http://search.deviantart.com/?q=by:ZimmiqueManson&section=today deviantART RSS for by:ZimmiqueManson en-us Copyright 2009, deviantART.com Wed, 09 Dec 2009 02:47:50 PST deviantART.com http://blogs.law.harvard.edu/tech/rss http://s.deviantart.com/minish/widgets/apple-touch-icon-precomposed.png http://ZimmiqueManson.deviantart.com/journal/8310774/ http://ZimmiqueManson.deviantart.com/journal/8310774/ Thu, 30 Mar 2006 03:25:32 PST She no longer loves me. And this is my final farewell. No more temporary journals speaking of leaving, this is it. The end of my love towards anyone..the end of my sanity. I can can only pray to whatever existant god that death comes swiftly down upon me for my reason to live is drained.

I hope you have a good life Ted with Gravity1046 know that you've given the the truth. I can honestly say I know have what I need.

Directly after this posting the password is to be scrambled and my yahoo account deleted without knowledge of the new password. I'm serious when I say it is all over now. ]]> ~ZimmiqueManson http://ZimmiqueManson.deviantart.com/journal/8306908/ http://ZimmiqueManson.deviantart.com/journal/8306908/ Wed, 29 Mar 2006 16:46:33 PST I'm no longer feeling edgy paranoid or manic. I do have some advice for those who have bi-polar disorder, ADD, depression or anthing similiar. If at all possible do not let a physician put you on Celexa. Not only do the effects of taking Celexa cause extreme thoughts of suicide but I have read about the withdrawal effects of coming off of it, and in a few reported cases it has been so severe that it has caused persons to kill others.

This is a link to the effects of prescribed anti-psychotic medicines: [link]
As well as a good example why I believe no one should ever consider taking them, unless they're need is critical.

I do take these medicines but only because it is what my family and physician think is best for me, if I refused my psychiatrist would be insistant on having me commited. I'd rather not take any of these medicines, or at least try an herbal alternative but it is not my choice to at the time, rather people imposing what 'they' feel is best for me.

Several anti-psychotics have been known to confuse the thinking or to distort emotions even perhaps what is rational with some persons. I luckily am able to maintain decent thought rationality while on medicines, though emotions are a bit of a problem at times.

Of course a main focus of this journal is again to say I'm feeling much better like my good jovial and wacky good humored self.

I slept until around 4:30PM but my allergies are doing better. My family got some visine for my eyes..My cornea in my right eye has been itching and scratchy for a good while last night which is why I was on and off the comp routinely. I'm doing much better now with that though. My stupid acrylic throw is shedding like mad so naturally I'm unhappy with it..it's clinging to my clothing esp. black clothes and it's hard to wash off them..some lint has even made it in the washer..The acrylic fluff if really light and a damn pest during sleeping since it gets in my nostrils and I feel like I want to harf an acrylic lint ball upon waking up So yep. I'm about ready to sent that damn throw packing.

My family went to Owensboro while I slept at home and joined the Sam's club in which members can get huge dicounts esp. on bulk items.

[link] See if there's one in your area, or if you apply! This group is a direct provider for Wal-mart, and joining can make you applicable for huge discounts on virtually anything.

Sooo..I'm in a good mood and feeling well...what to do..?

*pounces and molests Mmy*



Artists to watch and praise:

A great artist and the very first of the JiMmy fans. She is who inspired my love for JiMmy and made me the obsessive Mmy fan girl I am today. ~ZimmiqueManson http://ZimmiqueManson.deviantart.com/journal/8298531/ http://ZimmiqueManson.deviantart.com/journal/8298531/ Tue, 28 Mar 2006 19:30:40 PST
1. Garnier Nutrisse Truffle- medium natural brown

or 2. pale creme blonde

Your opinions especially Ted's are greatly appreciated.


Artists to watch and praise:

A great artist and the very first of the JiMmy fans. She is who inspired my love for JiMmy and made me the obsessive Mmy fan girl I am today. She is my My Princess, Angel & Love. Everything in this world can't compare to the love I feel for my girl. She is my soulmate and my very meaning.

A very cool and great friend, with some wicked art! Also an Invader Zim fan! Go see her DA page!

She's a very nice and talented young artist, with lots of great art!!


A very cool person with several awesome OCs as well as being a die-hard fan of Rob Zombie!!


Another nice person, with some wicked Zim & Crypto art! Go see her gallery!


A great friend with a kind personality, and lots of great artwork!


A really kind person, and a wonderful friend as well as a Sesshoumaru fan!

Groups I'm in:

As far as sexy comic guys JiMmy OWNS, cause Mmy is god! Gotta problem with that? ~ZimmiqueManson http://ZimmiqueManson.deviantart.com/journal/8295212/ http://ZimmiqueManson.deviantart.com/journal/8295212/ Tue, 28 Mar 2006 13:37:40 PST
After climbing out of bed I nearly tripped over some jeans on the floor and cursed them before wandering off into the bathroom and applying a hot cloth to my face since my nose had those dried boogers in them and my eye lids were pretty crusted over..I think one of my farking corneas is swollen to add to the mix upon examining it really close in the mirror. Luckily I haven't began going into a sneezing fit yet..

I hope this isn't a bad allergy year for me..I haven't had a bad allergy attack since I think it was 2003..but who knows I might be over due one.. I just hope the damn thing doesn't try to spread into my chest area especially since that can cause pneumonia...right now I'm going to take some non drowsy sinus pills..yay!!

I ended up sleeping with the chow plush tucked under my arm that Teddy got me as always. ]]> ~ZimmiqueManson http://ZimmiqueManson.deviantart.com/journal/8287581/ http://ZimmiqueManson.deviantart.com/journal/8287581/ Mon, 27 Mar 2006 17:54:11 PST [link]

I don't like the abortion T-shirts..but otherwise they've got some pretty wicked stuff.

I've been doing well, pretty calm and such. My mom is still pretty embittered about having diabetes..you can't even say harmless little jibes without her getting emotionally distressed so I stay away from her.

I've been doing pretty well though..I'm working on a hilarious Easter pic involving Mmy.. !! most likely I'll be playing my sims game unless anyone needs anything or my beautiful shining angel Teddy D. would like to chat.

I ended up watching Xiaolin Showdown and swooning over Jack Spicer again.. Just as a random pic..I may draw him with Mmy sometime.

I've been letting my Mmy obsessions run wild too..which I need to sketch out for Y!gallery..

So I'm doing good and I love all of you!! Especially Teddy D. though..

TV: Fosters Home for Imaginary Friends.

Artists to watch and praise:

A great artist and the very first of the JiMmy fans. She is who inspired my love for JiMmy and made me the obsessive Mmy fan girl I am today. She is my My Princess, Angel & Love. Everything in this world can't compare to the love I feel for my girl. She is my soulmate and my very meaning.

A very cool and great friend, with some wicked art! Also an Invader Zim fan! Go see her DA page!

She's a very nice and talented young artist, with lots of great art!!


A very cool person with several awesome OCs as well as being a die-hard fan of Rob Zombie!!


~ZimmiqueManson http://ZimmiqueManson.deviantart.com/journal/8279840/ http://ZimmiqueManson.deviantart.com/journal/8279840/ Sun, 26 Mar 2006 23:11:12 PST
When my psychiatrist switches medicines..he just does it abrubtly without letting my systems adjust to the change and it thows my emotions for a loop..I wish he could find an easier way so I woudn't be literally climbing walls when this happens..

Everything's okay with me and Teddy.

I just got worked up into a frenzy not realizing how busy she really was..along with the medicine switch I was just really mixed up..

The reason I stopped Celexa was because I was having horrid angry mood swings and lashed out at my mom, which didn't help her health at all.

Once I adjust to Lexapro once more however I'll be doing alot better.



Artists to watch and praise:

A great artist and the very first of the JiMmy fans. She is who inspired my love for JiMmy and made me the obsessive Mmy fan girl I am today. She is my My Princess, Angel & Love. Everything in this world can't compare to the love I feel for my girl. She is my soulmate and my very meaning.

A very cool and great friend, with some wicked art! Also an Invader Zim fan! Go see her DA page!

She's a very nice and talented young artist, with lots of great art!!


A very cool person with several awesome OCs as well as being a die-hard fan of Rob Zombie!!


Another nice person, with some wicked Zim & Crypto art! Go see her gallery!


A great friend with a kind personality, and lots of great artwork!


A really kind... ]]> ~ZimmiqueManson http://ZimmiqueManson.deviantart.com/journal/8252461/ http://ZimmiqueManson.deviantart.com/journal/8252461/ Fri, 24 Mar 2006 05:00:14 PST

I suppose when it comes to art I'm too hard on myself..I tend to still remember the taunts of my highschool mates telling me how my work was garbage and mocking me over it during art class..I guess it somtimes makes me think however good I tend to do my work that it'll never be good enough..

Truthfully and in a non-bragging manner, I guess that's not true..I know better than to get down on myself about my life's dream to be an artist, but with people whom have adhd, mood swings are hardly inevitable.

I'm almost about to finish a black and white pic of my chow chow Sasha on my canvas paper notebook...(lol..I finally got the nerve to use it. )

I've been awake since waking up from sleeping on the couch until 6:30PM, so I'm about ready to drag myself off to bed.

Oh yeah..I talked with my sis last night about entering my dad's truck into the show submission for the TLC's Overhaulin..it's getting on up in the years and I thought it'd be cool to do that, because my father deserves to have a nice vehicle at the age of 75. That and who the hell can afford a new truck in today's U.S. economy?

Only the political fat cats.

Artists to watch and praise:

A great artist and the very first of the JiMmy fans. She is who inspired my love for JiMmy and made me the obsessive Mmy fan girl I am today. She is my My Princess, Angel & Love. Everything in this world can't compare to the love I feel for my girl. She is my soulmate and my very meaning.

A very cool and great friend, with some wicked art! Also an Invader Zim fan! Go see her DA page!

She's a very nice and talented young artist, with lots of great art!!


A very cool person with several awesome OCs as well as being a die-hard fan of Rob Zombie!!


Another nice person, with some wicked Zim & Crypto art! Go see her gallery! http://ZimmiqueManson.deviantart.com/journal/8248287/ Thu, 23 Mar 2006 16:55:09 PST
I'm quite happy to see Ted's work getting recognition it deserves, finally. *hugs Teddy* It honestly makes me very happy. I wish I were half the artist she were. I can't even do digital art..bleh. She has awesome skills and I truly admire that.

I guess I've became opinionated that my art is pretty much useless. I guess I can draw somewhat, but it's not enough to get recognised for. I've dreampt since my preteeen years how I wanted a career in art, instead of just some cruddy min. wage job some day.. It's not like I'm giving up though, far from it. I've actually looked for art classes for nearly 5 zipcodes in my area and there's fucking nothing. That's pretty bad when you have adhd and it's hard to even commit yourself to reading a small novel.. I'm probably gonna end up getting tutorial software and trying that out. I'm probably just in one of my lesser moods about my art which should dissapate soon with any luck.


Artists to watch and praise:

A great artist and the very first of the JiMmy fans. She is who inspired my love for JiMmy and made me the obsessive Mmy fan girl I am today. She is my My Princess, Angel & Love. Everything in this world can't compare to the love I feel for my girl. She is my soulmate and my very meaning.

A very cool and great friend, with some wicked art! Also an Invader Zim fan! Go see her DA page!

She's a very nice and talented young artist, with lots of great art!!


A very cool person with several awesome OCs as well as being a die-hard fan of Rob Zombie!!


Another nice person, with some wicked Zim & Crypto art! Go see her gallery!


A great friend with a kind personality, and lots of great artwork!


http://ZimmiqueManson.deviantart.com/journal/8242322/ Thu, 23 Mar 2006 02:14:08 PST
Do feel free to Taste and Enjoy.

[link]

And since I'm a tired little zombie I thusly bid you adu .



Artists to watch and praise:

A great artist and the very first of the JiMmy fans. She is who inspired my love for JiMmy and made me the obsessive Mmy fan girl I am today. She is my My Princess, Angel & Love. Everything in this world can't compare to the love I feel for my girl. She is my soulmate and my very meaning.

A very cool and great friend, with some wicked art! Also an Invader Zim fan! Go see her DA page!

She's a very nice and talented young artist, with lots of great art!!


A very cool person with several awesome OCs as well as being a die-hard fan of Rob Zombie!!


Another nice person, with some wicked Zim & Crypto art! Go see her gallery!


A great friend with a kind personality, and lots of great artwork!


A really kind person, and a wonderful friend as well as a Sesshoumaru fan!

Groups I'm in:

As far as sexy comic guys JiMmy OWNS, cause Mmy is god! Gotta problem with that? http://ZimmiqueManson.deviantart.com/journal/8241784/ Wed, 22 Mar 2006 23:45:02 PST
I also bought some groceries for the family at the local IGA while out with my mom.

I gotta admit letting my sis borrow the comp is becoming more and more of a shit job..She likes to spend time on the comp when I used to from dusk until around late at night.. I'm planning on getting the DSL hookup & deal early this month instead of the next..because it's really cutting into my online time. What's worse is I don't want to put Sara out or cut on her time because she doesn't have a access to the internet any other way than my comp.. Soo I'm most likely gonna pull some back up cash from my account in order to get a dsl deal from an affordable provider.

I think sometimes I let myself be walked on by my family & more than one would think..I let alot of stuff slide because my dad has blood pressure problems & so does my mom..My mom also gets easily emotional about the most insignifigant shit.. and my sis is nothing but tolerant of my weirdness and ranting, as well as outwardly kind towards me. I pretty much don't want to upset her or seem like a stick in the mud by ruining her comp time...though I do admit it's really hard for me to deal with this since I enjoy chatting with Ted evenings and nights as well as just checking out DA AFF.net, RPing and other similiar thing..

I'd better go fix a pot of coffee if I want to be awake for extra compy time..


Artists to watch and praise:

A great artist and the very first of the JiMmy fans. She is who inspired my love for JiMmy and made me the obsessive Mmy fan girl I am today. She is my My Princess, Angel & Love. Everything in this world can't compare to the love I feel for my girl. She is my soulmate and my very meaning.

A very cool and great friend, with some wicked art! Also an Invader Zim fan! Go see her DA page!

She's a very nice and talented young artist, with lots of great art!!


A very cool person with several awesome OCs as well as being a die-hard fan of Rob Zombie!!


Another nice person, with some wicked Zim & Crypto art! Go see her gallery! ~ZimmiqueManson http://ZimmiqueManson.deviantart.com/journal/8232268/ http://ZimmiqueManson.deviantart.com/journal/8232268/ Tue, 21 Mar 2006 23:16:20 PST
gahh..oh well.

I let my sis borrow the computer cause she can't log onto her dell laptop since there's no other alternate dial-up plug for her to.

She had to pretty much do a bunch of stuff having to do with bank stuff, bills, some sort ebay stuff.. (Me and my sis are both ebay nuts. ) and updating her Myspace.com account. I pretty much let her have the computer for a good while. She's already offered for both of us to split the cost of DSL for both my comp and her laptop, so as soon as I find an affordable provider, I'm gonna go with it next month.

According to her dial up service has gone down in price considerably and if you get the proper company they'll even give you a discount on the dsl cable. *hint hint*

I drew a cartoon of an ghetto type anthro elephant for her upon request because she wanted to put it up on her Myspace account.

I would do more on here, but I myself am drained.. I know I haven't done much today as far as activities orphysical exhertion..but just being awake for this long has done it.

At least I took a nice steaming hot bath to exfoliate my pores and get rid of impurities of the skin earlier..so I'm feeling exhilerated from that.



Artists to watch and praise:

A great artist and the very first of the JiMmy fans. She is who inspired my love for JiMmy and made me the obsessive Mmy fan girl I am today. She is my My Princess, Angel & Love. Everything in this world can't compare to the love I feel for my girl. She is my soulmate and my very meaning.

A very cool and great friend, with some wicked art! Also an Invader Zim fan! Go see her DA page!

She's a very nice and talented young artist, with lots of great art!!


A very cool person with several awesome OCs as well as being a die-hard fan of Rob Zombie!! http://ZimmiqueManson.deviantart.com/journal/8217613/ Mon, 20 Mar 2006 14:06:51 PST I end up ranting like mad at everything on the tv in an evilly amused state, and running around the house like crazy doing chores which is good..but I'm like an evil fireball as soon as I wake up..

I'm actually speed typing again right now.. It's like my metabolism is going haywire...heheh..

I have no idea what's causing this..It's not like I've been buying extreme energy drinks or anything..

I feel pretty insanely happy during these wild energy rushes.. ..Sooo..Okay.

Last night I was looking for a dancing animal marionette because some time I want to buy one and see if Sasha or Dudley will attack it.. hehe..I'm such a meanie.

Nothing to really report as far as anything out of the ordinary happening.. I slept pretty sound last night while cuddling the chow chow plush Teddy got me. hehe.

I also stayed up late and endured a crap movie '10 things I hate about you' to watch the Drawn Together season finale.

I hope CN's Adult Swim block gets more new eps of Moral Orel soon. If I find any christian forum bashing them online I'm going to tell them what freaks they are by bashing an innocent show with proper warnings. It's like everyone can make fun of almost anything but if you make fun of christians on tv too much and a few christians just happen
to be watching, they seem to feel like 'OMG! somebody thinks outside our bullshit religion!! We must kill!!'

Oh yes.. expect more art soon! I'm currently doing a pic of Jack Spicer and have some other ideas ready for being sketched, including some of JtHM characters.


Band: The Ceasars
Album: Paper Tigers
Song: Jerk it Out ]]> ~ZimmiqueManson http://ZimmiqueManson.deviantart.com/journal/8209980/ http://ZimmiqueManson.deviantart.com/journal/8209980/ Sun, 19 Mar 2006 18:18:12 PST

My day has gone well, and my dad has got a goose egg he's hatching out in a mini egg incubator that Myrrhl gave me when I visited..so with any luck we'll have a gosling running around the house. I just won't tolerate Sashie or Dudley chasing it. I've came up with a few names for him/her incase it hatches.

1. Pokey..
2. Gwen (feminine)
3. Bob
4. Paco
5. Penny
6. Sammy
7. Nina

Vote for the name you like, and I'll definitely consider it!!

Little known facts about me!!

1. I'm usually very concerned with how my finger nails look, but rarely trim my toenails and have a fascination with seeing how long they can get without breaking/chipping.

2. Me and Mcauley Culkin are near the same age by one year if not the same age.

3. I'm quite limber for my age, not hardly like a profressional gymnist, but more than most at age 25.

4. depending on certain bursts of energy I can speed type considerably well only using one hand.

5. My middle name is Lea which I dislike and most usually prefer Leon.

6. I self taught myself via martial arts/Samurai books how to properly defend one's self with a sword in my mid-teens.

7. I nearly lost a finger at age 6, and have scars from it. The tendon was severed at the time but it works efficiently thanks to wonderful surgeons and therapy at the time.

8. at age 13 I was attacked by a large male pitbull yet sustained no life threatening injuries, but a few small scars on my back and leg.

9. I hold a great interest for the Aztec Sun god, Wiccan, pagan, indian and norse gods, but retain a highly repulsed outlook towards most if not all anglo saxon religions.

10. I've always had a high metabolism, which makes it hard to gain weight, unless it's a side affect of particular medicines.

11. I held a large ball python around my neck which a student brought in to show people during my senior year in highschool, and even gave it a kiss. I've shown interest in snakes as pets since though my parents are repulsed by the idea.

12. I have a strange obsession with Owl antiques and collectibles as well as falcons and some other predatory birds.

13. I've always had a remarkable interest in the paranormal and look forward to being a part of and/or witness to anything paranormal.

14. at age 8, I nearly lost vision in one eye due to getting sawdust in my eye while helping my father at a saw mill, but I recovered completely with no lasting vision damage.

15. I've always been interested in contacts though they easily irritate my eyes and at one time wanted pale amber colored contacts.

16. I have an incredible striking resemblance to my deceased grandmother Margeret Evelyn B. on my mom's side.


I'm glad your feeling better my beautiful Ted. I love you and if you ever need to chat with me then just let me know.

Band: The Ceasars
Album: Paper Tigers
song: Jerk it Out


Artists to watch and praise:

A great artist and the very f... ]]> ~ZimmiqueManson http://ZimmiqueManson.deviantart.com/journal/8199314/ http://ZimmiqueManson.deviantart.com/journal/8199314/ Sat, 18 Mar 2006 16:01:20 PST

More importantly I'd like to share some kind advice. I don't proclaim to be intelligent, in fact I'm probably not as intelligent as many. I just feel that the kindness and heart felt beauty in things I do say is enough to enlighten and restore beliefs in what one may come to question over time..

..Dreams are a beautiful thing, something that should never be dashed by anyone who might dissuade you. If you choose to believe and have love and faith for what you believe in that's all that matters. Keep it close and sacred to you heart.

When others may question or turn away from what you may dream of, know that you are stronger and wiser by keeping that dream alive. With time you will grow to see who will be your truest friends which will respect the dreams that you hold near and dear to you. It is not childish to keep even the smallest dream alive because you believe in it as well as treasure it, but it shows the infinite strength that you possess.

Keep your dreams and never let anyone tell you not to dream. For those who keep their dreams are more beautiful than the greatest wealth.

I love you all.



A great artist and the very first of the JiMmy fans. She is who inspired my love for JiMmy and made me the obsessive Mmy fan girl I am today. She is my My Princess, Angel & Love. Everything in this world can't compare to the love I feel for my girl. She is my soulmate and my very meaning.

She's very nice and talented young artist, with lots of great art!!


A very cool person with several awesome OCs as well as being a die-hard fan of Rob Zombie!!


Another nice person, with some wicked Zim & Crypto art! Go see her gallery!


A great friend with a kind personality, and lots of great artwork!


http://ZimmiqueManson.deviantart.com/journal/8191804/ Fri, 17 Mar 2006 19:36:47 PST
While my father went to visit Myrrhl I stayed and chatted with her after left being that she's a kind wise elderly woman whom I've known since childhood. We talked about decor, fruiting trees which we both planned to landscape our lawns with as well as the goofy church next door to my church and their ridiculous antics. I helped her feed her chickens and farm fowl at dusk shortly before leaving. Her tom turkey was wanting to chase me while gobbling like mad his waddle getting puffy and red..meaning he was agitated by my presence..Hehe..I shied away from him everytime he trotted over to me in hopes of a battle, because he's just a critter that didn't understand my being there which is understandable.

Myrrhl then took me home, and I went inside..my mom immediately inspecting my haircut, eventually coming to the conclusion she didn't like it..Ahh yes. How rewarding to come home only to hear something along the lines of "Hi have you had a nice day, oh by the way your haircut sucks." from your own mom. The way she's been throwing up her whole 'Don't respond to my every insult, I'm physically ill' barrier has just been pissing me off. Yeah..she's my mom but she has no fucking manners. If she weren't related I'd probably have really KOed her a long time ago.

I should've responded 'Well my hair has been cut now!! What do you want me to do?? get the damn clippings and glue them back on, because god knows I'm your daughter and I'd hate for my looks to tarnish your good fucking christian name!!'

I did however state to her, 'Well it's not you who got the haircut is it now, so whatever the fuck I choose is my choice.'

She took a drive in the car by herself to enjoy a nice weeping fit because I dared to respond. I'm sorry if she thinks an illness justifies her to treat me like vile shit but that's just not gonna happen.

She also made a comment about the playstation I gave her to help play in order to calm her nerves the previous night...that I could stick it where the sun doesn't shine...'I had to really bite my tongue to keep from really tearing into the wussy bitch then but I told her. 'Oh it's yours now, so by all means you can shove it up yours.'

I've been interested in some gorgeous curtians on ebay for bedroom decor, which I may buy and I also have to write a letter to the local classifieds paper about printing an ad about a Playstation 1. My mom's pretty damn ignorant if she thinks I'll let that slide.


Artists to watch and praise:

A great artist and the very first of the JiMmy fans. She is who inspired my love for JiMmy and made me the obsessive Mmy fan girl I am today. She is my My Princess, Angel & Love. Everything in this world can't compare to the love I feel for my girl. She is my soulmate and my very meaning.

She's very nice and talented young artist, with lots of great art!!


A very cool person with several... ]]> ~ZimmiqueManson http://ZimmiqueManson.deviantart.com/journal/8181492/ http://ZimmiqueManson.deviantart.com/journal/8181492/ Thu, 16 Mar 2006 18:23:22 PST My mom made sure to call Dr. Littleton and is still waiting for a return call and I'm glad she remembered to do that.

Mostly I've been just taking life easy by watching the last hour of 'Walk the Line' the movie earlier today with my mom and sis. Hehe..I was in a playful curious mood like Ted's OC Jason in being that I was seeing if I could touch my foot to my nose while wearing my lamb print pajamas.

I also went outside to have a smoke in the cool spring air and keep Sasha company..I noticed the church lady that also works for Super wal-mart whom I think reported me for having a knife in the store just sitting in her car staring at me.
She probably found out somehow that the officer near the main doors didn't see a dagger on my belt or give me a harsh talking to.. much less even take notice as I left as though I were harmless. I'm such a weasel.


I've been becoming more obsessed with Mr. Blik off of the nicktoon Catscratch..He's such a cute devilish kitty!

Earlier when I was out walking with my parents Sasha came walking towards me in a snarly playful mood and I goofed off with Sasha by tickling her under her armpits..and she rolled about on the concrete snarling. I also gave her a back rub. She such a sweet critter.

I'm looking forward to getting back into RPing with Teddy, as well as maybe doing some pics of Nny & Mmy with Nny being the more dominant of the couple. I really love those two guys. They're so wonderful together with nothing else being remotely close in comparison as far as JtHM couplings.

I've tried numerous times to get the last picture in the silver locket for Ted, but my sis has noticed my hands breaking out from getting too sweaty, and said she'd work with getting the last pic in the locket. My sis is pretty cool like that, yep.

So yeah, I've had a pretty decent day.



TV: CN Ed Edd N Eddy..



Artists to watch and praise:

A great artist and the very first of the JiMmy fans. She is who inspired my love for JiMmy and made me the obsessive Mmy fan girl I am today. She is my My Princess, Angel & Love. Everything in this world can't compare to the love I feel for my girl. She is my soulmate and my very mea... ]]> ~ZimmiqueManson http://ZimmiqueManson.deviantart.com/journal/8171326/ http://ZimmiqueManson.deviantart.com/journal/8171326/ Wed, 15 Mar 2006 17:44:16 PST
In short this has made made me miserable and actually quite concerned about being around my family or being available to chat much online to Teddy. I've been carrying an extremely negative air about me with tiny little things making me upset, depressed or flying off into a rant. I did actually stay in bed until 2:50 PM sulking about the fact that my parents had made plans without notifing me in hopes I'd sleep all morning. I did get up at 8:00AM and confront them about it, telling them my distate in the matter, then went to bed not really sleeping except lightly from time to time, and others just listening to nothing in particular because I wasn't at all in the mood for music. I had an anti-stress aroma therapy candle lit for awhile until I got to tired to keep an eye on it and put it out.

I am going to have my mom call Dr. Littleton in the morning, because being this emotionally confused really is hell. I'm not good with man-made medicines due to my susceptibleness to the worse side affects and have pleaded with my family numerous times that I would like to try an herbal alternative. They aren't willing to help me however because they don't want to take that risk like I'd be a total nut case if an herbal alternative failed to work, which I don't think that's true..but I think they're brainwashed to the beliefs of man made medicine like Prozac, Celexa and Zoloft are the only things that can help me.

With any luck I should be better within the next few days, and I do apologise for my lack of being online as regularly as I have been in the recent past.



Artists to watch and praise:

A great artist and the very first of the JiMmy fans. She is who inspired my love for JiMmy and made me the obsessive Mmy fan girl I am today. She is my My Princess, Angel & Love. Everything in this world can't compare to the love I feel for my girl. She is my soulmate and my very meaning.

She's very nice and talented young artist, with lots of great art!!


A very cool person with several awesome OCs as well as being a die-hard fan of Rob Zombie!!


Another nice person, with some wicked Zim & Crypto art! Go see her gallery!


A great friend with a kind personality, an... ]]> ~ZimmiqueManson http://ZimmiqueManson.deviantart.com/journal/8159403/ http://ZimmiqueManson.deviantart.com/journal/8159403/ Tue, 14 Mar 2006 13:23:38 PST She mainly just said to vacuum off the back of the tower or 'brains of the computer' as she calls it. Since doing that my compy is no longer a noisy bastard which makes it hard to hear the TV & radio. Hell you can hardly tell it's even there cause it's so quiet.

I'm wondering why the fark isn't instructions this simple in the manual..Ahh well. The fact that I don't take such simple things into consideration and instead start thinking it's that all the software needs compressing isn't very helpful either..I worry about it being a big problem first.

I woke up around 11:00AM this morning, and everything is going well. I took a walk out to look at all the fruit trees and the wisteria with my parents and Sasha flopped over on the ground and snarled at me indicating she wanted her belly rubbed so I happily obliged her.

I've agreed with my father that once I get all the details printed up and read over everything about gold stock, that me and him are going to have a partnership investment in gold stock once all the details are ironed out. As for electronics and autos..I just don't put much faith in them because machines are still very susceptible to flaws or huge decrease in value. Metal and diamond stocks are firm ground for investing, IMO.

I've been working on detailing a pic of Nny and Mmy as well as sketching a neat pic of Sasha.

I'm very happy that pretty much overall Teddy had a good time at her concert. *hugs Teddy* I love to see you happy dearest. It makes my days much brighter to see you so happy and content. I love you Ted, sweetie.


Artists to watch and praise:

A great artist and the very first of the JiMmy fans. She is who inspired my love for JiMmy and made me the obsessive Mmy fan girl I am today. She is my My Princess, Angel & Love. Everything in this world can't compare to the love I feel for my girl. She is my soulmate and my very meaning.

:cool: She's very nice and talented young artist, with lots of great art!!


A very cool person with several awesome OCs as well as being a die-hard fan of Rob Zombie!!


~ZimmiqueManson http://ZimmiqueManson.deviantart.com/journal/8140731/ http://ZimmiqueManson.deviantart.com/journal/8140731/ Sun, 12 Mar 2006 14:58:37 PST I guess I'm trying to once again fix my schedule so I can stay up later in the dead of morning later..

Heh..I've been chilling music like System of a Down, Alice in Chains, and Jane's addiction alot lately..I've not been playing my old school rock records and have missed them so I dusted them off and began playing them again for awhile. I'm gonna get a Mercyful Fate CD because I miss listening to 'Church of St. Anne' and 'Kiss the Demon'
That was some great black metal shit.

I finally got a good lot of my room cleaned up on saturday..I put the soot black sheet set up on the mattress but the fucking tan colored throw is shedding like mad on it..I'll probably get a different throw later if this shit keeps up..It pisses me off to have polyester crap all over my bed like a bunch of squirrels got in my room and tore into it..

My floor is clean as well..I got agitated a couple of times because my mom was interrupting my computer time with the god awful noisy vacuum cleaner once the floor was cleared of miscellaneous stuff.

I've had an odd dream recently where I was my JtHM OC Syd Merrin and was supposed to decode stuff on rock CDs and cassettes when played in reverse then document it in a notebook during my stay in a really old victorian style house. A few of the CDs I remember being Buddy Holly, Soundgarden, The Yard Byrds, and Odyssey. The house looked pretty much abandoned and haunting despite a few people who live there..mostly nonconformist drifters and such..then I'd go out and meet JiMmy, Johnny & Teddy D at some place that sold coffee as well as alcoholic beverages after I'd finished a day's worth of decoding messages.. Johnny was supposedly trying repeatedly to kill the waitress at the bar we was at..though she was completely unaware..


..It was a pretty weird dream..not to mention the fact that it was either twilight or night in the dream, so it was never daytime with the sun out..

Today has been kinda bland.. But aren't sundays always like that..?



Artists to watch and praise:

A great artist and the very first of the JiMmy fans. She is who inspired my love for JiMmy and made me the obsessive Mmy fan girl I am today. She is my My Princess, Angel & Love. Everything in this world can't compare to the love I feel for my girl. She is my soulmate and my very meaning.

She's very nice and talented young artist, with lots of great art!!


http://ZimmiqueManson.deviantart.com/journal/8124542/ Fri, 10 Mar 2006 19:05:26 PST I definitely want to get back into that curve of creating poetry, though I think it's best to expand my influences and a big part of that was music at that time. Ah..that's basicly an observation on my part..

I ended up going with my sis to get my mom's medicine's filled today, along with shopping. I ended up getting a nice loose woven throw because my evil imitiation-suede comforter isn't all that breathable thus ensuring I wake up in a nice sweat as of recently with spring drawing nearer.

Once me and my sister got home Sara taught mom how to use an insulin tester, and I pretty much ended up watching tv. Today has been pretty good I guess..I'm looking quite forward to starting back at the RPGs though I respect the fact that Ted's been busy lately with planning for the NIN concert. *hugs Teddy* Hope everything's going alright with you beautiful.

I'm getting about ready to re-post more pic goodies from what I previously had on DA here in a minute.

Also a confession: I do like the band HIM. I guess I just was hesitant to admit that because I normally stray away from music that is in the mainstream or is widely popular. I do at times consider mainstream distasteful, but I think HIM has great talent, and beautiful as well as amazing songs. I plan on buying their 2005 CD very soon. I just complain so much about mainstream and becoming someone who likes such things, when I myself am not immune to the incredible and gorgeous symphonies of some mainstream bands. So yep, I'm a HIM Fan. Consider me part of the HIM Collective.


Artists to watch and praise:

A great artist and the very first of the JiMmy fans. She is who inspired my love for JiMmy and made me the obsessive Mmy fan girl I am today. She is my My Princess, Angel & Love. Everything in this world can't compare to the love I feel for my girl. She is my soulmate and my very meaning.

:cool: She's very nice and talented young artist, with lots of great art!!


A very cool person with several awesome OCs as well as being a die-hard fan of Rob Zombie!!


~ZimmiqueManson http://ZimmiqueManson.deviantart.com/journal/8117240/ http://ZimmiqueManson.deviantart.com/journal/8117240/ Thu, 09 Mar 2006 23:30:21 PST

I've just been browsing through DA noticing Nny/Edgar slash..stay calm people this rant will only take a minute..

Edgar/Nny makes me violently ill, especially that Nny could even enjoy being screwed by a dweeb like Edgar. The reason I viewed one pic in the first place was because I thought it was a Nny/Mmy pic..Tho it was edgar with his hair spiked upward..*fights urge to drench keyboard in vomit*

It's kind of funny though that people have to try to make Edgar look 'cool enough' by Johnny when in the comic he just looked like a dweeb fundie that would think the likes of P.O.D. was a real rock band. I bet if they expanded on Edgar he'd be an emo cutter..

Do Remember Children: Laughing and trying to resist the urge of puking from imagery still stuck in your mind is
a very awful combination. I do highly advise you not attempt it unless you want to end up projectile vomiting during uncontrollable fits of laughter.

And now I'm tired as hell and so I'm dragging my weary ass off to bed. ]]> ~ZimmiqueManson http://ZimmiqueManson.deviantart.com/journal/8113266/ http://ZimmiqueManson.deviantart.com/journal/8113266/ Thu, 09 Mar 2006 14:36:15 PST

I went into town and got food and snacks for the household as well as more aromatherapy candles. When it comes to aroma therapy stuff I'm a literal nut about buying it and I have a big stash of incense, candles, oils and potpourri in my room.

I did have a rather interesting dream a few nights ago that I was at someon's large oddly designed mansion and got up in the middle of the night, finding out as I went though a corridor that the place looked more and more like Gorillaz Kong Studios..I was a bit freaked out..not from happiness of being in Kong studios either but more like an unsettling feeling that I was being watched. It turns out I wandered into the computer room, which in my dream had a huge balcony set over the back of the room and a bedroom full of lush scarlet and maroon velvet which was draped lavishly across nearly every square inch of the room..there were also large pillar candles descended from the ceiling on brass and bronze candle holders hung by chains, and tall standing candelabras..turns out Murdoc had crept up behind me and the rest from there is pretty much unsuitable for posting here on DA.


And right now you might ask..? I'm gonna watch cartoons and then hopefully do the my Chemical Romance parody pic I've had planned for so long. Oh yes, More of the older pics that were on here as of a week ago shall be posted, in case there were questions.



Artists to watch and praise:

A great artist and the very first of the JiMmy fans. She is who inspired my love for JiMmy and made me the obsessive Mmy fan girl I am today. She is my My Princess, Angel & Love. Everything in this world can't compare to the love I feel for my girl. She is my soulmate and my very meaning.

:cool: She's very nice and talented young artist, with lots of great art!!


A very cool person with several awesome OCs as well as being a die-hard fan of Rob Zombie!!


http://ZimmiqueManson.deviantart.com/journal/8098596/ Tue, 07 Mar 2006 22:50:03 PST It seems Mmy who I have coupled with Nny decided to take a pee in the fireplace and got burned up..luckily I didn't save the game that time so he should be back... Gahh.. I'll have to make sure not to put a fireplace in Mmy and Nny's home next time.

I've been doing pretty good most of the day.. most of the morning and mid-day were normal. Nothing incredibly interesting. Some damn mormons came to visit selling their garbage religion, and I made it a point to quickly switch into my JtHM t-shirt and fishnets along with some old slightly ratty jeans before greeting them properly. Sasha pretty much stayed close by my feet as I chatted with them in a monotonous uninterested voice, and Sasha uttering a low growl as they chatted. I assured them she was a good pooch but the guy was giving her slightly sketipical looks between conversing with my parents.

Just nearly two hours ago I had to get my pooches in because they had been let out for a last run to do their business, and started barking. I rushed outside and heard coyotes in the distance and whistled for them, both returning shortly apparantly frightened. I was quite frightened myself since it sounded like a coyote was a mere 100- 130 feet away in the forest above my house. My 2 chows aren't wussies by far, but rather intelligent by being afraid and not wanting to fight with coyotes. 1 coyote can't do much but in reported cases several can terribly maim any canine or similiarly sized animal.

The reason I haven't sent Ted's silver locket is because I'm working on the delicate procedure of placing pictures in it, being thet it's a picture locket, one of Mmy, and a nice pleasant pic of myself. Love you beautiful. *snugs* I hope you enjoy the pretty locket I bought for you, my angel.



Artists to watch and praise:

A great artist and the very first of the JiMmy fans. She is who inspired my love for JiMmy and made me the obsessive Mmy fan girl I am today. She is my My Princess, Angel & Love. Everything in this world can't compare to the love I feel for my girl. She is my soulmate and my very meaning.

:cool: She's very nice and talented young artist, with lots of great art!!


A very cool person with several awesome OCs as well as being a die-hard fan of Rob Zombie!!


Another nice person, with some wicked Zim & Crypto art! Go see her gallery!


http://ZimmiqueManson.deviantart.com/journal/8088247/ Mon, 06 Mar 2006 20:37:21 PST Either from a French place name which was a contraction of "Saint DENIS", or from an Old English surname which meant "wide island". A famous bearer of the surname was Sir Philip Sidney, an English poet and statesman of the 16th century.


TED or THEODORE
From the Greek name Θεοδωρος (Theodoros), which meant "gift of god" from Greek θεος (theos) "god" and δωρον (doron) "gift". This was the name of several early saints and two popes. Another famous bearer of this name was American president Theodore Roosevelt


JIMMY, JIM or JAMES
JiMmy is a pet form of Jim. Jim is a Medieval pet form of James. English form of the Late Latin Jacomus. Kings of England and Scotland have borne this name. Other famous bearers include the inventor of the steam engine James Watt, the explorer Captain James Cook, and the novelist and poet James Joyce.


JOHNNY or JOHN
This name has been borne by 23 popes, as well as kings of England, Hungary, Poland, Portugal and France. It was also borne by the poet John Milton and the philosopher John Locke.


LARS or LAURENCE
Lars is a Scandinavian form of Laurence from the Roman cognomen Laurentius, which meant "of Laurentum". Laurentum was a city in ancient Italy, its name probably deriving from Latin laurus "laurel". Saint Laurence was a 3rd-century deacon and martyr from Rome. According to tradition he was roasted alive on a gridiron because, when ordered to hand over the church's treasures, he presented the sick and poor.


DILLON
Variant of Dylan. From the Welsh elements dy "great" and llanw "sea". In Welsh mythology Dylan was a god of the sea, the son of Aranrhod. He was accidentally slain by his uncle Govannon. The Welsh poet Dylan Thomas and the musician Bob Dylan (real name Robert Zimmerman) are famous bearers of this name.


JASON
From the Greek name Ιασων (Iason), which was derived from Greek ιασθαι (iasthai) "to heal". Jason was the leader of the Argonauts in Greek legend. He went in search of the Golden Fleece in order to win back his kingdom from his uncle Pelias. During his journeys he married the sorceress Medea, who helped him gain the fleece and kill his uncle, but who later turned against him when he fell in love with another woman.

TODD
From a surname meaning "fox" from Middle English todde.

All name resources and information gathered from [link] ]]> ~ZimmiqueManson http://ZimmiqueManson.deviantart.com/journal/8084972/ http://ZimmiqueManson.deviantart.com/journal/8084972/ Mon, 06 Mar 2006 14:46:46 PST Love you, my beautiful Teddy.

I also got Saw the first uncut edition on DVD, along with new headphones, and a new shower curtian for the bathroom, since the other one was starting to tear up. This one is a medical (seafoam green) color, and has a very medical appearance being that it's heavy duty with sturdy metal grommets, as well as being made of tough mold and mildew resilient vinyl. I find stuff of that calibour; medical and utilitarian to be quite kinly as far as one of my decor preferences..it instills a unnatural fear like that of a medical ward or hospital.

Ehh..Anyhow I also got the regular snacks of my preference and left the Wal-mart. I noticed one lady from the church next door eyeing me and going to one of those polls on a phone, cause I was wearing one of my medium sized daggers on my belt under my JtHM t-shirt, and figured she was calling for someone to get a cop to watch the exits and in hopes he could lecture me. Ehh whatever. She's a bitch and doesn't like me cause I'm anti-christian and gay..I was acting calm and collected during my trip through the store,
but it was damn funny when I left.. I noticed the cop about 30 feet away and since I don't like carts anyhow, held the bags slightly over my dagger, and gave the cop a wink right as I left and he didn't even notice the dagger Oh yesss..I'm feeling wicked.


TV: XM channel Squizz
Band: Nickelback
Song: Animals
Album: All the Right Reasons



Artists to watch and praise:

A great artist and the very first of the JiMmy fans. She is who inspired my love for JiMmy and made me the obsessive Mmy fan girl I am today. She is my My Princess, Angel & Love. Everything in this world can't compare to the love I feel for my girl. She is my soulmate and my very meaning.

:cool: She's very nice and talented young artist, with lots of great art!!


A very cool person with several awesome OCs as well as being a die-hard fan of Rob Zombie!!


http://ZimmiqueManson.deviantart.com/journal/8076231/ Sun, 05 Mar 2006 16:19:40 PST

I won a good amount by getting a ticket from the kentucky lotto today. It's a decent amount though seriously nothing worth bragging about. By that I'm not stuck up, I'm just saying it's a good thing happens, and I'm not the type to be a jerk about such things.
I plan on getting my beautiful Teddy something with some of the extra cash because I love her, and I enjoy getting her nice things.

As soon as I have the new AIM SN chosen I'll let you know Teddy sweetheart, as well as anyone on my friendlist here on DA whom may request it.

I plan on uploading more of my previous art today, as well as a few others that haven't been up here in awhile, however if they're not up today you can be assured it will be done very soon.

TV: Scifi Channel- Hellraiser Deader


Artists to watch and praise:

A great artist and the very first of the JiMmy fans. She is who inspired my love for JiMmy and made me the obsessive Mmy fan girl I am today. She is my My Princess, Angel & Love. Everything in this world can't compare to the love I feel for my girl. She is my soulmate and my very meaning.

:cool: She's very nice and talented young artist, with lots of great art!!


A very cool person with several awesome OCs as well as being a die-hard fan of Rob Zombie!!


Another nice person, with some wicked Zim & Crypto art! Go see her gallery!


A great friend with a kind personality, and lots of great artwork!


A really kind per... ]]> ~ZimmiqueManson http://ZimmiqueManson.deviantart.com/journal/8066986/ http://ZimmiqueManson.deviantart.com/journal/8066986/ Sat, 04 Mar 2006 16:28:11 PST

I realise I'm an artist that should make alot of these decisions on my own, however I appreciate advice and feedback so long as it's done respectfully/tastefully. The feedback I get gives me alot of insight on many things I may not take into consideration. So if anyone wants to request something back in the Devs, then feel free to do so.

I didn't do all that much at the ahmish market today, but I thought the goats and rams were pretty neat.

My sister took me to the city of BG yesterday, to take my mind off of things, I was reluctant of first to leave the computer, but I did eventually go. I ended up getting a Jane's Addiction CD 'Nothing Shocking' a JtHM T-shirt which the local Hot Topic hasn't had in ages.. Maybe they finally realised I wouldn't quit asking until they had some pre-ordered, persistant little bugger that I am.
I got a Shojo Beat anime mag, and after some aimless browsing we ended up going home because it was late.

I just got finished with cleaning up the area around the kitchen in a near frantic organizing impulse.. I rarely get those and my messy room is proof of that but I think it's mostly just due to a near overwhelming surge of energy..Someone's been getting into the Mountiuan Dew too much you could say.

I'm glad to be back and that things have been cleared up between me and Teddy. I will always be here for you Ted. I'll be forever loyal to you through whatever life sends our way.





Artists to watch and praise:

A great artist and the very first of the JiMmy fans. She is who inspired my love for JiMmy and made me the obsessive Mmy fan girl I am today. ~ZimmiqueManson http://ZimmiqueManson.deviantart.com/journal/8062732/ http://ZimmiqueManson.deviantart.com/journal/8062732/ Sat, 04 Mar 2006 07:04:51 PST
Just because your parents feel hatred towards what we have, that does not deter me, it gives me strength to fight harder for our love, because I love you more than words can say and true love never gives up.

Like Romeo and Juliet despite what their families thought, they died for each other's love as I would do for you. This is not something hinting at suicide, but I would never love another. I would die with the love in my heart I have for you rather than be with any other.

Stay strong and we will fight this Teddy. You will always have my unwavering love my beautiful angel.

Matt would want you to be happy and to be strong, and not to give up.

I want you to know that I will love you forever, and whatever anyone throws at us, let them try. All the homophobes, Hitler wanna-bes and all others, I will never leave your side.

Side note: It will take me awhile to get everything back up and running on this journal, so it may take a short while. My family wants to go to the Ahmish Auction, and I'm going to do that, and I will return shortly.

I love you my wonderful angel, Teddy. ]]> ~ZimmiqueManson http://ZimmiqueManson.deviantart.com/journal/8045658/ http://ZimmiqueManson.deviantart.com/journal/8045658/ Thu, 02 Mar 2006 10:37:19 PST

Yesterday Sasha ended up going fishing with me and my dad as I was talking about in my previous journal, she sat in the canoe in the part behind where my dad sat all calm and such. She's so adorable..Dad was calling her 'Little fisherwoman' on the way home, which I found funny.

This morning my dad took one of his friends to bowlingreen to see a physician and Sasha had to stay home, so Sasha was feeling bad..I cuddled with her on the bed while mom was doing her hair until she started passing gas and I said to sasha jokingly..'So this is the thanks I get for consoling you, eh?'

I've basicly been watching soaps on channel 5 with my mom, so it's been a bit of a slow morning..Right now 'Go Diego go' is on my tv because I haven't bothered to change it over.. I'll have to turn it over before I start getting snarky and making fun of it in some evil smug mood like I usually do.

I need to work on more pics here soon, and I plan on doing so shortly now that I'm good and rested up, for a while hopefully, this time.



Artists to watch and praise:

A great artist and the very first of the JiMmy fans. She is who inspired my love for JiMmy and made me the obsessive Mmy fan girl I am today. She is my My Princess, Angel & Love. Everything in this world can't compare to the love I feel for my girl. She is my soulmate and my very meaning.

She's very nice and talented young artist, with lots of great art!!

A very cool person with several awesome OCs as well as being a die-hard fan of Rob Zombie!!


Another nice person, with some wicked Zim & Crypto art! Go see her gallery!


A great friend with a kind personality, and lots of great artwork!
... ]]> ~ZimmiqueManson http://ZimmiqueManson.deviantart.com/journal/8038531/ http://ZimmiqueManson.deviantart.com/journal/8038531/ Wed, 01 Mar 2006 14:51:09 PST
I've calmed down somewhat and my father took me fishing though I didn't catch anything..probably had the wrong bait or something. Getting the boat docked to head for home, I got my jeans all firking wet so I just took them off and rode home in my boxers and biker boots.

I haven't exactly been friendly since the last debate with my parents but I've maintained a monotonous peacable state amongst them both.. I'm now waiting for my sister to get home because she's the only member of my family that I really relate to on a mutual level.

I'll probably be working on the RPGs I need to reply to as well.

*Hugs Teddy* Love you sweetheart. Hope everything is going well with you recently.


TV: Yakkety Yak on Nicktoons TV..


Artists to watch and praise:

A great artist and the very first of the JiMmy fans. She is who inspired my love for JiMmy and made me the obsessive Mmy fan girl I am today. She is my My Princess, Angel & Love. Everything in this world can't compare to the love I feel for my girl. She is my soulmate and my very meaning.

She's very nice and talented young artist, with lots of great art!!

A very cool person with several awesome OCs as well as being a die-hard fan of Rob Zombie!!


Another nice person, with some wicked Zim & Crypto art! Go see her gallery!


A great friend with a kind personality, and lots of great artwork!


A really kind person, and a wonderful friend as well as a Sesshoumaru fan!

Groups I'm in:

~ZimmiqueManson http://ZimmiqueManson.deviantart.com/journal/8035448/ http://ZimmiqueManson.deviantart.com/journal/8035448/ Wed, 01 Mar 2006 08:15:12 PST
I've pretty much slept and layed in bed during those two days half miserable because my own parents can't bring themselves to figure out that a pet would be uplifting and theraputic to me. So in retaliation I'm going to be the best little antichristian bastard I can be towards them..

I'm already feeling better from this decision, and I'm just not going to give a fuck about them and their opinions anymore. I'm just going to disregard them as not being related to me, and do whatever I want within my abilities no matter what the hell they may think. I personally wouldn't even give a fuck if they sent me to the local detention center. I'll make those shits regret my birth..

Right now I have my XM radio music up pretty high and my bastard parents are gone doing bank related stuff so that gives me an oppurtunity to get on the phone and have catalogs brochures & the like sent from pride & gay centered businesses to my idiot dad under an feminine version of his name. He acts like he likes gays and lesbians but makes fun of them behind my back, so I figured this will be rather interesting. I also know those websites where you can upload pic to preview hairstyles and make up so I may do that with his photograph later on and post it somewhere on the internet.

Yesshh.. I'm Happy! ]]> ~ZimmiqueManson http://ZimmiqueManson.deviantart.com/journal/8032795/ http://ZimmiqueManson.deviantart.com/journal/8032795/ Tue, 28 Feb 2006 22:07:30 PST
I still don't understand why they would do anything so heartless as to put they're own petty personal opinions on how much one would cost and being afraid they might actually have to lift a finger to assist me and very few times at the most with raising one, especially over the fact that it would make me happier, to have a little animal to take care of and cuddle with but that's just them, I guess.

Perhaps they find some disturbing amusement in my suffering, I dunno. Get this..my father actually had the nerve to accuse me of getting some thrill from agitating them about wanting a puppy for so long. I guess he doesn't seem to see that I have a borderline manic-depressive problem despite it being diagnosed when I was around age 14, or that a puppy would help to lift my spirits, besides the fact that all him and mom like to do is act constantly bitchy about anything I'm interested in, and such. At least my sister and Ted understands me, probably better than my parents ever could dream of.

Yeah, well enough of that. I had an odd dream that I was in some huge elaborate hotel, completely furnished in a stark medical white..There was a nice receptionist at the Check-in Desk which had informed me that I would be staying there as a medical test subject for some odd reason and I ended up staying in a room with stark white decor, no other colors made up the decor. It was filled with what I think was two way mirrors, and several cameras hanging from the ceiling and suspended from the walls along with an odd grouping of alien looking tools protruding from the ceiling over the bed.

I was given stark white robes to wear during my stay, and was given magazines to read along with a small triangular white stereo system.. So it was a pretty odd dream but oddly calming.

I'm going to try and focus my attentions on my art and such in hopes of lifting my spirits, perhaps dedicate some art to Ted and listen to my Evans Blue CD..


Artists to watch and praise:

A great artist and the very first of the JiMmy fans. She is who inspired my love for JiMmy and made me the obsessive Mmy fan girl I am today. She is my My Princess, Angel & Love. Everything in this world can't compare to the love I feel for my girl. She is my soulmate and my very meaning.

She's very nice and a talented young artist, with lots of great art!!

A very cool person with several awesome OCs as well as being a die-hard fan of Rob Zombie!!


Another nice person, with some wicked Zim & Crypto art! Go see her gallery!


A great friend with a kind personality, and lots of great artwork!


~ZimmiqueManson http://ZimmiqueManson.deviantart.com/journal/8026317/ http://ZimmiqueManson.deviantart.com/journal/8026317/ Tue, 28 Feb 2006 09:46:51 PST
I printed out the return email I recieved which came early around 9:00 AM that the owner had sent of the male puppy with blue eyes and black fur already happy because my father stated earlier that he would enjoy having an austrailian puppy around due to their calm peaceful demeanor, and took the papers to show to my mother and then my father..

My mom griped about the price being $200 which I would be paying for out of my check in March, and my father said stuff about how he was never very enthusiastic about getting a new dog, and that if it got into trouble he would be the one at fault, and he didn't want that..

I just wanted a puppy, I would have taken care of it and seen to all of it's needs. I love and enjoy having my other two chows, but they're getting old, and basicly just want to stay alongside my father..I also hoped that getting a puppy would be nice because I'd have a little animal lift my spirits when I feel bad, and give me some meaning and responsibility instead of sleeping half the day away at times dreading to get up from fear of boredom or some dissappointment.

Ahh..well. I'm okay. It's just let-down after let-down with my parents, so screw it. I don't think I would even try anymore to do much at all if it weren't for Ted. I love you sweetheart.



Band: evans blue
Album: The Melodyand the energetic nature of volume
Song: Quote ]]> ~ZimmiqueManson http://ZimmiqueManson.deviantart.com/journal/8011945/ http://ZimmiqueManson.deviantart.com/journal/8011945/ Sun, 26 Feb 2006 18:59:59 PST

Well..Once I woke up this afternoon I founs I was really clutching my Zimmers doll..Probably because I had a nightmare a few nights back that the head come off him, and in my dream I was crying and depressed over it..

Shortly after waking I found out after watching some TVLand shows that Don Knotts passed away early thisz morning. That was sad because he was such a wonderful actor, with many great roles in movies and shows.. It was a real shock to me, to find out about this.. I was never a really big fan of his, but still things have a way of catching people off guard from time to time.

I ended up signing a card for mom's birthday to day, and she really loves the peach colored shirt I got for her. I was happy to pick it out for her, cause naturally she's my mom, and I'm happy to give gifts to those I love and hold dear to me.

eheheh..right Now Ben10 is on Cartoon Network, and I'm addicted to that show.

Rest in Peace Don Knotts.



Artists to watch and praise:

A great artist and the very first of the JiMmy fans. She is who inspired my love for JiMmy and made me the obsessive Mmy fan girl I am today. She is my My Princess, Angel & Love. Everything in this world can't compare to the love I feel for my girl. She is my soulmate and my very meaning.

She's very nice and talented young artist, with lots of great art!!

A very cool person with several awesome OCs as well as being a die-hard fan of Rob Zombie!!


Another nice person, with some wicked Zim & Cryto art! Go see her gallery!


~ZimmiqueManson http://ZimmiqueManson.deviantart.com/journal/8001943/ http://ZimmiqueManson.deviantart.com/journal/8001943/ Sat, 25 Feb 2006 18:19:01 PST It's a great show and I don't know why so many people dislike it just because the Looney Tunes have a new kick ass dark/gothy look and a more serious plot as superheros..Come on people! It was bound to happen sooner or later! Fad or not, I was burnt out on regular old fashioned looney tunes long ago, and I'm sure alot of others have dreamed as well as greatly anticipated a more serious cartoon like this.

As much as the classics were good, they got old and dated, and I am impressed and love the new step up.

Hehe..I fell asleep at around 11:00AM, I'm just thankful that I didn't nearly sleep as much as I have been at half day intervals . My sis went to check my comp while I was half asleep, and got her marlboros, before she went to do some stuff in Owensboro where she used to live before moving in.

I woke up once more at 4:20PM..Pretty much been checking out all of my internet stuff like yahoo odd news, groups, google searches on when the HB Cartoon Swatkats could come back into production. (I'm ever hopeful it'll be picked back up some day. ) I've also been looking for people selling chow puppies in Kentucky, cause I really want another youthful chow chow addition to take care of along with Sasha and Dudley.

I've been doing good and in a generally good mood since waking. I'll probably start on some Mmy/Nny artwork here soon, since I'm not doing much at all at the moment.


Quote of the day- ' Fucking kid's bop commercials, it's just another PC reason to hack up good music for christian family road trips..' Said before leaving to get a popsicle and read the day's mail. I know I'm mean.

Tv: Naruto


Artists to watch and praise:

A great artist and the very first of the JiMmy fans. She is who inspired my love for JiMmy and made me the obsessive Mmy fan girl I am today. She is my My Princess, Angel & Love. Everything in this world can't compare to the love I feel for my girl. She is my soulmate and my very meaning.

She's very nice and talented young artist, with lots of great art!!

A very cool person with several awesome OCs as well as being a die-hard fan of Rob Zombie!!


<... ]]> ~ZimmiqueManson http://ZimmiqueManson.deviantart.com/journal/7994330/ http://ZimmiqueManson.deviantart.com/journal/7994330/ Fri, 24 Feb 2006 21:30:43 PST I probably just have my sleep schedule awry once again. I spent nearly 3 whole afternoons..getting the warM Machine pic finished and detailed properly.. It was fun to do but exhausting, and was something I've wanted to draw for quite a while however I questioned how well my art abilities were to be able to draw a tank...

Thursday me and my mom went to wal-mart for grocery shopping, my mom was really low on cash and depressed about how she was going to buy stuff, and I had a $50 bill still left in my cash so I bought some Quilted Northern TP for the household, got a fitted bedsheet for my bed, let mom pick out 4 bags of chips and 1 bag of cookies, that she dad and Sara would enjoy as well as some things for myself..I also bought mom a very pretty peach colored shirt with citrine colored decorations on it, because I wanted to get her something for her B-day, being that she's a great mom and the only one I'll ever have.

Of course I got a bit pissed because for some reason Wal-mart has discontinued their Heavy Metal Magazine selection..I was ranting aloud about fucking soccer moms controlling what stores put on their shelves and why the hell I seem to be the only one in my town who seems to worry about it. I even got really pissed and went over to some employee demanding an explanation.. Hehe.. You know how Nny is over his Cherry Brainfreezies? I was that pissed except without the violent bits.. ranting carelessly and giving everyone the evil eye who even glanced at me..



So I had a pretty good time, and once we got to the car I petted Sasha and settled down..Sasha's such a sweet chow that for me just looking at her has a calming effect. I gave her some water in my favorite travel mug because we forgot to bring a cup for her to drink from.

Pretty much today I've been watching tv, and chatting with my mom and sis.. So I've been in a great mood since waking.

Band: Yes
Album: Close to the Edge
Song: Teacher IV. Apocalypse


Artists to watch and praise:

A great artist and the very first of the JiMmy fans. She is who inspired my love for JiMmy and made me the obsessive Mmy fan girl I am today. She is my My Princess, Angel & Love. Everything in this world can't compare to the love I feel for my girl. She is my soulmate and my very meaning.


She's very nice and talented young artist, with lots of great art!!

A very cool person with several awesome OCs as well as being a die-hard fan of Rob Zombie!!


Another nice person, with some wicked Zim... ]]> ~ZimmiqueManson http://ZimmiqueManson.deviantart.com/journal/7978857/ http://ZimmiqueManson.deviantart.com/journal/7978857/ Thu, 23 Feb 2006 08:22:53 PST
Wow..that just fucking creeps me out sleeping for so long..

So yeah..nothing all that interesting going on for awhile, unless you count involuntary twitching and drooling on pillows. ]]> ~ZimmiqueManson http://ZimmiqueManson.deviantart.com/journal/7949042/ http://ZimmiqueManson.deviantart.com/journal/7949042/ Mon, 20 Feb 2006 20:42:05 PST At least she's not so much stuck up type I took her for previously. Me and her laughed at the episode of Robot Chicken which was on tonight as well..

Earlier my Chow Sasha had static cling in her fur so I rubbed her down with a fabric sheet which gets rid of static in animal fur and is not harmful..She was a bit peeved about that for a few minutes but later walked up to me in a calm and friendly mood, which is her way of saying she wanted a hug so I gave her a hug cause she's my little buddy.

As far as RPGs in the new one, I'm RPing as Nny and dominating over JiMmy which I'm fully enjoying..Jimmy makes such a sexy submissive JtHM boy and the way Ted RPs him as such is really a wickedly intense sensory overload.

I've been lazy with artworks, yes.. yes I'm aware.
but I've still got a few that require touch-ups, so they'll be up soonish..

THE JiMmy OBSESSION OWNS YOU ALL!! YOU CAN'T HIDE AND YOU CAN'T DENY IT!! NOW BOW DOWN BEFORE HIM BITCHES!!

Band: Helicopter Helicopter
Album: Great Big Meaningless
Song: The Deep Sea


Artists to watch and praise:

A great artist and the very first of the JiMmy fans. She is who inspired my love for JiMmy and made the obsessive fan girl I am today.
She is my My Princess, Angel & Love. Everything in this world can't compare to the love I feel for my girl. She is my soulmate and my very meaning.

She's very nice and talented young artist, with lots of great art!!

A very cool person with several awesome OCs as well as being a die-hard fan of Rob Zombie!!


Another nice person, with some wicked Zim & Cryto art! Go see her gallery!


A great friend with a kind personality, and lots of great artwork!


~ZimmiqueManson http://ZimmiqueManson.deviantart.com/journal/7927090/ http://ZimmiqueManson.deviantart.com/journal/7927090/ Fri, 17 Feb 2006 16:02:28 PST

well off of that subject, I watched 'Because of Winn-Dixie' with my mom and sis today about a half-hour after waking.. which ran about 3 hours..wow. It was an excellent movie though, very sweet and heart warming, with some nice humor on the side.

Right now My dell comp is updating a bunch of stuff automaticly at the moment to improve optimum performace..hehe..I sound like CN's Dexter.. but I love my compy, without it my social life would be null, except for my family, and let's just say the majority of Kentucky yocals don't know much of anything except for farming, hunting, and bigoting anyone like myself who dares to be different..Geez.

I'll probably be replying in the new RP as soon as all the interesting cartoons are off, Teddy love.

Oh yeah.. NEW CATSCRATCH EPISODE TONIGHT!! HUZZAH!!

*Goes to drool over Mr. Blik*



My Princess, Angel & Love:

Everything in this world can't compare to the love I feel for my girl. She is my soulmate and my very meaning. If anyone dares bother her whatsoever, beg that your removal from this earth be swift before I find you.

My pals:












Groups I'm in:

I'm a JiMmy fan cause Mmy is god! Gotta problem with that?



http://ZimmiqueManson.deviantart.com/journal/7919242/ Thu, 16 Feb 2006 18:44:22 PST

Lol..I woke up around 12:45PM today and have been running about the house doing menial tasks, and playing with my critters..I seem to have an over abundance of energy since switching off lexapro to Celexa, which is good. I've also felt alot less depressed about insignifigant stuff my three days of being on Celexa and actually more focused as well as cheery.

I walked Dudley earlier because the little toy poodle two houses away has been in heat, and I don't want him causing trouble for it or it's owners...lol Sasha was rolling around in the grass and wanting me to rub her belly, so I did and she kicked her hind legs around, which reminds me of a little bunny..hehe. She's a sweet girl. I think the change in weather where it's not been too cold or hot this week in KY has made her feel energetic.

Just nearly an hour ago I went to Boggess Video and rented 'Because of Winn-Dixie' The movie about a little girl and her scruffy canine for the family to enjoy, so I'll be watching that pretty soon. The guy who owns Boggess video told that they're selling DVD movies in new pristine condition for $9.98 to increase profits since it's family owned.
That kicks ass..I'm gonna be buying from them alot now.

I'll be online after watching the DVD to talk, or just relax see you then Teddy hon.

Band: Monster Magnet
Album: Powertrip
Song: Temple of Your Dreams

Side note: Reinstalled WMP so that the music match presents proper titles for bands, songs, and albums.


My Princess, Angel & Love:

Everything in this world can't compare to the love I feel for my girl. She is my soulmate and my very meaning. If anyone dares bother her whatsoever, beg that your removal from this earth be swift before I find you.

My pals:












Groups I'm in:

I'm a JiMmy fan cause Mmy is god! Gotta... ]]> ~ZimmiqueManson http://ZimmiqueManson.deviantart.com/journal/7907780/ http://ZimmiqueManson.deviantart.com/journal/7907780/ Wed, 15 Feb 2006 15:11:26 PST A lady eventually came up and helped with it, who was very nice. As much as I am apt to enjoy technology that was a real bitch and frustrating and I half expected the damn machine to go off 'with siren noise and begin voicing I was a shoplifter, which had me paranoid.
I would've liked to punch my fist through the screen, being that I have such urges at times, though I refrained since that would be a rather idiotic act with repremanding consequences.


But I'm feeling better now. I'm just glad to be away from the Super Wal-mart hell store. ]]> ~ZimmiqueManson http://ZimmiqueManson.deviantart.com/journal/7902192/ http://ZimmiqueManson.deviantart.com/journal/7902192/ Wed, 15 Feb 2006 00:23:14 PST

So anyhow..I'm going go to sleep cause I've been up until 2:11, and the result of such Mmy lustage, shall probably be some adult oriented art for Y!Hostinggallery of Nny and Mmy as well as JiMmy/Ted, with Teddy D's permission. Yes I honestly love Ted nearly as much as Mmy, and as for Ted D. , you've made a very sexy OC by creating Ted. I find him to be very attractive and hot.

and now, I'm going to go to sleep, because my body is screaming for nocturnal slumber.


Band: Black Label Society
Album: Mafia
Song: Say What You Will


My Princess, Angel & Love:


Everything in this world can't compare to the love I feel for my girl. She is my soulmate and my very meaning. If anyone dares bother her whatsoever, beg that your removal from this earth be swift before I find you.

My pals:












Groups I'm in:

I'm a JiMmy fan cause Mmy is god! Gotta problem with that?





All Hail The Sexiest Bassist Ever! ]]> ~ZimmiqueManson http://ZimmiqueManson.deviantart.com/journal/7899419/ http://ZimmiqueManson.deviantart.com/journal/7899419/ Tue, 14 Feb 2006 20:01:28 PST

I'm haven't been feeling at my best because I am concerned for Ted, in short I'm not in well spirits. I do love Ted, and please consider this haitus as being respectful to how Ted is feeling, as well as a means for me to take time to fix myself, because that is what it is in truth.

I love you Ted, and I will not give up on you. You are the one whom I love unconditionally, and I'm sorry if I ever caused you to doubt me. I accept you as a caring loving person, and I know that is who you are. Things that have happened in your past would never make me think less of you as a human being, and an equal in every right. I would only be worth dirt if I thought otherwise and only fit to meet my own destruction. You are beautiful, and I can see this without a picture's aid. You have a beautiful soul and a beautiful heart. You are beautiful in every way, and though thoughts and memories may dissuade you, you are possibly the most beautiful person to ever grace this earth. The love that you have shown to me, and spoken of in caring with your animals shows me that you are moreso a remarkably beautiful person than most people can ever dream to be, especially myself included.

I am sorry and do wholly apologise if I have ever failed you in anyway even in those insignifigant and I ask for your forgiveness in turn.

I love you, and whensoever I shall fail you forgive me, or do as you may. ]]> ~ZimmiqueManson http://ZimmiqueManson.deviantart.com/journal/7894556/ http://ZimmiqueManson.deviantart.com/journal/7894556/ Tue, 14 Feb 2006 11:51:18 PST
I'm worried about Ted, because I love her and seeing her hurt is hard for me, but not in a selfish way. It's hard for anyone to lose someone the way she did and I feel pain because she had to lose that person. I may not understand completely because I've never been in that position having to deal with loss like that, but I do know it must be hell..

*hugs Ted* I love you sweetheart. I cried tears while writing the poem for her yesterday, I meant every word of what is in my poem to Ted, and at the same time my tears were for the unsurmountable pain of the one that she lost a few years back.

I love you very much Ted, you mean more than this world and all the things in it put together. I know that in many ways I am far from perfect, but I am sincere in saying that I love you. ]]> ~ZimmiqueManson http://ZimmiqueManson.deviantart.com/journal/7875997/ http://ZimmiqueManson.deviantart.com/journal/7875997/ Sun, 12 Feb 2006 17:09:02 PST

I slept until 11:AM in the morning, because I haven't been sleeping in as much recently..Most of the time I've been waking up some time before 8:00AM.. My sister went to go see a guy she knew from highschool that just moved into BG, Kentucky and I pretty much loafed around the house, and Sasha was pouting cause she wanted to go on a road trip with my sister and she let out her frustration by chasing Dib the rooster until dad called her on it. Poor baby can be pouty when she doesn't get her way.

Sara came back and me and her went to the russellville
wal-mart, she had rap blaring and Sasha was sitting calm in the backseat, and I said 'It'd be cute if we got Sasha a collar with 'princess' on it in rhinestones and a pink bandanna to tye around it, and make her look ghetto.' Yea, I'm into that kind of stuff for Sasha, cause she would look adorable in that kind of stuff. I really enjoyed alot of the rap artists on the radio and I might check that out later when I want to buy CDs. I'm just selective with music I like so it'll have to be pretty good.

I was drawing a pic earlier which is basicly a family pic with Nny, my original character who is Nny's younger brother Syd, and their parents. I just want to state that before I post it, I'm not comparing myself to JV, nor am I replacing his art in any way. My art is from a fan perspective and done in a respectable format within the slash community, so I'm not one-upping Jhonen, but this is just my thoughts on the back-history of Nny alot like what Ted has done by expanding on Mmy's character. I hope people can respect what I mean, so I don't get any dumb or negative comments, I already know I'll have support from Ted, and her friends but this is for the others who may view the pic in question to come.


and now I'm off to reply on the rpgs.

'Wacky?! I'll show you WACKEEEE!!!!!!!'

Band: Black Label Society
Album: Mafia
Song: Electric Hellfire



My Princess, Angel & Love:


Everything in this world can't compare to the love I feel for my girl. She is my soulmate and my very meaning. If anyone dares bother her whatsoever, beg that your removal from this earth be swift before I find you.

My pals:










~ZimmiqueManson http://ZimmiqueManson.deviantart.com/journal/7864329/ http://ZimmiqueManson.deviantart.com/journal/7864329/ Sat, 11 Feb 2006 11:28:18 PST
Eventually I went into my room and began going nuts cause I couldn't find my magnavox TV remote and soon heard a crash of something falling off my bed, which didn't sound too good and just wandered out of the room kinda stunned and thinking how it was most likely the remote and it got bashed up falling on my barbells and I'll need to order a Universal remote most likely..

I eventually got a package and it's a beautiful necklace with a locket from my sweetheart Teddy.. It's so very lovely!! I have it around my neck right now, and my sister said she thought it was pretty and sweet of Ted.

I'm pretty happy here lately, and I'm gonna reply in the Dillon/Jason rpg today. I played Pictionary with my mom and sister last night..I was the artist for both teams and never laughed so hard at the guesses they gave me on what I was sketching from the cards. I'm actually pretty good at Pictionary and I realllly love that game too.

I'll have to post some of the pictionary sketches I drew because they are hilarious!!

So yep, I'm feeling good and cheerful as well as no longer upset at my dad.


My Princess, Angel & Love:


Everything in this world can't compare to the love I feel for my girl. She is my soulmate and my very meaning. If anyone dares bother her whatsoever, beg that your removal from this earth be swift before I find you.

My pals:










~ZimmiqueManson http://ZimmiqueManson.deviantart.com/journal/7854825/ http://ZimmiqueManson.deviantart.com/journal/7854825/ Fri, 10 Feb 2006 10:26:55 PST

I hope you have a good time at the concert, Ted. I really did especially want to meet you in person, but we can do that another time love. I love you Teddy.

XM Squizz on Satellite
Band: Dope
Album: Felons & Revolutionaries
Song: F*** the police


My Princess, Angel & Love:


Everything in this world can't compare to the love I feel for my girl. She is my soulmate and my very meaning. If anyone dares bother her whatsoever, beg that your removal from this earth be swift before I find you.

My pals:












Groups I'm in:

I'm a JiMmy fan cause Mmy is god! Gotta problem with that?





All Hail The Sexiest Bassist Ever! ]]> ~ZimmiqueManson http://ZimmiqueManson.deviantart.com/journal/7848894/ http://ZimmiqueManson.deviantart.com/journal/7848894/ Thu, 09 Feb 2006 17:02:20 PST
I've pretty much isolated myself to my room a good part of the day and knowing I won't be able to join Ted has just made me feel like shit after chatting with her last night about how fun it'll be getting to be with her and thinking my dad wouldn't have any problems with the it.

I am so sorry Ted, and this is out of my hands..my dad is just being a major asshole, and I especially apologise for that.

Maybe one day I'll have my father's trust, but the chances for that are kinda slim for now.

Band: Alice in Chains
Album: Best of the Box
Song: Got Me Wrong



My Princess, Angel & Love:


Everything in this world can't compare to the love I feel for my girl. She is my soulmate and my very meaning. If anyone dares bother her whatsoever, beg that your removal from this earth be swift before I find you.

My pals:












Groups I'm in:

I'm a JiMmy fan cause Mmy is god! Gotta problem with that?





~ZimmiqueManson http://ZimmiqueManson.deviantart.com/journal/7837197/ http://ZimmiqueManson.deviantart.com/journal/7837197/ Wed, 08 Feb 2006 12:15:09 PST I'm such a nut..

I'm probably not gonna be doing much but drawing and snooping to see about finding stuff that my mom likes to nab from my room and hide from me..she can be a real idiot at times. She's afraid that with goth/punk accessories I'll ruin the family's name though everyone nearly three counties away pretty much knows that I'm the black sheep of my family.

I got a Chow Dog plush from Teddy in the mail today, and I luff it!! Thank you It's so cute with really downy soft faux fur! I had it tucked under my arm while getting some pizza from the fridge earlier! hehe! Right now it's up on my bed beside my Zimmers doll and the snake Teddy got me for X-mas hehehe.

Also if you want to chat Ted, I'd love that so very much.



My Princess, Angel & Love:


Everything in this world can't compare to the love I feel for my girl. She is my soulmate and my very meaning. If anyone dares bother her whatsoever, beg that your removal from this earth be swift before I find you.

My pals:












Groups I'm in:

I'm a JiMmy fan cause Mmy is god! Gotta problem with that?

~ZimmiqueManson http://ZimmiqueManson.deviantart.com/journal/7830216/ http://ZimmiqueManson.deviantart.com/journal/7830216/ Tue, 07 Feb 2006 15:56:47 PST The trip took longer than I thought as has been quite exhausting, though I am here online incase Ted wants to chat within the next 2 hours or so. I'd rather of stayed at home if I knew this was going to take up the whole day... ]]> ~ZimmiqueManson http://ZimmiqueManson.deviantart.com/journal/7817876/ http://ZimmiqueManson.deviantart.com/journal/7817876/ Mon, 06 Feb 2006 10:58:58 PST I also bought a dagger with a mermaid handle at a pawn shop and was half zoned out after I bought it..it's just been a boring type of day..so yeah. I'm getting about ready to go back to bed cause I'm beginning to wonder why I didn't sleep in..

Oh yeah, to add to that my parents are at their bitchiest today it seems.

I love you Teddy Drakness, and I hope that we can chat soon. take care sweetheart.


Music: None.




My Princess, Angel & Love:


Everything in this world can't compare to the love I feel for my girl. She is my soulmate and my very meaning. If anyone dares bother her whatsoever, beg that your removal from this earth be swift before I find you.

My pals:












Groups I'm in:

I'm a JiMmy fan cause Mmy is god! Gotta problem with that?





All Hail The Sexiest Bassist Ever! ]]> ~ZimmiqueManson http://ZimmiqueManson.deviantart.com/journal/7810783/ http://ZimmiqueManson.deviantart.com/journal/7810783/ Sun, 05 Feb 2006 15:46:01 PST
but not as much as having to lessen my computer time online, and not being able to chat with Ted because of not knowing when a mood swing will strike and cause me to freak out due to having such frazzled nerves from quitting the smoking habit. I have missed her quite a bit yes, but if I caused harm in our relationship due to my nerves being frazzled I'd never be able to forgive myself. This is why I haven't been chatting with her. I want to spare her of the stress I've had for several days resulting from curbing my addiction.

I am feeling alot better now, my mom picked up some b100 vitamins today, which helps to soothe nervousness and promotes better nerve health.

I am feeling quite a bit better now and I've missed chatting with Ted greatly. I love you Teddy sweetheart! I would really love to chat with you if you can be online tonight. I'm ready also to focus much more on Mmy/Nny art since I've been finding more energy to do so.

Also do forgive my lack of industriousness, if indeed it is needed that I am due apologies with anything, Quitting smoking is a stressfull and rough process and I dually apologise.



My Princess, Angel & Love:


Everything in this world can't compare to the love I feel for my girl. She is my soulmate and my very meaning. If anyone dares bother her whatsoever, beg that your removal from this earth be swift before I find you.

My pals:












Groups I'm in:

I'm a JiMmy fan cause Mmy is god! Gotta problem with that?





~ZimmiqueManson http://ZimmiqueManson.deviantart.com/journal/7807708/ http://ZimmiqueManson.deviantart.com/journal/7807708/ Sun, 05 Feb 2006 10:10:07 PST Heh..I was bitching at the tv again and sending stuff sailing off of my bed and into the wall because my bed is too cluttered.. I eventually turned on my Gorillaz DVD and fell asleep with it that way...

Crap..I'm sorry I didn't get to talk with you yesterday Teddy. This quitting cigarette smoking is playing havoc on my nerves lately.


Music: Oh I dunno, some sorta Gorillaz DVD Maybe?



My Princess, Angel & Love:


Everything in this world can't compare to the love I feel for my girl. She is my soulmate and my very meaning. If anyone dares bother her whatsoever, beg that your removal from this earth be swift before I find you.

My pals:












Groups I'm in:

I'm a JiMmy fan cause Mmy is god! Gotta problem with that?





All Hail The Sexiest Bassist Ever! ]]> ~ZimmiqueManson http://ZimmiqueManson.deviantart.com/journal/7793203/ http://ZimmiqueManson.deviantart.com/journal/7793203/ Fri, 03 Feb 2006 18:35:53 PST I made sure not to get cigarettes again..it's been mostly 5 days since my last cigarette.

I am feeling more energetic but mostly in spurts, at least I'm feeling somewhat better though.

I finally got my Gorillaz DVD in the mail today. I've already watched some of it.

My sis is preparing to move in with my family after dealing with a real witch of a boss at her current place of employment. Her nerves are frazzled from her job and with the bad economy this is the best choice for her.

I heard from mom that this person who is my sis's boss slapped her. I can't believe the nerve of them! I'd just like to beat that moron senseless..

I think I'll see about having a nice day tomorrow chatting with my sweetheart Teddy, cause I Love her.

I'm currently watching 'Spirited Away' with half interest on CN..

Oh yeah, I also finally got a better pillow. My old one was causing my neck to feel horrid because the filament kept wadding up in it..oh well. I gave the old one a nice home by tossing it somewhere into my closet.


My Princess, Angel & Love:


Everything in this world can't compare to the love I feel for my girl. She is my soulmate and my very meaning. If anyone dares bother her whatsoever, beg that your removal from this earth be swift before I find you.

My pals:












Groups I'm in:

I'm a JiMmy fan cause Mmy is god! Gotta problem with that?



~ZimmiqueManson http://ZimmiqueManson.deviantart.com/journal/7782226/ http://ZimmiqueManson.deviantart.com/journal/7782226/ Thu, 02 Feb 2006 15:12:18 PST Also I was kinda annoyed that they rehired some christian fucks that had spread rumors about me in the old one. Heheh..they cross me and I'll make sure they get FIRED. I was also telling my mom while roaming the store..'We need more descrimination against christians in this world after all they're pretty much just glorified bigots.'

They have a fish section in the super Wal-mart.. *squees about this happily* I can hardly wait to get some fishies to take care of. They're all so cute!!

Lol..I guess people have pretty much figured out about me, that aside from Ted, a few select friends and my immediate family, I'd be just as happy with all of those people being the only inhabitants on earth, and the rest being beloved sweet animals. Especially with idiocy seemingly being almost a worldwide trend.

I've had a few interesting dreams recently...

One was where I was really ill and my family requested that as many chow dog owners bring their chows to stay with me. There was quite a few chows and they came and cuddled close around me in a beautiful effort of caring. Sasha was there as well and what was really sweet was alot of the chows were crying. I mean it's rumored that dogs can't shed tears, but I've seen it once for real when we was finding Sasha's puppies homes back long ago. I just think that was a really beautiful dream like something you'd read in a fairytale though.

Another dream I've been having, this one recurring is where I'm singing these fantastic rock songs and they're so melodic and amazing, I'm aware of it even when I'm awake that it must've been really awesome but I forget what the lyrics are. I think it's probably some pent up talent I need to release.


I've been working on a Syd art so stay tuned, cause it'll most likely be up soon.

Band: Incubus
Album: A crow left of the murder
Song: Pistola




My Princess, Angel & Love:

Everything in this world can't compare to the love I feel for my girl. She is my soulmate and my very meaning. If anyone dares bother her whatsoever, beg that your removal from this earth be swift before I find you.

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http://ZimmiqueManson.deviantart.com/journal/7777750/ Thu, 02 Feb 2006 08:09:25 PST

Nix The above statement. My parents are both in pissy moods and have stated they're not taking me the dermatologist so I'm just staying in my room with the door locked today. ]]> ~ZimmiqueManson http://ZimmiqueManson.deviantart.com/journal/7771388/ http://ZimmiqueManson.deviantart.com/journal/7771388/ Wed, 01 Feb 2006 13:34:40 PST
I was cuddling with my chow Sasha up on the couch just a minute ago..I was hugging her and rubbing her back, and I just suddenly felt myself crying, thinking back on how long I've kept her, and the pain I'll one day have to go through when she passes away. She's been such a wonderful little companion to me, and I treat her and Dudley with such kindness and fragility. I feel this way about other things despite the way I act negative and retarded sometimes.

I care for and love Ted very much and to purposely be negative towards her would crush me. I have much love and repect for Ted. I guess I've just been worried that the past few days that I've been so tired and icky feeling from quitting smoking has had an impact on her. I do love and care for her and that will be never ending. I guess I just worry too much. My mom and dad both have bad nerves, I must've inherited it from them..

I still love the JTHM fandom of Mmy/Nny so incredibly much, and I'm going to see about working on art of that quite a bit more.

I love you very much Teddy, My angel, and light of my life.


]]> ~ZimmiqueManson http://ZimmiqueManson.deviantart.com/journal/7768861/ http://ZimmiqueManson.deviantart.com/journal/7768861/ Wed, 01 Feb 2006 08:15:38 PST Geez..I thought I was bloated yesterday and actually upon thinking this over for a good while on why I could be, I found no logical reason for it, then slowly came to the realization that doing 20 sit ups 2 mornings ago was the only contributing reason as to why my stomach felt sore.. It's been so damn long since I had a good abdominal workout that I forgot how it felt to have sore ab muscles...

Heh..Please forgive my grumpiness on the previous journal, I was pretty much being an idiot over nothing. I've also apologised to my mom and told her that I didn't mean such idiotic stuff that I told her, and admitted that I can be pretty grumpy when I don't feel well. I then gave her a big hug.

I'm going to try and put more art up today, including a Murdoc pic I promised a few months back..I just basicly need to ink it, and get some background colors up..

If anyone has any tips for mediums that blend better with ink than color pencils tend to and are less messy, then I'd be quite appreciative to know what that is.


Band: KMFDM
Album: Adios
Song: Witness



My Princess, Angel & Love:


Everything in this world can't compare to the love I feel for my girl. She is my soulmate and my very meaning. If anyone dares bother her whatsoever, beg that your removal from this earth be swift before I find you.

My pals:












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I'm a JiMmy fan cause Mmy is god! Gotta problem with that?





~ZimmiqueManson http://ZimmiqueManson.deviantart.com/journal/7763733/ http://ZimmiqueManson.deviantart.com/journal/7763733/ Tue, 31 Jan 2006 17:17:49 PST
No one went to get the mail today, my dad was busy cutting up wood in the forest, and my mom was waiting for a call from my psychiatrist-for the past three days actually.

It sems my medicare wants to stop insuring lexapro because it's too expensive. Sick bastards. I wonder if they realise a cheaper medicine would most likely cause me to be more screwed up than I was when I tried ritalin at about age 15.. Hopefully Dr. Littleton will fix this unless he's too busy trying to scalpel-pick his other patients into near frustration with his shitty reverse psychology..

I was asleep for the better part of the day and happened to hear my mom call me an a-hole from the other room upon waking up just recently. She had peeked in on me earlier, and I knew this. I asked what she was doing and she said she was checking on me. I assured her, 'Don't worry, I'm still alive.' annoyed because when I'm not fully awake, I'm usually pretty farking paranoid, especially when someone is watching me, and I'm wondering if it's the grim reaper ready to bring down his scythe on my neck...

I eventually go into the other room and and tell her I know what she said, because I heard her and tell her I have a word for her too, being 'witch'. Of course she goes into her crying mode and states how she's been all depressed, and dad asks if I'd like to go in the other room to watch our jackass president on tv. I calmly state 'I'd rather pry my fingernails off one by one' and pretty much come in here.

So that's why I haven't been online, I've been bloated and the pills that were supposed to help made me fall asleep...

*huggles Teddy* I love you sweetheart, I hope your day is going at least a bit better than mine.



My Princess, Angel & Love:


Everything in this world can't compare to the love I feel for my girl. She is my soulmate and my very meaning. If anyone dares bother her whatsoever, beg that your removal from this earth be swift before I find you.

My pals:












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I'm a JiMmy fan cause Mmy is god! Gotta problem with that?



http://ZimmiqueManson.deviantart.com/journal/7737823/ Sun, 29 Jan 2006 03:10:30 PST
This has made me feel quite sad, because I really wanted to live with Ted, but that will have to wait. I can wait as long as it takes to be with her, and I hope that she feels just as strongly towards me. I know sometimes I rush into decisions as I did with wanting to move in with her, I'll be the happiest person on earth when that day comes. I just feel so stupid that I could've forgotten about this problem with the credit company.

I'm sorry that I didn't think this through better, before promising to move in with you, Ted. I'm being honest with you. and if you need proof I can scan one of the bill forms. I love you, as I always will. I just hope that you are not disappointed in me for overlooking this problem.

I have gotten the Mmy/Nny valentines pic finished and scanned. It will be up shortly.


Band: Iron Butterfly
Album: In-A-Gadda-Da-Vida
Song: Flowers and Beads



My Princess, Angel & Love:


Everything in this world can't compare to the love I feel for my girl. She is my soulmate and my very meaning. If anyone dares bother her whatsoever, beg that your removal from this earth be swift before I find you.

My pals:












Groups I'm in:

I'm a JiMmy fan cause Mmy is god! Gotta problem with that?





All Hail The Sexiest Bassist Ever! ]]> ~ZimmiqueManson