http://search.deviantart.com/?q=by:XNeedlesX&section=today deviantART RSS for by:XNeedlesX en-us Copyright 2009, deviantART.com Thu, 26 Nov 2009 10:02:27 PST deviantART.com http://blogs.law.harvard.edu/tech/rss http://s.deviantart.com/minish/widgets/apple-touch-icon-precomposed.png http://XNeedlesX.deviantart.com/journal/28169313/ http://XNeedlesX.deviantart.com/journal/28169313/ Thu, 05 Nov 2009 20:29:24 PST Deviant ~XNeedlesX | 744 Deviations, 1,027 Messages | Sorry for late replies.
120 people follow me, 17k pageviews!


Halloween: Failed. I ended up going to Walgreen's with my mom and I decided to wear my hair in pigtails, my red/black plaid skirt, my striped black/white socks with red hearts on them, plus my really tight black shirt. I felt like a twelve year old so I started skipping for 5 SECONDS and someone caught me and said "is that Jennifer!?" It was almost a full moon or maybe it was I don't remember or care.... it was really dark out. I was in the car listening to Emilie Autumn "Remember" in the car, Johnny Hollow "People are Strange", Collide "The Lunatics have Taken over the Asylum" and Era Nocturna's music. Amazing.

Nov 2nd: my mom took me to the doctors and it's the same doctor I had for a long time. I haven't been to this doctor in two years LOL little kids doctor right and i'm twenty. So this was actually really funny, the waiting room was filled with babies and 5 year olds and this one baby kept smiling at me. Babies loves me and I have no clue why....

We waited (my mom, sister) and then my sister and I were called and I haven't grown any. Still 5ft 1 and 1/2 and I weigh 96 pounds. My sister is 3 years younger than me and she's taller... 5ft 2 and 1/4th.....

So then the after the nurse checked my blood pressure my doctor that I haven't seen in two years decided to lecture me for 10 minute about part-time jobs and put me on Paxil instead of helping my chest pains and everything I have been having problem with since June. Then that night I ended up getting the Flu.


Nov 6th: I reformatted my computer after 2 years, so I have 70GBS of space. I put everything before I reformatted on my 32GB flash drive and still had 9GBS left. I still have the Flu but not as bad.

All my work is on my flash drive and I need to reinstall Paint.net and FXfotos.


Hopefully Paxil helps me..... my mom is forcing me to take it but so far I feel less bitchy. Hmmm who really knows if it will work or not, I just hope I can be happy with manipulations I create.

Good Project runway and the stupid model show after it. I hated the ones that were eliminated on both shows! WOOOOOOOOOHOOO! Yes, my mom actually records it while she's sleeping and i'm stuck watching it.

Hope everything is going good for my watchers and friends

]]> ~XNeedlesX http://XNeedlesX.deviantart.com/journal/28055592/ http://XNeedlesX.deviantart.com/journal/28055592/ Fri, 30 Oct 2009 23:06:39 PDT Happy Halloween!

I haven't updated since Sept. 26 I actually have been taking breaks on and off because of HUGE stressful problems that deal with manipulations, computer/ battery adapter problems and drama etc.

I'm updating more later and hopefully I can use my little sister's camera for my costume pics.

In a spooky mood to Listen to Era Nocturna: [link] , Emilie Autumn: [link] and Johnny Hollow: [link]
with some other amazing bands. What is your Halloween Playlist/costume?

OH I ALSO REACHED 17 THOUSAND PAGEVIEWS AND 119 PEOPLE WATCH ME!!!!!!

Love you all
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Old news:
For those who are on the EA Asylum page I am DigitalJenocide . When I do post i'm paranoid about making mistakes/ killing threads or something and sometimes delete it.

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Message/comment me on here or the site if you want to .

Username: DigitalJenocide joined: Fri Aug 07, 2009 (8/7/09) 12:34 am

Who are you on it?(if you watched me) <3


- I'm really loving art right now. Her store: [link]

]]> ~XNeedlesX http://XNeedlesX.deviantart.com/journal/27420204/ http://XNeedlesX.deviantart.com/journal/27420204/ Sat, 26 Sep 2009 00:14:42 PDT New:

- I'M SO EXCITED! I gained 3 pounds so I finally weight 96 pounds.

- I REALLY HATE MY ART!!! SO MANY MISTAKES and it's driving me crazy.

-I'm really loving art right now. Her store: [link]

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For those who are on the EA Asylum page I am DigitalJenocide . When I do post i'm paranoid about making mistakes/ killing threads or something and sometimes delete it.

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Message/comment me on here or the site if you want to .

Username: DigitalJenocide joined: Fri Aug 07, 2009 (8/7/09) 12:34 am

Who are you on it?(if you watched me) <3

]]> ~XNeedlesX http://XNeedlesX.deviantart.com/journal/26966120/ http://XNeedlesX.deviantart.com/journal/26966120/ Sun, 06 Sep 2009 16:25:02 PDT Sorry for the journal updates >.<
Last one for now I promise, I hope it's not doing the double journal post thing for you guys like it is doing for me. Is there anything you guys want to ask me? Anything, random questions, if so go ahead. Besides WHY THE HELL do you keep updating your journal and not making awesome art. It's because i'm obsessive about a lot of things and have to change them whenever they bother me, plus I like to update you guys on something that are going on with me and my art block is worse than ever along with chest/heart pains.


I'm redoing a lot of my art in my gallery and trying to improve it or correct the mistakes(also trying to make new art).

Redone works:
Tourniquet: [link]


798 messages to look through, most are journals Love you all
Thank you again and sorry the comments are late.
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Old news:

~Hit 16k pageviews yay!

~New art is coming out terrible, i'm really sorry T___T

~For those who are on the EA Asylum page I am DigitalJenocide [link]
Who are you on it?

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YAY!! I'M DONE!! 936 DEVIATIONS I WENT THROUGH! Now only 831 messages to look through.

If you didn't notice I took a 2 month break in June due to my heart/chest problems and came back last month. I haven't been able to make anything amazing since then because of the same problems and art block. I'm still trying it was at 936 Deviations | 816 Messages

]]> ~XNeedlesX http://XNeedlesX.deviantart.com/journal/26488986/ http://XNeedlesX.deviantart.com/journal/26488986/ Sat, 29 Aug 2009 22:38:25 PDT Emilie Autumn[Remember] [link]

<sub>NEW: Heart/chest problems coming back, still have been sick since July or June. I am still having problems at making new art! Every time I make new art I am not happy with the results. I just noticed I have 16k Pageviews Thank you everyone!

Deviant ~XNeedlesX 865 Deviations | 806 Messages < yes it went up more >.<

115 people watch me <3 Thank you for everything!

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Older News:

someone really special to me came back into my life a month ago. Words can't describe how much she means to me. No, she doesn't argue with me on every little thing or treats me like garbage, she doesn't make fun of me behind my back to her family and film it to show me later, she doesn't nag me to death to do things or to entertain her. OH THIS IS THE BEST PART She actually appreciates EVERYTHING I do for her.

oh and Comcast decided to take Cartoon Network [Adult swim] off basic cable for me. Good thing I have a DVR box in the living room while my siblings sit and watch nothing at night.

My scale says I weigh 93 pounds which means I lost another pound AND now need 4 more pounds to get to my normal weight of 97 (5ft 1½ is my height and did I mention i'm Twenty?)


For those who are on the EA Asylum page I am DigitalJenocide . When I do post i'm paranoid about making mistakes or something and sometimes delete it.

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Message/comment me on here or the site if you want to .

Username: DigitalJenocide joined: Fri Aug 07, 2009 (8/7/09) 12:34 am

Who are you on it?(if you watched me) <3</sub>

]]> ~XNeedlesX http://XNeedlesX.deviantart.com/journal/25300672/ http://XNeedlesX.deviantart.com/journal/25300672/ Sun, 14 Jun 2009 00:02:32 PDT Myspace: [link]
Facebook: [link]
Twitter: [link]
Vampire freaks: [link]
Gaiaonline: [link]
Youtube: [link]
Last.fm: [link]
My Playlist: [link]
My Blog 1 and 2: [link] [link]
Era Nocturna: [link] [link]

]]> ~XNeedlesX http://XNeedlesX.deviantart.com/journal/25095878/ http://XNeedlesX.deviantart.com/journal/25095878/ Sat, 06 Jun 2009 18:09:03 PDT
Trying new art, watching Dancing in the Dark with Björk , omg it is very weird but I like it. Some of the singing parts with the daydreams in it is a little too much but I love how she sings. Stock and everything else notification that I haven't done since I quit DeviantART I will try my best to do. My immune system is severely low and I was really sick off and on for weeks. Bunch of family drama was during those months until now and all the stress is finally somewhat going away. I have been very busy this month and art block is still driving me crazy. Sorry that everything is EXTREMELY late and lack of art, I'm trying my best to get back to normal. I finally got my weight back up to 95.2 pounds and I haven't weighed this much in 2 months so I am happy. Love you all and Thank you so much for being here for me and supporting me with all the watches, comments and favorites.

Find me:
Myspace: [link]
Facebook: [link]
Twitter: [link]
Vampire freaks: [link]
Gaiaonline: [link]
Youtube: [link]
Last.fm: [link]
My Playlist: [link]
My Blog 1 and 2: [link] [link]
Era Nocturna: [link] [link]






200. My middle name is: Lynn

199. I was born on: March 24, 1989 12:04P.M. (Exxon Oil spill day [link])

198. I am really sick of: a lot of things....

197. My cell phone company is: none

196. My eye color is: Blue (light/dark) or sometime grey or green

195. My shoe size is: 8

194. My ring size is: no clue

193. My height is: 5ft 1½

192. I am allergic to: Penicillin, benzoyl peroxide (some acne medicine or anything with that) myself

191. I was born in: Fremont, California

190. I live in: Florida

189. The last book I read: ..... I'm reading Bloodline by Maggie Shayne now [link]

188. My bed is: annoying and huge

187: One thing you hate about yourself: LOL I CAN'T PICK ONE

179. My favorite Holiday is: Halloween and Christmas

178. The perfect kiss is: uhhhhhhhhhhh

177. The last three vhs I bought are: :\ pshhhhhhhh I don't remember

176. Last movie that made me cry was: the only that made me almost cry was Click, Jack the bear (because of the kid) but I never really cried during a movie...

175. Are you single or taken?: single

174. If you're taken, by who?: Rachel and Stephanie (LOL first one I had way back in the day) are my online wives (I have a bunch of ex online wives also)

173. Do you like being single/taken?:NO CLUE

170. What did you do last night?: your mom.... you so were asking for that one


YES OR NO / I BELIEVE IN

142. Love at first sight?: no

141. Luck?: somewhat

140. Fate?: eh

139. Yourself?: not really

138. Aliens?: :\ I don't care

137. Heaven?: ........

136. Hell?: .........

135. Ghosts?: eh not sure somewhat

134. Horoscopes?: sometimes

133. Soulmates?: eh
~XNeedlesX http://XNeedlesX.deviantart.com/journal/24400499/ http://XNeedlesX.deviantart.com/journal/24400499/ Mon, 01 Jun 2009 21:31:46 PDT I have no clue what to try to make, I have a few edits that two of my friends want me to do. I have no ideas or inspirations lately on making art >.< I gained most of my weight back from being sick (I have a LOW IMMUNE SYSTEM and I get sick easily for LONG periods of time) it's so annoying. I'm at 94 pounds now and I am 20 years old, 5ft 1½ and I have never been over 104 pounds. I haven't been on my computer much AGAIN so sorry that everything is extremely late. I just notice that if you look at my user name backwards it spells sex (X)Ne(e)dle(s)X It was actually based after one of my favorite Seether songs at the time along time ago with a few other things. The NEW Seether somewhat annoys me along with most rock now :\.... anyways just wanted to say Thank you for all the favorites, watches and support and hopefully I can make something good. It is 12:31a.m. goodnight


Find me:
Myspace: [link]
Facebook: [link]
Twitter: [link]
Vampire freaks: [link]
Gaiaonline: [link]
Youtube: [link]
Last.fm: [link]
My Playlist: [link]
My Blog 1 and 2: [link] [link]
Era Nocturna: [link] [link]
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old: FINALLY NOT SO SICK, OH MY FUCK! Still tired but trying to fix my schedule and I finally went through 300 almost deviations and favored most. I have 581 messages right now to look through Thank you to everyone who watched/favored my work, I will get to you as soon as possible.


Stocks notifications and I forgot to notify a few people in my feature I did A WHILE AGO due to family drama, depression, getting sick off and on, confused on which ones I did or not and so much more. I'm sorry I haven't been on much to do anything. I'm trying my best to keep up, please be patient.

]]> ~XNeedlesX http://XNeedlesX.deviantart.com/journal/24260521/ http://XNeedlesX.deviantart.com/journal/24260521/ Wed, 15 Apr 2009 16:47:41 PDT Thank you guys so much! Sorry for the lack of art and stock updates. I haven't found all the stocks yet and I still accidentally skipped a few people when notifying for the first journal feature I did so I have to recheck. Sorry everything is late, a lot has been going on and I haven't been on much. Thank you for understanding and love you all.


Deviant ~XNeedlesX | 523 Deviations, 602 Messages O.o

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My bands I listen to: Johnny Hollow, The Birthday Massacre, Helalyn Flowers, Era Nocturna, Persephone, Eisblume, Mindless Self Indulgence, The Cruxshadows, Seether, Enigma, RoseRed, Yunyu, Psychotika, Mecha:netik, Left Spine Down, A Perfect Circle/ Tool/Puscifer, Nine Inch Nails, VNV Nation, DE/VISION, Neuroticfish, Zeromancer, Ashbury Heights, System Syn, Combichrist, XP8, Funker Vogt, Grendel, KMFDM, Suicide Commando, Aesthetic Perfection, Amduscia, Android Lust, Panzer AG, Accessory, Front Line Assembly, Blutengel, Uberbyte, Wumpscut, [:SITD:], LVL, ICON of COIL, STATE OF THE UNION, A7IE, MEMMAKER, AND ONE, Celldweller, Subkulture, Brent Young, Blue Stahli, Atlas Plug, Sebastian Komor, Battery Cage, Prophetic Dream, The Echoing Green, Bella Morte, Vanity Beach, Apoptygma Berzerk, Velvet Acid Christ, I:Scintilla, Zombie Girl, Miss Construction, Ayria, Angelspit, Pzychobitch, Unter Null, Flesh Field, Lunarclick, Lolly Jane Blue, Emilie Autumn, Jakalope, Collide, The Secret Meeting, The Dresden Dolls, Stolen Babies, Alice in Videoland, Porcelain and the Tramps, Darkwell, Bloodflowerz, Jack Off Jill, Inkubus Sukkubus, The Gathering, Hungry Lucy, Ego Likeness, Mortal Love, Tapping the vein, Rasputina, Tristania, Theatre of Tragedy, Blackmore's Night, Elis, Midnattsol, The Crystalline Effect, Epica, Leaves' Eyes, Björk, Tarja Turunen, Lunatica, Within Temptation, Lacuna Coil, Nightwish, Evanescence(Fallen/EPs/demos, etc and some of the open door but not much), theSTART, The Missing, Halestorm, Orgy, Placebo, Static-X, Malice in wonderland, Visions of Atlantis, Shadows Fall, Depeche mode/ David Gahan, Blaqk Audio, Sisters Of Mercy, The 69 Eyes, Enya, Sarah McLaughlin, Tori Amos, Lords of Acid, Rob Zombie, 3OH!3, Adema (Old),Ryan Star, Purple Fog Side(some), Angelzoom(some), Sakura (count till dead♥ ), Savage Garden's first album, Anything with Chibi or Maynard James Keenan and so many more

]]> ~XNeedlesX http://XNeedlesX.deviantart.com/journal/23916505/ http://XNeedlesX.deviantart.com/journal/23916505/ Fri, 27 Mar 2009 18:59:09 PDT - NEW NEW- I still feel upset/angry but less bitchy now finally, I FINALLY FOUND THE REST OF MY GALLERY!!! When I left I put my work in storage, but it had an error and said none was in there when it was. I feel better somewhat finally, sorry again if I offended anyone from my last entry.

New: My break isn't working, i'm becoming worse... I came back because I need to talk to my friends and try on art again.
I apologize if I offended anyone, I didn't mean to. My mom noticed I was getting worse but she hasn't noticed I been crying off and on all day.
My aunt ruined my birthday and I have became somewhat depressed when it happened and my mom has been talking to her so much. Her birthday is tomorrow so I think she's going to spend the whole day with her, which I honestly don't care now. My mom has been ignoring me off and on and I haven't said that much for the past few days. My mom thinks i'm starting to throw up again... It's a way I have been punishing myself for 6-7 years and I still somewhat do it. I honestly feel like I don't exist right now...

My art block is driving everyone insane and including me... it's making me super bitchy and upset. I'm trying to make new art, I just wish this feeling would go away. I'm starting to cry again and I haven't since my last argument with my mom and dad, which was months ago.

My stomach got to the point where it felt like it was eating itself and it was hurting nonstop for days, that's how little I was eating. I think I was into the 70s-80s until now, i'm finally eating and gained some weight. I really feel like I don't deserve to eat or anything, it makes me feel guilty somewhat in a way I can't explain.
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My Birthday: Thank you to everyone who commented.

You guys made it much better for me and my mom some what.

I APPRECIATED EVERYTHING I GOT by the way, I thanked my mom many MANY times for it, it just doesn't sound like it.

Before: My mom and I went to Walgreens and I binged on candy and I decided to invite my aunt days before since she said she was going to buy me something and we both were happy, plus I was trying to get over how much I hated her and stuff and try to be an adult for once, what a BAD idea. She bitched, whined, got hysterically sad or acted crazy retarded the whole time.

In the car on the way to walmart I was listening to my rapish? songs back and forth and just started dancing somewhat in my chair.

I'm on a Boat- T-pain and The Lonely Island
I'm not you boyfriend- 30H!3
Elevator- Flo rida/Timbaland
Right Round- Flo rida
Sugar- Flo Rida/ Wynter

Yes, I listen to rap, it's a guilty pleasure, I don't care if it's nasty as long as if it has singing, a good beat or something to it, I will like it... I try to accept mostly all music now.

When it starts going bad:

We went to walmart and that's a whole other embarrassing story about my aunt.

Then to the mall:
My aunt embarrassed the shit out of me completely!!!!! She was talking to strangers (A BUNCH and she tells them things YOU DON'T want to hear) and stopping off and on constantly, when we were walking to random people and started talking. Then we ate first and I wanted Sbarro's since my two favorite places to eat make me throw up and extremely sick. My aunt was like "Pizza, Pizza I LOVE PIZZA" and usually I could finish it but my stomach feels so messed up, since I haven't been eating much the past few days. It was getting to the point where it feels extremely empty and hurting and it's a nightmare. She ended up begging for my pizza crust until I have to rip it off and give her it. Then my mom and aunt start talking about when they are going to die and how everyone dies. IT'S MY FUCKING BIRTHDAY, THE ONE DAY I ACTUALLY DON'T WANT TO mention it, what do they do. Deathfest, who's dying, what died, what bad things are going on with the world and my dead grandma.
If it's not death it's puppies!!!!! I was like "wow, this is the best conversation ever" and my mom's like "what, it's true" so then it went to awkward silence after and then we were done with eating in the mall.

So then we went to Hottopic (I been shopping there since grade 9 so I don't care)

I also got ignored off and on through the trip (which lasted for hours)... so I barely spoke.

My aunt was talking a lot to the girl in Hottopic who worked there and my aunt was like "i'm too ugly""i'm too old" "i'm too short" and the girl was like "you could still wear those" talking about boots and clothes. Then my aunt said she was going to buy me a skirt from there. Guess what? She ended up leaving out of the store and made my mom pay for it, so it made me feel EXTREMELY HORRIBLE because my mom said she was going to buy me 2. I didn't even want to clothes shop for my birth... ]]> ~XNeedlesX http://XNeedlesX.deviantart.com/journal/23861248/ http://XNeedlesX.deviantart.com/journal/23861248/ Tue, 24 Mar 2009 05:57:47 PDT Today's my 20th Birthday and i'm still somewhat shocked that I am turning it. I never thought I could make it this long, the way things were going for me in 07/08. I'm going shopping with my mom, aunt and maybe little sister. I'm still trying my best on stock/feature notifications and stuff. I became sicker after I came back to DeviantART, why the delay what can I say I have HUGE bad luck in things. Usually I become sick (I have a really low immune system) and I forget stocks, and then when I remember, my computer then breaks, or the other way around. Trying my best on art, this block seems to not go away. Love you all

LET'S PARTY!!

]]> ~XNeedlesX http://XNeedlesX.deviantart.com/journal/23778407/ http://XNeedlesX.deviantart.com/journal/23778407/ Thu, 19 Mar 2009 11:11:27 PDT My 20th Birthday is coming up along with the Exxon Oilspill 20th anniversary. My dad was like "yeah I didn't really want to tell you an oil spill happened the day you were born" >.< until I found out on my last birthday on the news. I was born at 12:04p.m. it happened at 12:04a.m. so I think it's weird. Anyways, I still have A LOT of notifications on stocks and the feature to do. I have been sick for quite a few days and my art block is still terrible but i'm trying to get over it. Everything is so nice right now, besides the fact i'm dizzy.

Deviant ~XNeedlesX| 292 Deviations, 453 Messages

In other news:
Who has Animal crossing: city folk for wii? Leave me your towns and friend code.
I'm so happy i'm back, you guys are amazing!
Love you all

]]> ~XNeedlesX http://XNeedlesX.deviantart.com/journal/23666921/ http://XNeedlesX.deviantart.com/journal/23666921/ Thu, 12 Mar 2009 20:03:58 PDT I thought I was going to be gone but I read most of your messages and it seems like I made a lot of people upset. It made me upset that I let so many people down, your words mean so much to me, so I decided to come back. I tried quitting onetime before this because of friend issues but a certain someone was really sweet to me, so I stayed. I'm so sorry that I left you all in the first place, I let A LOT of things get to me that were family problems, problems with this site and my art block. It all exploded in my face at once and I never realized something I made would impact so many people and I didn't know any of you cared that much. I finally got myself back together and my family actually feels like a family for once. My dad is treating me nice and so are my siblings, which is EXTREMELY shocking for me but good. Everything is getting somewhat back to normal and I am happier now. I thought I was just bothering people with the obsessive comments and favorites and stupid stuff and I don't know my art block just made me feel so worthless. Some people have told me that my art have sucked also and it really got to me when I made it especially for them (and including you all), even though I never really liked my art in the first place, it just hurt me really badly.
I'm turning twenty March 24th and I am changing so much, in a good way ofcourse and i'm going to let little things go and try to control my anger.


I got stock notifications to do on some pieces but before that I have to notify every artist I featured, I'm sorry I can't remove your art from the article if you don't approve, it was my first time featuring people. I really thought you can edit news articles after LOL but you can't.
Sorry for the late reply I was about to have a nervous breakdown and I am finally better. I couldn't control myself from crying after I quit, I really couldn't I actually became more depressed after.


Thank you all for your kind words and HUGE support, it really means A LOTTTTTTTTTTT to me, I'll try my best at making new art I wouldn't have came back if it wasn't for you all. I Love you all so much, thank you again for the sweet words and everything.

]]> ~XNeedlesX http://XNeedlesX.deviantart.com/journal/23475425/ http://XNeedlesX.deviantart.com/journal/23475425/ Sun, 01 Mar 2009 17:42:56 PST .

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