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Un Cambio de La Guardia efectivamente.

Benvenuto, Signore Ezio Audtiore, un Assassino incomparabile.

]]> *altair-creed http://altair-creed.deviantart.com/journal/28326485/ http://altair-creed.deviantart.com/journal/28326485/ Fri, 13 Nov 2009 04:54:06 PST
Any of you remember that thing?

]]> *altair-creed http://altair-creed.deviantart.com/journal/28114027/ http://altair-creed.deviantart.com/journal/28114027/ Tue, 03 Nov 2009 13:51:38 PST
Tell me what you guys think.

GUYS and here is the SECOND AC Feature by the inestimable Nevar23:
[link]

]]> *altair-creed http://altair-creed.deviantart.com/journal/27822565/ http://altair-creed.deviantart.com/journal/27822565/ Sat, 17 Oct 2009 19:13:15 PDT [link] She got me a subscription: she must have a lot of moneys lying around
Sub means Shout Box is back

In other news, it seems like I'll be alone this Birthday of mine since my parents will be in Boston meeting my bro who's coming over for a few days. So that means I get to buy PS3 and a bunch of games like Fable II and God of War and play em!! Super excited about that. I heard Ninja Gaiden was good too. If anyone knows other good action games for PS3, please let me know.

School is gonna be out early this year due to PS3.... Evil...

That's all for now... Sleepy time

]]> *altair-creed http://altair-creed.deviantart.com/journal/27390088/ http://altair-creed.deviantart.com/journal/27390088/ Thu, 24 Sep 2009 10:50:54 PDT
To do the same they did for AC on PC to push it till march -- and who knows maybe even LATER... Perfidy. I need me some poison to break out... or a knife. if the graphics card requirement is a new one I won't be getting the game. I've had it with UBI fucking me up like this. And many others too. You console people will have to be silent all winter long or I'll become a serial killer.

]]> *altair-creed http://altair-creed.deviantart.com/journal/27226266/ http://altair-creed.deviantart.com/journal/27226266/ Tue, 15 Sep 2009 12:05:38 PDT
Well, here goes. As many know by now i am back at college, finishing up the law clerk diploma. this year sees some practical field experience: i am excited -- it is not something i'd done before. i always put the best of myself into my job so one day a week is gonna be tough to handle. then again, i'll get some contacts and a letter at the end of it all. i hope anyway. i'll have assassins to keep me sane -- if such men could be said to be able to keep anyone sane seeing as their trade is death.

my General education course is turning out quite well -- i only took it cause it fit my schedule. it is Autobiography: Self and SOciety. being a sociologist i just could not resist lol... the readings so far are interesting: a book my Marguerite Duras "the LOver" short and easy to read. i've finished it. analysis comes later.

no idea when i'll get back to writing. me and altair are not talking too much at the moment. yes, i know, i TALK to him cause i'm not able to write otherwise. maybe some would say i have problems with what is real and what is not but i know i got them clearly marked: there are many different kinds of reality after all. it's all subjective. that's my bit of philosophy for the day heh

This xmas is gonna be insane what with work, field placement and Ezio in the mix. talk about zest of life.

]]> *altair-creed http://altair-creed.deviantart.com/journal/25835736/ http://altair-creed.deviantart.com/journal/25835736/ Thu, 09 Jul 2009 10:13:48 PDT
Assassin's Creed News Feature (FAVE IT PLEASE IF YOU'RE INTO SEXY ASSASSINATION!!!)
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It is official: my cat's lost his crown jewels. so now i can have some peace and quiet when i sleep from all that full throated singing. i hope he has a long life after this.

poor guy can't even walk properly: back paws give out... active bastard. probably i would feel the same way...































*altair-creed http://altair-creed.deviantart.com/journal/25659368/ http://altair-creed.deviantart.com/journal/25659368/ Tue, 30 Jun 2009 19:38:09 PDT
Assassin's Creed News Feature (FAVE IT PLEASE IF YOU'RE INTO SEXY ASSASSINATION!!!)
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That is our version of July 4th. We sort of left the Commonwealth peacefully. more or less. Britain sort of set us loose as it were.

so to celebrate this day, i am off to Niagara Falls -- i've not seen that place in years now. It is gonna rain all day unfortunately all over the Southern Ontario... the first rainy July 1 i can remember.

So guys PUT YOUR CANADIAN ON!!!! YOU KNOW YOU WWWAAANNNT IT!!!!
(By the way, we wear white and red like the Assassins 30 million Assassins o shit!!!)































http://altair-creed.deviantart.com/journal/25409817/ Fri, 19 Jun 2009 07:08:20 PDT
Assassin's Creed News Feature (FAVE IT PLEASE IF YOU'RE INTO SEXY ASSASSINATION!!!)
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LadyVe tagged me

1. Post these rules.
2. Each tagged person must post 8 things about themselves on their journal.
3. At the end, you have to choose and tag 8 people and post their icons on the same journal.
4. Go to their pages and send a message saying you tagged them.
5. No tag-backs!

Here are eight things about me....

1. Obsessed with muscle work, particularly male
2. Love meat to no end
3. Hate drugs but like alcohol every once in a while
4. Read my eyes into a state of glasses wear
5. Love sharp objects like knives
6. Lost a size: I fit into Small clothes now (go figure..)
7. Live on my own
8. Write like a nutcracker

I tag: Nevar, Bloutjie, UnhealthyVirus, Tenshi-Rising, Allson-Passport, Aquila17ly, Adenhai and Krimzon-1




























*altair-creed http://altair-creed.deviantart.com/journal/25074642/ http://altair-creed.deviantart.com/journal/25074642/ Mon, 01 Jun 2009 17:12:01 PDT
Assassin's Creed News Feature (FAVE IT PLEASE IF YOU'RE INTO SEXY ASSASSINATION!!!)
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Well that new trailer from UBI for E3 has vetted my appetite. I keep seeing Ezio and Altair in my mind now... Really crowded if you ask me. The graphics promise to be surerb if that trailer is anything to go by. and Ezio himself... To say that Altair would be proud is an understatement of the grossest proportion.

And speaking of the inestimable Assassin... today i came across this....






























http://altair-creed.deviantart.com/journal/24958344/ Tue, 26 May 2009 10:12:46 PDT
I have just committed an emotional act: ordered Altair's sabre. I don't know what came over me. And it is coming sharp too... Hell the police sure will raid this house one day































]]> *altair-creed http://altair-creed.deviantart.com/journal/24862280/ http://altair-creed.deviantart.com/journal/24862280/ Thu, 21 May 2009 18:56:48 PDT
So I have thought long and hard about doing some martial arts seriously. To that end I have contacted a few gyms to see what their training in Kickboxing looks like -- that's the one I am interested in to begin with.

So today I went to one of the gyms, Revolution MMA. and the guy there just floored me. His idea of a warm up is a 40 minute drill: skip, 10 pushups, skip with knees high, shadowbox, skip again for yet another minute, more push ups, then stretching (with legs apart on your heels grab your ankle, etc) then kneel and go all the way back down and then more skipping. and then the practice begins. They also have another program among many they offer -- Israeli Street Survival. Dirty tricks grab by the shirt and smash his face. This one has a GOLD membership: 1500 bucks plus tax (this IS Canada after all) for a year, choose any programs you want, as many as you want. I could make it a monthly thing: I just need to show them that tragic face of eagerness but poor.

Tomorrow I am going to another gym that is closer to me that only does Kickboxing. Then I'll compare them and choose one.

EDIT: Well I am now officially a student of the Twin Dragons: Kung Fu and Kickboxing. Their approach is solid from what i've seen today and my calves are letting me know i did a good job. So for the next three months at the least I am all ready to go. They were straightforward with me, no pushing, no bullshit. All i need now is my uniform























http://altair-creed.deviantart.com/journal/24719059/ Tue, 12 May 2009 11:29:04 PDT
well you never know what might happen: i got a subscription(from tenshi, gracias to you, sister! ) here so now i am going crazy with it. this summer is gonna be good: biking (yes, i got my bike out again today after a two year hiatus), writing, looking for work... i am not sure if i will finish off all the stories that i am in the process of working on but we'll see.































http://altair-creed.deviantart.com/journal/24579672/ Mon, 04 May 2009 07:50:58 PDT
I do not know when I will have the chance to write again. Not until i find some abandoned house or a pigeon coop.

Assassin altair-creed

]]> *altair-creed http://altair-creed.deviantart.com/journal/24188944/ http://altair-creed.deviantart.com/journal/24188944/ Mon, 20 Apr 2009 19:05:30 PDT I expect to see that same arrogance ten fold cause this guy knows what he is, most likely knows what he inherited. I just wonder who orders him around now or is he a loose cannon in Venice. I also wonder how much of the Eagle motif is remaining to him -- or is he a hawk or a falcon now?
the man is flashy but tastefully so: that sleeveless doublet is functional -- yet its very quality could betray him. he'd blend in among the nobles but among the rest of the populace? well, that remains to be seen. and that smirk is apparently an inherited characteristic of the family -- only Ezio was born into it.
Patience my friends is what we need now. But i fear we'll waste away before Ezio ever visits us. i don't think i'll be able to sleep the night before.

EDIT 1: Just read the gameinformer article and the game is out this year for the consoles only, not for PC -- fuck again i have to wait possibly MONTHS to roam Venice in the company of Ezio. Why do PC people always get screwed?

EDIT 2: Guys I just had my eyes opened: FLORENCE in Italian is FIRENZE. So guess where the Assassin used to live, according to his name?! Learn something new every day hyh?

]]> *altair-creed http://altair-creed.deviantart.com/journal/23889733/ http://altair-creed.deviantart.com/journal/23889733/ Wed, 25 Mar 2009 19:16:56 PDT
And yet I feel tired all of the time. My brain refuses to think. Maybe it has something to do with my sleep pattern... I drag my ass out of bed and then fall into it at night.

No wonder I can't write anything. Can't concentrate. I wish the semester was over so I could sleep again. Because of my fatigue I am more irritable than usual, and more politically INcorrect. The two guys I have on my shoulders like the two proverbial chips help as best they can but I feel spent.

Good night to all... May all of us wake up tomorrow.

]]> *altair-creed http://altair-creed.deviantart.com/journal/23730917/ http://altair-creed.deviantart.com/journal/23730917/ Mon, 16 Mar 2009 14:38:36 PDT
So who else has had the wheel come full circle once more this year?

]]> *altair-creed http://altair-creed.deviantart.com/journal/23665678/ http://altair-creed.deviantart.com/journal/23665678/ Thu, 12 Mar 2009 18:48:06 PDT
The first thing that strikes you is the beginning riff and the quiet voice of Dickinson saying "I am a man who walks alone, and when I am walking the dark road, at night or strolling through a park... Fear of the Dark, Fear of the Dark, I have a constant fear that something's always near..."

]]> *altair-creed http://altair-creed.deviantart.com/journal/23260664/ http://altair-creed.deviantart.com/journal/23260664/ Wed, 18 Feb 2009 13:54:09 PST
For one of my assignments -- my rock n roll class -- i need to do some research on why certain aspects of metal music appeal to guys and women. Hehe... I have no idea where to start except to say us womenz like to headbang too Why should guys have all the fun eh?

Clubs I'm in:







And guys check this girl out LadyVe: she's got a very nice AC based series going with a character all her own making:



]]> *altair-creed http://altair-creed.deviantart.com/journal/23181637/ http://altair-creed.deviantart.com/journal/23181637/ Fri, 13 Feb 2009 19:31:28 PST
Right now I am contemplating a bachelor apartment around my gym and school area: because right now where I live I have access to many things close by. If we move to that other place, I'd be up to my face in Russians -- and I resent that. I did not come to this country to be with Russians. If I wanted Russians I'd go back to Russia (although all those plane crashes might stop me -- the latest one in Buffalo is particularly close to home).

In any case, I am become so introspective that I forget to socialize: that's my survival mechanism during hard times. I become a recluse inside myself, talking to Altair and the Prince to keep my sanity in one piece. I have analyzed myself and I see a lot wrong with me but that is what keeps me alive. I am not diplomatic: if there is an obstacle I go through it, not around it. I offend a lot of people in the process but what the fuck! Why not? It is something new to try in life.

If I am to live on my own that means I have to either work more or find a second job to hold down which would put any plans to take fighting MMA classes on hold -- and MMA is something I am extremely interested in. I know a bit but not enough. I need practice. Unfortunately, like so many things, this costs. A lot.

I am at a crossroads. Always have been. Always will be. No thing holds my attention so strongly that I want to spend the rest of my life doing it. Not even becoming a law clerk is my end goal. I have no end goal. Life is wide open. If that's too hippie or psychedelic, that's just too bad. I am practical enough to realize I must make sacrifices. And I've made them. I've stayed with family even though I'd much rather be alone with my thoughts, my cat and my stories and my work.

Anna Al Dai

]]> *altair-creed http://altair-creed.deviantart.com/journal/23053183/ http://altair-creed.deviantart.com/journal/23053183/ Sat, 07 Feb 2009 03:39:31 PST
Here's a rundown on the books for those not familiar with the series: 11 thick books.

Wizard's First Rule

Stone of Tears

Blood of the Fold

Temple of the Winds

Soul of Fire

Faith of the Fallen

Pillars of Creation

Naked Empire

Chainfire

Phantom

Confessor

And I am still worried about Blou: don't forget her, guys. She's still near the brink of death.

]]> *altair-creed http://altair-creed.deviantart.com/journal/23025938/ http://altair-creed.deviantart.com/journal/23025938/ Thu, 05 Feb 2009 17:36:26 PST
From Rusty:

Theres another spam virus!! YOU HAVE TO READ!!

"Be careful guys, another malicious comment is riggling around DA again.

So if you receive a comment saying something along the lines of "Hey. I think I saw your picture on this website/blog here CLICK HERE"...
DO NOT CLICK THE LINK!!

This link will take you to a fake page made to look much like DA's login page. If you enter your username and password, your information will be stolen.
Be forewarned, it's possible the message could change as well.

From the words of :icon=davecheesefish:
"If you recieve a comment like this, MARK IT AS SPAM using the Mark as spam button on the comment. This will alert moderators to it and will also hide the comment it so others won't be caught out.

Please pass on the message and stay safe."

]]> *altair-creed http://altair-creed.deviantart.com/journal/22971316/ http://altair-creed.deviantart.com/journal/22971316/ Mon, 02 Feb 2009 18:52:54 PST
The Hog has been known to be wrong though so I can't really in all coscience put too much stock into it

]]> *altair-creed http://altair-creed.deviantart.com/journal/22948865/ http://altair-creed.deviantart.com/journal/22948865/ Sun, 01 Feb 2009 17:19:27 PST * Grab the book nearest you. Right now.
* Turn to page 56.
* Find the fifth sentence.
* Post that sentence along with these instructions in a journal.
* Don't dig for your favorite book, the coolest, the most intellectual. Use the CLOSEST.

Ok, get ready to be bored. the Closest book is Ontario Annual Practice: Rules of Civil Procedure, p. 56

(1.2) Same -- If the notice of appeal is filed on or after the day section 3 of Schedule A to the Access to Justice Act, 2006, comes into force, clause (1)(a) applies in respect of a final order,
a. for a single payment of not more than $50 000, exclusive of costs;
b. for periodic payments that amount to not more than $50 000, exclusive of costs, in the 12 months commencing on the date the first payment is due under the order;
c. dimissing a claim for an amount that is not more than hte amount set out in clause a or b; or
d. dimissing a claim for an amount that is more than the amount set out in clause a or b and in respect of which the judge or jury indicates that if the claim had been allowed the amount awarded would have been not more than the amout set out in clause a or b.

Long enough for ya? :wink:

I tag Nevar, Rasper, Taerga, Allson passport, and Tenshi rising

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I guess a kiriban is in the offing then. So I will take the 9999th visitor, the 10 000th of course, and the 10 001st. As usual I'd like a screen shot sent to my email (ask me for it, why don't you). Here's hoping my creative impulse keeps going.

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]]> *altair-creed http://altair-creed.deviantart.com/journal/22658138/ http://altair-creed.deviantart.com/journal/22658138/ Sun, 18 Jan 2009 17:20:41 PST
As for the Prince, I might develop a few things for him too. His story is much more full in my head now because I've played all three games and can make certain connections which are not possible with our beloved Assassin just yet.

]]> *altair-creed http://altair-creed.deviantart.com/journal/22311268/ http://altair-creed.deviantart.com/journal/22311268/ Wed, 31 Dec 2008 21:28:33 PST
to review my year: 2008 was pretty good for me: cat, tattoos, Altair. Eventful, rather. Let's see what the Bull brings. I was born in the year of the Bull so technically it's my year

EDIT: HAPPY NEW YEAR!!!

Let's go get drunk people! *broaches a keg of beer*

]]> *altair-creed http://altair-creed.deviantart.com/journal/22213318/ http://altair-creed.deviantart.com/journal/22213318/ Fri, 26 Dec 2008 16:50:25 PST bsessed:

The Prince is finally inseparable from me for the rest of my life. I am jumping here. Those blue eyes will stare at me shoring up my flagging will in the gym and elsewhere. I will post pics once it's healed. A raw wound don't look too good now do it?

*hugs the hell out of the Prince*

]]> *altair-creed http://altair-creed.deviantart.com/journal/22114672/ http://altair-creed.deviantart.com/journal/22114672/ Mon, 22 Dec 2008 03:52:59 PST
I note that everyone has been making wishes in their journals. I am too tired to make any. I only want my smexy men about me and that's all I'll need for the next year

I want to wish everyone a Merry Christmas and a Happy New Year.

Do not disappear on me, my watchers, or you'll have a visit paid to you. And it won't be just a social one either

]]> *altair-creed http://altair-creed.deviantart.com/journal/22061923/ http://altair-creed.deviantart.com/journal/22061923/ Fri, 19 Dec 2008 07:17:13 PST
I will stay home most of the day, playing and writing. DO NOT spoil the game for me please. I will be very upset (to put it mildly) if someone does that. My first solution to everything is a knife: "I've lost my donkey, had a rock dropped on me. I'm not in a good mood."

]]> *altair-creed http://altair-creed.deviantart.com/journal/21945312/ http://altair-creed.deviantart.com/journal/21945312/ Fri, 12 Dec 2008 10:37:35 PST *jumps up and down in unholy glee*
*shuts the room door, hangs sign which says 'Disturb at Own Risk'"
*devours the Prince whole*

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]]> *altair-creed http://altair-creed.deviantart.com/journal/21827633/ http://altair-creed.deviantart.com/journal/21827633/ Fri, 05 Dec 2008 07:51:08 PST On Thursday when I am almost done with the exams I will FINALLY get my hands on that bad ass Prince and disappear off the airwaves for quite some time. BUT I CAN"T WAIT NO MORE!! Why are console people so fucking lucky? What is it about a console that makes it more lucrative? Drives me nuts.

During the holidays the gym routine will be kicked up quite a notch too. To get muscle you gotta put yourself through hell. Only then will you really appreciate it.

]]> *altair-creed http://altair-creed.deviantart.com/journal/21767779/ http://altair-creed.deviantart.com/journal/21767779/ Mon, 01 Dec 2008 14:23:18 PST
Any ever read "Memento Mori" by Jonathan Nolan? Cause I have to write an essay on it regarding the question of what is the "advantage in forgetting"? the words are from the story. I am drawing a complete blank here. Zero coming to mind. I have something on my tongue but can't say it.

]]> *altair-creed http://altair-creed.deviantart.com/journal/21582295/ http://altair-creed.deviantart.com/journal/21582295/ Thu, 20 Nov 2008 13:49:48 PST Just fucking great! They're getting married... All rejoice

As for moving, not gonna happen till after she gets back again from her mother in the Ukraine. So that's a respite for me to get my ass moving OUT of this family thing. Family gives me friggin shivers.

]]> *altair-creed http://altair-creed.deviantart.com/journal/21552447/ http://altair-creed.deviantart.com/journal/21552447/ Tue, 18 Nov 2008 14:57:31 PST
Second, I will not be getting the Hidden Blade because in our Criminal Code to keep such a weapon is a crime as it is a PROHIBITED weapon. Yesh, it ish. That hurts... I still wonder why that is so but... Criminal Code is archaic in some of its provisions like infanticide: a female crime, if you will. As if a guy could not kill a baby. I mean really.

]]> *altair-creed http://altair-creed.deviantart.com/journal/21469890/ http://altair-creed.deviantart.com/journal/21469890/ Thu, 13 Nov 2008 13:40:01 PST

I am just sitting on nettles here! I want it so bad.

]]> *altair-creed http://altair-creed.deviantart.com/journal/21442193/ http://altair-creed.deviantart.com/journal/21442193/ Tue, 11 Nov 2008 16:42:12 PST
This is why I will NEVER EVER have a family of my own. Such backstabbing I don't need. Another thing is she is leaving in 4 months so what is the point of moving now and then being stranded in a townhouse?

GOD, I need a handle here!!! I am going to explode any minute now!

]]> *altair-creed http://altair-creed.deviantart.com/journal/21370458/ http://altair-creed.deviantart.com/journal/21370458/ Fri, 07 Nov 2008 10:01:05 PST
Memo to all staff: In order to assure the highest levels of quality work and productivity from employees, it will be our policy to keep all employees well trained through our program of SPECIAL HIGH INTENSITY TRAINING (S.H.I.T.).

We are trying to give our employees more S.H.I.T. than anyone else. If you feel that you do not receive your share of S.H.I.T. on the course, please see your supervisor. You will be immediately placed at the top of the S.H.I.T list, and our supervisors are especially skilled at seeing you get all the S.H.I.T. you can handle.

Employees who don’t take their S.H.I.T. will be placed in DEPARTMENTAL EMPLOYEE EVALUATION PROGRAMS (D.E.E.P.S.H.I.T.). Those who fail to take D.E.E.P.S.H.I.T. seriously will have to go to EMPLOYEE ATTITUDE TRAINING (E.A.T.S.H.I.T.).

Since our supervisors took S.H.I.T. before they were promoted, they don’t have to take S.H.I.T. anymore, and are all full of S.H.I.T. already. If you are full of S.H.I.T., you may be interested in a job teaching others. We can add your name to our BASIC UNDERSTANDING LIST of LEADERS (B.U.L.L.S.H.I.T.).

For employees who are intending to pursue a career in management and consulting we will refer you to the department of MANAGERIAL OPERATIONAL RESEARCH EDUCATION (M.O.R.E.S.H.I.T.). This course emphasizes how to manage M.O.R.E.S.H.I.T. If you have further questions, please direct them to our HEAD OF TEACHING, SPECIAL HIGH INTENSITY TRAINING (H.O.T.S.H.I.T.).
Thank you,

BOSS IN GENERAL, SPECIAL HIGH INTENSITY TRAINING (B.I.G.S.H.I.T.)

P.S. Now send this S.H.I.T. to 5 people who need S.H.I.T. in their life

Thank you for your time.

Sincerely,

The Director Under the Main Bureau of Super High Intensity Training (D.U.M.B.S.H.I.T.).

]]> *altair-creed http://altair-creed.deviantart.com/journal/21101036/ http://altair-creed.deviantart.com/journal/21101036/ Tue, 21 Oct 2008 19:16:02 PDT My family was "overjoyed" for me, of course. They don't understand the inspiration and I won't try to explain it.

I can't lay out any pics as yet because the tattoo is still raw -- I have the ointment to use on it. So that would have to wait -- the tattoo is covered up in plastic

]]> *altair-creed http://altair-creed.deviantart.com/journal/21074256/ http://altair-creed.deviantart.com/journal/21074256/ Mon, 20 Oct 2008 04:54:31 PDT

Anyway, tomorrow I am laying down the Altair tattoo with the words from the game "Give me names and I'll give you blood". I am so excited that I can barely keep my seat. It is gonna hurt like the devil, but as they say, no pain, no gain.

Do not expect too much coherency from me Thursday morning cause I am likely to be hung over and go to the gym to run it off. In case you're wondering, running and sweating DO work as good therapy for hangovers.

My b day is October 22nd, an unhistorical date and so all the more uniquely mine in that I do not share it with anyone except ordinary folks like me. I will turn 23. I make no bones about it or asking a woman's age (what's up with that anyway? It is just a number). 23 is rather an unremarkable number. Not really a milestone. But fun all the same cause I get to be as selfish that one day of the year as I want. And I will be drunk -- let it all hang out. So maybe I'll leave the short blade at home -- I don't think my aim would be good at that point.

]]> *altair-creed http://altair-creed.deviantart.com/journal/20968197/ http://altair-creed.deviantart.com/journal/20968197/ Mon, 13 Oct 2008 11:17:53 PDT
They are alcoholics and they smoke to death. BUT THEY'RE STILL ALIVE!!! After all these years, Malcolm, Angus, Phil, Cliff and Brian are still alive and kicking.

For Those About to Rock, I Salute You

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I JUST GOT THE SHORT BLADE I'D ORDERED!!!!

*tears out hair for joy*

NOW I can kill!!!

*too happy to talk*

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In other news there are 15 days left till my Birthday. Let the Countdown commence!

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I don't really know how to tell you this but I'll join the monastery. I think I realized it when I quoted Santa in your closet and I saw you put leeches on my penpal in Ghana. I'm sure you're ashamed that Extreme Home Makeover sucks. I'm returning your ring to you but I'll keep your photo as a memory. You should also know that I always will remember senility.

Fuck off now,
altair-creed

]]> *altair-creed http://altair-creed.deviantart.com/journal/20729840/ http://altair-creed.deviantart.com/journal/20729840/ Sun, 28 Sep 2008 18:22:50 PDT
my smax4pnp.exe does not run which means i can't hear my games (they used to stutter). but when i try to start it, nothing happens. what the hell is going on???

and here is another wierd thing: i get viagra emails from pfizer in my inbox. is my email compromised?

and one last thing: i can't update my video driver -- i have the right version -- but on my dxdiag it does not appear.

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MASSIVE EDIT!!!
KADAR IS HERE!!!!

shhh.. he is asleep now...

i'll put some pics up later. give him time to get used to things

:happy:

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i just hope they put a new block on sale soon. I NEED TO SEE THE BOYS!!!!! They rock like none else!!!

way cheaper than Police reunino tour.

]]> *altair-creed http://altair-creed.deviantart.com/journal/20483144/ http://altair-creed.deviantart.com/journal/20483144/ Sun, 14 Sep 2008 05:00:35 PDT
so now i need some tips on a newly arriving kitten. what do i do? i figure a sleeping box i have. what else would i need besides food?

on a less happy note, my ear is clogged with ear wax which means i go to doc and we syringe it out -- no matter how many times i wash my ears wax gets stuck in there... DAMN SHIT, waking up half deaf!

]]> *altair-creed http://altair-creed.deviantart.com/journal/20318607/ http://altair-creed.deviantart.com/journal/20318607/ Thu, 04 Sep 2008 03:44:33 PDT
for me it was like hearing Malik all over again. i swear. for us all Malik lovers out there...

[link]

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"God damn, God damn the Pusher..."

]]> *altair-creed http://altair-creed.deviantart.com/journal/20124424/ http://altair-creed.deviantart.com/journal/20124424/ Sun, 24 Aug 2008 04:50:00 PDT
the answer is complex in its very simplicity: i am my mother's daughter. her anger and bitterness at life live on in me. i am so full of anger i have no inner peace: rahter the anger IS peace for me. i am so used to feeling this way it is my default state of mind. My aunt wants me to forgive my mother. i tell myself that i am not angry at her, there is nothing to forgive. What if there is? that question undermines me, my mental stability -- or angry instability since that is what happens. my anger and bitterness have made me stable: oxymoronic. "Do you see the contradiction?" King Richard had asked. i do indeed. i might seem like a happy to lucky kinda woman but underneath is concealed layers of (self)hate, cowardice (as i talked of in another journal), darkness so thick i can touch it. i do not think i'll forgive my mother -- i do not have malik's huge heart to do so. but i know i am my mother reborn if i continue to be angry and snarl at my family. no doc or drugs will help. only self searching will. with our busy lives we rarely take the time to better ourselves, to confront ourselves and see how petty we really are. humanity is fucked -- such was my mother's attitude and so is mine.

as my mother beat and swore at me continuously me i retreted into a survival shell -- like a trapped wolf i lash out at anyone who i perceive threatens me. i like to pretend to have a big caring heart but i do not. my heart has cankered in my mother's ungentle hands. no wonder i hid myself in books and stories -- they seem more real that the shit hole that my and world's lives are.

my liberal education has embittered me more because it has shown me how idiotic humanity is, how petty we all are, caring only for ourselves and our own gain -- make more and more and more money, driven to destruction with making as much as we can. for what? we're all dust in the wind, we're all DEAD MEAT in the end. if we have fate, then it is to die.

i am a selfish introvert. i care nothing for the doings of others. i care not to help them. i care not to confront my ugly side. i am a coward many times over for i have run from myself for years. the Creed is true: we lie to ourselves continuously because it makes our life easier NOT to face what we don't want to know. we ignore the darker side, unless it comes out as anger or racism or what have you. the second part of the Creed is to mean then that in puruuit of our own happy ignorance everything is permitted: to kill for religion because yours bothers me, to destroy someone's family because they have offended you by their skin colour or existence.

i do not like what i see inside myself. bitterness, hate, and anger = misery and pain. i wonder if this is why i identify with game characters so much because they show me what i could be if i tried hard enough. my mother has destroyed me: i am nothing but pieces floating in my brain, i have no coherent identity as anyone except a hurting angry being. but i ask myself: do i have the strength to forgive my long dead mother and reform myself in the process, should i forgive her? or will i twist myself around the hurt and let it eat me? will i survive as half the person i could be? can i rise above myself?

i do not know the answers. perhaps never will.

safety and peace be upon you all.

]]> *altair-creed http://altair-creed.deviantart.com/journal/20101631/ http://altair-creed.deviantart.com/journal/20101631/ Fri, 22 Aug 2008 18:52:03 PDT 1. I'll respond with something random I like about you.

2. I'll tell you what song/movie reminds me of you.

3. I'll name something we should do together.

4. I'll say something that only makes sense to you and me (or just me)

5. I'll tell you my first/clearest memory of a conversation with you.

6. I'll leave you a quote that is somehow appropriate to you.

7. I'll ask you something that I've always wondered about you.

8. If I do this for you, you must post this note so you can do the same for other people...or not, whatever.

]]> *altair-creed http://altair-creed.deviantart.com/journal/19885765/ http://altair-creed.deviantart.com/journal/19885765/ Sun, 10 Aug 2008 20:14:22 PDT
i am working now. so that means less time writing or reading or training... sucks but... gotta pay for an expensive summer anyway. had to eat you know.

as for writing... too many loose ends and now i have a new story in my head... i have become a chronic unfinisher. some one needs to give me a deadline. and i still want to kill altair off and see him a daddy too. how to go about that last one: ideas are in there but i have to sift through them.. they all look too juicy to miss... o crap..

got a webcam today -- now folks can see me in real time as it were. so friggin wierd and funny

]]> *altair-creed http://altair-creed.deviantart.com/journal/19843260/ http://altair-creed.deviantart.com/journal/19843260/ Fri, 08 Aug 2008 10:33:06 PDT

sober now... and tired. reading on the Assassins -- got some books from amazon. and getting more. i'll probably end up having purchased every single historical book on them that is out there. this game has turned out to be quite expensive

and now i can see kingdom of heaven the way ridley meant it to be seen -- nice and LOOOONNNG

]]> *altair-creed http://altair-creed.deviantart.com/journal/19835472/ http://altair-creed.deviantart.com/journal/19835472/ Thu, 07 Aug 2008 21:26:00 PDT
needless to say, neither of my assassin friends are happy. altair is literally holding my sanity together by his fingertips and malik is pronouncing oaths against me in most upflattering terms.

i don't know what the morning will bring...

Yes, altair, i know i am bad... and you're the epitome of goodness... o allah... my head is two tonnes heavier than the rest of me..

]]> *altair-creed http://altair-creed.deviantart.com/journal/19769940/ http://altair-creed.deviantart.com/journal/19769940/ Mon, 04 Aug 2008 11:39:50 PDT

he is like al mualim because he was a great man just like sinan. he broke away from authority just as sinan had from the persian assassins. they both had the strength to stand up for their beliefs. they both taught their people well.

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