http://search.deviantart.com/?q=by:Xidena&section=today deviantART RSS for by:Xidena en-us Copyright 2009, deviantART.com Tue, 22 Dec 2009 22:10:22 PST deviantART.com http://blogs.law.harvard.edu/tech/rss http://s.deviantart.com/minish/widgets/apple-touch-icon-precomposed.png http://Xidena.deviantart.com/journal/15621100/ http://Xidena.deviantart.com/journal/15621100/ Thu, 22 Nov 2007 12:45:27 PST The second one is significantly shorter, and more entertaining.


So...It took place at Leasha's house.
Only it wasn't really her house...it looked more like my Aunt Barb's house, only bigger. And just as messy.

Anyways, we were out in the backyard, and there was a fair amount of people over, but they were all off doing their own thing. All of a sudden, this big storm hit. The sky was a deep grey, and the wind was going crazy.

It wasn't raining, or lightning-ing, but it was thundering.

And for some reason, we decided it would be fun to stay in the backyard and watch. But the wind was so strong, that it literally knocked me off my feet, and flung me a few feet onto the nearby stairs. And that was just a light gust.
I was hella scared, but Des thought it was fun. So we stayed outside. I searched for something the hang onto.

The yard was covered in junk, but everything was lighter than me, thus...not going to keep me on the ground.

Finally, a bunch of us decided to get into my mom's van.
We figured with us all as one combined weight, it'd be a lot less likely that we'd get blown away.
The wind ripped the door off. And I was the one closest to the open door. So everytime a gust of wind came through, I had to hang onto some black metal bars in the van in order to not be blown away. I was basically a human flag, at that point.

Something happened, and we had to get out of the van. Me and Des ran into her garage, which had a bunch of windows looking out into the backyard. We searched around for something that we could take outside to use as a weight, but nothing was heavy enough.

The storm got worse, so we decided to just stay inside.

There was something about me standing on the stairs inside, and then going all the way upstairs, and something about sex.

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Then, in another dream, some teacher was saying how it was okay for her students to have sex, right then and there in her class, but she didn't have any condoms for us. So she handed out a sheet of this wax paper looking stuff to each of the guys to use in place of one.
I didn't think that looked like a good idea, even in the dream 0_o

]]> ~Xidena http://Xidena.deviantart.com/journal/14793478/ http://Xidena.deviantart.com/journal/14793478/ Tue, 25 Sep 2007 22:12:46 PDT
It all happened at school. We were all in Advisory, except in the dream my adviser was Mr Hibbs, the Marine Resources teacher.
Our classroom looked like a giant, zoo-sized aquarium, and we all sat on an upper level about 20 feet above the water in random caves along the walls.
I sat next to Leasha, and a few other people I didn't pay attention to, and we talked throughout most of the usual boring announcements Mr Lowney does daily. I don't remember if there was a TV mounted somewhere or what...but I remember seeing his face, so I guess so.

Throughout his talking, I managed to pick up a few words out of what he was saying and it caught my attention: We were going to have a Flood Survival Test.
The previous day (in my dream) we had had one, but it wasn't the same. Today, they were actually going to flood the whole school, top to bottom, and keep it that way for about an hour.
I guess Mr Hibbs was supposed to have taught us how to use our scuba gear that had been provided, or at least he was supposed to have given us the manuals...but alas, he didn't, and the manuals were so thick, we weren't going to have time to read them before the water rose.
And it rose fast. There were several giant faucets around the walls of the aquarium, just pouring out gallons of water per second, and the water level was steadily getting higher.
I looked down over the edge of the cave I was in, and realized that not only did I not have a spare, dry change of clothes for when this was over, I was also carrying my Cell Phone and MP3 player. There really was no safe place to put them, but I decided that hidden deep within my backpack was probably the best bet.

After I stashed my electronics...I realized "Oh shit...I might not live through this." And then promptly, accidentally knocked my binder and a bunch of loose papered homework into the water. Hibbs was rambling on in the background this whole time about an assignment we were supposed to be doing while the flood was going on. He wanted us to go find 5 of the giant fish that were swimming around, and with a partner; kill it, gut it, and bring the skeleton back to him identified.

I sighed, looked down at my binder that was sinking and jumped in to save it. I grabbed it and set it on a cave ledge, then continued swimming in search for a fish.
I found one, did what I was supposed to do with it, and turned it in.
Leasha, who was my partner, was busy talking with someone, not caring that A) We had an assignment to do, and B) That we were probably going to die. Either way, I was mad, but decided to just go fish hunting on my own.

I saw a giant, 7-8ft bright red fish off to my left, and it had spikes all over, laid so that if you were to pick it up the wrong way, or brush against it in the wrong direction, you'd end up extremely bloody (and I'm quite certain there were sharks in that aquarium.)
I asked someone if it was okay to try and kill the fish, but as I did, this other kid grabbed it, so I grabbed it to.

Next thing I know, I'm lying on the floor of a normal classroom, and the kid's standing over me holding the fish, threatening to drop it and it's spikeyness on me. I somehow convince him to not drop it, and to give me half so we can both turn it in for credit.
So he basically slaps the fish against my knee, and the fish cracks open down the middle, and he takes one half and sets the other half on top of me.
I get up clumsily, and pick up my half of the 7ft fish. Meanwhile, it's still got a bunch of organs attached to the muscles and bones, and it's bleeding all over the place.
I start freaking out, because I really didn't want to clean up fish blood, so I grab it, and run across the room, climb over a table, and continue to search for Mr Hibbs to turn it in. The whole time, the fish is leaving a blood trail on everything. But instead of normal drops of blood, each drop splatters into what looks like a pawprint. I look behind me and it looks like I'm being followed by some mammal with bloody feet.

I don't know if I found Hibbs. I don't know if I passed, or if Des got credit for the work I did. I guess I lived though...Yay?

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In other news, I have piles of homework I should be doing, but I'm not going to do it tonight
Including, but not limited to:
-Reading all of Chapter 1 and Appendix A for Psych, and taking notes on it.
-Reading Chapters 3-6 for The Awakening for AP Lit
-Writing 1 page Essay on The Yellow Wallpaper for AP Lit
-Translating my part for my Sign Song
-Translating... ]]> ~Xidena http://Xidena.deviantart.com/journal/14017616/ http://Xidena.deviantart.com/journal/14017616/ Sat, 04 Aug 2007 16:26:40 PDT
Also, my thoat hurts, because I slept with the AC on lol

Okay...so it took place at a giant mansion. Like HUGE. Bigger than Emerald Ridge, for example. I say that, because it was also partially a school.
Anyways, there was a really big party happening there, and for some reason all our friends were there, including Zemo =]

I think I ended up getting lost or something, because soon I was in this weird bar-like room. And part of it was used to sell stuff, like....shirts with the Nerds logo(candy, I mean) on them. Hm.
Oh, and sitting at the bar was Beyonce, and a bunch of other popular and/or beautiful people.

I don't know where I'm going with this, btw, I'm just writing as I remember 0_o

So, there was this guy, beautiful, popular, and very tall. But everyone was predicting that he'd ask Beyonce out to the concert that was going to be held later. But for some reason...he asked me out. But it wasn't to the concert. I was flattered and confused, and said yes.
So it was time for him to go his drama class, and he took me with him. And because I was there, the teacher considered me a student, and decided to make me do the class activity. Skiing. Okkay... So the whole class walked down to what looked like our downstairs. Except the bathroom was a room full of skis, and there a guy standing in front of it with a cash register, renting them out.
I was last in line, and apparently the guy I was with went on ahead to the snow room(which was out our sliding glass door), so I went left alone with the guy renting the skis. Who was oriental, and had very bad english. And considering I've never ski'd before in my life, I had no idea what I was talking about.

For some reason the guy decided that I needed to watch this video he had in his back ski room. So he dragged me back there, popped in the tape in a VCR he had hooked up, and this video comes on, all about this war that was fought between Africa and Scandinavia. Apparently he made the video, which was pretty well made, but extremely boring. And apparently he was one of the main guys in the war. Which, according the the video, wasn't a war. That was just a cover. I don't remember what it was exactly, but I remember hearing that some of the men "fighting in the war" ended up having their wives divorce them because they found out it was all fake. I think it had something to do with poetry.

Eventally I got what I needed to ski and make it to the snow room. Which was an indoor hill the size of ERHS, with random walls and trees, with weather controls. Everyone from the class was off somewhere else, but the guy I was with had stayed near the entrance and waited for me. Long story short, I suck at skiing lol.

I don't remember what happened next, but I ended up sitting outisde on a deck on the 2nd story with my friends again, with the guy nowhere around and the sun setting. Des had apparently won some contest on the radio, and had recieved a wristband. The wristband had writing all over it, and was actually a pass to get into the concert. The concert...the people playing were called "The husbands" and were actually a rap group. She could get in just by wearing the band, and could also bring a friend.
She invited me to go, but there were two problems.
The concert started at 10pm. I was supposed to be home by then.
And on the actual bracelet itself, it said there'd be ecstasy there.
I didn't want to get involved in that kinda of thing, even if it did sound fun, so I said no.
Which made me depressed, because she had actually invited me first, instead of the other Kerri, and I had to say no.

Instead, I decided to go skiing again. But just as I got to the rental place, the guy was leaving. He remembered who I was and trusted me, so he was going to let me borrow the stuff anyways while he was gone. He had already locked the cash register, and didn't have time to count out change, so I ended up just handing him $40, instead of like, the actual $32 it cost 0_o
Well, the end.

]]> ~Xidena http://Xidena.deviantart.com/journal/13928283/ http://Xidena.deviantart.com/journal/13928283/ Sun, 29 Jul 2007 14:09:24 PDT
So it's REALLY strange...that I'd dream about them. Or Kenji, actually. I don't even know what he looks like lol

I was online, and all of a sudden I got an instant message. But it wasn't from anyone I reconized. So I started talking to them, and they said their name was Kenji. And I got all excited, because I realized who it was.
But as the conversation continued, I started to get the idea that it wasn't really him, but someone pretending to be him.
Depressing.
I have no idea what we talked about.
Completely random, I know lol

In other news, I can't seem to control my emotions lately. Yay rollercoasters!
The thing that bothers me is I don't know WHY I've been this way.
Minus Michael leaving for 2 weeks of course.
Stupid Munich, Germany.

And! Expect new art from me soon.
....Hopefully.

-An art trade with r3
-An art trade with Disorganizedchaos
-Gift art for Kake
-A drawing of Joey that I've wanted to do that for awhile
-A drawing of Eien
-And maybe Sokka =]

]]> ~Xidena http://Xidena.deviantart.com/journal/13824011/ http://Xidena.deviantart.com/journal/13824011/ Sat, 21 Jul 2007 17:43:00 PDT I have other reasonings too, but...nevermind that.
I might even go 48 hours, idk.

Also, I haven't been able to sleep well lately. I've been uber tired, starting around midnight, so I go and try and sleep and end up lying there until anywhere from 4-6am.
and of course last night Kiara started barking nonstop at like, 7. Uughh.

Oh! And fun-ness!
I'm doing an ArtTrade with and I'm uber excited!
I have no idea what I want for my half though lol

Anyways, I'm off to go play Zelda: TP. I'm playing through it again. On Brycen's file.
I was playing it yesterday, and was talking with that chick who lost her memory, and she's like "POOTER!!!"
I had completely forgotten that Zemo named his horse that lol

I'm already up to the part where I'm collecting the mirror pieces, and I'm at the abominable snow creature's mansion, and his sick wife can't remember where she hide the key for the room where the mirror is. I've already found the pumpkin and the goat cheese =\
Seriously, probably my least favorite level. No, I lied. The Ooccoo's place is my least favorite. Stupid ugly birds. At least they don't hide goat cheese in teasure chests and then forget about it.

]]> ~Xidena http://Xidena.deviantart.com/journal/13772764/ http://Xidena.deviantart.com/journal/13772764/ Tue, 17 Jul 2007 17:03:30 PDT
I was in my backyard, hanging out with...some gang. I seem associate with gangs a lot in my dreams...anyways, They were cool though. Like...Protectors of the area, and friends of mine. There was about maybe 20-30 of em, all guys in their upper teens, and all of us were doing random things. I was online, sitting at a desk using a computer..outside. Hmm.

All of a sudden, this other gang comes rushing in, with weapons. The other gang has about the same amount of people, about the same age, but they look rougher. They're the ones that cause the trouble that my group stops.

My gang grabs their weapons, which is mostly swords and start to fight the others. Meanwhile I'm standing there watching all my friends fight, going "WTF!" because this is war. A fight to the death, til there's only one man standing, in my backyard, and I can't stop it. So I decided to join it. Kinda. I wasn't actually part of the gang, Anyways, I grabbed a sword, and...a big pair of scissors? and start defending myself. I was scared to actually fight. I didn't want to kill anybody.

So I make my way to one of my better friends in the group...Jason. Who in this dream was my boyfriend. Okay, odd. And I try to convince him to stop, or he'll get killed. I tried telling him we could sneak out of there, but he wanted to fight. So I worked my way back over the the computer. I sat down and got on Myspace, and was looking at a profile for some guy, who looked just like Eien Christenson. Actually, now that I think about it, it WAS Eien. And according to his Myspace, it was his birthday. I look over at a couple guys fighting next to me...and there he was. Fighting for the opposing gang.

Something happened to the guy Eien was fighting, and then Eien noticed me. Bad. He was supposed to be killing people from the good gang, and since I was friends with them, he was going to fight me. He didn't want to though, and I could tell. I refused to fight him, and instead tried to talk to him, like I mentioned how it was his birthday. I sat at the computer as he took a pair of scissors that he had and put them to my neck, planning to make himself kill me by slitting my throat. But he couldn't do it, and dropped the scissors.

We started talking more, and I convinced him to leave with me. We started walking away from my house, when some guy from his gang charged us from behind. I took out my guitar...that I have no idea how I got, and showed it to him. It was beautiful: White with black, yellow, and bright orange markings. For some reason he left us alone because of that. So me and Eien kept walking, and ended up at a craft store.

We had a little bit of money, and for some reason decided to go school supplies shopping for him. Okaayy...So we're going around this craft store, and I see a rack of paint, and I asked him if he's even done a painting. He chuckles, says yes, but that his family's too poor to afford to buy him any of the colors he needs. So i'm looking at the list of what he needs for school, and it says paint, and then lists specific colors. So I go and find those colors, which took me FOREVER btw, but then I look behind me and there's a set of paints with all the colors he needs, plus more. So I decide to buy it for him.

As we walk out of the store, holding hands, I see my parents...and Jason...and my cousin Susan walking out of Walmart, which happens to be right next door. And Jason's depressed, because now I'm with Eien, and not him. But he's the one that chose to fight instead of listen to me. But look! Jason wasn't killed =] Good for him.


This dream took me FOREVER to type. I kept getting distracted, and stopped to watch an hour of Boy Meets World. I missed that show lol
But yay! EIEN! I need to draw him, I really do.
Because the Eien in my dreams is different than the one you know of.
I mean, he almost killed me. Urf.

]]> ~Xidena http://Xidena.deviantart.com/journal/13718564/ http://Xidena.deviantart.com/journal/13718564/ Fri, 13 Jul 2007 09:17:20 PDT Except I haven't been to sleep yet.
I've been up since around...10:50ish pm.

I was sick all afternoon yesterday. Like pukey/headacheness. Ultralame.
But I was sleeping on and off all afternoon hoping it would go away, and now I can't sleep at all.

I'm loving the thunder and the rain. But it figures it'd be cold as soon as my AC gets hooked up. Oh well. I'd rather be cold than having my room be 90 degrees like it was yesterday.

Really, I have nothing of importance to say, I'm just hardcore bored.

Umm....I hear an alarm. It sounds nothing like a car alarm though. Or construction. And it's kinda freaking me out. And now it's gone. So much for that.

Also, I heard a freaky story on the radio this morning. Something about a pitbull raping a 2 year old? Creepy.

I think later today I'm going to go through and watch all my Avatar discs. I haven't seen em in awhile, and I miss being a crazed fangirl. And if I do watch any, I'll probably do some art to go with it. I have a new technique that I'd like to try, and I've been dying to draw either Sokka, Zuko or Jet. Or all three =]
But dang it! I need Season 3! NOW!

You know, I really should finish fixing up my room. I started a couple days ago. but then one night I was too tired, and then last night I was sick, so....
Eh. Maybe later today.

Oh, and I bought a second VNV Nation CD. Which I love.
Apparently VNV stands for Victory Not Vengence. Hmm.

And I'd like to take the time now to go "Omg, it's a miracle! Keri's not emo anymore!"
Seriously? When was the last time you guys heard me complain like I used to? I can't even remember the last time I cried.
It's amazing.

I remember this time last year...Okay, well, I won't go into that. Never mind.

I keep thinking...What would things be like if I would have known any of this was going to happen?
Idk.

But I guess I'm done wasting your time now lol

Bye bye =]

]]> ~Xidena http://Xidena.deviantart.com/journal/13594297/ http://Xidena.deviantart.com/journal/13594297/ Tue, 03 Jul 2007 15:36:08 PDT
It starts off in like, the world of The Lord of the Rings. I think Elijah Wood was actually in it for awhile...
Anyways, there was no electricity, but there was magic, but only certain people could use it. And I was one of them, and I was a guy (of course.) The magic users formed a clique of about 20-30ish people amongst a big group of about 300 people, but we were forced to hide our abilities for fear of being banished from the group. The group was split into a bunch of smaller groups, but we all hung around each other, for protection I guess. Everyone in my dream was somewhere between the ages of 15-27, btw, except for one old man...

So one day everyone was out and about, playing on this giant hill. I don't really know what happened, but a good friend of mine ended up falling quite a ways a broke his leg. A few of us went to help him, but we knew if too many people knew his leg was broken, then we couldn't heal it with magic without being questioned. But people found out anyways. We took him back to our house, which was a bunch of thick red curtains set up to seperate the inner groups. Mostly, the groups didn't have the curtains completely seperate them from the others, they were their mostly just so they knew that they COULD if necessary. But we took the guy with the broken foot into our area and closed the curtains. Someone awhile back had put a spell on the curtains, so that if they were closed all the way, they'd be completely sound proof, so it could be our place to discuss and use magic.
But it was a dream, and having close easily wouldn't be fun of course. People kept coming in and out, there were gaps in the curtains, etc...
And then a storm came. Like, a Hurricane, 6 month monsoon storm. We never got a chance to heal my friend, so we just grabbed him and ran and tried to keep ahead of the storm the best we could.

The old man...He was part of our group. The only thing I remember about him is that he had an umbrella, made of electricity. Which didn't block any rain whatsoever, even though that's what he tried to use it for. Instead, it attracted lightning, and was soon destroyed.

I don't remember the running much, except for our group spending the night in a muddy ditch, and trying to sleep next to Roberto, who kept playing his iPod REALLY loud. Loud enough so that the people outside of our group, who were lying on the ground next to us, could hear it. I kept yelling at him, telling him to turn it off, but he wouldn't listen, and the others were getting really curious and suspicious. Finally I just stole it and hid it.

The next thing I know, we're all in a cave, and we're all searching for something. We had found a spaceship that lacked fuel, and if we all had one of the same thing, then it'd supply enough fuel for us. So we all looked for rocks, but for some reason that didn't work. So we all transformed into random aliens, and started looking for worms.
Now when I say aliens, I don't mean the green dudes with big heads. Everyone was in like, different shapes. There was this one guy who looked like a flat alligator, with a light coming out of his head, with about 20 legs. I won't go into detail as to how we caught the worms, but it severely grossed me out.

In the middle of catching worms, the storm caught us. The cave started flooding severely, and everyone started freaking out. I remember turning back into my human form and trying to find a way out of there. I somehow managed to save my friend with the broken foot. Me and my friend were the only ones who lived out of our group. I actually watched a few of them die. It wasn't pleasant.
I don't know what happened to the rest of the big group.

Anyways, me and my friend kept wandering, and finally came across a school. Which was actually a spaceship. We went inside, even though it was trespassing. We knew we'd probably be killed if caught, we we found some disguises. Only part of the school was an actual rocket, so we made our way to that area. We found that room, and there was a table there where 4 other people were already sitting. We joined them with caution. We talked with them for awhile and pretended we knew what was going on. All of us were wearing goggles on their heads, and my friend kept wanting to put his down, but I gave him a dirty look.

All of a sudden, there was an explosion, and one of the walls in the room collapsed, and an alarm went off. The others put down their goggles, and ran out of the room, and we followed their example.
I'm not sure why, but my friend decided to morph into this giant orangish furry creature, but luckily, no one saw him change.
So we're all standing in the hallway of the school, and they start debating on who can ride in the escapepod/spaceship thingie. Only 4 people would... ]]> ~Xidena http://Xidena.deviantart.com/journal/13539273/ http://Xidena.deviantart.com/journal/13539273/ Fri, 29 Jun 2007 12:56:17 PDT
I'm not going to bother with the first part of the dream because it won't make sense.
But it involved a play featuring famous actors (like Jack Black) and shaving their legs and chest and backs, ice cream factories, and them acting like 1st graders.

So! Our group of friends decided to see this play, which happened to be at school. On the way home, I ended up getting a ride with somebody who drove a van just like ours. I was just about to get in and sit up front, but I got distracted because Heather, the chick who looks like a guy, showed up and wanted a ride too. I remember shmee and Kerri were in the middle seat, and I guess they got an idea, because they made me and Heather sit in the back together. The whole way home she was hitting on me. I guess they knew she liked me.
So I got home, and for some reason I invited her in.
We ended up sitting on my bed, and she started showing me these anthro drawings of her as a squirrel in sexual positions. And something about a Jaguar/Squirrel hybrid. But I think I actually started to like her. But the whole time I was thinking "omg! Wtf are you doing?! I have a boyfriend!"
She put the drawings on the ledge of my window, and I don't remember any more of that dreams.

There was another dream, but I have to go get ready to go to Gig Harbor with my mom =]

]]> ~Xidena http://Xidena.deviantart.com/journal/13479240/ http://Xidena.deviantart.com/journal/13479240/ Mon, 25 Jun 2007 00:45:56 PDT But I'm DONE!!!

It's over!
She's can't make me make any more corrections!
And if she tries to, I'm going to tell her to go fuck herself =]

I'm going to go play Mario Party now.

Have a nice day

]]> ~Xidena http://Xidena.deviantart.com/journal/13410360/ http://Xidena.deviantart.com/journal/13410360/ Tue, 19 Jun 2007 18:13:13 PDT
Just woke up from yet another bad dream. Like not even weird bad, just plain bad. Third one this week.

Basically, we were giving a few of my friends a ride home...only it was over to my house. But I could tell there was something wrong with my mom. So she started talking to me a little when the other people weren't listening...But it wasn't going to work. So when we got home, she let the others in first, and they went upstairs, and she took me downstairs to the garage and closed the door. She started saying how her psychologist was saying that no matter what happened, my mom wasn't allowed to tell anybody what they talked about, but she was going to tell me anyways.
Then I woke up, but whatever. Because I knew what she was going to say. She was going to say how she was deeply depressed, and was going to commit suicide.

So I walk out to the living room, sit down, and the phone rings. And it's Barb(my aunt). No big, I figured I'd answer and then hand it to my mom.
But then Barb starts talking about Kristen(my cousin) and how she's been trying to look up and figure out what me and Des signed about this picture of a guy she liked.
We signed that he looked gay. He did. Blah.
I wasn't about to tell my aunt that, so I said that "I think we signed cute".
Basically, that whole thing made me feel horrible.

And now...It's time to write my stupid college application essays for English. That class needs to die.

]]> ~Xidena http://Xidena.deviantart.com/journal/13125398/ http://Xidena.deviantart.com/journal/13125398/ Mon, 28 May 2007 12:47:16 PDT
Not sure I can fully describe then, but I haveta try lol

So....I don't even think I was in it until later. But it started out at a Sea World type place. It was this...big spherical room, meant for orca whales. The thick, hollow outer wall of the room(and the seating attached) would rotate 360 degrees, and the trick was that the whales would have to fall/jump from an opening in the outer wall, where they were being held, to a pool in the center of the room.
I remember there was a woman standing in the outer wall freaking out at the improbable-ness of this trick actually turning out okay.
And....There was something about zombies and brain control, no joke. It was a really long dream. I just wish I could remember more.

Then, after that was all done, I finally made an appearance. It was in front of my Grandma's old house. Not that..any of you know what that looks like...Grassy, Fenced in, big tree in the middle of everything, winding paved path, flowers everywhere. Anyways, there was like, 3 teen guys there, and in waking life, I have no idea who they are.
Anyways, somehow I decided to be a camera whore, and one of the guys was to take pictures of me...While playing his guitar. And he was kinda struggling to do both at the same time, but whatever. My poses...were entertaining for sure. And they all involved me being on the ground. And the music that guy was playing was just stuff my brain made up while I was sleeping, but it sounded like a combination of Snow Patrol and Yellowcard. Hmm, but the poses got even more entertaining when one of the guys joined me lol

Umm, yeah. Excitng lol

]]> ~Xidena http://Xidena.deviantart.com/journal/13113367/ http://Xidena.deviantart.com/journal/13113367/ Sun, 27 May 2007 14:09:14 PDT
So I guess we were having a family get-together over at my aunt Patty's apartment(And because Des knows my family, I'll use names lol. No, she doesn't have an apt in real life). It was probably around 5 pm and we decided to go down to this forest/river nearby. So we're down there, and it's like a massive jungle, no paths or anything, split in half by the river.

I ended up walking further in than I was supposed to, and rubbed against something poisonous. And of course, I was barefoot for some reason, and I ended up stepping in something poisonous as well. And I dont mean itchy poison, I mean death poison. Somehow, someone found me, I think it was a family member, and they had me lay on the ground. because the poison had really just brushed against my skin, they decided to burn it off. So I had to lie there while they took this weird pencil shaped tool with a bent tip and scraped it across my leg and the heel of my foot. PAINFUL. I kept squirming because it hurt so bad, and I don't think they ever really burned it all off. Whoops lol

Anyways, my family got bored of the forest around nightfall and went back to my aunt's apartment. We were sitting there and my cousin Susan and her boyfriend Derek went to get a soda, and came back with cans of blood instead, because in my dream they were vampires 0_o. Susan asked if I wanted one, and I took a sip, but decided I'd rather stick with Dr Pepper.

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It's been awhile since I posted meanings, but I figured it'd be fun lol

"To dream that you are drinking blood, indicates that you have a fresh burst of vitality and power."

"To see a vampire in your dream, symbolizes seduction and sensuality, as well as fear and death. The vampire represents contrasting images of civilized nobility and aggression/ferocity. To see a vampire in your dream, symbolizes seduction and sensuality, as well as fear and death. The vampire represents contrasting images of civilized nobility and aggression/ferocity. It may depict someone in your waking life whose charm may ultimately prove harmful. Deep down inside you know that this person is bad for you, yet you are still drawn to it. Vampires also sometimes relate to decisions about sex and losing your virginity. Vampires also sometimes relate to decisions about sex and losing your virginity."

"To see poison in your dream, denotes that you need to get rid of something in your life that is causing you much sickness, distress, or negativity."

"To see something burning, indicates that you are experiencing some intense emotions and/or passionate sexual feelings. There is some situation or issue that you can no longer avoid and ignore? Alternatively, it may suggests that you need to take time off for yourself and relax."

]]> ~Xidena http://Xidena.deviantart.com/journal/12993904/ http://Xidena.deviantart.com/journal/12993904/ Thu, 17 May 2007 19:51:12 PDT I'm trying to think of a topic for my research paper, and I have a lot of ideas for arguments, but they're all topics that I don't know how to research, and that's kinda the point.

So this is just me releasing ideas and theories to get them out of my head. If you think of anything, let me know.
If you're going to read these, keep in mind...They're not all pretty, or right, or logical.

Also, I have a new favorite word: Sheeple. I don't know what the original creator set the definition to be, but I think of people acting as sheep and being an unthinking herd.

Oh, and one last thing. I have a new addiction. I love reading other people's philosophies here on DA. Anything to get me thinking. If you're curious, look at my recent favorites.


Loneliness:
I've spent the past 5 years of my life deticated to watching and studying people. If that's not research, I don't know what is. This World confuses me greatly. Everyone's so lonely, and strange, and different. We all feel that we're the odd one out and the cause of everybody's problems. But if we're all aliens, why can't we be aliens together?

Time:
Everything's based around an idea that was created long ago, and it was made to help, but now it just controls. Time controls EVERYTHING. School bells, when homework is due, meetings, how long we sleep, how long we play. In our daily life, there is no way we can just sit around and do as we please without remembering that we have to get something done or be somewhere by a certain time.

6th Sense:
Blind do not know what colors are, same as Deaf do not know of sound. Is there something that Mankind does not know of?

Gay/Disease:
The world is becoming vastly overpopulated. Maybe some Homosexuality and some disease is a good thing? And no, I'm not saying homosexuality is a disease of anykind. It just means you can't reproduce. And no, I'm not saying I like disease. But if we don't keep a consistance rate of life to death, we're going to end up with 20 people living in an area that a typical house takes up.

Capital Punishment:
If someone does such a crime that they'd sentence him to death, then why would you be so kind as to be gentle and thoughtful and kill him mildly? Wouldn't it be more fitting to do something more harmful and punishing? Yet I do not believe in the "eye for an eye" theory. "An eye for an eye makes the whole world go blind." But I would defintitely prefer that these people that get Capital Punishment were not running amok in the free population.

]]> ~Xidena http://Xidena.deviantart.com/journal/12914786/ http://Xidena.deviantart.com/journal/12914786/ Thu, 10 May 2007 18:49:06 PDT But I don't like coloring much lately, so most of these will probably just be sketches and will end up in my scraps. Huzzah.

1.) Love
2.) Hate
3.) Good
4.) Evil
5.) Red
6.) Orange
7.) Mother Nature
8.) Green
9.) Blue
10.) Violet
11.) Black
12.) White
13.) Silence
14.) Blood
15.) Trouble Lurking
16.) Foreign
17.) Wind
18.) Water
19.) Heart
20.) Gentle
21.) Rough
22.) War
23.) Childhood
24.) Loyalty
25.) Betrayal
26.) Dreams
27.) Death
28.) Words
29.) 67%
30.) Women
31.) Men
32.) Keeping a Secret
33.) Tower
34.) Diamond
35.) Two Roads
36.) Pearl
37.) Summer
38.) Spring
39.) Autumn
40.) Winter
41.) Heaven
42.) Hell
43.) Angels
44.) Demons
45.) Ghosts
46.) Aliens
47.) Fairy Tales
48.) No Way Out
49.) Nightmares
50.) Predictable
51.) Unexpected
52.) New Years
53.) Hero
54.) I Can't
55.) Test
56.) Pen and Paper
57.) Spiral
58.) Patriot Day
59.) Halloween
60.) Triangle
61.) Drowning
62.) Theatre
63.) Movies
64.) Television
65.) Radio
66.) Past
67.) Present
68.) Future
69.) Day
70.) Night
71.) Hope
72.) Trust
73.) Solitude
74.) Luck
75.) First Date
76.) First Kiss
77.) Advertisement
78.) Safety First
79.) Puzzle
80.) Pride
81.) Envy
82.) Wrath
83.) Sloth
84.) Greed
85.) Gluttony
86.) Lust
87.) Joy
88.) Patience
89.) Kindness
90.) Faithfulness
91.) Self-Control
92.) Music
93.) Dance
94.) Healing
95.) Destruction
96.) Win
97.) Lose
98.) Prisoner
99.) Freedom
100.) The Truth

]]> ~Xidena http://Xidena.deviantart.com/journal/12671680/ http://Xidena.deviantart.com/journal/12671680/ Fri, 20 Apr 2007 18:57:39 PDT
But the last one I just had...I met this teenage guy on the street and invited him in. It was Christmas, and of course there was snow on the ground. But the two of us, plus some other people who I don't really remember, were sitting on my couch watching a movie that the guy starred in(apparently he was famous), when he looks out the back window and freaks out, saying that his older brother is out there and he's going to kill him if he finds him.

So he closes the front blinds as fast as he can, and I realize that the back blinds on the sliding glass door are open, so I dart to close them before he can see in, but it's too late and he's already there.

Remind anybody else of my Jack Lake dream? (From Jun 29, 2006, btw)

But anyways, the door was looked, and I closed the blinds in back all the way so he couldn't see in to shoot, but then for some reason I decided to try and talk to him via the small kitchen window.
So I shout through the window and then slammed it closed so he couldn't get in, but of course I couldn't hear his answer so I had to open the window again anyways.
Did I mention he was wearing a Nazi uniform?
Anyways, I continue talking with him, and his younger brother in the house is freaking out and trying to hide, but after awhile of talking through the window, I manage to come to the conclusion that the Nazi guy isn't so bad and that I like him better than his movie star brother.
And that's all I remember.
Wtf.

Oh, and I just remembered something about me finding a cute little baby salamander and picking him up and having him sit on my hand for awhile before putting him back. I wanna draw one now lol

]]> ~Xidena http://Xidena.deviantart.com/journal/12510076/ http://Xidena.deviantart.com/journal/12510076/ Sun, 08 Apr 2007 12:39:06 PDT I should be getting ready for the family get together, but you know how I am about getting my dreams out lol


So this dream....I don't remember how it actually started, but we were at school.
The first thing I remember is lunch. First lunch, actually. But Melinda ran up to me in the hall and she's like "Dang it! Stand on your tiptoes, you know it's tradition now! *giggle*" so I did and then we kissed like that. Apparently she was my girlfriend. Then I ran off to be with Michael for a few minutes, then went and sat down at a table in the commons next to Kerri, who promptly made out with me. For some reason I remember her lipgloss distinctively.
Two girlfriends and a boyfriend, and no one knew about it each other.

After awhile I got bored of sitting at the lunch table while Kerri talked to people I didn't know, so I went and found Michael and we went for a walk to the end of the school, which was pretty much 3 times it's usual size. So we get to the end of the school, and there's like 2 strip malls and a movie theatre right across the street. It was weird. Anyways, THAT'S when the bell rang for lunch to end, and here we are as far away as we can get from our classes. That, plus we managed to get ourselves lost. So We found a map and somehow ended back up in the commons, but it was into 2nd lunch by then.

As we went to say goodbye, I guess my conscience in my dream started catching up to me, because I decided to tell Michael I had two girlfriends that I had been seeing behind his back. He just kinda stood there in silence and looked away. He had a look on his face that still makes me feel like a completely horrible person, even though it was just a dream. Like, I'm still shaky and angry at myself for even dreaming that I'd do that to him.

Amoungst all this I had random panic attacks as I remembered and then quickly forgot again that I was supposed to be studying for a Psychology test in the next class period.
So after I told Michael about my two girlfriends, I went to class, not knowing a thing. Mr White ended up not showing up for class until about 20 minutes after I got there, and then he left again because someone needed him.

Somehow...I ended up falling out 2nd story window, onto the roof, then falling onto the grass/pavement below, where I was shot in the back of the head, which caused me to go deaf. And then...I was an anthro bat. The paramedics showed up and like, peeled off the fur from the back of my head, and there was a little indent there. For some reason they decided to peel of a little bit of fur from my hip, where there was another indent just like the first. I'm like "Yeah, I was shot at before, by the same guy." Who happened to still be around. I think we ended up going to sue him, but I don't really know, because the stupid birds who have decided to make a nest right outside my bedroom window decided to have a nice, loud chat.


-EDIT-
Okay, My reasoning for some of this stuff:

I always have to stand on my tiptoes to even hug Michael lol.
...Except Melinda's a lot shorter than me in real life...

My sniper....I blame Secondlife. Syxx. Long Story.

My batness is obvious. Xidena. Although I'm surprised it wasn't a snow leopard.

As far as being deaf, I've been worried about figuring out my sign song for ASL.

I have an english test I have to study for that I've been worried about,and I plan on studying for it the night before I take it.

The falling on the roof, second storiness reminded me on Michael's room. I kept joking about sitting on the roof right outside his window.

And I was thinking about Kerri and Kate before bed because I had just talked to Kate.

Not as important, but I was playing Zelda before bed, so that might be where the bigness of the school, the map, and getting lost thing came from lol



So now I'm sitting here at my aunt's house, enjoying myself more than I thought I would lol
The little kids, Karmichael and Piper...They're so cute lol
It's nice, I'm sitting in the corner alone, but this way I'm still kinda part of all the "action" and can still see everything that's happening.
God I still feel awful about my dream....Like I know I'd never do that, but still.


So, umm...Happy Easter?

]]> ~Xidena http://Xidena.deviantart.com/journal/12299891/ http://Xidena.deviantart.com/journal/12299891/ Fri, 23 Mar 2007 17:01:57 PDT
I don't remember some of the details, but....

I was walking past this place that sells alcohol, and they had a rack of little tubs of liquid outside the building. I picked one up saying "How stupid, having alcohol just sitting like this so anybody could steal it." Then I looked up and saw the sign that said Free, and was like "wtf?". Then this guy walks by, picks one up and drinks one, and I decide to too. Then someone else walks up and says "Umm...You know that's not alcohol, right?" So then I got really confused...

Then stuff happened that I don't remember, but the next thing I know, me and the guy are sitting on the street across from each other and we're both freaking out because his boobs are massively bloated, spewing milk, but only out of the nipple though one tiny hole, continuously growing and about to explode. Apparently it's an bad side effect of the liquid if your body doesn't like it. So we're trying to figure out a way to stop them from exploding, and someone called 911, and then I look at the guy and he jabs this giant syringe into his boob, sucks out some of the milk, and squirts it out onto the street in hopes of delaying the explosion.

And that's all I remember. And I'm glad. But I really wish I didn't remember the syringe part.
Highly disturbing.

I think it was a combination of this weird picture I saw yesterday, and a commercial I heard right before bed about some weird cream you rub on yourself to make your boobs bigger.

]]> ~Xidena http://Xidena.deviantart.com/journal/12182371/ http://Xidena.deviantart.com/journal/12182371/ Wed, 14 Mar 2007 14:49:34 PDT
We just got Kiara back from getting her hair did...

And I don't know whether to laugh or to cry.
It's seriously that bad.

I didn't even think that she was our dog when my mom brought her out. I thought it was a different dog.

She looks like a full grown dog with a poodle cut minus the little puff balls on her feet and tail.

And my mom flat out told them what she wanted and that is totally not what she got.

]]> ~Xidena http://Xidena.deviantart.com/journal/11992822/ http://Xidena.deviantart.com/journal/11992822/ Tue, 27 Feb 2007 19:35:01 PST
But this is another one of my jounals about dreams, not chocolate. Mmhmm.

I only remember parts.

Apparently Michael and I got in trouble with this gang somehow, and they were going to kill us, so we ran off then broke into my dad's car (which wasn't really my dad's car in my dream) and laid out in the seats so they couldn't see us and ran past. Then we started the car and drove off in the opposite direction to this beach that was nearby...And we almost drove right in because we were still lying down in the seats and not looking where we were going. Then we got out and there was Brycen, and we got all distracted talking to him, and then the gang came back.

There was something in there about me trying to shoot the gang members, but I soon gave up because my gun didn't shoot anything further away than like, 5 feet 0_o I managed to kill one of em though. And then one of the guys accidentally gave me his car and we drove off again.

Then I was sitting in this forested area with Des and Jason and I think someone else...Mr Reis, that's right. But I was talking to Des, and I said that I thought James was going to come out of the closet soon. Then she got offended because I guess she thought I meant that she was going to make him gay, but that's not what I meant. Then I turned to Jason and Mr Reis who were talking and was like "I wish there was someway to tell if someone is homosexual physically. Things would be so much easier. Like just poke their skin and have it turn a certain color."

Then we were walking back through the forest to get to my mom's car because I guess she was waiting for us, and Shmee who came out of nowhere pushed Des into this giant puddle. And I found a stack of newspapers, but they soon got wet from the splash, but I managed to read a little from a section that teaches you random phrases in Hong Kong (yes, apparently Hong Kong is a language) and one of the phrases was "This is my new Sister."

Totally random dreams, I know.

And the chocolate is the bagged stuff that you melt and can make stuff out of. I was dipping pretzels in it and it was pretty much amazing. Be Jealous.

]]> ~Xidena http://Xidena.deviantart.com/journal/11940489/ http://Xidena.deviantart.com/journal/11940489/ Fri, 23 Feb 2007 21:22:13 PST Based off "Ride the Wings of Pestilence" by FFTL.
My friend asked for a story and I decided I'd write this for her, because I've been meaning to write it since like, 9th grade anyways.
This is the highly shortened version and it's not even close to being done.

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It was about 3 years ago when two teenage girls went missing. The last place they were seen was at the local mall, just loitering, giggling at inside jokes and having fun. When one of their parents went to pick the two of them up there, no clues could be found as to what happened to them or where they went. But I know better.

A year before they went missing, strange occurances started happening everywhere. The major people of the world, the famous and the powerful, started going missing as well, one at a time. There were no clues as to what had happened to them, they were just...gone. The world was throw into chaos, seeing how it's leaders weren't there to lead them. Nothing made sense anymore.

As of two years ago, these missing people have been reappearing. But they weren't the same people. Their people welcomed them back with open arms, and they took advantage and went on sprees of killing and mass destruction. A couple of the leaders were overthrown, and studies were done on these people, but nothing showed any signs that anything had happened to them. Nor could they remember anything they went through, no matter the therapy and testing they were forced into, which is lucky for them.

But back to the girls. It's strange to think that no one at a local mall would remember two teenage guys running around with guns, grabbing the two girls, and dragging them to their vehicle and driving off, but that's how it happened. No video camera has any record of this, and no one can prove it, but if you ask any of those four, that's how it happened.

Some prophecy of old tells a tale of a twisted and genius mind bent on the destruction of the world, by taking it's leaders and one by one killing them in the worst way possible. Some secret agency has taken this legend to heart, in hopes to prevent it. They failed.

So this agency hired the best they could find to try and fix it's fatal mistakes; a pair of teenage boys who had wasted their life with . How did these two losers get picked? They were part of the prophecy. They learned fast and trained hard. They trained for everything they agency could think of, because no one knew what exactly to expect. No one could figure what had changed these people so much that they had no memories of.

]]> ~Xidena http://Xidena.deviantart.com/journal/11538235/ http://Xidena.deviantart.com/journal/11538235/ Tue, 23 Jan 2007 06:39:16 PST
It's like...My cousin, who's mentally challenged, has no idea she mentally challenged. She thinks she's the same as everybody else.

I'm not saying I think I'm messed up in the head...I just think there's something about me that I don't know of that makes me...Not the same.

I have no proof of this, it's just a feeling. But the point is that it's there.

In other news, I got up an hour early this morning to do homework that was due last Friday, only to find that there's homework I haven't done that's due today.
Plus math that I have to do during Advisory.
That I don't understand.

I'm about ready to just give up on schoolwork altogether. I'm tired of trying, only to get bad grades and be told I'm NOT trying. I might as well NOT try and have the same results.
Never have I felt so stupid.

]]> ~Xidena http://Xidena.deviantart.com/journal/11380662/ http://Xidena.deviantart.com/journal/11380662/ Tue, 09 Jan 2007 21:27:49 PST
The dream...I don't remember many details. I remember my parents did something that made me horribly depressed. So what does Keri do when she's depressed? She waits until her parents leave the house and runs to Michael. Only when I get to his house, his little sister (which he doesn't have in real life) and his dad basically say I shouldn't be there, that they don't like me, and that I need to leave. So I start walking away, bawling my eyes out and my eyeliner dripping everywhere. Then the view changes to Michael standing in his room and he looks out his window and sees me. And then I woke up. I don't know if he ever came after me or not, but my guess is he did. Also, my house was on the hill on the other side of Meridian, like where I used to live in the apartments. And his was at the bottom of the hill.

And for those who don't know, check it out:

[link]

]]> ~Xidena http://Xidena.deviantart.com/journal/11377157/ http://Xidena.deviantart.com/journal/11377157/ Tue, 09 Jan 2007 16:17:23 PST
It was about midnight, 1AM-ish and I couldn't sleep, so I decided to turn on the TV. And Avatar was on. And I freaked out, because it was a new episode, season 3, and they never advertised for it.

It started off with Aang sitting on a bent tree, and he was singing about how he would be such a horrible lover for Katara because he lost her necklace again. Zuko stole it. Then Katara walks up and sits with him and they start kissing. Like hardcore.

Then the next scene, in the fire nation. Apparently Zuko had been captured and taken there. And Iroh and Jeong Jeong were sitting with Ozai having tea. I know I'm forgetting something, but I don't know what....
Anyways, Ozai decided to have Zuko replaced, so he picked a random dumbass teen commoner to be the next prince, and his best friend to be a high ranked guard. And as soon as those two guys were alone with no guards around, they pulled out this weird pipe thing and started smoking something.

Sokka and Toph were nowhere to be found.

One of the most random dreams I've ever had. Like my other dreams are odd, but yet somehow predictable, ya know? Like the toe-bite-blood thing, that's normal.

And I'm posting my other dream here too, even though it's been on Myspace. I kinda use DA for a dream log if you haven't noticed, don't wanna stop now.

And for some reason BJ is having a mild angst attack. Not like I'm depressed...But I feel something bad's going to happen. Like car accidenteath type thing. Do me a favor and don't leave your house?



Thursday, January 4th:
Basically this new species starting attacking humans. If you got anywhere near a drain like a shower, sink, or sewer, this translucent black hand with massive claws would grab you, turn you translucent and black, and would drag you down back into the sewer or where-ever. No one knew how to kill them, and everyone I knew kept disappearing. I assume they were killed and eaten. 0_o You could ward em off by having moving light above the drain, and someone invented this machine that you could hang a lantern on to move it, but after awhile they figured out it wasn't you moving the light and would come after you anyways. And everyone's electricity was dead, so everything was dark. REALLY creepy. I think the worst part was that no one knew what they were, where they were from, or how to stop them. It was basically an apocalypse. Good times. I also remember wandering around this swamp area...and there was like massive piles of manure everywhere...And now that I think about it, it was probably from those creatures eating people. Gross......

]]> ~Xidena http://Xidena.deviantart.com/journal/10999292/ http://Xidena.deviantart.com/journal/10999292/ Fri, 08 Dec 2006 19:58:24 PST
But part of it was interesting...

It was me, Jason and Michael and someone I can't remember and we were all outside of ERHS at night, staring off at the trees and talking about how they were cutting down them down. I don't know how it started but I remember looking at the trees and getting completely scared out of my mind because there was this weird light, actually two dots of lights-one above the other and apparently we had tables outside and Jason and Michael decided to "protect" me from the light by flipping up the tables and having me hide behind them.

And then we stopped freaking out and Michael's like "Hmm...It really is a good night for fireworks." and I got all confused then fireworks started going off and I "remembered" it was the 4th of July and that was the whole reason we were there.

There was a lot more to the dream, but I don't feel right putting it here. But I met Michael's parents and they were really strict and I guess he lives in this really fancy mansion lol.

I remember thinking "Weird...I've had a dream with two dots like that before...It MUST be significent." But I don't think I have ever seen the dots before.

But sorry for the complete rambling, I'm still half asleep.

I was just thinking about how I kinda have walls up to protect me because I don't trust anyone, but those two have been the ones to help me the most the last few days.

And Billy Jack is the light that I'm afraid of. Did I ever tell anyone I was scared out of my mind when he "appeared" in my room. Not exactly a Friendly ghost, ya know?

]]> ~Xidena http://Xidena.deviantart.com/journal/10872262/ http://Xidena.deviantart.com/journal/10872262/ Mon, 27 Nov 2006 19:29:31 PST
I KNOW WHAT I WANT FOR CHRISTMAS!!!

*GASP*

So what if it's ridiculous and I can't spell! Hmph!

[link]
APPA PLUSHIE!!! OMGZ!!1!

What sucks is in order to order it you have to call this stupid amusement park in Ohio. Stupid Ohio. *Huggles Jason*
There's no way to order it online and I obviously can't go buy one myself.

Tiz $23 and I'm hoping my Mom will get it for me lol. They have Momo too, but he's tinyish and not as cuddly...And supposedly they have Aang too, but that'd just be creepy.

]]> ~Xidena http://Xidena.deviantart.com/journal/10478639/ http://Xidena.deviantart.com/journal/10478639/ Sun, 22 Oct 2006 17:06:23 PDT
And I liked the feeling.

Then my Mom caught me and got pissed cuz A) I was drunk, and B) They were saving that for a special occasion.

And I wish I had that feeling back now, of just everything swirling together and not making sense but making perfect sense at the same time. It was cool. But I'd never get drunk on my own, so I just have to hope my dreams give me what I want. Which they won't. Tonight I'll probably either die or have sex with someone I hate. OH! Which reminds me. I had another dream about James! lol! No, no... I don't hate him anymore. It's just funny. It was like me getting to watch him without him knowing I was there, and seeing why you picked him over me. The only thing I actually remember about the dream was me sitting down and him standing right in front of me, facing me with his...area...right in my face. 0_o I mean he was wearing clothes and all, but still! He just can't keep his stuff away from me, can he? lol

And I finished my AP book. It's creepy and I loved it. Des, if you actually read this, you can borrow it as long as I get it back the morning of November 1st.

And there was something else...But I can't remember it.

]]> ~Xidena http://Xidena.deviantart.com/journal/10373979/ http://Xidena.deviantart.com/journal/10373979/ Thu, 12 Oct 2006 20:37:22 PDT
Avatar: The Last Airbender. The Video Game.

So I didn't even know it was out yet. I guess it came out yesterday...

The graphics are weird and kinda bug me at times.
The storyline's weird too.

Katara just got kidnapped by Zuko.

Spexy.

Too bad Zuko just got caught by the fire nation.

Not Spexy.

And as effed up as it sounds, I swear I've played this game before in my dreams. It was more than just the normal weird feeling. There's this one spot and I basically had a heart attack out of Deja Vu. Which is what I want to call my dog; Deja.
It's a cool name, plus she looks like the dog my Mom used to have, so it totally fits.

Anyways-BACK TO THE WORLD OF VIDEO GAMES!

Bye!

]]> ~Xidena http://Xidena.deviantart.com/journal/9469526/ http://Xidena.deviantart.com/journal/9469526/ Sun, 23 Jul 2006 15:46:05 PDT
Never have I had a dream were I see myself dead...More exactly looking at myself in an open casket. Then someone, I believe a ghost who my spirit was talking to, kept telling me to wake up. It was weird...

Then there was this giant phoenix looking bird, only it was of ice not fire, and it was trying to take over the world. What's funny is I wasn't even in this dream, I was just watching this guy who was trying to impress a girl and was competing with a few other guys for her. Then the bird came along and turned the other guys into this weird stretchy, hollow, sort of flemsy, rubber ball, one inside of the other. As he came upon each person, he'd change them then they'd in up being the center of the GIANT ball. It got HUGE. Last thing I remeber was the original guy with a couple of other people hiding in the building trying not to be caught by the bird. ]]> ~Xidena http://Xidena.deviantart.com/journal/9355682/ http://Xidena.deviantart.com/journal/9355682/ Wed, 12 Jul 2006 15:08:32 PDT
So I had yet another dream where my teeth were falling out. Only this one is kinda funny now that I think about it cuz in my dream I kept trying to poke myself to see if I could feel anything to see if I was dreaming or not.

The second dream was chaos. I was like...a video game that I had been sucked into. It was Mario(and it had the styles of Super Mario Bros 3) and I was trying to get a town set up and have certain people have certain powers to they can protect the city. I had one of each Mario-Big, Firepower, Raccoon, Frog, Starpower...there were more, I just can't think of them. Blah. And they were all up in this house trying to figure out how to run the city, but they kept getting hurt by random enemies in their house. And some random citizens with powers got kidnapped so I went to find help form other hero citizens who ran off AA Batteries, so I had to go find batteries, and then I didn't know if the people I had picked were even on our side or the villian's side. I decided to put in the batteries and they were both on our side. Anyways, they flew us up to a couple of hot air balloons and we saved the citizens just as the enemies got there. Then the game ended and we all sat on the air ballons and signed random crap, like my white belt, because none of us bought yearbooks. [[DUH]]
This dream probably made no sense. Cool. Sorry.

Dream #3...I was in math class and our teacher was Mrs. Groce, and she started to give us this HUGE assignment that I didn't know how to do, but then stopped and said we only had to play the last 5 levels of Super Mario Bros 3. I had some questions, but class was over, so I went and found Mr. Noll. I asked him about it and he said I could play any BIG level, and all I had to do was take a screenshot of it. Anyways, that's not the point. In my dream I decided he HAD to be -in the closet-. And the only reason he wasn't out was because he's Morman and had a wife. Like he became gay AFTER he got married or something, I don't know. He was wearing a black silk button up shirt with a collar, red dangily earrings...I wanted them... EYESHADOW(it was red...)...And it was the way he was acting too. And later on in the dream I pictured him in a pirate hat and it gave me inspiration to do like an Emo Raver Pirate type thing. Which I still might lol. No I pictured how I wanted it drawn, and it was one of the kids from the emo pictures I like, and it was pretty dang hot. ]]> ~Xidena http://Xidena.deviantart.com/journal/9345410/ http://Xidena.deviantart.com/journal/9345410/ Tue, 11 Jul 2006 16:08:51 PDT
In one, all I rmember is talking to a bunch of teenage girls and them telling me to not be bi anymore. I told them I didn't even really want to be, I did it for Des and now that's gone, and they did this weird ritual thing to me to get rid of my biness. 0_o

Then I was at school and I had lunch with Des and Melinda. I kept following Des around trying to get her to talk to me but she kept ignoring me for Melinda so I finally just went home and fall asleep. Then later I woke up and it was after school and I find out that she's pissed at me for leaving her stranded at school(cuz I was her ride home). I decide to walk over to her house and talk to her face to face, but she just ignored me there too and kept going into different rooms and locking me out.

After wandering around her house I found a hallway with a table with a thing of lifesavers, and some were made of M & M Minis. Then I was a chef and the hallway lead to a big room and this old woman assigned me to cook for this group of guys and said that they were a tough group to keep happy. It was like...Kinda like a soup kitchen if you will. Like we cooked for the poor for free. But I did a good job and everyone was really surprised on how I handled them.

And it's official. I hate my green eyeshadow. Don't even ask. ]]> ~Xidena http://Xidena.deviantart.com/journal/9304509/ http://Xidena.deviantart.com/journal/9304509/ Fri, 07 Jul 2006 17:29:54 PDT
So me and my friends were all at the fair. Okay, so it was like, Katie, Des, her boyfriend, Melinda and Jason. So Katie and I were riding the ferris wheel and Des and James were in front of us. We stop at the top and can see the whole fair when Shmee looks around to see if anyone can see us and turns to me and kisses me and we start making out. We get off the ride and are kinda freaked out and keep looking around to see if anyone saw us up there, but no one did.

Now I'm back at home. Brycen calls and says he got a new webcam. So I'm sitting there watching him(he couldn't see me cuz I don't have a webcam) and talking to him through the mics on the computers...but it's like I can see his back and what's on the computer, not his face. He says he got a message from Sherena(geez I can't spell) but I already knew that cuz I'm looking over his shoulder reading the message. Something she says brings up a horrible memory I had erased from my brain. Apparently I accidentally killed this guy a couple years ago. I look over to my left and there he is standing there glaring at me, hating me for killing me. He says he's going to get his revenge and starts to come over to kill me when he stops and looks at the computer. Brycen had turned around and was talking to me. He smiles evily at Brycen and says we're going to Utah. He wants his body to make up for the one I killed. Basically he's got me hostage, and we started going towards Utah. I think he even made me steal a car...And drive I think. But I don't know what else happened cuz I woke up. So Brycen, if a glowing blue guy that floats in his mid 20's shows up, run.

There's another dream I had...I can't really remember it though. I think I was at school...And we were going to watch a movie in class and had to change seats, and I kept trying to sit by Katie since we kissed and I guess she was my girlfriend now, and these girls kept giving me weird looks and talking about me even though I was right there cuz I guess they knew. Even though in real life Katie's straight...0_o And ghost's aren't blue, they're white...Or well I guess Billie Jack was an angel or something cuz he was just white...But we all know my dreams aren't reasonable.

I've been wishing I'd go completely schitzo so Billie Jack would come back and I'd have company. How sad. ]]> ~Xidena http://Xidena.deviantart.com/journal/9272530/ http://Xidena.deviantart.com/journal/9272530/ Tue, 04 Jul 2006 15:20:40 PDT
And the sky agrees with me.

Feel our wrath. ]]> ~Xidena http://Xidena.deviantart.com/journal/9252132/ http://Xidena.deviantart.com/journal/9252132/ Sun, 02 Jul 2006 14:56:09 PDT
Only FOUR MORE to go! *Collapses on floor* ]]> ~Xidena http://Xidena.deviantart.com/journal/9221070/ http://Xidena.deviantart.com/journal/9221070/ Thu, 29 Jun 2006 12:33:52 PDT I write them out, not because I want anyone's psychiatric opinion(cuz none of you comment anyways), but because right now my brain's a mess and I keep having visions of an amazingly freakish two hour dream!

Okay...In the first part was in my room. Brycen was laid out on the far left part of my bed, and Shmee was sitting the upper right, and I believe Des was sitting on the floor. I walk in, then lay down in between Brycen and Shmee(Why this is so important, I don't know, but it's a very clear vision.) All of a sudden, I'm looking out my window, and Jack(the one from Des' advisory) is staring back at me and flashing a gun in my face threatening to kill me. Then my view switches to Brycen, who heard the whole thing, then rushes to lock all the doors, which none are locked. I'm still running around the house trying not to get killing, because he IS shooting at me, from every possible window and such.

Next thing I know, I'm watching a huge ship in 3rd person. It's out in the middle of nowhere. Then some guy from the future comes and I'm now an indian and the guy's telling me at such-and-such time tonight, an event called Ap(pronounced "Ape") will take place tonight. All I remember next is an explosion on the front of the ship, and all these indians in a line, and them being either killed by the explosion, or them being pushed off into the water by the white people, who were planning on taking over everything and making Indians their slaves. Next, I'm on the ship, and I'm running away from the front of the ship, hoping not to get pushed off, and the man from the future tells me that if I have a host that I'll be allowed to live. I look up and see Des(and now I'm white, so this really makes no sense) but she takes me in so I can live.

Then I'm wandering around in the bottom part of the ship and I see my mom and dad waiting in a huge(HUGE) line. I join them and we wait...and wait...and we get to a...VENDING MACHINE. And the price of like, a bag of M & Ms was $15. Everyone was starving so they were actually paying. My parents couldn't afford it, so we kept looking for a cheaper vending machine, which they find and it's crap. I'll skip the boring parts/the parts that don't make sense. I somehow get this little fisher/ferret thing, which I guess is considered a massive pest everywhere, but I'm in love with the thing(it was so cute...lol) and some security guard tries to kill and I get it a leash. Somehow my family ends up walking down this street and we're free, but it's like national kill the fisher day(No, seriously, except I don't know the real name of the day) and so I was walking down the street and he was far off in front of me on his leash and cars kept trying to run him over and mini bombs would go off only a few inches in front of him. ]]> ~Xidena http://Xidena.deviantart.com/journal/9199272/ http://Xidena.deviantart.com/journal/9199272/ Tue, 27 Jun 2006 12:04:56 PDT
1) I was on the phone with Jeff Little, and I was saying how I had a friend who was deserted on an island. He said he did too, but it was their profession and they got paid to do it. 0_o

2) I was at school(it was ER, but the outside looked different), sitting outside at a picnic bench with a group of friends. I looked over at Mt Rainer, and there was a steam of smoke coming up from part of it and I'm like "Oh My God! Mt Rainier's going to erupt!" And then I realized that it was shooting ice crystals everywhere, and a lot of them were coming straight at us. No one cared, and a sat there long enough to get hit by a couple of them, but it didn't hurt. I went inside. It was the last day of school and I wanted to talk to my Marine Resources crew. They weren't there(just like real life...) and I was walking along. Somehow I ended up in a classroom, and I think I was talking to Jamie, when Scotee walks in( he was after all, part of my Mar Res class...And he was sitting next to me outside). We get to talking and he's got some weird online nickname and I tell him mine's Xidena...Then we're back outside and leaving and I guess I'm giving him a ride home. We're 15 minutes late getting out cuz we got so caught up talking. We look for Des, but she's nowhere to be found. He starts talking about how he wants a girlfriend. We keep walking then I decide to kiss him on the cheek. So I got myself a new boyfriend. Then I'm thinking in my head that Melinda is going to KILL me! I stole the guy she liked while she's away at a Christian camp(which is true). Oh well, nothing I can do now...So my Dad is the one giving us a ride home, and Des is already in the car(the silver sports car FYI) and me and Scotee get in the back. We get to his house, with it like a one story apartment with only two families. The houses are seperated by one room. I go into the one room and I go to kiss him goodbye not realizing that they shared the house, and Kelsey walks in cuz I guess she lived in the other house. Then she gave me this pastry covered pen. 0_0

3) I...Am NOT going over this dream. Nur nur nur nur...Uhh..Sex. Only I woke up before that actually happened.

Oh...And I think in the Scotee dream when we were talking in the classroom, he said something about how he was a professional Emo kid and he got paid to do it lol. Then he started rapping and I got all confused cuz emo kids don't rap...

I wish I got paid to be an emo kid deserted on my own island...*pout* ]]> ~Xidena http://Xidena.deviantart.com/journal/9119302/ http://Xidena.deviantart.com/journal/9119302/ Mon, 19 Jun 2006 19:31:11 PDT
School's out in 1 and a half days. Tomorrow's basically the last day cuz everyone's going to skip on Wednesday. I only have to go to Hibbs' Stupid class one more time. The downside to that is I'll only see the crew together one last time. Depressing...And Chris isn't going to ER next year. I think that's the worst. Does anyone remember when I thought he was creepy? lol

I'm tired and have a headache and have nothing to do. I'll probably go downstairs and play video games and sleep.

And I'm incredibly lonely right now....

Why am I such a freak? I don't know. But I realized no one in my family really knows who I am, and there's no one like me at school, so I'm kinda stuck out in the middle of nowhere. Not a good feeling. ]]> ~Xidena http://Xidena.deviantart.com/journal/8927817/ http://Xidena.deviantart.com/journal/8927817/ Wed, 31 May 2006 07:08:06 PDT
So I'm all lost mentally. Nothing feels right anymore, hasn't for the last Hmm...Almost a week...The things I used to like don't do anything for me anymore. I've been spending my time -Trying- to sleep and staring at the ceiling. I'm not quite sure what's wrong with me...

So last night I went to a youth group with Melinda. That was pretty cool. Good message, Hot guys...Chyeah. Chandler. Not that I can spell.

And I started thinking about Josh cuz I started thinking about going to Church and I remembered his and...Well I remembered something I was trying NOT to remember and now it's going to bug me until I find out what really happened. No, I won't be able to handle it.
It'll be great. Just like old times.

Yeah, I'm actually in a pretty good mood, just lost. Cool.

I'm going to go eat breakfast now then go to math, american studies, then marine resources. I tell you so you can all stalk me. Speaking of which, I saw my creepy stalker about a half an hour's drive away from Meridian on the opposite side of Emerald Ridge...Maybe he's just that good of a stalker he followed me to the youth group thingie....*Shivers*

<3 Kerbie ]]> ~Xidena http://Xidena.deviantart.com/journal/8867459/ http://Xidena.deviantart.com/journal/8867459/ Wed, 24 May 2006 19:21:49 PDT
Me and Shmee, and I think it was Dani decided we go going to breakout of our house for awhile(we all lived in the same house, and we did in fact have to sneak out. We weren't allowed to go anywhere) and go to a HUGE Walmart. Once there, Dani went wandering off on her own, and me and Shmee decided that we'd go to the toy department 0_o. On the way there, I told Shmee that I wanted to stay the night at the store, cuz I didn't want to go home, and she just looked at me kinda weird, but I think she agreed to stay with me. It was kinda funny, cuz the toy section was in the back of the store basically, and the last aisle was stuff from the TV show That's So Raven and I laughed and said "That's sad..Everyone knows that the crap no one buys gets put on the last aisle, cuz no one comes down this far...Bet it got canceled...". Then decided I was going to hide from Shmee, cuz I don't know, and I took off down the aisle and started trying to zigzag through the aisles but she always caught up to me. Frustrating! Then she asked me why I was doing that and just said "I don't know. I felt like being weird." We were still in the toy department and I looked past the toys and there was a hallway(like the ones that lead to the bathrooms) and for some reason I started walking that way. Two soldiers walked past us in full uniform with guns and everything and I paid no attention. I looked to the right and there was a miniature model of this specific train track that went in a cool pattern, and then I remembered a train track that, the way it was designed, looked like it was shaped like never ending stairs(that's right, a train on stairs...The neverending stairs things is something we looked at in Psych...) I couldn't remember what the name of it was and got mad and turned to walk out of the hallway and the soldiers where walking back and I looked at the face of one of them, and it was this guy I had seen in real life at Walmart that I thought looked familiar. We kept walking and the Shmee's like, "I've seen that guy before...Hmmm." (I still don't know who he is...) Then we ended up going through a preppy clothes department and two girls were standing there in mini skirts, but when I walked by in my plaid skirt, they're like "Eww...I hate when people try to wear those..." Basically incinuating that I'm fat...If I remember right, I walked up to them and started yelling at them and they got all freaked out. There's more to the story, but I can't really remember it. There was some evil secret plot going on(like there always is for me) and I remember trying to hide from my "Mom", the owner of the house we lived in.

Sorry for the long boring post. Oh well for you lol. I just like writing down my dreams so later on I can come back and be like "Oh! I remember that! Well that was that time in my life so it must have meant this! Weird...."

But You know you love me anyways. It's okay. I love you too.
^_^

<3 Kerbie ]]> ~Xidena http://Xidena.deviantart.com/journal/8793465/ http://Xidena.deviantart.com/journal/8793465/ Tue, 16 May 2006 22:37:11 PDT
Chh...Love...
Like...The love of your life. How do you know who it is? Every song, every movie, every book and story I've heard, the lovers look at each other and just know.
What if our lover happened to be someone we talk to everyday? Just one day, POOF! "Hey...Why did I never notice you like that before..." For all we know, all lover could be someone we talk to daily at school. You've known them for years. So what is it that makes that spark appear? Or will this never happen? "There's no such thing as a delayed love. Psshaw."

I feel so incredibly hopeless. I've felt anger to the extreme, sadness, loneliness...But I guess at some point I alwasy had hope. It's gone now. I DON'T know them. I don't think I do anyways. When will I know? I'm not looking for true love now...Wait...Yes I am. My friends keep saying "Ha! Love...I'll never find the love of my life. I'll just stick to myself and if I find them, I find them." I can't do that! There's no way in my living state where I could just blow love off as just a plus to life. I need that feeling. The kissing, the cuddling, the listening to you complain and then saying "You're right!" But what differentiates your best friends with your lovers? They say they love you, they hug you, listen to you rant. So what does this mean? I need someone I can kiss? I don't need kissing. ...I don't think....So what's the difference? What is it that I need? I have no idea. But my brain needs to know. I'll keep thinking about it until I have a full-on meltdown. Just watch and wait. That's what I'm going to do. I'll wait, I'll watch for "them", I'll think too much, and I'll collapse. It's my little game I play, every fricken day of my life.

Eien doesn't exist. He never has and he never will.

I'll be one of the people alone for life, but I won't be one of the strong ones that can take it.

-Keri ]]> ~Xidena http://Xidena.deviantart.com/journal/8734545/ http://Xidena.deviantart.com/journal/8734545/ Wed, 10 May 2006 20:19:37 PDT

Mood: Spacey
Listening to: The Latest Plague-FFTL
Reading: To Kill A Mockingbird

....You were Naked on the Internet


No real reason for saying that. I just felt like typing/saying it.
Yay me.

So today was stupid(at least the beginning). I overslept for school by about 2 hours. When I finally get there, I go to get a late slip thing and Mr. Hodge tells me I have to serve a Tuesday School to make up the time I overslept. Grr. I've never gotten one before. Note To Self: Never actually tell them the truth that you overslept. Wow. That's a great message to send out. Oh well. The rest of the day was pretty good though. And I'm happy cuz Mr Hibbs wasn't here today and he won't be here Friday either. Isn't that incredibly sad? But the thing is, the sub is just another teacher and she's really into Marine stuff. Hopefully she'll be better than Hibbs. And I have a Psych test tomorrow. I'm going to cram so hard tonight no more info will be able to fit. It'll be great and I'll get an A. Dang I need that A. And I have to read the 1st 3 chapters of To Kill A Mockingbird. And tomorrow I have to sign a story in ASL, which should be interesting. That sounds like a lot of homework, but none of it's that hard. It actually sounds interesting. So me and Des conquered Mario Kart DD finally. Heck yes. Anything else interesting happen? Hmm...Ohh...Shmee broke up with Morgan. Or other way around I guess. Stupid him. She says she feels empty, but not sad.

Anyways, I'm going to go now. *Does really big cheesy smile*

You know you love me.
<3 Keri

]]> ~Xidena http://Xidena.deviantart.com/journal/8700292/ http://Xidena.deviantart.com/journal/8700292/ Sun, 07 May 2006 11:59:06 PDT

Listening to: Days Go By-Dirty Vegas
Watching: Zoolander

So...Wow...Yesterday. I woke up and it was going to be a good day, and I got ready for Des to come over. I realized I hadn't asked my Mom if she could come yet, so I asked. And she said she couldn't come over until my room's clean. Doesn't sound like a big deal? You've never seen my room when it's dirty. It was already like 2, 3pm and since she usually has to go home around 7 I was pretty pissed because by the time she wouldn't have come over, she'd have to go home, especially since they didn't give me any warning that they were going to do that. That and the last two days I'd really been missing her, and my Mom hadn't let her come over on Friday either for no reason. I feel stupid typing all this...I feel like a pansy. "Dude! Just clean your room and get over it!" "It's just two days. Come on!" STFU. This story is completely different feeling typed compared to real life. ANYWAYS! Basically I gave up on the idea that she was going to come over because most of the mess in my room is my bed and clothes everywhere, and honestly I don't know how to do laundry, so I felt pretty screwed over, and I didn't think my Mom would help me any. Great. So after a couple of hours of being completely pissed off at my mom, my dad gets home. For some reason I can talk to him easier than my Mom, so I did and I guess he managed to talk to my Mom cuz she walked in my room and said Des can come over. Then she noticed how pissed I was and made me have a mother to daughter talk. Most of the time I just sat there in silence. Then when I thought it was over and there was a long moment of slience, she started talking about how she knew about me and Leasha and I basically started bawling right on the spot. Apparently she'd known for awhile, and my Dad figured it out on his own too, which to me is the worst part: That we were THAT obvious that they knew what we were doing. So I called Des and told her and she started freaking out because it was going to be akward. Which it kinda was. Things are just going to be so...weird, from now on. They know we kiss, and now whenever I ask her to play Mario Party with me and we go downstairs... They're going to know exactly what we're doing. It all feels like a dream, but it's weird cuz I'm never going to wake up. They're going to know from now on.

And I had another weird dream about Jason...and snow...And Des' Gir T-shirt...

<3 Kerbie

]]> ~Xidena http://Xidena.deviantart.com/journal/8666036/ http://Xidena.deviantart.com/journal/8666036/ Wed, 03 May 2006 20:04:26 PDT
-She's always thrashing on the idea of being Gay. Like people who are gay can control their thoughts. Yes, they...Okay, we, enjoy being made fun of, hated, etc.
-She always says I'm not feminine. I wear too much black. Not enough baby pink.
-If I ever cussed in front of her, I'd probably get slapped, considering she hates it when I say "crap".
-She moniters all my music(or so she thinks).
-Whenever I do something wrong, or something big happens, she's goes onto a big long speech about God and religion. Not that I don't believe; I do, but it gets old. If everyone did everything right all the time, people would go absolutely crazy.
-She abhors the idea of gauging, piercing, and tattoos. I'm not planning on getting a tattoo just yet, but don't you think I should be able to gauge and/or pierce? It's my body.
-For that matter, I have to beg to her to let me dye my hair. And she'll never ever let me dye it black. I can dye it aquamarine, but not black. "Black is the Devil."
-No skulls or anything like that on my clothes, jewelry etc.
-She basically calls me lazy like twice a week. I am lazy, but she calls me that for all the wrong reasons. If you're going to accuse someone of something, at least have your reasoning straight.

And I hate how lately the topic of raising your kid to have high self-esteem has come up, and she always says "I'm glad I raised you with such high self esteem!"

Bull
Shit.

I probably have the lowest out of everyone I know. Yay me.


Yeah, I'm pretty much done. I actually do hope you haven't read this far cuz then I'm going to feel like a whiny loser. Not that I'm not. Can you tell I'm a walking contradiction? Which reminds me for some weird reason of a dream I had when I took a nap today...But anyways, I'll let you go on with whatever it was you were doing before I wasted about 5ish minutes of your life.

Goodbye!
<3 Kerbie

]]> ~Xidena http://Xidena.deviantart.com/journal/8589245/ http://Xidena.deviantart.com/journal/8589245/ Wed, 26 Apr 2006 15:08:23 PDT
I told my mom about the Day of Silence. I didn't say I was doing it or anything, cuz I knew I'd get this answer from her. Everytime she says "Hey Keri..." I swear she's going to continue with "I know what you and Des do when I'm not around." It scares me sometimes, because I have no idea what'd happen if she even found out. I was starting to think she'd be okay with it cuz she knows my friend is, but...I couldn't live without my Des.

As far as me doing the Day of Silence, I unfortunetly won't be doing it during class cuz I have to work with groups today and I don't really want it to interfer with school, but I'm going to be silent during passing periods and lunch. I'll try to be quiet during classes. We'll see. I'll do what I can.

<3 Kerbie

----Edit----
So it's afterschool now. I didn't talk all day(okay, I slipped twice, but I had reasoning). Our school had a table set up and they had signs to wear so people know why you aren't talking and rainbow ribbons that you can safety pin to stuff. I made me kinda sad though cuz a lot of people were walking around wearing the stuff but talking their mouth off, which kinda ruins the whole point. It's the day of SILENCE. Stupid. And I got frusterated cuz my friends didn't understand the sign language I was using, and they got distracted and hardly read the stuff I wrote down for them. Grr. Really it made me appriciate the life of a mute, lol. My Mom's still kinda disturbed that I did that. She found out cuz I was still wearing the sign when I walked to the car afterschool. ]]> ~Xidena http://Xidena.deviantart.com/journal/8554548/ http://Xidena.deviantart.com/journal/8554548/ Sat, 22 Apr 2006 20:00:54 PDT
My Dad's in an AWFUL mood. Oh Em Gee.

And I love my hair. I need to take a picture of it and put it up at least on Myspace. Maybe here if I like it enough.

My Dad just walked out to the living room and turned on the TV. I bet sooner or later he'll tell me to turn off Emery. "You're not even in the kitchen! Nur Nur Nur Nur!" Yeah, I'm not, but I can still hear it fine. I was here first. Bug off. "But I've been working all day. I mowed the lawn, etc." I went to the movies. It was excrutiating.

Speaking of which: Scary Movie 4. Don't go see it. LAME. It's the only one I've seen, so I guess all of them could be lame to me, but whatever. It felt like it was only a half an hour long because of the plot, but there seemed to be a lot of other crap mixed in and yet it was boring. It was stupid.

I want to fall asleep now, but I can't. I also want to draw a masterpiece. I want to finally be happy with something I draw. Ha! That's funny. Oh well. Maybe one day when I'm 37.

OH! Yay! Jeff said that he might be sending out the prints on Saturday! Chyeah!

And last night I realized I'm afraid of Atomic Bombs. Okay, I'm afraid of the radiation FROM the atomic Bombs. I guess your skin peels off, your hair falls out, and your fingernails peel off. Sounds liek a living hell.
The Reason I bring this up is cuz we heard an explosion last night. My guess is it was the nearest military base or something. It didn't sound like a gun shot...

Do You let cakes cool in the pan or do you take them out? Crap. Hmm....

<3 Keri ]]> ~Xidena http://Xidena.deviantart.com/journal/8546626/ http://Xidena.deviantart.com/journal/8546626/ Sat, 22 Apr 2006 00:47:40 PDT "Sometimes the premonitions really came true."

2. Stretch your left arm out as far as you can.
Hello Fireplace! I can pet you.

3. What is the last thing you watched on TV?
Hmm...Fairly Oddparents

4. Without looking, guess what time it is:
11:27

5. Now look at the clock. What is the actual time?
11:23. Not bad.

6. With the exception of the computer, what can you hear?
My Dad laughing at our car insurance because they sent us a message saying that if I'm driving they need to know. Food from the kitchen is sizzling, The computer's humming, Now the micromave is on...

7. When did you last step outside? What were you doing?
About a little over a hour ago. I've been gone since 2:45. I got my haircut, went to the Tacoma Mall, Target, and 7-11.

8. Before you started this survey, what did you look at?
The package the food that's sizzling in the kitchen came in

9. What are you wearing?
Black "gothic" pants, a black shirt with baby blue angel wings on the back, my green Etnies, rainbow earrings, pink and black jelly bracelets, my studded bracelet, my RTA bracelet, my Cross ring, my Mp3 player, studded belt, puka shell necklace, and finally my BF necklace from Des

10. Did you dream last night? Well, we always dream. but I don't remember it. My guess was it was about Jason, cuz I've been having weird dreams about him lately.


11. When did you last laugh?
When my Dad told me abotu the car insurance

12. What is on the walls of the room you are in?
A photo of Mt Rainier, a stain glass bird, Wolf paintings, School photos of me from years ago, etc

13. Seen anything weird lately?
about 10 inches of my hair on the floor

14. What do you think of this quiz?
It's fairly entertaining as far as quizzes go

15. What is the last film you saw?
Hermmm....She's the Man

16. If you became a multi-millionaire overnight, what would you buy? My own house-NO! A house here and one in Utah, my own private Cessna, a drumset, a fennec fox...Cars-NO! Motercycles. Hmm....


17. Tell me something about you that I don't know:
I don't like almonds

18. If you could change one thing about the world, regardless of guilt or politics;
Less judgement of peoples looks/beliefs

19. Do you like to dance?
Chyeah! I CAN'T dance...But I love to!

20. George Bush:
is someone I never pay attention to. I don't watch the news EVER, and I honestly don't give a crap.

21. Imagine your first child is a girl , what do you call her?
Ermm....I don't know...

22. Imagine your first child is a boy, what do you call him?
(Alex)Xander, Benji, Jason(I've loved that name for like, ever), Jake...

23. Would you ever consider living abroad?
If I really knew what that was?

24. What do you want God to say to you when you reach the pearly gates? I'm glad you made it through all those hard times. Now You can just be happy.


25. 4 people who must also do this meme in THEIR journal:
Erm...Whoever wants to, really. ]]> ~Xidena http://Xidena.deviantart.com/journal/8358750/ http://Xidena.deviantart.com/journal/8358750/ Mon, 03 Apr 2006 22:01:38 PDT
Today's been such a mess, but I think most of it's self inflicted. Except for being forgotten. Yeah, thanks. You can never seem to remember me. That makes me feel wonderful about myself.

I realized I'm quite a liar. I haven't quite figured out what it is I lie about exactly...I think...I think I lie about my happiness. I didn't want a birthday party. It's okay you forgot to call me. No big deal.

On the upside, the drawing I'm working on is turning out. And my actually birthday was fun. Going up on the cessna was amazing! Everything below us looked so fake, like a model. My Mom bought a lot of those huge white posters that we do school projects on and wrote a letter on each one and put it in our backyard, so that when I flew over our house I saw "Happy Sweet 16 Keri". The pilot was really cool. He said we were the best he's flown around cuz we actually talked with him. (That reminds me: I have to send him pictures. Leasha took a picture of a rainbow that we saw up there and he wanted a copy.) Then we went to the mall and then came home and watched Flight Plan. Weird Movie. But I liked it. After that we all went in the hot tub and then we came inside and fell asleep.

Errgg. I want to sleep now, cuz usually when I sleep this mood goes away, but I've been sleeping all day. And I don't want to draw right now because I'll ruin it, TV is from hell, I'm done with the computer, I can't go in the hot tub alone, I can't call anyone. I'm alone. With nothing to do. ]]> ~Xidena