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Thridly, that should be all

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1. I'll respond with something random about you.
2. I'll challenge you to try something.
3. I'll pick a color that I associate with you.
4. I'll tell you something I like about you.
5. I'll tell you my first/clearest memory of you.
6. I'll tell you what animal you remind me of.
7. I'll ask you something I've always wanted to ask you.
8. If I do this for you, you must post this in your journal!

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]]> ~Yubbs http://Yubbs.deviantart.com/journal/21569407/ http://Yubbs.deviantart.com/journal/21569407/ Wed, 19 Nov 2008 16:28:36 PST As much as I might joke about being "four with thirteen years of experience", I really am nothing but a large little kid. In all seriousness. A mature and smart kid, but still just a little kid, in so many ways. Not too sure how I feel about that yet...
Not sure that really bothers me that much.
I guess just the fact that it seems like the only person who didn't really realize it was me just feels kinda weird...

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...suicide runs.... this is only the beginning..... I told you before but NNNOOOOO, let's just pretend its not real, there's no threat. HA! Now I have proof!

]]> ~Yubbs http://Yubbs.deviantart.com/journal/20911140/ http://Yubbs.deviantart.com/journal/20911140/ Thu, 09 Oct 2008 18:59:38 PDT Anywho, got a pirate trench coat on Sunday, which many of you guys have seen now..... and for some reason, I really like wearing a bandanna on ma head now... I don't know, it's just really comfy for some reason....
in other news.
Yay for Sami! (i is greatly relieved, if you couldn't tell by the hug you got when I saw you the other day)(and is also happy that you;ve decided to leave the college boys who treat you badly alone)

]]> ~Yubbs http://Yubbs.deviantart.com/journal/18719642/ http://Yubbs.deviantart.com/journal/18719642/ Sat, 07 Jun 2008 19:20:57 PDT I don't know why people are here. I don't pretend to, mostly because I don't want to get caught up in that ridiculous, petty argument. It doesn't matter. Hell it isn't even relevant to what I want to, what I need to rant about.
Pain is what makes us, what drives us. It is rarely pleasant, and few truely desire it, but without it, would we truly know happiness? What is joy, but the lack of sorrow?
And everywhere around me I see people I know, people I care about, suffering. And I feel helpless. For all of my belief, for all of my deep thought, I cannot ease it, but with the hollow sounding words of "I'm sorry, I hope you feel better". How does that help? All it is is a knee jerk reaction for so many, devoid of any real meaning, or of any true sympathy, and it fails to convey, so often any real sense of caring, just the endless repetition of that same sorry phrase. How can that make anyone anything but worse, for they know there is so little that may be done to ease their suffering.
And in the person who wishes to show an actual depth of caring, trying to help this person through with some glimmer of hope, with a reassurance in the good of the world. To remind them that in the end, there shall be a calm, and they might find themselves to be stronger, their happiness something new and pure, risen from the storm of their troubles.
I'm sorry if I may seem absent when you seem hurt. But it is because I feel helpless, not that I don't care.
Steve, I hope you feel better man. If you need a distraction or something, you know I'm good for it XP.
Ayla, I hope you and Gage's Mom might see eye to eye some day, and that maybe she'll get a little less protective. I'm sorry if you hate me, but I understand. I hope one day you might forgive me, but I understand. But I tried as hard as I could to do the best thing for the both of us, and I was thinking of you, and I'm wish it had never came to hurting you like that, but I promise you that it was only to try and make things better in the end. And I promise upon my immortal soul, upon the blood which flows through my veins, that I did not leave you to be with her. Even if you don't believe me, I know it to be true.
Ashton. I'm never really sure what going on with you. I'm really glad you made it through your troubles. I'm sorry if I'm an asshat sometimes. I hope you the best of luck, you're pretty awesome when you have your confidence.
Matt. Hell man, I know you'll probably never get to read this. I don't care much that you wont get to, cause it's the same to me. You're doing better now, but I know there's still shit going on. I hope stuff works out for you. If I can help along the way, that would be great.

So yeah. I tend to think of these things. And most of the time I let it go.


Sorry if I seem double faced when it comes to things like this. I'm not always a child..... I guess I'm just complex like that. I can't be the same all the time






And in the end there is balance
In the end there is peace
In the grand scheme of things, we are insignificant,
But without the tales of each individual, it would be pointless.

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I write 8 things about myself, and tag 8 people.

1. It is only upon the rare occasion that I can see my desk

2. I am a packrat

3. I wanna dye my hair BLUE

4. I have a lot of hats. Fancy ones are my favorites

5. I have crazy dreams, but can never remember them and it irks me, because how do I know they were crazy if I can't remember?

6. When I start reading an interesting book, I never get anything accomplished until I've finished it.

7. I love the mountains and snow, and miss the snowstorms we used to get in the winter.

8. I seem to say "I'm not worried about it" a lot now.....

I tag......

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why hello floor. fancy meeting you here.

]]> ~Yubbs http://Yubbs.deviantart.com/journal/16917099/ http://Yubbs.deviantart.com/journal/16917099/ Sat, 16 Feb 2008 16:27:42 PST But whips and chains excite me
So tie me down on the bed
And show how much you like me

btw, as she pointed out, 'tis not mine. which is why it happens to be in ma journal. I just like it, hence the post

]]> ~Yubbs http://Yubbs.deviantart.com/journal/16603079/ http://Yubbs.deviantart.com/journal/16603079/ Sun, 27 Jan 2008 19:28:20 PST Anywho.
I miss me. Just the part of me which didn't care what anybody thought.... Used to be so random, and it used to be nice to just not care... but as time goes on, it just keeps slipping a little further and further away.... only realized this the other day at Winter ball. Which was great... can't wait to get that picture back..... think I failed two midterms... bit late to worry bout it now though....

Finally started a new drawing... It's been forever since I put something new on here... Started bunches of things, but never finished them... but I like the way this one is coming out... should be on here in the next couple of days...

]]> ~Yubbs http://Yubbs.deviantart.com/journal/16489803/ http://Yubbs.deviantart.com/journal/16489803/ Sun, 20 Jan 2008 12:16:35 PST . So I have. So I'm done now. Really. stop reading. Im done. really really.


* cause I am a dumbass and can't write a really long and entertaining journal buhahahaha ninja's away!*

O.o didna write that last part, for the record..

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hrmph, forgots to do this yesterday...

Eleven!/ Two hundred sixty four!/ Fifteen thousand, eight hundred and forty!/ Roughly nine hundred fifty thousand and forty!

Ten!/ Two hundred forty two and a half!/ Fourteen thousand, five hundred and fifty!/ Eight hundred and seventy three thousand!

P.S. 'tis only a work in progress. a countdown, if you will, to a very important date! There shall be much.. erm... bowling? to be had....

]]> ~Yubbs http://Yubbs.deviantart.com/journal/15453630/ http://Yubbs.deviantart.com/journal/15453630/ Sat, 10 Nov 2007 18:53:30 PST We all have sorrow
But if we are wise
We know that there's always tomorrow

Lean on me, when you're not strong
And I'll be your friend
I'll help you carry on
For it won't be long
'Til I'm gonna need
Somebody to lean on

Please swallow your pride
If I have things you need to borrow
For no one can fill those of your needs
That you don't let show

Lean on me, when you're not strong
And I'll be your friend
I'll help you carry on
For it won't be long
'Til I'm gonna need
Somebody to lean on

If there is a load you have to bear
That you can't carry
I'm right up the road
I'll share your load
If you just call me

So just call on me brother, when you need a hand
We all need somebody to lean on
I just might have a problem that you'd understand
We all need somebody to lean on

Lean on me when you're not strong
And I'll be your friend
I'll help you carry on
For it won't be long
Till I'm gonna need
Somebody to lean on

Lean on me...
-Bill Withers

]]> ~Yubbs http://Yubbs.deviantart.com/journal/15076685/ http://Yubbs.deviantart.com/journal/15076685/ Mon, 15 Oct 2007 16:49:36 PDT And it has weighed on my heart since this morning. because it seems like that's what happening, and I don't want that. I want her to be happy, and I don't want to just watch her pass through into despair, and be miserable. I would give anything if she would only see that everything could be better, that she doesn't need to do this. I would do whatever it would take to make her feel better, if it meant giving up my dreams, if it meant throwing away who I was, if only to make her happy. If she would just please think of her own happiness. For as long as she is sad, I will feel sad, whatever I say or do.

]]> ~Yubbs http://Yubbs.deviantart.com/journal/14686523/ http://Yubbs.deviantart.com/journal/14686523/ Tue, 18 Sep 2007 11:43:35 PDT And you write the words you were writing for
But your courage gets dissolved
Into what, I don't know...

When you feel that way again
You have to stop your thinking
And think of what you're here for
And let the rest of your feelings go

You've got to find your balance
You've got to realize
You've got to try to find what's right before your eyes
And if you find you've fallen
And all your grace is gone
Just scream for me and I'll be what you're falling on

When you feel so close to some resolve
And you say the things that you're standing for
Don't let your courage get dissolved
Cause it's then that the fear grows

Just give me the word and I'll be there for you

Falling On- Finger Eleven

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Yeah. New Mexico is a beautiful place. Even if it does lose some of it's glamor after lugging a fifty-some pound pack around it for something like seventy miles. But in all seriousness, I had an amazing time. I missed a lot of people, and got some serious thinking done, and still had time to squeeze a couple good meditations in. I feel better than I have ever felt.

So on to this, which I have so erroneously labeled as thoughts.
Firstly- I am going to travel before I die. A lot. I started a list. It's long. but the three places I want to see most are Hawaii, Australia, and London. I have always wanted to see Hawaii. Australia sounds beautiful (and they speak english) and I want to see if there are more intelligent people in London.

Next- I want to be more open. I've always hidden almost all of my emotion. I let people I care for pass me by, because I can't just say anything. or i get caught up in other peoples emotions, and I get so desperate to feel something that I manufacture the emotions that I should feel, I try to become what they want. And it all falls down when they no longer want my clinging. So no more, I'm going to (try) to say what I feel, and what I mean. Fat chance of that.

Thirdly-I'm going to put some words into actions. Natai, you are like a sister to me. If you ever need anything, just ask. Ayla- You are good looking. Don't argue with me. I would know. you're a great person that I want to know better. Ally- I hope that we might someday reach an understanding of each others beings and intentions, and reach some level of benevolence or trust.

earlier, I had an idea for a rant. I've since forgotten it. that doesn't surprise me. it happens. thank god. anywho. laters

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P.S. NI-NER NI-NER NI-NER I get to go on vacation.... none for you. hahaha

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This has nothing to do with mating season I say. The squirrel in question was not ill. This is but a sign of things yet to come, a forerunner of the evil plot. This lone squirrel jumped the gun, and now we must crush the squirrel menace, before they realize that we're on to them. We need to destroy them while we still can. We must take action, or condemn the entire human race to destruction. I know what you're thinking. "But they're oh so cute and fluffy" that's what they want you to think. Their outer cuddliness and innocence only hides the savage beast within. They may be small, but they are OH SO DEADLY. They've been watching us for all of these years, tricking us in complacence, gathering Intel while tipping your bird feeders. When the Squirrel apocalypses goes down, don't tell me that I didn't warn you.

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]]> ~Yubbs http://Yubbs.deviantart.com/journal/12494280/ http://Yubbs.deviantart.com/journal/12494280/ Sat, 07 Apr 2007 09:31:04 PDT I would think I may be unique in my problem, except for the fact that no one is really unique.... it all boils down to what I said before, in that everyone is more or less a photocopy of someone else, with a few small detail changes..... armies of preps factory floor perfect, march on, slaying all others in their path ^.^.... and I have no idea why I used that smiley, but it seems appropriate, so I suppose I'll leave it there.... this seems to be getting really long.... I applaud you if you've read this far.... I really do.... and I congratulate you if you have understood any of this.... really I do.... But if I were you I would have myself checked out if you understood the majority of this.... then again, if I were you, I would have myself checked out, because I would be you, and not me, but since I was you, I would be you, which would be me, so in reality, I would be myself, and I need a psychological evaluation anyways.... but anyways.... what ever happened to pokemon?... it would have still been awesome if they had never kept releasing new games and shows.... which makes me wonder, will they ever run out if colors/stones?..... I can see it now.... fifty years from now they will be using the rejected crayola colors.... domestic abuse pokemon versions black and blue, coming may of 2057!!!..... the day I live to see that happen may just me the happiest day of my life.... notice the tactful use of the word "may" there?.... I was planning ahead for once.... if you didn't know, "procrastinators unite!- tomorrow!" is the story of my life.... which i find hilarious.... which reminds me.... why did they always... ]]> ~Yubbs http://Yubbs.deviantart.com/journal/12435120/ http://Yubbs.deviantart.com/journal/12435120/ Mon, 02 Apr 2007 18:22:02 PDT
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I am the girl kicked out of her home because I confided in my mother that I am a lesbian.

I am the prostitute working the streets because nobody will hire a transsexual woman.

I am the sister who holds her gay brother tight through the painful, tear-filled nights.

We are the parents who buried our daughter long before her time.

I am the man who died alone in the hospital because they would not let my partner of twenty-seven years into the room.

I am the foster child who wakes up with nightmares of being taken away from the two fathers who are the only loving family I have ever had. I wish they could adopt me.

I am one of the lucky ones, I guess. I survived the attack that left me in a coma for three weeks, and in another year I will probably be able to walk again.

I am not one of the lucky ones. I killed myself just weeks before graduating high school. It was simply too much to bear.

We are the couple who had the realtor hang up on us when she found out we wanted to rent a one-bedroom for two men.

I am the person who never knows which bathroom I should use if I want to avoid getting the management called on me.

I am the mother who is not allowed to even visit the children I bore, nursed, and raised. The court says I am an unfit mother because I now live with another woman.

I am the domestic-violence survivor who found the support system grow suddenly cold and distant when they found out my abusive partner is also a woman.

I am the domestic-violence survivor who has no support system to turn to because I am male.

I am the father who has never hugged his son because I grew up afraid to show affection to other men.

I am the home-economics teacher who always wanted to teach gym until someone told me that only lesbians do that.

I am the man who died when the paramedics stopped treating me as soon as they realized I was transsexual.

I am the person who feels guilty because I think I could be a much better person if I didn't have to always deal with society hating me.

I am the man who stopped attending church, not because I don't believe, but because they closed their doors to my kind.

I am the person who has to hide what this world needs most: Love.


Repost this if you believe homophobia is wrong.

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1. I'll respond with something random about you.
2. I'll challenge you to try something.
3. I'll pick a color that I associate with you.
4. I'll tell you something I like about you.
5. I'll tell you my first/clearest memory of you.
6. I'll tell you what animal you remind me of.
7. I'll ask you something I've always wanted to ask you.
8. If I do this for you, you must post this in your journal!

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