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I'm here: tadah.
Well, xalxin holds lots of memories. but I really felt like change, so I changed.

]]> ~Xalxin http://Xalxin.deviantart.com/journal/16750974/ http://Xalxin.deviantart.com/journal/16750974/ Wed, 06 Feb 2008 08:24:12 PST Sushi says I have a sinus infection.... oh joy.
So I'm at home, listening to the Beatles and just sorta chillin' here in my pj's, robe, and slippers. Sneezing every five seconds.
ew.

Lent starts today =0! I'm giving up meat.
I'm really hungry, though. Yesterday, I wasn't hungry for lunch and then my stomach wasn't letting me eat dinner, so I didn't have any food.... And there's this horrible taste in my mouth that drinking milk doesn't get rid of. :/
Maybe I'll make some hot chocolate.
Ahhh, fasting today! Dehydration and starving, too.

Ontheotherhand.
We got course selections for next year a while ago. :] I think I might be going into honors English, depending on what Rena's doing. If I /do/ go into honors, I want someone to be in it with me. >..< I'll also be doubling in language; French I and Spanish III. :3 And I'm moving up a level in all my classes. Chem and geometry, oh boy!
Ha ha, seven majors next year XD I have six this year.

Yeah, random update for those of you who were wondering whether I'm dead or not XDD Yes, I'm still living and breathing.
I want to watch The Nightmare Before Christmas. >..>

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http://Xalxin.deviantart.com/journal/16286985/ Sun, 06 Jan 2008 13:27:59 PST I'm working on the commission and trade now... And then I'm probably going to extend my haitus for who knows how long |D I'll do birthday gifts, but Christmas gifts are a no-no >..> As for Kuro. XD I'll get to you what I need to get to you, honest. It might take me a while. >..>

Why are breaks never breaks for me? Workworkwork. I'm friggin' exhausted. Sleep = no for Shinta

Also, I'll be working on my sona, too. Cuz I didn't like my last one XD and I change too quickly.

But my main concerns are getting my school work done, doing art for school, and cooling down from some pretty hot issues at home, school, inside, and Church.

Nii, I got sick of photoshop randomly freezing/closing/restarting my computer, so I'm doing your trade traditionally. Sorry for the lateness D:

As for what's going on, I'm going to disappear for a while (irl.) If you want to talk to me, I promise you can talk to me online [I'm nearly always on my yim and aim], and if I'm not on, I'm probably concentrating on getting my huge effing amount of homework completed or studying for midterms, which, as you all eerily know, are coming up soon. >I study now? wtc is the world coming to!?< Most of my time anymore is utilized by trying to avoid my parents' cornering accusations/inquisitions, avoiding my brother's bullying, avoiding my sister's impatient yelling, doing my homework, listening to as much music as I can, curling up in bed, watching movies, and being on the computer. Notice: art isn't part of that list.
And Moulin Rouge won't play on my computer. :/ It's very frustrating. Simbit is definitely getting sick! I'll have to get a new computer soon.

Anyone up for role playing? Anyone have some classical music I could snatch? Yay piracy.

As for not looking at all yer arts ... I have a lot to check. I want a subby :/ So uh... If there's anything in particular that you want me to see, comment/note me and I'll get to it sooner than everyone else? >..>

And those of you who have changed accounts (there are several of you), could you note me? |D I can't remember everyone's new usernames for my friendlist. -points down-

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~Xalxin http://Xalxin.deviantart.com/journal/16286543/ http://Xalxin.deviantart.com/journal/16286543/ Sun, 06 Jan 2008 13:00:56 PST 2. make them answer the following questions.
3. then tag three people.
4. feel free to go ahead and add some questions yourself!!

OCs:
Pairo
Theowin
Densyl
Silhouette

How old are you?
Pairo: 17 :3
Theo: 17, and I'm Pairo's fraternal twin.
Den: 16
Silhouette: 19

What's your height?
Pairo: 5'6"
Theo: 5'5"
Den: 5'7" ...
Silhouette: 5'8"... Real creative, Shinta.
Shi: >w< shush.

How much do you weigh?
Pairo: 135 lbs -healthy-
Theo: ... Dead weight?
Den: You try too hard to make puns, Theo. I'm 96 lbs.
Silhouette: 160 lbs... I could crush you like a bug, Densyl.
Shin: -koffkoff- moving on.

Where are you from?
Pairo: Earth =0
Theo: Earth... and Hell...?
Den: Pluto Which -is- a planet, no matter what scientists say!
Silhouette: The City in the Clouds... For those of you who know of it. ( You'd have to -really- know Shinta to understand my answer. )

Are you a virgin?
Pairo: yuh |D
Theo: ... >.> second...?
Den: >.< yeah!
Silhouette: noooooooo

Who's your mate/spouse?
Pairo: Ruan! :] -loves him-
Theo: Oh yeah, since Vampire Love -actually- exists anymore.
Den: None, and happy about it. :]
Silhouette: >.> Phantommmmm

Do you have any kids?
Pairo: Nope. Ruan wouldn't make me :]
Ruan: -koff koff-
Pairo: Shuttup!
Theo: ... -ahem- No. Kids are a waste of time.
Den: No, but I can't wait until I do! ^.^
Silhouette: yes. Seven of them. The eighth is on its way.
Theo: busy much?
Silhouette: >.>

What's your favourite food?
Pairo: I like broccoli ^.^
Theo: you would. :/ Blood is good for me.
Densyl: uh... |D -awkward-
Silhouette: Food in general is good, but I'm not gluttonous.

What's your favourite ice cream flavor?
Pairo: Vanilla bean!
Theo: Dark cherry moose tracks
Densyl: ... >.> -awkward again- Caramel swirl?
Silhouette: cookie dough :3

Have you killed anyone?
Pairo: Yes...
Theo: No you didn't, Pairo. I totally died by myself; it was /my/ choice.
Pairo: ;.; I killlled youuuuu
Theo: DX Oh now look what you've done, dumb quiz!
Den: >.> -side steps- Theo's alive, isn't she? Besides, I've killed, too.
Silhouette: ... Um... I'll just... be over here, answering questions while you all quarrel. Yes, I've killed before. Pairo has NOT killed, while Theo has. There. Just take my word for it; it's a long story.

Do you hate anyone?
Pairo: I hate this kid in my school! He smokes right next to me even though he knows I have weak lungs.
Theo: Just avoid him.
Pairo: He's a STALKER!
Den: ouch. DX
Silhouette: ... I'd love to have a stalker...
Den: Well, you're male. Of course you'd love a stalker.
Silhouette: Point taken.
Theo: anyway. We should stop getting side-tracked. I hate people in general.
Den: Nope! I don't hate people.
Silhouette: I tend not to, though it does come up every now and then.

Have any secrets?
Pairo: Of course. o.o But I'm not telling you.
Theo: A secret wouldn't be a secret if it were told. But yeah, we all have our secrets.
Den: XD I create magical creatures without consent from the Ministry of Magic! Yeah! Woo! And no one can tell on me because witches and wizards aren't supposed to use the Internet! -dances-
Silhouette: I'm surrounded by idiots. Yes, I have secrets.

Do you love anyone?
Pairo: Ruan, Theowin, my little brother Matthew, and my mother.
Theo: Pairo, pretty much.
Den: Nope.
Silhouette: Phantom <3
Shi: (Phantom = another Shinta char. )

What is your job?
Pairo: Student, and I work minimum wage at a Japanese buffet >.<
Theo: Vampire? I don't know. :/
Den: Student, and I work at a wildlife preserve for minimum wage.
Silhouette: You don't /want/ to know what I do for a living |D

Boy or girl?
Pairo: Female
Theo: Fem ... Does gender matter after one dies?
Den: Female
Silhouette: This is awkward... I'm male.
Shi: I DO have more male characters, really, I do XD

What do you do to relax?
Pairo: Stare at a wall XD
Theo: Fly
Den: Create magical creatures
Silhouette: Paint, of course.

What was/is your favorite subject in school?
Pairo: History.
Theo: Science. ~Xalxin http://Xalxin.deviantart.com/journal/16168609/ http://Xalxin.deviantart.com/journal/16168609/ Sun, 30 Dec 2007 15:08:54 PST Afavel Shinta Celebrindel

2) Male/Female?
Female >w<

3) Were you named after anyone?
uh... no?

4) Does your name mean anything?
Shinta = Pure in Japanese! Afavel is Elvish xD I have no idea.

5) Nickname(s)?
Shinta, Nabada (my american name = natalie), Natalie, Natnat, Shi, Shin, Bellbutt (just for RS xD), Pina Colada, Smoothie, Ace, Checkerz, Zeit, strange one...
the list goes on, yey! :'3

6) What do you think you look like?
A Shinta

7) Date of birth?
June 6, 1992

8) Place of birth and current location?
I was born in aifjoigajv and lived there for about three months and then we moved to iajkva;aiotj. :]
-nostalkersplz- XD

9) Nationality?
American >..>

10) Astrology sign?
Gemini...

11)Chinese astrology sign?
Monkey. >..>
... Shinta doesn't believe in this stuff! DX

12) Religion?
Catholic!

13) What's your favorite smell?
Uh... I like the smell of fruit. >..> And shampoo


14) Political Position?
>..> Your mom.
-hates that joke- I didn't know what else to say XD

15) What do you prefer to drink in the morning?
milk owo Preferably chocolate!

16) Hair + eye color?
brown hair and blue gray eyes :]

17) Do you look like anyone famous?
>..> I don't know what the famous people look like. -noTVforShinta-

18) What do you look like?
I'm tall (5'8"), light complexion, people SAY that I'm skinny ((-grumble-)), I have poof hair down to the top of my middle-back, I have long arms... >..> And long legs...
uh. I look like Shinta. Good enough? :]

19) Any unusual talents?
uh...? >..> I can......not think of anything unique about me XD

20) Righty, lefty, or ambidextrous?
righty!

21) Gay, straight, bi, or other?
straight, kaythanks.

22) What do you do for a living?
I... stress myself out for a living :'D But yeah. I babysit for whatever money I have XD And a few commissions here and there, too.
I'M A GOOD BABYSITTER. I get paid like $9 or $10 an hour. :]

23) What do you do for fun?
draw... write... play videogames... >..> draw more.
knit...?
Does anyone really pay attention to my hobbies? XD I do what I feel like doing, kay.

24) What are your favorite art materials to work with?
I like conte'! Yes. I find it easy to work with. I like acrylic paints, colored pencils (prismacolor, mainly), artgrounds, and ballpoint pens. However, I'll work with anything I'm asked to work with XD Art = Art. I don't really pay attention to what I like and what I don't in art. Cuz... it's all art. And art is art. YAY CIRCULAR THINKING!

25) What kind of materials would you like to work with?
Markers :3 I want some rly good markers. Other than that... I think I am pretty much content.

26) Have you met your grandparents?
>..>
-awkward-
Shinta never met one grandfather (he died before I was BORN), one is far far away, and the other two died.
>..>
So they're all dead to me |D

27) Boyfriend/Girlfriend?
yes ~FearTheTwitch, LOL.
Those of you who are in the joke ... shhhhhh.

28) Crush?
God <3

29) What celebrity would you date if you could?
Celebrities? >..>

30) Current worries?
o..o
>..>
-suffocates-
Why am I using my time on dA when I SHOULD be working on Governor's School crap? It's really hot down here... My parents found out about my eating disorder! What do I do? I don't know whether to forgive and forget or to forgive and get out of the relationship of the friend who tattled. Will Twitch's present get to her alright? So much school work! My brother's XBox is dying D: Are all of my friends okay? How are they doing? I still haven't been able to work on Christmas presents... I haven't finished Shakespeare and I have no idea what's going on in the book! My dad is trying to make me eat more than I can handle. I think I'm going to... ]]> ~Xalxin http://Xalxin.deviantart.com/journal/15809515/ http://Xalxin.deviantart.com/journal/15809515/ Wed, 05 Dec 2007 15:33:20 PST [link]

Go there. They need a million siggies, and they're like halfway there.
:3

Today's Trip
Today the Art I students went to a gallery of art in Washington, DC. We arrived to school, went to 1st period for five minutes, and then left at 8 on the bus. It had already started snowing when we left, and on our way there a student said that the school would be let out at 2, but the teachers disregarded it as a joke. So did most of us.
So we were caught in a backup and the ride extended from 2 hours to 3 hours, which meant one less hour of browsing the art gallery. No matter, though, we could still do it, right? Yup.
So we all went in and Rena got her voucher for a discounted lunch. Mark and Sierra were also with me for our buddy system. (2 people or more were to be together at all times.) Doyon lead us down to the cafeteria, where we were able to start off on our walk around the galleries and look around. Mark, Rena, Sierra, and I went down a hallway and realized we weren't where we wanted to be, so we turned around to go past the cafeteria to go to the other wing, which is where we had originally planned to start. While walking past, though, Doyon stopped us and told us we had to eat right away and not to go anywhere quite yet, and that if we saw students along the way we were to tell them to do the same. So we did. Stuck browsing for food, (I ate, kay. Is everyone pleased?) Doyon contravened us again and told us that we were to be back in the lobby at 11:45 and no later.
The original time was to be 2 pm.
By this point, I was ticked off. I wasn't even listening after that and I was sullenly aware that she was explaining the predicament again to us, but I didn't pay attention again. Something about school letting out early due to snow. I got my pizza, my chocolate milk, and my pudding and sat down with Mark, Rena, and Sierra. We spent our lunch complaining about how the food tasted like beer, what important things we were missing at school, not being able to see anything in the galleries, and that Sierra's desert felt like leather when you touched it. My chocolate milk was Dutch, and therefore very strange-tasting to me. The only good thing in my lunch was the chocolate pudding, which filled me up quickly so I couldn't finish. Before long, we ended up looking in the bright side of things, which weren't many. We were entertained by the amusing ceiling of the cafeteria and soon trooped off. I had wanted to buy an anatomy book, but it was already 11:45 when we finished eating, so I figured I wouldn't have the time.
It turns out that there were two girls who did not get the memo about leaving early. We ended up leaving at 12:30 instead, which was frustrating due to the fact that Rena and I were sitting on hard seats and our butts were already hurting even though we hadn't gotten moving yet. I was. so. ticked. I wanted to blow up. I am impatient when it comes to being on time (I like to be early, see) and I felt the emanation of an exorbitant feeling of anguish and an austere rise of temper towards the two late girls. Doyon and Myers both got off of the bus and searched the entire gallery with no luck, so they had to call the security guards throughout the building to see if they could find a girl with a green shirt and another with a blue shirt together, and within the minutes they were advancing towards the bus as quickly as they could without slipping on the smooth, wet marble.

So we went to DC to spend $20 on horrible food and come back. My day included missing gym class, three tests, and a writing assessment. -..-
I hope Doyon and Myers reschedule. If not, I'll grab Rena, ~anzun, Mark, and Sierra, and we can go down there without the rest of the art classes.

Nnnnng. So much for fun. :/


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http://Xalxin.deviantart.com/journal/15800292/ Tue, 04 Dec 2007 21:48:45 PST to do a wishlist.
that no one is going to pay attention to XD
lol, but I'll do it anyway, cuz Shin tagged everyone, and I sooooo owe him lotses. owo

A lot of this stuff is like... d'uh.

uh. Things I like owo;; :

Fur
Plaid
Checkers... owo
Shiny/chains/clocks...
Flowy
Feathers...
Rain~<3
Butterflies
Dragonz
Spanish
Muffins
Card decks
Creepy stuff...
et cetera. I don't think you guys need to know most of this, seeing as you know what I like from what I draw. (coughdragonscough)



I feel descriptive :3

I like... a lot of things, really. >..> I only put my favorite of my favorite up XD
uh.
I like movies, too. Tim Burton movies = sexies. Disney = love. Sports = no. D<
And rutters is love, too. Their tea makes me happy.
You know what I loves most, tho? ART owo >w< Art makes it all worthwhile <3 ALL OF IT!


No, I do not expect presents XDDDD
Cuz I won't be giving any in return, except maybe a few people. >..> You know I uber love you if I get you something for Christmas.
>w<

lol, anyone up for a contest?

RIGHTO!
Days at school are generally boring, but today wasn't! I got to stay after w/ ~anzun for the school's literary magazine. ^..^ We painted BOXES! Boxes with white paper on them. :3
Abstract arrrrrt with lettersssss. And my inability to paint XD That was interesting. People came up w/ some pretty neat designs for teh boxes tho. :3
The boxes are for submission, btw XD So people can drop their art/writing into the boxes and we collect and use them for the magazine. = awesome.
And and I was happy cuz I got to hang out with Nii. ^..^ Yessss, very happy.
I miss ~wyndsilver, tho. She is having her eye surgery, if memory serves me right. Time creeps upon me like a prowling lion. I can't keep track of it. XD

Tomorrow we'll be heading off to a gallery of art! I'm really excited, cuz I'll be w/ Rena the entire time. :3 Yey! Finally, some good quality time with her! I lack quality time with a lot of my best friends D:
It makes me sad. -emo-
So... uh... yeah. there's a lot of bottled up emotion in me right now, so if I esplode on you, I'm sorry ;..;
And I don't have a bottle to bottle up feelings. It's been established that I now have a box. A BOX.
But anyway, yeah. Monday was emo for me. With good reason, but none of you know why 'cept for ... one person. owo yup. Tuesday was made of deceitful smiles, and trying to at least -look- happy. I think I pulled it off. idk.

?

no one knows anymore.

So... uh... I tag a few people, but they don't need to do it if they don't want to. ;]
~anzun, ~FearTheTwitch, ~CoyotesGaze (when you return), ~wyndsilver (when you return), ~Striped-Flames, and... uh... anyone who wants to do this? o..o

It's funny how when I tag people, I only tag my best friends. >w<

Cheerio. <3


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http://Xalxin.deviantart.com/journal/15746961/ Sat, 01 Dec 2007 09:30:41 PST
But WOAH, it's Saturday. Thank GOODNESS. This week was so long. :/

Sorry for the dA inactivity D: Homework has me wrapped up till 11/12 at night, and after that, it's too late to turn on the light and work on arts without parents eating me for being up late. DX Or else I'd stay up all night and draw draw draw~
yum. Drawings.

But you could say I'm sort of in a block, because whenever I try to draw something, it turns out ewwwww D: From lack of practice. Because I can't doodle in class -..-

However, I AM making up time to work on trades/commissions. :] Yesssss, I'm dependent with that!
btw, I hope no one expects Christmas presents from me. >..> I don't usually give out presents for Christmas.

Well I finished The Golden Compass and started on The Subtle Knife, and I have to say that both are mustreads. YOU MUST READ THEM. Kay.

And there actually was something I wanted to say. >..> I just don't remember what it was.
However, yesterday was a good day for me. 'cept I went to the nurse after gym from dehydration/throwup/ewness. I didn't want to go home because after school, ~anzun and I went up to the park and had fun freezing our fingers off and swinging on the swings. :] Yup. Till my stomach made strange noises and decided to almost hurl. o..o Then we stopped and headed back to the school and savored the warrmmmm.
And now I have a Nii-drawing in my sketchbook. ^..^

Then we had pizza for dinner. I was sooooo hungryyyy. Honestly, I couldn't hold myself back. I gorged on the pizza, ignored any weight gain, and ate until I was full.
That was. Three slices of pizza. A piece of pie. 3 cups of milk. Cookies. And then chips with jalaneno cheese. Ohmygoodness. I was tired. Gym class + working metabolism made me exhausted. I went to sleep at 7 pm so I could take a short nap, and ended up waking up at 4 am. Only to go back to sleep until 9. Very refreshed, but I need a shower cuz I slept in my clothes |D

So I'm babysitting tonight from 6-10, and I should be working on essays (oh the endless insanity) as well as working on stuff for art class. I have -no- idea what to do for shape. No idea. I'm completely at a loss. Anyone have ideas? <3?

Doyon gave ~wyndsilver and me a huge packet of information for a week course at an art school around here. Governor's School of Excellence, to be precise. It's pretty tough to get into, but Doyon thinks that I'm eligible enough to even be considered. It's really frightening, though, because of how formal they are. You have to go through interviews and everything to get into the week's course of... whatever they're going to do to us. -didn't read all of it- Only sophomores and juniors are accepted, but that doesn't mean that the competition won't be as tough if seniors were accepted, too. I doubt I'd get in, lol. Doyon told us that no one from our school has ever gotten in, which is great encouragement, eh?

So I fail at art. |D

And and and! Check this out. is awesome!
Her commission got me dragons of devART. owo [link]

yesIstillfailatart |D

Tired of reading yet?



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http://Xalxin.deviantart.com/journal/15615925/ Thu, 22 Nov 2007 06:40:08 PST
Today, I don't quite know what will be going on during the day, but I know that we will be having a large dinner which I will attempt to eat without devilish thoughts entering my mind and telling me that I am obese.
I promise. :]
If it's the case, I'll eat until I puke.

btw, I hate turkey :0 Yes! I hate it! It's one of my least favorite meats! -ducks and runs 'for being pelted-
And I don't like chicken, or steak, or ribs, the list continues.
-is pelted more-
I like hamburgers, and hotdogs, and sausage, though! XD And all sea food >w>
and I HAVE had cat and dog before. They're actually pretty good! -is pelted even more- Animal cruelty!? Probably.

lol

So uh. After dinner, and my family and I are going to go to the movies to see Enchanted. :/ NOT excited, but it'll be nice to have Nii there to suffer with me. The movie looks... childish. And... annoying.
Much too colorful.
I'd rather see Beowulf. Or stay home and watch Monty Python and the Holy Grail. <3 or the Corpse Bride!
But no. Enchanted it is! DX

I can't wait for Christmas. We are going to see The Golden Compass then. :] Which I am currently reading. It's a pretty interesting book, but I keep falling asleep while reading it, because I read at like 12 at night XD
~sleepyshinta

Holy crap, I have commissions! =0
-happy-

*vtforpedro is willing to help! She was going to donate for my cause, and I'm offering her a commission because she's so awesome. ^..^
~MacroRufus also wants one. :]

Come on, come on! I'm going to need $200 or my friend will be in a lot of trouble with money! D: ((yes, that's why I'm doing commishes >w<)

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Righto, there have been a lot of questions about my new sona. :0

Is the current ref correct?
No, not quite. I'm working on it. ^..^

How much will be changed?
Just a few things, actually. A few things are really bugging me, like the green on the wings. I want that to be the orange that's on the tongues.

You said that your fursona is really interchangeable and there's a lot of variety in it. What do you mean?
Oh wow, there really is a lot of variety! :] I'll put that on my ref sheet. If you need to know for some reason, contact me personally. A note or through YIM or AIM will work. <3

Your quad form (or should I say hexa) is new. Do we need all of the legs? x..x
Hee hee, no. If you're drawing my sona and having problems with the legs, don't worry about it. My quad form has the talons in the front and the hooves in the back. Just take out the middle section.
This goes for most other things. Contact me with any more specifics <3

Your sona's changed. Does that mean your human form has changed, too?
Yep. I'm working on that, too. Among other things, so please be patient.


There is a lot about my new sona that really needs to be explaining; it's definitely more than looks. Hee hee, I like it. Yes, I like my new look a lot. :]
Do you?

]]> ~Xalxin http://Xalxin.deviantart.com/journal/15601231/ http://Xalxin.deviantart.com/journal/15601231/ Wed, 21 Nov 2007 07:33:17 PST Strangely, my art teacher did not assign anything for the break.

So I'll see what art I can do during this field of opportunity. :]

Guys, guys, guys! Thanksgiving is TOMORROW! Like woah, where'd my Tuesday go!? x..x I have a feeling this break will pass faster than I thought DX

But... as it is... I hate breaks. o..o YES you heard me right. I hate them. Most peoples' breaks allow them some time off, right? Well, NO, that's MY time on! I get to work on construction crap all this break, along with other breaks. ((especially Christmas break.)) So... uh... Be patient!
I might not be on as much as I may like to be on.

But... uh. is gone for the week. ;..; And it makes me sad.
So is ... :/
And 's computer was blown out... TT..TT

But is still here! ^..^ -happyhappyhappy-

Righto~ back to the madness.


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~Xalxin http://Xalxin.deviantart.com/journal/15265373/ http://Xalxin.deviantart.com/journal/15265373/ Sun, 28 Oct 2007 21:46:06 PDT I want commissions! Do eeeet. :0 I've been peer-pressured into it. >w<
>..> I can sell things. owo I just suck at it.

Things to Keep in Mind
1. I won't draw sexual/porn/etc
2. I like dragons, but I also like anything else you throw at me ;]
3. Buildings hate my hand XD But I can try if you really want.
4. If something you order is beyond my limit, I'll make it worthwhile to ask you if there is something else you might like.
5. I will not draw another person's creations. I will draw something from your or my mind, unless you have a collaborated creature.
6. I'm flexible. :]

One thing that I really want to do more are icons! I lovelovelove doing the pixelart! :] They're only $4-$5, depending on the detail and size, and if you don't think the icon is worth the price, just tell me and we'll figure something out. ;]
A few examples:




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I'll also do paintchat's for y'all, using artgrounds. I also have a lot of fun doing these. :] The samples all have the color palettes on them, but the finished piece that you get in the end will not.
lineart/sketch: $5 :0
No bg's: $10-$11, depending on detail.
Partial/window bg's: $12-$13, depending on detail.
Abstract bg's: $15-$18, depending on detail.

sketch/lineart:
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no bg's:
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window/partial:
Sorry, I don't normally do partial/window in this category. However, if you want a partial/window bg, I can do them.
abstract/real bg:
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~Xalxin http://Xalxin.deviantart.com/journal/15188991/ http://Xalxin.deviantart.com/journal/15188991/ Tue, 23 Oct 2007 14:25:10 PDT I was ridiculed quite a bit. I had kids screaming at me to take off the duct tape. I even lost a friend over it. He'll be my friend again if that's what he wants. If not, that's good for him; I don't have it on my conscience. That's between him and God now. Besides, it was worth the amount of students who were incredibly curious about why I had duct tape on my face. Some'd read the little slip of paper that I carried around and say that they wished they could join me, but didn't know about it. Others totally fumed at me like 'TAKE THE TAPE OFF.' yup.
I avoided wearing blue today, seeing as that is what pro-choice colors are, and my red duct tape had to be replaced only once, and written over several times (cuz sharpie fades on tape).
None of my teachers had a problem with it, but again, that darned art teacher that I complain about totally took it the wrong way. She's so utterly arrogant and annoying that sometimes I want to rip her head off. I was just about ready to break the conte we were working with when she finally shut up. Yeah... so I really have a newfound absolute dislike for my art teacher. Even though I disliked her before, I was still open enough to her personality that I didn't really have a burning passion for disliking her. But now it's different.

:] But either way, yey for being pro life! ^..^

In other news.
I'm doing a trade with and . And an icon trade with . If you are a close friend and you wanna trade, be my guest. ^..^ plz note me.
Just keep in mind what I do and don't draw XDDD
Anyway, I haven't had much time to do trad art in a while, so it might be a little scratchy if that's what you want.
Also, check out 's page! She's doing really nicely-priced commissions! :]


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http://Xalxin.deviantart.com/journal/14848580/ Sat, 29 Sep 2007 23:08:50 PDT I went with a ticket. That's all I went with. No makeup, no hair stuff, nothing important like that. Just a ticket. The tickets are really pretty... They're shiney gold with purple writing. Oh yes... and I went with a full stomach and a smiling face. :]
We first went to Al Dente! and ate dinner. There were 13 of us in just one reservation, and we had to split up into two groups, heh. I sat next to Tsuki and Emily, though ~The-Rena was at the other end of the other group. My mom and dad sat across the isle from us, cuz they wanted to eat out, too. My sister was there, and she was enjoying her time out, taking pictures of my brother, my friends, my mother, my father, and me. Oh yes... and of other random things (as usual), lol. :]
After that, we happily treked over to Rena's house to take pictures, though we had a quarrel about money and pooling and paying for dinner beforehand. We ended up not doing any math, cuz none of us can count, and just throwing random 20's in. >w< But anyway, we went to Rena's house and her parents weren't there. But we snuck in and were happy, cuz I got to take off my heels and turn on music that we actually liked instead of waiting for music that we don't like. Elaina came and we took tons and tons of pictures; the sunset was gorgeous, a perfect night for pictures like these. We stood against a railing and used the sunset as a backdrop quite a bit XD I wish we'd had more veriety, but I suppose that was the best at the time. Well we went inside and got another backdrop (amazing curtains) and took pictures there. I ended up glomping my sister and my brother took a picture of us. :] Perhaps I'll post a bunch on here sometime to give y'all a glimpse.
Rena and Elaina and I went to the dance and there were a lot of interesting things happening. Jen rolled up from her dad's car rather conveniently, as we had been walking right next to it at the time. :] Then someone had dropped their cellphone into the gutter and people had to come and get it out. I was fine with that, but one thing that made me annoyed is that someone would spend so much money as to rent a HUMMER STRETCH LIMO with BOOMING speakers and a red carpet JUST for the ride to homecoming. :/ I mean... come on. I can understand a limo, or a stretch limo, but a hummer stretch with booming speakers, a red carpet, high service, and everything else luxorious is a little ... overboard... for three hours of fun that when older, will be but a small part of your life. :/
But other than that, we went outside and went down the amazingly-lit hallway. Ohhhhh it was beautiful... There were rows of plants on either side with string lights zigzagging on the ceiling, and the regular school lights were off and everything was pretty. They gave us free desposable cameras and we were off, taking pictures of whatever people or interesting things we ran into. XD They had two balloon-camels lawl. They had balloon stars hanging from the ceiling and a light with the pattern of the moon on it displayed on a wall. The lobby was probably the best I'd ever seen it, heh. Unlike I thought, it wasn't terribly hot like the Halloween Dance was last year. It was actually quite nice. It was only incredibly hot in the cafeteria, which is where we danced and had a DJ doing his job. We requested Thriller and they said they were planning it for a certain part of the night, but they never played it.
I ate. A LOT. Like wow. You have no idea. I just wouldn't stop XD I'd had almost every meal that day, plus a few snacks, plus a HUGE dinner, and then tons of food at the dance. I've never felt so full in my life @..@ But there I was, bursting at the seams and trying to hide the silly pudge that was bulging through my corset. It was deemed impossible, of course. XD Sam was hoarding all of the baskets of fruit at our table. ((FURUBA )) They had pina colada slushies that were AMAZING letmetellyou. I wish they had the pina colada's as the regular menu. ooohhhh that'd be gooooood. <3! The bread was stale XD but it was very good. :]
We fo... ]]> ~Xalxin http://Xalxin.deviantart.com/journal/14756881/ http://Xalxin.deviantart.com/journal/14756881/ Sun, 23 Sep 2007 11:36:31 PDT But the only drawing I've been doing are little doodles here and there (like the magikarp and Val) and in my notebooks, plus the required stuff for art class. I've been doing something very secretive, yushhhh. I'll tell you all when you're ready... it might break all of your hearts though. It broke mine for a little while but now I'm over it, and I'll still be using the old shell. --I'll stop putting all of you in suspense now--

The basic point of this journal is to tell you that I have too many deviations to check and too many messages, and I'm trying my hardest to keep up with the program. Please be patient with me if I haven't read a journal of yours or I haven't commented on something you're really proud of. I WILL get to it eventually. I promise. If you want to comment, feel free, but I might not get back to you in a while.

A basic update on what's been happening:
All of my teachers seem to enjoy giving homework and checking it over the night, and textbooks are required for most of my classes. The first few days of school, I only got two books, and now that I have fifty billion, I'm complaining that I have too many. Heh. I guess I'm never happy ;] I've developed a hatred for my art teacher for the next two years. She won't accept fantasy or contour lines or anything awesome like that. Instead, it's all got to be realism, and that's that. :/ What an awkward predicament.
My English class has turned into something enjoyable. Mr Morton makes it all better, and he seems to know that he shouldn't call on me when I don't have my hand raised or else I flush and blush and shrink in my seat. So I watch the others get things wrong and I learn from their mistakes instead of learning from mine. Heh, what a wonderful way to glide by English class ;] One thing that we have to do is get five vocab words a week and write them down in our journals, which are basically just marble composition books. We also have to do response entries, where we analyze and evaluate books. This week, I had one to do every day, but now I'm going to space them out more so I have more time to myself, homework, and art.
I failed my first math test and I'll probably need a tutor of some sort. I just can't do it. I can barely add and subtract, and though multiplying and dividing are easier, I can barely do those as well. My brain just doesn't listen to the voice of logic; it listens to suggestions, rather. Math confuses me... I suppose that's just how it'll be for the rest of my life. Watch me fail college!! lol.
I also have a project that I need to do for health this week or else I'll forget, though it's supposed to be done throughout the school year, I'd much rather get it done now than do horribly on it later when I don't feel like going through school anymore. We have to research a disease and give a speech about it. I'm #13, don't let me forget. I'll be the thirteenth person to give their speech XD That's amusing cuz so many people are telling me that I have the unlucky number and that I'll fail the presentation, but I'm not suspicios like that. >..> Silly people and their superstitions. XD

Well everything about my life for the past month has been school school school. Then emotional breakdowns cuz it's only the beginning of the year and I'm already stressed. I should weigh my bookbag and tell you how many lbs it is, then wonder how I can carry around THAT much weight every day. My legs are going to be very strong by the time the school year is over, just you wait. I'll run the mile well enough if this is the way it's going to be.
Another thing that I'm keeping myself busy with is keeping in touch with my online friends over YIM. Please please please if you want to keep in touch with me, it'd be best to get a YIM and IM me. It's easy XD my YIM is xalxin for you Yahoo users, and for you MSN users, it's xalxin@yahoo.com. >..> Not too hard to remember XD
Just make sure you IM me with the name I know you by before you spam my offline messages and I end up blocking you. >..> Or you could send me a note via dA, I check those quite a bit.

But... this week has been pretty horrible DX Everything seems to go the wrong way. I even threw up twice yesterday and got my period, and I can't have chocolate because now my stomach hates it. We don't even have drinks here so I have to drink water. On ag I finally had a few hours to myself and drew an amazing artic fox that got erased by some idiot who I cursed to hell. ((~CoyotesGaze knows how amazing it was. It... ]]> ~Xalxin http://Xalxin.deviantart.com/journal/14412938/ http://Xalxin.deviantart.com/journal/14412938/ Thu, 30 Aug 2007 15:52:24 PDT
Like ~wyndsilver, I was going to type my schedual to you. Yey. Aren't you excited.

course - days - my comments
Biology I - 1-5 - He seems like an interesting teacher... for now. I sit in the very front due to my name, he doesn't mind doodlers. So that's good. Plus, I have ~The-Rena with me in that class. However, I'm absolutely horrible at leading, and in our labs we all have a specific role we must play. I just so happen to be the leader. Marvelous.
PSSA Remediation - 2, 4 - GIR. D< DDD<<<****!!! I haven't had the class yet, but... GIR!!!! I lost the fight. Yup. No Honors English for me. D<
Art Major I - 1-5 - I've been told that my teacher is lousy. I think I have the same teacher that ~wyndsilver does this year, though I am unsure. The description she gave sounds like her... but anyway. Again, I have ~The-Rena with me during this class. Ironically, though our last names are on the different ends of the alphabet, she sits right across from me. This, Im happy about. I think that it will be the highlight of my days for a very long, long time.
Spanish II - 1-5 - The teacher is pregnant. :/ La profesora esta embarazado. Yup. She'll be gone for the last three months of school, and we may end up with some crap long-term sub who knows nothing about Spanish. -..- But she seems alright, despite her constant passion for Spanish country music. Like.. omg... that EXISTS?! Yeah. It does. And it's exactly like American country accept in Spanish. And I hate it... but... -sigh- I can't tell her that I'm allergic to it because I fear that is just how she teaches. I guess she's more of a vocal teacher than anything, whilst that is the area that I learn worst in. That's great. Just... lovely.
US History I - 1-5 - My teacher is bent on getting to know us. She had somewhat corny things that we had to do, such as make up nametags with special conditions attached to them. We had to have an adjective and then our name, and the adjective had to start with the same letter as our name. Mine ended up being Stupid Shinta. Kay not really. It was Nifty Natalie, because Natalie tends to be what is registered for my name. (cuz teachers + trying to pronounce Shinta and remember it = uh. no.) She seems to try to get our attention, which is good, because I have a short attention span and she just keeps catching it.
Health - 1, 3, 5 - Hate. Hate hate hate. He insults us with things like 'I'm... going... to... talk... nice... and... slow... so... you... can... comprehend... what... I'm... saying. Now... You're... going... to have... to think... about this. First... put your name... here. Then... fill in... this period... number.' I wanted to shoot him. I was kind of hoping that my health classes wouldn't all be the same, that there was some sort of INTERESTING approach they could take to teaching, but it seems my hopes have quickly dwindled.
Gym - 2, 4 - Ew, but yay! I actually didn't want to put this up, but I'm just so incredibly delighted that I have gym with ~wyndsilver! I wanted to tell the whole world XD
English II - 1-5 - ... Not Honors English, might I remind you. No, of course not. However. My class is full of preps. They all seem to enjoy picking on each other. Worse, I'm pretty sensative. The teacher tends to scare me sometimes. I think all this year, I'll be the little quiet, depressed girl in the shadowed corner, who knows all of the answers but won't raise her hand. The teacher problem, though, will soon change. I had him last year for oral comm, and I know that he will figure out how to talk to you after a while. I'm sure that I will feel a lot more comfortable after a while, and not so awkward.
Algebra II - 1-5 - We didn't really get much time to do anything, save get our lockers and textbooks and crap, and then it was time to go. She didn't even introduce herself. :/ But, me being as horrible at math then ever, I can guaruntee instant failure. Math is not my thing, though I really do try my hardest. Plus, there's the fact that it's last on my schedual, and that I have no good friends in it, so I'm somewhat perplexed with the notion of being in it.


Overall, three of my classes have good friends in th... ]]> ~Xalxin http://Xalxin.deviantart.com/journal/14382143/ http://Xalxin.deviantart.com/journal/14382143/ Tue, 28 Aug 2007 14:55:29 PDT Yah, school starts on the thirtieth for me, which also just so happens to be when Lirael is due. (library book) I finished it yesterday (705 pages) and I want Abhorsen! Cuz Garth Nix writes well, and I want to know more about Lirael and Prince Sameth, along with both of their familiars. Yay necromancers! <3
Mom says that we can go to the library tomorrow. I hope she means it.

Other than that, I want to know who here likes to role play. Literate to advanced, that is. I just made a new site that I want to advertise to you all and to your friends if you feel like it. Note me with a typed example of an introduction of one of your characters, and I might let you in, I might not. If I don't, don't feel offended.

Anyway, off to babysit. Ta ta for now.


|friends| (in no particular order.)
http://Xalxin.deviantart.com/journal/14280389/ Tue, 21 Aug 2007 22:56:07 PDT
[EDIT]
Really, I mean, come on. I only put it in bold. :/ You're supposed to note me with your requests. Thank you, ~Ryleah, ~neon-is-my-baby and ~FearTheTwitch for following directions.

Ta.
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Directions
This game is where I'll have number's listed.
You will pick a number and you'll recieve a job/position.
You'll then pick a number from another list, which will contain another job.
You put the jobs together and draw your fursona as those.

Example: You choose #1 from Set 1 and 6# from Set 2. Lets say #1 is Firefighter and #6 is Ninja. You will then have to draw your fursona as a Ninja Firefighter.

If you have questions or don't understand just ask.

Please Note your number to me! This makes it more organized.


Prizes?!
Nuuu, this isn't a contest. This is just for fun! A challenge that you may step up to if you would like. ^..^

Set 1
1. - scientist -
2. - majician -
3. - princess/prince -
4.
5. - skateboarder -
6. - horserider -
7. - rock guitar player -
8. - artist -
9. - dentist -
10.

Set 2
1. - dragoon -
2. - actor -
3. - colorguard -
4. - pirate -
5.
6. - ninja -
7.
8. - theif -
9. - zookeeper -
10. - serial killer - http://Xalxin.deviantart.com/journal/14245952/ Sun, 19 Aug 2007 19:55:34 PDT I don't know about art for a while. Maybe it will stop. Maybe it will excel. Maybe I won't even be online. Maybe I will. I don't know... I may be in a daydream most of the time, and won't be able to tell you what happened five minutes ago.
Tomorrow, we will be going to the book store to see if any of the books that my sister needs are there. Then Tuesday, we'll be moving her into her new home...
A new home...
Now the memories come flooding back. The self-reflection, the laughter, the fun, the joys... And then hiding myself from her, growing away. Then loving her and trying to get closer. But she was always like a ripple. No matter how much you try to touch her, she just ripples away. If only... yes. If only. That's all there is. If only...
Now the memories are not happy. They are filled with pain, remorse, anguish, the guilt... If only I could make it all up to her... to start again... Her leaving denies access to her friendship. Always. Forever. If only... Yes... My thoughts echo 'if only' many times over again.

If only, if only, the woodpecker cried, the bark on the tree was as soft as the skies. While the wolf waits below, hungry and lonely, he cries to the moon, if only, if only.

If only my sister wished the bark were as soft as the skies... Then there would be some chance of me getting close to her.

You may all have a lecture forming in your heads. I don't want it. I just want to be... solitary. Yes... solitary. At home. Without people around me. That... or I want to watch someone else have fun. Yes... lots of fun. -sigh-

Well... good night all.



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~Xalxin http://Xalxin.deviantart.com/journal/14209854/ http://Xalxin.deviantart.com/journal/14209854/ Fri, 17 Aug 2007 10:50:48 PDT Well, yesterday, my mom woke me up with the latest news. She seems to get things done even at night. Why can’t she tell me these things before she goes to sleep? Ehhhh, well, whatever her reasoning, it’s messing up my sleep and gets me even more frustrated with the happenings around here. Mom wants me to go through the remediation class, which is what I have been fighting against all this time. She knows that it will take away from my elective, which was going to be graphic design. She also knows that she will probably hear a great deal of complaining about this class, as will my friends, most likely. Unless you don’t want to listen to me complain about yet more things… I tend to find things to be a smart aleck about. Anywho, really I thought my mom was with me. She has been fighting for me up until yesterday, and I thought she would be faithful to my decision. However, it seems my parent is more shallow than I thought, which is saying quite a bit. Those of you who have seen her and me argue, you will agree. I go for the deeper meanings. She wades in the shallow water.
You know how I said that if it weren’t over by the end of this week, I would just give up? Well she’s not letting me now. She says that I shouldn’t be giving up. Wait. Hold up. Didn’t she just tell me yesterday to completely let it go and just take the remediation course? Hmm… she cannot seem to choose which side she wants to be on, as should be expected by me. We composed an email together and emailed Mr. Witmer with the role-plays that I edited, but he isn’t in this week. So… it looks as though we are going to be fighting this battle until the first day of school, and maybe even after. I wanted to proclaim treaty last week, and then it was moved to this weekend, and now it is obviously unknown. –sigh-

On to other news, I hope to complete the contest prizes sometime today, and if I cannot, I hope to complete them tomorrow. Then I can actually start on the anthros that I said I would do, and do the trades, as well.
1.~Michatah ---finished! Waiting for other half :3
2.*the-dark-dragon
3.~Rosa-of-Alaska
4.~Neio6
Please note me with what we will trade to each other, save Michatah. If you don’t in a couple of days, I’ll note you instead. Also, =Sensei-D, you wanted a collaboration, and I’d be glad to do that with you :3 Just tell me what you want to do and I’ll see what I can start with you! ^..^
I also have to do gift art for a friend, so I will be starting that, as well. :3
Along with and during these happenings, I hope to do the anthros challenge that I set up for myself before school starts. All of it, yes. Really, I would like to concentrate on getting things done in the next two weeks, and reading lots.

Remember how I had goals for the summer? Well… I’ll repost them and see how far I have gotten. :3

-save up enough money for 2 orders (*kalicothekat and =WolfessEnchanted) –It didn’t work out as I may have wanted. I still don’t have a liable job and I am not called to baby-sit as often as I had hoped.
-role play more – ha ha, dead role-plays. :0 This went in the wrong direction.
-draw the characters I said I would- I have drawn some of them o..o
-finish up with the contest prizes (wow overdue)- I’m getting that done atm!
-improve on backgrounds- ha ha, not a smidgen of this was taken care of. I hope in art major, it will take place.
-improve on anatomy- I think that when comparing my drawings now to the beginning of the summer, progress has been alright.
-improve on coloring- o..o I have no idea. Really, I don’t.
-improve on contour lines- I think that now that I have two good ballpoint pens of different size, it works out very nicely. My line art is much more organized and detailed than before, so I think it has improved. :3
-work with markers (they've been gathering dust since Christmas XD)- yes, I have worked with markers! I have not done all that I thought I would get done, but I think I have at least tested them out, and I am still experimenting with them.
-join more contests- no, it hasn’t happened, ha ha ha.
-open more contes... ]]> ~Xalxin http://Xalxin.deviantart.com/journal/14200375/ http://Xalxin.deviantart.com/journal/14200375/ Thu, 16 Aug 2007 17:46:56 PDT



If I were a month, I would be: June
If I were a day of the week, I would be: Saturday
If I were a time of day, I would be: 2 am
If I were a sea animal, I would be: hippocampus or an eel
If I were a direction, I would be: east
If I were a sin, I would be: vanity
If I were a historical figure I would be: Saint Lucy
If I were a planet, I would be: Saturn
If I were a liquid, I would be: Murcery
If I were a stone, I would be: Pearl (even though it's a gem XD)
If I were a tree, I would be: Weeping willow
If I were a bird, I would be: Crow
If I were a flower/plant, I would be: Euchalyptus
If I were a kind of weather, I would be: a refreshing rain late at night to help lull people to sleep
If I were a mythical creature, I would be: An Elf
If I were a musical instrument, I would be: Probably a flute or a guitar
If I were an animal, I would be: a fox
If I were a color, I would be: gray
If I were an emotion, I would be: stress
If I were a vegetable, I would be: potato
If I were a sound, I would be: crying or anguish
If I were an element, I would be: wind/air
If I were a song, I would be: gracious, like Elf music
If I were a movie, I would be: LotR
If I were a book, I would be written by: Garth Nix
If I were a food, I would be: paupu fruit
If I were a place, I would be: my city in the clouds
If I were a taste, I would be: bland
If I were a scent, I would be: Eucalyptus
If I were a religion, I would be: Catholic
If I were a word, I would be: Shinta
If I were a body part, I would be: Heart
If I were a facial expression, I would be: concern. 'let me help...'
If I were a subject in school, I would be: English or a language, maybe art
If I were a cartoon character, I would be: Gir
If I were a shape, I would be: Irregular
If I were a number, I would be: 6
If I were a piece of jewelery, I would be: a necklace
If I were a piece of furniture, I would be: a nightstand
If I were a car, I would be: a spaceship A Jeep or a Minicooper
If I were an item of clothing, I would be: A long, flowly skirt that you could twirl in.

]]> ~Xalxin http://Xalxin.deviantart.com/journal/14180303/ http://Xalxin.deviantart.com/journal/14180303/ Wed, 15 Aug 2007 12:49:31 PDT andasreth!!! Visit herrrrrrr!

Rules:
1. Post these rules.
2. Each person tagged must post 8 random facts about themselves.
3. Tags should write a journal/ blog of these facts.
4. At the end of the post 8 more persons are tagged and named
5. Go to their page and leave a comment telling them they're tagged

1 - Well first off, I HATE LISTS. D: They make me scatterbrained, they make me want to scream, they disorient me. Why? o..o I have no idea. It's just... so... listy and DX List of questions = okay. List of things/people = BAD KARMA D<

2 - Second, I HATE REPETATIVE THINGS!! oh. my. gosh. You can't believe how much they make me want to throw things. Repetative things are so... so... repetative. o..o Like in videogames when the grass is just the same texture over and over again? OMG I can't STAND looking at it. And then in rugs? omg so annoying. I can't even walk on the rug if it's repetative. If I have two of the same food in a row.... x..x I feel like 'omg I must clense myself!' If something's repetative, I usually burn it, destroy it, make it not repetative, avoid it at all costs, or scream and whine and kick and cry about it. Like omg I have two journals on the same day D:

3 - It takes a long, long, long time for me to trust people, and I am pretty insecure. But when you earn my trust, I can be pretty loyal, and it's evident that I love you.

4 - Sometimes I think of things that are completely irrelivant to what I'm talking about, and most of those times I say what I'm thinking and confuse the heck out of people. My friends say it takes a while to get used to, but most of them are used to it by now. :3 I ask a lot of questions.

5 - I have no idea what else to put down. :/ I'm a boring person.

6 - OH. I have more characters than I can keep track of, and ftw, only 10-20% are dragons. :'D

7 - Ummmm ... o..o

8 - I'm basically braindead today. x..x Maybe I'll finish this another day. But really, I'm not that interesting XD


I taaaaaaag...
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]]> ~Xalxin http://Xalxin.deviantart.com/journal/14178361/ http://Xalxin.deviantart.com/journal/14178361/ Wed, 15 Aug 2007 10:26:35 PDT
Anyway, the tables have turned again. AGAIN!!!!! After about 48,594,587,485,745,985,724 other times. Now their excuse is that my composition grade was lower than perfect. Oh no. It was a 90. Big deal. Because it was a 90, I'm definately going to struggle with honors. Oh yeah. Definately struggle. :/

My real reasoning for taking this class? Is it really just because you want a challenge, Shinta? Usually you don't go for challenges because you're too lazy. Is there more to earning this class? Well. I have been wondering that for a long, long time. There's obviously more to this than just a challenge. However, I have no idea, notion, sensation, or theory about what it may be, though I am experimenting and trying out different names for feelings on the matter. I really do wonder if that feeling is worth getting four hours of sleep to be rudely awakened by mom on the phone, talking Greek to me about English and my new situation, and then sitting for how long? Three hours, editing Kur and my role play (which you need to post in, Kur), only to find that it was already edited, and sitting innocently in my computer. AAARRRRRGGGG!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!! D< I've had just about enough of this. Really I have. They should just let me take the class, and if I fail, they can watch me do so AND point and laugh in my face if they want! I DON'T CARE. I JUST WANT THE FRIGGIN CLASS

-falls in a heap of nearly-dead dragon- urg... I'm tired, and weary, and annoyed, and stretched out. If this goes on much longer, I swear I'll snap.


|friends| (in no particular order.)
~Xalxin http://Xalxin.deviantart.com/journal/14151530/ http://Xalxin.deviantart.com/journal/14151530/ Mon, 13 Aug 2007 15:19:33 PDT Epiaruna! This isn't like the other quizes that are left and right on dA. It's different and much more fun. ^..^

WHAT WOULD YOU DO IF YOU BECAME YOUR CHARACTER?

1. How would you react?
Hmm... Well it'd be kind of strange to see a dragon in my room, seeing as I do believe it would be too containing for me. I am not larger than my room, but tight spaces really bother me, so I would be rather uncomfortable. After finding somewhere safe to go, I would look at my new features.

2. How would you handle the situation?
I would be very on-edge, because if someone found me, I could be carted off and taken to a lab. I would probably visit Epi because now she is a mermaid after taking this quiz. Hanging out with her would be a marvelous idea, and then try to figure out the configuration of my scales and my fur, and try to comb it out without spending three hours trying to do so. My expression would clearly state aftershock and my wits would be wrapped about me extremely tight.

3a. What would be the hardest part about your character (physically)?
Well... I'd have huge wings in the way all the time, and I wouldn't know what to do with them. And my new long neck would be like 'woah wha?!' That, and my hollow bones which would enable me to fly without much effort would make me very light, and I definately wouldn't be used to that. Then there'd be this huge FUZZ everywhere cuz I'd shed like crazy. Not to mention a long tail that would probably drag on the ground until I figured out what to do with it. And those horns of mine? They'd get stuck in tree branches, I know it >..<

3b. (powers, if any)?
Hmm... Well I'd have psychic powers, and I probably wouldn't be able to stay out of others' minds (coughEpicough) until I would be able to hone it. Then there's the whole me being a storm dragon, and the weather would probably go berserk throughout the world for a bit, until I shapened up. And the flame throwing? I LOVE sneezing. ;..;

4a. Who could you tell about this transformation (family members)?
Well... I'd probably tell my immediate family members, but I don't stay in touch very well with my nuclear family members, so I don't think I would be able to trust them with something so huge.

4b. (friend, like a next door neighbor, you don't have to say their name)?
^..^ Yes, of course! I would tell a few of my friends, and I can trust them to keep a secret. I am unsure about telling my youth group, though I know that none of us gossip or anything, but they would probably be very weirded out. It'd be for their sakes, not because I don't trust them.

4c. (net friend)?
Well most of you on dA, yes. I would tell all whom I trust. And yes, I trust a great deal of you. Anyone who actually talks to me as a friend would know as soon as I figured out how to type with talons. :3

5. Would you become a Hero or Villain?
Well... I think that I would be a Hero, but not someone with a sort of drum role or anything. I would work quietly and without any fame. I think I would feel like being a Villain at some time in my Hero career, but nothing big. I like to help, as you all know. :3

6. Will you hide yourself or try to live life as normal as you can?
I think that I would try to stick to my daily ruitines and try to sneak into town every now and then by shifting into a human-like species, though shifting into a human completely is nigh impossible for storm dragons. It'd probably end up being an elf of some sort, but I think I'd spend most of the rest of my life as inhuman as I could.

7a.There is a cure but...you have to leave on big journey.
I'm not for big journeys of my own. I'd rather hang out with my friends when they visit me, visit mermaid Epi, or have fun shifting through forms.

7b. ...you have to switch "species" with someone.
It would be a huge problem. I could switch speices with someone as long as I could still shift back to a dragon, but I think I'd be content. Afterall, I could just be an elf for a while. Who needs to be human?

7c. ...you have to turn a lot of people into whatever your character is.
:/ That's weird. Just weird and peculiar.

7d. ...you have to kiss your true love.
>w< I'd find it difficult to kiss with fangs.

7e. ...you have to drink medicine every once in awhile to avoid changing back.
Ew. Medicine. :/ Blech. I hate medicine, and it's definately not worth being human again. Well... neither of them are worth it. Being human again would be proposterous, and taking medicine for it would just be plain crazy. I hate medicine and I... ]]> ~Xalxin http://Xalxin.deviantart.com/journal/13928537/ http://Xalxin.deviantart.com/journal/13928537/ Sun, 29 Jul 2007 19:59:33 PDT Epiaruna's journal~

What's all the hoopla about?
~PhoenixAshesRats and *Peachfuzz have started a project that anyone may join. Though angled toward anthro artists in particular, it can be adapted for people who draw non-morphic animals. This is one of those things with no time-limit, the point of which is self-improvement and widening of artistic horizons. This is for anthro artists who would like to branch out and learn to draw new animals. It does not mean that you cannot draw your favorite animals or one of the Famous Four (explained below), but is meant to be done on your own time as inspiration allows.

It is also partially meant to combat the redundancy of the anthro genre here at DA. Sadly, over 90% of all anthro artwork submitted here consists of the Famous Four: wolves, foxes, felines, and hedgehogs (Sonic-style, but still). While there is nothing wrong with drawing these fine animals, it is a bit distressing to see a mere four types of animals dominating by such an overwhelming percentage, considering the wide diversity of non-human life on the planet.

What is the 10 Anthro Challenge?
The challenge is to resolve to draw anthros of ten unfamiliar creatures, based on suggestions from friends and watchers. You do not have to take the first ten, and people who suggest animals to you do not have to repost or partake of the Challenge. You may be selective and choose which suggestions you want to take, but you cannot deny all of them nor choose creatures you have done before for the Challenge. If you have not done one of the Famous Four (Wolves, foxes, felines, or hedgehogs), you may accept one or all of them as part of your Challenge.

What is considered to count toward the Challenge?
Mythical animals and extinct animals count, but fanspecies (Such as Pokemon and Zoras) do not. Original species created by your friends/self also do not count for this. You cannot do an animal you have drawn before as a part of your Challenge (But by all means, draw them if that's what you're itching to do at the moment!). Art trades and gift artwork can be put toward the Challenge. For instance, if you select, say, a jaguarundi as an animal for your Challenge and happen to know someone with a jaguarundi character, an art trade with or gift art to them of that character counts as having learned to draw that animal.

What should I do if I want to participate?
Copy-paste this information into a journal titled "10 Anthro Challenge", minus the paragraph below if you don't think it's important. Or rephrase the basics of it in your own words to shorten it up. Follow it with a list from one to ten, blank, titled "My Animals" or something to that effect. Feel free to fill several of your spaces with your own ideas before taking suggestions. Let the suggestions accumulate for a bit, choose ten (Or less if you've chosen some of your own) unfamiliar animals from the suggestions, then as you come by the time, anthro-ize them and watch as you learn to draw new animals and help to spice up the anthro genre here at DA! Please tell *Peachfuzz or ~PhoenixAshesRats that you have decided to join so they can add you to the list and send a few suggesters your way. Also, you can do more than 10 new animals if you wish, or do multiple rounds of the Challenge.

How can I help if I'm not an anthro artist or don't want to do this?
You can help spread the word. Tell anybody you know who might be interested. Also, come suggest strange creatures to those of us who are taking up this Challenge! We are keeping a list of people who have joined, so feel free to come to our 10 Anthro Challenge Journals and drop a suggestion for a cool critter you'd like to see as an anthro. We need all of the ideas we can get. Try to avoid cliche animals (red fox, etc.) or ones you see in the person's gallery already.

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EDIT
Ha ha wow people gave me lots and lots of suggestions! Well. I WILL try my best to fill out most of your wants. I intend to try each suggestion. IF you happen to have a suggestion that you would like to see from me, PLEASE I encourage you to add to the list! I really do like these challenges, so please don't hesitate or think it rude to add another suggestion. :]
Thanks, all!


1. Kirin
2. Llama
3. Hare
4. yellow weaver bird
5. polar bear
6. ferret
7. painted greenling
8. tree kangaroo
9.... ]]> ~Xalxin http://Xalxin.deviantart.com/journal/13917442/ http://Xalxin.deviantart.com/journal/13917442/ Sat, 28 Jul 2007 17:50:03 PDT 1. What's your favorite color scheme?
Hmm... Well, I tend to like rather dark red, a rosey pink, a sort of goldish yellow, and white together to make a very subtle and soothing look. I also like an asortment of monotone colors and purple together. Grey and red, I like a lot. And orange and black/gray is one of my favorites, as well. :3 I can never pick. I love them all so much!

2. How often do you draw?
Well, I draw whenever I feel like it. :/ Often times, it's very random. But... I would have to say that... 1/2 of my life is filled with drawing or sketching. :3

3. What are a few sources of inspiration for you?
Well, my muse Seth--who hates my guts--gives me many ideas, often times movies that I'm extremely love towards, and books. I suppose.

4. What draws you to fantasy art?
You can be as creative as you want with fantasy. Fantasy knows no bounds, and because it knows no bounds, you can be different than everyone else. For instance, I have many friends who draw, and most of them form a different image in their minds when I say the word 'kirin.' I like that. A lot.

5. Are there some new art tools or media you'd like to experiment with in the future?
Yes, I would like to work with acrylics and maybe watercolors every now and then. I am already exploring acrylics and watercolors, but I admit, I completely fail at both. XD
I would also like to use bristel board sometime.

6. Are you going to continue learning to animate? -because you're so good at iiiit! D:-
Thank you for the compliment. I do intend to learn more about animations and experiment with it, but it's not top-priority.

7. Can you describe your muses for us?
Heh, well let's see. ^..^;;; I'll try my hardest.
There's Seth. You've seen her before. She gives me concepts and images to go with them, but not drive at all cuz she hates me xD. You know now that she has dark purple hair, gray skin, and dark gray feathered wings, along with a birdie tail under her trenchcoat that she hates people touching (hence the coat).
Also I have Ferhin, a pretty elf from the far away lands of Middle Earth (which is most likely on a different planet). He has golden hair, blue eyes, is rather tall, and very light on his feet and wise in his words. He's also a sea-turtle, for those of you who have seen his stuffed animal that I gotsed for my birthday. :3 He's the one who helps me sit down and work with my skill and figure out how to shape the lines to create the desired effect. He also helps me with color-choices.
Kadaj is quick paced and shows me movement and emotion. He doesn't talk much. He is a horsie and has very pretty fur. Dapple Gray with black tips on his mane and a black tail with white tips. His hooves (strangely) are dark red and he has gray-and-white striped legs. He's blind... but he sees through different sense and often times can captivate through his eyes more than people who can see. It's kind of scarey sometimes. >..>
Neo. He's a spirit, so I can't really tell you a description accept that he's a floating glowy thing. ^..^''' I call him Max sometimes. He is my designer muse.

I think that's it. If I'm missing any, I'll bue sure to tell you. -always forgets at least one- XD

8. Favorite animal?
How dare you ask this question? lol, irl, probably a fox. Or a mouse... Perhaps turtles... or wait, there're horses and llamas. I like puffins, too... and owls. What about those precious cows? :/ This is why I hate this question. And if you mean mythologically... x..x I have NO idea. I like most of them! ^..^

9. How long does your average art piece take?
I guess it all depends on how much detail there is in it, how many colors I use, and how large the paper is. Usually, it's just one size, though, so that's my average I guess.
Pixelart--Mostly many many hours. I always loose track of the time, but I often look at the clock and I'd say around... 12-20 hours.
Traditional art-- (lineart) the sketch takes about 10 minutes, then lining takes around a half hour. (40 min) (coloring) takes a long time. Usually around... 3 or 4 hours. So. 3 or 4 hours and 40 minutes. :3
Photoshop-- Somewhere around 12 hours.

10. Plans for the immediate future?
Mourning the upcoming end of summer, murdering the guidance office for making me take a stupid class that I don't need, reading more than I have been, and drawing lots.

11. And the not-so immediate future?
Art college somewhere + major in psyc and languages... or a Nunery where I will definately study art and psyc and languages anyway. If I d... ]]> ~Xalxin http://Xalxin.deviantart.com/journal/13865161/ http://Xalxin.deviantart.com/journal/13865161/ Tue, 24 Jul 2007 19:45:40 PDT Shinerai and ~Neio6 I am going to conduct a FAQ... any question. :3 And yes, I will answer them all! Heh... I know I don't have that many watchers or people who would ask me questions, so my list will be rather small, but I really would like to answer!
Oh, and if you think a question may have already been asked, just ask again. :3
ASK ASK. NOW!!! lol
I'll reply in a different journal once I have more comments. :3

|friends| (in no particular order.)
http://Xalxin.deviantart.com/journal/13816077/ Sat, 21 Jul 2007 02:16:39 PDT Stability |||||||||| 33%
Orderliness |||||||||||||||||| 80%
Accommodation |||||||||||||||||||| 90%
Interdependence |||||||||||||| 56%
Intellectual |||| 16%
Mystical |||||||||||||||| 63%
Artistic |||||||||||||||||||| 90%
Religious |||||||||||||||||||| 90%
Hedonism || 10%
Materialism || 10%
Narcissism || 10%
Adventurousness |||||||||||| 43%
Work ethic |||||||||||||| 56%
Self absorbed |||||||||||||||| 70%
Conflict seeking |||||||||||||||| 63%
Need to dominate |||||||||||| 50%
Romantic |||||||||||||| 56%
Avoidant |||||||||||||||| 70%
Anti-authority |||||||||||||||| 70%
Wealth |||||||||| 36%
Dependency |||||||||||||||| 63%
Change averse |||||||||||||||| 70%
Cautiousness |||||||||||||||||||| 83%
Individuality |||||||||||||||||| 76%
Sexuality || 10%
Peter pan complex || 10%
Physical security |||||||||||||||||||| 90%
Physical fitness |||||||||||||||| 64%
Histrionic |||||| 23%
Paranoia |||||||||||||||||||| 90%
Vanity || 10%
Hypersensitivity |||||||||||||||||||| 90%
Indie |||||||||||||| 60%

Stability results were moderately low which suggests you are worrying, insecure, emotional, and anxious.

Orderliness results were high which suggests you are overly organized, reliable, neat, and hard working at the expense too often of flexibility, efficiency, spontaneity, and fun.

Extraversion results were moderately high which suggests you are, at times, overly talkative, outgoing, sociable and interacting at the expense of developing your own individual interests and internally based identity.

trait snapshot:
self revealing, neat, craves attention, prefers organized to unpredictable, needs things to be extremely clean, worrying, perfectionist, emotionally sensitive, respects authority, social, vain, does not like to be alone, likes large parties, controlling, social chameleon, not a thrill seeker, enjoys leadership, takes precautions, puts the needs of others ahead of their own, assertive, rule conscious, makes friends easily, always busy, heart over mind, phobic, aggressive, clingy, compassionate, dominant, outgoing, suspicious, hard working, strong

My comments:
Okay so wait. Who here sees me as vain? My vanity rate is 20%, but in the description it says that I am vain. Wha?
XD My intellectual level is really low. Ha ha ha.
Mystical? Wtc? Could someone PLEASE tell me where they see the 'mystic' in me? O..o The subject craves attention.
And um... I don't think I'm aggressive. Really, I don't. I do not get angry or irked easily in most cases. Oh wait, that may have been the question that I accidentally clicked on the wrong thing XD woo, go me.
Wow. Check my stability rate. x..x I didn't know I was that bad off.
um. Wow. Hypersensativity, low stability, and paranoia. And yet we wonder where Shinta gets her psych.
Ha ha ha. I seek conflicts. XD It's funny cuz it's true. >..<
Well at least I'm compassionate!

Anyway yeah. This stuff like... really explains me (with the aggresiveness addon). So yes. If you didn't know about the fact that I'm stupid before, here it is in plain sight. :3

oh, btw, if you want to take the quiz (It's fun!) here's the link: [link] And when you finish, there are other tests as well. :3 Yay, self-evaluation!

Enjoy. ^..^

]]> ~Xalxin http://Xalxin.deviantart.com/journal/13808041/ http://Xalxin.deviantart.com/journal/13808041/ Fri, 20 Jul 2007 11:52:53 PDT
3 orders at a time?

1.
2.
3.

Past icons

Ageaus, yours is ready to pick up. :3 Come onto YIM and I can give it to you!

la la la.
So, update on teh prizes, eh?
Welllllll

I have Kur's finished, and Aerinl's. And then I realized that I drew them in almost the same pose. >..< But they both look alright, so I'll be uploading them asap. Anoc, I'mma workin' on yer lineart of your kitteh. And Saa-sempai, I'm trying to figure out composition and such.

As for trades, feel free to note me any time. You can trade for an icon or a trad piece. Mich, I finished yours and will upload it asap, along w/ the two prizes I finished. Ed, Rosa-of-Alaska, and Neio, feel free to note me with discussion for trades. :3

Okay then. [end]

]]> ~Xalxin http://Xalxin.deviantart.com/journal/13760553/ http://Xalxin.deviantart.com/journal/13760553/ Mon, 16 Jul 2007 18:05:32 PDT For the first time in a Steubenville youth conference, there were two nights of Adoration. On the first night, I was randomly like... punched in the chest. LITTERALLY. By God's amazing love for me. Like... OMGOD HE LOVES ME. They took the Monstrance (the golden shining thing that holds the Eucharist) around through the isles and omgosh. The priest must have known. He stopped RIGHT BESIDE ME. And if that wasn't enough, he held it nearly RIGHT above my head. I was SO scared to touch it. I wanted to, but I just... I couldn't. So I crumbled in a heap of Shinta's body and tears. Okay, so... my own family can't even stay around me for an hour or two without yelling at me for something that I have done 'wrong' with. ((that night I found that the things that they yell at me for are actually the right actions for me to do.)) BUT BUT BUT God, in his Almightiness, can stay in the same room -coughtentcough- for a long, long time. Or at least, it felt like a long time. And He didn't yell at me. He said, 'Come. You are mine, and I love you." With the comparison... I just... I couldn't help breaking down into tears. Miss. Mary K. came up to me and prayed over me, saying that God loves me, and that no one can take away that love, cuz I was just crying, crying, crying. Honestly, I think my eyes fell out once or twice, and I am surprised that my contacts did not.
The next day I woke up without a headache from crying and I thought to myself, 'Oh, that's cool.' And then I remembered what I had been crying about and I was all like. 'O..O Wow. That's REALLY cool.' Blah, I had to save seats in the main tent at 8am (I went to sleep at 12:30ish, woke up at 1ish, and fell back to sleep at 3ish) so I was really tired. My alarm actually went off at 6:25, but I was all like 'Go awaaaaay. I am sleeeeping.' So it went away and Miss Pat woke me up all like 'come come, we must save seats!' Blarg. So I went and had two Danishes (omgosh they are amazing) and saved seats for the womens' session, then mass. Then we had lunch. Yum yum. Pizza. Then... something. Workshops, I think. And we had Adoration a second night (after dinner) and wow again.
Firstly, I was basking in the glory of God, and randomly, Jess goes, 'Are you okay?' And I realized, no, I'm not okay. So I said that I really need to lay down. Can you help me? So she did something very unexpected and completely moved from where she herself had been basking, and said to me, 'Here, lay down. Rest.' So I laid down, and immediately, I said to God, 'Dear LORD, I am tired.' And all of the sudden, I was in my City in the Clouds. For those of you who have heard about my City in the Clouds as a spontaneous answer to maybe where I was or something like that, there WAS a reason. It's where I wanted to be. It's my own hiding place. And Jesus was there this time, and He embraced me and said 'I love you. Please love me back.' So I hugged him and completely surrendered to Him. I'm in the back seat of the car, and He's driving. He. Is. In. CONTROL. He gave me all sorts of visions in which I can turn my art around, how I can give my art to Him, which is what I have been struggling over. He took my family problems, and my ness of being abused, and my unfaithfullness, and my pride, and EVERYTHING. I opened my eyes once and saw and heard people on the floor laughing. Laughing? Yes, that's good. But it was not of holiness. It was not from God. It was sent as a distraction by Satan, and they were his tools. I closed my eyes again and there was that distraction. I had trouble flying to my City in the Clouds. But God pointed to the way and said 'Follow me. I am the Way.' So I followed Him, and I surrendered even more. This is what we call resting in the Spirit, and that night, there were many who did. For the first time, I rested in His arms. And I was left with a sort of peace. I'm not depressed. I am not overwhelmingly happy. I am not concerned for my fat. I have not had voices talk to me as of... ]]> ~Xalxin http://Xalxin.deviantart.com/journal/13707405/ http://Xalxin.deviantart.com/journal/13707405/ Thu, 12 Jul 2007 11:37:46 PDT I hate my family. They're so shallow and selfish and self-loving.
I try to talk to my brother in a kind voice, and he twists every single word to show that he really doesn't care. And when he does care about my prescense, it's because he wants me gone. And then when I ask him nicely for something, he lies and makes up an excuse or reason of why I cannot use something or borrow something from him. I asked him today, 'I was going to send this email and then play Monster Hunter, cuz I won't be able to for a long while.' His response contained thus: 'No. You can wait till you get back. Meanwhile, I'm going to play because I don't think you deserve to.' What does that tell you about my family?
My sister is pretty bad, too. I ask her a simple question, 'What is that book about?' I get some smart-alec answer and then 'Read the back.' So I will ask if I can see the book. 'No! I'm reading it, can't you see? Why do you have to be so STUPID?' Then her friends talk about their siblings while I'm there, and once I leave the room, I can hear her saying really horrible things about me, even though I do try my best to please her.
My mother is probably the best of my family members. She just doesn't care. I told her about my eye hurting really, really, really badly cuz my brother randomly decided to punch me there and she went 'yeah, go away. I'm cooking dinner.' And then, only when I make her proud or flatter her, does she say 'I love you.' It seems like I have to earn her love...?
My dad. Oh boy. He's very self-loving. Very self-dignified. He complains and complains and complains about stuff that I put up with every day, and I have to listen even though I get it in bigger portions. He asks for many sacrifices of my own time and my own health, and when I ask nicely and even skirmishly for some help or a small, itsy bitsy sacrifice, like driving me to Borders and staying with me for an hour, he gets really mad at me and yells at me because apparently, I think I am more important than he is, and that I think that I deserve things. I don't think I deserve things. He makes it quite clear. I was just asking for a small favor... Is driving me to a friend's house (who lives five minutes away) too much to ask? Is taking me to the doctors for my intense eye pain too much? What about going two minutes up the street to get me batteries so I can take pictures? Or omg $7 so I can go to the movies with my friends. $7 must be a HUGE sacrifice.

-sigh- This is why I hate my family. This is how they treat me. This is also where I get the ideas that my best isn't good enough. And that I am not deserving. And that I'm a freaking looser. I try to be Catholic to them. But they reply with harsh secularism. Should one be judged by his/her own family? So I try to tell them, 'You're not being very Catholic.' And even though they can all point this out to me, I am not allowed to say anything in return.
Now do you see where I feel unloved? No friends could ever help that. I've lived with it for 15 years, and you'd have to be really, really good to erase all of that.

Yeah. So I hate my family. They make me cry. A lot. It's come to the point where it takes a lot to get me to cry or even let my eyes water up. But they do it. Every day.
That's my homelife.
I wish I lived alone.

Oh, and if you tell me to get a councelor, you've just earned yourself the silence treatment.

Thanks for reading.
<3 Shi

]]> ~Xalxin http://Xalxin.deviantart.com/journal/13697907/ http://Xalxin.deviantart.com/journal/13697907/ Wed, 11 Jul 2007 16:22:45 PDT So I am going to be turning my dragons and my characters more towards truth and/or holy intentions. This does not mean I won't role play. It's just, my characters will be more towards the holy side.
Densyl... um... she's a witch. >..> What to do about that... I don't know. I think I want ther to stay a witch, but I guess I'll also use her as some sort of muggle. I guess.
And Shin will still be a dragon and do dragon art. :] Dun worry bout that. My art will just be helping others or taking out random bursts of creativity rather than just for myself. Tada, revolution that might not work! Please put me in your prayers to become a better Catholic, and for God's grace to be put in me more than it is, because I can never stop asking for more of God's grace! It's just too amazing!

Righto, so I'll be away this weekend. I'll be going to a Steubenville youth conference in Attelsburro, Massechusetts. lol, my spelling SUCKS. But anyway, it's ironic cuz Steubenville is a town in Ohio, not Mas. lol
We had the premeeting last night, and now I am getting ready for it!

omg, btw, I FINALLY got # 8 of Faeries' Landing and DNAngel. But they didn't have 3 of Elemental Gelade. They had 1, 2, and 4, but not three. :/ It's a fairly new series, only up to four by now, but I want to keep up to date with it! I also need to start buying Bleach cuz a friend gave 1 and 2 to me for my birthday in June.

My first commission is finished. Tsuki picked it up last Saturday. -nod- I feel quite good about mahself. Though more commissions would be nice, seeing as I am a growing teen and am obsessed with buying things XD

>..> Shinta saw Ratatouille again. It was just as great as the first time! I advise taking a peek at it, and then staying for the rest of the movie, too XD

Oh, Epi, I saw a tatoo in the mall w/ ~The-Rena that reminded me GREATLY of you. Pink hair, your skintone, your eyes, your tailfin, EVERYTHING accept for a purple top. I was all like 'omg buy it!' Unfortunately, I couldn't get it cuz I didn't have enough quarters DX

Anyway, off to pack and perhaps dye my hair bright green. :3

|friends| (in no particular order.)
http://Xalxin.deviantart.com/journal/13609674/ Wed, 04 Jul 2007 16:13:25 PDT The-Rena. :] I miss having every day of school with her. ;..; But we had lots of fun last night watching fireworks and then visiting her family (who I greatly love), and then me sleeping over. We didn't play videogames at all! It's a miracle, and good for us XD We play games too much... Such nerds we are.
I'll be having her over Friday so we can see Ratatouille. ((again, for me)) Is it a bad thing that I really like that movie? When I say that I get such disguisted looks from people. I don't really care whether I'm being dumb or not, I just don't want to be annoying. :/
And tomorrow LP meets at my house at 1-3. But we're pretty loose with times. It's not like I have things to do. >..>
La la la. Do people still want their prizes? It's been so long. I have a few, but not all. >..< I feel so horrible about it.

So I was out vacuuming the pool today and my mom and my sister were out there with me, and I was on the phone with a friend, Amanda. Suddenly, mother comes up to me and goes 'Shinta get in here!' She was pointing to the gazibo we had just built and she sounded pretty urgent, so in panic and confusion I went under the gazibo. About a millisecond after I stepped into the gazibo, this HUGE cloudburst happened. omg, it was so scarey. We all thought it was hail, and we were under a tin gazibo that would surely fall if it was really hailing. Before the burst, I was paying attention to vacuuming the pool so I didn't see it, but mother and my sister said that it looked like a wall coming towards us. I felt stupid cuz in the confusion I dropped the vacuum to prop up against the deck and mother had to go out in the incredibly hard-falling rain to retrieve it before it fell into the water. :/ I thought she was injured from how hard that rain was coming down. Luckily, we all got out alright and I was able to vacuum the pool a little more before it starting thundering. Then I was all like 'holy crap I'm holding a huge lightning rod' and got out of the water before lightning started getting vicious. x..x

Oye.

Oh, yes. I suppose you want updates on my friend! Well, I went to youth group on Sunday night and I got lots of people to pray for her. We said Hail Mary's and Our Father's and unmemorized prayers and just prayed for her wellbeing. We asked God to take care of her in whatever choice she made, and to speak to her in some way.. So I was able to talk to her that night, and I told her about her role in this world and a bunch of things about beauty and the image of God. And it changed her decision. Can you believe it? I saved a life. I feel so needed and useful! I was deemed worthy enough to be used as God's messenger! It's such a step up for me...
So... this sounds stupid... and I doubt any of you will care enough to take delight in my happiness... In fact, you probably all look down at my conceitedness.
So I think I'll shut up about it now. -sigh-

But you know, whatever. I understand.

Thanks for reading, all. :]

|friends| (in no particular order.)
~Xalxin http://Xalxin.deviantart.com/journal/13558617/ http://Xalxin.deviantart.com/journal/13558617/ Sun, 01 Jul 2007 00:35:38 PDT Monday and Tuesday I play videogames all day long. Wednesday is a grouping at my Church where we hang out for four hours and go to the Chappel to pray for about one hour. Thursday was... boring. Till I randomly decided to have ~Striped-Flames over for the night. We had lots of fun. I got acrylic paint brushes (even though I SUCK at painting. Maybe I'll upload it...) and we went to see Ratatouille on Friday, opening day. The theatre was pretty packed... but it wasn't too rambunctious. It was enough to be comfortable in.
The movie was SPLENDED. I want it. It's a real work of art. Really, truely, for some reason I find beauty in it that I don't think other cinema projects (other than Tim Burtan's stuff and the Lion King) have in them. I must say... Ratatouille must be one of my favorite movies. I want to watch it again and again and again.
~The-Rena is at a concert. I forget when she will be back. But it's a long-term thing, so they're out camping. Oh dang I miss her. ;..;
But anyway, Friday was great. We came home from the theater and I had quite a headache from who knows what. So I went upstairs and rested for an hour then babysat for the rest of the night, and a little bit into the next morning. $30. How long? four hours? That's about right.
Saturday (today) was... boring. We went outside and worked. And worked. And worked. And when we finished putting up the panelling on the gazibo roof (we built a pool in our backyard) we all sat underneat it in rather uncomfortable chairs with our nextdoor neighbors, who had helped in the project.
I didn't want the pool. It's annoying me. Daddy says we all wanted it... but it's not true. I hate pools. I hate water. Ew. It even tastes bad. Pools, the beach, the ocean... it's just... GIR.
I don't mind boating. I love boating. I also don't mind the beach/pools/the ocean with my friends. But... with family...
Ick.

Also. My friend apparently wants to kill herself now. She just can't deal with it anymore... she has a pretty bad homelife, and life at school isn't much better, and she doesn't think with her acedemic excellence that she will get very far.
I tried /everythhing./ EVERYTHING under the SUN to get her not to kill herself. But she's pretty stubborn... I wish I knew a way to contact her... But I don't have anything. Urg... my best is just not good enough. I SUCK. I am a horrible firend! -goes off in tears- It's all my fault. It's always my fault. I couldn't help her.
She plans to do it on Monday... She says she'll give me a suicide note (via email) if she does it. -sigh-
I won't see her by Monday. It's between her and God now... May she have your prayers?

Please. Both she and I need your prayers...



|friends| (in no particular order.)
http://Xalxin.deviantart.com/journal/13445843/ Fri, 22 Jun 2007 11:15:36 PDT
Okay.
108 Deviations, 125 messages, and 5 notes.
I have 35 journals to read. I might end up just clearing them all. IF there is anyone with a journal that you want me to read, please note me (I usually check those first), but PLEASE don't comment here for that. Because I think I may just clear out all of the comments, too. As for the deviations, I am going to go through all of them maybe tomorrow, but I am not going to just click 'select all' and then delete them like I will with the messages that I have.

Other than that.

My friend totally bit my head off today. After stabbing me. And cutting off all of my limbs. Then they made me eat my fingers. THEN they bit off my head. UGH I'm so PISSED. So I'm in a bad mood. Which means I am pretty pushy and I don't listen well when I am doing badly.
Nor am I patient.
And I am starting to feel like tracking down all of the people who owe me stuff. And then biting their heads off. But I won't... cuz I am freaking used to bottling up my feelings. SO THERE.
Today I am impatient, sour, mean, cold, cruel, pushy, bitter, and moreover RUFFLED.
So I tried to oekaki after seeing some pwnful art that inspired me, and a story from my friend about a bird and a cake and saying thank you. But I looked at it about five seconds after I closed the window and OMG it's freaking ugly. So I am not uploading it. :/ Sorry, Saa... I know I told you I would, but it'd be utter humiliation. I already have it up on NDA and that's embarassing already.

SO I am going to go do my chores and throw things against the wall. I am flustered and my feathers have just been ruffled and UGH it's SO annoying. And then there were so many cars going into Planned Parenthood (the abortion clinic) that I wanted to sob my ears of (YES EARS get over it) and my singing sucked cuz I hadn't had a drink this morning.

So my day isn't going too bad. In fact it'd be a VERY good day. Clear skies (even though rain is better), warm weather, nice breeze, lovely happenings (like Fr. blessing the clinic and then getting yelled at XD), my brother has a cold, AND my friend decapitating me. :/ Marvelous. Simply LOVELY.

... -shot-

]]> ~Xalxin http://Xalxin.deviantart.com/journal/13312500/ http://Xalxin.deviantart.com/journal/13312500/ Tue, 12 Jun 2007 05:59:20 PDT ..<
So LP is meeting at my house on Thursday. The theme-fantasy. Mother says that we can hang out here as long as we want. For the entire summer!
XD but I might not be very alive. Shinta will be sleeping over at ~The-Rena's house the night before. OMG this will be fun!
Friday I am going to pray in front of Planned Parenthood, which is an abortion clinic, and at 7ish I am to go work at a carnival. ugh I hate working with food. I have to work with pizza. >| Ew ew ew ew ewwwwww. I mean I love pizza, I just HATE touching it.
>..> like spiders. <3 spiders.
So Saturday is my sister's graduation party, along with her boyfriend's. It is going to have little mini games that really bore me. If anything, they're annoying. But the Shinta must play little mini games to make her sister happy, so that's what she'll do. :/
Afterwards we are having relatives over! We barely ever see them, but I am stupid and forget who's coming over. XD
And right after that is a book burning! w00t! Goodbye school books! Of course, after keeping anything that I may /need/ for next year. Like my English binder. -purrs and pets it- Or my Spanish binder. @..@ Cuz we all know I am going to forget things if I don't have my Spanish binder. Which is very unorganized... I should oganize it, no? lol.

Then Sunday is Church and FATHERS' DAY! I think. :/
We are getting crabs for dinner. ^..^
Shhhh! Don't tell him though! It's a surprise.

Ha ha wow busy week. This is what Shinta does to keep her life up and running! Bwa ha ha!
Oh, sorry Chi. ;..; I can't have you over after teh party on Saturday. Mother says the week is too confusing enough. Idk... I am not having problems keeping track. 0..o But maybe next week. ^..^

Ahh! I miss getting on Yahoo. -melts- But I am listening to KHII music so it's all good. :]

Well... I received Pokemon Pearl for my birthday! I forgot to mention it in my last journal XD But does anyone have friend numbers for their Pal Pad that we could register? Yay and then set up a time and meet! I might be doing some random art of myself and my strongest pokemon, my Seth. Staravia I think. <3333 He is also my favorite! I remember when he was lv 4 and I caught him against my own will. XD And then I thought he was a girl so I named him Seth. Luckily, my muse has a boys name. >..>

So I wanted some goals! Like *WolfessEnchanted! Ha ha ha.
So here it is :
-save up enough money for 2 orders (*kalicothekat and *WolfessEnchanted)
-role play more
-draw the characters I said I would
-finish up with the contest prizes (wow overdue)
-improve on backgrounds
-improve on anatomy
-improve on coloring
-improve on contour lines
-work with markers (they've been gathering dust since Christmas XD)
-join more contests
-open more contests
-improve my voice (ah, it's ugly singingness. :/)
-stop randomly talking/typing to myself
-stop eating so much (gah I'm fat D: )
-keep myself from going emo
-be more appreciative towards my friends

If there are any more, I will be sure to update you all. ;]

OMG DON'T BUY FUR. @..@ ~TheDarkDragon posted a video in her most recent journal that made me want to barf. Auugh, I felt so nausiated after watching it. No, it's not because it disgusts me, it's just because I can imagine it happening to my dogs... and that... AH! I hate my imagination! -shoots Seth-
>only buy artificial fur. GOT IT?<

oh yes, and I am not eating today. Shinta was being bad, so she is punishing herself. NO FOOD FOR ME. >] I must learn self control so I don't do it again! >..> She says I didn't do it, but I do everything wrong. >| How can I not be upset with myself? I is worthless, and that's where my comfort zone is. Ha ha, sure it makes me feel like crap... ]]> ~Xalxin http://Xalxin.deviantart.com/journal/13280674/ http://Xalxin.deviantart.com/journal/13280674/ Sat, 09 Jun 2007 17:04:09 PDT My sister and my daddy weren't here... so it didn't feel all that special at first. I got to school, though, and I felt very loved. It seemed like everyone spent so much thought into what I might like for my birthday, even when I am pretty sure I told everyone that I did not need a gift. lol, one of my friends thought that Thursday was Wednesday and wished me a happy birthday on the seventh, and when I was confused she said, 'isn't today the sixth?' Heh. ^..^ I love you guys.
OMG I feel very loved!
It's a good feeling to know I am appreciated. ^..^ ((a new one, too.))
We got back from a restaurant called, 'The Roadhouse.' Heh, the title speaks for itself. Very nice food. Very, very nice food, and a wonderful atmosphere, too. If anyone ever gets a chance to go there, DO IT. And we went to Fudd Ruckers on my birthday... >..> I got their taco salad and O..O HUGE. You should all be surprised I ate most of it. YES I ate 3/4 of it! The mountain was larger than my torso... and I ate 3/4. I had the rest the next day for dinner. :]
And then even though it was not my birthday I still received gifts on Thursday. @..@ I did not know people cared that much.
You're all AMAZING friends! ;..; But poor Mandah-chan is moving away... I am going to miss her!

ALRIGHT. So... My peaches and salmon? I had them tonight. XD At 'The Roadhouse.' They tasted wonderful! I am so happy to finally have found my peaches and salmon! Dun worry, ~anzun. We will still have our picnic. ^..^ THAT IS if you still want to have it! If not that's fine. :]

WELL this weekend is VERY booked. >..> More than even during the school year. Yesterday was our last day (w00t!) and then fifteen minutes later I was picked up and my friend Marie and I went to an art museum and then to the harbor. Wow, lotsa walking. We had lunch, and ice cream, and then we were not hungry for dinner. We /did/ pay a visit to Barnes and Nobles and they have quite the manga collection. There are so many series I want to collect it's bugging the heck out of me. -pictures self being bugged the heck out of- Hey... that'd actually be pretty peculiar in a litteral sence. >..>

ANYWAY I did not get the walfer. I am going into English lv. 3 next year, without any electives, and a stupid PSSA remediation class. Which I don't need. AUGH next year will suck.
>..> And I hear a good humor ice cream truck... -cringes-
But uhm... Yeah, I am rather upset about that. But who cares. I just went through bargaining and that is the best I could get... they almost made me take away both of my chosen majors and I said ABSOLUTELY NOT. So I haggled for my majors, but that's as far as I could get. So I will be happy with what I have. :]

Okay so the girl who was indeed avoiding me wants to be friends again. And YES I am GOING to forgive and forget. Well... maybe not forget right away, but I will forgive RIGHT NOW. I know... you all think I am insane. Why be friends with the girl who just completely denied your existance? Why forgive and forget when she will most likely do this to you again? Why not just go the summer without worrying about her?
Well, it's quite simple, actually. I am that kind of person. I believe in second chances, and I believe in learning from our mistakes. Albeit... my trust in her is MUCH less than before, and I doubt I will be giving her any free artsies any more... I don't trust her with them... But my trust issues aside (she said she would be patient with them, so I am FORCING myself to believe her), I think this relationship was meant to be for the better, not the worse.
So I sent to her an email. Yay me! I am being brave! I just hope she does not want to be friends only because I want to. I hope she wants to be friends because she wants a friendship with me. Do you understand? Try reading it over again, because it's important.
If she just wants to be friends because I am granting her a second chance, then I'd be annoyed.
If she wants to be friends because she wants to know me as a person, then I will be quite pleased with giving her a second chance.
Hmm...

If it's the primier I will most likely not care and... ]]> ~Xalxin http://Xalxin.deviantart.com/journal/13157602/ http://Xalxin.deviantart.com/journal/13157602/ Wed, 30 May 2007 22:19:13 PDT I expect gifts. >]
Lol, not really. >..<
I just wanted to say that it's coming up.

Ugh, finals today. >| English and Oral Comm first.
You know what SUCKS?! They are thinking about not leting me into Honors English! D< Does ANYONE have ANY idea how excited I was for that class?! I almost bought the summer reading project books already. I am /that/ excited to start next freaking English level.
Sushi says I shouldn't go up a level. O..O I think I have the potential.
But apparently, Guidance Office DOESN'T!? Just because last year I did not do as well as this year? What the crap!? That's not FAIR. I want Honors English -so- bad. And if they don't let me have it, I am GETTING a walfer. SOON. They already made me drop computer graphic design. Now they want to tell me to drop English 4? Who do they think they are?! I want to major in English/language and art. I need to be the highest I can be in all three of them, and I am already.
Why won't they let me in? Because of stupid PSSAT thing, which I think only happens in PA. It's like huge tests at the end of the year in middle school. I did pretty well, if I remember correctly. I remember I got above average for most of them, the only one below average was math, which is usual for me so it's not like it's something to complain about.

>| Yes Shinta is upset.

The girl who I said was avoiding me told me yesterday that she is not avoiding me afterall and I am trying my hardest to trust her. But I can't. Her actions and words behind my back do not suffice. She is hoping, now, that I do not eat lunch with her. And she is all 'Look it's Shinta omg I luv Shinta' when I am the only one around and then when others are around she is all like 'let's ignore Shinta now because there's someone better around.'
Naw, I am not jealous. Don't get your thoughts mixed up. I am just confused. AM I or AREN'T I loved? Is the time she has with me alone just a mask? Is it just tolerance? Does she tell me she is not avoiding me just so I don't cry? Just so I don't hurt? Does she care? I have been trying to respect her dislike for my company and I think I have been doing a good job with it; not meeting her where we used to meet, not walking with her in the morning or in the afternoon, not bothering her between classes... all forms of respect for her not wanting me around. If she does not want me around, I will not appear.
AND who told her that I thought she was avoiding me? I would like to thank you graciously for the fact that I am always too skittish to go and talk to people about my feelings or their impact upon me. People scare me, friends not exempt.

Ahh, alas, finals tomorrow. I must be getting sleep. Thanks for reading, and do have a good day/night/afternoon/evening. :]

<3 Shi
Oh yeah, I forgot to retrieve the list of things... oh well. I am sure you guys would not mind missing it for once eh? >..>

]]> ~Xalxin http://Xalxin.deviantart.com/journal/13139769/ http://Xalxin.deviantart.com/journal/13139769/ Tue, 29 May 2007 15:04:11 PDT "demagoguery under the name Demosthenes while he" ~Xenocide by Orson Scott Card
>..> Demosthenes! One of my favorite names. <3

2.Stretch your left arm out as far as you can.
laaaalalala la la la!

3. What is the last thing you watched on TV?
>..> The last episode of the 3rd season of Lost?

4. Without looking, guess what time it is?
5:50

5. Now look at the clock. What is the actual time?
5:48

6. With the exception of the computer, what can you hear?
fan, car, family walking in the hallway, Craine, someone working outside, and Saa-sempai. <3

7. When did you last step outside? What were you doing?
About three hours ago, coming home from school?

8. Before you started this survey, what did you look at?
Uhm... I stole this from ~varunxypher >..>

9. What are you wearing?
girl's tee, camo kaprees, mismatched socks, chopsticks (in my hair)

10. Did you dream last night?
>..> more like nightmares

11. When did you last laugh?
Well, if you mean as a mask, while eating dinner about 20 minutes ago.
If you mean actual laughing because I am happy... >..> I dun remember.

12. What are on the walls you are in?
>..> I am not in a wall.

13. Seen anything weird lately?
Just like ~varunxypher said, the edit/delete buttons on the Journal entries section.
My reflection

14. What do you think of this quiz?
Oh, now we're being followed by rocks.

15. What is the last film you saw?
>..> Pirates III.

16. If you became a multi-millionaire overnight, what would you buy?
The poverty from the world.

17. Tell me something about you that I don't know.
-gasps- Uhmmmmmmmmmm.... I can't count to more than 999,999! ((in spanish. >..>)

18. If you could change one thing about the world, regardless of guilt or politics, what would you do?
We should all die...

19. Do you like to dance?
I don't dance, but I always feel bad when someone wants me to and I say that I can't. Cuz I really can't. and I won't. No matter what.
Even for a pocky stick!
>..> -watches you take out five pocky sticks- Cheater!

20. George Bush:
>..> Texan!

21. Imagine your first child is a girl, what do you call her?
Ailia!!

22. Imagine your first child is a boy, what do you call him?
Hmm... either Dante or Demosthenes or Locke. :]

23. Would you ever consider living abroad?
>..>

24. What do you want God to say to you when you reach the pearly gates?
I love you.

25.Tag six people who must also do this in THEIR journal
Nah, if you feel like it, enjoy yourself. ^..^

]]> ~Xalxin http://Xalxin.deviantart.com/journal/13124673/ http://Xalxin.deviantart.com/journal/13124673/ Mon, 28 May 2007 11:41:07 PDT
Stuck in my head... But it's a pretty song so that's okay. :]

I saw Pirates III last night. If any of you are going to see it any time soon, heads up for Jack's beginning appearance. Heh, it's quite hilarious, actually. Just be open. :] It will make sense soon.
But anyway, it wasn't what I expected it to be... In fact, I think they demented the triplet with the last movie. It did tie everything together like people said, but... it just... >..> It made it really stupid. I liked the first movie. If they hadn't added Davy Jones or anything it would have been better.
heh, the ending is funny though. ^..^
>..> And Elizabeth bugs me. A lot.

BWA HA HA!!! ~FearTheTwitch gave me Blender and Flash Player! >] I have been toying with both of them all weekend, Flash more than Blender. But that's because Blender randomly froze up on me and wouldn't save my ubber cool mecha-fish-sharkish thing! D: TT..TT But I did make a pretty rose on Macromedia that I am going to upload as soon as Twitch tells me how to resize and save as a gif. :]
Thanks Twitch. <333

OKAY so to actually get with the title of this journal, I need help with my world cultures project!!! D: I can't figure it out! I mean... I know exactly what I have to do but it isn't working.
Oh wow I just found what I need... -copies it down- >] yay!
But now I have two more things to do... I have to make a handout for the class and make it creative, and I have to make a section of our entire speech for it. ;..; I need Russian modern history... and it's not WORKING. TT..TT
Yeah if anyone can help, I would appreciate it /so/ much!


[update]
Trades: reserved slots open
1. Reserved for *Michatah
2. Reserved for ~the-dark-dragon
3. Reserved for ~Rosa-of-Alaska
4. Last reserved for ~Neio6

Completed Trades


Contests
- [link] - need to figure out theme
- [link] - trying, not succeeding
- [link] - need to start


Prizes
/Kiriban (1K)/Rose/redo/lineart done
AND contest prize/Rose and Kuron/started coloring
~Xalxin http://Xalxin.deviantart.com/journal/13053608/ http://Xalxin.deviantart.com/journal/13053608/ Tue, 22 May 2007 16:51:25 PDT anzun ) and I are going to have a picnic with peaches and salmon! That is, when the peaches are back in season. I am very excited.
Speaking of which, VISIT NII-CHAN'S PAGE! >D I would very much appreciate seeing you all there. :] If not... -takes out sythe-

And yeah. I was able to yoink my internet back. >] Aren't you all happy? I have been able to be on for three days in a row without getting yelled at! OMG! lol, I hope it stays this way. :]

So uhm yeah. New friend! her name is Twitch. :] Dun worry, like most of my other friends, I will probably have my own name for her soon enough. visit!
AND visit Rena's too! >D If you don't visit ALL THREE of their pages... -gets out a chainsaw- Understood, yes?
Oh yeah and, ~anzun and ~The-Rena, I am going to see if mother will let us all go to see Pirates III together. I already asked and it will, again, like always, take persuading. :/ But I am sure I can do it! My sister wants to see it Sunday after youth group and then I guess you could both sleep over... but I am not sure yet. DON'T quote me on it please! I am just letting you know to keep your scheduals open just in case! <3333333333

KURKURKUR I don't mean anything by changing my icon! Just so you know... I just thought that it's been there for a little while and change isn't bad. If your feelings are hurt, I am willing all in all to change it back. :] Just say the word, luv.

But this journal isn't for advertising other artists. >..< I just thought that I should put them up cuz Nii and Rena are fairly new and Twitch is just amazing. :] Tada! <3

So yeah this week lots of betrayals have happened. One webfriend ranted to a new friend of mine and now I have lost all and any trust I had in her... because she ranted about me. Me and all my spiffy problems. :/ AND the girl said that she tried to make me look bad, as well. She and I are now friends... but I still think the origonal friend owes me for spilling my beans. ... She should buy me some new beans...

And I have had this feeling for a long time that one of my friends is just annoyed by my prescence. Hmm... I had to learn from another friend that my notion is true and has been for a while. We were perfectly fine before... I don't know why she has a sudden dislike for me. The worst part is that she is one of the most important people in my life... Thusforth, my trust can't easily be distributed anymore. She knows way too much about me to just... leave. But whatever. I still love her, even if she doesn't love me back. I am just depressed because I have never actually had someone try to avoid me before. I have had people dislike me and people who hate me, but never avoidance, and from a friend, too. But she's a complicated one. :/ And I might say, rather... grounded as well. She acts upon current circumstances and doesn't necesarily pay attention to what others feel about what she says or does. Hmm. I guess she doesn't care about what happens to me? -sigh- I wish someone would tell her how I feel. I am not brave enough to do it myself.

My friends... they all take... take till there's nothing... nothing left but a broken soul... A frozen soul... I've never felt so cold. I find they are silent, I found they have left me... on an empty beach of only faith... faith doesn't last forever. I scream... deeper I want to scream... but why don't they hear me? Why can't they find me?

I have horrible cramps so my hormones are going berserk. I guess it makes me feel worse.
But Jen played with my hair today. :] And so did ~The-Rena. And I carried chopsticks around all day to put in my hair.
And mother finally got me another gel pen so I can start doing lineart again.

I am playing with clay! >] Happyclay. clay really calms me down... We have to do a sun mold for sculpture class, and it's turning out pretty well. I think I should have carved [i]into[/i] the clay instead of adding onto... ]]> ~Xalxin http://Xalxin.deviantart.com/journal/12954329/ http://Xalxin.deviantart.com/journal/12954329/ Mon, 14 May 2007 14:34:22 PDT
Shinta's sad to say that she won't be on for some time. 'cause her internet decided to walk away. We dunno how. She says somethin' about her Daddy being a ninja and influencing it..somehow...but...


Shinta's off chasing penguins for the Secret Clan of Ninjas That You Don't Know About Because We're a Secret Clan of Ninjas. so...Thus is her dilema.

Shinta luffs you all and misses you muchly <3

]]> ~Xalxin http://Xalxin.deviantart.com/journal/12922009/ http://Xalxin.deviantart.com/journal/12922009/ Fri, 11 May 2007 21:58:35 PDT Fun facts!
... feet smell funny... (I got nuffin, sorries. ;..; )
[/fun]

Still want mah peaches and salmon... Hopefully, once ~anzun and I get a club started so named Llueve-Papillon, which is Spanish-French for Raining-Butterfly. ^..^ Shinta wore a butterfly to school today in its honor! Mwa ha ha! >D
And she has a boggle head of a butterfly. Hee hee. My brother got it for me one year and I love it SO much. <3333
We're almost done being organized yay! I am so excited to get this started!

As for my homelife, it just keeps seeming to tumble downhill. :/ Mother has taken to randomly taking away crap, forgetting she took it away, and then punishing me for random things that I am falsely accused of. Lately, I have not been able to work outside on the deck we are building due to a large amount of stress and confusion in the rushed lessons we get at school. Rushed lessons because finals come in 10 DAYS. @..@ That's my school life, with transitions to make it sound like I just kind of ended up there. XD Okay, not really. I just kind of ranted. 0..o Like I am now.

We had a math test today... I skipped two problems and did not have time to go back on them. One of them, I was not in school to learn about, and the other I just kind of... skipped. 0..o Couldn't figure it out.

Lori thinks I am angry at her... I am sad now. ;..; I was so distant today and I just couldn't laugh and try to be someone I am not around her, but I can easily deceive others because they are not as precious as she is to me. I guess she took it as 'I can laugh around others, but I am mad at you so I can't laugh with you.' Bad bad bad connection... I am trying to find ways to make it up to her, because I really did not mean that. I am thinking we will go see PotC III together, unless she is seeing it with another friend. I will update you later... And if you don't mind, I will make it a major edit, not a minor edit, so it will turn up in your inboxes. Is that alright?

And now I have people who are angry with me for not having money for lunch... I tell them and they get concerned and angry that I may not be eating lunch. Thank you, gracious Rena, for paying for two of my lunches so far. I don't know when I will be getting money again, cuz we are a little bit short on funds considering we are building a pool/deck/gazibo/furnature. I will see when I can pay you back for your precious hospitality, and tell me when you need the money. I will do my best to retrieve it from somewhere...

On Wednesday I was not at school for a summit that I went to at the library in the city close to here. It's called Martin Library, and it was closed for just us. It was for students who are interested in art in some way or another. They even had salsa dancing! I did not take part, because I cannot dance worth scratch, but I went through Web Design and Drawing. Web Design was interesting. I was able to make the current page for Llueve-Papillon and get the url wrong so it makes it seem like it is my own website. XD Go Shinta. Then in Drawing, it was rather dull... Mike Hawthorne, I think his name was, was talking to us about what will be expected of people who are actually interested in being somewhere in the art field as they grow older. He talked mostly about gesture art, which is a lot of fun but kind of annoying after a while. Make sure you read his comic! I don't remember what it is called though. :/ Sorry, people.

It was a nice getaway from school, but when I came back, no one seemed to really care that I wasn't at school on Wednesday. Amanda and ~wyndsilver were both worried, and Andy wrote a bunch of co-hesive poems dealing with the fact that I was not at school and he was worried. Andy's poems made me feel much better about myself. They got me smiling and somewhat away from how distant I was feeling because they were increadibly sweet. I will have to thank him tomorrow for how kind his words are to me.
And I think that only helped Lori think that I am angry with her... -sigh- I could not smile because of her... but from another person. I don't want to hurt her feelings.
When I asked her if there was something I could do to help her [i]know[/i] that I am [i]not[/i] angry with her, and that it would take quite a bit for me to feel that sort of emotion towards her, she shrugged and I started to brush her hair to see if that would help any...
But she did not seem very happy to see me, either.
Now I am wondering if she is a... ]]> ~Xalxin http://Xalxin.deviantart.com/journal/12791186/ http://Xalxin.deviantart.com/journal/12791186/ Mon, 30 Apr 2007 14:09:13 PDT Fun facts!
It takes 8 seconds for the human eye to adjust to large differences in lighting. For example, it's dark and a light is turned on. It will take 8 seconds.
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JUST GIVE ME SOME FREAKIN' PEACHES AND SALMON!!!! D<

Uwaaaaaah, Shinta's doing math homework! It stiiiiings! D: And I dun understand. Maybe I should not have been writing notes while the teacher was teaching. They'll never know it was me. Anyway, the things that I don't understand are really stupid. XD They are basic algebra. 0..o Cuz Shinta's stupid like that. -..-

OMG a thought came across my friends and me at lunch today! >D Scarey, no? Well, in this case, it is kind of strange. xD Rabbitstu was all like 'hexadragons!' and I was all like 'OMG hexadragons!' and then she goes 'Shinta is a dragon!' and I said 'But I'm not a hexadragon!' and then she said 'What type are you?!' and I yelled back 'I am European! OMGGASP Shinta should be a hexadragon!' >..< Yup. Frightening.
So I am a hexadragon now. Not just a dragon. But a hexadragontaur thinger. 0..o I will draw teh new me soon. XD I got tired of being a regular dragon. 8D

Today I got my official new perscription. Took them long enough. >..< But yeah, I have trials in now. I should change them... but I don't feel like it.

I hope daddy gets home late. If he gets home soon, I am not going to have my homework done for tomorrow and I won't be able to reply to whatever email Lori decides to send to me. We always have interesting things to say to each other, and we both enjoy listening and learning about each others' lives, so it's all good. <3 We just keep learning about each other. It keeps us both going, I think.

UWAH! I went to youth group last night and went to Confession! I feel SO much better! Fr. Dave is really quite nice, and he is wonderful at convincing things to people. He told me that I was saying that God was lying. Uwah?! I didn't mean that!!! So he gave me my Penance and I prayed it, and now I feel as though the things that I touch don't have slime all over them anymore. I still don't feel worthy of God's enourmous love and mercy... but I have to accept it because it's what He is going to do, and I can't stop it, no matter what.

-..- My Zune died last night in the middle of Billy Joel. I got mad at her.

SAA-SEMPAI!!!! <3 I need to know what you want for your contest prize. Note meh!

KUR!!!!!! ...<3

It was sunny today. I wanted rain.
And I am having a lot of mood swings today. First period, drowzy and hyper, then study hall and I was kind of sad, then third period and I was still sad, then fourth period and I was hyper and excited about... ?, and then fifth period I was paranoid and having fun with thoughts of Shinta being a hexadragontaur, and then sixth period I was sad, seventh period I just wanted sleep, and then eighth period I was sighing and depressed.
Bwa ha ha! Shinta has spring fever! >D

[update]
Trades: reserved slots open
1. Reserved for *Michatah
2. Reserved for ~the-dark-dragon
3. Reserved for ~Rosa-of-Alaska
4. Last reserved for ~Neio6

Completed Trades



Prizes
http://Xalxin.deviantart.com/journal/12734906/ Wed, 25 Apr 2007 19:12:35 PDT Fun facts!
8D Shinta has the memory span of a goldfish! aka 3 seconds!
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>..< I still want peaches and salmon. A lot. Ooooooh, the want for just some darned peaches and fishy salmon groooows every day! D: I also want hot dogs now. And I am starting to randomly talk in Spanish. 0..o Is this a bad sign? >..< Lauren says that I can write notes to her in Spanish. She tried to translate today and came up to me with the most adorable voice. "Translate!" I couldn't say no. xD

You know what really scared me today? We were getting off of the bus and a police car had his sirens on and whoo, we stopped. But he also stopped. So Rakel (rah-KEll) and the police car both started going at the same time and Rakel almost got run over! It was frightening and scarey. I was almost run over once as well, and whew. It's not fun.

Sister and I went to protest today against abortions! It made my fingers numb and cold and whew. I couldn't move them for the longest time. Then I took a shower is some steamy water and it was all good. ^..^ OH and it rained today. It made Shinta very happy. She didn't have any time to be a nerd today, though. ;..; oh wells. ^..^ She has off on Thursday, so she can spend Thursday being nerdy and wheeish!

0..o I have 4 birthdays to draw things for. I have 2 days to finish them. I really should be working now... but my hands keep cramping from being out in the cold rain and crisp wind. Holding a stopsign that said 'Stop killing eachother.' ~Striped-Flames's dad drove by. He didn't see me though. ;..;

btw, Chiiiiii-chan! Mother and Father are deciding upon whether I can attend to your fiesta or not. I don't know when I can get back to you, but I am working on it! <3 What do you want? I might just end up drawing for you a picture and getting for you something with money. :/ Nothing made this year, sorry. I am not that crafty. xD

OMG Friday comes up! I am going to see 'Disturbia' with Lorigryph (please don't call her 'lori' or anything based upon it) and then I am sleeping over there. People think we are lesbians. XD It's funny.
...
ADMIT IT. You have a gay crush, too. 0..o Everyone does.

PLEASE open a trade! I won't be able to work on it until all birthdays are done, but trades ARE open and I want to do something with my time! I have so much of it aside from school I barely know what to do with myself.

Oh, yeah, Kur? Think you could continue your post on M-H? I want to continue role playing. >..<

[update]
Trades: open!
1. Reserved for ~Michatah
2. OPEN!!

Completed Trades



Prizes
/Kiriban (1K)/Rose/redo/lineart done
AND contest prize/Rose and Kuron/started coloring
contest prize/Mocha/redo/fin, need uploaded
contest prize/night time kitty/lineart fin
~Xalxin http://Xalxin.deviantart.com/journal/12655437/ http://Xalxin.deviantart.com/journal/12655437/ Thu, 19 Apr 2007 13:43:26 PDT Fun facts!
Yesterday was the Day of Silence for those who believe in gay rights.
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I am so nervous on Meiko-Hoshi. I dun wanna post in the wrong places. ((Meiko-Hoshi is teh AWESOME pwnsome 1337 site of teh *WolfessEnchanted's. LOOK AT IT.)) And... yeah. Kurrrrrr, we need to start the plot, but I am scared. TT..TT

Yesterday was my friends birthday! Dante turned 15 yesterday and I am sad. Don't ask why. I just am... and it isn't going to change. Not for a while now.
Rena told me today that Lauren wanted a -big- hug because she is having some issues right now. I know what they are, but they are not mine to tell, and therefore, I will not say what they are. But then I started to get a fever and VERY dizzy. So I went to the nurse right after lunch--as soon as we got into the classroom--and they gave me advil and gave me permission to come back if I needed to. So I did, and ended up staying the entire class period and copying notes most of the time. Today was the same except without the nurse visit... I still have a high temperature, but I wanted to go to school because of a test in math and a review in world cultures, along with a project in science class that I actually participated in today. ((Yesterday I sat on the floor trying not to fall down and getting in the way.)) And to see friends, claro. ^..^

As of the news, Lauren is feeling much better with the problems she has been facing. She said that a lot of her friends want to punch her boyfriend for not noticing these problems, and I am very glad she is feeling better. However, she is very sick now. TT..TT Allergies, as I understand.
Rena and I are going to make up drawing/painting class together because the Shinta missed a couple of classes and is very behind. TT..TT I to get a pass tomorrow morning, and then we will be happy! I am SO glad we have so many classes together this year, and I hope it stays the same way next year. I hope I see a lot of my friends in most of my classes; that would be PWNSOME. >..< Go, go, friends!
If you are wondering why I am in such a good mood, I am happy! ^..^ They outlawed partial birth abortion either today or yesterday. I don't know if it's just in PA, or if it's throughout the US, but I find it as a step towards where I think the government should be. Mother told me that it was because there are 2 new judges in the -Senate?- who are Republican and support life. <3 This is spiffy! Most of my friends are happy about the subject as well, and most of my teachers are happy as well. Well... I is a devout Catholic, so yesh, I look forward to the next stop towards the ness of not killing babies anymore. <3

I am craving peaches and salmon. I had a bunch of chocolate the other day, so I am not craving them anymore. BUT OMG peaches and salmon! TT..TT Why peaches and salmon?! Couldn't it be something we have... like oreos or potato chips? But noooo, things we never get. Salmon and peaches. They don't even taste good together. >..<

Shinta is hyper from nothing! <333 I bet you love it, don't you. PEOPLE SHOULD GET ONTO YIM!!!!

Oh yeah, and what do you think of doing a closeup of some mushrooms as a sketch for my art class? We are doing tile-drawing, and I expect to have fun! It's basically the making of stamps and yay! Stamps! 8D I wanted to do mushrooms. >..<

BTW Trades are OPEN and yay! I <3 trades. ^..^
The old me is back! I dun wanna be sad now! 8D

[update]
Trades: open!
1. OPEN!

Completed Trades
http://Xalxin.deviantart.com/journal/12619615/ Mon, 16 Apr 2007 13:56:09 PDT Fun facts!
Litterally, a fag's definition is a 'bundle of sticks.'
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A question... Is my name, Shinta... Is it... stupid?

I don't feel like doing any of my homework. I wish it to burn. And then smell bad. And then the smell will get pwned by monkeys throwing fruit at the fire. And then the monkeys will burn and it'll all be better.

Yeah. I am just about through with it. Lori and I NEED to find a time that we can have some one-on-one time together. I think we'd get very far with a lot of different aspects. Every time, though, something pops up. This weekend, I have a concert to go to... Which is really quite disapointing. I think she thinks I keep changing my mind about wanting to go to her home... She keeps double checking. I don't know why, I guess I just change pretty randomly and pretty quickly, but everyone knows I do things when I say I will do them... okay... maybe not on the line of art... but... that's against the point.

I feel bad. I keep spontaneously yelling at people and avoiding people. I don't mean to... but I am in that kind of mood and probably will be for a long time... until someone helps me get out of it. There are only a few people who can do that, and they are either gone, have died, or are never around. So yeah. Woohoo, yay homework. -sarcasm- I am going to go work on mah proj now.

[update]
Trades: closed (still on haitus)

Completed Trades



Prizes(I has a block...)
/Kiriban (1K)/Rose/redo
AND contest prize/Rose and Kuron/need to start
contest prize/Mocha/redoing
contest prize/night time kitty/need to start
contest prize/design on charrie/pending

Collabs: Note me
1. sushi wars

2.

3.


Gift Art
::Lorigryph:: Black grypon w/ fire :: -studying how fire is over long distances
::Kur:: Birthday present :: will finish sometime this week.
:ante:: Birthday present. ^..^ I just need to color it, maybe slap on a background, and find time to put it up.

Past Gifts
http://Xalxin.deviantart.com/journal/12468775/ Thu, 05 Apr 2007 10:24:11 PDT Fun facts!
French fries were actually invented in Belgium, not France.
The myth is NOT true that if you put a stamp on a helicopter's rodder it will crash dramatically. Actually, it takes 6,000 stamps on a model of a helicopter for the model to crash.
Mentos/Coca-cola rockets don't work.
[/fun]

I hate it when I introduce friends to other friends and watch their friendship progress. I am NOT saying this because I am mean! I always get scared of them then because I don't know what they are saying behind my back... I am paranoid? I know that friends don't do that to each other. I know I don't. But still the fear resides. I have NO idea where the paranoia came from... but I don't like it... and I think it's breaking up some relationships with a couple of my friends.

Lauren goes camping tomorrow morning. In 34degree F weather? I don't understand her parents' logic...
And Rena can't come over because her cousin is visiting her. This is going to be one boring break. No sleepovers, from what I can tell. and the stupid school is only making it 4 days. Half a day today, tomorrow off, the weekend, and Monday off. Then we're back to school again. UGH. Can't they give us a little more chill time? ((science class joke XD))
. . . I want someone to come over... Someone from school, preferably, with the same tastes as me. And can deal with me without videogames. -just about dies- It's almost over! Almost over! I can play videogames on Sunday! AAAAAAAAAAAAUGH! Shinta was watching her sister Kagura play Harvest Moon today. TT..TT She wanted to snatch the controller SO badlly! AYAH! Going six weeks... without... VIDEOGAMES! UWAAAAAAAAAAH! I want to play KH... And then KHII... And Zeldaaaaa! -goes off and cries in a corner-

. . . I miiiiis herrrrrrr! TT..TT D< why do my dreams ALWAYS seem to come true?! Neh. I will see her again someday...


[update]
Trades: closed (still on haitus)

Completed Trades



Prizes(now on haitus)
/Kiriban (1K)/Rose/redo
AND contest prize/Rose and Kuron/need to start
contest prize/Mocha/redoing
contest prize/night time kitty/need to start
contest prize/design on charrie/pending

Collabs: Note me
1. sushi wars

2.

3.


Gift Art
Lori

Past Gifts
http://Xalxin.deviantart.com/journal/12449069/ Tue, 03 Apr 2007 19:50:35 PDT
Fun fact for the day
When you laugh, you produce a chemical called an endophin, and when that happens, it puts you into a lighter and better mood. This is why we always seem giddy after we laugh. Endophins are also known as our 'happy chemical' because of the fact that it makes us go into a better mood.



Yay! Today started out really well! Yesterday was a good day as well. And today continued the mood until around 5th period... when I already had at least 2 hours of hw on my shoulders. By 7th, I had three more. And then... Eighth period... I didn't even start to do that homework. I to copy it from Rena. TT..TT I spent three hours on math. @..@ Woo, go Shinta for not understanding any of it! And the world cultures map took FOREVER. But it was just a bunch of search-and-find, and even though it was frustrating, it wasn't confusing like math. I can't really do much for sculpture... I have to ask people questions first about myself.
English was really boring. We had to read Ch. 9 of A Tale of Two Cities by Charles Dickens. -snores- Boooooriiiing. But interesting. If he were just a little less wordy and better at getting the point across, his book would be just fine. I don't mind that he likes to describe things, but must he say things in such a roundabout way? He beats around the bush too much. Most kids don't even understand the storyline anymore. I do. But they might not.
-yawns at Spanish- Quite easy, yes, quite easy.

Anyway, the Shinta hasn't been on here in a while. TT..TT Sorry for that! I haven't really drawn much of anything. I haven't seen any point. I have no idol. The person's work that I am starting to like more and more to the point of idolitry (gosh, it sounds like a sin) is WAY out of my league. I am swamped with homework and tests. Shi is trying to find time to role play to ease her nerves a bit, but it hasn't been working. All the good role plays are from way back when, and Kur should get on so we can make a plot for MH. (meiko-hoshi, her roleplaying site.) I don't really see a point in continuing school. I have no idea where I want to go to college, though my daddy says that I am to go to Maryland Institute of Art, which is a top ranking art school apparently. I thought I could PICK my college. Apparently not. Oh, and now mother says that I am only allowed a single hour in my room each day, unless I am overkill with homework like today was. ONE FREAKING HOUR!?!?! I am upset. But I don't care. I will stay on and get her angry with me, and she will start to get annoying. Then I will get angry with her and vuala. Neither of us are happy with each other, but I am happy with my time-schedual.
I want to go bike-riding with someone. Rena, we're going bikeriding Thursday after school. (j/k)

Our literary magazine is going to be RUINED. There's a girl in Intervisions who thinks she can run the place all by herself, even if she is not the leader. Mr. Fulton, the TEACHER is the leader. We are just the committee. 'Professional magazines are this way and I think we should have sections and blah blah blah.' #1, We all voted no to that idea. #2, We don't WANT to be pros. #3, It's not just for her. It's for US too! And for the rest of the school! #4, Sections are boring.

Ayah, my life feels like a heap of twitching rubble. I want a pet goat. I want Pokemon to be more like the first season. I wish the girl in Intervisions would shut up. AND IXIS SHOULDN'T HAVE PINK EYES. D< Neopets needs to have Ixis that don't have pink eyes and pink collars. Shinta HATES pink, but luuuuuuuvs teh goats. <3333 They were Dante's favorites! Goats, that is. XD And Reid didn't like Neopets. But that's okay! <3

Yeah. I HAVE been working on prizes! 8D Like, wow! Procrastination is usually what I do. I didn't think I would get them done any time soon, but I might. Then again, I might not. XD It's already past my second Kiriban, and I still haven't rewarded teh Kur for her kiriban catch! TT..TT Sorry, mah luv! I have been working on it along with other prizes! However, Easter break is coming up shortly, so I may get a bunch done then!

Sofia's friend is going to have her baby soon! His name is going to be Dante. What a coincidence. It makes me sad, but I am happy to find that Dante's name has been passed on to a baby of my friend's friend. ^..^ I WANT PICS! He is to be born soon. I am not sure when... but soon say the doctors.

The Shinta blocked out today. In graphic arts class. Mr. Zimmerman, thankfully, didn't yell at her this time. He's so frightenning... YO! Ppl at Dallastown! Don't EVER take graphic arts if you don't do well under pressure! TT..TT Scarey teacher. 0..o I am... ]]> ~Xalxin http://Xalxin.deviantart.com/journal/12368622/ http://Xalxin.deviantart.com/journal/12368622/ Thu, 29 Mar 2007 14:06:14 PDT
Augh, I have finally become chipper again, and then people start talking about how people are depressed! Like... Cheese's grandmother died and her funeral is on Saturday. And
Kur's uncle just had a heart attack... and Lori's dog died... and Manda's cat is sick with cancer... Blu-kun is all like 'I can't take it any more!' And then I'm here and I am complaining that I miss Yuki and Reid and all those people in my life that have decided to leave me. D: My heart hurrrrrts! TT..TT I want to go cry more... And people are starting to throw random crap at me at school... The little-- D< I'll take it for a little bit, but when they actually mean it, I just want to slap them. I almost did that today in gym... I almost went over and started having a cat-fight... but then I would have done that in front of Jen... who acts like my keeper as though I am a zoo animal. Manda twisted her ankle today. I walked her to the nurse so she wouldn't have to walk through the school hopping on her right leg.
And Amanda's (a different amanda) friend's baby is going to be named Dante. Yuki's real name was Dante. It makes me want him around more. I miss his hugs... I haven't dreamed about him lately. And it makes my necklace heavier. Much, much, much heavier. My heart burns and makes me want less food. I'm not getting the nutrition that I need, and I am almost 10 lbs underweight. I don't mind, I'd rather be 10 lbs underweight than 10 lbs overweight. But it burns... and the rest of my organs are melting under the liquid heat that my heart seems to radiate. It's keeping me up late, and I stay up until around 3/4 AM just because my heart hurts and it won't let me get to sleep. Listening to a bunch of sad music isn't helping... but I want to listen to sad music, and I think that it's kind of what I need to make sure I don't go all emo.

And then there's Jen... And she's all like 'What's wrong, Natalie?' and I'll just go, 'Nothing much.' And then she'll stop walking and corner me. 'You can't get away with that, Naachi.' 'Oh yes I can.' -pushes her and walks away- I am NOT a tool, animal, or some sort of control device! She should get a dog or something if she wants that. But I am NOT to be treated as though it will help. Because it's not. And it won't. And it never will. And she's so arrogant that she thinks she can fix everything by yelling and setting standards that really could tear a person appart. If she wants to yell at something, she should go find a stress ball to rip appart instead of my feelings.

However...

Lori said that she wants to be more like me. I was all like '0..0 WHA?!' and she goes 'Huh? Did you ask Why?' And I nodded, because it's all I could do from utter shock. 'Because you're always smiling, you're so loving, and it feels as though you never have any problems.' '0..0' 'Are you okay, shi?' '...?!?!?!?!!!!!!??11//' ...? WTFEATHERS?!! 'Shi... Seriously. Are you okay?' 'But the...?!' That made my day, though. And seeing such joy in her face when I make random noises is really soothing to me. ^..^ She also likes it when I wiggle my nose... Kinda like in Bewitched. She smiles so much when I do those two things, and when I make expressions like 'uwah' or 'kweh?' because I have a 'cute voice that's pretty but soft.' O..O It was scarey... I have never been told that before. And then she gave me a kiss and I was all like 'uwah!?' and she giggled and said I was cute again. Apparently, I make a lot of people giggle cuz I'm... 'cute?' Kur says I'm cute... Saa-sempai says I'm cute... Lori says I'm cute... my parents say I'm cute... 0..o How many people do I really freak out? ((Yeah, I'd like it if you actually answered. XD))

I like science class. I get to sit next to her. And when we change seats, we'll just sit next to each other again, no matter what that stupid teacher says. Sometimes, teh Lorygryph makes me want to cry on her shoulder. And then spill it all out. Everything. Sometimes. She reminds me so much of Yuki... Dante... So, so very much. She looks nothing like him... but... Her voice, her actions, her hugs... They all make me want to cry in how much she reminds me of him. . . I don't know what to do! I know that sometimes, I pay extra attention to her simply because of this. And it's wrong. But I can't help it. -sigh- I'm such a fool.
And then Jen and Lori are at a constant calling eachother names... Two of my friends... I am right in the middle. If I make a wrong move... There goes another friend. It seems as though they almost fight over my attention and love. I think about how much they completely hate each other and how I stand as a sort of wall that they haven't n... ]]> ~Xalxin http://Xalxin.deviantart.com/journal/12340252/ http://Xalxin.deviantart.com/journal/12340252/ Mon, 26 Mar 2007 17:46:53 PDT Yeah... Today, Shinta lost two more friends. But I shall adapt Kur's way of thinking and say THEY'RE MISSING OUT! >D And so is Neon, for having me as a fan. Which brings us to our topic today!
I was sick. All weekend. Kur knows. I told her I was about ready to barf on Saturday night, and ended up waking up with a sudden urge to keel over. I lay in bed during Church. TT..TT And youth group. D: But it gave me time to think. ^..^ I was able to mull over what my current situation is, and I have come to a conclusion!

Shinta always looked up to Neondragon, and when Neon promised things she could not do, I started loosing my faith in her. Then Kur easily ripped out my heart. Of course, she's got healing powers, so as soon as she realized she had done it, she sewed it back together and to my body and I smiled. Twice. And then Saa-sempai was so kind as to draw me a plushie of herself (which I have now saved to my computer) and was planning on inking it soon. You two are amazing!
However, I was still in raw shock, so I couldn't have felt much better. Now that I look back at what you guys did for me, I can't help but feeling as though I owe you a thousand of everything good.
Shi never really did go on haitus... if you haven't noticed. xD She's addicted to dA, she found out this week. 0..o Anyway, I got onto FA around the middle of the day, just to get on and see how Blitzava is doing. ((Blitzava is my oldest Internet friend. We go back to ancient times. ^..^)) And I had messages. So I looked at them, and there was one person who said something that caused me to think. They told me that they had gone through basically the same thing, but had found out that she still has something to live for. There are people all over the place that love and care for me. What good would I be doing them without giving them a peice of my heart? I can't do that if it stopped cold. Therefore, Shi shall live for the people who love her, and the people who need her! (not very many, but they're still people!) Lastly, and most importantly, I shall live for the LORD God almighty, Creator of Heaven and Earth, of all that is seen and unseen.
[/my life]

[update]
Trades: closed (still on haitus)

Completed Trades



Prizes(now on haitus)
/Kiriban (1K)/Rose/redo
AND contest prize/Rose and Kuron/need to start
contest prize/Mocha/lineart complete
contest prize/night time kitty/need to start
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http://Xalxin.deviantart.com/journal/12285515/ Sun, 25 Mar 2007 15:26:58 PDT Aya, today we had off of school. ^..^ AND it's staring to thunderstorm! I am so happy for those things, and I so appreciate them. I am so excited for it to become rainy/stormy season again! Snow is really annoying... So I am glad for the springy change!
I was woken up by my cellphone today. Someone keeps calling at like, seven in the morning. I was having a rather pleasant dream about a real-life dream of mine of having my name in the author's spot of a book. D< Whoever is calling STOP IT!

Yesterday I think I lost a friend. He was telling me that my religion can't be right, because the percentage of everything in the Bible actually happening was slim. I flared, of course, because I AM Catholic and I AM highly religious. If you're reading this [you know who you are], you have some SERIOUS appologies to make. Because I am not going to accept our friendship again unless you make those appologies. I don't even know what I want from you, so if you don't figure it out, it's all done for and our friendship is DELETED.

And then I wanted to tell Kur cuz it stung like heff and my timing is off. First, she was on but I missed her. Then, whenever I was on, she was off, and vice versa. Then, I got her, but for about fifteen seconds, in which she told me she was getting ready to leave for college and we said goodbye.
Sushi (~wyndsilver) was on and listening to me cry about it, because she knows what it is like. But we aren't as close as Kur and me. Nowhere near as close. And then Lori emailed me, and and I don't remember whether I told her or not. I was busy apologizing and explaining some things that I would have HAD to been really loopy to tell about. Like how to tell whether I am lying or not. And how to support me when my mental-ness is overriding. And all for yesterday in science class.
I broke out in an attack. Several problems at once made me shake and have problems breathing. My anxiety for everyone and everything in the room made me shake like a leaf, while panic took me down with the breathing. I didn't have much to eat yesterday, so I was basically too weak to stop any of it. I feel bad for worrying her as much as I did. And then I bet going and explaining it all to her didn't do much help... Augh, Shi is such a horrible person!

But now it's thundering and lightninging so I have to turn off the computer. Past experiences with lightning and computers were NOT good. Just my luck. It's JUST like my luck to do this to me. Not to mention I am completely and utterly PMSing right now. D< -gets out katana- Defy me and I PUT THIS TO YOUR THROAT. People couldn't have picked a better time to pick on me, don't you think!?
And DON'T comment giving me a lecture or a life-lesson. I am NOT in the mood. ((Okay. At the beginning, I was happy. Then I was sad. Then I was angry, and now I'm calmed down enough to friggin' realize this. 0..o Wtfeathers.))

EDIT
And the week still continues. This morning, I showed my webcam to a couple of my friends, but I had to leave in a short moment of time. I was happy to show them. And then I went to the mall to help sell candy. It's for a trip to New Jersey that my fellow youth group students are going on. I won't be going this year because I wanted my brother and my sister to go. We call it Catholic Heart Work Camp aka CHWC. I was at the mall for 7 hours, just walking around selling candy. I sat once or twice to ease my back, but it just got worse every time. We were on our way home at 9:12 that I remembered I was supposed to babysit at 8:30. I was an hour late, but they surprised me by still allowing me to babysit and to still receive money for it. So now I have $20. Woo, big deal.
I get home and trudge upstairs, and then I remember that there are no sheets on my bed because I had begun to change them this morning. Woo, lucky me. There aren't any clean sheet's cuz the washer machine's broken. I am so excited for sleeping on a sheetless mattress tonight.
I got onto the computer and decided to talk to my friend. I really shouldn't have; it's late and I'm tired, and I am not watching what I say to people. And she's got college stuff to worry about for Monday, plus art and her commissions. We started talking about Neon-sensei, who I really don't have the motivation to call 'teacher.' I loved loving her, whether she was mean to people or not. But she was apparently mean to my friend, and thus, my life emptied before me. She has been my center of attention for the past eight years. Soon to be nine. I bought her book. I anonymously sent her money when her funds were low. I bought her art. I was so ready to be taught by her, and go to the same school as her. She was my IDOL, my number one, and my only one. I wanted to follow in her footsteps and continue... ]]> ~Xalxin http://Xalxin.deviantart.com/journal/12251297/ http://Xalxin.deviantart.com/journal/12251297/ Mon, 19 Mar 2007 20:50:25 PDT

1. FINGERS: Shinta

2.CHIN: zxxsshgukinftta

3.ONE FINGER, EYES CLOSED: shinta (Woot!)

4.ELBOW: xshinytsa (lol)

5.NOSE: -takes off hat- shinta (XD)

6.PALM: shiu nytsza (That kind of sounds cool...)

1.) List Four fandoms you have.

(not in particular order)

1 - videogames
2 - Internet
3 - anime/manga/webcomics
4 - drawgons (couldn't decide...)

2.) Have you ever slept in the back of a car? Yup. We were on an island and the bridge broke down, so we had to wait a day for them to repair it, and we didn't have any money for rent. Fun! <3

3.) Have you recently dyed your hair/cut it? Yup. I died it back to my natural color cuz I didn't like it blonde XD

4.) List four people that you look up to the most. *neondragon*aerinl*WolfessEnchanted My sister ^..^

5.) How many pets do you own as of now? 2 doggies, 54 dragons, several lizards, 1 wolfie, 8 kitsunes, 3 kitties, lots of birds, a kangaroo, a chimera (hard to take care of), 5 snakes, a bunch of pokemon, all of my technology, mah bamboo, mah cherry blossoms, mah friends, peaches (story...), myself. Er... teh irl ones are teh doggies, technology, peaches, friends, bamboo, tech, and myself. XD

6.) Which do you prefer white or black? Ayah! Gray. ^..^

7.) Who is your most played character? Uh... irl, Coppertone. Rp... I have no idea. 0..o -shrugs- I rp too much to keep track... XD

8.) Choose one or the other, not both:
>Being stuck on an island with your best friend
>Being stuck on an island with 5 acquaintances

neither. I'd be good by myself.

9.) Name three aspects that tell who you are. stupid, ugly, perfectionist

10.) If you could have a power what would it be? flying... weather control (rain, baby rain! Thunder! Lightning! All day every day! -maniacle laughter-))

11.) Who was the last person you talked to? Saa-sempai! (~ShadowfoxEmber)

12.) Who was the last person you said "I love you" to? I say 'I love you' to everyone. I probably said it to one of my imaginary friends a couple of minutes ago and didn't even notice. XD

13.) Write down the first five words that pop into your head: yar, whee, durrrrrrrrr, wha..., feathers

14.) What's one thing you wish you could do better? be me

15.) Do you like the way you are? I accept myself for who I am, but not quite like.

16.) Choose, Summer or Winter: Ayah... Winter IS good for cuddling, like Blu-sama said, and Summer is good for teh pool and bathing suits... so how boutses Spring!? Cuz Shi-sama is indecisive... xD

17.) Choose, Rain or snow: Rain. Es very thoughtfull and soothing. It helps me calm down and lower my stress. (snow is pretty for like, 2 secs until the plows come in... -curses plows-)

18.) Water or ice? Ice so you can skate. (water makes me feel surrounded by things... like matter...)

19.) List two odd things about yourself: Er... Just two!? Okay... Shi will try to limit! 1. Shi-sama has random fits about the randomest things and shouts random words. 2. Shi-sama has imaginary friends that she can't even keep track of... XD They grow in numbers very much.

20.) Now list 6 people who should do this quiz! Ayah? I got yelled at last time, so I think I'll just tag the people who won't yell at me... Teh Kur-chan, teh Micha-sama, Ryleah-sama, Epi-sama, Rena-chan, Chishio-chan, Cooly-sama if she is back yet, and anyone who feels like doing this. ^..^

Maki maki maki! ^..^

]]> ~Xalxin http://Xalxin.deviantart.com/journal/12205587/ http://Xalxin.deviantart.com/journal/12205587/ Fri, 16 Mar 2007 11:53:43 PDT We got out early today because of that stupid snow. ^..^ So now I'm in my room, supposed to be folding the laundry, but I don't feel like it. So I'm confessing things to a friend that doesn't care about how bad it was, but cares about how good I am now. ^..^
Who cares about snow!? It shouldn't snowing now! It's almost SPRING Gosh darn it! Go to Heff you stupid snow! Then melt!
Today Rena wasn't at school...
And Lori was upset.
And here I was, laughing and being hyper with my friends, even while Lori was so having problems with her boyfriend. Omg, I'm so sorry, Laurennnn! TT..TT I really should have been more curteous, but I was so hyper... and... yogurt... I had some this morning and whoo that makes me go insane...-er. I think I shall email you. But I'm still sorry! It just felt like they were all listening at the lunch table... and I like privacy when people talk about their problems to me... -such a hypocrit-
Er... yeah. I to get into trouble if I don't fold these stupid towels. ttyl, folks. Much luv to you all, especially those I luv most. xD That makes sence, yes? lol <3
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~Xalxin http://Xalxin.deviantart.com/journal/12161404/ http://Xalxin.deviantart.com/journal/12161404/ Mon, 12 Mar 2007 19:35:11 PDT VISIT 's PAGE! NOW! Es my best friend irl.
And visit too. ^..^
They both deserve quite a bit of attention!

]]> ~Xalxin http://Xalxin.deviantart.com/journal/12144343/ http://Xalxin.deviantart.com/journal/12144343/ Sun, 11 Mar 2007 13:35:22 PDT
01. Mine
02. Dagaxii
03. Coppertone
04. Tilla
05. Densyl
06. Novah
07. Whirr
08. Pairo
09. Theowin
10. Fleck
11. Dou
12. Bioha Zard


01)Who would make a better college professor, 6 or 11? What subjects would they teach?

Dou would definately be able to teach much easier than Novah. He would probably teach something like metals or woods.

02) Do you think 2 is hot? How hot?

Dagaxii is a feral creature... I'm not sure if you could consider feral hawt, but I guess so.


03) 12 sends 8 on a mission. What is it, and does it succeed?

XD The mission would be completely random. Bioha Zard would send Pairo on the mission of making toast for the rocks. Pairo, being just as strange, would accidentally make rocks for the bread and give it to Bioha Zard. It'd be a success yet because Bioha Zard would forget what the mission was and eat the bread with the rocks in it.

04) What is or would be 9's favorite book?

Well, Theowin would probably like something rather morbid and bloody, and then romantical and ... stuff like that. She likes the Victorian age, but I can't think of any books off the top of my head that she would like. XD

05) Would it make more sense for 2 to swear fealty to 6, or the other way around?

Novah would swear fealty to Dagaxii, just cuz Dagaxii is ruller of the rock and Novah is pretty shy.

06) For some reason, 5 is looking for a roommate. Should they share a studio apartment with 9 or with 10?

Densyl and Theowin, no doubt about it. Fleck probably wouldn't want to room with Densyl, and Theowin and Densyl go way back to when they were little, even before Theowin died in the faia.


07) 2, 7 and 12 have dinner together. Where do they go, and what do they discuss?

Dagaxii, Whirr, and Bioha Zard. Ha ha. Dagaxii would insist on a meat place, Whirr would't care cuz he's a robot and can't eat, and Bioha Zard would forget that they were going out to dinner in the first place. Dagaxii would be talking to Whirr about how to refule guns and cannons and... etc, and Bioha Zard would be playing with her food and wondering what it was.

08) 3 challenges 10 to a duel. What happens?

Coppertone and Fleck? Well... Fleck would probably not have imposed, and if Coppertone were told to, he would. However... Since Fleck isn't evil, and Coppertone can only beat Evil Ones, Fleck would win by turning into a fox and biting Copper till he is defeated.

09) If 1 stole 8's most precious possession, how would s/he get it back?

Mine would steal Pairo's staff, and Pairo would be left helpless because she needs her staff to work majyck.

10) Suggest a title for a story in which 7 and 12 both attain what they most desire.

0..o Bioha Zard and Whirr. Well... Bioha Zard doesn't have the attention span to actually have a trek to get what she most desires. That's cuz she most desires more glowsticks cuz she ends up eating them. Whirr... Is a robot. He doesn't have any desires. 0..o

...Sorry, not much of a story. -..-

11) What kind of plot device would you use if you wanted 4 and 1 to work together?

Tilla and Mine would probably have an arguement on whether to use adventure or reality. But, they're rather good at coping, so they'd probably have a mix of adventure/reality and get it over with.

12) If 7 visited you for the weekend, how would you get along?

Whirr would probably have his first good weekend. TT..TT He's in such a horrible state right now in his life. I hope I could make him smile. -hugs Whirr-

13) If you could command 3 to perform any one task or service for you, what would it be?

He already does it all for me. I don't even have to ask. XD

14) Does anyone on your friends list write or draw 11?

No... No one really cares about my charries but me, so I'm really the only one who draws them... Unless I ask for a trade or someone is completely obsessed with a charrie. XD but that never lasts long.

15) If 2 had to choose sides between 4 and 5, which would it be?

0..o Dagaxii is independant. But... if she were told to by her creator (me), she would have to choose a side. She would probably pick Densyl, because Densyl is albino and albino is cool.

16) What might 10 shout while charging into battle?

Fleck going into battle would be... ]]> ~Xalxin http://Xalxin.deviantart.com/journal/12044886/ http://Xalxin.deviantart.com/journal/12044886/ Sat, 03 Mar 2007 19:29:06 PST
-- YOUR HERITAGE: Polish... Welsh... British... and German...
-- THE SHOES YOU WORE TODAY: ... feet...
--YOUR EYES: Dark blue-gray. ^..^ I <3 my eyes.
-- YOUR WEAKNESS: My imagination...
-- YOUR FEARS: 0..o Voice, spiders, being away from home, getting close to people, talking to people, being around people, things that could blow up, hights, planes, chairs, clowns, bullies, dying friends
-- ONE THING YOU'D LIKE TO ACHIEVE: to be more worthy of what I have now

-----------------WHAT IS------------------

-- YOUR THOUGHTS FIRST WAKING UP: ... What...
-- THE FIRST FEATURE YOU NOTICE IN THE OPPOSITE SEX: hair, shape of face, and eyes
-- YOUR BEST PHYSICAL FEATURE: I hate myself, but my eyes work just fine.
-- YOUR BEDTIME: Weekdays: 2AM, Friday: 7PM
-- YOUR GREATEST ACCOMPLISHMENT: I don't have any
-- YOUR MOST MISSED MEMORY: being innocent

-----------------YOU PREFER------------------

-- PEPSI OR COKE: ew.
-- MCDONALD'S OR BURGER KING: Don't care
-- SINGLE OR GROUP DATES: group so 1. (if I did date) I wouldn't get raped and 2. I don't have a boyfriend
-- ADIDAS OR NIKE: ... Does SquareEnix work? XD
-- CHOCOLATE OR VANILLA: Chocolate (duh...)
-- CAPPUCCINO OR COFFEE: Cappuccino plz. ^..^

-----------------DO YOU------------------

-- SMOKE: no!
-- CUSS: no...
-- TAKE A SHOWER EVERYDAY: Every night.
-- HAVE A CRUSH(ES): Not that I know of... unless you count some random manga hawties.
-- WHO ARE THEY: Er... ?
-- DO YOU THINK YOU'VE BEEN IN LOVE?: ... Yes...
-- WANT TO GO TO COLLEGE: Yes.
-- LIKE HIGH SCHOOL: Ish.
-- WANT TO GET MARRIED: If it's in God's plan.
-- TYPE WITH YOUR FINGERS ON THE RIGHT KEYS: Yup.
-- GET MOTION SICKNESS: Not that I know of.
-- THINK YOU'RE ATTRACTIVE: 0..o No!
-- THINK YOU'RE A HEALTH FREAK: No...
-- GET ALONG WITH YOUR PARENTS: They don't know me.
-- LIKE THUNDERSTORMS: ^..^ Yes. They're quite amazing.
-- PLAY AN INSTRUMENT: Guitar...

------------IN THE PAST MONTH DID/HAVE YOU--------------

-- DRUNK ALCOHOL: Nope.
-- SMOKE(D): D: No!
-- DONE A DRUG: never have...
-- HAVE SEX: ima virgin and proud of it.
-- MADE OUT: nope.
-- GO ON A DATE: Nope.
-- GO TO THE MALL: Yeah.
-- BEEN ON STAGE: Yeah... -sob-
-- BEEN DUMPED: No.
-- GONE SKATING: I almost got to...
-- MADE HOMEMADE COOKIES: Yup! <3
-- DYED YOUR HAIR: No.
-- STOLEN ANYTHING: Nope.

-----------------HAVE YOU EVER------------------

-- FLOWN ON A PLANE: No...
-- MISSED SCHOOL BECAUSE IT WAS RAINING?: No...
-- TOLD A GUY/GIRL THAT YOU LIKED THEM?: What about vice versa...
-- CRIED DURING A MOVIE?: No.
-- EVER THOUGHT AN ANIMATED CHARACTER WAS HOT: XD Guilty as charged.
-- HAD AN IMAGINARY FRIEND: every day.
-- BEEN ON STAGE?: TT..TT Yes.
-- CUT YOUR HAIR: Nope.
-- HAD CRUSH ON A TEACHER?: 0..o WTheck... No!
-- PLAYED A GAME THAT REQUIRED REMOVAL OF CLOTHING?: never.
-- BEEN TRASHED OR EXTREMELY INTOXICATED: no...
-- BEEN CAUGHT "DOING SOMETHING": Nope...
-- BEEN CALLED A TEASE: yes... unfortunately...
-- GOTTEN BEATEN UP?: yes...
-- BEEN IN A FIGHT: no.

-----------------THE FUTURE------------------

-- AGE YOU HOPE TO BE MARRIED: Who would want to marry me?
-- NUMBERS AND NAMES OF CHILDREN: 3-4 Boys: Artemis, Adrian, Mertague. Girls: Ailia, Mine, Koroka
-- DESCRIBE YOUR DREAM WEDDING: ^..^ It will consist of the people we love. There will be doves and my to-be-husband and me. The cake will be chocolate and my dress will be delightful.
-- HOW DO YOU WANT TO DIE?: Er... Violently: drowning. Easily: while I'm sleeping. ((They're both painless))
-- WHAT DO YOU WANT TO BE WHEN YOU GROW UP?: A manga illustrator or... whatever I end up being. :3
--WHAT COUNTRY WOULD YOU MOST LIKE TO VISIT?: England

-----------------OPPOSITE/SAME SEX------------------

-- BEST EYE COLOR: cerulean or green
-- BEST HAIR COLOR: brown, gold, or black
-- SHORT OR LONG HAIR: in between so I can play with it, but still seem like a guy's hair.
-- BEST HEIGHT: Taller than me, but not too tall.
-- BEST WEIGHT: Around where I am, give or take a little?
-- BEST FIRST DATE LOCATION: Masquerade and dinner
-- BEST FIRST KISS LOCATION: In the rain...

-----------------NUMBER OF-------------... ]]> ~Xalxin http://Xalxin.deviantart.com/journal/12043119/ http://Xalxin.deviantart.com/journal/12043119/ Sat, 03 Mar 2007 17:00:34 PST

The winner's circle includes

Second Place
~ShadowfoxEmber --[link]

Runner Up
*pianochord -- [link]

Grand Prize
Day *aerinl--[link]
Night =WolfessEnchanted -- [link]

Cast
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Thank you all participants for participating! It was fun judging these and very hard! Every one of them was beautiful and hard to choose from. There is such veriety in here and so many great ideas. Keep those ideas rolling!

<3 Shi-sama

]]> ~Xalxin http://Xalxin.deviantart.com/journal/11980428/ http://Xalxin.deviantart.com/journal/11980428/ Mon, 26 Feb 2007 20:40:30 PST Species Name: Elenine (plural = Elenines XD)

What They Look Like: Long, slender, fox-like bodies, small paws, with specialized (mostly retractable...except for the Earth one...whose arent) claws for the "Element" they represent. They are pretty much felines, despite the fact that their bodies resemble that of a fox. They have fluffy manes on their head, neck, and part of their back (except the ones that represent Water), that is kinda like a Zebra's mane..but it doesnt stick up like a mohawk (think..kinda like...fluffy...like an adolescent male lion...just...not around the face), they have long, thin tails...with either a tuft of fur, spike, fin, etc....that all depends on the element they represent. And they each have wings, according to the element they represent (i.e. Air would have angel wings, Shadow would have bat/dragon/demon wings, Water would have fins for wings, etc.). Everything else about them pretty much depends on the element they represent.

Personality: Depends on the individual Elenine. (each human has their own individual personality, you know x3)

Elements created : Who it was done by / link to pic

Earth: / (none yet)
Air: / (none yet)
Fire: / (none yet)
Water: / (none yet)
Light: / (none yet)
Shadow: / (none yet)
Ice: (2 versions)
.....Arctic: / (none yet)
.....Antarctic: / (none yet)
Electricity: / (none yet)
Metal: / (none yet)

Species (c) (we share YUM. ^..^)
Name (c) :shadowfoxember: (~marofox helped ~ShadowfoxEmber think of the name)

]]> ~Xalxin http://Xalxin.deviantart.com/journal/11844833/ http://Xalxin.deviantart.com/journal/11844833/ Fri, 16 Feb 2007 16:24:12 PST I used to be a happy person. I used to cherish my own life and love myself and respect myself, too. I used to think I was as good as I was going to get and that the world was flat and our home was in the middle of the world.
Until, that is, I went to middle school. Then I became friends with several people that would influence me until even today. They were people that were depressed all the time and people who think the way I do now. It wasn't long before I started thinking that way too, and I wanted in on all the secrets. Again, not long after that, I was betrayed by several of my 'friends' and singled out of our group of friends. I found other friends as well, and they happened to be the friends that I stuck with today. Well, the older ones anyway. They did not betray me, but none of them were neccisarily quite happy, either. I got darker and less innocent, and started loving things like the burning of pixies and bloody claws. They started to be pleasant images for me. My grades went down and I was a D minus student. I was slacking; I didn't see a point in living the way I used to anymore. I had started writing thoughts and days in a diary before Middle school, and soon those writings became dark and shadowed. Yet, no one noticed my sadness because of the mask I wore. That helped make my thoughts darker and made me feel less loved, worthless, and useless.
The most important thing happened then. My sister told me she loved me more than I thought, and she couldn't bare the sadness in my eyes when she looked at me. I started to work harder and in that same semester, my grades went up to a B-. I worked harder to be happier and laugh more, and my mask developed more. She could no longer see that sadness that she had so clearly noted before, so I was proud of myself. It was then decided that I would not go to the same school as my sister or my friends. I was to go to the same school as my neighborhood-friend, Brittany. I was happy to attend school with Brittany, but my sister... my friends... I lost contact with most of my friends; only Chishio and Kate and Rose are left. We had been inseperable before, but now Rose and I see eachother about twice a year, maybe thrice if lucky. Kate sometimes comes to youth group, but that's the only times that I see her. I see Chishio many times a month. We attend youth group together and have several sleepovers very often.
I went to Dallastown and sobbed my first week. It was horrible. Everyone hated me and I had one friend, and she wasn't even in my team, so I had no classes with her. I couldn't stand it. I wanted YC back so much, but that was wishfull thinking. It won't work.
I went to Dallastown again and sobbed my first month. I had gained a couple of friends, and they were the only people keeping me sane. However, they didn't know me. They never saw my mask develop and they never see me sad accept on Jan. 22 and Jan. 26 and maybe around Homecoming. How could I love them as much as my friends at YC? I kept in touch with most of them. In fact, I had at least thirty or so phone numbers in my contact-box. I lost all but five or six and started getting phone numbers from new friends at Dallastown. Silly them. They don't know they're talking with a kid with a desire to get away from them. My grades were pretty good... B+, A-. I excelled in English easily and had one of my better friends at Dallastown in every class of mine but one. It was going to be alright, accept the fact that my friends didn't know me. They didn't understand what words couldn't tell and they didn't understand me. I excelled without a bunch of them and left them behind. Everyone thinks I'm so social but... It doesn't quite work that way. I love hanging out with people but they just don't know... It makes me feel like crap because of what I do to people. I was overcome by thoughts that I should kill myself and slit somewhere major, but not noticable. I wondered whether all those pills like Ibuprophen and Tylenol were really all good... I salivated for the beer and wine in the refrigerator and basement. I resisted my best and not once did I drink alcohol, slit, or try to kill myself. I still felt like crap, though.
9th grade comes along and I am excelling in English and Spanish, plus all of my art classes. Chishio and I are closer than ever, Kate and I see each other every now and then, and Rose and I are struggling to stay friends. Brittany and I see each other in the hallways, but I am no longer the most important friend, and vise versa. I feel forgotten by my childhood friend and owned by the friends I have now. I met ~Blitzava and she told me about dA, where it was assured I would have fun. I joined, and I met darker people. Yes, darker than the people I already knew. I doubled in accounts and started this one, giving my old one to a friend aft... ]]> ~Xalxin http://Xalxin.deviantart.com/journal/11838890/ http://Xalxin.deviantart.com/journal/11838890/ Fri, 16 Feb 2007 06:29:53 PST Today I woke up and went downstairs after grabbing my sketchbook cuz I stayed up until 2 IN THE MORNING working on art trades. I finished 3 of them. ^..^ *aerinl I have yours, *Michatah I have yours, and ~Nukuyasha I have yours. I will be uploading them as soon as I find a program to scan onto cuz my father did not put 'Paint' onto our computer, and that's what I usually scan onto. I just need ~Razamataz46 to note me for further info on the trade that they wanted, and I can start on that. I just have one comission I need to work on now, and it's for my pet store in Gaia that I really don't want to run anymore. 0..o But I have to cuz I made a trade... -sulk-
Now I will do =WolfessEnchanted's prize. 0..o I had forgotten that was there. Sorry, dear. I'll start on that right now. ^..^
Sorry for taking so long! TT..TT
Alright, I am off to judge entries now! And to work on =WolfessEnchanted's prize!
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2. - Jack and Victoria - fin need to upload

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[FAQ's]

Why do you always draw girls? Are you lesbo?
No... I just draw girls cuz I draw girls...

How often do you submit?
Heck if I know.

Can we do fanart of your characters?
Yeah, I'm always open to fanart. In fact, it'd make me feel good about myself.

Will you do a collab with me?
If you want to.

Will you do an art trade with me?
Sure. ^..^

Will you do a request for me?
Under no circumstances! Stop asking!

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I hate snow.



[friends] (in no particular order.)

Friends.