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Happy Birthday Bob!!!!

*addictedtogerardway — Thu, 31 Dec 2009 06:20:38 PST

it's bob's birthday!!!! so happy birthday to him, the wonderful drummer of MCR

anyway, moving on to other subjects, i am supposed to be doing my IT reports right now, but i'm not, because my dad is supposed to be doing it for me- i mean, helping me with it, BUT HE'S GONE TO GODDAMN B&Q!!!!! damnit.
so yeah, i'm on here instead. how useful.

i couldn't get to sleep last night. so i came on here and sent 2 messages then i went back to bed and still couldn't get to sleep. so i got up and went to the loo, then read a book for a bit, then went back to bed. that time i got to sleep, but it was at like half 12. then i woke up later at half 6. then went back to sleep again. so all in all, i've had a pretty disturbed night.
but, on the upside, i did get a bit of my english done yesterday. not much, but it's a start.
on the downside, i have like a MILLION more bits of homework to complete, and i have *counts on fingers* 4 days in which to do them in. and one of those days will (hopefully) be spent at allie's. oh and on saturday i'm going round to a neighbour's house with my family. i don't want to go, cos i have too much to do. and you know what my mom had a go at me this morning about??? THE STATE OF MY FLOOR!!! THAT'S WHAT!!!!! parents. whatcha gonna do.

love you all
xoxo

"Tuffy" xD

*addictedtogerardway — Wed, 30 Dec 2009 13:33:35 PST

i just had the hottest curry in the history of the world. well maybe not the history of the world, i just don't like hot curries.
anyway:
today i went to visit an elderly couple (well not like ancient, but older than my parentals at least) who bought a kitten off us earlier this year. i went with my mom and brother to Bexhill-on-sea to visit "Tuffy" which was what Margaret and Steven called the kitten (he was originally called Shadow). anyway, little Tuffy is the most adorable, soppy thing you'll ever meet. he purred as soon as i picked him up and he was playing with the toys that my brother was waving around i got some pics on my new camera, so if i can be arsed, i'll post them
then we went for lunch with margaret and steven to this "de la warr" pavilion place next to the sea. appaz it's really famous, but oh well. the meal was brilliant margaret was saying how they own a beach hut down on the shore, and that we should go to visit them again and use it and they said "bring friends", so in the summer, y'all better love me, cos i'll be taking a friend down to the beach at some point

this evening i've been talking to izzy and alice m. izzy was hatching her master plan for my predicament that i'm in and she's been such a great friend recently. it's still sorta hard, and i'm not precisely sure she's factored in all the "flies in the various ointments" as it were, as she probably doesn't know about most of them, as i won't have told her...
oh well.

jeez, recently i seem to have been getting more and more stressed and hurt. i try and focus my time on one person, then they end up hurting me and i realize i've got loadsa hwk, so i panic, and then i decide to focus on that person again, they end up hurting me, and then the cycle repeats. life sucks.

so yeah, i keep saying "maybe i'm just tired" but i think i just have too much to do, and i haven't got my priorities straight. if you're reading this: i'm sorry, but i try to put you first, but i have way too much on my hands atm.

love you all
xoxo

Another 2009 Review- But in Tag form

*addictedtogerardway — Mon, 28 Dec 2009 03:51:01 PST

2009 MEME! 8D

Beginning of 2009:
Where were you?
At home. most likelyily

Who were you with?:
myself? idk, when it turned new year i was probs asleep

Did you kiss anyone on new years?
nope

Did you make any resolutions?:
yus.

All About You 2009:
Did you change at all this year?
yes, definitely.

Did you dye your hair in 09?
nope, i'm not allowed Â¬Â¬

Did you get your hair cut?
yeah

Did you change your style?
a bit, yeah.

Were you in school?
yups

Did you get good grades?
sorta. my effort went down significantly after the alice months.

Did you have a job?
no

Did anyone close to you give birth?
um, no, but my mom's collegue gave birth

Did you move at all?
personally, yes. i'm moving now, see
but no, i haven't moved house.

Did you go on any vacations?
yes, to devon. and.... something else, probs.

Did you leave the country at all?
don't think so

Your Love Life 2009:
Did you break up with anyone?
yup, many times. and with the same person as well

Did you meet anyone special?
yes

Did you fall in love?
serious love? twice. not-so-serious-love/fancying? four times.

Friends and Enemies 2009:
Did you meet any new friends this year?
yep

Did any of your friendships end?
yes, unfortunatly.

Did you dislike anyone?
yes.

Did you make any new enemies?
um.... possibly?

Did you resolve any fights?
yes thank god.

Did you grow apart from anyone?
uh huh

Did you have any regrets when it comes to your friendships?
yes. many. most of them involving alice.

---

In 2009 I..
[x] broke a promise
[ ] fallen out of love
[x] lied
[x] went behind your parent's back
[x] cried over a broken heart
[x] disappointed someone close
[x] hid a secret
[x] pretended to be happy
[ ] kissed in the rain
[x] slept under the stars
[ ] kept your new years resolution
[x] forgot your new years resolution
[x] met someone who changed your life
[ ] met one of your idols
[x] changed your outlook on life
[x] sat home all day doing nothing
[x] pretended to be sick
[ ] left the country
[x] almost died (well sort of: i nearly killed myself, but rachel stopped me )
[x] given up something important to you
[ ] lost something expensive
[x] learned something new about yourself
[x] tried something you normally wouldn't try and liked it
[x] made a change in your life
[x] found out who your true friends were
[x] met great people
[ ] stayed up til sunrise
[x] cried over the silliest thing ((Done. Multiple times.))
[ ] was never home on weekends
[x] got into a car accident
[x] had friends who were drifting away from you
[ ] had someone close to you die
[x] had a high cell phone bill
[ ] spent most of your money on food
[x] had a fist fight (lol sorta)
[x] went to the beach
[x] saw a celebrity
[x] gotten sick
[x] liked more than 5 people at the same time (unfortunatly)
[ ] stayed single for the whole year
[ ] made out in/on a car
[ ] kissed in the snow
[x] celebrated Halloween
[x] had your heart broken
[ ] had a stalker
[ ] mooned someone
[x] went over the minutes on your cell phone
[x] someone questioned your sexual orientation
[x] came out of the closet
[ ] gotten pregnant
[ ] had an abortion
[x] done something you've regretted
[x] painted a picture
[x] wrote a poem
[ ] ran a mile
[ ] shopped...

Yet Another Tag

*addictedtogerardway — Mon, 28 Dec 2009 01:56:58 PST

Dear Georgia,
I don't really know how to tell you this, but I'm in love with your cat. I think I realized it When you smacked my ass at the mental hospital and I saw you Pull the clothes off My boyfriend. I'm sure you're Cowardly enough to understand That your driving sucks. I'm returning Your old New Kids on the Block blanket to you, but I'll keep Your collection of butterflies as a memory. You should also know that I Told in my confession today about the moose poaching and Your Cucumber-fetishism is weird.

Best of luck on the sex change,
From Me.

HERE'S HOW YOU DO IT:
Dear (someone you recently talked to),
I don't really know how to tell you this, but (1). I think I realized it (2)(3) and I saw you (4)(5). I'm sure you're (6) enough to understand (7). I'm returning (8) to you, but I'll keep (9) as a memory. You should also know that I (10) and (11).

(12)

1) What's the color of your shirt?
Blue - I'm in love with your cat
Red - Our affair is over
White - The rainbow hedgehogs want to destroy you
Black -Our romance is over
Green- Our socks don't match
Grey - You're a leprechaun
Yellow - I'm selling myself for candy
Pink - Your nostrils are insulting
Brown - The mafia wants you
No shirt - I'm joining the Convent
Other -I dislike your eyelashes

2) Which is your birth month?
January - That night you picked your nose
February -When I quoted Forrest Gump
March - When your dwarf bit me
April - When I tripped on peanut butter
May - When I threw up in your sock drawer
June - When you put cuffs on me
July Â When I saw the purple monkey
August - When you smacked my ass
September - Last year when you peed your pants
October - When we skinny dipped in the bathtub
November - When your dog humped my leg
December - When I finally changed my underwear

3) Which food do you prefer?
Tacos - In your apartment
Chicken- In your car
Pasta - Outside of your office
Hamburgers - Under the bus
Salad Â As you were eating Kraft Dinner
Lasagna - In your closet
Kebab - With Jean ChrÃ©tien
Seafood - In a clown suit
Sandwiches - At the Elton John concert
Pizza - At the mental hospital
Hot dog - Under a street light
Annat- With George Bush and Stephen Harper

4) What's the color of your socks?
Yellow - Ignore
Red - Put whipped cream on
Black - Hit on
Blue - Knock out
Purple - Pour syrup on
White - Carve your initials into
Grey - Pull the clothes off
Brown - bit of
Orange - Castrate
Pink - Pull the pants off of
Barefoot - Sit on
Other - Drive over

5) What's the color of your underwear?
Black - My boyfriend
White - My father
Grey Â The Catholic Priest
Brown Â The Montreal Canadiens' goalie
Purple - My corned beef hash
Red Â My knee caps
Blue - My salt-beef bucket
Yellow - My illegitimate child in Ghana
Orange - My Blink 182 cd
Pink Â Your "My Little Pony" collection
Other --The elephant in the corner

6) What do you prefer to watch on TV?
One Tree Hill - Senile
Heroes- Frostbitten
Lost - High
Simpsons- Cowardly
The news - Scarred
American Idol - Masochistic
Family Guy - Open
Top Model - Middle-class
Annat -shamed
House- Sterile

7) Your mood right now?
Happy - How awful you are
Sad - How boring you are
Bored - That I get turned on only by garbage men
Angry - That your smell makes me vomit
Depressed Â That weÂre related
Excited - That I may pee my pants
Nervous - The middle-east is planning their revenge on you
Worried - That your Ford sucks
Apathetic - That you need a sex-change
Silly - That I'm allergic to your earlobes
Cuddly - That Santa doesn't exist
Ashamed - That there is no solution to you being a dumb kid
Other - That your driving sucks

8) What's the color of your walls in your bedroom?
White - Your toe ring
Yellow - Your love letters to me
Red - The pictures from Vegas
Black - Your pet rock
Blue - The couch cushions
Green - Your car
Orange - Your false teeth
Brown - Your nose hair clippers
Grey - Our matching snoopy underwear
Purple - Your old New Kids on the Block blanket
Pink - The cut toenails
Other - Your

9) The first letter of your first name?
A/B - Your virginity
C/D - Your photo with the moustache drawn on it
E/F - Your neighbors dog
G/H - The oil tank from your car
I/J - Your left ear
K/L - The results of that blood-sample
M/N - Your glass eye
O/P - My common sense
Q/R - Your mom
S/T - Your collection of butterflies
U/V - Your criminal record

2009 Review

*addictedtogerardway — Sun, 27 Dec 2009 11:56:28 PST

2009 was a good year. But also the worst year of my life.

January
The Alice (G) month.
Good times. Very good times. Loving, living and breathing her.
24th Jan: We went to bluewater. Most of you will know about that day from the many poems that feature it. Or possibly, if you know me closer, will have seen the tears that were shed in regret that it may never be that way again.
29th Jan, 3.32pm: I told Alice I loved her. In those very same overused 3 words. I cried once that day. The first in a nearly a year long procession.

February
The Bad Times month.
This was the month directly following the events that occured on the 29th. It was the worst month of my life, especially the first week. It snowed that week. We had two days off school, and the day we came back was an enrichment day.
4th Feb: Charnleigh became my saviour. She spoke to Alice and received the information that Alice still wanted to be friends.
Alice and I were still friends. But we definitely weren't as close as before. She didn't hug me. Not once. This was when I began writing a diary of sorts in my purple book.

March
For most of that month, it was the same as the latter part of February. We weren't as close. But things changed. I tried to fool myself into thinking that I wasn't in love with her. But I found someone else to take the pain away...
8th Mar: I started going out with Allie.
26th Mar: Rachel's birthday. The 8 week mark. The first time in 2 months that I was happy. First hug from Alice since I had told her! First call to Allie!
In the purple book entry for that day, I said "hearing her voice made me fall in love with her even more".

April
An alright month, by and by. I fell deeper in love with Allie. I began to believe that I should not be friends with Alice anymore, and started to push her away... that was the worst mistake of my life.

May
Okay month. Pain returning, as I pushed Alice away.
6th May: Year 9 song contest final. I saw her in the crowd, in the front row... which severely put me off.

June
Pain. I succeeded in pushing her away. I regretted it, and still do.
I fell in love with someone else...

July
Tiribad. Good, but bad. The food was one of the bad bits, but I made new friends and got a hell of a lot closer to Alice M and Georgia. That happens if you share a room with someone for a week. What also happens is that you get extremely irritated with them if they continually wake you up early to tidy the room (*coughalicecough*)
I fancied Louise. Most of you will know the story. It doesn't particularly matter, as it was not overly important.
I told Georgia and Alice M about the latter part of my June summary. Shuen knew, and she also told one person. When we arrived back, most of our group knew. The other person who it concerned (lets call her X, as she might not want to be named, and she appears later) was furious. We had one of our worst arguments to date. She wouldn't speak to me.

August
Wizard of Oz. Good times Apart from that awful headdress. It dug into my shoulders at just the wrong point. My favourite dress was my red munchinkin dress with white polka dots. I seriously wanted to keep it. Allie came to the second performance. Certain things happened after the show. I'm not going to go into detail, but I think you can guess
On one of the evening performances, it rained. Only a bit at the start, but by the end, it was tipping it down. No joke, it was actually raining cats and dogs. We all got soaked. But we got the biggest standing ovation of the whole run and probably this side of the West End as well. It was a good night.
11th Aug: Allie's birthday We went to bluewater for the day. Other things happened. It was one of the best days of that month.
12th Aug: I made up with X. We became best friends again.
I went on holiday for a week, then when I came back...
24th Aug: Sleepover with X. Things happened. You can probably guess what.

September
I broke up with Allie. Things went back to normal with X. But then I don't know what happened, but we stopped talking to each other. We were both bitches, especially me. I regret that most of all. Finally, later in September, we made up. I cried alot. She apologised, even though she had no reason to. I was the one who hurt her. We sorted things out, sort of.
I made friends with Katie Katie is one o...

Reorganised Gallery

*addictedtogerardway — Sat, 26 Dec 2009 10:41:47 PST

okay, if some of you didn't notice, about a month or two ago i took down all the deviations about alice, bar the two drawings, and i deleted the alice folder.
i now assume/think/hope that she will never come on here again, or at least that someone might warn me first or that she might not find what she's looking for. so now that the storm has passed for the moment, i have taken those deviations out of storage so that they may be viewed again.
i have also reassigned them to the catagory "She Who Will Never See". and lets hope that catagory name will be true.
now that i have put them back up, the ones about alice that i have posted recently have also been assigned to that folder, as shall any in the future.
i have also made a new catagory called "Presents" which does exactly what it says on the tin- it has all the birthday presents, gifts for important people, and thankyou poems in there.

love you all
xoxo

Just a short one, but everyone must comment

*addictedtogerardway — Sat, 26 Dec 2009 09:54:41 PST

A text that i know has been going round my year at school.
all my watchers and also others too MUST comment. it won't take very long and it doesn't matter if you're male or female or neither or both, 'kay?

If we woke up naked together, using only 3 words, what would you say to me?

get your replies in, people

xoxo

Happy (Belated) Christmas!!!

*addictedtogerardway — Sat, 26 Dec 2009 06:42:04 PST

i would have posted a "merry chrimbo" journal yest, but i wasn't on ze comp yesterday
i got a new camera (which i've named hammycam after the squirrel in over the hedge) plus other stuffs (and that's only the stuff from my mom and dad )
ahh. christmas.
i went on the boxing day walk with the riversiders. was a bit cold, but all the usual suspects turned up, apart from the stanyons and kelly. twas fun, although a bit muddy. we went to the pub afterwards, as per usual
i have SO much to do (as usual) over the christmas hols; my to do list is already half a page long, and thats only hwk and people to visit!
doctor who was brilliant!!! i LOVE john simm as the master, especially when he's insane he's so priiidy i can't wait till new years day for the second part THE TIMELORDS ARE COMING BACK AND IT'S THE END OF TIME AND THE DOCTOR'S GONNA DIE AND THE MASTER HAS CHANGED ALL THE HUMANS APART FROM DONNA AND WILFRED INTO HIMSELF!!!! just thought i'd ruin it for all you who haven't watched it yet, ya lazy buggers

hope you all had a great christmas and make sure you work off all that food and chocolate
love you all, and vote saxon!!
xoxo

OMG I LOVE MY GIRLFRIEND!!!!!

*addictedtogerardway — Thu, 24 Dec 2009 12:04:45 PST

I LOVE YOU ALLIE!!!!
she got me a premium membership!!!!
ILOVEYOUILOVEYOUILOVEYOUILOVEYOU!!!!!!!!

YAAAAAAAAAAAAAAY!!!!!!

love you all
xoxoxoxoxoxo

CSS by =myah5000 / Graphics by *dimensioncr8r

Blondie's Confessions + News at the Bottom

*addictedtogerardway — Thu, 24 Dec 2009 04:19:22 PST

yes, that is now my new nickname

Tag
Yoinked off

1. Do you sleep in your bra?:
no...

2. Do you enjoy drama?:
the subject? no. soaps? not really, i only watch neighbours. other tv dramas? yeah

3. Are you a girly girl?:
no

4. Who was the last person you hugged?:
uhhhhh my mom?

5. Small or large purses?:
u mean handbags? uhhhh small.

6. Are you short?:
no, i'm TAAAAALL

8.What would you do if someone smacked your butt?
depends who it was

9. Do you care if your socks are dirty?:
yes. i'm ocd like that

10. Do you dress up on Halloween?:
yup, i dress up as a slut. which most people would count as me just going around in my normal clothes... but meh.

11. Are you double jointed?
nope.

12. Where is the weirdest place you have slept?
aha.... pass? on a table at school, probs. actually ON the table. not just leaning on it

13. Has anyone touched/smacked your butt in the past 24 hours?
idk.

14. Is there a rumor going around about you?
yup Â¬Â¬

15. Do you call anybody by their last name?
only the two alices, but not to their faces. and generally people know which alice i'm talking about by my tone of voice

16. How many guys will read this just because it says "Girl Confessions?":
i don't know.

"X" Marks the spot:
[x] I do wear make-up.
[ ] I have cried at a movie theater.
[x] I can put mascara on without opening my mouth.
[x] I get jealous.
[ ] I think Johnny Depp is sexy.
[x] I love to laugh.
[ ] I like death/grind/black metal.
[ ] I like rap
[x] I like country (only taylor swift)
[x] I carry a purse.
[x] IÂd be lost without my computer.
[ ] I own a Spice Girls CD.
[ ] I own a Britney Spears CD.
[ ] I own a boy band CD.
[x] I get bored watching football
[ ] IÂve never been called a spoiled brat.
[x] Guys are confusing.
[x] I've been called a bad influence.
[ ] I have/had a piercing other than my ears.

Come on ladies, be truthful!

1. What colour is your bra that your wearing?
let me look.
white with lace

2. Do you prefer light or dark haired guys?
i LOVVVE black hair on scene/emo guys.... but otherwise i'm not particularly bothered.

3. Are you currently frustrated with a boy?
if my brother counts, then yes, he is EXTREMELY irritating.

4. Do you have a best friend(s)?:
yups

5. Have you ever had your heart broken?
unfortunately, yes.

6. Have you ever thought of having plastic surgery?
no.

7. Do you like your life?
no... but sometimes, yes. like last night. i did a victory dance around my bedroom. only one person knows why it's hilarious.

8. Has one of your friends ever stolen a boyfriend from you?
no.

9. Have you ever jumped in the pool with your clothes on?
no...

10. Do you have more friends that are girls or boys?
girls

11. How long have you had Facebook or Myspace?
i don't.

12. Have you ever slapped a boy in the face?
LOL lotsa times.

13. What are your biggest fears?
being alone. dying. seeing alice cry. that sorta thing.

14. Have you ever cried yourself to sleep?
yush, unfortunately.

15. Have you ever not been able to get someone off of your mind?
yes...

I'm Blonde

*addictedtogerardway — Wed, 23 Dec 2009 12:41:44 PST

no i'm not really, but i think i should be, and rachel would agree.
i'm REALLY happy atm
*squeals*
love you allllll
xoxo

Heya All :)

*addictedtogerardway — Wed, 23 Dec 2009 08:00:41 PST

It's Christmas Eve-Eve (that's the eve of christmas eve )
YAAAAAY NEARLY CRIMBOTAIME!!! and yes, i know i promised geegee that i wouldn't ever say that again BUT I JUST DID!!!

CHRIIIIIIISTMAAAAS!!!

i went to bluewater with my mom and i got 2 georgia nicolson books and some other stuff. i haven't started reading them YET but i'm sure i will soon

so yeah.... not much has happened recently, sorry for not being online very much or not posting journals, but look on the brightside, at least i'm not bugging you all the time!
oh yeah, and i think my scanner is still fucked, so i can't post any drawings. which sucks a bit, but anyhoo. i also haven't been posting much in the way of poems or stories, and that, honestly, is cos i just haven't been writing. at all. apart from songs. which NO ONE gets to read/hear apart from sometimes geegee.

right, love you all
xoxo

MERRY CHRISTMAS EVERYONE!!!

*addictedtogerardway — Fri, 18 Dec 2009 06:02:45 PST

it is now OFFICIALLY christmas hols cos school was shut today cos of the snow and it is REALLY deep. i haven't played in it yet, but tbh, its waaay too cold
it also means that i only have a tiny bit of info with which to finish my IT coursework.... but oh well.
HAPPY CHRISTMAS!!!!

ahhhh, lol i was gonna call alice g last nite.... but decided against it. i sorta guessed that she probs wouldn't appreciate someone she hasn't talked to in 6 months because they were avoiding her, calling her up and saying "hey, can you tell me what happened when you had an arguement with your best friend yesterday". even if that best friend happens to be my friend...
so i texted her instead, and she didn't text back. i don't blame her. i wouldn't text me back if i was her. actually i probably would, but that's another story. and also another perspective.
mebbe she changed phones. idk.

anyway, i hope you're all having a wonderful xmas hols, and looking forward to christmas

love you all
xoxo

lalalalalaaaaaaa

*addictedtogerardway — Thu, 17 Dec 2009 08:51:08 PST

in another good mood, weird isn't it?

lols well i haven't been doing much, i had maths and then german.
in period 4, we went to the music dep and were supposed to be watching a film, but me and sophie decided that we couldn't be arsed, so we pissed about in the other music room (x2), listening to random music on the projector speakers and messing about . lol i climbed over all the chairs, played on the piano, tried to balance on the bass drum (luckily didn't put my foot through it), got sophie to push me across the room on mr dowsett's spinny chair, consequently fell off and hit my head, and went through sophies bag. oh, and i threw a recorder across the room, it hit the wall and broke lol
then katie came to join us, and we danced around like loonys, wrote japanese on the board, wrote a quiz (one of the Qs was "what type of penis do you have" so that will give you an idea of what sort of quiz it was), katie was "demonstrating" what her bf did to her ON ME (twas quite scary, she practically bum raped me ) and then we spent all of lunch talking about random shit twas very funtimes.
then we had the staff review, which basically means, the teachers go on stage and make idiots out of themselves. it's very entertaining. i sat with sophie and katie, and stole katies scarf (it's very warm) and we sang like idiots she put her bow in my hair and i forgot to give it back OOOPS
so yeah, today was lots of fun, and i assume tomorrow will be... apart from the xmas service which is garunteed to be shit and boring. so i'll bring my ipod. unfortunatly, our music teacher has decided that senior choir (involving me) are going to sing on stage. oh joy. so my ipod will have to go down my bra for a bit

love you all
xoxoxo

Yet Another Update

*addictedtogerardway — Wed, 16 Dec 2009 12:53:44 PST

lalalalalaaaa i'm in a good mood
as i said to izzy, on the phone earlier, "it's probably a mixture of being on the phone to you and having talked to alice". which is most likely true
izzy always puts me in a good mood.
she's also really good at giving advice, too. she doesn't judge people, and she can keep a secret. lol i totally need to go round her house one day. knowing us and our phone convos we'd probs be up all night talking about random shit funtimes
ahhhhh lol at music and the spinny chair

for those people who know about the club, just a quick reminder, my club is now up and running as a GROUP. and the join requests have been turned on (no innuendo implied) as i have finally found the right section of the admin area. so GO JOIN!!! NOWWWWW

love you all
xoxo

Heya Beautiful Peoples (that means all of you)

*addictedtogerardway — Wed, 16 Dec 2009 08:37:18 PST

i spoke to ALIIIICCCCE today
YAAAAAAAY!! and the funny thing is, it wasn't even uncomfortable or anything. lol she was saying how at her form's xmas party they raved and i went "geez, sophie's gonna kill herself" and she was like "but sophie wasn't there" and i was liked "exactly, she was with us, doing nothing" and laughed, and she laughed and then went to talk to eloise or someone. LALALALALALAAAAAA *happyface*

anyway, this isn't just gonna be a journal all about alice, cos music was LEGEND!! we watched the pantomime, which was hilarious, cos voldemort was the baddie, and me and geegee were sitting on the balcony yelling "we love you!" or "georgia wants to marry you!" or "i would!" everytime he came on. twas legend. but then mr dowsett had to come and sit on the balcony too, so we stopped yelling "i want to rape you"
lol, then the panto finished, so me, charn, nancy and geegee went to the music room and pissed about charn and nancy were watching michael mcintyre on charn's ipod, so me and geegee hung out with the sixth formers in the main music room and had cake lol, then they went home so we decided that i was gonna push geegee around on the spinny chair unfortunatly one of the wheel spokes on the bottom of the chair caught on a table leg, and she fell off and hurt her hip but 5 mins later we started again twas fun

so yeah, an altogether BRILLIANT day

love you all
xoxo

Guessing Lyrics Meme -2ND EDIT- ONLY 1 LEFT

*addictedtogerardway — Wed, 23 Dec 2009 07:52:58 PST

[come on people, ONLY 1 LEFT!!!!!! here's a clue: the name of the artist is an autumn month]
Stolen from

Step 1: Put your iTunes or equivalent on random.

Step 2: Post the first line from the first 25 songs that play, no matter how embarrassing.

Step 3: Bold out the songs when someone guesses correctly.

Step 4: Looking them up on Google or any other search engine is CHEATING.

1. Ann Boleyn she kept a tin, which all her hopes and dreams were in
2. Cast off the crutch that kills the pain
3. Thats M-O-N-E-Y, so sexy i
4. Ooh baby don't ya know i suffur, ooh baby can you hear me moan
5. Comparisons are easily done once you've had a taste of perfection
6. we are the crowd, we're c-comin out
7. i've exposed your lies baby, the underneath's no big surprise
8. if i could escape...
9. late dawns and early sunsets, just like my favourite scenes
10. sparkling angel, i believe, you were my saviour in my time of need
11. this night, walk the dead, in a solitary style
12. one two three, no where, yeah we're going nowhere fast
13. back to the street where we began, feeling as good as lovers can
14. i never had to say goodbye, you must have known i would have stayed
15. well lets go back to the middle of the day that starts it all
16. who gives a fuck about an oxford comma
17. turn away, if you could get me a drink
18. i'm tired of being what you want me to be
19. in this farewell, there's no blood, there's no alibi
20. i never, said i'd lie and wait forever
21. *various oohing noises* won't do but i can't help it, i love the way it feels, it's got me stuck between my fantasy and what is real
22. turn the lights on, every night i rest in my bed, with hopes that maybe i'll get a chance to see you when i close my eyes
23. what happens in vegas stays in vegas, but what if it don't
24. time is never time at all, you can never ever leave
25. somehow, everything's gonna fall right into place

hope you guess them
1.guessed by ~Unhappy-Doll
2.guessed by ~meganwayxo
3.guessed by ~Samosa-x
4.guessed by ~turnawayfromthesun
5.guessed by ~RozzySaurusRex
6.guessed by ~Samosa-x
7.guessed by ~Samosa-x
8.guessed by ~meganwayxo
9.guessed by *XXMCR-DevotedXX
10.guessed by ~Unhappy-Doll
11.guessed by *XXMCR-DevotedXX
12.guessed by ~RozzySaurusRex
13.guessed by *XXMCR-DevotedXX
14.
15.guessed by *XXMCR-DevotedXX
16.guessed by ~RozzySaurusRex
17.guessed by *XXMCR-DevotedXX
18.guessed by *XXMCR-DevotedXX
19.guessed by ~meganwayxo
20.guessed by *XXMCR-DevotedXX
21.guessed by ~turnawayfromthesun
22.guessed by ~Samosa-x
23.guessed by ~turnawayfromthesun
24.guessed by *XXMCR-DevotedXX
25.guessed by ~RozzySaurusRex

xoxo

Devious Journal Entry

*addictedtogerardway — Tue, 15 Dec 2009 08:57:34 PST

1.
When you looked at yourself in the mirror today, what was the first thing you thought?
ahhhh fuck i'm so ugly.
2.
How much cash do you have on you?
none
3.
What's a word that rhymes with "DOOR"?
your
4.
Favorite planet?
saturn
5.
Who is the 4th person on your missed call list on your mobile?
allie
7.
What shirt are you wearing?
my stupid school one
8.
Do you "label" yourself as anything?
uhhh an emo? idk
9. Name the shoe brand you are wearing.
not wearing any atm, but i was wearing some from... actually i can't remember, but they're my school ones.
10.
Bright or Dark room?
dark
11.
What do you think about the person who took this survey?
you mean me? or the person who i stealaged it from?
13.
What were you doing at midnight last night?
sleeping
14.
What did your last text message you received on your mobile say?
"hi its jenna. this is my new number. x"
15.
Where is your mailbox?
i has letterbox.
16.
What's a phrase that you say a lot?
"you suck" or "fuck you"
17.
Who told you he/she loved you last?
um... gee gee? idk
18.
Last furry thing you touched?
pass
19.
How many drugs have you done in the last three days?
none
21.
Favorite age you have been so far?
13, in january this year
22.
Your worst enemy?
idk actually, mebbe jamie bonner?
23.
Current image on your desktop?
disney princesses
24.
What was the last thing you said to someone?
"okay, bye"
25.
If you had to choose between a million bucks or to be able to fly what would it be?
flying
26.
Do you like someone?
yups
27.
what was the last song you listened to?
my chem- interlude
28.
If the last person you spoke to was getting shot at, would you jump in front of the bullet?
YES!!! i love allie
29.
If you could punch one person in your life right now, who would it be?
danni, jamie bonner, faye, fhionna... oh you sed one... um.... jamie.
30.
What is the closest object to your left foot?
the chair leg

right, that was pointless,
love you all
xoxo

Christmas Concert Lolage + 11th Dec

*addictedtogerardway — Fri, 11 Dec 2009 08:27:27 PST

okay, so yesterday was the xmas concert.
me and shuen went down to dartford and had a tiny bit of dinner and then spent the rest of the money on sweets.
i had:
250 ml red bull
bottle of coke
big packet of tangfastics
big packet of rainbow drops
skittles
mint gum
2 packets of lucozade tablets
and one of those cakes which are basically cornflakes dipped in chocolate

so yes, i was rather hyper.
i shared the tangfastics around, and most of them got eaten by fayekemi i think cos she was like "oh can i have one" every 5 seconds, so in the end i just gave her the packet.
i ate most of the rainbow drops, apart from the few i lobbed at sophie
OMG lol alice g and sophie bought dummies brough boots, and they went around with them on last nite, and alice was walking around school with it in her mouth all day today
it went on until 11, so consequently i am now shitwrecked.

anyway, moving on.
today was a bit shit in the morning. i cried my eyes out for about 10 minutes, then went to get a tissue and johanna and other sophie were trying to comfort me. then izzy asked what was wrong, so i had to tell her and that set me off again. but she's really good at comforting, so i was okay. german sucked balls.
english was okay cos we were doing creative writing about something that was actually interesting *shock horror*
double french sucked. as per usual.
at lunch i kept seeing alice whereever i went, it was so annoying. and lol, me, izzy, jo and sophie were raving in the loos whilst doing makeup. twas quite funny.
double geography was BORING cos charns wasn't there
jamie bonner was being a twat.

on the plus side, i don't think i fancy louise anymore.
also on the plus side, izzy is like the nicest person, especially when i'm upset. so even though she won't see this, thanks izzy you're awesome.

this weekend, i have to wrap presents, and bake a cake and do my geography report.... okay basically i have a lot of crap to do.

love you all
xoxo

I don't even know how i feel atm

*addictedtogerardway — Tue, 08 Dec 2009 08:46:10 PST

So let's just settle on "in love" shall we
Allie

i had senior choir today twas fun i'm standing right at the front D: but oh well. fuck, who am i kidding, i'm gonna get such bad nerves. at least gee gee is standing next to me and theres also this really nice sixth former standing the other side she's called tatiana or summat (idk how it's spelt)

me and alice m went to have christmas dinner, cos shuen wanted me to come with her. so we went, and then they didn't have any meat left so we got a free panini and a cookie each

Tag:

The rules are:
* Choose a singer/band/group.
* Answer using ONLY titles of songs by that singer/band/group.
* Tag 6 more people (let them know they've been tagged)

I chose: Evanescence

1. Are you male or female?
Snow White Queen

2. Describe yourself.
Going Under

3. What do people feel when they're around you?
Thoughtless

4. How would you describe your previous relationship?
Imaginary
(cos this is the first proper relationship i've ever been in)

5. Describe your current relationship.
Angel of Mine

6. Where would you want to be now?
Cloud Nine

7. How do you feel about love?
All That I'm Living For

8. What's your life like?
Weight Of The World

9. What would you ask for if you had only one wish.
You

10. Say something wise.
Hello

right, that's it, love you all
xoxo

Panic attacks are NOT fun.

*addictedtogerardway — Mon, 07 Dec 2009 09:31:50 PST

srsly not.
i had one in geography... fail.

anyway, sorry for not being online for a few days, i've been busy

i love my girlfriend!!!! you're beautiful, allie. I WIN! happy 27 days, honey

on another subject, its the xmas concert on thursday and i'm going down to dartford to have virtually no dinner, and spend the money on red bull and sweets

on the bad side, i have to learn the words to all i want for christmas is you... and i cba

twas charn's bday today HAPPY BIRFDAY HUN!!!

love you all
xoxo

Our Love's The Perfect Crime EDIT

*addictedtogerardway — Thu, 03 Dec 2009 08:57:01 PST

ahhh i love that song (i wanna- all american rejects) is one of mine and allie's songs

i'm in an alright mood right now.
today was legend in the morning we had drama, which was quite funny cos i had to pretend to be pregnant at one point, and then i played gwendolen from the importance of being earnest when we did the scene where gwendolen and cecily have the arguement. twas fun
next we had art and we were making designs for bags, based around the theme of punk rock
so i had an idea (and i really do not want comments from people saying "omg you're such an obsessive/stalker, get over it" etc cos it's only a goddamn idea so fuck right off)
MY IDEA:
last year's fun run (not the fun run just gone, the one before) alice g was dressed up in punk clothes with tartan skirt, paperclips through her ears etc, so i decided to draw a girl with punk clothes, cos i find the clothing style WAAY more interesting than anything else they gave us to do. so i drew a random girl and then designed the clothes (without coloring) and then cut her out and traced around it with sharpie pen onto the bag. i then colored it in... well you'll see what it turned out like, cos ima scan and post it on here

so yeah
love you all
xox

EDIT
okay, cancel the scan and post, my scanner is fucked. it wasn't me, i haven't used it for ages. so idk.
but basically the bag turned out awesome

fail in parts... but also a bit of win :)

*addictedtogerardway — Wed, 02 Dec 2009 09:06:36 PST

i had a breakdown this morning.
first i got up late, then i nearly missed the bus, and then when i got to school i was really upset. then izzy asked me what was wrong, and i couldn't tell her. then louise walked up behind us and went up the stairs next to where we were standing and izzy was like "is it abt louise?" and i blew my top at her and yelled "it's not fucking about her!"
then i went to my locker and found that SOMEONE had put a note in my locker saying something about "dead cat fan girl is a sexy beast" (i assumed it was louise, viera etc cos they've done that before) basically making fun of me. so i screwed it up and yelled "i'm not in the FUCKING mood!" and walked out of the locker room. by the time i got to the building where my form room is, i burst into tears. not cos of the note thing, just that was the last straw.
so i cried for about a minute, then charn and izzy came along and were like *hugs* and "what's wrong"... so i told them (again, nbot about the note thing particularly, the other thing)
later i found out that izzy put the note in my locker, cos she knew i'd think it was louise. she was only trying to be nice. unfortunatly, now she wants to put me and louise on speaking terms again. which is really not a good idea.
then in IT i was on my laz cos rachel was on a drama trip D: and mr dowling told me off for eating but at break, charn gave me her burger cos she was like "go on". aww she's so nice to me
in english, me and emily were on our larrys cos deri was supposed to be in our group and she was on the drama trip too. chemistry was boring, and katie and gee gee weren't there, so it was just me and shuen sitting at ze front. jodie made me a fairy ring lols. at lunch i felt sick, but hungry, so i ate anyway. me and shuen went up to the library and read our books for the whole of lunch and bunked choir rehearsal.
music was legend cos me, charn, yukyee, eloise, and tessa were just sitting around the piano singing disney songs
aaaand that was about it.

so yeah, hopefully i won't cut tonite, but don't be surprised.

anyway, love you all
xoxo

FESTIVITY!!!!

*addictedtogerardway — Tue, 01 Dec 2009 09:01:25 PST

*woot*
i'm feeling so festive atm!!!!

IT'S NEARLY CHRISTMAS!!!!

i've been listening to many classic xmas songs

I LOVE MY GIRLFRIEND!!! i missed you today honey

so yeah, i'm in generally a good mood and at guides tonite im gonna be helping the tinies make xmas stuffs

ahhh i love christmas

love you all
xoxo

The Cutest Meme EVER

*addictedtogerardway — Mon, 30 Nov 2009 09:02:26 PST

What the kiss means...
+Kiss on the stomach = "I'm ready"
+Kiss on the Forehead = "I hope we're together forever"
+Kiss on the Ear = "You're my everything"
+Kiss on the Cheek = "We're friends"
+Kiss on the Hand = "I adore you"
+Kiss on the Neck = "we belong together"
+Kiss on the Shoulder = "I want you"
+Kiss on the Lips = "I love you"

What the gesture means...
+Holding Hands = "we definitely love each other"
+Slap on the Butt = "That's mine"
+Holding on tight = "I don't want to let go"
+Looking into each other's Eyes = "I just plain love you"
+Playing with Hair = "Tell me you love me"
+Arms around the Waist = "I love you too much to let go"
+Laughing while Kissing = "I am completely comfortable with you"
+picking someone up off their feet = "that they love them fully and would do anything for them"

--Advice--
+Dont ask for a kiss, take one
+If you were thinking about someone while reading this,
you're definitely in Love.

isn't that so TOTALLY adorable!!!

cries

*addictedtogerardway — Mon, 30 Nov 2009 08:36:46 PST

Mummy...Johnny brought a gun to school
He told his friends that it was cool
And when he pulled the trigger back
It shot with a great crack
Mummy I was a good girl
I did what I was told
I went to school, I got straight A's, I even got the gold
But mummy when I went to school that day, I never said goodbye
I'm sorry mummy I had to go, but mommy please don't cry
When Johnny shot the gun he hit me and another
And all because he got the gun from his older brother
Mummy please tell daddy that I love him very much
And please tell Chris, my boyfriend, that it wasn't just a crush
And tell my little sister that she is the only one now
And tell my dear sweet grandmother that I'll be waiting for her now
And tell my wonderful friends that they were always the best
Mummy I'm not the first I'm no better than the rest
Mummy tell my teachers I won't show up for class
And never to forget this and please don't let this pass
Mummy why'd it have to be me no one deserves this
Mummy warn the others, mummy I left without a kiss
And mummy tell the doctors I know they really did try
I think I even saw a doctor trying not to cry
Mummy I'm slowly dying with a bullet in my chest
But mummy please remember I'm in heaven with the rest
Mummy I ran as fast as I could when I heard that crack
Mummy listen to me if you would
I wanted to go to college
I wanted to try things that were new
I guess I'm not going with daddy
On that trip to the new zoo
I wanted to get married
I wanted to have a kid
I wanted to be an actress
Mummy I wanted to live
But mummy I must go now
The time is getting late
Mummy tell my Chris
I'm sorry but I had to cancel the date
I love you mummy I always have
I know you know it's true
Mummy all I wanted to say is "mummy I love you"
In memory of the Columbian students that were lost
Please if you would
Pass this around
I'd be happy if you could
Don't smash this on the ground
If you pass this on
Maybe people will cry
Just keep this in heart
For the people that didn't get to say "goodbye"
Now you have two choices
1) repost and show you care
2)ignore it and you have just proven you have a low-down, cold-heart
(Please just copy and paste this on to your site and show that you care)

I look so younnng D:

*addictedtogerardway — Sun, 29 Nov 2009 04:10:07 PST

there are so many pics of me on rachel's myspace D: i mean, she looks good, and so does emily and everyone else, but i look like SUCH a freak (no diff from usual then)
lol there's some quite hilarious ones of rachel and shuen at last years xmas concert, ahhh goodtimes

i have some GOOOOOD plans for this year hopefully we can go to shuens (she lives like 5 mins away from school) or down to dartford to have dinner, then come back up and go to shreejis for red bull and lucozade tablets. who knows, there might even be skittles involved lol at shuen hyper on skittles

hmm... what's coming up...
well:
7/12- Charn's bday and all day rehearsal for xmas concert
10/12- xmas concert
11/12- 1 year since a certain event
14/12- secret santa day within our group also the day when i'm bringing in CAKE for lunchtime, for our group only tho
18/12- BREAK UP FROM SCHOOL
19/12- dawn's party

me and allie are going out again for all you people who have followed my life from the very beginning, this is brilliant I LOVE YOU ALLIE

ITTTTTS FEATURE TIME!!!
go check out ~Jodieex she is a photographer, and is just starting out on dA, so go give her lotsa support

right, i have homework to do today D:
love you all
xoxo

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YAST (yet another stolen tag)

*addictedtogerardway — Sat, 28 Nov 2009 10:08:34 PST

[x] You have a boyfriend/girlfriend

[x] you have your own room.

[x] You own a cell phone.

[x] You have an iPod/ mp3 player.

[x] Your parents are still married.

[x] You have more than 2 best friends.

[ ] There is a swimming pool in your backyard
T 0 T A L: 6

[x] you dress how you want to.

[ ] You hang out with friends more than once a week.

[ ] There is a computer/ laptop in your room.

[ ] You have never been beaten up.

[ ] You never cry more than twice a month.

[x] You are allowed to listen to the music you want to.

[ ] Your room is big enough for you.

[ ] People don't use you for something you have.

[ ] You have been to a concert.

T 0 T A L: 8

[ ] you have over 50 friends on Facebook. (I donÂt knowÂ

[ ] Your parents let you have a Facebook.

[x] You get allowance.

[ ] You collect something normal. (Books and tarot cardsÂalthough the latter is somewhat less than normal)

[ ] You look forward to going to school.

[ ] You don't wish you were someone else.

[ ] You play a sport.

[ ] You do something after school.

T 0 T A L: 9

[ ] you own a car.

[ ] You usually don't fight with your parents.

[ ] You are happy with your appearance. (mostly)

[ ] You aren't self-conscious at all.

[ ] You have never got a failing grade in your life.

[x] You have friends. (xxxxxxxxxxxxx!!)

T 0 T A L: 10

[x] you know what is going on in the world.

[x] You care about so many people.

[ ] You are happy with your life.

[x] You know more than one language.

[x] You own a pet.

[x] You know the words to 5 songs (+!)

[ ] you don't have any enemies (not as such)

[ ] you are a generally nice person.

T O T A L: 15

Now count your numbers and multiply by three.

My life is 45% happy!

ahahahaha FAIL. that's me.
failageing.
again.

haha, dw i'm in an alright mood cos i just made a cake (it's my dad's bday)

love you all
xoxo

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I HAS PICTURES edit

*addictedtogerardway — Fri, 27 Nov 2009 13:03:15 PST

of us.

nothing more needs to be said

iloveyoucaramia
xxxxxxxxx

EDIT
no one else has to understand this it's only me and allie that understand.
the original title will stay forever lost

ps. my girlfriend is a brilliant kisser and she has a very hot body I WIN

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breakdown

*addictedtogerardway — Fri, 27 Nov 2009 10:44:25 PST

i just had some stupid little breakdown cos i was looking through my past journals and found this in one of them:

"how it felt wen i held her hand and how it felt wen i buried my face in her hair, or when she held me close and i never wanted to let go"

and i cried because i'd almost forgotten that things were like that... once apon a time... things were perfect.
and then i went and ruined it.
i guess the memories hurt when i realise how i'm forgetting how it was before i ruined perfection. the only reminder of those times is seeing her... and it hurts. a lot.
fuck i hope SHE doesn't see this.
i really don't give a fuck if anyone else does, as long as they don't tell her... but i really would kill myself (emotionally) if she saw this...

love you all...
xoxo

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My Boob Muscle Hurts

*addictedtogerardway — Fri, 27 Nov 2009 09:24:42 PST

y'no, the muscle that's just above your boob... the one which stretches when you push your shoulder back. nm T_T

anyway, today was alright
twas own clothes day and i wore my mikey fuckin way tshirt, a black cardi, my red and black new look jacket, dark blue skinnys and black and white converse
a certain someone made my heart stop in assembly today... *sigh* she looked stunning. a million dollars doesn't BEGIN to cover it.

moving on, i had my german writing assessment, which went okay, i think *touch wood*
i finished before the time limit, so i went to the loos and rachel m was in there so we talked for a bit

i also had french, english and geography, but no one wants to here about that.
i have to do the geography research at some point D:

oh, also, georgia's baby likes mochas

sorry i didn't come online for very long lat nite, i had to revise for ze german.
KATIE, the wonderful katie, is going to bring in the next artemis fowl book for me to read, on monday YAAAAY!

on the bad side, i have this urge to cut... and louise's friends are really pissing me off. and i swear rowanna's friends are making fun of me. AM I JUST ONE BIG TARGET??? i think you'll find the answer is yes. i am both BIG *is fat* and a TARGET *will never tell on a friend of someone i fancy/used to fancy*

right, love you all
xoxo

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GEORGIA'S PREGNANT!

*addictedtogerardway — Wed, 25 Nov 2009 12:50:25 PST

no, she's not really, i just felt like saying that
cos thara put it on her facebook status that georgia was pregnant , and it's now an ongoing joke of sorts.
so yeah. GEORGIA'S PREGNANT!
ahhh music was LEGEND. me and georgia were fencing with drumsticks and i poked her stomach, so she clutched at her stomach and yelled "my baby! YOU BABY MURDERER!!" and then bethany came out of the practise room next door and we were like "sorry for the noise " lol, twas hilarious.

ANYWAY. i talked to jodie on the bus this afternoon and it's all okay. i cba to be mad anymore, it's boring. plus, i'm concentrating on killing mrs williams with a knife of some sort, cos she's fucking pissing me off. ooh first bad word of the journal

plus, my voice is now VERY dead cos we did singing in the first period of music i was doing my nails and she didn't notice, even tho charn was whispering (loudly) "THAT REALLY SMELLS" lol

right, i'm off to dry my hair
love you all
xoxo

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tbh...

*addictedtogerardway — Tue, 24 Nov 2009 08:40:01 PST

...i've had a shit day.
emily was upset. we were talking in english.
and jodie's got a dA
she was the one i was talking about yesterday.
i nearly had another breakdown. and also nearly bunked music.
i so shoulda taken that packet of fags last nite... i really want one.
lol dw, i've never smoked before, i just think that right now it might make me feel better. or worse. so i guess it's good i didn't nick them.

aaaand i'm bored.
my knife... it be calling me...
but that would mean walking over there. and walking equals pain atm.

god i sound so fucking emo.

you can tell i'm in a bad mood, cos i'm not using that many emotes.

PE sucked. apart from rachels random accent "ay-up" lol.
and english was a bit crap too. apart from mine and emily's chat was quite lol in parts.
music i was SO close to bunking, but then i decided to go and i swear it was like THE worst torture in the world. you guys know what i mean.
double maths SUCKED. full stop.

so yeah,
love you all
xoxo

ps. dw, i won't cut or smoke or whateva, i just really want to. but i won't. so don't worry.

Marian Call
...

Guess Who's Going To Die?

*addictedtogerardway — Mon, 23 Nov 2009 08:25:52 PST

jodie keith, that's who.

i can't believe her.

bitch.

she's SUCH a horrible bitch and a fucking liar.

almost as bad as jamie bonner (how i hate that stupid slut/bitch/gossipwhore)

but jamie bonner at least BASES stuff on truth, and what she says, no one will believe. at least katie, jamie lee, roxxy, sophie, shuen, georgia, alice m (etc) are on my side. so they probably won't tell the police if jodie is brutally murdered. ha, no, i'm just kidding. as much as it would please me to personally kill her, i'll get someone else to do the dirty work. again, only joking *rolls eyes* i'm not a psycho.

in other news, today was quite boring, actually. apart from that little excitement/murder planning, nothing much happened that i can remember. oh, i finally got my social ed excercise log done

love you all
xoxo

Marian Call

[link]
YAAAAAAAAY!!!!

in other news, i'm still ill D: and certain people are going to die. two, to be precise.
oh, plus sophie, cos she won't tell me this thing that she's supposed to be telling me, and it's annoying me.

sophie and shuen have the monday deadline to learn/write stuff by.

ps. did i mention heads are gonna roll?

love you all
xoxo

Marian Call

Frerard Song | Awesome Music | Fit Emos Click Here | The Big Contest

i've turned my foot over and sprained/bruised it. it now has a compression bandage on it.
basically, i landed funny on it yesterday evening, so i had an icepack on it, then my dad put a compression bandage on it before i went to bed. he took it off in the morning, and then my mom put it back on again.
in case you hadn't noticed, i'm still not in school today. yes yes, i am a lazy bugger, but i'm still a bit ill and i have my foot in a bandage and i can't walk, okay?
i also STILL have to do this english essay. i have done about a third of a page, which is not much, considering it has to be 3 pages. funtimes. not.

so yes, i'm bored again. and my foot is in pain.

on the bright side, i've lost a third of a stone since being ill (i weighed myself this morning)

love you all

Marian Call
Frerard Song | Awesome Music | Fit Emos Click Here | The Big Contest

stolen from ~CursedArchangels

[ ] - Dust scares you.
[ ] - Your mother had more than 2 children.
[ ] - You are a smoker.
[ ] - You drink a lot.
[x] - You like to write.
[ ] - You are religious.
[x] - You like to burn candles.
[ ] - You prefer juice or water over soda.
[x] - You have ridden a horse.

TOTAL SO FAR = 3

[ ] - You have done drugs.
[ ] - You are currently a drug addict.
[x] - You are very artistic.
[x] - You like stuffed animals.
[x] - You are attracted to shiny things.
[x] - You have eaten a bug before
[x] - You love cars. (doesn't everyone?)
[x] - Cats are your favourite animal.
[ ] - You hate animals.
[x] - You are spontaneous and random

TOTAL SO FAR = 10

[x] - You like fruit a lot.
[ ] - You drive.
[x] - You make / made good grades in school.
[ ] - You are going / are in / have been to college
[x] - You like for things to be very clean.
[ ] - You are very messy.
[x] - You love to eat.
[x] - Christmas is your favourite holiday.
[x] - You like the beach.
[ ] - You hate the colour pink.

TOTAL SO FAR = 16

[ ] - You wear glasses or contacts.
[x] - You chat online a lot.
[ ] - You always use correct grammar.
[x] - You like to take quizzes.
[ ] - You eat out at restaurants more than you eat at home.
[x] - You enjoy swimming.
[x] - You have more than 5 pets.
[x] - You have more than 10 pets. (used to, about 2 weeks ago)
[ ] - You believe in ghosts.
[ ] - You have seen a ghost.

TOTAL SO FAR = 21

[x] - You prefer comedy movies over romance movies.
[x] - You like dancing, either doing it yourself or watching.
[ ] - You have been to a strip club.
[x] - You drink coffee in the morning.
[x] - You like to be awake at night.
[x] - You don't go outside often (god no, i HATE the sun )
[x] - You love to read
[ ] - You believe in an afterlife of some kind.
[x] - You have/had short hair.
[x] - You know how to cook well.

GRAND TOTAL = 29

Answers

0 - 1 = Mosquito.
2 - 3 = A weed.
4 - 5 = Daisy.
6 - 7 = Janitor.
8 - 9 = Goose.
10 - 11 = Rock.
12 - 13 = Fireman.
14 - 15 = Rose.
16 - 17 = Mouse.
18 - 19 = Cow.
20 - 21 = Rabbit.
22 - 23 = Mental Patient.
24 - 25 = Grass.
26 - 27 = Water.
28 - 29 = Bat.
30 - 31 = Hippo.
32 - 33 = Crocodile.
34 - 35 = Vampire.
36 - 37 = Horse.
38 - 39 = Hawk.
40 - 41 = Spider
42 - 43 = Flea.
44 - 45 = Princess or Prince.
46 - 47 = President
48 - 49 = Fangirl

there seems to be no point to this tag...

Marian Call

My phoneline is fixed and i'm home ill

*addictedtogerardway — Mon, 16 Nov 2009 06:41:43 PST

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i am HOME ill. and everyone else will be in random lessons, and i'd be in IT. so ha.
i have been doing basically nothing all day, just sitting around.
i had 2 nuerofens, so i feel a bit better. i had egg and toast soldiers for lunch and i just watched neighbours avec my mom the BT man came round and fixed our phone line so i have a home phone again so i shall be calling allie and georgia tonight so we can has LONNGGG chats on ze phone to make up for loss of phone time over ze weekend
you see, you can tell i'm feeling better, cos i'm using emoticons again but i won't be going into school 2moz, cos i have to do my english essay before i go back, so i think i'll take another day off to make sure i get it done and also, i want to miss tuesday cos we have a maths exam and double english. although i don't really want to miss music. music is fuuuuun but then again, i haven't been practising the song we were meant to be learning, cos i have a cough and a sore throat D:

doctor who was BRILLIANT!! but, for all the hype it had for being "super scary", it wasn't that frightening after all. but it was still good

love you all
[still no hugs or kisses just in case]

Marian Call

Bored and ill, so i'm doing a meme :D

*addictedtogerardway — Sun, 15 Nov 2009 07:29:06 PST

Frerard Song | Awesome Music | Fit Emos Click Here | The Big Contest

stolen from

EMO
[x] you own at least 5 black shirts (try all of them)
[x] you like skinny jeans
[ ] you're listening to music right now
[x] you have painted your fingernails black before
[x] You have more than 300 songs on your ipod/mp3
[ ] Have attempted suicide
[x] Like the color black
[ ] hate girly girls
[x] have kissed the same sex before
[ ] Like to be alone
[ ] hate popular music
[x] keep hair in front of your face
[x] give people evil stares
[x] Hate your parents or one of them
[x] Life sucks for you right now
[x] have been called Emo
[ ] Dislike the colours pink, green, teal and baby blue
[ ] own thick-rimmed glasses
[x] Complain a lot
[ ] own a studded belt
Total: 12

PART TWO:
SLUT/MAN WH0RE
[ ] own more than 10 minishorts
[ ] own more than 10 miniskirts
[ ] have kissed more than 7 people
[x] have been called a slut
[ ] drink a lot
[x] You wear dark eye makeup
[x] wear low cut shirts
[x] have been called a tease
[x] Flirt with everyone
[x] love the opposite sex
[ ] Go to parties/sleepovers at least once a week
[x] wear tight clothing
[ ] own 5 tube tops
[ ] you've kissed more than 2 guys/girls
[ ] Like wearing swimsuits
[x] Sit on the opposite sex's lap
[x] People hate you
[x] Its nice to be naughty
[x] you cuss because you think its fun
Total: 11

PART THREE:
JOCK
[ ] own at least 5 jerseys
[ ] Have 10 or more trophies
[ ] Wear hair up almost everyday
[ ] Love sports
[ ] Own 5 or more sweatpants
[ ] DonÂt wear makeup
[ ] Have played lacrosse
[x] Play/played more than 2 sports
[ ] Play sports
[ ] Can play a sport if you've never played it before
[ ] On first string
[ ] You play/played Tennis
[ ] You play/played Basketball
[ ] You play/played baseball-softball
[ ] You play/played soccer
[ ] You run/ran track
[ ] You play/played football
[ ] Been called a jock
[ ] Have set a record
[ ] Are friends with your coach
[ ] Love watching sports
[ ] can do 17 push-ups in 20 seconds
Total: 1

PART FOUR
GIRLY
[ ] Own at least 5 polos
[x] Own at least 5 pink shirts
[ ] Own at least 5 designer bags
[ ] Wear ribbons in your hair sometimes
[ ] Love pearls
[ ] Only like popular music
[ ] Read tons of magazines
[x] Love shopping
[x] Go shopping usually once a week
[ ] Voted prom queen
[ ] Have dated a jock
[ ] Like attention
[x] Always have your cell phone with you
[x] Have more than 50 contacts on your phone
[ ] More than 30 guy contacts
[ ] Hate Emo people
[x] Wear make up
[ ] Is stupid
[x] Wear heels
Total: 7

PART 5:
NERD
[ ] Wear your pants above your belly button
[ ] Wear glasses/contacts
[ ] have/had braces
[x] In/have been in advanced classes
[ ] On Math team
[ ] Have all A's
[ ] Have been called a nerd
[x] Has been bullied
[ ] LOVE to learn
[ ] Like/Liked your teachers
[ ] Watch history channel
[ ] Never go anywhere on the weekends
[x] Have been called weird
[ ] Scared to talk to the opposite sex
[x] DonÂt have pictures of yourself on MySpace (i don't HAVE a myspace)
[ ] Read a book a month in your leisure time
[ ] You read on your last spring break
[ ] Have your own website
[ ] Wear pocket protectors
[ ] Done/does test corrections when you got above a 90 on it
[ ] Did/does extra-credit when average is over an 85
[ ] Take notes on what the teachers tell you not to worry about.
Total: 4

PART 6:
THUG
[ ] own baggy/ long clothing
[ ] like to talk like a thug
[x] you own gold/ silver necklaces
[ ] have a flat brimmed hat
[ ] like to wear a certain colour because of a gang
[ ] you are in a gang
[ ] you mostly listen to rap music
[ ] you own clothes from lines such as ecko, sean john, g unit, 69, south pole, rasta, notorious
[ ] you have a nice sound system in your car
[ ] you never walk... you strut
[ ] you donÂt like haters from riv...

I'm illlllll D: fail

*addictedtogerardway — Sun, 15 Nov 2009 05:54:54 PST

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and the point is- I DON'T WANT TO BE ILL!! usually i would WANT to miss monday, cos i have double physics, rs, geography, social ed, FRENCH and IT. but, in geography we're planning a lesson to present to the rest of the class in groups, and i don't want to be dumped with summat i dn't want to do. in french, i'm getting chocolate cos i got 20/20 in my last vocab test. and at lunch, i've booked the drum room so we can all practise as a group, and the only reason i've booked that room is so I can use the freakin drums!!! so i sorta want to go into school. i want to miss tuesday tho. i've got double maths, a maths exam, ENGLISH where i have to hand in an essay that i haven't even started yet, and last week in music, i had a panic attack! and i don't really want that to happen again! plus, i've also got PE in the afternoon... D: which i LOATHE with a vengance.

so life is SLIGHTLY sucky atm.

plus the fact that i STILL have no home phone- my dad says it's the actual phone equipment, and the warranty doesn't cover lightening damage, so he's gone to get a new phone... greaaaaat. not. well i mean it's good that he's gone to get a new phone, but NOT good that we're gonna have to set up the phone with all the numbers ALL OVER AGAIN!!!

suckyness.

and before anyone asks, i can't call anyone on my mobile cos i've got Â£3 which has to last till the end of the month. do you know how long that is???

i have a horrible headache, i'm sitting in bed with my dressing gown on, but i keep having to take it off and then put it on again cos i have a wierd temperature. i have a cough and it hurts to breathe. i'm also hungry, but it makes my head die to stand up and then walk down the stairs. so yes, fail all round.

i'm sorry this is such a complainey journal, but that's just how i feel right now.

i have to write a note/email to georgia so she can tell the relavent people stuff that i would tell them if i was actually in, or had a phone with more credit.

love you all
[no hugs or kisses, you might catch what i've got]

Marian Call

Frerard Song | Awesome Music | Fit Emos Click Here | The Big Contest

yeah, a very strange day.

so first of all, i woke up, and then it started thundering and lightening, but it wasn't raining, and the time between the lightening and the clap of thunder was so short that it must have been nearly overhead. then there was this really bright flash of lightening, and it lit up my whole room, even though the curtains were closed. a split second later there was an almighty clap of thunder, so loud it shook some houses (that's what i heard from people who were right underneath it) and set my mom's car alarm off. seriously. i'm actually not joking.
after, it started raining really heavily, and we were driving to and from piano lesson and there were MASSIVE puddles across the road. so much so, they were labelled as "flood". again, no joke.
when we got home, the wind started up, and it was like a gale out there! the trees and the bushes and the telephone wires were dancing all over the show and then, i tried to call allie, and all that came out of the phone when i dialed (instead of "ring ring") was a static crackle. my dad went to investigate, and he thinks its cos of the high winds or the storm this morning that the phone lines have been slightly dislodged from somewhere, and its disconnected.
also, we had someone from essex come to pick up a kitten, and she didn't turn up cos dartford bridge was closed cos of the winds.
once more, i'm REALLY not kidding.

also, i'm feeling pissed off (cos i can't call allie) and slightly ill, i have a headache and i was coughing earlier. i think i've caught it off my mom... D: i CAN NOT be off school on monday cos we've booked the drum room for monday lunchtime, and i have to be there. i really hope i feel better 2moz.

love you all
xoxo

p.s. DOCTOR WHO TOMORROW!!!

Marian Call
Frerard Song | Awesome Music | Fit Emos Click Here | The Big Contest

WINK.

that is all.
thank you.

you all just lost the game. ahahahahahaha

Marian Call
Frerard Song | Awesome Music | Fit Emos Click Here | The Big Contest

i had a panic attack today.
in music (3rd period).
i was moved to near where alice was sitting and i started hyperventilating. and then shaking. and so i went out of the class, had a drink, and walked around for a bit with charns.

in english, i didn't want to be there and i was still feeling shitty, so i went to the loos, then to KS4 area to talk to mrs marshall. she's nice. i told her most of the problem (abt alice) but didn't mention names, cos i didn't want to get her involved. i don't really want alice to know that my panic attacks are about her.

so i cried my eyes out in mrs marshall's office for about an hour, and missed all of double english and got a chocolate biscuit
but it still hurt.
and now georgia's gonna drag me to ze doctor. as promised. but i aint goin, seriously, what's a doctor gonna do? nothing. thats what they'll do.

anyway.

love you all
xoxo

p.s. this is my new friendie, who is very awesome and pretty

Marian Call
Frerard Song | Awesome Music | Fit Emos Click Here | The Big Contest

thanks to deviantART being awesome, non-premium members can now get journal skins!!!
now, the only reason i have twilight, is cos a) i'm just that cool and b) i'm really psyched for new moon
yes, i like twilight. SUCK IT UP BITCHES.
but i don't like rpatz. he's fugly. no offence.

anyway, LOVE YOU ALL
xoxo

[link]
you can listen for free, and download her tracks from a link on the Listen page.
Dark Dark Eyes has got to be my favourite song of hers, it's so beautiful, like her she's also unbelievably gorgeous.

i have to thank `Cyantre for posting pictures of her, so i then went to listen to her music. thankyou so much

love you all
xoxo

:P tag stealage

*addictedtogerardway — Sat, 07 Nov 2009 08:53:04 PST

What colour/kind of socks are you wearing?
[ ] Red = loud
[ ] Green = stupid
[ ] None = freaky
[ ] Fuzzy = gorgeous
[ ] Yellow = innocent
[ ] Purple = a little too happy
[ ] Black = Emo
[ ] Stripes = funny
[ ] Gray = skanky
[ ] Pink = preppy
[ ] Light blue = sweaty
[ ] Other = hot
[x] White = sexy

What kind of bottom half are you wearing?
[ ] Shorts = cutie
[ ] Skirt/skort = skank
[ ] Corduroy = faggot homosexual
[ ] Tight jeans = scene kid
[ ] Ripped jeans = Emo
[ ] Camo = cage fighter
[ ] Jeans = prep
[ ] Cargo = clown
[ ] Sweats = athlete
[ ] Boxers = brat
[ ] Booty shorts = female
[ ] CapriÂs = Gangster
[ ] Nothing = hoe
[ ] Dickies = weirdo
[ ] Bikini bottoms = Tiki girl
[x] Skinny jeans = beast
[ ] Other = sex addict

What is your natural hair colour?
[ ] Auburn = that every one wants to make out with
[ ] Blonde = with a broken heart
[ ] Black = with a sexy smile
[ ] Dark brown = with a hot boyfriend/girlfriend
[ ] Red = that likes to have fun
[x] Brown = who loves to be different
[ ] Dirty blonde= with sexy eyes
[ ] Bald = with herpes
[ ] Other = with a nice ass

Pick the month you were born on:
[ ] 1 = who got stabbed horribly by
[ ] 2 = who needed
[ ] 3 = who killed
[ ] 4 = who shot
[ ] 5 = who killed
[ ] 6 = who smoked with
[ ] 7 = who farted on
[x] 8 = who ran shirtless with
[ ] 9 = who ate
[ ] 10 = who cuddled with
[ ] 11 = who slept with
[ ] 12 = who ran naked with

Pick the day you were born on:
[ ] 01 = the kool-aid man
[ ] 02 = a dog
[ ] 03 = a shoe
[ ] 04 = a toothbrush
[ ] 05 = Santa Claus
[ ] 06 = The Trojan man
[ ] 07 = Barney the dinosaur
[ ] 08 = a prostitute
[ ] 09 = a porn star
[ ] 10 = a bag of weed
[ ] 11 = a lover
[ ] 12 = a glass of milk
[ ] 13 = a horse
[ ] 14 = a lesbian
[ ] 15 = a stripper
[ ] 16 = a pickle
[ ] 17 = a Jew
[ ] 18 = a homo
[ ] 19 = an orange
[ ] 20 = a dildo
[ ] 21 = a homeless guy
[ ] 22 = a whore
[ ] 23 = my crush
[ ] 24 = an Easter egg
[ ] 25 = a jar of honey
[ ] 26 = a condom
[ ] 27 = a bowl of cereal
[ ] 28 = a French fry
[x] 29 = Shakira
[ ] 30 = Paris Hilton
[ ] 31 = YOUR MOM

Pick the colour of the shirt you are wearing
[ ] White = because I love marijuana
[ ] Black = because IÂm sexy as hell
[ ] Pink = because the voices told me to
[ ] Blue = because I have AMAZING boobs
[ ] Red = because I'm a pimp and your jealous
[ ] Polka Dots = because I hate my life
[x] Purple = because I'm gay
[ ] Gray = because I got dared
[ ] Other = because that's how I roll
[ ] Green = because I'm good in bed
[ ] Orange = because I smoke crack
[ ] Turquoise = because I have a noodle in my nose
[ ] Brown = because I had to
[ ] Shirtless = because I've got abs

I'm a sexy beast who loves to be different who ran shirtless with Shakira because i'm gay.

LOL love it

It's been changed AGAIN xD

*addictedtogerardway — Fri, 06 Nov 2009 11:51:08 PST

we've decided that a medley is WAY too much work, so we're just gonna do "last christmas". that means i have SO much less work
and now... the final line up:
Georgia and Alice M: Singing
Sophie: Guitar and Support Singing
Alice G: Bass Guitar
Shuen: Piano
Me: Drums

and i have the PERFECT drum beat for last christmas, AND IT'S SO VERY SIMPLE! but i'll have to put some extra bits in there, but on the whole, i have not very much left to do!
Help sophie write alice's bassline
Sort out shuen's piano (we've adjusted the lyrics on the last bit)
Finish writing a drum beat
Book some after school rehearsals if we can't get enough time at lunchtimes

I CAN'T WAIT FOR CHRISTMAS!!!!

love you all
xoxo

MEEEEEEME!!!!!!

*addictedtogerardway — Thu, 05 Nov 2009 09:07:33 PST

Boy/Girl Quiz

Your Boy Side:
[X] You love hoodies.
[x] You love jeans.
[] Dogs are better than cats.
[x] It's hilarious when people get hurt.
[x] You've played with/against boys on a team.
[] Shopping is torture.
[] Sad movies suck.
[] You own an X-Box.
[x] Played with Hotwheels cars as a kid.
[] At some point in time you wanted to be a firefighter.
[x] You own a DS, PS2 or Sega.
[] You used to be obsessed with Power Rangers.
[] You watch sports on TV.
[] Gory movies are cool.
[x] You go to your dad for advice.
[] You own like a trillion baseball caps.
[] You like going to football games.
[] You used to/do collect baseball cards.
[] Baggy pants are cool to wear.
[] It's kinda weird to have sleepovers with a bunch of people.
[x] Green, black, red, blue, or silver are one of your favorite colors.
[x] You love to go crazy and not care what people think.
[] Sports are fun.
[x] Talk with food in your mouth.
[] Wear boxers.

TOTAL: 9

Your Girl Side
[x] You wear lip gloss.
[x] You love to shop.
[x] You wear eyeliner.
[x] You have some of the same shirts in different colors.
[x] You wear the color pink.
[] Go to your mom for advice.
[x] You consider cheerleading a sport.
[] You hate wearing the color black.
[x] You like hanging out at the mall.
[x] You like getting manicures and/or pedicures.
[x] You like wearing jewelry.
[x] Skirts are a big part of your wardrobe.
[x] Shopping is one of your favorite hobbies.
[x] You don't like the movie Star Wars.
[x] You are/were in cheerleading, gymnastics or dance.
[x] It takes you around 1 hour to shower, get dressed, and put on make-up and accessories.
[] You smile a lot more than you should.
[] You have more than 10 pairs of shoes.
[x] You care about what you look like.
[x] You like wearing dresses when you can.
[x] You like wearing body spray/perfume/cologne.
[x] You wear girl underwear.
[x] Used to play with dolls as little kid.
[x] Like putting make-up on someone else for the joy of it.
[] Like taking pictures of yourself with your cell phone/camera when you're bored.

TOTAL: 21

yup, i'm definatly a girl!!
mind you, most of those things on the girl side, like how long you take getting ready, do you care about how you look, whether you wear eyeliner and lipgloss etc, were cos i hate my face and body, and i'm very ugly. lol

love you all
xoxo

There She Goes, So Perfectly...

*addictedtogerardway — Wed, 04 Nov 2009 08:22:23 PST

...The kind of flawless I wish I could be.
Taylor Swift: Teardrops on My Guitar <3

jeez that song reminds me of alice.
and i kept staring today. in music. i didn't MEAN to, i just found myself looking at her, and then she'd look up and catch my eye and i'd look away like i was looking at the clock.
ah, she's beautiful...

anyway, i seem to have had no panic attacks for... wait for it... 6 WHOLE DAYS!!! yay.
georgia sed that if i had another panic attack she'd drag me off to hospital herself. lol
i think i'm improving with the whole "not having panic attacks every single time i see alice" thing.

i took my ipod to school as usual, and i have "pint sized romeo" (the frerard song) on it, and i played it to katie, sophie and emily. they love it

love you all
xoxo

Eating Halloween Candy

*addictedtogerardway — Sun, 01 Nov 2009 02:22:45 PST

yes. addictedtogerardway is eating halloween candy.

*is going to be SO fat*
and i lost a load of weight by eating virtually nothing on thursday... DAMMIT.
oh well, i'm going to jujitsu on monday night, so i'll burn it off then

lol, looking back at my journal history, i've just realised how much i CAPSLOCK rape everyone in my titles lmao

uhhhh i have LOADSA hwk to do today, and i shouldn't be on here... but who cares. well i do, but thats beside the point.

things that i have to do in the near future that is going to put me under a lot of stress and possibly create panic attacks:

write and help organise this medley
chase sophie to write her guitar solo
chase shuen to learn her piano part
write the drum beat
do lots of hwk and coursework
sort out my personal life
start on this new project
get enough downtime (like that's gonna happen)
don't have panic attacks (ditto)

so yeah. WAAAAAAY too much to do.
i'm also gonna try and spend LESS time on here, cos i just don't get any downtime anymore, and i have to rest, because i hate being under pressure and stress, cos it leads to panic attacks. i will also not be getting enough sleep during the term, so i need to get more of that. which isn't gonna happen, but oh well.

right, love you all (and i'm glad allie's back)
xoxo

Ieroween, Scared Shitless and New Chair

*addictedtogerardway — Sat, 31 Oct 2009 08:26:51 PDT

ahhhh lol
freaky friday FTW
i went to this freaky friday thing and there were basically all these actors and props etc EVERYWHERE, and even though we all knew it was fake and not real and underpaid actors, IT WAS STILL SCARY! i screamed. alot. and so did rachel (not the one i went out with yest). oh the win but slight fail

also, ITS IEROWEEN!!!! (or halloween, as some call it) YAAAAAAAY!!! happy birthday frankie
anyway, LUCKY ME has had no panic attacks *happy face* for the last 2 days

and I HAVE A NEW CHAIR!!
for those who spend a lot of time talking to me on here, you might have noticed that i complain about my back hurting alot. it's cos of the chair that i sit on to use the laptop at my desk is really uncomfortable and doesn't support my back properly. so me and my mom went to ikea this morning and got me a new chair. its black. and leather. okay, imagine the "i've been expecting you, mr bond" scene, minus the evil villain and white persian cat, and thats the chair i'm talking about.

so yeah, love you all,
xoxo

Alesha Dixon's Song, plus My New Project

*addictedtogerardway — Fri, 30 Oct 2009 09:26:37 PDT

[link] go watch this, it's brilliant. a beautiful song

i'm going to start a new project of all the beautiful and brilliant women of modern music, including beyonce, shakira, taylor swift, amy lee and many more. i'm going to take screenshots out of their music videos, because i dont want use the publicity photos, and then i'm going to draw them, but it won't necessarily be a whole body picture, and it won't necessarily be an A4 piece.
i'm looking forward to doing this, but what i'm going to BAN, before anyone even comments on this journal even, the beauty i'll be portraying in the pictures is what I see, so i don't want "oh that's so crap it looks nothing like her" or "i really don't think she's pretty, how can you think she's even slightly pretty" or "i hate her music" or "she was involved in [such and such] a scandal" or anything like that. okay? this is about who i think is pretty and makes good music, and has nothing to do with anything else.

love you all,
xoxo

I TOLD MY DAD I'M BI

*addictedtogerardway — Fri, 30 Oct 2009 08:00:28 PDT

yes.
you heard right.
no, it's not a joke.
no seriously, it's not a joke.
i have ACTUALLY told my dad that i'm bisexual.

its cos of these panic attacks. i was sorta worried about them this morning, so i told him that i kept having panic attacks, so he asked why... well actually i didn't really tell him the reason, i just sorta told him i was bi and then forgot about the actual reason for having the panic attacks
anyway, he didn't really care, and to a certain extent, i don't think he REALLY believes me, but oh well.
then he asked why i thought i was, so i said "because i fell in love with a girl" lol i was thinking 'duh'.

anyway, thats it for THAT news, i also went out for coffee with rachel aka yesterday when i was getting off my first bus, to wait for the second one, i saw HANNAH DANIELS (aka the yr9 homophobic bitch) at the bus stop i was getting off at, so i just gave her evils, walked up to her and said "hi hannah" and sat down facing the other way.
then, when i got off my second bus, i saw another bus stopping behind my bus, and i thought "hey, that's the bus that alice gets on to go to school!" and then, looking in the window, who do i see, but jamie lee and alice. JAIME LEE AND ALICE. ALICE GIBSON. on a bus. fortunatly not looking at me. BUT STILL.
anyway, then i walked around with rachel for a bit, and we went into the park etc. there were quite a few fit guys actually. and we bought glow sticks
AND WE SAW FRODO BOY. oh lols.
after only an hour and a half of walking round, we went to her mums pub and then back to her house, then watched music channels on her MASSIVE tv for like 3 hours twas rather fun
btw, go check out framing hanley awesome band. and the lead singer is fit. which is a bonus

so yeah, i'm feeling okay! and the prophecising dreams have come true that i would tell my parentals that i was bi... AND I HAVE!

i will be watching the sarah jane adventures later AND THE DOCTOR IS IN IT

love you all,
xoxo

Hey BIATCHEZ ;);)

*addictedtogerardway — Wed, 28 Oct 2009 03:42:51 PDT

sarah is HAPPY SARAH still
and i'm listening to avenue Q again, just FTW and cos its that lols.

haha i had another panic attack last night, but i guess its all good cos i know how to control them now.
oh, thats right, you guys don't know about my panic attacks, do you well basically, they're not diagnosed, i just know they are panic attacks cos i looked up the syptoms and triggers and everything about them on several different sites on the web. so yeah, occasionally i have panic attacks.

anyway, i'm happy sarah atm, and i might be going down to dartford with raychell 2moz if she's not doing anything.

love you all
xoxo

STEALAGE!

*addictedtogerardway — Tue, 27 Oct 2009 03:19:48 PDT

STOLEN from

1. When you are stressed, what is the first thing you do?
i go in to OCD mode and start tidying etc

2. Does crying really make things better or worse?
it makes me want to kill myself... then after i finish, its sorta the same as before

3. Is there anyone you can tell everything to?
no. i never tell anyone EVERYTHING. but georgia gets pretty close, i tell her nearly everything.

4. What calms you down the most?
i don't know... i haven't really found anything yet... maybe... my stress ball made out of blutack?

5. Any kind of music that makes you feel better?
avenue q. defo.

6. Are you generally a happy person?
no.

7. What or who puts the biggest smile on your face?
rachel, possibly alice, but thats rare.

8. Do you ever over-react on the smallest things?
uhhh sometimes, but mostly in my head.

9. Ever suffer from bad depression or anxiety?
yup.. but not diagnosed.

10. Mad about something?
as in fangirl crazy? yes

11. Happy about something?
now? yes, i'm listening to avenue Q

12. Currently with someone?
with as in together? no, i'm single

13. Happy about that?
uhhhh not really, but i can live with it.

14. How long now?
not together.

15. Have you married this person or got engaged?
I'M SINGLE YOU TWAT.

16. Like to cuddle?
yush

17. Do you like sensitivity?
yush

18. Is your partner open about their feelings towards you?
no partner, but if i had a partner i'd want them to be.

19. Still in love?
yes

20. Do looks really matter?
not really, but everyone i fall in love with is pretty.

21. If they donÂt like your family or friends, does that really matter?
no... but my family wouldn't know if i dated a girl, cos they don't know i'm bi

22. Who starts the most arguments?
uhhhh my bestie shuen

23. Have besties in your life?
yes.

24. Who are they?
um, gee gee, shuen, alice m (sometimes), rachel p, rachel m, charns... i don't know if sophie, thara and other rachel count... they're more close friends, rather than besties.

25. Do you see them a lot?
yeah, they all go to my school

26. Do they like the guy/girl you are with?
not with anyone.

27. Which one lives the farthest away?
uhh.... charns? idk.

28. Do you get along with everyone?
yeah most of the time. but rachel, alice and shuen often have a lot of arguements with me, but with alice and shuen we get over them quickly...

29. Are you too nice of a person towards people?
hahaha i don't know, i guess i put up with shit, but i don't know.

30. Would you give anything to someone in need of help?
depends who it was.

31. Would you consider ever getting a tattoo of your bff on you?
nooooo.... i might consider getting a TINY tattoo, but defo not a big one *shudder*

32. What about your partner?
NO PARTNER YOU TWAT.

33. Know anyone two-faced?
yup: danni, shuen... actually most of my friends (apart from rachel, alice m and a few others) are 2 faced, not neccessarily with me tho

34. Are you a lover or fighter?
both.

35. Ever been in a fist-fight?
yes! its fun!

36. Have you been in a abusive relationship?
no

37. Are you more to verbally fight or physically fight?
verbally.

38. Do you consider yourself in shape?
no, i'm very fat (and people who say i'm not are very deluded)

39. What features do you wish to change?
EVERYTHING

40. Ever have anything from your body removed?
no...

41. Ever wonder w...

HAPPY SARAH (is still talking in 3rd person)

*addictedtogerardway — Tue, 27 Oct 2009 02:25:32 PDT

no actually i can't be bothered to talk in third person for a bit.
i'm dancing around my bedroom in my undies (they're sexy undies too) to britney spears- toxic, and shakira-she wolf. BECAUSE I'M THAT COOL.

anyway, the muffins went down very well
i'm off to have my hair done at some point during the hols.

THERES A GINGERISH STALKER UNDER MY BED!!!
wearing black lace lols u no wat i mean
(everyone else-don't ask)

anyways, sarah is in HAPPY MOOD!!!!! and is loving shakira being an awesome dancer i seriously wish i could dance like her

i'm using this new shampoo, the herbal essences- frizz fighter. it doesn't really work... but i guess it takes a few goes, and it smells really nice ^^

so how is everyone??

love you all,
xoxo

OFFICAL FRERARD SONG!!!! GO LISTEN NOW!!

*addictedtogerardway — Mon, 26 Oct 2009 05:21:50 PDT

[link] GO LISTEN NOW!!!!!!!!!!! The Vampire and His Pint-sized Romeo.
the most hilarious song ON THIS EARTH!!!!! and possibly the entire universe.

OFFICIAL FRERARD SONG!!!!!!! you will watch it... you will watch it...

that bloody well cheered me up

love you all,
xoxo

Sarah is being a twat and talking in 3rd person

*addictedtogerardway — Mon, 26 Oct 2009 01:59:25 PDT

Sarah has just made muffins.
Sarah has just made chocolate chip muffins.
Sarah has also just written a poem.
For you-know-who.
Not Alice.
(for once)
Sarah is feeling like shit.
Sarah has lost Her again.
Again.
Again.
Sarah has gone into OCD mode and tidied and cleaned the kitchen, and done the washing up.
Sarah went to bed at 7.30 last night.
Sarah was consequently woken up to have dinner at 9.
Sarah had dinner quietly and quickly, then went to bed.
Sarah cried herself to sleep.
Sarah fell asleep, and woke up this morning at half 6.
Sarah remembered her dream and smiled.
Sarah got up.
Sarah played with the kittens.
Sarah made muffins.
That is all Sarah has done today, and last night.
Sarah needs to get Shuens email.
Sarah has too much to do.
Sarah needs to make more muffins.
Sarah has too much to do.
Sarah has lost Her.
Again.
Again.
Again.
Funtimes.
(not)

Playing The Waiting Game

*addictedtogerardway — Sun, 25 Oct 2009 03:19:09 PDT

well i had a good sleep.... mostly... a certain person popped up in my dreams AGAIN, no surprises there.

Quote of the Day:
"Perceptive, isn't she?"

so how are you all? i still have those million and one jobs to do, but i'm not gonna stress, i just need to get shuen's email, and that's the main thing, so she can start learning. i'm sure thara knows most of the words to the songs we're doing, so that's no worry.
having it learnt AND putting it together in 5 weeks is gonna be the toughest part. as in, it has to be COMPLETELY finished and polished by then. oh dear. BUT, i'm not going to stress. this is my week of (supposedly) no stress.

and, thanks to a few people for the advice, especially *lordbeazy and ~Unhappy-Doll. you guys are awesome

FEATURRRE!!!!!!!
okay, this is a good friend of mine IRL, rachel, and she is ~RozzySaurusRex GO CHECK HER OUT!!! she has some awesome pics in her gallery, so
GO NOWWWWWW

right, i'm off to answer your messages and then start doing some jobs, and i have to go shopping later, so see u wen i come back online!

love you all
xoxo

deviantART: by:addictedtogerardway

Happy Birthday Bob!!!!

"Tuffy" xD

Another 2009 Review- But in Tag form

Yet Another Tag

2009 Review

Reorganised Gallery

Just a short one, but everyone must comment

Happy (Belated) Christmas!!!

OMG I LOVE MY GIRLFRIEND!!!!!

Blondie's Confessions + News at the Bottom

I'm Blonde

Heya All :)

MERRY CHRISTMAS EVERYONE!!!

lalalalalaaaaaaa

Yet Another Update

Heya Beautiful Peoples (that means all of you)

Guessing Lyrics Meme -2ND EDIT- ONLY 1 LEFT

Devious Journal Entry

Christmas Concert Lolage + 11th Dec

I don't even know how i feel atm

Panic attacks are NOT fun.

Our Love's The Perfect Crime EDIT

fail in parts... but also a bit of win :)

FESTIVITY!!!!

The Cutest Meme EVER

*cries*

I look so younnng D:

YAST (yet another stolen tag)

I HAS PICTURES edit

*breakdown*

My Boob Muscle Hurts

GEORGIA'S PREGNANT!

tbh...

Guess Who's Going To Die?

My phoneline is fixed and i'm home ill

Bored and ill, so i'm doing a meme :D

I'm illlllll D: *fail*

:P tag stealage

It's been changed AGAIN xD

MEEEEEEME!!!!!!

There She Goes, So Perfectly...

Eating Halloween Candy

Ieroween, Scared Shitless and New Chair

Alesha Dixon's Song, plus My New Project

I TOLD MY DAD I'M BI

Hey BIATCHEZ ;);)

STEALAGE!

HAPPY SARAH (is still talking in 3rd person)

OFFICAL FRERARD SONG!!!! GO LISTEN NOW!!

Sarah is being a twat and talking in 3rd person

Playing The Waiting Game

cries

breakdown

I'm illlllll D: fail