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''It was just another story written on the second page
Underneath the Tiger's football score
It said he was only eighteen, a boy about my age
They found him face down on the bedroom floor

There'll be services on Friday at the Lawrence Funeral Home
Then out on Mooresville highway, they'll lay him 'neath a stone...

How do you get that lonely, how do you hurt that bad
To make you make the call, that havin' no life at all
Is better than the life that you had
How do you feel so empty, you want to let it all go
How do you get that lonely... and nobody know


Did his girlfriend break up with him, did he buy or steal that gun?
Did he lose a fight with drugs or alcohol?
Did his Mom and Daddy forget to say I love you son?
Did no one see the writing on the wall?

I'm not blamin' anybody, we all do the best we can
I know hindsight's 20/20, but I still don't understand...

How do you get that lonely, how do you hurt that bad
To make you make the call, that havin' no life at all
Is better than the life that you had
How do you feel so empty, you want to let it all go
How do you get that lonely... and nobody know

It was just another story printed on the second page
Underneath the Tiger's football score... ''

-Blaine Larson - How do you get that lonely.

No-one knows.
No-one ever knows exactly why. That's why this song is so appropriate. Because the tugers football score...to others it seems insignificant.
He was eighteen.
No one knows why. Apart from his mum. Who found him. Hanging from a tree in their back garden.

R.I.P JOSH BRAND.
17/02/2008

Tatoos.
Avenged Sevenfold.
Ciggerettes.

These are the things that will keep your memory forever on this earth.
May you be happier where you are now.
And fuck all the little emo's who say ''Oh my god my life sucks i'm gunna kill myself''And cut their arm once for attention. If they really were depressed, they would go about boasting it. And they wouldnt pretend to kill themselves. I'm gunna smack the next fucking emo who pretends to be depressed. Unless they have mental problems obvs. But no attention seekers.

Cause Josh mate, you meant it. You did it. We miss you. Sometimes when a person spends all their time making others happy no-one notices their upset.

Rock on buddy.

xxx

]]> ~abbebe http://abbebe.deviantart.com/journal/15501797/ http://abbebe.deviantart.com/journal/15501797/ Wed, 14 Nov 2007 02:01:28 PST 1. Abbey
2. Pidgeon
3. Private Lampshade (Private Parts More Like) ......don't ask!

THREE THINGS YOU'VE DONE IN THE LAST 33 MINUTES:
1. Listened to music
2. Done Assigments
3. Looked for houses

THREE THINGS YOU LIKE ABOUT YOURSELF:
1. My hair
2. My ability of coping
3. My height!!!

THREE THINGS YOU DISLIKE ABOUT YOURSELF:
1. My skin
2. Something i cant get rid of
3. My eyesight

THREE PARTS OF YOUR ORIGINS:
1. English
2. Irish
3. That;'s it, get over it

THREE THINGS YOU'RE AFRAID OF:
1. Needles
2. Being kicked out of my house
3. Having no where to live

THREE THINGS YOU ARE WEARING RIGHT NOW:
1. College Shirt
2. College Trousers
3. DC's

THREE OF YOUR EVERYDAY ESSENTIALS:
1. Music
2. Ben
3. Friends

THREE IMPORTANT OBJECTS:
1. Phone
2. MP3
3. Lighter

THREE OF YOUR FAVORITE BANDS:
1. Stone Sour!!!!!!!!!
2. Hollywood undead.
3. Fightstar

THREE WAYS TO BE HAPPY:
1. Just Ben in general
2. Not being anywhere near my dad
3. Music

THREE OF YOUR FAVORITE SONGS AT PRESENT:
1. Bleeding love - Leona Lewis
2. Hero - Nickleback
3. Hollywood Undead - Circles

THREE NEW THINGS YOU WANT TO TRY IN THE NEXT 12 MONTHS:
1. Moving out
2. Finishing all my assigments!
3. Stop smoking

THREE THINGS YOU REGRET:
1. A certain person who influenced my life.
2. Doing something I shouldnt have that will now never go
3. -

THREE THINGS YOU WANT IN A RELATIONSHIP:
1. Honesty
2. Connection
3. Sex

THREE IMPORTANT THINGS YOU'VE GIVEN TO THE WORLD:
1. This quiz
2. Artwork
3. Appreciation for music

TWO TRUTHS AND A LIE (in order):
1. Dougnuts have more fun thatn raisens
2. Im on the radio tomro! 6 o clock! Music control! Listen!
3. I'm straight

THREE PHYSICAL THINGS YOU LIKE IN THE OPPOSITE SEX:
1. Every single feature about Ben cause hes so damn hot
2. Eyes
3. ERm....need I say it?


THREE EMOTIONAL THINGS YOU LIKE IN THE OPPOSITE SEX:
1. Caring
2. Honest
3. Funny

THREE THINGS YOU JUST CAN'T DO:
1. Stop playing music permanantly
2. Wait to move out
3. Save my money

THREE THINGS YOU MISS FROM YOUR PAST:
1. Connections i had with some people
2. Lying in, not being kicked out the morning at 8
3. Being too young to have to work

THREE GIFTS YOU WOULD LIKE TO RECEIVE:
1. A house
2. A car
3. A house ffs!

THREE REASONS WHY YOU ARE WHO YOU ARE:
1. People ive met
2. Situations ive had to learn to deal with
3. Friends

THREE OF YOU YOUR FAVOURITE HOBBIES:
1. Music
2. Getting stoned with Ben
3. More music

THREE THINGS YOU WANT TO DO REALLY BADLY RIGHT NOW:
1. Sleep
2. Be with Ben
3. Smoke

THREE CAREERS YOU'RE CONSIDERING:
1. Police Officer
2. Police Officer
3. Police Officer

THREE PLACES YOU WANT TO GO FOR HOLIDAY:
1. Anywhere thats not my house
2. DEvon
3. Ireland

THREE THINGS YOU WANT TO DO BEFORE YOU DIE:
1. Ive done pretty much everything apart from live by myself!
2. Heal
3. Meet Jerad Leto

]]> ~abbebe http://abbebe.deviantart.com/journal/13793400/ http://abbebe.deviantart.com/journal/13793400/ Thu, 19 Jul 2007 10:07:31 PDT THERE HAS TO BE SUN FOR THERE TO BE A SHADOW

1. Complete name?
Abigail Cordelia Coleman

2. Why do you have that name?
iunno. aparently abigail means ''father joy'' haha. haha. no.

3. Do you wish something to the starts?
nope

4. When was the last time you cried?
cant remember

5. Do you like your handwritting?
heeel no

6. What do you eat bread with?
most things? lol

7. Who do you like?
my bf. usually.

8. Do you think he/she likes you?
lol well yes

9. If you were another person, would you be your friend?
yeah but ide get pissed off with myself for being so stuborn and not listening to me

10. Do you have a diary?
yes. well its more a BOOK OF EVERYTHING which i take everywhere, not really a diary lol

11. Are you sarcastic?
duh.

12. Would you do bungee jumping?
hell yeah!

13. What is your favourite cereal brand?
mmm....dunoo

14. Do you unfasten your trainers before putting them out?
yeah

15. Do you think you're strong?
nope lol

16. What's your favourite ice-cream flavour?
anything XD I love ice cream!!!

17. What is your shoes size?
3. sometimes 2.

18. Red or pink?
PINK!

19. What's the thing you hate about you?
my skin lol and myslef being so stubborn lol

20. Who do you miss a lot?
erm...lots of people...my brother...carlos....steve...James right now.

21. Would you like all the people tagged by you to answer?
dont mind

22. What are you wearing right now?
just t shirt and jeans. but i met this guy today with THE coolest trousers ever and i want them

23. What is the last thing you eated today?
choc orange buscuits

24. What are you listening to right now?
gym class heroes - [[dunno song]]

25. Who is the last person you talked with by telephone?
nathun

26. What's your favourite drink?
milk.. or advocat

27. What is your favourite sport to watch in the TV?
none lol

28. What's your favourite food?
cheese on crackers

29. Would you prefer a terror movie, or a movie with a happy end?
terror..well depends on my mood

30. What was the last movie you watched in the cinema and who did you watched it with?
Harry Potter - with mates n bf

31. What are your favourite days in the year?
my bday

32. Summer or winter?
Both!!!!

33. Kisses or hugs?
depends who and how horny u r at the time lol

34. Favourite dessert?
dont know

35. Who do you think will answer the tag?
nobody

36. Who do you think won't answer this tag?
everyone

37. What book are you reading?
lol i cant remeber its name

38. What is hanging on your wall?
paintings, posters, guitar, tshirts, dart board

39. What did you watch in the TV last night?
nothing lol

40. Rolling Stones or Beatles?
beatles

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~abbebe http://abbebe.deviantart.com/journal/13520320/ http://abbebe.deviantart.com/journal/13520320/ Thu, 28 Jun 2007 03:03:49 PDT THERE HAS TO BE SUN FOR THERE TO BE A SHADOW

Yesterday I was thinking. *shock bloody horror!* And decided, as vain as it may sound, i'm actually quite proud of myself. For my ability to get through things, whatever they are. Cause I just tend to get on with things. Ok, it might seem a little like I dont have a heart, or any feelings, but hell I do, just aseveryone else does.

And it seems, every relationship I seem to care less with now, cause i was getting more used to getting hurt. But then I decided. Whoever im dating isnt the last person, and if I dont give it a try, then of course it'll go wrong. ANd loving someone oerfectyl is not finding the perfect person pefectly, but perfectly inding the imperfect person. Yup.

Im making sense to myself at least.

And I decided, whatver I hold onto, it lets me down. Apart from one thing. Music. It's never let me down. {Well, apart from McFly, they;'re crap, lol.} So music is becoming a bigger and bigger part of my life. I'm ALWAYS listening to or playing it or writing songs in my head or singing to myself. It's become somewhat of an obsession that I rely on and wont let me down. Also, my taste in music is broadeneing. I used to just like rock but now I also like death metal, R'n'B, classical and blues. Nothing I dont like infact. And my favourite song right now is Rihanna and Umbrela but I cant seem to find it to download it

I'm down to earth n my own little world.......where people are music notes

Also, I have a job now Eco Park. A little theme park by Gullivers Land which is part of it. Wooo.

Still not entirly sure on my future career...I mean, yeah I wanan be a police woman, but even though I havnt taken the right subjects, social workr is becoming more and more appealing...

Anyway, thats my ramble about nothing in particular.

Hold strong people

The present is just a pleasent interuption to the past

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http://abbebe.deviantart.com/journal/13454682/ Sat, 23 Jun 2007 01:54:00 PDT MCR-I don't love you
James Blunt-goodbye my lover
Bon Jovi-I will love you always
And I listened to our three songs.
Infact, I was so upset that I thought maybe I should try and get you back. After all, it was sort of my fault. My fault you said you loved me and always would but now say your not sure if you even do anymore. That you said you'de choose me over him anyday but then go for him....
On my quest to get you back, I thought I'de learn to play your favourite song, which is one of our songs. But to do that i'de have to learn to play piano. So I got my dad's keyboard out, rented out a few books from the library, and got going.
But as I was playing I realised how beautiful it sounded. How I could create something so wonderful with just my fingures. Then I realised what was wrong, and what I needed to do.
I neede to get out of Tunnel Vision
Something I made up. It's where you get so envolved and in love with someone that they're all you see, think about, and live for. Then, when you get out of the Tunnel you realise how beautiful the rest of the world is. It may have changed a little since you left it, but it's still as amazing.
So, I stuck on Bon Jovi's 'Unbreakable' and smiled.
Next day, had a day out with mates and had lots of fun. I remembered how wonderful they were. Are should I say.And there i was., Out of Tunnel Vision.

And that, is how I got over you.

In less than a week. So come on world, I've had it all now, so throw what you got at me. Cause this girl isn't backing down. Isn't breaking down for nothing. She's stronger than ever before and ready for whatever is thrown at her. So watch out. Cause whatever she does, she'll be smiling.

]]> ~abbebe http://abbebe.deviantart.com/journal/13159072/ http://abbebe.deviantart.com/journal/13159072/ Thu, 31 May 2007 02:46:38 PDT
I dont even know why, it's odd.

Ok everything I say probly isnt going to make much sense forthwidth.

Well A-levels are poo, but they aint gunna be easy are they? Lol. I really should revise more. Surely i learnt that from my GCSE's. Wish I was clever enough not to need to revise lol. Yeah, right!

As far as i'm concerned, there are 5 main parts of life. Social. Work. School. Love. Family. Socail is good. Work is crap. Yesterday i was depressed all day cause i knew i had work today, I hate work so much, its making me depressed. School...well EXAMS! Love is meh. Some guys just need a slap round the head. With a Fork. Other people have gotta stop saying thingsa. Others NEED to say things and I need to stop something and start something else. Family is good part from the usual hating lol and social is good.

So yeah, im kinda depressed today, but mainly cause of work! Gaaaah i need a new job. But i think ill stick it for a while, cause I need money. FFS!

Everything is gay.

Gay.

GAY!

Cept im not homophobic obviosuly.

Wouldnt really make sense if I was lol.

WHY DOES THIS ALWAYS HAPPEN?

God I miss thoses memories.

Thank God for MUSIC!



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http://abbebe.deviantart.com/journal/12960928/ Tue, 15 May 2007 03:33:49 PDT
God i'm sad



]]> ~abbebe http://abbebe.deviantart.com/journal/12824563/ http://abbebe.deviantart.com/journal/12824563/ Thu, 03 May 2007 06:10:58 PDT
Some silly American one.

I plan to shoot all men before the end of the year. Apart from about 10 of them. I give up. Maybe I should just be completly gay? Girls may be allot more emotional but at least they fucking respect you!

Yah. Oh god exams soon =]

But work is alot better than it was, and i'm a good lil mofo now I swear.

Funny how one person can make u want to live. But also want to kill yourself.

I'm not emo. I'm heartbroken. Lol.

Thank god for music. Soothes the soul. And heart.

Anyway, yeah, despite front covers and appearence, I am actually happy. Allot happier than I as a week ago anyway!

Haha have a good summer people =]

xx

]]> ~abbebe http://abbebe.deviantart.com/journal/12548413/ http://abbebe.deviantart.com/journal/12548413/ Wed, 11 Apr 2007 03:24:42 PDT
And oh yes

Prepare for a hell of a lot of deviations.

I seem to be writing one poem a day at the moment.

And usually i only wirte alot when i'm depressed. Which i'm not. So it's all good.

Yup. I feel like a totoally different person since i last was using DA. Hanging out with different people; caring about certain things rather than others; ect.

My morals havnt changed again though. They've just been breached. But thats made me learn. And they wont be again. I'm a good lil girl again

Sort of...

i think the reason i'm going back to the old, less stupid me is cause someones telling me what to do. i mean i've always had mates telling me not to do drugs/go certain places/do certain things e.c.t but i just never listened. But now i actually listen to certain people, so it's all good.

Advice has never been so useful.

Abbebe has never been so content .

Promises wont be broken.

I'm making sense to myself at least

Anyway, good to be back on DA with the deepest people around


xxxxxxxx

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write a comment on my journal (it really helps if we'we had any sort of contact from before)

1. I'll respond with something random about you.
2. I'll tell you what song/movie reminds me of you.
3. I'll pick a flavor of jello to wrestle with you in.
4. I'll say something that only makes sense to you and me.
5. I'll tell you my first/clearest memory of you.
6. I'll tell you what animal you remind me of.
7. I'll ask you something that i've always wondered about you.
8. you MUST put this into your journal (if you haven't already).

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Life is really poo at the moment


POO!

Im scared im gunna get kicked out of school...so many warning letters nd stuff....and ey, first day of this hhalf term [my last chance] i wake up at 2.30 and miss it!!!!!

Family life is also shite. Mum always away....brother not talking to me much cause of the baby...still havnt met other one....dad just getting lazier...cant take having to take care of the house anymore....and him...for no reason...when my prents were away for the weekend i realised..yes..i do actually do EVERYTHING around the house when my mum is away...which is ll the time

Ive drowning in cw and trying to catch up, and failing terribly at school.

Dont even get me started on my love life!

Work hav just given me less hours, emaning less money, which im REALLY gunna need if i get kicked outta skl. WTF are the other options?

Thank fuck i still have all my mates. Who are awesome. Just want to say I love you all =] Even if at skl my group is like 4 coupes then me lol, which is better to avoid!! =]

Then ifi hang out at ''the tree'' [cant b arsed to explain that if u dunno what im on about sorry lol] then there r basically lots of fights and i hate walking down the street and CHAVS FUCKING STAIRING! god sake y cant they all just die?

Im sorry. If you are a chav. theyre not all bad. My brother is one and i love him to bits. And so is chazzy,, one of my best mates. people get really confused when we go up the city cause i look all emo and she looks all chav lol.

But yeah, i just hate it when people stair at me -.-
incase u hadnt noticed lol

And I WILL read all our peoms and look at all your art. I promise. But i just dont have time anymore. I dont know where time always seems to go now days. But i have about 150 deviations to look at. I still will. Honest!

The annoying thing is that I seem to be drinking more and more and ding more stupid things I shouldnt to get to a differnt level of feeling. To make myself feel bettr or more...dunno the word.....I dont even like alcohol that much. And I'm now smoking whenever I go to the pitz. Which i every week. My morals have changed and I dont know when it happened. I mean, I dont car, obviously, or I wouldnt be doing it. But we all have that lil concoiuunce at the back of our minds dont we?

Its always there. Thats why were never happy. These voices.


ARGH!

But hey, there has to be sun for there to be a shadow, right?

No ones perfect aswell. We all wish we were [taller/prettier/smater/cooler] whatever but i dont know what point im trying to make im thirsty.

Tea, Abbebe, Tea!

Oh i wish i was pink.

Oh I wish he was here.

But i dont.

Cause i dont like it when he is

Casue im confused

And i dont wanna get kicked out

Again

into eternal nothingness

On empty palletes

Created by our hoices

No - one hears our voices

Another step into darkness

This life we must harness

So lets all take control;

So here we go

Try to reach our goals

Even if were not sure what they are

Even if weve ran outta stars

To guide us


Than you if you actually read all this

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CLubs
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British
[x ] You drink a lot of tea.
[x] You know what a brolly is.
[] Deal or No Deal has taken over your life.
[x ] You wanted Ben to win X Factor. (its over! idiots!)
[x] You use the word "bugger" or the phrase "bloody hell." (
[] Fish and Chips are yummy. (*pukes*)
[] You can eat a Full English Breakfast.
[ ] You dislike emos almost as much as you dislike chavs. (hate chavs, love emos)
[x] Its football...not soccer.
Total = 5

Australian
[ ] You wear flip flops all year.
[ ] You call flipflops thongs not flip flops. (er....)
[x ] You love a backyard barbie.
[x] You know a barbie is not a doll.
[x] You love the beach.
[x] Sometimes you swear without realizing.
[ ] You're a sports fanatic.
[ ] You are tanned. (lol)
[ ] You're a bit of a bogan. (what the hell is that? soundslike buggar)
[ ] You have an australian something
Total = 4

Italian
[ ] The Sopranos is a great show.
[ ] Your last name ends in a vowel.
[x] Your grandmother makes her own sauces.
[ x] You know how a real meatball tastes.
[ ] You know Italian songs.
[x] You have dark hair and dark eye color.
[ ] You speak some italian.
[x] You are under 5'10'' (by much!)
[ ] You know what a italian horn is
[xxxxxxxxxxxxxxxxx] Pizza/spaghetti is the best food in the world!!!
[x] You talk with your hands.
Total = 6

Spanish
[x ] You say member instead of Remember.
[] You speak spanish or some.
[x] You like tacos.
[ ] YoU TyPe lIkE ThIs On Da CoMpUtEr. (or similar)
[ ] You are dark skinned.
[] You know what a Puta is. (so does tim XD)
[x] You talk fast occasionally.
[ x] You have had highlights or have dyed your hair.
[ ] You know what platanos are.
Total = 4

Russian
[ ] You say villian as: Vee-lon. (lol)
[] You get short tempered.
[] You know of somebody named Natasha.
[x] You get cold easily.
[ x] Rain is fun for you.
[ ] You get into contests all the time.
[x] You can easily make do with the cold weather.
Total = 3

Irish
[x ] You think beer is the best.
[x] You have a bad temper.
[x ] Your last name starts with a Mc, Murph, O', Fitz or ends with a ley, on, un, an, in, ry, ly, y.
[x ] You have blue or green eyes.
[x ] You like the color green.
[ ] You have been to a st. pattys day party.
[x ] You have a family member from Ireland.
[ ] You have blonde hair.
[x] You have/had freckles.
[x ] Your family get togethers always include drinking and singing. (even on the none irish side lol)
Total = 8

African American
[ ] You say nigga/nukka casually
[ ] You have nappy hair. (nappy?)
[ ] You like rap.
[ ] You know how to shoot a gun
[ ] You think President George Bush is racist.
[x] You like chicken.
[x ] You like watermelon.
[x ] You can dance. (yes. ''can'')
[ ] You can 'sing' gospel.
Total = 3

Asian
[] You have slanty/small eyes.
[x] You like rice a lot.
[x ] You are good at math.
[] You have played the piano.
[ ] You have family from asia.
[x] You laugh sometimes covering your mouth.
[ ] Most people think you're chinese.
[ ] You call hurricanes typhoons.
[ ] You go to Baulko.
Total = 3

German
[x ] You like bread.
[ ] You think German Chocolate is good.
[ ] You Speak some German.
[] You know what Schnitzel is.
[ ] You hate it when stupid people call you a Nazi.
[x] You went to Pre-school.
[] You're over 5'2 (=[)
Total = 2

Canadian
[x] You like/play/played hockey. (with skl!)
[x] You love beer.
[x] You say eh.
[ x] You know what poutine is. (er..innit French for whore?)
[x] You speak some french.
[ ] You love Tim Horton's. (who?)
[ ] At one point you lived in a farm house.
[ ] You watch/watched degrassi.
Total = 5

American
[ ] You hate foreigners.
[ ] You hate non - Christians. ~abbebe http://abbebe.deviantart.com/journal/11705040/ http://abbebe.deviantart.com/journal/11705040/ Tue, 06 Feb 2007 02:31:30 PST My Featured Piece [link]
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Well basically things have changed a bit recently. Although not that much. I think im just taking things in my stride a bit differently and my morals are changing...

Yah =]

Im off ill today cause I didnt much yesterday I feel too tired lol and Mark gave me a fecking cold *shakefist*

I keep starting to write poems but then vant think of the rest its really annoying! Soill radnomly put them here.

Whats worse?
What we cant see?
Or reality?

What hurts?
The pain inside?
Or created by our minds?

Im really addicted to my phone I should prbly stop texting ive bout 40 pound of credit this month :0
I cant find the pound sign on my keyboard!!


Love in symphony
Tears in Orchestry

I have a headache

I dont even know what im saying lol

Ever get that oddfeeling ur living in a bubble? I have thatfeeling right now. I love that feeling


See y'all

xxx

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Watchers not known in rea... ]]> ~abbebe http://abbebe.deviantart.com/journal/11596390/ http://abbebe.deviantart.com/journal/11596390/ Sun, 28 Jan 2007 07:11:01 PST My Featured Piece [link]
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Cept I dont really agree with that quote...cause now we get a little thing with pictures saying what chocolate is what. Yet, we weill still eat the caramel ones, even though we know we dont like them. and ; yeah; there will always only be one of your favourite, even if there are about 50 in the box with 4 varieties.

Anyway...thought i'de update my journal.


School work is murder!!!!!!!!! Specially maths. If you miss just one lesson you are screwed!

But hey, be proud of me Cause Becky () and I are doing a sponsered not eating for 24 hours for world famine. Go without so they dont have to. For more information visit [link]

Dull sublinary lovers love
(Whose soule is sense) cannot admit.
Absense, becuase it doth remove.
Those things which elemented it.

-John Donne: ''A valediction'' (Extract)


So what is love? If thou wouldst know.
The heart alone can tell:
Two minds with but a single though,
Two hearts that beat as one.

And whence comes Love? Like morning bright
Love comes without thy call.
And how dies Love? A spirit bright,
Love never dies at all.

-Maria Lovell: ''So what is love?'' (Complete)


So toodles watchers

Hope u all have a great day

And dont forget to breath!


Much love

xxxxx

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Watchers known in RL
~abbebe http://abbebe.deviantart.com/journal/11408134/ http://abbebe.deviantart.com/journal/11408134/ Fri, 12 Jan 2007 09:39:24 PST <3 My Boyfriend <3 [link]
My Featured Piece [link]
My Shop [link]
My Favourite Poet [link]
My Favourite Photographer [link]
My Best Mate [link]

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Ok. Cheering up journal! Think of all the things you love!! Are there more than 26....? One for each letter of the alphabet?

Put a * by the ones you REALLy love and ** by the ones you can't live without!

When you put ** by poeple it means you can't live without them being there all the time, not as in them not alive.

A - Art!**
B - Black shirts
C - Camper Vans!*
D - Dotty things
E - Eeyore!
F - Fencing*
G - Ginny
H - Harry Potter
I - Insense sticks
J - Jason*
K - Katie(s)**
L - Leo**
M - Martial arts
N - Naughty (dont ask)
O - Open doors (wtf?)
P - Photgraphy** Oh...no..peotry!!**
Q - Quavers
R - Roses
S - Spontanious Combustion
T - Tim
U - Unexpected gifts
V - Vampires*
W - Wicker
X - Xmas!*
Y - You!!!
Z - Zutons

P.S YOUR ALL TAGGED!

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Watchers not known in real life
~abbebe http://abbebe.deviantart.com/journal/11370163/ http://abbebe.deviantart.com/journal/11370163/ Tue, 09 Jan 2007 02:57:15 PST <3 My Boyfriend <3 [link]
My Featured Piece [link]
My Shop [link]
My Favourite Poet [link]
My Favourite Photographer [link]
My Best Mate [link]

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I should probly be going to school By now lol

But no. Im on DA. lol DAmn addictivness

Anyway, just a random update really.

So far, i've only got one request! Is it cause a) im bad? 2) noone reads my journals? or 3) Noone can think of requests? lol i feel useless

Im so glad i only have one exam

Anyway thats it, god day

Much love (especially to leo )

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Watchers not known in real life
~abbebe http://abbebe.deviantart.com/journal/11320501/ http://abbebe.deviantart.com/journal/11320501/ Fri, 05 Jan 2007 04:26:59 PST
Hahaha had you alll fooled. lol sorry.

Yup. Anyone wanna request/collaboration for photos/drawings/paintings/poetry; im ya girl

So call upon moi. Lol please do im like....not uploading recently!

''Like a poet needs the pain....'' too happy.

Anyway yeah, common people, give me sum requests!






Toodles xxxxx

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1. Grab the book nearest to you, turn to page 18, and find line 4.
''privy in the yard that they shared with three other cotages.'' lol

2. Stretch your left arm out as far as you can.
air. just air

3. What is the last thing you watched on TV?
i started watching green wing but i got chivvyed out the living room lol

4. Without looking, guess what time it is:
11.30?

5. Now look at the clock. What is the actual time?
11.53 oh no lol

6. With the exception of the computer, what can you hear?
my music

7. When did you last step outside? What were you doing?
erm...that would have been to go fncing yesterday

8. Before you started this survey, what did you look at?
checked my myspace lol

9. What are you wearing?
not much i cant b arsed to get dressed

10. Did you dream last night?
yes! i actualy membered it! actualy i had a few lol one i was at work but me n kt were the only ones working there and the customers started throwing coctails socks at us and then they tried to eat us o.O

11. When did you last laugh?
probly at fencing yesterday lol when i dont stop

12. What is on the walls of the room you are in?
painting i did actualy on the walls; painting i/other people did on canvases; guitar hung up on it; some chord book poster thingy. lol my walls suck.

13. Seen anything weird lately?
yeah. leo. hes wierd

14. What do you think of this quiz?
gives me something to do lol.

15. What is the last film you saw?
DRACULA!

16. If you became a multi-millionaire overnight, what would you buy?
what WOULDNT i buy?

17. Tell me something about you that I don't know.
ERm....i cant stand having the original shoelaces in my shoes? Or i cant do anything with the door open cause i get paranoid? lol

18. If you could change one thing about the world, regardless of guilt or politics, what would you do?
I would discard it of all mushrooms!
and get rid of poverty
and hate
and chavs (well most of them)
and get rid of coursework THIS YEAR!
and...and....


19. Do you like to dance?
yes lol it craaaazy

20. George Bush:
is a pig poo

21. Imagine your first child is a girl, what do you call her?
iunno i dont want children

22. Imagine your first child is a boy, what do you call him?
read above!
although IF by some strange chance i did have children, id name it after my brother and call it Jason. not such a great name, but hes a great guy anyway you cant decide, partly cause its too early, but partly cause its not entirely up to you what the child is called, its also up to your parter! also why i dont wana plan my life and career n shit too early cause it depends on the other person. lol ill shutup now.

23. Would you ever consider living abroad?
id like to travel alot but not live abroad i actualy like england lol. woo not so many spiders!

24. What do you want God to say to you when you reach the pearly gates?
welcome!


25. 6 people who must also do this in THEIR journal:

everyone who reads it MWAH HA HA!

]]> ~abbebe http://abbebe.deviantart.com/journal/11185023/ http://abbebe.deviantart.com/journal/11185023/ Mon, 25 Dec 2006 07:26:29 PST
Wwwooooooooooooooooooooooooooooooooooooo

All about love

And love there is indeed!

ANd I gotta camera! Go me! Yaya prepare yourselves DA

All wanna pay respect to emergency services working today!

2006 has been the best year ever!

I love everyone. Very happy mood!

Don't care that im really ill, i gota take me a trip to the woods for some photography!

Much love

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(well i did say much)

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]]> ~abbebe http://abbebe.deviantart.com/journal/10833735/ http://abbebe.deviantart.com/journal/10833735/ Fri, 24 Nov 2006 11:30:01 PST
Well it rains and it pours when you're out on your own
If i crash on the couch can I sleep in my clothes?
'Cause I've spent the night dancing I'm drunk, I suppose
If it looks like I'm laughing I'm really just asking to leave.
This alone, you're in time for the show
You're the one that I need, I'm the one that you loathe
You can watch me corrode like a beast in repose
'Cause I love all the poison away with the boys in the band.

I've really been on a bender and it shows,
so why don't you blow me a kiss before she goes?

Give me a shot to remember
and you can take all the pain away from me
A kiss and I will surrender
the sharpest lives are the deadliest to lead
A light to burn all the empires
so bright the sun is ashamed to rise and be
In love with all of these vampires
so you can leave like the sane abandoned me

There's a place in the dark where the animals go
you can take off your skin in the cannibal glow
juliet loves the beat and the lust it commands drop the dagger and lather the blood on your hands, romeo

I've really been on a bender and it shows,
so why don't you blow me a kiss before she goes?

Give me a shot to remember
and you can take all the pain away from me
A kiss and I will surrender
the sharpest lives are the deadliest to lead
A light to burn all the empires
so bright the sun is ashamed to rise and be
In love with all of these vampires
so you can leave like the sane abandoned me

Give me a shot to remember
and you can take all the pain away from me
A kiss and I will surrender
the sharpest lives are the deadliest to lead
A light to burn all the empires
so bright the sun is ashamed to rise and be
In love with all of these vampires
so you can leave like the sane abandoned me

Yeah incase you cared!

Anywhoo; just thought ide update cause i havnt in a while.

Got my art GCSE coursework back yesterday, OMG how did i get a B? It sucks!!!!!!!

Lol and handed in my alevel work today. Oh my. Its rather poop and havnt finished.

Work is going well. I lkove the peiople there. I think theyre the best worky people in my city. Yay. Go Smiths!

And for no apparent reason im just generally very happy recently. Although this may be due to Leo. Cause hes cool and liked very much . By me

Also, had a think with a friend a bit back. Now its all good. Im on a role!!!


Free hugs for all:

]]> ~abbebe http://abbebe.deviantart.com/journal/10357708/ http://abbebe.deviantart.com/journal/10357708/ Wed, 11 Oct 2006 11:45:55 PDT Whichever way we go. We will get there eventually.

Here I am again. Hello.

Yeah; I guess life's change somehat sinse the last proper update.

Art is rhetarded as I like the painting im doing for coursework but the teacher seems to find a way to contradict EVERYtHING. Even when i oblidge to her ''constructive critisism''. (Although no. This is just plain insulting and deteste.) And there is an artisit come in this week. He loves my painting. (He's also slightly crazy and obsessed with the colour red) . Yup. That's one ramble over

Certain other people are also driving me bloody crazy! But lets not get into that Cause there are agian others who never fail to rock my world and hold me up Also, feel as if i'm not helping some friends as much as I can be. I wish I could.

And although previous reasons being that I was...er...too happy....to have emotional houghts. Now I just haver writers block. HJavnt written for so long. Ghey.

And I watch about 60 people, and do come onn s often as I would like to due to work, so sorry if you submitted work a while ago and I havnt yet commented. I will. If it deserves it. Which it of course does orI wouldnt be watching you! Basically have patience. Hehe.

Anyway, thats all my ranting over with! Work is going well, other than art schoo, is all good. Tata!

Abbebe

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~abbebe http://abbebe.deviantart.com/journal/10280488/ http://abbebe.deviantart.com/journal/10280488/ Wed, 04 Oct 2006 09:46:37 PDT Whichever way we go. We will get there eventually.

1) Smoked weed or cigs: cig like once
2) Consumed alcohol: yah lol
3) Slept in the same bed with someone of the opposite sex: well. yes...
4) Slept in the same bed with someone of the same sex: yeh like head/toe sleepovers at 7 yrs old! lol im not guna count that
5) Made out with someone of the opposite sex: yup
6) Made out with someone of the same sex:nope
7) Had someone in your room of the opposite sex: duh
8) Watched porn: only when its kinda stuck in moovies lol but not full on porn
9) Bought porn: nope
10) Done drugs: heloo.....question one!

Total: 4 haha

11) Taken pain killers: yah
12) Taken someone elses prescription medicine: erm. no. lol.
13) Lied to your parents: well duh
14) Lied to a friend: only white lies
15) Snuck out of the house: hell yeah!
16) Done something illegal: no comments
17) Cut yourself: no
18) Hurt someone: unfortionatly
19) Wished someone to die: actually yeah I have
20) Seen someone die: no thankfully
TOTAL: 7

21) Missed curfew: ha nvr kept it!
22) Stayed out all night: yup
23) Eaten a carton of ice cream by yourself: course
24) Been to a therapist: nope
25) Been to rehab: no
26) Dyed your hair: yah tis now
27) Recieved a ticket: nope
28) Been in a wreck: a wha? guna say no...
29) Been to a club: yeah
TOTAL: 5

31) Been to a wild party:yah?
32) Seen the Mardi Gras: nah
34) Had a summer break in Florida: nop
35) Sniffed anything: many things…lol
36) Wore black nail polish: haha actually I have
37) Wore arm bands: ysh...oh how devilish of me....:/
38) Wore t-shirts with band names: foo fighters! guns n roses!
39) Listened to rap: who hasnt listened to it?
40) Own a 50 Cent CD: no
TOTAL: 6

41) Dressed gothic: yah
42) Dressed prep: yah
43) Dressed punk: yah
44) Dressed grunge: yah
45) Stole something:
46) Been too drunk to remember anything: i ALWAYS remember
47) Blacked out: yeah
48) Fainted: yeah
49) Had a crush on your neighbor: yah
50) Had someone sneak into your room: yah
TOTAL: 9

51) Snuck into someone else's room: yah
52) Had a crush on someone of the same sex: yah
53) Been to a concert: yah
54) Dry humped someone: no comment *caugh*
55) Been called a slut: nah
56) Called someone a slut: yah
57) Installed speakers in your car: what bloody car?
58) Broke a mirror: nah
59) Showered at someone of the opposites sex's house: *ermmm…* tht is a odd question…a friends of like someone u dnt knw :/ tht is a bad question :/ yes then (lol what kinam said<
60) Brushed your teeth with someone elses toothbrush: yup lol
TOTAL: 7

61) Consider ludacris your favorite rapper: dnt kwn him or them!
62) Seen an R rated movie in theaters: nope :/
63) Cruised the mall: yeah.....
64) Skipped school: lol hehe yeah
65) Had an eating disorder: I luv my food!
66) Had an injury: DUH!
67) Gone to court: nope
68) Walked out of a resteraunt without paying: nopie me good
69) Caught something on fire:yupie
70) Lied about your age: yeah
TOTAL: 6

71) Owned an apartment: :/ nope
72) Cheated on your boyfriend/girlfriend: hell no!
73) Been cheated on: not that im aware of
74) Got in trouble with the police: yup
75) Talked to a stranger: well duh how else do you mett people?
76) Hugged a stranger: haha yeah
77) Kissed a stranger: yes....
78) Rode in the car with a stranger: TAXI DRIVER
79) Been sexually harrassed: nope
80) Been verbally harrassed: yup
TOTAL: 6

81) Met face to face with someone you met online: no
82) Stayed online for 12 hours straight: no
83) Talked on the phone for more than 6 hours straight: yah
84) Watched tv for 12 hours straight: erm. no.
85) Been to a fair: ^^ yeah!
86) Been called a bad influence: once or twice
87) Cursed: fuck yeh (ive really gota st... ]]> ~abbebe http://abbebe.deviantart.com/journal/10019774/ http://abbebe.deviantart.com/journal/10019774/ Sat, 09 Sep 2006 13:22:45 PDT Whichever way we go. We will get there eventually.

Mood: Hehe
Listening to: Train - Get to me
Reading: Tread Softly

Yeeaahhh bad day. Probly should take my own advice ''there has to be sun for there to be a hoadow''

Ok, so here goes:

Shadow: Im so tired i could calapse
Sun: Maybe ill go to sleep wuicker today

Shadow: My legs hurt
Sun: I can feel pain in my legs

Shadow: My batterys ran out in my MP3 player
Sun: Well at least its not broken

Shadow: My bedroonm light went out
Sun: I have a big bedroom!!!!

Shadow: i have looooads of homework to do
Sun: At least it's alevel, so all the subjects are ones I like!

Shadow: Im hungry
Sun: Oh yeah i have choclate

Hehe, I anoy myself

Tis ll mydears

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friends/watchers
http://abbebe.deviantart.com/journal/9996680/ Thu, 07 Sep 2006 09:05:14 PDT Whichever way we go. We will get there eventually.

Mood: Hehe
Listening to: Train - Get to me
Reading: Tread Softly

How stupid are you?


[x] I have walked into a glass/screen door

[x] I have tripped on my shoelace and fallen on my face.

[] I have choked on my own spit. (and gum)

[ ] I’ve seen the Matrix a bunch of times and still don't get it.

[x] I type only with my pointer fingers.

[x] I have accidently caught something on fire.

[ ] I’ve told a cop to freck off and gotten screwed for it.

[ ] I attempted to sip out of a straw but it accidentally went into my nose, rather than my mouth.

[x] Sometimes when I think of something funny, I laugh out loud and people look at me weird. (haha i love that! )

[x] I’ve caught myself drooling.

[ ] I’ve accidently caused an explosion.

[ ] If someone says the word "fart", I can’t help but laugh.

[ ] I’ve turned into a "do not enter" one way road plenty of times.

[x] Sometimes I just stop thinking & zone out.

[ ] It is POSSIBLE to lick your elbow.

[x] I just tried to lick my elbow

[ ] People often shake their heads and walk away from me.

[x] People often tell me to use my "inside voice". ()

[ ] Gum has fallen out of my mouth while talking.

[x] I’ve used my fingers to do simple math.

[ ] I’ve jumped off a moving vehicle.

[ ] I ate a bug for $5 or less.

[x] I’m taking this test when I should be doing something more important.

[x] I repost chain letters because I’m scared of what they threaten will happen if I don’t. (im paraniod, k?)

[x] I’ve done something really stupid while I was drunk.

[ ] I’ve ran around naked when I was drunk.

[ ] I’ve ran into a golf cart tire when I was drunk

[ ] I’ve searched all over the place for something, and then realized it was in my hand the whole time. (just generaly any where on my person)

[x] I accidentally break a lot of things.

[ ] My friends know not to use big words around me.

[ ] My friends like me because I’m fun to laugh at.

[x] I tilt my head to the side when I’m confused.

[ ] Sometimes I start telling a story and suddenly forget what I’m talking about.

[x] I’ve fallen out of my chair before.

[ ] When I’m lying in bed, I sometimes stare at the ceiling and try to find pictures and words in the texture.

Multiply your answer by 4 and thats how stupid you are...
16 x 4 = 64

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friends/watchers
~abbebe http://abbebe.deviantart.com/journal/9951408/ http://abbebe.deviantart.com/journal/9951408/ Sun, 03 Sep 2006 12:47:57 PDT Whichever way we go. We will get there eventually.

Mood: None ya poo
Listening to: Train - Get to me
Reading: Tread Softly
Watching: Nanny Mcphee

I dont really know how to extend from the title, but here it is.

Love is a strange thing. Twists and turns your mind and makes you unaware of how you feel and others around you.

I like being blond.

Hell yeh go WHSmith.

Life is ghey.

Skl nxt wk.

Oh well, no point depressing over nothing.

4 months, thats a long time.

Apparenntly too long.

Confused

i hate feelings

I wish i was a cat

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friends/watchers
http://abbebe.deviantart.com/journal/9951346/ Sun, 03 Sep 2006 12:41:20 PDT Whichever way we go. We will get there eventually.

Mood: Hhmm...
Listening to: Train - Get to me
Reading: Persuation-Jane Austin
Watching: Just like heaven

Stole of kt. Yup.

3 things you dislike about yourself (outside)
• Too many freckles
• Shape of my nose
• im pale
3 things you like about yourself (outside)
• My hair
• my eyes
• my height
3 things you dislike about yourself (inside)
• I’m oversensitive
• i overanalyse everthing
• i dont hit reality enough
3 things you like about yourself (inside)
• im strong willed
• when i get upset, i can put myself in a bubble, so im looking at my life from another piint of view...so dont get upset
• im very literate
3 things you worry about
• My future, mainly finances and whether I can make my life interesting enough
• Letting people down
• not being able to live upo to peoples standards
3 things you are looking forward to
• Finally earning some money
• Starting 6th form (I know it’s all school but it’s really a whole different thing)
• fightstar concert
3 regrets
• sumthin i cant say (kt and kinam know what it is)
• not telling Jason the truth
• I try not to regret too much
3 treasured memories
• One day in Devon. just sitting there staring out at the sea with my Mum and Brother.
• The day Katherine helped me out.
• Hehe. First kiss
3 favourite authors
• Tolkien
• Lian Hearn
• C.S Lewis
3 reasons you did this quiz
• Boredom
• To share my thoughts
• ERm.

yeh, i know, alot i left the same. Get over it

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friends/watchers
http://abbebe.deviantart.com/journal/9836378/ Thu, 24 Aug 2006 07:58:26 PDT Whichever way we go. We will get there eventually.

Mood: Hhmm...
Listening to: Train - Get to me
Reading: Persuation-Jane Austin
Watching: Just like heaven

Right. Well I dint do as well s I thought I would. But ohwell. Only failed science

1a, 4b, 3c and 3d.

the d's were science which was double aqnd french but d is pass in french. *sigh* theyre quite terrible (no offence if some did worse :/) but meh, hey, i got B in art

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friends/watchers
http://abbebe.deviantart.com/journal/9615153/ Sun, 06 Aug 2006 07:39:38 PDT Whichever way we go. We will get there eventually.

Mood: Yayness
Listening to: Train - Get to me
Reading: Persuation-Jane Austin
Watching: Pride and prejudice

Yeah. Im going to be going away for ten days...In two days. So have fun withought me y'all.

I know. It will be very dificult.

Yay tis my bday tomoz.

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~abbebe http://abbebe.deviantart.com/journal/9553594/ http://abbebe.deviantart.com/journal/9553594/ Mon, 31 Jul 2006 11:39:22 PDT
Mood: Yayness
Listening to: MCR - im not okay (even though i am :P)
Reading: The edge - Allan Gibbons
Watching: STORMBREAKER!

Hey there.

Thanks to me has a print account

Yay. It's my birthday next week ya see, and seeing as the great friend she is

Lol thankies. Now im hoping I dont have to Reupload all to make available for print. Actually I have no idea how it works arnt you meant to have a seperate name or something???? Lol

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~abbebe http://abbebe.deviantart.com/journal/9523727/ http://abbebe.deviantart.com/journal/9523727/ Fri, 28 Jul 2006 14:08:50 PDT [] staying single forever
[ ] being a parent
[ ] being myself in front of others
[ ] open spaces
[ ] closed spaces
[ ] heights
[ ] cats
[ ] dogs
[ ] bird
[x] spiders and/or other insects
[ ] driving or being in cars
[ ] flying on a plane
[ ] flowers or other plants
[ ] being touched
[ ] fire
[ ] water
[ ] the ocean
[x ] failure
[ ] success
[ ] germs
[x ] thunder/lightning
[ ] frogs/toads
[ ] mice/rats
[x ] jumping from high places
[ ] snow
[ ] rain
[ ] wind
[] cotton balls
[x ] cemeteries
[ ] clowns
[ ] large crowds
[ ] crossing bridges
[x ] death
[ ] Heaven
[x] being robbed
[ ] men
[ ] women
[x ] having great responsibility
[ x] tornadoes
[x ] hurricanes
[ ] diseases
[ ] snakes
[ ] sharks
[] Friday the 13th
[ ] poverty
[x ] ghosts
[ ] Halloween
[ ] school
[ ] trains or railroads
[ ] odd numbers
[ ] even numbers
[x ] being alone
[x] being blind
[x] being deaf
[x ] growing up
[ ] monsters under my bed
[x ] creepy noises during the night
[x ] bee stings
[x ] not accomplishing my dreams/goals
[x ] needles
[x ] blood
[ ] long words such as hippopotomonstrosesquippedaliophobia

I think i'll add my own:
[x]pain
[x]loosing people
[x]nightmares

so thats actually 23 out of 68. lol ]]> ~abbebe http://abbebe.deviantart.com/journal/9519227/ http://abbebe.deviantart.com/journal/9519227/ Fri, 28 Jul 2006 05:40:28 PDT
I can do beter.

I really need a diferent programe. Photoshop is...hmm...need abdobe. I dont know what im talking about do I? Lol.

Anyway that was it.

Hhhmm. ]]> ~abbebe http://abbebe.deviantart.com/journal/9508185/ http://abbebe.deviantart.com/journal/9508185/ Thu, 27 Jul 2006 06:01:09 PDT 11 LAYERS OF YOU

LAYER ONE: ON THE OUTSIDE
Name: Abbey
Birth date: 7th Augast
Current Location: My room
Eye Color: Blue
Hair Color: Brown naturaly blond fringe
Righty or Lefty: Righty
Zodiac Sign: Horse

LAYER TWO: ON THE INSIDE
Your fears: loosing people; death; spiders; needles; pain
Your perfect pizza: everything but mushrooms
Goal you'd like to achieve: that b private

LAYER THREE: YESTERDAY, TODAY, TOMORROW:
Your thoughts first waking up:mmm....sleep
Your best physical feature: hair/eyes
Your bedtime: whenever
Your most missed memory: steve or being a carefree child

LAYER FOUR: YOUR PICK:
Pepsi or Coke. pepsi
Single or group dates: single majoritivly
Adidas or Nike: roxy
Chocolate or vanilla: vanilla

LAYER FIVE: DO YOU?
Smoke: no
Cuss: no
Take a shower: well duh
Have a crush: more so
Think you've been in love: am now
Like(d) school: yup
Want to get married: undecided.
Believe in yourself: yeah
Think you're a health freak: ask the choclate

LAYER SIX: IN THE PAST MONTH
Drank alcohol: unfortionatly
Gone to the mall: yeah
Been on stage: no
Eaten Sushi: hell no
Been dumped: nope
Gone skating: not oficialy
Dyed your hair: nope...cut!


LAYER SEVEN: HAVE YOU EVER
Played a stripping game: yup
Gotten beaten up: nope
Changed who you were to fit in: nope


LAYER EIGHT: GETTING OLD
Age your hoping to be married: uve asked that

LAYER NINE: IN A GIRL/GUY
Best eye color: green
Best hair color: black or really blond
Short or long hair: longish just past ears lol

LAYER TEN: WHAT WERE YOU DOING
1 MINUTE AGO: this
1 HOUR AGO: sleeping
1 WEEK AGO: fencing
1 YEAR AGO: watching a moovie with kieron probly lol

LAYER 11:FINISH THE SENTENCE
I LOVE: mini coopers.....i mean....John! o.O lol
I FEEL: happy
I HATE: mushrooms
I HIDE: my right wrist
I MISS: John
I NEED: A shower ]]> ~abbebe http://abbebe.deviantart.com/journal/9444341/ http://abbebe.deviantart.com/journal/9444341/ Fri, 21 Jul 2006 03:35:05 PDT
Things can happen when you loose contact with people. Especialy those close to you.

I remember staying up all night just to talk to him.

This sucks bad.

-Never loose those close to you.
-Dont stop talking to people.
-Dont hate people for petty reasons.
-Life is too short for enemys.
-Appreciate what you have.

RIP Steve baby. I will miss you. You were the best photographer I knew.

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Hair
[] straightener
[ ] curling iron
[ ] crimping gel
[ ] mousse
[ ] hairspray
[ ] gel
[x] other sprays
[ ] bobby pins
[ ] round barrel brush
[x] blowdryer
Total: 3

Eyes
[x] black eyeliner
[x] other colour eyeliner
[] eyeshadow
[x] mascara
[ ] fake eyelashes
[ ] eyelash curler
[ ] eye shimmer
[ ] coloured contacts
[ ] sunglasses
[] eye makeup remover
Total: 5

Lips/Teeth
[] clear lip gloss
[] red or pink gloss
[x] chapstick (well vaseline)
[ ] lip plumper
[ ] mechanical toothbrush
[ ] teeth whitener
[ ] lip liner
[ ] whitening gum
[] have/had braces
[ ] more than 15 lipglosses
Total: 4

Complexion/Overall face
[ ] blush
[] moisturizer
[ ] face cream
[ ] bronzer
[ ] face mask
[] face scrub
[] makeup remover
[] face wipes
[] cover-up
[ ] powder
Total: 5

Nails
[ ] nailpolish
[] file
[] nail clipper
[ ] nail buffer
[ ] cuticle remover
[ x] nail hardener
[ ] nail brush
[ ] fake nails
[ ] tweezers
[ ] nail scissors
Total: 2

Now, add your score and multiply it by 2, and put the title of the column with the most amount of x's in the blank.

I am __% obsessed with myself ]]> ~abbebe http://abbebe.deviantart.com/journal/9318602/ http://abbebe.deviantart.com/journal/9318602/ Sun, 09 Jul 2006 06:42:21 PDT Mood: Excitable
Listening to: Keane - the frog prince
Watching: Pirates Of The Carribean 2 -wh00p wh00p wh00p

I think Bon Jovi said it best. Well sung it best rather. ''I need you baby like the roses need the rain like a poet needs the pain.''

Well it's true. I'm happy. Therefore i'm completly lacking poetical inspiration!!!!

Lol can't complain though

But if anyone wants to give me ideas, feel free, honestly I won't mind

And I just had prom. Twas rather kick ass.

But damn friends going on holiday.

Anywhoo I had more to say when I started off this jounal....

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http://abbebe.deviantart.com/journal/9122960/ Tue, 20 Jun 2006 05:33:44 PDT Mood: Strangely Content
Listening to: Cradle Of Filth - cruelty bought fire
Thinking: Too much

Yes as the title suggests I have nothing in particular to say.
But thought I ought to update my journal non-the less.
Anyway working on more poems and stuff. Obviously.
Pleased with my 1010 pageviews and 21 watchers
Would like to subscribe again but hhmm.....good things come to those who wait. Apparently.
I hate waiting. But time is no longer my worst enemy! Best friend at the moment cause of 12 weeks. Hehehe.
I feel like going really deep here but don’t for some reason. So I’ll just leave off with some random song lyrics as you do.

Bye bye All Hugs Kisses n all.

x x x x x

''It's not a lie; if you believe it. It's not a mistake if you always repeat it.''

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Take this quiz and find out how girly you are. (GUYS TOO) Put x's beside each thing that's true. Each x that you put is one percent. Have fun!!

[ ] my fingernails/toenails are almost always painted
[ ] during the summer the only shoes i wear are flip flops
[ ] my favorite toys as a child were barbies
[ ] my favorite colour is pink or purple
[ ] I did Gymnastics
[x ] I love skirts
[ ] hollister is one of my favorite places to shop
[ ] tight jeans are the only jeans i'll wear
[x ] I love chocolate
[] I've never had a real job (---oh my god how sexist can u get?---)

TOTAL: 2

[x] my hair is almost always straightened (er Does this count if your hair is always straight?...)
[ x] I have at least 8 myspace pictures
[ x] I usually go shopping once a week
[ x] I love to hang out at the mall with friends
[ ] I have a real diamond ring or diamond necklace or earings
[ ] I've gone to a tanning salon
[ x] I've gone to the beach to tan - not to swim
[ ] I have at least 10 pairs of shoes
[ ] I watch either the OC or Laguna Beach
[ ] I change my icon weekly
[ ] I wear a shower cap

TOTAL: 5

[x ] I dont shop at Hot Topic
[ x] my cell phone might as well become a part of me
[x ] I wear mascara everyday
[x ] I've been or am on a diet
[ ] bathing suits are adorable
[ ] I dont know the difference between a sheep and a goat.
[x] big sunglasses are hott
[x ] I have gotten my nails done before
[ x] MTV is one of my favorite channels

TOTAL: 7

[x ] all I want to do at sleepovers is talk about boys
[x ] I love to have gurls do my hair
[ x] I give and recieve hugs from all my friends
[x] I hate bugs
[ x] carnivals are so fun!
[ ] Summer is THE best season
[x ] my swimsuit has 2 pieces
[ ] Im waiting for my knight in shining armor
[x ] musicians are so hot
[ x] you write me a poem and tell me im beautiful and im all yours

TOTAL: 8

[x] I am self-conscious
[ ] I cry often
[ ] my car smells like vanilla or cherry (i dont have a car )
[x] my dishes get washed more than once a week
[X] I dont do sports
[X] I HATE to run
[x ] I squeal when i am surprised or angry
[x ] I eat dried fruit as a snack
[x ] I love romance novels
[ ] Drew Barrymore is so cute

TOTAL: 7

[x ] I dance a lot.
[x ] usually spend an hour or over to get ready to leave my house
[x ] I only have like 5 billion hair products
[x ] I love to get dressed up.
[x ] every part of my outfit needs to match
[x ] I talk on the phone at least once a day to my friends
[x ] I would love to have a photo shoot
[ ] I apply lip stuff 50 times a day
[ ] I wish I were a model

TOTAL: 7

[ ] I wish I could meet Paris Hilton
[ ] I have been something that was semi
[ ] I own Uggs
[ ] Hip Hop is the best music
[ ] I pop my collar
[x ] I like to be the center of attention
[ ] guys with Mohawks are crazy
[ x] horses are beautiful
[ ] I'd rather not pay attention in school
[X] Cats are adorable

TOTAL:3

[ x] I write my own music
[ ] I would love to visit Hawaii
[x ] Valentine's day is so cute!
[ ] white is better than black
[ ] I wouldn't be caught dead in all black
[x ] my closet is STOCK FULL of clothes
[ ] hate the grunge look
[x ]I love to read magazines

TOTAL: 4

[ ] I love to gossip
[ ] I had Lisa Frank folders/posters/notebooks as a kid
[ ] I love Celine Dion
[x ] my bubble baths are 1-2hrs long
[ ] My wedding only needs a groom because it's already planned
[ ] My friends and I are in a strict group. We mostly only hang out with each other.
[ ] I like little kids
[ ] Diet drinks are the best
[ ] I'm all about being vegetarian
[ ] I refuse to eat at McDonalds

TOTAL: 1

[x ] I check my myspace everyday.
[ x] I love life!
[ ] I have a lot of jewlery!
[x ] my screen name(s) have x's in them
[ ] either one of my myspace names has/had <3's or in them
[ ] I would never want to be the opposite sex
[ ] It's not what he/she said it's the way he/she said it
[ ]I have more than 3 pillows on my bed

TOTAL: 3

Now add up all the total points and put "I am __% girly" for the subject if you steal or get tagged. ]]> ~abbebe http://abbebe.deviantart.com/journal/9084907/ http://abbebe.deviantart.com/journal/9084907/ Fri, 16 Jun 2006 08:07:43 PDT
so i come home from my last exam to find ive gone past the 1000 mark!!!!!!!!

nya haha

uber happy right now. everything is perfect. well part form some stuffbut...eeeh...12 weeks.

yeh anyway....soz havnt actualy been on DA for a while but ill b checkin dontcha worry!!

tata now



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Anyway yeah. (wow i forgot how tasty worthers originals were)

yesh i think im the songwriter for like three bands now. so it's all good.

But i'm sorta running out ofideas for stuff. So i;m open for requests!!!!!!! Any type. Song. Poem. Possibly drawing/photograph.

hopefully guna do more photoshoots.

^_^

feel like i have more ta say but forgotten it all. oh well

''at the end of the worls. what was the last thing i see. you are never coming home never coming home. could i? should i? and all the things tat you never ever told me and all the smiles that are ever guna haunt me. never coming home never coming home. Could i? should i? and all the wounds that are never ever scar me. and all the ghosts that are never guna catch me.''


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GCSE's are going meh at the mo. Silly people pooing up the asources booklet for humanities. Tut tut. AQA.

Finally got a prom dress today; it's very pretty. Horray.
I can't wait to go to prom. But for the limo i'll need to make a CD-Rom.
Kinnam is going away soon. But i'll see him again by the end of June.
I seem to be writing less poems and more songs. Maybe where that's where my feelings belong.
Finnally went fencing for the first time in ages. Yesterday was just one of the stages.
This has been a strange journal so far. But now i'm going to go play my giutar.


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B - BEST FRIEND: Katie =} and Ker *sighs* lol

C - CRUSH: Wouldnt b my bf by any chance would it?? lol

D - DADS NAME: Peter. ho boring

E - EASIEST PERSON TO TALK TO: I don't know. Probably Amelia.

F - FAVOURITE DRINK? Water *_*

G - GUMMY BEARS OR WORMS: Hehe. Worms. Lol. No gummy bears. Hhmmm....

H - HOMETOWN: Milton Keynes. Wh00p

I - INSTRUMENT: Well i did play drums but had to get rid of my kit; although i'll be getting it back in augast!!! And guitar.......sort of.

K - KIDS: Small poop factories.

L - LONGEST CAR RIDE: 2 and a hald days. I never wanted to get in a car again.

M - MILKSHAKE FLAVOUR: Well caramel if it's frescato.

N - NUMBER OF SIBLINGS: One older brother.

O - ONE WISH: Well it's not neccesarily a wish....but the lyrics ''If only we could trap everything that could hurt a human being inside a jar and send it off to space.'' comes to mind. (Jupiter Sunrise - Auther Nix.)

P - PHOBIA: Spiders; loosing people; death.

Q - FAVOURITE QUOTE: ''There has to be sun for there to be a shaddow.'' (me)

R - REASON TO SMILE: Because no matter how bad it gets....it could be worse. Accept what you've got.

S - SONG YOU LAST HEARD: Listening to The Fray- I'll look after you. Right now.

T - TIME YOU WOKE UP: 6About 7.00. Damn exam at 9.00

U - UNKNOWN FACT ABOUT ME:Well i guess between all my friends; all my facts are known. They just don't all know everything. OK. I just bought some highlighters

V - VEGETABLE YOU HATE: Mushrooms are a vegetabel, right?

W - WORST HABITS: Eating peoples hair;stealing peoples hats; urges to undoo people shoelaces; getting distracted too easily; getting bored then having too many hobbies to keep up with. How do you lot put up with me, eh??

X - X-RAYS YOU'VE HAD: none

Y - YUMMY FOOD: That chocolat bar that i bought from Sudst earlier. Mmm....

Z- ZODIAC SIGN: Leo. (RAWR!!) ]]> ~abbebe http://abbebe.deviantart.com/journal/8806620/ http://abbebe.deviantart.com/journal/8806620/ Thu, 18 May 2006 10:34:21 PDT
took this idea of jaysheree. wanbt to send it to watchers/DA pple and they can take a piccie of her from the view from their house!!! across sea or in my hometown??? (oh yes!!) i really wana do it!! please do!

note me and we can talk more if ur up for it and this includes those who live by me!!!

anyway, last day o skl today,! well. full day. tomoz half day.......ill try noit ta cry!! ^_^ ]]> ~abbebe http://abbebe.deviantart.com/journal/8767110/ http://abbebe.deviantart.com/journal/8767110/ Sun, 14 May 2006 09:51:46 PDT ...basicaly word ascociation game...
01) Friendship >>>>>>> katie
02) Memories >>>>>>> fish (wtf?)
03) Chess >>>>>>> harry potter
04) Poetry >>>>>>> lines
05) Physics >>>>>>> agony
06) Death >>>>>>> life
07) Time >>>>>>> clock
08) Kiss >>>>>>> love
09) Stairs >>>>>>> falling...reaching the top...
10) Chocolate >>>>>>> vanilla
11) White >>>>>>> emptyness
12) Religion >>>>>>> chirstianity
13) Moon >>>>>>> stars
14) Traps >>>>>>> traped in ur own life
15) Barriers >>>>>>> invisible wall that we all keep hitting
16) Paris >>>>>>> art
17) Shirts >>>>>>> buttons (lol)
18) Blame >>>>>>> myself
19) Insects >>>>>>> ladybird...perty
20) MSN-Messenger >>>>>>> jaffjaffjaff
21) Swings >>>>>>> childhood and being free
22) Speed >>>>>>> fun!!
23) Wisdom >>>>>>> when you dont know you have it
24) Jeans >>>>>>> blue
25) Love >>>>>>> lost my faith. pain.
26) Crown >>>>>>> chcolate cake (@o)
27) Cheeks >>>>>>> bum (lol)
28) Success >>>>>>> being happy with who you are
29) Competition >>>>>>> ever lasting
30) Space >>>>>>> what we all need
31) Your Birthday >>>>>>> SOON!..wel...sorta
32) Number 1 >>>>>>> mum
33) Apples >>>>>>> sitting under an apple tree reading a book with a sun with a rabit in its face....yes....
34) Photography >>>>>>> camera
35) Freedom >>>>>>> being who you want regardless of critiism or status
36) Red >>>>>>> heart
37) Greece >>>>>>> memories...
38) Imagination >>>>>>> my painitn of death apears in my m ind.....
39) Efficiency >>>>>>> yes
40) Childhood >>>>>>> happyness and freedom surrounded by eternal darkenss of the true world
41) Girls >>>>>>> hairstyles...lol
42) Marriage >>>>>>> never!
43) Stars >>>>>>> beauty
44) Romance >>>>>>> fantasy
45) Pencils >>>>>>> SNAP!
46) Independency >>>>>>> smiling
47) Wealth >>>>>>> spinning round on a desk chair....(right)
48) Future >>>>>>> futurama!!!
49) Stomachache >>>>>>> bleugh!
50) Life >>>>>>> opening petal.

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1.say three names you often use:
- kt
- ker
- abbey?

2.say three nicknames youve had
-freckle
-shortcake
-absworthenium

3.three things you like about yourself
- my height (even though im the only one!!!! )
- erm. the softness of my hair.
- my eyes

4.three things you dont like about yourself
- my skin
- my memory
- the trusting to easily and never learning...

5.three things that scare you
- loosing people. to death or other things...
- death. not the hapening of it. but how.
- spiders

6.three things you're wearing
-fluffy slippers
-a belt
-hairband

7.three of your favorite bands right now
- the fray
- taking back suday
- nightwish

8.three of your favorite songs at this moment
- close my eyes - mesh 29
- how to save a life - the fray
- mercy sevenity - mudvayne

9.three things you want to try the next months
-take at least 100 photos of skl n stuff
-opening my eyes to the people around me
- stop being so selfish

10.three things you want in a relationship
-repect for each other's thoughts and feelings
-trust
-feelings

11.say two truths and one lie
- i miss my brother
- my rabbit is brown
- i dont want to watch lost later

12.three things that atrack you from a person
- general personality
- being nice to people (no b*t*h*)
- being truthful (..can always see it in the eyes)

13.three things you CANT do
- monotask. ITS BORING!
- let things go...always gota try n sort em out
- raise only my left eyebrow

14.three things you CAN do
- raise only my right eyebrow!
- write poetry (i hope!!! )
- listen to people as uch as need be

15.three favorite hobbies
- poetry
- art
- (this is hard!!!!!) erm..j...g....fencing!

16.three things you really want to do now
- lie in some grass where there is sun and just sleep... ]]> ~abbebe http://abbebe.deviantart.com/journal/8730314/ http://abbebe.deviantart.com/journal/8730314/ Wed, 10 May 2006 12:58:08 PDT N0 LYiNG BE HONEST!!!

(001) Your gender: female

(002) Straight/gay/bi?: straight,

(003) Single? nope

(004) Want to be?: past my exams!!!

(005) Your birth day: augast the 7th

(006) Age you wish you were: 17!!!!! no younger, no older

(009) The color of your eyes: blue

(010) Piercings?: nope

(012) Tattoos: nope

DO YOU...

(013) Smoke: nope
(014) Do drugs: nope
(015) Read the newspaper:no lol
(017) Talk to strangers: we all do..shopkeepers...bus drivers...ect
(018) Take walks in the rain: hell yah
(019) Drive: i wish
(020) Like to drive fast?: ...
(021) Hurt yourself: no
(022) Been out of the country: yes
(023) Been in love: yes
(024) Done drugs: nope
(025) Gone skinny dipping: bath!
(026) Had a surgery: no
(027) Ran away from home: no
(028) Played strip poker: yes
(029) Gotten beaten up: no
(030) Been picked on: yes
(032) Slept outdoors: yes
(034) Pulled an all-nighter: yeah
(036) Talked on the phone all night: 11.00, twas the latest
(038) Slept all day: yeah
(039) Killed someone: no
(040) Made out with a stranger: no
(041) Had sex with a stranger: no
(042) Kissed the same sex: only on the lips
(043) Done anything sexual with the same sex: no
(044) Been betrayed: yes
(045) Broken the law: yes
(046) Met a famous person: yes
(047) Been on radio/tv: no
(048) Been in a mosh-pit: yes
(049) Had a nervous breakdown: yes
(050) Been criticized about your sexual performance:erm, no
(051) Had a dream that kept coming back:yes *shiver*
(052) Shoe brand: erm.,,,
(053) School: denbigh
(054) Wear hats: i have a fetish for hats!!!
(055) Judge other people by their clothing: sometimes
(057) Favorite place to shop: river island, h&m,
(058) Favorite article of clothing: article? u mean item, erm, green stripey top i spose
(059) Are you trendy: probs not

BELIEFS...
(060) Believe in life on other planets: yes
(061) Miracles: yes
(062) Astrology: i dont know
(063) Magic: yes
(064) God: yes
(066) Santa: no
(067) Ghosts: no. but im scared of them.
(068) birth: yesssss!!!
(069) Love at first sight: yes. even though it sounds shallow.
(070) Yin and Yang:yes
(071) Witches: meh
(072) Easter bunny: my bunny kicks ass
(077) Do you remember your first real love: yeah, it really wasnt tat long ago!
(078) Still love him/her: no
(079) Do you consider love a mistake: it can be.
(080) What do you find romantic: candles, actualy i dont know. general compliments i gues,, however sad that sounds
(082) Turn-off: earings on guys
(083) Do you base your judgement on looks alone: no way, that shallow
(084) Have you ever wished it was more: yep
(085) Have you ever been romantically attracted to someone physically unattractive?: thats a mean thing sto say! but no. your opinions for looks change when you like a person romanticaly anyway.
(086) Do you think the opposite sex finds you good looking?:well ive been called ugly ang attractive about equal times so i duno
(087) What is best looking about the opposite sex: erm...u mean what feature do i find most atractive? eyes and hair i guess.
(088) What's the last present someone gave you: oh, erm, well it would have been crimbo so lots!!
(089) Do you love someone at this moment?: no
LAST PERSON...

(090) That you laughed at: john
(091) That laughed at you: john
(092) That turned you on: john (lol how anyoing)
(093) You went shopping with: ker
(094) To disappoint you: i cant member the last time i was disaopointed. (wow, that lucky!)
(096) To make you cry: twud have been ages ago....alex...bloody hell that was three months ago!
(097) To brighten up your day: rabbit (aka john)
(099) You saw a movie with: ma mum
(100) You talked to on the phone: mum again
(101) You talked to through IM: cant member, twas ages ago, is blocked, probs mark
(102) You kissed in the lips: john (oh for god sake)

WHEN WAS THE LAST TIME YOU...

(104) Smiled: im smiling now
(105)laughed: few hours ago
(106) Cried: bout three months ago
(107) Bought something: yesterday (yougart!!)
(108) Danced: cant member
(109) Were sarcastic: again, cant member
(110) Hugged/kissed someone: im always hugging, like a few hours ago
(111) Talked to an ex: five days ago i think
(112) Watched your fav movie: goodness knows
(113) Talked on the phone: today
(114) Listened to the radio: just now, whilst making diner
(115) Watched... ]]> ~abbebe http://abbebe.deviantart.com/journal/8580220/ http://abbebe.deviantart.com/journal/8580220/ Tue, 25 Apr 2006 10:54:19 PDT HOLD ONTO ME LIKE YOU HELD ONTO LIFE

Mood: revising!
Listening to: RHCP-minor things

I was tagged by lol, very late tagback reply thingy!!!!

anywhoo, six wierd habits:

!. i can't eat the last of food on my plate
2. i cant look in the mirror in the morning unless ive brushed my hair first
3. i like stealing peoples hats (hehe)
4. it really bugs me when someones hood is inside out, i HAVE to fix it or get frustrated and walk off...
5. i hate butter. but i cant eat peanut butter sandwhihes withought butter.
6. erm....i cant think of anything else...six is an odd number...........ok, i have wierd ''phoniing sprees'' where ill want to fone pple and spend like 4 hour phoning random pple. (soz if ur names r first on my fone bk )

lol. anywhoo, how many pple do i tag? six, right?. ok. i tag::::







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http://abbebe.deviantart.com/journal/8506530/ Tue, 18 Apr 2006 02:54:46 PDT HOLD ONTO ME LIKE YOU HELD ONTO LIFE

Mood: revising!
Listening to: motorhead-dead men tell no tales
Reading: naughts and crosses-malorie blackman
Watching: ((green wing))

abbebe has 706 pageviews total and her 56 deviations were viewed 846 times

Overall, her deviations received 350 comments and were added to deviants' favourites 30 times,

just thought ide mention it.

and yes, im on a role right now!!! many mnay poems. and i also got some photos done the other day, but left the cd at a mates hoose, so canny put them up yet.

slowly....going....digital...aaarrgghh

my left foot is itchy underneath. but i cant scrath it because i have tickilish feet. its like ggrr....hehehe..anoying...hehehe.



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WHEN I HOL... ]]> ~abbebe http://abbebe.deviantart.com/journal/8486196/ http://abbebe.deviantart.com/journal/8486196/ Sun, 16 Apr 2006 06:50:09 PDT HOLD ONTO ME LIKE YOU HELD ONTO LIFE

Mood: falling
Listening to: maroon 5-she will be loved
Reading: naughts and crosses-malorie blackman
Watching: ((green wing))

hello all.

why on EARTH did i subscribe for a monh the moth i GO AWAY???

but sshh! because it's ok.

god damn i have alot of things to concentrate on at the moment. but oh well. thats life.

the main thing is my GCS bloomin E's. lol. so from the 8th may till the 16th June im going into hybernattion. so i can concentrate on them and hopefuly get better grades.

i mean i will obviously ocasionaly visit DA, and comment on all your pics as i do, butnot often. so please dont mind the delay.

yes. hybernation. AKA no social life. but thats ok. i think. *shifty eyes*

anyway....onto other things

i think its when you dont mean to hurt someone that you hurt them the most.
people and friends have said to me previously that they admire me for being so strong and when they get upset even wish they could be like me and have my strenth.

but recently...since my liufe has got better infact...ive become alot more sensetive.

when i was little there was alot of horidness in my life. so i taught myself not to cry. i dont block out bad memories. i still need them. to remember. but now. when i need to cry. i cant.

i really dont think i can deal with the stress of GCSE right now. and i want to cry it off. but i just cant. and something to do with my family aswell. recentl i only seem able to cry when i see someone i love or am close to cry or when someone hugs me and it all just floods in.

but anyway....

if youve read this far, thatnk you. im alright really. just a deep thinker thats all.

but i havew a plan. im making an ''in case'' box. going to put fav chocs in it, a comedy ive never seen and great old potos and stuff tand only ever open it if i need to. if sommething bad hapens.

just thought ide pass on the idea

now then, who has ACTUALY revised?

btw, sory this was so long!!

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~abbebe http://abbebe.deviantart.com/journal/8373659/ http://abbebe.deviantart.com/journal/8373659/ Wed, 05 Apr 2006 12:42:10 PDT HOLD ONTO ME LIKE YOU HELD ONTO LIFE

Mood: loved
Listening to: foo fighters-monkey wrench

clubs!!!


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WHEN I HOLD YOU I HOLD EVERYTHING ]]> ~abbebe http://abbebe.deviantart.com/journal/8343870/ http://abbebe.deviantart.com/journal/8343870/ Sun, 02 Apr 2006 13:28:39 PDT
Mood: relating to morals..
Listening to: jeff buckley--grace

define things before you insult them!
think of the facts before you accuse people!
one word: hypocrite!!!
think of others feelings.
do more favours than you ask for.

im sorry.
im confused.
im in doubt.
im not withought
im just too with.

i promise i dint do those things
you cant hate who you only think i am.

hmph ]]> ~abbebe http://abbebe.deviantart.com/journal/8340316/ http://abbebe.deviantart.com/journal/8340316/ Sun, 02 Apr 2006 05:23:52 PDT
anyway, thats my philosphy for the day.......back to the happyer state....i had loads to write, but now ive forgotten it all. damnit!

everything is kool at the moment! sorry. i mean, i have my problems, but what 15 year old doesn't?

yes. i'm just in a strnge mood.

where igsacly do you draw the line between a poem and a song?

time is our greatest enemy. ]]> ~abbebe http://abbebe.deviantart.com/journal/8187598/ http://abbebe.deviantart.com/journal/8187598/ Fri, 17 Mar 2006 11:33:12 PST
or prehaps the question is 'would poeple but my prints?'' if i were to make prints of some of my work. i mean i like some of the photographs, but is it that good?

its not too much, just £14, (doesnt say how long it works for though-or if you hav to pay extra for each work you want to print)

but all the same, help on this matter would be appreciated

much love, abbebe

]]> ~abbebe http://abbebe.deviantart.com/journal/8129761/ http://abbebe.deviantart.com/journal/8129761/ Sat, 11 Mar 2006 10:29:37 PST , 29 deviations , 101 comments recived and work 5 times. yay, im slightly more recognised. lol

yesh, doign much more stuff and uploading much more, all sorts, drawings, poems, photographs and stories.


yup. thank all watchers!!! love u all
]]> ~abbebe http://abbebe.deviantart.com/journal/8016746/ http://abbebe.deviantart.com/journal/8016746/ Mon, 27 Feb 2006 10:12:18 PST ~abbebe http://abbebe.deviantart.com/journal/7790225/ http://abbebe.deviantart.com/journal/7790225/ Fri, 03 Feb 2006 13:00:47 PST
Most of my poems will probably ed up being metaphorical. But hey, inspiration by feelings of those you love and/or care for is the best kind!

My wonderful watchers:
]]> ~abbebe http://abbebe.deviantart.com/journal/7739252/ http://abbebe.deviantart.com/journal/7739252/ Sun, 29 Jan 2006 08:12:50 PST
i really should get my scanner fixed.....ok amelia, you win this time. it IS better to have a digital camera when uploading pictures onto computer, but im still against them!

:iconBcdeppressionist: ]]> ~abbebe http://abbebe.deviantart.com/journal/4959324/ http://abbebe.deviantart.com/journal/4959324/ Thu, 31 Mar 2005 08:33:23 PST ~abbebe