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Plushies, YET!

=akaCRASH — Fri, 27 Nov 2009 01:50:05 PST

It is official, guys!

I will be taking 3$ plushie comissions and making mini-plushes. Basically, these are just cute faces, with your own custom facial design. Little round balls, so to speak. They're great stocking stuffers!

You just tell me what kind of expression you want on the face, and what kind of fabric you want it done with, and I'll do the rest.

Send me a note here, whisper me ingame on Furc on Abbie, or if you want, comment here. OR! e-mail me! I have an email set up just for plushie orders You can send it to Mono.Inc.Plush@gmail.com, I'll process the orders as they come.

Tata, guys!

<3
Abbie

P.S. if you want to DONATE to the cause, so I can get even more materials, and actually go further, as in, making bigger plushies, and begin the pre-made process, you can do so by clicking this link right here.

EDIT:

I have opened "The Valley", a forum for artists and such alike, as WELL as an oekaki.

The forums can be found HERE, and the oekaki can be found HERE.

Go go go!

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Plushie Update :D

=akaCRASH — Thu, 22 Oct 2009 10:34:53 PDT

Plushies + Sad Face

=akaCRASH — Tue, 22 Sep 2009 03:43:55 PDT

I love this record babe, but I canÂt see straight anymoreÂ

So! I have this amazing idea for a little fun/side project. IÂm going to get into making plushies, and hereÂs the sweetener to the cream! IÂll be doing them for low prices, because I hate how overly priced some custom plushies are. So, IÂll be doing sketch-designs for the premades, and of course accepting custom designs if anyone feels like they want one sometime.

I was thinking last night and it sounded like such a fun, cute little hobby. IÂll be willing to ship even, if the cost is feasible! So, hereÂs the announcement of a future project. ItÂll be called MonoInc. (Like monsterÂs inc. cause mostÂll be little monster-dudes ) Cute and a fun play on it, yeah? Baha.

So, hereÂs to the future monster-plush-making! Cheers!

And here's the sad face

I'm getting mad because I miss having a sub, this place is so cluttered without one @_@ I need to figure out a way to get one ASAP lawl.

P.S. Expect design posts soon!

<3
Abbie

Hey thar!

=akaCRASH — Thu, 13 Aug 2009 16:24:25 PDT

So, here's that...update I suppose?

I'm going to be doing something special, for a while. I'm going to be taking 1.00$ commissions, yeah, that's right. $1.00.

I'll be doing a bust of your character, and if you want it colored, make it $2.00 instead. I can do digital or traditional, your choice.

My tools of trade for traditional are your standard 2B pencils, and Prisma colored pencils.

My tools for digital is Photoshop CS3.

I feel I need some motivation, so this is something that'll keep me kicking. If you're interested, send me a reference, and I'll let you grab a slot. Five slots available at a time.

1.
2.
3.
4.
5.

None at the moment, grab 'em while they're hot!

Roar

=akaCRASH — Sat, 08 Aug 2009 18:10:07 PDT

filllleerr. for a big update.

Yeah you, shook me allll night long.

=akaCRASH — Sun, 21 Jun 2009 23:43:53 PDT

I felt this sudden urge to share with everyone my outburst in feeling an extraordinary surge of love. It was powerful, like on the richter scale, off the charts.

Here I was, just looking through old photos on facebook and I came across the number of photos with Coly, or Coly and I in them. My smile became big and stupid, and I felt it, and my heart felt overwhelmingly big, almost as if it could just burst from my chest and dance. You know, like that Warner Bro. frog? Yeah! Like that!

I don't know why I suddenly felt it, or what made me want to share about it, but it was just so sudden. Granted, we've exchanged the "L" word, of course, but I just wanted to in that moment, take him into my arms, kiss him, and hold him close...and in that moment, I wanted to tell him so much more? What the hell, I feel so weird feeling like this.

This is not something I've ever experienced before. The stupid-smile, the beyond-words feeling of love that surged into me, the...the entire thing is all so new and surreal.

The hell?

I cannot express it anymore, I'm just damn happy.

<3
Abbie

Don't you just love the desire taking hold of you?

=akaCRASH — Mon, 15 Jun 2009 19:53:25 PDT

So, things've been going alright I guess. I'm staying with Ann for a while, and just trying to get back on my feet.

Things have been really rough the past week, but I've got Coly and friends, and i'm going to make it. I swear to GOD, I'm going to make it.

so if you need to get ahold of me, best bet would be trying to comment somewhere, or email me.

email is monochromatic.dreamer@gmail.com, it's also my msn.

toodles!

But I really think it's guts that matter the most,

=akaCRASH — Tue, 19 May 2009 08:51:45 PDT

I displayed them for you, strewn out from coast to coast.

So, update-ish.

I've had a pretty good past week. What with how wednesday went, and then just how everything has progressed so far. My heart is in good condition, and I have been enjoying the warm weather. I caught poison ivy in my dumb attempt to have some fun, but it was worth it when you look back and go, "I got this by sharing some amazing moments with that boy!", haha.

Saturday was katie's 21st, so Coly and I went out to the Zoo and Coly witnessed me trash-drunk with a hang over for the first time of my life. Hang overs, by the way folks, SUCK DICK . Ahaha, remember to avoid them at all costs!

Sunday I spent the day just chilling with Coly. We fell asleep somewhere in the midst of watching Wall-E, woke up at 9, and then stayed up until 7, 8 am monday morning. I'm lacking in sleep, and where it's lacking, I plan on making up.

So, so far things are good. And fun. I like this...thing called fun.

<3
Abbie

I was constructed for you, and you were molded for

=akaCRASH — Thu, 14 May 2009 06:21:59 PDT

me.

Let me, if you will, paint for you guys a beautiful scene.

Last night, a much needed talk between Coly and I, had to be..well, had. We found a side path at Kirk park that lead up to a single tree, and a ledge over the dunes, looking down over the lake. Let's note this was about 50 feet up, or so. Two stories or more, I can't calculate height, but it was high. We had a talk sitting on this ledge, and as the thunderstorm rolled in, our relationship unfurled, and we became more than just friends.

We shared a kiss, a hug, and the forming of something I hope, has great potential. And what's more, is that the spot we had this connection, the spot where we became more, that's one of the most beautiful places I've ever been...and I will always cherish it as something more now

I'm done painting this picture, only to say this. I am happy.

<3
Abbie

We'll go with a good update.

=akaCRASH — Sun, 10 May 2009 11:15:57 PDT

An update from Friday night:

So, my car might be in shambles, but I've got a boy who makes my heart soar miles upon miles. Coly picked me up from work today, and we went to visit my mother, and co. Then we went back to his place, I met his cats, we watched Transformers, and laughed n' laughed. WE then walked down to 104th and threw rocks into the creek as we laughed and smiled, and then the lightning came.

We went to pigeon creek after hours and walked, I kid you guys not, the entire trailthing until 4 am. We were sopping wet, but he told me he wanted to hold my hand, so I gave him it.

"I don't know WHERE the fuck we are!"

"My ass is wet!"
"Ok...?"
"Yep!"

"FROGGY! *sweeps frog up.*"
"You have frog goo on your hands! LOL!"
"I know "

Oh god, it's really a 'youhadto-be-there' kind of adventure, it was amazing! Then, we went to iHop, ate, and he dropped me off here, at home...where he held me in a very big, sopping wet hug, and I kissed his cheek.

I see this going good places.

<3
Abbie

...

=akaCRASH — Fri, 17 Apr 2009 01:07:59 PDT

grandma passed, the worst thing to watch is a dying relative.

busy busy busy next few days. heart's a mess.

ouch.

Jesus, Take the wheel...

=akaCRASH — Tue, 14 Apr 2009 16:11:12 PDT

I'm letting go, and trying to move on, and in doing so, in letting go. My heart just breaks even more.

But who am I to hold on, after all. If you truly love someone, you'll let them go. Let them be happy.

Hardest part of this, but it needs to be done.

So, please God, guide me through this.

Quits.

=akaCRASH — Mon, 13 Apr 2009 17:51:24 PDT

That's it. I give up. I'm calling it quits. I get it. I get it.

I'm going to just stop talking.
To you.
Until you want me to.
I am done.

My heart has had enough of this.
This "just friends" shit.
This "Hiding" things shit.
This entire mess of shit.

And I'm done with relationships too.
I am DONE.
I've had enough heart break,
and let downs
and lies
to lead me a life time into the dark.
I am so sick of crying,
and thinking I'm happy,
and then wondering WHAT the fuck?!
I am SO SICK of hurt.
I am so fucking sick of it.
I am so..sick of loneliness.
That only ends in the same fucking mess.
I am sick.
Of being sick.
I am so tired of hurting so much.
I just wanted to give my all.
And I can't compare to her.
No, still love Megan.
Still love someone who could hurt you twice over.
Still love someone who could step on you, and you'd let her.
I won't let someone break my heart again.
I'm done, I'm locking up.
Good fucking luck.

Ouch :(

=akaCRASH — Tue, 07 Apr 2009 11:26:19 PDT

Yeah, Alex, I notice you're still checking my page

here's something that ought to make you fucking HAPPY then.

He still loves his ex, even though she cheated on him twice, hit him, and is still with the guy she cheated on him for, and has been for about 10 months...he still loves her.

And instead of working through it with me, he left me.

So fuck everything, really. But what's more, is fuck the fact that my heart is still in this, still in love, still praying he sees...

Space and time altogether IMPORTANT, READ please!

=akaCRASH — Sun, 05 Apr 2009 15:35:18 PDT

I will most likely, if things go sour, be picking up and leaving entirely. This means saving up as much money as possible, packing up, and going anywhere my heart takes me....out of Michigan and south. And chances are, I won't come back. I've had enough hurt and pain come from this damn small town of Holland, and more so, from just being trapped in Michigan, that I don't want to deal with it anymore.

I want to start over somewhere else, far far away from home, away from the boy that (most likely will) REALLY hurt me...so...travel becomes a necessity.

Sorry guys, but it will most likely happen, just a heads up. If I disappear, y'all know why.

Love you all!

Heart Strings and the melancholic melody

=akaCRASH — Wed, 01 Apr 2009 20:31:45 PDT

My heart has officially had the most strain and pressure ever, upon it. I'm not sure where this is going, but one can only hope to the right thing, to the good thing.

I was living with Nick for a while there, but today I decided that after the lack of affection, the attention he used to give me, and the distance in his actions towards me...well, I decided to come stay at my dad's for now. Shocker, isn't it? My dad, the alcoholic. The drunk. And I turned to him, because my mother and stepdad are not a "safe haven" right now...

Anyhow...I spoke up, AFTER calling my dad, that I think it be best I stay here for a while. Nick immediately jumped up and cradled me in his arms as he explained that he was stressed about something, but can't figure out what, and when he does, he'll explain it to me. I asked him, that basically, I wanted to know he wanted this relationship. He said as of right now, as of how he's feeling, yes. So, I told him that when he figures it out, we need to work it out.

I'm his companion, I'm here to help, but I can't help if I don't know the issue. The source of stress that makes him this way with me. He said, however, it's not something coming from me at all. That I'm very good to him, and he knows it's not coming from me.

He just needs to think.

So, I'll let him think while my heart feels like it's breaking.

Because I love him.

Abbie

Little extra somethin' somethin'?

=akaCRASH — Sun, 22 Mar 2009 08:39:24 PDT

Hey guys, just stopping in to update.

I will have my computer, my own PC, hooked up and rearin' t'go here sometime soon today, this means me and my tablet shall be reunited, so look forward to a small, but nice little update, alright?

lovelove!

5 Free slots

=akaCRASH — Mon, 16 Feb 2009 19:53:33 PST

Lack of sleep

=akaCRASH — Wed, 11 Feb 2009 23:15:04 PST

I cannot sleep.

entertain me somehow?

I wanna, wanna, wanna touch you!

=akaCRASH — Mon, 09 Feb 2009 21:31:19 PST

I'm enjoying a corona, and felt like writing.

I've had a busy past month or so, in the sense of work, boyfriend, friends, family, and running around like a chicken with my head cut off. I'm pondering joining the USCGA program in their Photojournalism core, which would be super cool.

I'm working still, as a waitress, and making the same old measly 3$/hr, and tips. I'm possibly getting a third shift job, we'll see where that leads.

My heart is full of good feelings, I am positive that I am falling, no, wait, let me rephrase that. I have fallen in love, it seems, with this new boy. He's so good to me, and he gives me the best warm fuzzies I've ever experienced.

I barely talk to old friends, with the exception of course, of Katie, Morg, and the small few who still keep in touch from time-to-time via facebook. I don't mind the distance though, we're all growing up and apart from each other. To each their own.

So, my life so far has been busy but lovely, and I am content.

Ah, 21 feels so good.

The big Two One

=akaCRASH — Wed, 28 Jan 2009 21:18:10 PST

I am officially 21 years old.

Ok, off to buy that bottle of wine, you fuckers

What teh fux da?

=akaCRASH — Thu, 22 Jan 2009 11:37:43 PST

...the hell at the layout?

also, 21 in one week.

zahaha.

RIP...

=akaCRASH — Sun, 18 Jan 2009 09:59:50 PST

Well, there goes someone.

Mikita Jones died yesterday, Saturday January 17, 2009 in a fatal car accident due to the weather.

..Why is it people I know are suddenly dropping left and right...how is this even FAIR to my generation?

..this isn't fair at all...

Yeouch, that hurt!

=akaCRASH — Sat, 17 Jan 2009 20:45:18 PST

21 in 11 days

Abbie should NOT be allowed to run in the house, no matter the circumstances. I went to let the puppy in (because I am a horrible person, and forgot her outside for an hour tops...guys, it's cold here) so in my feeling like a completely horrible person, I went to run and fetch her. I caught the cord to my headphones, in which nothing bad happened to them or the cord, tripped, and took a complete spill. In this spill, I broke three toes (they instantly swelled up and turned black and blue...and hurt but at the same time are completely numb), then somehow managed to land on my left side and hurt every joint possible.

The puppy is in and warm, however, so win!

but owowow.

A little far for me to reach.

=akaCRASH — Wed, 14 Jan 2009 20:35:09 PST

Alright, so. BAD news. There's going to be, for a solid week, a jobless Abbie. Coming this February. I'm dreading this beyond all means, and who wouldn't with a stepfather like mine being unemployed?

Marlena and Dennis (the owners of Salad Bowl) will be on vacay for a whole week, and whilst they are away, they'll be shutting the restaurant down for the evenings. That means, my shift? Yeah, it's gone for a week. Paycheck-less, work-less Abbie. What more stress could a girl possibly ask for?

In other news, I'm looking at getting an apartment with Mindy. We're talking out plans, and within a few months, plan on moving in. I'm picking up a side job, thankfully, so hopefully when that week hits, I'll have something else I can cover it with, because I'm freakin' otherwise.

In other news, I'm bored as hell.

Someone save me?

-Abbie

How does this even EQUAL Fair?

=akaCRASH — Thu, 08 Jan 2009 00:07:09 PST

I recently was on the phone with a friend of mine, whom no matter how long we don't talk for, still loves me as much as I her.

She was in an accident her junior year of highschool, toward the end of my senior year. The accident, while it wasn't fatal at the time, left her with a disease in her bones that eats them from the inside out, and get this. The doctor's cannot fix it. Mmnope. It's because she is allergic to the titanium they put in her legs when they tried to fix them.

Now see, I didn't know this until toni...last night/today, whatever, and in my phone conversation with her, all I could think was, "Oh my God, she won't make it past 30." Which is exactly what they told her. They told her the disease would work into her ribs and when they are gone, her chest will collapse. She'll have a ton of pressure, and then be dead, and when she told me this...I almost lost it on the phone, I gasped and felt a sudden pang in my heart. I wish they could do something, anything to help her, but she's dying painfully and slowly, and they can't. So, she lives her life each day to the fullest.

I plan on seeing her today (Yes, thursday, today) and sharing some time with her, because I miss her, nuff said. I miss her. So, in her time while I can see her, and she me, and spend time together...I'm going to do just that, be there more often for her.

I think now is as good a time as any to take up prayer, even if I'm agnostic, just keeping her close to my heart and thoughts is best.

-Abbie

Wanderlust

=akaCRASH — Wed, 07 Jan 2009 13:13:39 PST

Everytime I listen to Eisley - Brightly Wound, I feel wanderlust kick in. I also feel romantic as hell. Both of which go hand in hand for me, and I randomly wanted to state that I want to roam fields of beautiful flowers in an open country, and run my hands atop their petals as I slip past the plethora of wild flowers. I want to intake the scent of them, and lay down in the middle of the vast space with my eyes covered by just a hand, barely blocking the sun, and as night falls...I'll gaze upon the stars.

I want extraordinary, extravagant, the above and beyond, a travel that will take my breathe away. So, take my breathe away.

"Abbie" Re-design

=akaCRASH — Sun, 04 Jan 2009 11:37:05 PST

My character persona, "Abbie" (I know, same name, hah!) has gone under a re-design, expect concept pictures in a short.

NYE

=akaCRASH — Wed, 31 Dec 2008 14:15:22 PST

It's NYE, so I suppose this is the traditional "Hip-hip-hooray!" entry, where I'll tell you all to have a save, wonderful New Years, and such.

I'm still sicker than a dog, myself, and will be staying in tonight, so those of you out there having fun, have a drink for me, eh? I'd like that After all, I'm not going to be popping any champagne until I'm well enough. Which reminds me, my 21st is coming up, and fast!

I'm so nervous, because it means a new license, a new privilege, and of course, a whole new door in life opens up for me. Bar-hopping, clubbing, and all that good stuff. I already know that I won't be too big into the whole bar-scene, but I'd love to enjoy a night out on the town here and there, and why not? I'm a girl, I'm single, and I'm all for the fun I can be having. So if I'm still single when I'm 21, I'm going to rock that scene. When I do make it out.

I'm not sure what else to say. If people even want to stop by just to say hi, that'd be nice. Cocoa, soup, anything really. I can't go out, I don't want to go out feeling like complete shit, but knowing someone at least cares, that's nice .

I sound pathetic, ew.

Anyhow, off to listen to more music and attempt to further my progress on this whole getting-better-thing.

<3
Abbie

The wheel in th..oh whatever, merry christmas!

=akaCRASH — Thu, 25 Dec 2008 09:11:00 PST

I totally got my christmas snuggle, score! Obviously,
Uhm, new snow pants that are fuckin' AWESOME. You guys should see these things, they have leg-bones on them, and just...alsdjad shrapnel and shit. They're fuckin' awesome looking.
New under-pants (long johns of some form) for the snow pants.
Knee high boots.
Socks n' gloves.
The Dark Knight
etc.

I need to get the Grenade jacket to go with my Grenade pants.
21st birthday soon, mum says it'll probably happen. Suh-weet.

EDIT: Pants - [link]
Jacket - [link]

<3
Abbie

PS: Still not really in the christmas spirit, but merry christmas anyhow. (also, a sub = <3, but you know )

And brudda, I HURT people!

=akaCRASH — Mon, 15 Dec 2008 00:00:27 PST

Abbie is a scout, and an engineer!

Wait, what? You ask. Team Fortress 2, and then and thhheenn. I'm a Sorceress in Diablo II .

I'm getting really tired now though, and will most likely be heading to bed here soon. I have Tuesday off from work, and we're picking the puppy up then.

Anyone who has TF2, please let me know, or add my steam ID to your friend's list, coffinrat. Also: I have an extra copy of Half Life: Episode One, and whomever wants it, will get it, free of charge so please, feel free to gimme a shout. Steam is free to make an account with, so even if you don't have a steam ID, but you want HL2:Episode One, and can't afford it, I'm totally giving this away. Consider it a christmas gift?

Uhm, in other news, I'm feeling very mellow, very cognitive, thoughtful, curious. I have too many thoughts in my mind.

It's somewhat a bad thing, and yet...I don't mind.

Hrm..

And like before, makes no sense.

=akaCRASH — Mon, 08 Dec 2008 09:53:44 PST

I went through once again, some minimal changes. Again, I'm on the market. I swear to God, sometimes men are just the bane of my existence, and I should just give the 'lot the middle finger and walk away.

I've been doing just fine, however, because the latest ex was a complete liar, inside and out. Not being upfront and honest about his views on a few things, lying about SAID views on a few things, etc...etc..so, good riddance and no skin off my teeth.

Expect new photos soon, we have tons n' tons of snow, and I'm gonna play in it. I'm also cutting off all of my hair, well, for the most part. Like: [link] that.

Toodlies.

Abbie

Chevelle - Well Enough Alone

Walk down the realm
hint to no one that this
generic bond exists
evil shows another side

And like before, makes no sense
never coming
always leaving right before
hooked on substance
dig in deeper
can't reveal

Why we leave
well enough alone
never thought about the shame

So fed up
what's with the scenes?
Observe and leave instead
this pity wagon
penetrates my skin
so sensitive, makes me sick

And like before, makes no sense
never coming
always leaving right before
hooked on substance
dig in deeper
can't reveal

Why we leave
well enough alone
never thought about the shame

The old and the aged
pulled and never knew what hit
the old and the aged
pulled and never knew what hit

And like before, makes no sense
never coming
always leaving right before
hooked on substance
dig in deeper
can't reveal

Why we leave
well enough alone
never thought about the shame
why we leave
well enough alone
never thought about the shame

We Leave...
We Leave...

Thank you.

=akaCRASH — Sat, 15 Nov 2008 11:08:34 PST

Formally, because I cannot express my gratitude half the time over and over on this, but thank you all so much for the continuing favorites on Snow Dog.

I'd like to note it's been almost half a year now that she has been deceased, but that photo is and will always be my favorite of her. I plan on blowing it up in size for my parents for Christmas.

Put it in your middle finger and sing along!

=akaCRASH — Fri, 07 Nov 2008 12:40:21 PST

So uhm, the past few weeks that I've spent with new friends, and Nick, and such, they've all been far more than amazing.

I experienced iHop on captain morgan's (drunk, yes), buying food for OTHER people (whilst I myself was NOT) who were drunk, and the fight that breaks out between two drunk people when they want chicken nuggets...amusing.

Uhm, oh, and I totally get free cuddles and such in that mess.

I am tons fucking happier. Amen!

Abbie

Orchestrate The World Around Me?

=akaCRASH — Thu, 23 Oct 2008 23:07:02 PDT

My world is slowly becoming this piece of me that I want, and of course I don't expect many of you to remember my facebook rant about wanting change for myself, but this change. This new change in my life is so revitalizing. I enjoy knowing things are fixed into place, and my life is flowing with whatever comes, and...I have not a care in the world.

If this is pure bliss at it's finest, I don't want to ever come out of it. I've not felt this complete, this happy in my entire life.

I've hurt people in my past, including those I've loved more than they'll ever know, but now. Now I can say that I did it for selfish reasons, and I was wrong. Admitting being wrong is the first step to repairing the soul, heart, and body. I acted on things in the wrong manner, and after wards, immediately kicked myself right square in the rear. However, this is where I say something that may contradict what I just said: I. Do. Not. Regret. The. Things. I. Did.

Why?

Because I learned, lessons come in all shapes, and sizes, and mistakes. I learned by trial and error, and am pretty sure this new, bubbly, happy person that's coming out, is better than before. Better, how? I can say this: I won't be condemning others for condemning me, or being pissed at me, but rather stepping up and owning up to my problem.

So please. Do not be afraid to approach me, because I'm at this point in life where the peak of things is top, I'm here, I'm now, I'm ready. I love myself.

...I love myself for once.

<3
Abbie

A New Life

=akaCRASH — Tue, 21 Oct 2008 20:29:39 PDT

My life has slowly become better and better.

Alex and I might not have anything anymore, but that's ok, I've moved on.

Yeah, for those of you that had no clue, he and I broke up a few months ago, and I've got someone else to enjoy in my life now.

He's like my twin, but not my twin? Ahaha.

Anyhow,
Love you all!

Abbie

Augh.

=akaCRASH — Mon, 13 Oct 2008 20:53:29 PDT

Tagged by

Boy
[x] you love hoodies.
[x] you love jeans.
[ ] dogs are better than cats.
[x] it's hilarious when people get hurt.
[x] you've played with/against boys on a team.
[ ] shopping is torture.
[ ] sad movies suck.
[x] you own an x-box.
[x] played with hotwheels cars as a kid.
[ ] at some point in time you wanted to be a firefighter.
[x] you own a DS, PS2 or sega.
[x] you used to be obsessed with power rangers.
[ ] you watch sports on TV.
[x] gory movies are cool.
[ ] you go to your dad for advice.
[ ] you own like a trillion baseball caps.
[ ] you like going to football games.
[ ] you used to/do collect baseball cards.
[x] baggy pants are cool to wear.
[x] it's kinda weird to have sleepovers with a bunch of people.
[x] green, black, red, blue, or silver are one of your favorite colors.
[x] you love to go crazy and not care what people think.
[x] sports are fun.
[x] talk with food in your mouth.
[x] wear boxers.

Total = 17

Girl
[x] you wear lip gloss.
[x] you love to shop.
[x] you wear eyeliner.
[x] you have some of the same shirts in different colors.
[ ] you wear the color pink.
[x] go to your mom for advice.
[ ] you consider cheerleading a sport.
[ ] you hate wearing the color black.
[x] you like hanging out at the mall.
[ ] you like getting manicures and/or pedicures.
[ ] you like wearing jewelry.
[ ] skirts are a big part of your wardrobe.
[ ] shopping is one of your favorite hobbies.
[ ] you don't like the movie star wars.
[ ] you are/were in cheerleading, gymnastics or dance.
[ ] it takes you around 1 hour to shower, get dressed, and put on make-up and accessories.
[x] you smile a lot more than you should.
[ ] you have more than 10 pairs of shoes.
[ ] you care about what you look like.
[ ] you like wearing dresses when you can.
[x] you like wearing body spray/perfume/cologne.
[x] you wear girl underwear.
[ ] used to play with dolls as little kid.
[ ] like putting make-up on someone else for the joy of it.
[ ] like taking pictures of yourself with your cell phone/camera when you're bored.
Total:9

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Dear DracoPheonus

=akaCRASH — Wed, 24 Sep 2008 02:23:16 PDT

Dear ~DracoPheonus

I don't really know how to tell you this, but you're a loser. I think I realized it that night in your camping car and I saw you sit on manchester united's goalkeeper. I'm sure you're scarred enough to understand that there is no solution to this. I'm returning your false teeth to you, but I'll keep your photo as a memory. You should also know that I told in my confession today about a new life as a clone .

your everlasting enemy,
abbie

(complete joke btw, love Draco. follow [link] for info )

Hmm..

=akaCRASH — Mon, 22 Sep 2008 10:28:52 PDT

Not sure what to say here.

I'm sick with the flu, but I have WoW, tea, bed, n' toast to manage my boredom.

Possible art updates soon. Possible.

I'm working as a waitress now too, didn't mention that before.

It's pretty fun.

Anyhow, toodles!

Abbie

Cause I'm still Here

=akaCRASH — Sat, 06 Sep 2008 19:52:39 PDT

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I should probably give and update? I'm going to be taking a bit more photos and uploading them here and there. Summer is ending, fall is coming, and the smell of winter will soon flow in the wind and give the air a crisp feel to it when it runs inside my nose.

I am moving along without you perfectly fine. I am happier. I am younger. I am...

This is like...

=akaCRASH — Sun, 10 Aug 2008 00:11:58 PDT

WTFMAITRLY?

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I wanna sing, and I wanna make my own band, and I WANNA FUCKING MAKE MY OWN CLOTHING LINE.

kthx.

Unwell.

=akaCRASH — Fri, 01 Aug 2008 10:35:47 PDT

I think my body has been undergoing something that does not equal good.

My head has been KILLING me the past few days I woken up, and my body feels super weak.

Eurgh.

I have a rant to be made!

=akaCRASH — Wed, 16 Jul 2008 10:08:02 PDT

I REALLY do not like how un-organized V6 is when it comes to DeviantWatch. I miss how it would take each artist, and separate them, then in their category, put their pieces. It was so much easier to go about looking at art.

I'm not gonna lie, now that the change has taken effect, I don't bother to look at much of anything. I just...select all and remove. It irritates me, heh.

I don't know if that's the minor OCD in me or what, but things that are unorganized and changed rapidly on me, drive me fucking bonkers.

So, dA, I miss V5 far more than you'll ever know. Sleek, yes, that's V6, but organized?! It's a clusterfuck of WHAT?! and it's VERY confusing.

So go back, plzkthx

Life in the small town..

=akaCRASH — Thu, 10 Jul 2008 21:33:37 PDT

I've been working a whole week full time. My body is achey.

My stepdad is a douche. My boss is awesome. My head is aksdgajsdgh'ish.

First day of my life

=akaCRASH — Mon, 07 Jul 2008 11:08:41 PDT

Not really. But I'm going to be starting my new schedule, and working Full Time starting today.

So, guys, hate to say it, but unless I have free time and get a day off for some reallllyyy wonky reason, don't expect too many updates from me.

My job is 3:30-12:00 everyday, mon-fri. I plan on, if all goes well, saving up and moving to my own apartment, y'hear?

Talk to you all sometime soon.

Ciao, <3

Me n' My Cuppa' Joe!

=akaCRASH — Thu, 26 Jun 2008 04:11:06 PDT

I just felt like sharing that I am having the most amazing week ever.

I also failed to mention my job now consists of Full Time work, 3:30 pm to 12:00 am, but those hours is fine diddly-doo with me. (oh-ho-ho-ho!)

And this COFFEE! My GOD! It's superb! It's Ghirardelli Chocolate Hazelnut, omnomnomnom!

Abbie

(P.s. No, I don't feel screwed. dA's mood option is being a bitch.)

Have you ever...?

=akaCRASH — Tue, 17 Jun 2008 22:13:07 PDT

I've been doing a LOT of thinking recently, and my life feels incomplete and stomped in numerous places along the road.

It's basically like this. I feel as if I've let a number of people, close in my life or not, use me, abuse me, say what they please to me, get away with a lot of shit, and of course, expect me to take it. And in the end, you see, I've come to this conclusion. I don't want those kinds of people in my life. This is like...for a number of people, no one who really reads this, I promise. And maybe I'll inform these people, I ought to, it's only fair to give them the reasons why I don't want such people in my life anymore.

I want to start over new. I've become a respectable person, or I've tried to. I try not to upset anyone, and yet I do on complete accident. I want people to treat me better, I'm trying to do the same for you guys...and as someone I spoke to said, when I asked them about this issue, my feelings and what not...no one should have friends that rag on you, and mistreat you. It's ill for the mind, body, and soul. I'd prefer my body to be in better condition (not aching, etc), my mind to be soothed, calm, collected, and my soul. My soul to be free of these sorts of worries.

You're all welcome to ask me about this, I would appreciate any questions, and I will answer truthfully. Afterall. I'm being quite honest and putting myself in a prone position by even bothering to state that I feel incomplete, and ruined along this road of growing pains.

I need changes, I need life, I need....I need...something that is less harsh, and much much more gentle.

New CSS, tired. A bit annoyed. Frustrated. Questions should be asked before something is put out there for mutual friends. Not a bullshit stunt.

Uhm. yeah.

In This Dream I'm Dancing Right Beside You

=akaCRASH — Wed, 11 Jun 2008 09:26:32 PDT

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I don't know what to do, about this dream and you!

I love Daft Punk,

Anyhow, hi guys! Here's a little update: I've been taking tons of new photos. Obviously, heh. There're quite a few new Black and White ones in my gallery, so check them out, eh?

I bought a telephoto lens a while back, it was a very very good deal, and I've been toying about with it here n' there.

Why don't you play the game?

..Which I just lost, by the way.

In other news, I'm still really tore up about our dog, I'm seriously hearing things. I've got all my photos of her and I, thankfully, backed up on several websites, so every thing's good.

I'm also enjoying the summer, I'm rarely on the computer except for mornings and late nights. Toodlies!

Author

=akaCRASH ^{Abbie, 20, female, photographer.}

Featured Deviants

~DjBisparulz

Dragon Eggs

What about them? Check my journal often

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Staggah WHUT?!

Eggs:

I caught a stag beetle. I named her Charlie, and have been feeding her jellies and soft nanners, which she seemingly loveloveloves! I will post pics later, but for now. There's somethin' interestin!

Author

=akaCRASH ^{Abbie, 20, female, photographer.}

Featured Deviants

~DjBisparulz

Dragon Eggs

What about them? Check my journal often

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Remnants, missing you..

=akaCRASH — Fri, 30 May 2008 23:28:49 PDT

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Remnants of my memories..

Eggs:

I remember vividly, how he tried so hard to get you to come to him in the grass out front of the office, and you tried, and he had tears in his eyes, and he reached out to catch you as you fell over. I remember that moment breaking my heart even more than it'd been broken before, and those tears filled my eyes then, and they continue to do so.

I miss the softness of your ever so wonderful ears, the sounds of contentment when you'd grunt as you were being pet. I miss the way you'd force your nose under my hand, or put your paw on it when you were trying to say, "It's alright". I remember the way you looked up at me with those eyes that pleaded for attention and love...even in your dying moments.

And I CRY. I miss you so goddamn much.

You. You were such a goddamn great dog. I came home last night to your things already packed up. I stood in the entry way where you slept normally, and eyed the empty space, and felt my heart just fall to pieces.

I cried.
I cry.
I cannot stop.

You were so much closer, we had you so much longer. 15 long years, 15. Pup to senior.

I cannot describe the emotions that keep flooding me. Exhaustion, love, desperation. I watched him carry you off in the office, already gone, with your nose buried in his arm like you'd put it there yourself, like you used to do so to mom or I when you were snuggled up with us.

I broke again, this time, my heart fell apart completely.

And I miss you. I miss you. I miss you.
I'm so sorry.
I miss you...

Abbie

Author

=akaCRASH ^{Abbie, 20, female, photographer.}

Featured Deviants

~DjBisparulz

Dragon Eggs

What about them? Check my journal often

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...

R.I.P. Precious "Heather" Ash

=akaCRASH — Thu, 29 May 2008 15:32:27 PDT

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RIP, Heather, 5/29/2008, 15 years old

In memory of that beautiful dog there, we had to put her down..don't expect too much, my body and mind are a mess, I've been falling to pieces for hours...
Also..please try to hatch my egg:
's Dragon:

Author

=akaCRASH ^{Abbie, 20, female, photographer.}

Featured Deviants

~DjBisparulz

pimping!

clubs!
will add in.

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Epi--make that...Artifact! (READ, PLEASE :D)

=akaCRASH — Wed, 28 May 2008 19:44:48 PDT

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Epic, no no...Artifact?!

I'm going to be doing something I never have done in my life, and spend quality time on a piece that's going to be...epic. why?

I want to enter the Frostmourne contest that Blizzard is hosting. Grand prize is 1 47" Frostmourne replica made by Epic Weapons, and 1 Beta Testing allowance for WoTLK.

So all for it.

Now, the challenge is this: Drawing Arthas, and in a unique manner. I'm going fooorr...something different, I'm sure.

Not going to give details, but this is going to hopefully be an Artifact, fuck epic or Legendary

Author

=akaCRASH ^{Abbie, 20, female, photographer.}

Featured Deviants

~DjBisparulz

pimping!

clubs!
will add in.

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...

A case of a stolen photo, please READ

=akaCRASH — Wed, 14 May 2008 22:04:38 PDT

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Stolen artwork is NOT COOL!

ohai, not worth my time.

Author

=akaCRASH ^{Abbie, 20, female, photographer.}

Featured Deviants

~DjBisparulz

pimping!

clubs!
will add in.

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Ill...on mother's day.

I'm SO sick right now. Like, I'm vomitting, and stuff. And it's SO unpretty. My head hurts so bad. Fuck you chicken, I ALWAYS have issues with you. We're THROUGH!

*Cries.*

Abbie

Author

=akaCRASH ^{Abbie, 20, female, photographer.}

Featured Deviants

~DjBisparulz

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clubs!
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Orphaned Works, I'll fucking leave =/

=akaCRASH — Sat, 12 Apr 2008 15:28:26 PDT

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Orphaned Works?

You heard me right guys, [link] I'll leave DA and discontinue doing any artwork if this legislation passes. They're fighting to make the Â© disappear from our own art.

So, don't be surprised if my gallery is one day bare, and my camera sits collecting dust.

Abbie

Author

=akaCRASH ^{Abbie, 20, female, photographer.}

Featured Deviants

~DjBisparulz

pimping!

clubs!
will add in.

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New CSS + an UPDATE

I got this new CSS here, on dA, obviously, and I love it. When I saw it on someone else's page, I fell for it right there.

I'm also going to start getting more involved here on deviantart. I feel bad, I watch all you wonderful artists, but fail to go out of my way and comment when I should.

So, from now on, expect me to comment more often, and if you want me to look at something, feel free to note me and have me take a look, I do not bit.

Abbie

ps that little #akaCRASH <-- thing? That's a link straight to my chat here on devart! enjoy!

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=akaCRASH ^{Abbie, 20, female, photographer.}

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Thanks for visiting!

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CONTEST?!?!?

I've recently entered myself into two contests, but my major one is the black and white photo one. PLEASE take a moment out of your time to go vote on my photo here [link] ? I'd REALLY appreciate it!

Newsflash: COMMISSIONS

Commissions are, and have been open!

I'm setting a base price. Colored busts, lineart, and sketches: 2$

Colored full body, lineart, and sketches: 5$

And ports, of course, only 2$

Biiiggg ass deal for all y'all, so come on?

List so far:

Kangaroo - Just starting sketches, Full Body Digital, Color
- Doc Ock, Full Body, Inked, MOVIE VERSION!

Earned so far: 0/900

Life

Uhm, not sure what to say. Hah!

Not alot has been happening, just really stressful/upsetting past two days.

Furcadia, got it?

Features

If you want to be featured, let me know via note, I'll be sure to feature three new people every other day

Self Promotion

Clubs

Recent ongoings in clubs:

is having a contest, see the artists involved, and their features here: [link] -- Do not be shy on helping this wonderful club out either, go join and help expand that loving community!

Links

Gallery
Scraps
Prints
Favourites
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Stam...

Florida!

=akaCRASH — Fri, 07 Mar 2008 15:49:51 PST

Thanks for visiting!

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Florida?

so for those of you whom I haven't bragged to yet, I'm going to be gone March 13th until March 20th in Florida. HOWEVER! I will be bringing my laptop and camera, so! Emails, emails, EMAILS! I love them, and I'm going to give you all my address. Send me an email with what YOU'D like pictures of. I'll be down in Ft. Myers. My email address is coffin.rat@gmail.com <--give me a list there, and I'll try to get to everyone's request

Newsflash: COMMISSIONS

Commissions are, and have been open!

I'm setting a base price. Colored busts, lineart, and sketches: 2$

Colored full body, lineart, and sketches: 5$

And ports, of course, only 2$

Biiiggg ass deal for all y'all, so come on?

List so far:

Kangaroo - Just starting sketches, Full Body Digital, Color
- Doc Ock, Full Body, Inked, MOVIE VERSION!

Earned so far: 0/900

Life

Uhm, not sure what to say. Hah!

Not alot has been happening, just really stressful/upsetting past two days.

Furcadia, got it?

Features

If you want to be featured, let me know via note, I'll be sure to feature three new people every other day

Self Promotion

Clubs

Recent ongoings in clubs:

is having a contest, see the artists involved, and their features here: [link] -- Do not be shy on helping this wonderful club out either, go join and help expand that loving community!

Links

Gallery
Scraps
Prints

=akaCRASH — Fri, 29 Feb 2008 21:52:48 PST

Thanks for visiting!

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Newsflash: Dear ~John-the-Enforcer,
Please stop stalking my page. You are obviously full of fail, if you have to insecurely check my page everyday. I have a recent visitors tracker. You've been on there the past few days in a consecutive row. Go away, you cannot fight your battles, you hide and block people from them to save your ass.

Go. AWAY!

Newsflash: COMMISSIONS

Commissions are, and have been open!

I'm setting a base price. Colored busts, lineart, and sketches: 2$

Colored full body, lineart, and sketches: 5$

And ports, of course, only 2$

Biiiggg ass deal for all y'all, so come on?

List so far:

Kangaroo - Just starting sketches, Full Body Digital, Color
- Doc Ock, Full Body, Inked, MOVIE VERSION!

Earned so far: 0/900

Life

Uhm, not sure what to say. Hah!

Not alot has been happening, just really stressful/upsetting past two days.

Furcadia, got it?

Features

If you want to be featured, let me know via note, I'll be sure to feature three new people every other day

Self Promotion

Clubs

Recent ongoings in clubs:

is having a contest, see the artists involved, and their features here: [link] -- Do not be shy on helping this wonderful club out either, go join and help expand that loving community!

Links

Gallery
Scraps
Prints
Favourites
Wishlist