http://search.deviantart.com/?q=by:XearthenXangelX&section=today deviantART RSS for by:XearthenXangelX en-us Copyright 2009, deviantART.com Sat, 05 Dec 2009 13:59:15 PST deviantART.com http://blogs.law.harvard.edu/tech/rss http://s.deviantart.com/minish/widgets/apple-touch-icon-precomposed.png http://XearthenXangelX.deviantart.com/journal/23002222/ http://XearthenXangelX.deviantart.com/journal/23002222/ Wed, 04 Feb 2009 12:57:54 PST on dA or on my http:// which involves a blog, a hosting service, and my portfolio.

Also, if anyone wants this username, shoot me an e-mail at heartofpandora [at] aim [dot] com and I'll get back to you as soon as possible. ^_^

]]> ~XearthenXangelX http://XearthenXangelX.deviantart.com/journal/18341149/ http://XearthenXangelX.deviantart.com/journal/18341149/ Thu, 15 May 2008 18:06:58 PDT
Anyways, I'll let you know when the new account is up.

/end rant

]]> ~XearthenXangelX http://XearthenXangelX.deviantart.com/journal/17312734/ http://XearthenXangelX.deviantart.com/journal/17312734/ Thu, 13 Mar 2008 08:12:50 PDT
On another hand, I feel like my journals are a bit pointless. ^O.O

eh. whatev.

^{Just some random thoughts...:} I wanna be in a band! D8< A tribute band that does Flyleaf songs... *shifty eyes* Of course, I'm nothing like Lacey, but I think I could still do the songs nicely. :] Especially the acoustics. I love acoustic! But I think I might go a bit mad when we performed, especially during All Around Me and Fully Alive, possibly Breathe Today. Plus, I'm... scared... to scream lol. What a stupid thing to be tweaky about, especially when you want to tribute Flyleaf! a;sldjfaslkd.

Anyways, I'm already a bit mad, as I'm sure a few people will tell me. XP

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So I guess for now all you get is one deviation. Love it!, aprecciate it!, have sex with it! D8< Even though it's a tidge ugly...

Ahem, anyways... I want 'screamo' music! I say 'screamo' because it should be the kind of screaming Flyleaf does. And Lacey Mosely is hot!! D8< Rawr (ehehe ;D).

Ohh, I'm getting happier with my photography skills, even though mah camera is a wee bit... temperamental... when it comes to the angle I'm shooting at. I'mma try and scan in a few of the prints when I get the chance, though.

Ta for now. :]

xxx

]]> ~XearthenXangelX http://XearthenXangelX.deviantart.com/journal/15827124/ http://XearthenXangelX.deviantart.com/journal/15827124/ Thu, 06 Dec 2007 20:31:53 PST
They. Are. Weird.

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On a side note, tomorrow I've been with the love of my life for 8 months ^.^ w00tness!!

*does a little happy dance... the only dance she knows*

]]> ~XearthenXangelX http://XearthenXangelX.deviantart.com/journal/15778832/ http://XearthenXangelX.deviantart.com/journal/15778832/ Mon, 03 Dec 2007 12:23:55 PST
I said grey, but it really depends on the general mood of the day, & also how tired I am. When I'm really REEEEEEEEEALLY happy &/or full of energy, they get this sort of goldish-green around the edges of my pupil, and the dark grey/blue around the very edges get black... it looks really cool & the contrast is awesomtastic. The only downfall is I spend a lot of time staring into my own eyes, LOL!! Also, I've noticed that when you breathe in, your pupils get biggerer, and when you breathe out, they contract O.O(!! (Like I said, A LOT OF TIME.) Ohh... I'm gonna go on a rampage about this in my own journal!!! XD Feel free to drop by & leaf me comments. ^_^

Ye, so also, there's this starry thing around the pupil of my right eye, & people have sworn that when my emotions flare (like when people are staring into my eyes intently without being in love with me)\, it moves. I wouldn't know, cause staring into my own eyes doesn't really effect my emotions. Except when they change colours, then I'm just like OMGCOOLSIES!!

LAWL anyway... I'm supposed to go time how fast I type so leave me some lovins!! ^_^

]]> ~XearthenXangelX http://XearthenXangelX.deviantart.com/journal/15479757/ http://XearthenXangelX.deviantart.com/journal/15479757/ Mon, 12 Nov 2007 13:57:52 PST YOUR BOY SIDE:
[x] You love hoodies.
[x] You love jeans. (One of the best inventions, EVER.)
[x] Dogs are better than cats.
[x] It's hilarious when people get hurt. (Well... it is!)
[x] You've played with/against boys on a team.
[x] Shopping is torture. (If I went out with a bunch of my closest friends, it'd be ok cause they'd make if fookin hilarious. XD)
[x] Sad movies suck. (GET OVER IT!!!)
[x] You own an X-Box. (Well I used to & then we moved & I was sad... so now I just have a GameCube. Speaking of which...)
[x] Played with Hotwheels cars as a kid. (Oh hells ye >< )
[x] At some point in time you wanted to be a firefighter.
[x] You own a DS, PS2 or Sega. (Well no actually I have a brick and a 64, do they count? >>brick being the original gameboy<< )
[ ] You used to be obsessed with Power Rangers.
[x] You watch sports on TV. (Sssoommmmeeetiiimmmes for NasCar and Fuut-bahl. Packers only! And Vikings, too see them get their asses whooped!! Like sunday. Who saw? Who saw! Oh ye, they got mega pwnd XD GO PACKS!!)
[x] Gory movies are cool. (Effing YES!!)
[ ] You go to your dad for advice. (I go to myself... or my friends... or my boyfriend mostly...)
[ ] You own like a trillion baseball caps. (They bother me... being all... THERE...)
[ ] You like going to football games.
[x] You used to/do collect baseball cards.
[x] Baggy pants are cool to wear.
[X] It's kinda weird to have sleepovers with a bunch of people.
[xXxXx] Green, black, red, blue, or silver are one of your favorite colors. (Blue is such a girly colouuur.)
[X] You love to go crazy and not care what people think. (Masao: I'm not entirely sure what that means...) (Erin: Me either… ) (Sarah: It's what my style is... hehe... DON'T LABLE ME, BETCH, OR I'LL HAVE TO HUNT YOU DOWN AND TURN YOU)
[x] Sports are fun.
[x] Talk with food in your mouth. (LOL)
[ ] Wear boxers. (If I had some... I would...)

Total = 20 (LOL!) points


YOUR GIRL SIDE:
[ ] You wear lip gloss.
[ ] You love to shop.
[x] You wear eyeliner.
[ ] You have some of the same shirts in different colors.
[ ] You wear the color pink.
[ ] Go to your mom for advice.
[ ] You consider cheerleading a sport.
[ ] You hate wearing the color black.
[ ] You like hanging out at the mall.
[ ] You like getting manicures and/or pedicures.
[x] You like wearing jewelry. (There are things that never come off, or I would end up in a mental hospital, or even a real one becaues it would drive me that insane. Not even joking you. Other than those necessities, no not really. Though, ocassionally sure.)
[ ] Skirts are a big part of your wardrobe.
[ ] Shopping is one of your favorite hobbies.
[ ] You don't like the movie Star Wars. (WHAT!!! WHO WOULD SAY THAT!!! *cries*)
[ ] You are/were in cheerleading, gymnastics or dance.
[ ] It takes you around 1 hour to shower, get dressed, and put on make-up and accessories. (More like 20 minutes...)
[ ] You smile a lot more than you should. (I only smile when I'm really happy, 90% of the time it's when I'm thinking about a certain someone )
[x] You have more than 10 pairs of shoes. (If I could own that many Chucks, I would, defo. But at the moment I don't. It's 10 exactally XD)
[ ] You care about what you look like. (I put on whatever's clean &/or nearest thing to me off the floor lol)
[ ] You like wearing dresses when you can.
[ ] You like wearing body spray/perfume/cologne.
[x] You wear girl underwear. (I'm really quite disturbed by this and want to know if a guy wrote it... NO GIRL WOULD ASK THAT!!! It's just... common... sense... *more crying*)
[x] Used to play with dolls as little kid. (Do action figures count? =3)
[ ] Like putting make-up on someone else for the joy of it.
[ ] Like taking pictures of yourself with your cell phone/camera when you're bored.

Total= 5 EFFIN LOL!!

So this just reinforces AnJ and my conversation the other day about how I'm more of a guy than a girl. I mean, c'mon!! - 20 to 5?? That's just frickin hilarious, actually. Ye, I think in a past life I was a male siberian tiger. Why? I'll share with you something that only my boyfriend knew until now - when I'm reeeeeeeally content & happy & just off in lala-land, I purr. Ye, like a cat. MROW!! hehehe... anyways >.> I'm tagging Kayla with this, as well as James and Tavo!! Get it done, betches!!

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The notion of Mark Twain being such a racist as people say he was is utterly stupid, and said people need to start talking to peers or professors who understand the novel on a more profound level than face value. The book is a giant laugh at historic American society of [roughly] the late 1800's!

If you have the time and would like to see where this all started with me, (and would like to get worked up about something so you can have a valid reason to punch someone) I suggest you go here.

Buy it for the adventure, read it for the satire.

(We're delving deeper into the book in class than I would have bothered to do myself, I've learned quite a few things I could never have ploughed my way through alone, simply because I'm far too lazy. )

Sure, the book comes off as racist, but does anyone bother to complain that it's a bit sexist as well? Of course not! Does anybody notice that caucasians are portrayed as the dumber, less intelligent, and hypocratical of the two races? Maybe, but you let me know when you find someone who challenges the book in school because we're written in as white trash. It won't happen.

If I DO write an essay on this one, it'll be purely for myself & anyone else who wishes to read, a little biased and outspoken, but every point fully and thoroughly elucidated.

Please, don't ask me why I want to write an essay for no reason... I get this way sometimes... Just give me a pat on the head & go your own way whistling showtunes, if you like.

On another note, at the rate people are annoying me, I'm going to start punching them in the face. =]

On ANOTHER note, I feel like my writing is suddenly and explosively developing, though I'm not being inspired as much. That's probably a good thing, really, because I can finally focus on one thing now and not get distracted with eleventy-five other things that I'll never finish. XD

ANYWAYS!! That's pretty much the update on the top layer of my mental life right about now. Sorry about the rambles!!

Blessed Be!

]]> ~XearthenXangelX http://XearthenXangelX.deviantart.com/journal/14255798/ http://XearthenXangelX.deviantart.com/journal/14255798/ Mon, 20 Aug 2007 12:26:36 PDT
The original topic is here.



You just have to accept that those people can't accept anything else & don't let it get to you. I know it's hard at first but if someone can't accept you for who you are, they need to do a bit of soul searching. Just don't tell them that!!! That sounds a bit presumptious & would not end well...

My best friend happens to be Christian but that doesn't mean that we don't talk about Wicca. Her & I thoroughly enjoy discussing the various points of our religions (christianity & green wicca) & finding points of commonality. The differences just teach us more about each other & more about our different religions. She's actually quite unsettled with the way her church portrays "witchcraft" & "black magick" because of the talks we've had.

Part of being Wiccan is knowing that you can't change the religion that scorns & slanders yours. It's knowing that you might not be able to change what keeps some people whole even if their ideals & conceptions of life may be twisted to your eyes. It's also knowing that you have the responsibility to do all that you can to make the lives of those around you better without ripping them from all that they've known & all that they cling to.

Being Wiccan isn't easy. It's probably one of the hardest religions for people to accept. As long as you know who you are & what life means to you, no one can take that away from you. Don't you let them.

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have a lookseey!

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The pure simplicity of love entwined with our beating hearts, which falter not in the harm of the other, but continue strong as if to keep the other sane.


.002

A shadow, flicker of thought, which, faster than your aching heart pounding with adrenaline can comprehend, races across my consciousness & I am no more, save the memory in your mind & the tears in your eyes as welcome with open arms my bittersweet end for you, & only you, my love.



.003

tThe language of love is, perhaps, not a language, but the glimmer of a shard of how we feel for those whom we love.


.004

...left somewhere in the confusion of that which I cannot quite yet touch...

]]> ~XearthenXangelX http://XearthenXangelX.deviantart.com/journal/12670318/ http://XearthenXangelX.deviantart.com/journal/12670318/ Fri, 20 Apr 2007 16:54:03 PDT



the last, gasping breath
of a dying winter
clinging too tightly to life...

the final struggle -
on last retort.

the final words spoken,
death takes over,
makes her restfull;
fills her with peace.

silence.

many moons rise,
the sun ever setting,
she wakes;
vengance spilling over,
revenge,
nessecary.

inevitable.

calmly -
ever impatience blooming
within my broken heart -
i await the storms end
relishing the quiet
until she awakes again.

]]> ~XearthenXangelX http://XearthenXangelX.deviantart.com/journal/12585254/ http://XearthenXangelX.deviantart.com/journal/12585254/ Fri, 13 Apr 2007 19:32:29 PDT floating...
suspended in midair...
waiting for the storm
to rip me apart...

fix my shattered soul...
and hold me close
to your broken heart...

kill me softly...
rape me gently...

whisper those tragic,
sweet words of your misery...
and forever love me
with all you have left...

i will fix you...

i will help you
calm the storm…
that drenches you
in acid rain…

]]> ~XearthenXangelX http://XearthenXangelX.deviantart.com/journal/12554388/ http://XearthenXangelX.deviantart.com/journal/12554388/ Wed, 11 Apr 2007 14:02:12 PDT
Anyway, I really really lerve[! >,<]DA!!! Wish I'd have found it sooner. Love goes out to Gusgus for introducing me!!

Ok so, obviously, the first photo is a picture of a flame. I took that one night when I was really bored and I'm surprised it came out so good considering the camera I used is just a semi-good Digital. I'd prefer a better camera [one not from wal*mart...] but this works for now. Anyway... I didn't think the picture would come out so good but I guess its a good thing I got too close =] and burned my finger... =[

The secont photo is a rose laying on my counter in the kitchen. I'd have liked this shot a lot more if the counter didn't end halfway up the picture... Also I'm working on getting rid of the electric thing at the top but that's not going so well with only Paint and Microsoft Picture Manager to work with... But what I really like about this picture is the lonely petal in front of the rose because the root of i sort of fades into the background. I also like how the blur in the picture is reversed as to what it would normally be. The head is blurred and distorted while the end of the stem is clear and crisp. I wouldn't change that effect even if I could.

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