http://search.deviantart.com/?q=by:akinarose&section=today deviantART RSS for by:akinarose en-us Copyright 2009, deviantART.com Fri, 18 Dec 2009 01:33:45 PST deviantART.com http://blogs.law.harvard.edu/tech/rss http://s.deviantart.com/minish/widgets/apple-touch-icon-precomposed.png http://akinarose.deviantart.com/journal/26527985/ http://akinarose.deviantart.com/journal/26527985/ Tue, 11 Aug 2009 13:22:13 PDT
I am officially not going to be posting on this site anymore. I have had my last bit of patience for this website annihilated yesterday when i posted an image and someone decided to be a giant bitch to me. Correction, two people did that but only one of them had the nerve to tell me to delete it right away. And when i did went through my gallery and reported a few of my pictures that were posted long before some of these new rules were updated and the site was changed.

I am sick of you people who think your better than everyone else and think you can tell people what they can and cant post. I am not talking about the officials on the site, they have every right to make rules, dont get me wrong i have no problem with that. I am talking about viewers, no thats not right either. I am talking about critics who arent really critics. who think that just cuz they are viewing a persons art they can bitch about how its gnasty or shouldnt be posted on this website and that have literally no posative feed back. I am all for people who want to say "you should try coloring on the computer," or anything that is trying to help me improve my style. But those of you who stumble upon someones art and it is of an adult variety or it is furries, or yaoi what ever the case may be, and you just dont like it so you feel the need to say something about it? Piss off. If you dont like it, dont look at it. If you stumble upon it, im sorry for your luck, its just as easy to exit the screen and look at something else, point being that if you dont have anything nice to say keep your trap shut. No one wants to hear it.

I wish i could say this is the first time this has happened to me, because then i might have a tiny bit more patience for it.

I am tired of people treating me and what i draw like its dirt and its not okay to draw. Or saying to me that i should just give up on art all together.

the exact comment i recieved on this image were

"Pornography of any kind is not allowed on deviantart. Take it down right now."
and
" this type of art doesnt belong here, it belongs on FA"

I really wish i could flip you off over the internet. I DO. I would probably come unglued on you if you said that to me in person. You might as well slap me in the face and expect to get away with it.

I LIKE MY ART.

I am sorry if you dont. And if thats in fact the case GO AWAY.

I do want to take this time to thank those of you who are very nice and polite to me. The ones that like my art. And a special thanks to It was very sweet of you to come and tell me that the girl in fact had no right to tell me to delete that image and that images of that nature are in fact allowed on DA.

If you wish to still view my art you may view it on FA
[link]

or on ygallery
I would put a link but there is very strong adult content on that website
my user name on this site is demonmuffin

Thanks for the love and support while i was here.

]]> ~akinarose http://akinarose.deviantart.com/journal/17226274/ http://akinarose.deviantart.com/journal/17226274/ Fri, 07 Mar 2008 14:56:35 PST
Badges (of any sort ) : 3$

-The amount of characters on badges are not limited but there isnt much room to work with, and that does include color, and they are mostly chibi's.

-Examples : [link]
[link]


Chibi's (in General) : 3$

- Each additional charcter is 2$
-Chibis include full color (though some of the examples dont
show it)
- This can be a full page (not just the size of a badge)

Examples:
[link]
[link]

Line art or Ink sketches : 5$

- Each additional character on these is 2$ because of character interaction and they are full pictures.

-Examples :
- single character
[link]
[link]

-Two character
[link]

-Three CHaracters
[link]

FULL COLOR : 10$

- Each additional character is 3$
- This has your choice of colored pencil or marker.
-Background is an additional 2$

-Examples :
-single character marker
[link]

-With background marker
[link]

- Two characters marker
[link]

-single character with colored pencil
[link]

-two character with background
[link]

I prefer PAYPAL user demonmuffin@yahoo.com

But if you want to chance cash or money order via mail just ask for my mailing info.

If you want an original copy of your picture from me just give me mailing information and I will gladly send it out to you.

I will also draw mature content if specified.

I do draw furrs aswell if you want to look through my gallery and see then you are more than welcome to, I just failed to display any.
Thanks muchly Have a great day.

]]> ~akinarose http://akinarose.deviantart.com/journal/14044646/ http://akinarose.deviantart.com/journal/14044646/ Mon, 06 Aug 2007 13:39:50 PDT On that note I finally got my paypal to work so if you were wanting commsions paypal is now open for business on my part... prices are negotiable, and I always give the owner the original copy because its only fair, and if you are not happy with what you get I will remake it for you no questions asked.
Other than that, life has been pretty harsh lately my car died, so work cut my hours so now rent is getting harder and harder to pay each month, so I think I migt have to find a differant job and I really don't want to because I really kind of like my job right now. But anyway... thats the general overview of what has been going on.

]]> ~akinarose http://akinarose.deviantart.com/journal/11372571/ http://akinarose.deviantart.com/journal/11372571/ Tue, 09 Jan 2007 09:18:53 PST should be fun. I may post some of the progress here, like character sheets and stuff like that, but more than likely t hey will be in scraps if I do post them.
Yes I know I still owe pictures to a few of you namely and one to ryan. Sorry its taking so long guys, but I promise I have not forgotten you. n.n

OKi , new news. I quit my horrible job at del taco at long last and now have a new job at Round Table, which is totally pimp, because I make tip money for being a delivery driver, it rocks my world. That and everyone there likes me, and I have yet to get yelled at for anything because I am the Gm's favorite driver, why? who the flock knows. However, I seem to be alot of other peoples favorites too, which is cool. Needless to say I am much happier now and alot less stressed out over trivial shit. Like I never have to worry about going into working fearing that I am going to get yelled at for fucking nothing.

Merry belated christmas everyone. and happy newyears tooo. I did not draw any christmas pictures on acount of christmas is not really my thing, and by this I mean it probably wold have been a picture of me with an american flag on a sharp pole through santa's fat stomach and in the captian morgan position using his corpse as my prop.
My christmas went well, I got my favorite anime, or one of them and got to watch it for the first time in YEARS and I am extremely happy.

However if you want valintines day pictures now is the time to reqest them, I am willing to do five of them, but only one per person please, lets be fair.

Aside from that commision status is still wide OPEN
note me for details.

hugs and kisses everyone.

]]> ~akinarose http://akinarose.deviantart.com/journal/10779023/ http://akinarose.deviantart.com/journal/10779023/ Sun, 19 Nov 2006 14:45:22 PST
Now I have seen alot of fanart for Kingdom hearts, ALOT and most of it is very very gay fan art, not that I have any problems with that. But up until now I thought it was all fans exagerating the story, well I am here to say it is not exageration, it is all truth baby. I haven't even made it that far into the game and I can tell you that. IT is one big metaphor for coming out of the closet I will tell you. THINK ABOUT IT.

Lets start from where I can see Sora " Loves" Kairi, lets say, we all knoiw that he really loves Riku, he is just lying to himself. Look at it Riku accepts the darkness and wants Sora to accept it too, to join him, come with him into the darkness. Lets just play for a second, Lets say the darkness is Homosexuality, Riku knows he's gay, but Sora if afraid of the darkness, he doesn't wish for it to consume him the way it does Riku. Then later Riku gets excessively jealous that Sora is around with new friends and feels like Sora doesn't care about him or Kairi anymore, but Sora is just happy to know Riku is alive. SO SO GAY!!!!!!!!!!

I am all for homosexuality , hell most of the best people in the world are gay, but sora should just come out, realize he loves Riku. RIKU KNOWS HE LOVES SORA! DUH

I am done now.

]]> ~akinarose http://akinarose.deviantart.com/journal/10445063/ http://akinarose.deviantart.com/journal/10445063/ Thu, 19 Oct 2006 12:47:47 PDT
]]> ~akinarose http://akinarose.deviantart.com/journal/10422635/ http://akinarose.deviantart.com/journal/10422635/ Tue, 17 Oct 2006 11:42:37 PDT
IN other news, the reason that these are taking me so long is because things haven't exactly been easy in my neck of the woods lately, I just moved in with my best friend so I could help her with rent since her mommy moved out recently. And shortly thereafter I lost it and quit my job because they were putting me through too much bullshit so now I am job hunting. Basically my boss told me that I was the reason behind one of the boys quiting and then was told on top of that that I was just like a guy I work with who usually is out side smoking ciggarettes and god only knows what else on the patio of the resturaunt every opprotunity he gets, so the store is never clean and nothing is ever prepped unless I am there to do all the work for him( not to mention he does all of this while still on the clock) The reason the boy quit was simply because he found another job.
The woman is a wench, she just likes to piss me off I swere, so I just quit. I had had enough of being blamed for shit like she always did to be and being told I wasn't good enough. I have to admit that even though I have no money I am alot happier than I was and now I think she is learning a lesson. You see that same guy that she compared me to is running my old shift in my absense and accourding to the nightshift the store is always a wreck and nothing is ever prepped, so maybe she will realize that when I was there it was at least a smiggen better than him running it and maybe come to shocking realization that this, one of her favorite boys, is a slacker and that I was nothing like him. But that is thinking too highly of her.

]]> ~akinarose http://akinarose.deviantart.com/journal/9815025/ http://akinarose.deviantart.com/journal/9815025/ Mon, 11 Sep 2006 08:40:47 PDT 's journal first 5 people that comment here will win a free doodle from me~!!! I'll put the winners here. And the ones that win a free doodle from me have to do the same thing for another 5 people, okay?

1. she wants a comic of Naruto betting sasuke can't fit an egg in his mouth... then slapping him to crush the egg XD
2. She wants Orochimaru, Jiraya, andf her father dressed as santa.
3. I don't know if he wants one but he commented. <.<
4. said for me to decide for him* stabs him*
5. :iconXangrilla: took the last spot with a request for one of her characters [link]




anything you like people. STILL ONE SLOT DAMNIIT

OH and as for an update on life I could really use some commisions or just a differant job... hell anything would help, I have a shit piss worth of repairs to do on my car, buy a new starter, get it a check up, realign the tires, replace a nut on one tire, then of course I have to buy books, its all very lame.

on lighter new a friend and I ran into Jessie and Anna the other day and we stood around and talked for hours... it was awsome in my opion.

anyway, hope you all are having a groovy day.

and ask me for these damned pictures. ]]> ~akinarose http://akinarose.deviantart.com/journal/9549965/ http://akinarose.deviantart.com/journal/9549965/ Mon, 31 Jul 2006 03:36:49 PDT
So what news is there? I am 19 now as of a few weeks back, and in about oh... two days I am gunna be gone for a week to visit my mom before she gets stationed in Turkey for two years, I worry for her because she has her baby still who will be four when she gets back from Turkey... I can't imagine how hard that will be on them. I lost some friend do to personal differances, but its all good I think that all sides are somewhat happier now, and we don't seem to hate each other, just don't want to be around eachother, but that is very old news. I am gunna take up some more classes soon, two of them, probably an english and math, or food safety so I can weasel my way in to culinary arts. My major changes around alot. I Got holi into using prisma markers and she is really good at it, I am excited. I got a kitten, his name is marius and he is adorable. as much of an asshat he can tend to be. I saw Pirates and Clerks two... and OMG clerks two, I know every one has seen Pirates and if you haven't you should, but even if you don';t lkike kevin smith you HAVE to give Clerks two a chance, its so offensive, BUT SO HILARIOUS!!!!!!!!!!! SEE it.

In other news, as in art news, I have a picture that I have been working on for like a month that should be done soon, when I finish the background. I am looking forward to its completion, its all in pencil and is detailed to an extreme extent.

Oh and I haven't taken anyone off of my " look at my friends" thing because I think they still should be looked at because they are still good n.n <3 ]]> ~akinarose http://akinarose.deviantart.com/journal/8580049/ http://akinarose.deviantart.com/journal/8580049/ Tue, 25 Apr 2006 10:34:08 PDT
you should visit my friends



Mood: AHHHHHHHHHHHH
Listening to: The Queen of the damned soundtrack
Reading: none
Watching: none

~Loveforspoikeandxande Tagged me >__< So now I shall do it

Rules : The 1st player of this "game" starts with the topic "6 weird habits/things about yourself" and people who get tagged need to write a journal about their 6 weird habits/things as well as state this rule clearly. In the end, you need to choose the next 6 people to be tagged and list their names. Don't forget to leave a comment that says "you are tagged" in their devpage comments and tell them to read yours....

Here I go...

1. when I was in high school I used to walk around my house nakid because we had a huge window in front of the house and I lived right next to the high school ( FREEDOM )

2. I enjoy random road trips because I like to drive and it gives me something fun to do with muh friends.

3. I watch jurassic park almost everynight to help me get to sleep.

4. my parents got divorced when I was little so I got very used to airplanes.

5. I collect things with dragons, or hello kitty.

6. I am clumsy... not that that is a habit but its something I do often right?

something that does not pertain to this... I have a horse that licks people... like a dog.... its weird...

ok so I taggy

Bye ]]> ~akinarose http://akinarose.deviantart.com/journal/8532261/ http://akinarose.deviantart.com/journal/8532261/ Thu, 20 Apr 2006 14:06:04 PDT
you should visit my friends



Mood: AHHHHHHHHHHHH
Listening to: The Queen of the damned soundtrack
Reading: none
Watching: none

Hello everyone this is just a little post to explain life as of late and if you care to read then be my guest.

I am now a full time manager at Del Taco, which is a fast food chain that is currently only in oregon and California and its not exactly a walk in the park, half the people that I have to manage are older than me and see themselves as more suitable for the position, but whatev. Honestly it is stressful to the point of madness but I guess that is to be expected and in all honesty I think I am doing rather well with the position, however, a rather unliked sideeffect of the full time job and stress I dropped my classes, mostly because I felt that there was no way I could pass them since I had ditched a few ( and by few I mean QUITE a few) not to mention that I probably would lack the energy or wish to go to class on all of my off time, I would rather spend time with my friends, which is I suppose normal of a teenager. And that is the honest truth, I don't want to do it right now so I won't. If that slows down my moving or my climbing the ladder of society then that is my problem and I will simply have to deal with it.
I recently got a friend of mine a job where I work, and being a manager as well as a best friend really blows, because I coddle her, I know I do, I knew that I would. Not that that is a terrible thing. But she doesn't put forth the want to be there I have been told, and it makes me worry for her because she is going through the most stressful time of her life right now and I know it, and there isn't much I can do about that. I have been told that if she were to simply say I need to be on the scedule that she would be, and for a while I tried that for her and it didn't exctly work. They told me " you can't fight her battles for her" and I told them I knew that. I simply fear for her thats all.
Then one of my favorite people to work with, Lisa, might loose her position from the looks of things because she doesn't manage well enough I suppose, and Cameron fears he won't pass the drug test we just took, and I honestly won't be able to stand it if I loose both of them from my work place, I love them both very much. Lisa is like a mother to me, even though I taught her all of what she knows. And I just don;t know what to do, maybe just am over reactant to things because its that time of the month or something.
So to say it short and swet I hav... ]]> ~akinarose http://akinarose.deviantart.com/journal/8106212/ http://akinarose.deviantart.com/journal/8106212/ Wed, 08 Mar 2006 18:34:53 PST
you should visit my friends



Mood: AHHHHHHHHHHHH
Listening to: Feel Good Ink
Reading: none
Watching: none

0N0b0dy0 has tagged me... who the f.

My middle name is: Rose
I was born on: July 8 1987
My haircolor is: Red
I have: temper tantrums? what am I supposed to put here?
My eye color is: Greenish blue
My shoe size is: 10.5 to 11... I gots big feets
My hope: to make people happy
My dream: at this point in time I lack one
My height is: 5'9 or so
I am allergic to: spring time, and poison ivy or oak.. really really bad
I live in: Redding CA
The last book I read: My english book
My bed is: warm, comfortable, and in the middle of no where so I rarely get to sleep on it.
One thing I know for sure about the opposite sex is: That they confuse the fuck out of me.
I am glad I'm my sex because: I find it helps me get out of tickets, which is a very poor thing to say.
Favorite thing on the opposite sex: they get prettier torsos * frown*
Best physical feature: probably my face or hair.
Best emotional feature: when I am happy because I am very nice usually.
Let me see you: STRIPPED.... oh... umm... sorry...song i listened to.
Favorite kind of music: Rock of course
Favorite kind of chips: BBQ potato... common yes... but so very delicious
My favorite Holiday is: Easter
The last three cd's I bought are: who buys cd's? jk.... Gorillaz... and before that I do not remember.
My most treasured possession(s): my friends
What did you do last night: flopped around playing video games with my friends until midnight or so before I realized I had a magaer meeting in the morning X<
What is the best thing about her?: Her? listen pal I am not a lesbian.
If you could change something on your body, what would it be: my pudgy pudgy belly.
Sunglasses or Sunshades: GLASSES BIOTCH
Favorite Sport: Hockey... its like boxing on ice... what's not to love.
Virgin?: friggen yes... proud of it.
Cuddling or Hooking up: that is information rather kept to meself.
Favorite Alcholic Beverage: * thinks about liquor and remembers last time and vomits*
I do/do not believe in....
Santa? don't
love at first sight? do
Luck?: do
Fate?: do
Aliens?: depends on the day
Heaven?: do
Hell?: do
Ghosts?: do
Horoscopes?: do
Destiny?: do

Which is Better?
Hugs or Kisses? hugs because you can get... ]]> ~akinarose http://akinarose.deviantart.com/journal/8044748/ http://akinarose.deviantart.com/journal/8044748/ Thu, 02 Mar 2006 08:23:14 PST
you should visit my friends



Mood: AHHHHHHHHHHHH
Listening to: Feel Good Ink
Reading: none
Watching: none

OK so i am officially miffed at everything, most of all myself, you see I missed class on teusday because I wasn't feeling well, from lack of sleep, go figure, because I decided to stay up all night and wait with my friends for their train in the morning, so I emailed my teachers and explained myself, and now today my english class seems to have rubbed itself off the face of the planet. Not in the writing center, not in their room, asked other teachers, office workers, she should be in class today.... so I checked in with the writing center.... and knowing that my teacher probably hates my guts anyway probably doesn't help the situation any, so she probably won't believe me in my missing class today >.< F'IN PISSED YO.
Not to mention I could have been sleeping right now instead of awake. grrrrrr.

IN lighter news, I got my stereo installed and it makes me very very happy inside... I had to exchange the speakers my dad got for me, which meant I got money back because he bought them a size to big, so I bought the new gorillaz cd, since it was on a gift card for best bu anyway. 8D

anyway... that is what is up with me... stilll angry.

Bye ]]> ~akinarose http://akinarose.deviantart.com/journal/7750546/ http://akinarose.deviantart.com/journal/7750546/ Mon, 30 Jan 2006 11:18:41 PST
you should visit my friends



Mood: I will kill
Listening to: I'm sorry I, had a bad day again
Reading: none
Watching: none

Hello all, I am sorry if I give anyone a bad impression of myself over the next few days, I am not exactly having the easiest time of things. SO here I will explain.

Since FC I have not spent the night at my own house, I have been staying out at 's home, because its closer to my work and school than my house, and I like her couch, not to mention that when we first returned from furcon she was very down and upset, much like she was before we left. But that is for people to find out from her. I am not complaining about not being home, it is very much so by my own choice, so I am not complaing about that. I am complaining about work. I know that many of you have to here me whine about work every day because I don't want to go, but I have my reasons... more than ever right now I am going to quit, I can not handle it.

All of the good employees we have are quitting, including most of the managers, as of right now the only people that still work there that were there when I first began are: Jae, my assistant manager, Margie, our GM, Robert, another manager who is quiting soon, and Elisse, who seems like she will be around for a while. thats it out of a crew of about 20-40 people. all of the new people are insanely retarded, most of which I can stand.... but the people I work with that are newer are assholes, lets begin with Robert marshall, robert marshall decided he wanted to diss my personal favorite band by saying that they are racist, and also said that no one listens to the beatles, and that he has never heard of led zeplin, his a rap boy, and he is as white as snow. I was insanely mad, but I cooled off, the very next day he decided he wants to moch everything that I do at work as well as spike my drink with our hot sauce from the store( he chose the wrong day and wrong time to do that prank considering I was already very depressed) then continued to moch me about that. Then there is Bryan, he is my biggest issue right now, he is bigger than I am and scares me as it is, but he is for the most part a nice person, he expidites for me when he knows I can't... does things that the new, retarded manager tells me to do when she just told me to do something two seconds ago ( she does that to everyone though),... ]]> ~akinarose http://akinarose.deviantart.com/journal/7704031/ http://akinarose.deviantart.com/journal/7704031/ Wed, 25 Jan 2006 12:25:38 PST
you should visit my friends

iconSilverpoot:

Mood: WAHHHHHHHHHHHHHH
Listening to: all the bitches
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Watching: none

ok I went to FC and I have returned with new friends... all of which are gay men HELL YES. One of them is on DA and I highlt recomend him he is very tallented the others, unfortunately, are not on DA to my knowledge.

I shared a table with silver poot and sold some stuff and made out ok . I met a bunch of her friends like Rat Bat, who is hilarious and somewhat famous in her art. and bastek, and quite a few other people. We had a hot tub party... it was a grand old time. Highly worth the con crud to go.

anywho, I have paypal now, so if you feel the need to comission me for something, feel free my status on that is almost always open, and I will give you the info you need. <3

Bye ]]> ~akinarose http://akinarose.deviantart.com/journal/7513475/ http://akinarose.deviantart.com/journal/7513475/ Thu, 05 Jan 2006 00:18:19 PST
you should visit my friends

:inconAnna-nah-nah: :icon:HimeRitsuko:

Mood: could be better
Listening to: wish I could stay- giles and terr-BFTVS
Reading: none
Watching: none

babble time, Da ate it like it does to everyone else.

I left work tonight to find I am in financial delema again, and this time I had to tell my dad because I have a 20 dollar phone bill to pay... a 100 dollar car repair on my car, and no money, at all, and he said he wished I had come to him last time that happened instead of suffering through it, so he told me to not worry about it and that he would take care of things for me at least until I could pay him back, and that he would help me to contain my money better, so I am sorry to my friends that NEED me right now, I know you do, to get out and be happy with someone and maybe eat since not everyone has heaping handfuls of food at their house, but I sadly can't do much. And it hurts me to say that I have to do this at least for a short while... so if you don't see me its because my gas is empty or I am working * sigh* I have a total of 2.02 dollars in my bank right now, and my commissioner's haven't come through yet, hence why they have yet to be completed and posted. Aide from those two which I am already greatful too, anyone who wants to comission me the feild is open and I could really use it. If I can get the 50 to make it to fur con I will probably make about 400 while I am there, and better yet if I can make 140 right now in commissions, I won't have to spend 90 of that when I am there for my room. SO help me please. note me and I can give you details of any kind.

Aside from that I found out tonight that my mom goes to iraq this monday, which is tough for me to handle real well, but it happens I guess, so I just hope she is in teh best that she can be, and that she finds my friend aaron because he could use someone being kind to him, anyone. I won't sauy why.

This whole story is a little more complexly drawn out than this, and envolved crying, mostly on my dad because he found out that I found it hard to trust him anymore, and things like that, but what happens will happen... I could use your help anyone who hasn't.... and those of you that have, if you choose to help more I might have to hurt you, you have already helped more than enough for an idiot like me.

Bye ]]> ~akinarose http://akinarose.deviantart.com/journal/7392245/ http://akinarose.deviantart.com/journal/7392245/ Fri, 23 Dec 2005 12:42:36 PST
Mood: could be better
Listening to: Judith
Reading: none
Watching: none

This is just a breif update on whats been happening with me and has nothing to do with my friends because they have all been nothing but nice to me n.n

who helped me to get comssions when my money issue arose

for advertising for me, and not being inraged at me for missing every call she gave me two days ago when my phone was dead * oh the guilt*

again more free advertising and letting me hybernate there when I didn't have enough money for gas to make it home, and let bryce stay at her house.

for being nice enough to forgive my idiocy as I know I am pretty retarded.

These people have had so much pain over this holiday, more than they should have, as Silverpoot said " wake me up when christmas is over" I'm sure most of the people reading this know most of what has happened with each and every one of my friends, freakyratchild's step dad walked out on her and her mother and now him and the mom are talking again almost as if nothing ever happened. Loveforspikeandxande ... well I would rather you read journals written from her heart and not from mine, so I won't go there. Anna-nah-nah who's dog recently passed away on her birthday, and the next day tried to get a hold of me all day and my phone wasn't alive for it. And of course silverpoot, who has been watching it all crumble beneath her, and I know it hurts for everyone.

Now here are the small things that have happened to me, most of which should already be known. My mom has to go to iraq next month, and aside from that I haven't heard much else from her. And for those of you who didn't know already, this means my baby brother, of one and a half years old will be in a house with just my grandma and my step dad, not to mention it puts my mom in extensive danger. My mom is an explosives expert per say in the military, so I can only imagine what they will have her doing over there. * sigh* Then there is my great uncle roy, who I have met very few times, but still care more for than most men in my family I can say honestly, is going to die soon unless they find a lung to replace the one that is causing him to die. At this point it seems to be unlikely to say the least. Then of course there is my grandma laurie who had to have a chunk of her leg removed to remove some melinoma, I prey it never returns to her. And then you all know the bank situation that happened a few weeks ago, that made me hysterical. but some people have been nice enough to comission me :

water color
prisma marker

there is two others, one is a friend from work, and the other really wants me to draw but don't know if they can... n.n all of these peopel are very very kind.

I guess thats all I have to say for now.

love guys

Bye ]]> ~akinarose http://akinarose.deviantart.com/journal/7359608/ http://akinarose.deviantart.com/journal/7359608/ Tue, 20 Dec 2005 00:12:37 PST
Mood: yay
Listening to: The red
Reading: none
Watching: none

HAPPY BIRTHDAY TO YOU EVEN THOUGH YOU ARE NOT ONLINE X< I STILL LOVE YOU



Your present will have to be late like your christmas present because I am a looser

AND HAPPY BIRTHDAY TO MUH STEP MUM

though she is not on DA

Bye ]]> ~akinarose http://akinarose.deviantart.com/journal/7245977/ http://akinarose.deviantart.com/journal/7245977/ Wed, 07 Dec 2005 10:27:57 PST
Mood: uncertain
Listening to: I feel so
Reading: none
Watching: none

Hello all, and welcome to be sad and pathetic life, And on todays agenda.. things that make sasha sad. Today I went and got my pay check and put it into the bank, and it tells me that I am 219. and changeoverdrawn, which I know should be incorrect, because I just put in 300 some dollars, and I Know I did not dip over 500, 200 I can cope with, but 500 is kind of extreme. So I went in to talk to someone at the front desk to see if maybe my check didn't go through, or I bought something online that I didn't mean too like 175$ trani ticket, and no such thing.. the check went through, I bought no train ticket... my life just sucks, kill me now. The lady told me it was fromoverdrawn fee's to the tune of 33 dollars a pop, 5 times, which I have no recolection of doing, you'd think instead of doing that that maybe they would tell you when your out instead of creating my situation. So now I have no money, I have almost no Gas in my car, I won't be able to get home at night, and I can't really feel right asking for money from people which I alread yhad to do once today X< to holi's mom because she was the only person I could think of.

So please, if I have done something for you in the past, bought you lunch lent you money, drawn you stuff, please throw a couple of bucks my way, I would appreciate it so much you can't even believe.

Other than that if you would like to comission me please do PLEASE do, thats the one way I think I Might be able to get out of this situation, or if you can't commission me and you know someone looking for commssions... im me... or note me, or email me please... I greatly need it, and I would apreciate it so much it could make you sick.

Bye ]]> ~akinarose http://akinarose.deviantart.com/journal/7216817/ http://akinarose.deviantart.com/journal/7216817/ Sun, 04 Dec 2005 01:17:49 PST
Mood: uncertain
Listening to: I feel so
Reading: none
Watching: none

Yoinked from : / /

YOU CAN ASK ME SIX QUESTIONS::
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[[[Re-post this to see what others ask you...]]]

Bye ]]> ~akinarose http://akinarose.deviantart.com/journal/7185073/ http://akinarose.deviantart.com/journal/7185073/ Wed, 30 Nov 2005 11:52:43 PST
Mood: BETTER
Listening to: That friggen instrumental song from wolf's rain
Reading: none
Watching: none

I have nothing better to do with my time honestly, and I don't really want anything for christmas from anyone but my dad, basterd needs to pay up.. jk... so here goes:

1. for someone to drive through the front of a certain someone apartment to smash her and her father.( I'm a little spiteful)

2. For my dad to get a sterio into my car so I don't have to work with the POS thing that cuts out that I work with now.

3. A new job since my current one is stinky pants because my said person to spite works there.

4. Commissions would be nice, so I can have an easier time with monies.

5. to have a good time at fur con and maybe make some monies there... <.< that would be cool.

6. people to advertise for me about comissions, it might help, and it would mean alot I already know two people did <3

7. MY INTERNET!!!!

8. Too have myself a merry little christmas.

9. Spiffy clothes, just because I like to look teh shnaz when I can.

10. Boots, for my feet get pretty cold.

11. move to washingtone ( yeah right that won't happen until next year at the very least)

12. I would like to learn digital art stuff when I get photoshop

13. Pass all of my classes...

14. A new side pack, like a back pack but only over one sholder... I would like that.

15. did I already mention to get commissions? jk

well... there that is... sorry I am kind of a ninny .... and if you can help me with any of these I would appreciate it so greatly.... but I would rather it be something like teaching me photoshop.... I don't want people to by me crap.

Bye ]]> ~akinarose http://akinarose.deviantart.com/journal/7079440/ http://akinarose.deviantart.com/journal/7079440/ Fri, 18 Nov 2005 10:08:33 PST
Mood: BETTER
Listening to: " just to good to be true" The muses version
Reading: none
Watching: none

I poste in forums today about commisions so i figured I auta post in here tooo, so that its on my front page and stuffs so I will trell you all prices in here, and if you need examples just mosey through my gallery <3

pencil or ink sketches are only 5 $ that includes Furries and humans and shading if you sould wish it.

LIne art is 10$ and that also includes anthros aswell as humans, and shading if you want it, but that is to be done in pencil ( because shading with microns kinda sucks)

then there is lineart and colored with prisma markers which would come to 20$ again that includes furries and humans, for your pleasure.

I can do backgrounds aswell but the prices on backgrounds will varry depending on what you wish it to be.

And I forgot to mention on my forum post that I could do tatoo designs too, just cuz * shrugs* and those will vary simply on size.

so luv luv.

Bye ]]> ~akinarose http://akinarose.deviantart.com/journal/6998841/ http://akinarose.deviantart.com/journal/6998841/ Wed, 09 Nov 2005 10:37:06 PST
Mood: ill
Listening to: "butterfly" AYumi hamasaki
Reading: none
Watching: none

I was tagged by * shakes fist at her angrily* EVen though its very similair to something I have already done, here I go again.

Ten people/things you like:

1. HOCKEY!!!!
2. My friends.
3. My Boyfriend... WEEEE * gets stabbed by her bilions of buds who aren't too found of him* OWIE
4. Joss( my computer <3333)
5. DOOM, the game not the movie.
6. Kyo from Dir En Grey
7. The rest of teh DIren Grey guys. <.< like shinya <3333
8. PAY CHECKS
9. Mr. Hoag.
10. Miyavi, because he is so cute.

Three things that make you happy:

1. Accidental Cave man speaking.
2. Being with people I care for
3. CHicken tacos from my work * droool*

Ten things that you hate dislike:

1. MARGIE(my boss)
2. people being mad at me for my stupidity.
3. People blaming things on me that I did not do.
4. Taxes.
5. My mom when she's been drinking
6. My little cousin Katrina
7. My dad when he's being childish
8. My step dad * flamingly mad*
9. Yugioh
10. People who just don't care.

Three facts about your name:

1. Sasha means sweet heart in German.
2. It is typically a boys name in Germany.
3. My last name is my mopthers maiden name. ( I am the only one with that name in my family right now.)

Five facts about yourself:

1. I hate who I am.
2. I hate the way I draw.
3. I like my red hair.
4. I prefer writing to drawing
5. I am tall.

Two things you expect (at least for now):

1. I will move away and very few people will be affected.
2. I will have internet soon...

Four random thoughts:

1. what the hell is a fireside room?
2. Yesterday was spoozday wasn't it.
3. I don't want to go to work.

Song you're listening to (give singer):

( if its in my head does it count? ) ONe by the Muse.

Ten People you'll tag this to:

even though I barely know them.

Bye ]]> ~akinarose http://akinarose.deviantart.com/journal/6952691/ http://akinarose.deviantart.com/journal/6952691/ Fri, 04 Nov 2005 10:42:57 PST
Mood: ill
Listening to: "butterfly" AYumi hamasaki
Reading: none
Watching: none

Here's the deal, so that you guys aren't mad forme never posting or something to that extent, I recently moved to a house in teh middle of fucking no where... I means serious bfe, so there is not n extra phoneline yet for me to use for internet, so I haven't posted or anything until now, because I have been overbooked with work and school, NO FREE TIME, it really kinda blows. EVery part of me is in pain and my manager hates me for some reason. >.<, oh well she is moving to another location soon anyway. But I do have halloween images to post, I just have yet to post them because they are on my computer and have no internet with which to post them...so happy halloween, late of course, because that is just so cleeshay me.

Here I got tagged by to tell you twenty things about me... so here you are:

1. I am sick alot.
2. I have a job.
3. I am a jealous basterd.
4. I am currently in a lot of like with someone.
5. I have a large number of friends.
6. I have a great many days where I dislike my dad.
7. I am in college.
8. I rarely talk with my mother.
9. I think I am a horrible artists ( know is more like it)
10. Pretty sure my manager hates me.
11. Have a baby brother thats only like 2
12. Have an adoptive brother who I look up to.
13. Can't draw animals for a shit.
14. Am a bad driver.
15. Love reptiles.
16. Hate nochturnal animals because they keep me up * shakes fist* chinichilla.....
17. Used to own a chinchilla.
18. Likes to act.
19. Can quote Pirates of teh carabien or the lordof the rings movies perfectly.
20. Have recently started to enjoy Btvs

Now for me to tag... lesseeee :



Bye ]]> ~akinarose http://akinarose.deviantart.com/journal/6742389/ http://akinarose.deviantart.com/journal/6742389/ Tue, 11 Oct 2005 18:42:02 PDT
Mood: sincere
Listening to: Not like the other girl
Reading: none
Watching: none

Hello dears.

I just thought it would be nice to take the time out to say how greatful I am for all of you people who view my page, and view my images, bad as they might be. There are some of you who have been around, giving my art the second look for longer than others have, like from the dawn of my entry onto DA, back when things were not so great, and you stayed around to watch me. Then there are you charming people who just recently began, I love you equally, for out of a great many excellant artists on this wonderland you chose to visit me, and I am not even that good at drawing. I try my hardest to comment to you all so that I am not a jerk to you or anything, and would be happy to chat with any of you if you would like to im me for any reason... preferably on Yahoo or msn. I don't know if you guys really know it, but your the very reason that I continue to draw, if it wern't for every last one of you I wuold probably give up on any hope of an art career because I see so so many with more skill than I can ever hope to have or acheive, alot of which are my own dear friends. But they do teh same and encourage me to draw, unlike my father who doesn't think my art has particularly any worth, which almost is enough for me to stop drawing completely even with all of you, just imagine if you all weren't here. Each and every last person to watch me, fav my stuff, or become my friend has helped deter me from such things, and I care about each and every one as deeply as I do the next and there is never too little time for me to consider something you have to say to me, though I might not have anything interesting to say in response. Note me, email me.. chat to me, whenever you like, I have the time and I love talking to you guys <3 <3 <3 <3 <3 <3

Bye ]]> ~akinarose http://akinarose.deviantart.com/journal/6694967/ http://akinarose.deviantart.com/journal/6694967/ Thu, 06 Oct 2005 12:23:40 PDT
Mood: sarcastic
Listening to: my families laughing
Reading: none
Watching: none

Yeah yeah... I woke up this morning at eight because my guts were wrenching, so I went to teh store, got some midol... went home and took some.. then slept some more.

Its ok other painkillers, I love you gusy too.

POINTLESS ENTRY

Bye ]]> ~akinarose http://akinarose.deviantart.com/journal/6677501/ http://akinarose.deviantart.com/journal/6677501/ Tue, 04 Oct 2005 11:51:24 PDT
Mood: sarcastic
Listening to: my families laughing
Reading: none
Watching: none

Taken from : who took it from somone else.

X's apply to what I've done

(x) been in love(am currently XD)
(x) been dumped
(x) shoplifted
( ) been fired
(x) been in a fist fight( heh heh... with knives... weee)

( ) snuck out of my parent's house
(x) had feelings for someone who didnt have them back
( ) been arrested
( ) made out with a stranger
( ) gone on a blind date
(x) lied to a friend
(x) had a crush on a teacher(MR. HOAG! SO SEXY!)
(x) skipped school/class
( ) slept with a co-worker
(x) seen someone die(do cats count?)

( ) smoked a cigarette
( ) smoked a cigar
(x) smoked anything else( no qeustions on this please)
( ) made out with a member of the same sex
( ) crashed a friend's car
( ) stolen a car

(x) had a crush on one of your DeviantART friends.
(x) been to Canada
( ) been to Mexico
(x) been on a plane
( ) thrown up in a bar

( ) purposely set a part of myself on fire
(x) eaten Sushi
(x) been snowboarding
(x) met someone in person from DeviantART (6 actually <.<
(x) been moshing at a concert( I do so love metallica)

( ) been in an abusive relationship
(x) taken painkillers
(x) laid on your back and watched cloud shapes go by
(x) made a snow angel

( ) had a tea party
(x) flown a kite
(x) built a sand castle
(x) gone puddle jumping
(x) played dress up

(x) jumped into a pile of leaves
(x) gone sledding
( ) cheated while playing a game
(x) been lonely
(x) fallen asleep at work/school

( ) used a fake id
(x) watched the sun set
(x) felt an earthquake
(x) touched a snake

(x) been tickled
( ) been robbed
( ) robbed someone
(x) been misunderstood
(x) pet a reindeer/goat

( ) won a contest ( I am too much a looser =.
(x) run a stop sign on purpose
( ) been suspended from school
(x) had detention
( ) been in a car accident

(x ) had braces
(x) felt like an outcast
(x) eaten a whole pint of ice cream in one night
(x) had deja vu (dreams come up in real life for me)
(x) danced in the moonlight

(x) hated the way you look
(x) witnessed a crime
( ) pole danced
(x) questioned your heart
(x) been obsessed with post-it notes ( HECK YES!)

(x) squished barefoot through the mud
(x) been lost (just ask my friends )
(x) been to the opposite side of the country ( uh... mom lives on the other side of teh country)
(x) swam in the ocean
(x) felt like dying

(x) cried yourself to sleep
( ) played cops and robbers
(x) recently colored with crayons/colored pencils/markers
(x) sung karaoke
(x) paid for a meal with only coins ( oh those poor shmo's at carl's jr.)

(x) done something you told yourself you wouldn't
( ) made prank phone calls
(x) laughed until some kind of beverage came out of your nose (the pain... the pain....)
(x) caught a snowflake on your tongue
( ) kissed in the rain.( I wish * cry*)

( ) written a letter to Santa Claus
( ) been kissed under a mistletoe
(x) watched the sun set with someone you care about( I have lots of friends I care about)
(x) blown bubbles
( ) made a bonfire on the beach

( ) crashed a party
(x) Have Traveled more than 5 days with a car full of People
(x) gone rollerskating
(x) had a wish come true
( ) humped a monkey????

( ) worn pearls
( ) jumped off a bridge
(x) screamed penis in class(or in a hospital? lol)
( ) ate dog/cat food
(x) told a complete stranger you loved them(joke)

(x) sang in the shower ( every time baybeee!!)
(x) have a little black dress
(x) had a dream that you married someone(person right after I met him and now a year later we are a coupleXD)
(x) glued your hand to something

( ) got your tongue stuck to a flag... ]]> ~akinarose http://akinarose.deviantart.com/journal/6674185/ http://akinarose.deviantart.com/journal/6674185/ Tue, 04 Oct 2005 00:45:38 PDT
Mood: sarcastic
Listening to: my families laughing
Reading: none
Watching: none

Choose one music artist/band that has not been chosen by your tagger.
Answer the following questions using ONLY song titles by that artist/band.
Then, tag 5 people to do the same.

TAG:
[artist/band]
The Rasmus

[male or female]
Not like the other Girl


[describe yourself]
HeartBreaker

[how do people feel about you]
Time to burn

[how do you feel about yourself]
Madness

[where do you want to be]
City of the Dead

[what do you want to be]
The one I love.

[how do you live]
In The Shadows

[how do you love]
No fear

[words of wisdom]
Chill

Bye ]]> ~akinarose http://akinarose.deviantart.com/journal/6590334/ http://akinarose.deviantart.com/journal/6590334/ Sat, 24 Sep 2005 13:11:23 PDT
Mood: sarcastic
Listening to: my families laughing
Reading: none
Watching: none

let sstart the day shall we, this way you know that my world is not complete misery, it just comes down to that sometimes. Currently I have been very excited to know the bryce is coming to visit me around christmas time, and I had intended to have him stay at my house but my dad is kinda being a jerk face, which I guess is expected, but he stayed at my house last time he came to visit and dad wasn't even in the same house, he was at his fiance's and NOTHING that would be considered as bad haoppened, because bryce happens to be a great person, and you would think that maybe my dad might have a little more trust for him after that. NO. I told dad that bryce was coming to visit and he starts interigating me about it, physically angry, you can see things like that in his stupid face. " why is his coming to visit??" " because maybe he likes me a little bit and wants to see me like I want to see him" " Hows he getting here?" " by the train" " where is he staying" " hopfully with us," " NO" well fine I don't care, I will rent a hotel room and stay there with him, fuck my dad, if he cannot cope with bryce being somewhere where he can supervise, then I will stay somewhere where he isn't... asshole. Not to mention that I wasn't even adressing him when I was talking about this, I was talking to my Grandmother who has driven up from stockten to visit today and help us move, because I know she wanted to meet him last time and did not get the chance. He butted in. And to top this little peice of pie off, I do not want to be angry with him in front of grandma, and he knows I won't be because I do not like her to see that side of me. SO I HAVE TO FAKE BEING HAPPY WITH HIM ALL FUCKING DAY. and then probably have to talk to him later, and I won't do it, because he will make me cry, and I hate crying it is teh weakist of all human mechanisms, which is why I hate him so much right now. I have shed more tears over him than I have over anything else in my lifetime, there are very few in this world who cry over thier dads the way I do, sometimes I wish he had never even had me. I think what really got me was that before he left to move stuff from here to our new house he talked to me calmly about other thiongs, as if teh topic of bryce had never came up, then gave me a hug and a kiss good bye, which he very rarely does anymore, he used to, but not recently. fucking kiss up. Chances are he knows that I am pissed, since as soon as he said those things I spoke very little to him beyond that, just kept my head low and packed my shit into my car to move in with him and kimi, something that I really really have no wish to do, especially now.

Honestly, all I really wanted was for him to accept this, since he has been here before and did not try anything like most people think would happen, and I just want my dad to approve of one fucking thing I do in my life. But whatever, I really don't care any more. Like I said, I will just rent a room while bryce is here and we will stay there, and dad can;t fucking stop me, I am 18. I am not a child, at least not as much so as he is. He shoudl know by now he can;t really control what I do, I have a job, I have a car, I have a computer. * shrugs* and enough writing talent to write about someone representing him and he woudl never know of it.

Bye ]]> ~akinarose http://akinarose.deviantart.com/journal/6187936/ http://akinarose.deviantart.com/journal/6187936/ Wed, 10 Aug 2005 12:24:20 PDT
Mood: sarcastic
Listening to: my families laughing
Reading: none
Watching: none

Hey guys, first off a big heaping thank you for helping me to come this far, I love you guys ^_^. Thanks to you I am near the 4k mark, and I intend to draw a picture of thanks to everyone, and a special picture of choice to the 4k viewer, you know, the guy/ chick that gets it.

Secondly, The new DA comment thing that was installed makes it so I can no longer check my messages on my home computer, because my comp is an older model, and my new one has yet to be set up ( it doesn;t have a moniter yet), so if you make a comment to me it may take me a while to get back to you because I have to go to a friends house to respond to you. So I am not being a jerk I just can;t reply from home for now.

Thirdly and lastly, I have college now from 8 am to 1pm mon. wen. fri. and I have a job now, so the art flow may be a little slowwer, but I will still post I promise ^_^, might just only be once a week or something is all.

Thats all for now, take care my beloved friends.

Bye ]]> ~akinarose http://akinarose.deviantart.com/journal/6151250/ http://akinarose.deviantart.com/journal/6151250/ Sat, 06 Aug 2005 15:39:21 PDT
Mood: sarcastic
Listening to: my families laughing
Reading: none
Watching: none

OK so, first things first, before I complain about anything I want everyone to know that I do recognize my good days, yesterday was oodles of fun, I went out on a patio boat for my friends mothers brithday, because she herself invited me, and I erroded some soil, as well and looked for huge rocks underwater, and my friends all really liked my latest deviation so I am incredibly greeat ful^_^.

Today I am at my grandmothers who lives about three hours away from me, for the july birthdays, which includes my dad, my aunt and me. And I got so shnazy stuff, mostly for school. And despite the fact that I sobbed thismorning for a solid half an hour, it turning out to be an ok day. See this morning dad yelled at me to take a shower, in my oppinion I didn't really require to take, so I calmly explained to him that I did not wish to take a shower because I knew it would hurt my back really bad from the sun burn I got yesterday, but still he made me do so. This is just one of the many things he did to me in teh past, so all the stress built up from college and moving , the nightmares and the missing people who have moved away, or who I know I won't see for a while finally got to me and I broke down and cried all to myself. Due to those nightmares and drerams of things I miss I am slowly becoming an insomniac, because I don't want to dream. Then when I came out of the shower he tried to be all nice, but I have never seen anything so fake, kimi had obviously put him up to it, she seems to care about me and appreciate things I do more than my dad most of the time. SO I coldly regected his offer and walked away, not really in the modd to l deal with anything else he might have to say to me.
I tried to register online for the college, what hell that was, I finally figure out what my sn and password are for its stupid friggen site and what should happen but the fact that I need both books and then some with me in order to subit the classes I intend to take, which means I most likely will get nothing but gutter, bottom of teh line, whatever are left classes if I can't figure it out before monday. ANd I would have gone to registration today, since it is an official registration, but my family had plans today and, trust me, you don't say no. so now I have to go home, get the OTHER book, aswell as the book I already have, and try again. >.< its very stressful, that and trying to find a job that would work with what ever my work scedule might be since I know I won't get what I want, and then getting firggen books.
Aside from that though, things have been okish, my drawing levels have been improving at least a little bit, people are asking me to draw them things now, which usually doesn;t hapen because there are so many people better than me. My shoulder pains haven't acted up, save for last night when I could barely move my arm. My friends don't hate me.... yet. And my family, for the most part, still love me.

Bye ]]> ~akinarose http://akinarose.deviantart.com/journal/6131825/ http://akinarose.deviantart.com/journal/6131825/ Thu, 04 Aug 2005 11:36:40 PDT
Mood: wishful
Listening to: Queen of the damned sound track
Reading: Of saints and shadows.
Watching: none

OK first I would like to adress all that I know of about this huge DA issue, I have been keeping up with a few peoples journal entries... and I agree with them, this is a bad bad thing to do, mostly because idolizing people will be bad for everyone, not just the worse artist, but it will make some of those artists that already are pretty arogant and mean, even more so. But I haven't read too much on the t opic, and this is pretty much just a copy cat of what everyone else has been saying, so I will stop now before I get any further...
On other news I have a friend who is mad at me, which I do honestly feel really crappy about, because I deserve that rage..lol I earned it, and I thank her for not mentioning names in her journal. But the truth of teh matter is that I had gone home... had some time to myself, then my other friend called up and told me, this is important TOLD ME to come over, not asked, mostly because she new otherwise that I would be starving myself, which really pisses her off. And much as I would like to pin this on anyone but myself, I can't because she didn't even know the situation, so if girl number one is angry at girl number two she shouldn't be, because the situation was not explained to her. So now I have to do something to make it up to everything though I don't know what, since girl number one doesn't read my journal entries, so she will not see my appologee, nor will girl number two, or hidden girl number three, but if I post a picture of appologee it may be noticed so I will try to do that. What can I say, I am a horrible friend.
On other news, I have an abuse fairy traveling around, which has nothing to do with any of my friends, I just kinda wake up with random bruises, that I did nothing to recieve, like on my inner thigh, its ridiculous. The cat scrathes I can understand... but those damn bruuises. in any case, I am gunna go and give blood on tuesday with a friend, and if anyone local happens upon this journal entry, then they are more than welcome to come with us. Because blood is cool, and I must support the local vampires.
Went and took the assessment test up at the college yesterday, and I am going back again tomarrow to do some more stuff. I scored fairly high on english, and, like everyone on the face of the planet should know by now, I suck at math SUCK SUCK SUCK SUCK.... but some how I was still put into intermediate algebra, which I think I will take even though it will be hard for me. lol 16 questions correct out of fifty.... I haven't taken math in teh past year...<.< thats my excuse... and I rushed myself. * shrugs* Yeah I suck... but its ok.
I am moving soon, too a little hick place called happy valley, which I know I am gunna hate more than anything for a while, until I move away to the college of my choice. And soon I will have my new computer up and running, so maybe I will try coloring more stuff on the computer than by hand, or at least make my scans look a little better, since I know most of teh colored ones look crap tastic. We shall see. On the moving issue, I am moving even farther away from my college, so it will probably be like an hour drive to school, maybe only 45 minutes if I am lucky. if I speed, so hopfully I can get a job in town that way I can just drive from work to school every day. And still have gas money. Even though my car is still broken, and dad is looking for a new one for me, because for what ever reason it is unrepairable.
please note me for further infor on your interest in a commision, and that goes to everyone if you want me to draw you something, I am willing to lower prices or what ever, just tell me how much you want to spend and I will try to work with you.

this is all I have to say, here is your breif summary of what I said so you don't have to read it all if your lazy, I am sorry to all of my friends for causing trouble, note me about commision work if you are interested, I hate happy valley, and I suck at math.

Bye ]]> ~akinarose http://akinarose.deviantart.com/journal/5942141/ http://akinarose.deviantart.com/journal/5942141/ Fri, 15 Jul 2005 12:10:21 PDT
Mood: meh.
Listening to: " ok, I believe you, my tommygun don't"BrandNew
Reading: none
Watching: Saiyuki dvd's

Ok guys, I am home from my incredible adventure of being in Arkansas, most of that adventure consisted of me leaving the house constantly because my step dad made me angry. But this journal is not about what I did there, its about home, I will talk about that some other time if you want to hear about it. I returned home to discover that dad, quite clearly, has not been staying at home, since the refrigerator consists of a jug of water and his cigar box, which is funny, but, aside from dinner, I have prettty much been starving myself. Don't get me wrong, I could drive, but my car broke and now it smokes if I try to drive it, so I try to avoid that since it dumped all of its antifreeze onto the road, so I pretty much have no coolent. * sigh* and I would walk some place, but its very warm outside, you know, 110 degrees or so outside, and no offense to quizno's, but eating their food everyday isn't going to make my stomach too happy. And thats pretty much all of my excitement as of right now, no one is ever on to talk to me so I get lonely, and my friends are each having their own difficulties now, one is sick, one I am sure is sick of me because she spent the last month and a half with no one but me, one is out of town, one I can't contact * sadness* so if you are a yahoo user, please Im me, since my sn is on the main page and I could use some company, because my msn doesn't work, and aol likes to kill my computer.

On the lighter side of things, should be back on sunday and I can't wait to attack her, because I miss her, and hopfully feels better soon. And of course not being around my step dad is a plus. And a friend of mine is coming to visit me on monday and will be staying for a short visit, I am excited. Oh, if anyone would like me to write them a letter or anything like that note me, preferably if you are someone who I have known on DA for a while.

I send my best wishes out to he is going through some rough times, so send your prayers his way if you wouldn't mind.

Bye ]]> ~akinarose http://akinarose.deviantart.com/journal/5730446/ http://akinarose.deviantart.com/journal/5730446/ Thu, 23 Jun 2005 05:35:15 PDT
Mood: meh.
Listening to: disney music is stuck in head * tweak*
Reading: Tarot
Watching: none.

ok now, as some of youmay have realized there is a serious lackof my commentiong on anyones things for the past few weeks so please allow me to explain. I am at my mothers house is Arkansas, visiting because she misses me, I will be back ina few weeks time. The only internet access I have is if I wake up at " OH MY GOD ITS EARLY"o'clock, so that is why I am here now. Not to mention that I get to go blow some stuff up with her, yeah, its pretty awsome, can't get over wicked awsome military stuffs.

Anyway, onto things that have happened, Esthers b-day was a few days ago and no one bothered to call her even though I have my cell phone open to use. but don't worry she didn't seem too broken up about it, she went and called her madre later that evening. I finally got to see the new start wars movie everyone had been raving about in my ear for monthson end, and wasnone to impressed, the only thing really great about it was the graphics in my opinion, because I thought the story could have used some help, like I say, the original three are the best, best story line as well as best in breaking new grounds of technology. I also got to see the new bat man movie, now that was bad ass, let me tell you. I have never seen the original, but everyone I know who has says that this is better than even that, not to mention that it is interesting to know where batman came from, and it helps if your a die hard bat man fan, because he is cool, and dark, and scary..... bwahahahahahahaha....

well, mum is almost done with her shower so I best be going.... take care all, and a special hello to :

love you guys, talk at ya soon.

Bye ]]> ~akinarose http://akinarose.deviantart.com/journal/5455989/ http://akinarose.deviantart.com/journal/5455989/ Wed, 25 May 2005 09:34:16 PDT
Mood: meh.
Listening to: no music, I have to listen to the mindless jabber
Reading: Guilty Pleasures ( vampire book)
Watching: none.

OK so maybe this won't be as long as I expect it to be, but still there is quite a bit to be said. SO lets start it out with lesser things then work up to things that make me larger in feeling.
well thats impossible because everything is big to a teen ager, so I will start with a couple things that irk me then move on to stuff that pisses me off then work my way back to happiness again. Sounds good to me.

things that have irked me:

Prom night, because I was hella stressed out from having to finish holi's mask after staying up until two in the morning the night before when the damn thing would not cooperate, so it was frustrating, not that I minded finsihing the mask for her, it was a nice favore for me to do. Then the next day I woke up at 7 am, knowing I had to attend prom with friends until at least midnight, so I made jessie's mask and finished up holi's because it still was un cooperative. So I was wiped out after that because I went to denny's after prom, which rocked, but I was trying to fall asleep in my pie. Long story short I got home at three am and woke up at 11, which isn;t bad, but that did nothing for my exaustion. And that was because dad called to ask me to go help kimi out around her house, which is funny so it will go in teh happy section.
Another thing that really has been irking me lately, and that is because all of my anthro's have at least 20 page views differance from any given human picture I have done.... I AM BETTER AT HUMANS DAMNIT!!! I HAVE HAD MORE PRACTICE WITH THEM!!!!!!!! so I know its just because they are anthro, not because they are good. this includes, cat and mouse anthro in black and white which has 103 views on it, 103..... that is more than any other picture I have, I have better humans up, in color that have 50, and I have betetr anthros up too.... >.<, I know it is wrong to complain, especially when I am popular enough to get that many views on a picture, and I thank you fully for all those views, I really do.

Now onto stuff that makes me mad:

There is nothing for this right now, other than me being pised off at myself for my own special reasons that you all don't really need to hear about.

HAPPY CRAP!:

was kind enough to get me a subscription without my even asking him because he freaking rocks everyone world, and you should all love him with great loviness if you watch me. SO a HUGE HUGE HUGE HUGE HUGE thank you out to him, because now I will probably post more often because it will be easier for my computer to handle, and I might be doing mostly fan art for him for a while, at least one a week for 5 months, if I can manage it ( those might come all at once in the end of july because I have a road trip I am going on.)... in any case, it was a very good suprise for me, and great early birthday suprise for me even though he doesn;'t know it bwahahahaahahahahaha...

I have been spending alot of time with esther lately, that by no means means I don't still love my other friends, I just think she needs me a little more attaention lately, but that is just my instincts. So she comes over alot and I am not lonely ^_^.

I spent the night at jessie's last night and we caught toad's, that was very very fun, and she gave me my early birth day present, which was GTA 3, YES!!!!!! I freaking love that game, proceeding to kill massive amounts of hookers and run over pimps. how do you like me now biotch XD?

I spent the day before prom with holi and marina, and holi also got me what I consider a early b-day gift in my heart, its crystal on a black cord, and you might not think much of it, but it has very very special meaning to me.

Anna I have been having fun with in class lately, alot, and if it weren't for her in my english class I woudl go nuts because the same guy that sits next to me in my freaking comp class sits next to me in that class and he makes me organs bleed. So I must draw her much fan art as well, and have her come over and visit and stuff, or else I will just have to go maul her at her house or something BWAHAHAHAHAHAHAHA

The guy that I talk to almost every day for teh past y ear might be coming down to visit me when I get back from road... ]]> ~akinarose http://akinarose.deviantart.com/journal/4713035/ http://akinarose.deviantart.com/journal/4713035/ Wed, 02 Mar 2005 16:42:41 PST ~akinarose http://akinarose.deviantart.com/journal/4713030/ http://akinarose.deviantart.com/journal/4713030/ Wed, 02 Mar 2005 16:41:55 PST
When and if you choose to commission me be descriptive in what you want ( and for you pervs out there, there are some places I just will not go), and other than that the only other boundry is it being sent to me.... so here is teh adress:

Sasha Brown
1152 walnut ave.
redding, CA 96001

commissions will be shipped out as soon as possible for what is happening at the time, ( so yes I will need your adress if you want the original copy) You can either give your description to me in a note here on DA, or im me ( preferably on yahoo), or mail it to me with payment.

other than that, thank you just for reading this journal of mine, and if you like what you see, then please suggest me to anyone you know that woudl want a commission..... THank you again ^_^ ]]> ~akinarose http://akinarose.deviantart.com/journal/4713024/ http://akinarose.deviantart.com/journal/4713024/ Wed, 02 Mar 2005 16:41:08 PST
When and if you choose to commission me be descriptive in what you want ( and for you pervs out there, there are some places I just will not go), and other than that the only other boundry is it being sent to me.... so here is teh adress:

Sasha Brown
1152 walnut ave.
redding, CA 96001

commissions will be shipped out as soon as possible for what is happening at the time, ( so yes I will need your adress if you want the original copy) You can either give your description to me in a note here on DA, or im me ( preferably on yahoo), or mail it to me with payment.

other than that, thank you just for reading this journal of mine, and if you like what you see, then please suggest me to anyone you know that woudl want a commission..... THank you again ^_^ ]]> ~akinarose http://akinarose.deviantart.com/journal/4713017/ http://akinarose.deviantart.com/journal/4713017/ Wed, 02 Mar 2005 16:40:21 PST
When and if you choose to commission me be descriptive in what you want ( and for you pervs out there, there are some places I just will not go), and other than that the only other boundry is it being sent to me.... so here is teh adress:

Sasha Brown
1152 walnut ave.
redding, CA 96001

commissions will be shipped out as soon as possible for what is happening at the time, ( so yes I will need your adress if you want the original copy) You can either give your description to me in a note here on DA, or im me ( preferably on yahoo), or mail it to me with payment.

other than that, thank you just for reading this journal of mine, and if you like what you see, then please suggest me to anyone you know that woudl want a commission..... THank you again ^_^ ]]> ~akinarose http://akinarose.deviantart.com/journal/4664230/ http://akinarose.deviantart.com/journal/4664230/ Thu, 24 Feb 2005 16:38:22 PST .< What makes me most aggrivated is just because it was just me being stupid... and its nowhere to be found.... * sobs* I just want to diiiiieeeee ]]> ~akinarose http://akinarose.deviantart.com/journal/4115433/ http://akinarose.deviantart.com/journal/4115433/ Mon, 20 Dec 2004 22:24:26 PST
Go wish My good friend a happy Bday, it was today Dec. 20.... HAPPY BRITHDAY ANNA!!!! I LOVE YOU!!! I HOPE YOUR NOT SICK!! EXTRA HAPPY HOLIDAY GOODNESS!!!!! FORGIVENESS COW!!!!( insiders joke sorry guys)..

Any who, take care all of ya... have safe travelings through the holidays and stuffs ^_^ ]]> ~akinarose http://akinarose.deviantart.com/journal/3393617/ http://akinarose.deviantart.com/journal/3393617/ Sat, 18 Sep 2004 18:51:06 PDT
ok a few days back I had a reall bad day sandals broke, my money fell out of my pocket so it is gone, and my cat died, those are the main things * shrugs* my neaghbor lady felt so horrible for running him over.... so I comforted her, which isn;t a bad thing, I am glaad she at least caared instead of just being shallow and pretending it wasn't her.... but anyway any further bad thinsg are not things I hsoudl post... and besides those are the main things......

NOW TO THE GOOD!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!
I bought tokyo godfathers and it is liek my fav anime ever now.. it is so so so so cute!!!! and my friend brought me ice cream, which was very very sweet of her, and and... I guess thats really it..... hmm.... <.< well times for thinksez to peoples.....

Thank you to Holi for being there for me when I cried....

Thank you jessie for making me laaugh after I cried.....

Thank you ester for your good moods....

thank you marina for helpiing me later to make me not hurt so bad....

Thank you Nimdraug.... for still trying to keep contact....

Thank you anna for not knowing about my cat so you coudl not bring it up.....

Thanks to my dad for .... burrying my cat for me so I did not have to....

and thanks everyone for not being mad at me when I got angsty ]]> ~akinarose http://akinarose.deviantart.com/journal/3030164/ http://akinarose.deviantart.com/journal/3030164/ Mon, 02 Aug 2004 21:10:20 PDT ~akinarose http://akinarose.deviantart.com/journal/2992233/ http://akinarose.deviantart.com/journal/2992233/ Wed, 28 Jul 2004 23:04:42 PDT
Other than that.... I am happy for the fallowing people.... Ester and her BF that I just found out about.. but am sorry however sorry for her current circumstances.... I am happy for my father with his fiance.. I am happy for my mom having her baby safely and healthily.. I am happy my little brother is in this world.. and I hope he grows up to be a good person, because I care for him very much.... I am happy for ryan that he is doing so well with page views.... and I am happy that my friends holi and TJ have been together for so long....

Other than that... happy b day to me as of a few weeks ago... I am depressed... for no apparent reason... so I draw angst for ryan because it angers him... hope you all have a lovely day. ]]> ~akinarose http://akinarose.deviantart.com/journal/2933746/ http://akinarose.deviantart.com/journal/2933746/ Wed, 21 Jul 2004 12:26:11 PDT 's personality quiz and got Dominuse... yay for me!! my favprite character of hers go figure....


Dominuse


Which Character of Airu's Are You Most Like?
brought to you by Quizilla

Thats the codic crap... that most likely doesn;t not work here... I just wanted you to see it.. hehe



]]> ~akinarose http://akinarose.deviantart.com/journal/2771035/ http://akinarose.deviantart.com/journal/2771035/ Wed, 30 Jun 2004 11:04:36 PDT
My mothers house is out in the far far away land from Little rock, we are in Cabot, hick ville country side homes, but she has a nice house. Thatis beside the point. The point is that it woudl cost a fortune to get cable or phone lines out to the house, here is where my issue is, I cannot get online from the house now... I could go through DSL if they had cable but they don't they have sattalite. So I have very limited internet acess so no chatting, and I won't be posting anything new for teh next few weeks. And I probably won't call anyone too much because I have no signal for my cell out where my mom lives. So if I do manage to call y ou, it will be for a very short period of time, unless I am using my madre's phone.
If you want to take a chance at calling me the number is still the same, (530)953-9583.... I don't knwo how easily I will be able to work that though, for those of you on west coast time, please do not call before five, midwest or east, its 7 o'clocl pm.

For all of my friend who wanted to write to me while I was down here, which shpould include : ester, holi, anna, ryan, and whoever else wishes to( ryan I lost your adress you need to write to me so I can have it). The adress is:

125 Royal ridge Cove
Cabot AR, 72023

oh an this woudl be a good time for requests because I find alot of free time on my hands, so if you want something done now is the time to ask for it, holi I am working on yours.

So here it is all in repeat, I have very limited internet, ie when mom brings me into work with her, I have very limited calling. PLease write me ]]> ~akinarose http://akinarose.deviantart.com/journal/2646966/ http://akinarose.deviantart.com/journal/2646966/ Sat, 12 Jun 2004 22:13:32 PDT 's contest that she just threw out in the air for people to enter.... your characters of the almighty crapper, and doing what ever you think your character woudl do.... and also, you may have the toilet represent something about the characters personality.... please enter, or I will mash your childrens brains in a small bowl, fry them up, and force feed them to you.... or I coudl just sick Iribis on you, he is our leading spokes person after all ( one of 's characters, yes she is on this too)....

Onto topics basing me , since none of you have really been hearing much of me lately, I don't liek sharing what can I say.... But that is not your fault.... so I urge you, unless you are someone who likes to know about my unimportant crap, please do not read on. ok?

Lately I have been having differences with my father, so my pictures might get a little more..... not nice.... Not that I dislike him or anything, I get along with my father very well in comparrison to some, if not all, of my friends, but that does not mean we do not have a fight every now and again... But if you really want to know the truth this is old news... The only reason I might ever argue with him is if he snaps at me out of his own stupidity ( rare) , and even then he appologizes later... Truthfully, my dad has been listening more to me lately and wanting to know how I feel inside, which isn;t typically what I am used to. I am used to sitting in my room, drawing, writting or rocking out , or talking on teh phone, you know... what ever... But lately he has been asking me, why are you depressed... or questions along those lines, whats wrong?... and I am not used to it, I go stigff, and to tell you quite frankly it gets harder for me to breath... So it is a little odd, because I used to only get liek that when I felt a lecture coming on.... which is ok, I am used to those...So in short I have been more up and down in my emotions lately, when usually I am at a generally pretty stable point... I am used to crying once a year not once a week( I hate crying, big waste of my time and energy) So I guess its just my having to adjust to my dads new ways that I am having trouble getting used too, so I do not blame him or anyone, because it is my own fault that I have difficulty in dealing with change.

I swere my mom has been specifially seeking me out, with that heat sensing nose of hers, lately just so she can nag me into doing what she wants me to do.... She calls me up specifically to ask me if I can drive yet, and it must be once every week.... and even so, woudl you let me drive your new car with my new license? do the math lady... But she is my mother so I have to love her, because I came out of her, as much as I wish it was someone else... >.< .... She is having a baby soon, its due near my birthday, so it gives me that to adjust too, but luckily I do not live with her, so it won't be a big deal... not that it isn't something to think about, kinda like her running off and getting married with out telling me, to someone I knew no less... does that make sense to you? Any way, its not too hard for me to adjust, because she lives in Arkansas and so I only see her once a year... which in itself is painful.. >.< .... Since when I stay with her I get a liberal view and then I return to my conservative dad and get lectured... ah the beautiful states of normalcy...

I am at my grandma's house today, celebrating a late mommy's day... which my dad had originally refused to do, but gave in... wimp... * kicks him* anyway, I am happy to be hear, I really do love my grandma.... and he husband... and I got to drive for a long period of today.. and I did not rash into anything... !! yay me!! ok back on topic... I am however upset, because I was supposed to be at a big party with ALL of my friends at it, that I had been planning to go to for like two or three weeks ahead of the date, and then two nights before got told I had to come down here.... gahh!!! SO I felt really guilty because it was my friends b day, and he real b day is on Dad's day... so I took her out to see a movie and spent friday with her, and hoped that was a good enough appologie/ gift.... and I am sure everyone that was looking to me being there is pissed at me, including jessie... she told me so.. and so did holi... I am sorry.. I am a horrible person and should just stop being.... ]]> ~akinarose http://akinarose.deviantart.com/journal/2558394/ http://akinarose.deviantart.com/journal/2558394/ Tue, 01 Jun 2004 13:15:09 PDT ~akinarose http://akinarose.deviantart.com/journal/2519421/ http://akinarose.deviantart.com/journal/2519421/ Thu, 27 May 2004 07:50:26 PDT
Secondly is this, I colored the picture of solarius but he isn't posted yet, so please hold on on that, don't shun me!! I hate the shunning!! * dies* ok I am done being dead now...

Woo next topic, I signed some year books this morning and now I am kinda bummed out that I did not get one, but just the same that means I can sign my mean things and people can not return the favor!! 3whahahahaha!! that means you levi!!! anyway, thats enough of that... poo, I have work to do , well I am going to slack for a little bit even still... because I have some lee way in this class so whah, Hopfully I can get a great grade on my Chem final because that is the only way to get even a C for this year in that class!! curses!!! * dies* so I will just have to tuen in to his review days and have dad study with me, liek crazy, but I can't have him do that with me over teh weekend crap!! we are making a video.. stress!!! but onlu 5 mroe days of it!! then on to drawing stress, liek the two pictures I owe holi, teh two for ester, and my letter for ryan!! >. ~akinarose http://akinarose.deviantart.com/journal/2511744/ http://akinarose.deviantart.com/journal/2511744/ Wed, 26 May 2004 08:11:41 PDT that expresses me!! * holds up a little flag* yay. .... I think that is all I have to say, I am upset because of chemistry * kicks her teacher* DIE PEREZ!!!! lucky for me I told my dad about it, and he didn;t get too mad, I even told him about my chance for extra credit that I passed up... he didn't get mad.. so hopfully if I don't do well with teh end report for taht calss, then I think now that my dad won't be too pissed.... lucky me.... then there are othe rmatters that I must attend to.... * stabs herself in teh chest thus ending her journal and life* ]]> ~akinarose http://akinarose.deviantart.com/journal/2475420/ http://akinarose.deviantart.com/journal/2475420/ Fri, 21 May 2004 07:52:25 PDT
SO be expecting updates this weekend, I think, if I can get my stuff finished and stop being so damned lazy.... I will probably do writing this weekend even though my english teacher kind of crushed my dreams there.... he angered me. But I am not going to go into that... OW! my guts!!>.Othey pain me!!! anyway, one week and three days left of school..<.< hopfully I can get some B's and A's by then, preferably more of the A catagory... I think I have an A in art and perhaps in Computer Tech.... the rest are either B's or C's.... I think I am at a C in history <.< >.> if I am not then it sucks to be me.... because dad will be mad at me...

I got my permit yesterday and thanks to me already having my last permit for a little over a year that means I don't have to wait or get it signed by a driving teacher!!!So if I thought I was up to it I coudl just go and take the driving test, I woudl fail miserably.... but that is beside the point, I can l;earn to drive strictly from my dad, that is if drivers training wasn;t already payed for.. <.< I spelt that wrong.. oh well... I really thought I was going to fail again.... I really really did... plus I woudl have prefered to have stayed after for extra credit, you see my history teacher is showing films, and she showed a particularly good one yesterday.. Miracle, the hockey movie... but I probably liek taht in part to me loving hockey.... heheh... hockey... and for those of you keeping track no it is go calgery because sharks are out of the finals... >.< thanks to calgery's dirty play... but still, its better to be a looser to winner than a looser to a looser.... blah.. oh my guts they pain me still... they want me to puke.. but there is nothing in there... ahh!!!!

so I hope today will be a better day, I hope some more of my group will show up> ...<.< because it is not as fun when it is just holi and I and holi puts her head phones on... * sigh* .... I am entering:Anna-nah-nah:'s uh... thing.... oh and a for holi, you shodul all go see her stuffy stuff on her page.. :freakyratchild: because she is awsomea nd deserves your praise, and friendship... >.O bye! ]]> ~akinarose http://akinarose.deviantart.com/journal/2468166/ http://akinarose.deviantart.com/journal/2468166/ Thu, 20 May 2004 08:02:53 PDT .<, but I didn't stay home and I will tell you why.. because everytime I stay home something bad happens, and I don't want to be the one there who has to clean up that shit... rrr.... Anyway, ester is at home sick and I hope that she gets better soon, Chad and everyone, i ncluding me, are really missing her.... But she has her reasons and she shoudl stay at home until she feels better.... no need for an ill ester at school, then we woudl just have a grumpy ester, she should be happy, though it seems improbable at this point.

Kimi and dad want to take me to a rodeo tonight, and I don't want to know, chances are I will still be depressed and I will not want to do much of anything other than listen to loud music and puke my brains out.... Ow.. my head hurts, and liek I didn't tell anyone yesterday, my wrist might be sprained huray for me!!!* vomits* but I am not going to complainb anymore, a it is not right for me to do so... ow.. my wrist...

*begins to type with one hand*gah!lessee, I believe that I am going to holi's house this tomarrow to spend the weekend in happy valley with her, joy, I get to meet and maul her dad... by meet I mean M-E-A-T, but I wil not go into that... next weekend I am suposedly going to the coast and I am going to try to find a friend to go with me... we will see who is busy and who is not .. >.
i have the sudden urge to eat ice cream, I wish I had some with me... curses.... I have to go take a DMV test today, again because I suck, and I am stupid because they don';t want stupid people to pass or drive, but at least I will nknow the info liek the back of my hand when I do start to drive... you see I got my permit from drivers ed here at school, passed the written and everything, and now one year later my dad wishes to take me tpo driving lessons, well guess what dad? no can do.. the permit is expired by now!!!

Enough of that.. teh sharks lost last night, and that makes the end of the series, so sharks do not go to finals.... it made me sad, because they deserved to go all the way, and calgary, the vs team, was playing really friggen dirty through the whole game.... Jabbing people in teh ribs with sticks and what not, so now we have to root for calgery because it would suck if we lost to a loosing team, if its a winning team, that doesn't make it so bad.. * huugs all teh members of teh sharks team.* you guys deserved it more than anyone... you just didn;t want it bad enough.. so you better work damn hard to get it next year!

I thihnk that is all I have to say for now, since I said nothing here yesterday... ]]> ~akinarose http://akinarose.deviantart.com/journal/2461253/ http://akinarose.deviantart.com/journal/2461253/ Wed, 19 May 2004 07:56:32 PDT ........................................ ........................................ .........
........................................ ........................................ ........................................ ................ ]]> ~akinarose http://akinarose.deviantart.com/journal/2453950/ http://akinarose.deviantart.com/journal/2453950/ Tue, 18 May 2004 08:19:48 PDT .< grrde...

My dad's gf, kimi has been having very big issues lately so she has been depressed, so I have been telling dad not to worry about me and to go spend tiem with her... because I worry for others more than I ever would for me.... so yeah.. I hope she gets to feeling betetr soon, I don't know how much longer I can willingly let my dad leave me for whole nights at a time... but I guess its for teh better.. <.< after all I did say what I meant, I think he shodul worry more about her than he shoudl for me.

back to friend issues... I am letting my friends all read demon diary five today but ester isn;t here!! hiss!!! OH WELL.. I'll just bring it tomarrow... anywho.. I think that is about it.. I haven;t been getting very any views as of late.. so if you are a new person to teh page and are reading this.. please be my friend... sorry brycu! sorry ryan samma!! ]]> ~akinarose http://akinarose.deviantart.com/journal/2446625/ http://akinarose.deviantart.com/journal/2446625/ Mon, 17 May 2004 08:32:36 PDT .O But I only had a cold then...

Truth be told I believe this odd illness has been brought on by the work I did yesterday, like I said I felt liek this after doing my work too.... My father had to force me to eat last night, quite literally, you seeI was not at all hungry I just felt like I was going to puke.... I was teh closest to teh engine when we were using the drill, so I am guessing that it was the fumes that got to me... <.< because that is all I can think of... It couldnt; be heat stroke or something like that because I drank plenty of water.. * sigh* I dunno.... sop all of my misery today is caused by only one thing, doing hard labor, digging holes through rock infested ground... so in otherwords, at this moment I wish I was at home in my Kushy bed writhing in agony....

To tp this off I think I made one of my friends upset in some way, he doesn;t seem to have been chatting with me the last few days... However only one person here on DA will know who I am chatting about * shrugs* ow... oh well... But I think I did something to offend him or something... But I don't know what I could have done.. *sigh* Its odd that it is...

* dies from her head ache* yet I still speak... ok I am done now... ]]> ~akinarose http://akinarose.deviantart.com/journal/2419351/ http://akinarose.deviantart.com/journal/2419351/ Thu, 13 May 2004 08:16:31 PDT .> I hope his room mate didn;t get too mad >.< I am so horrible.. But I talked for a good long while anyway.. TT_TT doesn't make me not horrible...

Woo tomarrow I go to ashland!! and I only have liek ... two people that I know pretty well who are going both guys!! goes to show you that I am one of teh guys don't it? lol... I will bring my lap top with me , so for all you friends of Azshril and Ava, this means I will be writing in that story for at least two, maybe three good hours... if my lap top lasts that long... <.< anyway.... If you guys haven't read it and wish to it is called " introduction to my murderer" and sorry reoji its teh way the story kind goes... anyways...
so yeah.. sorry ester.. I will work on that striat away >.<
Onto business.. I have gotten two ouyt of three of my pictures done!! yes!! reoji's is done, and Xangrilla's is done.. now I have to work on ester's picture that she asked for before I ever made an art trade with anyone.. ( again.. I am a horrible person) sorry ester I will work on teh right away >.< I just need to get in teh right mood for it...

So yes! I am teh most horrible person in my own eyes as of right now... But i suppose everyone is their own toughest critic.. I think I am going to send teh original clown pic to Reoji if she woudl liek to have it ( it looks much better on paper) ]]> ~akinarose http://akinarose.deviantart.com/journal/2412233/ http://akinarose.deviantart.com/journal/2412233/ Wed, 12 May 2004 08:13:35 PDT .< so sorry... oki.. so here is what I have to do I creepy pic for reoji of ronald Mcdonald with one of my characters, you will see later I am working on it now... and a request that I got from my friend ester.... working on it!! sorry I am slow!! I have to be in the right mood you should all go see reoji sensay because she drew for me and she is awsome.. and she drew my character better than I do!! * sparkles* she is so great!! I love her * hugs her* he hemm.... anyway.. oving o n.... I need to stop looking around DA because I always find artists that are really good and never talk to anyone * weep* but at least I kinda have you guys... <.< I think.... anyway... love you all reoji is great I will finish her pic soon... love!!! ( is it ok if teh pic is on paper <.< >.> it might look better that way) ]]> ~akinarose http://akinarose.deviantart.com/journal/2405145/ http://akinarose.deviantart.com/journal/2405145/ Tue, 11 May 2004 08:32:59 PDT ~akinarose http://akinarose.deviantart.com/journal/2356755/ http://akinarose.deviantart.com/journal/2356755/ Tue, 04 May 2004 07:52:53 PDT ~akinarose http://akinarose.deviantart.com/journal/2356728/ http://akinarose.deviantart.com/journal/2356728/ Tue, 04 May 2004 07:46:30 PDT ~akinarose