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deviantART: by:Zodia-Mocking-Bird http://search.deviantart.com/?q=by:Zodia-Mocking-Bird&section=today deviantART RSS for by:Zodia-Mocking-Bird en-us Copyright 2009, deviantART.com Thu, 17 Dec 2009 09:36:40 PST deviantART.com http://blogs.law.harvard.edu/tech/rss http://s.deviantart.com/minish/widgets/apple-touch-icon-precomposed.png Coming of Age http://Zodia-Mocking-Bird.deviantart.com/journal/28831332/ http://Zodia-Mocking-Bird.deviantart.com/journal/28831332/ Tue, 08 Dec 2009 17:43:52 PST Friends

So, It finally happened, I turned 20, I feel alot different, like I didnt do enough music making, performing, studying, anything back when I was not in my 20's but now I am and Its time to knuckle the fuck down and get the ball rolling again.

I joined a group on here a few weeks back about music, Its a brilliant group but its for people who like music, which I found kinda... unlimiting, so I formed my own group for people who have dedicated there lives to the creation and writing of what people like so much. There must be others out there like me, so have a browse, the groups called

Musicalrocker if you play music or are interested in making music, hit me up for a membership and we'll have a chat.

Band mate Jamie's 20th this friday, what a night that should be.

A renewed Jase.

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]]> =Zodia-Mocking-Bird Alot Different http://Zodia-Mocking-Bird.deviantart.com/journal/28522515/ http://Zodia-Mocking-Bird.deviantart.com/journal/28522515/ Mon, 23 Nov 2009 05:13:48 PST Friends

So my Grandad died this morning at 5am, I get woken up to a call from my father halfpie yelling, halfpie sobbing that Im needed up north asap, so no Pearl Jam for me... but I think family should come 1st, not telling alotta people close to me about it (well untill now) but thats how I want it, It brought back alot of old memories, alot of feelings id surpressed for so long, and just things that I havent spoken to anyone about, like how Im feeling right now, I dunno, I feel so broken about so much stuff that just happens, but it happens to me so fucking often that I thought it just didnt affect me anymore, I think Im going to compare it to a mass shooting, Like say you go into a bank, and shoot someone, you think "fuck, I just killed a man, what am I going to do" and then you shoot another, and another, and you start thinking "well im going to prison anyway, may aswell just kill some more of these people" so you keep shooting, another 4 or 5, before you get caught, then when your all alone, something triggers it the sheer fact that you just killed 8 fucking people, finally kicks in, and it floods your mind and eats at you for a good long while. Only my problem is, Its girls, I pretend that every little hit doesnt affect me, but it does, I lie and say "Oh I didnt care about you at all" I cant help that Im a hermit who doesnt leave his house hardly unless its to go and get shit for making music, I cant help that crowds and people freak me out, and that Im shy as fuck, I just want a girl who I can my music for, who I can take out to lunch or dinner, who I can spoil and surprise, someone who actually accepts me. Fuck I dont even know where id be unless it was for my music, I constantly write and write and write and I cant get the feelings out of my system. My band are holding me together and my smile up for appearances sake.

Im going up north tomorrow. See you when I see you.
Jase

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]]> =Zodia-Mocking-Bird How You Inspire Me So http://Zodia-Mocking-Bird.deviantart.com/journal/28402053/ http://Zodia-Mocking-Bird.deviantart.com/journal/28402053/ Mon, 16 Nov 2009 18:53:20 PST Friends - Featured Artist - london-paris-tokyo

So Im going to be posting up pieces of work Ive written recently in my songbook and pieces I just wasnt happy with when I posted them up on here the 1st time, So I have been writing, Just not showing you fuckers. I finished a song Ive been trying to write for my buddy Emma inspired by this piece and a song I wrote but never submitted inspired by this one by the lovely beigegray actually now that you mention it beigegray has inspired me alot lately, she just doesnt know it, I adore watching her page for new stuff, cause its just so damn good, So go check her out, but this week Emma gets my Feature for such a long wait, I think I got it right this time.

Still feeling old *sigh* Bring on Dec 8th a.k.a My 20th... not my party date though, thats secret.

Old Man Jase

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]]> =Zodia-Mocking-Bird The New Dawn Redemption http://Zodia-Mocking-Bird.deviantart.com/journal/28381532/ http://Zodia-Mocking-Bird.deviantart.com/journal/28381532/ Sun, 15 Nov 2009 18:05:32 PST
What else...

Oh yeah, someone should buy me a coffin, Im gunna be 20 in under a month, Its pretty funny, like even though most people are still at University at my age, Im qualified and have been working for a full year, writing music for other bands and earning royalty cheques, yet I still feel like for someone turning 20 that Ive acomplished almost nothing on my grand scheme of things. Which is pretty cock suck if you ask me.

I dunno, we'll see how everything goes in band practice this weekend. Maybe we'll write a number 1 hit.

Jase the Grandpa,
Out.

]]> =Zodia-Mocking-Bird Australia Trip http://Zodia-Mocking-Bird.deviantart.com/journal/27694597/ http://Zodia-Mocking-Bird.deviantart.com/journal/27694597/ Sat, 10 Oct 2009 19:54:14 PDT

Australia Trip

So In a weeks time, I go to Australia on business, How epic, I'm going to Brisbane, and I was meant to go to Melbourne to visit my old time friend *SaCliliad but sadly I have to be back in NZ after my week long job and be back at work, how lame, but its ok, I love Brisbane, its amazing over there, so beautiful and the women are like... YEYAH!

Because I cant visit her, Sarah gets my feature, Love Love Rain-bird

Thats all,
Jase

Featured Artist

*SaCliliad

]]> =Zodia-Mocking-Bird Just Stop Writing http://Zodia-Mocking-Bird.deviantart.com/journal/27628198/ http://Zodia-Mocking-Bird.deviantart.com/journal/27628198/ Wed, 07 Oct 2009 06:38:07 PDT

Just Stop Writing

So recently I've just let my DeviantArt account run up a few posts just so id have something to read. And now I wanna say I am so dissapointed DA! Im not going to name names, but all I seem to see is this massive tide with a black emo sweep coming towards me, YOUR ALL SO FUCKING DEPRESSING. Of course not all of you the old people who have been here for ages or are just a little less self attached have written absolute masterpieces as always. I'm a highly critical judge of writing, so If a fav a piece of poetry or prose you should be proud of yourself. And seriously, If I write you a comment about something that doesnt fit properly, Im trying to help you. Dont write me a comment like "Your work is shit, you cant do any better" because to be honest, I just fucking pulled your piece apart, and I found something wrong with it, and I fixed it, SO I DID DO BETTER AND YOU CAN GO SUCK A FUCKING COCK ABOUT IT.

/rant

Jase

Featured Artist

*SnapThat

]]> =Zodia-Mocking-Bird Alotta News http://Zodia-Mocking-Bird.deviantart.com/journal/27060699/ http://Zodia-Mocking-Bird.deviantart.com/journal/27060699/ Sun, 06 Sep 2009 18:59:51 PDT

Alotta News

So I have alot of news, most of which is really lame.

So, No America for Jase, *closes ears over Amber's happy chanting* I simply have started far to many projects here for me to just get off my ass and leave now, Its not a never, its just not going to be as soon as Id liked.

Had my 1st real gig behind the Live Sound desk last Friday, when I say 1st real, Ive done it for like random gigs with like 150 people in a theater or something. But this one was between 900 and 1300 people, It was one of the most stressful things Ive ever done, People so don't know how to use a friggen microphone. I got a bollocking from one of the artists because people couldn't hear her. We'll lady if you friggen faced the microphone, you know the thing you use so people can hear you, when you sang, Maybe they could. Fuckwit.

Katy and I are still progressing slowly but surely with this album, its taking a while longer than I thought, But its ok, Katy knows how to write, and I know how to write, so all good.

Im studying hard for my grade 6's in music theory on top of writing the album and working, fml, so intense, but I feel like I need to do it to better myself.

Have to go away on a work trip to Australia soon, Oh the joys of work trips, dont you just love them? Nah its not to bad, In Brisbane, so im probably gunna chillout there for about a week or so.

And im still almost 20, fml.

Jase Out.

Oh Amber is almost 18! She gets my feature. Show her some lovin.

Featured Artist

~SnapThat

]]> =Zodia-Mocking-Bird Holy Crap http://Zodia-Mocking-Bird.deviantart.com/journal/26726449/ http://Zodia-Mocking-Bird.deviantart.com/journal/26726449/ Fri, 21 Aug 2009 03:04:17 PDT

Holy Crap

So Im supposed to be going to America like Late Dec/Early January but my god, I just found out the Parachute Mainstage Lineup for the 20th Annaversary. Switchfoot, Family Force 5 and Underoath are all playing within the just hours of eachother. Holy shit. This might actually change my life. So America has been put off till Mid Feb. I will get there people!

On another note, me and Katy's album is doing so well, I will be re-recording the vocals after roughing up my voice something chronic using whisky and cigarettes, and its gunna sound epic as hell, I had a practice after doing it yesterday, It sounds like a weird blend of Seether, Alice In Chains, and Buckcherry. Happy Jase.

Oh and because its Rose's birthday, she gets my feature! HAPPY 18TH DRUM STUDENT ROSIE!

Smiles,
Jase

Featured Artist

~curious-cat-rip

]]> =Zodia-Mocking-Bird Silent Whispers http://Zodia-Mocking-Bird.deviantart.com/journal/26604532/ http://Zodia-Mocking-Bird.deviantart.com/journal/26604532/ Sat, 15 Aug 2009 07:30:04 PDT

Silent Whispers

I dont know, seemed to be heading in a huge downward spiral. Its showing in my writing and my general attitude to everything except for work, cause im good like that.

In better news Katy and I are writing an album, Weve done one song, and its not to bad, apart from my Vox (hate my own voice) but yeah, and NICKS COMING HOME IN THE MORNING! AND COMING TO SEE MEEEEE! YAY!!!

Thats all,
Jase

Featured Artist

~Mebob

]]> =Zodia-Mocking-Bird GRAB A CAN TODAY http://Zodia-Mocking-Bird.deviantart.com/journal/26371583/ http://Zodia-Mocking-Bird.deviantart.com/journal/26371583/ Tue, 04 Aug 2009 01:16:50 PDT

A-FUCKING-MERICA

So Ive been planning on venturing to America for a while now, and I let it slip to my mother, and all she said to me was "Jase, do it while your young, you'll do well" So with her blessing...

JASE IS FUCKING GOING TO AMERICA GUYYYYYZ AND GURRRRLZ!

*break dances* yeyah, America, watch out for Jase.

Oh and 2ndly.... HOLY FUCK PEARL JAM COMING TO NZ! AND IM GOING!

Thats all,
Jase

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]]> =Zodia-Mocking-Bird Wewt Subby finally! http://Zodia-Mocking-Bird.deviantart.com/journal/26342782/ http://Zodia-Mocking-Bird.deviantart.com/journal/26342782/ Sun, 02 Aug 2009 17:28:47 PDT

Grab a can today!

Soooo, I bought a subscription, Happy happy happy.

That is all

Featured Art

]]> =Zodia-Mocking-Bird Hellfee http://Zodia-Mocking-Bird.deviantart.com/journal/25970297/ http://Zodia-Mocking-Bird.deviantart.com/journal/25970297/ Wed, 15 Jul 2009 18:23:39 PDT
Well, I was stuck in bed for going on 8 days, I thought i was going to die, like no bullshit, So I started putting some of my poetry down in audio form, sort of as a last testiment along with some demo songs I recorded at work. But now that Im not dying, I started recording alot of things with my voice again, I dunno, I keep having spells of no confidence, like I had no voice at all where as infact, when I was at music school I had the most sought after voice out of any performer there, I was asked to put my touch on every song that the school released in the year of 2008, Yet I left after getting my diploma and never looking back. But now that my confidence is back, I started recording alotta cover songs, mostly songs by The Doors in my home studio, Im really happy with how their turning out because i can sing so naturally on the songs and go really wild with psychotic bursts of screaming and rage. Love love love.

So still no new band, Im getting kinda guttered over it, I just dont like going into a random place with some random people and bursting out my lungs infront of total strangers. But its a must, my friends are all great musicians, but we all have such different styles to play, Im the oddball in the group. While loving to listen to heavy music, Im so over playing it. It bores me, My new stuff is so hardrock and blues oriented that it bores them, but getting back to musical roots is what i feel i need to do as an artist.

Been doing alotta writing, and rewriting of a song book i found, I wrote all the pieces in Australia, its pretty much a drug addicts diary of words, I love it so much.

Peace out all,
Jase

]]> =Zodia-Mocking-Bird Sick As A Dog http://Zodia-Mocking-Bird.deviantart.com/journal/25850097/ http://Zodia-Mocking-Bird.deviantart.com/journal/25850097/ Thu, 09 Jul 2009 23:06:35 PDT KiwisUnite more work to be done, need a new external. And the worst thing is. EVEN AT THE OFFER OF A GEORGE FORMAN GRILL NOBODY WILL MAKE ME PANCAKES!

End of rant without Pancakes.
Jase.

]]> =Zodia-Mocking-Bird 4k, Far Beyond Driven http://Zodia-Mocking-Bird.deviantart.com/journal/25366555/ http://Zodia-Mocking-Bird.deviantart.com/journal/25366555/ Wed, 17 Jun 2009 05:40:23 PDT Nah, I am actually quite pleased about it, I havent written anything in soooo long, I dunno, I just havent been feeling to well about writing, Ive been working on my new stuff.

FINALLY! Cubase 5, the like god of recording software has hit the country, it came in on Monday, I bought the last copy in the country on Tuesday, I am soooo happy about it, I get to use it in the morning, my songwriting will now be flawless! Lookout world here comes Jase!

So I have some huge news, but ima not put it on here... Ive told the peeps that matter anyway, and asked their advice etc etc.

]]> =Zodia-Mocking-Bird How About You? http://Zodia-Mocking-Bird.deviantart.com/journal/24975528/ http://Zodia-Mocking-Bird.deviantart.com/journal/24975528/ Wed, 27 May 2009 08:26:25 PDT
I dunno, still got a lot on my mind that needs sorting out. A lot has changed in the past few days, some things just make me smile. Others worry me and keep me up at night, hence why its 3:17am, oh well, ill be seeing my Dad tonight, he's down for a short visit. Some days my life is perfect, others there all Topsy turvey. But its OK, your still beautiful to me.

Been writing a lot recently too, just about the past, my dirty dark past I don't talk about, yet 99% of people know about, lol, most of its shit, so yeah, im posting shit, good old me.

oh and a message for my secret, I fucking miss you.

Oh and a message for Liz, WHY ARE YOU READING MY JOURNALS AND KEEPING TABS ON ME WOMAN! TXT ME YOUR REPLY!!!

Thats all, Goodnight everyone,
Jase

]]> =Zodia-Mocking-Bird Take The Good with the Bad http://Zodia-Mocking-Bird.deviantart.com/journal/24715117/ http://Zodia-Mocking-Bird.deviantart.com/journal/24715117/ Tue, 12 May 2009 04:55:06 PDT
1, Our boy Jamie is moving back up to Aux from being away for over a year in Nelson (some bogan as fuck town down somewhere)

2, He wants to start a new band with me, which Im really keen for, For once I might get something done outside of MAINZ.

3, Alec from a band I cant name here (1st part of my name before the hyphen) has contacted me and asked me to help him rewrite their entire catalog from scratch, such a huge job, but so much fun, I love writing music with a cause.

4, New Audio Engineering software being shipped as we speak, and I'm on pre-order, fuckin yeah boi.

But as for the bad, I dont know what to do with myself, i dont seem to do anything anymore, I just sorta bum around home and drink and drink, I feel like I'm spiraling into a depression. One I cant just smile my way through. Im not eating properly, Im hardly sleeping, Its taking its toll. I wagged work this week, told my boss i needed "Jase alone time" he's known me long enough to know exactly what that means, so he gave me a week, Mind you ill be in to the studio on Wed, Thurs and Fri, to record some of my own stuff, just idea's, weird sorta little poems Ive written and sing sometimes, Some proper songs, some weird drum beats and piano chord progressions, etc etc. Just tryna be creative and milk this crap feeling for all the pain and hate its worth.

Thats me.
Jase

]]> =Zodia-Mocking-Bird Downward Spiral http://Zodia-Mocking-Bird.deviantart.com/journal/24613799/ http://Zodia-Mocking-Bird.deviantart.com/journal/24613799/ Wed, 06 May 2009 06:55:03 PDT
I really wanna thank =Mebob for just giving me advice about this shit.

Been playing drums a lot lately, and when I say a lot, I mean anywhere between 6 - 11 hours a day its so weird, I find that by just beating the living crap outta drums I forget all about everything, then as soon as I stop, it all comes back again.

I wish I could tell you all that I'm happy and stuff, but I'm really hurting inside.

I'll post again later,
Jase

]]> =Zodia-Mocking-Bird Somethings Gotta Give http://Zodia-Mocking-Bird.deviantart.com/journal/24433507/ http://Zodia-Mocking-Bird.deviantart.com/journal/24433507/ Sat, 25 Apr 2009 19:02:26 PDT
So I went to the bay of islands for a week with Mop and Kris, t'wasnt too bad, we didn't do alot, mainly got drunk, but that's how i wanted it, because like I needed the break from work, which I got so yay.

I spent Friday with my sister and my 2 nephews, most tiring day of my fucking life, I realized that my Sister is like exactly the same as me in almost every way shape and form except that she is blatantly OCD lmao, My nephews tired me out so bad after 4 and a half hours of "Lets Pretend the couch cushions are giant robots and lets wrestle them and attack them and then jump on uncle Jase" Holy shit man, I was so friggen tired after that I couldn't even read them a story.

Devmeet next weekend woot, will most likely go, see how all the people are doing artistically, prolly roll up tipsy, I'm good like that.

All for now,
Jase

]]> =Zodia-Mocking-Bird Sitting Pretty http://Zodia-Mocking-Bird.deviantart.com/journal/23980172/ http://Zodia-Mocking-Bird.deviantart.com/journal/23980172/ Tue, 31 Mar 2009 04:59:54 PDT
Ok so, I am writing something big like before I started projects and I liked them, but they just weren't what I was really looking for. This time, I got it. I actually fucking have it. I am so artistically focused. I can see the road ahead and all the obstacles along the way. Like tree's and Australians... My boss decided to get involved too which is perfect because we can both put out a song a day. I recon we'll probably write about 120 maybe 130 songs and choose 15 or 16 from there, then we'll go into recording, so its a long and tedious project, but one that has to be done. For my sanity, lmao.

In other news Jase likes a girl *shock fucking horror* ...Yeap...

Bosons on a Thursday night, if you mention this journal get 1 free drink on me.

Back to songwriting,
Jase.

]]> =Zodia-Mocking-Bird 1:36am http://Zodia-Mocking-Bird.deviantart.com/journal/23410624/ http://Zodia-Mocking-Bird.deviantart.com/journal/23410624/ Thu, 26 Feb 2009 04:59:33 PST
Ummmmmm after all these years I finally got broadband, and I'm now happily addicted to PS3 online, ummmmm, but whats new Its just online.

About other shit, Im writing a whole bunch of new songs for you douche bags to fight and squabble over the rights to, but you know what? these ones are all mine, cause half of the vocal tracks are already recorded, I did them at work, for free in Stereo quality (shame to all you at home recorders, I work at a recording studio, but if you ask nicely, ill hook all you'z up!) Looking for peepz to help me with the musical side of it, most of its all written, I just need able guitarists, drummer, bassist, cause seriously, its no fun doing it all by yourself, and I have been doing that, Ive been like this weird little hermit in my sound proof room, pacing and swearing, and hissing at the sun... did I just start songwriting in my journal? I think I did... I needa go out more. Seriously.

Going out with Jess tomoz, for a drink, havent seen her, or even spoken to her in like a year apart from odd occasions when I see her at work and we do the awkward hug. Ive been spending alotta time with my ex Katy aswell, its funny, she hates the way I look at her, I know cause she tells me so. I dunno, not really interested in either of them anymore, hahahaha, Katy's too sweet for me, and Jess is just... no comment.

Ummmmmmmm, what else, oh yeah, I'm prolly going back to Oz for a bit soon, I like it there, they dont ask me for I.D. cause Im a cripple

I mean Im of age anyway, apart from In America, so you suck America, but its all good, cause Im not American, Im Kiwi, and holy shit I totally dont know what Im typing. I swear im not drunk.

Im off, work in the Morning,
A very musically bored Jase

]]> =Zodia-Mocking-Bird Chewing Gum http://Zodia-Mocking-Bird.deviantart.com/journal/22447033/ http://Zodia-Mocking-Bird.deviantart.com/journal/22447033/ Wed, 07 Jan 2009 06:46:58 PST
So tomorrow im going to Jays place who is the father of my mate who died, and like ive been trying to mull this over in my head, were going to his place and having a party for my dead mates birthday, so infact were having a birthday party for ashes in a vase. Does anyone else find this really fuckin weird? cause you know, Im happy to go, keep the healing process going, but the more I mull this over the more I say "What. The. Fuck" but all good. I love seeing Jay, he's my third Dad cause my Dads such a fuckhead that I never see him, so Dad, if you read this "Moving away, makes you a fuckhead in my books, sweet?"

Devmeet #2 soon, not sure if Ima go, haven't decided yet. Dont like decisions, bleh

Today Mop came round and we sat outside on sofa's and drank beer, I am so fucking sunburnt its not even funny, like almost as bad as the legendary Parachute Music Festival sunburn I get every year. Oh yeah Parachute, sooooo keen. just *thinks* 15 days! YEEEAH BOOI!

So yeah If anyone wants to come over to my house and rub aloe on me (preferably a young lady) I would much appreciate it.

See you,
A lobster pink Jase

]]> =Zodia-Mocking-Bird I Wish http://Zodia-Mocking-Bird.deviantart.com/journal/22236917/ http://Zodia-Mocking-Bird.deviantart.com/journal/22236917/ Sun, 28 Dec 2008 03:47:12 PST
To think that 2 years has gone past since Parvins death, since the whole Jess fiasco, and the thing is, I still pay the price for it. I dream about the day I found out alot. Once a week most likely, which is why Im always awake, always drinking energy drinks, always angry at anyone who even gives me even one reason to be. But through the anger and hyperactivity I feel really shit, I feel like a ghost of who I used to be, I feel like I could just go to sleep and not wake up, like I don't even really matter. I don't feel like writing songs, music, even poetry. I just wish people would forget about my existence and let me fade away. Not likely going to happen though is it? I wish I could just go to sleep and wake up with Parvin in my house eating all my fuckin food like he used to do when he was alive. And that me and him would go round to Jess' house and just leave rubber up her driveway like we did Katy when me and her broke up (Which I am still apologizing to this day about I might add) I dunno...

And now I'm falling in love... but I cant, I'm not aloud, I refuse to admit it. Im sure the feelings aren't reciprocated, so bleh, another thing for me to feel all shitty and not leave my house for like a month about.

Im writing songs really emo, just to get this shit out of my system like working poison outta my blood.

Have fun at new years, I dunno if I will be.
Jase

]]> =Zodia-Mocking-Bird Dude... http://Zodia-Mocking-Bird.deviantart.com/journal/21782333/ http://Zodia-Mocking-Bird.deviantart.com/journal/21782333/ Tue, 02 Dec 2008 11:59:29 PST
So, Ive had the worst writers block ever recently, then this morning I woke up and I hit my head on the fucking windowsill above my bed, it hurt so fucking bad but then I sat down and wrote a line, and then another line... and they fit, then a 3rd and so on and so forth until I had written 13 songs in the space of 2 hours, Ive never done that before at all. I want to name these songs as a group of songs, but some I want to record and others I don't so they'd all get broken up anyway. I remember on my old account I had this idea for a song called "The Baby Hey Blues" and had this huge expectation of how it should be a really good song. I was very disappointed in the way it turned out. Then this morning I rewrote it from scratch as the 1st song I wrote, and I tell you, the second time its a fuck of alot better than the 1st. I might even upload it, not sure yet.

Devmeet this weekend, going with Kris ~SkullMystery and Mop ~kLOTTiS plan on going half shitfaced just for a laugh, kinda funny really, its the day before my birthday, so yes people, I turn 19 on the 8th of December, yay, the joy, I feel old and insecure already. Im halfpie shitting myself about getting older to be honest, just think, In 5 days time I'll be 19, which is 1 year away from 20, which is half of 40. In another 21 years I have to:

- Be Married
- Have kids
- Have a stable job
- Have a house
- Be able to provide for my family
- Pay for school fee's, uniforms, lunch etc
- Have a dog
- Be the head of a family
- Be a multimillionaire (just cause I'm hardcore)

Half of my life has been wasted! ahhh!

So now my writers blocks gone, I can write about having a midlife crisis and burden you all with it. Have fun with that.

Mmmmmmmmmm, Im lonely, like really lonely.

Thats all,
Jase

]]> =Zodia-Mocking-Bird How the fuck are ya? http://Zodia-Mocking-Bird.deviantart.com/journal/21529878/ http://Zodia-Mocking-Bird.deviantart.com/journal/21529878/ Mon, 17 Nov 2008 06:31:38 PST
Fucking Hello! How the fuck are ya?

Ok, glad to have that out of my system, so ok, Australia was an awesome time, went to alot of clubs, alot of just hanging out trying to be even less of a pasty dude as I am. The beaches were amazing, People I stayed with (my ex gf Steph's family) were so cool to me, Thugh they do think Im a little weird as I jammed with Steph for like 3 days straight and during that time I smoked far to many cigarettes and ate only pasta with sausage and bacon and caramel cheese cake, but I got to do whatever I liked and that wasn't alot, lol, kinda guttered I didn't get to see Sarah in Melbourne, or Cat in Tasmania (I like my new shoes... this one fits reeeal good!!! and yes Cat, I am a sheep shagger)

Finished my music school course, Kinda sad to see the back of MAINZ, it was a good school and I met alot of new friends from all walks of musical background, I love mixing up genre's to make something... different, like so fucked up People will raise a brow when they hear it. But for the mean time, my part time Job at the recording studio becomes a full time job. Im working right the way up till the 22nd of December, yay for me. Though I must say, it is so quiet this time of the year, we dont seem to do anything, like last week me and Marvin spent the day writing music to a fictional movie he made up, just for the fuck of it, the result was the most screwed up thing ever, it was his piano skills which are like classical as, with me doing random screaming over the top and then his son just randomly shredding out a guitar solo right in the middle of it.

I turn 19 in under a month, I feel really old, like an old man with a cane (not sure how the fuck id use a cane, but ok) well not that bad, ok, I'm feeling my mortality, with not alot of stuff going on at work I go for alot of walks to try and write songs and 9 out of 10 times my bad knee plays up and i have to sit for like an hour until it decides to behave (I got injured playing soccer in high school, the, and I quote "worst dislocated knee the ambulance driver had ever seen")

On the weird and wacky side of things, I bought a bright yellow lazy boy chair, an old school as one, it got stuck in my hallway for 4 days until my neighbour William came over and managed to dislodge it and get it into my room, so now its my new computer chair. I LOVE YOU LAZY BOY CHAIR!

Anyway, I'm going to bed.
Goodnight all,
Jase

]]> =Zodia-Mocking-Bird Oz http://Zodia-Mocking-Bird.deviantart.com/journal/21011423/ http://Zodia-Mocking-Bird.deviantart.com/journal/21011423/ Thu, 16 Oct 2008 03:48:51 PDT
See you when I get back.
Jase

]]> =Zodia-Mocking-Bird Going out in Absence http://Zodia-Mocking-Bird.deviantart.com/journal/20772507/ http://Zodia-Mocking-Bird.deviantart.com/journal/20772507/ Wed, 01 Oct 2008 07:29:20 PDT Im going out in absence,
Im leaving for a while,
Where aggressively I'll leave a mark,
While kissing you in style

So yeah, Im going to see my Dad for a few days, and then going to Waihi with Luke again, so ill be gone a grand total of 7 days, and hopefully get some writing done in this time, I know I will at my Dads but how much I will at Luke's is just a random figure.

Im just a selfish rocker,
With music bleeding out the eyes,
We still do make dreams come true,
Even under greyer skies

In band news, as 2 worlds collide, Flood from my MAINZ band had a jam with Mop from my outta MAINZ band and they seem to suit each other really well, which is strange because they both come from such different musical backgrounds. Made me think about life when I don't go back to MAINZ next year, how I'll fair in the music world without the guidance of really crap tutors, In fact, I'll be honest, the tutors there suck so much cock its not even funny, My 1st tutor Harry, he was the man, he helped me so much and really pushed me as a musician, then I got Phil who pushed and pushed me so hard and bitched and growled so much I lost all confidence and lost my voice. Then I got the singing teacher Trinity who made me feel really good about myself, she may have fucked up all the parts to all our songs, but she made me feel like I really have a gift. And since then Ive been writing songs mentally just to prove fuckin Phil wrong, he tells everyone that there gunna fail at life, to be honest, he's just a bitter old man.

Love is like a suicide,
It is a selfish act,
I'll drink myself into the ground,
A statement not a fact.

Ok, so the real reason for me leaving, Im miserable, I need to pull myself together again, and singing songs with my Dad does that, he's such a big help to my life, were so much alike. I don't normally go all mushy over my parents and shit, but I love my father, and I don't hardly see him as he lives so far away. He's always so happy to see me, As we all had such a rich musical up bringing, yet I'm the only one who still follows it out of all his children.

I'll get you something personal,
Which only I can see,
Something locking you away,
Where only I'm the key

I want to send some stuff to America soon, I have a few peoples birthdays to send gifts out to. Oh the joys of shopping.

Ginger Kisses,
Jase

]]> =Zodia-Mocking-Bird Honey http://Zodia-Mocking-Bird.deviantart.com/journal/20402783/ http://Zodia-Mocking-Bird.deviantart.com/journal/20402783/ Tue, 09 Sep 2008 07:10:21 PDT
~~

Now for what I wanted to talk about, Im releasing an EP very soon, well when its finished being completely written anyway, it will be one of those things ill look back at in 20 years and think "good god, that is so shit" but anyway, I'm pulling resources for the EP, so when its all done i'll let you know. Ok I keep going off topic,

I need some help with the album cover, the lead song off the EP is called "Honey" so I want a cover relating to that word somehow. It doesn't have to be in the conventional sense either, so if you have any idea's or even want to design a cover for me, send me a note and ill note you back the spec's. You could see your artwork on the cover of the album.

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Lately I feel neglected, slightly sick to the stomach and angry at everything, Its come at a weird price, Ive suddenly become very accepting of my disability where as before I secretly loathed myself for it. After 18 years of wishing I was normal, I finally see that If I was normal, I wouldn't be myself. It suddenly occurred to me that I actually am a great guy, a pretty ok writer and a decent singer. I mean, would I have gotten into music school, into the group of friends I have gotten into if I was a talentless prick? I think not. For a long time I was very cautious of love, of showing any form of emotion except to those people who knew me closest, which isn't many of you. I guess I like to keep to myself in a way. Oh well, Now the only thing I have to worry about is not getting too big for my boots and letting my producer down by stopping writing songs.

Enough Ranting,
Kisses like loaded guns,
Jase

]]> =Zodia-Mocking-Bird Rock To Freedom http://Zodia-Mocking-Bird.deviantart.com/journal/19764800/ http://Zodia-Mocking-Bird.deviantart.com/journal/19764800/ Mon, 04 Aug 2008 05:38:30 PDT Rock To Freedom

Join us as we fund raise money for those who need it. Cancer kills many loved ones every year. Do your part to prevent it.

Date: Saturday 6th September
Location: Shadows Bar, Auckland City, New Zealand
Time: 6pm Till Late
Price: $15 at the door
Restrictions: Strictly R18
All Funds Going to Canteen, NZ Rock Music Supporting Teens With Cancer

Acts Include

o Ethanol 58
o Since I Killed
o At Jales End
o Kids With Kandy
o The Underline Theory
o Incarnium

~

So now that Ive got my advertising scheme out of the way, Stuff is good, School is good, band(s) are good, Life in general is good. *nods*

Songwriting is going very well, I have more to post soon, and it will be a fond change from submitting nothing.

I bought a 640gb External Hard drive for my music, Yay! so much space, so little time. Its amazing.

This weekend Berr, Mop and I are going out to see Jay, who is my mate Parvin's Dad, Since Parvin's death almost 2 years ago, Jay has sorta become a father figure to me, He's not just a mates Dad, He's one of us now, just 30 years older. Parvin's little sister Ericka will be there too. I haven't seen her since the funeral. Out of all the speeches and such, hers is the only one I remember, I cant even remember my own, I just remember I concluded it with his saying "Its all good bro, its all good" we all (including me) sugar coated the truth in those speeches, It was still so raw but she told it as it was, even though she was just 12 years old. She said "Shaun was the best big brother ever, even though most the time he was a little shit" The gasp that speech got, It made me laugh on a day when I didn't think I'd smile ever again. It should be a good weekend.

On a different note

COME TO THE FUCKING GIG! ITS FOR CHARITY YOU HEARTLESS PRICKS!

Thats all.

Love as always,
Life as never,
Jase

]]> =Zodia-Mocking-Bird Return http://Zodia-Mocking-Bird.deviantart.com/journal/19378935/ http://Zodia-Mocking-Bird.deviantart.com/journal/19378935/ Sun, 13 Jul 2008 20:09:46 PDT
Fish and chip lady on crack, Mounting Cows, Throw up buddies, Ditching Eric in a deserted area, Drag strip roads, Skating in McDonald's, Rick Rolled in a car, Play house party, Bums, obese man in a take away.

Anyway, I did get some stuff written while away so ittle be on here soon, Watch this space.

Jase

]]> =Zodia-Mocking-Bird Leaving http://Zodia-Mocking-Bird.deviantart.com/journal/19321694/ http://Zodia-Mocking-Bird.deviantart.com/journal/19321694/ Fri, 11 Jul 2008 00:05:29 PDT
I dunno things for me seem to be going downhill, I feel like I'm smothering her. Im not saying who, she knows. Its only cause I care about her that much. I dunno, I don't think I know how to act around women anymore (save my mother who I now have the best relationship in the world with generally due to a general dislike of Dad lol)

Band stuff, isn't to bad, Me and Mop jammed the other day, something we haven't done in years. It was good to see how much his guitar skills have improved over the couple of years we've done our own thing musically. I think that with new bassist Luke, we can actually get somewhere in the music scene, now that one of the bands I manage The Underline Theory, are about to release there self titled EP, They too could make the break into the music scene. Its strange, Living out in the east of the city, we have the best music scene in the country. But the east isn't the place you have to break to get a name for yourself. Its the central, which I'm already making a slight name for myself in by playing with my band from school around the area.

Might write some shit tomorrow when with Luke and Mop, not sure, Honey still needs to be finished, and we still to record our cover of Your Guardian Angel by The Red Jumpsuit Apparatus which I didn't think I could sing but turns out I can.

Oh Well,
Think of me while Im away.
Sex, Drugs, Rock N' Roll Always.
Jase

]]> =Zodia-Mocking-Bird Im Going Crazy http://Zodia-Mocking-Bird.deviantart.com/journal/18924780/ http://Zodia-Mocking-Bird.deviantart.com/journal/18924780/ Thu, 19 Jun 2008 06:30:18 PDT
Ive had writers block for so long, I need to be stabbed, or fucked or something, beat over the head, anything to get the passion going, I feel so full, of words and thoughts and memories and love and hate and all that comes out is these 4 line fucking stanza's of genius, but I cant make money off songs by stringing those together and saying "Heres your song, give me my pay check plz" It doesn't work like that, as much as id love it to.

Uhhhhhhhhh... I dunno, I seem to get my life back on track and then this thing happens, I'm supposed to be writing for my own band that just got back together. I don't care about that paying for songs stuff, I don't have to have it, I make enough off of recording work as an almost qualified sound engineer. I feel like I need a long break, but I cant get one, All my mates say "If you quit music, you are a fucking idiot Jase Smithyman" I would never quit it, its been my way of life for far to long to quit it. Maybe just settle back into it by playing covers or something, I think its the gigging schedule they have me on at school thats half the problem, its just nuts. Its so full on, making me sing in styles and keys not suited for my voice, as well as an on call bass teacher, I'm not even that good a bassist. They just found out I give my mates lil sister Bass lessons for free as a favor to him and now I'm apparently the authority on the instrument.

Uhhh, Its cold and im grouchy and just FUCK!

Have a good time not playing music watchers.
Jase

]]> =Zodia-Mocking-Bird Its a new Journal http://Zodia-Mocking-Bird.deviantart.com/journal/18875155/ http://Zodia-Mocking-Bird.deviantart.com/journal/18875155/ Mon, 16 Jun 2008 14:15:53 PDT
Its weird at the moment, I don't know what to do, what to feel, what to smile about, all that I do know is that I have to write songs furiously, and at the moment I am seriously having allot of trouble putting pen to paper. I'm sure it will pass. Or more, It better fucking well pass! *rawr!*

Oh yeah, for those new watchers who don't watch my other account, I'm Jase, 18, go to The Music and Audio Institute of New Zealand (MAINZ) I'm doing a 3 year course that will take me 4 years cause I'm taking a year off next year and going to the states for a bit. And I like long walks on the beach and giving Michael Bateman shit.

Oh yeah, did the 48 hour film festival a few weeks back, prolly like 2 months actually... anyway, I was one of the main characters "fat" and "ugly" brothers along with me old mate Mop, We had an in depth conversation about microwave burritos on camera, and then i get killed by a random emo Ninja (Only emo cause its Glen, lol)

School is hard work, Im kinda bored of it, If i wanted to do this kinda boring stuff I would a gone and worked at McDonald's, They're teaching me shit i already know, I know how to read and write music, I know how to sing in time, Farkin hell, I didn't pay $3500 for a year of shit i already know how to do.

Anyway,
Enough of a rant,
Jaseyness

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