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~Nire

]]> ~albinowolf565 http://albinowolf565.deviantart.com/journal/24168252/ http://albinowolf565.deviantart.com/journal/24168252/ Fri, 10 Apr 2009 16:14:42 PDT Whoops, sorry about that. Didn't mean. Anyway, life has been pretty hectic for me! I'm already in my last semester of high school! EVER! It's a really scary thought, but at the same time I feel ready for it. I've decided where I'm going to college, and I'm ready to move away from home. I'm working out some of my deeper problems, and I'm going up pretty well. I feel like I'm almost ready for college, maybe. I've been studying a lot for my last semester of school, I wanna make sure I do really good Bedsides studying and hanging with friends, my life has been pretty routine. Just letting you peoples know I am NOT a zombie/dead. I am alive and kicking!

~Nire

]]> ~albinowolf565 http://albinowolf565.deviantart.com/journal/21966884/ http://albinowolf565.deviantart.com/journal/21966884/ Sat, 13 Dec 2008 16:21:28 PST

I find that when the holidays roll around, I come to reflect on the year past as corny and dorky as that is. Those of you who know me in real life realize how bad of year this has been for me but somehow I've managed to find things that still make me smile. I mean I lost one of my closest family members and that still hurts. Everyday it still throbs in my chest, a pain that will stop my breathing and make me wanna cry but I never have. And it'll probably take me awhile to let myself cry, but seriously it seems like time is going by too fast.

I swear it was yesterday that I was studying for my Bio mid-term, and than a blink later I was studying for my AP Finals and then another blink and it's Christmas this year. Surprisingly, I haven't lost any friends in the fray and I've even made a new one or two. I've discovered the joy of needing glasses to read the board and I've rediscovered the joy of having a pissy iPod. I've realized that I'm much more mature than most people give me credit for. I've cried a lot this year, and I've toughened up this year too. I've changed in so many ways and yet I'm still the same. It doesn't seem like last year I was a junior. I don't feel old enough to be getting this accepted letters into college. I can't honestly believe they want me! I've had my self-esteem messed with so much it's a wonder I believe in. I've gotten anger at friends and family over something stupid and never apologized but somehow are still loved. I've hurt myself too many times to count and yet here I stand. I've failed a test or two and still my grades are pretty good.

It just amazes me how much life can change and how much it does change if you think about. Are you the same person you once were? Are you better or are you worse? Do you forgive and forget or do you hold grudges? Are you happy with yourself? Can you live with what you have done? Are you keeping those memories that make you smile or do you forget them along with the bad ones?

Just some things to ponder over my friends! Until the next entry!
~Nire

]]> ~albinowolf565 http://albinowolf565.deviantart.com/journal/19596593/ http://albinowolf565.deviantart.com/journal/19596593/ Fri, 25 Jul 2008 19:42:28 PDT I'm enjoying the new freedom that I had long forgotten in the madness of school. *laughs* If you can't tell, I'm in a really good mood, for the first time in awhile and I'm enjoying it. I finally got my permit!! Which means I can drive, legally now....with an adult in the car XD But that doesn't matter! I can drive!! Which obviously is amazing and I can't wait to learn how to drive all the way so I can drive random places XD It'll be fun And I got my AP grades, and thankfully I passed them all!! With pretty good grades too so it makes me happy! Soo...that's all I wanted to say, I'm alive-I got my freakin' permit( ) and enjoying my summer! I hope y'all are too! Love you!
~Nire~

]]> ~albinowolf565 http://albinowolf565.deviantart.com/journal/17381804/ http://albinowolf565.deviantart.com/journal/17381804/ Mon, 17 Mar 2008 15:24:36 PDT On with the meme:

1) Answer the questions below.
2) Take each answer and type it into the dA search box.
3) Take a deviation from the first page of results (may use ' popular' or 'newest' ) and post thumb (for subscribers) or link (non-subscribers).
4) You can't copy the persons answers who posted this before you.

1. The age you will be on your next birthday
17-[link]


2. A place you'd like to travel
Pyramids- [link]


3. Your favorite place
Park-[link]


4. Your favorite object
Notebook-[link]


5. Favorite food
Pasta-[link]


6. Your favorite animal
Snow Leopard- [link]


7. Your favorite colour
Blue-[link]


8. The town/state/etc in which you live
Fairport-[link]


9. Name of past pet
Mandy-[link]


10. A dream come true
Freedom-[link]


11. Your nickname/screenname
Nire-[link]


12. Middle name
Michelle- [link]


13. Favorite Smell
Lilacs-[link]


14. Bad habit of yours
Biting my Nails-[link]


15. Your first job
Babysitting-[link]


16. Favourite Movie
Forrest Gump-[link]


17. What are you doing right now?
Procrastinating- [link]


18. Whats The Weather Like?
Sunny-[link]

19. Favorite Sport
Soccer-[link]


20. Favorite Music/Style/Band
Bon Jovi-[link]

]]> ~albinowolf565 http://albinowolf565.deviantart.com/journal/17245670/ http://albinowolf565.deviantart.com/journal/17245670/ Sat, 08 Mar 2008 19:23:11 PST Where do I find these things? Not a clue but I love to do 'em!

1. Where is your boyfriend?
At his house I'm assuming. It's like 10:10 at night....

2. Last time you hugged someone?
.....Friday, Andrew and maybe today? My grandma...

3. Name three things you did today?
Hung out with Louise, play the piano and write

4. Last person you messaged?
On Email- No clue...
IM- My sister

5. What kind of internet do you have?
Not dial up!

6. What are you doing right now?
Doing this suvery and procrastinating my Bailey

7. What color are your eyes?
Dark bluish, grayish with green. As Louise said "Storm eyes"

8. Do you have a chair in your room?
Yup, in the computer room. In my bedroom, no....my sister stole my desk chair XD


9. What are you doing tomorrow?
Homework and HOPEFULLY hanging out with Andrew

10. When was the last time you said 'I love you'?
Uh, today to my Mom. And to Andrew today as well.

11. Who was the last person you had a face-to-face conversation with?
My Mom, and my brother at dinner. Louise early today though.

12. Three people who made you smile today?
Louise, Andrew and....my Mom I guess.

13. What color is your hair?
Dirty blond, mousy brown with lovely red high lites that make it look REALLY red.

14. Do you remember singing any songs when you were younger?
I think so...

16. When was the last time you talked to one of your siblings?
On the phone? Eh....yesterday...my sister
Face to face? My brother, he came home from college yesterday

17. Do you play an instrument?
The piano, I'm learning XD

18. Do you like fire?
YES! It's very pretty and calming, and I don't care if I get burned.

19. Are you allergic to anything?
Slight to milk, and the normal allergies. Pollen, dust that crap.

20. Plans for tonight?
Considering it's 10:15....besides homework and hopefully video games? Eh no

22. What does the last message in your inbox say?
Of my email? Eh something about my SATS

23. What are you wearing?
Socks, dark blue jeans, a deep purple shirt, a white Penn State hoodie, my class ring(left) , a hair tie(right) and my 'Stop Globing Warming' bracelet(left)

25. Have you ever seen your school counselor?
Unhappily yes. To schedule next year and because Mom wanted me to talk to her. I don't like her.

26. Have you ever wanted to be a teacher?
When I was younger, yeah. Now? Not so much

27. What have you learned about life?
That is sucks and it will always suck. Life ain't fair, and people are always waiting in your shadows to see your doubts and strike on them, making you pathetically weak. That the voices in your head aren't always right but they always have the best ideas, no matter how wrong or stupid. That the worst person to fear is yourself because you can drive yourself crazy and kill yourself slowly without anyone seeing it before it's too late.

29. Is anyone jealous of you?
I think so, but I highly doubt it

30. When was the last time you got flowers?
No f-ing idea.

31. What were you doing an hour ago?
At 9:21? Sitting in my bedroom, lost in a torment of emotions that I couldn't get out of....

32. Where were you four hours ago?
6:21? I don't know, probably off in my own little world hiding from reality.

34. Favorite TV show?
Full Metal Alchemist, and House MD

36. What have you enjoyed eating today?
My 3 plates of pasta

37. Is your hair naturally curly or straight?
Well......it was straight when I was younger-like pin-straight but then I cut it short in 9th grade and it went curly......so both? But right now, curly.

38. Last person you rode with?
In a car? Eh....my Mom

39. What are you looking forward to?
Going to the Jimmy Eat World Concert with my friends

40. Do you want to kill anyone right now?
Yup, Thomas A. Bailey...too bad he's dead.

41. Whats one thing you're wishin... ]]> ~albinowolf565 http://albinowolf565.deviantart.com/journal/17237335/ http://albinowolf565.deviantart.com/journal/17237335/ Sat, 08 Mar 2008 09:21:34 PST
Top 5 Most Played Tracks:
1. Breaking the Habit-Linkin Park
2. In the End-Linkin Park
3. Chasing Cars- Snow Patrol
4. Bad Day- Daniel Powter
5. Far Away- Nickelback

Bottom Five Most Played Tracks:
1. Always on My Mind- Michael Bublé
2. That's Life- Michael Bublé
3. Comin' Home Baby-Michael Bublé
4. Honey, This Mirror Enough for the Two of Us- Panic! At the Disco
5. My Immortal- Evanscence

First 5 Artists:
1. AC/DC
2. Aerosmith
3. Amos Lee
4. Baha Men
5. Barenaked Ladies

Bottom 5 Artists:
1. U2
2. Various Artists
3. Weezer
4. The Who
5. 3 Doors Down

5 Longest Tracks(from longest to shortest):
1. Heaven is A Lonely Place- John Mellencamp
2. Homecoming, Part I-The Death of St. Jimmy, Part II East 12th St, Part III Nobody Likes You, Part IV Rock and Roll Girlfriend, Part V We're Coming Home Again- Green Day
3. Proudest Monkey- Dave Matthews Band
4. Jesus of Suburbia, Part I-Jesus of Suburbia, Part II- City of The Damned, Part III- I don't Care, Part IV-Dearly Beloved, Part V-Tales of Another Broken Home-Green Day
5. The Dreaming Tree- Dave Matthews Band

5 Shortest Tracks(from shortest to longest):
1. Foreword- Linkin Park(shortest)
2. The Ballad of Wilhlem Fink- Green Day
3. Introduction-Panic! At the Disco
4. Pantala Naga Pampa-Dave Matthews Band
5.

Last 5 Tracks on Recently Played List:
1. Last Cigarette- Bon Jovi
2. Just Older-Bon Jovi
3. I Wanna Wake Up Where You Are-Goo Goo Dolls
4. Stacy's Mom- Fountains of Wayne
5. Spitting Games- Snow Patrol

Top 5 Track Names:
1. Accidentally In Love- Counting Crows
2. Across the Sea- Weezer
3. Ain't No Mountain High Enough- Supremes
4. All About Loving You- Bon Jovi
5. All Along The Watchtower- Dave Matthews Band

Bottom 5 Track Names:
1. 99 in The Shade- Bon Jovi
2. 86-Green Day
3. #41- Dave Matthews Band
4. 409 in Your Coffee Maker-Green Day
5. 16- Green Day

First 5 Random Tracks:
1. Everybody's Broken- Bon Jovi
2. Macy's Day Parade- Green Day
3. I Won't Tell Your Name- Goo Goo Dolls
4. Back To Reason(Part III)- Trans-Siberian Orchestra
5.409 in Your Coffee Maker-Green Day

]]> ~albinowolf565 http://albinowolf565.deviantart.com/journal/17032382/ http://albinowolf565.deviantart.com/journal/17032382/ Sat, 23 Feb 2008 21:03:53 PST I'm feeling pretty good right now *points up at the little emotions guy* He's pretty dang on cute So, let's see new things right? I've got a boyfriend ( ) Though I'm sure most of you probably know that . Moving on from that, though I got my new digital camera today!! Yes, I am quite poor now. Seriously, I have like no money But I don't care, I have my new camera So once I learn to use it, I'll probably take fun and hopefully pretty pictures and put them up here ^^ YAYS! Haven't even learned how to use it yet though, so that'll take at least an hour and I still have to do the Debate crap for AP American. Meh, don't want to do it. But that is completely besides the point, except this journal really does have a point. ^^: As most of you can probably tell my brain is out in left field and not returning to my head in quite a while, honestly I really don't think this journal does have a point besides a sad attempt to get my brain to focus so I get some Debate crap done tonight. Which by the way, is failing miserably. My brain is lost in la la land and I can't get it back. Anyone who wants to help is welcomed. Doesn't help that my computer is being a glitchy bitch. Currently hate it….grrrr. But that's all for now. Off to do research....laterz!

]]> ~albinowolf565 http://albinowolf565.deviantart.com/journal/16273639/ http://albinowolf565.deviantart.com/journal/16273639/ Sat, 05 Jan 2008 16:44:35 PST
RULES:
1. Put Your itunes, windows media player etc on Shuffle
2. For each question, press the next button to get your answer.
3. YOU MUST WRITE THAT SONG NAME DOWN NO MATTER HOW SILLY IT SOUNDS
4. Put any comments in brackets after the song name

If someone says "is this okay?" you say,
Someday I'll be Saturday Night-Bon Jovi
(Um...awkwardness)

How would you describe yourself?
Walking contradiction-Green Day
(Making sense I guess ^^)

What do you like in a guy/girl?
Complicated-Bon Jovi
(I guess I like them not being easy to read....huh)

How do you feel today?
Hakuna Matata-Lion King
(Yes I have the Lion King! I feel great today so it works ^^)

What is your life's purpose?
Warning-Green Day
(To warn people? I dunno *shrug*)

What is your motto?
Wake me Up when September Ends-Green Day
(Enough with the Green Day XD I guess it makes sense, I don't like to dwell on the pain in the past)

What do your friends think of you?
Livin' On a Prayer- Bon Jovi
(Aww how sweet! They love me! And they're right beside, we're halfway there! Aww )

What do you think of your parents?
I Am Superman- Barenaked Ladies
(Wtf?)

What do you think about very often?
Iris & American Girl Live- Goo Goo Dolls
(Aww....that's kinda of sweet ^^)

What is 2 + 2?
The Stone-Dave Matthews Band
(Yes 2 rocks + 2rocks equal a stone....lmao!)

What do you think of your best friend?
Jaded-Green Day
(I think I'm not all there and I think together we aren't...I guess so)

What do you think of the person you like?
Before He Cheats- Carrie Underwood
(I think they're cheating on me, and I'm going to get them back lol)

What is your life story?
Say It Isn't So- Bon Jovi
(So true! I don't want to believe in the cold reality of life! I like my childhood, innocent pure, happy views! )

What do you want to be when you grow up?
Gonna Move- Taylor Hicks
(I'm gonna move around a lot till I find my place in the world XD)

What do you think of when you see the person you like?
Circle of Life- Lion King
(Um, I guess I realize that us meeting is part of life? And that life will go on even if they don't like me)

what will you dance to at your wedding?
Drowneding Lessons- My Chemical Romance
(Love this, it talks about a wedding XD)

What will they play at your funeral?
Perfect Situation-Weezer
(Oh that's nice! They're saying I missed having a perfect life)

What is your hobby/interest?
It's Over-Goo Goo Dolls
(Ehh....thinking about people I lost and realizing how much I need some of my friends...I guess)

What is your biggest fear?
Magic Bus- The Who
(OMG! *laughs* I'm afraid of a bus)

What is your biggest secret?
Wish Lizt(Toyshop Madness)-Trans-Siberian Orchestra
(I don't know what to say X_x)

What do you think of your friends?
Homebound Train- Bon Jovi
(They're they'll always be there for me when I come home from wherever I wonder too aww)

What will you post this as?
When I'm Gone-Three Doors Down
(Aww, it's like telling people to remember me)

]]> ~albinowolf565 http://albinowolf565.deviantart.com/journal/16263333/ http://albinowolf565.deviantart.com/journal/16263333/ Fri, 04 Jan 2008 23:16:15 PST ~A very sleepy Nire~

]]> ~albinowolf565 http://albinowolf565.deviantart.com/journal/16173407/ http://albinowolf565.deviantart.com/journal/16173407/ Sun, 30 Dec 2007 21:08:16 PST .

But I know I can't, but I want to so much. I just want to give myself away and let someone else help me, help me get rid of this emotions or at least learn to control them. My mother once told me that people can control the way they react to things, is that true I still wonder? Because I cannot, no matter what I react on the first feelings, it being anger, sadness, happiness or whatever the hell it is. I react first, think later and thoughts aren't usually very pretty. Usually dark and depressing and I struggle with them. And not being able to write anything does not help, because I have found writing is my way out, my way of being able to write and I can't write anymore it seems. *emo Nire*

But after awhile, someone(usually my best friend) will notice and do something to make me smile, and I love her for that. You know who you are. But don't worry guys, I struggle with this and I bear my soul to you because I want to but I swear to fucking god if you hurt me you will fucking die. So don't freak, I'm fine I'm just giving you a glimsp inside my soul.

All I ask, is look inside yourself and find are you truly happy with yourself? Are you happy with who you are? Look and find yourself.... ]]> ~albinowolf565 http://albinowolf565.deviantart.com/journal/16150803/ http://albinowolf565.deviantart.com/journal/16150803/ Sat, 29 Dec 2007 10:32:13 PST Which makes me quite emo. Now for those of you who don't me(and I have not f***ing clue my friends don't know who the h*ll I am) I'm Nire. Nickname given to me by Sango, don't why and don't know when; but that's all she calls me now *shurg* Whatever, anywho I'm new to this whole deviantart thing, just to let you know so if I'm seem dense, it's because I'm naïve to the whole thing. I'll put up some stuff I wrote later one *shurg* Okay that's it for now.
HAVE A GOOD NEW YEAR EVERYONE!!
~Nire

]]> ~albinowolf565