+placebo,
+less than jake,
+taking back sunday,
+maximo park,
+the kooks,
+boy kill boy,
+broken social scene,
+goldie lookin chain,
+the dresden dolls,
+forward russia,
+metric,
+thursday,
+hundred reasons,
+animal collective,
+larrikin love,
+kaiser chiefs,
+yeah yeah yeahs,
+belle & sebastian,
+fall out boy,
+panic! at the disco,
+secret machines,
+mystery jets,
+guillemots,
+the long blondes,
+arctic monkeys,
+the futureheads,
+the cribs,
+coheed and cambria,
+the automatic,
+be your own pet,
+lady sovereign,
+reel big fish,
+alexisonfire,
+nouvelle vague,
+get cape, wear cape, fly,
+the noisettes,
+semifinalists,
+tilly and the wall,... ]]> ~amonotoneromance http://amonotoneromance.deviantart.com/journal/9254213/ http://amonotoneromance.deviantart.com/journal/9254213/ Sun, 02 Jul 2006 19:32:17 PDT

Well it only took like a month but i finally updated with a mammoth submission marathon. It's twenty to four in the morning, and i've been submitting since about midnight. Sleep is for the weak.

Go see:
mostly f-locked livejournal: [link]
flickr: [link]
myspace: [link] ]]> ~amonotoneromance http://amonotoneromance.deviantart.com/journal/8952095/ http://amonotoneromance.deviantart.com/journal/8952095/ Fri, 02 Jun 2006 16:35:58 PDT

London was nice. We had a picnic in hyde park, went to a great robots in disguise gig, generally had a good ol' time. I took plenty of photos, which will be uploaded in due course.

and yes, i realise my last three photos don't work. I'll re-upload as soon as i can be bothered.

Go see: ]]> ~amonotoneromance http://amonotoneromance.deviantart.com/journal/8673276/ http://amonotoneromance.deviantart.com/journal/8673276/ Wed, 10 May 2006 20:06:21 PDT

I have begun steadily uploading images again, after an unintentional dA hiatus (essentially, i just couldn't be arsed to upload anything to it, hahah). I'm now being a lot more selective about what i upload to my gallery. Apologies for the long wait (as if anyone cares), i just have better things to do with my time than trawl through the submission categories of dA haha.
if anyone has a livejournal, i update to that quite often with photos and nonsensical rambling, so feel free to add me on there, since a lot of posts are friends locked.

myspazz.
my livejournal.

Go see: ]]> ~amonotoneromance http://amonotoneromance.deviantart.com/journal/8191097/ http://amonotoneromance.deviantart.com/journal/8191097/ Fri, 17 Mar 2006 18:12:37 PST

So over the past two days i've seen Help She Can't Swim again, The Epoxies, The Mighty Boosh, AND Robots In Disguise. It's been fanfuckingtastic.
If you care to know more, feel free to read my livejournal. well, it may or may not be friends locked depending on which entry, so this may be a bit redundant but whatever. if you have a livejournal, add me. if not, get one.

i have many, many photos to scan, but it will have to wait, as i'm going to Aviemore (Scottish highlands) on monday through thursday. For general adventuring, as well as hopefully getting some good shots. I might die due to it being horrendously cold, but whatever, it should be fun.

Go see: ]]> ~amonotoneromance http://amonotoneromance.deviantart.com/journal/8030967/ http://amonotoneromance.deviantart.com/journal/8030967/ Tue, 28 Feb 2006 18:24:25 PST

Wow, i hit 5,000 pageviews. Wehay
London was pretty good. I can't be arsed to type why, but it was a good trip. Photos to be submitted once i get them back from processing and processed.

In the past two days i've spent roughly, unless my maths is more flawed than i thought, 21 hours at college. In two days. that's more than some people in my class spend there in a week. Goddamn still life shoots taking so long.

Go see: ]]> ~amonotoneromance http://amonotoneromance.deviantart.com/journal/7898881/ http://amonotoneromance.deviantart.com/journal/7898881/ Tue, 14 Feb 2006 17:48:03 PST

On Monday, I venture to london, alongside danny, alexis, kat, and a shitload of other people from my art&design building. It shall be fun. Who knows what hijinks we shall get up to, but i've got a bunch of film (although not nearly enough knowing me) to take down with me so you'll see plenty of it when i return and get everything processed and uploaded. So huzzah for that!

& as ~paperxhearts pointed out, we've been here like two years. We both had old accounts and started dA at pretty much exactly the same time. I won't share my old account detail because i hate everything on it. It was from before i even started taking photos, and it's proof that i really can't draw.

Go see: ]]> ~amonotoneromance http://amonotoneromance.deviantart.com/journal/7839607/ http://amonotoneromance.deviantart.com/journal/7839607/ Wed, 08 Feb 2006 16:39:37 PST

My new home is in the scanning room. I've spent so long in there past couple of days. It takes a while to scan negs, but I do feel it's worth it in the end. So expect plenty of deviations coming up soon. One thing that pisses me off is that, as much as i really appreciate the support people give, that it's a bit hit and miss, and quite often the photos i really adore just don't get any comments or anything, and something i'm not even that bothered about will. Not that i don't appreciate those comments, it just feels like. something i've put work into and then came out with something i really adore, slips completely past the radar. Oh well.

Valentines Day soon.

sigh.

...& i think that's all that needs to be said on that.

London is also not far off. REJOICE I SAY.

Go see: ]]> ~amonotoneromance http://amonotoneromance.deviantart.com/journal/7734498/ http://amonotoneromance.deviantart.com/journal/7734498/ Sat, 28 Jan 2006 18:04:56 PST

So, I got a Canon 30V today from Dixons for £250. That's £150 less than it's supposed to be. *collapses*

I also created, by means of stapling tinfoil onto an A1 bit of cardboard (i'm classy like that, see) a reflector. I do intend to put white paper on the other side for a softer one. I then proceeded to use this reflector and new lushious camera to take portraits of my mum, black and white, using the natural light coming in through the window, through the curtain thingies. Which give very nice light. its essentially like a huge softbox.

I also purchased a lovely book on lighting for portrait photography. So the combination of these two purchases has financially raped me, and i really need to save up some money for my trip to london on the 20th february.

I've just went through and deleted/scrapped yet more of my older stuff. I have an odd urge to just delete all of my old digital stuff, almost solely because its digital, despite the fact i still like some of the shots. Odd how things change. I think i've actually improved as a photographer, which i hadn't noticed till i looked back at all the old stuff. So hurray for that. I still have a long, long way to go like.

Oh, and if anyone gets the 4444th pageview, i'll. take a photo especially for them or. something haha, just because its quite an interesting number.

Go see: ]]> ~amonotoneromance http://amonotoneromance.deviantart.com/journal/7611991/ http://amonotoneromance.deviantart.com/journal/7611991/ Sun, 15 Jan 2006 15:06:04 PST

Firstly, check it out:

*amonotoneromance
implodes at 4pm every tuesday
is a General Film Photographer
is Male
is a deviant since Sep 30, 2004, 7:52 PM
is subscribed until Nov 18, 2006, 4:21 PM
has 4,000 pageviews


Thanks very much to everyone who's ever taken time to look/comment/fave my work. It's very much appreciated.

Secondly, I got my hair cut.


[link]

Thirdly, you should go orgasm at the talent of *paperxhearts
her latest drawing is enough to make you explode on sight.

Help she can't swim/test icicles gig tomorrow. Fuck yeah.

]]> ~amonotoneromance http://amonotoneromance.deviantart.com/journal/7426010/ http://amonotoneromance.deviantart.com/journal/7426010/ Mon, 26 Dec 2005 20:22:33 PST

Christmas was lovely, i got some lush gifts, such as a jack daniels hipflask & keyring which folds out into a cup! the mighty boosh dvd, 4 series of futurama on dvd, three chuck palahnuik books, the really nice 'Adventures In Pinhole & Home Made Cameras' book i wanted, and most importantly my lca and holga. i have a couple of rolls of film and i intend to buy more, and since i actually have some money now the presents buying fever of christmas is over, i can afford to get some rolls processed, so expect some new deviations coming up soon. digital users may be able to do this shit for cheap, but there's nothing quite like capturing a thing of beauty on film. i really need to sort my processed colour negs out actually, ive got shit loads of them (they're in canister thingies, obviously) in a little bag. I'm gonna buy a whole load of neg sleeves and replace the shitty delicate paper ones from college my black and white ones are currently in (at least they're in a folder) and sort all the colour ones into them. and hopefully write on what they are to save me having to search through them all.

Gah, i really must do some college work over these holidays. I have an ongoing project, and the ever pressing issue of history of photography to get done. I do have danny's to help me, but I'm still gonna have to rewrite it all (not that they'll remember what his said from last year, but I think photocopying it and handing it in is taking things a bit too far).

New year is approaching quickly, and we're no closer to figuring out what we're gonna do for it. Which is worrying, because last year was atrocious (for me, anyways) and I don't want a repeat performance. And yet, we can't think of anything to do, chels is at work so that rules out a party at her place. eek. so if anyone has any suggestions, they'd be welcome. Clubs are...meh. unsure. i'm not going to ku because its not even alternative on a new year. So yes, any help would be welcome.

I have two sort of commisions coming up. They're not commisions as such, but saying it like that makes me feel more professional lmao. For one, this guy on my course asked me if I'd take shots of these ten bands which are playing in the bar he works at. It'll be weird going to where he lives (near durham), doing band photography all day, going to this after show party then staying at his house. i mean, the guy is great, but it's just. odd. i haven't technically known him all that long and i'll be going to a completely new place. I'm nervous but it should be fun. I have no idea what date he said it's on though, and he hasn't replied to my text. I have this hideous nagging thing in the back of my head that he said the 27th december, which i hope to god is wrong otherwise it's today. In which case i haven't prepared in the slightest so i probably wont be able to go.
The other thing is, Mcmillan cancer relief charity are having one of those charity balls. You know the ones, rich folk pay like £50 to go and have a nice evening and the money goes to charity. A good idea, to be honest. But yeha, they called my college dep and asked if we have any students who could do it. Graham asked me and alex (~AlexWelsh), but alex has in the end had to decline, as he lives a 40 minute train journey away so getting back on a night would be tough etc. I still need to ring the guy to sort that out too (sigh, i hate all this organising via the phone), so i'm gonna do that today. I'll ring johnny to check what date it is. Shit, i really hope its not today and that i miss it.

We watched Cube tonight after we taped it. Seen it before, but god is it a good movie. For those that haven't seen it, a group of people wake up in what turns out to be a giant cube with lots of cube rooms inside. The rooms have traps in them and they have to try and get out. I won't reveal the ending, but it's a very good horror movie. The traps are impressive. You know on the resident Evil movie, for those that have seen that, where he gets cut into pieces by the grid laser and falls apart? That's actually a homage to cube, just this guy gets sliced by just a sharp grid thing, no actual lasers. Too low tech for that. But yeah, so that's what i've spent my night doing, along with reading Haunted quite a lot. It's very much a Palahnuik book, and good. I can't wait to read Diary and Fight Club. I'll read the latter after haunted. One day i'll get round to Fear and loathing in las vegas (not by palahnuik, obviously), I really wanna read it.

Today, I head up to newcastle to meet Guiness (friend and bassist. ..in our band. that wasn't just an unnessary bit of information). He has copious amounts to spend and no expensive art form which sap... ]]> ~amonotoneromance http://amonotoneromance.deviantart.com/journal/7269602/ http://amonotoneromance.deviantart.com/journal/7269602/ Fri, 09 Dec 2005 22:40:45 PST

Traipsing over the lomo mini sites again. A suprisingly pleasent amount of work has been put into these things. They're the microsites for each product, most of them have a one, and they're nice. They keep me entertained anyways. I think i'll buy a holga today. I might get it and then give it to my parents til christmas. It probably wont arrive for about 10 days anyways, & it's only two weeks till christmas.

Do you like the new header? It's ten past 6 in the morning, I had nothing else to do, so I finally got round to making one. I hope it's worked, anyways, I wasn't totally sure of how big to resize it to.

My slide film arrived from 7dayshop.com. I'm eager to use it, I might slip it into the pentax and take some shots on my wanderings today. I would put it in the fisheye, but those shots are just for fun and putting the delicious sensia in feels a bit wasteful. Methinks i shall definately buy some more if it turns out well for my lca. Speaking of my pentax, despite the fact the shutter is now fixed, the light meter is being a tit. Sigh. I'll have to see how much that's gonna cost to get fixed. if it's very expensive, to hell with it, i'll just buy a new friggin camera. I intend to buy a new slr anyways, but I love that little pentax k1000, its a really nice, (usually) reliable camera.

Anyways. Feel free to check out my lomohome. It'll get better once i get my lca and i overload it with cliché cross processed lca shots. [link]
Although i must say, this

has become one of my favourites from the ol' fisheye. I do love that little thing so.

I've decided I'll, along with my usual pimping, that I'll find a photographer I like and feature them on this as often as I remember. First up, is ~AlexWelsh who technically shouldn't count, since he's a friend as it is, but whatever. He'll go back to regular pimping next time.

He's a man of considerable talents, and when not defending his borders from the scottish enjoys a good photo session.




Ah to hell with it. Another pimping is in order.

*whorer-movie makes me go squee with her photos. and face

http://amonotoneromance.deviantart.com/journal/7230840/ Mon, 05 Dec 2005 16:11:03 PST

So.
My department is holding a competition for photos from Keswick. I'm not totally sure which one to enter, although I have a good idea. so opinions would be appreciated.
The options are:


Which isn't a favourite.


Which i like better.


Which i also like.


Which i do like, but. I dunno, it's not very original.




Which i must say, is a favourite of mine, because it doesn't seem like there'd be anyone else with that photo. There's people with photos of those tunnels, but none like that.


Which I do like.




Ah sky photos.


Another favourite.


I do love this one.


& this is probably the front runner at the minute.

But yeah, opinions would be appreciated. I'm going to print it off on Wednesday and get it handed in before the deadline on thursday.
Wish me luck.

]]> ~amonotoneromance http://amonotoneromance.deviantart.com/journal/7116666/ http://amonotoneromance.deviantart.com/journal/7116666/ Tue, 22 Nov 2005 17:29:03 PST

Ah my faithful fisheye has now become my camera of choice, since my Pentax is fucked until i get it fixed. Never, ever lending lenses off the college, ever ever again.

So yes, the fisheye is the only thing that i can snap away with at the minute. I have 3 rolls of film to be developed from it, not including a one i'm going to get cross processed. if the results are good, i'll get the rest cross processed too once i get some money. an extra pound for cross processing, see, cus i have to get it done at a different place, and i am actually horribly broke. i have £9.60 in my account. i cant even draw a ten pound note out. i hate being poor.

Tonight, I ordered my LCA and delicious white Sidekick bag, which has meant i've leapt from being not-really-bothered about christmas to looking at the calender every five minutes in the insane hope it'll be less days left. i only ordered it 2 hours ago, christ.

[link]

We got tickets to go see Coheed&Cambria playing with Thrice.
We got tickets to go see The Mighty Boosh.

I may be poor, but i sense it could be a good month or two.

]]> ~amonotoneromance http://amonotoneromance.deviantart.com/journal/7077928/ http://amonotoneromance.deviantart.com/journal/7077928/ Fri, 18 Nov 2005 09:17:48 PST



~amonotoneromance
implodes at 4pm every tuesday
is a General Film Photographer
is Male
is a deviant since Sep 30, 2004, 7:52 PM
has 3,000 pageviews



Holy shit.
I guess that's what happens when you stove the community's head in with over 350 deviations
But yeah. Thank you all very much

AND TO CELEBRATE (...and cus i was gonna anyways) i think i shall go to a cash machine this very afternoon, draw out 15 english pounds and purchase a subscription. Huzzah, say i!

So. In febuary, I go to london with danny and the second years from my course, with a few from my year. I am looking forward to it muchly.

Last night, I went to planty's. My beloved pentax k1000 is screwed. The shutter was jamming open. The mirror is stuck up. It's just. I swear, the college lense that jammed on it fucked it up, it's never been the same since. I'm gonna go take to a repair place somewhere sometime. But I dunno, I dont hold out much hope, it's probably gonna be hella expensive. I can get a new camera but gah. I love that thing. I took a whole load of fisheye shots, hopefully they'll turn out cool.

THIS AFTERNOON. we're going to see Goblet Of Fire. SQUEE. I hope it's good.
Anyways. I demand you check out:
and her writing
:iconwhoror-movie:


edit
I did just that, so hooray for subscriptioney goodness. Probably should've waited till i have more money, but nya.
We got to see goblet of fire in like an hour. Hells yeah. I haven't gotten round to making a header or other such things yet, but i'll get to it.
& now i'm going to have a mass clearout of all my really old stuff on this account which I forgot I even had.

]]> ~amonotoneromance http://amonotoneromance.deviantart.com/journal/7046732/ http://amonotoneromance.deviantart.com/journal/7046732/ Mon, 14 Nov 2005 16:44:56 PST
Sigh.
I hate this. i cannot physically force myself to sit down and do some work. Taking the photos, I'm fine. But all the research and stuff, I really struggle, I just don't have a sense of urgency. ugh.

But yeah. Oh, I decided I'm going to purchase a dA subscription. I've been here for what, 2 years? (i had another account before this one) and i currently have 365 deviations. Somehow, I think it's time I subscribed. I was going to buy a 3 month one since it's only a fiver, but if i'm gonna do this I may as well go all the way. It works out cheaper and I won't have to think about renewing it in a few months. But if anyone wants to buy me one first lmao. cus that's likely.

I demand you go watch she is a stunning artist. She's cleared a LOT of her deviations into scraps (despite my protests), but go look and support
& now a random smattering of good photographers who's usernames I can remember
:iconkidkabide:

& my photography diploma partner in crime

and i have a lomohome now: [link] I haven't got round to putting loads on it yet cus I've been busy with dA, but I'll get round to it eventually.
enjoy, & thanks for any support ]]> ~amonotoneromance http://amonotoneromance.deviantart.com/journal/7041762/ http://amonotoneromance.deviantart.com/journal/7041762/ Mon, 14 Nov 2005 03:25:23 PST
Just to thank ya'll for any comments, favs or watches (as in adding me to your watch, not giving me a time keeping device. although i could use one, so feel free to send me one), and to apologise if it takes me a little while to reply to your comments, I'm working my way through them all though ]]> ~amonotoneromance http://amonotoneromance.deviantart.com/journal/7017871/ http://amonotoneromance.deviantart.com/journal/7017871/ Sat, 12 Nov 2005 19:24:45 PST currently listening to: Nobody Move, Nobody Get Hurt - We Are Scientists.
currently reading: Choke - Chuck Palahnuik

So this week, I got Nic (*paperxhearts go say happy birthday to her) into the studio to take some high and low key shots. I was racking my brain trying to think of a concept to shoot with her. I said in a previous journal I wanted to take photos of her being all artsy, but since i only had one night to think of what to do, there just wasn't time to organise getting the paint and clothes and props yadayada, and i didn't think she'd appreciate going to her last lesson of the day splattered in paint. So instead, I lugged a bag full of all the books i could find in my room into college on the metro, with the hopes of using them in some way, since she luffs reading. I gotta say, I'm hella glad I did, it turned out really well. I didn't have to work in a group, which is how i prefer to work, although it does have disadvantages, like you can't block the lamps off to stop flare or hold reflectors, but that's a sacrifice i was willing to make to be allowed to work at my pace and do what the hell i wanted without having a group of people to please. plus, it meant nic wasn't being stared at by a bunch of strangers, which probably helped things. But yeah, it went well, and i love all the photos.

Then yesterday, I went to the lake district with the college. It was a degree trip i think, or one of the higher than diploma courses anyways, and they had so many spare places on the bus so they said a few of my class could go. I wasn't gonna go, but then graham asked me while i was sitting around with nic and danny waiting for the scoop to free up and i figured it would be a nice day out and an oppitunity (gah can't remember how you spell that) I don't get often, so it was worth a shot. So I woke up at quarter to goddamn seven, got to college for ten past eight, then went and rented a 28mm and a 135mm from the store. that 28mm turned out to be a piece of shit by the way. It first got stuck on my camera and i had to get Graham (lecturer guy) to force it off. They then fixed it and i started using it again, then it stuck again while alex and i were by ourselves (which i'll get to in a sec) and then the aperture stuck at f22, so i couldn't do shit (well, i could've continued shooting at f22, but come on who the hell wants to be confined to that for a whole day). We managed to FORCE it off the camera, and it's smashed a little bit of the mirror at hte bottom. I mean, it still works obviously, cus the mirror just reflects the image into the viewfinder, and it's not a huge smash so i can still compose okay and such, but it's fucking irratating that my totally well looked after pentax, which the guy took so much care with when he sent my from ebay, has been damaged by the college's fucked lense. they're supposed to friggin check the lenses before giving them to people anyways. and if i'm pretty sure it'll cost a bomb to get that mirror replaced. so anyways. It was a nice coach ride down there, the light looked decent, and it didn't piss down like it was supposed to. They let out whoever wanted to be let out 6 miles before Kessick, and we wanted out. So alex (horrible good photographer. he has a dA account, i just can't remember the username and don't even know if he comes on it.) and I were exceedingly snap happy in the first 10 minutes. Then we got to a point in the path and graham said to follow this all the way to kessick, and we could do what we wanted as long as we made sure to be there for 4 to get the coach home. So we went in the opposite direction to a bridge, and started shooting. I had some kit issues as I've just said, but luckily alex is kitted out to the gills so lent me his camera with his much better wide angle anyways. So i used that for the rest of the day. I am sooo not a nature photographer. It was a really nice day and I'm so glad i went, but the photos (i've processed 4 of the films, I have one left in my pentax which i havent used up cus i stopped using it when the lense fucked up, and i've got two from my fisheye camera to process, which i might try and look into getting cross processed) aren't spectacular. They aren't necessarily eyebleedingly bad, but none make me gleefully happy like the ones from the nic shoot do. I'm just not cut out for it. I don't have the kit, for one, and it just doesnt thrill me photos wise. there's millions and millions of nature photographers, the a lot of them not particularly good, and i'd rather be a bit more creative than just pointing a camera at a tree. Alex is fantastic at it, but he's a country type anyways, so that's great for him. Each to his own, i guess.

But yeah, the combined total of these sets of photos means I have a good number of subs to get through. Oh yeah i forgot, i also have a roll off my pentax that's just general sh... ]]> ~amonotoneromance http://amonotoneromance.deviantart.com/journal/6933053/ http://amonotoneromance.deviantart.com/journal/6933053/ Wed, 02 Nov 2005 06:56:14 PST i had nitrus oxide.
it goddamn feels like you're paralyzed. and yet you're kinda amused.
but owwiieee. needles. pointy. things. owwie. ]]> ~amonotoneromance http://amonotoneromance.deviantart.com/journal/6795427/ http://amonotoneromance.deviantart.com/journal/6795427/ Mon, 17 Oct 2005 19:30:14 PDT
thanks very much everyone. Tis much appreciated.
And also thank you very goddamn much to the so far net total of 34 favourites on the zombie shoot photos ima glad people liked the photos.
but damnit people, my two favourite photos, my featured dev and the most recently subimtted one of nic have 0 comments and i luff them so much.

anyways.
i get from this thursday onwards till the next thursday off, when all i have to go in for is to hand this project in and i might just ask him if i can leave it till the monday since he's in spain anyways.


ah yeah to celebrate this 2000 pageviewness (and also just cus i wanna do it. it's part of the thing that im trying ot get going of doing creative portraits of as many of my friends/people i know as i can. how many ill get done is debatable, but i intend it to be quitea long running thing anyways) i wanna do creative portraits of nic being all artsy with paints and such. so you see. deviantart. artyness. see the link haha.

man, i was just reading through some of my old deviantart journals on this account.
christ, it's frickin insane to think of the difference between then and now.
i hope to god i'm less angsty, that's for sure. but i did appear to have some quite horribly low points.
oh well.

pimp time:

better than you, but only in bed.





....okay, and she's not bad at drawing either. ]]> ~amonotoneromance http://amonotoneromance.deviantart.com/journal/6777516/ http://amonotoneromance.deviantart.com/journal/6777516/ Sat, 15 Oct 2005 19:10:20 PDT In that, i come on it a lot more often and as you can see have submitted a shit load recently. it's cus i've started taking photos with colour film which i can just get put on a disc and then have the digital images to put on here and such i think. with b&w its just too much to scan in prints and i haven't gotten round to scanning negs yet.

well uhm.
life's not too bad at the minute actually.
college is awesome. best thing i ever did. i esentially do photography for a living. hell. yes.
and yeah. apart from the emptyness that nags at me at around 2am a lot of nights (& no, it's not hunger lmao) that may stem from the total lack of relationships and the fact there probably wont be a change to that anytime soon, ima fine.

er yeah.
links time.
livejournal: [link]
myspace: [link]
website: [link]

rye and i need to raise 30 quid to pay for an upgrade to the site, cus we've used all our space. sigh. more money i really dont want to spend but sorta have to.

oh yeah, i aint pimping anyone, cus i can't remember who i used to look at, with the exception of nic. who, really, is the only one you should bother looking at anyway.
]]> ~amonotoneromance http://amonotoneromance.deviantart.com/journal/5849331/ http://amonotoneromance.deviantart.com/journal/5849331/ Sun, 18 Sep 2005 11:59:51 PDT the reason?
i'm too lazy.
it takes so much work to come on, look through everyone deviations, comment, reply to everything, and to submit anything, christ. it just takes so much.
that's not to say don't comment or anything. because i make a point to reply to and thank everyone that looks, favourites, or comments on my work, and i appreciate it, so thank you.

however, due to how rare i come on, i apologise if it takes a while for me to get back to you. don't be offended.

I do still try to come on and submit and comment and suchlike. Thank you for any support people give me

I put photos and such on livejournal more than on here these days, feel free to check that out.
[link]

also, if anyone has a myspace, you can talk/add me on that if you so wish. [link]

have a nice life everyone, hope you all continue your art-esque activities, and thanks to anyone who comments, messages, etc. i'll get round to you eventually, i appreciate it, it's not in vain.

...BUT WAIT THERE'S MORE.
i now have an actual photography website.
So go look at that if ye wish, it's rather cool.

mine and rye's site. oh yes. he designed it. isnt it swish.
and if anyone (*looks at nic, rye and any other cool folk out there*) wants to put this link in their journal to do a bit of promoting too, it would be most welcome.
here's the banner html:



xxxxxxxxxx<3>xxxxxxxxxxxx ]]> ~amonotoneromance http://amonotoneromance.deviantart.com/journal/5348047/ http://amonotoneromance.deviantart.com/journal/5348047/ Fri, 13 May 2005 13:42:55 PDT Listening to: I Can Make a Mess Like Nobody's Buisness
Reading: Hitchikers Guide To The Galaxy {again}
Feeling: cheerful

So I had my interview for Newcastle College schoo of art and design, the photography diploma the other day, and it went exceedingly well, I got a place I just have to get 4 C's in le gcses (which are in like 2 weeks ) and i'm in. Fuck, I seriously can't wait, i'll effectively be doing photography for a living for two years, hehe, should be cool. Plus, danny'll be in my building, but also skrad and ben are within like 200m of me. We're all on the same campus, in seperate buildings, and they're building a bar, so we'll be able to meet in the middle and walk straight to the bar hahah it'll be great too, going to coll in newc, we'll just be able to walk out of college n be like 'so, fancy a drink?'. lmao, notice how big a part alchohol has taken in my excitement about going there. Whee. So yessum, I am in a good mood, the shittyness of the past couple of weeks and the masses of coursework and pressure i felt under feels less. shitty now lol, and I've taken a ridiculous amount of photos these past few days. I took my camera into school, what with us leaving in a few days, and the 'friends' page on the year book was this complete loser (that sounds so stuck up, but shes loud fat and annoying, so whatever) with a little crappy camera holding it at arms length and taking photos just of HER friends and herself! there was like 12 photos of her! I was like. uhm..no. so i took it in, and i took something like 81 photos yesterday i think, took them home, spent 4 hours sorting through them, doing usual tweaks in photoshop, saving, copying, burning onto 10 discs, sending to people, and so on. But I was generally immensly pleased with the results, and the people who got the discs seemed to be too, so yay. And then i did it today and took some photos of gavo and ben, possibly the most natural models ive ever seen. Seriously, every photo i have of them is cool, they're naturals in front of the camera, yarr. Anyways. They leapt over things. They climbed up trees. It was alll good. But now tonight I have to go through those photos, and do the same. Blah. At least I don't have as many of other people this time, so i dont have to send them to people or burn discs.

Whee, tonight I insisted my mom drive me out in the car so I could get some photos. We wandered round the coast, conveniantly right next to our house. You know when you're in the car, and its warm and nice, then you get out and its actually horribly windy? yeah. that happened lol. But still, was cool, got some great shots of the beach and rocks n such. Sooo I have those to go through. Blah. I like getting the final image out of the photos, it's just when i have like. 40 photos to trudge through that I get a bit less enthusiastic (don't worry nic, I won't actually be posting 40 photos ). So yeah, I have quite a lot to post, and I have like 5 or 6 songs I've wrote in that time that I need to get typed up and/or posted. So expect a sharp increase in deviations from moi. Over & out <3 ]]> ~amonotoneromance http://amonotoneromance.deviantart.com/journal/5322286/ http://amonotoneromance.deviantart.com/journal/5322286/ Tue, 10 May 2005 16:25:48 PDT ~amonotoneromance
...will you wait for me...
is a General Digital Photographer
is Male
is a deviant since Sep 30, 2004, 12:52 PM
has 1,000 pageviews

Oh my, a thousand pageviews, im so popular. Uhm aplogies for the lack of activity at the minute, i have gcses and work and things to do, and im also rather lazy and cant be bothered to go through all the process posting. i have one or two photos and a couple of songs to post, i'll probably get them up soon. over & out <3 ]]> ~amonotoneromance http://amonotoneromance.deviantart.com/journal/5135503/ http://amonotoneromance.deviantart.com/journal/5135503/ Wed, 20 Apr 2005 02:37:07 PDT
listening to: love rhymes with hideous car wreck - the blood brothers ]]> ~amonotoneromance http://amonotoneromance.deviantart.com/journal/4943053/ http://amonotoneromance.deviantart.com/journal/4943053/ Tue, 29 Mar 2005 12:19:46 PST - i go to school. and every second i'm there, wish i wasnt ^_^
- i wear eyeliner
- i have my lip and brow pierced
- i'm one of those people that you'll never meet, have a conversation with, and become friends with by myself, you'll 98% of the time know me as '*insert name of cooler/hotter/older*'s friend'
- i make an arse out of myself every single time im drunk.
- i have one ex that i'm not ashamed of
- i play guitar. how well is debatable.
- i'm a skinny paranoid arachnaphobic insomniac
- everytime i get grief from a charv, i think about how in 10 years time, ill grudgingly be paying for them to live
- i regard my friends as being the most patient forgivable people in the world to put up with me

Nine Ways To Win your Heart:
- in a slot machine
- be quietish and/or pretty and/or witty and/or play an instrument like guitar bass drums and so on
- have gween eyes
- saying something that makes me go all coy
- like me even when i look a mess, and my hair hasn't been washed for days, and i'm looking like i haven't slept in days
- give me that look. where youre looking. but you dont want me to know you are
- be the sort of person that i actually look forward to talking to, as opposed to dreading
- don't be all confrontational
- be honest and truthful

Eight Things you Want to Do Before you Die:
- be in at least on succesful (or just even decent) band
- be an unemployed photographer living on a friends couch, but still be happy
- live in a house/flat with friends
- go to a best friends wedding
- go to a music festival
- go to japan and america
- have a long term relationship
- know what it feels like to be loved

Seven Things That Annoy you:
- school
- arrogance
- people who are immensly hot/pretty, and fucking know it
- aquiring feelings for people i know i have no chance with
- charverish types
- people who don't know anything about me, yet think they do, and judge me because of it
- how i act when im drunk

Six Places you Have Visited or Lived:
- south shields
- exeter
- leeds
- aberdeen
- birmingham
- wales

Five Things you're Afraid Of:
- the future
- people i'm close to drifting apart
- fuckingfuckedyfuckfuck spiders. uuugh.
- weirdo stalker type girls that have liked me
- having an office job

Four of your Favorite Things in your Bedroom:
- my beeed. ahem. bed.
- my guitar
- my accoustic
- my cds

Three Things you Do Everyday:
- wear clothes
- play guitar
- complain

Two Things you're Trying To Do:
- not think about certain relationships
- find someone i could actually have a relationship with

One Person you Want to See Right Now:
- The pope. har. ]]> ~amonotoneromance http://amonotoneromance.deviantart.com/journal/4917872/ http://amonotoneromance.deviantart.com/journal/4917872/ Sat, 26 Mar 2005 16:32:50 PST
we waited our whole lives, for this moment to burn ]]> ~amonotoneromance http://amonotoneromance.deviantart.com/journal/4827921/ http://amonotoneromance.deviantart.com/journal/4827921/ Wed, 16 Mar 2005 12:03:45 PST Listening to: The postal service. yay.
Feeling: bad chest, throat and cold, but suprisingly churpy

So. Haven't journaled in a while. No reason. Uhm. I had my art exam yesterday and today, and i have an hour left. 10 hours of art. woo. Since i spend most lessons wishing i was doing art, it's pretty cool. i got my final piece all done, so i'm cool with it. I can't wait for the easter holidays, a welcome break oh yes oh yay. & I can't be bothered to write anymore. over & over <3

{edit: At last look my pageview counter was at 696. So i'll do a kiriban (photo or song, may stretch to painting, but don't expect it to be brilliant lol) for anyone if they get 700 (& want it) or close as. } ]]> ~amonotoneromance http://amonotoneromance.deviantart.com/journal/4751071/ http://amonotoneromance.deviantart.com/journal/4751071/ Mon, 07 Mar 2005 12:05:57 PST ...i think i've become like one of the others...

Behold. The Random Facts (of doom):

~ Morrisey fucking sucks

~ Bright Eyes and Rilo Kiley is thursday!!

~ I got my reply from Newcastle college today. They got my application and will be telling me when my interview and all that jazz is soonish.

~ I should finally be getting my hair cut this wednesday

~ I really wanna form an electro emo prog band. & when i do. they'll kick ass.

~ I've started writing another concept album. I intend to take my time with it. I've wrote the first song on it. That includes music btw. If only i could sing.

~ I wish i could sing.

~ I wish i was better on guitar.

~ I wish i was better on bass.

~ I wish i owned a bass.

~ I wish i could draw.

~ the From First To Last singer is a mere 17 years old.

~ The Mars Volta fucking rule.

~ I'm wearing blue jeans and a biffy clyro top right now.

~ 3 minutes & 14 seconds into track 6 of Frances the Mute is lush.

~ This guy i know once shit on his own carpet. and didn't even clean it up.

~ I have 8 days left till my art exam.

~ I'm totally totally sick of school.

~ I'm sick of feeling immensly inferior.

~ I have 2 After Eight mints on the desk in front of me.

~ My camera is a Fujifilm Finepix S7000.

~ I'm overly angsty sometimes, then really hate myself for it afterwards.

& that's all the random facts for now!

you wanna fill something in for me? wow you do? golly, that'd be swell (thieved from danny)

i ---------- sean.
sean is ---------- .
me and sean are ----------.
i wish me and sean were ----------.
if i were alone in a room with sean, i would ----------.
i want sean to know ----------.
i think sean should ----------.
sean needs ----------.
i want to ---------- with sean.
sean reminds me of ----------.
someday sean will ----------.
without sean, ----------.
the worst thing about sean is ----------.
the best thing about sean is ----------
i am ---------- with sean.

clubs: ~unleash-the-bats *camerawhore * thecomatorium ~clouds-and-sunsets ]]> ~amonotoneromance http://amonotoneromance.deviantart.com/journal/4701115/ http://amonotoneromance.deviantart.com/journal/4701115/ Tue, 01 Mar 2005 10:28:35 PST Listening to: Frances The Mute~The Mars Volta.
Reading: Photography books as usual.
Feeling: Not too bad. I guess.

I haven't journalled in a while, so here you are.

I bought The Mars Volta's new album Frances the Mute the other day. And my god. It's like an orgasm in a box. I kid ye not.

I haven't been submitting much of late, mostly due to the fact that I haven't really had a chance to go out and get shots, & it is veeerry cold, so I'm not exactly encouraged to make more of an effort.

and that's all the uninteresting info for now.
Over&out <3.

Check out: ~paperxhearts ~KidCabide
My Clubs: *camerawhore *thecomatorium ]]> ~amonotoneromance http://amonotoneromance.deviantart.com/journal/4578802/ http://amonotoneromance.deviantart.com/journal/4578802/ Mon, 14 Feb 2005 11:11:20 PST listening to: coheed & cambria: the second stage turbine blade, glassjaw: everything you ever wanted to know about silence, bright eyes, and biffy clyro in preparation for wednesday.
watching: shit all, tv ariels broken due to ridiculously strong winds last night. And my dvd player is knackered. blah.
reading: A series of unfortunate events. book the third. and also hellsing book one, over and over again, since im too busy spending all my money on cds to buy anymore lol
feeling: left out, depressed, and very very bored.

So it's the first day of the holidays. And i must say. Even for me, it's been crappy. All my friends are either at college, have girlfriends or boyfriends (damn you valentines day), or otherwise engaged. And my parents are assholes. Sorry if there's a copious amount of swearing in this journal. I'm not in a great mood lol. So Iended up sitting alone. in my room. reading hellsing for the millionth time and cursing at my parents. I'm so sick of my life at the minute. However, I did go to a really cool house party friday night, which turned out to be far better than I expected. It was just people from my school, so i thought id hate it, but it turned out to be the only people from there i can actually tolerate. And my, there sure was a lot of alchohol. And it was generally a fun night. I'm pretty sure i talked to this guy i know about him playing bass with me & gav (~ name-ihavenoname) as well. I didn;t even know the guy played bass. I also talked to this other guy about bandness, and he was like "what do you need" me: "everything except a guitarist" him: "oh. im a guitarist." But hey. Uhm. I'll sort it out next time i see them. And if i can aqquire their singer, and a drummer from somewhere, we pretty much have a band sorted. And i can. attempt to sing also. I suck, but i actually wouldnt mind giving it a shot. I doubt this'll work out. It's also a right bitch getting gav to actually come round and play guitar. In the grand tradition of gav, as soon as anything looks like it might go somewhere, he gets worried and tries to bail out. Mwer.

So I leave for Aberdeen tomorrow. I'm off to see Biffy clyro for the second time, and goood i'm looking forward to it. I frickin love Biffy, despite how boring ~paperxhearts thinks they are I saw them in Newcastle a while ago and they were really really good. & they're having a signing, so i'll be going to that methinks. And with my sister and friends being like 19 and over, we're going to le pub, which is no bad thing haha.

Then thursday, it's ku again. The bar type place we go to. The place itself isnt exactly brilliant. But then I go for the alchohol and friends, not place i guess. And it's usually. usually. pretty fun plus, there's many many people going this week, what with it being half term n all, so that should be excellent. I might buy a disposable camera or something n take random photos of the drunkards.

So gigs wise, with the exception of biffy, there's not much going on really. I'm not too bothered tbh, I can't really be bothered to go to loads. There was green day last week, which was fun, for once I didn't go near the front n just stood watching. And listening, obviously. It was pretty cool, they're excellent live. They finished with 'we are the champions' and confetti. It was like the 90s never happened. What do we call this decade anyways. The 0's? So yeah. Not much gig activity for a while. There's the dropkick murphys on the 3rd of march. Now I wouldn't exactly call myself the biggest fan of old school punk football chant esque music. But pretty much my entire group of friends are going, plus theyre brilliant live, and it'll be a really fun gig, and skrad bought me the ticket for christmas anyways, so I may as well go. I was gonna go to 36crazyfists in. april. i think. but it seems like theyre pretty much sold out, so I dunno whats gonna happen with that. I've seen them before anyways, they were eeeexcellent. Nothing else of any interest has really been announced yet. Oh I'm going to the Give It A Name Tour show in london though there's 6 of us going. There's some ridiculously good bands playing. Coheed and cambria, finch, alexisonfire, etc. Or at le... ]]> ~amonotoneromance http://amonotoneromance.deviantart.com/journal/4511360/ http://amonotoneromance.deviantart.com/journal/4511360/ Sun, 06 Feb 2005 11:26:53 PST ~amonotoneromance http://amonotoneromance.deviantart.com/journal/4497661/ http://amonotoneromance.deviantart.com/journal/4497661/ Fri, 04 Feb 2005 16:01:50 PST ~amonotoneromance http://amonotoneromance.deviantart.com/journal/4413040/ http://amonotoneromance.deviantart.com/journal/4413040/ Tue, 25 Jan 2005 16:15:58 PST
checkth: ~paperxhearts ~inkstainxstars
my clubsth: *thecomatorium *camerawhore ]]> ~amonotoneromance http://amonotoneromance.deviantart.com/journal/4386492/ http://amonotoneromance.deviantart.com/journal/4386492/ Sat, 22 Jan 2005 15:29:27 PST Step One: Go out and get death cab for cutie albums. right now. dont go downloading it. go out to every music store in your area and buy it this very minute. make sure to get The Photo Album.
Step Two: Listen to said albums. Make sure you listen to Title And Registration, Wait, Blacking Out The Friction, Styrofoam Plates, I Was A Kaleidoscope, and Steadier Footing.
Step Three: Feel that? Correct. Your heart is now melted. And if you thought you could write lyrics, well done! you now have absolutely no faith in your abilities anymore. A job well done!

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Seriously though. Death cab for cutie aren't exactly hot new news. I've liked them for a while. But i actually bothered to buy The Photo Album today. And fuck. It's one of the most beautiful albums I've ever heard. Along with Give Up by Mr Ben hi-im-stupidly-good-at-this-and-make-it- seem-easy gibbard's other project, the orgasmically good The Postal Service.
I think its safe to say a 'feeling' and 'listening to' really arent necessarily. Over and out. <3 ]]> ~amonotoneromance http://amonotoneromance.deviantart.com/journal/4370712/ http://amonotoneromance.deviantart.com/journal/4370712/ Thu, 20 Jan 2005 16:42:49 PST
I'm currently listening to Cursive. Seriously one of my very favourite bands now, I recommend going out and picking up The Ugly Organ. Or if you're a cheap skate, go and get Burst And Bloom, a shorter album so less money, but worth it for The Great Decay alone. Well to be honest at this VERY second I'm listenin to some Mighty Mighty Bosstones (Where'd You Go) on my friend kerm's myspace page *dances* my myspace page if anyone cares is [link]

So yeah. I've just been pondering how genuine one of my best friends is. It's worrying, but there's not exactly anything I can do. Today I was messing on with taking random pics in my kitchen. Out of the like 40 I took, I was able to salvage roughly 3. I was immensly pleased at how My Six Beautiful Bullets turned out Then tonight instead of going out and getting drunk and spending all my money pointlessly, I've just relaxed in the house. Worn away some more skin on my fingertips with excessive amounts of guitar.

I'd forgotten how immensly talented some artists on here are. It's really quite frustrating thinking I'll never be that good. I don't think I'm doing too bad for having had my camera less than a month, but it still bugs me. And god drawing. It just pisses me off. I really want to be able to draw well, I just can never be arsed to sit down and draw what I want to draw. I wouldn't say I'm bad at art at all, I'd just like to be able to draw ~paperxhearts -esque things. It'd be handy to have an A3 or A1 scanner, I have some big paintings I've done that I like far more than any of my crappy drawings, but since I can scan them..I might take a photo sometime.

Not too long left of school time left thank christ. I need to get college applications sorted out really quick, preferably in the next week or so.

Next tuesday is My chemical romance & taking back sunday. I really cannot wait. It's gonna be so immense. woo for gerard and his hotness and coolness. I would quite like to take my camera to get some shots, but then I wouldnt be able to go into the. 'pit'. I hate that word. It conjures up deathmetal-slipknot-esque images to me. But yeah. I wouldn't be able to go in there. So I think i might just end up not taking it. It'll be an amazing gig either way. And that's it. Have a nice week people. over & out <3.

currently listening to: Well on my desk in front of me I have Cursive, bright eyes, from autumn to ashes and emmanuel. So that, + at the drive in, oh and also some random old school game midis that ~name-ihavenoname chose to send me. Could almost be The Faint.
feeling: Left out, fairly disonnected. But alright.
For drawing coolness:
For writing coolness: &
For insanity:
My Clubs: <<{*camerawhore} ]]> ~amonotoneromance http://amonotoneromance.deviantart.com/journal/4354128/ http://amonotoneromance.deviantart.com/journal/4354128/ Tue, 18 Jan 2005 17:32:07 PST
I still gotta pre order bright eyes' two new albums. Both sound great. go to [link] to listen to 4 tracks from both (as in two per album). And i cant wait to go see him live with danneho. if i can get. i still wanna go to the mars volta. i dunno whats gonna happen. probably end up going to neither knowing my luck. tbs&mcr next week. god thatll be great. like both bands, love mcr, dear god gerard is so cool/hot. and not pudgy! yay! Hopefully shall be going to london for photoness n general crazyness. More on that when i have more than 30 seconds to finish this journal. over n out. <3

listening to: bright eyes: Lua
feeling: less shit than i did yesterday. ]]> ~amonotoneromance http://amonotoneromance.deviantart.com/journal/4344798/ http://amonotoneromance.deviantart.com/journal/4344798/ Mon, 17 Jan 2005 16:40:35 PST no. fuck that. im fucking determined to show them all i can write that lyric, i can play that melody, i can write that song, i can paint that masterpiece, i will take that photo. And theres no way im leaving this place before i do. But it passes. Like the new moon. I was watching that the other day. Considered taking a photo. Then remembered there's been a million and one people before me that have looked up at the same moon in the same position and took a photo, whats the point in even trying to make a difference. Although i do feel some strange urge to stick around to see what happens. I think its more just curiosity to see how people around me turn out, rather than high expectations for whats gonna happen in my life. Im not gonna ramble on about if only i loved someone and they loved me all would be perfect. Because we all know how redundant that train of thought is. It's highly likely its never gonna happen. In fact i know it wont. And yet i still wanna stick around and see how things turn out. Damn you curiosity. No one at school would miss me if i was gone. Not that i particularly care since i hate 98% of my school. But even the people i hang out with. Wouldnt even notice if i was gone. Or care.

Ah well. I continue writing my shit lyrics. I continue writing my shit songs. I continue taking my shit photos. I continue loving the pointless hope ill be loved back. And thats all i have to say to end this whiny angsty journal. over n out. <3

check out: ~inkstainxstars for writing brilliance
~paperxhearts for drawing brilliance
~name-ihavenoname (if i got that right) if you have no life and want some brief insane humour. ]]> ~amonotoneromance http://amonotoneromance.deviantart.com/journal/4303986/ http://amonotoneromance.deviantart.com/journal/4303986/ Wed, 12 Jan 2005 15:59:33 PST
So my good compadre gavo (amazing guitarist) came round to mine yesterday and we took part in some much overdue jamming. And he reckons im better than him (hes lying/is very wrong btw) which since he is one of the main reasons i started playing guitar, and why i learned things such as double tapping (to prove i could do it lmao), it was great to be appreciated. especially when hes been playing forlike three times as long as me. Anyways. We played some lush stuff just improv. So we're making it a regular thing. He has material he's written with his last band we can develop, i have plenty of stuff, we can both play bass almost as well as we can play guitar, i can write lyrics, and we can program drums on recording software. So we're set. Were just gonna continue jamming and developing stuff, and record stuff when we feel we should. And i dunno, if all goes well and we end up wanting to gig and have normal band practises, we can try and recruite some more members. I hope things go well, i need something going right to cheer me up lol

I get my maths gcse result tomorrow. I'm not too worried since i took intermediate. I'm a maths dumbass but when compared to doing stupidly difficult higher papers intermediate wasn't too bad. I'd be easily happy with a B edit: I did get a B >

I gotta say. My track record with girls isn't the most impressive ever. Over the past year or two this is roughly what results ive had, in no apparent order: had a boyfriend, was in love with someone else, didnt want me, went off me, had a boyfriend, liked my friend, liked my friend. whatever, you get the idea. I blame myself. Something i do wrong *nods*.

I WILL be submitting many more pics. When i can be bothered. It just takes so long to do lol stupid dial up.

xxx ]]> ~amonotoneromance http://amonotoneromance.deviantart.com/journal/4270307/ http://amonotoneromance.deviantart.com/journal/4270307/ Sat, 08 Jan 2005 14:22:40 PST

So I got round to writing a concept album. go me. It's only five songs, and not what i was gonna write, so it's more of a concept 'ep' lol. I'll write a longer, better one eventually. But yah. There tis, in my gallery.

Recently. I've become an at the drive-in obsessie. I now have all four albums. They really are (or were, rather) a fucking amazing band. I seriously recommend you pick up some of their stuff. The mars volta's new album comes out in febuary, cant fuckin wait for that. I'm trying to get to see them when they come to the uk but with manchester gig sold out, london and i think birmingham are looking. difficult. and i dont know if i have anyone to go with.

Anyways. Life's alright i guess at the minute. With obvious exceptions. But man. Tsunami stuff. So depressing. I usually obviously feel sad for things like this. But I actually got upset watching the news reports the other day. Puts things in perspective i guess.

current music: copious amounts of at the drive in. with some coheed and cambria.

xxxx ]]> ~amonotoneromance http://amonotoneromance.deviantart.com/journal/4191593/ http://amonotoneromance.deviantart.com/journal/4191593/ Thu, 30 Dec 2004 08:09:30 PST
Ku was the usual mix of drunken fun dancing and feeling terrible, with the standard mix of drunken denial. I enjoyed it on the whole but. My minds elsewhere i guess. I'll just continue 'thinking happy thoughts' peter pan has never looked so smoking hot fo sho lmao. You should've brought the sword!!

I've been thinking over ideas for photos and songs. I still wanna do a concept album. I have a vague story in my head, but i dont know how it'll work out, i'm gonna start writing soon though. Photo wise, im stealing ~ paperxhearts 's old idea: songs. I would very much like attempt to try and photograph some songs. Whether its just a lyric, or the song title, or just the feeling it gives lol, it'd be cool to try.

I purchased some mics. Two mics for two pounds from poundland lmao. Theyre such pieces of crap, but they're actual mics not toys aand they work, so i'm not complaining. I need to fashion some form of mic stand now lol. So now i can get on attempting to record some of my shiz. I cant sing for shit, buuut i may as well try.

Check out:
~ my gallery
~ my scraps
~ ~paperxhearts / ~PinkTractorbeam

happy new year
xxxxxxxxxxxxxxxxxx<3>xxxxxxxxxxxxxxxxxxxxx ]]> ~amonotoneromance http://amonotoneromance.deviantart.com/journal/4176367/ http://amonotoneromance.deviantart.com/journal/4176367/ Tue, 28 Dec 2004 10:28:57 PST ..::I need you now, more than I ever did, I'll hand myself over for you...here take me instead, I'd rather not see her all alone::..

I've submitted quite a few photos of the batch I've taken since I got my camera, the ones I felt suitable to be deviations. I'll probably submit some more in scraps (so keep an eye on them please), and on my livejournal [link]
so keep an eye on that also

If you're looking at my page for the first time, take a minute to look at my gallery please, there's many songs in there as well

In personal news, all i have to say is.
Sigh.

xxxxxxxxxxxxxxxxx<3>xxxxxxxxxxxxxxxxxxx ]]> ~amonotoneromance http://amonotoneromance.deviantart.com/journal/4144118/ http://amonotoneromance.deviantart.com/journal/4144118/ Fri, 24 Dec 2004 09:34:00 PST I felt great, not too lonely, and actually rather christmasy...shouldve known that wouldnt last long

aaanyways. as fake as christmas is. its still christmas. so mmmeerrryyy ccchhhrrriiistttmmmaasss. 'I love you to death'. I really do make a tit of myself when im drunk sometimes lol. But i do, to all, so yeah. uhm. have a nice day. xxx ]]> ~amonotoneromance http://amonotoneromance.deviantart.com/journal/4068044/ http://amonotoneromance.deviantart.com/journal/4068044/ Tue, 14 Dec 2004 18:09:33 PST I really wanna. I intend to write a story (i dont know how long, it may not be that good or that developed, just a story). And then write lyrics around it. An albums worth, if i can and it'd be cool if could draw pics/ a manga on it. I'm working on story ideas at the minute. I'm figuring out names for characters (which will all mean something), and then ill get down to drafting ideas. It may take a while. But it'll be done eventually.

On a side note: i feel a bit better tonight

xxx ]]> ~amonotoneromance http://amonotoneromance.deviantart.com/journal/4042968/ http://amonotoneromance.deviantart.com/journal/4042968/ Sat, 11 Dec 2004 14:15:02 PST I write to remember, cuz I'm a million miles away

Aaah. At The Drive In. I'm slowly becoming obsessed with cedric and omar's stylee. The Mars Volta. At the drive in. so. bloody. good. I bought two At the Drive In albums today. Relationship of Command, aaand the other ones name slippsed my mind. In Transmission Out or something along those lines. £6.97 people. Ya gotta love music zone. So yeah both very quality albums, relationship is like legendary, so its better, but still. Aaaand the lyrics still make as little sense as tmv well ok they make a lil more sense. but still uber vagueness. But good! go buy! now!! I also saw The Mars Volta's EP. which is most rare. Twas on import in HMV. but it was 11 fucking quid and it only has three tracks on so screw that. Their new album comes out in like january. ill be purchasing that and sloowlly becoming obsessed with it of course. See you there ?

God I'm such a fucking lame ass. It's like im in this pit. Of liking. And I've made a little camp there. And Oh my! I even have lil marshmallows for toasting! and then i think oh this is stupid i shall leave now. So i try to climb up the steep slope. And then. Laughs and smiles. And its like many many small, yet horribly deadly, knives sticking in my chest, and i fall back down again. And then it's made even worse by the fact it aint me making the laughs and smiles be produced. So there I am. Lying awkwardly in some mud. That's me down there. Being lame. One day i'll be cool *nods* when im famous and adored by screaming emo girls i'll be cool lmfao. It'd be cool if you loved me. Yeah. That would rock. Like look theres some socks and dear lord they are-a-rocking. They;re stripeh too. Andand. Theres suspenders and theyre a rocking. If i wear them and rock with em will ya looove me? hehe. Perhaps if i just stop being. inferior you might eventually. Although i highly doubt it. He's farrr better than me. If i was you i'd like him more than me too lmao. You're far better than me. its like
--- you & him











---emma

--- me
--- everyone else (yeah im still cooler than everyone else booya hahah. with the exception of friends of course. Our friends are cooler than me.)

GO CHECK HER STUFF OUT. This being. pointless since its pretty much only her that looks at any of the crap i do lmao. but if youre reading this in passing, go look at her immense stuff. She's also farrr cooler than yoouuu. And can dance the dance of life like you wouldn't believe babeh.

Next gig iiiss... Taking Back Sunday & My Chemical Romance i think. Which will be immense. And then theres like green day, maybes the used, yadyada. I also may be travelling to manchester to see Biffy Clyro which would be fucking brilliant. Gah. so good. But i dunno if thatll happen. I also reallly wanna go see The Mars Volta in Manchester in March. that would be fucking brilliant also.

You ever feel so stupidly inferior you doubt anyone would genuinly miss you if a bus swerved off the road and hit you? Like. with the exception of your family and maybes one random person. Lmao im so fucked up. I'm in a right state at the minute. There's days when i feel absolutely mint. And then other days when i feel horribly horribly horribly shit. Then there's the days when i try to deal with it and get on with things. And gah. I fucking. ruin things for everyone. Not in the way of breaking hearts. No ones stupid enough to care enough for me for me to break their heart. Uhm. Maybes im fucked up. A fucked up lame ass. Great. Apparently i shouldnt be feeling this at my age. I try not to! I don't wanna ruuuin things for people. It's like. A big concern of mine. Even when i feel like shit. I dont like feeling worse because im making someone else feel worse or getting in the way of something or upsettting someone. Yet. I probably do. I just would like. People to like me. I'm not bothered about being stupidly popular. Or people adoring me. Just like. "Oh there's sean *no sarcastic remarks*". If i was fucking funny that would help. This is a thing with me folks. I think if im not funny. People wont like me. And man. People who arent even that witty. Or sarcastically funny. Get roars of... ]]> ~amonotoneromance http://amonotoneromance.deviantart.com/journal/4033483/ http://amonotoneromance.deviantart.com/journal/4033483/ Fri, 10 Dec 2004 08:35:49 PST ~amonotoneromance http://amonotoneromance.deviantart.com/journal/3973859/ http://amonotoneromance.deviantart.com/journal/3973859/ Thu, 02 Dec 2004 16:25:48 PST ...like violence you kill me forever and after...

and that, my friends, was blink. 1. 8. fucking 2. <333

points of interest you happy happy campers

1) we were late, and hte doors opened early, and she got pissed off at me and ditched me. that sucked.

2) i spent the majority of the gig wondering where she was. and then i found her. that was cool.

3) i lost after the first song of blinks set lmao. but it was still uberly fun, and i was with helen so that was fine.

4) they werent as bad as i heard they are live. and the atmosphere and everything was stunning. and i reallly enjoyed myself. like really. it was exactly what i needed, a night of pure fun and live music. so yay.

5) they played violence. ill tell ya something. new year. the start of this whole thing. sat there with her listening to violence in the dark. yeps. shes pretty. and despite it meaning nothing to her. it really means something to me. so violence is like my lil reminder of her. and they played it really well. but unfortunatly she wasnt there when they played it, shed drifted somewhere else. but it was still cool. and gah. just in general.

6) if blink are coming to an area near you GO SEE THEM. ]]> ~amonotoneromance http://amonotoneromance.deviantart.com/journal/3840896/ http://amonotoneromance.deviantart.com/journal/3840896/ Mon, 15 Nov 2004 12:04:26 PST [link] ]]> ~amonotoneromance http://amonotoneromance.deviantart.com/journal/3481703/ http://amonotoneromance.deviantart.com/journal/3481703/ Thu, 30 Sep 2004 15:51:30 PDT . so my name is Sean, im 15 year old who loves le art but isnt really that amazing at it lol. i play guitar a lot, and im in a band, yay for that. This is my second DA account, my other one being tobethelastone and i will be using some of my favourite stuff off that on here. I'll finally be getting my good camera at christmas, so thats what i intend to use this account for. But in the meantime, anything i post will be song lyrics (which i write quite a bit), the occasional drawing (if i ever draw anything i like, im pretty bad at the minute, lol, or if youre lucky a story (probably short), which i can actually write, huzzah for literature.

be nice with comments, lol, advice is welcomed. ]]> ~amonotoneromance