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I got braces in and so far they have been nothing but a pain. literally.

Things have mainly been tense here, the family Im staying with, even though we're related seems to think I am in a constant bad mood and that I hate them, and they dont fail to tell me at least once or twice a week.

]]> ~akiko15 http://akiko15.deviantart.com/journal/18932660/ http://akiko15.deviantart.com/journal/18932660/ Thu, 19 Jun 2008 15:06:56 PDT
~Name: Hannah Rush
~Height: 5'4.5"
~Weight: no
~Birthday: August 15th, 1988
~Birthplace: Leesburg..thats in the big VA folks
~Current Location: Northern Colorado
~School/Grade: Freshman in College starting this fall!
~Zodiac Sign: Leo.
~Chinese Zodiac Sign: Dragon.
~Righty or Lefty: Right handed yo! but sometimes i do wonder...
~Haircolor: brown...like mud haha
~Eye color: Green.
~Skin Color: Sunburnt! its official im in one of the sunniest places on earth! can even believe I've been outside enough to get one in the first place.

-About Me

~What's Your Family Situation (Parents, Siblings, etc): Birth father is passed away, Mom & Stepfather are married, One half brother, and two half sisters that belong to my brothers dad and his wife...its all good though its like a really really big family with multiple parents.
~Any Pets: 5
~If So What Are They: Ryu, Bella, & Lucky belong to the beagle clan, while Akira & Potato are plotting our demise as cats...0.0 our pets outnumber us...scary
~Favorite Relative: thats tough, but would probably have to be my cousin Olivia, she rox my socks!!
~Least Favorite Relative: i wont answer that.
~What's Your Heritage/Race: Italian,Native American,and Irish
~Political Affiliation: Liberal, as being open to change! for the good yo!

-Love and Sex

~Sexuality: Straight
~Are You In A Relationship Now: i had been...
~If So, With Whom: n/a
~For How Long:
~Are You In Love?: i dont know
~Do You Have A Crush On Anyone: no
~Ever Had A Crush On Someone Of The Same Sex?: maybe? hecks if i know
~How Old Were You When You Had Your First Kiss?: probably like 5 or 6? I was in elementary.
~Virgin?: yeah beaby
~If Not, How Old Were You When You Had Sex For The First Time: <<...um what she said
~Was It Enjoyable?:...
~Where Do You Most Like To Be Kissed?: i dont have enough experience to actually give a real answer.
~Best Love Quote?: "And, in the sound of a falling star is joy and sadness uniting love."

-Your Friends

~Best: Sammi, Colin, Olivia, and my Mom!
~How Many Do You Have?: 4! all the people i need in the world
~Love Them All?: absolutely without a doubt
~Any You Wish You Were Closer To?: All, I would have to move across country to get back to them. >.<
~Oldest?: Haha my mom!
~Newest?: hmm...prob sammi and colin
~Pen Pal?: none

-This Or That

~Boxers or Briefs?: i really like boxer briefs, mmmm yummy lol!
~Thongs or G-Strings?: i guess a thong, its easier for a skirt or dress, but still feels like panties.
~Shorts or Pants?: either
~Shoes or Bare feet?: Shoes for sure!
~Books or Movies?: I love both!
~Night or Day?: Night.
~Dark or Light?: Light? i suppose.
~Mountains or Beach?: i cant decide!! T_T
~Snow or Sun?: Snow!!! its like an obsession.
~Pepsi or Coke?: neither.
~Guys or Girls?: eh? in what context?
~Swim or Surf?: neither thank you muchos.

-For Or Against

~Gay Marriage?: For
~Abortion?: I'm against it as a birth control method. If a girl got raped and became pregnant, or a similar event happened, that's different. (took the words right out of my mouth, and i could see if there were medical concerns abortion being a treatment, even if it is sad.)
~Bush Getting Re-elected?: Oh Hell No. I'm moving to Japan if that happens!
~Suicide?: meh
~War?: NO
~Pants?: Pants please
~Clothes In General?: Yes, for the love of all thats good, Yes!
~Penises?: ?? why is that even a question?

-Favorites

~Color: Heather
~Number?: 6
~Holiday?: My birthday?
~Season?: Winter then Spring
~Movie?: Pride & Prejudice
~Book?: Jane Eyre
~Magazine?: Seventeen
~Food?: Watermelon
~Drink?: Water or sun tea
~TV Show?: none
~Song?: Peace Train by Cat Stevens, one of the best songs to ever be sang!
~Band?: U2 or Coldplay
~Computer Game?: Sims2
~Video Game?: Harvest Moon or kingdom hearts
~Anime/Manga?: Sailor Moon, Chobits, and Naruto
~Shirt?: its a white eyelette blouse that I love to death.
~Pants?: a pair of MEK denims that my nonna bought me.
~Actor?:
~Actress?: Julia Roberts or Keira Knightly
~Singer?: I have too many for there to be a single one favorite.
~Flower?: gladiolas
~Scent?: Miracle by Lancome
~Animal?: Ferret yo!
~Cookie?: no

-About Future

~Want To Go To College?: yes.
~What Do You Want To Be When You Grow Up?: an artist most likely, its probably what i will do because its what im most talented in.
~Want To Get Married?: yes.
~Want To Have Kids?: yeah
~What Would Their Names Be?: Girls- Natalia, Ota, Irina, Caprice, Merlot. Boys... ]]> ~akiko15 http://akiko15.deviantart.com/journal/18282808/ http://akiko15.deviantart.com/journal/18282808/ Mon, 12 May 2008 01:23:49 PDT
Im packing up my room, or at least trying to. I cant get a grip on my life.

I've stopped dancing, I eat more and more and more. It never ends.

Im hateful and mean to those around me and i dont understand why I cant be nice, but i feel like im getting to that point where I dont care.

i want it to be about me for once.

too selfish.

I wrote a list down of everything I want to change about me that I AM at the moment.

it will be finished by december this year.

I want to be perfect.

]]> ~akiko15 http://akiko15.deviantart.com/journal/18210614/ http://akiko15.deviantart.com/journal/18210614/ Wed, 07 May 2008 11:45:09 PDT
I need to get my arts up here soon!!

So Im moving in about 9 days! How freaky.

Anyways, if you want a strong president, then click here and help out!!


[link]

or here and donate!!

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luv ya guys!!

]]> ~akiko15 http://akiko15.deviantart.com/journal/15656764/ http://akiko15.deviantart.com/journal/15656764/ Sat, 24 Nov 2007 22:05:22 PST i know i talk haha

2. Are you a lover or a fighter?
either depending

3. What’s your worst fear?
not anything Im gonna say here haha

4. As a kid, where you a lego maniac?
no

5. What do you think of “reality” tv?
i love americas next top model...does that count?

6. Do you chew on your straws?
yes

7. Were you a cute baby?
no, i was fat

8. Is the single life for you?
wish it wasnt, but thats the way its shapin' up to be for the rest of it...add a few cats and a stoop and im good to go.

9. What colour is your keyboard?
white and chrome

10. Do you sing in the shower?
no

11. Have you ever sky-dived before?
nope

12. Any secret talents?
not any that are mentionable...>.> dun think you wanna know either way

13. What’s your ideal vacation spot?
away from everyone i know, where no one can bother me about stupid things....maybe I should just be considering moving out though for the time being

14. Can you swim?
yeah

16. Have you seen the movie "Donnie Darko”?
yes, love the song mad world

17. Do you give a damn about the ozone?
yes, i'd like to be alive, thank you.

18. How many licks does it take to get to the center of a tootsie pop?
no idea

19. Can you sing the alphabet backwards?
not very well

20. Have you ever been on an airplane?
yes

21. Are you a single child?
no, but I was raised like it

22. Do you prefer electronic or manual pencil sharpeners?
depends

23. What’s your stand on hunting?
if its the only way to control population levels so that they dont start harming themselves, then by all means...just no endangered species killiz yo!

24. Is marriage in your future?
probably not, though i wish it was

25. Do you like your handwriting?
no

26. What are you allergic to?
pinnapple, milk, and bees

27. When was the last time you said 'I love you?'
not in a very long time

28. Is Tupac still alive?
not that i know of

29. Do you cry at weddings?
no

30. How do you like your eggs?
whites only please ^^

31. Are blondes dumb?
depends i guess...i'm half biologically so that suxorz for me

32. Where does the other sock end up?
still havent found it actually

33. What time is it?
12:57

4. Do you have a nickname?
hannah montana, ms montana, banana, little egg...dun ask >.>

35. Is McDonald's disgusting?
absolutely

36. When was the last time you were in a car?
5 hours ago

37. Do you prefer baths or showers?
either as long as I get clean

38. Is Santa Claus real?
no comment

39. Do you like having you neck kissed?
mmmhmm

40. Are you afraid of the dark?
not anymore

41. What are you addicted to?
hmm...lots

42. Crunchy or creamy peanut butter?
neither

43. Can you crack your neck?
yupp

44. Have you ever ridden in an ambulance?
yes

45. How many times have you brushed your teeth today?
twice

46. Is drug free the way to be?
depends, are we talking perscription? I would die without arthritis meds for my hips.

47. Are you a heavy sleeper?
only when I'm very tired

48. What colour are your eyes?
Green

50. Do you like your life?
umm...have to say not really.


51. Who’s better: Stone Cold or The Rock?
The Rock? cus hes good in movies too.

]]> ~akiko15 http://akiko15.deviantart.com/journal/15425372/ http://akiko15.deviantart.com/journal/15425372/ Thu, 08 Nov 2007 19:00:32 PST
1. Smoked. [] (Ewww no.)
2. Consumed alcohol. [x]
3. Slept in the same bed with someone of the opposite sex. [x]
4. Slept in the same bed with someone of the same sex. [x]
5. Kissed someone of the same sex. [x]
6. Had sex. []
7. Had someone in your room other than family. [x]
8. Watched porn. []
9. Bought porn. []
10. Done drugs. [x]
TOTAL SO FAR: six

1. Taken painkillers. [x]
2. Taken someone else's prescription medicine. [x]
3. Lied to your parents. [x]
4. Lied to a friend. [x]
5. Been to rehab. []
6. Done something illegal. [x]
7. Cut yourself. [x]
8. Hurt someone. [x]
9. Been to a club. [x]
10. Seen someone die. []
TOTAL SO FAR: thirteen

1. Missed curfew. [x]
2. Stayed out all night. [x]
3. Eaten a carton of ice cream by yourself. [x]
4. Been to a therapist. [x]
5. Snuck out of the house. [x]
6. Dyed your hair. [x]
7. Received a ticket. []
8. Been in an accident. []
9. Wished someone to die. [x]
10. Been to a pub. []
TOTAL SO FAR: twenty

1. Been to a wild party. []
2. Been to a Mardi Gras parade. []
3. Drank more than four beers in a night. []
4. Had a spring break in Florida. [x]
5. Sniffed anything. []
6. Wore black nail polish. [x]
7. Wore arm bands. []
8. Wore t-shirts with band names. [x]
9. Listened to rap. [x]
10. Owned a 50 Cent CD. [x]
TOTAL SO FAR: twenty five

1. Dressed Gothic. []
2. Dressed prep. []
3. Dressed punk. [x]
4. Dressed grunge. []
5. Stolen something. [x]
6. Been too drunk to remember anything. []
7. Blacked out. [x]
8. Fainted. [x]
9. Had a crush on a neighbor. [x]
TOTAL SO FAR: thirty

1. Snuck into someone else's room. []
2. Had a crush on your friend. [x]
3. Been to a concert. [x]
4. Dry-humped someone. []
5. Been called a slut. [x]
6. Called someone a slut. [x]
7. Installed speakers in your car. []
8. Broken a mirror. [x]
9. Showered at someone of the opposites sex's house. []
10. Brushed your teeth with someone else's toothbrush. [x]
TOTAL SO FAR: thirty six

1. Consider/considered Ludacris your favorite rapper. []
2. Seen an R-rated movie in theater. [x]
3. Cruised the mall. [x] (I do this a lot...im actually familiar with some of the store employees)
4. Skipped school. [x]
5. Had surgery. []
6. Had an injury. [x]
7. Gone to court. []
8. Walked out of a restaurant without paying/tipping. [x]
9. Caught something on fire. [x]
10. Lied about your age. [x]
TOTAL SO FAR: forty three

1. Owned/rented an apartment. [x]
2. Broken the law in the police's presence. []
3. Made out with someone who had a gf/bf. [x]
4. Got in trouble with the police. []
5. Talked to a stranger. [x]
6. Hugged a stranger. []
7. Kissed a stranger. []
8. Rode in the car with a stranger. [x]
9. Been harassed. []
10. Been verbally harassed. [x]
TOTAL SO FAR: 48

1. Met face-to-face with someone you met online. []
2. Stayed online for 5 hours straight. [x]
3. Talked on the phone for more than 4 hours straight. []
4. Watched TV for 5 hours straight. [x]
5. Been to a fair. [x]
6. Been called a bad influence. [x]
7. Drink and drive. []
8. Prank-called someone. [x]
9. Laid on a couch with someone of the opposite sex. [x]
10. Cheated on a test. [x]
TOTAL SO FAR: fifty five

-If You Have Less Then 10..write [I'm a Goody Goody.]
-If You Have More Than 10..write [I'm still a goody goody.]
-If You Have more Than 20..write [I'm average.]
-If You Have More Than 30..write [I'm a bad kid.]
-If You have more than 40..write [I'm a very bad influence.]
-If You Have more than 50..write [I'm a horrible person.] D:

]]> ~akiko15 http://akiko15.deviantart.com/journal/14306844/ http://akiko15.deviantart.com/journal/14306844/ Thu, 23 Aug 2007 16:22:26 PDT
I wont be back until about thanksgiving time or so....

i miss everyone so much!!!

ttyl

]]> ~akiko15 http://akiko15.deviantart.com/journal/14093176/ http://akiko15.deviantart.com/journal/14093176/ Thu, 09 Aug 2007 16:08:53 PDT
I have to be a crew member instead of performing. oh well. Im still so proud of them, and its nastalgic because they leave on saturday.

]]> ~akiko15 http://akiko15.deviantart.com/journal/14043362/ http://akiko15.deviantart.com/journal/14043362/ Mon, 06 Aug 2007 12:14:57 PDT
I come back here no later than the 29th and I'll be here until christmas, so i really want to see everyone before that ok?

g2g

akiko

]]> ~akiko15 http://akiko15.deviantart.com/journal/13869761/ http://akiko15.deviantart.com/journal/13869761/ Wed, 25 Jul 2007 05:58:02 PDT
They aren't allowing me to perform in the summer showcase...not that i really care. it would be a waste of money for my family to pay, and I know I am too heavy and untrained to be someone that they 'showcase'.

oh well.

Life here is alright, i guess it goes towards my goals...

its quiet and something im not used to at all. everyone is very disciplined.


~akiko

]]> ~akiko15 http://akiko15.deviantart.com/journal/13478460/ http://akiko15.deviantart.com/journal/13478460/ Sun, 24 Jun 2007 22:57:41 PDT
huh.

anyways, had an 'exciting' visit to the ER tonight, the girl I was just talking about banged her head really hard on her bunk bed, and got a concussion, she's home now and asleep, but Im now offically in charge of her for the next day and tonight.

g2g

<3

]]> ~akiko15 http://akiko15.deviantart.com/journal/13369191/ http://akiko15.deviantart.com/journal/13369191/ Sat, 16 Jun 2007 13:20:05 PDT
I want to be one of the best, and seeing myself in the mirror every day is making me so sick....

thats all

]]> ~akiko15 http://akiko15.deviantart.com/journal/13115692/ http://akiko15.deviantart.com/journal/13115692/ Sun, 27 May 2007 17:41:37 PDT
Suki-ne-chan, check out these three convention sites to see if there is one or two you would like to go to and share an art table there kk?

[link]

[link]

[link]

all three are in the DC area.

also guys! make sure you check out

art is super awesome!

]]> ~akiko15 http://akiko15.deviantart.com/journal/13009982/ http://akiko15.deviantart.com/journal/13009982/ Sat, 19 May 2007 07:02:46 PDT
today i'll be going with my mother to pick up my paintings from the framers. My brother is a dipshit...pardon my language.

it'll be interresting once he moves out to actually have peace.

]]> ~akiko15 http://akiko15.deviantart.com/journal/12958593/ http://akiko15.deviantart.com/journal/12958593/ Mon, 14 May 2007 20:17:06 PDT
this weekend is jam packed, visiting my friends, pointe shoe fittings, parteh! Join me as I actually get a social life!

<3

Akiko

]]> ~akiko15 http://akiko15.deviantart.com/journal/12880203/ http://akiko15.deviantart.com/journal/12880203/ Mon, 07 May 2007 19:14:57 PDT
THE JOB....yeah I work at a clothing store in the outlet mall here. paid 9 bucks an hour and no commission, *shrug* thats not the big deal for me. what is...is this. The newly re-enfourced dress code. either khaki pants or jeans fom the store brand...alright if they werent around 70 dollars a pair. then the shoes...either the brand shoes...or I get myself a pair of heals or fancy ballet flats...I wont do either of the three, the store brand costs around 100-80 bucks and then the other two choices dont offer enough support. im just thinking screw it, im leaving in about 2 1/2 weeks anyways.

so annoying though.


THE DATE....hmm what to say about this *swt*

went to have dinner with my aunt and cousin...of course I showed up late because i had to run some errands and didnt know they had left until I got home >.< and then they started telling me about how the server was really cute. yeah two older women telling me these things. hehehe so he serves me dinner...ack!! i forgot my leftovers!!! just realized...T_T well anyways, then my aunt is all, we're going to see spiderman 3 on thursday do you want to join us? she made me give him my number...and yeah, now I have a date!! really random and odd but I do. we'll see how this all plays out.

Akiko

]]> ~akiko15 http://akiko15.deviantart.com/journal/12745183/ http://akiko15.deviantart.com/journal/12745183/ Thu, 26 Apr 2007 16:42:04 PDT
I was so lonely, and I know I do this all the time....but I got myself a black bear hamster!! I named her Giselle, after a famous ballet role. She has the sweetest, big ears and little stub tail! *Cuddles*

Im sorta annoyed though because I've weighed 126 for the past two weeks. what a bummer.

rock on everyone

`akiko

]]> ~akiko15 http://akiko15.deviantart.com/journal/12724089/ http://akiko15.deviantart.com/journal/12724089/ Tue, 24 Apr 2007 22:00:28 PDT
Yes I'm alive.

I got into Nutmeg for the summer.

umm...well what is there to say? I have a sore throat but thats normal allergies.
Been trying to get by on just one job, rather difficult but what can you say, yeah?

Earlier today I waited in line for an oil change for my car for about 2 hours, and then the clerk didnt even give me all of my change.

eating sushi tonight, where I go regularly because the Korean sushi chef is very cute and always recognizes me and actually remembers things that I talk to him about compared to everyone else in my life,...he gave me a green tea ice cream on the house and told me i didnt need to worry about a tip.
I dont know what to think about that. he's so super cute, but I cant help but feel inadequate and very childish...I do like him a lot but how do I know if he was being just nice or is actually interrested. i'd hate to take it as more than it actually is...

yea thats about it.

Cheers Duckies

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I wanna make you happy...
But I've fallen
I'm sorry

]]> ~akiko15 http://akiko15.deviantart.com/journal/11832060/ http://akiko15.deviantart.com/journal/11832060/ Thu, 15 Feb 2007 16:26:11 PST
audition was canceled today, because of weather. when I called to ask if they were rescheduling it, the receptionist told me, in basically not so plain words, just to fuc* off. well excuse me.

then I get a call for work and again, my hours have been dropped because of this snow.

I call my mom, thinking to get some sympathy, but all she does is tell me to be a grown up, that this is life...and she even told me that I NEEDED the extra time to prepare for my audition.

I don't understand why...i put effort in to keep my family relationship strong and they just totally blow me off....what is it? the fact that I moved away? thats some sick shit....fine then, you wanna isolate me and make me feel like the most worthless person on the planet, go right ahead. The truth of the matter is, i think my whole family is selfish, narrow minded, and wholly unseeing of who I am.

...its just...god is it so bad to want attention and love from those you depend on?
---------
on another point...i called, I sang happy birthday, i just want to know if you got it...do I have the right number?

nothing is going right.

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month long fast begins tomorrow. Im not going to let myself be weak any longer...its all people see when they look at me and im sick of it.

]]> ~akiko15 http://akiko15.deviantart.com/journal/11827954/ http://akiko15.deviantart.com/journal/11827954/ Thu, 15 Feb 2007 10:34:50 PST
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What's the point? honestly...if no one is going to care either way?


...god, I'm so freaking emo...then again, I don't really care either...huh...thats funny

]]> ~akiko15 http://akiko15.deviantart.com/journal/11792129/ http://akiko15.deviantart.com/journal/11792129/ Mon, 12 Feb 2007 21:33:29 PST

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1st day of work went well, but I dont have money to buy work clothes there. >.<

Ballet is going so so. everyone is so much better than I am..as always. I feel like im stuck in place while everyone is speeding forward all around me. im loosing everything, and gaining nothing but pain and hunger in return

the sad thing is, it feels good, since I haven't felt anything real in so long.

Laxatives hurt...thats my rant of the day >.<

"I wanted freedom...now Im addicted"

]]> ~akiko15 http://akiko15.deviantart.com/journal/11751483/ http://akiko15.deviantart.com/journal/11751483/ Fri, 09 Feb 2007 18:58:07 PST

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the move was good, and both my interviews went well, i took the job at chico's and will be making 8.50 an hour, full time. so that means I get benefits too. I feel like this is going to be a fun job, at least compared to others but i have to wear the clothing...i'll need to find something in their sizes. I'd fit into their 0, normaly a 4-6 in womens.

again with the food thing...dont read if you dont wanna hear about it kk? ^^

i've realized whenever i eat, that my stomach bubbles out...i cant eat before my audition then, because I want clean, pure lines. Right now, i can feel the grinding beginning in my stomach, because of laxies...>.> at least their less painful then purging, i spit up some blood the other day...but i dont care, not now. not with my life on the brink of either a future or a would be non-existance.

123...its odd now, that I look back on this, how easily I've slipped into this. they say that those that get ana are already pre-disposed, self concious, and insecure most of the time. its understandable. I can see my hip bones slightly, but all I CAN see is the fat sitting above them, making them ugly to me. Nothing is perfect to me in my eyes anymore...the only thing I can say is alright for the dance world is my hyper extension in my knees. everything else is a blight...enough of this, I want it all badly enough, i'll do what it takes, and if that means nearly passing out, then so be it. I dont care about the consequences any more, because Im tired of seeing nothing, BUT the bad.

]]> ~akiko15 http://akiko15.deviantart.com/journal/11721138/ http://akiko15.deviantart.com/journal/11721138/ Wed, 07 Feb 2007 10:50:01 PST
I'll tell you all how it goes later tonight, now to drive...-_-

]]> ~akiko15 http://akiko15.deviantart.com/journal/11708035/ http://akiko15.deviantart.com/journal/11708035/ Tue, 06 Feb 2007 09:47:51 PST
Im moving to leesburg hopefully on wednesday, if my cat is ok after his surgery...-_- good I hate having things that hold me back, and now my grandmother is saying that i need to wait an extra day just to make sure there are no complications...wtf, its bad enough having to wait 3 days...thats just bs....and I have no place to take him...its like she's being unhelpful on purpose because im getting the hell up away from her and her control issues...i mean the reason im moving atm is to get ready for nutmeg's audition in two weeks...and she kept on asking me when I hadnt told her that i was moving, "do you really want nutmeg?" the answer is obviously yes.. the reason im switching schools...but now that she knows...i dont think she really cares about nutmeg...w/e that bitch.

so i know this music video is sasu x naru from naruto but its very cool. check it out ^^

[link]

]]> ~akiko15 http://akiko15.deviantart.com/journal/11548173/ http://akiko15.deviantart.com/journal/11548173/ Tue, 23 Jan 2007 23:57:30 PST
Im tired of people telling me what to do and feeling so huge...yet so insignificant. I dont want to let go of it tho. its like the only comfort I have.

fasted today, I can tell tomorrow will be painful, because already I feel weak and light headed...but that lets me know that its working, that Im succeeding and the scale says so too...this morning I was 127 and now Im 124.6...its amazing how just flushing your body of all those toxins and left overs lightens you...normally on a fast your supposed to loose around 1 pound a day if your metabolism can handle it...I think that the reason I lost that much so quickly is because I really had eaten a lot the day before...

popcorn n yogurt n cereal n not half enough water....

so just having fluids really did clean my system...lol you know whats funny, i just realized that some people think that anorexics never eat..that they starve themselves all the time...I do eat tho, suki can attest to that lol...sometimes I can forget, and its warm and filling as I eat it...but then once im finished the guilt sets in...and everything inside me is like a lead weight holding me down, suffocating me i guess thats how i would describe it...

anyways...im quite proud of my loss today. i also just noticed that when I press my knees together I have a small sliver of air between my thighs...now that makes me super proud!! i checked online yesterday, and the average weight of someone who is 5'4" is like 115-120...so im still not even anywhere near unhealthy in that sense...but still its horrifying to look in the mirror and see myself...i hate that in ballet class now.

]]> ~akiko15 http://akiko15.deviantart.com/journal/11496606/ http://akiko15.deviantart.com/journal/11496606/ Sat, 20 Jan 2007 07:27:51 PST came back to my home today after my week visiting my family. Its nice to be home, but I had an interview at claires....bleh, im such a looser, I was so tired and starting my period and all that 'great stuff' that I actually started crying!!! OMG

....it was horrifying. the manager rescheduled me for wed...which is nice of her, i felt absolutly lame and worthless still do actually.

I think I should just go look for a job waiting tables. better money anyways.

tomorrow I start a fruit juice detox. its only supposed to last two days, and since its my first one i'll stick with that. Its also a really good opportunity because I have the house to myself for those two days.

tomorrow is also casting for our spring ballet performance. *sigh*

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EDIT--

Yes...I have been tagged....-_- lol by suki-nee-chan

problem is there arent that many things about me that people like to here ^-^; of course...oh and I dont even have 6 people that read my journals so yeah....*cough cough* i'll go make tea after this.

Game Rules:


[1]: The tagger says 6 habits/things about themself.
[2]: The tagger tags 6 other people and lists them in their journal.
[3]: Those 6 tagged people need to do a journal entry explaining the rules clearly and do 6 habits/things about themselves too.
[4]: No tagbacks!


1. Um..i have a very naughty kitten who jumps on my comp table and chases my mouse icon on the LCD screen. XD....he's biting my foot right now

2. I live with my grandmother who thinks she is my mother and gives me nasty looks while saying that she's watching her weight and then gives my a disgusted look and says that I need to eat...what an oxymoron

3.I think im some kinda crazy because I have problems looking at peoples faces when I talk to them.

4. Bad habit. all my thoughts center around food. its all i think about...actually that really is the truth so much that its starting to be even more important than dance. T_T

5. I have artists block ALL the time, and when I say ALL i mean ALL.

6. I hate onions.

lol and now...um lol i dont know who to tag...lemme see some random people that I watch that dont even pay attention to me...except for Mr. Trin....^_~

1.
2.
3.
4.
5.
6.

]]> ~akiko15 http://akiko15.deviantart.com/journal/11390414/ http://akiko15.deviantart.com/journal/11390414/ Wed, 10 Jan 2007 18:33:58 PST
this whole week has been one huge binge after another, finally I went to the store and got some diet drinks, for tomorrow because Im going to be doing a 2 day liquid fast. hopefully this will get me back down to 120.

Suki-nee-chan I want your evanescence music!! especially lithium! I've been reduced to using youtube to listen to it! lol

and I just realized that I left my sketch book at the dance studio....not cool. my camera batteries died and now I cant take any pictures either.

This evening my grandmother made steak and cauliflower...the cauliflower was good, negative calories and all that, and if I admit it, it was yummy to have steak after so long...but just the thought of it all settling even more in my thighs and butt made me sick. I dont know really what to do, she watches everything.

suki, it was fun being with you this past weekend ^^ we should do it again alright? you come to my house this time, across the bay...well unless your too nervous with my driving.

*sigh* some one said I was fat today at the studio too. I really need to get in shape, and yesterday my grandma had the nerve to give me one of those looks while I was eating a popcicle and told me that SHE was watching her weight...yeah right. she ate three servings of chinese food the night before, you've got to be kidding me. and then she has the nerve to say that to ME? she has no idea what it really means...

]]> ~akiko15 http://akiko15.deviantart.com/journal/11235908/ http://akiko15.deviantart.com/journal/11235908/ Fri, 29 Dec 2006 16:47:23 PST
in celebration of the feasts we partake of every single freakin day. fat fat fat fat fat. *sigh* there is way too much they keep making me eat, and my mom today was telling me that I needed to eat because I wasnt fat. yeah, like she would know what its like anymore...she passed that battle in her life already.

but im tired of this. I havent weighed myseflf in over two weeks, I feel disgusting, I eat so much! and I cant get on to my normal ana homepage to update there, because its got crazy thinspo pics up all over and it also has my intake logs for the past year. people will see it. plus its bad enough hiding not eatting. I'll be happy when all the people are at their respective homes and I can actually do this all in peace.

ttyl

]]> ~akiko15 http://akiko15.deviantart.com/journal/11215169/ http://akiko15.deviantart.com/journal/11215169/ Wed, 27 Dec 2006 19:17:19 PST
What isnt yay is that during the car ride my mom got a ton of junky snacks, and I havent been able to fast for around a week, or to purge because there are so many people around. I havent weighed myself either. I feel somewhat like I am swimming in the dark. I can feel all this disgusting food in my, wieghing me down almost literally. And then add to it the fact that I can see the fat forming again on my body. Like a week ago or two I was 122...Im not sure now. My goal for the 7th of next month was 110. I dont thisk that I will even be able to get down to 120 anymore. anyways g2g.

~hannah

ouch my stomach just clenched...too much food in it

]]> ~akiko15 http://akiko15.deviantart.com/journal/11188782/ http://akiko15.deviantart.com/journal/11188782/ Mon, 25 Dec 2006 12:25:48 PST
yuppers you guessed it!!! A COMPUTER!!!!

Im not on it right now because it has to be set up, but I get to keep it in my room and have wireless, and I got a scanner!!

yeah,,,*sigh* so awsome. Santa paws came for my baby Sparky too. cutest. he got a rawhide bone the size of his head. He can barely get it in his mouth poor guy. but he managed to hide it and just now brought it out to naw on while I type this. My present to him was a really soft huge ginger man....he died in about 5 minutes...sparky goes digging for the squeekers in all his stuffies and then eats the plastic...yeah he's weird too.

anyways tell me what you guys got!

PS...I cut bout half my hair off...its to my shoulders now.
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100 PIC CHALLENGE

I challenge YOU *points to you* to take up this 100 Pic Challenge. Its fun!

The point of this challenge is to test and improve your skill as an artist.

The rules

1. Make 100 pics each pic having a theme listed below. Each pic should have ONE and only ONE theme to it, for it to count.
2. No time limit so have fun
3. The main picture should be drawn but not limited to. for all fair purposes, people are allowed to use their paint programs and photoshop to create the pic.
3.a) pics should be of own artistic ability. You may not edit photos, or break any other rules set out in the Da etiquette policy. Your pics can be anything from sketches and doodles to great master pieces. Just have fun with it.
4. The list below is to be placed somewhere in your journal for others to see that......
A) You are in the challenge
B) What you have completed
5. make sure to update this list and check off what is done and make a link to the pic
6. In the comments for your art work note if it is part of the list and what ONE theme it is.

* -sketch done
** -scanned
*** -Finished and posted

THE LIST:
1. Introduction
2. Love
3. Light
4. Dark
5. Seeking Solace *
6. Break Away
7. Heaven
8. Innocence
9. Drive *
10. Breathe Again*
11. Memory *
12. Insanity
13. Misfortune
14. Smile *
15. Silence
16. Questioning
17. Blood
18. Rainbow
19. Gray
20. Fortitude
21. Vacation
22. Mother Nature
23. Cat
24. No Time
25. Trouble Lurking
26. Tears*
27. Foreign
28. Sorrow
29. Happiness
30. Under the Rain
31. Flowers
32. Night
33. Expectations*
34. Stars
35. Hold My Hand
36. Precious Treasure
37. Eyes
38. Abandoned*
39. Dreams
40. Rated
41. Teamwork
42. Standing Still *
43. Dying
44. Two Roads
45. Illusion
46. Family*
47. Creation
48. Childhood
49. Stripes
50. Breaking the Rules
51. Sport
52. Deep in Thought
53. Keeping a Secret
54. Tower
55. Waiting
56. Danger Ahead
57. Sacrifice
58. Kick in the Head
59. No Way Out
60. Rejection
61. Fairy Tale
62. Magic
63. Do Not Disturb
64. Multitasking
65. Horror
66. Traps
67. Playing the Melody
68. Hero
69. Annoyance
70. 67%
71. Obsession
72. Mischief Managed
73. I Can't
74. Are You Challenging Me?
75. Mirror
76. Broken Pieces
77. Test
78. Drink
79. Starvation
80. Words
81. Pen and Paper
82. Can You Hear Me?
83. Heal
84. Out Cold
85. Spiral
86. Seeing Red
87. Food
88. Pain
89. Through the Fire
90. Triangle
91. Drowning
92. All That I Have
93. Give Up
94. Last Hope
95. Advertisement
96. In the Storm
97. Safety First
98. Puzzle
99. Solitude
100. Relaxation


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The first ten people to comment and ask get a free sketch!

1.If you want the drawings you gotta do the 10 sketch challenge also! No cheating
2. I dont care who you want me to draw but please give me good picture refs. !! im not going to do any research **
3. one character, probably a boring bust shot only lol
4. Again, don't expect something super awesome... because it is just a sketch. ... at most 10~15 minutes each.
5. To make sure you actually read this, type "flying bananas" in your comment
6. (my own rule... ]]> ~akiko15 http://akiko15.deviantart.com/journal/11110285/ http://akiko15.deviantart.com/journal/11110285/ Mon, 18 Dec 2006 20:52:04 PST
please let me pass on to another place. I dont like being here. why have you placed me here, when all I succeed at is lying and being greedy? I am such a terrible person and the shame of being me is almost too much to bear.

what is my living worth? other then harming others and being decietful? I harm my family. They must be ashamed to have me as part of them...I lie...

I lie all the time...about things I own...about the feelings I have...about what I like and dislike...my happiness...my scarred body...the hunger that naws continuously in my gut like a monster..."no, I already ate thanks! "....and money....oh god, I lie about money all the time...I spend and spend until there is nothing else...and then I spend my families money...its like I want more and more...

Why? what happened to make me become this wasteful thing?

The thing that happened...just one of the many lies...I didnt pay for my ballet classes...even though my parents gave me money for it, I spent that money on other things...disgusting food on a binge, a new shirt because I fit into nothing and I have nothing nice to were, and then make up, and lotion, and candy, and scarves...its like a binge on material goods...

perhaps your saying something to me god? do I do this, to fill something thats missing inside me? do I buy things that I dont need because I lacked what I wanted as a child?

They say I am an adult now...I couldn't be further from that...not even a child would be able to lie so completely and destroy everything around them in this way.

Maybe it is these things about me...my decietfulness and insicurities, my self-loathing, that make me want to starve...it hurts....nothing anyone says could change the truth. I am hungry constantly, but just the idea of keeping myself from those things...it makes me feel stronger.

I dont know...please, I hate being me...I hate hurting other people...God...please let me die...I dont care if I can never dance again....even now...my whole life is filled with starving and food...what next, how can I control myself....I've lost intrest...and that makes me so sad....but for the past three months I havent even gone to a full month of ballet classes at that studio where I now owe....I'm ashamed....there is nothing here that is worth while to me....nothing but my body, my self image....thin, beautiful, perfect....I want to be air God...maybe then I can actually walk with you...

Please....Let me die....Im so ashamed...Im so done with living this lie....I'm done being me....

Hannah
*********

]]> ~akiko15 http://akiko15.deviantart.com/journal/11103154/ http://akiko15.deviantart.com/journal/11103154/ Mon, 18 Dec 2006 08:51:44 PST
SO i had a huge binge yesterday, pizza and cookies *shudder* and I couldnt purge afterwards because I was at work. The really sad thing is that it all added to 125 when I was 123 that morning.

Im starting a liquid fast today, so it will hopefully last until the 5th or so. Drew a few more pictures for my 100 pic challenge, cus i was bored.


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100 PIC CHALLENGE

I challenge YOU *points to you* to take up this 100 Pic Challenge. Its fun!

The point of this challenge is to test and improve your skill as an artist.

The rules

1. Make 100 pics each pic having a theme listed below. Each pic should have ONE and only ONE theme to it, for it to count.
2. No time limit so have fun
3. The main picture should be drawn but not limited to. for all fair purposes, people are allowed to use their paint programs and photoshop to create the pic.
3.a) pics should be of own artistic ability. You may not edit photos, or break any other rules set out in the Da etiquette policy. Your pics can be anything from sketches and doodles to great master pieces. Just have fun with it.
4. The list below is to be placed somewhere in your journal for others to see that......
A) You are in the challenge
B) What you have completed
5. make sure to update this list and check off what is done and make a link to the pic
6. In the comments for your art work note if it is part of the list and what ONE theme it is.

* -sketch done
** -scanned
*** -Finished and posted

THE LIST:
1. Introduction
2. Love
3. Light
4. Dark
5. Seeking Solace *
6. Break Away
7. Heaven
8. Innocence
9. Drive *
10. Breathe Again*
11. Memory *
12. Insanity
13. Misfortune
14. Smile *
15. Silence
16. Questioning
17. Blood
18. Rainbow
19. Gray
20. Fortitude
21. Vacation
22. Mother Nature
23. Cat
24. No Time
25. Trouble Lurking
26. Tears*
27. Foreign
28. Sorrow
29. Happiness
30. Under the Rain
31. Flowers
32. Night
33. Expectations*
34. Stars
35. Hold My Hand
36. Precious Treasure
37. Eyes
38. Abandoned*
39. Dreams
40. Rated
41. Teamwork
42. Standing Still *
43. Dying
44. Two Roads
45. Illusion
46. Family*
47. Creation
48. Childhood
49. Stripes
50. Breaking the Rules
51. Sport
52. Deep in Thought
53. Keeping a Secret
54. Tower
55. Waiting
56. Danger Ahead
57. Sacrifice
58. Kick in the Head
59. No Way Out
60. Rejection
61. Fairy Tale
62. Magic
63. Do Not Disturb
64. Multitasking
65. Horror
66. Traps
67. Playing the Melody
68. Hero
69. Annoyance
70. 67%
71. Obsession
72. Mischief Managed
73. I Can't
74. Are You Challenging Me?
75. Mirror
76. Broken Pieces
77. Test
78. Drink
79. Starvation
80. Words
81. Pen and Paper
82. Can You Hear Me?
83. Heal
84. Out Cold
85. Spiral
86. Seeing Red
87. Food
88. Pain
89. Through the Fire
90. Triangle
91. Drowning
92. All That I Have
93. Give Up
94. Last Hope
95. Advertisement
96. In the Storm
97. Safety First
98. Puzzle
99. Solitude
100. Relaxation


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The first ten people to comment and ask get a free sketch!

1.If you want the drawings you gotta do the 10 sketch challenge also! No cheating
2. I dont care who you want me to draw but please give me good picture refs. !! im not going to do any research **
3. one character, probably a boring bust shot only lol
4. Again, don't expect something super awesome... because it is just a sketch. ... at most 10~15 minutes each.
5. To make sure you actually read this, type "flying bananas" in your comment
6. (my own rule) I will not do sketches for anything i dislike

1. x8SukiChan8x
2.
3.
4.
5.
6.
7.
8.
9.
10.

]]> ~akiko15 http://akiko15.deviantart.com/journal/11102861/ http://akiko15.deviantart.com/journal/11102861/ Mon, 18 Dec 2006 08:15:11 PST
]]> ~akiko15 http://akiko15.deviantart.com/journal/11065716/ http://akiko15.deviantart.com/journal/11065716/ Thu, 14 Dec 2006 18:32:44 PST
and...to make matters worse, i need to loose about 13 pounds in like 13 days...must be 110 for auditions must be 110 for auditions must be 110 for auditions....omg if you cant tell im stressing highly....need to breath, must breath...omg


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100 PIC CHALLENGE

I challenge YOU *points to you* to take up this 100 Pic Challenge. Its fun!

The point of this challenge is to test and improve your skill as an artist.

The rules

1. Make 100 pics each pic having a theme listed below. Each pic should have ONE and only ONE theme to it, for it to count.
2. No time limit so have fun
3. The main picture should be drawn but not limited to. for all fair purposes, people are allowed to use their paint programs and photoshop to create the pic.
3.a) pics should be of own artistic ability. You may not edit photos, or break any other rules set out in the Da etiquette policy. Your pics can be anything from sketches and doodles to great master pieces. Just have fun with it.
4. The list below is to be placed somewhere in your journal for others to see that......
A) You are in the challenge
B) What you have completed
5. make sure to update this list and check off what is done and make a link to the pic
6. In the comments for your art work note if it is part of the list and what ONE theme it is.

* -sketch done
** -scanned
*** -Finished and posted

THE LIST:
1. Introduction
2. Love
3. Light
4. Dark
5. Seeking Solace *
6. Break Away
7. Heaven
8. Innocence
9. Drive *
10. Breathe Again*
11. Memory *
12. Insanity
13. Misfortune
14. Smile *
15. Silence
16. Questioning
17. Blood
18. Rainbow
19. Gray
20. Fortitude
21. Vacation
22. Mother Nature
23. Cat
24. No Time
25. Trouble Lurking
26. Tears*
27. Foreign
28. Sorrow
29. Happiness
30. Under the Rain
31. Flowers
32. Night
33. Expectations*
34. Stars
35. Hold My Hand
36. Precious Treasure
37. Eyes
38. Abandoned*
39. Dreams
40. Rated
41. Teamwork
42. Standing Still *
43. Dying
44. Two Roads
45. Illusion
46. Family*
47. Creation
48. Childhood
49. Stripes
50. Breaking the Rules
51. Sport
52. Deep in Thought
53. Keeping a Secret
54. Tower
55. Waiting
56. Danger Ahead
57. Sacrifice
58. Kick in the Head
59. No Way Out
60. Rejection
61. Fairy Tale
62. Magic
63. Do Not Disturb
64. Multitasking
65. Horror
66. Traps
67. Playing the Melody
68. Hero
69. Annoyance
70. 67%
71. Obsession
72. Mischief Managed
73. I Can't
74. Are You Challenging Me?
75. Mirror
76. Broken Pieces
77. Test
78. Drink
79. Starvation
80. Words
81. Pen and Paper
82. Can You Hear Me?
83. Heal
84. Out Cold
85. Spiral
86. Seeing Red
87. Food
88. Pain
89. Through the Fire
90. Triangle
91. Drowning
92. All That I Have
93. Give Up
94. Last Hope
95. Advertisement
96. In the Storm
97. Safety First
98. Puzzle
99. Solitude
100. Relaxation


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The first ten people to comment and ask get a free sketch!

1.If you want the drawings you gotta do the 10 sketch challenge also! No cheating
2. I dont care who you want me to draw but please give me good picture refs. !! im not going to do any research **
3. one character, probably a boring bust shot only lol
4. Again, don't expect something super awesome... because it is just a sketch. ... at most 10~15 minutes each.
5. To make sure you actually read this, type "flying bananas" in your comment
6. (my own rule) I will not do sketches for anything i dislike

1. x8SukiChan8x
2.
3.
4.
5.
6.
7.
8.
9.
10.

]]> ~akiko15 http://akiko15.deviantart.com/journal/11027272/ http://akiko15.deviantart.com/journal/11027272/ Mon, 11 Dec 2006 11:04:02 PST
My Intake this weekend was awsome, because I ended up burning tons of calories...yeah. I wont go in to the details, but if you wanna see my xanga page, it has my daily caloric Intake and Outtake posted...usually every day. Have to be disciplined ya know? lol

I'm posting some pictures of myself on there this week most likely. And no, i dont look like a skeleton in case you all are thinking I look like Im a concentration camp prisoner...suki-chan darling I know your the only one who normally reads my DA journals, so your excluded from this. Your allowed to rant and suggest things to me anytime sweetie!

Btw miss you!! lol

~akiko

Edit~~

i made a little signature for my journal, but I cant put it on the journal >.<, so i just put it on my webcam spot on my profile page. in case you all are wondering or want to see it.


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100 PIC CHALLENGE

I challenge YOU *points to you* to take up this 100 Pic Challenge. Its fun!

The point of this challenge is to test and improve your skill as an artist.

The rules

1. Make 100 pics each pic having a theme listed below. Each pic should have ONE and only ONE theme to it, for it to count.
2. No time limit so have fun
3. The main picture should be drawn but not limited to. for all fair purposes, people are allowed to use their paint programs and photoshop to create the pic.
3.a) pics should be of own artistic ability. You may not edit photos, or break any other rules set out in the Da etiquette policy. Your pics can be anything from sketches and doodles to great master pieces. Just have fun with it.
4. The list below is to be placed somewhere in your journal for others to see that......
A) You are in the challenge
B) What you have completed
5. make sure to update this list and check off what is done and make a link to the pic
6. In the comments for your art work note if it is part of the list and what ONE theme it is.

* -sketch done
** -scanned
*** -Finished and posted

THE LIST:
1. Introduction
2. Love
3. Light
4. Dark
5. Seeking Solace *
6. Break Away
7. Heaven
8. Innocence
9. Drive *
10. Breathe Again*
11. Memory *
12. Insanity
13. Misfortune
14. Smile *
15. Silence
16. Questioning
17. Blood
18. Rainbow
19. Gray
20. Fortitude
21. Vacation
22. Mother Nature
23. Cat
24. No Time
25. Trouble Lurking
26. Tears*
27. Foreign
28. Sorrow
29. Happiness
30. Under the Rain
31. Flowers
32. Night
33. Expectations*
34. Stars
35. Hold My Hand
36. Precious Treasure
37. Eyes
38. Abandoned*
39. Dreams
40. Rated
41. Teamwork
42. Standing Still *
43. Dying
44. Two Roads
45. Illusion
46. Family*
47. Creation
48. Childhood
49. Stripes
50. Breaking the Rules
51. Sport
52. Deep in Thought
53. Keeping a Secret
54. Tower
55. Waiting
56. Danger Ahead
57. Sacrifice
58. Kick in the Head
59. No Way Out
60. Rejection
61. Fairy Tale
62. Magic
63. Do Not Disturb
64. Multitasking
65. Horror
66. Traps
67. Playing the Melody
68. Hero
69. Annoyance
70. 67%
71. Obsession
72. Mischief Managed
73. I Can't
74. Are You Challenging Me?
75. Mirror
76. Broken Pieces
77. Test
78. Drink
79. Starvation
80. Words
81. Pen and Paper
82. Can You Hear Me?
83. Heal
84. Out Cold
85. Spiral
86. Seeing Red
87. Food
88. Pain
89. Through the Fire
90. Triangle
91. Drowning
92. All That I Have
93. Give Up
94. Last Hope
95. Advertisement
96. In the Storm
97. Safety First
98. Puzzle
99. Solitude
100. Relaxation


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The first ten people to comment and ask get a free sketch!

1.If you want the drawings you gotta do the 10 sketch challenge also! No cheating
2. I dont care who you want me to draw but please give me good picture refs. !! im not going to do any research **
3. one character, probably a boring bust shot only lol
4. Again, don't expect something super awesome... because it is just a sketch. ... at most 10~15 minutes each.
5. To make sure you actually read this, type "flying bananas" in your comment
6. (my own rule) I will not do sketc... ]]> ~akiko15 http://akiko15.deviantart.com/journal/11010121/ http://akiko15.deviantart.com/journal/11010121/ Sat, 09 Dec 2006 20:05:47 PST I didnt know what to name this entry.

Anyways, have been on a somewhat productive writing and Intake kick. *bleh* still, this week has been annoying me weight wise. rofl well every week is like that for me, hopefully i wont start repeating myself about that sort of thing.

I've been cut from work 2 days in a row now, and i really dont have much money. My last pay check was around 17 dollars, so Im sort of annoyed. I have a whole slew of hours to work this next week tho, so Im glad to be kept busy then.

Painted my nails blue today as a trigger...hopefully I'll be able to purchase a red bracelet soon. Thats my big wish for x-mas from myself.

hmm, not much else to update on...well i've started again with updating my xanga site since i was away for thanksgiving, if you wanna check it out...basicly it has my online calorie tracker lol.

Not much fun for everyone else I think.

---------------------------------------

100 PIC CHALLENGE

I challenge YOU *points to you* to take up this 100 Pic Challenge. Its fun!

The point of this challenge is to test and improve your skill as an artist.

The rules

1. Make 100 pics each pic having a theme listed below. Each pic should have ONE and only ONE theme to it, for it to count.
2. No time limit so have fun
3. The main picture should be drawn but not limited to. for all fair purposes, people are allowed to use their paint programs and photoshop to create the pic.
3.a) pics should be of own artistic ability. You may not edit photos, or break any other rules set out in the Da etiquette policy. Your pics can be anything from sketches and doodles to great master pieces. Just have fun with it.
4. The list below is to be placed somewhere in your journal for others to see that......
A) You are in the challenge
B) What you have completed
5. make sure to update this list and check off what is done and make a link to the pic
6. In the comments for your art work note if it is part of the list and what ONE theme it is.

* -sketch done
** -scanned
*** -Finished and posted

THE LIST:
1. Introduction
2. Love
3. Light
4. Dark
5. Seeking Solace *
6. Break Away
7. Heaven
8. Innocence
9. Drive *
10. Breathe Again*
11. Memory *
12. Insanity
13. Misfortune
14. Smile *
15. Silence
16. Questioning
17. Blood
18. Rainbow
19. Gray
20. Fortitude
21. Vacation
22. Mother Nature
23. Cat
24. No Time
25. Trouble Lurking
26. Tears*
27. Foreign
28. Sorrow
29. Happiness
30. Under the Rain
31. Flowers
32. Night
33. Expectations*
34. Stars
35. Hold My Hand
36. Precious Treasure
37. Eyes
38. Abandoned*
39. Dreams
40. Rated
41. Teamwork
42. Standing Still *
43. Dying
44. Two Roads
45. Illusion
46. Family*
47. Creation
48. Childhood
49. Stripes
50. Breaking the Rules
51. Sport
52. Deep in Thought
53. Keeping a Secret
54. Tower
55. Waiting
56. Danger Ahead
57. Sacrifice
58. Kick in the Head
59. No Way Out
60. Rejection
61. Fairy Tale
62. Magic
63. Do Not Disturb
64. Multitasking
65. Horror
66. Traps
67. Playing the Melody
68. Hero
69. Annoyance
70. 67%
71. Obsession
72. Mischief Managed
73. I Can't
74. Are You Challenging Me?
75. Mirror
76. Broken Pieces
77. Test
78. Drink
79. Starvation
80. Words
81. Pen and Paper
82. Can You Hear Me?
83. Heal
84. Out Cold
85. Spiral
86. Seeing Red
87. Food
88. Pain
89. Through the Fire
90. Triangle
91. Drowning
92. All That I Have
93. Give Up
94. Last Hope
95. Advertisement
96. In the Storm
97. Safety First
98. Puzzle
99. Solitude
100. Relaxation


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The first ten people to comment and ask get a free sketch!

1.If you want the drawings you gotta do the 10 sketch challenge also! No cheating
2. I dont care who you want me to draw but please give me good picture refs. !! im not going to do any research **
3. one character, probably a boring bust shot only lol
4. Again, don't expect something super awesome... because it is just a sketch. ... at most 10~15 minutes each.
5. To make sure you actually read this, type "flying bananas" in... ]]> ~akiko15 http://akiko15.deviantart.com/journal/10946421/ http://akiko15.deviantart.com/journal/10946421/ Mon, 04 Dec 2006 09:44:35 PST
The nutcracker performances went alright. My family brought flowers for me and bought the DVD of that evenings performance.

My grandmother is really starting to suspect that I dont eat enough and that I may have an Eating Disorder. Lol no duh. The thing is, the more food she tries to force me to eat, and the greasier and fatter the food is, the less I want to eat. It never was like this before where I actually was afraid of the food that I had to eat, and how much I would put on from it...

but my mom and dad, well I suppose that If they cant see it...or if they choose to ignore it because they dont wish to see that I have a problem, then I really dont have a problem...confusing I guess but thats what I think.

I really love T.A.T.u Awsome music you all should check out if you haven't already.

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100 PIC CHALLENGE

I challenge YOU *points to you* to take up this 100 Pic Challenge. Its fun!

The point of this challenge is to test and improve your skill as an artist.

The rules

1. Make 100 pics each pic having a theme listed below. Each pic should have ONE and only ONE theme to it, for it to count.
2. No time limit so have fun
3. The main picture should be drawn but not limited to. for all fair purposes, people are allowed to use their paint programs and photoshop to create the pic.
3.a) pics should be of own artistic ability. You may not edit photos, or break any other rules set out in the Da etiquette policy. Your pics can be anything from sketches and doodles to great master pieces. Just have fun with it.
4. The list below is to be placed somewhere in your journal for others to see that......
A) You are in the challenge
B) What you have completed
5. make sure to update this list and check off what is done and make a link to the pic
6. In the comments for your art work note if it is part of the list and what ONE theme it is.

* -sketch done
** -scanned
*** -Finished and posted

THE LIST:
1. Introduction
2. Love
3. Light
4. Dark
5. Seeking Solace *
6. Break Away
7. Heaven
8. Innocence
9. Drive *
10. Breathe Again*
11. Memory *
12. Insanity
13. Misfortune
14. Smile *
15. Silence
16. Questioning
17. Blood
18. Rainbow
19. Gray
20. Fortitude
21. Vacation
22. Mother Nature
23. Cat
24. No Time
25. Trouble Lurking
26. Tears*
27. Foreign
28. Sorrow
29. Happiness
30. Under the Rain
31. Flowers
32. Night
33. Expectations*
34. Stars
35. Hold My Hand
36. Precious Treasure
37. Eyes
38. Abandoned*
39. Dreams
40. Rated
41. Teamwork
42. Standing Still *
43. Dying
44. Two Roads
45. Illusion
46. Family*
47. Creation
48. Childhood
49. Stripes
50. Breaking the Rules
51. Sport
52. Deep in Thought
53. Keeping a Secret
54. Tower
55. Waiting
56. Danger Ahead
57. Sacrifice
58. Kick in the Head
59. No Way Out
60. Rejection
61. Fairy Tale
62. Magic
63. Do Not Disturb
64. Multitasking
65. Horror
66. Traps
67. Playing the Melody
68. Hero
69. Annoyance
70. 67%
71. Obsession
72. Mischief Managed
73. I Can't
74. Are You Challenging Me?
75. Mirror
76. Broken Pieces
77. Test
78. Drink
79. Starvation
80. Words
81. Pen and Paper
82. Can You Hear Me?
83. Heal
84. Out Cold
85. Spiral
86. Seeing Red
87. Food
88. Pain
89. Through the Fire
90. Triangle
91. Drowning
92. All That I Have
93. Give Up
94. Last Hope
95. Advertisement
96. In the Storm
97. Safety First
98. Puzzle
99. Solitude
100. Relaxation


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The first ten people to comment and ask get a free sketch!

1.If you want the drawings you gotta do the 10 sketch challenge also! No cheating
2. I dont care who you want me to draw but please give me good picture... ]]> ~akiko15 http://akiko15.deviantart.com/journal/10752616/ http://akiko15.deviantart.com/journal/10752616/ Fri, 17 Nov 2006 05:43:43 PST
anyways asaide from that, we're going to have to give up my puppy. Not that I am very suprised. But the trainer said that he is most likely not wired right, that his reactions just are not normal for a dog. oh well I spose. i feel somewhat badly for him, but what else is there, he's unhappy too.


*!!!new art done!!!*
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100 PIC CHALLENGE

I challenge YOU *points to you* to take up this 100 Pic Challenge. Its fun!

The point of this challenge is to test and improve your skill as an artist.

The rules

1. Make 100 pics each pic having a theme listed below. Each pic should have ONE and only ONE theme to it, for it to count.
2. No time limit so have fun
3. The main picture should be drawn but not limited to. for all fair purposes, people are allowed to use their paint programs and photoshop to create the pic.
3.a) pics should be of own artistic ability. You may not edit photos, or break any other rules set out in the Da etiquette policy. Your pics can be anything from sketches and doodles to great master pieces. Just have fun with it.
4. The list below is to be placed somewhere in your journal for others to see that......
A) You are in the challenge
B) What you have completed
5. make sure to update this list and check off what is done and make a link to the pic
6. In the comments for your art work note if it is part of the list and what ONE theme it is.

* -sketch done
** -scanned
*** -Finished and posted

THE LIST:
1. Introduction
2. Love
3. Light
4. Dark
5. Seeking Solace *
6. Break Away
7. Heaven
8. Innocence
9. Drive *
10. Breathe Again*
11. Memory *
12. Insanity
13. Misfortune
14. Smile *
15. Silence
16. Questioning
17. Blood
18. Rainbow
19. Gray
20. Fortitude
21. Vacation
22. Mother Nature
23. Cat
24. No Time
25. Trouble Lurking
26. Tears*
27. Foreign
28. Sorrow
29. Happiness
30. Under the Rain
31. Flowers
32. Night
33. Expectations*
34. Stars
35. Hold My Hand
36. Precious Treasure
37. Eyes
38. Abandoned*
39. Dreams
40. Rated
41. Teamwork
42. Standing Still *
43. Dying
44. Two Roads
45. Illusion
46. Family*
47. Creation
48. Childhood
49. Stripes
50. Breaking the Rules
51. Sport
52. Deep in Thought
53. Keeping a Secret
54. Tower
55. Waiting
56. Danger Ahead
57. Sacrifice
58. Kick in the Head
59. No Way Out
60. Rejection
61. Fairy Tale
62. Magic
63. Do Not Disturb
64. Multitasking
65. Horror
66. Traps
67. Playing the Melody
68. Hero
69. Annoyance
70. 67%
71. Obsession
72. Mischief Managed
73. I Can't
74. Are You Challenging Me?
75. Mirror
76. Broken Pieces
77. Test
78. Drink
79. Starvation
80. Words
81. Pen and Paper
82. Can You Hear Me?
83. Heal
84. Out Cold
85. Spiral
86. Seeing Red
87. Food
88. Pain
89. Through the Fire
90. Triangle
91. Drowning
92. All That I Have
93. Give Up
94. Last Hope
95. Advertisement
96. In the Storm
97. Safety First
98. Puzzle
99. Solitude
100. Relaxation


--------------------------------



The first ten people to comment and ask get a free sketch!

1.If you want the drawings you gotta do the 10 sketch challenge also! No cheating
2. I dont care who you want me to draw but please give me good picture refs. !! im not going to do any research **
3. one character, probably a boring bust shot only lol
4. Again, don't expect something super awesome... because it is just a sketch. ... at most 10~15 minutes each.
5. To make sure you actually read this, type "flying bananas" in your comment
6. (my o... ]]> ~akiko15 http://akiko15.deviantart.com/journal/10705545/ http://akiko15.deviantart.com/journal/10705545/ Sun, 12 Nov 2006 20:11:08 PST
anyways, g2g study for my japanese lessons tomorrpw morning, which is gonna suck. Last time I forgot everything I was so exhausted and then I owe for that aswell....*sigh*



*!!!new art done!!!*
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100 PIC CHALLENGE

I challenge YOU *points to you* to take up this 100 Pic Challenge. Its fun!

The point of this challenge is to test and improve your skill as an artist.

The rules

1. Make 100 pics each pic having a theme listed below. Each pic should have ONE and only ONE theme to it, for it to count.
2. No time limit so have fun
3. The main picture should be drawn but not limited to. for all fair purposes, people are allowed to use their paint programs and photoshop to create the pic.
3.a) pics should be of own artistic ability. You may not edit photos, or break any other rules set out in the Da etiquette policy. Your pics can be anything from sketches and doodles to great master pieces. Just have fun with it.
4. The list below is to be placed somewhere in your journal for others to see that......
A) You are in the challenge
B) What you have completed
5. make sure to update this list and check off what is done and make a link to the pic
6. In the comments for your art work note if it is part of the list and what ONE theme it is.

* -sketch done
** -scanned
*** -Finished and posted

THE LIST:
1. Introduction
2. Love
3. Light
4. Dark
5. Seeking Solace *
6. Break Away
7. Heaven
8. Innocence
9. Drive *
10. Breathe Again
11. Memory *
12. Insanity
13. Misfortune
14. Smile *
15. Silence
16. Questioning
17. Blood
18. Rainbow
19. Gray
20. Fortitude
21. Vacation
22. Mother Nature
23. Cat
24. No Time
25. Trouble Lurking
26. Tears*
27. Foreign
28. Sorrow
29. Happiness
30. Under the Rain
31. Flowers
32. Night
33. Expectations*
34. Stars
35. Hold My Hand
36. Precious Treasure
37. Eyes
38. Abandoned
39. Dreams
40. Rated
41. Teamwork
42. Standing Still *
43. Dying
44. Two Roads
45. Illusion
46. Family*
47. Creation
48. Childhood
49. Stripes
50. Breaking the Rules
51. Sport
52. Deep in Thought
53. Keeping a Secret
54. Tower
55. Waiting
56. Danger Ahead
57. Sacrifice
58. Kick in the Head
59. No Way Out
60. Rejection
61. Fairy Tale
62. Magic
63. Do Not Disturb
64. Multitasking
65. Horror
66. Traps
67. Playing the Melody
68. Hero
69. Annoyance
70. 67%
71. Obsession
72. Mischief Managed
73. I Can't
74. Are You Challenging Me?
75. Mirror
76. Broken Pieces
77. Test
78. Drink
79. Starvation
80. Words
81. Pen and Paper
82. Can You Hear Me?
83. Heal
84. Out Cold
85. Spiral
86. Seeing Red
87. Food
88. Pain
89. Through the Fire
90. Triangle
91. Drowning
92. All That I Have
93. Give Up
94. Last Hope
95. Advertisement
96. In the Storm
97. Safety First
98. Puzzle
99. Solitude
100. Relaxation


--------------------------------



The first ten people to comment and ask get a free sketch!

1.If you want the drawings you gotta do the 10 sketch challenge also! No cheating
2. I dont care who you want me to draw but please give me good picture refs. !! im not going to do any research **
3. one character, probably a boring bust shot only lol
4. Again, don't expect something super awesome... because it is just a sketch. ... at most 10~15 minutes each.
5. To make sure you actually read this, type "flying bananas" in your comment
6. (my own rule) I will not do sketches for anything i dislike

1. x8SukiChan8x
2.
3.
4.
5.
6.
7.
8.
9.
10.

]]> ~akiko15 http://akiko15.deviantart.com/journal/10540978/ http://akiko15.deviantart.com/journal/10540978/ Sat, 28 Oct 2006 19:21:30 PDT
gah!!!

anyways, Im having an angsty day today.

I got the job at Bath and Body Works yesterday, go me. But I still feel like a total looser. *sigh* anyways. cheking out all those awsome pro-ana sites out there and trying to get inspired. I've lost 3 pounds due to those silly green tea pills. don't know If i've talked about those or not.
......
......*Warning I am about to seriously talk about eating disorders here, so unless your not going to totally fry my brains out with how its bad for me (I know this) the read with caution.*..............
......

CW-127.9lbs
GW-110lbs by x-mas


general calorie count for today.
Breakfast- cheerio's and soy milk--115 cal.
Lunch-nothing
Dinner-cranberries -65 cal.
chicken- 80 cal.
lima beans- 65 cal.

excersize-- 3 hours ballet -minus 690 cal.

total negative 380

Ah, I'm in love with the concept of being thin...maybe there is something wrong with me?...no one is noticing anyways. But I feel kind of weird...I mean how normal can it be to feel pround to get hunger pains?

I can't stop though, cus I need to be perfect....hmmm perfect...

Am I a sick person?...they say that unless your pre-disposed you won't get an ED...maybe I was? I mean heck my mother had an ED, anorexia. Man if I could be thin and beautiful like she is than I would be really happy.

then I would get in at ballet auditions, and I wouldn't look at even just my face and see all the fat, and people may actually see me instead of my image...

its a very scary thrill to have this sort of control....they say that those with ED's control this one aspect of their lives because they feel that they have no control over anything else. Is that true for me? I didn't think so...maybe its because every one makes all the decisions for me in my life. really, I think that I grew so dependant on my parents telling me what to do that I literally screwed myself over and now I can't and fear making them for myself.

so my take on this is that, to be perfect, to be strong, I starve myself to overcome my humanity. it is empowering to be able to cheat my own body...to trick it. The number one drive and urge for a human is to #1 eat. and #2 procreate.

To be able to resist that urge is extreemly powerful, i think and really shows true strength.

now don't get me wrong here, these are my beliefs, but that doesn't mean that Anorexia of Bulima are safe and nice things to play with, they are diseases, pure and simple, they screw you over, royaly.

I would not suggest them because I know now, its hard to turn away.

lyrics from Bleed Like Me---
she starves herself to rid herself of sin
and the kick is so divine when she see's bones beneath the skin, and she says hey baby can you bleed like me?


*note*--please no hater comments if anyone actually reads this shit. pardon my language.

*new drawing-- Drive
---------------------------------------

100 PIC CHALLENGE

I challenge YOU *points to you* to take up this 100 Pic Challenge. Its fun!

The point of this challenge is to test and improve your skill as an artist.

The rules

1. Make 100 pics each pic having a theme listed below. Each pic should have ONE and only ONE theme to it, for it to count.
2. No time limit so have fun
3. The main picture should be drawn but not limited to. for all fair purposes, people are allowed to use their paint programs and photoshop to create the pic.
3.a) pics should be of own artistic ability. You may not edit photos, or break any other rules set out in the Da etiquette policy. Your pics can be anything from sketches and doodles to great master pieces. Just have fun with it.
4. The list below is to be placed somewhere in your journal for others to see that......
A) You are in the challenge
B) What you have completed
5. make sure to update this list and check off what is done and make a link to the pic
6. In the comments for your art work note if it is part of the list and what ONE theme it is.

* -sketch done
** -scanned
*** -Finished and posted

THE LIST:
1. Introduction
2. Love
3. Light
4. Dark
5. Seeking Solace *
6. Break Away
7. Heaven
8. Innocence
9. Drive *
10. Breathe Again
11. Memory *
12. Insanity
13. Misfortune
14. Smile *
15. Silence
16. Questioning
17. Blood
18. Rainbow
19. Gray
20. Fortitude
21. Vacation
22. Mother Nature<... ]]> ~akiko15 http://akiko15.deviantart.com/journal/10509822/ http://akiko15.deviantart.com/journal/10509822/ Wed, 25 Oct 2006 18:15:27 PDT
so today was a fairly good day. The heat got turned on at my house again...finally after like 4 days of freezing myself. geeze lol

and I started taking these green tea extract pills, they are dietary supplements that curb hunger go me!!! So I like did so not pig out on junk today!! Im really proud of myself for that actually!!

*sigh* I talk about my weight alot don't I? rofl I guess I do, sorry.

So Im auditioning for Nutmeg this year, and My GW is 110 by december. Hopefully sooner if I can manage to fast for at least 2 weeks. that'll be hard but so worth it!!

Suki-chan and myself are already making plans for otakon too! hotel and art table and all that good stuff. Im so excited about that. I have several sketches done as well as lots of ideas!! Im having an alright week.

lol so I told you all I got a helmet right? well my dad bought me on this past weekend. I get to get a motorcycle soon I hope, to complete my helmet. lol yayayah!!!!

I am so crazy hyper right now, my heart is like heavy in my chest...weird its been feeling odd like this for about 2 weeks now...maybe im gonna have a heart attack soon? I'll just have to remember to cough it that happens!!! rofl. I'd die at 18 wouldn't that be funny....

alright Im going now.
---------------------------------------

100 PIC CHALLENGE

I challenge YOU *points to you* to take up this 100 Pic Challenge. Its fun!

The point of this challenge is to test and improve your skill as an artist.

The rules

1. Make 100 pics each pic having a theme listed below. Each pic should have ONE and only ONE theme to it, for it to count.
2. No time limit so have fun
3. The main picture should be drawn but not limited to. for all fair purposes, people are allowed to use their paint programs and photoshop to create the pic.
3.a) pics should be of own artistic ability. You may not edit photos, or break any other rules set out in the Da etiquette policy. Your pics can be anything from sketches and doodles to great master pieces. Just have fun with it.
4. The list below is to be placed somewhere in your journal for others to see that......
A) You are in the challenge
B) What you have completed
5. make sure to update this list and check off what is done and make a link to the pic
6. In the comments for your art work note if it is part of the list and what ONE theme it is.

* -sketch done
** -scanned
*** -Finished and posted

THE LIST:
1. Introduction
2. Love
3. Light
4. Dark
5. Seeking Solace *
6. Break Away
7. Heaven
8. Innocence
9. Drive
10. Breathe Again
11. Memory *
12. Insanity
13. Misfortune
14. Smile *
15. Silence
16. Questioning
17. Blood
18. Rainbow
19. Gray
20. Fortitude
21. Vacation
22. Mother Nature
23. Cat
24. No Time
25. Trouble Lurking
26. Tears*
27. Foreign
28. Sorrow
29. Happiness
30. Under the Rain
31. Flowers
32. Night
33. Expectations
34. Stars
35. Hold My Hand
36. Precious Treasure
37. Eyes
38. Abandoned
39. Dreams
40. Rated
41. Teamwork
42. Standing Still *
43. Dying
44. Two Roads
45. Illusion
46. Family
47. Creation
48. Childhood
49. Stripes
50. Breaking the Rules
51. Sport
52. Deep in Thought
53. Keeping a Secret
54. Tower
55. Waiting
56. Danger Ahead
57. Sacrifice
58. Kick in the Head
59. No Way Out
60. Rejection
61. Fairy Tale
62. Magic
63. Do Not Disturb
64. Multitasking
65. Horror
66. Traps
67. Playing the Melody
68. Hero
69. Annoyance
70. 67%
71. Obsession
72. Mischief Managed
73. I Can't
74. Are You Challenging Me?
75. Mirror
76. Broken Pieces
77. Test
78. Drink
79. Starvation
80. Words
81. Pen and Paper
82. Can You Hear Me?
83. Heal
84. Out Cold
85. Spiral
86. Seeing Red
87. Food
88. Pain
89. Through the Fire
90. Triangle
91. Drowning
92. All That I Have
93. Give Up
94. Last Hope
95. Advertisement
96. In the Storm
97. Safety First
98. Puzzle
99. Solitude
100. Relaxation


--------------------------------



The first ten people to comment and ask get a free sketch!

1.If you want the drawings you gotta do the 10 sketch challenge also! No cheating
2. I dont care who you want me to draw but please give me good picture refs.... ]]> ~akiko15 http://akiko15.deviantart.com/journal/10491652/ http://akiko15.deviantart.com/journal/10491652/ Mon, 23 Oct 2006 20:00:13 PDT
but thats ok becuase its an awsome starting bike.

g2g


---------------------------------------

100 PIC CHALLENGE

I challenge YOU *points to you* to take up this 100 Pic Challenge. Its fun!

The point of this challenge is to test and improve your skill as an artist.

The rules

1. Make 100 pics each pic having a theme listed below. Each pic should have ONE and only ONE theme to it, for it to count.
2. No time limit so have fun
3. The main picture should be drawn but not limited to. for all fair purposes, people are allowed to use their paint programs and photoshop to create the pic.
3.a) pics should be of own artistic ability. You may not edit photos, or break any other rules set out in the Da etiquette policy. Your pics can be anything from sketches and doodles to great master pieces. Just have fun with it.
4. The list below is to be placed somewhere in your journal for others to see that......
A) You are in the challenge
B) What you have completed
5. make sure to update this list and check off what is done and make a link to the pic
6. In the comments for your art work note if it is part of the list and what ONE theme it is.

* -sketch done
** -scanned
*** -Finished and posted

THE LIST:
1. Introduction
2. Love
3. Light
4. Dark
5. Seeking Solace *
6. Break Away
7. Heaven
8. Innocence
9. Drive
10. Breathe Again
11. Memory *
12. Insanity
13. Misfortune
14. Smile
15. Silence
16. Questioning
17. Blood
18. Rainbow
19. Gray
20. Fortitude
21. Vacation
22. Mother Nature
23. Cat
24. No Time
25. Trouble Lurking
26. Tears*
27. Foreign
28. Sorrow
29. Happiness
30. Under the Rain
31. Flowers
32. Night
33. Expectations
34. Stars
35. Hold My Hand
36. Precious Treasure
37. Eyes
38. Abandoned
39. Dreams
40. Rated
41. Teamwork
42. Standing Still *
43. Dying
44. Two Roads
45. Illusion
46. Family
47. Creation
48. Childhood
49. Stripes
50. Breaking the Rules
51. Sport
52. Deep in Thought
53. Keeping a Secret
54. Tower
55. Waiting
56. Danger Ahead
57. Sacrifice
58. Kick in the Head
59. No Way Out
60. Rejection
61. Fairy Tale
62. Magic
63. Do Not Disturb
64. Multitasking
65. Horror
66. Traps
67. Playing the Melody
68. Hero
69. Annoyance
70. 67%
71. Obsession
72. Mischief Managed
73. I Can't
74. Are You Challenging Me?
75. Mirror
76. Broken Pieces
77. Test
78. Drink
79. Starvation
80. Words
81. Pen and Paper
82. Can You Hear Me?
83. Heal
84. Out Cold
85. Spiral
86. Seeing Red
87. Food
88. Pain
89. Through the Fire
90. Triangle
91. Drowning
92. All That I Have
93. Give Up
94. Last Hope
95. Advertisement
96. In the Storm
97. Safety First
98. Puzzle
99. Solitude
100. Relaxation


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The first ten people to comment and ask get a free sketch!

1.If you want the drawings you gotta do the 10 sketch challenge also! No cheating
2. I dont care who you want me to draw but please give me good picture refs. !! im not going to do any research **
3. one character, probably a boring bust shot only lol
4. Again, don't expect something super awesome... because it is just a sketch. ... at most 10~15 minutes each.
5. To make sure you actually read this, type "flying bananas" in your comment
6. (my own rule) I will not do sketches for anything i dislike

1. x8SukiChan8x
2.
3.
4.
5.
6.
7.
8.
9.
10.

]]> ~akiko15 http://akiko15.deviantart.com/journal/10437765/ http://akiko15.deviantart.com/journal/10437765/ Wed, 18 Oct 2006 18:34:26 PDT
I painted my nails today. they are really dark blue and oh so pretty!! the problem is that they make my fingers look short. oh well.

the purpose was actually to give myself a reminder. *grin* Hope it works anyways, did I tell you guys? I got my ear peirced in the cartlidge...it kindahurts still but thats alright.

it was my treat to myself for keeping to last weeks fast!

xoxo


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100 PIC CHALLENGE

I challenge YOU *points to you* to take up this 100 Pic Challenge. Its fun!

The point of this challenge is to test and improve your skill as an artist.

The rules

1. Make 100 pics each pic having a theme listed below. Each pic should have ONE and only ONE theme to it, for it to count.
2. No time limit so have fun
3. The main picture should be drawn but not limited to. for all fair purposes, people are allowed to use their paint programs and photoshop to create the pic.
3.a) pics should be of own artistic ability. You may not edit photos, or break any other rules set out in the Da etiquette policy. Your pics can be anything from sketches and doodles to great master pieces. Just have fun with it.
4. The list below is to be placed somewhere in your journal for others to see that......
A) You are in the challenge
B) What you have completed
5. make sure to update this list and check off what is done and make a link to the pic
6. In the comments for your art work note if it is part of the list and what ONE theme it is.

* -sketch done
** -scanned
*** -Finished and posted

THE LIST:
1. Introduction
2. Love
3. Light
4. Dark
5. Seeking Solace *
6. Break Away
7. Heaven
8. Innocence
9. Drive
10. Breathe Again
11. Memory *
12. Insanity
13. Misfortune
14. Smile
15. Silence
16. Questioning
17. Blood
18. Rainbow
19. Gray
20. Fortitude
21. Vacation
22. Mother Nature
23. Cat
24. No Time
25. Trouble Lurking
26. Tears*
27. Foreign
28. Sorrow
29. Happiness
30. Under the Rain
31. Flowers
32. Night
33. Expectations
34. Stars
35. Hold My Hand
36. Precious Treasure
37. Eyes
38. Abandoned
39. Dreams
40. Rated
41. Teamwork
42. Standing Still *
43. Dying
44. Two Roads
45. Illusion
46. Family
47. Creation
48. Childhood
49. Stripes
50. Breaking the Rules
51. Sport
52. Deep in Thought
53. Keeping a Secret
54. Tower
55. Waiting
56. Danger Ahead
57. Sacrifice
58. Kick in the Head
59. No Way Out
60. Rejection
61. Fairy Tale
62. Magic
63. Do Not Disturb
64. Multitasking
65. Horror
66. Traps
67. Playing the Melody
68. Hero
69. Annoyance
70. 67%
71. Obsession
72. Mischief Managed
73. I Can't
74. Are You Challenging Me?
75. Mirror
76. Broken Pieces
77. Test
78. Drink
79. Starvation
80. Words
81. Pen and Paper
82. Can You Hear Me?
83. Heal
84. Out Cold
85. Spiral
86. Seeing Red
87. Food
88. Pain
89. Through the Fire
90. Triangle
91. Drowning
92. All That I Have
93. Give Up
94. Last Hope
95. Advertisement
96. In the Storm
97. Safety First
98. Puzzle
99. Solitude
100. Relaxation


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The first ten people to comment and ask get a free sketch!

1.If you want the drawings you gotta do the 10 sketch challenge also! No cheating
2. I dont care who you want me to draw but please give me good picture refs. !! im not going to do any research **
3. one character, probably a boring bust shot only lol
4. Again, don't expect something super awesome... because it is just a sketch. ... at most 10~15 minutes each.
5. To make sure you actually read this, type "flying bananas" in your comment
6. (my own rule) I will not do sketches for anything i dislike

1. x8SukiChan8x
2.
3.
4.
5.
6.
7.
8.
9.
10.

]]> ~akiko15 http://akiko15.deviantart.com/journal/10401060/ http://akiko15.deviantart.com/journal/10401060/ Sun, 15 Oct 2006 12:38:12 PDT

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ok here is the new code for my challenge page. ^-^

* -sketch done
** -scanned
*** -Finished and posted

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100 PIC CHALLENGE

I challenge YOU *points to you* to take up this 100 Pic Challenge. Its fun!

The point of this challenge is to test and improve your skill as an artist.

The rules

1. Make 100 pics each pic having a theme listed below. Each pic should have ONE and only ONE theme to it, for it to count.
2. No time limit so have fun
3. The main picture should be drawn but not limited to. for all fair purposes, people are allowed to use their paint programs and photoshop to create the pic.
3.a) pics should be of own artistic ability. You may not edit photos, or break any other rules set out in the Da etiquette policy. Your pics can be anything from sketches and doodles to great master pieces. Just have fun with it.
4. The list below is to be placed somewhere in your journal for others to see that......
A) You are in the challenge
B) What you have completed
5. make sure to update this list and check off what is done and make a link to the pic
6. In the comments for your art work note if it is part of the list and what ONE theme it is.

* -sketch done
** -scanned
*** -Finished and posted

THE LIST:
1. Introduction
2. Love
3. Light
4. Dark
5. Seeking Solace *
6. Break Away
7. Heaven
8. Innocence
9. Drive
10. Breathe Again
11. Memory *
12. Insanity
13. Misfortune
14. Smile
15. Silence
16. Questioning
17. Blood
18. Rainbow
19. Gray
20. Fortitude
21. Vacation
22. Mother Nature
23. Cat
24. No Time
25. Trouble Lurking
26. Tears
27. Foreign
28. Sorrow
29. Happiness
30. Under the Rain
31. Flowers
32. Night
33. Expectations
34. Stars
35. Hold My Hand
36. Precious Treasure
37. Eyes
38. Abandoned
39. Dreams
40. Rated
41. Teamwork
42. Standing Still *
43. Dying
44. Two Roads
45. Illusion
46. Family
47. Creation
48. Childhood
49. Stripes
50. Breaking the Rules
51. Sport
52. Deep in Thought
53. Keeping a Secret
54. Tower
55. Waiting
56. Danger Ahead
57. Sacrifice
58. Kick in the Head
59. No Way Out
60. Rejection
61. Fairy Tale
62. Magic
63. Do Not Disturb
64. Multitasking
65. Horror
66. Traps
67. Playing the Melody
68. Hero
69. Annoyance
70. 67%
71. Obsession
72. Mischief Managed
73. I Can't
74. Are You Challenging Me?
75. Mirror
76. Broken Pieces
77. Test
78. Drink
79. Starvation
80. Words
81. Pen and Paper
82. Can You Hear Me?
83. Heal
84. Out Cold
85. Spiral
86. Seeing Red
87. Food
88. Pain
89. Through the Fire
90. Triangle
91. Drowning
92. All That I Have
93. Give Up
94. Last Hope
95. Advertisement
96. In the Storm
97. Safety First
98. Puzzle
99. Solitude
100. Relaxation


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The first ten people to comment and ask get a free sketch!

1.If you want the drawings you gotta do the 10 sketch challenge also! No cheating
2. I dont care who you want me to draw but please give me good picture refs. !! im not going to do any research **
3. one character, probably a boring bust shot only lol
4. Again, don't expect something super awesome... because it is just a sketch. ... at most 10~15 minutes each.
5. To make sure you actually read this, type "flying bananas" in your comment
6. (my own rule) I will not do sketches for anything i dislike

1. x8SukiChan8x
2.
3.
4.
5.
6.
7.
8.
9.
10.

]]> ~akiko15 http://akiko15.deviantart.com/journal/10371164/ http://akiko15.deviantart.com/journal/10371164/ Thu, 12 Oct 2006 16:06:00 PDT
anyways

quote for the day....Quod me nutrit, me destruit.

Maybe if youtranslate it or think really hard you'll know what it means ^=^

I found some really good ana trigger sites on the web. Yay!! lol i prob. shouldn't be talking about stuff like this on this perticular web-site but oh-well. A change of scenary should do me good.

Bacon is good....i love it, absolutely! but its so greasy!!

OMG this was like the random prattling journal of hell today!!

sorry.

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100 PIC CHALLENGE

I challenge YOU *points to you* to take up this 100 Pic Challenge. Its fun!

The point of this challenge is to test and improve your skill as an artist.

The rules

1. Make 100 pics each pic having a theme listed below. Each pic should have ONE and only ONE theme to it, for it to count.
2. No time limit so have fun
3. The main picture should be drawn but not limited to. for all fair purposes, people are allowed to use their paint programs and photoshop to create the pic.
3.a) pics should be of own artistic ability. You may not edit photos, or break any other rules set out in the Da etiquette policy. Your pics can be anything from sketches and doodles to great master pieces. Just have fun with it.
4. The list below is to be placed somewhere in your journal for others to see that......
A) You are in the challenge
B) What you have completed
5. make sure to update this list and check off what is done and make a link to the pic
6. In the comments for your art work note if it is part of the list and what ONE theme it is.

THE LIST:
1. Introduction
2. Love
3. Light
4. Dark
5. Seeking Solace
6. Break Away
7. Heaven
8. Innocence
9. Drive
10. Breathe Again
11. Memory
12. Insanity
13. Misfortune
14. Smile
15. Silence
16. Questioning
17. Blood
18. Rainbow
19. Gray
20. Fortitude
21. Vacation
22. Mother Nature
23. Cat
24. No Time
25. Trouble Lurking
26. Tears
27. Foreign
28. Sorrow
29. Happiness
30. Under the Rain
31. Flowers
32. Night
33. Expectations
34. Stars
35. Hold My Hand
36. Precious Treasure
37. Eyes
38. Abandoned
39. Dreams
40. Rated
41. Teamwork
42. Standing Still
43. Dying
44. Two Roads
45. Illusion
46. Family
47. Creation
48. Childhood
49. Stripes
50. Breaking the Rules
51. Sport
52. Deep in Thought
53. Keeping a Secret
54. Tower
55. Waiting
56. Danger Ahead
57. Sacrifice
58. Kick in the Head
59. No Way Out
60. Rejection
61. Fairy Tale
62. Magic
63. Do Not Disturb
64. Multitasking
65. Horror
66. Traps
67. Playing the Melody
68. Hero
69. Annoyance
70. 67%
71. Obsession
72. Mischief Managed
73. I Can't
74. Are You Challenging Me?
75. Mirror
76. Broken Pieces
77. Test
78. Drink
79. Starvation
80. Words
81. Pen and Paper
82. Can You Hear Me?
83. Heal
84. Out Cold
85. Spiral
86. Seeing Red
87. Food
88. Pain
89. Through the Fire
90. Triangle
91. Drowning
92. All That I Have
93. Give Up
94. Last Hope
95. Advertisement
96. In the Storm
97. Safety First
98. Puzzle
99. Solitude
100. Relaxation


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The first ten people to comment and ask get a free sketch!

1.If you want the drawings you gotta do the 10 sketch challenge also! No cheating
2. I dont care who you want me to draw but please give me good picture refs. !! im not going to do any research **
3. one character, probably a boring bust shot only lol
4. Again, don't expect something super awesome... because it is just a sketch. ... at most 10~15 minutes each.
5. To make sure you actually read this, type "flying bananas" in your comment
6. (my own rule) I will not do sketches for anything i dislike

1. x8SukiChan8x
2.
3.
4.
5.
6.
7.
8.
9.
10.

]]> ~akiko15 http://akiko15.deviantart.com/journal/10154083/ http://akiko15.deviantart.com/journal/10154083/ Fri, 22 Sep 2006 16:38:45 PDT
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100 PIC CHALLENGE

I challenge YOU *points to you* to take up this 100 Pic Challenge. Its fun!

The point of this challenge is to test and improve your skill as an artist.

The rules

1. Make 100 pics each pic having a theme listed below. Each pic should have ONE and only ONE theme to it, for it to count.
2. No time limit so have fun
3. The main picture should be drawn but not limited to. for all fair purposes, people are allowed to use their paint programs and photoshop to create the pic.
3.a) pics should be of own artistic ability. You may not edit photos, or break any other rules set out in the Da etiquette policy. Your pics can be anything from sketches and doodles to great master pieces. Just have fun with it.
4. The list below is to be placed somewhere in your journal for others to see that......
A) You are in the challenge
B) What you have completed
5. make sure to update this list and check off what is done and make a link to the pic
6. In the comments for your art work note if it is part of the list and what ONE theme it is.

THE LIST:
1. Introduction
2. Love
3. Light
4. Dark
5. Seeking Solace
6. Break Away
7. Heaven
8. Innocence
9. Drive
10. Breathe Again
11. Memory
12. Insanity
13. Misfortune
14. Smile
15. Silence
16. Questioning
17. Blood
18. Rainbow
19. Gray
20. Fortitude
21. Vacation
22. Mother Nature
23. Cat
24. No Time
25. Trouble Lurking
26. Tears
27. Foreign
28. Sorrow
29. Happiness
30. Under the Rain
31. Flowers
32. Night
33. Expectations
34. Stars
35. Hold My Hand
36. Precious Treasure
37. Eyes
38. Abandoned
39. Dreams
40. Rated
41. Teamwork
42. Standing Still
43. Dying
44. Two Roads
45. Illusion
46. Family
47. Creation
48. Childhood
49. Stripes
50. Breaking the Rules
51. Sport
52. Deep in Thought
53. Keeping a Secret
54. Tower
55. Waiting
56. Danger Ahead
57. Sacrifice
58. Kick in the Head
59. No Way Out
60. Rejection
61. Fairy Tale
62. Magic
63. Do Not Disturb
64. Multitasking
65. Horror
66. Traps
67. Playing the Melody
68. Hero
69. Annoyance
70. 67%
71. Obsession
72. Mischief Managed
73. I Can't
74. Are You Challenging Me?
75. Mirror
76. Broken Pieces
77. Test
78. Drink
79. Starvation
80. Words
81. Pen and Paper
82. Can You Hear Me?
83. Heal
84. Out Cold
85. Spiral
86. Seeing Red
87. Food
88. Pain
89. Through the Fire
90. Triangle
91. Drowning
92. All That I Have
93. Give Up
94. Last Hope
95. Advertisement
96. In the Storm
97. Safety First
98. Puzzle
99. Solitude
100. Relaxation


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The first ten people to comment and ask get a free sketch!

1.If you want the drawings you gotta do the 10 sketch challenge also! No cheating
2. I dont care who you want me to draw but please give me good picture refs. !! im not going to do any research **
3. one character, probably a boring bust shot only lol
4. Again, don't expect something super awesome... because it is just a sketch. ... at most 10~15 minutes each.
5. To make sure you actually read this, type "flying bananas" in your comment
6. (my own rule) I will not do sketches for anything i dislike

1. x8SukiChan8x
2.
3.
4.
5.
6.
7.
8.
9.
10.

]]> ~akiko15 http://akiko15.deviantart.com/journal/10104250/ http://akiko15.deviantart.com/journal/10104250/ Sun, 17 Sep 2006 18:02:09 PDT ---------------------------------------------------

The first ten people to comment and ask get a free sketch!

1.If you want the drawings you gotta do the 10 sketch challenge also! No cheating
2. I dont care who you want me to draw but please give me good picture refs. !! im not going to do any research **
3. one character, probably a boring bust shot only lol
4. Again, don't expect something super awesome... because it is just a sketch. ... at most 10~15 minutes each.
5. To make sure you actually read this, type "flying bananas" in your comment
6. (my own rule) I will not do sketches for anything i dislike

1. x8SukiChan8x
2.
3.
4.
5.
6.
7.
8.
9.
10. ]]> ~akiko15 http://akiko15.deviantart.com/journal/10095307/ http://akiko15.deviantart.com/journal/10095307/ Sat, 16 Sep 2006 20:58:22 PDT
1.If you want the drawings you gotta do the 10 sketch challenge also! No cheating
2. I dont care who you want me to draw but please give me good picture refs. !! im not going to do any research **
3. one character, probably a boring bust shot only lol
4. Again, don't expect something super awesome... because it is just a sketch. ... at most 10~15 minutes each.
5. To make sure you actually read this, type "flying bananas" in your comment
6. (my own rule) I will not do sketches for anything i dislike

1.
2.
3.
4.
5.
6.
7.
8.
9.
10. ]]> ~akiko15 http://akiko15.deviantart.com/journal/9922866/ http://akiko15.deviantart.com/journal/9922866/ Thu, 31 Aug 2006 19:24:56 PDT
Stupid thing. He rolled in either a. poo or b. a dead bird that my cat slaughtered.

gross. I am nearly done with this obediance class reject. he's driving me batty.

~akiko ]]> ~akiko15 http://akiko15.deviantart.com/journal/9911730/ http://akiko15.deviantart.com/journal/9911730/ Wed, 30 Aug 2006 19:29:28 PDT ~akiko15 http://akiko15.deviantart.com/journal/9894721/ http://akiko15.deviantart.com/journal/9894721/ Tue, 29 Aug 2006 10:11:41 PDT
Yesterday I went to a dance store and got a pair of legwarmers..lady fricken lied to me and said they were full length but they only went up to my knee. Stupid...grr so know I have to beg some legwarmers out of my dad...he'll probably cave under my awsome puppy whine. *shrug*

Stupid lady...ugh...the lag warmers are useless...I need them for my hamstring not my calf...I didn't pull my calf muscle I pulled MY HAMSTRING!!!!!! how does that work then if they don't go all the way up? I have no idea...gah sorry now i'm in a ranting mode.

It doesn't help that I have the worst writers block on the face of the planet right now....

~akiko ]]> ~akiko15 http://akiko15.deviantart.com/journal/9862555/ http://akiko15.deviantart.com/journal/9862555/ Sat, 26 Aug 2006 13:32:10 PDT
lol anyways ge's laying down taking a nap for once!! blessed silence. its all so calm now i can actually get some work done.

~akiko ]]> ~akiko15 http://akiko15.deviantart.com/journal/9812771/ http://akiko15.deviantart.com/journal/9812771/ Tue, 22 Aug 2006 06:32:26 PDT
On Saturday we adopted a dog and then named him Sparky. I call him Sparks for short.

Well the thing is that I'm the one that takes the most care of him, oddly enough, and so now he follows me around every where, sleeps in my bed and is having testing-the-limits-of-den-mother complex quite badly...only with me of course. *sigh* He's been trying to bite me constantly....rough too cus he was a shelter dog and doesn't quite know his own strength yet.

Thats it for now.

~akiko ]]> ~akiko15 http://akiko15.deviantart.com/journal/9775463/ http://akiko15.deviantart.com/journal/9775463/ Fri, 18 Aug 2006 19:27:04 PDT
Until then,

Akiko ]]> ~akiko15 http://akiko15.deviantart.com/journal/9758544/ http://akiko15.deviantart.com/journal/9758544/ Thu, 17 Aug 2006 10:11:27 PDT ~akiko15 http://akiko15.deviantart.com/journal/9633060/ http://akiko15.deviantart.com/journal/9633060/ Mon, 07 Aug 2006 19:23:09 PDT ~akiko15 http://akiko15.deviantart.com/journal/9591126/ http://akiko15.deviantart.com/journal/9591126/ Thu, 03 Aug 2006 19:35:40 PDT ~akiko15 http://akiko15.deviantart.com/journal/9553974/ http://akiko15.deviantart.com/journal/9553974/ Mon, 31 Jul 2006 12:16:12 PDT ~akiko15 http://akiko15.deviantart.com/journal/9516218/ http://akiko15.deviantart.com/journal/9516218/ Thu, 27 Jul 2006 21:06:51 PDT ~akiko15 http://akiko15.deviantart.com/journal/9513679/ http://akiko15.deviantart.com/journal/9513679/ Thu, 27 Jul 2006 16:27:45 PDT Why do we live like this?
Is it because its true?

...............eh I have some song called "I'm Sorry" stuck in my head. la de da. i really want to do some fan art based on the song. maybe princess tutu... prob. gravitation. *shrug* I'll be going to Otakon and hopefully next year I can get an art table. I also have some ideas for cosplay that will hopefully work out. ]]> ~akiko15