http://search.deviantart.com/?q=by:aluessinth&section=today deviantART RSS for by:aluessinth en-us Copyright 2009, deviantART.com Mon, 07 Dec 2009 13:39:22 PST deviantART.com http://blogs.law.harvard.edu/tech/rss http://s.deviantart.com/minish/widgets/apple-touch-icon-precomposed.png http://aluessinth.deviantart.com/journal/13558974/ http://aluessinth.deviantart.com/journal/13558974/ Sun, 01 Jul 2007 02:38:59 PDT
<----- That is my new gallery. Old art and some of my newer stuff will be trickling in...

Watch me if you want, it's fine if you don't. As a bonus, Art trades are up again and any that were to begin shall resume ^^

Again, I thank everyone who has helped me and to those that expressed concern... just remember... everything has a bright light in the end... it's just how long you are willing to wait for your own happy ending.


Maybe one day, I'll take my own advice ^^

<3
Amber

]]> ~aluessinth http://aluessinth.deviantart.com/journal/13487748/ http://aluessinth.deviantart.com/journal/13487748/ Mon, 25 Jun 2007 16:22:42 PDT

I have nothing....



Whoever you are, give yourself around of applause...


I'm not sure what I'm going to do at this point...


I don't know if I'll make a new gallery or not...


If I do, I'll post the new gallery name or I may just note all of my watchers.... *sigh*


I hope the Goddess looks down on you and punishes you accordingly...

]]> ~aluessinth http://aluessinth.deviantart.com/journal/13005995/ http://aluessinth.deviantart.com/journal/13005995/ Fri, 18 May 2007 20:39:10 PDT
]]> ~aluessinth http://aluessinth.deviantart.com/journal/12644102/ http://aluessinth.deviantart.com/journal/12644102/ Wed, 18 Apr 2007 14:57:04 PDT
Also, Congrats to Cyr XD! Expect some lurve art!

Commissions and art trading is still open, just comment or note me ^^

]]> ~aluessinth http://aluessinth.deviantart.com/journal/12615942/ http://aluessinth.deviantart.com/journal/12615942/ Mon, 16 Apr 2007 07:59:04 PDT
Commisions

If anyone is interested in commisioning me, I'd greatly appreciate it if you were, just, leave a comment. O.o, Also, if you want to do an art trade, I'm cool with that too!


Also, you should be watching Drive ZOMG! It's amazing...


That is all for now,



Bo

]]> ~aluessinth http://aluessinth.deviantart.com/journal/12251072/ http://aluessinth.deviantart.com/journal/12251072/ Mon, 26 Mar 2007 16:36:48 PDT

I owe:

- some arting love for my Eye-con*squees*... - pencil work done

Ssuni - I owe a fish on a leash - pencil work done

- Dragon trade - pencil work done

- GiftArt - 50% done

Kifal - GiftArt - Pencil work done

- GiftArt - 50% done

Damn, I = long list, however, if you would like to do a trade or even randomly commish me, let me know... ^^


<3

Bo

-EDIT- I've updated how close to being done on the love artings for people to know where they stand.

]]> ~aluessinth http://aluessinth.deviantart.com/journal/11483174/ http://aluessinth.deviantart.com/journal/11483174/ Thu, 18 Jan 2007 14:28:28 PST
I have no ida what brought that on, I just needed to get it out of my system...

Aluessinth

]]> ~aluessinth http://aluessinth.deviantart.com/journal/11459231/ http://aluessinth.deviantart.com/journal/11459231/ Tue, 16 Jan 2007 11:35:38 PST

Also, feel free to make fun of me, but I'm getting sucked into different sitcoms all over again ^^ It's what I get for not have a social life D= Oh well, I guess I'll have to perservere...^^

Anyways, continue to be on the lookout for giftart, my first victem, has already been tagged, who's next?


= yummy

]]> ~aluessinth http://aluessinth.deviantart.com/journal/11395565/ http://aluessinth.deviantart.com/journal/11395565/ Thu, 11 Jan 2007 07:47:01 PST
Some guy came in, pissed as all hell over his phone bill and took it out on me...

He threatened me, threw a chair, and almost broke the computer...


I hate people...


Also, I've been doing giftart for some random people, so, be on the look out^^


Amber

]]> ~aluessinth http://aluessinth.deviantart.com/journal/11279865/ http://aluessinth.deviantart.com/journal/11279865/ Mon, 01 Jan 2007 19:15:07 PST Enjoy XD

]]> ~aluessinth http://aluessinth.deviantart.com/journal/11222911/ http://aluessinth.deviantart.com/journal/11222911/ Thu, 28 Dec 2006 13:06:37 PST
Anyone is free to look, so, have at it ^^

Umm, let's see, I hope that everyone had a great Christmas and I hope that everyone has a happy New Years^^

Ok, and I FINALLY got your 666th pageview Kiribin done Sorry it took so long, but, it will be posted shortly...

See you all later
Amber

]]> ~aluessinth http://aluessinth.deviantart.com/journal/10865973/ http://aluessinth.deviantart.com/journal/10865973/ Mon, 27 Nov 2006 09:01:25 PST
I will not divulge when this will be occuring nor' the name I will be using... But, know this... If you want to know not only my new page, but, my new e-mail... note me or leave a comment...

I'll leave the gallery up, just, all empty like ^^


Bo


P.S: If I give you the gallery name, don't go around telling certain people...details will be sent in the letter^^

]]> ~aluessinth http://aluessinth.deviantart.com/journal/10567928/ http://aluessinth.deviantart.com/journal/10567928/ Tue, 31 Oct 2006 07:37:12 PST
THE 100 PICTURE CHALLENGE *drumroll*

The rules

1.) Make 100 pics each pic having a theme listed below. Each pic should have ONE and only ONE theme to it, for it to count.

2.) No time limit so have fun!

3.) The main picture should be drawn but not limited to. for all fair purposes, people are allowed to use their paint programs and photo shop to create the pic.

3a.) pics should be of own artistic ability. You may not edit photos, or break any other rules set out in the Da etiquette policy. Your pics can be anything from sketches and doodles to great master pieces. Just have fun with it.

4.) The list below is to be placed somewhere in your journal for others to see that......
A.)You are in the challenge
B.)What you have completed

5.) make sure to update this list and check off what is done and make a link to the pic

6.) In the comments for your art work note if it is part of the list and what ONE theme it is.

(got this from the umbrella)

THE LIST
1. Introduction
2. Love
3. Light
4. Dark
5. Seeking Solace
6. Break Away
7. Heaven
8. Innocence
9. Drive
10. Breathe Again
11. Memory
12. Insanity
13. Misfortune
14. Smile
15. Silence
16. Questioning
17. Blood
18. Rainbow
19. Gray
20. Fortitude
21. Vacation
22. Mother Nature
23. Cat
24. No Time
25. Trouble Lurking
26. Tears
27. Foreign
28. Sorrow
29. Happiness
30. Under the Rain
31. Flowers
32. Night
33. Expectations
34. Stars
35. Hold My Hand
36. Precious Treasure
37. Eyes
38. Abandoned
39. Dreams
40. Rated
41. Teamwork
42. Standing Still
43. Dying
44. Two Roads
45. Illusion
46. Family
47. Creation
48. Childhood
49. Stripes
50. Breaking the Rules
51. Sport
52. Deep in Thought
53. Keeping a Secret
54. Tower
55. Waiting
56. Danger Ahead
57. Sacrifice
58. Kick in the Head
59. No Way Out
60. Rejection
61. Fairy Tale
62. Magic
63. Do Not Disturb
64. Multitasking
65. Horror
66. Traps
67. Playing the Melody
68. Hero
69. Annoyance
70. 67%
71. Obsession
72. Mischief Managed
73. I Can't
74. Are You Challenging Me?
75. Mirror
76. Broken Pieces
77. Test
78. Drink
79. Starvation
80. Words
81. Pen and Paper
82. Can You Hear Me?
83. Heal
84. Out Cold
85. Spiral
86. Seeing Red
87. Food
88. Pain
89. Through the Fire
90. Triangle
91. Drowning
92. All That I Have
93. Give Up
94. Last Hope
95. Advertisement
96. In the Storm
97. Safety First
98. Puzzle
99. Solitude
100. Relaxation

Wish me luck!

]]> ~aluessinth http://aluessinth.deviantart.com/journal/9342645/ http://aluessinth.deviantart.com/journal/9342645/ Tue, 11 Jul 2006 11:34:20 PDT
Also, yay!!!!!


Happy!


Bo ]]> ~aluessinth http://aluessinth.deviantart.com/journal/6574467/ http://aluessinth.deviantart.com/journal/6574467/ Thu, 22 Sep 2005 16:06:28 PDT Bo ]]> ~aluessinth http://aluessinth.deviantart.com/journal/5395405/ http://aluessinth.deviantart.com/journal/5395405/ Wed, 18 May 2005 19:20:17 PDT This is something I have needed to do for a while. Something that I have needed to say, but that I was unable to accomplish on my own. You (Adam) have showed me that I can do this and much more, but first, I have to tell you everything that really no one knows and that which everyone does know. So, hang with me until everything has been said and then and only then can I let you tell me what you want me to hear.
Firstly: hello. As you know, or, since I am posting this as a public post in my journal of sorts you may not know, my name is Amber Golden Musick. I am 18 years old and I have quite enjoyed the people that are close to me. But how I have lied to you all that know me…how I have lied to you all… I am not as I am, I am not what you see…I am a disillusioned individual who only pretends…I am a façade of what I wanted you all to see. I was afraid of the truth of myself. I had left behind a place that had beat my innocence away… that had begun the corruption of modern society on the individual that cannot perceive herself. I made me into this for you all. I wanted to be liked, to be accepted…thus, all of my friendships have been based off of lies. For that, I apologize to you all. Will you forgive me for that…for hiding away? I’m going to take the advice of the two that cut through me so sharply and told me who I was…I’m going to be me…I’m going to become myself again.
Do you know who I really am? I am a shy individual who hides from everything but I tolerate everything for them in order to try and make you all happy…it hurts to know that a belief you had was wrong. So, I am breaking myself down…I am freeing the chains that bind my soul… I am trying to let go but I know that I will need all of you to help me. However, I want you to help me the most if you will please… You and of course Frizz see me…and not this…SO…help…
Now that I have said the such, and note, I am rambling, I must say why I became this…why I did not stay me…Frizz knows and a few others do, but now, I will tell the rest of you who are wondering, assuming that you may or may not care being the callow infelicitous public that many of you all seem to be. When I was in middle school…ha, I feel like such a freaking thing saying this… in any case, when I was in middle school, particularly the sixth grade, I was in gym. Oh goody, dodge ball, my favorite. The class was mostly sixth and eighth graders and the such. For some reason, they decided that I deserved a lesson for something I had never done. Granted, I was never popular, but I never mouthed off or said anything to anybody that was higher in the totem pole of cliché norms. However, something had upset the hierarchy and I was in the wrong place at the wrong time. Three of the biggest athletic guys I have ever seen cornered me and proceeded to…for lack of a better term…beat me with the dodge balls…they were more like soccer balls, but still… Somehow, in the midst of all this chaos, I was also stabbed in the lower abdomen twice…*sighs lightly* I blacked out and no one stopped them…no one stopped them except for the bell…isn’t it ironic that everyone saw all, but never stepped forward to help…
I knew that if I had any chance at anything, I would have to change who I was…I would have to become a bitch or something like that…I failed at the bitch part, but, I formed an alter ego of the outgoing person you see… I find it slightly amusing that no one saw this save for a guy that saw me as a human being and his best friend who psychoanalyzes everything. I must admit, that, this in truth is a big step for me, but it needs to be done.
In all actuality, this needed to be done a long time ago…but…Cedric broke me on that one…he broke me more than I had ever been broken and it took me a while to be free of that emotion…to void it from my life…*laughs* I’m sorry, he caught on too, but, he never elaborated, so I shoved it aside. I have to come to an amends with myself…I actually really looked at myself the other night…I am beautiful…I am nice…I am me… Amazing isn’t it…you really all were telling me things that I had already known, but refused to accept. I know that this changes nothing, but it does in a way. I am admitting to me that I am a unique and creative being. I know that my art is not the best, but I also know that it does not suck as badly as I proclaim it to be. To all of my friends that have put up with me, again, I am sorry that I am not who you thought I was, really, I am.
Adam, you are remarkably beautiful. I see in you what others do not and for that alone do I stay near you. I like you more than words can describ... ]]> ~aluessinth http://aluessinth.deviantart.com/journal/5267431/ http://aluessinth.deviantart.com/journal/5267431/ Wed, 04 May 2005 17:38:51 PDT
He..

Never..

Shipped..

Out...

I found this out earlier this week...Sunday, to be exact, one week from when we had broken up. He was...broken...apolagetic...confused, and also, I think, wondering why I didn't want his balls in a pretty little jar on my shelf... I myself have been wondering this and, after much deliberation and a few phone calls and e-mails from him, I think I can logically explain to you and to of course anyone else who is remotely curious as to why I am not angry...

1.Emotion
Emotion, as we know, plays a powerful role in the minds eye of thinking. Thus, me, having already been broken by countless others and lied to many a times was unphased by this confession of his falsity. Also, since, he himself didn't tell me that he was shipping out and only left a message, it hurt a hell of a lot less than it should have. Also, your emotions over the past week have been turbulent...you still hide from me and you still love her. I am no fool, but, this is about my thinking and not yours.

2.Attachment
Having promised myself that nothing you could do would anger me(with the exception of like, 3 things), this I kept true. I listened and, tried my damndest to uplift you. You just will not allow me and I am far to attatched to not let you let me. Sorry sweets, but I am more stubborn than you could possibly EVER be.^^ Also, I like you lots and, well, I don't think that you are changing that anytime soon...

3.Probability
Now, having thought on this some more, the liklihood of us getting together anytime soon is slim to none...readout reports are at the maximum of 30%. Also, I know that right now, you do not seem to want anything, but, that won't stop me from giving you some sweet loving on. You need it...
I won't push, but, I won't give in either...I know that I want to be with you eventually, and, I know that we will be, but, perhaps, just not right now and that I just finally came to accept. So! Though I am single right now, I will still feel attatched to you in a sense because I am promising myself that I will be with you eventually.

4.Conclusion
In conclusion, please don't die, kill yourself, do something utterly UTTERLY stupid, or, injure yourself. These things that I have listed would make me cry. Also, know that, in this I am giving it one more shot, you make the call, you name the play, and I'll go by whatever you say. However, don't run the clock down and don't delay the game. I know that you are still you, you just have some major soul searching to do...

Adam...this is where it is up to you. Are you going to hang me out to dry, are you going to crush me, tell me to fuck off, tell me to go away, or, are you going to quit..? Whatever you choose to do, I will stand by you and I will let you lean on me, cry on me, love me if you want and hate me if you must. I'll do whatever it takes for you to feel better about yourself. Really, I should send this to you in E-Mail, but, I am proving to people that I, as well, think way to much and way to deeply into a simple course of action.

You are beautiful, contrary to what anyone else may think...even you...

Amber ]]> ~aluessinth http://aluessinth.deviantart.com/journal/5245148/ http://aluessinth.deviantart.com/journal/5245148/ Mon, 02 May 2005 08:32:36 PDT I’d found what was divine.
The way you looked, captured me,
And I wanted you to be mine.

Then one day, it all fell.
And I was lost and confused.
I didn’t know where to go,
Nor did I know what to do.

If you were me and I were you
What would you have done?
Would you follow me as I ran,
Or would you sit and stay behind?

I want to know, know right now.
What it is I can say,
To make you think and realize,
That I want you more each day…

You came back, broken down,
Your dreams were left behind.
The wings were clipped and your mind was broke,
But I still don’t doubt your place of time.

You begged for anger, I gave you strength,
I believe in you each day.
And you’ll never be able to convince me,
That you are any other way…

If you were me and I were you
What would you have done?
Would you follow me as I ran,
Or would you sit and stay behind?

I want to know, know right now.
What it is I can say,
To make you think and realize,
That I want you more each day…

If you were me and I were you
What would you have done…
Differently..?


He never shipped...enough said... ]]> ~aluessinth http://aluessinth.deviantart.com/journal/5219770/ http://aluessinth.deviantart.com/journal/5219770/ Fri, 29 Apr 2005 08:23:25 PDT And I can’t find the reason to even try to start.
You left me hanging lonely,
Broken and confused.
If and only when you said,
I was nothing more than used…

Confused and lost,
But left behind.
In these memories you will find
That I’m not so different when…

I’m just like you and you’re just like me,
Can’t believe I fell so deep,
In the remnants of your broken dreams…

I closed my eyes and went to sleep,
Fell away back home to deep.
And in my eyes I saw you lying there.
I feel like dying, crawling, crying,
Comatose when I am lying in a suspended hope
Of trustless nights…

Confused and lost,
But left behind.
In these memories you will find,
That I’m not so different when…

I’m just like you and you’re just like me,
Can’t believe I fell so deep,
In the remnants of your broken dreams…

Hold me close and don’t let go,
Draw the shutters of the moors.
Falling faster, walking down,
I can’t believe you’re laughing now.
Running away from me is all you seem to be
Doing as of late….

Confused and lost,
But left behind.
In these memories you will find,
That I’m not so different when…

I’m just like you and you’re just like me,
Can’t believe I fell so deep,
In the remnants of your broken dreams…

Confused and lost,
But can’t forget,
You are but a memory yet,
Difficult and different from the beating of my mind.
I’m falling slowly, walking fast, denying what can never last,
I’m as senseless as your dreams will find me to be…





There, have a song I wrote. Sorry if I don't update much, but, if you were as upset as I was...you'd care as little as I do right now... ]]> ~aluessinth http://aluessinth.deviantart.com/journal/5214957/ http://aluessinth.deviantart.com/journal/5214957/ Thu, 28 Apr 2005 17:23:19 PDT Working on:
Making things right...

Mood: depressed
Listening to: Wonderwall - Oasis
Reading: The Book Of Nod
Watching: Nightmare Before Christmas

*sighs* No one claimed the thousandth pageview, but, Mon said she got 1002, so, I guess I'll do somethin' for her.

In anycase, today, I miss you some more...BUT I get to see you tomorrow...

*sighs again* Can I have you back yet...please?

Somehow, I think that I should take a break for a while...from art..it all looks the same and that pisses me off....

*sighs*

I love you....

Sorrow

[link] ]]> ~aluessinth http://aluessinth.deviantart.com/journal/5204024/ http://aluessinth.deviantart.com/journal/5204024/ Wed, 27 Apr 2005 13:22:02 PDT Working on:
Kalure - 666th pageview
Me!

Mood: depressed
Listening to: Wonderwall - Oasis
Reading: The Book Of Nod
Watching: Nightmare Before Christmas

I miss you...

[link] ]]> ~aluessinth http://aluessinth.deviantart.com/journal/5174201/ http://aluessinth.deviantart.com/journal/5174201/ Sun, 24 Apr 2005 08:00:05 PDT Working on:
Kalure - 666th pageview
Me!

Mood: O.o
Listening to: Low - Kelly Clarkson
Reading: The Book Of Nod
Watching: Nightmare Before Christmas

Quick little update here! Whoever gets the thousandth pageview, please screenshot it and note me...

^^ ]]> ~aluessinth http://aluessinth.deviantart.com/journal/5156116/ http://aluessinth.deviantart.com/journal/5156116/ Fri, 22 Apr 2005 07:54:34 PDT
Mood: Ecstatic
Listening to: In My Head
Reading: The Book Of Nod
Watching: Finding Forrester

^^ I am so happy right now...I've been asked out by the cutest guy ever!

^^ ]]> ~aluessinth http://aluessinth.deviantart.com/journal/5071793/ http://aluessinth.deviantart.com/journal/5071793/ Tue, 12 Apr 2005 17:34:58 PDT
I'm offering art for a month or so of being subscribed...

^^I know I'll get no takers, so yeah, but, hey, worth a shot...

I love you all*begs* ]]> ~aluessinth http://aluessinth.deviantart.com/journal/5064003/ http://aluessinth.deviantart.com/journal/5064003/ Mon, 11 Apr 2005 19:24:52 PDT I will let you rest with me.
Lay your eyes and go to sleep,
Fall your head and soften your muzzle.
Come into my warmth,
Become of my careful administrations,
Fly into my orbital universes,
And be thee careful of shooting tears.
Thus, as you rest,
Let your heart soar,
Promise to me your dismissal,
Should I ever burden your care.


If I am to fall, then you will feel my effects. Cry with me sister moon, laugh with me father sun,
Snuggle with me my brother, and hold me mother nature... ]]> ~aluessinth http://aluessinth.deviantart.com/journal/5038722/ http://aluessinth.deviantart.com/journal/5038722/ Fri, 08 Apr 2005 22:53:50 PDT
I will always love the ones I was ever with, that, I can not help. I wish I could change my endings, you know the whole bit...

'Now the stories' played out like this,

Just like, a paperback novel.

Let's rewrite an ending that fits,

Instead of a Hollywood horror...

Nothins' wrong, just as long as you know

That someday I will...'

So tell me, what is it that you will do... You never had to accept me you know...you never had to remember me...But you did...and I, like the wanton little fool let you in...it...it kills me...

You

Broke

Me...

Are you satisfied yet? Was she your everything or am I wrong again..? *chuckles* You let me down, I thought that you were different...I thought that you were like me...I guess...I guess I was wrong.

Am I being blatant enough for you yet..? Do you all want me to say the name of my reprocutiond that haunt me so...?

Ha...I wish...but, then, you all know him...then one I loved...not him you fools, no, the most recent of course...


As for you, my sweet, my latest infliction of the reminder that I am still alive, I will tell you soon enough...I promise you that as well. I am burdened with telling you though. I am afraid you will not accept me. Yet, you have seemed to so far. Are you leading me astray..? Are you setting me up for failure...I don't think I can fail much more...I think...I think that I would cease to function.

For you see...I am only...a ghost in a shell...
Find the switches,
Kill the locks,
Cut the Power,
Lose the mock.

Key the entries,
Break the chains,
Release the Concious,
Fuel the brain.

Flip the motors,
Switch the cords,
Saw the Feelings,
Sew the tears.

Plug me up,
Turn me on,
Leave me Hanging,
In your arms...

Please, love me back as much as I am starting to love you...

]]> ~aluessinth http://aluessinth.deviantart.com/journal/5024206/ http://aluessinth.deviantart.com/journal/5024206/ Thu, 07 Apr 2005 10:16:17 PDT
So, I'm asking you to wait if you can and not to be hasty. In this instance, you do NOT know who you are. ^^ I blame the casuallity of it all. But, I must wait, lest I be the fool who is forgotten in the end. So, let me be remembered in my own way in my own place...in my own time. I will come to you when I am ready and when you are okay. I will apologize now for my failures and beg to be forgiven... But, I can not be held responsible for anything. I'm trying my damndest to not get anyone hurt...but..I think in the end I will fail and somehow hurt you worse than she ever could. So, please, do not hate me and I won't disappoint you...
That much, at least...I can promise... ]]> ~aluessinth http://aluessinth.deviantart.com/journal/5008752/ http://aluessinth.deviantart.com/journal/5008752/ Tue, 05 Apr 2005 16:01:06 PDT got the 666 screenshot! In other news, a spider died in my english class today...or, I should say killed...

. <----Spider








X <----me in retrospect

Man, I heard the crunch of it at the back of the room-.-


EWWWWWWWWWWWWW


Also, someone beat the shit out of my goose is the phrase of the day.... had a fuckin' coronay in my car when I said that....O.o


In anycase...I hate me!

And damnit :

I
AM
NOT
PRETTY!


or any of the therforementioned adjectives.... ]]> ~aluessinth http://aluessinth.deviantart.com/journal/4987195/ http://aluessinth.deviantart.com/journal/4987195/ Sun, 03 Apr 2005 11:18:25 PDT
In anycase, print scr button and post and note me...

XD ]]> ~aluessinth http://aluessinth.deviantart.com/journal/4951020/ http://aluessinth.deviantart.com/journal/4951020/ Wed, 30 Mar 2005 09:49:47 PST . Hell, Elfwood was closed for a while because of that. But seriously, I don't know why I suddenly was attacked with this thought. Honestly, I blame my pain pills for my mouth(see last entry). All I know is I don't know what I would do if that happened. I guess, in a sick, twisted way, I would be honored that someone would claim my art as their own because that means they think that you are good. But, then again, I think that I would be horrified by the notion that someone can create nothing of their own...

Again, who am I to say...but I still pose the question...

What if...? ]]> ~aluessinth http://aluessinth.deviantart.com/journal/4902396/ http://aluessinth.deviantart.com/journal/4902396/ Thu, 24 Mar 2005 17:08:26 PST
@ of them are wisdom teeth and the other two are very very painful molars that need to die.

*sobs* I can't eat or drink anything after midnight tonight and I can't drink from a straw...they pull blood clots out apparently...

Man...this blows... ]]> ~aluessinth http://aluessinth.deviantart.com/journal/4872977/ http://aluessinth.deviantart.com/journal/4872977/ Mon, 21 Mar 2005 14:21:23 PST ~aluessinth http://aluessinth.deviantart.com/journal/4834838/ http://aluessinth.deviantart.com/journal/4834838/ Thu, 17 Mar 2005 07:10:06 PST Using gentle words to shelter me
Your words were like a dream
But dreams could never fool me
Not that easily

I acted so distant then
Didn't say goodbye before you left
But I was listening
You'll fight your battles far from me
Far too easily

"Save your tears cause I'll come back"
I could hear that you whispered as you walked through that door
But still I swore
To hide the pain when I turn back the pages
Shouting might have been the answer
What if I'd cried my eyes out and begged you not to depart
But now I'm not afraid to say what's in my heart

Though a thousand words
Have never been spoken
They'll fly to you
Crossing over the time and distance holding you
Suspended on silver wings

And a thousand words
One thousand confessions
Will cradle you
Making all of the pain you feel seem far away
They'll hold you forever

The dream isn't over yet
Though I often say I can't forget
I still relive that day
"You've been there with me all the way"
I still hear you say

"Wait for me I'll write you letters"
I could see how you stammered with your eyes to the floor
But still I swore to hide the doubt
When I turn back the pages
Anger might have been the answer
What if I'd hung my head and said that I couldn't wait
But now I'm strong enough to know it's not too late

Cause a thousand words
Call out through the ages
They'll fly to you
Even though we can't see I know they're reaching you
Suspended on silver wings

Oh a thousand words
One thousand embraces
Will cradle you
Making all of your weary days seem far away
They'll hold you forever

Oh a thousand words
Have never been spoken
They'll fly to you
They'll carry you home and back into my arms
Suspended on silver wings ohhh

And a thousand words
Call out through the ages
They'll cradle you
Turning all of the lonely years to only days
They'll hold you forever...

That is how I'm feeling... ]]> ~aluessinth http://aluessinth.deviantart.com/journal/4829959/ http://aluessinth.deviantart.com/journal/4829959/ Wed, 16 Mar 2005 15:48:07 PST My boyfriend does not want to go to prom with me. Says it's cause he hates crowds...

Do
I
Look
Stupid?

Sorry sweets if you're reading this, I just need to vent really. And, well, this is how I vent. I love you, that I know, but, I just don't understand. I have not asked one thing out of you this whole relationship(going on half a year btw) but this one thing, that you were so excited about you suddenly are not? Wtf is up? Please tell me because if you don't, then, well, I'll wonder and my wondering will make me paranoid and yeah...then I'll lose more hair...

So, my prom plans are either

A. find a guy friend to go to my prom
B. go with David and his boyfriend to theirs(he'd be setting me up with someone)
C. find a way to talk him into it

*sighs*

I need to go eat now...

All I want, is you to be back...

Amber ]]> ~aluessinth http://aluessinth.deviantart.com/journal/4778164/ http://aluessinth.deviantart.com/journal/4778164/ Thu, 10 Mar 2005 14:35:06 PST
You know who you are ]]> ~aluessinth http://aluessinth.deviantart.com/journal/4736858/ http://aluessinth.deviantart.com/journal/4736858/ Sat, 05 Mar 2005 18:10:18 PST Please respond to this with a char descrip and you will be drawn and maybe colored...WHO knows!

In other news, my boi is bein' weird...
It makes my brain hurt...

Love,
Le Bo ]]> ~aluessinth http://aluessinth.deviantart.com/journal/4311859/ http://aluessinth.deviantart.com/journal/4311859/ Thu, 13 Jan 2005 16:03:10 PST I finally found a guy that loves and respects me...doesn't care about some of the stupid blonde moments I may have(I am a brunette, almost raven black, but still...).
I couldn't be happier. My art is greatly improving, my friends, I'm finding out who they are and I've lost a few over the past few months, but I have gained an abundance of many.

I love you all and know that I will always be here....

Please, PLEASE, don't ever forget me...

Love,

Teh Bo ]]> ~aluessinth http://aluessinth.deviantart.com/journal/2766247/ http://aluessinth.deviantart.com/journal/2766247/ Tue, 29 Jun 2004 19:14:18 PDT
I'm a horrible individual, callow as it may seem, I see now why I lose everything I touch...
I deserve it...

So, throw at me what you will...your insults, your sympathies, your lies, and maybe even your love, because I'll take it all with a smile, as long as you come to me.

Does it matter, that, in a month and a few weeks, I'll be a senior at my school...

Does it matter that, in all my pathetic existance, I can't find you for the life of me...

So, I'm begging, I'm pleading, please... Come to me...

I can't take this anymore...
I'm afraid of what I am and what I am becoming...that which surrounds me drowns me and my pleas fall on deaf ears...

Please, I'll ask once more...

Come

To

Me

Bo... ]]> ~aluessinth http://aluessinth.deviantart.com/journal/2645991/ http://aluessinth.deviantart.com/journal/2645991/ Sat, 12 Jun 2004 19:42:58 PDT
In anycase, more art is on the way...for anyone who may care...so yeah...

Enjoy, if you dare...


"A Wise man cares not for what he can never have..." ]]> ~aluessinth http://aluessinth.deviantart.com/journal/2580403/ http://aluessinth.deviantart.com/journal/2580403/ Fri, 04 Jun 2004 08:01:18 PDT
I'm a lonely, lonely individual who wants someone...

*Rawrs*

In anycase, someone is watching me

LokiSuko, thanks, and you too Sil, my sisstuh!

I <3 you all...

Bo

WARNING: Do not operate Chainsaw with genitalia...

-Swedish Chainsaw Warning- ]]> ~aluessinth http://aluessinth.deviantart.com/journal/2575703/ http://aluessinth.deviantart.com/journal/2575703/ Thu, 03 Jun 2004 16:42:08 PDT
In anycase, don't hesitate to watch me, though I suck, I know someone out there is bound to like it...

Bo


"Forget me not and we'll always be together..." ]]> ~aluessinth