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I have not been up to a great deal other than work which is very uninspiring currently, though that may change with the starting of Tea.

In terms of writing I am not happy with anything recently as it all seems some what incomplete and until I am at least 80% happy with it I will not post it. I have also gone back to an idea from several years ago but that is very much in development. The story would be very long and I usually have no patience for that kind of thing but this idea has been on my mind for a while so I feel it deserves some attention. What I am working on currently is the overall story, my problem is that while I know the major points of the story and a good number of the characters I am lacking the major ideas that will pull it together. I know what happens but I need a stronger reason for why they happen.

Aside from that am currently looking for a new creative output or really just a hobby. I need something that will keep me busy that I can concentrate on when I am bored. If there are any suggestions let me know.

Yaa that lana is coming next week.

]]> ~ahhhrrrr http://ahhhrrrr.deviantart.com/journal/24402469/ http://ahhhrrrr.deviantart.com/journal/24402469/ Thu, 23 Apr 2009 21:43:19 PDT
I am going well right now, bad moods currently in hiding and I have been writing again which is even better. The stories are slightly sad and depressing at this point but it has been a while since I have written so whatever, anything is better than nothing at this point.

I am also so far more inspired for my uni assignments which up until yesterday seemed dull and irritating but I will wait to see how I go for a bit longer, this feeling usually goes pretty quickly.

My only wish right now is for time. I need more time! I have too much work and too many people who require attention sometimes and that gets a little hard but as always I will deal and struggle through.

That is about all for now.

]]> ~ahhhrrrr http://ahhhrrrr.deviantart.com/journal/22603247/ http://ahhhrrrr.deviantart.com/journal/22603247/ Thu, 15 Jan 2009 19:28:54 PST
I got back from Sydney on Sunday and I still tired and packed and unsorted and unorganised and completely all over the place about the trip.

Basically I had a fanastic time, best thing I could have done. It was so good to go, first to get away for a while, second to work on such an amazing project with such an incrediable team of people. I learned so much, did all kinds of things, worked out where I want to start in the industry and what my next step is and finally I found somewhere i feel like me, all the time.

Basically I plan to move to Sydney, maybe next year or so.

I'm back its like I was never gone in many ways and gone forever in others.

I have changed or matured in some ways and I feel more grounded than I have in a while which is nice. I have only 2 regrets about the trip - that I didn't get to shop much and that I didn't just take this one chance.

Anyway thats it, I'm back and I'll see most people at Christmas in January next week.

Lindsey

]]> ~ahhhrrrr http://ahhhrrrr.deviantart.com/journal/21362303/ http://ahhhrrrr.deviantart.com/journal/21362303/ Thu, 06 Nov 2008 18:07:50 PST
I'm mostly just bored and notice I haven't done this since September so I figured I shuold even though those who read this I see regularly.

Well for those who haven't paid attention for the last couple of weeks the twins and I are now moved out and as of yesterday we have a couch so the place is now looking lived in. I am still currently living out of boxes as I haven't finished unpacking yet and man do I have alot of clothes! ALOT, alot! It takes me about 10 minutes to get to work most of the time and I don't have to drive. I am also eating breakfast now as I have time and there is food I like, for those who think I don't eat enough. Man do I love living out of home, never going back.

It is also about 3 weeks before I leave for Sydney and the silly thing is when I get back I will have spent longer in Sydney than in our place but whatever at least they will be settled in when I get back.

I finish finally at flinders next week and can't wait to leave that behind. Lecturers are jerks most of the time particularly about students. It has been a real eye opening experience to understand what, how etc lectueres really mean, feel and act towards students and I haven't really liked what I learned. I also have a great deal of respect for administration staff cos they have to deal with all of it.

I will talk to most of you soon and don't forget christmas in January which will be to celebrate my glorious return and the fact that I missed Christmas and the twins birthday. No presents for anyone until then from me, you have been warned (I'll buy them in Sydney).

Also I plan to lose a lot of hair tonight!

Lindsey

]]> ~ahhhrrrr http://ahhhrrrr.deviantart.com/journal/20345650/ http://ahhhrrrr.deviantart.com/journal/20345650/ Fri, 05 Sep 2008 18:40:27 PDT
Hello few who bother to read this

Well I feel its time to update this again as its been over a month and what a crazy time its been.

Main thing to know is I have arranged details for Sydney. I fly out on 30/11 and get back on 11/01/09. Think of me on Christmas as I probably stay alone in the room I have booked at one of the uni halls at the University of Sydney. Think of me again on New Year's Eve as I work and then party at one of the biggest events in our country.

Aside from that looking forward to moving out soon, family is driving me nuts.

Also incase I forget tonight, Happy Birthday Nathan!

And again welcome back to SA, Teagan.

]]> ~ahhhrrrr http://ahhhrrrr.deviantart.com/journal/19597156/ http://ahhhrrrr.deviantart.com/journal/19597156/ Fri, 25 Jul 2008 20:22:12 PDT
Been a crazy week for me inparticular, but over all its been a crazy month.

This week started with a very hard moment related to family. It has caused me to be very pensive and thoughtful and generally not concentrating well. I would class the moment as one of those big ones you remember all your life and is likely to have major impact on all for a long time. Good thing about this is it has taken me back to writing, most of which is unfinished and the little I feel I can share is now in scraps.

On other notes -work - I'm still at the Advertiser and Flinders doing various things but have also been going to interviews for other event coordinator and event manager related jobs (even though I'm currently not actually looking).
From the last entry I was waiting to hear back and then I had a second interview but they said the other guy would suite them better. I also get the idea that they mean guy as in male and also mentioned something about age and suggested I wont stay in SA. I kinda thought I wanted the job but considering how unbothered I was to miss out, its probably not that bad.

On more exciting news - I'm going to Sydney! City of Sydney is very happy to have me, I will be working in the Producer's department for New Years Eve in Sydney and they said they would put me through all the departments at some stage. I start 1st December and last day is on 9th January. Very excited and now having to save as I know no one in Sydney, if you do and they have a spare room please let me know.

Also I have taken up Belly dancing, thanks to Cas & Tea's sister teaching it. I am very bad so far, damn long limbs keeping getting in the way, but its fun.

Looking forward to Housewarming for Josh, Nath and Aaron tonight and the general catch up of friends. I will also try to make some more cookies for tonight.

]]> ~ahhhrrrr http://ahhhrrrr.deviantart.com/journal/19175332/ http://ahhhrrrr.deviantart.com/journal/19175332/ Wed, 02 Jul 2008 23:27:54 PDT
I have finished my last assignement for uni, handed it in and now I am free!

I have no more studies and well there will be a couple of assignments cos I still have an industry placement but I'm still done! I don't have to go to the creepy, smelly, annoying and crazy place called uni - no wait, thats right they have employed me. I'm still stuck here but at least now they are paying me to be.

So I had an interview for an Event Coordinator position and I find out tomorrow . . so depending on the result you may here from me again soon.

So I have time now . . . I plan to make Choc-chip cookies, watch alot of DVD's that I have brought and not had time to see yet, visit those people who claim blood relation, visit those who don't and I like better, buy a new computer, start writing stories again and maybe take up painting.

For those who have bothered to read this far, I thank you, for those who didn't - jerks but not like they'll know I said it, they didnt get that far

Lindsey

]]> ~ahhhrrrr http://ahhhrrrr.deviantart.com/journal/17857169/ http://ahhhrrrr.deviantart.com/journal/17857169/ Mon, 14 Apr 2008 22:03:32 PDT
I am happy and bright and good again and I blame Brisbane.

I have finished the major uni project I have been working so hard on and stressing so much about last weekend. It was awful. Horrible, bad and stupid and annoying and upsetting. I think you get the point. So glad it is now over and I can forget, suppress and consider changing career paths.

I also just got back from Brisbane on Sunday night. So . . . everything that my project was not. Relaxing, beautiful, fun, lively and just brilliant. I'm going back. Big thanks to Teagan for letting me crash and Joe, he does technically live there too. Hi to Alana, nice to meet you and I will see you again I'm sure.

Just to catch up all up with where I am right now - I am finishing studies at uni in June and then will wait and make money as I plan to do my final uni industry placement in December in Sydney. I am also starting to slowly look for a new job, hopefully in my industry some where and full time.

To friends - I have missed you. I havent been around much recently I know, but I well kinda freer now. Cas - special mention answer your phone, we need to catch up (hows thursday or Saturday?).

Right thats pretty much it for now

Lindsey

]]> ~ahhhrrrr http://ahhhrrrr.deviantart.com/journal/17082683/ http://ahhhrrrr.deviantart.com/journal/17082683/ Wed, 27 Feb 2008 01:12:41 PST
It has been ages since I last updated this. To catch you all up (the few, very few that I don't see regularly and therefore don't know) I have been working. WORKING. ALOT!

I am still at the Advertiser (and I have no good reason why). I spend my days being watched with the rest of my department to check we are working and not just wasting their (various levels of boss's) time so as to get them in trouble for not doing their own work. I also get yelled at alot by customers as the system has not improved in the last year since it was installed and now we can no longer hide it.

I also recently (mid January) became a promo model. I feel I sold out but hey money is money when you need it and well it pays better than the Advertiser and I don't have the urge to kill everyone I meet and work with at the varying jobs.

I realise that it has been so long since I wrote on here that I would not have said it yet so to all. . Merry Christmas, to several (they know who they are, even if one is unlikely to read this as she hates my lack of grammer - I tried hard until this bit), Happy Birthday.

Oh and it was my birthday yesterday and thank you to all who remembered if I didn't say it then.

And as I will not really get to vent this to any one in person but still want it out there. I'm done, no more fence mending. I will not bother anymore as I will not get anything out of it. An epiphany was not needed, just an eye opening unacknowledgement from one so thats it.

Right as they want a cameo, Josh and Nathan have just turned up so I have to go now (actually only Nathan asked, Josh wanted that pointed out)

Lindsey

]]> ~ahhhrrrr http://ahhhrrrr.deviantart.com/journal/15408296/ http://ahhhrrrr.deviantart.com/journal/15408296/ Wed, 07 Nov 2007 15:23:56 PST
Time for this again. Hope everyone has been good and since I have motly seen everyone who reads this recently I can say that probably fine.

On the recent catch up - good to see the old crowd, so like high school. I found it crazy that we are all so the same but just well grown up or adult, still the craziness but we have matured (well sorta). It also brought it home to me how much I have changed over the years and how much I had changed previously and to which I have gone back to recently (makes sence to me) - over all very good night.

To catch those who dont know up - work - busy as always, heading to christmas, so going to be crazy then. Uni - over, I have assignments but lectures have finished and i dont have exams so lucky me!

New line cos event work has been busy - for those who care I have just had Melbourne Cup, fun and annoying all in one long, tiring and rather random day. I still have the Barossa event coming which seems to be fine at this time. I am currently doing nothing because another chick is doing something similar on the night before and we are helping each other but I started on this like 6 weeks ago and she has now had 2 weeks so I'm letting her catch up.

Friends - see above, previously covered. Also new uni friend is interesting - name of Shae, weird guy and with the strange stories and crazy personal hang ups but we like the same stuff - books, some movies etc

Family (again for those who care) -Steven has moved out. My youngest brother, cos he's bigger than me will be 18 soon, we shall all be offically adult. Grandmother turns 80 - big family thing coming.

House - I have a bookcase! its big and already looks full, also a new bed. Mum is also doing stuff to the house - the pool has been ripped out, there is a new low wall in the court yard and the guttering is being done.

Thats all I can think of right now. Oh I will post again soon, I other stuff I am willing to share.

Linds

]]> ~ahhhrrrr http://ahhhrrrr.deviantart.com/journal/14861006/ http://ahhhrrrr.deviantart.com/journal/14861006/ Sun, 30 Sep 2007 18:32:12 PDT When you're tagged,

1. Post these rules.
2. Each person tagged must post 8 random facts about themselves.
3. Tags should write a journal/blog of these facts.
4. At the end of the post, 8 or more persons are tagged and named.
5. Go to their page and leave them a comment telling them they're tagged.


Fine 8 facts
1. I got my name on here cos i couldnt get what i wanted many times
2. I really can't think what to write on this
3. I am studing event design and management
4. I run fashion parades on the side
5. I like movies in general, but not war movies
6. I am tall 182cm i think thats it (5'11)
7. I like cloths, particular dresses and any excuse to either buy or wear one with heels to match
8. Right now i want donuts

thats it im done

and since the people i have tagged have already been tagged, hahahaha i'm not doing it

LM

]]> ~ahhhrrrr http://ahhhrrrr.deviantart.com/journal/14593767/ http://ahhhrrrr.deviantart.com/journal/14593767/ Tue, 11 Sep 2007 17:50:16 PDT
It seemed the time to update this and therefore you all who read this, which i know is the few who i see on those rare occasions that we manage to coordinate a get together which usually ends in little sleep and much talk of the stuff which we all write on here anyway

so to the point

Work- annoying like most jobs, still entertaining but hey anything that has a new system put in that was meant to take 2 weeks and is like 6 months later and still not right gets kinda well annoying

Other work - busy lately, had several things, work for my lecturer, work for finesse and then the red cross as well. For finesse I did a ASMF parade, some of the biggest in Adelaide and got yelled at totally by a horrible lady from the industry (she drove me to tears which freaked out all the models cos they had never seen me like that ever cos usually im in complete control) anyway shes just like that a turns out I was right about what started it (I moved a tressal table, turns out had to be moved- I knew that) and she tried to say sorry but don’t think she says that a lot but whatever. I also did a red cross parade, the worst organisation of an event i have seen yet, not exactly fun but I got cash in hand. Im also getting out of the medieval fair, slowly but I wont have time for it cos im now doing the Rolls Royce Rally awards dinner next year in April which is part of my uni course cos it’ll count for a subject, think that covers the most interesting stuff on that subject

Outside that got an invite to the Myer spring/summer VIP parades, Cassie’s going with me and im using it as an excuse to buy an new outfit, Cassie helped when we went shopping yesterday and I just have to say I love going shopping with some one who likes the same kinds of shops and similar clothes that I do, she brought this beautiful white glitter clutch that I love, I got silver shoes and this fantastic yellow and white bag that kinda screams 60’s air hostess

Uni, well not much kinda mentioned before the new project. I also made a new friend, I cant spell his name cos it’ll read weird if I try, but I do remember it now. He reads the same kinds of books and likes writing stories and we have exchanged some of our stuff to read during class cos its really boring otherwise. The stuff I gave him is quite old though but Im getting inspired to write some more so ideas are being written again

Friends – subject that’s well difficult to cover, there maybe some people wondering what happened and want an update and even if you didn’t im gonna write it anyway so skip this paragraph if you don’t care. I hadn’t heard anything until a couple weeks ago so I reached out again (via sms) to ask to meet to talk and catch up for like lunch at their local bakery, skipped a lecture to make sure I would be around when I knew they were free and was told in very clear terms that we are different friends now and that I should know that (I really did cos of the talking we weren’t doing at that stage, good old me being a mind reader and all that) but if I wanted to see a movie then that might be ok but that taling wouldnt do anything, I send back and so did they and I left it with a if you change your mind ill still be there at this time and I went knowing full well that I would be disappointed but hoping and willing to be proved wrong and thought that it would be really hard to wait for someone that wasn’t going to turn up only to run into Ryan Moin (from high school for those who don’t remember, he was the big guy in all the school productions) and he talked to me while I waited and kept me company while I was disappointed and proved right that the other person has no intention of trying to work out anything etc wow didn’t that end up sounding bitchy, didn’t mean it to be but I was hurt a lot but that person and their lack of caring now hurts the most particularly as I expected it, I knew she’d do this but anyway I spend my free time catching up with various others, Cassie and Lisa mostly, occasionally Denes (there are others I need to catch up with again, Nathan I have a 4 hour break on Tuesday still at uni so if your around let me know 12-4pm and Josh hows well anything going?) and I feel more grounded now cos of it, I do worry that im coming between them and the other and I hope that neither of them feeling they have to take sides or any of that, it isn’t my place to cause problems with the other person's friendships, in fact I do worry that the other person hasn’t got someone in which they are confiding - some one who would have their best interests at heart but perhaps isn’t just family cos well we all need more in life that just them. Mean while other person has new job – best of luck I think it will do them the most good to get out and try something new and well meet more people, oh and hopw they have fun in Queensland, know that trip is coming up for them... ]]> ~ahhhrrrr http://ahhhrrrr.deviantart.com/journal/13813218/ http://ahhhrrrr.deviantart.com/journal/13813218/ Fri, 20 Jul 2007 19:41:02 PDT
Its been a hard time for me recently. I feel i had a hard time anyway and I've made mistakes and stuffed up some stuff and realised that other stuff has been stuffed up for a while which has made me feel cut off from alot and for me thats real bad cos i dont think i usually like that

Uni has been difficult as i had no interest in it for such a long time and am only now looking to get control of that area of my life

Work, well its work, I dont hate it, its boring and crap but still better than foodland and i know thats made me happier

Other work such as events has been quiet and thats made me edgy, it really does keep my sanity doing the extra that i really like but i have a lot coming up and hey some is really good like im now publicity and promotions for the Gumeracha Medievil fair and thats on top of the other stuff like the finesse and working for my lecturer

Family has been fine, was busy for a while with my brother as he turned 21 and had a big thing in the city and that was fun, also made for well bonding with the family again, made me realise they are there again

Friends is where the moving on thing comes in, I'm feeling well hurt, angry and upset at the actions of a person that i thought i was very close to and thats lead me to question myself and the world and its lead to the conclusion that it maybe time to call it quits, thats something very hard for me to say but i feel that the change may be necessary, this is not something that i have considered lightly and its also mostly why i feel i have stuffed up so much but its more that this has stuffed up everything else and if i leave it maybe it can get better, i can get better. This may all not happen, it may be resolved but with some effort to put right from the other person , as i feel i have put in my time and its their turn to prove that this is a friendship which will last and not just a convenience - this all leads me to think of a quote from a movie about how love it for someone's details, friendship is the same, knowing the details and i dont think they know my details any more

Now maybe many wont read this and to those of you that do that last part you may not understand but maybe someone else will and read into it what needs to be read

thats all for now

Linds

]]> ~ahhhrrrr http://ahhhrrrr.deviantart.com/journal/13141530/ http://ahhhrrrr.deviantart.com/journal/13141530/ Tue, 29 May 2007 17:28:03 PDT
Ok to catch everyone up - mostly uni and work and nothing much changes there so on to the interesting stuff

First and i hope i get to tell everyine this surprise and its big enough to warrent its own line

LISA'S BACK - yep as of last wednesday she was in the country and she turned up at my place Friday without telling me she was back it was like hey and then whoa and yaaa and then like she had never been away but that she was a little different and with the interesting stories and its good to have her back

Other big news

STEGGEY is probably DEAD - had car problems and pulled off the road with hazard lights during hail ( those problems im told are likely the clutch) then a guy on the other side of the road lost control and hit the back of my car ( while i was stopped so not my fault - i was off the road and everything) so all in all my car will probably be written off as its not worth much now but thats ok cos last week my parents told me there were using part of th inhertiance money from my Dad's step mother who passed away in november last year to buying my sister's car off her cos she doesnt like it cos its a manual and they were going to give it to me in a couple weeks when we had a few things fixed on it and i was going to get a few thing fixed on steggey as well but well now there probably no point as the car will likely be written off

I saw pirates alreay to and its good not as good as the first but what sequel is really its still worth seeing a couple times

and well with my interesting news covered

Bye

Linds

]]> ~ahhhrrrr http://ahhhrrrr.deviantart.com/journal/12264916/ http://ahhhrrrr.deviantart.com/journal/12264916/ Tue, 20 Mar 2007 21:39:48 PDT
Its been awhile, well actually its been like 3 months so I figured it was about time for this again

Lets see to catch up

Work - At the new job which is not so new to me now cos ive been here well slightly longer that when i wrote this last which means i would have mentioned it, but its fine anyway. Easy to do, kinda annoying currently as there is a new computer system which well it was the uncrashable system in Melbourne, Sydney and Brisbane and we crashed it 11 times the first week and well i think its now up to like 20 something (its been a month) so they ( the people who thought this was a great idea, the almightly bosses of the bigger company that owns where i work) finally said well thats a big problem, well send our national IT team for however long it takes, they can do anything until its fixed and that will make everything ok ( they forgot with the festivals, games and stuff happening in Adelaide that there is no accomadation free for lengths of time so this team shipped from Brisbane is having to fly back every couple days - wow to the smartness of the guy that thought that out)


Uni - Im back its as painful as i knew it would be. Im repeating a subject, they reworked the degree and now the first term of 1 subject i did last year (same assignment with a different example so Im gonna cut and paste for the last time, got good marks then so Ill be fine)

Other work - meaning parades cos thats the only repeat work i tend to get. Lets see theres the Adelaide cup - tiring and long, drunk people everywhere and i met the wife of Delta Goodrem's makeup artist ( we have dinner together), shes a stylist and was just great to talk to. Thats also when i met this guy named Filip, who is also a styist and some C-grade celeb in Adelaide but he was funny and we spent the day pointing fun at everyone and thing which carried into the next parade which was Marion VIP night which was also long with the added bonus of working with both Brigette ( Who is difficult at best but at least understands my capabilities and so do her models who treat me with a little respect) and Tanya Powell (who is nicer and i like her more but whos models were rude and unhelpful and who really couldnt walk that well which in the industry is quite an insult but is also the truth), thankfully all is over now and nothing lined up for immediate future.

Other - my car was having problems, turns out its the alternator. Borrowed my sister's car while mine was fixed and was told it would cost about $300 at most, picked up the car and got the bill yestoday - its twice that and i still have rego, insurance and my brakes need doing (when did my car get so expensive?)

Wow sadly i think thats it, Im not feeling particularly anything right now, Im tired and what i really want is time away from the people in my life - family, friends, its not that dont want them its that i feel i need space at this time and well im needing to work though some stuff - must be that time of year when i get the deep thoughts of my life aims and where im going and what i really want - basically i just want to space out for a couple days and then return to reality with everything feeling ok, maybe not so much the same but when i accept some things or change some things and my internal view is usually altered slightly so that i see things i little differently but not enough that everyone notices

With that

LM

]]> ~ahhhrrrr http://ahhhrrrr.deviantart.com/journal/10977679/ http://ahhhrrrr.deviantart.com/journal/10977679/ Wed, 06 Dec 2006 21:22:30 PST
People who call me and dont leave a message who just ring and then there is no caller id and no message and i dont know who is trying to contact me or if it is important and its annoying and then i spend the day asking all the people i know if they called me and its usually no cos its usually someone who never calls

ok and breathe

to catch you all up

Work - is great, i love it is easy and non stressful and i can do it will out thinking and i leave it there at the job in the city in my seat at my desk as it is only done there i cant take it home, the money is nice and i love working the city its so much more classy and then there is the no uniforms which is now starting to annoy me cos i have to consider my clothing for the day but then i can wear all my favourite cloths which bearly got aired previously

I also love the access to a computer and well time to look at stuff like this cos currently there are no calls and im waiting until there is work which means that there can be alot of waiting around and time wasting which is where is journal fits in and the 'right now'

home - im bored i have nothing to work on and its all wasting time and movie watching and the walking when i just need to get out for a while and the bearly seeing family even though theres been birthdays (youngest brother is now 17, sister 18 which is kinda crazy) and its nearly christmas so ill have to start some time soon

friends - well didnt see any last week and this week its been catch up and i feel as though i need to spend time in partcular with lisa as she is going to the uk in january which is kinda a strange thought, ill be weird with out her for a year and maybe more as i may travel myself the following year - still not sure on that at this point

on other friends well you are all invited to my place next friday and you will all receive sms with more details or at least those in Sa will

events - well im still owed money from all the previous work but i can wait a little longer, i have a charity event and then the victoria park races next week and then something else i should really find details for cos i dont know when,where or what yet

and since thats all i can think of currently and its nearly time for me to leave ill leave with that so bye

LM

oh and cos i cant find it on here - reflective

]]> ~ahhhrrrr http://ahhhrrrr.deviantart.com/journal/10654525/ http://ahhhrrrr.deviantart.com/journal/10654525/ Wed, 08 Nov 2006 02:41:10 PST
I quit my job this morning, I will finish working for birdwood foodland in around 2 weeks and begin with the advertiser after that in their customer service devision which will likely lead into the event staff area

So with that said Im nervous and excited about hte change, good and ready for the new its the leaving the steady and known behind and well thats kinda scary but it all work out

Oh and i have a crush, i like having a crush its so fun and happy and well i dont think i want it to go anywhere cos kinda have to work with him and also there are other issues and hes a smoker so thats gross but well yes my thoughts of the day

Hope I shocked you all

LM

]]> ~ahhhrrrr http://ahhhrrrr.deviantart.com/journal/10047132/ http://ahhhrrrr.deviantart.com/journal/10047132/ Tue, 12 Sep 2006 06:14:37 PDT
Mental note dont wait 2 months to update next time- too much to remember and well its not like your gonna try so oh well

K to catch up, Tassie was great- beautiful weather and nice people that tended to stare alot but hey that happens an lots of great shopping for like arts and I didnt get to leave the city but I made friends and everyone called me L short for LM which is now a longer story than I can be bothered writing but hey that was before I wrote the it was a long story so Im just going to be lazy and not tell you anyway so HAH! (you know Ill post pics at some stage - maybe tonight)

ANd well I cant remember much that happened after that, except the depression which seems to set in when i end up back at work and feeling stuck in my life and well since then have decided that Im well its a probably going to stay at foodland until I get long service leave at which time Ill look for a job cos thats like 6 weeks or something and Ill have holidays too

I worked at uni on open day and well that was a day of wow is it hard to explain, people staring again, studip questions and strange expections and inspiring speeches from me about the course which i realised i knew very little about ( I now know theres a 80-90% employment rate out of uni, all the subjects that are meant to be studied, I knew where some jobs were but now i know more and i can justify why any other degree can be covered in this course and is better for it) oh and people are sheep but hey I liked the $44 an hour on sunday

Now im reading heavy academic journals and books related to event design to understand the difference between it and event management and then the difference between the styles used by two different event creators - figure that out why dont you

And im getting crazy cos im bored, the last time I was this bored I well maybe not the last time but before that I agreed to get a tattoo ( which i keep meaning to put a pic up of but its not as interesting or impressive as dudes now cos shes had hers redone) before that I permed my hair and now Im just waiting for the right impulsive thing to do which my not sound impulsive but it is really when you realise how little time i have to do anything but work and uni and watch dvds before dude goes away and they get left in her house wait now that i think about it i should have waited and used that to answer the what the hell am i going to do while shes away - aside from the obvious go nuts but i can do that with her in the same country!

WOw i needed to write that obviously, actually i just hadnt noticed how much i had written and since in true form i will not reread this before posting it, editing is for other people ill not name you just think of you in that way that suggests your of lesser minds

And cos well everyone else is doing it and sometimes i want to join the flock but i like the wolf in costume approach

Mood- undecided- tired, bored and kind of reflective and possibly pensive
Listening to- Nickelback
Watching- was gilmore girls season 3 and that 70s season 3 but done now, so just the cat (shes going to bite me)
Reading- well aside from event Management: an international journal, Fire on the Water: a personal view of theatre in the community and the like, rereading The Ancient Future by Traci Harding

and now im tired and since i dont know who is even going to read this its not like it matters so bye

LM ]]> ~ahhhrrrr http://ahhhrrrr.deviantart.com/journal/9307755/ http://ahhhrrrr.deviantart.com/journal/9307755/ Sat, 08 Jul 2006 00:38:24 PDT
Kinda nervous at this point not sure and waiting for it to be over but really wanting it to happen!

And for those of you who at this point are wondering what i'm talking about or are going with the dirty part in your head on a journey that im not considering im talking about my trip to Tas!

I leave tomorrow! I havent packed yet cos im stressed about an assignement and trying to take it with me not sure how thats going to work at this point and well thats all there is to that ramble, good word ramble. Did you know that the rambling rose varietys are actually mutations of the orginal bush varietys . . . anyway

So i leave and then i get back and then im hopfully happy for awhile and that feelign that im trapped in a life that i dont want or like at most times will hopefully go away as everyone will learn to appreciate me while im gone, ok thats mostly work or it better be as unlike me im not caring about anything i do there any more and finding ways to not do it which isnt like me i do it i get it done! I hope that this time away will also remove or at least dull my need to get away or take off or disappear and just live my life for myself in a way taht i want to not for others or for any other reason , Basically im hoping for renewal of self and renewal of my life and understanding of it and how i fit etc, really not that much to ask i think

So with that out of the way

Coldplay was fanastic and great and so were youth group and they were funny (main guys boots) and coldplay running all over the place, the stage mostly and then at one point the audience (funny to watch the body guards running cos they didnt expect that)

Pirates was ghasrg nadfghrk,gnrlgharkg nadrkgj, I think that covers that. Im gonna go see it again!

Thats about all there is to say at this point so bye all i be back next sunday

and cos its becoming my sign out and for those of you who dont know about it yet to bad you figure it out

LM ]]> ~ahhhrrrr http://ahhhrrrr.deviantart.com/journal/9042627/ http://ahhhrrrr.deviantart.com/journal/9042627/ Mon, 12 Jun 2006 01:32:42 PDT
Me avoiding assignments, busy maybe getting a job but i have to wait a week before i find out details and basically interested that no one has anything to day to me currently

Hello!!!

I need to do something, I work I do uni work at some point and my friends a working

AHhhhhhhhhhh, now u all understand the name? ]]> ~ahhhrrrr http://ahhhrrrr.deviantart.com/journal/8955920/ http://ahhhrrrr.deviantart.com/journal/8955920/ Sat, 03 Jun 2006 02:56:37 PDT
Been a while since i've been on here to write, to cover the resent, event coordinator for models, uni - boring, work - long and bitchy, and then the really bad news, which happened after the great party

Work and uni are the same so I 'll move on, dude's party was great, my outfit was fanastic with a long blond wig, mini dress, knee high white boots and that white hat ( I'll put up pictures up later) and hers was great - dude- I'll let her decribe it or put up photos but it was great except for the not being able to do it up or down yourself

Sorry to those of you who thought i was a little manic that night but to explain, my grandfather had been really sick and i was going to see him the next day, it felt like a goodbye and worst so when i was there which is what leads to the really bad news and im sure so of you have figured it out now, he died early monday morning, the funeral was thursday. there is nothing else to say really, its mortal and stupid and weird going there and damn it i dont want to talk about it except the best thing to do after a funeral is to go through old photos with everyone

Moving on I been really busy with the Finesse model Preview Parade to which i was event coodinator where I organised their office, staff included, then ordered around 60 models before getting several possible offers for more work and an offer to be photographed, after i had the wine on no food all day (always fun) but I had fun in the end

Thats me up to date and i have nothing much else to say so night ]]> ~ahhhrrrr http://ahhhrrrr.deviantart.com/journal/8281001/ http://ahhhrrrr.deviantart.com/journal/8281001/ Mon, 27 Mar 2006 04:06:53 PST
Did you miss me? Did you notice me gone?

I've been busy, well more so than usual, been living in the city (staying with relatives) while i worked at the festival centre for 2 weeks finishing up my industry placement, what was meant to be no more than 160 hours that i managed to wrangle to 180 became 220 hours which is all free work and slave labour and has meant that my lecturer is not very pleased but hey my choice so oh well and it was . . . . .. .FANASTIC! ! !

I had so much fun, i really wana work in this area and i believe that i may be good at it because they want me to come back, which is just well ahhhhhh in the good way (now you all understand well i get my name)

I spent the first 2 weeks (total of 3 weeks off work- brilliant person invented holidays- 2 at festival centre and 3rd at WOMAD), i was mostly gofa for both and i loved the festival centre, its such a rabbit warren but once you know the way its great ( it was great getting lost too)

WOMAD, well i didnt hate it but i got the idea that the people i worked with didnt like me, mostly chicks will understand this but 3 other women who had been working together for 5 weeks and i was the other one and well there was friction, nothing outright but it did kinda ruin the time in a small way for me

Other stuff that happened - i turned 21, had to work it spent the time cleaning a harmonium, if you dont know what that is look it up i sick of telling people and then i went to the fringe on my own and then went back to my aunty and uncles place who seemed to think my birthday was the day before but hey i still enjoyed it, also and im not answering questions about this but i experienced my first crush on a chick, not going anywhere but it was interesting and hey the next week at WOMAD developed a bigger crush on the site coordinator, he was cute and nice which is a plus

In true me form i had many random conversations with people, met a guy on the bus, old and i was being polite turns out hes suing the state theatre company next year, many of the artists at WOMAD were interesting and what does it mean when one, old knows im young thinks i have a boyfriend and still wants to keep in touch it was strange, said i was the friendly person he had met in Adelaide and that 'you're really beautiful' so im not sure what this meant but hey another random conversation that began about licencing for driving the golf buggies that we use to get around womad (stuff capitals)

And now im back and its like i was never gone except i would never leave my desk or the office in that state, 3 days and i still havent sorted it out

Uni is going to be busy for the next 3 weeks but hey thats what happens when your not there for 2 weeks, nearly 3

and as i now need to clean my room and get things ready for my birthday bbq on sunday im gona go

Dont wear red!

Wow, I forgot I wrote all this and I started again which basically began with me saying I thought I had updated this before, turns out I did just didn’t put it on here

So the latest, I have a wonderful time on Saturday night, I worked as an assistant stage manager and I just a email from lecturer which was high praise of the way I did me job, something about how I dealt wonderfully with the speakers and my calm attitude, I blushed when I read it, praise is not something that is handed out easily in this industry so I feel kinda embarrassed

Now - homework, lots due next week and some this week , ill get it done, I always do and by the way not as tired as when I started this

So with that jumbled journal done (or at least when I’ve run out of stuff that is well that I can be bothered writing)

Bye again for probably another month when I so this again ]]> ~ahhhrrrr http://ahhhrrrr.deviantart.com/journal/7593219/ http://ahhhrrrr.deviantart.com/journal/7593219/ Fri, 13 Jan 2006 14:13:20 PST
Well now i know and i figured that doing what others want is fine up to a point becasue it is part of who i am, i do the right thing, i'm nice and i liked that about me so i'm going to be that again and i also going back to being direct so i dont like something then your gona know

Basically i'm gona be the person i was all over again, from what i can tell that is nice, polite, direct, some what implusive, crazy but fun with it and if u dont like it get out of my life! ( i plan to use this thought alot, so to some people in particular who alway complain about this - if you dont like my driving then i dont drive when we go out, i havent caused an accident yet, been in one but hey light and couldnt see so not my fault and also some of these people wouldnt like to have me say similar things so they will learn that i wont put up with it any more)

Also if i wana dress like a model then damn it i'm gona dress like a model! I like getting dressed up and being girly at times and thats fine with me so everyone can make that fine with them! so lay off people cos i'm ready to fight back

and breathe

theres also a whole bit about my family but i wont state that all here as frankly i dont want you all to know

I think life is going to be good again and i look forward to actioning my thoughts, it will my life good again at least, maybe not all others until they get use to it but that is not my problem

to leave you all now with an example of my current thought patterns . . .
tired so very very tired, hey something shiny and gotta write the journal for Ip and Gilmore girls is on tonight, dont for get to buy a diary today or take dvd back(reassure the dude behind counter again that im not having a break down), be nice to the Matt guy, you have to work with him and i think he has esteen issues, mmm chocolate crap gotta do my hair and with that i hope you all assured ]]> ~ahhhrrrr http://ahhhrrrr.deviantart.com/journal/7437357/ http://ahhhrrrr.deviantart.com/journal/7437357/ Wed, 28 Dec 2005 05:35:11 PST
And now i am left wondering what now...its that same feeling that i usually have that i am waiting for something and i am beginning to wonder if it will ever come, but hey to the whatever as i plan to drown this feeling in much alcohol on new years eve as is nearby ( also a warning to anyone who i am gong to see that night)

Have spent much time with friends lately, you all know who you are as your the ones who read this and well i just want to thank you all for well putting up with me, i feel i have not been happy self and well i dont like it and if you noticed well it was just that time of year but as i say at the top of this, christmas is over and well thanks for keeping me in our own version of sanity as without it i think i am likely to either go nuts and take off somewhere or possible freak out and not go near outside society cos with the people ( think i could like life as a loner- it would be quiet -blame this thought on dude who got sick and left me all on my own to amuse myself and im starting to think im a person who shouldnt be cut off from people)

Oh and i started a new story that none of you can read cos the reason i like most of my work is cos no one else reads it but hey im trying to find or write something that i can put on here
( i know i said that last time but what you gona do?)

anyway as its late and my foot is going to sleep im gona call this done for now

Happy new years to all and well bye ]]> ~ahhhrrrr http://ahhhrrrr.deviantart.com/journal/7315537/ http://ahhhrrrr.deviantart.com/journal/7315537/ Thu, 15 Dec 2005 04:42:51 PST
And what's worse is that i have to work with him, hes one of my supervisor types at the festival centre and its just ahhhhhhhhhhhhhh, its kinda hard to explain

I feel a little better now, but still mean cos i know hes gonna be a guy who doesnt take it well

I hate my life at times like this and to make it worse my cousin called and i have very little way of getting out of being taken out by her on christmas eve, now this to the unknowing think oh family how nice but this really means that she wants to hook up with someone and i have to i dont know play bait, its crap and ill spend all the time not being me cos everyone i meet with her is small minded and doesnt understand the idea of uni or thought processes beyond the animal levels, basically ill get hit on alot before going home alone as my cousin will find here own way, oh yaaaaaaaaaaaaaaaa

So anyway i think i'm not 100% well at the moment which may explain the moods and tireness which are not very like me, I'm seeing a doctor soon and all shall hopefully be clear

I have nearly finished transcribing for 1 of my lecturers interviews for his phD which means that i should have more spare time and christmas shopping is driving me nuts cos people are annoying at this time

Oh and by spare time i mean to work on stuff that i will put on here, most of the stuff i have written in resent years i cant put on here as i consider them to revealing about my character (id like to keep some of my mystique whatever i have left) the only so far out of all my recent work was Unseen Moments as its the one i feel most dettached about but there are ideas that i have put off that i would be willing for all to see, oh and i have a scanner maybe so i try adding some of my drawings or doodles which help me while away otherwise pointless moments in various places, mostly work

Well now i need sleep, i feel better for venting but i will worry until i have spoken to this guy so if you have any advice, could be helpful just remember that i try to be nice and kind and that i have to work this guy after

That's it I'm done ]]> ~ahhhrrrr http://ahhhrrrr.deviantart.com/journal/7288282/ http://ahhhrrrr.deviantart.com/journal/7288282/ Mon, 12 Dec 2005 02:48:29 PST
many happenings, changes, moods (well mostly the same one which hasnt been that great)

I just got promoted at work, i am to run the scanning and admin of foodland - sometimes its scary how much thay trust me

i other parts of life, i feel stuck, like this is all i am and all i can do and i sometimes dont know what that is. It seems that i have become different things to make others happy and some how lost myself in the process, its hard to explain but basically im feeling like i dont know myself and that is not like me

I think i need a new challenge, interest or hobby as i feel i understand all that i am currently dealing with

Time will tell

thats all for now ]]> ~ahhhrrrr http://ahhhrrrr.deviantart.com/journal/7155067/ http://ahhhrrrr.deviantart.com/journal/7155067/ Sun, 27 Nov 2005 04:16:19 PST
So my computer had a virus, the kind that is undetected and then eats away at the programs that register things like the modem, so that was fun and the fun continued when i lost all my settings and thankfully only old uni work

I also now work every day, at foodland 5 days a week where my boss is keeping me sweet cos she knows i'm not happy there but she can't lose me now cos well 2 others are leaving and its nearly christmas and really i kinda know to much cos i been there to long, oh and 2 days a week at the festival centre in Adelaide working in both programing and production departments on there summer program and helping out with an Indigenous art exhibition and also on the Aust Performing Arts Market where there will be about 24 shows put on in 4 days so fun for me but good this time, i mean that in the real way

Recently my time has been a series of random moments, i have many examples but no desire to write that much and while i like a good ramble i dont have the mood, which has kinda been bitchy and tired in a way that is not really like me, my parents are afraid ill do something i'll regret like tell my boss the thoughts that run through my head when she tells me what to do and then that im not doing it right
THis mood is just for now hopefully it will pass soon, i get pissed off at being pissed off and i have no idea why any of that is, I must just be tired ( and for the chicks and sorry to the guys for this but it is not that time of the month)

Also i have every intention of adding more pictures and some of my stories at some point but that may be some time as the computer may be going to get fixed again and i also have this transcribing to do for one of my lecturers but when i get time that is in my top 10 things to do (after sleep, food, wisdom teeth out, sleep, catch up with Lisa, transcribe, find good mood - it'll happen sometime)

Oh and hi to my lastest ringins, nicole and matt how goes all?
thats great!

This mood needs to pass, I like being a nicer person ]]> ~ahhhrrrr http://ahhhrrrr.deviantart.com/journal/7041561/ http://ahhhrrrr.deviantart.com/journal/7041561/ Mon, 14 Nov 2005 02:31:21 PST
hey if anyone wonders the last journal is just a reflection on the current thoughts in my head (that or i cant get the computer to work)

Anyway, you may remember for those who know me or come to realise for those who dont that i can ramble and this is like the perfect place, but i promise to edit (at least when i think of it)

So well i dont have much art or pictures or stuff in general to put on here cos I dont do much on the computer that isnt uni assignments and since they happen to be about the very boring tourism or the more interesting to me Event design, I do try to understand that not everyone else thinks timing of a dinner or pack up of the seating at a site is facinating so I wont be putting that on here, I'll put things when i think of it, I have stories but anything recent wont go on here anytime soon

I really only have this account to interact with others on here but to make others happy I've well you can see what I've put up

So well I feel ive rambled enough for now, this is likely to be what i do most as I have alot of thoughts and they just have to get out cos otherwises they all swirl again and get very messy and my life is to busy to have that (work, uni, work for uni, work with lecturer, organining for modeling- long story, catch up with the people who keep me coherent)

Oh and i cant spell, I know it so dont point it out

thats all for now ]]> ~ahhhrrrr http://ahhhrrrr.deviantart.com/journal/7041502/ http://ahhhrrrr.deviantart.com/journal/7041502/ Mon, 14 Nov 2005 02:15:16 PST ~ahhhrrrr