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will be uploading more pictures soon.

drawn art AND photoshopped! woo!

]]> ~agnosticambition http://agnosticambition.deviantart.com/journal/28325910/ http://agnosticambition.deviantart.com/journal/28325910/ Fri, 13 Nov 2009 03:35:06 PST I give everything I possibly can to this girl.

And then the first time she gets hurt (by an outside bit, her mom, nonetheless) she blames me and says I was a mistake.

I've about fixed everything for her too, got her ungrounded and whatnot most likely or at least made the punishment less harsh.

I'm really tired of all this.

I've got a month without computer (except for schoolwork and now when I'm on before school), phone, iPod, TV, going anywhere, and anything else you can think of.

She's probably got a week at most, if not nothing. And she probably still thinks I'm her biggest mistake.

Yeah, I made reference to "Feel Good Drag" by Anberlin.

suck on it.

]]> ~agnosticambition http://agnosticambition.deviantart.com/journal/28115609/ http://agnosticambition.deviantart.com/journal/28115609/ Mon, 02 Nov 2009 20:54:06 PST
what is this, Sparta?

and video for lulz purposes:
[link]

]]> ~agnosticambition http://agnosticambition.deviantart.com/journal/28076349/ http://agnosticambition.deviantart.com/journal/28076349/ Sat, 31 Oct 2009 23:34:37 PDT

Me mum ordered me some shirts ya.
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the third one:
Thy Will Be Done. Great band.

derp herp



so like.
if I made a "guess that song" thing and had the first prize at two of any types of art from me (I'd draw something or do it in Photoshop for the winner) and second place only got one, would anyone attempt it?

like
I'll post a journal once every two days with lyrics (Monday, Wednesday, Friday, Saturday, then repeat) and, after the first, with who got the lyrics right first last time. That'll go on for like, idk 15 journals. I'll shuffle my iPod and post some part of the song.


this is mostly just asking if anyone'll do it.


WILL YOU?

]]> ~agnosticambition http://agnosticambition.deviantart.com/journal/27485698/ http://agnosticambition.deviantart.com/journal/27485698/ Tue, 29 Sep 2009 12:58:42 PDT Listening to Silversun Pickups.

Making random faces.

Such as O_O

and

:C

:]

:L

:T

:J

1:

you get the idea.

[link]

WELL SEASONS ALWAYS SHIFT TOO LAAAAAAAAAAAAAAAAAATE
SPENT TOO MUCH TIME NOW I'M BENT SIDEWAYS

I TYPE TOO SLOW TO TYPE OUT LYRICS JAJAJAJAJA





gomf gomf gomf gomf
[link]

]]> ~agnosticambition http://agnosticambition.deviantart.com/journal/26025206/ http://agnosticambition.deviantart.com/journal/26025206/ Sat, 18 Jul 2009 11:57:20 PDT
and so far lol

I like Moses because he delivers his people and doesn't afraid of anything.




u c wut i did thar? brawl meme ftw

]]> ~agnosticambition http://agnosticambition.deviantart.com/journal/25640107/ http://agnosticambition.deviantart.com/journal/25640107/ Mon, 29 Jun 2009 22:11:03 PDT
two comments

9 faves

and a whole lot of








TWO HUNDRED FORTY-ONE DEVIATIONS








WHY?















WHYYYYYYYYYYYYYYYYYYYYYYYYYYYYYYYYYYYYYYY?











Is my art just that bad? ;___;



well RFI camp was amazing. Thanks for asking.

;___;

]]> ~agnosticambition http://agnosticambition.deviantart.com/journal/25255775/ http://agnosticambition.deviantart.com/journal/25255775/ Thu, 11 Jun 2009 14:01:05 PDT
FFFFFFFFFFFFFFFFFFFFFFFFFFFFFFFFFFFFFFFFFFFFFF

AND NO COMMENTS EITHER

GAWWWW.

]]> ~agnosticambition http://agnosticambition.deviantart.com/journal/25100566/ http://agnosticambition.deviantart.com/journal/25100566/ Wed, 03 Jun 2009 03:27:57 PDT
Not just my watchers either, anyone who comes through can ask for one. Just comment this journal and I'll get it done ASAP.

I actually thought this journal would be longer, *sigh*.


Oh, oh. On my iPod, I finally jailbroke it. :] I have several aesthetic apps and whatnot; it's really cool. I also got Resident Evil Degeneration and TouchGrind, both of which are simply amazing. :3

]]> ~agnosticambition http://agnosticambition.deviantart.com/journal/24884661/ http://agnosticambition.deviantart.com/journal/24884661/ Fri, 22 May 2009 03:38:04 PDT
I apologize for this.

But, I googled safety precautions and whatnot as to keep from hitting a nerve or a vein.

I didn't hit one. :]

The only problem is that it's sore from shoving an EARRING STUD (like the ball things) through my lip and then not realizing that it was through but to proceed pushing on it.

So my lip is very sore.

Otherwise, I did a good job. D:

]]> ~agnosticambition http://agnosticambition.deviantart.com/journal/24754642/ http://agnosticambition.deviantart.com/journal/24754642/ Thu, 14 May 2009 14:04:15 PDT
Best movie out there right now. I swear. 11/10.

<3 xD

]]> ~agnosticambition http://agnosticambition.deviantart.com/journal/24595335/ http://agnosticambition.deviantart.com/journal/24595335/ Tue, 05 May 2009 03:44:26 PDT


I hate that my messages consist of 20 deviations and 10 journals. It's rather saddening to open my messages and not have anything :<

Idk, it's most likely because of my slight absence and not really commenting on Deviations because I don't take pride in doing so.

Eh

To update other stuff;

-I'm somewhat retiring from CoDWaW. I'll still play but I don't play enough to actually say I'm a force to reckon with.
-I absolutely love having my iPod touch. I've gone absolutely nowhere without it.
-I absolutely love ~Cazilu. <3 She should get on Skype more often; maybe we need a set time to get online to meet each other. I might just be getting on at the wrong time.
-I'll be trying to upload some more photoshoppe soon. Lol fancy word.

Uhh. I think that's about it.

Remind me of une autre chose and I'll add it... D:

Kkthxbailuvu

]]> ~agnosticambition http://agnosticambition.deviantart.com/journal/24462022/ http://agnosticambition.deviantart.com/journal/24462022/ Mon, 27 Apr 2009 12:14:11 PDT
Let's see if I can get on this with it

idk

I'm typing the journal just incase I can't.

I'm downloading AIM and I might download Skype apps to it so give me your screen names

that includes you, Carys. <3

or rather just add me. Lol

WaffleTheEpic@aol.com and whatnot

Lub u gaiiiz

]]> ~agnosticambition http://agnosticambition.deviantart.com/journal/24298807/ http://agnosticambition.deviantart.com/journal/24298807/ Fri, 17 Apr 2009 21:31:10 PDT
Idk what they think they're protecting me from. If it's language or sexual bullshit, I could turn on the TV and find a channel in less than five minutes that has language or sex going on.

But yeah. I'll see if I can get on through my Wii Internet to check messages.

Sorry guys.

]]> ~agnosticambition http://agnosticambition.deviantart.com/journal/24271720/ http://agnosticambition.deviantart.com/journal/24271720/ Thu, 16 Apr 2009 10:27:01 PDT
Whichever spiteful asshole it was; great job. I had a horrible night last night, apologized for breaking a rule after a short scruff with a mod.

Go to hell.


I have a horrible migraine.



]]> ~agnosticambition http://agnosticambition.deviantart.com/journal/24254886/ http://agnosticambition.deviantart.com/journal/24254886/ Wed, 15 Apr 2009 11:00:04 PDT Amongst the crowds
Of all the people you've let down
We'll find a way to make this OK
We always skipped through the nights
It's all that we need to
And maybe it's all we could ever need
Just to make us feel alive

you are, you are you're all around(you're all around)
you are, you are you're all around(you're all around)
you are, you are you're all around(you're all around)
you are, you are you're all around(you're all around)

I will never give up on you for
All the times you've sat and stayed with me,
Tried and make me better
So now I'll try to let you know that
This is the English way to make a soul fit back together

Please don't speak these words, just save
Them, walk with me and take a trip
We'll only stop for water and some other things
We always skipped through the nights
It's all that we need to

And maybe it's all that we'll ever need
Just to make us feel alive.

you are, you are you're all around(you're all around)
you are, you are you're all around(you're all around)
you are, you are you're all around(you're all around)
you are, you are you're all around(you're all around)

I will never give up on you for
All the times you've sat and stayed with me
Tried and make me better
So now I'll try to let you know that
This is the English way to make a soul fit back together

Too many lives have been lost
Unto all this
Of too many people that have lost their voices

I will never give up on you for
All the times you've sat and stayed with me
Tried and make me better
So now I'll try to let you know that
This is the English way to make a soul fit back together

]]> ~agnosticambition http://agnosticambition.deviantart.com/journal/23941342/ http://agnosticambition.deviantart.com/journal/23941342/ Sat, 28 Mar 2009 20:56:00 PDT
I've been here for what, three years now and haven't subscribed yet.

I don't think I'm going to <__<

Unless someone buys me one. Which would be amazing of you.

But

News to come:
-More art
-CoD5 video
-More stupid journals
-I don't know but it'll come.

UNF!

]]> ~agnosticambition http://agnosticambition.deviantart.com/journal/23877121/ http://agnosticambition.deviantart.com/journal/23877121/ Wed, 25 Mar 2009 03:37:18 PDT Indisposed
In disguise
As no one knows
Hides the face
Lies the snake
The sun
In my disgrace
Boiling heat
Summer stench
neath the black
The sky looks dead
Call my name
Through the cream
And Ill hear you
Scream again

Black hole sun
Wont you come
And wash away the rain
Black hole sun
Wont you come
Wont you come

Stuttering
Cold and damp
Steal the warm wind
Tired friend
Times are gone
For honest men
And sometimes
Far too long
For snakes
In my shoes
A walking sleep
And my youth
I pray to keep
Heaven send
Hell away
No one sings
Like you
Anymore

Hang my head
Drown my fear
Till you all just
Disappear

]]> ~agnosticambition http://agnosticambition.deviantart.com/journal/23432362/ http://agnosticambition.deviantart.com/journal/23432362/ Fri, 27 Feb 2009 12:15:47 PST
One, I'm grounded from the computer. My dad's in Strasbourg, France on a business trip and my mom and sister are out doing something I'm completely oblivious of, so oh looky, sneakysneaky.

Two, I've lost both my iPod and my phone (depression and lack of well, paying attention and I manage to drop them both on the bus) so I'm without music and texting. My parents are supposed to replace my iPod soon and my phone company replaced my Rumor for free, since we've been with them for 4 years. The iPod was no big deal, but my parents flipped at the phone one D:

Three, we have a school dance coming up. Apparently it's called a blackout dance, with blacklights upon the walls and strobe lights flickering everywhere. I asked muh friend Marissa to go with me, and she said yes. That's awesssssssomeeeeeeeeeee! <3

(Marissa is hawwwt.)

Lastly, and most randomly. I'm sitting at the computer drinking the remains of a 2 liter bottle of mountain dew. And in my fund to buy a lip ring, I have... 5 dollah. ffffffffffff

Bai fur nao.

P.S. A Perfect Circle and Tool are the greatest bands ebar.

]]> ~agnosticambition http://agnosticambition.deviantart.com/journal/23137795/ http://agnosticambition.deviantart.com/journal/23137795/ Wed, 11 Feb 2009 12:07:43 PST
1) How much do they cost?
2) What kinds of places do them for cheap?
3) What's a good way to ask my mom for permission?
4) Anything else I might want to know?

I'd really appreciate the help I get.

<3

PS: I'll be uploading some more pictures soon. I found a bandana and my old sunglasses and guess what? I mixed them together to get a nice gangster look. I also have one of me looking like John Lennon.

]]> ~agnosticambition http://agnosticambition.deviantart.com/journal/23001348/ http://agnosticambition.deviantart.com/journal/23001348/ Wed, 04 Feb 2009 12:08:49 PST >_>
[link]

YOU'S TROLLIN

I IS NOT TROLLINNNN

]]> ~agnosticambition http://agnosticambition.deviantart.com/journal/22937096/ http://agnosticambition.deviantart.com/journal/22937096/ Sun, 01 Feb 2009 06:59:55 PST
Idk. I don't think I look anything like a colourful nob that does my photoshop stuff.

yay black exterior hiding colourful insides

wait what

So I haven't done much. Call of Duty and school run my life right now <___< Level 65 + another account at 18 right now. Gonna prestige the second. etc etc

<3 Gewehr 43

but idk. I uploaded some poetry and didn't get (m)any comments. Nor have I gotten much on my signatures/banners. Eh.

well I just needed to update I guess. Last Journal was Jan 14th... rawr

]]> ~agnosticambition http://agnosticambition.deviantart.com/journal/22583189/ http://agnosticambition.deviantart.com/journal/22583189/ Wed, 14 Jan 2009 17:39:36 PST
It's horrible, so don't read it. D:

rawr

]]> ~agnosticambition http://agnosticambition.deviantart.com/journal/22106158/ http://agnosticambition.deviantart.com/journal/22106158/ Sun, 21 Dec 2008 16:05:41 PST
I'll be busy doing that during most of Christmas break.

But if you want to post a request, note me and I'll get it done some time soon D:

I just want to level up mah character in CoD x3

kkthxbai

]]> ~agnosticambition http://agnosticambition.deviantart.com/journal/21991572/ http://agnosticambition.deviantart.com/journal/21991572/ Mon, 15 Dec 2008 04:09:31 PST
1- I'll answer with something random about you.

2- I'll dare you to try something

3- I'll say a color I associate with you.

4- I'll tell you something I like about you.

5- I'll tell you something I always remember about you / a first memory about you.

6- I'll tell you what animal you remind me of.

7- I'll ask you something I always wanted to ask you.

8- If I do this for you, you must put this in your journal

]]> ~agnosticambition http://agnosticambition.deviantart.com/journal/21835011/ http://agnosticambition.deviantart.com/journal/21835011/ Fri, 05 Dec 2008 16:52:55 PST
I haven't added much lately. Darn artist block <_<

But like, in Honors English we're doing poetry, so I might submit that. Idk. It's horrible.

But in an optimistic matter, there's a girl I like. I just met her a little while ago and stuff and like, idk. I doubt it's anything big, but I can hope. :]

Los Campesinos is pretty awesome. My friend David got me into them :0

"You! Me! Dancing!" and "Death To Los Campesinos!" are pretty beast songs. :]

k, uh. Idk anything else.

]]> ~agnosticambition http://agnosticambition.deviantart.com/journal/21549006/ http://agnosticambition.deviantart.com/journal/21549006/ Tue, 18 Nov 2008 11:11:07 PST
xD <3 you Pri. P:

I stayed home sick today, lol, due to sore throat and lack of being able to talk too well. I've been coughing every so often and sneezing, and my throat hurts like crap.

But yeah. The whole journal's just about how amazing is. Rawrrr

]]> ~agnosticambition http://agnosticambition.deviantart.com/journal/21490838/ http://agnosticambition.deviantart.com/journal/21490838/ Fri, 14 Nov 2008 19:34:26 PST
<_<

Needed to update. Lol life's pretty good right now I guess. I just don't sleep more than 3 hours a night ._.

I'll try to upload some art and stuff every so often. I just did, so you, the reader, should check it out

Well, back to the life scenario. School sucks.

1st block is PE, probably my best class in the day >_>,

2nd is Advanced Geometry. I sit across the class from anyone I'm friends with and I'm next to people that think I'm a creep. Woot. I also do HORRIBLE in this class on my grades. I do all the homework and stuff but I fail quizzes and tests. Had an F for the quarter but got an A on the midterm, so that's not horribly bad <____<

3rd is Honors English. I do well in this class but like, idk. It's just gay in it's own special way.

4th is Informative Technical Fundamentals. >__> Work with Microsoft Excel, Microsoft Access, Microsoft Word, and most likely we'll get into Publisher and other stuff. Horrid class.

I found out the girl I like doesn't want a boyfriend, and I think my best friend (who's amazing, don't get me wrong.) likes me, and I have no idea because I don't want to date her and ruin our friendship, but I also don't want to miss anything good that could happen between us.

Blech. But otherwise, life's pretty good.

]]> ~agnosticambition http://agnosticambition.deviantart.com/journal/21094367/ http://agnosticambition.deviantart.com/journal/21094367/ Tue, 21 Oct 2008 12:27:26 PDT Step 2: Post the first line (or so, some are hard) from the first 25 songs that play, no matter how embarrassing the song.
Step 3: Post and let everyone you know guess what song and artist the lines come from.
Step 4: Strike out the songs when someone
guesses correctly (No lyric hunting! That is cheating!)



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1. I am sitting, on the roof of my house, with a shotgun, and a six pack of beers

2. Mother nature is a coward, mother nature is a whore, no more presence no more power, I pray for death by the hour

3. Yea now let me see you work it, Let me see you work it, Just lay down, You've got me right here where I need it

4. I caught a glimpse, but it's been forgotten, so here we are again

5. Could it be a new day? Fear in me so deep, You push me out, I feel far, The absence, close to me, The other side I crawl, You push me out, I fall

6. You're keeping in step, in the line, got your chin held high and you feel just fine cuz you do what you're told, but inside your heart it is black and it's hollow and it's cold

7. My guilt and my shame, always sell me short always feeling the same, and my face and my soul, always wear me thin, always under control

8. Welcome home, While away, They have tampered with the locks, And your things they rearranged

9. I got my head but my head is unraveling, cant keep control can't keep track of where it's traveling, I got my heart but my heart's no good, you're the only one that's understood

10. He said "son have you seen the world, and what would you say if I said that you could? Just carry this gun, you'll even get paid" I said "that sounds pretty good".

11. Brother will kill brother, spilling blood across the land, killing for religion, something I don't understand

12. Only yesterday, they told me you were gone, all these normal people, will I find another one? Monkey on my back, aching in my bones, I forgot you said "one day you'll walk alone".

13. Butchered sincerity. Act out of loyalty. Defending free country. Wish away. Hey! Had a lobotomy. To save little family. Surrealistic fantasy. Bad boy. Fight!

14. I watched you walk away, Hopeless, with nothing to say, I strain my eyes, Hoping to see you again

15. And I'm good, good, good to go, I got to get away, Get away from all of my mistakes

16. Rise so high yet so far to fall, a plan of dignity and balance for all, political breakthrough, euphoria's high, more borrowed money more borrowed time

17. Carry out the sound, Past our eyes horizon, I'm standing still, I'm standing still, Waiting for this all to change, Now my hands are up. I'm walking out, I'm walking out, What do you expect of me?

18. And this is how it feels when I ignore the words you spoke to me, And this is where I lose myself when I keep running away from you, And this is who I am when, when I don't know myself anymore, And this is what I choose when it's all left up to me

19. Crazy fool, I was twisted, tainted, it's a crime to see, hey, it's a desperate proposition, you probably won't hear from me

20. I know you well, you are a part of me, I know you better than I know myself

21. I sneak in my own house,It's four in the morning, I had too much to drink, Said I was out with the boys, I creep in my bedroom, I slip into bed, I know if I wake her, I'll wake up dead

22. It was just another day, It was just another fight, It was words strung into sentences, It was doomed to not be right

23. Let the bodies hit the floor, let the bodies hit the floor, let the bodies hit the floor, let the bodies hit the floor (Oh God this is facking obvious)

24. And you're tired of your Mum, And you're tired of your Dad, Got you jumping through hoops, Got you shaving your legs, Let it pass, let it pass, let it pass over you

25. I am a big man, yes I am, and I have a big gun, got me a big old stick and I like to have fun, held against your forehead, I'll make you suck it, maybe if we hold it through, I just wanna fuck a bit

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K, so my life is really really gay right now.

Not gay as in happy.

and I'm listening to that last song

"shoot, shoot, shoot, shoot, I'm gonna cum all over you"

...wat

I'll be still adding art but it seems no one really cares due to the lack of comments I've had lately.

War in, peace out

]]> ~agnosticambition http://agnosticambition.deviantart.com/journal/20952015/ http://agnosticambition.deviantart.com/journal/20952015/ Sun, 12 Oct 2008 11:17:38 PDT
and that's what life is.

A shitbrick.

]]> ~agnosticambition http://agnosticambition.deviantart.com/journal/20792380/ http://agnosticambition.deviantart.com/journal/20792380/ Thu, 02 Oct 2008 12:14:10 PDT silverspire29:

I don't really know how to tell you this, but you're a pervert. I think I realized it when your dog ran amok at the mental hospital and I saw you drive out of my avocado plant. I'm sure you're scarred enough to understand that I'm open. I'm returning your love letter to you, but I'll keep the results of your blood sample as a memory. You should also know that I have always wanted to break your eggplant-fetishism.

In pain,
agnosticambition




LOL


RULES:
Do the "Letter MEME". Tag no less than 5 other people, and leave them a comment, informing them that they have been tagged. Then copy the "How-to" Letter Meme, and finish your Journal entry.

-> How you do the Letter Meme:

Dear (the last person who left a comment on your journal):

I don't really know how to tell you this, but ___1___. I think I realized it ___2___ ___3___ and I saw you ___4___ ___5___. I'm sure you're ___6___ enough to understand ___7___. I'm returning ___8___ to you, but I'll keep ___9___ as a memory. You should also know that I ___10___ ___11___ .

___12___,
-Your name-

1. What's the color of your shirt?
Blue - Our romance is over
Red - Our affair is over
White - I'll join the monastery
Black - I dislike you
Green - Our horoscope doesn't match
Grey - You're a pervert
Yellow - I'm selling myself
Pink - Your nostrils are insulting
Brown - The mafia wants you
No shirt - You're a loser
Other - I'm in love with your sister


2. Which is your birth month?
January - That night
February - Last year
March - When your dwarf bit me
April - When I tripped on sesame seeds
May - First of May
June - When you put cuffs on me
July - When I threw up
August - When I saw the shrunken head
September - When we skinny dipped
October - When I quoted Santa
November - When your dog ran amok
December - When I changed tennis shoes


3. Which food do you prefer?
Tacos - In your apartment
Pizza - In your camping car
Pasta - Outside of Chicago
Hamburgers - Under the bus
Salad - As you ate enchilada
Chicken - In your closet
Kabob - With Paris Hilton
Fish - In women's clothing
Sandwiches - At the Hare Krishna graduation
Lasagna - At the mental hospital
Hot dog - Under a state of trance
None of the above - With George Bush and his wife


4. What's the color of your socks?
Yellow - Hit on
Red - Insult
Black - Ignore
Blue - Knock out
Purple - Pour syrup on
White - Carve your initials into
Grey - Pull the clothes off
Brown - Put leeches on
Orange - Castrate
Pink - Pull the toupee off
Barefoot - Sit on
Other - Drive out


5. What's the color of your underwear?
Black - My best friend
White - My father
Grey - Bill Clinton
Brown - My fart balloon
Purple - My mustard soufflé
Red - Donald Duck
Blue - My avocado plant
Yellow - My penpal in Ghana
Orange - My Kid Rock-collection
Pink - Manchester United's goalkeeper
None - My John F. Kennedy-statue
Other - The crazy monk


6. What do you prefer to watch on TV?
Scrubs - Man
O.C. - Emotional
One Tree Hill - Open
Heroes - Frostbitten
Lost - High
House - Scarred
Simpsons - Cowardly
The news - Mongolic
Idol - Masochistic
Family Guy - Senile
Top Model - Middle-class
None of the above - Ashamed


7. Your mood right now?
Happy - How awful I've felt
Sad - How boring you are
Bored - That Santa doesn't exist
Angry - That your pimples are at the last stage
Depressed - That we're cousins
Excited - That there is no solution to this.
Nervous - The middle-east
Worried - That your Honda sucks
Apathetic - That I did a sex-change
Ashamed - That I'm allergic to your hamster
Cuddly - That I get turned on by garbage men
Overjoyous - That I'm open
Other - That Extreme Home Makeover sucks


8. What's the color of your walls in your bedroom?
White - Your ring
Yellow - Your love letters
Red - Your Darth Vader-poster
Black - Your tame stone
Blue - The couch cushions
Green - The pictures from LA
Orange - Your false teeth
Brown - Your contact book
Grey - Our matching snoopy-bibs
Purple - Your old lottery coupons
Pink - The cut toenails
Other - Your memories from the military service


9. The first letter of your first name?
A/B - Your photo
C/D - The oil stocks
E/F - Your neighbour Martin
G/H - My virginity
I/J - The results of your blo... ]]> ~agnosticambition http://agnosticambition.deviantart.com/journal/20621815/ http://agnosticambition.deviantart.com/journal/20621815/ Mon, 22 Sep 2008 15:22:23 PDT Press forward for each question.
Use the song title as the answer to the question even if it doesn’t make sense. NO CHEATING!
Bold the questions and with the answers, give your own comments on how it relates to the questions.

Will you get far in life?
March of the Pigs ~ Nine Inch Nails

How do your friends see you?
Already Over ~ RED

Will you get married?
Something In The Way ~ Nirvana

What is your best friend's theme song?
Downer ~ Nirvana

What is the story of your life?
Countdown To Extinction ~ Megadeth

What was high school like/ will be like?
Fire To My Soul ~ Demon Hunter

How can you get ahead in life?
Sin ~ Nine Inch Nails

What is the best thing about your friends?
Love Found Me (Love's Got a Hold) ~ DecembeRadio

How are you feeling today?
United Abominations ~ Megadeth

What is in store for this weekend?
Starfuckers, Inc ~ Nine Inch Nails

To describe your grandparents?
Of Mice and Men ~ Megadeth

How is your life going?
Master of Puppets ~ Metallica

What song will they play at your funeral?
Animal I Have Become ~ Three Days Grace

How does the world see you?
From The Inside Out ~ Hillsong United

Will you have a happy life?
Already Over Pt 2 ~ RED

What do your friends really think of you?
Come As You Are ~ Nirvana

Do people secretly lust after you?
Terrible Lie ~ Nine Inch Nails

How can I make myself happy?
Eraser (Denial; Realization) ~ Nine Inch Nails

What should you do with your life?
Cult of Personality ~ Living Colour

Will you ever have children?
Somewhat Damaged (North American Summer Tour 2006) ~ Nine Inch Nails



o_____O

]]> ~agnosticambition http://agnosticambition.deviantart.com/journal/20602863/ http://agnosticambition.deviantart.com/journal/20602863/ Sun, 21 Sep 2008 13:32:46 PDT
Mustard is disgusting.

Leave me alone.

Edit
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I have 140 songs from Nine Inch Nails.
I'm hardcore.
Rawr.

]]> ~agnosticambition http://agnosticambition.deviantart.com/journal/20523258/ http://agnosticambition.deviantart.com/journal/20523258/ Tue, 16 Sep 2008 14:51:21 PDT
I think I pulled a muscle in my back, most likely from carrying a 20 pound backpack to and from school and around the school. My locker's on the bottom floor and my 2nd and 3rd periods are on the top floor. There are 3 floors in my school. >_>

I don't have nearly enough time to get from 1st block to my locker, then 2nd block to my locker to 3rd block, but since my 4th block and locker are on the bottom then fine.

And, in PE, for some reason, our coaches are fit-crazy. We jog a mile EVERY DAY and THEN we play football. >___>

But, in the midst of the swirling typhoon, I've found a calm grotto; my refuge from Hell. This refuge is not a place, but instead a person. A person who is dear to me and loves me like a mother loves her child.

olol poetry

Well, her name's Priyanka. :]

<3

Well, I've had nothing but Geometry homework since school started and it's friggin' murder.

Peace out with more sneaking on.

Cheers,
Ridley, Agno, Jon, Aggy, agnosticambition.

]]> ~agnosticambition http://agnosticambition.deviantart.com/journal/20422500/ http://agnosticambition.deviantart.com/journal/20422500/ Wed, 10 Sep 2008 12:45:29 PDT
Bury all your secrets in my skin
Come away with innocence, and leave me with my sins
The air around me still feels like a cage
And love is just a camouflage for what resembles rage again…

So if you love me, let me go. And run away before I know.
My heart is just too dark to care. I can't destroy what isn't there.
Deliver me into my Fate - If I'm alone I cannot hate
I don't deserve to have you…
My smile was taken long ago / If I can change I hope I never know

I still press your letters to my lips
And cherish them in parts of me that savor every kiss
I couldn't face a life without your light
But all of that was ripped apart… when you refused to fight

So save your breath, I will not hear. I think I made it very clear.
You couldn't hate enough to love. Is that supposed to be enough?
I only wish you weren't my friend. Then I could hurt you in the end.
I never claimed to be a Saint…
My own was banished long ago / It took the Death of Hope to let you go

So Break Yourself Against My Stones
And Spit Your Pity In My Soul
You Never Needed Any Help
You Sold Me Out To Save Yourself
And I Won't Listen To Your Shame
You Ran Away - You're All The Same
Angels Lie To Keep Control…
My Love Was Punished Long Ago
If You Still Care, Don't Ever Let Me Know
If you still care, don't ever let me know…

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Woot for being cheated on 7 times.

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BFFs:


Friends:
http://agnosticambition.deviantart.com/journal/20409650/ Tue, 09 Sep 2008 16:04:59 PDT
I'll be posting art but I don't want any criticisms. I'm tired of arguments and people trying to base my art off of **** they make or experiences they have. Sure, that's good most of the time, but when it's bad I take it to heart without even knowing and it eats away at me. They don't know how I envisioned the art and they don't know what went into it. They don't know what it symbolizes in my life and they don't know the deeper meaning.

It's like those lazy-*** schoolkids who read poetry and don't understand a **** word they just read.

Then there's the fact of whenever I give a crit, they assume I'm being an *** and take it the wrong way IMMEDIATELY and give me this stupid face like "WTF, I DID THAT, IT'S RIGHT THERE". So I won't be giving crits. I'll comment about your art, but I'm not saying anything otherwise.

I have too low of self-esteem to be ragged on all the ******* time. There's too much going on in my life for me to try and relax, but have some idiot run his foot up my backside just because he feels like it's necessary. I've already attempted suicide twice and still have the thoughts of it quite a lot. ESPECIALLY when ragged on; usually in the aftermath. I get mad, then the anger goes straight to depression.

It's no one here, because the community is great here. But I do assure you, watch out for people over the internet. There's some truly stupid people out there. >_>

~Ridley

]]> ~agnosticambition http://agnosticambition.deviantart.com/journal/20390695/ http://agnosticambition.deviantart.com/journal/20390695/ Mon, 08 Sep 2008 12:40:49 PDT
Well, there's this girl I like and I try to talk to her every day but I mean srsly, she's hard to talk to ; 3; I know this is extremely personal but I'm outgoing and don't like hiding shit unless it's not my shit to be hiding LOL

Annnd, fill this out plz



+WHAT WOULD YOU DO IF I...+
I committed suicide:
I said I liked you:
I kissed you:
I lived next door to you:
I started smoking:
I stole something:
I was hospitalized:
I ran away from home:
I got into a fight and you weren't there:

+WHAT DO YOU THINK ABOUT MY...+
Personality:
Eyes:
Hair:
Family:

+WOULD YOU...+
Be my friend?:
Keep a secret if I told you one?:
Hold my hand?:
Take a bullet for me?:
Keep in touch?:
Try and solve my problems?:
Love me?:
Date me?:

+HAVE YOU EVER...+
Lied to make me feel better?:
Wanted to kiss me?:
Wanted to kill me?:
Broke my heart?:
Kept something important from me?:
Thought I was unbearably annoying?:

+AND MORE...+
1. Who are you?:
2. Are we friends?:
3. When and how did we meet?:
6. Describe me in one word.:
7. What was your first impression?:
8. Do you still think that way about me now?:
9. What reminds you of me?:
10. If you could give me anything what would it be?:
11. How well do you know me?:
12. When's the last time you saw me?:
13. Ever wanted to tell me something but couldn't?:
14. Are you gonna paste this to your journal see what I say about you?:

]]> ~agnosticambition http://agnosticambition.deviantart.com/journal/20369703/ http://agnosticambition.deviantart.com/journal/20369703/ Sun, 07 Sep 2008 06:37:44 PDT 1. Put Your itunes, windows media player etc on Shuffle
2. For each question, press the next button to get your answer.
3. YOU MUST WRITE THAT SONG NAME DOWN NO MATTER HOW SILLY IT SOUNDS
4. Put any comments in brackets after the song name
5. Tag 6 people.


Are you male or female?
"Price of Gasoline"~Bloc Party

Describe Yourself:
"Follow The Wolves"~Demon Hunter

What do people feel when they're around you?
"Ten Thousand Fists"~Disturbed

Describe your current relationship:
"Rock and Roll Ain't Noise Pollution"~AC/DC

Where would you like to be now?
"Scoff"~Nirvana

How do you feel about love?
"Fight For All The Wrong Reasons"~Nickelback

What's your life like?
"Positive Tension (Blackbox Remix)"~Bloc Party

What would you ask for if you had only one wish?
"Banquet (Phones Disco Remix)"~Bloc Party

Say something wise:
"El Manana"~Gorillaz

If someone says "is this okay?" you say:
"Love Found Me (Love's Got a Hold)"~DecembeRadio

How would you describe yourself?
"Deteriorate"~Demon Hunter

What do you like in a guy/girl?
"Hanging By a Moment"~Lifehouse

How do you feel today?
"Dig"~Incubus

What is your life's purpose?
"Next Thing You Know"~Matthew West

What is your motto?
"When I Go Down"~Relient K

What do you think of your parents?
"Sweet Child O' Mine"~Guns n' Roses

What do you think about very often?
"Bloody Tears"~Unknown

What is 2 + 2?
"Gehenna"~Slipknot

What do you think of your best friend?
"Mr. Moustache"~Nirvana

What is your life story?
"Sleepwalker"~Megadeth

What do you want to be when you grow up?
"Fire To My Soul"~Demon Hunter

What will you dance to at your wedding?
"The Good Soldier"~Nine Inch Nails

What will they play at your funeral?
"A Tout Le Monde (Set Me Free)"~Megadeth

What is your hobby/interest?
"Crush 'Em"~Megadeth

What is your biggest fear?
"Crashed"~Daughtry

What is your biggest secret?
"Crown of Worms"~Megadeth

What do you think of your friends?
"Couch Potato"~Weird Al

What will you post this as?
"Snap Your Fingers, Snap Your Neck"~Demon Hunter

I tag , ,



]]> ~agnosticambition http://agnosticambition.deviantart.com/journal/20341389/ http://agnosticambition.deviantart.com/journal/20341389/ Fri, 05 Sep 2008 14:18:25 PDT So effusive
Fade
It doesn't cut,
The soul is not so vibrant
The reckoning, the sickening
Packaging subversion
Pseudo-sacrosanct perversion
Go drill your deserts,
Go dig your graves
Then fill your mouth
With all the money you will save
Sinking in, getting smaller again
Im done, it has begun
I'm not the only one

And the rain will kill us all,
Throw ourselves against the wall
But no one else can see,
The preservation of the martyr in me

Psychosocial, psychosocial, psychosocial
Psychosocial, psychosocial, psychosocial

Oh, there are cracks, in the road we laid
But where the temple fell,
The secrets have gone mad!
This is nothing new,
But when we kill it all,
The hate was all we had!
Who needs another mess?
We could start over!
Just look me in the eyes
And say I'm wrong
Now there's only emptiness...
Venomous, insipid!
I think we're done
I'm not the only one!

And the rain will kill us all,
Throw ourselves against the wall
But no one else can see,
The preservation of the martyr in me

Psychosocial, psychosocial, psychosocial
Psychosocial, psychosocial, psychosocial

THE LIMITS OF THE DEAD!
THE LIMITS OF THE DEAD!
THE LIMITS OF THE DEAD!
THE LIMITS OF THE DEAD!

Fake Anti-Fascist Lie,
(Psychosocial),
I tried to tell you,
(Psychosocial),
But your purple hearts are giving out,
(Psychosocial),
Can't stop the killing idea,
(Psychosocial),
If it's hunting season,
(Psychosocial),
Is this what you want?,
(Psychosocial),
I'm not the only one!

And the rain will kill us all,
Throw ourselves against the wall
But no one else can see,
The preservation of the martyr in me

And the rain will kill us all,
Throw ourselves against the wall
But no one else can see,
The preservation of the martyr in me.

THE LIMITS OF THE DEAD!
THE LIMITS OF THE DEAD!
THE LIMITS OF THE DEAD!
THE LIMITS OF THE DEAD!

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I love this song. It's so epic. Then there's the new masks Slipknot has for "All Hope Is Gone" and stuffs.

[link]

In other news, school's going great for me. I have friends in all my classes and my lunch period; the only bad thing is starting next week I'll only have comp privileges on Friday-Sunday, weekends only.

In any case, I felt like updating my journal P:

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BFFs:


Friends:
~agnosticambition http://agnosticambition.deviantart.com/journal/20210929/ http://agnosticambition.deviantart.com/journal/20210929/ Thu, 28 Aug 2008 23:11:38 PDT
No computer during the week, and it'll most likely be limited on the weekends. >_<

Friggin' high school where the grades start to count and stuff.

I'll hopefully ask if I can get on after dinner or something ;_; I needs to makes arts. And on the weekend I'll try to submit them and then play some Team Fortress or HLDM.

If I feel like it and my parents aren't in the house, I'll be around SweetDevs to poke at ~AwesomeChibness and ~chixyinyan because they're cool like that.

But umm... ;_; I'm sad.

]]> ~agnosticambition http://agnosticambition.deviantart.com/journal/19965465/ http://agnosticambition.deviantart.com/journal/19965465/ Fri, 15 Aug 2008 07:09:50 PDT
[link]

4 free games just because you have a Nvidia graphics card.

Well, in my absence, I've managed to get more favourites than ever o_o;; So thank you guys who visit my page even though I'm not here ._.

And, after I got back from Arkansas and stuffs, we got all unpacked, and I managed to lose my wallet, with which I put my iPod in one of the pockets. So, I haven't listened to it since I got back. I'm in a music withdrawal.

My parents are shortening my computer time for some odd reason. I'm not hurting anything by being on, I mean seriously, I could be out with idiots getting in trouble and doing drugs, but I'm not... So what's the problem? I get to hang out with people who understand how I feel about things and that I can talk to about stuff and them not think I'm completely insane.

Well, school's open house is the 19th, and school starts sometime in September.

Laytuhs

]]> ~agnosticambition http://agnosticambition.deviantart.com/journal/19408463/ http://agnosticambition.deviantart.com/journal/19408463/ Tue, 15 Jul 2008 11:33:57 PDT 1.) Put your media player of choice on shuffle.
2.) List the first fifteen songs that come up. Add "in my pants" to the end.

1.Bloc Party~"The Prayer" in my pants

2.Nirvana~"On A Plain" in my pants

3.DecembeRadio~"Alright My Friend" in my pants (xD!)

4.AC/DC~"TNT" in my pants LOL

5.Buckethead~"Nottingham Lace" in my pants

6.Metallica~"Ride The Lightning" in my pants

7.Third Day~"Mountain Of God" in my pants

8.Demon Hunter~"Undying" in my pants

9.Pearl Jam~"Even Flow" in my pants LOLOLOL

10.Demon Hunter~"Carry Me Down" in my pants LMAO.

12.Megadeth~"Blood Of Heroes" in my pants (LOL DUDE I'M A GUY, I DON'T HAVE PERIODS!)

13.AC/DC~"You Shook Me All Night Long" in my pants LOOOL

14.Bloc Party~"Sunday" in my pants

15.Living Colour~"Cult of Personality" in my pants xD

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Dude. Hilarious stuff there. Now for teh friends list.

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BFFs:


Friends:


Newly Acquired Friends:


If I missed you, it means you either haven't watched me yet or we don't talk enough. :] Note me+watch me to be added to the list plz.

]]> ~agnosticambition http://agnosticambition.deviantart.com/journal/19389360/ http://agnosticambition.deviantart.com/journal/19389360/ Mon, 14 Jul 2008 11:36:44 PDT
I torrented two of their albums last night; Silent Alarm and I believe it was Night In The City. Whichever one has "Hunting For Witches" on it. :]

In any case, I'm doing an updated DevFriend thing in my journal

BFFs:


Friends:


Newly Acquired Friends:


If I missed you, it means you either haven't watched me yet or we don't talk enough. :] Note me+watch me to be added to the list plz.

]]> ~agnosticambition http://agnosticambition.deviantart.com/journal/19374273/ http://agnosticambition.deviantart.com/journal/19374273/ Sun, 13 Jul 2008 15:07:45 PDT
I've started roleplaying at 's chatroom, #agtferretandfriends as the wolf in my featured Deviation.

:]

]]> ~agnosticambition http://agnosticambition.deviantart.com/journal/19206782/ http://agnosticambition.deviantart.com/journal/19206782/ Fri, 04 Jul 2008 17:32:17 PDT _>

Friends and clubs I'm in and all that.

Now comment my stuff; it's not there just to sit there. D:

Friends: (Absolutely no order.)











And some others I haven't watched yet and can't remember their names.

Clubs I'm In:
(Awesome place. :])

Note me if I missed yours.

Blargh.

]]> ~agnosticambition http://agnosticambition.deviantart.com/journal/19164913/ http://agnosticambition.deviantart.com/journal/19164913/ Wed, 02 Jul 2008 12:09:45 PDT [x] you love hoodies
[x] you love jeans
[x] dogs are better then cats
[x] its hilarious when people get hurt
[x]you've played with/against boys on a team
[x] clothes shopping is torture
[x] sad movies suck
[] you own a XBOX
[x] you played with Hot Wheels as a little kid
[] at some point in life you wanted to be a firefighter
[x] you owned a DS PS2 or Sega
[x] you used to be obsessed with Power Rangers
[x] you watch sports on TV
[x] gory movies are cool
[] you go to your dad for advice
[] you own like a trillion baseball hats
[] you used to/do collect football collector cards
[] baggy sweatpants are cool to wear
[x] its kind of weird to have sleepovers with a bunch of people
[x] green, black, red, blue,purple, or silver are one of your favorite colors
[x] you love to go crazy and not care what other people think
[x] sports are fun
[] you talk with food in your mouth
[x] you sleep with your socks on
[x] you have fished at least once
[x] you like to use duct tape in all situations


---YOUR GIRL SIDE
[] you love to shop
[] you wear eyeliner
[] you wear the color pink
[x] you go to your mom for advice
[] you consider cheerleading a sport
[] you hate wearing the color black
[] you like going to the mall
[] you like getting manicures and/or pedicures
[] you like wearing jewelry
[] you cried watching The Notebook
[] skirts are a big parts of your wardrobe
[] shopping is one of your favorite hobbies
[] you don't like the movie Star Wars
[] you are/were in gymnastics
[] it takes you around one hour to shower and get dressed
[x] you smile a lot more than you should
[] you have more than 10 pairs of shoes
[] you care about what you look like
[] you like wearing dresses when you can
[] you like wearing body spray/purfume
[] you like high heel shoes
[]you used to play with dolls as a kid
[]you like putting makeup on others
[] you like being the star of almost everything
[]pink is one of your favorite colors
[] you like to use hearts in all situations


Count them for me. D:

]]> ~agnosticambition http://agnosticambition.deviantart.com/journal/19124024/ http://agnosticambition.deviantart.com/journal/19124024/ Mon, 30 Jun 2008 09:06:19 PDT Yesterday I found
That everything I knew was wrong
It was upside down
The life I thought I had was gone

But You came and whispered love to me
And You gave me strength to carry on

Oh, the sun is shining
There is hope for me again
A new day's dawning
The sun is shining

Yesterday I lost
Everything I had and loved
Then I cried out for You, Lord
And You came and picked me up

And the sorrow lasted through the night
But the joy came with the morn

I will lift my voice
No, I won't be silent
For You heard my cry
And You turned my mourning into dancing
And so forever I'll sing

"The Sun is Shining" by Third Day.

Needed a new journal entry and I really like this song. :]

I'll be taking requests from now on, if anyone feels like sending me a Note, or commenting somewhar, I'll do what I can. :]

]]> ~agnosticambition http://agnosticambition.deviantart.com/journal/18973632/ http://agnosticambition.deviantart.com/journal/18973632/ Sat, 21 Jun 2008 21:03:38 PDT

Well, I noticed this too. I noticed I had a note, read it, and I was like WTF?

It said 14 of my deviations were all copyrighted.

WTF?

I'll have to like, replace them and put a copyright for the renders I used or something; I believe that's what set the alarm off.



So much work I did... Gone...

Oh well, back-up folders ftw. Too bad this is a different computer.

OH YEAH.

Side Note: NEW COMPUTER. The HP Slimline. "Full PC functionality in 1/3 the size."

Nvidia graphics card, 500gb harddrive, and 3gb system memory.

Back to downloading Portal and Team Fortress 2 on this comp. Hopefully it won't be like the stressful week-long Portal screw-over I had. If it doesn't work, I'm gonna sue Steam.

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I've been taggggged D:

• 1. Post these rules.
• 2. Each tagged person must post 8 things about their self on their journal.
• 3. At the end, you have to choose and tag 8 people and post their icons on the same journal.
• 4. Go to their pages and send a message saying you tagged them.
• 5. No tag-backs.

8 things:
1. I'm pretty smart but I have lots of blonde moments.
2. I like to say Rawr a lot.
3. I get very peeved when people type wrong and they're like 18 and should know better
4. I dislike when people won't listen when I'm trying to help them and they asked for the help.
5. I like cute things. :] Most people make fun of me for it. LOL
6. Things like this bore me.
7. I laugh at random things when it's not funny.
8. I like hard rock/metal music but I am starting to delve into Christian music. :]

Tags:
I tag...
~AwesomeChibness
~Mew32
=monochromatic-stains
~Agt-Ferret
~LostInTime-x
and
*TehPirateCelt

and whoever else feels like doing it. :]

]]> ~agnosticambition http://agnosticambition.deviantart.com/journal/18663651/ http://agnosticambition.deviantart.com/journal/18663651/ Wed, 04 Jun 2008 14:19:28 PDT
I'm trying to find all my friends I had in UnseenArtists and GotItMemorized, and it's not working out so well. I got a few friends to know I'm back messing around, but not all of them x_x.

I love how mature I was back then D: [/sarcasm] Jeez, I look at most of my posts on other peoples' pages and feel like slapping myself for all the crap I said wrong.

You'd think I would type WORSE, being 14 and having to talk to people on MySpace and over texting with the worst grammar and spellings ever, but I try to hold my posture.

That is, until I decide to post lulzy things everywhere, changing spelling to match the word sound or to change it just to look stupid.

Go here and you'll understand why:
[link]

And if anyone has Guitar Hero 3 or Medal of Honour Heroes 2 for the Wii, drop me a line with your friend code/persona and I'll play you

Or, if anyone's getting RockBand Wii when it drops around June 22nd, tell me that and we'll start a fucking band!

Send me a messagie if you see this, yo.

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Put your music player on shuffle.
Press forward for each question.
Use the song title as the answer to the question even if it doesn’t make sense. NO CHEATING!
Bold the questions and with the answers, give your own comments on how it relates to the questions.

Will you get far in life?
Rock Star - Nickelback (LOL)

How do your friends see you?
Negative Creep - Nirvana (O shi)

Will you get married?
Fer Sure - The Medic Droid

What is your best friend's theme song?
No Chump Love Sucka - Red Hot Chili Peppers

What is the story of your life?
Take No Prisoners - Megadeth

What was high school like/ will be like?
Crashed - Daughtry (;___

How can you get ahead in life?
Coming Undone - Korn

What is the best thing about your friends?
Left Unfinished - Machine Head (o___O)

How are you feeling today?
1,000,000 - Nine Inch Nails (WOOT I'MMA JUMP FROM A BUILDING.)

What is in store for this weekend?
Critical Acclaim - Avenged Sevenfold (I don't get this one.)

To describe your grandparents?
The Arms of Sorrow - Killswitch Engage

How is your life going?
Prayer of the Refugee - Rise Against (This says something.)

What song will they play at your funeral?
Chic'n'Stu - System of a Down (Pizza FTW)

How does the world see you?
Gears of War - Megadeth (Nigga please)

Will you have a happy life?
Can't Be Saved - Senses Fail

What do your friends really think of you?
Last Living Souls - Gorillaz

Do people secretly lust after you?
Wasting Time - RED

How can I make myself happy?
Wasting My Time - Default

What should you do with your life?
Fight for All the Wrong Reasons - Nickelback (LOL That sucks.)

Will you ever have children?
Hanging by a Moment - Lifehouse

Weird stuff, yo.

]]> ~agnosticambition http://agnosticambition.deviantart.com/journal/18560952/ http://agnosticambition.deviantart.com/journal/18560952/ Thu, 29 May 2008 13:56:54 PDT
Yeah, that's my screen name on most other placez.



I'm gonna go upload stuff.

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]]> ~agnosticambition http://agnosticambition.deviantart.com/journal/11792269/ http://agnosticambition.deviantart.com/journal/11792269/ Mon, 12 Feb 2007 21:51:34 PST
yea, no more thoughts of suicide (even though my elder thoughts still claw at my conscience, i try not to think about it)

Thanks to my friends i'm feeling better, and i'm not bothered by people thinking i'm emo or goth at school for hating myself. yea i told my friends, they helped me get over it, finished.

so, i've decided to do something. a collage i guess, to show my appreciation to my friends here at DeviantART

post here in my journal if u wanna be in it, and i'll end up making it on Feb 14th! VALENTINES DAY! it's my Valentine to all my friends!

My Friends and their Characteristics:
My Brother from another Mother: lol
My Sister Horse:
My Goddess of Metal:
My Friend who's fun to bug:
My Friend who's the cousin to the one i like to bug:
My Fellow Insane People:
My Cheerleader:
My Overprotective Figure:
My Pirate: ARRR MATEY! Pass the Rum!
My Kool Kite:
My Random Friend:
My Knight of Cartooning:
My Elf: POPPINJAY!

yeh, there's a lot

i got more friends than i thought when i was about to do suicide, glad i thought of u!

]]> ~agnosticambition http://agnosticambition.deviantart.com/journal/11683882/ http://agnosticambition.deviantart.com/journal/11683882/ Sun, 04 Feb 2007 12:22:38 PST
Earlier today, my dad had been yelling at me because my sister would not leave me alone as i did the dishes, and i wiped a tiny amount of cooking grease on her cheek. my dad immediately yelled.

A good explanation of how i feel is said by "Disposable Teens" by Marilyn Manson. I dislike God for putting me with such mean parents, and for not just SLIGHTLY helping me when i had problems. Since i have been somewhat insane lately, (course on the inside, most of my emotions stay locked in a preverbial box, figuratively of course) i've kept track of my internal insanity. it's sort of like burns, they have degrees.

1st Degree of Internal Insanity (usually medicine based): often mood swings, several feelings of uncertainty, feelings of both hatred and love for the same thing

2nd Degree of Internal Insanity: thoughts of suicide, very chronic thoughts of hatred and love for the same thing, depression type moods.

3rd Degree of Internal Insanity: Attempted suicide, yet failed, depression, hatefulness and rage, saying things without noticing, loss of feeling for time and space, often fetal

and i'm tipping on the line between 2nd and 3rd.

what also disturbs me is the feeling that my parents hate me. my sister could probably stab me to death and all my parents would say is "You shouldn't do that, Gabby" and let her slide with just that warning. And yet if i only accidentally poked her with a plastic fork, she'd tattle on me and i'd get grounded for weeks.

if you wouldn't mind, i need mental help and therapy. my parents know nothing of my insanity, and i don't want them to. if they knew they had a nutcase for a son, they'd put me in an insane asylum and go along with their lives.

]]> ~agnosticambition http://agnosticambition.deviantart.com/journal/11609891/ http://agnosticambition.deviantart.com/journal/11609891/ Mon, 29 Jan 2007 10:20:16 PST
I read TehPirateCelt's journal, she's feeling a little down. She takes medicine to keep her from being depressed, and yet she still is depressed because she finds that as a weakness.

it is.

we should all try to make her feel better if possible.

well... i did this thingy that Xellion did in her last journal. i'm posting it nao:

Put your music player on shuffle.
Press forward for each question.
Use the song title as the answer to the question even if it doesn’t make sense. NO CHEATING!
Bold the questions and with the answers, give your own comments on how it relates to the questions.

Will you get far in life?
150 Hate Consequences-Relient K (i guess)

How do your friends see you?
O Green World-Gorillaz (obviously very weird)

Will you get married?
Going Down In Flames-3 Doors Down (O.o)

What is your best friend's theme song?
Iron Man-Black Sabbath (pretty likely)

What is the story of your life?
Kryptonite-3 Doors Down (XD i'm Supahman!)

What was high school like/ will be like?
Holiday-Green Day (too bad it wasn't Rock And Roll all Nite-Kiss XD)

How can you get ahead in life?
Kids With Guns-Gorillaz (OMFG I SHOOT MAH PROBLEMS)

What is the best thing about your friends?
Blinded in Chains-Avenged Sevenfold (huh? they don't like the government???)

How are you feeling today?
Word of God Speak-MercyMe (pretty happy, and yet i'm the opposite)

What is in store for this weekend?
Amish Paradise-Weird Al Yankovic (something funny i guess)

To describe your grandparents?
Peanut Butter Jelly Time-Chip-Man and the Buckwheat Boyz (the hell???)

How is your life going?
Far Away-Nickelback (obviously pretty weird)

What song will they play at your funeral?
Rock Star-Nickelback (OMFG NO WAI)

How does the world see you?
Let it all Out-Relient K (???)

Will you have a happy life?
Cry Out To Jesus-Third Day (dunno)

What do your friends really think of you?
Dirty Harry-Gorillaz (I AINT DIRTY AND MAH NAME AINT HARRY)

Do people secretly lust after you?
Savin' Me-Nickelback (that's a yes)

How can I make myself happy?
Side of a Bullet-Nickelback (hmm... dunno about this one)

What should you do with your life?
Disposable Teens-Marilyn Manson (OH NOES!!!)

Will you ever have children?
American Dream-Casting Crowns (definant maybe XD)

and i found i had really weird crap going on.

well, i've gotten into drawing. i'll post them whenever i can, i can't use my mom's scanner unless she's gone or i'[m given permission to get on the computer.



i've started playing Maple Story! i need to know if you do too! i am:
Samus5164 on Windia
so plz tell me if you play!

Friends:


]]> ~agnosticambition http://agnosticambition.deviantart.com/journal/11609856/ http://agnosticambition.deviantart.com/journal/11609856/ Mon, 29 Jan 2007 10:16:38 PST
I read TehPirateCelt's journal, she's feeling a little down. She takes medicine to keep her from being depressed, and yet she still is depressed because she finds that as a weakness.

it is.

we should all try to make her feel better if possible.

well... i did this thingy that Xellion did in her last journal. i'm posting it nao:

Put your music player on shuffle.
Press forward for each question.
Use the song title as the answer to the question even if it doesn’t make sense. NO CHEATING!
Bold the questions and with the answers, give your own comments on how it relates to the questions.

Will you get far in life?
150 Hate Consequences-Relient K (i guess)

How do your friends see you?
O Green World-Gorillaz (obviously very weird)

Will you get married?
Going Down In Flames-3 Doors Down (O.o)

What is your best friend's theme song?
Iron Man-Black Sabbath (pretty likely)

What is the story of your life?
Kryptonite-3 Doors Down (XD i'm Supahman!)

What was high school like/ will be like?
Holiday-Green Day (too bad it wasn't Rock And Roll all Nite-Kiss XD)

How can you get ahead in life?
Kids With Guns-Gorillaz (OMFG I SHOOT MAH PROBLEMS)

What is the best thing about your friends?
Blinded in Chains-Avenged Sevenfold (huh? they don't like the government???)

How are you feeling today?
Word of God Speak-MercyMe (pretty happy, and yet i'm the opposite)

What is in store for this weekend?
Amish Paradise-Weird Al Yankovic (something funny i guess)

To describe your grandparents?
Peanut Butter Jelly Time-Chip-Man and the Buckwheat Boyz (the hell???)

How is your life going?
Far Away-Nickelback (obviously pretty weird)

What song will they play at your funeral?
Rock Star-Nickelback (OMFG NO WAI)

How does the world see you?
Let it all Out-Relient K (???)

Will you have a happy life?
Cry Out To Jesus-Third Day (dunno)

What do your friends really think of you?
Dirty Harry-Gorillaz (I AINT DIRTY AND MAH NAME AINT HARRY)

Do people secretly lust after you?
Savin' Me-Nickelback (that's a yes)

How can I make myself happy?
Side of a Bullet-Nickelback (hmm... dunno about this one)

What should you do with your life?
Disposable Teens-Marilyn Manson (OH NOES!!!)

Will you ever have children?
American Dream-Casting Crowns (definant maybe XD)

and i found i had really weird crap going on.

well, i've gotten into drawing. i'll post them whenever i can, i can't use my mom's scanner unless she's gone or i'[m given permission to get on the computer.



i've started playing Maple Story! i need to know if you do too! i am:
Samus5164 on Windia
so plz tell me if you play!

Friends:


]]> ~agnosticambition http://agnosticambition.deviantart.com/journal/11274162/ http://agnosticambition.deviantart.com/journal/11274162/ Mon, 01 Jan 2007 11:57:34 PST

Just updating my journal for the new year!

Nothing special going on tho, i'll update my deviations every now and again but not too much.

Friends:
:iconanimelover1000:

Chatrooms i go to:


Clubs i wish i was in:


]]> ~agnosticambition http://agnosticambition.deviantart.com/journal/11206105/ http://agnosticambition.deviantart.com/journal/11206105/ Tue, 26 Dec 2006 21:57:54 PST
friends:
:iconmetalgoddess269:

Clubs i would be in if not for being kicked:


People that aren't exactly my favorites right now


]]> ~agnosticambition http://agnosticambition.deviantart.com/journal/11180287/ http://agnosticambition.deviantart.com/journal/11180287/ Sun, 24 Dec 2006 19:41:15 PST
Well, merry Christmas guys! i finally have my first deviation up, Pendragon Chapter One.

i don't have much to say, but that i'm gald that i'm getting so many friends on DA.

Friends:


Clubs:


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