http://search.deviantart.com/?q=by:XtheStampede&section=today deviantART RSS for by:XtheStampede en-us Copyright 2009, deviantART.com Wed, 25 Nov 2009 03:12:41 PST deviantART.com http://blogs.law.harvard.edu/tech/rss http://s.deviantart.com/minish/widgets/apple-touch-icon-precomposed.png http://XtheStampede.deviantart.com/journal/23777637/ http://XtheStampede.deviantart.com/journal/23777637/ Thu, 19 Mar 2009 10:09:48 PDT almost..

then shit happened and i felt myself slipping downward again...

so not happy but i have to keep up this smiling facade because so many people around me are so ignorant,selfish, self-centered bastards that consistently tell me to take others into consideration (i.e. suck it up and make THEM feel better) yet they lack the ability to see past their own crooked noses...

i guess i'm bitching and complaining...being a little to emo....
but this is the only place i can let it out without fear of retribution.
without fear of being made to feel low for feeling low.

too sad to cry
too angry to hate..

i can't even begin to channel it into a creative medium so i can at least bullshit myself into thinking something positive can come out of it.
i'm too heavily medicated to see straight...yet i'm expected to push harder,faster than anyone else...

those who i expected to be there for me aren't...those i hoped would understand just seem to not care enough to try...

well...i'm out of steam so i guess that's it...
don't pass judgement on me...i just needed to get some of it off my chest...

back to feeling lonely
back to not being able to see straight
back to that little dark hole..

i hope you're doing better than i am.

]]> ~XtheStampede http://XtheStampede.deviantart.com/journal/20985008/ http://XtheStampede.deviantart.com/journal/20985008/ Tue, 14 Oct 2008 12:10:58 PDT how much time has passed since i closed my eyes,opened my mind and let my thoughts and feelings flow out and take form?...
too long i guess...

i've lost a lot and i threw away something so precious, i don't think i 'll ever recover....

but i've dusted myself off and i'm going to try to move foward...
try right?...

thanks to those who have kept my mind alive..
those who kept me believing that there are things so beautiful that only even emotions fall short of encompassing the feelings they invoke...

~conai..=NoHoRimpianti777....`zemotion...~korpus-k...
*nebezial...`arcipello...*GENZOMAN...~celsojunior...
~CkyGFX...~mystique1....
i am eternally gratefull to you all...thank you and keep doing that thing you do...

]]> ~XtheStampede http://XtheStampede.deviantart.com/journal/16972504/ http://XtheStampede.deviantart.com/journal/16972504/ Wed, 20 Feb 2008 05:56:00 PST having hurt,
having been hurt,
having been alone,
having alienated those close to me,
i have found myself standing tall again.
slowly but surely i am wrapping my fist around the the throats of the demons that i carried with me for so long.
i am finding my way again becase for the first time in such a long time i can see...
through darkness and in the light...i can see...

i can feel the dirt and filth that has held me back for so long,
fall away as i rise to my feet and stand ready to face anything...

i don't expect any comments or feedback

i just wanted to say it

i'm back for the very first time...
watch out bitc*es

]]> ~XtheStampede http://XtheStampede.deviantart.com/journal/16345760/ http://XtheStampede.deviantart.com/journal/16345760/ Thu, 10 Jan 2008 15:29:11 PST all i hope is that it works out for the best...
peace,love and zaboca for all....
later ppl....i think i need some time alone....if you see me you see me....
l8a

]]> ~XtheStampede http://XtheStampede.deviantart.com/journal/16165127/ http://XtheStampede.deviantart.com/journal/16165127/ Sun, 30 Dec 2007 10:51:35 PST you sick,sorry little fucks.i put myself last to help you see the error of your ways.help you see how much better a person you can be.
what thanks do i get?none....and when i have helped you stand and teach you to walk again and decide to get back to my shit,you get upset because my mood is bad...
fuck you....i have sacrificed for you and been hurt in more ways than one for you.yet you return to your hurtful ways.
whore,deciever,liar..what right have you to be angry at me?look at what you did to me,how you hurt me...you've never apologised...
only when your feelings get hurt do i see anything of worth in you.....how can i trust you if you don't trust me?
fuck you.
fuck all of you...
i hope you get what is due to you...
for now i'm alone again...in more ways than one...
fuck you

]]> ~XtheStampede http://XtheStampede.deviantart.com/journal/14326261/ http://XtheStampede.deviantart.com/journal/14326261/ Fri, 24 Aug 2007 21:58:37 PDT when one defies one's own principles what does that make you?
what do you do then?


i wonder once more...

]]> ~XtheStampede http://XtheStampede.deviantart.com/journal/13999714/ http://XtheStampede.deviantart.com/journal/13999714/ Fri, 03 Aug 2007 10:28:06 PDT what do you do when you know that the loss is all your fault?
i don't have it in me to go on...
i just can't....

]]> ~XtheStampede http://XtheStampede.deviantart.com/journal/13183900/ http://XtheStampede.deviantart.com/journal/13183900/ Sat, 02 Jun 2007 01:03:52 PDT god help me for i have lost my way...

i need and angel but she is so far away...

god help me...

]]> ~XtheStampede http://XtheStampede.deviantart.com/journal/11936313/ http://XtheStampede.deviantart.com/journal/11936313/ Fri, 23 Feb 2007 15:15:05 PST but as soon as i get m machine back on the grind,a-submitting i shall go...
ttyl!
love you mystiqe...

]]> ~XtheStampede http://XtheStampede.deviantart.com/journal/10571009/ http://XtheStampede.deviantart.com/journal/10571009/ Tue, 31 Oct 2006 13:00:21 PST serious issues...

]]> ~XtheStampede http://XtheStampede.deviantart.com/journal/9787980/ http://XtheStampede.deviantart.com/journal/9787980/ Sat, 19 Aug 2006 23:46:22 PDT 4 against one
one had a knife
i was carrying my laptop and had a busted ankle
my phone is gone

they live in my area

if i find him, should i kick his ass and take his phone?
or should i just say 'oh well' and move on with my life?

fuck the police, they couldn't catch a cold in the rain

tell me.... ]]> ~XtheStampede http://XtheStampede.deviantart.com/journal/9139105/ http://XtheStampede.deviantart.com/journal/9139105/ Wed, 21 Jun 2006 15:47:49 PDT avoiderdragon saw it and was interested, hope you don't mind)

*ahem*
Some Survey Thing

1. Name:adika akira hasani clemendor
2. Nickname: X,cypher,sifu,predator,1 of 3
3. Birthday: 31st august 1985
4. Place of Birth:trinidad
5. Zodiac Sign: virgo
6. Male or Female: Male
7. Education: not much
8. Schools you went to:St. Anthony's college*
9. College:none (*contrary to teh name it ain't a college)
10. Residence: El Soccorro
11. Screen Names: XtheStampede,Lyrikal_flexx,Akira

__Your Appearance___

12. Hair Colour: Black&blonde (dreadlocks)
13. Hair Length: shoulder-ish
14. Eye Colour: Dark Brown
15. Best Feature: ability to absorb injury/pain(not always physical)
16. Height: 6'1"
17. Braces?: None
18. Glasses?: when i spen too much time in front of teh pc, yes...otherwise not
19. Piercing: labret,left ear
20. Tattoos: trigrams for heaven,earth,thunder & a spider(left wrist,right wrist,right ankle,left middle finger), crude cross(left forearm)
21. Righty or Lefty: Right (ambidexter-wateva when i fight)

___Your 'Firsts'___

22. First Best Friend: my ninja turtle pillow (16 yrs i got him to date)
23. First Award:......
24. First Sport You Joined: swimming
25. First Pet:dog named Figgowitz
26. First Real Vacation:miami
27. First Concert:afi
28. First Love: miranda j. but my TRUE love whon i am with now :devmystiqe1:

___ Favorites___

29. Movie: ong bak (hell,anthin with Tony Jaa),matrix,lord of war,b13,fearless
30. TV Show: cinematech, xiaolin showdown,teen titans,smallville
31. Colour: Red, Black, white,grey
32. Rapper: DMX,e40,pharomonche,proof,taboo,will i am,q-tip,T.I.,outkast etc,etc,etc...
33. Band: AFI,coheed&cambria,massive attack,falout boy,mudvayne,rammstien etc,etc,etc....
34. Song Right Now:tomorrow comes today-gorillaz,el manna-gorillaz
35. Friend:...
36. Candy: milky way
37. Sport to Play: parkour,muay thai,body tag
38. Restaurant: (once teh food don't bite back...)
39. Favorite brand to wear: watevr fits and looks decent
40. Store: eye candy
41. School Subject: boooooo
42. Animal: elephants,crows,wolves
43. Book: paradise lost
44. Magazine:guns&ammo,egm
45. Shoes: puma all teh way baby

___Currently___

46. Feeling: suicidal
47. Single or Taken?: married
49. Eating: nothing
50. Drinking: Water
51. Typing:besides this?....nada
52. Online?:no
53. Listening To: gorillaz
54. Thinking About: :mystique1:
55. Wanting To: get away from it all...
56. Watching: my sanity slip away
57. Wearingants

__________Future__________

58. Want Kids?: ask m wife
59. Want to be Married: see#47
60. Careers in Mind: no fucking idea
61. Where do you want to live?: wherever she is...
62. Car: 06' mustang tuned to my specs

__Which is Better With The Opposite Sex___

63. Hair colour: Dark of very light(coloured)
64. Hair length: Long(dreadlocks tho)
65. Eye colour: (brown or blue)
66. Measurements: proper proportions are a must
67. Cute or Sexy: (any)
68. Lips or Eyes: eyes
69. Hugs or Kisses: Both
70. Short or Tall: tall(if taller than me, WOOT!!)
71. Easygoing or serious: a nice balance
72. Romantic or Spontaneous: both
74. Sensitive or Loud: quiet,observant type
75. Hook-up or Relationship: Relationship
77. Trouble Maker or Hesitant One: if she keeps me out of trouble...

___Have you ever______

78. Kissed a Stranger: yea
79. Had Alcohol: Yes
80. Smoked: yea....started again....fuckin joy...
81. Ran Away From Home: yea
82. Broken a bone: almoust all
85. Broken Someones Heart: sadly...
86. Broken Up With Someone: see above
87. Cried When Someone Died: no....death is something i embrace
88. Cried At School: no

___Do You Believe In___

89. God: sometimes i wonder....
90. Miracles: not all the time
91. Love At First sight: yes
93. Aliens: hell, i'm one aint i?
94. Soul Mates: yes.....i hope i dont lose mine
95. Heaven: ....
96. Hell: i live here
98. Kissing on The First Date: no
99. Horoscopes:not sure

___Answer Truthfully___

100. Is there someone (or something?) you want but you know you can't have? ~XtheStampede http://XtheStampede.deviantart.com/journal/8908690/ http://XtheStampede.deviantart.com/journal/8908690/ Mon, 29 May 2006 06:32:10 PDT

welll...i'll keep em comin as long as m ppl keep up teh great work.... ]]> ~XtheStampede http://XtheStampede.deviantart.com/journal/8804719/ http://XtheStampede.deviantart.com/journal/8804719/ Thu, 18 May 2006 05:38:28 PDT )
well here we go then:
1) if i'm bored i try to dig my nose with my tongue....
2) I have no problem moving a dead person/dismembered limb but do NOT ask me to touch ants....
3) I have 8 wisdom teeth....
4) I bit a pitbull on the neck once and killed it...
5) i can hit so hard that i will break a bone and keep hitting
6) i strongly believe sex on the beach isn't a drink....

good! now i'm liberated....bastards...

ok.here's My hitlist:
~mystique1
~korpus-k
~avoiderdragon
~LostKorean
~Dyabolix


now you list six wierd thing 'bout urself in your journal and tag six ppl and tell dem do d same ting!!!
ummm...dat's it.....FROLIK!!!!!! ]]> ~XtheStampede http://XtheStampede.deviantart.com/journal/8762274/ http://XtheStampede.deviantart.com/journal/8762274/ Sat, 13 May 2006 19:40:01 PDT ~XtheStampede http://XtheStampede.deviantart.com/journal/8678955/ http://XtheStampede.deviantart.com/journal/8678955/ Fri, 05 May 2006 06:12:26 PDT all alone-orange sky

2. Will I have a happy life?
i gotta get thru this-daniel bedingfield

3. What do my friends think of me?
diesel power-prodigy

4. Do people secretly lust after me?
breaking the habit-linkin park(wtf!??!??)

5. How can I make myself happy?
give 'em what they want-DMX....well if you insist

6. What should I do with my life?
dreams-the game....ok then

7. Will I ever have children?
breathe

8. What is some good advice for me?
if i can go-angie martinez....hmmmmm

9. How will I be remembered?
(oh my) Kill rock n' roll-system of a down

10. What's my signature dancing song?
Spitfire-the prodigy.....since when?

11. What's my current theme-song?
gangsta's paradise-coolio

12. What do others think is my current themesong?
oops-tweet (i couldn't stop laughin at this)

13. What shall they play at my funeral?
starshine-gorillaz

14. What type of men/women do I like?
streamline-system of a down...tru dat, i mean look at my gf...

15. How's my love life?
salt shaker (yes trini ppl ah saltin rite now!!!)

16. What song will I get stuck in my head tomorrow?
six from the edge-creed....ummmm,no.

17. Are there people outside waiting to take me away?
cry me a river-justin timberlake......is that bad?

18. What will this year be all about?
dance,dance-fallout boy...FUCK YEA!!!!!

19. Why was I ever born?
frozen-madonna....wa?

20. With accompany of which song I was made?
u-fig-system of a down.....now dat jus wrong

21. What song will be played at my wedding?
i am music-common.....kewl ^_^

22. For what would I kill someone?
get out-busta rhymes.....hmmmmmm,come to think of it...

23. What is the most precious thing in my room?
soldier side-system of a down.....T_T

24. With what song am I gonna lose/ lost my virginityto?
nobody's listening-linkin park

25. What will be my last thought before I die?
gimme the weed-buju banton.....

26. What is the best song to describe my school mates?
happy valentines day-andre 3000....wtf?

27. I feel so...
sandstorm-darude...ent?!?!?!!!

28. Best song to describe my hidden sexuality?
the last wolf suite-samurai x OST....wa?

29. Of what am I afraid?
we be burning-sean paul.....o-ho

30. I like to...
sugar-system of a down....hoo-boy!

31. I wanna ...
bat country-avenged sevenfold.....i hav no idea wat to make of dat...

32. What do you secretly desire?
know-system of a down....ok then (is it just me or is system appearin quite regularly?

33. How would you take over the world?
best of you-foo fighters....in a way that makes sense.

34. Your greatest desire?
ava adore-smashing pumkins.....eh?

35. I have ... in my pants!
what's your flavour-craig david......wa de mudda c...

36. I would say ... to my first love
dancing thru sunday-AFI

37. I wanna screw...
when i'm gone-eminem......dat is odd

38. Why did I write in this stupid questionairre?
smack my bitch up-the prodigy....no actually she'd probably kick MY ass..T_T



i now tag--> ~mystique1
~lunitare
~MrStuntman ]]> ~XtheStampede http://XtheStampede.deviantart.com/journal/8464954/ http://XtheStampede.deviantart.com/journal/8464954/ Fri, 14 Apr 2006 01:27:26 PDT

:icon_deviantTRINI: ]]> ~XtheStampede