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IT HAS BEEN A LONG ASS TIME.

And quite frankly, if the amount of time that I have been away from DeviantArt were directly proportionate to someone's ass, I'm sure that we'd all be drowning in cellulite by now if we hadn't already suffocated from the stench .

But enough of diembodied asses and their hideous magnitudes.

I am back.

And no, no totally wicked ACDC playing in the background either.
I'm just happy to say that my artistic view has changed. I have changed greatly; I have been changed...

and more surprisingly so, I have been changed by-
dare I sayeth-
A MAN!
Yes, with a penis and everything!

There will be a time to explain after I get myself re-established in this community. After many long overdue apologies for a ridiculous absense, and after I fiddle with the brand new OS for DevArt. It's so streamlined and confusing. Like freaking Windows Vista.

I know that I've lost much ground and not many people will read this, but I just thought I'd put forth the effort to tell you that I haven't killed myself, didn't get cursed by a Santerian Hoodoo woman and doomed to remain a chicken for the rest of my life.

But no, I am alive.
I am whole.
Filled with love.
and jelly.
and apology.

Thank you.
-Lori

]]> ~XxForgottenFailurexX http://XxForgottenFailurexX.deviantart.com/journal/21572129/ http://XxForgottenFailurexX.deviantart.com/journal/21572129/ Wed, 26 Nov 2008 21:29:59 PST
<sup>"Give me strength to be kind.
To combine all the good things in life
that are so hard to find...

You give me a quiet mind
and I... I love you
You give me a quiet mind
and I- I LOVE YOU
Until the end ..."
-Blue October</sup>

25 November 2008
TUESDAY

Officially one of the most important days of my life and I will never allow myself to forget it. It is why I am choosing to document it here.

It is why I am choosing at all.

You know, for a while I was really close to losing who I was. It was more that I remembered being so sure of myself last year.

I knew my name, I knew what I believed in.
I knew who I loved, who deserved forgiveness and who didn't.

But these recent months have been like quicksand. One second I believed I stood on solid ground and the next it just fell out beneath me. I couldn't see, I couldn't breathe- I just knew I was immersed and had to get out of it somehow, someway.

Who was I and why did I have these idiotic beliefs?
Why did I love these people who didn't love me?
Did I have the right to forgive people when I myself needed to be forgiven?

Tuesday was my downfall and Tuesday was my resurrection. I have never been so humbled, ever felt so human in my entire life. This is the truth.
And I can truly say that I have never felt

more deeply loved

than I had when I fell down on the drive way pavement. Never ever ever. Ever felt more loved.

And I confessed all of this that I am confessing now.

Childish, weak,
Trite and Cheap

but they love me
for me.

But I have never been more happy of it.

And now that this is over and everything that was destroying me has released itself, I know can move forward.

And as far as change, that may happen,
BUT
I am going to strive
and I am going to fight
to continue being who I am.

Soon I'm going to pick up all the pieces and put them back together and not need any glue or tape.
It won't be a facade this time or frail logic keeping me together.

This time it will be real
and genuine
and maybe, just maybe...
stronger.

So for the first time I leave off to bed
with a completely quiet mind for the first time in months. I have two people to thank for that.

And as for now, that is what I am giving thanks for.

To them
and all those
who save me
time and time again.
For I love you
Until the end.


Happy Thanksgiving.





------------------------------------------------

<sub>Dear everyone,
I'd like to admit that I have been completely inactive lately. I haven't replied to comments from even the people I love the most-
That means you, Kate.
Tasuki, my bandytt, Cheeky, so many others... I'm sorry.
I have failed you, but I'm not going to sit here on my end of the computer and make excuses for it.
HOWEVER, though I'm not sure what is wrong with me recently, I'm going to change this. I refuse to stay in this crazy funkitated stage that I'm in. No matter what, I think of about you guys all the time.
It's just that sophmore slump you get into. The world looks so big and you feel so useless, even though you know you aren't. I feel like I'm on the verge of something crucial, and until I'm strong enough to leap off the edge I'm going to stand here,
right here,
knowing that you all love me despite my reluctance.
Thank you all so much.
I love you.
-Lori
---------------------------------------------------
I'm changing.
I'm not sure if it's for the better
or for the worst.
At any rate, I'm deleting the majority of my gallery
for they no longer portray who I am as an artist.
I am also considering giving up this account,
especially the name.

I need to search for myself again,
and I'm going to find me,
wherever I am.

For lack of a way to better express myself
thank you for reading.
-lori</sub>

]]> ~XxForgottenFailurexX http://XxForgottenFailurexX.deviantart.com/journal/20030274/ http://XxForgottenFailurexX.deviantart.com/journal/20030274/ Mon, 18 Aug 2008 20:10:42 PDT
"I was on your porch,
the smoke sank into my skin,
so I came inside to be with you.
And we talked all night
about everything we could imagine,
because come the morning I'll be gone.
and as our eyes start to close,
I turn to you
and I let you know
that I Love You."
-The Format


I waded through final thoughts as I was on the sofa, looking up at the ceiling. The day had lingered on forever; had consisted of errands and sweltering heat, a dead car battery and enamel paint. I was thoroughly exhausted and wanted only to pass into the bliss of sleep I’d been craving. But before my eyes completely shut to drown out the world and the hum of the ceiling fan, I wondered:

Who would I be without you?
Would I be without you?

The “you” wasn’t specified to a particular person, but rather everyone that I knew; “you” was every back-breaking tear; “you” was every vicious paper wad thrown at my head—

It was every argument my parents had;
It was every kiss in the closet;
Every walk in the rain;
Every four hour phone call;
Every smile;
Every scream.

I knew the answer. There were only two options:

If not for “you,” I would be a plastic mannequin without a heart or soul—and that would be assuming that I had lived.

The other answer was very plain: I wouldn’t be at all.

And now I thought as I lay on this sofa, that I loved you. Every single moment, down to the bloodiest, happiest bit—I love all of you. You have made me who I am, and even though parts of you cut me like razorblades and beat my skin to blues, I wouldn’t be anything that I am today without you.

But what I want to say is that, if you’re satisfied with who you are,
right here, right now,

Thank all of the people, even those who hurt you, for doing what they have done. Thank even more those who have stood by you all through out, and forgive the ones who fell from your side. The people who are reading this, you know who you are.

Please drop the hostilities and love one another.

Look at yourself and know that you have seen hell and lived to tell the tale, for without knowing pain, we would never achieve happiness.

I love you.
And thank you all for happening to me.

]]> ~XxForgottenFailurexX http://XxForgottenFailurexX.deviantart.com/journal/19065303/ http://XxForgottenFailurexX.deviantart.com/journal/19065303/ Thu, 26 Jun 2008 21:19:31 PDT
<sub>"Remember that time you drove all night
just to meet me in the morning?
And I thought it was strange
you said everything changed-
you felt
as if you'd just woke up. You said:

This is the first day of my life.
I'm glad I didn't die before I met you.
But now I don't care, I could go anywhere
with you
and I'd probably be happy..."
-Bright Eyes</sub>

Dear everyone,

I wonder what your doing right now. Are you reading this while you smell breakfast cooking? Are you reading this late at night when you've nothing left to do? What are you thinking about? How did your day go?

Are you thinking about someone you miss? About someone you love, maybe?

I am. :}
About both, actually.

Today I'm thinking about you, wherever you are.
Today I'm there with you in Hawaii, in California, in Scotland, down the street, in the next city, wherever you may be.

Holding your hand if you want me to,
listening if you'd like.

Because today I just wanted to get up and give some love away. So many of us are starving for it, so when you comment- just tell me what you're doing or how your day went.

Tell me anything, tell me everything.

Or you could just say nothing at all.

Just wanted to spread some love
and perhaps bring a little bit of light to you
even if only for a second.

Thankeths.
-Lorix

---------------------------


<sub>- Choose a singer/band/group
- Answer using ONLY titles of songs by that singer/band/group
- Tag 6 more people (let them know they've been tagged)

Lorix chooses the wonderfully delicious,
apart of this nutritious breakfast,
THE GOO GOO DOLLS!


1. Are you male or female?
Slave Girl

2. Describe yourself
I'll Stay With You

3. What do people feel when they're around you?
Let Love In

4. How would you describe your previous relationship?
Feel the Silence

5. Describe your current relationship.
Million Miles Away

6. Where would you want to be now?
Broadway

7. How do you feel about love?
Give a Little Bit

8. What's your life like?
Black Balloons

9. What would you ask for if you had only one wish?
Maybe We'll Find Better Days

10. Say something wise.
Here is Gone</sub>

]]> ~XxForgottenFailurexX http://XxForgottenFailurexX.deviantart.com/journal/18670298/ http://XxForgottenFailurexX.deviantart.com/journal/18670298/ Wed, 04 Jun 2008 21:12:14 PDT ::HEY LOVES::

Just want to say thanks for all of the love and support. Everyday is wonderful when I know that I have you all on my side. So many of you are a real inspiration to me; I love you guys and all the strength you give me. Thankeths!

In the meanwhile, School was over as of May 30^th. However, I had to come back on Tuesday to finish up my Integrated Phsysics & Chemistry Final. Guess what I found hidden in the final?

I got a note from Mr. Jones regarding the letter that I gave to him before I left.
^{(The one that you can find in my journals somewhere.) :}}

Yeah, yeah, I cried, okay? I'm allowed to cry! TT^TT He told me he'd never been disappointed in me, and that he was happy that he'd been a part of my life. I can't tell you how stupidly happy I was to get his note. It really brightened my entire week. And I'll always keep it so I won't forget him.

::IN OTHER NEWS::

I went to Kansas (which is really lame and yellow-ness and blah all over) to see my Aunt Mikie graduate, and thus had to see my cousins Taylor and Nathan.

Taylor and I aren't on the best terms, but we got everything settled. It's really wonderful that we're cool with each other now. A lot of the issues that we had before was because I hadn't told him that I was bisexual- and a lot of the time, he makes deragatory remarks about bisexuals in general.

Now that he knows, things will go a lot smoother and all of the tension that was between us before will hopefully dissapate.

So, even though you'll never read this- Thanks Tay. For understanding when I really didn't think you would. I expected you to hate me more, but you didn't. Thanks for proving me wrong, man.

::IN OTHER OTHER BUT DEFINITELY IMPORTANT NEWS::

Wonderful news of the awesomeness! TLC has grown to nearly 200 members! We need your help to reach our goal! So if any of you have friends that are lesby or bi and you support them, please share the love and join TLC! We're a wonderful group of people that seek to help support others who have homosexual or bisexual women in their lives.

You do not have to be lesbian or bisexual or even a girl to join- as long as you love us, we'll love you back, babe! ;}

To join, please visit here: [link]

Thanks for all of my friends who have already joined. I appreciate you guys so much.

Love and let love!
-Lorix

]]> ~XxForgottenFailurexX http://XxForgottenFailurexX.deviantart.com/journal/18293458/ http://XxForgottenFailurexX.deviantart.com/journal/18293458/ Mon, 12 May 2008 17:10:10 PDT _{"Doesn't it make you sad
to know that life
is more than who we are?
-Goo Goo Dolls}

We've come so far. Does anyone else stop and look around, and just realize that just a moment ago, you were in the third grade, thinking of how awesome it would be going to highschool?

And now we're here. And now that little third grade phantom of ourselves has vanished and gone away.

It feels like a fleeting moment. I don't know. I guess that I've just been thinking about how far everyone has come this year- who we were at the beginning to who we are now.

Our relationships have changed. Our personalities, our beliefs, our weaknesses... isn't it crazy? What we've overcome, and what we seem to trip over time and time again.

You should take time to stand back and look at it all. What happened all through out this school year-
the the odds beaten,
the laughter in the movie theatres,
the inside jokes,
the late night conversations on the telephone,
the hours spent pondering up at the ceiling when you couldn't sleep,
the memories.

What would you be without them? A person without a past, a person without memories... can they really be called a person at all? We need to look back at the past to know just how strong we are. Most of us don't realize that we have a light so bright- so immense- so strong and beautiful- that we're blinded and we don't even know it exists. But it exists in all of us. We just have to dig deep in ourselves and find it. When you stop and look at all the hell, all the crap that has happened, all the pain, and all the confusion that you suffered through- there is one thing that always tells you that you are a beautiful, powerful being.

You are still here.

It's like all at once, I just feel like I'm flooded with memories and with love. All the names of the people who have affected my life; the people who I have affected; it's beath-taking. The guilt I felt of leaving my friends back home, but how we've somehow kept in touch through it all. Caitlin's mom hating me, and us laughing about it despite the fact. Prom and the grand finale to this one hell of a year.

It just... It's amazing.

So here's to everyone. Another year. It's over and gone, gone, gone... but we aren't. We're still here; still breathing; hearts beating and bodies intact. Everyday is like a struggle but somehow we find the strength to get past everything.

Whether its problems at home, whether its a Mount Everest of Homework, whether its a love lost-

we won.

Whether we've been betrayed, whether we've lost a friend, whether we've suffered a death, whether we've been beaten and rejected-

we won.

Dear fucking god, for once, we won.

You all are my heroes. Thank you for everything. For being here, for being my support, my strength, my hope, my love. You are in power of your own life, and you can help others get theirs back.

Thank you for helping me get back my life. You have all made up for years of unhappiness. You've talked with me for hours on the phone, you've wiped my tears and pulled me back from ledges.

Thank you. I hope someday that I will be able to repay you.
For everything.
-Lorix

]]> ~XxForgottenFailurexX http://XxForgottenFailurexX.deviantart.com/journal/18027358/ http://XxForgottenFailurexX.deviantart.com/journal/18027358/ Fri, 25 Apr 2008 18:22:10 PDT 25 APRIL 2008: THE DAY OF SILENCE

^{"I'll take you for who you are
if you'll take me for everything I really am." -Sick Puppies}

This morning, many people of my high school joined together in a common cause: to stop the harrassment of LGBT students by merely being silent. There was a wonderful turn out- everyone helped by bringing something. Whether it was the duck tape, the sharpies, the stickers, the Reason For Silence slips, or shirts; everyone did a wonderful job participating.

However, this day did not go without its consequences, as I very much expected it to. The Admin of the school definitely had something to say about our-
not only nonviolent, but absolutely SILENT-
protest. They threatened that wearing or promoting the Day of Silence would get us suspended or expelled.

"You can wear the duck tape, but you have to get out of the school," are the words of our Principal, verbatim.

I expected the hostility of the students, but never the administration. You would think that perhaps the adults would act in at least a CIVIL manner, but that was not the case. One of my friends got the tape ripped off of her mouth, while another friend was told to

"GET OVER IT."

To "get over" the fact that homosexuals are harrassed.

I'm sorry, but I choose not to get over it. If you want to turn a blind eye to it- if you want to to pretend like it doesn't exist while the homosexual, bisexual, or transgender youth gets JUMPED, or gets SHOT, or gets KILLED-
then you go ahead, Almighty Administration.

All I can say is I wonder how you could be so heartless towards the children that, as an administration, you are supposed to PROTECT.

Whatever the case, I hope that in the future that if you do not want protesting in your school, that you disallow ALL protesting, instead of allowing one protest at the beginning of the year (the Pro-Life Movement, which also consisted of T-shirts, duck tape, etc.), but banning THIS one.

Besides that, even though we got everything taken away from us- we were not stopped. We might've been down, but we weren't out by any means.

After the Admin had taken away all of our things, I was very discouraged. Being so stupidly weak, I had cried. But my friend Brady really helped me here.

I told him (by writing in my notepad, which I told everyone to bring to keep them from going insane so that they could communicate) what had happened with the Administration- how they had just... completely shut us down... but that's when he told me:

"That's why it's called a protest. They can take away our stuff, but they can't make us talk."

I don't know. It hit me. That the protest wasn't about SHOWING you're support- it was simply about supporting. A protest is standing up for what you believe in, knowing that people are going to shoot you down, knowing that you're going to lose- but you know what?

You do it anyway.
Because it's what you feel in your heart is right.
Even if other people make fun of you for it.

So Brady, you probably won't ever read this, but thanks. You have no idea how much that helped me.

All in all, the school was quieter that day. I'm happy to say that even though the Admin didn't like it, we still completed our cause. We were silent for Lawrence King; We were silent for those who are forced into silence.
We did our job, and I'm proud.

Thank you for everyone who participated-
whether you're straight,
whether you're bi, gay, lesbian, or transgender,
you're all so wonderful.
Thank you for participating.

It's just the first step- and it's the hardest step to take- to a better environment in school. It was rough, but next year, things will get so much better. I just know it.

We can address the problem. We can stop the suffering.
Let's do it together.
-Lorix

]]> ~XxForgottenFailurexX http://XxForgottenFailurexX.deviantart.com/journal/17884416/ http://XxForgottenFailurexX.deviantart.com/journal/17884416/ Wed, 16 Apr 2008 17:06:04 PDT The World is a liar
and we are to blame
caught in a corner
just like their lies
these are the things
that we all realize

still the guitar strings strum
to the half-forgotten tune
of a shadow that clung
to the lockers at school

she wanted to escape
the oceans she cried
and carved her way out

on the day that she died.

...The World is a liar
and we are to blame..."

_{This was a poem I created during my middleschool years after many students at my school discovered I was bisexual. The experience was painful to say the least; it became nigh inbearable just to wake up everyday and force myself to go to school. I would fake sickness any time I could- anything just to escape having to arrive at that place where so many hated me for something so trivial.The feelings and thoughts I encountered then are not something I would ever wish on anyone.
I'm happy to say that I had a few wonderful friends who loved me for who I was in spite of many peoples' opinions. But the suffering that every outcast, every unaccepted child, every person that ever felt unwanted and abandoned, is absolutely and positively real; it's a suffering that we must stop, or at very least, try to stop.}

Dear everybody,

The Day of Silence is a protest against the harrassment that Lesbian, Gay, Bi, and Trans students suffer in the school environment. This year, The Day of Silence will be held April 25^th in honour of Lawrence King. This young man was only fifteen when he was shot and killed by a classmate-
and why?
Because of his sexual orientation. Because he wasn't the same as everyone else.

Things like this happen on a daily basis- kids and adults alike, shot and killed, murdered and mutilated, based on mere human hatred.
On April 25^th, let us speak out against this- not just for LGBT individuals, but for all individuals who suffer from harrasment of any kind.

To Participate in the Day of Silence, the process is simple: do not speak for the whole day. If you are in a situation where you absolutely must speak, you can make shirts, stickers, or posters around your school. Be creative! It's a great way to get involved in something truly great and for the greater good.

Let our silence be the voice of those without.

We are in world where people will blindly hate simply because they know they can; but it is up to us to change that. We have to show the world that words can make you bleed- more than any knife or gun could. But words- or in this case, lack of them- can also save. We will be silent for those who must be kept silent their entire lives.

For more information or to lead or more extensive Day of Silence (DOS) program at your school, you can order DOS supplies or read up on the purpose of the protest at DayofSilence.org ([link])

On behalf of all who have been ostracized, neglected, and ridiculed, we are here to support you.

These clubs also support you and accept you wholly and completely:



Love and Let Love,
Lorix

]]> ~XxForgottenFailurexX http://XxForgottenFailurexX.deviantart.com/journal/17758630/ http://XxForgottenFailurexX.deviantart.com/journal/17758630/ Wed, 09 Apr 2008 05:00:56 PDT _{DEAR GOD,
I KNOW THAT YOU HATE GETTING LETTERS FROM ME AND ALL,
BUT I DON'T WANT TO LIVE ANYMORE.
I DON'T HAVE THE GUTS TO SING IN FRONT OF MR. JONES TODAY.
IF YOU DON'T KILL ME, THEN AT LEAST GIVE ME SOME MEAGER STRENGTH TO GET THROUGH THE DAY.
THANKS.
-LORIX}

I was desperate okay? I figured it was worth a try, since I hardly ever pray anyway.
... except for mercy... o_O

But anyway. I'm being bludgeoned with projects; isn't that fun? I have about three due in English, I just got finished with a History Project last week, and I have to perform my science project this week. I really... really... want to just crawl in bed and sleep.

BUT NO!

I'm going to get through the week, on minimal hours of sleep or not! In the words of Winston Churchill, I shall
"NEVA... NEVA... NEVA GIVE UP!"

Alright. Finished with that little spiel there.

In other news, I'm going to state this weekend! I don't really know anyone on the trip, so I'll be forced to make friends... yay. It doesn't help either that Justin is going to be gone for the rest of this week, which means that the only person that can instantly make me feel better is gonna be-
*poof*
gone.

Shut up, I'm allowed to be a girl every now and then, okay? I know you're all under the impression that I'm a wimpy man, but... mugh!
That aside, I'm terribly excited. I hope that I can go to regionals or whatever the hell is next after state- it'll be really great.

TLC UPDATE

What's even better is that I got the postition for Promotional Advertiser for TLC!!!

I'm practically on a high right now. Still can't believe the postiont belongs to me now, since I've never been much of any thing to any club. Whatever the case, I'm proud to be apart of the club and promote it becoming widespread for lesbian, lesbian supporters, and bisexuals everywhere. :}

Don't forget that you can join even if you're straight! Also, just because it's the Lesbian Club doesn't mean that boys can't join too!



Good on ya, everyone!
-Lorix

]]> ~XxForgottenFailurexX http://XxForgottenFailurexX.deviantart.com/journal/17686312/ http://XxForgottenFailurexX.deviantart.com/journal/17686312/ Fri, 04 Apr 2008 16:20:38 PDT " Just give me:
this...
last chance
to tell you everything you need to hear
because phone calls
won't let me look you in the eye
so I can tell you
^{PLEASE STAY.}"

Hello loveths.
I just wanted to say that you all have been so kind to me.
And actually, I wanted to thank someone for opening my eyes, lately.
When we last talked, it must have been months ago. I miss you both so much. Kateth and Tasuki- just wanted to let you know that not a day goes by that I don't think about you.

I guess as lame as it sounds, it's like Kingdom Hearts-
"it's not how often we see each other, but how often we think about each other."

You're always here for me, even though we're far apart. So much of you is my inner strength and the memories I have of us together help me through so much. Your examples really teach me; and help me teach others; that the whole world isn't something to be hated.
I have you.

On a lighter note, I'll be seeing you tomorrow Saturday!

I also want to thank :alteredpants:. I know that we haven't been talking much lately, but I want to tell you that the last comment I had from you really made me think. You told me that you didn't want to conform to a stereotype- that you weren't going to go easy on yourself just because everyone else does. That while you give yourself a break- someone could be getting hurt.

You're right.

I never thought about it before, but it really struck me. I didn't want to reply until I actually did something about what you said. I'm making a piece of art for Dead Legions based off of your example of life:
We chase the butterflies of disillusionment, of things that everyone else chases after to distract us from the problems- from the wolves lurking just beyond the borders of our meadow; our World.

Thanks for inspiring me.

Thank you all.

-Lorix

***

TaggiFyed:

1. What position do you sleep?
On my back with a pillow under my legs. I started taking it up when I read in some book that it helps with back problems.
...
and I HAVETH the back problems, man. haveth the back problems.

2. If you weren't procrastinating, what would you be doing right now?
... working on my persuasive essay or the song I have to write for my Science project. I have way too many projects this month; I swear I'm dying... TTATT

3. What do you absolutely have to have each day, otherwise you'd have a freak out session?
Actually, everyday in my locker I have a picture of my friends Tasuki and Kate inside that we took at an arcade. :} If I didn't have it, I'd probaby die half the time. Seeing their face gives me a little strength.
(lol, probably the only strength I possess.)

4. What's your music/band of choice lately?
As of late, Blue October. I'm not a big "popular band" person, but I really fell in love with them after hearing "Hate Me." It reminded me so much of my character Leo, and alot of how I WISH my dad felt, but I know that he doesn't...

Another song would be Name by The Goo Goo Dolls. It reminds me alot of everything that happened over my life in Houston. Moving from apartment to apartment, memories with friends, and friends no more... first love and everything. So much has happened... I can't even recollect it all. I need a camera so I can properly treasure all these faces whose names I won't even remember in the future...

God I hope that doesn't happen... :{

5. If you could be any character YOU created, who would it be and why?

Whenever there's a character, I try to base the character off something real about a friend or about myself. So alot of my characters tend to relate to some sort of aspect or idea that I really hold dear. The character of choice would be Katelyn, I guess. She's really great, and I adore her so much. She might be characterized as "weak" but she has an inner strength- a quiet strength that is so valuable and touching.

6. what's something you regret?

While everyone ignores this apparently broken record, my biggest regret is not fighting for the relationship I had with Chey. There were a lot of things that should have been said; there were so many times I just wanted to say I love you, but I didn't. However, it's all for the best. Because we... ]]> ~XxForgottenFailurexX http://XxForgottenFailurexX.deviantart.com/journal/17532152/ http://XxForgottenFailurexX.deviantart.com/journal/17532152/ Wed, 26 Mar 2008 20:23:03 PDT Mr. Jones,

Weird that you're receiving a letter from a student, isn't it? Or maybe it isn't. I don't know. Maybe you've gotten a bunch of letters from highschool seniors as an assignment in their journalism class, but this is different. I'm not writing to you because I'm on assignment.

I'm not doing this because I'm getting extra credit for it.
I'm not doing this because I'm trying to get on your good side.
I'm doing this because I just wanted to say that I'm going to miss you.

So recently I heard that you're going off to another school because you got offered a better position there. I understand that you need more money, especially now that you're going to be a daddy... again. It's really sweet that you do those sort of things for your family. They're really lucky to have a man like you in their life.

It sounds stupid that I got so attached to you after one little instant. I look back on it now, thinking that I shouldn't be forcing all this unaccounted for "attachment" I have to you.

Stupid, right? I know.

But after hearing you talk about your child the way my Father never talked about me, you changed my life. I know I'm not you're "friend" or your real "daughter" or anything like that, but you don't know that before meeting you, I had little faith- if I had any at all- in men. Because of my dad, I assumed they were all liars, cheaters... ultimately, scum. I harbored a lot of hurt and pain over it, and in the end I let it affect many relationships and opinions I had with guys in general.

I was always insecure, I was afraid they would hurt me.
In fact, I won't lie- you scared me to death when I first met you. I seriously thought you hated me and that you found me annoying.
Of course, all these thoughts were irrational on my part.
(although your teasing of "breaking my legs the next time I was tardy" maaaaaybe had something to do with it.)

Those words, though, just when you said that you would never want to die because all you wanted to do was be there for your son- it really made me stop and think. You even said you were proud of me. Why you did something like this so easily- without knowing me, without thinking about anything I might have done, without considering my desheveled appearance, without thinking I was a freak- was beyond me.

Somehow, I was always ashamed of myself.

Thereafter, I began seeing you in a different light. I lost all my theories of you being out to get me and being scary- something about you had changed.

Or maybe, you just changed me.

You've given me so much, Mr. Jones. And all I feel that I did for you was fail to do a very small request you asked of me. I want to apologize for never making you the card that you and your wife wanted. It was a big fall on my part. I know that I'll never be able to face you about it, but I just wanted you to know that it is always scratching me at the back of my mind whenever I see you.

I'm sorry.

But thank you so much! For everything that you do!
Thanks for tolerating my terrible class.
Thanks for listening to me when I had trouble with classmates. Thanks for helping me with the subject that I hate most and making it so much fun.
Thanks for making me laugh.
Thanks even more for making me cry, though!
Most of all, thank you for touching my life.

In spite of all the mess I talk about not needing a dad, and not needing any sort of father figure in my life, and "hating" men in general...

If I could have a dad, he would be just like you.

With so much love,
Lori

]]> ~XxForgottenFailurexX http://XxForgottenFailurexX.deviantart.com/journal/17261371/ http://XxForgottenFailurexX.deviantart.com/journal/17261371/ Mon, 10 Mar 2008 10:20:40 PDT SUPER HOT TOASTY NEWS
HOORAY I FIXED THE LINK TO MY FANFIC! NOW... I BEG YOU...PLEASE READ AND TELL ME THINGS!

You know what. Texas needs to make up it's mind.
We have a frickin' hot Christmas and then what happens the Friday of Spring Break?
It.
Snows.

No. Just. No.
Listen up, Texas. I appreciate that you're not as superficial as the other states (like California. I don't want to hear about myah-myah-myah, California grows oranges, they contribute somewhat, la-la-la. THE ONLY THING CALIFORNIA GROWS is BOOBS! And if they contribute anything, it's the lame-o generation of teenagers addicted to The OC, The Hills, and Laguna Beach.)
(... okay, so California has nice weather...)
(... and has Disneyland...)
(... and has Orlando Bloom in it...)
(... but back to the point!)
I'm getting fed up with you, Texas.
You're overly republican and you hate gay marriage,
and you're weather is as lame as your congressional decisions regarding the physical fitness test, Taks, and bus evacuation drills!

BUT ANYWAY.

Spring Break has just started this week, and I'm extremely excited. This week I'll finally be able to watch the "To Kill a Mockingbird" movie! HUZZAH! That, and 10,000 BC just came out, which I believe should be WAY to the radness.

So what is everyone doing their spring break? Anything completely way to the radness? I won't be doing anything super special. -_- Except Thursday and Friday I shall be dedicating to my awesome Aunt Erica and Uncle Ronald. They have a new doggie names Hiro. Hiro Nakamura-san. Oh yeah. >:}

Also. April I are-eth the goingness to State Art Contest. ^^

And:
Happy Birthday Kateth, again. I can't believe you're fifteen!!! You and Tasuki both. Which reminds me that I need to upload you guys' pictures and get you guys presents this week. Hooray 45 dollars I haveths to spend!
Shut up.
I'm poor, okay?

THE MISADVENTURES OF JAKOBIN BLANE
^{soon to be posted on DA}

"It was a sanctuary especially for the children of the deities
that held the fate of Mortals in their grasp,
children born of Ambrosia and Nectar,
and human blood.

And I just didn’t belong."

Jakobin Blane is a young, fourteen year old pessimist. Because she is socially retarded, Jakobin has been sent yet again to a camp for the summer by her mother who believes will help (or FORCE) Jakobin to mingle with a lifeform other than her own father.

However, things do not go over so well for Jakobin when she discovers the camp that her mother sent her to was a camp for Half-Bloods-- children of the Olympian Gods...
_{annnd their mortal lover...}
Jak insists that it's all a huge ass mistake. Besides, she LIVES with both of her parents, because:

Mommy+Daddy=Baby
NOT
Mommy+Daddy+Some-sort-of-creep-o-Olympian-God=Baby.

Thus,
Huge, gigantic mistake the size of Zeus's ego.

And yet, her activities director insistes that she is indeed a Half-Blood.
Whilst her doubts remain prominent, Jakobin is forced to stay at Camp Half-Blood, no matter what pain she may endure.

***
There is my terrible synopsis of the story. Anyway, I posted it on FanFiction.net.
(Thank you Kateth!)
It's still in rough draft mode, but I think it's sufficient enough.
[link]


However, the sad thing that I'v... ]]> ~XxForgottenFailurexX http://XxForgottenFailurexX.deviantart.com/journal/17151566/ http://XxForgottenFailurexX.deviantart.com/journal/17151566/ Sun, 02 Mar 2008 15:23:54 PST
I would like to announce that I have... started something that I thought I would NEVER EVER do. Practically swore that I'd never do. But I find tht I like it and I'm going to continue doing it, hell.

No, I'm not smoking or anything. ^^

I've begun writing my first fanfiction. I've never written one before, so I don't know what they're supposed to be like, but I do know that I'm having so much fun writing more about characters that were hardly mentioned in the actual book! I have yet to create a title for it, but it's a story based off of

*drum roll*

PERCY JACKSON AND THE OLYMPIAN SERIES!

If you want to read it, you'll have to wait. Currently I'm going through it ad making sure that everything is fairly decent. ^^ This piece will also be one of my first long-term writings from a female perspective. But I think it's only easy because the little character is really just me teleported into Rick Riordan's world. -_- It sounds narcissistic, but it's easier writing as myself.

I have the rough draft still, but I'm sure that there's plenty wrong with it. If you're cool with grammar errors and possible type-o's:
[link]

Well, I hope you all enjoy.
-Lori

]]> ~XxForgottenFailurexX http://XxForgottenFailurexX.deviantart.com/journal/16965622/ http://XxForgottenFailurexX.deviantart.com/journal/16965622/ Tue, 19 Feb 2008 16:50:43 PST You don't know me.
Not anything. Not anymore.
Not because you wouldn't listen,
Not because you didn't care.
But because I was as silent
As the tear I'm wiping from your face.
All because I didn't know
What you would think of me if I told you.

If I told you
that my life is so utterly,
so hopelessly
shot.
That I live through an orange prescription bottle
Of pale antidepressants.

That it breaks my face to smile at you.
That you don't deserve
a stumbling,
Groveling,
Addict.


It's funny how life works. It makes you go through hell, and whether you survive or not is something all your own. And if you do survive,
if you do make it, what did you do with piece of hell you endured?
Do you hold onto it and unleash it on everyone else?
Or do you take that piece of hell, melt it down, and turn it into something new?

Something beautiful?

These thoughts made me want to make something meaningful. Something that had impact. Something that said: Look at these pills. They're supposed to relieve your pain, but all they do is bring you problems.

These are words that I wrote a long time ago that made me draw "Intervention" or what I named my contest piece. I'm surprised to say that because of it, I'm going to state. It's strange.

Isn't it strange? I won something. I never win anything. -_-

But all the same it brings me happiness. And surprise. I could definitely shit bricks over this. But still. XD

I'm just glad the judges understood. :}

IN OTHER NEWS

I wrote "Phone Call" which was really fun to write for my friend Caitling. She also wrote "Phone Call 2" so please check it out! I would be so happy!
Justin (because he's just way awesome like that) got me a Limited Edition of Eldest. It's so awesome! I can't wait to start reading it. XD
I finished all of the Percy Jackson and The Olympian Series! YESS!!!
I also drew the three main characters from the Series. Huzzah~!

FEATURE
Thankeths to the lovely I can put this in my journal as well. I thank her for featuring me. ^^
The first ten people to comment on this journal get featured, and I can give links to 3 of my favourite works that you've done.

1. My Haru... She' such a wonderful artist. Soon she'll be raking in 120K views and everyone is going to love her! Here are some of my favourites, although I love all of her work. (And sorry, I HAD to favourite Adrain and Jasp!)
[link]
[link]
[link]
2. My Mystress, the shade of all shadyness. She is the owner of Durza and I loveths her. Check out her stuff.
[link]
[link]
[link]
3. Ah, love. Now you get the spread you deserve. Your art is so wonderful. http://XxForgottenFailurexX.deviantart.com/journal/16823356/ Sun, 10 Feb 2008 19:34:28 PST Happy Valentines Day, Loves!

It's also legal prostitution day.
But.
that doesn't matter.
(Unless you think it does matter. Then- YAY!)

Usually the month of February is relatively depressing for me but I'm happy to say that this month it isn't for reasons that shall remain unnamed. _{*cough* Justin *cough*}

Anyway, I hope you all have an awesome Valentines Day, especially since it is Kate (my character, that is)'s birthday! She's 18 years old now! So this is great! Happy Birthday Kitten!

So I'll be drawing alot of her this month.
As well as in the next few posts, I shall be posting more
VAMPIRE VALENTINES DAY art work (see for details on entry) and Lesbian Support pictures!
YAY!
So upon the near future, you might want to be a little 'ah~ I don't know if I shoud view this deviation' if the title is something along the line of:

1. WOOO YURI ROCKETHS
2. YAY LESBIANS
3. CHICK-ON-CHICK ACTION
4. Lesbianism is the AWESOMNESS!

So...
yeah...


_{slowly backs away...}


Um... on the non-lesbian side of things,
I'M STILL VEGETARIAN! YAY! AFTER TWO WEEKS! HUZZAH!


SO LORI, HOW WAS THE CONTEST?

I was scared shitless, actually...
I did NOT WANT to be there at all, but I was, and was trying not to cry in panic, but phillip, this super cool kid in a wheel chair, helped me through that. ^^ (Thanketh's phillip!)
My interviewer was this fat guy wearing a wig, and he didn't help me not piss my pants. Evidently, he saw I was scared out of my nonexistant mind, and decided to go easy on me in order to prevent my having a siezure. I don't remember what his name was, so for the time being morbidly-obese-wig-wearing-dewd is Billy Bob.

morbidly-obese-wig-wearing-dewd: Hello there, I'm Billy Bob. *puts out hand for the due process of shaking*
Me: Ah~ m-my...name is Lori...
Billy Bob: Lori---?
Me: {insert last name here} ._.
Billy Bob: Look Lori, everything is okay. I'm just going to ask you some questions, and then when it's over, you can leave your artwork here, go outside, and get even more apprehensive, okay? ^^
Me: Okay... :{
Billy Bob: I'm not going to eat you...
Me: ._.
Billy Bob: fry you up...
Me: o_o
Billy Bob: sattee you...
Me: O_O
Billy Bob: And put you in a pan.
Me: http://XxForgottenFailurexX.deviantart.com/journal/16623154/ Tue, 29 Jan 2008 04:57:23 PST
I see that you have been writing me rather often for reasons beyond my comprehension. I'd simply like to express to you that it is not necessary (spelling error?) to write me constantly. Your letters have been coming so frequently that they're beginning to clog up my toilet
(Yes, I have tried to rid of them by flushing) and I've been forced to blame it on my son when the plumber came to repair it.

So if you don't mind, you're quite welcome.
With Love and (on the condition that you do not reply to this) Thanks,
God.

~

Ah, God. You're such an awesome guy. ^^
Anyway people, Valentines day is coming up. And so are projects that come with fuckin' February. I HATE them. I need to start as quickly as possible, with tomorrow very seriously in mind, in order to keep my ability to stay not dead.

IN OTHER NEWS
Happy Valentines Day, since the holiday will somehow manage to slip my mind, I'm sure.
I'm almost done with Great Expectations! And I want to crossplay as Mr. Jaggers when I (provided that I CAN) go to Dickens Day in Galveston!
I have failed to make the card I wanted for Mr. Jones. I feel like shit.
Also failing at being a good girlfriend. *sigh*
:bullered: However on the upside, I'm practicing Vegetarianism for the next two weeks!
RAINBOW SOCKS is the movie Nori and I are working on together, and so far, it's awesome!
I'm taking Intro To MediaTech next year so I'm excited.
Shit. Contest February of next week. Well... Prepare to shit bricks.
Sorry, God:

Dear God,

Sorry about sending you all those letters. But I have one last request of you- and I don't pray often, so you can't pull a 'stop complaining-la-la-la' on me.
Yeah.
Welly well well, you're aware that I haveth in me no real luck, and no real confidence, so I'm asking that you bless me with amazing courage to go out and speak to judges in the event that I go to Contest.

Thankeths!
-Lorix

]]> ~XxForgottenFailurexX http://XxForgottenFailurexX.deviantart.com/journal/16508920/ http://XxForgottenFailurexX.deviantart.com/journal/16508920/ Mon, 21 Jan 2008 16:10:39 PST FRESH HOT RESULTS IN NOW!

FIRST PLACE goes to


SECOND PLACE goes to


http://XxForgottenFailurexX.deviantart.com/journal/16397882/ Wed, 16 Jan 2008 17:03:02 PST
Thanks for everything lately. Thanks for my friends, for my mom, for my family who loves me, for being alive.

And thank you for giving me the wonderful gift of having my feelings returned by someone of the (surprisingly) opposite gender.

Love,
Lori.

Let me inform you all that since the fall semester I have admired from afar this guy named Justin. All I can say is that though a series of misunderstandings and alot of embarrasment on my part, that we're finally going to Sadie together. ^^

So I'm very happy. In fact my entire month has been made, even more so that the possibility of going to see my old friends has presented itself with 's birthday!
That and we have a FOUR DAY WEEKEND! HUZZAH!

And that Lori will be participating in her first ever art contest in school.

That's about all... So now the more important HadeSephone stuff!

HADESEPHONE CONTEST
CONTEST CLOSED EVERYBODY
TT^TT You all make me so happy... thanks everyone for entering my contest, I appreciate each and every one of you. (And so do our dearest Hades and Persephone!) Keep in mind that just for entering, you all will get prizes, because I believe it takes courage to enter a contest! You are all very worthy and I wish everyone the best of luck.

Everything went over so well, and I'm indebted to you all for making my first contest so wonderful! Thankeths, everbody! *cries*

That- and because of the contest, DA now has an increase in the amount of Hades and Persephone artwork! And I found other people who support Hades and Persephone to the extent that I do! HUZZAH! How awesome is that, peepils? Since now the contest is closed uppeth,

****PLEASE PLEASE PLEASE, IF I DID NOT POST YOUR ENTRY BECAUSE I MISSED UP, NOTE ME ASAP SO I CAN FEATURE YOU IN MY JOURNAL! IF YOU AREN'T ON THE LIST BELOW, YOUR ENTRY IS NOT IN THE CONTEST!****

CONTESTANTS
The last minute entry (more like belated, but oh well) which I thought was so cute it still needed to be in the contest. GOOD LUCK BANDYTT![link]
So kawaii! Persephone with purple hair. :}[link]
http://XxForgottenFailurexX.deviantart.com/journal/16099243/ Sat, 29 Dec 2007 16:09:37 PST HAPPY CHRISTMAS!

Heyaas everyone!
This one wishes you a beautiful, wonderful christmas day! That you all enjoy the presents you recieve, and the company of the people who are around you. That love and happiness find you this time of year. You all deserve it! We've all been through alot this year. So eat, drink, and be merry!

Thank you all for being my friends. Your support, all of your favourits, your comments, your notes... even the little "Dev Hug Day" spam. I love it all. DevArt is an amazing community, and you're all apart of that. It's like I have a little family over the internet.
Thank you for helping me grow as an artist, and for sharing in my thoughts and my opinions. Thank you for dealing with my 'disappearances' and keeping at connection with me, although I don't deserve it.
I appreciate everything that you do! Thank you so much!

BIG NEWS
Lori is SCRAPPING all of her work in her gallery except for ones that she really truly likes.
Hades and Persephone contest ends in January. ^^
Happy Birthday Sempai!
HUZZAH SWEENEY TODD!!!
~XxForgottenFailurexX http://XxForgottenFailurexX.deviantart.com/journal/15724754/ http://XxForgottenFailurexX.deviantart.com/journal/15724754/ Thu, 29 Nov 2007 17:21:40 PST I'm pissed at myself because normally I'm not closed in on Deviantart.
But so recently I seem to have shut myself off from all of you-
and I'm so sorry.
Please forgive me.
That's all I can say.

Haru, You've been patient with me. I'm so sorry. I leave the computer for hours and by the time I get back I see your messages on my screen, and I see no point in saying hello when it's about to be bedtime.

Everyone else, it seems like touch has been lost.
I'm sorry, and I take full blame.
For skittles, for Kateth and Nicole, for Cheeky and Josh, Yami-chan, Min-chan...

I'm sorry.

I'm also apologizing in advance because something is wrong with my computer and I can't upload pictures whatsoever.

This is a pathetic plea and it's not worth forgiveness, but perhaps you can accept it.

Thank you everyone for being so patient, because I haven't been the best friend that I should be lately. That should never ever happen.

*****
as far as the contest goes, please see here.[link]

]]> ~XxForgottenFailurexX http://XxForgottenFailurexX.deviantart.com/journal/15522664/ http://XxForgottenFailurexX.deviantart.com/journal/15522664/ Thu, 15 Nov 2007 15:54:11 PST But Mr. Jones hands us a paper with questions on it about the DEAD program, and most kids fly through it with a sentence. But being me, I have about a paragraph for each answer because all my feelings are whirling around inside like this washingmachine with unseparated clothes. Everything is different but all the same colour.
I'm the last one to hand in my paper to Mr. Jones.
As I'd been writing, I'd seen him reading our answers silently at his desk with his hand up under the side of his face.
After I turned it in I sit on my stool, thinking and staring blankly. Trying to stabilize my hectic emotions.

"I'm going to share my answers with all of you."
Mr. Jones's words break the tense silence of the classroom. He stays seated at his desk and gets his paper and begins reading them. The first questions he reads nonchalantly about the program, but he gets to the back and he slows down. To a stop. He reads again, the question, and then his answer like broken pieces of glass.
"If you died today, who would be the saddest?" He takes some time to answer this, attempting not to cry.
" I said if... if I died today that my... my son would be the saddest." He stops, his voice straining over tears.

"Because I'm his daddy."

This sends tears down my face.
Why, why? I wish my dad could say something like that to me.
I wish my dad cared that way about me.

Mr. Jones finishes his answers, and then he looks back at us.
"Well, today is basically... shot. I'm not going to give you any work. But... I want you all to know that I care about you. This... this program... it made me realize..."
He takes off his glasses to wipe his eyes.
"... How much I love you guys."

Plenty of the students could care less. Some keep looking down at their desks, others grimace at Mr. Jones.

How, how... I think. How can you love me? How can you, my IPC teacher, love me more than my daddy does? But tears just slide down my face silently as I watch him.

"I want you to know that I care enough about you that if you guys ever find yourself in a situation where you need help, I'll give you my number. I want to come and help you. I would rather come and get you at 3 in the morning than come to your funeral the day after."

He's already showed more care for me in a few sentences than my dad ever did in fifteen years.

"You guys... I don't want to preach to the choir, but I hope you guys never touch alcohol. You've seen the pain it causes people now... And if you DO choose to drink, I hope you make responsible choices with it. You all mean way too much to me. And.. I read you guys' answers to some of these questions here, and some of you I want to give a big hug, because I know you need it. I wanted to be a teacher because I wanted to be there for kids like you. I'm here because I care about you and I want you to grow up and become something great."

He looks at me.

"And I'm so proud of all of you."

'I'm proud of you.' This is all Mr. Jones has to say to send me into tears. I break down, and everyone looks at me. I can hear my own shuddering in the silence, but I don't care... because this man-

one who isn't OBLIGED to care about me, DOES.

I get tissues to clean myself up as other kids ask questions about the test we have tomorrow, about our grades. He calls us up one by one to tell us our final averages. When he calls me up, I go to him. I can hardly garble out "Mr. Jones" when I hug him.

"I'm sorry," I say. I just tell him the truth-
my dad was a alcoholic and I never got to here him say that to me. Not once.

And it's hard not to cry even more when Mr. Jones just tells me:
"No, lauren, you're such a good person," he says. "You're such a good girl. I know you're going to go places; I'm proud of you."
And he tells me everything is going to be okay.

And everything was okay.
Sempai held me, and Nori. Eddy, Micheal, and even Raka. They hugged me where the absence of my dad's embrace was.

God damn, I don't care if I'm preaching to the choir anymore.
Don't drink and drive.
Or just don't drink.
You're not just hurting yourself, you're hurting other people.
And a few hours of buzz aren't worth a lifetime of pain and sadness.
The rest of your life- and someone else's life could rest on a simple question:<... ]]> ~XxForgottenFailurexX http://XxForgottenFailurexX.deviantart.com/journal/15380013/ http://XxForgottenFailurexX.deviantart.com/journal/15380013/ Mon, 05 Nov 2007 16:29:56 PST Today I'm fifteen years old.
Today is the first birthday I've had where my dad is not in the picture.
Today I finally have no reason to be unhappy.

For the past fifteen years, I've struggled through all the hell my dad has brought upon me. I turn fifteen and yet I feel I've been forced to be this age all my life. My childhood was near nonexistant, but I find it all wonderfully necessary. Who would I be now, I wonder, if I had never gone through all that I did?
Would I be someone I hate?

Would I be someone that hurt others the way people so unknowingly do?
I'd say I hope that I wouldn't be, but somehow, I know I would.

If we're never beaten down, we don't learn empathy.
If we're never betrayed and lied to, we don't learn loyalty.

I'm glad now, looking back on everything. That today I exist as I've wanted to exist. I try my best to think how my actions affect others. Too many times it's still not enough, but I do try. Because I remember the times when I wished someone would think about what they were doing to me.

So it's great to be alive another year, when I know that there were times that this day would no longer come on my own accord.

I'd like to thank everyone that helped me stay alive. I lost plenty, but thanks to losing everything I've gained so much more. You all helped with that. So thanks everybody, for being so supportive. For Kateth, Tasuki, Caitling, and Roxan.

You all saved me from myself.

I celebrate another year of existance because of you! I love you.

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TODAY

I'm sorry for the late update on my journal. -_-
We have a new constestant and I wasn't able to post this weekend thanks to a massive history project. (But I presented it today! And everyone thought it was awesome!!! TTvTT)

So now I'll provide a REALLY lame summary.

The project was really rad, considering I got to work...
yes...
Hades and Persephone into it!
The picture I used for the project is the most recent upload of mine "Hades and Persephone Gift." It would've been called "The Present of Persephone" but my computer was being weird and now it won't let me change it. -_-'
I made up the life of this female artist, Melaina Xanthis. She lived during the Age of Pericles in Athens, Greece. In Athens, women weren't given a proper education or allowed to leave the home (unless it was a festival honouring the gods) all because tradition said that women were meant to be wives, mothers, and house caretakers. Nothing more. In spite of this, Melaina (which means 'dark flower' in greek) was taught to read and write in secret, and she wrote her own stories, often using the gods as her characters. Eventually her writings were found by the Athenian council and considered blasphemy. She was put to death by poison for disrespect to the gods.
:{

She would've been my hero, if only she'd existed. Suprisingly, alot of people thought she really did. They thought I was crazy when I told them I made it all up. XD They probably all assume I have Multiple Personality Disorder, which is basically a given when you RP the way I do.

RP IS NOT A WASTE OF TIME! IT IS A WAY OF LIFETH!

Oh, and I got pencils today from Sarah!!! She gave me oneseths with friggin WILL TURNER ON IT!!! W00000!!!

AND I ATE A POMEGRANATE!

I also got a bag of twizzlers today. In which... I shared with everybody. I think I'll become know as the candy pirate really soon if I keep this up.

Again, new contestant.^^ Enjoy!
********************************************************** ~XxForgottenFailurexX http://XxForgottenFailurexX.deviantart.com/journal/15254174/ http://XxForgottenFailurexX.deviantart.com/journal/15254174/ Sun, 28 Oct 2007 07:52:24 PDT Huzzah for the Hay Ride
Today I go to 's Hay Ride. I'm really excited, since I keep hearing that you get a SMITLOAD of candeh from going. XD
I get to do her make up and her hair as well, so I hope she won't have a heart attack when she sees that it is finished.
How's everyone doing this Halloween? Explanation is useless, the halloween spirit overflows in my fat, short body. XD

But anyway, I actually have some new art coming up. And... Yes... it's still Hades and Persephone. You all must be getting sick of them but I fear that I'm addicted now. They're my new inspiration for everything.

This week has been awesome. I got hit in the face with a penguin (in spanish class... we throw around stuffed animals everyday. Isn't it wonderful?) and I got presents from ! She's so sweet. I wish she didn't live so far away... TT^TT

Also, I want to thank everyone for 3000 PAGE VIEWS! Thankeths so much, I appreciate that people even come to see my page. I'm just some dorky little nerdo chick that does nothing but draw all day... with little to no social life. And spastic respect for art that isn't called for...

random person: Ooo are you doodling?
Me: I DO NOT DOODLE. CAN'T YOU SEE THIS IS ART?!!!!

Not much else to say. o_o
Except thankeths for everything...
and I apologize that this journal is so long.

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HADESEPHONE CONTEST
THANKETHS EVERYBODY!
Thank you everyone for entering, although the contestants aren't official yet. You all have me so excited! Thankeths so much for all the support on my first contest, and I appreciate everything. Thank you. Also, it has occurred to me I must not have made everything clear.

If you want to make a comic strip of Hades and Persephone, that's completely rad too. While we're still on the subject of changing the art forms: poems, stories, and photo manipulation are also accepted. If there's something else you're not sure about, please note or ask me! I will readily answer for any confusion I may have caused. ^^

As for all the entries to come, good luck!
The rules/deadline/voting information will be available in every journal of mine until the contest is over. All the contestants will get featured too!
Thankeths again everyone. You fill this dorkapede wi... ]]> ~XxForgottenFailurexX http://XxForgottenFailurexX.deviantart.com/journal/15019854/ http://XxForgottenFailurexX.deviantart.com/journal/15019854/ Thu, 11 Oct 2007 18:41:17 PDT HADESEPHONE CONTEST
THANKETHS EVERYBODY!
Thank you everyone for entering, although the contestants aren't official yet. You all have me so excited! Thankeths so much for all the support on my first contest, and I appreciate everything. Thank you. Also, it has occurred to me I must not have made everything clear.

If you want to make a comic strip of Hades and Persephone, that's completely rad too. While we're still on the subject of changing the art forms: poems, stories, and photo manipulation are also accepted. If there's something else you're not sure about, please note or ask me! I will readily answer for any confusion I may have caused. ^^

As for all the entries to come, good luck!
The rules/deadline/voting information will be available in every journal of mine until the contest is over. All the contestants will get featured too!
Thankeths again everyone. You fill this dorkapede with immense joy.
TTvTT

CONTESTANTS
So kawaii! Persephone with purple hair. :}[link]

RULES

1. The picture must contain Hades and Persephone (self explanatory)
2. They do not have to look any certain way. It's your own interpretation of the characters.
3. I would prefer if the tone were HAPPY, however, I don't care if it's sad.
4. The time period can also be in the present if you like.
5. The style of the picture can be any kind. ^^
6. If it's matured, I may not be able to see it, so you can email to me as well.
7. You can have up to two submissions in the contest.

http://XxForgottenFailurexX.deviantart.com/journal/14976708/ Mon, 08 Oct 2007 19:37:20 PDT Homecoming
Heyyoh Eve-reh-bodeh! ^^
Well, just a quick answer to any that may come up (which I doubt will. Don't worry about it) I never got an answer from Mauwi.
Oh well. I had a much better time with and :sapphire-tora: anyway! Homecoming was okay. I just found out that an ambulance showed up because something happened to someone at the bash. o_o
My aunt Erica and Uncle Ronald (who came to pick me up) thought that it was me and had to keep from yelling at people and pushing them over:
"WHERE THE HELL IS MY NIECE?!"
XD I love them.

However, Homecoming CARNIVAL was the pownage! We had car bashing. One one side of the car, someone who loved Pirates wrote some grafitti in spraypaint. And you know, you'd think that if you wanted to shorten the word "rocks" you'd write "rox" right? Well... this person...
"POTC ROKS"
was either German.
Dyslexic.
Or retarded.

We also had a caramel apple booth.^^ Nori (who was apart of choir) told me that if they ran out of apples, that they'd just change the sign from
CARAMEL APPLES ON A STICK
cross out the "apples" so it would say
CARAMEL ON A STICK!
Me: oh my.
Nori: LORI! YOU YAOI PERVERT!

XD Sorry everybody.
But my Homecoming can't compare to 's! Please go and check her journal out!
Pastor: Who here knows Marilyn Manson?
Kateth/Whitney: *raise hands*
Pastor: SHAME ON YOU!


SUPER MEGA AWESOMEY CONTEST OF DEWM
Welly well well... I'd also like to announce... I'M HOLDING A CONTEST!
It's the first contest I've ever done, so I'm really excited, and I should hope you all are too. The Contest theme is Hades and Persephone from Greek mythology.

RULES

1. The picture must contain Hades and Persephone (self explanatory)
2. They do not have to look any certain way. It's your own interpretation of the characters.
3. I would prefer if the tone were HAPPY, however, I don't care if it's sad.
4. The time period can also be in the present if you like.
5. The style of the picture can be any kind. ^^
6. If it's matured, I may not be able to see it, so you can email to me as well.
7. You can have up to two submissions in the conte... ]]> ~XxForgottenFailurexX http://XxForgottenFailurexX.deviantart.com/journal/14833918/ http://XxForgottenFailurexX.deviantart.com/journal/14833918/ Fri, 28 Sep 2007 22:07:38 PDT Or that you can't go as just friends.
But as the writer Jerry Spinelli once wrote,
"Don't let the facts get mixed up with the truth."

Fact: I asked a boy to Homecoming.
Truth: Just because I asked him to homecoming doesn't mean I like him. It was really that I was fed up with how this girl kept telling him to give up on finding a date a week before the dance. Since he sits at my table at lunch, he was talking to us about how he'd failed to find a date, despite asking several girls (who all turned him down) to go to the dance.
Why are people stupid and assume that you HAVE to be going out with someone? I don't know. But I remember hating that no one had the heart to ask me to a dance. If I could help it, I'd want to stop someone from feeling that way. I hoped that I did.

Fact: Girls will turn down dudes with "I have someone I'm going with already" or "I'm not going."
Truth: They're shallow chicks that want to blow you off as sweetly and QUICKLY as possible. I haven't done this to a guy (thank god. But it's mostly because no guy has ever asked me to a dance.) but I know that has to suck, and I've heard girls admitting they'd only said those words because he wasn't cute enough. It makes me sick. See, if you REALLY aren't going to homecoming, or your REALLY have a someone you're going with- that's fine. But lying because you want to be nice is just rank.
There's nothing wrong with "No, thank you."

Fact: I told my whole family I didn't want to go to homecoming before school started.
Truth: I really didn't. I despise doing what everyone else is doing. But if it means that I can save someone a miserable night in loneliness-
Count me in, dammit.

Anyway, somehow I feel really.
REALLY.
stupid. I asked Maowi to the dance and he said he'd think about it. But wasn't it at lunch that he was desperate to find a date? Ugh. My sympathetic heart gets the best of me again. I'd gotten up enough courage to ask him and he says "I'll think about it?"
*thinks.* Well, he did go to the restroom after that, where I assume he did one of two things:

He tried to drown himself in toilet water because DEAR GOD, it just HAD to be LORI that asked him to Homecoming. Lori, the chick who wears a belt around her neck, the girl with boy short hair, the girl who carries an orange anime cat (Kyo) with her to school with no shame. If only she weren't a freak, he wouldn't be suicidal.

OR

He jumped for joy and kissed the ground and THANKED god that by some crazy chance of fate, he'd managed to finally get a date.

I'm betting on him trying to drown himself, but I'm trying to convince myself it was the jumping, ground kissing choice. XD
Well, whatever the case, he has first period with me, so come monday morning-
KABLAM.
"HEY MOAWI, YOU GOT AN ANSWER?"
There won't be any avoiding me. -_- Oh well. If he says yes, I'll be insanely happy to go with him. If he says no- I'm still insanely happy because I get to go with Caroline. HUZZAH! *dances*
But I do hope he says yes!

~

In other news, I apologize for hardly being on this week. I had a story to write for English, and now I have a doll to finish. (which I might be able to scan! YZAY!)

Anyway, how is everybody?

]]> ~XxForgottenFailurexX http://XxForgottenFailurexX.deviantart.com/journal/14767794/ http://XxForgottenFailurexX.deviantart.com/journal/14767794/ Mon, 24 Sep 2007 19:35:47 PDT
Why do you make me have to see my dad every weekend?
-_-
Love,
Lorix.

Seriously. It's really getting in the way. I was planning on starting a project this weekend and working on the gloss-poster advertisements for Key Clubs Rootbeer Floats. TT^TT And frankly, both of which are more important to me than seeing my dad. We don't even do anything when we go there- we all just stay in our room.
We drove.
100 miles.
To sit it our rooms.
No. Just... No.

Anyway, Now On To BIGGER AND BETTER THINGS

After I turn in my History "hanging doll" project I will most certainly be on more often! I Ahm Happeh! Then everything will fall back into place and I can start uploading again. TTvTT Huzzah!
Lately I've just been trying to keep up grades, and I'm happy to say that I have all A's! My lowest is a 93 because I've been working like hell. So I'm glad that at least being off DA for a while has some benefits.^^

Last weekend, my Uncle uploaded The Wire of Lime on my computer. It's way rad covenient and I get to listen to all of my favourite songs and discover new music. The Wire of Lime even had songs from The Nightmare Before Christmas (like "kidnap santy clause!") and it's completely awesometh to get to hear them!
... The Wire of Lime is the same as Limewire. Excuse meh weirdness. I tend to change things because I like them better.
Depeche Mode in Lorixspeak is Depeshmo.XD
Red Jumpsuit Apparatus- The Apparatus of the Red Jumpsuit
Pink Spiders- The Spiders That Are Pink
My Chemical Romace- Mah Chem
The Goo Goo Dolls- Well, they relatively stay the same... I just usually say "JOHNNYCAKE MADE THIS SONG..."
and you should know.
that is a song by the Goo Goo Dolls.

I just love my Johnnycake. X3

Well, I haveth been TaggiFyed by Tasuki!
TAGGIFYEDNESSNESSNESS

MY TAG ISN'T FINISHED. WAIT TILL I GET BACK FROM SCHOOL.
XDD lol half of these answers are Tasuki's!!!

THREE NAMES YOU GO BY:
1. Lori (which is synonymous with "pet" and "hobo."
2. Lorix (Or GalbaLorix)
3. Lori-chan, Blane, Mistress (lol, thank you Bandytt), Demy, or Lady Demy. Sometimes NUMBER NINE.

THREE SCREEN NAMES YOU'VE HAD:
1. xxForgottenFailurexx
2. APoetsProblem (wooo!)
3. xxAppleCinnamonSuicidexx (for MSN yay!)

THREE THINGS YOU'VE DONE IN THE LAST 33 MINUTES:
1. Put on pirate socks
2. Woke up my nana (uh oh.)
3. drink chocolate milk (I LAHK CHOKLAHT MILK)

THREE THINGS YOU LIKE ABOUT YOURSELF:
1. My ability to burst into spontaneous song (thats what woke nana up this morning)
2. Mad Swedish Air Guitar skills (Eragon: I'VE GOT SKILLZ.)
3. My talent for painting naked chickens.

THREE THINGS YOU DISLIKE ABOUT YOURSELF:
1. I'm fat.
2. I'm short.
3. I'm not pale. x{

THREE PARTS OF YOUR ORIGINS:
1. vampire ^^
2. Mexican
3. Get this: Spa... ]]> ~XxForgottenFailurexX http://XxForgottenFailurexX.deviantart.com/journal/14535457/ http://XxForgottenFailurexX.deviantart.com/journal/14535457/ Fri, 07 Sep 2007 19:01:56 PDT :::JOHNNYCAKE THE MAN CHICKEN:::
-read whole journal at your own risk-

Oh my Johnny. You're so lovely. Even in a hiddeous chicken suit.
I WENT TO THE GOO GOO DOLLS CONCERT! It was so wonderful... I enjoyed it muchly. *TTvTT* Of course, I'd expect nothing less since I paid a hard earned $100 on it. Well... getting there was no easy task.
First, I didn't realize our school didn't celebrate the most important holiday next to Halloween and Christmas.
LABOR DAY.
I slowly dislike the school policies more and more, even if they do let us walk around with ripped jeans, crazy coloured hair and make up, and piercings... Anyway, back to the concert. Well we (my mami and I) left for my friend Caitling's house on Sunday. On the way there... I discovered the most horrifying thing in my entire life.
I'd forgotten the tickets. They were at the house, on the dresser. Lying in loneliness without being in my overly grateful ass pocket where it belonged.
Well.
I cried.
Yeah yeah. I know. Mom was really nice and went to go back and get it and Me, Caitling, her mom, and her mom's friend Sheri were able to get to The Pavillion in one piece. But... at the gate there was inspection. The lady told me the spin around.
Me: WEEEE.
Lift up my hat.
Me: W000.
Lift up my pant legs
Me: ._.
Well I lift them up. And there are my awesome rainbow socks.
Lady: o_O;;;

Well now I've proven my "FLAMING UKE" reading to be true. Seems that my gayness can be seen from space. XD (Although I'm not gay. XDD... completely.)

BUT AH! THE CONCERT! We had amazing seats, except for the badass old couple that sat in front of us, who were head banging during the event. XD

FIRST UP IS: some chick named Colby something or other. She had a great voice, but an EVEN BETTER Keyboarder. He was so adorable! He had a cat tail attached to his pants and he banged his head while he played and his cat tail swished around...^^

Then was the glorious lifehouse... they played so awesomely. They sang all their popular songs, "You and me"; "Hanging by a Moment"; and "The First Time." But during "Hanging by a moment" Lifehouse's performance was attacked by a horde of chickens and gorillas! It was the Goo Goo Dolls, and everyone laughed their asses off because this huge chicken (Probably Johnny, no doubt) comes and scoops up Lifehouse's Singer and swings him around...

Finally was the Goo Goo dolls, and I cried.
Again.
Because I couldn't believe I was actually standing there- in front of the band that had helped me through hard times and made me want to become a rock star- whose lyrics not only graced my ears but touched my heart. I love them. They were amazing. They let the audience help them sing Iris, and sent black balloons flying at us during the Baby's Black Balloons performance. Johnny popped a few pit members in the head with them... Nice job there. I was really touched by "Name"... I guess it was just the way they played it. They just kept the audience going... The Goo Goo Dolls went off stage for a whole three minutes and all these people left... then Johnny and Robby hopped back on stage.
Johnny/Robby: ta DA!!!!
(seriously, they said that... XD)

I never thought I'd get Goo Goo Dolls tickets, and I'm so happy that I did. Sounds corny, but you make your own dreams come true. I worked like hell to be able to get there, and it really payed off tenfold.

P.S.: Johnny and Robby (and Michael, the drummer) are the members of the Goo Goo Dolls in case you're reading this at 4 in the morning and you brain isn't working.

::: ANNOUNCEMENTS::: ~XxForgottenFailurexX http://XxForgottenFailurexX.deviantart.com/journal/14375426/ http://XxForgottenFailurexX.deviantart.com/journal/14375426/ Tue, 28 Aug 2007 04:59:09 PDT The.
Smit.
I thought that teachers were supposed to be helpful, knowledgable entities- especially those located at the front desk. But NUUUUUuuu. I ask several ladies, two of which were at the front desk, and three in the hall way, how to find my locker.
I743.
It's not that hard. Just tell me where it is.
"okay... um... go up that hallway, past that morbidly obese kid, take a right on Ms. Pie's room..."
Ugh.
Well, I managed to find it by myself, thank frickin God. Sorry for the rant there, but I'm finding that the teachers and staff around here are increasingly stupid.
Anyway, it was good day. It wasn't as lonely as I expected! Three chicks named Sarah, Megan, and Lindsey kepts me company at lunch, and they were all really sweet to me. Their dewdfriend, Hayden, was pretty rad too. Although most of what he did was stuffed mashed patatoes in his face, but that's alright. -_-

Algebra.
Numbers and variables
in which I am allergic
My hatred is the only thing that multiplies
against the ugly subject
although in my desk I wish to die
I haz a teacher whose name is Pie
and she is blonde and she is smiley
she hates this funkilicious kid named Riley

*sigh* Ms. Pie seems pretty cool and nice, although she creepily reminds me of Mrs. Nation who'd rant about what flowers she'd steal from the Subdivision Garden Posts and smile while she screamed at us to shut up.
Hope Ms. Pie isn't like that.XD

As for the other periods, there's nothing super special. I hardly know my teachers yet. So I'll pick a favorite one later. I have a teacher for IPC named Mr. Jones, like that song by Amy Winehouse. (I hardly listen to her though. But I like that one because it sounds like DooWop.)

Ooo. In my last period I met Mary Kate or , because she had some Japanese Kanji on her backpack! She takes Japanese classes, and her friend is here on DA too! I'm guessing is Heather, Ja? Thank gewdness I'm not alone. MK and I agree there's total lackage of anime nerds and so on.
Preppy overload!
Preppy overload!
ABORT! ABORT!

Oh the well.

Anyway, all these PreAP classes seem really hard, but I willeth most certainly try my best. Openly admitting that I sleezed muchly in Intermediate School, I won't be doing the same here. There's not one year to be had of complete academic misfortune, so... *sigh*
God be with me.
There, I said it. *hits self repeatedly*

I still miss my friends at home... I feel so empty sometimes. But you all really helped me, especially the silly pictures Kateth, Tasuki, and I tooketh at Main Event. It's in my locker, waiting for me so whenever I'm at school, I still see you all...
Please forgive me for leaving you. And I hate to say it, and it sounds so selfish, but it's better to live here without my dad. But please don't feel bad, because when I was living with him, you all still brought me so much happiness. Still wish I could have gone to school with you.

But, As for now... I go with my Uncle Ronald's anger management technique whenever I run into Know-Nothing teachers....

Stick yer finger in yer ear.
And Tinga Linga Lu.
That's all you gots to do. v_v

]]> ~XxForgottenFailurexX http://XxForgottenFailurexX.deviantart.com/journal/14122520/ http://XxForgottenFailurexX.deviantart.com/journal/14122520/ Sat, 11 Aug 2007 17:10:32 PDT OH HOW THE TOAD HAS FALLEN

**
Stupid pimpnugget ran off.
WHY DOES EVERYTHING I WHIP LEAVE ME?
^^ just kidding.
**

Sorry about not contacting you guys muchly this week, I was in Marlin. ^^ And good news for Tasuki, Kateth, and my Caitling- I'm coming home sunday! So let us rejoice and conjure new plans of destruction and the reaping of marshmellows!

::BIG NEWS::
I've been mentioning lately I don't know where I'll end up by the time school starts. But...School is starting REALLY soon, and... we don't have a house in Houston. So I will be attending the highschool here at my grandma's until mom has money to move back to houston.
We just don't want to be taking any chances with my dad, so... we're staying here. I'm really sorry. But maybe during the school year, we will see each other again, because I'll be back- so there's always hope.

You all mean a lot to me. Kateth, Tasuki, Roxy, Caitling... I'm going to miss you guys so much. Thanks for everything. I really don't have that many friends... to make new ones sounds unthinkable because I'm no good at socializing or trusting people. But I'll think of you guys and maybe that will help me some. Thank you so much for being my friends, I could never repay you.

:: OTHERWISE NOT BIG NEWS ::
Reffy sheets of Kate and Leo will be up soon for and ! Thank you guys so much for drawing me things, I really appreciate everything you both do! I'm very sorry that I won both of the thingies, I feel bad... *hits self* I should make apologetic pictures for everyone.
"IM SORRY. HERE'S A PICTURE!"
*is shot at*

Marlin was actually pretty fun this week! Really only because of my Aunt Erica and Uncle Ronald. They totally frickin POWN, man. They're just straight RAD.

**Aunt Erica and I made a character named Jaeger (Yay-gur) which is "Hunter" in German. I can say that he's got the highest testosterone level out of all the dewd's I've ever created. What can I say? I like them feminine?
-_-

**My Uncle was sitting on the couch while we were at his house and all the sudden he says
"OH HOW THE TOAD HAS FALLEN." He screws around with sayings. XD Like "Ah- now the shoe's on the other hand!"
Things like that.

**I discovereth there art a volcano under Marlin!!!
Bianca: "That could asplode at any moment... Killing us all.^^"
We got mineral water from it.^^ I hear it cures everything... and ever since we had it, my sister's arm rough arm bumps are now SOFT arm bumps. lol. It's a disease. Called Haratosis Polaris or something like that. I can't spell this worth a shit.

**We watched:
Disturbia- cool.
Jason X- Superiorly LAME
The Number 23- No plotline.
House of the dead- JASON X'S LAMENESS to the 42nd POWER!
Please no one watch these movies... If you want, disturbia isn't that bad. It was pretty funny though.

Well this journal entry was also Jason X lame.
so....
HADI WADI OO SHI DOO
your left boob will grow massively bigger than the right.
YOU HAVE BEEN CURSED!

]]> ~XxForgottenFailurexX http://XxForgottenFailurexX.deviantart.com/journal/13942987/ http://XxForgottenFailurexX.deviantart.com/journal/13942987/ Mon, 30 Jul 2007 14:42:30 PDT Well, I'm sick.
HOORAY. *cough cough* I hate being sick. I absolutely despise it. Unless, of course, it's during the school year, in which I love it. ^^
I went to see the simpson's movie.
" I LIKE MEN NOW!"
J00b will know once you see it. It's hilarious. Honestly, there would be more written here, but I'm sick and my brain isn't too terribly creative. It's too busy feeling like it'll ASPLODE. So here's a tag I got from one of my best friends, .

RULES:
1. Put your music player on shuffle.
2. Press forward for each question.
3. Use the song title as the answer to the question even if it doesn’t make sense. NO CHEATING!
4. Tag 5 people.
5. Bold the questions and with the answers, give your own comments on how it relates to the questions.

How are you feeling today?
Down with the Sickness. I forgot who that was by.
(... hahaha.... HAHAHAHA!!! creepy. o_o)

Will you get far in life?
What Else Is There?-Royksopp
(Does that mean I will? ._.)

How do your friends see you?
Black Balloons- Goo Goo Dolls.
(uhhh... o_o I'm dark and full of air?)

Will you get married?
Road to Joy- Bright Eyes.
(... NO. Just. Straight. NO. I THINK MARRIAGE IS BAD! There's no way I could be happy- plus, whoever marries me would probably be mentally disturbed.XD)

What is your best friend's theme song?
Sorry-Pushmonkey.
( ... wow. They must be sorry for being my best friends.XD)

What is the story of your life?
Sell All My Things- Rosie Thomas.
(*cries in shame*)

What is high school like?
Bizzare Love Triangle- New Order.
(YES. YES.)

How can you get ahead in life?
Take It Off- The Donnas.
(NO! NO!)

What is the best thing about your friends?
Mistake Number One- Bookstore Robbery.
(... Aw, that's horrible. IT'S NOT TRUE! I SWEAR! I love you guys. You guys are the most awesome mistake I ever made, if that must be the word for it.)

What is in store for this weekend?
Let's Stay Together- Al Green.
(._.... OHHHH. Maybe it means my friends? Yes, I want to stay together!!! *Cries* Well, we did have a sleepover.)

To describe your grandparents?
Janie's Got A Gun- Aerosmith.
(UH. My papa has a BB gun?)

How is your life going?
25 Seconds to Live- Mates of State
(... I need to stop with all this Emotive.)

What song will they play at your funeral?
Lullaby- The Cure.
(YAYYYYY!)

Will you have a happy life?
Rainy Days- Mary J. Blige/Ja Rule
(?)

What do your friends really think of you?
Claire de Lune- Debussi
(I still don't know.)

Do people secretly lust after you?
Helping Hands- The Forecast
(EWWWWWW!!!!)

How can I make myself happy?
Demolition Lovers- My Chemical Romance (when they were still good)
(Hmmm.... That doesn't sound too nice.)

What should you do with your life?
(is this the title?) All Night Long- ACDC
(.... WHY DO YOU KEEP IMPLYING THAT I'M A WHORE, YOU STUPID IPOD?!!!)

Will you ever have children?
I Love You- The Format
(That makes... no sense.)

***
I tag no one. UNLESS You want to steal this, in which case I will being keeping watch on your journals.

]]> ~XxForgottenFailurexX http://XxForgottenFailurexX.deviantart.com/journal/13859615/ http://XxForgottenFailurexX.deviantart.com/journal/13859615/ Tue, 24 Jul 2007 12:12:13 PDT |::jungLe- Lee for JESUS!:
***********************
hELLo Everybodeh! Currently, I'm getting my FIRST paycheck!
(Holeh shizit, lori's getting PAID? Run, before balls of fire fall from the sky!) Yes, I have to draw all these cute jungle animals and a huge jungle mural for CHURCH. My nana is giving me $100 for my work!
But don't forget I'm Lorix. I have huge guilt-complex.

Me: But nana... I don't-
Nana: DO IT.
Me: ._. ... but-
Nana: *GLARE*
Me: ok. o_0

I can't believe she's giving me a benjamin. So I'm making sure that everything looks beautiful because I still feel bad. The last time my nana tried to give me $5 I organized and cleaned out her entire pantry and did the laundry because I felt bad.
" No, no, NOOOO! I AM NOT WORTHY, ABRAHAM LINCOLN!" Is what I end up saying to that 5 dollar bill. XD I think I have issues. o_O

(people reading this: *whispers* she's finally catching on...)

Oh well. Anyway, drawing all these things are really giving me practice drawing animals.^^ They're not intricate though, just cartoons... XD So I guess it's not practicing. Although I am having fun drawing these Jaguars yawning. Maybe I will post?

In the mean time, I've been TaggiFyed AGAIN!!! AGHHHHH!!!
lol. I know, I don't HAVE to respond to these tags, but it gives me something to do. And for those of you that are extremely bored- something to read. XD

TAGGIFYED!

1. Grab the book nearest to you, turn to page 18, and find line 4.
UM... IT DOESN'T HAVE A PAGE 18. But it has a picture of a lion on it. ^^

2. Stretch your left arm out as far as you can.
Crud. I just smacked Bianca in the face. ._.

3. What is the last thing you watched on TV?
Man vs. Wild. The dewd peed on his own shirt to keep his head cool. XDDDD Grodeh, man. Just grody.

4. Without looking, guess what time it is.
I suppose it is 4:15 PM?

5. Now look at the clock. What is the actual time?
Heh, it's... 2:02 PM.

6. With the exception of the computer, what can you hear?
"Sundress" by Ben Kweller.

7. When did you last step outside? What were you doing?
Ah, about 9:30 this morning, and we went for a really long run. ^^

8. Before you started this survey, what did you look at?
my sketchpad which has a yawning jaguar on it. It's cute.

9. What are you wearing?
A yellow shirt with a stick girl on it, crushing stick guy with a wooden mallet. It reads: CAN YOU HEAR ME NOW? lol. I hate boys. XDDD

10. Did you dream last night?
I didn't.

11. When did you last laugh?
Will a squiggle suffice? (squee/giggle) I was looking at that picture made of puppy saix.

12. What are on the walls you are in?
Green, man. Just straight green.

13. Seen anything weird lately?
"Green, man. Just straight green."

14. What do you think of this quiz?
Keeps me from bashing the TV up, because I can hear the Hannah Montana theme song on it... *barfs*

15. What is the last film you saw?
TRANFORMERS- CHICKENS IN DISGUISE. No. Robots. Sorry.

16. If you became a multi-millionaire overnight, what would you think?
HELL YEAH, BABEEE!

17. Tell me something about you that I don't know.
WHO ARE YOU?!

18. If you could change one thing about the world, what would it be?
Prejudice. Against anything. Sexual preference, religion, race... I hate it.

19. Do you like to dance?
LOVE to dance. Especially to "Just Like Heaven" by the Cure.

20. Imagine your first child is a girl, what do you call her?
BLANE! or Ryan... Or... Aiden...

21. Imagine your first child is a boy, what do you call him?
Devlin.^^ or Blair.

22. Would you ever consider living abroad?
Yes, yes, I have. Spain, France, but mostly London. God, I love London...

23. What do you want God to say to you when you reach the pearly gates?
.... Shit, you've taken the wrong bus. I'm pretty sure you were going straight to hell, Miss Lori.

]]> ~XxForgottenFailurexX http://XxForgottenFailurexX.deviantart.com/journal/13786376/ http://XxForgottenFailurexX.deviantart.com/journal/13786376/ Wed, 18 Jul 2007 19:30:03 PDT RAD HAPPENINGS THUS FAR ++++++++++++
I'm sorry to disappoint you all, but there is nothing to do with lemons in this section. Would you like to buy some lemons? So would I. Thank you. Come again. ANYVAY....I know I haven't been uploading lately, so I'm sorry. *cries* Forgive me, Forgive me. Life is a bit hard right now, but I'm trying to tough it out. Yes, I'm trying desperately to impress you with my muscles- of which, I have none.

Drawing original characters more often, lately. I liketh it, although I do plan more fan art. Unfortunately.
Turtles and two baby frogs. I caught them today. Turtle's name is Twitch, frog 1 is pimpnugget and frog 2 is pimpjuice.
My bird, Zik, died. He broke his own neck trying to fly. It's not rad, but he deserves some kind of recognition. Zik- I miss you.
Got to see Caitling on Monday, I was so glad. Love you, babe! We went to go see Transformers- AGAIN. Still p0wninates.
FAUXHAWK is officially on my head! Hizzyah! All's left is to dye it and my transformation will be complete. TRANSFORMERS- LORIX IN DISGUISE! Or Fauxhawks. Fauxhawks in disguise... The only bad thing about Fauxhawks: when I wake up in the morning, I look like some rank dewd with a bush for hair.

And Somehow I manage to be TaggiFyed again?
Unfortunately that would seem so, TaggiFyed by

FAVOURITES:
Favorite Colour: black and red. I liketh grey, too, Ja?
Favorite Food: Don't ask me to do this. It's like you're asking me which limb you'd like to hack off first! I don't KNOW!
Favorite Movie: You know what, just take my left leg. I don't need it.
Favorite Sport: It would be pointless to answer, I hate sports.XP
Favorite Day of the Week: Thursday, because it doesn't even start. Or perhaps it's Friday, because I... I'm in love. SATURDAY... *sings*
Favorite season: Winter and Fall. But mostly winter.
Favorite Ice Cream: Ooo, I haven't had any icecream in ever, man. Cinnamon is pretty rad. Cheesecake. Cherry Cheesecake. Neopolitan.

CURRENTS:
Current Mood: woo, tired! Just got done organizing/cleaning pantry.
Current Clothes: white shirt with paint stains and some really really ripped up jeans in which I drew cool rock designs all over! Yzayeth!
Current Desktop: Crimson Twilight. (check gallery.)
Current Time: 9:12 PM
Current Surroundings: Where do you think I am if I'm on a computer?
Current Annoyances: Nothing. ^^
Current Thoughts: *sighs* How come Caitling didn't get on today?

FIRSTS:
First Best Friend: First ever? The only first best friend was Caitlin. I love her. But I have others.
First Crush: Orlando Bloom, or Orli-bean. <3
First Movie: uhhhhhh...BARNEY? Barney goes to the Beach!
First Lie: PSSSH that's a pointless question. I'm so good at it, I sometimes don't even know when I'm lying. And If I WERE lying, how would you be able to tell? The only proof you have is my statement of my saying I'm good at lying. And even then-
Was I lying when I said that?
First Music: Oh god... You know what I think I screwed up. My first crush was Elvis Presley, and he was my first music, too. XD Even though by the time I was born, he must have been dead for more than 30 years... XD

LASTS:
Last Drink: WATAH.
Last Crush: I'm not telling YOU!
Last Phone Call: Caitlin.
Last CD played: Hush Sound!!!

HAVE YOU EVER:
Have you ever dated one of your best friends: YEAH. My first love was one of my best friends, actually.
Have you ever broken the law: No. Don't have the guts. I'm gutless.
Have you ever been arrested: Refer to the line above.
Have you ever been on TV: You know the hippie that taught the lion to eat tofu? The chef that served a lemon with a roach hidden inside? The inventor of invisible pants? That was me. ALL me, man, ALL me.
Have you ever... ]]> ~XxForgottenFailurexX http://XxForgottenFailurexX.deviantart.com/journal/13655770/ http://XxForgottenFailurexX.deviantart.com/journal/13655770/ Sun, 08 Jul 2007 07:35:20 PDT HOLEH FRICKIN SHIZIT ON FRICKIN TOAST-
TRANSFORMERS WAS SO AWESOME!!!!!!!!1111!!!!
The movie was way better than I expected. I don't want to ruin it for anyone who hasn't seen it, but that movie just took 2nd place in my movie book. Only to Lord of the Rings.
... Sorry Orli-bean. (lol, my nickname for Orlando Bloom... XD) Your Pirates movies just got put in 3rd place.
The only strange thing in the movie was this little ebil robot on Air Force Once (you'll know) and he looked like he was having an orgasm while hacking into the computer system.
Me: ._. ... should... I be watching this?

Before seeing the movie we (My Uncle Johnny, Aunt Claudia, Bianca, and I) were at Panda Express where I got some Orange Chicken. One was shaped kind of funny so...
" Orange Chicken- ROBOTS IN DISGUISE!" Like hot pockets.^^ We were also testing Bianca's psychic abilities, which she did really good at. She guessed first that Uncle Johnny was thinking of a square (correct) and that the number he was thinking of was 5 (correct) and that he was thinking of the name Oscar (also correct.)
Me: BIANCA, YOU FRICKIN HOODOO!
Bianca: I'm not a hoodoo!

After watching transformers I can't tell you how frickin scared I was. XD Because while we were driving we saw this police car chasing down this Semi truck, (RUN, OPTIMUS PRIME! RUN!) which was a crazy coincidence. That, and we have 10 cars outside in our driveway....
o_o
Which led to my dorky self running as soon as I got out of the car.
" LORI that was FAST!"
" I have to practice for when I'm running with the cube!!!"
" *shakes head* God, she's a nerd..."
... You'll know when you see it...

In Other News, I probably won't be on very much this week. ^^ I apologize in advance to Bandytt and since I won't be able to talk to you guys as much as I normally do.
But if It helps I'm making a Death Note Comic strip!^^
As well as another comic with Adrain and Jasp!^^
*********************************************************
TAGGIFYED!

So I have been TaggiFyed again. By !
This one was fun so I couldn't resist!

Rules
1. Choose a few of your own characters. Five at the most.
2. Make them answer the following questions.
3. Then tag three people.

Characters Chosen:
a. Will
b. Kate
c. Pickle


1) How old are you?
a. Will: I'm not old, baby.
b. Kate: 16. BUT I'LL BE 17 THIS YEAR. W000!
c. Pickle: Two months past experation date. ._.


2) Height?
a. Will: 6 feet. SHUT UP, AYM. I'm NOT short, you're just freakishly tall! Stupid frickin vampire with steroid hormones...
b. Kate: My dad says I'm a stub. Too much coffee.
c. Pickle: .... I'm taller than Kate, is that an accomplishment?

3) You got any bad habits?
a. Will: Hell no.
b. Kate: biting people's collars and hugging them from behind.
c. Pickle: Hitting people who try to touch my spikey fro' with a spatula. BUWAHAHAHA- SPATULATE'D!

4) You a virgin?
a. Will: .... heh... heh heh... HAHAHAHA!!! *falls out of chair*
b. Kate: I can't answer that my uh... my dad is in the "A" line above me.... *blushes*
c. Pickle: What's that?

5) Who's your mate/spouse?
a. Will: Narru. She's MY wife, don't fuckin' touch!
b. Kate: ._. eh.... Leo?
c. Pickle: I'm not telling you. *HOLDS UP SPATULA*

6) Have any kids?
a: Will: Hell YES. My daughter Kate and Junior in the basement. Yeah, his name is will too. Shut up, my wife did it.
b: Kate: NO.
c: Pickle: A kid? I have a pet goat.

7) Favorite food?
a: Will: ... *thinking really hard* cake. Yes, yes. Cake. Shut up, I'm not a girly man. I just REALLY like cake.
b. Kate: ... cherries!^^
c. Pickle: Chicken nuggets with chocolate milk and icecream with spagetti noodles. It's yummeh. (kate and will: *run to the bathroom*)

8) Favorite ice cream flavour?
a. Will: The cake flavoured kind, dammit!
b. Kate: chocolate cherry? Banana split? Birthday Cake?
c. Pickle: The kind with chicken nuggets and spaghetti.

9) Killed anyone?
a. Will: Let me lie to your face and say HELL NO.
b. Kate: ._. No. I hope not. CRUD. *runs to the telephone*
c. Pickle: I froze my pet hamster in a butter bowl once.
~XxForgottenFailurexX http://XxForgottenFailurexX.deviantart.com/journal/13505481/ http://XxForgottenFailurexX.deviantart.com/journal/13505481/ Tue, 26 Jun 2007 23:21:18 PDT ( Do you know how rare that is? I'm NEVER productive. EVER. Perhaps this is just a product of the severe boredom I endure over here. I love KH2 and all, but after playing it for 3 hours, it too, just like the TV, gets stale.)
Anyway, I just wanted everyone to be prepared for some major uploading on my part tomorrow. My mom just got the scanner back from my dad's house, so there should be no problem uploading alot of the YAOI work... which... is alot... O_o
Of course not ALL of it is yaoi! ^^ There will be character profiles for Sven Reinhard and info on DigiLenses. Fairies. Nubbeh the Pirate.
I'm also very proud to announce that there will be some original art I post up here. My characters kate and leo will be apart of my UltraUpload, they're apart of my RP with Caitlin.
She pwns, please read her stuff. It's really good!<3

I'll also be working tomorrow on lots of other things... Like Bandytt's colouring contest! I'm so excited! Please see her page for details!


On Thursday I'll be in that small nobody town again.^^ We may be staying for a month this time, but that all depends on my mom's massive indecisiveness and her job. So I might be back soon. Then again, maybe not.

In the meantime, Everyone go to the nearest music site you know... and listen to aerosmith. Damn. They're so frickin AWESOME!!!
Love,
Lorix who is trying not to bang her head too hard. Because Digi-Lenses, unfortunately, only exist in her mind. Then again, so does she...

]]> ~XxForgottenFailurexX http://XxForgottenFailurexX.deviantart.com/journal/13499066/ http://XxForgottenFailurexX.deviantart.com/journal/13499066/ Tue, 26 Jun 2007 13:35:11 PDT

RULES

The 1st player of this "game" starts with the topic "6 weird habits/things/hates about yourself" and people who get tagged MUST write a journal about their 6 weird habits/things/hates as well as state this rule clearly. In the end, you need to choose the next 6 people to be tagged and list their names. Don't forget to leave a comment that says "you are tagged" in their devpage comments and tell them to read yours.

1. I add "eth" to random words. Rocketh. Sockeths. Cooleth. I don't really use "cool" all by it's self. I like rad. I use rad... I'm just beatniky like that I guess. Um, I also tend to lose my earrings, so... usually I wear a stud and then that "one" earring in the other.
2. Crossdressing powns. Especially girls wearing dude stuff. I wear ties and vests.
"Lori. You can't crossdress at school."
"SCREW YOU, lady! You're not allowed to be a bitch a school, but you manage to do that somehow, don't you?"
3. I don't believe there is such thing as a poser. If you hate life and you want to wear pink, be my guest. Everyone to their own.
" But I hate life and I want to wear hush puppies on my feet."
Go for it, man! Go for it!
4. It's hard for me to trust and to forgive people. The people that hurt my friends, even friends that aren't my friends anymore, I still dislike them. I'm just wierd. I think I have that loyalty complex that Bandytt does...XD Trust. If I trust you, you're really lucky. Sometimes it's an instant connection, on very rare occasion. The rest of the time, it isn't. The rest of the time my trust is earned like a modem internet connection: hella slow and hard!
5. I've already BEEN to college. XD Yeah, wierd right? I went for the summer. I met alot of interesting people, like this kid named elius who was 13 and had grey/black hair. He was obsessed with pudding.
Oh, and he hated the U.N. Forgot that part.
6. I change my manner of speaking all the time. Usually based on RP characters. Sometimes I'm Aym the Vampire, other times I'm Jared the weedo.
... Or I'm Mr. Withers, the manic depressive science/math teacher.XD
Or Jennifer, the Bubblegum Bitch. XD
Yeah, ok, I will stop.

I don't tag anyone, unless you have free will and you REALLY want to be tagged...XD
TAG YOUR IT. Now go and say "Lorix taggifyed me, holeh shizit!"
Yeah, I love you guys...

** COLOR CONTEST **
Not for me. XD has something that she'd like for someone to color. It'd be really cool if everyone went to check it out or something. Because she totally powns. You better color it nice for my Bandytt, or I'll be after your left eyebrow!!!>.<

]]> ~XxForgottenFailurexX http://XxForgottenFailurexX.deviantart.com/journal/13478508/ http://XxForgottenFailurexX.deviantart.com/journal/13478508/ Sun, 24 Jun 2007 23:03:52 PDT
Dear God:
Why are you trying to relentlessly kill us all by 2012?
I feel like the new guy at work and you already want to fire me.
... You can't fire me- I QUIT!
*dies*
Your beloved Undead,
Lorix

That was what I felt like writing to God's P.O. box after talking with my Uncle Johnny who was talking about the end of the world in 2012. It was a very interesting conversation, no joke. About New World Order and Free Masons and the rise of the anti-christ and fun things like that.^^
...
Ok, off of THAT subject.

::- NOT THAT YOU CARE, BUT -::

Ah, I'm very bored. I've been working on character sheets of Sven Reinhard, who is my idea of the scientist character in the VidGame I'm helping make with . When it comes out (which I don't know whenXD) I hope you all play it. ^^

::- MY INVENTION- DigiGlasses! -::

During drawing the scientist, Sven, I put this strange thing on his green eye (the dude has one green eye, one brown. Doesn't he pown in the geekiest way?XD). He kind of has a monacle, but not really. You would have to see it. (Yes, you probably have the wrong picture in your head. Don't worry, it looks cool, I promise!) I "invented" these really cool things that work like glasses- only they're more like holographic lenses that correct your vision. So no matter how bad your eyes are, they don't get any thicker. They also don't have frames or "legs" that go behind your ears. It's more like a chip thing on the side of your head and you and click the lenses on and off.
And the thing I'm always complaining about:
YES. THEY ARE TOTALLY HEADBANG-ABLE!
No more pushing up your glasses every two seconds between headbanging!>8D

::- I NEED A PILL -::

Seriously. I'm tired but I'm too scared shitless to go to bed. I just went to see 1408.
THANK. GOD.
Do you know how hard it is to find a scary movie that's actually GOOD that doesn't have a buttload of gore in it? HARD. Like... like breaking your teeth on petrified fruitcake. That kind. It was a very good movie, I enjoyed it.
That, and the whole "end of ze world" thing isn't exactly lulling me to sleep. XD

WE ALL GONNA DIE.
Love,
Lorix

]]> ~XxForgottenFailurexX http://XxForgottenFailurexX.deviantart.com/journal/13451812/ http://XxForgottenFailurexX.deviantart.com/journal/13451812/ Fri, 22 Jun 2007 20:10:09 PDT ::: FRESH HOT, TOASTY NEWS:::

* I JUST moved in with my Grandparents, where I will spend the rest of the summer missing you guys. But for once, I have to remember this is what I've always wanted. Moving out of my dad's house makes me want to run to the highest building I can find- and when I used to want to jump off, now I want to scream: FREEEEDOMMMM!!!
...
and THEN jump off!XD
Or, at least keep screaming until I hear a car alarm go off and people in sky scrapers start chunking mini-fridges, staplers, and cream cheese at me.

* The Goo Goo Dolls just chose Houston for their concert September 2nd. I'm going to cry in complete bliss to see my Johnnycake. Don't get me wrong, I think Penguin Guy is cool too. Even though his real name is Robby. Penguin Guy just sounds better.
Shut up.
He seriously sounds like a penguin. Not... that I've heard penguins talk or anything...

* Mom finally agreed with my heart. Soon, there will be a fauxhawk on my head. Heck Yes!

* Aerosmith... God, I love them. *bangs head to "walk this way"*

:::NEWS IN A NOT SO DRASTIC SENSE W/ LEMONS:::
...lemon...lime...lemon...lime...lemon...lime...lemon...lime...le- *shot*

After much thought, since I realize I'll be with my grandparents for the next two months, I realize I probably will not be able to upload too many things in the near future. So, and , I may not be able to upload the things I promised as soon as I planned. I know you're probably getting tired of me saying "coming up soon" so I'll just be blunt:
Two Months. Yeah, I know, I know, you're not getting any younger here... *sighs and shoots self*

In the meantime that I'm here, I'll probably get bored. Maybe I'll start a part of my journal called "THE RANDOM MISADVENTURES OF LORIX" or something like that. Or post my madlibs.
About Galbatorix whose socks wouldn't sing to him, and he got so mad he started smoking a pie.
Or Xemnas who had a pet cockroach.
Madlibs=crack! *grabs nearest pencil and shakes*
C'mon man.... *twitch* YOU GOTTA HOOK ME UP!

This is SUPER TOAST signing off...

]]> ~XxForgottenFailurexX http://XxForgottenFailurexX.deviantart.com/journal/13419985/ http://XxForgottenFailurexX.deviantart.com/journal/13419985/ Wed, 20 Jun 2007 13:19:38 PDT she's really awesome!!!XD
Now that that is overwith....

I'm back. I'm so happy to BE back, also. It was a very productive two weeks, I was able to come up with ideas for 's videogame storyline, and even some characters! The scientist the gamers will play is pretty cool, but I won't say much until I post.^^ Sorry.
I really missed you guys while I was away. I have some presents for a few people. Yes- and thanks so much for all of the "WATCHings" I now have a 'complete list' thingy. Not that it means much, But I'm so happy!

Unfortunately, I have some bad news. We're moving out this weekend because our house is for sale. There's... alot going on, so if I tend not to be as present on DA, I apologize in advance.
Thank you guys so much for everything! I'll post some more about my time in practically nonexistant town in Marlin.

Things look grim, but you all keep me insane.
Insane is good.
-Lorix

]]> ~XxForgottenFailurexX http://XxForgottenFailurexX.deviantart.com/journal/13280178/ http://XxForgottenFailurexX.deviantart.com/journal/13280178/ Sat, 09 Jun 2007 16:12:25 PDT
*In Dr. Farnsworth's voice* GOOD NEWS, EVERYONE! I... I'm going away for a week. Yeah, we're going to be in a small town with my Aunt Erica and my Uncle Run. The city is practically microscopic- I mean, BLINK and you'll miss it!
*blink*
There it goes.
Well, anyways, we don't have any internet connection out there, so I won't be able to get on. I'm sorry you're all so happy...XD
If you're crazy enough, you might forget about this! You might continue to leave me messages and notes, and then think I died when I don't reply after a whole week.
" Oh god. She... she finally did it."
o_O
I didn't die.
and I'm not dead.
*checks pulse*
OH CRAP. WAIT, YES... YES I AM.
the point is that I'm conscious.
In the meantime, when I return, I'll be getting back to everything and start uploading again. Because... I know I haven't. I have gift art for Skittles and for Lerato!

BEFORE I GO- EVERYONE FLOCK TO 's PROFILE AND READ FINDING FREEDOM!
I have fallen for AdrainxJasper. They're so adorable.

As for my original art, prepare to see alot more of it. And more Eragon related stuff. Heh, Mystress, you'll like that. ^^
Us Shades... we're insane.
"Are we ever?"

Well, no matter how deeply steeped in denial I am, I'm going to miss you guys. Even for a week. I really love you all, and I love hearing from you.
And by the way, thanks for 1000 views! I really appreciate all of your support!
x766 (Satan's brother, Santa's number...XD )
-GalbaLorix
-Blane
-Lady Demy
-Dem
I have WAY too many nicknames!

]]> ~XxForgottenFailurexX http://XxForgottenFailurexX.deviantart.com/journal/13153204/ http://XxForgottenFailurexX.deviantart.com/journal/13153204/ Tue, 05 Jun 2007 20:48:00 PDT
Beside that point- HOLEH SHIZIT ON TOAST! I'VE BEEN TAGGIFYED!
My Tagger would be the infamous .
God, I love her.XD Usually I don't do tags, but I'm bored outside my mind which is already outside my head. So here goes.
Take your time to exit this journal whilst you still can.
Lest you explode with Boredom.
~~~~~
1.) How does TODAY make you feel?
It started off bad and ended great. I woke up and we had to WALK. Ugh. I hate mandatory walking. And not around the house- on the track. In shorts. I hate shorts, and tank tops. My pants mean everything to me.... but you know, whatever. Eh, I also had an awesome dinner- Tortillas, carnitas (beef and chicken, dah, I'm in heaven, yes.), and lot of other things. We made a bonfire, although I consumed no marshmellows. Yeah, it's alright. The feeling is neutral, although I feel better getting this from Bandytt....XD

2.) If you got tickets to your favorite band's concert, what would you do?
Oh God, I would die. I wouldn't even get to go to the concert because I'd be dead. "HOLY SHIZIT ON TOAST, THE FREAKING GOO GOO DOLLS!" If I had a heart, It would stop! Although, if I only died for a second, it would be kind of fun. I wouldn't be all dead, even though they put me in the morgue. Then they'd unzip me and I'd say:
"BRAAAAIIIIINSSS!"
XD perfect. I'd scare the poor interns.

3.) If everyone died and you were to be doomed on the planet for the rest of your life, but you were allowed to have one friend with you, who would that one friend be?
Sorry, I'd shoot myself.
" if everyone died, Lori..."
*bang*
" O__o"
yeah. You get it. I wouldn't be able to choose.

4.) what are you listening to right....NOW!?
In my head. It's Urgalicious.
" Urgalicious definition make the shades go Loco!"-E.D.
Durza: MAKE IT STOOOOOPPPP!!!

5.) name the worst thing to happen to you in your life!
*stitches lips closed* mmm mm mylah mmm, mmm mmhe mmmhhehm... *intricate detail whilst mouth is closed*

6.) name the best thing to happen in your life!
Ah, I agree with Bandytt. My friends. I really enjoy your support, I thank you so much.

7.) what do you see in the clouds right now?
A penguin. Just wait.
5 minutes-
It'll be a giraffe.
Then a gippo, a hippo-giraffe. or a Hipporaffe. Or a Giraffapatumus.

8.) what do you wish to do as you grow?
Get better at drawing and digital art, as well as proportions. I want to keep in touch with my friends, no matter what people say. If I can, I hope to become as good as , or Vampyyri, Shin-zo, or General Kirby! They all freaking rock, I look up to you guys!XD

9.) do you like the way you look?
I want my chocolately mohawk.

10.) what do you have on your wall?
XD A picture of Orlando Bloom, this collage of a 1700's chick with words pasted over her eyes that say " capturing the soul in motion, being who I really am, for the first time ever, me learning to expand."
I also have Johnny Rzeznik from the Goo Goo Dolls in a black and white photo of him in a really cool coat. Another collage I made of the Eiffel Tower, my Hades poster... Ja!

11.) what is/was your best/favorite subject in school?
English and Spanish! (whoa, strange.)

12.) What is your most favorite band of all time?
Aw crap. I love the Goo Goo Dolls, but I have others, too many to choose.... Shiny Toy Guns, The Shins, Anti-Freeze, The Cure, New Order, Depeshmo, just to name a few.

13.) where are you?
in a squeeshy chair.

14.) do you sleep with stuffed animal(s)?
I have a red dog I named Sir Legolas. XD And Mr. Giraffe, who's actually a bear that I've had since I was two. He used to be all white, until Kateth, or E.D. threw him into the fan and now he has a dust spot on his head... *cries*

15.) what do you think first when you are woken
Dah, Crap! I'm alive.

16.) What is your favorite movie?
OH, don't ask me to do this. It's like asking me which limb you want me to rip off first.

17.) What is your favorite book?
This... ]]> ~XxForgottenFailurexX http://XxForgottenFailurexX.deviantart.com/journal/13118076/ http://XxForgottenFailurexX.deviantart.com/journal/13118076/ Sun, 27 May 2007 21:18:37 PDT I use modem.
so shoot me.
*is shot at*

Things that happened while I was dead:
-the last day of school. We had a dance that was 007 themed that was really lame. There were transexual silhouettes that were supposed to be women...XD They were also holding guns that the school didn't approve of, so they tried to cover them up with pom poms... So now, pom pom waving transexuals!>8D
The muzik was also bad. I didn't dance for the most part, me, Kateth, Roxan, and Tasuki basically sat most of the time. And asked people to time my shirt. I had a ribbon on my shirt and we went around asking boys to tie it. It was hilarious! Ryan tried to tie it and his reactionw as priceless.
" I'M TRYING TO TIE IT BUT.... THEY'RE IN THE WAY!!!!D:"
'they' meaning the 8 pounds of pure fat that are my boobs of dewm.
I can actually suffocate people with them.
- the last day of school after party which was AWESOME! You should have seen Kateth, she was more beautiful than usual. I wore my blood red dress too! When we were in the bathroom, some girl was in there with kateth and said: "aw, kateth, you're dress is so pretty. Durza would love it!"
then I came out and explained Durza was my manslave... it was pretty funny.
" can't you tell? He bought me this dress. We're INVOLVED."
not really. The red haired man warms Galby's bed every night.... ugh.

-I went to see Pirates 3! W0000000Tsauce! It was hilarious, I went with Kateth and Tasuki.
" AND SO... WE GO TO WAR!" I don't want to spoil anything for people who haven't seen it yet. But I'll tell you what... I nearly caughed up my lungs laughing. (kizzit, you know by now I have many pairs of lungs. Your pictures are so funny I have to keep regrowing them...)
****

Anyway, I know I haven't been uploading lately. I don't have an art block, I just...
okay, LEAVETH ME ALONE!
wait... come back...
okay, well, I just haven't felt like uploading. I have alot of Eragon stuff waiting in the wings, and some AkuDemy and more delicious Xemsaix. All of which will most likely end up in scraps....o_O
So, until more interesting things ariseth....

This is GalbaLorix.
Signing off.

]]> ~XxForgottenFailurexX http://XxForgottenFailurexX.deviantart.com/journal/12955900/ http://XxForgottenFailurexX.deviantart.com/journal/12955900/ Mon, 14 May 2007 16:41:40 PDT
Recently, Kateth came up with the idea to remake Eragon, since the movie was "incredibly horrible." I'm happy to say she'll be playing Durza!XD although she's a girl, i suggested we band down her boobs with duct tape and just say Durza has madd pex.
Kate: 0_o but... you don't even NEED to tape them!
OH WELL. BITE ME.
Some people want to play trees. I think I'll make a sign up sheet for school tomorrow! Kate came up with the name for our movie, which will be "ERRORAGON!" YAIIIY!
We have plenty of scenes made up already, thanks to kate's idea and help from me and tasuki, and a few "what if" ideas after reading the book.
Brom will be played by a cardboard cut out of Elvis!XD
***
I found a dress for my dance over the weekend! It's silky and blood red!>8D I have black jewelry to go with it. (Durzi would like it.XP)

Other than that, my fingers are slow to heal...-_-
ME: DAMN YOU, FINGERS~! HEAL! HEAAAALLL!!!
Which reminds me-
THANK YOU EVERYONE for your concern!
I appreciate your care, it means so much to me.
So everyone who reads this- these are my awesome friends! They all fricking rock, so mess with them and prepare to recieve the ultimate Sporkination of DEWM!!!
or a m00sey fate!

***
YOU ALL ROCKETH MY SOCKETHS!
Master-
Love-
ROXY feeds me!XD-
Ebil partner in crimeXD-
SHE P0WNS! and loveths Gir, like me!-
Zexion's pet, the super ultra AWESOME-
Cannibalistic milk drinker! She p0wns hard!-
My newest friend, she made me fall in love with SoraxRiku!-
SHIA p0wnS!!!Xo-
AWESOME RAIN!!!XD-
The awesomest Xemsaix art makers EVER-
***
You all have been so kind to me, I thank you from the bottom of my nonexistant heart!


]]> ~XxForgottenFailurexX http://XxForgottenFailurexX.deviantart.com/journal/12941111/ http://XxForgottenFailurexX.deviantart.com/journal/12941111/ Sun, 13 May 2007 11:45:35 PDT It's luckily my left hand, but it's still hard to type on the computer. At least I can draw still, but I had to have my sisters help me with my hair this morning...
(DO NOT EVEN ASK... I LOOK LIKE SNUFFY FROM SESAME STREET.)
tee hee, which makes me think of how if Demy were on sesame street, he'd be elmo.
or grover.
would xemmie be the count? or Oscar? who knows.
(um.. refrain from asking me if I still watch that show... the answer is embarrassing.)
I'll write more when my two fingers stop bleeding all over the keyboard.o.o

]]> ~XxForgottenFailurexX http://XxForgottenFailurexX.deviantart.com/journal/12844202/ http://XxForgottenFailurexX.deviantart.com/journal/12844202/ Fri, 04 May 2007 19:25:19 PDT
This thursday I went shopping for my dad's birthday.
(blech. I hate shopping. GARJZLA!)
I bought this shirt and well...
wore it this friday.
There's this unicorn on my right boob. I noticed beforehand he was kind of weird looking, considering he had a goatee and a donkey tail, not exactly the best portrait of a unicorn.
At least he didn't have wings.
Then he would've been a very rare Pegacorn.
BACK TO THE UNICORN THOUGH- yesh. Whilst walking in the hallway with Kateth, the Empress of Darkness or E.D., the last episode of Invader Zim was going through my mind and I decided:
I SHALL NAME HIM- PASTULIO!
unfortunately I said it out loud (because that's a horribibble habit of mine) and Kateth:
O_____O what?
I explained I was now naming my unicorn Pastulio.
Yeeeesss...
Yeeeesss....
Pastulio, My Goatee'd! Boobacorn.

Other than Pastulio (WHO YOU SHOULD OBEY!), I realize something very very sad.
No one likes Durza. I mean.
AT.
ALL.
no one. Except for me. And General Kirby. And Kateth. But that's really it. WHY? He's awesome! *cries* and although he's amazing p0wning hotness in my head...
I guess other people aren't equipped with my brain so... '_' No one likes him? *cries once more*
That and I think Durza is an aggie. I was describing him to one of my friends and they stupidly replied:
" huh. sounds like an aggie." T_T

Oh god.
I am surrounded by idiots.
SAVE MEH!

I shall keepeth all of my information still here incase you should ever need it or be bored enough to make your eyes follow the stupid text.
PASTULIO COMMANDS YOU TO ... umm...
put bacon in your soap and to um...
take a shower...
brush your teeth..
and put on deodorant.

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works in progress and probably still imprisoned in my mental pententiary:

~KH2~

- XemSaix: the Saix glomp: I decided to turn it into a shorty. It's already in sketch. YAIIY.

-AkuDemy: I Made You A Cookie But: tee hee. the first huge panel is done. I'll have to upload the first panel and the comic seperately, this is also in sketch mode.

-Demyx, My Anti-Drug: bwahaha. a sketch as well. YOU KNOW WHAT- just assume all the titles I put down are in sketch mode. okay. good.

-Saix: this is a picture I took with a cell of saiix that I drew on the ground in chalk. I have one of Sora too... in fruity form.

-Demyx and the Xigbat: the first page is in sketch but I'll finish it once my art flu is out of my system. LET THE INKING BEGIN!

~KH2 NOT STARTED BUT WILL GET HERE EVENTUALLY~

-Le Shlaps for Demy 2: the back is finished but not colored in. I'll upload it.

-Zippers: featuring xemnas and saix... tee hee hee...

-Five: eventually I'll draw it. Kateth knows what I'm talking about.

~OTHER~

-The Reapers Storybook: chapters 2, 3 are completed.
-Caitlin: finished
-Kateth and Tasuki's Art Beast: if they send it to me....

****

]]> ~XxForgottenFailurexX http://XxForgottenFailurexX.deviantart.com/journal/12812264/ http://XxForgottenFailurexX.deviantart.com/journal/12812264/ Wed, 02 May 2007 06:15:07 PDT Thank Kingdom Hearts!
However, the teachers are cramming all this stupid stuff down our throats and I'm choking on all of the finals coming up. I seriously am not looking forward to Mrs. Dresner, my science teacher, who...
laughs like Friggin LUCIFER.
Or health.
Or spanish.
Or school in general for that matter. But it's the only way I can see my friends, Tasuki and Kateth, so they better feel special. > : (

We have our Dance coming up and I still haven't chosen a dress. I so recently went with Kateth and she got a completely kick-awesome DRESS! HOLY SHIZEHT! It's silky and black with this real-leh awesome red designs on it. Her mommy kept saying that "they gotta work the hair." I say she needs super cewleth earings! Long!

I don't know what colour I want mine. Red. or Black. Or wine colored. But it doesn't matter, i suppose. While with Kateth she introduced me to this really awesome band. They've been stuck in my head and they won't get out....
Norwegian techno is infiltrating!!!

I'm in a lame mood, so I'm sorry if this is boring you to death. I'm trying to get over my latest Art Flu, because lately I can't draw. Not that I don't want to- I just... CANT. iT'S WIERD. So I had kateth give my skull a hi-five, so maybe my brain will wake up or something. This art flu is probably due to my lack of eating coffee and sugar and those really delicious blue g00mi sharks that I think Demyx would love....

Damn those g00mi sharks.

I'm still reading Eragon though!XD I so recently uploaded Durza as you can see on the left of your screen. Kateth helped me with it (ALOT.) so I hope you guys like it!^_^ I've become super obsessed with Durza, so you'll probably be seeing more of him once I draw Eragon and maybe Murtagh. I'll only draw Arya if I absolutely must because she's a freaking MARY SUE to the 10000th power!
YARRR~!!!... I'm not attractive...
(from a video on youtube. Check out superhappy fun time on there!)

I've also started watching more Invader Zim, which is on right now...
" GUESS WHO MADE WAFFLES?!"
" I do not plan to partake in these waffles..."
" WAAGGHHAHAHAHAAAAAAAA~! YAAAAAAAWAAA!!!" (CHOKES SELF)
"FINE!"

In the meanwhile, alot of my stupid works are coming to a halt, so I'll just update this journal with work that I've started, but no way in hell have finished.

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~KH2~

- XemSaix: the Saix glomp: I decided to turn it into a shorty. It's already in sketch. YAIIY.

-AkuDemy: I Made You A Cookie But: tee hee. the first huge panel is done. I'll have to upload the first panel and the comic seperately, this is also in sketch mode.

-Demyx, My Anti-Drug: bwahaha. a sketch as well. YOU KNOW WHAT- just assume all the titles I put down are in sketch mode. okay. good.

-Saix: this is a picture I took with a cell of saiix that I drew on the ground in chalk. I have one of Sora too... in fruity form.

-Demyx and the Xigbat: the first page is in sketch but I'll finish it once my art flu is out of my system. LET THE INKING BEGIN!

~KH2 NOT STARTED BUT WILL GET HERE EVENTUALLY~

-Le Shlaps for Demy 2: the back is finished but not colored in. I'll upload it.

-Zippers: featuring xemnas and saix... tee hee hee...

-Five: eventually I'll draw it. Kateth knows what I'm talking about.

~OTHER~

-The Reapers Storybook: chapters 2, 3 are completed.
-Caitlin: finished
-Kateth and Tasuki's Art Beast: if they send it to me....

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Everything else isn't that important, but this is stuff that's in the works so don't worry, be happy, and here.
have a xigbar.
Low fat, I promise.

~XxF:FxX~

]]> ~XxForgottenFailurexX http://XxForgottenFailurexX.deviantart.com/journal/12586549/ http://XxForgottenFailurexX.deviantart.com/journal/12586549/ Fri, 13 Apr 2007 21:25:26 PDT
I suppose I should explain. -_-;
(not that anyone is reading this)

At school, we all get to choose the kick awesome Gods/Godesses of greek mythology we like (most of us anyway). The lame point of it all is the brainwash the class into thinking your god(dess) should be the fricking supreme lord of Mount Olympus. (There were also non-gods and demi-gods... but you know, who cares about them?)

I CHOSE HADES!!! because he completely rocketh!

a little about Hades, supreme Lord of deh frickin Underworld:
1. HE IS NOT BLUE
2. HE DOES NOT HAVE WHALE LIPS
3. HE MOST CERTAINLY DOES NOT HAVE BLUE FLAMES FOR HAIR.

Disney got the whole story wrong. So did the actual Greek mythology. Because according to the Book of Lori, page Xx13xX, Hades is superiorly hot with purple eyes and long, trailing black hair.
Silence, all of you about me not being able to decide this and that.
I REJECT REALITY AND SUBSTITUTE MY OWN.

so....

SCREW YOU, DISNEY!

I drew my little poster and eventually finished, ripping a heartless from KH into it. (the adorable shadows, but I attached wings to it.)

And although I put all my nonexistant heart into that poster and winning the campaign....

CURSE YOU, ATHENA, CURSE YOU! *cries pathetically* I lost by 1 friggin vote. ONE. One. one.
*cries again* Athena just so happened to be Kateth, which I was happy for after getting over my wounded pride. *sigh* WOO GO KATETH! We [tasuki and I] ended up taking her out to the movies (meet the robinsons) and we had a shitload of fun. Probably... more than we should have. -_-

we screwed around with some elementary kids and threw whoppers at the screen....


***
Well now all of that is over... and Hades is coming home, and now I have his beautiful face (he's only a 2-D figure on a poster, lori. You make him sound like he's your husband...-_-;; at my side once more.
YAIIY!


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Now, Just for people who don't really care and happen to find themselves STILL reading (wow, I manage to keep your attention for this long?.... .... *bleep-e-teth.*) I have upcoming works.

~KH2 WORKS~
XemSaix- kissing. My very FIRST pick of them kissing. Y@iiY! (pssh, kateth won't stop bothering me about it. Ger'off!)

Demyx and the Xigbat- Demy gives Xiggy a wet willy and gets shot in the a-yass.

AkuDemy(ish): I Made You a Cookie, But: Axel makes treats for Demy, but the treat keeps changing due to different members of the Org.v_v damn.

XemSaix: The Saix Glomp- 'nuff said.

~OTHER STUFF THAT DOESN'T MATTER~

OrionXLucen- when I finish the sketch and color it.

Kateth/Tasuki's Art Beast- a wolf drawn by tasuki, original design by Kateth.

The Reaper's Storybook Ch. 2 and Ch.3- no one cares.

Caitlin- yeah, a pimped-out version of my best friend.

"Color on an Artificial..."- A poem I'm retouching from last year that's not too shabby.

*****

W00! george washington rocks YO ASS!

]]> ~XxForgottenFailurexX http://XxForgottenFailurexX.deviantart.com/journal/12501888/ http://XxForgottenFailurexX.deviantart.com/journal/12501888/ Sat, 07 Apr 2007 20:39:29 PDT I really enjoyed drawing Axel in this one. I plan to color "close your eyes" and "easter."

Back to Easter.

I'm actually eating these egg-shaped whoppers right now. Mmmm, chocolate-y goodishness. SUBMIT! Yeah, I have a meeting with the easterbunny tomorrow, unfortunately I couldn't invite Tsuki (visit her!)... But I'm sure Kateth, The Empress of Darkness will be there. *sigh* Boo frickity hoo, Santa isn't showing up.
vs
....
Santa wins. He eateth the g00mibear.


Well this is just a bunch of random stuff, but oh well. I enjoy the rant, I suppose. Everyone needs a rant, right? That's why we have the wonderful Strongbad, Ninja, Foamy, and Homestarrunner... along with various others.
Wellie well well, I'm tiredeth and I must take a shower, take a shower, brush my teeth, brush my teeth, oh no, I am repeating myself... myself....

SHUT UP.
okay.
As you can see, I have too much spare time laying around, bleeding and sprawled out on the floor- taking up my precious air in which I do not need much at the moment.

BUT WAIT- THERE'S MORE.
...
: EAT MORE CHIKEN!
...
ok the end.

]]> ~XxForgottenFailurexX http://XxForgottenFailurexX.deviantart.com/journal/12364255/ http://XxForgottenFailurexX.deviantart.com/journal/12364255/ Wed, 28 Mar 2007 15:04:19 PDT
Deviantart's top ten lamest galleries:
Lori's- with a record low of 2 deviations!

Myehehe, I have an award! Not that anyone cares, I'm working on new stuff, so the next time I upload it'll probably just be a bunch of scraps. Of course, I'm also loaded down with abunch of dumb sterf (mrs. Kerbopple's homework and King of the Nerd Legion ( i gues that makes him my king? AGH! *gag gag, chokes, dies* Mr. Peter's website thingy)
So I suppose I have my chubby little hands full...

Over summer break this site will basically will become my life, and maybe I'll get some prismas... (CAITLIN, YOU LISTENING?)
hehehe.


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Xemnas: DAMMIT! Demyx--- where the HELL are you?!
Demyx: *running through the hallway, and finds axel* AXEL, AXEL! Help me hide, PLEEZ! Mr. Superiors gonna kill meh!
Axel: shit- hurry up and eh.... um...
(mr. superior enters)
Demyx: *hides under axel's cloak in time for mr. superior not to see*
Xemnas: Number Eight! Where in Kingdom Hearts's name is Demyx?! .... (sees the giant lump on axel's back side) O___o ehhh---
axel: ? wut?
Xemnas: Y-... your ass--- IT'S HUGE.
axel: *puts hands up* I gained some weight. V_V
Demyx: *under the cloak* (sneezes)ACHOO!
Xemnas/Axel: O______O
Xemnas: Holy shit! Your ASS just SNEEZED.
Axel: ehh--- it uh... does that all the time?

]]> ~XxForgottenFailurexX http://XxForgottenFailurexX.deviantart.com/journal/12308108/ http://XxForgottenFailurexX.deviantart.com/journal/12308108/ Sat, 24 Mar 2007 10:14:57 PDT I've had this account for only a little while and made my first deviations in the last two days, but I'm really happy.... Deviant ROCKS!
I plan to make a few more KH2 comics (cuz I have alot in my head, man... They're all like... talking to me, man...) Look out for some of the cooler ones with saix in them... YAY. (all of which will be with the help of my friend, Kah-tay because she totally rocketh.)

For the first time ever... I have community spirit!
WOO deviantart!
_Lori_

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