http://search.deviantart.com/?q=by:aboutapixie&section=today deviantART RSS for by:aboutapixie en-us Copyright 2009, deviantART.com Mon, 14 Dec 2009 13:36:32 PST deviantART.com http://blogs.law.harvard.edu/tech/rss http://s.deviantart.com/minish/widgets/apple-touch-icon-precomposed.png http://aboutapixie.deviantart.com/journal/15413662/ http://aboutapixie.deviantart.com/journal/15413662/ Wed, 07 Nov 2007 22:05:32 PST
but on to what you really care about: my photography. i've been dragging my camera around telling myself to take pictures, of anything--even just my friends and i hanging out in a coffee shop or in the garage smoking a cigarette. but i'm having trouble. i hope to overcome this soon. on the other hand i have some photographs i need to edit and submit from a romanian festival i attended in colleyville, texas. i think for so much of my life i wanted to be american and have american traditions but now that it is not in my living room i'm fascinated. i had a wonderful time and i hope you enjoy them.

i wish i could send all of you a bouquet of freshly sharpened pencils, oh how i adore the fall.

------
I'll always be by your side
Even when you're down and out
-cocorosie.
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]]> ~aboutapixie http://aboutapixie.deviantart.com/journal/13664737/ http://aboutapixie.deviantart.com/journal/13664737/ Sun, 08 Jul 2007 22:45:11 PDT rut [ruht] noun, verb, rut·ted, rut·ting.
–noun
1. a furrow or track in the ground, esp. one made by the passage of a vehicle or vehicles.
2. any furrow, groove, etc.
3. a fixed or established mode of procedure or course of life, usually dull or unpromising: to fall into a rut.
–verb (used with object)
4. to make a rut or ruts in; furrow.
[Origin: 1570–80; perh. var. of route]

i haven't felt much like myself lately--
i need to make a connection.

]]> ~aboutapixie http://aboutapixie.deviantart.com/journal/12899854/ http://aboutapixie.deviantart.com/journal/12899854/ Wed, 09 May 2007 13:02:47 PDT
SUMMER GOALS

- take lots and lots of pictures/ photoshoots
- go back over the basics of photography
- reread my camera's manual
- exercise on a regular basis
- find someone that owns a hammock and become friends with them
- do little things for my friends and family that will make them smile
- print some of my photographs/ start my portfolio
- see old friends
- keep up with my reading
- roadtrip to austin, tx
- take as many roadtrips as i can
- make it memorable
- don't become numb
- don't become numb

_____________

]]> ~aboutapixie http://aboutapixie.deviantart.com/journal/12383142/ http://aboutapixie.deviantart.com/journal/12383142/ Fri, 30 Mar 2007 00:18:20 PDT i let myself go and just relaxed.
no reaction.
my mind wandered.
can't even recall now.
"it's been one hell of a week".

all i can say is that i want to keep being surprised or life is going to seem a lot longer.

"another line and he said that he understood me or something like that and i did another line and believed him because it is easier to move through the motions than not to."
-the informers; bret easton ellis

]]> ~aboutapixie http://aboutapixie.deviantart.com/journal/11369274/ http://aboutapixie.deviantart.com/journal/11369274/ Mon, 08 Jan 2007 23:06:55 PST
i'm kind of ready to feel again. i haven't felt much of anything being back in mckinney and my apathy only grows.

but besides the point. christmas was tolerable. my parents finally bought me a new camera- a canon rebel xti - my graduation/birthday/&xmas present. jeeeeez. new years was fun, for the most part but everything seemed to slow down after that event. everything's in slow motion. i decided to skip new years resolutions because i'm awful with them.

i'm trying to take as many pictures and get some ideas out there while i still have the time. as always critiques are very much appreciated. i've been slacking on keeping up with everyone's photographs but i hope to change that this week.

much love friends

"Beware of the man who works hard to learn something, learns it, and finds himself no wiser than before," Bokonon tells us. "He is full of murderous resentment of people who are ignorant without having come by their ignorance the hard way."- Cat's Cradle by Kurt Vonnegut

]]> ~aboutapixie http://aboutapixie.deviantart.com/journal/10581595/ http://aboutapixie.deviantart.com/journal/10581595/ Wed, 01 Nov 2006 11:45:04 PST for people to look at you
and think someone's going
somewhere. surrounded by
so much b o r i n g space, five
days is a long time to stay
unimpressed. "
--glamorama by bret easton ellis

posted some photographs i took in dallas going to the dallas museum of art to see van gogh's sheaves of wheat exhibit. so critiques would be nice. i register for classes for next semester tomorrow and i'm going to try to get into a photojournalism class before it fills up. i'm really excited about that class : )

school is nice and it's finally starting to get cold and i take too many naps and spend an unneccessary amount of time on the computer and am close to finishing my book glamorama and i watch movies quite often and work on the weekends and i'm usually content.

but i'm ready for thanksgiving break. a few days of no school and no work sdfhoig finally.

hope all is well.
much love. <3

]]> ~aboutapixie http://aboutapixie.deviantart.com/journal/10045380/ http://aboutapixie.deviantart.com/journal/10045380/ Mon, 11 Sep 2006 23:06:40 PDT
i'm in my routine already and it's nice. meeting new people and all that jazz. my social life isn't very much up to par because of having to juggle school on weekdays and work all weekend but i'm okay with that right now. i really become my own best friend at times. i enjoy my company so i'm alright.

my recent photographs aren't focusing on the qualitiy of the photograph because my camera isn't very high quality but just focusing on the picture itself. i'm enjoying just snapping random shots on campus.

a friend of mine from work might let me use his camera and we might take picture soon so that is something i'm very much looking forward to. i'm hoping to get into a photography class next semester so it would be much appreciated to get some feedback. and i will try and keep up with your photography as well.

but enough babbling. i'm so terrible at these journal entries. my ramblings are never very interesting--my apologies.


<3 ]]> ~aboutapixie http://aboutapixie.deviantart.com/journal/9716497/ http://aboutapixie.deviantart.com/journal/9716497/ Sun, 13 Aug 2006 18:21:47 PDT
last week in mckinney then moving to denton. this summer has passed by so quickly. probably one of the most memorable. i feel like i've evolved so much and learned a lot. especially about myself.

i can't wait until fall semester.

<3

"make sure you're happy when you leave your summer places" ]]> ~aboutapixie http://aboutapixie.deviantart.com/journal/9219251/ http://aboutapixie.deviantart.com/journal/9219251/ Thu, 29 Jun 2006 09:23:29 PDT this isn't a tale of derring-do, nor is it merely some kind of 'cynical
account'; it isn't meant to be, at least. it's a chunk of two lives running
parallel for a while, with common aspirations and similar dreams.
-ernesto guevara from the motorcycle diaries

summer has been interesting to say the least. i mean it all comes down to "convenience" right? whatever's convenient for you. it's almost july. &summer nights are amazing. i show lack of interest. things are different and i'm different and it's summer and the days are hot and long. and most of the time i can't even pretend with people.

i went on a spontaneous photoshoot with emmie olds-benton and mason mobly the other day and emmie kindly let me use her digital camera. so i have quite a few new photographs and i would really appreciate feedback. <3


because it seems to me that i wake up and sleep look in the mirror and have no idea what happened in between. - bright eyes. ]]> ~aboutapixie http://aboutapixie.deviantart.com/journal/8793477/ http://aboutapixie.deviantart.com/journal/8793477/ Tue, 16 May 2006 22:38:56 PDT
i turned in all my yearbook/camera stuff today and i feel really weird. really empty. i'm hoping my parents will buy me a new camera for graduation but until then i'm left all alone.

i got yearbook photographer of the year. i've never really won anything all my life and i was stunned. and more than ever i'm so glad i tried this year. that i finally put forth some effort. my yearbook teacher was writing my letter of recommendation and i actually had to fight the urge to just tear up. my emotions can no longer be controlled, oh god it's time for summer.

i'm excited for this summer. i will finally have some more free time on my hands to hang out with current friends and old friends and friends that are in town from college etc. and i can't wait. i don't really have any photo ideas in mind but i'm just going to go with it.

my feelings about everything are contradicting but i guess that's normal to feel happy and terrified at the same time when you are graduating from high school. it's petty but i can't help it. these next two weeks will not seem real. these next two weeks will not be real.

content and carefree

SO IT GOES. ]]> ~aboutapixie http://aboutapixie.deviantart.com/journal/8211664/ http://aboutapixie.deviantart.com/journal/8211664/ Sun, 19 Mar 2006 21:38:02 PST
spring break is over and school is tomorrow. i barely picked up my camera over spring break and i don't even know why. i'm on a bit of a hiatus i suppose.

hopefully that will pass soon.

any suggestions on what i should focus on? what i need to get better at? anything really would be helpful.

<3 ]]> ~aboutapixie http://aboutapixie.deviantart.com/journal/7888896/ http://aboutapixie.deviantart.com/journal/7888896/ Mon, 13 Feb 2006 22:49:58 PST
valentine's day. nothing exciting to talk about there so moving on.

just finished posting some times new roman practice slash music room pictures so please i would love critiques and comments.

hopefully going on a photoshoot with grace soon, i have some interesting ideas with her dancing(ballet) and i'm pretty excited. maybe some good photo opportunities considering it's morp at my school this saturday. even though i'm not going. still dressing up and hanging out with friends : )

and also shows
march 3 - electric six
march 14 - belle and sebastian / the new pornographers
march 29 - dinosaur jr!! OR same night: jenny lewis and the watson twins
march 31 - death cab for cutie
april 7 - the books

side note to rachael ellis. i hope you can attend a show with me soon they are just not the same without you

<3

i would reply that religion had nothing to do with it. i am in fact pretty much atheist like my mother's father, although i kept that to myself. why argue somebody else out of the expectation of some sort of an afterlife?-kurt vonnegut ]]> ~aboutapixie http://aboutapixie.deviantart.com/journal/7634655/ http://aboutapixie.deviantart.com/journal/7634655/ Tue, 17 Jan 2006 21:45:37 PST so i thought i would steal his idea and do a "i love & hate list for the present time"

i know no one cares but...i'm doing it anyways.

.love.

-the candles in my room that smell good
-belle & sebastian and the new pornographers touring
-some good friends i've made lately
-the sufjan stevens album i can't stop listening to
-watching movies or going to the movies; that's all i seem to want to do lately
-scrubs and it's nerdy humor.
-duhh deviantart. i'm on this way too much.
-my psychology class
-sleeping until noon yesterday because it was mlk day
-making mix cds for friends
-photoshoots

.hate. (or slightly dislike)

-headaches i've been getting lately
-my anxiety being through the roof
-being restless all through the night
-texas weather. i just want it to be cold so badly.
-feeling uninspired. i feel like all my photographs are the same. i wish i was more creative.
-being lonely sometimes.
-saying i will go to sleep before 11 for once and then looking at the clock and it's already midnight.

<3 ]]> ~aboutapixie http://aboutapixie.deviantart.com/journal/7512089/ http://aboutapixie.deviantart.com/journal/7512089/ Wed, 04 Jan 2006 20:20:29 PST
i hope everyone had a good new years, i was surrounded by almost all the people i care about the most so mine was wonderful.

i've been submitting very frequently lately you just can't tear me away from my camera. i've really been working on portraits so i would love all the comments and critiques i can get especially on those. i really just want to improve on my art. i hope this year i can just be as creative as i can be and really focus on my photography. everyone i watch is so amazing i would like to get as good as you guys.

more photographs still to come-- this friday photoshoot with marge [imaXrobot] emmie [throughemilyseyes] and a few of our friends. & hopefully even more photoshoots after that.

much love. <3

--also i was wanting suggestions for books. i just can't seem to choose what i want to read next. i've been on and off on my short stories by ernest hemingway but i need a real novel. favorites? ]]> ~aboutapixie http://aboutapixie.deviantart.com/journal/7349577/ http://aboutapixie.deviantart.com/journal/7349577/ Sun, 18 Dec 2005 21:21:02 PST and it's close to christmas so why not.
from david sedaris's barrel fever
an essay he wrote called SantaLand Diaries
about his job as an elf at macy's.
i don't know how many people are ACTUALLY
going to read this whole thing
but it makes me laugh : )

I Photo Elfed all day for a variety of Santas and it struck me that many of the parents don't allow their children to speak at all. A child sits upon Santa's lap and the parents say, "All right now, Amber, tell Santa what you want. Tell him you want a Baby Alive and My Pretty Ballerina and that winter coat you saw in the catalog."
The parents name the gifts they have already bought. They don't want to hear the word "pony," or "television set," so they talk through the entire visit, placing words in the child's mouth. When the child hops off the lap, the parents address their children, each and every time, with, "What do you say to Santa?"
The child says, "Thank you, Santa."
It is sad because you would like to believe that everyone is unique and then they disappoint you every time by being exactly the same, asking for the same things, reciting the exact same lines as though they have been handed a script.
All of the aduls ask for a Gold Card or a BMW and they rock with laughter, thinking they are the first person brazen enough to request such pleasures.
Santa says, "I'll see what I can do."
Couples over the age of fifty all say, " I don't want to sit on your lap, Santa, I'm afraid I might break it!"
How do you break a lap? How did so many people get the idea to say the exact same thing?
I went to a store on the Upper West Side. This store is like a Museum of Natural History where everything is for sale: every taxidermic or skeletal animal that roams the earth is represented in this shop and, because of that, it is popular. I went with my brother last weekend. Near the cash register was a bowl of glass eyes and a sign reading "DO NOT HOLD THE GLASS EYES UP AGAINST YOUR OWN EYES: THE ROUGH STEM CAN CAUSE INJURY."
I talked to the fellow behind the counter and he said, "It's the same thing every time. First they hold up the eyes and then they go for the horns. I'm sick of it."
It frightened me that, until i saw the sign, my first impulse was to hold those eyes up to my own. I thought it might be a laugh riot.
All of us take pride and pleasure in the fact that we are unique, but i'm afraid that when all is said and done the police are right: it all comes down to fingerprints. ]]> ~aboutapixie http://aboutapixie.deviantart.com/journal/6506925/ http://aboutapixie.deviantart.com/journal/6506925/ Wed, 14 Sep 2005 20:32:16 PDT and ll of the broken glass swept off the avenue
all the way home held your camera liek a bible
wishing so bad that it held some kind of truth
and i stood nervous next to you, in the dark room
you dropped the paper in the water,
and it all begins to bloom
-bright eyes.

i've been working on my photographs basically every day now that i can use the downstairs computer. trying to get cds burned of pictures i promised everyone and trying to submit as much as possible--so please i would love everyone to critic them.: )

<3 ]]> ~aboutapixie http://aboutapixie.deviantart.com/journal/5065218/ http://aboutapixie.deviantart.com/journal/5065218/ Mon, 11 Apr 2005 21:59:52 PDT
spring <3

"the proper ending for any story about people it seems to me, since life is now a polymer in which the earth is wrapped so tightly, should be that same abbreviation, which i now write large because i feel like it, which is this one:
ETC."

"breakfast of champions"-kurt vonnegut ]]> ~aboutapixie http://aboutapixie.deviantart.com/journal/4461222/ http://aboutapixie.deviantart.com/journal/4461222/ Mon, 31 Jan 2005 10:56:51 PST ~aboutapixie http://aboutapixie.deviantart.com/journal/4197537/ http://aboutapixie.deviantart.com/journal/4197537/ Thu, 30 Dec 2004 22:23:59 PST "Exactly," Clevinger snapped smugly. "And which do you think is more important?"
"To whom?" Yossarian shot back. "It doesn't make a damn bit of difference who wins the war to someone who's dead."
"I can't think of another attitude that could be depended upon to give greater comfort to the enemy."
"The enemy," retorted Yossarian with weighted precision, "is anybody who's going to get you killed, no matter which side he's on."
-Catch 22


we are nowhere and it's now.
--

hope everyone has a happy new year. <3 ]]> ~aboutapixie http://aboutapixie.deviantart.com/journal/4138699/ http://aboutapixie.deviantart.com/journal/4138699/ Thu, 23 Dec 2004 17:46:27 PST
from now on our troubles will be miles away...

so have yourself a merry little christmas <3 ]]> ~aboutapixie http://aboutapixie.deviantart.com/journal/3939477/ http://aboutapixie.deviantart.com/journal/3939477/ Sun, 28 Nov 2004 13:11:05 PST
When you said you'd hurt me,
did you think you hurt me?
Are you really that cocky?
Oh, what a heartbreaker!
Well, I've got my armor;
yeah, I've been through some battles before.
And I met your old girlfriend,
she said, "Baby, don't bother."
She told me you told her you'd hurt her
Funny, how familiar.
So, how much of this relationship was rehearsed?
-the good life.

just finished fahrenheit 451 a few days ago. amazing book.--

Give the people contests they win by remembering the words to more popular songs.... Don't give them slippery stuff like philosophy or sociology to tie things up with. That way lies melancholy.
-Fahrenheit 451 ]]> ~aboutapixie