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What, I wonder...does that make me...?

]]> ~Zelle-Sama http://Zelle-Sama.deviantart.com/journal/28382386/ http://Zelle-Sama.deviantart.com/journal/28382386/ Sun, 15 Nov 2009 18:44:14 PST Helena is here at hand,
And the youth, mistook by me,
Pleading for a lover's fee.
Shall we their fond pageant see?
Lord, what fools these mortals be!

]]> ~Zelle-Sama http://Zelle-Sama.deviantart.com/journal/27900069/ http://Zelle-Sama.deviantart.com/journal/27900069/ Thu, 22 Oct 2009 03:48:07 PDT
I've now been at the hospital for abouuuut two days I'd say, and I dont imagine them letting me out today...I still need breathing treatments, but they're giving them to me every four hours now, instead of every two. To see if I can manage without them, or just to see if my lungs collapse on themselves. = v =

my oxygen levels have been pretty low for a while, so I'm made to wear an oxygen tube thingy in my nose. its itchy and uncomfortable > A <
and I cant get a good nights sleep, because I keep getting woken up to be listened to, and have my treatments, and the albuterol makes me jittery and gets my heart beating faster, lol.

so here I am wearing my Stitch hat from Disnyword, and messin' around on the computer, watching soap operas on my room tv...H1N1 is just a kick, I tell you. (A kick in the ass. = ____ <3

]]> ~Zelle-Sama http://Zelle-Sama.deviantart.com/journal/27882824/ http://Zelle-Sama.deviantart.com/journal/27882824/ Wed, 21 Oct 2009 03:15:17 PDT
I'm up at 10:45 and I cant breathe. My rescue inhaler doesnt work, even though I've tried using it about ten times. So my mom takes me to the urgent care ward, at Childrens Mercy South, where I get rushed into the back rooms as a first priority, where I proceded to gasp and wheeze for about half an hour while they took my medical history and vitals (I was crying a bit by now, I admit). I got into an actual room, and finally, finally, the nicest - if not sickeningly sweet - doctor brought in a resperatory specialist and gave me a nebulizer treatment. Thank god for drugs.

And when that didnt work I got an hour long albuterol treatment, where I breathed through a mask. I got a bit nauseous. I cried a little more, then got another hour long treatment. I was feeling extremely nauseous by now, so had a disgusting melt-away nausea pill, had another short, nebulizer treatment, and ate a small bag of grahm crackers and a mini can of sprite.

So now I'm just sittin here in the hospital urgent care room, because none of the actual hospital rooms arre open, and every time I go to the bathroom, I have to put on an oxygen tank.

Fun shit, I tell you. Fun shit.

]]> ~Zelle-Sama http://Zelle-Sama.deviantart.com/journal/27475327/ http://Zelle-Sama.deviantart.com/journal/27475327/ Mon, 28 Sep 2009 19:17:43 PDT - Single or taken: TAKEN. <3
- Sex Gender: Female
- Birthday: December 30th
- Sign: Capricorn
- Hair Color: Dark brown
- Eye color: Dark brown. Again. Totally boring.
- Height: 5'1"
- Are you straight/bisexual/gay?: Well, I'm bisexual, but taken by a pretty fan - fucking - tastic guy right now~

• × • F A S H I O N | S T U F F • × •

- Favorite place to shop for clothes?: UM. Thrift stores. o v o
- Favorite designer?: Myself. Haha.
- What is your sexiest outfit?: Um...well I have this really short red plaid skirt, ya see...
- What is your most comfortable outfit?: shorts and a really super big T-shirt
- What do you usually wear?: Jeans/dress pants and a T-shirt/dress shirt

• × • S P E C I F I C S • × •

- What kind of shampoo do you use?: ....I use...my brother's axe shampoo...it makes my hair omegas soft...
- What are you listening to right now?: DANCING WITH THE STARS FTW~ I wanna learn how to ballroom dance some day.
- Who is the last person that called you?: Called me personally? Jon, a few days ago~
- How many buddies are online right now?: 12 MSN IM buddies

• × • F A V O R I T E S • × •

- Food: Italian food, sushi, Japanese sweets, mashed potatoes, and waffles. o w o
- Girls' names: Juliette
- Boys' names: Cornelius (and Jon~<3)
- Subjects in school: ENGLISH. And Drama and BAND YO.
- Animals: Ferretts, parakeets, USAGI, and fighting fish

• × • H A V E | Y O U | E V E R • × •

- Given anyone a bath?: ....I gave a cat a bath once...
- Smoked?: No, but I've wanted to try it...
- Bungee jumped?: Oh dude, that sounds like an awesome time...but no
- Made yourself throw up?: Oh gross no. I'd only do that if I'd like, swallowed poison or something.
- Skinny dipped?: NO NO NO NO. DEFINITELY NOT. EVER.
- Ever been in love?: Ever been? Forget that, I'm IN love, bitches~<3
- Made yourself cry to get out of trouble?: NO CUZ I TOTALLY DONT GET IN TROUBLE.
- Pictured your crush naked?: Can you have a crush on someone you love...? Huh...well anyway, yes. A lot, actually.
- Actually seen your crush naked?: COMPLETELY? Pshhh. I wish.
- Cried when someone died?: Every time someone's died in my life...the tears never came...
- Lied: I have. I am not perfect. (Or an angel. Yes you know who you are.)
- Fallen for your best friend?: Not my current best friend -punches kelt in the shoulder- but a few years ago, yah.
- Used someone?: Never. Never and I am sickened by anyone who would answer yes to this question. Using people is disgusting.
- Done something you regret?: Everyone has...

• × • C U R R E N T • × •

- Clothes: dull mustard yellow SMS band shirt, and black dress pants, mismatching purple fuzzy socks
- Desktop picture: A black castle with a full moon behind it
- CD in player: Lev Tahor 3
- DVD in player: NON APPLICABLE

• × • L A S T | P E R S O N • × •

- You touched: I smacked my bro outta the way
- Hugged: My aunt
- You kissed: My cat....TT ----- TT
- You IMed: Kelt
- Talk to online: Ma Kensei-sensei, Kelt, Lisa, Jon, Jay, Usa-chan, Nee sama, Deme
- You sexed it up with: Well I'd have to say Jon. Yeah. <3

• × • A R E | Y O U • × •

- Understanding?: I try to be...but I'm kinda on the young side, so my understanding - particularly when it's hurt me - is a bit one sided.
- Open-minded?: 108.5%
- Arrogant?: Nooo 8 A 8
- Insecure?: A lot, yeah
- Random?: AHahahaha...no YOU are...
- Hungry?: WELL I WAS. /totally stuffed now
- Smart?: I've been told I am. I'm definitely not dumb. Just super lazy.
- Moody?: IM A GIRL. WHAT DO YOU THINK. (Haha, JK. <3)
- Organized?: Nooot...really...
- Shy?: Around new people, kinda. But I get reaaaaally super outgoing around people I know.
- Difficult?: Ehhh...s - sometimes.
- Bored easily?: CHA. Yeah, a lot.
- Obsessed?: WITH CERTAIN THINGSSSS.
- Angry?: I get angry at my family. And irritating people.
- Happy?: Yeah, my friends make me super happy.
- Hyper?: AWWW SHIT SON. You have no idea.
- Trusting?: ...theres only....one person in the world who I would trust with anything...it takes a lot to earn my trust, and not much at all to loose it.

• × • R A N D O M • × •

- In the morning I: Groan tiredly, smack my cell phone off - then when it goes off five minutes later - I pull myself up, shower, freshen up, dress and leave for early band practice.

- Love is: Finding that one person who will accept and care for you no matter what, loving you for you - where looks dont matter, and you can talk about anything and noth... ]]> ~Zelle-Sama http://Zelle-Sama.deviantart.com/journal/27375673/ http://Zelle-Sama.deviantart.com/journal/27375673/ Wed, 23 Sep 2009 14:00:05 PDT
Let me explain the feeling I'm talking about, something that can suddenly just hit you on a chilly fall afternoon.

As I was sitting tiredly in my last class of the day, dozing off slowly, and basically ignoring the lecture my US History teacher was giving, this un-explainable wave of warmth just enveloped me. It came out of nowhere...

This kind of warmth is only something I feel around the winter holidays, usually. Everyone is in such high spirits, and that universal knowledge that - even though we cover it with expensives gifts, tinsel, and stories of a large man with flying reindeer - that it's really a time of giving, to be kind to everyone and share with those who cant be as lucky as we are...a time for love.
Beyond everything.

I know the winter holidays are a ways away, and there's really no reason to suddenly associate warmness with Christmas...but for some reason, I couldn't help myself.

I love you all, my friends. <3

]]> ~Zelle-Sama http://Zelle-Sama.deviantart.com/journal/27299975/ http://Zelle-Sama.deviantart.com/journal/27299975/ Sat, 19 Sep 2009 12:43:47 PDT Hahaha...what a funny way to start off the survey

2. Hug or kiss?
Booooooth~

3. Have you ever been suspended from school?
NO. o A o;;;

4. Explain what you think about abortion:
...Well, I'm not for it, but I guess it would be the mother's choice...?

5. If you had to get married now, who would you want to marry?
-blushes- Jon~<3

6. Weekdays or weekends?
WEEKENDS.

7. What is your favorite hair style?
Parted to the left, and boy short. Maybe a headband or something...m'thinking about growing mine longer, tho.

8. Do you like to learn?
LEARNING FTW

9. Do you like cows?
I like....Cowlives...

10. Do you want to have kids?
Mmh...maybe...someday...

11. Say something annoying:
Something annoying

12. Have you ever had a crush on the same sex?
Yeah, but she was dating another guy..and that was like...two years ago, so...

13. Will the world end in fire or ice?
Rainbows.

14. Favorite comic strip?
Ummm...I really like "For Better or For Worse" in the Sunday morning newspaper~

15. Last hug?
Oh gosh, uhh...I think my mom hugged me...

16. One goal you'd like to achieve this year:
DONT FAIL SCHOOL. DX

17. Do you sleep naked?
Umm...sometimes

18. Have you ever been dumped?
Technically, no. But in all aspects of the term, yeah.

19. What is your favorite word?
GLITTERING

20. Sprite or 7Up?
Um...they both...taste the same...

21. Would you date someone you met online?
Well...gee, I DUNNO. = ___ = Srsly, who writes these things? -clings to Jon-

22. Who is your newest friend?
Technically, my newest friend would be...Lisa...? Or Windy...one of thems. <3

23. Family or friends?
My friends ARE my family. Kelt is my brother, Lisa and Windy are my sisters, and Jon is...my....> --- > Shut up, he's mine. (And Klutch it the family pet~<3) Oh. And my biological sister. Who pwns.

24. What is the last thing you said to someone?
"No, Grandma, I dont have a headache"

25. Abercrombie or Hollister?
GROSS. Prep stores...>:V

26. What's your family like?
Psychotic...

27. Have you been on drugs?
W - well yes...but the legal kind. (And rainbow sheep pills, but those are...a nescessity...)

28. Are your parents still together?
No, they divorced a while ago

29. Logic or art?
ART. LOGIC HAS NO PLACE HERE.

30. How do you usually dress?
For school, jeans and a colourful shirt, for weekends a comfy T-shirt/hoodie and my skirt/capris

31. Explain what you think about dating.
I don't have much experience with it...I think it should be romantic and something you and your date both enjoy, natural, and real.

32. Do you wear deoderant?
Always!

33. McDonalds or Burger King?
Ahhhhgh. Grossssss. Fast food. > A <

34. Do animals go to Heaven?
Animals? I think that...everyone has the chance to go to heaven. Someone needs to do something really, really bad to qualify for hell...

35. Would you live in a different country?
I'd live wherever Jon is. -nodnod-

36. Have you ever made out with just a friend?
Umm, no. I'm one of those "never been kissed" stories. Not for long, of course...but no, not with a friend.

37. Do you believe in the external world?
External...? You mean...what? Word things better, baka. D<

38. Emily Dickinson or Walt Whitman?
I don't ah...read much poetry.

39. Have you ever been hit on by the same sex?
Hit on? Probably not. I don't notice things like that unless they're really obvious. By the opposite sex, however, yes. Also, does getting smacked on the behind by a teacher count as being hit on? > ---- >

40. Do you ever use your full name?
Only when people ask me what it is, and one of my friends calls me it all the time...

41. Favorite athlete?
UM. I LIKE ROGER FEDERER. Or whatever his name is, who's undefeated at tennis.

42. Do you personally know any bums?
Bums...? You mean like...lazy people? Or 'bums' as in homeless people? Cuz that's really rude.

43. Are you rude?
I - I try not to be...

44. Can you cook?
Yes yes~<3 My dad is a chef

45. Have you ever been to college?
To college, no. To A college, yes.

46. What is your best physical feature?
Hmm...well, I...I dunno...I kinda like my hands...-looks at them-

47. Would you die for your friends?
Plain and simple, yes.

48. Dominos or Pizza Hut?
Umm...I'm not picky. ^ --- ^

49. How tall are you?
5... ]]> ~Zelle-Sama http://Zelle-Sama.deviantart.com/journal/27244371/ http://Zelle-Sama.deviantart.com/journal/27244371/ Wed, 16 Sep 2009 12:12:05 PDT Kitties~<3

2) Republican or Democrat?
I'M A REPUBLOCRAT.

3) Sun or Moon?
Um...yes?

4) Pool or Ocean?
OCEAN! Cuz I can collect seashells n' crabs~

5) Taylor Swift or Kanye West?
Damn right Kayne West apologized to her. Stupid jerk....

6) Love or Lust?
Well, love of course...lust is just an added bonus if it's the right person~

7) Italians or Irish?
U - UM...I dunno, I really like Irish people. They're funny.

8) Football or Baseball?
FOOTBALL. I'm in a marching band, yo~

9) Ass or Tits?
A - ah...you mean...mine? Or...?

10) Hot Hook-up or Romantic Relationship?
A...romantic relationship with a hot hookup...<3

Answer in one word:

11) How was your first kiss?
Imaginary? (Haven't had mine yet)

12) How would you describe your ex?
(the) Past

13) What do you find attractive about the opposite sex?
personality

14) What are your feelings on the death of Patrick Swazye?
...sorry?

15) How about them Phillies?
NO.

16) How do you make yourself happy?
Jon~

17) What is your relationship like with your parents?
strained

Answer honestly:

18) Are you in love?
Absolutely

19) What is your favorite food?
Chipotle burritos, they're so big~

20) Are you a virgin?
-blushes- Yes, of course!

21) Who is your favorite baseball team?
Um...I don't...know. The Royals? I played the national anthem with my band before one of their games once. They lost, but...ya know.

22) Do you like woman or men?
Both, but I'm currently taken by a wonderful guy~

23) Whats your opinion on gingers?
I like to laugh at their hair. ^ ----- ^

24) Are you gay?
-shrug- Depends on your definition of gay, I guess.

25) Do you support Obama?
I'm not American, so I probably shouldn't answer that question. > w >

26) Whats the biggest crime you have committed?
-ponders- ...I...stole someone's heart~?

27) How much do you spend on gas weekly?
I DON'T! Wheee~ I dont even drive! It frightens me~

28) How many people have you hooked up with?
Hooked up with? You mean like, in the literal term of that phrase, or the over all "dated" sense? I'm not really experienced with the 'hooking up' bit, if that's what you mean.

29) What is your biggest pet peeve?
Immaturity bordering on stupidity

30) Are you a coffee drinker?
UM...well, not a lot. But I like starbucks iced coffee. ^ ------ ^

31) What TV show do you absolutley hate?
"Everybody Hates Chris" Seriously, no one needs to watch something like that...it's stupid.

32) What is you favorite comedy movie?
Ace Ventura: Pet Detective

33) Where do you go to school?
Shawnee Mission South High School (GO RAIDERS~!)

34) What is your cell phone service?
Um, I think it's T-Mobile...but m'not sure...

35) Who is the best singer alive?
SNSD. Singing group. They're awesome. <3333

36) Marines, Army, Navy, Air Force, or Coast Guard?
Army. As much as I am against un-needed war, I greatly respect anyone who's willing to put their lives on the line for their country or cause~ <3

37) Are you currently listening to music?
No, I'm in the car, haha~

38) Hows the love life?
I feel like my heart will burst with joy whenever I even think about my love life~

39) Have you ever stolen something?
...refer to #26?

40) Do you wear glasses?
Yes indeed! They're pink. ^ 3 ^

41) What was your first memory?
My first memory? I was trading my purple bow for my sister's pink one.

42) What is your favorite color?
Pink and black~

43) Who is your favorite comedian?
Um...anyone who's funny.

44) What or who makes your truely happy?
Jon Collins~ <3

45) Do you love Harry Potter?
NO. I LOVE DRACO MALFOY. HES A DROP DEAD GORGEOUS BASTARD.

46) Are speedos sexy?
Umm...not...really. I think they're funny. I mean, maybe if the guy wearing them wasn't hairy..

47) What is more of a sport; cheerleading or swimming?
Swimming cuz it's in the Olympics. o w o

48) Were you a bully as a kid?
Can 'as a kid' apply to someone who's not an adult yet? No, i was the scary quiet girl in the back of class who slept through the whole things, but always passed somehow.
49) How tall are you?
5'1"

50) Why are you doing this survey thing?
Cuz Jon did it, n'I wanted to.

51) Are you racist?
Haha...well, I think everyone is a little. I dont judge people by their race, bu... ]]> ~Zelle-Sama http://Zelle-Sama.deviantart.com/journal/27211718/ http://Zelle-Sama.deviantart.com/journal/27211718/ Mon, 14 Sep 2009 15:33:48 PDT
Tomorrow is te court date for me and my sister, to see whether or not we should be put into foster care. I know there's nothing to worry about. The judge will probably just deem us in need of more therapy and send us on our merry way. But one thing I know is that things aren't going to change...

I find myself wondering more and more what my life might be like, how much better things would be, if my family were normal...you know, without an autistic little brother, or a psychotic over protective mother. Without a spoiled brat for a brother, or a diagnosed depressive sister...

-shakes head- If I could, maybe, just hide away from this thing people call home life...

But I don't know. Maybe I'm just getting sick...

]]> ~Zelle-Sama http://Zelle-Sama.deviantart.com/journal/27170804/ http://Zelle-Sama.deviantart.com/journal/27170804/ Sat, 12 Sep 2009 13:19:47 PDT

I want to express this time of sadness
Even if you hear it after all the sadness has scattered

Close your eyes and try to feel my shaking heart
And see the glitter in my eyes when I face you

Dont wait for a special miracle
The street where we met is right in front of your eyes

I can't change the future that I dont know of
I can't abandon them either

Please protect me with unchanging love
All the way up to my scarred heart

There is no use for words within my gaze
Time has finally come to a stop


I love you, and at the end of my wandering
I started to miss that feeling

I will now say goodbye,
to the repeating sadness in this world

On the many unknown roads
I chase after that dim light

No matter how long it takes, it's something we'll do together!
After all, it's my world where we can meet again


Dont wait for a special miracle
The street where we met is right in front of your eyes

I can't change the future that I dont know of
I can't abandon them either

Please protect me with unchanging love
All the way up to my scarred heart

There is no use for words within my gaze
Time has finally come to a stop


Like this, I feel the dark night alone
Your soft tender breathing...

Warms up the moment
So that I can now express all my tremblings


I love you, and at the end of my wandering
I started to miss that feeling

I will now say goodbye,
to the repeating sadness in this world

Even if I just think of you, I become stronger!
Please help me so that I dont cry.

This moment's feeling is something we made together!
After all, it's our world where we can meet again.


[link]

]]> ~Zelle-Sama http://Zelle-Sama.deviantart.com/journal/27158384/ http://Zelle-Sama.deviantart.com/journal/27158384/ Fri, 11 Sep 2009 20:13:21 PDT 1. Put your iTunes, Windows Media Player, etc. on shuffle.
2. For each question, press the next button to get your answer.
3. YOU MUST WRITE THAT SONG NAME DOWN NO MATTER HOW SILLY IT SOUNDS.
4. Tag 25 friends. (PSH. Yeah right. XD)
5. Everyone tagged has to do the same thing.


IF SOMEONE SAYS 'ARE YOU OKAY' YOU SAY?
Could It Be -- Christy Carleson Romano

HOW WOULD YOU DESCRIBE YOURSELF?
Looking For True Love (TRUE LOVE) -- Jun

WHAT DO YOU LIKE IN A GUY/GIRL?
CANDY (Full version) -- Riyo Kosaka

HOW DO YOU FEEL TODAY?
On My Father's Wings -- Quest for Camelot

WHAT IS YOUR LIFE'S PURPOSE?
If You Can Dream -- Disney Princesses

WHAT'S YOUR MOTTO?
Candy Pop -- Heartsdales

WHAT DO YOUR FRIENDS THINK OF YOU?
Candy Pop Sweetheart -- Ryoko Shintani

WHAT DO YOUR PARENTS THINK OF YOU?
Belle -- Beauty and the Beast

WHAT DO YOU THINK ABOUT VERY OFTEN?
Final Countdown -- Europe

WHAT IS 2 + 2?
Love Love Sugar -- BeforU

WHAT DO YOU THINK OF YOUR BEST FRIEND?
Rainbow Rainbow -- Ryu (Ryutaro Nakahara)

WHAT IS YOUR LIFE STORY?
Because I Love Her -- Swan Princess III

WHAT DO YOU WANT TO BE WHEN YOU GROW UP?
Happy Material (Instrumentals only) -- Negima


WHAT DO YOU THINK WHEN YOU SEE THE PERSON YOU LIKE?
VOCALOID KAITO (Full version) -- Vocaloid(?)

WHAT WILL YOU DANCE TO AT YOUR WEDDING?
Super Jet Shoes -- Perfume

WHAT WILL THEY PLAY AT YOUR FUNERAL?
Curse of the Black Pearl -- Pirates of the Carribean

WHAT IS YOUR HOBBY/INTEREST??
Live and Learn - Sonic Adventure II Battle Soundtrack

WHAT IS YOUR BIGGEST FEAR??
I can go the Distance -- Disney's Hercules

WHAT IS YOUR BIGGEST SECRET?
Hare Hare Yukai -- Haruhi Suzumiya no Yuutsu

WHAT DO YOU WANT RIGHT NOW?
I wont say I'm in Love -- Disney's Hercules

WHAT DO YOU THINK OF YOUR FRIENDS?
Fantasmic Princess Medley -- Disney's Fantasmic

WHAT WILL YOU POST THIS AS?
Far Longer Than Forever -- Swan Princess I

]]> ~Zelle-Sama http://Zelle-Sama.deviantart.com/journal/27063050/ http://Zelle-Sama.deviantart.com/journal/27063050/ Sun, 06 Sep 2009 21:20:24 PDT
They wrote and sang the song to cheer everyone in their coutry up from the bad economic times. They also sang and preformed it in a public airport for mass effect.

I can't do as much as them, I'm afraid, I cant lift a whole country from bad times. But I can lift my friends up. And I will. I know I haven't been the brightest ray of sunshine recently - but I wont let it get to me from now on.

If you have troubles that you need to talk about, please talk know that you can talk to me about it, and I promise to help you through it.

-nodnod- I promise to be there for you, any of you. <33

I love you all, my friends

]]> ~Zelle-Sama http://Zelle-Sama.deviantart.com/journal/27024295/ http://Zelle-Sama.deviantart.com/journal/27024295/ Fri, 04 Sep 2009 21:25:50 PDT
If you're thinking that everything in your life is against you...you must be just selfish. It's not about you. Nothing is ever about you. It's always him - no matter what you do, no matter what you accomplish. He will always...always...be the only thing on everyone's mind.


Haha, no, it's okay. I'm used to it by now. You dont have to worry about me; as long as you wear a smile as your mask, and say the things that everyone wants to hear, you'll never have to deal with it.

My friends...my dear friends...talking to you...just gets harder every day. How can I get close to you...my life has known nothing but hurt and betrayal. How can I trust you? Perhaps...there really is only one person I can trust now...I don't even trust myself anymore. Maybe it would be better if you hated me, my dear, dear friends...you dont need to have to deal with someone like me.

I dont want to be left alone...but I think that maybe...maybe, it would be better...forgive me, everyone. I dont mean to be like this. But I guess you dont mean to either...

]]> ~Zelle-Sama http://Zelle-Sama.deviantart.com/journal/26941301/ http://Zelle-Sama.deviantart.com/journal/26941301/ Mon, 31 Aug 2009 16:52:55 PDT They tell you they want you and then they leave you
This is the first time, you're special
I believed those words and I was so happy

You should have told me you didn't like me any more
But I couldn't see that and you just rushed me
Although I will curse you I'll still miss you
Because I am a girl, to whom love is everything

I heard that if you give up things too easily
To a man, he will get bored with you
I don't think this is wrong
A girl says that she will never be fooled again
But she will fall in love again

You should have told me you didn't like me any more
But I couldn't see that and you just rushed me
Although I will curse you I'll still miss you
Because I am a girl, to whom love is everything"

[link]




Don't take advantage of a girl's willingness to do anything for love...

Please try to understand that to a girl, things like love are very important. No one should abuse such a feeling. If we could...we would lock such things away, and hide them safely.

So we couldn't ever be hurt.

But hearts are not birds. Nothing so easy to manipulate that we can shield it, or ourselves, from the gruesome feelings of love. They are soft, and fragile. Too willingly falling for kind words and blithe glances. Too often skipping a beat for someone perhaps, that their mind refuses.

The heart is...a cruel organ. And powerful...

Untrustworth.

]]> ~Zelle-Sama http://Zelle-Sama.deviantart.com/journal/26758620/ http://Zelle-Sama.deviantart.com/journal/26758620/ Sat, 22 Aug 2009 16:43:55 PDT
Forgive me if I dont seem myself

]]> ~Zelle-Sama http://Zelle-Sama.deviantart.com/journal/26713982/ http://Zelle-Sama.deviantart.com/journal/26713982/ Thu, 20 Aug 2009 13:20:57 PDT
Something I fucking hate, is when people post on entries, and start with their own personal little group-of-friends drama (WHICH BY THE WAY HAVE NOTHING TO DO WITH THE ORIGINAL GODDAMN ENTRY) and compeltely ignore the person who just joined/is feeling a little outcast, and their character's problem/point of the entry.

Because now, what the fuck am I supposed to do? Now I'm stuck, because all that drama happened, and I wasn't here to catch it, or stop it, or what the hell ever. You GUYS. You have GOT to learn NOT to fucking do that. I love you guys. I like to think of you as my friends. But I already DIDN'T feel accepted, and now you just made it ten times worse because you totally disregared a common courtesy of TegakiE.

Now I not only feel like shit after a tiring day of school, but I'm hot and bothered and stuck. And I dont particularly care if I'm over reacting.

Way to make me feel fucking accepted guys.

Thanks.

]]> ~Zelle-Sama http://Zelle-Sama.deviantart.com/journal/26656754/ http://Zelle-Sama.deviantart.com/journal/26656754/ Mon, 17 Aug 2009 18:33:06 PDT
Meaning not a lot of time for TegakiE or DA...but, have no fear if you're worried about loosing contact with me. I have a cell phone and I'll give it to any friends who want to know it/dont already. Just ask.

SO for now, everyone. Ciao.

]]> ~Zelle-Sama http://Zelle-Sama.deviantart.com/journal/26580075/ http://Zelle-Sama.deviantart.com/journal/26580075/ Thu, 13 Aug 2009 23:09:36 PDT
It's been...one of those days. One of those weeks, even. You know what I'm talking about.

When the world just seems to slowly fade to grey, and everything you do either is completely uninteresting or irritating to the Nth degree. Where something even mildly emotional can send you into a fit of uncontrollable tears, and using your art as an outlet just doesn't work like the good old days. Where you ache all over, and don't know why or you get overheated and hot and bothered to the point of difficulty breathing - and not just because of your asthma. Where no matter what you do, you can't be optimistic and everyone elses good moods pisses you off. You know what I'm talking about.

And even if you don't, you'll say you do anyway. Pretend to know what I'm going through. But in the end, go to bed thanking god that you don't have the problems I do. Because you have your own shit to deal with. And you don't have time for mine too.

My problems don't even compare to yours, you'll say. I'm so much better off than you, or who the hell ever, and I should thank my lucky stars that I'm not "whats-his-face" or "that-one-kid" who you know is so much worse off than me, but just can't, for the life of you, remember why.

Don't make that face, you and I both know it's true. Nowadays? Who has time to worry about other people. It's not like I'll hold it against you. I completely understand. But even if I didn't, I'd say I do, wouldn't I.

Because it's human nature to want to relate to the struggles of other humans. Even if you can't. Even if you couldn't care less. You don't want to seem like an insensitive bastard and be singled out.

It's my family, if you were wondering, if you care at all. My mother's side. Home life has never been all that terrific for me, and now that I'm out one therapist who I could actually talk to, and stuck with a mother who feels like she has to repay her family by using me, and my sister for free labour and easy guilt trips, lets just say I'm not the happiest I've ever been.

Oh, and that whole "I can't trust anyone" thing is coming back to bite me in the ass. For a year or so now, I've been building up the confidence to get rid of my cynicism and actually be social, with old friends, and new ones. But of course - by gods' spite, or my own stupidity - Not only have I had my heart broken, twice, but I'm slowly drowning in real life; which, and this is the kicker, I had actually NOT wanted to return to anyway.

And if you're not even bothering to read my entire journal, I'll sum it up for you:

The deepest circle of Hell is reserved for cold-blooded murderers, rapists, cheaters, users, and people like me. Which is why I prefer fiction books. The end.

]]> ~Zelle-Sama http://Zelle-Sama.deviantart.com/journal/26446187/ http://Zelle-Sama.deviantart.com/journal/26446187/ Fri, 07 Aug 2009 13:57:38 PDT
All the friends I have - well, mostly all anyway - are almost complete opposite of me. I realize now that I would be so naive if I hadn't met them. I mean, it's not a bad thing, but when I really think about it if I didn't have the friends I do, I'd be SO sheltered and (I didn't want to use this word. > A >, but) innocent. School friends AND internet friends, almost eveyone I know has opened my eyes to something (usually something everyone in the whole world already knew about) that I had no idea even existed.

I know it's cliche, and I'm still growing and whatnot, but I really dont think I'd be who I am today if it weren't for them...

And for that, I'm really grateful.

I love you guys <33

]]> ~Zelle-Sama http://Zelle-Sama.deviantart.com/journal/26359231/ http://Zelle-Sama.deviantart.com/journal/26359231/ Mon, 03 Aug 2009 12:56:17 PDT My armssss....o A o

I just got back from my first day of band camp...and I'm so sunburnt n' tiredddd

TT -- TT

SAVE MEEEE

]]> ~Zelle-Sama http://Zelle-Sama.deviantart.com/journal/26319560/ http://Zelle-Sama.deviantart.com/journal/26319560/ Sat, 01 Aug 2009 14:14:42 PDT
Everyone, you were right, I should've just kept my mouth shut. Because of my stupidity I just lost one of my closest friends. In a second she blocked me from all contact... I shouldn't have told her...she hates me now...literally, physically...

I don't know why she hates you so much...

The person I love, someone so close to my heart...

I sicken her now. She wants nothing more to do with me. I don't understand.

...sigh...

I thought I was doing the right thing. Good friends shouldn't keep secrets from each other, right? Better to hear it from me than by way of someone else...right?

Someone please tell me I'm right...

]]> ~Zelle-Sama http://Zelle-Sama.deviantart.com/journal/26233637/ http://Zelle-Sama.deviantart.com/journal/26233637/ Tue, 28 Jul 2009 13:08:17 PDT But now I think I'm feelin' somethin' totally new
And after all this time, I've opened up my eyes, now I see

You were always with me

Could it be, you and I never imagined?
Could it be, suddenly, I'm falling for you?

Could it be, you were right here beside me, and I never knew...


Could it be that it's true, that it's you?


It's kinda funny, you were always near
But who would ever thought that we would end up here?

And every time I've needed you, you've been there for me
So now it's clear...

I've been waiting for you~

Could it be, you and I never imagined?
Could it be, suddenly, I'm falling for you?

Could it be, you were right here beside me, and I never knew...

Could it be, that it's true, that it's you...

Oh, it's you...


Cuz today is the start of the rest of our lives...
I can see it in your eyes...

Oh, and it's real
And it's true
And it's just me and you

Could it be?
That it's true...

That it's you~

Could it be, you and I never imagined?
Could it be, suddenly, I'm falling for you...

Could it be, you were right here beside me, and I never knew...

Could it be that it's true that it's you...?
Oh yeah, that it's you...

Could it be that it's true that it's you...?

That it's you...?


Oh, it's you...

[link]

]]> ~Zelle-Sama http://Zelle-Sama.deviantart.com/journal/26142222/ http://Zelle-Sama.deviantart.com/journal/26142222/ Fri, 24 Jul 2009 01:30:48 PDT I can take care of myself.

I mustn't let them down now...
mustn't let them see me cry...
I'm fine...

I'm fine...


I'm too tired to listen.
I'm too old to believe...
all these childish stories.

There is no such thing as faith...and trust..and Pixie dust...

I try...but it's so hard to believe

I try...but I can't see what you see

I try...I try...I try...


My whole world is changing...
I dont know where to turn...

I can't leave you waiting...
but I can't stay and watch the city...burn...

Watch it burn...

Cuz I try...
But it's so hard to believe...

I try...
But I cant see what you see

I try...I try...I try and try to understand the distance in between...
The love I feel...
The things I fear...

And every single dream...

...


I can finally see it...
Now I have to believe...all those precious stories...

All the world is made of faith...and trust....and pixie dust...

So I'll try...
Cuz I finally believe

I'll try...
Cuz I can see what you see...

I'll try...I'll try...I'll try...

I'll try....




To fly....


[link]

]]> ~Zelle-Sama http://Zelle-Sama.deviantart.com/journal/26088415/ http://Zelle-Sama.deviantart.com/journal/26088415/ Tue, 21 Jul 2009 13:47:25 PDT
See, there's this guy I like...(don't give me shit, okay, stuff happened...and if I dont feel like explaining in detail, then I wont...that's not what this journal is for...sigh...)

Anyway, this guy. And I gotta say, he's one of the greatest guys I've ever met. Not that I wanna sound totally cliche, but he's sensitive, and kind...not to mention smart and clever, and he makes me laugh and smile, which I gotta say, I haven't done in an incredibly long time...

-blushes- Right, anyway, but I've started to get...worried, I guess. Cuz even though he's a total 180 of the stereotypical guy (save one or two features...~) he's...still a guy. And as much as he makes me happy, and I'm glad to know that I make him happy too...I always worry that he wont like me just because of my looks...

And I know he's no Derek (Ie: "What else is there?") but it's hard for me. I dunno, to trust like that. I mean...I never ever in a million years though that someone could love - or even LIKE - me because of anything other than the way that I look/ed. -shrug- I guess that's a good part of my cynicism...

And ya know, girl's - females - are vain. We are, gals, don't drown yourself in denial. Even if it's a little, or a lot, we're vain. Guys...aren't. MOST guys aren't. Or if they are, it's often just to impress a girl/guy that they like. It's usually very Heh, not like you have to take my advice on anything to do with guys/girls/relationships...


SIGH...I just...don't know. How do you...know if someone is right for you?

And, even if you think you know...what happens if you're wrong?

I get so worried about screwing up again...

I want to be myself, but how can I do that when 'myself' has caused a good deal of the sadness in my life?

...anyway...still in London...coming home on the 31st, then band camp on the 3rd...

]]> ~Zelle-Sama http://Zelle-Sama.deviantart.com/journal/25792550/ http://Zelle-Sama.deviantart.com/journal/25792550/ Tue, 07 Jul 2009 09:39:03 PDT
Jon chan sent me this little quiz thingy. Since I didn't post the last one here, I promised I would, for this one. SEE THE FAIL. SEE IT.

1. WERE YOU NAMED AFTER ANYONE?
Ummm...after someone in the Torah, i think...(Torah = Jew Bible)

2. WHEN WAS THE LAST TIME YOU CRIED?
Ummm...hmm, a few weeks ago.

3. DO YOU LIKE YOUR HANDWRITING?
LOL. Sometimes.

4 . WHAT IS YOUR FAVORITE LUNCH MEAT?
I LIKE CORN BEEF

5. DO YOU HAVE KIDS?
Nooooo~

6. IF YOU WERE ANOTHER PERSON, WOULD YOU BE FRIENDS WITH YOU?
DEPENDS

7. DO YOU USE SARCASM A LOT?
Lol, Noooooooo....> w >

8. DO YOU STILL HAVE YOUR TONSILS?
Y - yes....8 A 8;;;

9. WOULD YOU BUNGEE JUMP?
OMGYES

10. WHAT IS YOUR FAVORITE CEREAL?
I like waffle crisp~

11. DO YOU UNTIE YOUR SHOES WHEN YOU TAKE THEM OFF?
Lol, not usually

12. DO YOU THINK YOU ARE STRONG?
Yesss

13. WHAT IS YOUR FAVORITE ICE CREAM?
Strawberry

14. WHAT IS THE FIRST THING YOU NOTICE ABOUT PEOPLE?
Their hair and eyes (and wether they have glasses or not)

15. Favorite Color.. RED OR PINK?
PIIIIIIIIIIIIIIIINK

16. WHAT IS THE LEAST FAVORITE THING ABOUT YOURSELF?
My....body...> w >;;;

17. WHO DO YOU MISS THE MOST
My daddy

18. DO YOU WANT EVERYONE TO SEND THIS BACK TO YOU?
Send...it back? Like spam mail? FUCK NO. D<

19. WHAT COLOR PANTS AND SHOES ARE YOU WEARING?
Pink shorts, and no shoes

20. WHAT WAS THE LAST THING YOU ATE?
Toast

21. WHAT ARE YOU LISTENING TO RIGHT NOW?
No musics. 8 -- 8

22. IF YOU WERE A CRAYON, WHAT COLOR WOULD YOU BE?
Tickle-me-pink

23. FAVORITE SMELLS?
tea, warm cinnamon, outside right after the rain

24. WHO WAS THE LAST PERSON YOU TALKED TO ON THE PHONE?
My dad

25.. DO YOU LIKE THE PERSON WHO SENT THIS?
MMYES~<3

26. FAVORITE SPORTS TO WATCH?
I like Tennis

27. HAIR COLOR ?
Dark brown

28. EYE COLOR?
D...dark brown....T -- T;;;

29. DO YOU WEAR CONTACTS?
HNNG. NO.

30. FAVORITE FOOD TYPE?
SWEETS~

31. SCARY MOVIES OR HAPPY ENDINGS?
SCARY MOVIES. >D

32. LAST MOVIE YOU WATCHED?
Pirates of the Carribean

33. WHAT COLOR SHIRT ARE YOU WEARING?
Pink

34. DO YOU LIKE SUMMER OR WINTER?
Winter

35.. HUGS OR KISSES?
= 3 = Yes please

36. FAVORITE DESSERT?
....eheheheh...> w >

37. MOST LIKELY TO RESPOND?
RESPOND TA FUCKIN' WUT? This? Psh, I dunno, my watchers?

38.. LEAST LIKELY TO RESPOND
Know what, fuck you, baka question. = _____ =

39. What book are you reading now?
Ummm...none of the above?

40. WHAT IS ON YOUR MOUSE PAD?
FUCKIN' POKEMON

41. WHAT DID YOU WATCH ON TV LAST NIGHT?
YOUR MOM

42. FAVORITE SOUND?
I like to listen to music...

43. ROLLING STONES, BEATLES, OR JON BON JOVI
....um...no?

44. WHAT IS THE FARTHEST YOU HAVE BEEN FROM HOME?
London, England

45. ANY NEW NEWS IN YOUR LIFE?
FINALLY going to England next week

46. WHERE WERE YOU BORN?
SOMEWHERE IN FLORIDA

47. WHOSE ANSWERS ARE YOU LOOKING FORWARD TO GETTING BACK?
You know, I just noticed...you're using all CAPS...and that denotes shouting. And I dont appreciate that...

48. WHAT TIME IS IT NOW?
11:33am

]]> ~Zelle-Sama http://Zelle-Sama.deviantart.com/journal/25148289/ http://Zelle-Sama.deviantart.com/journal/25148289/ Fri, 05 Jun 2009 17:34:10 PDT Hey gaiz.
I know I haven't posted anything in a long time.
Ah, but that's not completely my fault, I had to change my password for my DA account, because apparently (Although I really have NO idea how...) someone's been on my DA account looking at erotica. > --- >
I know, yeah.
But DONT BE ALARMED.
My password is safe now, and I'm almost done un-favoriting the erotic stories they added. > --- >;;; No offence to the authors, but, ah, I'd rather not have them in my favourites...

So yah.
Leaving for England on the 10th

]]> ~Zelle-Sama http://Zelle-Sama.deviantart.com/journal/23085044/ http://Zelle-Sama.deviantart.com/journal/23085044/ Sun, 08 Feb 2009 14:54:20 PST Yah..

]]> ~Zelle-Sama http://Zelle-Sama.deviantart.com/journal/22038412/ http://Zelle-Sama.deviantart.com/journal/22038412/ Wed, 17 Dec 2008 18:45:05 PST -- some of you might know her as Emasik from Tegaki E -- asked me to marry her. That's not the best part though, the best part is...I said yes. I know I'm still very young to be making this kind of decision, but until I'm legal (18) I have over three years to talk, and grow together with her. I'm determined to meet someday soon, and her BITCH of a roommate (<3) So, my fiance and I bid you all a lovely day. Congratulations and comments are welcomed. BIGOTS WILL NOT BE TOLERATED.

Ciao for now.

]]> ~Zelle-Sama http://Zelle-Sama.deviantart.com/journal/18823585/ http://Zelle-Sama.deviantart.com/journal/18823585/ Fri, 13 Jun 2008 15:39:21 PDT 's journal, and thought it'd be hilarious...so here goes:
RULES:
Go to Google and type in your first name and the phrase. Copy and paste the first sentence/phrase you get that makes sense.


["name" needs]: Zelle needs to be crated when she is home alone. The last thing Zelle needs is to fall for the wrong guy. Zelle needs more than $8300...

["name" looks like]: Zelle looks like she likes it, which is what matters most - eh? (-__-)

["name" says]: Zelle says: thee buys me many drinks, good sir, I fear thy wallet will become thusly rap'd (o-O)

["name" wants]: Zelle knows what he wants to do and he goes out and works at being able to do that. (He?)

["name" does]: Zelle does not have many good memories of school, where she broke the games mistress's nose with a lacrosse ball. Zelle was horrible at sports. (Oh noes D: Forgive me, games mistress...)

["name" hates]: Zelle hates her snood but if she doesn't wear one her ears are such a mess and its so hard to clean up that she has to wear it. (Snood, eh?)

["name" asks]: Zelle asks me to drive and she rides silently with a dreamy look on her face all the way to the convent.

["name" goes]: Zelle, goes bankrupt as a result of her father, Adam. (Well, his name's not Adam..but...}


["name" likes]: Zelle likes cake, ZELLE likes cake, big jar full of gayness! (-__- Oh wow....)

["name" eats]: Zelle liks a lemon, stupid girl, and Zelle learns lemons are sour...and makes the best faces EVER. (TT-TT So cruel...)

["name" wears]: Zelle wears a handloom dress and a little pair of white bloomers to keep her warm. (Oh...so personal...)

["name" was arrested for]: Accused of witchcraft, Zelle was arrested and sentenced to die, but ever since then, strange events have been happening.

This was very fun to do, please try this out, and please participate in out Blood Lust contest, thank you.

]]> ~Zelle-Sama http://Zelle-Sama.deviantart.com/journal/18590118/ http://Zelle-Sama.deviantart.com/journal/18590118/ Sun, 01 Jun 2008 07:30:11 PDT
We need you to create characters for our comic, they will appear on the second page, and also have a big cameo later on.

Rules of the Contest:

- No maximum or minimum to the ammount of character you can submit

- The age range is from 15-50, or, if you have a younger-aged character and we really like them, you're in, meaning you have a special privelige and we'll allow it.

- We prefer characters who are 40+ to look a bit young for their age

- Note with your submission. If you post the link in my journal, if you just submit it, and expect us to come looking for it, you will most likely not get in.

- We prefer if you note Anima, and not me...but if you do find it easier to note me, it won't be held against you.

- Characters need to be believable, a bit charismatic, and you need to accompany the character information with a character sheet: We need one fullbody picture with the clothes they normally wear, one headshot, and one profile. You may add more if you wish, but these are the required....well, requirements.

- You may post an immortal/magical chracter on two conditions: They must be asthetically pleasing, meaning their age could be a few thousand years old, but they have to appear within the preferred age range. And all magical species and the rules of that species abide by our rules. Every person has their own rules, when it comes to vampires, elves, and such - so it's our rules, or none.

- If you need examples of a character sheet, please look to Bartholomew's, Terrance's, and Zatch's. They are fair enough examples.

Please make sure you've read the rules, and also, have fun with this. We need the characters as soon as possible, so there's technically no time limit, but please be original and creative.

We're relying on you guys. Don't let us down, kay? ^w^
Ciaossu!

]]> ~Zelle-Sama http://Zelle-Sama.deviantart.com/journal/18482140/ http://Zelle-Sama.deviantart.com/journal/18482140/ Sat, 24 May 2008 16:18:22 PDT Finals?
FINALS?
FINALS?!
FINALS!!!!


AAAUUUUUGGGGHHHHHH! FINALS! FINALS! FINALSFINALSFINALSFINALSFINALSASDFGHJKLKJHY

WHY ARE THERE SUCH DEMONS ON EARTH, AS THE FIERY EVILS OF FINALS? BURN, FINALS! BURN....

]]> ~Zelle-Sama http://Zelle-Sama.deviantart.com/journal/18109268/ http://Zelle-Sama.deviantart.com/journal/18109268/ Wed, 30 Apr 2008 21:15:47 PDT I don't know what's wrong with me, I'm just...tired and sore...and I don't have the energy or will to do much of anything, my grades have dropped a bit, because I can't be compelled to do homework, but I'm trying to get as much done as I can. I feel...just terrible.

ANyway, I just thought I'd let you know I'm not dead...and I don't have much to post...

Sorry...

]]> ~Zelle-Sama http://Zelle-Sama.deviantart.com/journal/17942267/ http://Zelle-Sama.deviantart.com/journal/17942267/ Sun, 20 Apr 2008 10:46:30 PDT
EDIT: I FREAKIN' HATE SMILIES...PLEASE ignore them...

[x] I am shorter than 5'4. (5’2” Biyatches! O<
[] I think I'm ugly sometimes.
[x] I have many scars. (Actually, most – if not all – are from me catching myself on something. I’m crazy clumy…-___-)
[x] I tan easily.
[x] I wish my hair was a different color. (But considering what my parents would do to me….yeah…not any time soon…
[] I have friends who have never seen my natural hair color.
[] I have a tattoo.
[] I am self-conscious about my appearance.
[x] I have/I've had braces. (Yep, I get them off in about half a year)
[x] I wear glasses. (Thus explaining my absurd glasses fetish)
[] I would get plastic surgery if it were 100% safe, free of cost, and scar-free. (Nah, I like to keep it natural, y’know?)
[] I've been told I'm attractive by a complete stranger
[] I have more than 2 piercing. (If my parents don’t want me to dye my hair, which goes away…what do you think they’d do to me if I pierced myself AGAIN?…
[] I have piercing in places besides my ears.
[] I have freckles.
[] I hate my dad. (Hell no! I freakin’ LOVE my daddy, he’s the best, greatest, coolest person I’ve ever known. He’s my idol and role model.)
[x] I hate my mom. (I guess It’s not to ‘hate’ point yet….but sometimes I just can’t stand her.)
[x] I have a brother. (Actually, I have six)
[x] I have a sister. (Yes, and I luvs her to bits. ^^)
[] I've sworn at my parents. (….omg….you don’t even want to know what would happen to me…
[] I've run away from home. (Psh, I wish)
[] I've been kicked out of the house.
[] My biological parents are together.
[x] I have a sibling less than one year old. (My dad and step mom just had little baby Charlie, and he’s adorable.)
[x] I want to have kids someday. (Yes….yeah….but not any time soon…
[] I've had children.
[] I've lost a child.
[x] I'm in school. (And as soon as High School is over, I’m off to Japan, baby.)
[] I have a job
[x] I've fallen asleep at work/school. (I don’t get much sleep, usually…
[x] I almost always do my homework. (Well, usually it depends on what mood I’m in…
[x] I've missed a week or more of school. (I went to England and spent Passover week with my Daddy. ^w^)
[x] I've been on the Honor Roll within the last 2 years. (HELL yeah! Betta recognize.)
[x] I failed more than 1 class last year. (Middle Scool = great depression)
[] I've stolen something from my job.
[] I've been fired.
[x] I've slipped out a "lol" in a spoken conversation. (More than once)
[] Disney movies still make me cry. (No, but I freakin’ love the songs)
[] I've peed from laughing.
[x] I've snorted while laughing. (What can I say? I have allergy issuses)
[x] I've laughed so hard I've cried. (I had a stomach ache for, like, the next five hours)
[x] I've glued my hand to something. (Purposely and by accident)
[] I've had my pants rip in public.
[] I was born with a disease/impairment.
[] I've gotten stitches/staples.
[x] I've broken a bone. (When I was about…four years old, I jumped through a glass coffee table. I had a pretty pink cast. ^^)
[] I've had my tonsils removed.
[] I've sat in a doctor’s office/emergency room with a friend.
[] I've had my wisdom teeth removed.
[] I had a serious surgery.
[x] I've had chicken pox.
[] I was born in a different country. (GOD I WISH!!! D<
[] I've driven over 200 miles in one day.
[x] I've been on a plane.
[] I've been to Canada.
[] I've been to Mexico. (No, and neither do I want to, kthanx)
[] I've been to Niagara Falls.
[] I've been to Japan. (OMG!!! I REALLY REALLY WANNA GO THERE!!!11!1eleven)
[] I've celebrated Mardi Gras in New Orleans.
[x] I've been to Europe. (About five or six times)
[] I'v... ]]> ~Zelle-Sama http://Zelle-Sama.deviantart.com/journal/17796623/ http://Zelle-Sama.deviantart.com/journal/17796623/ Fri, 11 Apr 2008 14:07:34 PDT [link]

Omg, go there. I do commissions for cheap. Really. ^^

]]> ~Zelle-Sama http://Zelle-Sama.deviantart.com/journal/17642039/ http://Zelle-Sama.deviantart.com/journal/17642039/ Tue, 01 Apr 2008 20:43:04 PDT -shrug-
I'm too tired to be funny.


BTW: So....i herd u liek Mudkips...?

]]> ~Zelle-Sama http://Zelle-Sama.deviantart.com/journal/17453230/ http://Zelle-Sama.deviantart.com/journal/17453230/ Sat, 22 Mar 2008 05:17:54 PDT
::ZELLE, WHAT WOULD YOU DO IF...::

I died: I would miss you forever

I kissed you: I would blush, and ask for more

I fell: I would lift you up

I lived next door to you: I would visit often

I showed up at your house unexpectedly: I would invite you inside eagerly

I stole something: I would be disheartened

I was murdered: I would cry for hours

I cried: I would dry your tears

I asked you to marry me: I would answer yes, no question

I was hospitalized: I would bring you flowers

::WOULD YOU::

Trust me enough to sleep in the same bed as me?: Absolutely

Keep a secret if i told you one?: No question

Hold my hand?: Yes

Study with me?: Of course

Cook for me?: Any time

Love me?: I already do

Date me?: Please!

Have sex with me?: With no hesitation

::HAVE YOU EVER::

Lied to make me feel better?: Regretfully, yes

Wanted to kiss me?: Every day

Wanted to kill me?: Only when I see you with someone who does not deserve you

Broke my heart?: How could I?

Thought I was unbearably annoying?: Never

Hated me?: When you do not realize just how much I want you...

Wanted to tell me someting but didn't?: Yes...

Wondered about my sanity?: Secretly

Wanted to do something to me?: ...^////^

]]> ~Zelle-Sama http://Zelle-Sama.deviantart.com/journal/17198503/ http://Zelle-Sama.deviantart.com/journal/17198503/ Sat, 22 Mar 2008 03:56:29 PDT
So, I was talking with my mum yesterday, and it turns out my brother is actually coming home from my Dad's. I'm still in shock.
Gasp! Zelle has a brother?
I do.

Oh, and she also said that ever since we were young, I was always...the more anal one. I was like, hold up now, say what?

Ya, love you too mummy.
Feh, and she wonders why I want to go live with our dad.

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IN other news. I am learning the full version of Hare Hare Yukai from the series Haruhi Suzumiya no Yuutsu *Melancholies of Haruhi Suzumiya* (Can't spell tonight...lolwhut?)

MOVING ON!
I was debating with myself, whether or not I should post the link to my youtube accout here, so all of you can share in the lovliness of mah voice...

-__-;; Yeah right...

Anyway, if anyone has an opinion on this, please say so. Cruel comments will be hidden. If you don't give a damn about me or my questions, that's fine, but once you put it in writing, it makes you look like even more of a bastard. Kay? n__n

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Anyone can draw them
Zatchel's character sheet: [link]
T... ]]> ~Zelle-Sama http://Zelle-Sama.deviantart.com/journal/16502474/ http://Zelle-Sama.deviantart.com/journal/16502474/ Sun, 10 Feb 2008 16:28:26 PST
Ahaha! There's still one more day of Naka-kon, but I thought I'd check in with you all and show you I'm not dead. Least I hope I'm not. But Naka kon is so awseome, I've been playing that Naruto fighting game a ton.

There's this one guy who PWNS with Kyuubi Naruto, and I'm like,
"Oi, you! Quit bein' cheap with Kyuubi!"
An' he's all like:
"STFU, n000b, I OWN you, anyway."
Then I'm like:
"Lol, whut?"
Not really, though. But I can own with Gaara, betta recognize.

Also, Shino's special attack in the game, it drowns you with bugs, so whenever someone uses it, we all go: Augh! Bug raep! ^-^

Oh yeah, and the dealer's room rocks, guys. Seriously, while I'm playing, I look at my drink, and, "Shit, I'm out of Ramune!" then I'm like, "Oh chea, the dealer's room is, like, five minutes away."
Seriously, it's heaven. And each bottle is only, like, two dollars. ^////^
Eeheehee...
I've got so much Naruto items, it's almost illegal.
Plus, lots of Naruto yaoi pictures. Cosplayers are nice enough to yaoi it up for us. I got one of a Light threatening an L with a yaoi paddle to the backside. They were both guys too, and they really, REALLY yaoied it up. I thanked them lots. And a picture of Uchihacest, thank you to those two cosplayers, as well. ^-^

Now I just need Gaara/Lee before the con is over...
Hee. ^-^ (I didn't get Gaara/Lee.

Today was the last day of Naka-kon, sob. But it was fun-zorz.
HOMG, I was ready to karaoke, singing Yura Yura, but I'd forgotten the first damn part of my song. I had to yank the words from a later verse, but I was so embarrased. Obviously, I didn't win. -____-

So I went back down the the game room, and was Narutoed it up for a few hours. During which, I played as Gaara, and I was against an Itachi, and one dude's like: "God! Why doesn't Itachi use his right arm?"
And I'm like: "Because he doesn't need it! He owns without it, snd it proves how good he is at being evil"
Then Itachi used his special move on Gaara, and Gaara got shanked.

Oh yeah, and a guy from my school sat behind me, and he's all like: "Oh, you!"
And me, "You!"
He was cosplaying as a ninja from Naruto, and he couldn't think of a name, so I dubbed him: "Random generic ninja number seven!" An' we laughed.

Oh, and as I was waiting to be picked up after the con, I was watching everyone playing in the revolving door. They were having a dance party.

They were having a great time, but the hotel guys were like: "Aaugh! They're going to break our five-hundred dollar doors!" And I was just sort of...there...in the background, drinkin' my Ramune. They all looked at me, and I'm like, "...Yo..."

All in all, my first con was hilariously awesome. I got eight posters, six of which were Naruto. I was in button heaven, and I've had about twelve bottles of Ramune in the last 72 hours.

Oh ya, I'm oing to New York on Thursday! PWN-age! ^-^

UPDATE!

I can't figure out how to set up a poll, so here's what I was going to ask: Since everyone loved my OC meme so much, and since I love Naruto so much, should I make a Naruto OC meme?

Good idea?
Bad idea?
I couldn't care less what you do in your spare time.

And for those of you who hate Naruto, you need not respond. Not gonna stop liking it just because it got popular. -shrug-

So let me know what you think! ^-^


.:CONTEST INFO:.

Hey there, fellow Otaku people!
I have another contest for you, and before you go, "Uugh...Zelle's doing another contest...ew..." Or whatever it is you contest-haters hate, just bear with me here.

Are you an Otaku? Don't be ashamed, we are a thriving race. So this is to all you out there completely obsessed with anime characters.
Draw yourself (NOT your avvie) as a partner to your favourite anime character/video game character. Although, you can't have them out of character, so if you adore Sesshomaru, or his 'type', you can't have him fawning over you. You know how to do it, so go! ^-^

Oh yeah, there'll be prizes for first and second places. First place gets a full body picture of you and your favourite character, coloured completely. Second place gets a bust sketch of you and your character.

Oh, and just to make sure you're not confused, once you've done your picture, please NOTE ME THE LINK to your picture.

The date of judging is TBA, but the sooner everyone's done, the sooner I can judge.

]]> ~Zelle-Sama http://Zelle-Sama.deviantart.com/journal/16418182/ http://Zelle-Sama.deviantart.com/journal/16418182/ Tue, 15 Jan 2008 13:57:19 PST
Oh, and by the way, I'm still up on the offer to draw things for people...

I dun know whut to draw-zorz...

]]> ~Zelle-Sama http://Zelle-Sama.deviantart.com/journal/16140093/ http://Zelle-Sama.deviantart.com/journal/16140093/ Fri, 28 Dec 2007 14:35:28 PST Sorry, but I'm upset because all I got for the holidays was slippers, a giftcard of ten dollars at Borders (Which won't buy much), and socks. Lots of socks, and it made me cry.

I got some money, too, but I'm saving it for a convention, so I'm still as broke as I was...I didn't get any art supplies. No sketchbook, no copics, not even a pack of goddamn pencils. AND it's my birthday on the 30th and I bet I get nothing. I'm so depressed....I think I'll go cry now, ciao.

P.S. If you're at Naka-kon, let me know. ^3^

]]> ~Zelle-Sama http://Zelle-Sama.deviantart.com/journal/15591700/ http://Zelle-Sama.deviantart.com/journal/15591700/ Tue, 20 Nov 2007 14:45:10 PST [link]

Anyway, onto the contest:


Anima -[link] - is having a contest to see who can come up with the most creative quote on quote Sonic team.

Here are the rules, completly written by her:

There are three characters to a team, for fly, strength, and speed, and two ways to do this. One, you could draw them. Paper, Tablet, pen. Whatevs. Or you could go to this incredibly talented person: [link]

All the credit for the male furrie generator: [link] and the female furrie generator: [link] go to her and I take absolutely no credit...in any case, you could go there and make dolls.

Anyway. Rules:
1. You must have three characters on your team.
2. Each must have an element, Speed, Flight, or Strength.
3. You must have an original team name.
4.For each character, you must fill out a small introduction ----

Name:
Power:
Age:
Colour:
Job:
Other/Description:
Weapons:
Quote:


5. Prizes! For 1st place you will win a full size picture of one of your team members from both me and Anima
2nd place will receive a full size picture of one of your team members from either myself or the person mentioned above.
3rd place will win a drawn bust of one of the team members from either me of that other person again.

All Sonic lovers! This is your chance to shine! Go to it!

]]> ~Zelle-Sama http://Zelle-Sama.deviantart.com/journal/15531220/ http://Zelle-Sama.deviantart.com/journal/15531220/ Fri, 16 Nov 2007 08:49:47 PST
Oh, and if you can't swallow bad art, LEAVE DA, because there's always going to be someone somewhere who has a bad picture. Don't like it? Cry me a river, build me a bridge, and GET OVER IT.

]]> ~Zelle-Sama http://Zelle-Sama.deviantart.com/journal/15304683/ http://Zelle-Sama.deviantart.com/journal/15304683/ Wed, 31 Oct 2007 15:59:24 PDT
Mellisa, you get to be the first.

]]> ~Zelle-Sama http://Zelle-Sama.deviantart.com/journal/15153084/ http://Zelle-Sama.deviantart.com/journal/15153084/ Sun, 21 Oct 2007 05:59:06 PDT *BEGIN QUOTE*
'Did Dumbledore, who believed in the prevailing power of love, ever fall in love himself?'

The author replied: 'My truthful answer to you...I always thought of Dumbledore as gay.' The audience reportedly fell silent - then erupted into prolonged applause.

Rowling continued: 'Dumbledore fell in love with Grindelwald, and that added to his horror when Grindelwald showed himself to be what he was. To an extent, do we say it excused Dumbledore a little more, because falling in love can blind us to an extent. But when he met someone as brilliant as he was and, rather like Bellatrix, he was very drawn to this brilliant person and horribly, terribly let down by him.'
*END QUOTE*

I believe I choked so much I started crying, but, eh, most of you fangirls/guys probably knew it before, huh? Anyway, I guess it's just one more reason to love gay men. ^-^

]]> ~Zelle-Sama http://Zelle-Sama.deviantart.com/journal/13916242/ http://Zelle-Sama.deviantart.com/journal/13916242/ Sat, 28 Jul 2007 15:55:44 PDT
Bad ones, but whatever...

^-^;;

]]> ~Zelle-Sama http://Zelle-Sama.deviantart.com/journal/13030574/ http://Zelle-Sama.deviantart.com/journal/13030574/ Sun, 20 May 2007 19:59:17 PDT
So, here's the comissions stuff:

-Sketchs-
Head
Bust
Fullbody(standing, sitting, position)

"Lineart" (Of a sort)
Head
Bust
Fulbody

.:Coloured:.
Head
Bust
Fulbody(If you ask nicely.)

I know, but we can't all have CG programs, or fancy looking journals...Meanwhile, I'm gonna go draw a girl with a cake on her head. ^-^

Oh, and just note me for a comission. They're free.

]]> ~Zelle-Sama http://Zelle-Sama.deviantart.com/journal/12853425/ http://Zelle-Sama.deviantart.com/journal/12853425/ Sat, 05 May 2007 14:58:22 PDT
So, yeah. Have at it - if you like...

]]> ~Zelle-Sama http://Zelle-Sama.deviantart.com/journal/12833391/ http://Zelle-Sama.deviantart.com/journal/12833391/ Thu, 03 May 2007 20:59:28 PDT
Heh...so, yeah, I've got some stuff to post, and then I'll stalk lots of better artists.

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]]> ~Zelle-Sama http://Zelle-Sama.deviantart.com/journal/12003409/ http://Zelle-Sama.deviantart.com/journal/12003409/ Wed, 28 Feb 2007 16:40:45 PST
Well, my mood's taken another swing. I'm feeling creative. I'm gonna post some more pictures, but I'm pretty busy, you know, the whole failing-classes-because-of-drawing-thing. So, they're just gonna be sketches. Okai? Okai.

]]> ~Zelle-Sama http://Zelle-Sama.deviantart.com/journal/11927725/ http://Zelle-Sama.deviantart.com/journal/11927725/ Thu, 22 Feb 2007 21:04:59 PST
I'm in a very upset mood...

You know, that time of the month and mood swings and all that...

A comment would be nice, though.

]]> ~Zelle-Sama http://Zelle-Sama.deviantart.com/journal/11908722/ http://Zelle-Sama.deviantart.com/journal/11908722/ Wed, 21 Feb 2007 13:30:21 PST
Caiobella

]]> ~Zelle-Sama http://Zelle-Sama.deviantart.com/journal/11873311/ http://Zelle-Sama.deviantart.com/journal/11873311/ Sun, 18 Feb 2007 19:55:07 PST
I was making....a bannana cream pie.

...

I really was! But I promise, it'll be up in the next hour. Sorry to those invisible people who were so desperately waiting to see it.

Believe me, it isn't worth your trouble. My invisible fans.

Caio

]]> ~Zelle-Sama http://Zelle-Sama.deviantart.com/journal/11871473/ http://Zelle-Sama.deviantart.com/journal/11871473/ Sun, 18 Feb 2007 17:31:29 PST
I'djust like to say, for thos of you who have been waiting, my first deviation will be uploaded tonight. Febuary - er - it's the seventeenth, right? Anyway, tonight at about nine-o-clock my first deviation will be here...although I guess it's not that big of a deal...whatever.

Caiobella

]]> ~Zelle-Sama http://Zelle-Sama.deviantart.com/journal/11835692/ http://Zelle-Sama.deviantart.com/journal/11835692/ Thu, 15 Feb 2007 21:10:56 PST
I'm very excited because this is my first ever Deviantart account, and although I'm an ammature, I hope to get some good and bad comments. Also some help to learn about CG-ing and how to use that sort of stuff. I mean, you can only learn so much from tutorials. There are already some artists here that I idolize, and am really looking forwards to meeting.

...

Or...I could be a weird, immature, pyro-maniacal, freak.

Yeah, so technically I have no talent. I sketch during school, over the weekend, on holidays, day and night, 24/7. Then I either outline with a darkened shade of pencil, outline with pen, or color with colored pencils.

I don't have adobe photoshop 9.0, I don't have anything (So completely awesome) like most of you do, so my medoocre coloring, shading, etc. will have to suffice.

(I'd just like to let you all know I have so always wanted to do this.)

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