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                <title>I think</title>
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                <pubDate>Tue, 08 May 2007 07:53:33 PDT</pubDate>
                
                <description><![CDATA[ It's time for a new account.  I'll post the new name when I'm done making it.<br /><br /> ]]></description>
                <author>~XxZerstoreNxX</author>
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                <title>get down with the sickness</title>
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                <pubDate>Mon, 26 Feb 2007 19:17:55 PST</pubDate>
                
                <description><![CDATA[ I feel like shit... my whole goddamn body hurts and I have a sore throat, a fever, and glassy-eyes.  I dunno if the sore throat is part of my flu or if it's from smoking 4 cigars in a row saturday night lol.. (that was very stupid yes I know) but ughhh... I miss Di... oh and about the fight: it didn't happen because he was being stupid and kept calling more of his friends and I finally said "you know what? if you wanted to fight, you would have done it yesterday when you called me out you coward." and called it off.  So now if he says anything like "Maxx is a pussy! He backed down" or some shit like that I'm getting right up in his face and saying "listen you're the one who grabbed like 8 guys to take me down so shut the fuck up.  if you wanna go we'll go right now." and if he backs down, great.  But if not, then I'll kick his ass.  I'm probably not gonna be at school tommorrow (obviously) but yeah... ughh.... kill me now.<br />
<br />
<br />
Peace/Love <br />
<br />
MaxX <br />
<br />
PS: I hereby curse all with my disease!!!!!!!<br /><br /> ]]></description>
                <author>~XxZerstoreNxX</author>
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                <title>I Suppose</title>
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                <pubDate>Fri, 23 Feb 2007 07:37:45 PST</pubDate>
                
                <description><![CDATA[ I'm ready.  If anything happens, then I might not be on DA for a while... today's gonna be a long, long day.  Wish me the best of luck because I've never been in this situation before.  I'll tell you guys the whole story when it's over.  It's no use posting comments like "plz don't do it MaxX" because if it happens, it happens today and I'm leaving in 10 minutes.  So to those of you that go to burroughs, see you all there.<br /><br /> ]]></description>
                <author>~XxZerstoreNxX</author>
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                <title>my skin is crawling</title>
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                <pubDate>Tue, 20 Feb 2007 16:27:53 PST</pubDate>
                
                <description><![CDATA[ i feel so wierd.  i'm so light-headed today, and i had this really disturbing nightmare last night that just keeps coming back to me.  i can't get it out of my head.  my dreams have been scaring me lately.<br /><br /> ]]></description>
                <author>~XxZerstoreNxX</author>
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                <title>my nose</title>
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                <pubDate>Mon, 19 Feb 2007 18:56:13 PST</pubDate>
                
                <description><![CDATA[ is fucking stuffed. and i don't want to dope myself up and that robitussin shit. i dont' know how some people get high on that crap. i gag on one fucking gulp of that stuff. i remember though it was funny, last year in first period i was so fucked up and i had no idea why but it was cause i took my ADD meds and robitussin and they reacted with one another and it was so wierd. i wasn't even tripping, though, i was just dizzy as hell. much love<br /><br /> ]]></description>
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                <title>Out of it</title>
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                <pubDate>Sat, 17 Feb 2007 20:38:41 PST</pubDate>
                
                <description><![CDATA[ Mentally, I'm fine.  I'm not emo or anything.  Maybe a little hollow feeling but that doesn't bother me.  What is bothering me is that I have a headache and a feel like I'm about to faint.  unhhh<br /><br /> ]]></description>
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                <title>Best Friday Night Ever</title>
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                <pubDate>Sat, 17 Feb 2007 10:54:31 PST</pubDate>
                
                <description><![CDATA[ I went on a date with Diana last night.  We were SUPPOSED to see a movie, but we couldn't find anything good and I'd rather spend time talking to her than sitting next to her glued to a screen you know?  So we hung aroudn the mall and walked around and I bought her stuff and paid for everything, showed off on DDR, blah blah blah.  We got an applause twice xD... but the best part of last night was near the end when at around 8:30 I took her to the CompUSA parking lot (the one with a view of the city lights).  We talked and I confided in her that the city lights from there were my home and that when I saw them they were reassuring.  Something I've never been able to manifest into words until now..*sigh* I am so happy... <br />
<br />
<br />
If anyone is wondering what she looks like then <br />
<a href="http://i20.photobucket.com/albums/b220/straightedgeandlovingit/beauty-1.jpg">here <img src="http://e.deviantart.com/emoticons/b/biggrin.gif" width="15" height="15" alt="=D" title="=D (Big Grin)" /></a><br />
<br />
beautiful ain't she?  *le sigh* <br />
<br />
Peace/Love,<br />
<br />
MaxX<br /><br /> ]]></description>
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                <title>Man... Valentine's Day</title>
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                <pubDate>Thu, 15 Feb 2007 06:24:33 PST</pubDate>
                
                <description><![CDATA[ It's amazing I haven't been on here in a month.  Well since then, lots has changed.  My grades are shit, my iPod's gone, and I am 16 years old officially.  And my love life which was down the tubes is finally back.  Yesterday went perfectly.  I got there a 1/2 hour early, after going to the florist, purchasing a rose & a teddy bear, going to 7/11, buying her favorite candy, and her favorite drink, I waited for her to get home.  All went well after that.  The look of surprise and joy on her face was priceless.  I finally got the feeling... for a long time now I've been longing to hold someone, feel their touch, feel their kiss, and in turn feel love for them.  Oh and I started AND quit smoking last month, too.  Things have been interesting to say the least.  Anyway, catch ya later, DA. <br />
<br />
<br />
Peace/Love<br />
MaxX<br /><br /> ]]></description>
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                <title>*picks up duffel bag and slings over shoulder* oka</title>
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                <pubDate>Tue, 16 Jan 2007 20:43:02 PST</pubDate>
                
                <description><![CDATA[ okay, you know it's time to move when the list of things you would miss if you DID move is very VERY short.  i need to ge the HELL out of California, LA in particular.  this city is poisonous and full of people i do not want to put up with anymore.  august won't come soon enough.<br /><br /> ]]></description>
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                <title>EL ME ES GOING TO KILL SOMEONO</title>
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                <pubDate>Mon, 15 Jan 2007 20:15:51 PST</pubDate>
                
                <description><![CDATA[ I FUCKING HATE SPANISH.<br />
<br />
*sigh*<br />
it's such a dumb sounding language. i'm sorry, it really is!!! ...maybe it's because i've been reading it ALL FUCKING DAY!!!! >.<<br /><br /> ]]></description>
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                <title>My fear...</title>
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                <pubDate>Sun, 14 Jan 2007 19:29:55 PST</pubDate>
                
                <description><![CDATA[ I'm affraid...<br />
scared... that things won't work out with my life.  Affraid that when I turn 16, people are going to think that I somehow figured it all out and that I'm an adult.  I'm still a kid!  I don't know anything yet!!! I'm affraid that my grades are going to fall through and my life will become the same fucked up mess everyone else in my family's life is.  I'm affraid to ask my mom about going to Seattle next month to see Maddy because I know she'll never listen to me... I'm affraid of fucking things up and not being good enough for Maddy... I'm scared that I'll fall into a rut of failure and just fade away... and never become anything useful... I'm so scared... help me...<br /><br /> ]]></description>
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                <title>Death Note-ness</title>
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                <pubDate>Sat, 13 Jan 2007 12:20:45 PST</pubDate>
                
                <description><![CDATA[ Okay, a small survey I am making about DN- PLEEEEEAAASE ANSWER AND REPOST =]<br />
<br />
Part 1- English Dubbing<br />
<br />
1. Who would be the perfect voice for Yagami-kun?<br />
Kirby Morrow (aka Trowa Barton from Gundam Wing, Miroku from Inuyasha)<br />
<br />
2. Who would be the best voice for Ryuk?<br />
Crispin Freeman WITH A VOICE FILTER so he sounded more demonic (aka Alucard)<br />
<br />
3. For Misa-chan?<br />
either Kay Jensen (Fuu from Samurai Champloo) or Lia Sargent (Milly from Trigun, Dorothy from Big O)<br />
<br />
4.for L?<br />
Ron Allen (Jin in Samurai Champloo, Brandon Heat in Gungrave)<br />
<br />
Part 2- Licensing-<br />
<br />
choose one company you think should get the rights of releasing DeathNote on DVD in America:<br />
<br />
[ ]-Funimation<br />
<br />
[X]-Geneon<br />
<br />
[ ]-ADV<br />
<br />
[ ]-Manga Video<br />
<br />
[ ]-Tokyopop<br />
<br />
[ ]-Viz<br />
<br />
[ ]-BANDAI<br />
<br />
[ ]-U.S Manga Corps<br />
<br />
[ ]-Media Blasters (a.k.a Anime Works)<br />
<br />
Part 3- Television-<br />
<br />
What network do you think should air Death Note?<br />
<br />
[X]Cartoon Network? <br />
     -if so,<br />
      [ ]Toonami or [X]Adult Swim?<br />
<br />
[ ]G4 (Anime Unleashed is gone...)<br />
<br />
[ ]Action Channel? (Uncensored-ness)<br />
<br />
[ ]Anime Network?<br />
<br />
[ ]Part 4- Ratings-<br />
<br />
What do you think Death Note would get as an Age rating?<br />
<br />
[ ]Suggested 3+<br />
<br />
[ ]Suggested 7+<br />
<br />
[ ]Suggested 10+<br />
<br />
[ ]Suggested 13+<br />
<br />
[X]Suggested 16+<br />
<br />
[ ]Suggested 18+<br /><br /> ]]></description>
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                <title>God is good.</title>
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                <pubDate>Wed, 10 Jan 2007 22:13:47 PST</pubDate>
                
                <description><![CDATA[ and he is only good BECAUSE no one isn't DEAD yet.. not by my hand at least.  That's not to say I haven't THOUGHT about it seriously though... >_< <br />
<br />
So today was... tolerable.  I got out of school without any bloodstains... so yeah... but like okay, get this: I get out, and I'm ready to go home, take a long-ass nap and do my small mountain of hw, which would have only taken me about an hour and a half or so, be done with it by around 7, watch some That 70's Show with mom, eat dinner, call Maddy, & go to bed.  but fate had other plans... or my grandmother, whichever.  she calls me, and tells me i have math tutoring, which means i wasn't going to BE home till 7 fucking thirty at night, and i'd be DONE with homework at 8.  it gets better though.  my tutor assigns me for homework (which is to be done by tommorrow night because i'm going back >.&lt<img src="http://e.deviantart.com/emoticons/w/wink.gif" width="15" height="15" alt=";)" title=";) (Wink)" /> BOTH OF THE MATH STUDY GUIDES.  ALL 64 FUCKING PROBLEMS OF THEM.  so grandma gets off the freeway, and i'm thinking "two blocks and i'm home free" (literally), but then instead of dropping me off and having the whole goddamn ordeal be done with, she stops, gets out with me, and announces we will be doing all my homework from tutoring right now............................................................................<br />
<br />
<br />
<br />
three hours later.......<br />
<br />
<br />
HERE I AM.<br />
<br />
<br />
*pulls out uzi*  <br />
<br />
any complaints? <img src="http://e.deviantart.com/emoticons/b/biggrin.gif" width="15" height="15" alt=":D" title=":D (Big Grin)" />  <br />
<br />
*cocks*  <br />
<br />
I'm happy to here them! ^_^<br />
<br />
*twitch* <br />
<br />
NO ONE HUH!?!?!? D:<<br />
<br />
*sprays the entire room with gunfire*<br />
<br />
*pant...*  *pant...*  *pant...* <br />
<br />
*steps over dead bodies* <br />
<br />
*drops uzi on the floor*<br />
*walks outside*<br />
<br />
I feel better now! ^_______________________^<br />
<br />
<br />
I love you all, MF's!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!! xP<br />
<br />
*insanity/boredom/stress-overload/anger* <br />
<br />
-MaxX<br /><br /> ]]></description>
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                <title>Uh huh</title>
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                <pubDate>Wed, 10 Jan 2007 06:54:09 PST</pubDate>
                
                <description><![CDATA[ Going to school- I DO NOT WANT TO GO!!!! ARGHHH!!!!<br />
<br />
If one more of those pricks in weight training lays a FUCKIN' hand on me, I'm kicking their fucking ass.  <br />
<br />
If I'm not on DA for a while, means I got grounded.  -_-<br />
<br />
<br />
laterz<br /><br /> ]]></description>
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                <title>I don't wanna go back...</title>
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                <pubDate>Sun, 07 Jan 2007 18:46:13 PST</pubDate>
                
                <description><![CDATA[ My mom screamed at me just a little bit ago about my schoolwork.  I hate this place.  I hate this stupid town, I hate this house, I hate living with a mother who has chronic depression and I hate the fact that nobody was around to teach me good work-ethic because now I'm a lazy fuck.  I have nothing to give back to the world... nothing to show people that I'm not worthless... what happens when I get to the real world??  When I have to prove myself FOR REAL??  Jesus christ... I'm so worthless.<br /><br /> ]]></description>
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                <title>YARGHH</title>
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                <pubDate>Fri, 05 Jan 2007 17:10:42 PST</pubDate>
                
                <description><![CDATA[ My little cousin had me take care of her dog for the weekend... this dog is pissing all over my house and it's driving me nuts.  i have to sleep with the fucking furball in my room!! SHIT!!! i could have said no to this....FUUUUUUUUUCK!!!!!!!!!!!!!<br /><br /> ]]></description>
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                <title>I'm done</title>
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                <pubDate>Thu, 04 Jan 2007 19:39:20 PST</pubDate>
                
                <description><![CDATA[ with myspace.  I just deleted it.  I'm really sick of the whole thing.  Anyway... yeah.<br /><br /> ]]></description>
                <author>~XxZerstoreNxX</author>
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                <title>Different day, ALMOST the same journal.</title>
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                <pubDate>Tue, 02 Jan 2007 13:15:33 PST</pubDate>
                
                <description><![CDATA[ Hmmm I'm tired.  I went to downtown LA with my grandma today and she got me some cool new stuff.  I had a nice Christmas, a good New Year, and a good sleep.  I'm happy.  =]<br /><br /> ]]></description>
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                <title>Merry Christmas, are you down with the sickness?</title>
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                <pubDate>Tue, 26 Dec 2006 10:28:23 PST</pubDate>
                
                <description><![CDATA[ Christmas is overrrr!  Yeeee I got an iPod FINALLY!!! AND I got a digital camera so I'll be able to submit some NEW AND GOOD art for a change lmao.  *sigh* I got to talk to my little brother and sister, and it was so nice to hear their voices.  My little sis talked to our dear old dad, which of course means he didn't have the balls to call his oldest son.  Heh I guess he figured to call the kid he'd get the least flack from (which was smart thinking, cowardly as it was), and he gave her some cop-out bullshit excuse for why he hasn't been calling them.  So I figured she's old enough to know the truth about dad, at least a watered down version of it, and told her that her dad is wrapped up in his own pointless little world and doesn't see things right a lot of the time, but that he loves all three of us kids.  I need to get their presents in the mail, too.  I would have mailed those sooner, but  Mom was so busy shopping and I don't have a set of wheels or a post office near me so anyway, yeah.  I'm just trying to get closer to the family that's my age.  I was supposed to take my little cousin to Pickwick today for some DDR but I'm sick as a dog right now.  Gah.. listen to me all stuffed up it's horrible.  Momma's gonna go get some Robotussin soon.  Ugh..  BUT I still have plenty of new shit to keep me company and occupy myself with! ^_________^ I still have a question though... Christmas is over, WHY THE FUCK AREN'T THERE ANY NEW DEATHNOTE EPISODES ON YOUTUBE!?!?!!?!?!?!? TT_TT  I wanna see what happeeeeeeeennnns *wine*  Okay, enough bitching.  I hafta go help with the laundry now, and unstuff my nose.  <br />
<br />
Peace/Love,<br />
MaxX Shadow<br /><br /> ]]></description>
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                <title>See you guys around..</title>
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                <pubDate>Tue, 12 Dec 2006 08:42:56 PST</pubDate>
                
                <description><![CDATA[ I'm moving to Portland! ^___________________^ <br />
<br />
I'ma get ta see Maddy more!!!!!!!!!!! ^___^    YAYYYYYYYYYYYYY!<br />
Peace/love, folks.  Latahz<br /><br /> ]]></description>
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                <title>Christmas! ^_^</title>
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                <pubDate>Tue, 05 Dec 2006 06:22:31 PST</pubDate>
                
                <description><![CDATA[ I just had a dream that it was Christmas and I got a lot of shit that I REALLY wanted... EXCEPT seeing Maddy TT^TT but yeah I'm excited for Christmas!!! ^_________^<br />
<br />
We get our tree next sunday and I can't wait!  YayyyY!<br /><br /> ]]></description>
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                <title>Hmm..</title>
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                <pubDate>Mon, 04 Dec 2006 16:44:47 PST</pubDate>
                
                <description><![CDATA[ God this journal progressively gets better and better doesn't it?  *sigh* Not many of you know, but I'm from Seattle.  I didn't live there very long, but I was born there and I've been to Pike Place Market, so I think I at least qualify for an <i>honorary</i> citizen.  So as of this year, someone from up there moved down here.  I feel bad for them because this city feeds on people's best intentions and ignorance, creating a social nightmare surpassed only by the crime level.  Los Angeles has slowly been sucking the life out of me since I was old enough to know how cruel people can be.  Which is why I want to get out, <i>badly</i>.  I want to move out so bad it hurts... but there's a reason for it now.  Originally, the part of me that is affraid of change deeply opposed this idea, for fear of starting off with no friends again.  Unfortunatly, that part of me has governed quite a portion of my life.  But now, a different side of me is awakening.  I started talking to a girl, whom I met through this person that now lives here in Los Angeles.  The good news is that she is, for all intents and purposes, the epitome of beauty in the eyes the this beholder.  Her looks, personality, everything.  Her type isn't uncommon, but not a dime a dozen either.  I would see girls like her at school, and I'd hurt.  Because I got it in my head that I'd never have a fighting chance with them.  But now... this one wants me just as bad as I want her... Love her... the only thing separating the two of us is a good 5,000 miles... naturally, though, the one whom I met this girl through is... disapproving of this situation to say the least.  I understand though, and I know why and the reason is valid enough, difficult though it is knowing that there is someone who would have us apart.  But this person seems understanding of the situation as well and when talking to me exercised quite a bit of self restraint (for which I thank them whole-heartedly).  But that aside, the bigger problem here is my mother... even if we did move... we would be going to Portland Oregon... 5 hours from Seattle!  I need to see Maddy though!  Whatever the cost.  I would give my freedom, my happiness... almost anything just to see her... I don't know what I'm going to do... this is indeed a difficult situation.  Maybe it's fate's way of telling me to look for an opportunity and take it no matter how crazy it is... when I say I'd do anything to see her, I mean I'd do ANYTHING!!!!!!!  Let things come as they will... I will not let the gods of fate take you away, Maddy!  Not now, not ever!<br /><br /> ]]></description>
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                <title>I hate her.</title>
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                <pubDate>Tue, 28 Nov 2006 06:38:55 PST</pubDate>
                
                <description><![CDATA[ My mother.  I'm getting back together with Juliet.  DON'T ANY OF YOU DARE SAY ANYTHING ABOUT THAT IF YOU GIVE ME ANY SHIT ABOUT THAT AT ALL CONSIDER YOURSELF BLOCKED.  But my mother seems to think she has the fucking right to give my relationships running commentary.  I mean, tell me how that's fair!!  I take every bit of advice she gives me as best I can, and I know that she has a right to give me that advice but I feel that I have the right, now, to my OWN RELATIONSHIPS.  I tried to tell her off last night, too.  I got off the phone with Juliet and she looks up at me and says "You're using her."  and I said "Mom, you can stop right there.  I'll take any advice about schooling, or piano, or anything like that.  But I WILL NOT tolerate you telling me how to run my love life."  so she gets up in my face and starts screaming at me like I'm WRONG!!!  I listen to her BITCH at me every fucking day!!!!!!  She makes me want to DIE and still that's not fucking enough!!!!!!  On top of having my grades to deal with, HER to please with my GRADES, and my FRIENDS to please even though they don't deserve it, and JULIET HERSELF to keep happy, I now have that BITCH BUTTING IN ON ONE PART OF MY LIFE THAT <i>TRULY IS NONE OF HER FUCKING BUSINESS</i>!!!!!!!!!!!<br /><br /> ]]></description>
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                <title>MORE music</title>
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                <pubDate>Sat, 25 Nov 2006 01:23:24 PST</pubDate>
                
                <description><![CDATA[ ----<br />
YOUR LIFE WAS A MOVIE, WHAT WOULD THE SOUNDTRACK BE?<br />
So, here's how it works:<br />
1. Open your library (iTunes, Winamp, Media Player, iPod, etc)<br />
2. Put it on shuffle<br />
3. Press play<br />
4. For every question, type the song that's playing<br />
5. When you go to a new question, press the next button<br />
6. Don't lie and try to pretend you're cool..<br />
<br />
Opening Credits/<br />
Cold- Devildrive<br />
~~~~~~~~~~~<br />
Waking Up/<br />
The Beautiful People- Marylin Manson<br />
<br />
haha nice<br />
~~~~~~~~~~~<br />
First day at school/<br />
LEADING CYBER- DDR<br />
umm okay<br />
~~~~~~~~~~~<br />
Making your new best friend/<br />
The Heat is On- Bust a Groove 2<br />
umm sure okay<br />
~~~~~~~~~~~<br />
Falling in love/<br />
Save Music- Resident Evil 4<br />
how tranquil and sickening i bet the scene is deliciously disturbing =]<br />
~~~~~~~~~~~<br />
Breaking up/<br />
Clubbed to Death II- Rob Dougan<br />
<br />
Heh that song has made me cry before...<br />
~~~~~~~~~~~<br />
Prom/<br />
The Hand that Feeds- NIN<br />
okay good dancing i guess??<br />
~~~~~~~~~~~<br />
Graduation/<br />
House of the Rising Sun- Pink Floyd<br />
<br />
niiiiice<br />
~~~~~~~~~~~<br />
Life's okay/<br />
Rain of Brass Petals- Silent Hill 3<br />
<br />
doesn't quite sound like it really.. mmm nope, not feeling it<br />
~~~~~~~~~~~<br />
Death of a Friend/<br />
Ein Lied- Rammstein<br />
<br />
very melancholy<br />
~~~~~~~~~~~<br />
Mental Breakdown/<br />
Grind- Alice in Chains<br />
<br />
yeah... 'bout right<br />
~~~~~~~~~~~<br />
Driving/<br />
G2- DDR<br />
<br />
haha eerie<br />
~~~~~~~~~~~<br />
Flashback/<br />
ROSENROT- Rammstein<br />
<br />
that's pretty good flashback music actually<br />
~~~~~~~~~~~<br />
Getting back together/<br />
Stella By Moor- Yoko Kanno<br />
awww<br />
~~~~~~~~~~~<br />
Birth of a Child/<br />
Stupid Girl- Cold<br />
<br />
hmmmm..?<br />
~~~~~~~~~~~<br />
Wedding Scene/<br />
H! Vltg3- Linkin Park<br />
~~~~~~~~~~~<br />
Car accident/<br />
Lowdown- Trigun<br />
<br />
okay...<br />
~~~~~~~~~~~<br />
Final Battle/<br />
I Hate Everything About You- Three days Grace<br />
~~~~~~~~~~~<br />
Death Scene/<br />
Under the Moon- ICP<br />
<br />
That song depresses me<br />
~~~~~~~~~~~<br />
Funeral Song/<br />
Roulette- System of a Down<br />
<br />
fitting<br />
~~~~~~~~~~~<br />
End Credits/<br />
Vital-IDEATE<br />
<br />
wow good song!<br /><br /> ]]></description>
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                <title>Me gusta escuchar musica</title>
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                <pubDate>Fri, 24 Nov 2006 22:14:55 PST</pubDate>
                
                <description><![CDATA[ stolen from :charexl-chan:<br />
<br />
How are you feeling today?<br />
I'm The Man- Anthrax<br />
ummm okay O.o<br />
~~~~~~~~~~~<br />
Will you get far in life?<br />
Mein Teil- Rammstien<br />
i'll fight over a steak?<br />
~~~~~~~~~~~<br />
What do your friends see in you?<br />
Fraternally Yours, 666- Cradle of Filth<br />
<br />
LMAO yeah that's about right<br />
~~~~~~~~~~~<br />
What is your best friend's theme song?<br />
Kokain- Rammstein<br />
OUCH!!!! lmao thats funny<br />
~~~~~~~~~~~<br />
What is the story of your life?<br />
Rape, Robbery, and Violence- KMFDM featuring Pigface<br />
oh man...<br />
~~~~~~~~~~~<br />
What was high school like?<br />
Angel of Death- Slayer<br />
yeah high school IS a bitch lmao<br />
~~~~~~~~~~~<br />
How can you get ahead in life?<br />
Gimme Some Money- Spinal Tap<br />
HAHA PERFECT!!<br />
~~~~~~~~~~~<br />
What is the best thing about your friends?<br />
Paranoiac- Marylin Manson<br />
okay...<br />
~~~~~~~~~~~<br />
What is in store for this weekend?<br />
A- DJ Amuro (DDR)<br />
haha DDR indeed!<br />
~~~~~~~~~~~<br />
What song describes you?<br />
Am I Going Crazy- Korn<br />
<br />
yeah that's about right too<br />
~~~~~~~~~~~<br />
To describe your grandparents?<br />
Call of Ktulu- Metallica<br />
<br />
umm okay...?<br />
~~~~~~~~~~~<br />
How is your life going?<br />
Assimilate- Skinny Puppy<br />
<br />
sure okay<br />
~~~~~~~~~~~<br />
What song will they play at your funeral?<br />
Bloodwork- 36 Crazy Fists<br />
~~~~~~~~~~~<br />
How does the world see you?<br />
Ein Lied- Rammstein<br />
<br />
i actually know what that songs about and i'm flattered<br />
~~~~~~~~~~~<br />
Will you have a happy life?<br />
Darkness Our Bride- Cradle of Filth<br />
<br />
yay??<br />
~~~~~~~~~~~<br />
What do your friends really think of you?<br />
Hail Satan- MSI<br />
<br />
HAHAHAHAHAHAHAHAHAHAHAHAHAHAHAHAHAHAHAHA HAHAHAHAHAHAHAHAHAHAHAHAHAHAHAHAHAHAHAHA HAHAHAHAHAHAHAHAHAHAHAHAHAHAHAHAHAHAHAHA HAHAHAHAHAHAHAHAHAHAHAHAHAHAHAHAHAHA<br />
~~~~~~~~~~~<br />
Do people secretly lust after you?<br />
Let's Get This Party Started- Korn<br />
<br />
ummm that can mean 1 of 2 things if it means the first one then yay but if it means the second one then god DAMN that's depressing<br />
~~~~~~~~~~~<br />
How can I make myself happy?<br />
Immortal- Adema<br />
become immortal and fight???<br />
~~~~~~~~~~~<br />
What should you do with your life?<br />
In Secret Love We Drown- Cradle of Filth<br />
<br />
sure okay<br />
~~~~~~~~~~~<br />
Will you ever have children?<br />
The Perfect Drug- Nine Inch Nails<br />
<br />
so i'm gonna have drugged out teenagers??? aw shit!!<br />
~~~~~~~~~~~<br /><br /> ]]></description>
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                <title>Damn it</title>
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                <pubDate>Thu, 23 Nov 2006 22:32:37 PST</pubDate>
                
                <description><![CDATA[ I hate having my words twisted by people.  I'm not perfect.  I don't know exactly what to say all the time but damn it I mean well!!! I know that It doesn't always seem like it but I really just want someone to hold.  Someone that will at least try to see through my facades and pretenses and realize there's a scared little boy hiding inside all the armor I put on to protect myself.  If anyone comments and has the audacity to get mad at me for this journal, I will never talk to you again.  This IS my only outlet.  I don't like showing my feelings in person.  Or at least I try not to.  It feels degrating.  But why can't I make them understand how helpless I really am???  I'm not emotionally stable, strong, or all that mature.  I'm still a little kid on the inside.  I'm tired of crawling inside of myself everyday and waiting for when I get to go home.  Even when I'm around the people I call my friends I feel completely alone.  I give up.  Whatever.  Nobody's really listening.<br /><br /> ]]></description>
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                <title>Here we go again</title>
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                <pubDate>Mon, 20 Nov 2006 06:58:42 PST</pubDate>
                
                <description><![CDATA[ Anna hates me but I guess that's to be expected.  I actually don't really care to be honest.   Really, honestly I can say I'm okay.  I'm just glad to be rid of the little bitch.  I didn't see through her facade.  I thought she was my dream girl but really she was just a spoiled little brat on the inside.  But now that she's gone, I have a whole 'nother batch of issues.  First and foremost, my mother will not leave me alone about school.  Every other word out of her mouth is about it and it's starting to get to me.  As for my social life, my friends are still there but I don't think we're all as close.  I guess I'm popular with the ladies now heh... a few of them at least.  Because as soon as they got wind of how I dumped Anna, they moved in on me like nothing else.  To be quite honest, I don't know what the hell I want right now.  I don't suppose this will get any easier so I might as well just bite the bullet now, but I just need to figure out which direction the bullet is gonna come from.  *sigh* I don't know where this is going...  was I wrong?  Did I take a wrong turn somewhere?  Maybe I wasn't suppose to end up this way.  I don't know what deity is running things but I think someone with divine influence has it in for me like nobody's business.  It can't be helped though.  Anyway, here I go, off to school for another funfilled week in a crap-shoot that never should have existed.  But I digress.  This isn't whining, by the way.  This is just me reviewing what's in my mind.  Consider this my thinking out loud.  I'm trying to devise a plan of action.  I think I'm failing though.  So I suppose that's the end of that.  <br />
<br />
Peace/love,<br />
MaxX<br /><br /> ]]></description>
                <author>~XxZerstoreNxX</author>
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                <title>Not much of a week</title>
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                <pubDate>Fri, 17 Nov 2006 21:57:24 PST</pubDate>
                
                <description><![CDATA[ this entire week sucked, BADLY.  I got dumped, beaten, screamed at, and just generally dicked over in every way shape and form.  Boy am I glad it's over.  The week AND the relationship.  So now, the only problem I have is women.  I need to figure out my next move since many eagerly await it.  So many people, too many to please, so much work, and too little hours in the day.  *sigh* I need a drink.  I'm gonna go get one.  ttyl, DA.<br />
<br />
<br />
Peace, <br />
<br />
MaxX<br />
(MSG)<br /><br /> ]]></description>
                <author>~XxZerstoreNxX</author>
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                <title>Revelations?</title>
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                <pubDate>Mon, 13 Nov 2006 06:51:18 PST</pubDate>
                
                <description><![CDATA[ I dunno... I guess that was off my chest.  I finally told someone something that I had to tell them for a long time and I'm glad it's over.  There's still so much to deal with though.... Damn it.  I don't know how much more of this I can take.<br /><br /> ]]></description>
                <author>~XxZerstoreNxX</author>
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                <title>Life Soundtrack</title>
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                <pubDate>Sun, 12 Nov 2006 21:59:45 PST</pubDate>
                
                <description><![CDATA[ YOUR LIFE WAS A MOVIE, WHAT WOULD THE SOUNDTRACK BE?<br />
So, here's how it works:<br />
1. Open your library (iTunes, Winamp, Media Player, iPod, etc)<br />
2. Put it on shuffle<br />
3. Press play<br />
4. For every question, type the song that's playing<br />
5. When you go to a new question, press the next button<br />
6. Don't lie and try to pretend you're cool..<br />
<br />
Opening Credits/<br />
Figure .09- Linkin Park<br />
<br />
Waking Up/<br />
(s)AINT- Marylin Manson<br />
<br />
First day at school/<br />
Hoghunter- KMFDM<br />
<br />
Making your new best friend/<br />
MAX FOREVER-DM Ashura<br />
<br />
Falling in love/<br />
GARBAGE- Dir En Grey<br />
<br />
Breaking up/<br />
Nobody's Real- Powerman 5000<br />
<br />
Prom/<br />
Search and Destroy- KMFDM<br />
<br />
Graduation/<br />
CALL ME CALL ME- Steve Conte<br />
<br />
Life's okay/<br />
Another Brick in the Wall- Marylin Manson<br />
<br />
Death of a Friend/<br />
Love Lost in a Hail of Gunfire- Bleeding Through<br />
<br />
Mental Breakdown/<br />
Wait and Bleed- Slipknot<br />
<br />
Driving/<br />
Up to Me- Opiate For the Masses<br />
<br />
Flashback/<br />
Funeral in Carpathia (Be Quick or Be Dead Version)- Cradle of Filth<br />
<br />
Getting back together/<br />
Clubbed to Death III- Rob Dougan<br />
<br />
Birth of a Child/<br />
Lost Planet- Trigun<br />
<br />
Wedding Scene/<br />
Healing Vision- DDR<br />
<br />
Car accident/<br />
Coming Undone (Acoustic Version)- KoRn<br />
<br />
Final Battle-<br />
Dirge Inferno- Cradle of Filth<br />
<br />
Death Scene/<br />
Undecided- Dir En Grey<br />
<br />
Funeral Song/<br />
Time and Time Again- Chronic Future<br />
<br />
End Credits/<br />
Prepare to Die. Go! Go! Go!- Pigface<br /><br /> ]]></description>
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                <title>God damn it.</title>
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                <pubDate>Sun, 12 Nov 2006 21:45:39 PST</pubDate>
                
                <description><![CDATA[ This just never ends, I know.  The emo-ness is enough to make you wanna gag.  No one seems to get it.  I know I may act different, a little wierd, and sometimes say some stupid things, but I'm no different from you.  Cut me and I bleed.  I hurt, same as you guys.  I don't know how to make anyone understand that I'm the same.  I'm not a monster... or at least I don't think I am.  I don't really know anymore.  I just hope that things don't stay like this.  I don't know how much longer I can take it.<br /><br /> ]]></description>
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                <title>Digging up the past.</title>
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                <pubDate>Wed, 08 Nov 2006 07:05:03 PST</pubDate>
                
                <description><![CDATA[ If there was a bar in hell all they would serve was robotussin, by the keg!!!  Jesus, I swear, I'm gagging just thinking of it.  That stuff is horrible!!!  Haha I call it my death elixir so you can always here me if I'm sick say to my mom "yeah, don't mind me I'm takin' my death elixir!" yeah...  <br />
<br />
So yesterday, I was going through my elementary school yearbook, thinking to myself "god what I wouldn't give to see my old friends again."  So all of a sudden I realized something.  They probably all have myspaces now.  I didn't find EVERYONE but I found one girl I barely knew named Morgan (pretty cute too) but she's the only one who's replied to me yet.  I also found Casey.  Casey Stoner was an old buddy of mine all through Stevenson.  Then his mom got her ass evicted and they moved to Calabassas where we kept contact.  But about 5 years ago they just disappeared.  But I finally found him.  I missed that guy.  So yeah.  <br />
<br />
Peace/Love,<br />
MaxX<br /><br /> ]]></description>
                <author>~XxZerstoreNxX</author>
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                <title>SICKNESS/KICKING ADDICTION</title>
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                <pubDate>Tue, 07 Nov 2006 10:38:40 PST</pubDate>
                
                <description><![CDATA[ I'm sick so... yeah... this blows.  Now I have a butt load of HW to catch up on and I don't get to see my friends (not that they really care that I'm gone)  and yeah... I HATE being sick.  You know what I wanna do?  I wanna play DDR.  I bet if I played long enough at the arcade, I'd sweat this stupid bug out.  URGHH!!!<br />
<br />
>.> I bet those of you that opened this thought I was gonna say I was kicking my DDR addiction.  But no, I'm not.  NEVER!!!!!!!!!!<br />
<br />
I AM however, trying to kick my cussing addiction.  I mean I say 'fuck' a LOT.  WAY too much and I've known that for a while now and it has to stop.  I mean the occasional 'F-Bomb' is okay in my book but not every other word you know?  It's like the difference between having a drink on your birthday and being drunk off your ass every day.  So yeah... wish me luck, guys!  <br />
<br />
Peace, MaxX<br /><br /> ]]></description>
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                <title>Can anyone remember?</title>
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                <pubDate>Mon, 06 Nov 2006 07:04:59 PST</pubDate>
                
                <description><![CDATA[ The OLD adult swim!! The one with the wierd robot voice?  THE ONE WITH YU YU HAKUSHO!!!! Dude, I found old AS promos on YouTube and I can't stop watching them it's like a trip in time for me.  I can't believe that that is actually so old but it really is.  It came out when I was in like... fifth grade.  So yeah... lol I'm such a nerd.  But CARTOON NETWORK IS A BUNCH OF FUCKING IDIOTS!! AS SUCKS NOW!!!<br />
<br />
Well except for Bleach and Trinity Blood >.><br />
<br />
Much love,<br />
<br />
MaxX -gENJO-<br />
<br />
PS: <br />
<br />
the YYH trailer for Adult Swim is <a href="http://www.youtube.com/watch?v=5Uk4zIAj2Ho&mode=related&search=">here</a><br />
<br />
and the YYH trailer for Toonami is <a href="http://www.youtube.com/watch?v=EF2uSu-6haA&mode=related&search=">here</a><br />
<br />
and <a href="http://www.youtube.com/watch?v><img src="http://e.deviantart.com/emoticons/r/razz.gif" width="15" height="15" alt="=P" title="=P (Razz)" />PvTvuRmeGs&mode=related&search="this</a>, would be an old clip from the adult swim saturday lineup which should bring back memories for a lot of you<br /><br /> ]]></description>
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                <title>Homecoming</title>
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                <pubDate>Sun, 05 Nov 2006 01:17:53 PST</pubDate>
                
                <description><![CDATA[ Homecoming was so much fun.  I don't think I've ever been so happy.  Everyone met Anna and everyone got along.  The only complaint I had is that she was a better dancer than me (I'm such a typical white-boy).  We had many romantic moments ^.^  So after the dance, my grandma (bless her heart) arms me with FORTY BUCKS, and drops us off at Bob's Big Boy (which was of course packed).  We had a nice dinner together (which was pretty much on me).  The food wasn't great but I enjoyed being with Anna.  It was pretty much a movie moment when we were waiting for Mom to come pick us up.  <br />
<br />
Anna:  I'm cold! <br />
<br />
Me: Aww I'm sorry baby *takes off jacket and puts it on over Anna's shawl*<br />
<br />
Anna: *takes off jacket and shawl, then puts on jacket first*<br />
<br />
Me: *Picks up shawl and puts it on over the jacket and wraps arms around Anna, kissing her neck*<br />
<br />
Random old man eating dinner:  Nice move!  *raises drink in toast*<br />
<br />
lmfao.  That made me smile.<br />
<br />
Heh, Anna fell asleep in my lap.  She's so sweet.  I couldn't stop stroking her hair.  She's beautiful... she's perfect.  I can't stand being apart from her.  I think I may have found something that's worth it.  <br />
<br />
Just a little update,<br />
<br />
Much Love, <br />
MaxX<br /><br /> ]]></description>
                <author>~XxZerstoreNxX</author>
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                <title>Aw man....</title>
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                <pubDate>Wed, 01 Nov 2006 06:42:34 PST</pubDate>
                
                <description><![CDATA[ Halloween is over! T_T But ah well.  I had so much fun yesterday.  I learned two things: not as many people listen to ICP as I thought; and there are a fuckload of people that are scared shitless of clowns lmao.  But school was only a quarter of the fun.  After that I got free candy from Otto's cause I went in and said "trick or treat" lmao does that not rock?  And then I went trick or treating with Anna, who brought a couple of her cute friends with her (one of them I have a suspicion was flirting with me hahaha) BUT I AM STILL COMPLETELY FAITHFUL TO ANNA ^.^.  After we trick or treated, we came home and I dazzled her and her friends with my *L A M E* freestyling of Speed Over Beethoven on DDR.  So then her friends left and Anna, our parents, and I went out to dinner at some divey Italian joint.  I ended up washing my makeup off because I wanted to be able to kiss Anna and it also itched like fucking hell.  After a half an hour we went outside and sat down and cuddled under her jacket and had a bit of a romantic moment outside.  I couldn't have been happier.  Then I came home and knocked out completely.  And here I am now.  And I have a FUCKING HEADACHE!!!!!!!!!!! T_T<br /><br /> ]]></description>
                <author>~XxZerstoreNxX</author>
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                <title>HAPPY HALLOWEEN!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!</title>
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                <pubDate>Tue, 31 Oct 2006 06:41:29 PST</pubDate>
                
                <description><![CDATA[ Yup it's Halloween.  I am all clowned up now.  I'm bein' a Juggalo this year.  Violent J to be exact.  I'll post pics very soon.  I'm down wit da clown!!  Yeah!!!!!<br />
<br />
C L O W N - L U V   F O R E V E R ! ! !  <br />
<br />
JUGGALOS FO' LIFE!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!<br /><br /> ]]></description>
                <author>~XxZerstoreNxX</author>
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                <title>HYPER</title>
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                <pubDate>Mon, 30 Oct 2006 20:19:43 PST</pubDate>
                
                <description><![CDATA[ I'M HYPER CUZ HALLOWEENS 2MORROW AND I JUST DID 2 L337 COMICS YES RAWR YOU KNOW THEY'RE THA SHITZ GO COMMENT NOW OR I WILL COME AND PWN YOUR SOUL WITH A CHAINSAW RAWW!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!<br /><br /> ]]></description>
                <author>~XxZerstoreNxX</author>
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                <title>Tommorrow WAS the SHITZ</title>
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                <pubDate>Sun, 29 Oct 2006 17:02:46 PST</pubDate>
                
                <description><![CDATA[ I WAS RIGHT MO'FUCKAS!!!!!!!!!<br /><br /> ]]></description>
                <author>~XxZerstoreNxX</author>
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                <title>Tommorrow will be the SHITZ!!!!</title>
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                <pubDate>Fri, 27 Oct 2006 21:53:29 PDT</pubDate>
                
                <description><![CDATA[ So okay, I'ma get up, fuck around online (prolly here on DA) then, at 12:30 I'm going to Pickwick and play some DDR mo'fuckas!!!!! So then, after being filmed freestyling (^_^), I will go to Anna's party all gothed up looking like death himself.  YEAH!!!!!! Halloween has begun!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!1<br /><br /> ]]></description>
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                <title>This is a rant.  It's an angry one.  If my emotion</title>
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                <pubDate>Mon, 23 Oct 2006 20:09:57 PDT</pubDate>
                
                <description><![CDATA[ I'm so fucking sick of all of these people trying to push me down every time I do something different.  Everytime I try to be unique or have my own thing, I get cut down to size.  And another thing; some people need to quit YELLING AT ME.  I'm not kidding, people actually fucking yell at me, and LECTURE ME.  PEOPLE MY AGE OR YOUNGER.  That's not fucking right, because you are NOT my MOTHER and you have NO RIGHT to say things like that about me.  And besides, I get enough of that shit from her.  I'm sick of her, too.  I hate living under this roof I don't know how much longer I will last.  I want to turn 18, and move the hell out.  I hate going to school.  I loathe every second I'm there.  It's full of incompetent, worthless idiots who have the I.Q of a housefly.  I see so much damned stupidity.  I'm tired of guys who think they're thugs and are really just pieces of shit who in 10 years will be living with their mothers.  And I HATE RELIGION.  I'm tired of being attacked with a Bible and a threat of damnation.  HAIL SATAN.  There, I said it.  Tell me I'm going to hell.  I dare you.  I double dare you!!!  And you know what?  I'm TIRED OF THE JOKES.  PEOPLE NEED TO LEARN THAT WHEN I NOD AND SAY NOTHING, IT MEANS I'M NOT GOING IN FOR IT, AND IT'S NOT FUNNY.  THE SAN FRANCISCO/UGLY/GAY/GIRL SCHTICK WAS FUNNY <i>ONCE</i>.  Last thing.  I KNOW THAT I'M WEAK.  I have no muscles.  I have no self esteem.  I am fat.  I am hairy.  I KNOW.  SHUT THE FUCK UP.  I KNOW.  The next time someone gives me shit, I do not CARE who is there, I will MERCILESSLY BEAT/TORTURE THEM UNTIL THEY ARE SCREAMING FOR MERCY.  I'm DONE.  OKAY? I'm fucking DONE.<br /><br /> ]]></description>
                <author>~XxZerstoreNxX</author>
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                <title>This is a rant.  It's an angry one.  If my emotion</title>
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                <pubDate>Mon, 23 Oct 2006 20:09:55 PDT</pubDate>
                
                <description><![CDATA[ I'm so fucking sick of all of these people trying to push me down every time I do something different.  Everytime I try to be unique or have my own thing, I get cut down to size.  And another thing; some people need to quit YELLING AT ME.  I'm not kidding, people actually fucking yell at me, and LECTURE ME.  PEOPLE MY AGE OR YOUNGER.  That's not fucking right, because you are NOT my MOTHER and you have NO RIGHT to say things like that about me.  And besides, I get enough of that shit from her.  I'm sick of her, too.  I hate living under this roof I don't know how much longer I will last.  I want to turn 18, and move the hell out.  I hate going to school.  I loathe every second I'm there.  It's full of incompetent, worthless idiots who have the I.Q of a housefly.  I see so much damned stupidity.  I'm tired of guys who think they're thugs and are really just pieces of shit who in 10 years will be living with their mothers.  And I HATE RELIGION.  I'm tired of being attacked with a Bible and a threat of damnation.  HAIL SATAN.  There, I said it.  Tell me I'm going to hell.  I dare you.  I double dare you!!!  And you know what?  I'm TIRED OF THE JOKES.  PEOPLE NEED TO LEARN THAT WHEN I NOD AND SAY NOTHING, IT MEANS I'M NOT GOING IN FOR IT, AND IT'S NOT FUNNY.  THE SAN FRANCISCO/UGLY/GAY/GIRL SCHTICK WAS FUNNY <i>ONCE</i>.  Last thing.  I KNOW THAT I'M WEAK.  I have no muscles.  I have no self esteem.  I am fat.  I am hairy.  I KNOW.  SHUT THE FUCK UP.  I KNOW.  The next time someone gives me shit, I do not CARE who is there, I will MERCILESSLY BEAT/TORTURE THEM UNTIL THEY ARE SCREAMING FOR MERCY.  I'm DONE.  OKAY? I'm fucking DONE.<br /><br /> ]]></description>
                <author>~XxZerstoreNxX</author>
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                <title>Best Night Ever!!!</title>
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                <pubDate>Sun, 22 Oct 2006 12:44:11 PDT</pubDate>
                
                <description><![CDATA[ Yeah... yesterday I went and hung out with Anna for the entire day.  I watched her horseback ride, then went back to her house where we messed around on her computer and I bought her an ICP song.  BEVERLY KILLS 50187!!! lmao.  Then we went out to dinner, and I bought a pair of red shades, and an assortment of other little cheap gothic bracelets and the like, and had dinner at C.P.K's.  Then we saw Sweet Charity, which was nothing to write home about.  Oh yeah, that's right I threatened Elmo.  lmao.  Anna looked so beautiful in her red dress.  I didn't know she swing-danced!! A girl that can swing dance is SEXII with two i's lmao.  God I love her I'm so lucky.  Then we went to Bob's and had shakes, and fries all around.  very good night.  ^_^<br /><br /> ]]></description>
                <author>~XxZerstoreNxX</author>
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                <title>Comedy Club</title>
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                <pubDate>Wed, 18 Oct 2006 06:49:18 PDT</pubDate>
                
                <description><![CDATA[ To date, improv comedy is the first club I've ever joined in high school, not counting anime club last year because no one DID ANYTHING their.   They just sat on their lazy asses and watched mediocre anime.  But yeah... I have to admit defeat to my mother.  She kept telling me "join a club and you'll have a lot of fun, you'll be less miserable, and you'll meet some people that AREN'T assholes."  I kept dragging it out because really, I could care less about school.  If I flunked high school, the only reason I'd be sad is because my family would be disappointed in me, and I'd make my mom cry and I don't want to do that.  But now that I'm part of something their that means more to me than stress, pain, and angst I think I'll be able to get through it a lot easier.  I met some cool new people their.  Madison is really awesome I'm glad to have her as a friend because I've never met someone like her before.  (NO, friends, I have NOT developed a crush on her -_-  I am happy as can be with Anna.^___^)  But anyway, I'm just glad I finally found some new people to make bonds with.  No offense to those of you that are part of the little "circle" of friends I'm in, but not everyone their always treats me right.  I don't LIKE being the fallguy, and the butt of all the jokes, and being called gay and fat by Aaron.  Sometimes he really pisses me off, cool as he is.  You're not being abandoned, I'm just starting to move up.  <br />
<br />
Anyway, there you have my terribly long update on life.<br />
<br />
Much love, Maxx<br /><br /> ]]></description>
                <author>~XxZerstoreNxX</author>
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                <title>FUCK</title>
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                <pubDate>Sat, 14 Oct 2006 00:30:31 PDT</pubDate>
                
                <description><![CDATA[ i really wish people would stop dwelling on the past it's starting to get to me.  the past means nothing.  if people left the past where it was supposed to be and continued to press on, there would be so much less pain.<br /><br /> ]]></description>
                <author>~XxZerstoreNxX</author>
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                <title>lmfao names</title>
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                <pubDate>Fri, 29 Sep 2006 23:57:04 PDT</pubDate>
                
                <description><![CDATA[ 1.YOUR PORN STAR NAME<br />
(name of first pet + street you live on):<br />
Scruffy Pass<br />
<br />
2. YOUR MOVIE STAR NAME<br />
(grandmother's/father's first name + favorite snack)<br />
Garry Monster<br />
<br />
3. YOUR FASHION DESIGNER NAME<br />
(first word you see on your left + favorite restaurant)<br />
Charge Island<br />
<br />
4. YOUR SOCIALITE NAME<br />
(silliest childhood nickname + first town where you partied):<br />
Elton Burbank<br />
<br />
5. YOUR "FLY GIRL/GUY" NAME<br />
(first initial + first three letters of your last name)<br />
M Grav<br />
<br />
6. YOUR DETECTIVE NAME<br />
(favorite animal + name of high school):<br />
Doberman John<br />
<br />
7. YOUR BARFLY NAME<br />
(last snack food you ate + your favorite drink)<br />
Funnyon Monster<br />
<br />
8. YOUR SOAP OPERA NAME<br />
(middle name + city where you were born):<br />
Alan Seattle<br />
<br />
9. YOUR ROCK STAR NAME<br />
(favorite candy + favorite musician's last name):<br />
Reese Konietzko<br />
<br />
10. YOUR OPPOSITE SEX NAME<br />
(name of [opposite sex] friend + cell phone company you use):<br />
Rebecca Nokia<br />
<br />
11. YOUR STAR WARS NAME<br />
(first 3 letters of your last name + last 3 letters of mother's maiden name)<br />
Gravean<br /><br /> ]]></description>
                <author>~XxZerstoreNxX</author>
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                <title>Musica</title>
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                <pubDate>Wed, 27 Sep 2006 17:23:42 PDT</pubDate>
                
                <description><![CDATA[ How are you feeling today?<br />
<br />
Keep Away-Godsmack<br />
<br />
haha not today.  I"M HAPPY!!!<br />
<br />
Will you get far in life?<br />
<br />
Rise Up- Toonami Instrumentals <br />
<br />
AWESOME!!<br />
<br />
<br />
What do your friends see you?<br />
<br />
Got The Life (Dance Mix) - Korn<br />
<br />
haha PERFECT!!!<br />
<br />
What is your best friend's theme song?<br />
<br />
Lucy in the Sky With Diamonds- The Beatles<br />
<br />
lmao<br />
<br />
What is the story of your life?<br />
<br />
You're Under My Control (Beautiful Mix)- Sega (DEAD OR ALIVE 2)<br />
<br />
NICE!!!<br />
<br />
What was high school like?<br />
<br />
Don't Stay- Linkin Park<br />
<br />
LMFAO<br />
<br />
How can you get ahead in life?<br />
<br />
The Oldman's Child- Dimmu Borgir<br />
<br />
...don't even wanna think about that<br />
<br />
What is the best thing about your friends?<br />
<br />
Toxicity- System of a Down<br />
<br />
Yeah lmao pretty much!<br />
<br />
What is in store for this weekend?<br />
<br />
Another Brick in the Wall- Pink Floyd (who else lmao)<br />
<br />
DAMN STRAIGHT!!<br />
<br />
What song describes you?<br />
<br />
The World's Last Sagacious Period- Yasushi Ishi (from Hellsing episode 12.)<br />
<br />
ooh i like that<br />
<br />
To describe your grandparents?<br />
<br />
Stories To Tell- Tsuneo Imahori (Trigun)<br />
<br />
My only remaining granparent hates me.<br />
<br />
How is your life going?<br />
<br />
Needles- System of a Down<br />
<br />
Fuck you no it's not<br />
<br />
What song will they play at your funeral?<br />
<br />
Urami Bushi- Meiko Kaji (Kill Bill Volume 2)<br />
<br />
ah that works... <br />
<br />
How does the world see you?<br />
<br />
From the Cradle to Enslave- Cradle of Filth<br />
<br />
FUCK YES!!!!!<br />
<br />
Will you have a happy life?<br />
<br />
Free Your Hate- KMFDM<br />
<br />
FUCK YES!!!<br />
<br />
What do your friends really think of you?<br />
<br />
Chop Suey- System of a Down<br />
<br />
lmfao no, that was last year<br />
<br />
Do people secretly lust after you?<br />
<br />
Under the Moon- Insane Clown Posse<br />
<br />
OUCH!! hope that's not true...<br />
<br />
How can I make myself happy?<br />
<br />
Think- Pigface<br />
<br />
Deny God's existance???<br />
<br />
What should you do with your life?<br />
<br />
Prison Song- System of a Down<br />
<br />
DESTROY THE PRISON!!!!<br />
<br />
Will you ever have children?<br />
<br />
Suck My Kiss- Red Hot Chili Peppers<br />
<br />
That either means I will have MANY kids OR that I'm going to love them a little TOO MUCH lmfao<br /><br /> ]]></description>
                <author>~XxZerstoreNxX</author>
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                <title>Me being moody on a survey</title>
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                <pubDate>Sun, 24 Sep 2006 19:43:55 PDT</pubDate>
                
                <description><![CDATA[ 01) First name: Maxx<br />
<br />
02) Your nickname: Mars<br />
<br />
03) Birthday: January 26<br />
<br />
04) Horoscope sign: Aquarius<br />
<br />
05) Birth town: Seattle, WA<br />
<br />
06) Religion: Episcopalian (thats what the papers say i'm just agnostic though)<br />
<br />
07) Nationality: whiter than wonderbread<br />
<br />
08) Parents: i live with dear momma.  my dad's a fucking douchebag<br />
<br />
09) Do you love them: her, yes (sometimes) dad, on the other hand has to prove he's worthy now<br />
<br />
10) Brothers or sisters: ya 2.  bro and a sister (both younger)<br />
<br />
11) Do you like the place where you live: sort of<br />
<br />
13) Colour of your eyes: Hazel<br />
<br />
14) Height: 5'8"<br />
<br />
15) Weight: 170 lbs.<br />
<br />
16) What school/grade are you going to: JBHS 10th grade<br />
<br />
17) What marks do you have: Three Bs, one A, one C, one D<br />
<br />
18) Do you work anywhere: not yet.  maybe at subway though<br />
<br />
19) What do you want to be in your life: composer, voice actor, professional zombie hunter<br />
<br />
20) Your life style: I'm no one's bitch<br />
<br />
21) Personal quote: ...You're not my master...!!<br />
<br />
22) Lucky number: 6<br />
<br />
23) What are you interested in: DDR, Kerry, DDR, Kerry, DDR, Kerry, Anime, Driving, DDR, Kerry, writing, KERRY!!!<br />
<br />
24) Good side of your character: HAHAHAHAHAHAHAHAHAHAHAHAHAHAHAHAHAHAHAHA HAHAHAHAHAHAHAHAHAHAHAHAHAHAH<br />
<br />
25) Bad side of it: the whoooole thing!! lmfao<br />
<br />
26) Is your life happy: it's gettin' there<br />
<br />
27) Do you think that you are crazy: NO!!!! the penguins are my friends and that little man in my head says it's okay to talk to yourself!! I'm PERFECTLY SANE!!!!!!!<br />
<br />
28) What is the time: midnight<br />
<br />
29) What is the date: Sept. 29th<br />
<br />
30) Whats the weather like: cold<br />
<br />
31) Favourite day in a week: friday<br />
<br />
32) Favourite music: techno, rave, hip hop, industrial, metal, death metal, rock<br />
<br />
34) Band: korn<br />
<br />
35) Song: (s)AINT or Got The Life (Josh Abraham Mix)<br />
<br />
36) Best koncert you have been: never been... TT_TT<br />
<br />
37) Actress: hm... <br />
<br />
38) Actor: Robert Shaw<br />
<br />
39) Film: either Jaws or Akira... maybe both.<br />
<br />
40) TV serial: Trinity Blood<br />
<br />
41) Theatre play: Les Miserables<br />
<br />
42) Film director: Kinji Fukasaku<br />
<br />
43) Do you want to be famous: HELLYEA!!!<br />
<br />
44) Do you want to be an acter/actress: perhaps...<br />
<br />
45) Do you want to be a singer: perhaps<br />
<br />
46) Book: Jaws, or The Amityille Horror<br />
<br />
47) Colour: red<br />
<br />
48) Flower: either a red rose or a geranium<br />
<br />
49) Food: mexican or italian<br />
<br />
50) Drink: MONSTER!!!<br />
<br />
51) Sweet: meh... not sure<br />
<br />
52) Fruit: apple or bannana<br />
<br />
53) The worst food: wendy's.<br />
<br />
54) Drink: *shoots you in the head* I SAID MONSTE!!!! GET IT STRAIGHT MUTHA FUCKA!!!<br />
<br />
55) Singer: Marylin Manson or Sascha Koneitzko<br />
<br />
56) Band: KMFDM or Korn... do you need to be slapped??<br />
<br />
57) Acter: ...dumbass...<br />
<br />
58) Actress: bite me.<br />
<br />
59) Movie: get raped<br />
<br />
60) Book: SHUT THE FUCK UP!!!!! <br />
<br />
61) Do you drink alcohol: when i can i drink a smidgen but i don't enjoy getting drunk.  an occasional beer with a friend isn't bad though<br />
<br />
62) Do you smoke: i've thought about it.. still thinking about it... but i doubt it.<br />
<br />
63) Do you take some drugs: Concerta (i have ADD)<br />
<br />
64) What do you adore to wear: my lucky necklace<br />
<br />
65) Do you think that you are pretty: if frogs had wings would they bump their asses when they hopped?<br />
<br />
66) What languages do you speak: English, a little spanish.<br />
<br />
67) The most beautiful person you have ever seen/male: no one<br />
<br />
68) The most beautiful person you have ever seen/female: Kerry (yes, there IS a RIGHT answer to that question lmao)<br />
<br />
69) The most beautiful person on dA/male: no one you are all ugly bastards.  (just kidding)<br />
<br />
70) The most beautiful person on dA/female: KERRY, moron<br />
<br />
71) 5 your best friends on dA/male: xRealityOverdosex,<br />
<br />
72) 5 your best friends on dA/female: haritakae, seaportchild, charexl-chan, edo-chick,  <br />
<br />
73) The uggliest person on dA/male:dun care<br />
<br />
74) The uggliest person on dA/female: dun care<br />
<br />
75) The person on dA who you love the most/female:Seaportchild<br />
<br />
76) The person on dA who you love the most/male: you have to ask me about my sexual orientation before i answer that, sweety.<br />
<br />
77) The person on dA who you dont like at all/female: um i don't care.<br />
<br />
78) The person on dA who you dont like at all/male: same thing.<br />
<br />
79) Are you in love... ]]></description>
                <author>~XxZerstoreNxX</author>
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                <title>So you really want to know, huh?</title>
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                <pubDate>Fri, 15 Sep 2006 18:58:06 PDT</pubDate>
                
                <description><![CDATA[ Sorry.  You Wanted an Explanation? Here you go.<br /><br /><strong>Mood</strong>: Finally awake<br /><strong>Listening to</strong>: Child Prey- Dir En Grey<br /><br />So I posted a rant, and it pissed a few of you off.  You know, something?  Call me an ass, but, I really don't care.  You can't deny that for a long time, MOST of you treat me like shit MORE THAN HALF of the time.  For one thing, to those of you who saw those fake tattoos,  you should have been able to figure out that it was a joke.  I didn't appreciate the way you guys got on my ass about that.   It normally by itself would not have been a big deal, but it happens constantly; everytime I do something different and genuinely try and go out on a limb and have fun, most of you are not mature enough to realize that I'm just having fun with it and criticize me for enjoying myself and coming out of my shell because I've been hiding a lot for a long time.  And another thing, for those of you that say that I'm "whipped" by my mother, that is COMPLETELY unfair of you to say.  For starters, you know that my mother has a strong personality and most of the time when she yells at me for something, she is RIGHT and thus I can't really say anything back.  Not to mention that she's been pretty nice to all of you despite what you may think; she's the one who always gives you rides, and cooks or buys you dinner if you're at my house, or helps you with your costume, etc.. and by the way, I would like to ask YOU a question; what exactly makes me so "whipped", huh?  The fact that I listen to my mother and respect her wishes?  I find that very funny because I KNOW YOUR parents and I for one know that you don't do anything different.  I FORBID you to call me "whipped".  If you DO, I WILL get angry and I won't be quick to forgive you.  You only have permission to say that if you yourself tell your OWN parents to fuck off.  Other than that you have no right.  ALSO, I don't think you'd like it if I said things like that about YOUR mothers and believe me, I DO have things to say about some of your parents because no one is perfect.  But, I will not say ANYTHING otherwise.  Understand one thing about me; I'm no different from any of you.  I'm not trying to belittle you.  I am just standing up for myself and I guess I should do it without saying 'fuck' every 5 seconds and I'm sorry I did I'm trying not to.  I'm not going to lie, I AM a little pissed at some of you but it will pass.  I will try to be less of an ass and be more articulate with my speech and cuss less and all of that sort of thing.  However, all I ask is common courtesy; things that I do for you.  I don't try and cut you down everytime you try something different, I don't disrespect your personalities and your tastes and your passions.  So I apologize for my shortcomings, but at least I admit that I have them.  Please realize that you have yours too, and that I will not crucify you for yours.  No matter how much you have crucified me for mine in the past.  So there's your explanation for my moodiness on DA.  Hope it helps.<br /><br />I Finally found strength ]]></description>
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                <title>NOT so friendly note.</title>
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                <pubDate>Tue, 12 Sep 2006 21:16:10 PDT</pubDate>
                
                <description><![CDATA[ When I post a rant on DA, that obviously means I have nowhere else to let it out.  This time I AM talking to you, pricks.  Try NOT shitting on me next time because this is my only outlet. <br />
<br />
Bye. ]]></description>
                <author>~XxZerstoreNxX</author>
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                <title>You all suck.</title>
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                <pubDate>Sun, 10 Sep 2006 18:39:59 PDT</pubDate>
                
                <description><![CDATA[ You all fucking SUCK!! Maybe no the people on DA but I'm getting so SICK OF PEOPLE'S SHIT!!! I AM NOT THE RUNNER IN ANYONE'S FUCKING LOVE LIFE IF YOU WANT TO TALK TO THE SON OF A BITCH TALK TO HIM YOURSELF AND GET OVER YOUR GODDAMN COWARDLY-ASS SHYNESS.  I WISH I'D NEVER INTRODUCED THOSE TWO!!! AND ANOTHER FUCKING THING!!! I AM DONE WITH PEOPLE'S WHINING!!!!!!!!! I AM TRYING TO THINK HAPPY THOUGHTS AND LIVE A GOOD, SUCCESSFUL LIFE OK!?!?!?!! SO IF YOU HAVE ANY GODDAMN COMPLAINTS ABOUT ME, OR PROBLEMS, DON'T FUCKING SAY ANYTHING KEEP YOUR BIG FUCKING MOUTH SHUT!!!!!! I KNOW I'M FAT!!! WHY THE FUCK DO YOU STUPID SONS OF BITCHES THINK I DROPPED OUT OF WATERPOLO, JOINED WEIGHT TRAINING, AND AM PLAYING DDR NON-FUCKING-STOP!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!! I DON'T GIVE A FUCK WHAT YOU ASSHOLES THINK I JUST WISH MOST OF THEM WOULD FUCKING DIE!!!!!!!!!!!!!! DAMN IT!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!! ]]></description>
                <author>~XxZerstoreNxX</author>
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                <title>0W|\|3D!!!</title>
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                <pubDate>Mon, 04 Sep 2006 02:07:21 PDT</pubDate>
                
                <description><![CDATA[ Steve Irwin, the invincable Crocodile Hunter got KILLZORED by a stingray.  Wow I thought he could never die.  I guess he was just running on a reeeeaaaaalllly long lucky streak!  But you know what sucks?  He didn't even get eaten by a fucking CROCODILE!!! A fucking FISH killed him.  A FISH!!! IT COULD HAVE BEEN NO BIGGER THAN YOUR COMPUTER SCREEN!!! God that is a sad way to go for a man who wrested crocodiles and deadly snakes for over ten years, no?  Poor bastard had himself a wife and kids... hope they're doin' ok.  I wonder what would happen if ol' Steve saw crocodiles and snakes in Heaven?  I'd really like to see that.  My question is; would he still be like "Crikey, mate! She's a real beauty, that one!" or would he be cowering in a corner in fear?  But I suppose that doesn't matter now.  My condolences to the widowed Mrs. Irwin, and his kids.  And now, boys and girls, as we gamers like to say, Steve Irwin got OWNED!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!<br />
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-----------------------<br />
<br />
Much love, <br />
Maxx. ]]></description>
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                <title>Oh boy oh boy oh boy!</title>
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                <pubDate>Sun, 27 Aug 2006 20:46:30 PDT</pubDate>
                
                <description><![CDATA[ School.  Tommorrow.  Damn.  It.  <br />
I can not believe that I am going back.  What the hell happened to my summer??? JESUS!! I just realized waterpolo starts tommorrow to!!!  Shit!!!!  I cannot believe  this.  Well... ok folks wish my luck.  <br />
Much love,<br />
Zerstoren (Maxx) ]]></description>
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                <title>Fuck.....</title>
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                <pubDate>Tue, 22 Aug 2006 01:20:34 PDT</pubDate>
                
                <description><![CDATA[ This is going to hurt like hell... but I have to do it.  Goddamn it.  Why the fuck did I have to be so STUPID!!!!!!!!!?!?!???????? I can't fucking LIVE WITH MYSELF!!!!!!! I really am a fucking worthless piece of shit.  I don't deserve any fucking pity for the suffering that I am cursed with following the task at hand.  Why must we be so naive? Why did I have to let this fucking happen when it did? It was the LAST THING ANYONE NEEDED!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!! Now, begins a world of pain. <br />
<br />
AND PS: I'm not talking about cutting myself, ok? It's nothing like that.  Understand? ]]></description>
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                <title>OBSESSION!!!!!!!!!!</title>
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                <pubDate>Mon, 07 Aug 2006 10:58:34 PDT</pubDate>
                
                <description><![CDATA[ Ok.  I went to Pickwick with Mario and Ethan (not the stoner Ethan, my friend from Church who is a fellow nerd like me XD), and poor Ethan really does suck at that game.  BUT we had some good times killing House of the Dead zombies like da old school nerds we are.  You wanna talk about a couple of geeks who have been around the block of geekdom a couple times, that's us.  We have been anime/gamer nerds since god knows how long, and I have just rediscovered my roots and put the metal-head thing on the back-burner.  But I digress; DDR is the BEST GAME EVER MADE!!!!!! (and yes, that's only because I'm getting GOOD at it ^_^) Mario has finally raised me up to STANDARD mode and  I'm gonna get even better X3! So now, DDR is my new obsession (next to anime metal and rachel!) ^_^<br />
So COMEON!!! WE LOVE YOU!!! GOOD NIGHT!!!! ]]></description>
                <author>~XxZerstoreNxX</author>
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                <title>Rachel...</title>
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                <pubDate>Mon, 31 Jul 2006 01:45:45 PDT</pubDate>
                
                <description><![CDATA[ You and I are parallels in this world and I thank God or whoever is up there watching everyday for you, because without you I would have given up.  I love you do not forget that, my angel.<br />
~yours, always, Maxx~ ]]></description>
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                <title>Yay my first MP3 journal</title>
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                <pubDate>Fri, 28 Jul 2006 01:26:43 PDT</pubDate>
                
                <description><![CDATA[ Here's how it works....<br />
Open your music player (iTunes, Winamp, Media Player, etc).<br />
Put it on shuffle<br />
Press play.<br />
For every question type the song that's on.<br />
When you go to a new question press the next button.<br />
Ready? GO!<br />
<br />
Opening Credits:<br />
Alone I Break- Korn<br />
<br />
hmmm... ok<br />
<br />
Waking Up:<br />
Haunted-Skinny Puppy<br />
<br />
ok so my life is a horror flick i take it?<br />
<br />
The Big Move:<br />
G2-Something out of Hip Hop Mania..<br />
<br />
ok... sure why not?<br />
<br />
Falling in Love:<br />
Mindfields-Prodigy<br />
ummm the fuck?<br />
<br />
First Kiss:<br />
Boots-KMFDM<br />
wow dude is this like set in a club or something???<br />
<br />
Fight scene:<br />
So Long-Everlast<br />
sounds like a really sad fight scene<br />
<br />
Breaking Up:<br />
Portrait of a Dead Countess-Cradle of Filth<br />
finally something that makes sense.<br />
<br />
Getting back together:<br />
Dance With the Devil-GTA <br />
hmmm not bad... not bad at all<br />
<br />
Sex Scene:<br />
Drain Away ~Neo Tokyo Transit Mix~-Dir En Grey<br />
<br />
Secret Love:<br />
Assimilate-Skinny Puppy <br />
sounds sinister... >.><br />
<br />
Life's okay:<br />
YES or YES-Some japanese guy whose name i'm too lazy to type<br />
<br />
<br />
Mental Breakdown:<br />
Hell Awaits-Cradle of Filth<br />
wow... i must lose my fucking mind... like people are probably going to get hurt... >.><br />
<br />
Out being crazy with friends:<br />
Jessica-Dir En Grey<br />
lol ok sure.<br />
<br />
Driving:<br />
Moskau-Rammstein<br />
<br />
<br />
Flashback:<br />
Digging up the Corpses-Devildriver<br />
sounds like a very unpleasent flashback<br />
<br />
Happy dance:<br />
I Think I'm Paranoid-Garbage<br />
ok sure why not?<br />
<br />
Regretting:<br />
Spade-Marylin Manson<br />
<br />
Spending a night alone:<br />
Between Angels and Insets-Papa Roach<br />
perrrrfect.<br />
<br />
Death scene:<br />
Light Capsule-Rockman X4 (vg music)<br />
oh how emotional ]]></description>
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                <title>hmm.</title>
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                <pubDate>Tue, 25 Jul 2006 14:44:35 PDT</pubDate>
                
                <description><![CDATA[ guess what? i discovered that i CAN draw!! well... sort of >.> ANYway, as soon as I can get a scanner that works, ya'll are gonna see a different side of me.  a better side ^_^.  L8z! ]]></description>
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                <title>Not my day.</title>
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                <pubDate>Sat, 22 Jul 2006 15:08:01 PDT</pubDate>
                
                <description><![CDATA[ For the past few days I've felt like shit.  Bri is probably the only one that understands and yet I've alienated her with my neediness.  I thought today would be nice and relaxing and I'd just be able to go to the mall and chill with my friend Camille who's just a fun person, and be able to stop feeling so emo about everything.  Bri still thinks I'm madly in love with her and I just need a friend; a shoulder to cry into.  I guess I can understand that she doesn't believe me.  But DAMN IT I JUST NEED SOMEONE!!!! WHAT IS HAPPENING TO ME!! WHAT IS WRONG WITH ME!!!!! My mother told me to come home because of something I did so all I can do now is sit here on this fucking computer and do NOTHING.  I'm such a fucking loser sitting here crying my eyes out.  No one has answered there phone really in the past few days, no one has really cared  except Bri and now she's gone.  In short, I'm a wreck.  Heh I can't even see the fucking screen I'm just typing blindly I guess that shows how much of a fucking nerd I am.  Anyway, I'll see you guys around. ]]></description>
                <author>~XxZerstoreNxX</author>
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                <title>11 layer cake</title>
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                <pubDate>Tue, 18 Jul 2006 16:15:42 PDT</pubDate>
                
                <description><![CDATA[ LAYER ONE: ON THE OUTSIDE<br />
Name: Karasu Red Eyes<br />
Birthday: 1/26/91<br />
Current Location: hell<br />
Eye Color: ...red<br />
Hair Color: brown<br />
Righty or Lefty: lefty<br />
Zodiac Sign: Aquarius<br />
<br />
LAYER TWO: ON THE INSIDE<br />
Your heritage: Irish, Scottish, British, Polish, Dutch, German, Italian, WHITE<br />
Your fears: to die before i truly live<br />
Your weakness: i'm too trusting<br />
<br />
LAYER THREE: YESTERDAY, TODAY, TOMORROW:<br />
Your thoughts first waking up: how did i get here? the last thing i remember was a crowd of zombies closing on me and thinking it was all over.  <br />
Your best physical feature: eyes<br />
Your bedtime: whenever i damn well feel like it<br />
Your most missed memory: anime expo<br />
<br />
LAYER FOUR: YOUR PICK:<br />
Pepsi or Coke: COKE<br />
McDonald's or Burger King: Burger King<br />
Single or group dates: single<br />
Adidas or Nike: fuck them both.  DC's all the way<br />
Lipton Tea or Nestea: ice tea is disgusting<br />
Chocolate or vanilla: both<br />
Cappuccino or coffee: coffee.  cappucinos are for whimps<br />
<br />
LAYER FIVE: DO YOU?<br />
Cuss: fuck no i'm a good motherfucking little angel<br />
Take a shower: i have to, or else how am i going to wash the blood off?<br />
Have a crush: several.<br />
Like(d) school: no<br />
Want to get married: psh, yeah, i have to propigate my species.<br />
Believe in yourself: do you believe in zombies?<br />
Think you're a health freak: YES, I'M JUST FAT BECAUSE I WAS <i>FORCED TO EAT TWINKIES GODDAMNIT!!!</i><br />
<br />
LAYER SIX: IN THE PAST MONTH<br />
Drank alcohol: yeah, some asshole in the elevator gave me vodka in a water bottle and got me drunk at anime expo<br />
Gone to the mall: only daily<br />
Been on stage: no<br />
Eaten Sushi: ew<br />
Been dumped: no i've been single<br />
Gone skating: biking?<br />
Dyed your hair: yeah<br />
<br />
LAYER SEVEN: HAVE YOU EVER<br />
Gotten beaten up: yes... many times<br />
Changed who you were to fit in: yes<br />
<br />
LAYER EIGHT: GETTING OLD<br />
Age your hoping to be married?: idk<br />
<br />
LAYER NINE: IN A GIRL/GUY<br />
Best eye color: dc<br />
Best hair color: dc<br />
Short or long hair: long<br />
<br />
LAYER TEN: WHAT WERE YOU DOING<br />
1 MINUTE AGO: laundry<br />
1 WEEK AGO: going to school<br />
1 YEAR AGO: at acting camp<br />
<br />
LAYER 11: FINISH THE SENTENCE<br />
I LOVE: sex<br />
I FEEL: over heated<br />
I HATE: being looked down upon<br />
I HIDE: my soul<br />
I MISS: briana<br />
I NEED: to lose weight ]]></description>
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