edward) woke you up in the middle of the night?
I would sex him. So. Damn. Hard.

2. Number 2 (Roxas) asked you to go out with him?
HELL TO THE YES!!! *tackle-glomps* >.> <.< *carries him away*

3. Number 3 (Allan) walked into the bathroom while you're showering?
Me: Hey baby… wanna join? ;D
Allan: erm… n-no thanks, miss… O///O
Me: LOL too bad! *tackles*
Allen: THERE’S A CHILD IN THE ROOM, SIR!!! D: (dorriiii xD)

4. Number 4 (Barry the chopper) cooked you dinner?
Me: …there’s people meat in this, isn’t there?

5. Number 5 (Loz) was lying next to you on the beach, sleeping?
D’AWW!!! X3 *cuddles* ... *fills shorts with sand*

6. Number 8 (Shippou) got into the hospital somehow?
Bring him chocolate bunnies and snuggle him senseless :3


7. Number 9 (Inuyasha) made fun of your friends?
SIT BOY!!! NYAHAHAHAAA!!!


8. Number 10 (Komui) ignored you all the time?
*slumps in chair* Oh thank god! =__=;;;



WHAT WOULD THEY DO UNDER THE FOLLOWING CIRCUMSTANCES?


1. Two serial killers are hunting you down. What will Number 1 (Edward) do?
Clap his hands together and make ~*homicidal magic*~ happen!! YAY!!


2. You're on a vacation with Number 2 (Roxas) and you manage to break your leg. What does Number 2 (Roxy) do?
Erm… probably point and laugh. He’s a teenaged boy, after all +_+;;;
Then I guess he’d probably call Number 7 (Axel) who would aid Roxas… in pointing and laughing o.O

3. It's your birthday. What will 3 (Allen) give you?
Probably one of them adorably little golem thingies… I’ve always wanted a flying sphere!! X3
....ahh, I can see it now… that little ball, flyin’ round my head, oh the people I could annoy!!


4. You're stuck in a house that's on fire. What does Number 4 (Barry) do?
Erm… probably point and laugh. He is a serial killer, after all…
Then he’d probably call Number 7 (who most likely STARTED said fire) who would aid him…in pointing and laughing >.>;;;


5. You're about to do something that'll make you feel extremely embarrassed. What will Number 5 (Loz) do?
Ask me where mother is. Then probably cry.


6. You're about to marry Number 10(Komui). What's Number 6's (Demyx’s) reaction?
Demyx: Oh!! You poor, poor thing! Do you need a hug?! D:


7. You got dumped by someone. How will Number 7 (Axel) cheer you up?
By setting them on fire :3
…then setting me on fire o.O


8. You're angry about it afterwards, how does Number 8 (Shippou) calm you down?
Uh, burn cream probably XD
And letting me huggle him to near-death

9. You compete in some tournament. How does Number 9 (Inuyasha) support you?
Inu: “…want I should kill the competition?”
Me: o.O
Inu: “… can’t I just kill them a little…?”

10. You can't stop laughing. What will Number 10 (Komui) do?
Probably giggle uncontrollably right along with me… then use the momentary distraction to hit me over the head and experiment on me


RELATIONSHIP PART


1. Number 1 (Edward) is all you've ever dreamed of.
You’re damn right, it is! COME HITHER, MY LOVE!! *hits over the head and drags away*

2. Number 2 (Roxy) tells you about his/her deeply hidden love for Number 9 (Inuyasha) Your reaction?
*Bitch-slaps* Snap out of it, man! Think of the Akuroku fangirls!!!


3. You're dating Number 3 (Allen) and introduce him to you... ]]> ~WonderPain http://WonderPain.deviantart.com/journal/18611343/ http://WonderPain.deviantart.com/journal/18611343/ Sun, 01 Jun 2008 13:54:37 PDT
I hate you people who tagged me. HATE YOU

THREE NAMES YOU GO BY:
- Sara
- Wonder Bread
- Loz

THREE THINGS YOU'VE DONE IN THE LAST 33 MINUTES:
- Came home from Tay's house
- Ate cherios and drank soda
- Talked with Jeric on AIM

THREE THINGS YOU LIKE ABOUT YOURSELF:
- erm... my eyes?
- My hair color doesn't suck so bad
- I'm..... literate....

THREE THINGS YOU DISLIKE ABOUT YOURSELF:
- nO tAlEnT iN aNyThInG
- my body, especially my legs and face...
- Mentally... not.... normal.... (me and dori were talking about this earlier...)

THREE THINGS YOU'RE AFRAID OF:
- Certain types of puppets....
- failure, i guess...
- erm, crawl spaces and things kinda creep me out

THREE THINGS YOU ARE WEARING RIGHT NOW:
- My necklaces... (cross, choker, and guitar pick)
- grey shirt
- cargo pants

THREE OF YOUR FAVORITE SONGS:
- "Simple Design" by Breaking Benjamin
-"Let go" by Frou Frou (at the moment, at least)
- "Away" by Breaking Bejamin (and pretty much every one of their songs)

THREE REASONS WHY YOU ARE WHO YOU ARE:
- Moving to NK from NY
- My friends (mostly the ones i got in High School)
- My family, i guess (they conditioned me to be a wuss D: )

THREE OF YOUR FAVOURITE HOBBIES:
- Reading (manga and pretty much every other book i can get my hands on)
- Writing extremely suck-ish stories and poems and the like
- Creating crappy pictures on the computer, or crappiER pictures by hand

THREE THINGS YOU WANT TO DO REALLY BADLY RIGHT NOW:
- Get my hands on some actual FOOD
- Sing (but i suck, so no)
- Draw (but, again, I suck... so no)

THREE BOY’S NAMES:
- Jayden
- Jake
- Issac

THREE GIRL'S NAMES:
- Cecily
- Nicola
- Sienna

THREE THINGS YOU WANT TO DO BEFORE YOU DIE:
- Travel to Australia
- write a book (that doesn't suck, that people actually like)
- Learn to fence

THREE PPL YOU TAG

Eh... pretty much everyone has already done this... but if not, havat it...



Put an x next to the ones that you've done.

[x] Gum has fallen out of your mouth when you were talking.

[x] Gum has fallen out of your mouth when you were NOT talking.

[x] You have ran into a glass/screen door.

[]You have jumped out of a moving vehicle.

[X] You have thought of something funny and laughed, then people gave you weird looks.

[x] You have ran into a tree.

[x] you didn't know that it IS possible to lick your elbow

[] You just tried to lick your elbow.

[]You never knew that the Alphabet and Twinkle Twinkle Little Star have the same rhythm.

[] You just tried to sing them.

[] You have tripped on your shoelace and fallen.

[x] You have choked on your own spit.

[] You have seen the the Matrix and still don’t get it.

[x] You didn’t notice that in the last question “the” was spelled twice

[x] You just looked at it.

[X] Your hair is blonde/dirty blonde.

[x]People have called you slow.

[X] You have accidentally caught something on fire

[x] You tried to drink out of a straw, but it went into your nose/eyes/cheek.

[x] You have caught yourself drooling.

[] You’ve fallen asleep in class

[] If someone says “fart” you laugh.

[] You just laughed.

[] Sometimes you just stop thinking

[x] You tell a story and forget what you were talking about

[X] People are often shaking their heads and walking away from you

[x] You are often told to use your “inside voice”.

[x] You use your fingers to do simple math.

[] You have eaten a bug.

[X]You are taking this test when you should be doing something important

[x] You have put your clothes on backwards or inside out, and didn’t realize it

[x] You’ve looked all over for something and realized it was in your hand or pocket

[x] You sometimes post bulletins because you are scared that what they say will happen to you if you don’t even when you know it won’t happen to you.

[] You break a lot of things.

[] Your friends know not to use big words around you

[x] You sometimes tilt your head when you’re confused

[x] You have fallen out of your chair before

[x] When you’re lay... ]]> ~WonderPain http://WonderPain.deviantart.com/journal/18542651/ http://WonderPain.deviantart.com/journal/18542651/ Wed, 28 May 2008 11:51:11 PDT
I am the girl kicked out of her home because I confided in my mother that I am a lesbian.

I am the prostitute working the streets because nobody will hire a transsexual woman.

I am the sister who holds her gay brother tight through the painful, tear-filled nights.

We are the parents who buried our daughter long before her time.

I am the man who died alone in the hospital because they would not let my partner of twenty-seven years into the room.

I am the foster child who wakes up with nightmares of being taken away from the two fathers who are the only loving family I have ever had. I wish they could adopt me.

I am not one of the lucky ones. I killed myself just weeks before graduating high school. It was simply too much to bear.

I am the man who fears that I will never be able to be myself, to be free of this secret because I won’t risk loosing my family and friends.

We are the couple who had the realtor hang up on us when she found out we wanted to rent a one-bedroom for two men.

I am the person who never knows which bathroom I should use if I want to avoid getting the management called on me.

I am the mother who is not allowed to even visit the children I bore, nursed, and raised. The court says I am an unfit mother because I now live with another woman.

I am the domestic-violence survivor who found the support system grow suddenly cold and distant when they found out my abusive partner is also a woman.

I am the domestic-violence survivor who has no support system to turn to because I am male.

I am the father who has never hugged his son because I grew up afraid to show affection to other men.

I am the home-economics teacher who always wanted to teach gym until someone told me that only lesbians do that.

I am the woman who died when the EMTs stopped treating me as soon as they realized I was transsexual.

I am the person who feels guilty because I think I could be a much better person if I didnt have to always deal with society hating me.

I am the man who stopped attending church, not because I don’t believe, but because they closed their doors to my kind.

I am the person who has to hide what this world needs most, love.

I am the person ashamed to tell my own friends im a lesbian, because they constantly make fun of them.

I am the boy tied to a fence, beaten to a bloody pulp and left to die because two straight men wanted to “teach me a lesson”

—IF YOU BELIEVE THAT HOMOPHOBIA IS WRONG … REPOST THIS ON YOUR JOURNAL/BLOG


If you don't believe that this is something serious to be concerned with, click the link below and see what can happen.

[link]


For those of you who have nothing against gays, you may still want to listen to the song, so we know what we're up against. It's not graphic, visually, but just reading about the story is enough to break anyone's heart.

]]> ~WonderPain http://WonderPain.deviantart.com/journal/17918030/ http://WonderPain.deviantart.com/journal/17918030/ Fri, 18 Apr 2008 19:58:29 PDT
meep! *is tackled by tag-police* nuuu! D:


1.What song would you strip to?
HA! Gimme a song, I'll find a way to make it dirty ;3 Would you like a demonstration?

2.What is your weirdest dream?
I'm not really sure how they connect, but it involved shiny, hooked fish, a steamroller, Hogwarts, Girl scouts, 3 toasted cheese sandwiches, a party by a highway, and an EPIC BATTLE between a spider and a caterpillar.
So. Not. Kidding. (says alot about me, yes?)

3.What proves that you still have an inner child?
*is playing with a bendy straw* I'm sorry, what? ..... oh look, a kitty!

4.What is your favorite scent?
I love the smell of rain when it's warm outside. Or the smell of basements ^^

5.If you could act in one play as one character, what and who would it be?
I'd want to play Mimi in Rent. Hey! It ties back to question 1! *practices stripping*

6.What language do you wish you could speak?
Latin, no contest. (Italian is second, though )

7.If you could play one instruument, what would it be?
I have to do it, I just have to... THE SITAR!!! I PLAY MY SITAR, SITAR, WHEREVER I GO-OH-OH-OH!

8.You can turn into an animal! You magic! What are you?
If it was a ~*magical*~ animal, it would be a pegasus.
If you mean a real animal, a tiger or a fox.

9.If you could have an unusual career, what would it be?
I'll answer your question with a question. 5 dollah make you hollah?

10.Would you die for the one you love? And who are they?
Any of my friends, any of my family... And hell yes, I would. Hell, I'd die for a cookie. If it's chocolate chip. And real real big. ^....^



1.Water- in my pants (haha... gross)
2.One for the head skit- in my pants (I don't even know what that means)
3.I never told you what i do for a living- in my pants (5 dollah, make you hollah)
4. Finger twist and split - in my pants (ohhhh.... nooooo )
5.memory- in my pants (I'll bet you have many memories in my pants)
6.time is running out- in my pants (quickly now)
7.Thank you mom- in my pants (oh, that's just wrong)
8.home- in my pants (yea, lotsa people call my pants home )
9.animals- in my pants (can we all say beastiality?)
10.predictable- in my pants (so, you're predictably in my pants?)
11.hash pipe- in my pants (this combines a hooker's two favorite pasttimes!)
12.stab my back- in my pants (I'm not even sure this is physically possible)
13.behind those eyes- in my pants (this can be taken in a very disturbing way)
14.to the end- in my pants (HAHAHA! happy endings for all!)
15.there's a class for this- in my pants (watch and learn, class...)
16.invisable ink- in my pants (hope that's not a metaphor)
17.basket case- in my pants (We're all god's children in the dark)
18.sooner or later- in my pants (sooner or later, you'll all end up there)
19.futures- in my pants (erm, guess this means i'm preggo?)
20.i'm just a kid- in my pants (haha immaturity for all)
21.jumpin' jumpin'- in my pants (okies, this one is self-explanatory)
22.attention attention- in my pants (my pants get enough attention already O.o)
23.teasing to please- in my pants (erm... i think the band foresaw this happening...)
24.are we the waiting- in my pants (take a number)
25.breath- in my pants (ok, that's just disgusting, no matter how you take it...)

*is still getting beaten* I'm sorry! i couldn't help myself! D:

]]> ~WonderPain http://WonderPain.deviantart.com/journal/17272329/ http://WonderPain.deviantart.com/journal/17272329/ Mon, 10 Mar 2008 14:16:03 PDT *strangles*


Lets get down to bussiness
1. Post these rules
2. Each person tagged must post 8 random facts about themselves
3. Tags should write a journal/ blog of these facts
4. At the end of the post 8 more persons are tagged and named
5. Go to their page and leave a comment telling them they're tagged


Well, here ya go:

1. I'm named after an old friend of my mom's, Sara Tolken, who, incidentally, looks JUST LIKE my mum O.o (it's freaky, but mum doesn't see the similarities)

2.My favorite movie is The Count of Monte Cristo (it has EVERYTHING: love, sword fights, pirates, jail, and the guy who plays DUMBLEDORE! the original, of course ^^)

3. I like playing Spider Solitaire WAY. TOO. MUCH. It's like a disease.

4. I can't dance. I'm very white on the dance floor. I really wish I could dance, though *cries*

5. I'm an extremely picky eater. Mostly with healthy things

6. I love my gamecube *huggles* And I won't hear a word against it, either, dammit! D:
lemme 'lone!

7. My favorite color is Orange! not, like, obnoxious hunter-orange. Like pale sunset orange... shaddup, its pretty.

8. I am a DIE-HARD tree-hugger! I luff them, so barky and shady... *squeeze* HIPPIE POWER!!!

AAAAND for a super-special-awesome-BONUS, the most random fact of all...

9. My desk lamp smells like burnt hair when turned on. I therefore sit in darkness. Oo



Hope you were amused! Now I tag.....

and


and that's it cause everyone else has already been tagged! *Glee!* *runs away*

]]> ~WonderPain http://WonderPain.deviantart.com/journal/17226825/ http://WonderPain.deviantart.com/journal/17226825/ Fri, 07 Mar 2008 15:32:09 PST
Anywho, thought I'd get a few things straight from the get-go.

1. My full name is Sara O'Neill. Spell Sara with an 'h' and I will do terrible things to you.
2. I'm 16 years old, and am a junior in High School.
3. All the people I am friends with on DA are my friends in real life and go to my school. (yea, I know, way to branch out and gain independance. -_-;

4. My username is an inside joke. YOU WILL NEVER KNOW WHAT IT MEANS! BWAHAHA.... *ahem*
5. I lurve drawing and am am currently *in love* with painting
5.5 I don't really think I'm that good at art, to be honest. But I shall perservere none the less! -yayy low self-esteme!-
6. I am a friggin' werido and the biggest geek you are likely to meet this side of a Star-Trek convention.
7. DO NOT BE FOOLED AMIGOS! These things do not stop me from being ~Super Special Awesome~


By the By, these are just a few of the wonderless things about me. This is just so you can get an idea of who I am on the *gasp* inside! >.>

Anywho... horrah for finally doing something for my account! Let's be super-special-awsome-sexy-bestest friends!

]]> ~WonderPain