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Well, looking back on my last journal, it looks like Ive failed most of those new year's resolutions... XD;; But as they say... every day is a new day, so no use in getting caught up over spilt milk.... or however that saying goes... XD;;

But yeah, I am indeed alive for those of you who weren't sure 8D;; My life has been a roollercoaster for the past few months though, I can assure ytou of that... and ~acsmith12 can also vouch for me, since she knoooows... although she also has her own challeges to deal with... so go give her love and support if you haven't already >__<;;

Sooo, not sure what all to go into... -__=;; Mostly been personal and family issues going on.... and as for my health... well... it's about the same as always XD;; My stomach seems to have been behaving for the most part though, which is a biiiig health..... at the moment I think it's mostly breathing issues and fatigure due to stress or what have you that have been cramping my style as of late... >___>
Aaaaand, for those who didn't know... AC's motherboard crashed, so she's been using my lovely lappy for a while now.. XD;; *misses it so bad, but I think she's gfonna get her own laptop soon so I'll have my baby back* >w<;; I swear tho... I currently have this horrible itch to draw right now XD;;

I went and read some of my old.... stories from middle school... since I couldn't draw worth shit back then.... and... oh maaaan... they were awful XD;; *doesn't know why that amuses me so much* and I kinda wanna try drawing some of those characters now that.. i -can- draw to some extent... XD;; just for fun~

Soo, that's about it... that I can think of anyway XD;; I love you guys muchly though, and I miss you all like crazy ;w; *keeps saying I'll try to be around more often but I seem to fail at keeping said promise* DX;; I will promise to keep trying tho'.... <333

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Aaaand, I fiinally got a kiriban... from Shakuuuuuuu~ >w< <3 *dieswithglee* LOL go give her love too XD

Aaand, because I said i would and I need something to keep me active, here's also a meme I got from her as well (basically meant for you guys tho'... whoever watches me and I shall respond to how you fill this out i think):



1. Your Name:
2. Age:
3. Single or Taken:
4. Favorite Film:
5. Favorite Song or Album:
6. Favorite Band/Artist:
7. Dirty or Clean:
8. Tattoos and/or Piercings:
9. Do we know each other outside of dA?
10. What's your philosophy on life?
11. Is the bottle half-full or half-empty?
12. Would you keep a secret from me if you thought it was in my best interest?
13. What is your favorite memory of us?
14. What is your favorite guilty pleasure?
15. Tell me one odd/interesting fact about you:
16. You can have three wishes (for yourself, so forget all the "world peace", etc.). What are they?
17. Can we get together and make a cake?
18. Which country is your spiritual home?
19. What is your big weakness?
20. Do you think I'm a good person?
21. What was your best/favorite subject at school?
22. Describe your accent:
23. If you could change anything about me, would you?
24. What do you wear to sleep?
25. Trousers or skirts?
26. Cigarettes or alcohol?
27. If I only had one day to live, what would we do together?
28. Will you re-post this so I can fill it out for you?

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Family & Friends:
*XekeX http://XekeX.deviantart.com/journal/22537161/ http://XekeX.deviantart.com/journal/22537161/ Mon, 12 Jan 2009 04:09:44 PST [link]

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Well, I figured it was about time I updated this thing... it's been months, and I'm tired of knowing pill-induced writing is plastered on the front of my page XD;;;

Well... first of all, even though it's late... a very lovely Happy New Year's to everyone! XDD I honestly mean that.. people need to have more awesomeness in their lives... and a Merry Christmas and Halloween since I missed out on those, too... or any other holiday you might celebrate XD;;;

In any case... My biggest New Year's resolution is to not be sick... we'll see how that turns out... on a smaller note, I want to try and do more Art this year... I'm gonna see if I can't manage one piece a month.. I'm afraid to try harder than that... XD;; and I need to respond to my DA messages more regularly, too...
I haven't forgotten you guys, but some of you may end up with a response from months ago when I finally do get my ass in gear XD;;;

So.... on to more fun things.... I played Fallout 3 lately... haven't finished the game but I watched someone else do so... if you liked Oblivion, I definitely suggest checking it out... made by the same people, so has a lot of the same mechanics that made those games great, only more fleshed out and improved. It is more of a shooter game, though.... although you can specialize in melee or unarmed combat, it's more advantageous to be able to shoot things that are shooting you from a distance rather than having to run all the way up to them while they're whacking off your hit points.... XD;;; Overall, I loved it... I don't really mind how depressing a lot of people say it is, since I'm usually playing games for the gameplay and characters... and I love character creation.. it's a lot simpler than it was in Oblivion... XDD but... I hate not being able to jump as high... moving around is also a bit more tedious than in oblivion.. I like the leveling system better, bla blah...... and.... the opening was fantastic... XDDD I'm sorry, but opening a game with being born from your mother's womb is both disgusting and funny as shit... it amused me in any case.

I'll end that there... I also got to watch AC play the new Prince of Persia game, but... I didn't really fancy it that much... the characters were weak, the gameplay looked funky and clutzy, and the storyline made no sense.... the graphics were gorgeous, but that's about all I can say for it.... I was a fan of Prince of Persia, Sands of Time, but.... so far that's still my favorite of the franchise.

Anyway.... enough of game reviews....

Here's a little something I think everyone should check out:

Mary Sue definition: [link]
Even if you know for a fact that your characters aren't Mary Sues, I think it's interesting to see a good definition of them... since... not everyone knows what they are... and those of us who have learned through experience of what they are... might find it amusing.. I was amused in any case XD

And, a Mary Sue test: [link]
I'm a test addict, I will admit.. but only of extensive ones or ones like this... I think it was fun, and I think sometimes people need wake up calls.... BUT... for people who do take this test, remember it was generated by a computer... all it's doing is tallying certain key points that are common among Mary-Sues, so don't take it too personally... XD;; Also remember, when you're taking it... to keep in mind if your character's unique abilities are out of the norm for what they were intended for.... so... if they were a species where super powers are common place... it's different from a character where they have powers outside of the norm. ...Or if powers are common place, if they have extra funky powers than the norm... XD;;

Xelax got a 19. It would have been a ton higher if I didn't keep in mind that he was intended for a nobody club... and that he is a nobody... XD;; It's because of his appearance... that's where his score came from....

Zeke got a 21.... and... I will admit, I did go overboard with his emo past... that was my fault.. but everyone on the site had emo pasts at the time and I was feeling left out.. so.... lol.. I fail... -___-;;; Aside from the ridiculously emo past he's good, tho'... And, his test score is also lower than it should be because he's an Ace... Aces are meant to have perfect bodies... lol... mary sue race... XD;;


So anyway, yeah... I can't really think of anything else that's been going on lately.... I miss you guys and I swear I don't talk to you enough so... I'll try to do better, and you guys that I can't get a hold of need to give me more attention D< I miss you!! XD;;

----------------------... ]]> *XekeX http://XekeX.deviantart.com/journal/20770026/ http://XekeX.deviantart.com/journal/20770026/ Wed, 01 Oct 2008 01:25:24 PDT [link]

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LOL 'bout time I did a new one of these, wouldn't you say? XXDD
*gets bored when I have to look at the same journal from a month ago*
But yes, for those people who are concerned about the Cold Order and when progress will be done and when we will be accepting new members.... Well, hopefully sooner rather than later. ^___^ We haven't abandoned the club, don't even worry about that.

Me and AC have both just been very busy, so serious info about TCO should start appearing next month if we're lucky.

We also want to give our friends from org-infinity a chance to figure out if they'd like to join later on, but right now.... Org-infinty is also very busy with an epic mission the entire club is a part of... so yes.... for everyon's sakes, progress on TCO will be postponed until a more reasonable time.


Now, onto the epic mission I was talking about. Org-Infinity FTW!! >___<;;; *can't tell you guys how stoked I was when reading that journal... and even more stoked when I ended up grouped with some of the most awesome people I could hope for* <333 Our part in this event will be gorgeous, I'm sure of that. *although depending on when the deadline is.... it might be a little late* AC's been working overtime for her school and drama department stuff (which you should know if you watch her account) So... I dunno, she worries me because she comes home everyday totally exhausted... ;__; *doesn't help the fact that she has a cold now, too.... but she better damned keep it to herself* XD;;
*can't afford to catch a cold, already sick enough as it is*

And that.... sorta leads me on to my current physical state of being. As far as we know (which is still next to nothing) Countless tests have proven that I don't have anything phenomenally life threatening, thank god for that... >___<;; But still... answers remain vague.... one of my specialists is convinced I have a strong allergy to whey.... and more than likely also wheat glutin... Sooooo, my entire diet has been changing... I wanted to start a civil war when I heard ice-cream was not allowed, but now I have found heavenly substitutes... *___* <3333 They taste sooo much better, and in my case they're far healthier for me than the real thing, so I've been pacified into going along with this latest plan.


However, that's just the first part of the plan.... and as all my doctors keep telling me, you have to fix both your body and your mind to heal completely.
That's always pissed me off so bad, I can't even tell you guys XD;;; They acted like I was severly depressed and suicidal or something, LMAO..... Buuuut, I have been seeing a counselor, too... granted, I haven't been feeling very good for a looooong loooong looooong time, so it's natural that you start feeling crap about yourself in the process.... But I -will- overcome it, I'm not so weak that I'll just keel over and die (figuratively speaking) without putting up a fight!!! >DDDD

But still, the emotional issues are the ones that seem more troublesome these days.... and I don't really know how to fix those.... XD;; And my counselor can only help so much given my situation..... so I'm not really sure how to even start there..... But I will work it out eventually, I promise!! >(

And I can't remember if there was anything else of importance that needed to be addressed here.... and I'm high on my sleep meds, so I'll probably end up editing this journal a ton when I wake up tomorrow.

But yes, good night everyone, promise I'll be online tomorrow! XDDD <333

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Stuff for Others:

Lots of things....


Random Stuff:

Also lots of things.

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Family & Friends:
http://XekeX.deviantart.com/journal/20121417/ Sat, 23 Aug 2008 22:19:34 PDT [link] | *BITES* [link] >__>

*sighs* OMG.... I am tired... D|

In any case, though, decided to update my journal since the last one was old and took up way too much space...

And to let you guys know that the club me and AC were talking about now has it's own page. It's not open for apps yet, and not even complete, but it has a lot of information that should give you guys a better idea of what it's about.

So yeah... don't expect much, but check it out --->


*sends AC love for the spiffy icon*

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Stuff for Others:

Birthday comic for ~acsmith12
Springshock/Xelax pic for *kiminess
Kemix Element pic for *kiminess
Alex/Dor pic for ~dbx-1138
Meeting Comic 3rd part
Aiden pic for ~dbx-1138
Pic for =Akkutsune
Pic for ~zombie-ade
Pic/comic(?) for *Kaikuu
Pic for *EiceartInbheLadarna
Pic for *shaku-chan
Pic for ~mr-romantic
(...lots of things I don't remember right now... HELP >__< )


Random Stuff:

Mission #2
Xelax world sheet
Xelax hair sheet
Xelax Character Sheet Update
Alyssa pics
Lots of Xelax stuff
Zeke stuff ;__; *been neglecting him lately*


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Family & Friends:



Org-Infinity Group:
http://XekeX.deviantart.com/journal/19705527/ Thu, 31 Jul 2008 18:31:41 PDT [link] | *BITES* [link] >__>

I.... am so dead tired.... D|
But that's not really what I was gonna say XDD LOL... Uh.. yeah... but I am.. I only got like... 3 hours of sleep over the past two days... XD;; *and I took a sorta half-nap today... so... I'm alive again, but I think I probably need another one* XD;;

Um.. so yes... my naturopath says I have a dairy allergy... D| *wants to shoot myself* And she wants me to stay away from dairy products as much as possible.. but... dude... I love dairy soooo effing much...... ;___; *doesn't know what I'll do without cheese or shit of some kind...* Aaand, I have a lot more pills to take... =___= *not sure what else they said... I was having difficulty paying attention* But apparently I'm still not eating enough... XD;;; *finds that a little hard to believe, but whatever....*

Uuuum... yeah, I dunno... -___=;; I'm also gonna cram a couple memes into this journal since... some of them look fun and.... wtf, you guys come up with so many so quickly XD;;;;

Got both of these from *shaku-chan >__>

----RP Meme----
[1] First of all, what username(s) do you go by?

Um..... XekeX..? XD;; Zeke, Koseishi, Tristen, Koseishin... etc, etc.... but I don't really use many of those anymore... -___=;

[2] Do you role-play any original characters (name them) ?

LOL.. I... only RP original characters... XD;; Um.... lately it's just been Xelax and Zeke.... but I also have Alex, Artemis, Cael, Angelo, Tristin..... and some characters I've never RPed before... like Adina and Subira... XD;;; And my retired characters... Demian (very first rp character), Azure, Red, Vince, Olivia, and Cystine XD;;; *coughs* She was such a godmod.....

[3] Role-play any character's (not original)?

Nope. I find it impossible to RP characters not of my own creation XD;

[4] Where do you tend to hang around?

Mainly DA.... >__> I dabble in other sites occasionally... but I can't handle more than one place seriously at a time XD;;

[5] Everyone has a favorite RP buddy, who's yours?

What, just one? XD;;; *like hell i can do that* I love my peeps.... =w=

Um... obviously I loooove rping with Gerbil... XDDD *she's put up with me for a veeery long time... and she has aaawesome lovely reptile characters* *__* <3

And I also love RPing with dorian... he's amazingly entertaining, and his characters are sooo freaking easy to RP with.... but we haven't rped for a while.. I fail so bad.... D|

And Shaku, course~ XDDDD *seriously... she's addictive.. it's like constant junk-food or something* =w=

Aaand.. of course there are others... I'm typically pretty easy to RP with... but these guys are pretty much my main source of RPing these days... >___>

[6] Any other RP friends?

LOL didn't I just say there were? XDDDD *wishes there were more than there are... buuut... probably a good thing that I have less distractions rather than many* XD;;;

[7] Where do you most hate to RP?

......I don't know... >___>;; I can't think of any particular place that bothers me.... *although I tend to avoid past sites that I used to be part of* XD;;;

[8] Which of your original characters are you most like?

Wtf... I don't know... XD;;;;; I tend to think I'm at least a little like all of them.... *thinks the best image of myself is just... mushing all my ocs into one person.. then you get something similar to myself* XD;;;; I guess.... um... I'm a biiit more like Alex than the others, though..? -__=;; *I did sorta half-attempt to base him off myself anyway...*

[9] Everyone tends to take a little bit of themselves and place- (...? part of this one got cut off... XD;; But I'm assuming it's talking about parts of yourself you put into OCs >__>;; ) <-- will assume the same thing... >__>

Xelax: .....Um.... I guess he's got my need to avoid situations he doesn't like... XD;;; *although i think he's typically a lot more confrontational than i am, too*
Zeke: LOLOL, uuhhh... I guess he's conflicted like I am..? Only moreso.... XD;;; *lmao.. why are my most retarded characters the ones I rp with the most?*

[10] Now, name the same characters again and tell us who their BFF is!

Xelax: He.... uh... he doesn't have a BFF.... XD;;; I guess Rdox would best fit that role, though.... and he tends to open up around Kemix more than other people, too... >__> But... he... more often than not has issues and closes himself up preeetty damned tight against other people, these days XD;;;
Zeke: LOL... Lee... obviously.... he hates everyone else and they hate him back... XD;;... ]]> *XekeX http://XekeX.deviantart.com/journal/19511473/ http://XekeX.deviantart.com/journal/19511473/ Mon, 21 Jul 2008 03:51:38 PDT [link] | *BITES* [link] >__>

EDIT: Okay.. so I just got back from seeing the new batman movie... >__> *A Dark Night... I dunno why I have to say the correct title.. I suck at titles... I just call things by the baser cave-man way of recognizing movies* XD;;

But OMG... it was awesome.... I loved the Joker... D| *it makes me even more depressed that Heath died... uuuuughghghgh* >___<;; *wanted to see Joker in the sequel... but... i swear I'm gonna bust a cap if they get someone else to play him in the future* D| Performances like that cannot be imitated....

Aside from that tho'... I suck as a movie critic... I couldn't tell how awesome it was over all XD;;; *but that might have been the fact that I needed to take a piss so freaking bad about half-way through... and was more concentrated on that than the actual movie*

Oh well... It was good in any case... >__> *and now I'm all excited about Watchmen... the preview for that was amaaaazing* XD;;; When is it due to release? *and it's made by the 300 people too... I wanna see that movie again, too.... especially with the orgy event coming up.... I need source material fresh in my mind* >___>
*rambles off*



Alright.... having trouble sleepin g so decided to do one of these while I wait for my sleeping pill to start working XD;;

And yes, I got it from


Rules!
1. Post these rules.
2. Each tagged person must choose one of their original characters (if you don't have any, you can use yourself/your persona) and post at least 5 facts about them, preferably ones that people might be surprised to learn (but please, try to keep it clean. )
3. At the end, tag any people of your choosing (but try to tag at least two others. You can do more if you wish) Eh... do it if you want to... -___=

Doing this for Xelax... LOL.. figures... XD

1. He lacks a set sleep schedule. >___>; More obvious if you know him.. but really it's on rare occasions that he actually sleeps for any length of time... so he pretty much never tries, and usually just ends up napping throughout the day when he needs to.

2. Sort of a tag off the first one... he rarely sleeps in his room XD;; He doesn't really feel like it belongs to him, only like he's borrowing it... so more often than not he takes his naps in odd locations throughout the castle.

3. The way his power works relies heavily upon how focused or intent he happens to be at the time. Thus why... when he's not using his power he often appears to zone out or be completely out of focus. (think of it as a homing/targeting device that goes off when not in use.... and as a loaded gun with the safety on whenever something catches his attention.... easy to set off)

4. While he has made a promise to cut back on a lot of his previous drug habits *and even abolish some* he also has a rather destructive sense of curiosity, and can actually rather easily be pulled back into his old ways without constant reaffirmation of said promise.

5. He has a surprising dislike of animals. Or so he says anyway. In truth he's actually quite fascinated by the various forms of existence and ways of living there are in the world. So he would be more correct to say that he dislikes pets.... either animals that were domesticated to act subservient of people or even any animal that becomes overly friendly with people and acts outside of it's natural instincts. Whether this is simply because he dislikes nature being tampered with or perhaps (the more likely truth) he is secretly disturbed by the notion of one being perceived as being superior to another through this relationship, is as of yet unknown. But yeah... he is okay with animals at a distance... they bug him up close XD;;


Blah... fun... I like these memes... |D

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Stuff for Others:

Birthday comic for ~acsmith12
Springshock/Xelax pic for *kiminess
Kemix Element pic for *kiminess
Alex/Dor pic for *dbx-1138
Meeting Comic 3rd part
Aiden pic for *dbx-1138
Pic for =Akkutsune
Pic for ~zombie-ade
Pic/comic(?) f... ]]> *XekeX http://XekeX.deviantart.com/journal/18900182/ http://XekeX.deviantart.com/journal/18900182/ Tue, 17 Jun 2008 19:59:43 PDT [link] | *BITES* [link] >__>

Leave a comment, and I will attempt to:

a) Tell you why I friended you
b) Associate you with something - fandom, a song, a colour, a photo, et cetera
c) Tell you something I like about you
d) Tell you a memory I have of you
e) Ask something I've always wanted to know about you
f) In return, you must post this in your journal.



Because everybody likes hearing good things about themselves, yes?
*is shot*
Lmao, but yeah.... I'm amused anyway XD;;

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Stuff for Others:

Birthday pic for ~acsmith12
Springshock/Xelax pic for ~kiminess
Kemix Element pic for ~kiminess
Alex/Dor pic for *dbx-1138
Meeting Comic 3rd part
Aiden pic for *dbx-1138
Pic for =Akkutsune
Pic for ~zombie-ade
Pic/comic(?) for *Kaikuu
Pic for *EiceartInbheLadarna
Pic for *shaku-chan
Pic for *mr-romantic
(...lots of things I don't remember right now... HELP >__< )


Random Stuff:

Xelax world sheet
Xelax hair sheet
Xelax Character Sheet Update
Alyssa pics
Lots of Xelax stuff
Zeke stuff ;__; *been neglecting him lately*


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Family & Friends:



Org-Infinity Group:
http://XekeX.deviantart.com/journal/18755318/ Mon, 09 Jun 2008 19:30:32 PDT [link] | *BITES* [link] >__>

So... lots of things happening lately.... I'm going through kind of an art slump, got a ton of pictures started and half finished.. but.... I don't wanna finish them until I know I can do a good job. XD;; *so taking a break from drawing for a while... not sure when you guys'll start seeing art from me again, but I'm hoping soonish* I'm still around tho... just taking my time responding to comments... promise I will get around to all of them, tho, so sorry for the wait XD;;;

My sister had her birthday yesterday, too! *not Grofx's player, the one that doesn't have a DA account* She turned 19 and we all went out for Japanese food!! >DDDD *hasn't had any in foreeeever* And I got my smoked salmon nigiri... aaawwwww..... that stuff is heavenly... *___* <3333 And the rice and veggies and teriyaki chicken... and sushi... >__> *thinks we might still have some left over.. should check*

But yeah... today my mom had surgery.. XD;; *won't go into the details of that, tho'.. suffice to say it went awesomely and she's recovering well* <3 *just got back from visiting her.. gonna be awkward not having her around for a couple days.. gonna try to see how she's doing tomorrow, too*

And yeah.. as for my own health, still about the same.. XD;; *least I'm not worse tho.. and been toughing out the pain to try and be more active, too.. so hopefully that'll help.. will have soem more doctor appointments in a couple weeks* But... I still fail at sleeping... XD;; *so really tired.. just pumped from all the activity lately*

In other news, tho'... *dbx-1138 bought me a subscription!!! *would shower him in awesomeness if i didn't do so all the time anyway* XD;; Still dunno what all the difference is... but the lack of ads makes me happy... |D

So yeah.. short update of what all's been going on.. XD *sends hugs for everyone*

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Stuff for Others:

Birthday pic for ~acsmith12
Springshock/Xelax pic for *kiminess
Kemix Element pic for *kiminess
Alex/Dor pic for *dbx-1138
Meeting Comic 3rd part
Aiden pic for *dbx-1138
Pic for =Akkutsune
Pic for ~zombie-ade
Pic/comic(?) for *Kaikuu
Pic for *EiceartInbheLadarna
Pic for *shaku-chan
Pic for *mr-romantic
(...lots of things I don't remember right now... HELP >__< )


Random Stuff:

Xelax world sheet
Xelax hair sheet
Xelax Character Sheet Update
Alex Fic
Alyssa pics
Lots of Xelax stuff
Zeke stuff ;__; *been neglecting him lately*


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Family & Friends:



Org-Infinity Group:
... ]]> *XekeX http://XekeX.deviantart.com/journal/18638589/ http://XekeX.deviantart.com/journal/18638589/ Tue, 03 Jun 2008 03:28:15 PDT [link] | *BITES* [link] >__>

Tagged by Kimmeh.... XD;;

RULES:
Go to Google and type in your first name and the phrase. Copy and paste the first sentence/phrase you get that makes sense. [Or that is awesome. :B]

Q: Type in "[your name] needs" in the Google search.
A: Zeke needs a hair cut.

Q: Type in "[your name] looks like" in Google search.
A: Zeke looks like a llama.

Q: Type in "[your name] says" in Google search.
A: Zeke says he's an ex-Gurkha.

Q: Type in "[your name] wants" in Google search.
A: Zeke wants to be a rockstar.

Q: Type in "[your name] does" in Google search.
A: Zeke does yet another wheelie!

Q: Type in "[your name] hates" in Google search.
A: Zeke hates the melodica.

Q: Type in "[your name] asks" in Google search.
A: Zeke asks permission to come aboard...

Q: Type in "[your name] goes" in Google search.
A: Zeke goes on his first Kingdom Date.

Q: Type in "[your name] likes " in Google search.
A: Zeke likes to hang out by the woodstove.

Q: Type in "[your name] eats " in Google search.
A: Zeke eats snow.

Q: Type in "[your name] wears " in Google search.
A: Zeke wears a black tunic, a white belt, and black baggy pants.

Q: Type in "[your name] was arrested for" in Google Search.
A: Zeke was arrested for robbing a store!


Lmao... yeah, that was amusing.. I guess anyone who wants to do this is tagged. XD *and yes, doin' my online name since I ain't too fond of my real one*

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Stuff for Others:

Birthday pic for ~acsmith12
Springshock/Xelax pic for *kiminess
Kemix Element pic for *kiminess
Alex/Dor pic for *dbx-1138
Meeting Comic 3rd part
Aiden pic for *dbx-1138
Pic for =Akkutsune
Pic for ~zombie-ade
Pic/comic(?) for ~Kaikuu
Pic for *EiceartInbheLadarna
Pic for ~shaku-chan
Pic for *mr-romantic
(...lots of things I don't remember right now... HELP >__< )


Random Stuff:

Xelax world sheet
Xelax hair sheet
Xelax Character Sheet Update
Alex Fic
Alyssa pics
Lots of Xelax stuff
Zeke stuff ;__; *been neglecting him lately*


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Family & Friends:



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*XekeX http://XekeX.deviantart.com/journal/18408151/ http://XekeX.deviantart.com/journal/18408151/ Mon, 19 May 2008 23:46:01 PDT [link] >__>

Lmao, sorry XDD So.... yeah... it is hot..... HOOOT.... and it's frying my brain... I feel like I'm boiling in my own skin... D| *and it's only like.. 90 deg. Wtf, I fail...
I've discovered the best thing in weather like this is cold showers, tho'.... |D
*never thought I'd like cold water so much*

But yeah... I'm still working on like... fiftybillion pieces of art I need to get done for people... XD;;
I was thinking tho'... would anyone suggest I start offering commisions...?
*cuz I'm not sure about how any of that goes... but I figure if I can make money in any way, then I'd better get my ass in gear... I feel like such a handicap right now* XD;; *fails*

Ah well, we'll see.... *sends hugs to all you dudes and dudettes*

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Stuff for Others:

Birthday pic for ~acsmith12
Springshock/Xelax pic for *kiminess
Kemix Element pic for *kiminess
Alex/Dor pic for *dbx-1138
Meeting Comic 3rd part
Aiden pic for *dbx-1138
Pic for =Akkutsune
Pic for ~zombie-ade
Pic/comic(?) for ~Kaikuu
Pic for *EiceartInbheLadarna
Pic for ~shaku-chan
(...lots of things I don't remember right now... HELP >__< )


Random Stuff:

Xelax world sheet
Xelax hair sheet
Xelax Character Sheet Update
Alex Fic
Alyssa pics
Lots of Xelax stuff
Zeke stuff ;__; *been neglecting him lately*


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*XekeX http://XekeX.deviantart.com/journal/18236712/ http://XekeX.deviantart.com/journal/18236712/ Fri, 09 May 2008 04:02:07 PDT Haven't been feeling too good lately and things have been kinda stressful over here so that's why.... but I promise I try to respond to everyone eventually and I'm still working on art I've promised people... it will get done sooner or later~ I won't forget you guys XD;;

*hugs for all*

In any case tho'.... I'm toying with the idea of maybe starting up an old comic of mine again.... definitely won't be viewable for a while, but if people think it's a good idea then I'll start organizing and planning etc...? *will try to make club stuff priority tho'* Thoughts and suggestions appreciated.

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Stuff for Others:

Birthday pic for ~acsmith12
Springshock/Xelax pic for *kiminess
Kemix Element pic for *kiminess
Alex/Dor pic for *dbx-1138
Meeting Comic 3rd part
Aiden pic for *dbx-1138
Pic for =Akkutsune
Pic for ~zombie-ade
Pic/comic(?) for ~Kaikuu
(...lots of things I don't remember right now... HELP >__< )


Random Stuff:

Xelax world sheet
Xelax hair sheet
Xelax Character Sheet Update
Alex Fic
Alyssa pics
Lots of Xelax stuff
Zeke stuff ;__; *been neglecting him lately*


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http://XekeX.deviantart.com/journal/17970571/ Tue, 22 Apr 2008 04:48:30 PDT
*warning for weirdness*


[link]


I love that song..... Never seen the vid tho'.. but now that I have I can't stop laughing XD

]]> *XekeX http://XekeX.deviantart.com/journal/17967415/ http://XekeX.deviantart.com/journal/17967415/ Mon, 21 Apr 2008 20:56:52 PDT Akkutsune because it looked fun.... and I'm putting off other things i need to do... D|;;

Five Characters:
Xelax - [link]
Alex - [link]
Zeke - [link]
Artemis - [link]
Angelo - [link]


How old are you?
Xelax: Don't really care.... around 20..?
Alex: 20? 21? 22...? I lost track of time.... XD;;
Zeke: Uuh...... 7- ...I mean.... 17...? I think...?
Artemis: 26, if it's so important to know....
Angelo: 19, dude... XD

What’s your height?
Xelax: 5'9"...
Alex: 5'9" X3
Zeke: .....five.... seven... an' a half...?
Artemis: 5'11".
Angelo: 5'8" XD

Do you have any bad habits?
Xelax: Hah!! You want a list...?
Alex: Oh, I know I do... XD;;
Zeke: =____=
Artemis: ....I suppose I should drink less....
Angelo: Uh.... I'm pretty lazy.... XD;;;

Are you a virgin?
Xelax: No.....? -__=
Alex: Nope~
Zeke: Hell no.... =___=
Artemis: What kind of vulgar question is that? *stern glare*
Angelo: Haha, no... XD;;

Who’s your mate/spouse?
Xelax: ......Rdox.... *blushes and glares to the side*
Alex: Dor~ <3
Zeke: Er... Lee..... -///-;;
Artemis: I'm not looking for a mate... =__=
Angelo: Uh... I'm seeing someone, currently, but I'd prefer not to get into that... XD;;

Do you have any kids?
Xelax: No.....? =____-
Alex: Not that I know of.... unless she lied about that too... >__>;;
Zeke: That's none o' yer f%&^in' business.... =__=
Artemis: I'm sure I did.... they've probably long since passed on, now...
Angelo: Naw, I was always safe...

What’s your Favorite food?
Xelax: I'm not picky....
Alex: Mmm... pasta~ X3
Zeke: Er.... so long as I c'n eat it.... I prefer meat, tho'... >__>
Artemis: I eat when I need to....
Angelo: Pizza all the waaaaay!! XD

What’s your favorite ice cream?
Xelax: ...I can't remember if I've had any before or not.... o__O
Alex: Never tried it.... XD;;
Zeke: .......Ice.... cream...? -__=;;;
Artemis: That's an unnecessary luxury I refrain from indulging in.... =__=
Angelo: Mmm... dunno man, chocolate or vanilla, I guess?

Have you killed anyone?
Xelax: Uh... yeah? -__=
Alex: Unfortunate, but yes....
Zeke: Yeah... problem with that....? =__=
Artemis: What kind of barbaric question is this? *stern glare*
Angelo: Whoa, no man, I'm not that hard core.... XD;;

Do you hate anyone?
Xelax: ....I'm not sure if it counts or not....
Alex: Hate's a strong word... XD;;
Zeke: Too many people t' count....
Artemis: I dislike the behavior of quite a few.... I wouldn't say I hate, though...
Angelo: Nah..... I have my moments like everyone else, but I don't think I could hate anyone if I wanted to.... XD;;;

Have any secrets?
Xelax: Depends on what you consider a secret...? -__=;
Alex: I have my share like everyone else... ^__^;;
Zeke: I dun think about it much... dun really care.... =___=
Artemis: That is a private matter.... =__=
Angelo: Uh... I'm sure I do... can't think of any off the top of my head.... I'm not much of a secrets kinda guy.... XD;;

Do you love anyone?
Xelax: Yeah..... *blushes vividly and glances away*
Alex: Yes~ <3
Zeke: ....Yeah... but that's none o' yer business....
Artemis: No.
Angelo: Love's a strong word.... ^__^;;;

What is your job?
Xelax: ....Do I even have a job? I guess I do whatever I'm told... =__=;
Alex: Er... before I died I did my best to protect others.....
Zeke: Dun have one....?
Artemis: Librarian.
Angelo: I'm a student, but I work part time at a beach house~ XD

Are you a boy or girl?
Xelax: All man.... *smirks a bit*
Alex: Man~
Zeke: Don't even joke about that.... =__= Male....
Artemis: Male.
Angelo: 100% dude here~ XD

What you do to relax?
Xelax: Train.... -///-
Alex: Help Dor with his job~ X3
Zeke: Er.... I dun relax too easy.....
Artemis: Read... organize... drink.... forget that last one.
Angelo: I'm usually pretty relaxed, man.... |D Write... surf... watch the sunset~

What song do you think would best describe yourself?
Xelax: Er.... probably too many.... no idea.... (Either "Op... ]]> *XekeX http://XekeX.deviantart.com/journal/17867676/ http://XekeX.deviantart.com/journal/17867676/ Tue, 15 Apr 2008 16:13:06 PDT
NAME MEME


1. WITNESS PROTECTION NAME: (mother & father's middle name)
Jane Warren. I dislike this name, but my parents can't help what they were named either XD;;

2. NASCAR NAME: (first name of your mother's dad, father's dad)
Geno Ira. LOL That totally doesn't ring, but Italian/Irish grandfathers ftw~ XD

3. STAR WARS NAME: (the first 3 letters of your last name, first 2 letters of your first name)
Smial. Smile...? Smeal.... Smeagul? D: That would rock... XD;;

4. DETECTIVE NAME: (favorite color, favorite animal)
Red Dragon. Dragon as in... komodo dragon... or various other lizards~ >D *not original, but they are my loves* <3

5. SOAP OPERA NAME: (middle name, city where you were born)
Marie Newport. (Newport Beach, but that'd sound weird) XD;;

6. SUPERHERO NAME: (2nd fav color, fav drink, add "THE" to the beginning)
Green Lemonade. Ew.. that sounds kinda nasty XD;;

7. FLY NAME: (first 2 letters of 1st name, last 2 letters of your last name)
Alth. Lol that's awesome XD

8. GANGSTA NAME: (fav ice cream flavor, fav cookie)
Chocolate Sugar. Mmm... sweet badness >D

9. ROCK STAR NAME: (current pets name, current street name)
Max Kendra. Lol not too bad... XD;;

10. STRIPPER NAME: (name of your fav perfume/cologne, fav candy)
I know no perfumes/colognes... so Kimi picked one for me... >__>
Obsession Twixt.

11. PORN NAME: (1st pet, street you grew up on)
Fred Mountain. Lol...


I am so amused... >__>
But yeah.. tag to all who read this~ XD *or want to*


Aside from that... sorry to everyone if I'm being really slow in getting back to you and if I'm not really active right now... may be a few days, but I'm going through another crappy spell, so I'm taking it easy right now... XD;; *or trying to*

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Stuff for Others:

Rdox/Xelax kiss for *dbx-1138
Birthday pic for ~acsmith12
Birthday pic for *kiminess
Springshock/Xelax pic for *kiminess
Kemix Element pic for *kiminess
Alex/Dor pic for *dbx-1138
Meeting Comic 3rd part
Aiden pic for *dbx-1138
Pic for =Akkutsune
Pic for ~zombie-ade
Pic/comic(?) for *Kaikuu
(...lots of things I don't remember right now... HELP >__< )


Random Stuff:

Xelax world sheet
Xelax hair sheet
Xelax Character Sheet Update
Alex Fic
Alyssa pics
Lots of Xelax stuff
Zeke stuff ;__; *been neglecting him lately*


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http://XekeX.deviantart.com/journal/17652951/ Wed, 02 Apr 2008 14:47:21 PDT
RULES: Pick ten of your friends' OCs and put them randomly in the slots. Have your OC answer the questions given, following which character is which number. Also put down the owner of the OC so that they know they are tagged and they put your OC in there own survey.


1) Rdox- *dbx-1138
2) Xinyk- =TheDeathEmbodied
3) Kemix- *kiminess
4) Ttixi- ~Blazing-Wings
5) Xhadi- ~DirtyGerbil
6) Namix- =Akkutsune
7) Rexdian- *kariudo-kun
8) Loxah- ~Harlequin-Faith
9) Abix- ~Caprie08
10) Xaaik- ~Kaikuu
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1. Would you date number 5?
Xelax: .....Definite no... =__=;

2. Number 2 just got in a car crash. How do you react?
Xelax: Mouth t-..... better let someone else take care of that.... -__-;

3. You see number 9 with your boy/girlfriend. What do you do?
Xelax: ....Nothing, I guess.... -__=;

4. You come home and your house has been TP'd by number 4.
Xelax: ...Hahah... real cute... ^__^;; *gonna take forever to clean up.. like hell I'm doin' it*

5. Number 1 is laying on your couch wasted.
Xelax: ....Join in? >3

6. Numbers 3 and 8 decide to give 10 a haircut.
Xelax: Hey, whatever floats yer boat... -__-

7. Number 7 just got tickets for him/her and you to go to a concert.
Xelax: ....Would this be considered gay...? =__=;

8. Number 10 takes you to a bar.
Xelax: ALCOHOL!! How I miss you!! T__T *stays sober* You totally suck for doing this to me, man...

9. Number 4 has to move to the other side of the world.
Xelax: *ain't gonna say anything but gonna miss her anyways* =___=

10. You and number 8 are being chased by the cops for an unknown reason.
Xelax: *evil cackle* What unknown reason?? >DD *runs like hell with her*

11. Number 7 and you are sitting on the couch watching a movie when they wrap their arm around you.
Xelax: *removes their arm and scoots a bit to the side* >___>;;

12. Number 5 asks you out to dinner.
Xelax: ....I don't believe you.... >__> *suspicious glare*

13. Number 9 and you are sitting on a bus. Where are you going?
Xelax: I have no idea... -__-;; *probably got on the wrong bus*

14. Number 7 wakes you up in the middle of the night because they can't sleep.
Xelax: Damn you... =___=;; *stuffs face in pillow*

15. Number 7 pins you onto the ground for no apparent reason, then starts licking your face.
Xelax: WTF!!???? @__x;; *squirms away and runs for the hills*

16. Your walking with someone and number 6 runs up and tackles you to the ground from behind.
Xelax: Gah!! x__x;;; *glares at the ground* ...Don't make a habit out of this, kid.....

17. Number 1 is crying one day and you ask them why and it seems their boy/girlfriend has dumped them.
Xelax: Er..... you still got me...? T__T *hugs*

18. Number 2 offers to bake you a meal. As you sit in the other room, the kitchen is suddenly aflame.
Xelax: HOLY SHIT! *helps her beat out the fire* ...Are you sure you know what yer doing...? =___=

19. Number 4 comes to your door one day holding a koala.
Xelax: Huh...? Oh... nice... *strained smile* ^__^;;

20. You and number 8 just woke up in the same bed.
Xelax: ....I'll agree nothing happened if you do... >__>;;

21. Number 4 just got you an X-Box.
Xelax: You probably shoulda saved yer cash, babe.... *can't play worth a damn*

22. Number 9 challenges you to a children's card game!
Xelax: Not really my thing, hun.... ^__^;;

23. Number 1 thinks they're overweight.
Xelax: *cracks up* Don't even joke about that... but we could always go for a little more exercise if you want.... >3

24. Number 7 looks lonely!
Xelax: *looks around* Not my problem... =__=;;

25. Number 2 asks you rudely to go leave them alone.
Xelax: Damned women don't make any sense... =__=

26. Numbers 5 and 3 decide to throw a suprise party for you. What happens after the party... ]]> *XekeX http://XekeX.deviantart.com/journal/17528379/ http://XekeX.deviantart.com/journal/17528379/ Wed, 26 Mar 2008 16:23:00 PDT I myself have moved out of my room for them... but that's alright, it's not often you get to see two people that in love, so it's worth it. >__> Besides, he's an awesome guy and I love her to death, so it's the least I could do. *just gonna have to get used to sharing a room with my other sister for a while until he manages to get a job and move out* XD

So yeah, chaaaaaaange.... it happens, and thus why I've been kinda distracted lately. I've also decided to get a list going of what art projects I need to be working on... they'll be in some kinda order of what i should be doing them in, but knowing me that list'll probably change on a regular basis.... XD;; *either adding to it or taking stuff off that I get frustrated with*

Anyway, gonna look soemthing kinda like this for now... and I'm still not thinking too good at the moment so I'm sure I've forgotten things I've promised people... feel free to remind me if I have XD;;


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Stuff for Others:

Zeke/Lee birthday pic for ~DirtyGerbil
Rdox/Xelax kiss for *dbx-1138
Birthday pic for ~acsmith12
Birthday pic for *kiminess
Springshock/Xelax pic for *kiminess
Kemix Element pic for *kiminess
Alex/Dor pic for *dbx-1138
Meeting Comic 3rd part
Aiden pic for *dbx-1138
Pic for =Akkutsune
(...lots of things I don't remember right now... HELP >__< )


Random Stuff:

Xelax world sheet
Xelax hair sheet
Xelax Character Sheet Update
Alex Fic
Alyssa pics
Lots of Xelax stuff
Zeke stuff ;__; *been neglecting him lately*


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http://XekeX.deviantart.com/journal/17388574/ Mon, 17 Mar 2008 23:58:55 PDT
Anyway...Tagged by:


1. Each tagged person should post 8 facts of themselves
2. Tagged people should write a journal\blog about these facts
3. In the end tag and name 8 people (will skip this....)
4. Go to their DA pages and comment saying that they are tagged and hugged...and possibly raped >:3 (*GASP* you perv o__o)

1. I am currently suffering from an unknown illness... it is why I have so much spare time and yet also why I have a severe lack of energy or motivation to do anything.... XD;; But I -shall- get better someday.... *believes strongly in positive energy, even if the doctors never figure out wtf is going on with me*

2. I have often been called an animal encyclopedia.... XD;; *not sure how accurate that is* I'm not an expert, and obviously I don't know everything... but I do know a lot of random facts that most people would find useless... *and what can I say? I love animals.... and I have a special affinity for reptiles* >3

3. I looooove art.... *__* *big DUH there... don't we all?* XD;; But yeah... whatever... I love being able to create believable images using a two-dimensional medium.... er... not sure if I qualify there yet.... but I love seeing how other people have the talent to do that anyway.... and I looooove learning.... so I constantly am trying to pick out other peoples' techniques.... XD;;

4. Language is not my strong point... XD;; English is the only language I can speak.... *can understand pieces of spanish* But, as is probably obvious... my grammar sucks... -__-;; I write like I talk and I talk like I write.... and I figure so long as it's understandable it's all good..... *unfortunately... that's not always the case, but whatever...* XD;;

5. My handwriting.... is like chicken scratches.... XD;;; *knows people say this a lot, but seriously... it's like a kind of code no one but myself and a few others can read..* *has actually had teachers fail my papers because they couldn't read them...* X__x;; So.... it's kind of become my personal obligation to always type everything, even if I'm given a choice between handwriting or not..... *and oddly enough... I can't type either... HAH* >D *fails*

6. I am an adrenaline junkie.... XD;; *not into death defying feats or anything tho'*.... but I loooove working out to a crazy extent... weight lifting, cardio, martial arts, etc.... *would probably do that all day if I could, but sadly.... sick.... can't do any of it anymore* XD;; I'm also usually a pretty laid-back, passive sort of person, too..... except when I'm working out, then I get oddly aggressive... which is kinda weird, but whatever.... -__-;;

7. Er.... what else to talk about... Well, I've said this before and I hate repeating myself because I feel like a broken record... but here goes again.. XD;; I am transgendered.... physically female, mentally and emotionally male... *no hate, plz* I like being honest with people about who I am and how I feel... so it's out there.... but I also don't like making a big deal out of it, so I -try- not to talk about it much or bring it up... *can't help that it keeps popping up tho* *hides this one someplace* >__>;

8. ..... *stares at the screen trying to think of another thing* Uuuuhhh..... I'm an incredibly indecisive person.... XD;; That's probably the thing I dislike most about myself... *has a hard time committing to any kind of decision... and committing to anything I say, so I'd much rather just go along with what other people want...* But... sometimes you really -need- to be able to make your own decisions.... so I guess that's just another thing I need to work on.... XD;; *again like I said, I love learning, too... and improving myself in any way I can, so shall get that figured out someday, too*


I tag NO ONE >D
But anyone who wants to do this then go ahead XD


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*XekeX http://XekeX.deviantart.com/journal/17126661/ http://XekeX.deviantart.com/journal/17126661/ Sat, 01 Mar 2008 01:04:39 PST
I do feel like I've gotten out of touch with a lot of my good friends tho', which is never fun... in large part that's probably my fault, but I'm gonna do my best to see to it that it gets better!! >__<; *cuz nothing's worth losing people like that for*

Also, I just gotta say somewhere that.... I am not a drama person... sorry... XD;; I'll deal with it when it happens but most of the time the stuff just flies right over my head and confuses the shit outta me.... so if something's really bothering you and you wanna talk to me about it yer gonna have to be very direct, cuz I miss stuff....

That said, I <3 all you guys. -___-
*bumps previous Jounal away*


Aaand... got a meme... yay... XD;;
Tagged by


Three Things You Want To Do Before You Die:
1 : Be able to do a backflip, dude!! D:
2 : Be good enough at art to sell stuff for cash!
3 : Be an awesome guy in general.

Three Names You Go By:
1 : *beep* Not saying real name, sorry... XD;;
2 : Zeke.
3 : Lani.

Three Screen Names You Have Had:
1 : Koseishi
2 : Zeke
3 : XekeX

Three Physical Things You Like About Yourself:
1 : Eyes
2 : Eyebrows
3 : Nose...?

Three Parts Of Your Heritage:
1 : Norwegian
2 : Italian
3 : Native-American

Three Things That Scare You:
1 : Pedophiles.... D:
2 : Becoming crippled
3 : Being dependent on others

Three Of Your Everyday Essentials:
1 : Internet...
2 : Video-games.
3 : Exercise *cries*

Three Things You Are Wearing Right Now:
1 : Black shirt
2 : Camo-cargo pants
3 : A watch...?

Three Of Your Favorite Bands/Musical Artists:
1 : In Flames
2 : Korn
3 : HIM

Three Of Your Favorite Songs: (currently)
1 : What Do I Have To Do? - Stabbing Westward
2 : Androgyny - Garbage
3 : Word Up - Korn

Three Things You Want In A Relationship :
1 : Honesty
2 : Understanding
3 : The ability to survive tough times

Two Truths And A Lie (in no particular order):
1 : Signature animal is a perentie.
2 : I hate people. >(
3 : I'm transgendered.

Three Physical Things About The Preferred Sex That Appeal To You: (physical? no personality? :s)
1 : Long waist.
2 : Pretty smile.
3 : Long legs.

Three Of Your Favorite Hobbies:
1 : Martial Arts *cries so'mo*
2 : Drawing.
3 : video games.

Three Careers You're Considering/You've Considered:
1 : Personal Trainer
2 : Video Game Artist/Designer
3 : Veterinarian

Three Places You Want To Go On Vacation:
1 : Australia
2 : Japan
3 : Disney Land XD

Three Names You Like: (wtf, names?)
1 : Zeke
2 : Sierra
3 : Kain

Three Ways That You Are Stereotypically A Boy:
1 : I am extremely competitive... XD;; *even tho' I never show it, and that's an understatement*
2 : I am dense... doesn't mean I don't understand but I like things given to me straight.
3 : I don't think before I talk... and a lot of what I say can be easily taken the wrong way... XD;

Three Ways That You Are Stereotypically A Girl:
1 : I can get overexcited about things I like.
2 : I am very empathetic.
3 : I tend to be very indecisive.


DONE! *coughs* Okay, and I ain't taggin' people cuz I dun do that... but anyone who wants to do this consider yerself tagged anyway. -___-



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http://XekeX.deviantart.com/journal/16975683/ Wed, 20 Feb 2008 10:54:46 PST *gonna keep saying that even when I'm old*

Hah, anyway.... I still need to get art done for people.... XD;;; *and the sad thing is that the stack is growing cuz I keep getting inspired by all this awesome shiiizzzz* Oh well... today's my B-day and my present to myself is to just procrastinate all day!!! <3 8DDD *shall get back to work tomorrow*

Hmm... what else can I talk about...... =___=;

Everyone srsly go check out the people below because they are fricken awesome and have lovely art~ *__* <3 An' thanks guys fer stickin' with me this long!!~ XDD <33


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]]> *XekeX http://XekeX.deviantart.com/journal/16723597/ http://XekeX.deviantart.com/journal/16723597/ Mon, 04 Feb 2008 13:28:59 PST __>;; I.e. I have this massive huge list of ideas and gifts I keep meaning to draw for people and it never happens..... *largely due to the fact that instead of getting better, I'm continuing to become more ill... but whatever.... I shall not be defeated!!* XD;; But... I'm gonna try to get on that soon.... might be of a lower quality than I'm happy with, but at least I'll feel a lot better getting some of these out of the way.... XD;;

When I do manage to catch up on that tho', I may start taking requests, something I haven't done in years... >__>;; But I think it might be a nice change of pace..... When/if I end up doing this it'll probably still go very slowly, unfortunately.... but anything is better than nothing~ : D

In other news.... I've started taking some new medications so I'm hopeful I'll be feeling better soon, although I'm wary of optimism at this point~ XD;;


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I am a MAN!!! 100% you $%@^&#*' &!^@#&$!!!! And I'm sick as all hell of bein' treated like a girl all the time.... You have no idea....
Seriously, no one has any fuckin' clue just how much this pisses me off and how sick I am of dealing with it.... It's really quite literally Driving Me Nuts....... I'm going insane... I can't sleep, I can't eat, I can't hardly move.... (granted, part of that is the fact that I'm sick as a dog 24/7) but a large part of it is just because I'm so angry... I feel like I'm gonna explode.... HAHAH!! Maybe that's what I'm doing right now, cuz I really need it... cuz god knows all I do in real life is clam up and do nothing and just take all the shit I hate so much like it's nothing every single goddamned day....

And the worst part is I have no idea how to fix it... because no matter what I do I can't change the way people think about and treat me.... And I hate myself for being so stupidly inept at taking control and doing what I need to do to make my life bearable.... I keep making excuses... I keep telling myself it's not possible so live with it... and even if it were possible it's not worth the cost....

Well, I got news for you buddy, it damn well -is- worth the cost... ciz I bloody refuse to live the rest of my life the way it's always been... there needs to be a point where things change... there has to.... and I'm sure as hell willing to pay whatever costs I have to... monetary and relationship wise.... And Hell.... what hell? Do I really care if it means hell at this point? I suppose that depends on what your definition of the word hell is, but right now.... I don't really care which one... if I die happy with myself I'll take whatever hell comes afterwards without blinking.

And now I've lost my train of thought... but that's probably for the best.... Anyways, I apologize for all the foul language going on up there, I just really needed to vent.... *still fumingly pissed but at least I've finally said soemthing about it I guess...* XD;;; *might be best if most people just didn't read this entry, too....*


Aaaaanyway.... for all who did sit through that waste of human breath, I'm sorry you had to see that... XD;;; *and I would very much appreciate it if I was not reported for the bad words....* And sincerely I hope you guys have an awesome day~ <3

]]> *XekeX http://XekeX.deviantart.com/journal/16553939/ http://XekeX.deviantart.com/journal/16553939/ Thu, 24 Jan 2008 15:57:04 PST
Anyway, it dawned on me the other day that in less than a month I'm going to be 20. As a little kid that would have been a huuuge deal... and it's kinda funny that the older you get you just kinda stop paying attention to things like that, I guess.... XD;; Just a new number to try and remember more than anything, although at the same time it's pretty awesome to realize I've been alive this long. Granted 20 is pretty young, still, but people die every day so you can't just take something like that for granted.

Oh well, it's all good so long as you make it count~ >3

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