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Feeling Alive

=angelbabiau — Sun, 11 Oct 2009 22:43:24 PDT

I just survived 8 days with no husband, no car and 4 crazy ( ill ) children. Nothing like that to put your life into perspective. I nearly burnt the house down... that was the worst of it really , the rest is now just a blur, packed tightly away into memory storage for moments of weakness. I just need to pull it out and realize what I have and appreciate it as much as I do today

I also took my oldest friend back to the airport this morning.He texted me as soon as he got off the plane in SLC Friday night and My Daughter texted me right after... saying Tom had got home finally (after much hunting drama) made it home.Instant relief for me. I had to ask favors to go pick him up because a passenger didn't want to deviate off course with Tom. I thought it would be hilarious for two guys decked out in all their hunting gear to go pick up my bestest gay male friend without me. friend would have seen the humor in it...as would my other half but no.... it was all about the passenger!! LOL.

Anyways... even though hubby was exhausted and sick, he graciously took us all on a little trip late yesterday and I got to dust off the camera. That highway will soon be closed off for the Winter but I wish I could be dropped off for a day up there, to just wander and take pictures. I feel passionate again about this and I feel very happy to be alive and very loving towards all of the people that mean the world to me.

There is no better feeling than to love...doesn't matter what it is..or who they are, just to

Crawling Out Of The Hole....

=angelbabiau — Tue, 07 Jul 2009 14:47:44 PDT

Feeling better once again...so thank you Been tracking down people from the past, mainly my mums friends and it's been really lovely catching up, It's been forever...20 years in some cases but that's the beauty of Facebook. I miss the old days, the carefree days. Life seems to dramatic lately, through no real fault of my own but somethings you just can't help. Shit happens, usually for a reason too...but yeah, I'm finding a way to deal with it all.

Spent 4 nights in the mountains for the 4th of July. I really enjoyed it, we all did. It was well over a year since we last hit the great outdoors, for more than a day. My photography has suffered in that time but I think I got a few good shots away, nothing fantastic but it's a start at least.

Can't believe this year is half way over already....slow down!!!! LOL.

Leenie

Complications

=angelbabiau — Sat, 27 Jun 2009 21:39:32 PDT

Nothing has been going right for quite sometime...I'm at the same stage I was 10 years ago...only it's taken me half the time to get back here again, to the point where I can't see any real way out. I can't talk to my other half....I think we hate each other actually and just this past week, I was more than willing to sacrifice everything I have ever believed in....just to make this work.I'm giving in....I don't yet know exactly what that means but all I know is, we are not exactly friends anymore and I don't feel as though what I was planning to do would really make things any better. I can't take the drama anymore. Ignorance is bliss if your the one giving out....

Basically what I am saying is...until I find myself again, I'm never going to be me, I'm never going to be creative. I feel like I can't be happy...ever. The happiness I had is gone forever and even though this is stupid to say, I feel so alone right now.

This is all amplified by being thousands of miles from my own damn country....my family and what few real friends I have made in this life.

It's all dark and gloomy but even though I can't see it yet..it will pass.Right?

:)

=angelbabiau — Sun, 24 May 2009 15:43:50 PDT

I didn't know they made it easier to change your journal CSS hehe.... learn something new every day

Time To Clear My Messages

=angelbabiau — Sat, 25 Apr 2009 06:56:49 PDT

I am 4,369 messages behind and I just replied to the first page....that's as far as my attention span will allow me get I'm afraid. Consider this 'starting over' and completely nothing personal, I just have to clear them away....cleanse my self...maybe then can I keep on top of it all.

In other news, I'm feeling better. I'm slowing down on drinking...I even went to bed at some crazy hour last night and that's why I am up at this crazy hour. I have really been awake since 4:44am, I just didn't want to get up.I was hoping to suggest we get out of the house this weekend and go have a photo day but it's ugly outside....

I'm going to go back to bed though, try and dream.... it's spooky quiet right now , I prefer staying up late and it be this way.

Have a wonderful day / weekend

Leenie

6 Months and 2 days...hehe

=angelbabiau — Fri, 17 Apr 2009 01:09:41 PDT

(Since my last update).... that is Soooo sad for a Leenie. I'm jumping in now before I am totally lost into the Deviant art historical section, if they have one..if not...get one for people like me.... I have nothing new to offer, life has been busy in other areas and I know that is hard for a die hard to understand.( How can you go a day without picking up a pencil, a brush...a damn good camera? ) I am trying to live again....it's very hard at times and we all know winter sucks, even an insane amount of snow this year as left me high and dry , and Spring....another story, still uninspired. Right when we are all meant to be coming out of hibernation....I sit right here on my ass, dreaming of what could be, what should be...and yet, not having the energy to put my dreams into action. I used to be able to dream of things and magically they would happen. Now...I have to beg and still nothing. WTG ?

Still somethings never change,

Im completely stressed out

I drink way to much...worse than the way too much before ( but I am listening to the inner voice ) I feel like a female Oliver Reed...bless his heart. However..Im smarter than to appear on any "Intervention" show.I will get myself out of this....................

__________________________________________________________________________________________________________________________

I need to learn to be me without drinking so much...because I damn well know I am me... I just don't feel I am convincing enough to prove that to you. Why should I? Because that's the way I roll...

Love you all. Im almost back

Back but not.....

=angelbabiau — Wed, 15 Oct 2008 22:58:38 PDT

The creative juices are not exactly flowing...STILL! It's been a year of not doing anything exciting...like camping, going for short drives...bla bla. There are only so many around the house shots my little brain can deal with and I don't see anything worthy of late. When I do apply myself all my pictures suck, I feel as though I have completely lost it but the inner voice tells me that I'm just being a drama queen, a true artist never really loses it after all, They just get lost in in life, in themselves....something like that.

If I don't get it together this year...it will certainly be my number 1 priority, my New Years resolution

Aside from not drinking so much and socializing....any pointers? Love to hear them

Back.....

=angelbabiau — Wed, 28 May 2008 22:47:17 PDT

A huge thank you for all the comments and the features and a thousand apologies for being totally absent and out of touch......

Took a 2 month break from everything I usually enjoy, Photography... Blogging... Coffee. I finally snapped out of it today and did all 3 things. Pic's aren't that wonderful, I have felt very uninspired....missed the Daffodils and Tulips, haven't left the house to go anywhere significant so nothing spectacular from me I'm afraid.

All is well though. Not too much stressing, relatively happy.... rare crappy moments. Kinda like I am on medication, or how I would imagine it should work...lol. No dark depressing thoughts... it's been strange.

I have also been hooked on something very different for me , Second Life. I don't like playing games as a rule, I don't like the tension...but this is different for some reason. Maybe it's because I don't have a first life...haha! I have been having fun building stuff and made a 2 story gallery for some of my pics. I bought land...I've lost 80lbs, I get new hair every week, I sometimes go kill Zombies for fun and I don't have 5 kids, I don't even have 1...lol. I'm not as addicted as I first was but it still makes killing time fun. I really want to do the clothes making thing and I have tried but I sucked at it. I will try again when I grow some patience...there is some money to be made in that area Hubby is happy I am finally doing something with him.... so I guess that's why things are running smoothly

I have a load of catching up to do and I will get started on that tomorrow.

For now, I'm off to bed.

Sweet dreams

Moving along...

=angelbabiau — Tue, 25 Mar 2008 23:10:33 PDT

I am transitioning from Winter to Spring and I have temporarily gone off being online, making the most of my energy spurt on other more important things than taking pictures( Did I just say that ? ). I haven't even begun to tackle the garden as yet, While not a total lost cause I do feel I have a LOT to do to make it work this Summer. Last year I planted wild flowers everywhere and Hubby accidentally sprayed weed killer on all of them...lol. I gave up after that.

Everyone in the house is on to round 2 of another virus.... So far I have been spared. Having to deal with the little ones griping takes a lot of my energy away ....hence the lack of anything new here. I wish I could be a Wife, a Mother and creative as well at any given time...no matter what. It just doesn't work that way with me. However I am feeling the other 2 are neglected so to speak. It is frustrating.

Anyways...bed time once again. Have a wonderful rest of this week

Back as soon as I can.

Horny Goat Weed

=angelbabiau — Thu, 20 Mar 2008 23:40:44 PDT

I just had to...

You know those little energy pills sold at gas stations etc? Well...today I came across "horny goat weed pills" I laughed out loud while waiting in line. 1...because it sounds like total bullshit. 2. because it reminded me of my friend telling me that horses go nuts after chewing wild tobacco, in Australia anyways. 3. The guy selling was a middle eastern man( Iraq to be exact)... and I have seen infrared, military footage of what the poor goats are subjected to when times are tough. Don't get me wrong... weird happens all over planet earth and I am the least racist person you will ever meet. Just cracked me up " stereotypically" speaking.

He told me to tell him how they go. Yeah right...haha!! Hubby is long gone and I only just got the kids to bed who were having a blast, painting each others faces, It was a fun night

Have great weekend... Happy Easter !!!

More Time killing

=angelbabiau — Tue, 18 Mar 2008 21:37:20 PDT

From Tricia's place

[ ] I am shorter than 5'4__ I AM 5Â4
[ ] I think I'm ugly __ Ugly no, comfortable noÂ.Happy, No !

[ ] I have many scars__ I have a big one from recent months and 2 C-Section scars.

[] I tan easily__ I do

[ x] I wish my hair was a different color___ No, IÂm happy being a Brunette.
[ x] I have friends who have never seen my natural hair color__ No

[x ] I have a tattoo__ Just 1
[x] I am self-conscious about my appearance__ I am, I donÂt leave the front door looking like crap if I can help it.
[x] I have/I've had braces__ Never

[x] I wear glasses__ only for beading.
[ ] I would get plastic surgery if it were 100% safe, free of cost, and scar-free. __ Yes, I would get if it were only 25% safe, full price and I can live with the scars.
[x] I've been told I'm attractive by a complete stranger__ Yes, not that I believe them..haha.

[ ] I have more than 2 piercings __ I have 3

[ ] I have piercings in places besides my ears. __Yes

Family/Home Life

[x] I've sworn at my parents__ As terrible as that sounds, yes, I have and recently but itÂs all good, still love.

[] I've run away from home.__ I never ran away from home, I just avoided it for a few weeks.
[] I've been kicked out of the house. __No

[] My biological parents are together__ They separated when I was 6 but remained married until my Mum died in Â89.
[x] I have a sibling__ I have a little brother, Justin whom I miss dearly.
[x] I want to have kids someday__ I have 5 of them now, no more kiddiesÂlol.
[ ] I've had children__ see above

[ ] I've lost a child__ No and I donÂt wish to either.

[] Have a spoiled sibling__ No

School/Work

[] I'm in school __ I got the heck out of there as soon as I was legally able to.

[ ] I have a job. __Yes, IÂm a Housewife.
[x] I've fallen asleep at work/school. No

[ ] I almost always do my homework __ I did, out of fear.
[x] I've missed a week or more of school__ More than likely

[ ]I've been on the Honor Roll within the last few years. Nope

[] I've stolen something from my job __ I worked in the food industry, I nibbledÂguess thatÂs stealing.

[ x] I've been fired__ Never, I always got every job I went for too
[ ] Do home schooling__ I did, correspondence they called it.

Embarrassment

[x] I've slipped out a "lol" in a spoken conversation. CrapÂno, but I have thought it.

[x ] Disney movies still make me cry__Lion King does
[] I've peed from laughing__ YeahÂshh

[x] I've snorted while laughing. __ I am a Piscean pig, so yeahÂI have.

[x] I've laughed so hard I've cried__Oh yesÂ.

[] I've glued my hand to something intentionally__ Nope

[ ] I've had my pants rip in public__ No, but my zipper was down on my jeans recently at the store and as only a select few know, I donÂt wear underwear (unless itÂs a Dr visit day) and I probably could have been done for indecent exposure if it wasnÂt Hubby that spotted "it" before anyone else didÂhaha!

[x] Fell down on my face __Probably just donÂt recall.
Health

[x] I was born with a disease/impairment. __ Does ADD count?

[x] I've gotten stitches/staples. __Both

[] I've broken a bone__ Never, touch wood

[x ] I've had my tonsils removed__ Nope

[x] I've sat in a doctorÂs office/emergency room with a friend. Yes

[x] I've had my wisdom teeth removed__ When I was 22

[x] I had a serious surgery__2 times
[x] I've had chicken pox__ Yes, 1978, Papua New Guinea

Traveling

[x] I've driven over 200 miles in one day. __Yes

[x] I've been on a plane__ Yes, even flown one several times.

[ ] I've been to Canada__Nope
[ ] I've been to Mexico.__Nope

[ ] I've been to Niagara Falls. __Not yet

[ ] I've been to Japan__ A few times
[ ] I've celebrated Mardi Gras in New Orleans. Not yet
[ x] I've been to Europe. __ Once and only for a day

[x ] I've been to Africa__ No but I was married to a South African/ English guy
[x ] I've been out of my home country__ I havenÂt seen my home country for 5 years
[ x] I've Been in Thailand __No

[ ] I've been in Philippines. __Nn, just Singapore

Experiences

[x] I've gotten lost in my city. __I...

First Daily Deviation

=angelbabiau — Mon, 17 Mar 2008 12:47:27 PDT

Thank you very much ArchanN : And thank you all for the comments, 's and the 's ...... much appreciated

Happy St Patrick's Day !!!

2 minutes till midnight

=angelbabiau — Fri, 14 Mar 2008 23:07:13 PDT

And i'm going to bed...I hate that! I am tired however, creativity zeroed for the day, is it age creeping up? I hope not. Maybe Deviant will still be going when I'm 80 and i will have finally wedged myself into some kind of productive groove....maybe when I'm that age I will have got my *%!^ together....I doubt it though, I am me for a reason, a reason yet to come to grips with.

I do love you my friends.....I appreciate you and I hope one day I can show you that. I am a "I have to prove it girl", just don't have it in me right now. Hang in there.

Have a great weekend

Tagged

=angelbabiau — Sat, 08 Mar 2008 23:11:56 PST

By....

8 Things about me.....

1. Write these rules.
2.Each tagged person must write a journal with 8 things about he/her-self.
3.Finally he/her has to tag other 8 people.
4.Go to their dA's page and write they've been tagged.

The things about me...Leenie

1. My real name is Helena (Leenie is what my family called me as a child and not many people call me Helena unless it's official or they are pissed at me ,family included) I was named after my Great Grandmother who was born 101 years before me.

2. I have chronic ADD, I can be a space cadet...I'm hardly ever "here" but I do have brains even though it hurts to use them sometimes.

3. I'm nice...don't have a mean bone in my body unless you have done me wrong and even then, I will still love you.

4. I have seen and experienced a lot of things in the first 15 years of life that one might not ever experience in one lifetime. At age 25 I felt like I was 100 and now that I am 37 I don't know how I should feel.

5. I recall my own birth and I remember many baby moments, I remember my dreams back then as I do now and I remember talking to "GOD" as a little girl. I have always been guided my something not of this world...something spiritual and "it" has never done me wrong.

6. After 6 years from meeting my Husband...I still believe he is my Soulmate, I am still in love and I would not change a thing. He makes me happy just as much as he pisses me off....he has brought out a different me, a me that I never knew existed and it's not all bad all the time...hahahaha!

7. I love books, I collect books but I have no patience to sit and read, I have no time either with 5 kids. I am a writer at heart....photography really is a second passion of mine but it is the easiest form of expression for me at this time in my life.

8. I have a fear of rejection..... I have never fully been able to allow myself to be myself , I don't lie, that's not what I mean...I just will only let you see a certain amount of me. I guess I'm slightly paranoid. ....lol. I've always thought deeply into everything and something that has always held me back was the "what if's" If that makes sense. Of course....drinking several bourbons helps ease that pain.

Ok...I will tag anyone who wishes to do this. I'm off to bed. I still have sick Hubby and children....this has been the worst year for viruses so far . It's crazy...... I normally don't catch it but I have been down with something twice in the last month, yet being the Mama, the Wife....one must soldier on. It's hard. Wouldn't have it any other way though....

Happy weekend

Killing Time

=angelbabiau — Thu, 21 Feb 2008 09:35:32 PST

Lifted from Thanks Richard.

1) Answer the questions below
2) Take each answer and type it into dA search box
3) Take a deviation from the first page of results (may use ' popular' or 'newest' ) and post thumb (for subscribers) or link (non-subscribers)
4) You can't copy the persons answers who posted this before you

1. age you will be on your next birthday: 37 ( in 2 days! )
by

2. A place you'd like to travel: Italy
by

3. Your favourite place: By the sea
by

4. Your favourite object: Nikon D200
by

5. Your favoruite food: A big juicy steak
by

6. Your favourite animal: Horse
by

7. Your favourite colour: Blue
by

8. The town/state/etc in which you live: SLC Utah
by

9. Name of past pet: Henri (A cat )

Sick Family

=angelbabiau — Sat, 16 Feb 2008 03:07:31 PST

Extremely sorry about the lack of being "here" . My whole family( 7 of us ) are down with a flu like virus with the kids suffering the worst of it. I just wanted to let you know that I am dying here because I have very little energy left to reply to your comments, visit you...let you know you still matter. I feel BAD!!!!!!. If anyone give a horses you know what it's me...and I feel as though the stitching has come undone....I will never catch up. Haven't picked up the camera for a long time, I have no desire to even try to be creative .

I hate times like this...... I hate it when I cannot escape, reality sucks.....

Back ASAP

Air Head

=angelbabiau — Wed, 16 Jan 2008 09:51:16 PST

A HUGE thank you to my good friend for buying me, his air head friend.... a year on Deviant. I say air head because I didn't even notice until yesterday when I remembered that since installing a new motherboard I hadn't put one of my email addresses in my email set up that I had to redo. That email account is obviously what I set Deviant Art to and yeah, I feel like the worst person on planet earth right now. I had bought a year at around the same time and didn't bother looking at what it said at the top of my page.... Thank you Foxx !!!!

In other news, I have decided to branch out into film photography and I also bid for the 1st time on eBay and got an old 50's Kodak Duaflex for some TTV (through the viewfinder) shots.... and as if that won't keep me busy enough, I also came across an old toy camera, which I read up on after getting home and that should give the same effect as that of a Holga or Diana camera, that was 50 cents...lol. I just want to start collecting old, crappy cameras. I even have the Hubby interested in all of that too. Can't wait to get started on it.

In whats not new news.... I was plastered last night.... I only had 3 drinks (red wine) but I felt the full effect of why you shouldn't drink while on medication. Somehow dinner was ready and my washing for the day was drying in the dryer.... just as soon as T walked in the door I had to go and went outside to our camp trailer and curled up in a sleeping bag and fell asleep. It was a combination of being nagged all day by master 3, the meds and the wine. I just needed some alone time. It was only about 8f which is -13c . I was warm though and I got a little bit of peace out there.

Back soon

Happy New Year !

=angelbabiau — Fri, 11 Jan 2008 08:37:21 PST

I hope that the new year is off to a wonderful start for everyone. All is well with us.....no complaints I haven't been anywhere or done anything exciting for a while now....I think we are hibernating. I have felt a major lack of creative inspiration for weeks. Tried to get some snowflakes and T bought me a tube extension set but I haven't really figured out how it works....I will in time, I'm just slow and the instructions are not in English....

Happy Friday....

Merry Christmas

=angelbabiau — Mon, 24 Dec 2007 19:20:04 PST

Hope you all have a wonderful, safe Christmas Day....full of plenty love and cheer. Having a beautiful White Christmas here....several inches on the ground. Never gets old. Toasty inside and I'm pretty well toasted myself. It's a happy night.....

Love you guys !

*

=angelbabiau — Tue, 18 Dec 2007 10:40:31 PST

Still hurting....bad enough not to pick up the camera but feeling a little better. Just a quick entry to get rid of the gore from my page...

A Little Accident

=angelbabiau — Sat, 15 Dec 2007 20:10:36 PST

Last night, while talking to Hubby on my cell phone and taking the garbage out, I slipped on the icy driveway and impaled myself on the broken siding of our house....lol. I had just thrown the garbage in the can...dropped my phone in the snow , picked it up and taken a step, slid on my ass and somehow managed to do a really good job on my arm..... Last Monday I had got the garbage can stuck between the 4wheeler trailer and the house and when Tom went to move it and ripped the corner siding....It's been bothering me all week because It looks horrible..... Then last night it tried to sever my arm...ha ha. Evil house!!!! That's the 1st time in my 4 and a bit snow experience years that I have slipped.

After a slow day at the medical center, the Dr was happy to see me....she said she hadn't seen anything like it for a long while...and later confided that she really enjoyed sewing people up, that she was a sick little girl when young and that her calling to be a Doc was not family related...lol. Alrighty! 6 internal stitches and 20 something outside...45 minutes later and we were done.

Spent today zonked out on pain meds....and tonight I don't want to sleep anymore so I am having a Bourbon instead....and then a few.

Poor Leenie

Before :

After :

It's All Good

=angelbabiau — Sat, 08 Dec 2007 17:12:30 PST

Over my crappy spell and feeling happy....secure, loving and loved and it couldn't have hit me at a better time, We over spent on Xmas for the kids...our Anniversary (4th year), totally broke and just when I thought everything would be ok because we had a freezer full of meat and vegies downstairs I discover the damn thing had been unplugged for at least a week and everything had thawed out and is spoiled. Grrrr! Unbelievable!!!!

Shit happens though...you live, you learn and you can't let life get you down

Happy weekend

An update of sorts

=angelbabiau — Fri, 30 Nov 2007 08:50:34 PST

We have a major winter storm on the way which will hopefully mean plenty of white stuff . I hate it being this cold without snow. Sunday I will hopefully get a chance to take some new pictures as we head off in search of Elk. It's hunting time and I enjoy the experience. It's not a thrill thing, it's simply feeding the family. If it were killing for fun.... I wouldn't want to be there, that's the kind of hunting I don't approve of. I couldn't own cows and then kill them for food either, I get attached...lol. One of the guys from Hubbies work also raises cows and a few people went in on half a beef through him. A few months later we got a thank you card in the mail...with a picture of the cow we ate which lost a competition. I guess that's why they don't have a picture of the cows on meat packages in the store....most people would rather not see what they are eating (like me) I would be a vegetarian if it were not for the fact that I was deprived of meat as a kid growing up.... Mum and her Hippy lifestyle...lol. Everything was fruit, veges , and grains and I have one thing to be greatful for with that....I rarely get sick, I have a very good immune system.

Ok...enough about my eating preferences.

Having really crazy dreams that go on and on. Haven't done this for a while...usually when I sleep, I sleep and I don't remember my dreams unless they are really disturbing. Obviously the medication I am on is starting to kick in.... it's for stress, I STRESS. It's also an anti depressant which bugs me, didn't want to get started on that but I still feel like me so it can't be that bad. I'm not depressed at all, just moody and the dose is so low that it doesn't work on my mood swings. I still have all my emotions, it just takes me longer to get pissed off...if that makes sense. LOL. The Doc is treating my ADD with stress relief and it's not doing anything at all for motivation.... I'm still my procrastinating self if not a little worse because now I just say "bugger it", I don't like it. As I write now...I am using my good few moments of a morning where I feel energized, the rest of the day is spent thinking of all the things I need to get done.

Dad is back in Aus, currently driving across Cape York from Cairns to Weipa with my little Brother. Had a brief chat to him yesterday morning and he sounded well. He drove 12 hours on that same journey to see me off from Cairns to Japan....had not seen him in 10 years . Sometimes it takes being in another country to appreciate your family that little bit more. We are all close despite the distance though.

My dads little sister is thinking of visiting us again soon.... her Husband is best friends with the Australian Ambassador in Washington, they went to Uni together and they want to visit him and his wife before he probably loses his post with the change of Government. Be great to see her.

Have a great productive weekend everyone and I will catch up soon

Can't sleep :(

=angelbabiau — Wed, 24 Oct 2007 02:53:18 PDT

Had a wonderful 2 nights with Dad here before he left for Florida and got to see the shuttle launch, no delays. I was watching it online and just burst into tears on lift off..I can be emotional at the drop of a hat. This time it was happiness for him to be seeing it in the flesh though, I can imagine a joyous tear was shed under his dark sunglasses. He deserved this

It's just after 3 am and I can't sleep. Meds and a late night cup of coffee messed me up. I just wanted an extra hour alone and in peace, after all had gone to bed. That was 4 hours ago...and now I can't sleep at all. My son is keeping me company doing his math homework by his computer, in Australia....lol. If I don't sit and think about it being over a year since I last saw him, or the distance between us... it's not too heart breaking. If Australia would only get it's act together with their internet providers and the costs for downloading we could be doing this via web cam. It's ridiculous. Something has to change.

Still waiting for the next creative burst to arrive.... I just have loads I want to do around the house before Dad returns in a couple of weeks. On weekends when the kids are home all day the place turns into a **** fight and when T is home I can't seem to get anything done unless I have my knickers in a knot and distance myself. Then I have to find something constructive to do....and that is usually me taking it out on the cleaning or a walk, usually at some stupid hour listening to something heavy, armed only with anger.

I'm really looking forward to me not being such a moody cow.

Ok... almost 4, will try and sleep.

Catching up soon

I'm Happy

=angelbabiau — Sat, 20 Oct 2007 00:48:10 PDT

Dad should have left New Zealand and is airborne right now...due in LA at 10:30am. Haven't seen him for over 4 years. I have missed my dad most of my life due to parental separation .He is going straight to Florida, and watching a shuttle launch (weather permitting) then on to Washington and then SC to visit a Submarine museum and 4 days later he will be here.

I can't believe he is actually doing it after so much talk....lol. Yay!!

Oh yeah....Monday I have an appointment at Dr's to go back on my ADD meds so expect a more leveled and creative Leenie. I quit as soon as I started medication after falling preggers for the last time nearly 2 years ago.. I couldn't handle witnessing the dog shit of a morning any longer without throwing up and figured it best drug free. Starting to get too many problems like anxiety, mild depression and my hubby has to hint at me to go retrieve his underwear from the basement laundry. Plus my kids walk all over me.

If I'm not here too much over the next week or so it's because I'm getting my house in order, and enjoying my time with Dad. I want to watch the Worlds Fastest Indian with him and then spend 45 minutes driving to the location of part of the movie. I can relate to the buzz he will get. I also want to go camping a few nights in the mountains and freeze our asses off, maybe do a trip to Yellowstone or Las Vegas....or both.

Talk soon...

** Change of Plan** Spur of the moment Dad is 45 minutes from landing here to stay a night or 2 with us. Sick with excitement now...

Us...tonight. God heard me and threw on some snow for Dad.

Trying to start something new

=angelbabiau — Sat, 13 Oct 2007 22:57:32 PDT

You haven't lived...

Until you have :

1. Had a dream come true.

2. Kissed a loved one goodbye when their time was up on planet earth.

3. Swam with crocodiles

4. By accident...stepped on a dead kangaroo's testicles and squished them out of the pouch while bush walking

5. At the age of 14...take your teacher to a gay bar and i'm not even gay!

6 Flown an aircraft while your dinosaur pilot takes a nap when you are only 12 and having to use road maps instead of the real thing on a low tank of gas.. +Having to gain altitude so that we could glide to safety when the shit hits the fan.

7. Come to realize that the nagging voice inside your head should be given the benefit of the doubt...take a chance and folllow it's advice

8. Been a tree hugger at heart but shot at and killed a poor innocent bunny rabbit to prove a point. ( Hubby ate him ).

9. chose life instead of dying...in my case, when my whole world had crumbled....stay seated...or throw myself in front of an oncoming truck. It haunts me now that it was even a consideration because it wasn't really that long ago. Such a low point that I never wish to see again.

10: Been noticed for who you really are

Ok...tagging anyone who wishes to share a little about the "why" of who they are The meaning of life.... whatever .

Cemetery

=angelbabiau — Tue, 09 Oct 2007 23:30:39 PDT

I was thinking today about how I need some peace and quiet, I was thinking that maybe I should leave home as soon as I get the kids off to school and the 2 smaller babies are still asleep and hubby is home and head for the cemetery of all places...that's a nice quiet spot to sit and feel alive....right? There was once a time when I was able to write poetry, short stories, keep journals ( I have every one of them since I was 12)...music and hundreds of letters, my passion was to write and it all came to me so easily. That's all I ever did in my spare time. It all ended with the arrival of my first child though.... I haven't really had spare time after that, at least not of the mental variety and I really want that back. There is more to me than just this Photography is the easiest of ways to express my creative side right now but as you can probably tell... it ends there, I can rarely squeeze my brain hard enough to ooze out a creative title and that depresses the hell out of me because it is there, I know I am capable.

Anyways...I did go to the cemetery today, took a couple of photo's but was side tracked by 1, a suspect looking couple in a Jeep and 2, some crazed lunatic that came flying in in his Ford Bronco at high speed, pulling up to a grave, taking a piss and then speeding off again. I was left wondering if this was a daily thing he did...pissing on some poor souls grave and what the hell did this person do to him to piss him off THAT bad ? Just the way he entered the place oozed intent...he was on a mission. Seriously....that is disturbed and I guess I should be finding my mojo somewhere else other than the cemetery.

Have a great rest of the week

Finally got off my butt ..Features!!!!

=angelbabiau — Sat, 06 Oct 2007 21:49:49 PDT

Awesome people and wonderful photographers In no particular order

Thank you all....

=angelbabiau — Tue, 25 Sep 2007 22:46:04 PDT

I have had so many lovely comments and hundreds of favorites lately that it has been somewhat overwhelming, I haven't had the time to get back to anyone and I feel dreadful but I truly appreciate everyone of you guys, the kind words, the the features and watches . I have been laying off the coffee and it will take me a while to adjust to living without it. We have (Hubby and I) completed the 1st week of P90X and holy crap... the hardest part is the Yoga believe it or not, that and Ab ripper, that's a hard one for me because of 2 c-sections, my weak spot.

Down to business I was tagged by for 8 things about myself. I'm supposed to tag 8 friends but I think most have already done this so I will leave it open to whoever wants to share 8 things.

Ok...

1. I rarely ask for help or favors, I guess it's a phobia of some sort...I just can't bring myself to do it.

2. I'm a Piscean, born in the year of the Pig and I have ADD...not a spectacular combination...lol.

3. My feet rarely touch the ground, I nearly always have my head in the clouds dreaming.... and reality sucks most of the time.

4. I have one tattoo, I would love more but I have a little bit of will power and as addictive as they are... I will stick with just the one.

5. I don't watch TV and rarely sit and watch a movie and I hate playing games online...all 3 bug my husband...lol.

6. I am my own therapist.... I always get through it and try to find the light at the end of the tunnel. The hardest time of my life was my Mum dying...something you never really get over but I did to a degree and I believe we will all get to meet up again elsewhere, there is way to much in this life to just leave behind.

7. My weakness is Bourbon, I'm bitchy if I don't have a drink to unwind at the end of a hard day dealing with housework, 1 7 yo Autistic son, a nagging 9 yo little girl, 9 yo stepson, 3 yo still a terrible 2 and a walking 11 month old....

8. I only use my special powers for good

This would have been more interesting if I was not on rations of drink.

I will get off my butt and do some featuring for my next entry, something I have never done before

Have a great week

Busy Beaver

=angelbabiau — Wed, 12 Sep 2007 08:17:08 PDT

Just an update to move on from the depressive sounding entry....

I'm making jewelry.... the wife of a friend from my husbands work just handed me the job, natural stones... poetic license. I used to do that in Australia, working for a designer who sold world wide, Tiaras were my thing and I was the only one who could sit there for hours on end making up to 200 from scratch a week... and from scratch I mean, cutting wire, shaping by hand and soldering everything together I talked to my old boss about a year ago....she had called my Dad asking where I was so I called her up. She wanted me to leave my new life here in the US and come back and work for her...yeah right. Maybe if my relationship had not turned out with Tom. I wouldn't be here though...I would be in Australia. As much as I love America...I didn't move here for that reason. There really is no place like home and I wouldn't waste time hanging around. I have made 0 friends since moving here...aside from my neighbors.

In other news, My Father is finally booking a ticket to come over in November...I can't wait to see him. It's been 4 years and seeing as though I have spent the majority of my life missing him thanks to separation, it has been tough. We have always been close though (well maybe not the 6 months I lived with him on Badu, we were ready to kill each other lol) We talk at least once a week.

Oh and Hubby and I are going on a diet... I hate diets, I still think I'm ok for having 5 kids, I'm not just a gigantic blubbery ball, I still have shape but I am way over weight and when you get to your mid 30's and he , early 40's, It's hard to loose. So...we invested in the P90X system and a 3 month commitment. It looks pretty intense, I think the guy that does it gets all the stars in shape and buffed everyone for the 300 movie. Should be interesting....lol. So...goodbye man sized steaks I don't eat a lot of sweets , I don't eat breakfast and sometimes miss lunch...actually, I live on coffee most the day so this will be interesting. Kempo, Yoga ...all sorts of things I have never done and I'm glad I have someone to do it with

Have a great rest of the week

What goes up must come down...

=angelbabiau — Wed, 22 Aug 2007 22:44:32 PDT

We had a really nice weekend with surprise visits from Tom's Nephew and new wife who were here on vacation from California. We did a spur of the moment trip to American Fork Canyon on Monday afternoon when I took all those little furry creature shots ( no... I don't know their names...lol) and come Tuesday morning I was feeling deflated and not much better today. Depressed enough for me not to want to do anything at all but I am trying to play catch up tonight, Tom took the kids to the drive in and I first punished myself by doing laundry... then I put the baby to bed. Now I will try to make the most of the peace and just veg out here online before they get back. It's so quiet it's kind of spooky...lol.

My poor husband thinks it's him...but it's not. If I knew what it was I would fix it. Once I know then I am able to figure it all out in my head and come up for air. It doesn't last long.... but for now, I have no idea and that is why I have been slacking in the comments here. When I get like this I can't communicate.

I'm going to shut up now

Thank you for all the comments and the favorites. I will endeavor to catch up on everyones beautiful work when I wake.

Leenie

Moving on from the testicle / leg entry ;)

=angelbabiau — Sat, 11 Aug 2007 19:01:43 PDT

The sun hasn't even gone down yet and I / WE are already toasted. We were going to go fishing but decided to stay home and do nothing instead, there is always tomorrow after all.

Have a great weekend!

?

=angelbabiau — Sun, 05 Aug 2007 00:52:22 PDT

Just about to head to bed and checked my stars....on "My Yahoo" and I have looked at this picture about 20 times over the last week and would dearly love to know if this extra piece of flesh is infact a.... testicle !

[link]

Is it?????????

Poor Bugger!

Don't mind me, I have had a few too many and I'm being game and sharing the depth to which my mind has sunk.

I just gotta know.

Is it?

If it is ......

Devious Journal Entry

=angelbabiau — Mon, 30 Jul 2007 08:18:17 PDT

We are still not organized here and that's why I haven't been around. I can't relax when things are not right...and the rearranging of our house has taken a lot longer than expected. Haven't had a chance to take any new shots. We are hopefully heading to one of the canyons today after school, fishing! Can't wait.... that means I can take photo's of something other than around the house, which is at the moment...littered with boat parts on the outside and piles of crappola on the inside that I can't figure out where to hide...lol. It's all precious of course.... it's mostly things I don't want to see stuffed in boxes, I like my crap close at hand...lol. Tom is exactly the same way but our poor little cottage can't handle it. We really need to extend, the attic is a space wasted and we only have half a basement.... seeing as though winning the lottery is not an option in Utah...that will never happen.

Back with you all as soon as I can to catch up on all your works of art

DO NOT....

=angelbabiau — Wed, 18 Jul 2007 00:32:01 PDT

Try cooking hot soup with cleavage ( especially in 40 c temps ) and try to turn the ham bone with a chefs knife, that's just pure....MORONIC behavior. I flicked boiling hot liquid all over myself.... arghhh! I hate cooking....I don't like playing Mrs Housewife either...I suck at that.

I was a Princess in a past life......

I Was Tagged

=angelbabiau — Thu, 12 Jul 2007 16:10:08 PDT

By WitchOfNature for : Â6 weird habits/facts/dislikes about yourselfÂ

So here goes.....

1. When I was little I used to be obsessive about De-Fleaing my cat and collecting the fleas in small jars to later torture my little brother or any other poor sleeping soul...just so I could laugh silently as they slowly woke from their sleep.

2. I am such a caffeine freak that I will often make a microwave, instant coffee while I await the pot of real stuff to finish brewing

3. The 1st job I ever went for was to work in a Mortuary....to impress my friends. I didn't even get an interview because the guy at the job center was more interested to know about my socialite Aunt, they went to school together...he recognized my rare last name and wanted to know all about her, getting an interview was totally blown off. ( Thank the Lord! ) I would have much preferred Forensic Photography.

4. I have run down a well lit street, naked and under the influence....and I got away with it. I would do it all again if only I had that body back.

5. Everything I have ever wished hard enough for has happened for me... and I think it's because I have always kept these wishes and dreams workable...for whoever grants them. I'm not greedy or far fetched...and I really care deeply about people who's lives touch mine in whatever way...be it in person, online or in the news..., you don't even have to know I know about you...I will still remember you for whatever reason it was that touched me to the point of filing you in my memory bank and every now and again I will pull you out and think it all over. Some people really do carry the weight of the world on their shoulders.

6. I have seen the dead walking.... Friends& family,it is always when you least expect it and not in the least bit frightening as you expected it to be after you sit there in anticipation...scaring yourself, like I did many a time. I have always found the experience rather calming actually...and a relief.

Tagging anyone who wishes to play along because I am having a Brunette moment and don't know how to put peoples Icons into this post....lol.

I'm a slackass

=angelbabiau — Mon, 09 Jul 2007 00:38:37 PDT

And I'm also tired of looking at my 6 yo butt on the previous entry.... Life is busy but it's not so busy that I cannot keep up with this, I'm just going through a quiet phase and it's also tooooo hot to do anything, I wish it was snowing. Anyways...hope you are all well....

I have like 693 of your deviations to catch up on and 128 messages, too overwhelming for me and my ADD affliction..When simple things like my messages get out of control it really messes with my head...I feel bad. There is not enough coffee on planet earth that will help me focus right now but as I said...it will pass. Until then...keep up the great work guys

Wewak 1978

=angelbabiau — Mon, 18 Jun 2007 00:14:01 PDT

That's me with movie camera in hand, New Years Day...1978, Wewak, Papua New Guinea. I was just looking at this picture and I finally realized that I was probably annoying these people. The woman, a friend of Dads, looks totally pissed off. We flew up to Wewak for New Years in a small plane from Goroka where my Father worked. It was party week and that started on the plane, everyone was stoned, including the pilot. We were lucky to get there if you ask me....They were some fun days.... I think it was party week every week actually. It was the 70's!

Dad still has all these movies and I have never seen them, hopefully one day.

Boredom Quiz

=angelbabiau — Wed, 13 Jun 2007 09:26:52 PDT

From [link]

1 ONE OF YOUR SCARS, HOW DID YOU GET IT?
Dived into a dam and cut my leg open on a rock.

2. WHAT IS ON THE WALLS IN YOUR ROOM?
PhotoÂs

3. WHAT DOES YOUR CELL PHONE LOOK LIKE?
Nice and shiny and newÂitÂs a Blackberry.

4. WHAT MUSIC DO YOU LISTEN TO?
Anything from Louis Armstrong to Alternative Rock. I have a preference for angry, pissed off music, not sure why.

5. DO YOU KNOW WHAT TIME YOU WERE BORN?
6:40am

6. WHAT DO YOU WANT MORE THAN ANYTHING RIGHT NOW?
The kids to stay sleeping a little longer so I can finish this.

7. WHAT DO YOU MISS?
My family , the ocean and Australia.

8. EVER BEEN IN LOVE?
Yes

10. WHAT'S YOUR MIDDLE NAME?
Jane

11. DO YOU GET SCARED IN THE DARK?
If I sit and start thinking of ghosts and stuffÂyes.

12. THE LAST THING YOU ATE?
Stew and rice for dinner

13. WHAT IS YOUR FAVOURITE COLOGNE/PERFUME?
Anything by Ana Sui

16. COFFEE OR ENERGY DRINKS?
Coffee.

17. WHAT IS YOUR FAVORITE PIZZA TOPPING?
Mushrooms

18. IF YOU CAN EAT ANYTHING RIGHT NOW, WHAT WOULD IT BE?
Australian Mud Crab

19. WHO IS THE LAST PERSON YOU MADE MAD?
TomÂ. I went outside for some fresh air last night and decided to take a nap in our motor home. DidnÂt tell him where I was. I just needed to escape the childrenÂlol. IÂm AussieÂsometimes we go walk about.

20. DO YOU SPEAK ANOTHER LANGUAGE?
Yes, AustralianÂ. It shouldnÂt be hard to understand but sometimes my husband has a hard time with it.

21. WHAT WAS THE FIRST GIFT SOMEONE EVER GAVE YOU?
LifeÂthanks Mum and Dad.

22. DO YOU LIKE SOMEONE?
I like everyone.

23. ARE YOU DOUBLE JOINTED?
Nope

24. FAVORITE CLOTHING BRAND?
DonÂt have a favoriteÂ.not too worried so long as it looks good.

25. WHAT'S YOUR DREAM CAR?
Late 60Âs , early 70Âs Alfa Romeo.

26. DO YOU HAVE A MYSPACE?
YesÂto keep up to date with my almost 15 yo son in Australia.

27. WHAT'S THE FUNNIEST THING YOU'VE EVER DONE?
Sang ÂSweet Home AlabamaÂ karaoke at a Xmas party for workÂalone. I was a little toasted. No wait...it could have been when I threw up on my bosses shoes at another Xmas party, I was joking with my girlfriend about how many of our young fellow employees were going to get drunk that night and spew. I ended up being the only one...

28. WOULD YOU FALL IN LOVE KNOWING THAT THE PERSON IS LEAVING?
YesÂ We all leave eventually.

29. WHAT IS THE BEST WAY TO TELL SOMEONE HOW MUCH THEY MEAN TO YOU?
I suck at ÂtellingÂ so it would have to be with words, in a letter. I donÂt think you can say it with material items.

30. SAY A NUMBER FROM ONE TO A HUNDRED:
99

31. BLONDES OR BRUNETTES?
Brunette.

32. WHAT IS THE ONE NUMBER YOU CALL OFTEN?
The Prison Â.

33. WHAT ANNOYS YOU MOST?
Paris Hilton

34. HAVE YOU BEEN OUT OF THE COUNTRY YOU LIVE IN?
Several times.

35. YOUR WEAKNESSES?
My childrenÂMy Husband, People in despair , Bourbon and little cigars.

36. FIRST JOB?
Take Away shop in a remote part of AustraliaÂ.

37. EVER OWNED A BUNNY?
YesÂa couple.

38. EVER DONE A PRANK CALL?
Yes.

39. WHAT WERE YOU DOING BEFORE YOU FILLED OUT THIS?
Getting my older kids off to school.

40. IF YOU COULD GET PLASTIC SURGERY WHAT WOULD IT BE?
I would get some life added to my boobsÂ. Lol. They are fine now but once I lose this baby producing weightÂthey will become lifeless.

41. WHY DID YOU FILL OUT THIS SURVEY?
I think these are fun.

42. WHAT DO YOU GET COMPLIMENTED ABOUT MOST?
Photography and my ability to cope with 5 kids, 1 being Autistic.

43. WHAT WOULD YOU DO IF ALCOHOL BECAME ILLEGAL?
Slice my wristsÂjk, I would have to handle it!
44. WHAT DO YOU WANT FOR YOUR BIRTHDAY?
Happiness.

45. HOW MANY KIDS DO YOU WANT?
I only wanted 2 but I have 5Â.they are addictive little buggers.

46. WERE YOU NAMED AFTER ANYONE?
My great Grandmother- Helena Jane. People only call me Helena when they are mad at me. Everyone knows me as Leenie.

47. DO YOU WISH ON STARS?
No.

48. WHICH FINGER(S) IS YOUR FAVORITE?
lolÂall my fingers, be lost without them.

49. WHEN DID YOU LAST CRY?
Last night while falling asleep in the motor home.

50. DO YOU LIKE YOUR HANDWRITING?
It used to be pre...

Uncles live race - Zurich 24hr....

=angelbabiau — Sat, 09 Jun 2007 17:25:09 PDT

In his 11th hour with the Aussie boys...

Live Stream : [link]

Car 27 ( John Teulan )

[link]

Just Testing

=angelbabiau — Tue, 05 Jun 2007 23:13:08 PDT

Midnight is not a good time to try and do the CSS layout thing.... I will try and be more creative when I am able to stay focused for more than a minute...lol.

Haven't been anywhere for the past few days so I have nothing new to offer. Tom is promising a camping trip soon, roughing it in a tent and I can't wait. I don't mind the dirt or the bugs. It would cost and arm and a leg to fill the motor home right now and lets face it, that's not really camping anyway. The Rocky Mountains are calling

So is bed..... I'm exhausted.

Sweet Dreams,

Leenie

Random Leenie #1

=angelbabiau — Wed, 30 May 2007 22:59:35 PDT

When I was 13, my Mother decided to have an affair with her art teacher...she didn't come home for a week !

My life has had many a random moment and I'm going to randomly share bits and pieces as they come to me. More so for me, I fear losing my marbles one day and I feel a need for a reminder.

PS... I am way behind on my comments and visiting you all...Took a few days off back in reality and totally cleaned my garden....I think I did 6 months of work in 3 hours. Spring Cleaning ? lol... who knows. I will return the visits and comments ASAP.

The Kindness Of Strangers

=angelbabiau — Wed, 23 May 2007 11:32:19 PDT

A virtual friend I admire offered to do something special for me... He lives and works in the Torres Strait Islands as a nurse and was going to be going to the Island my Dads on which is one of the last before you reach Papua New Guinea.... a very remote part of Australia that I miss terribly. Anyway...he asked me if I wanted anything taken out. I didn't but I did suggest he pop in to Dads workshop and say "g-day" , tell him Leenie sent him and show him what a small world this really is.
Yesterday I woke up to a picture of my beloved father, looking wild and woolly and slightly astounded. I haven't seen him in almost 4 years after spending my last 6 months with him on the Island before coming back to Utah...in a tiny house barely big enough for one, least of all me ,my daughter and my son Jack who was at the time like having 5 kids due to being Autistic. We didn't really make the most of that time and that upsets me, I was too busy being in love and Dad , who is very much a hermit had had his solitude violated even though he asked us to stay with him. We were almost ready to kill each other... As soon as I got to the hotel in Cairns he called and we both apologized for being asses. It was the 1st time we had ever really argued in our lives....lol.

Dad reminds me of Hemmingway, only he doesn't write.... he does however have a shit load of cats and lives out on his own away from the Islanders, He is a brilliant guy...very well read. He is building his own underwater submersible, spent years designing it and started building last year on his birthday and I have complete faith he will do great with that.

I miss him....he has been saying he will come visit but I will believe it when I see him on the doorstep...lol.

He told my friend he was very proud of me For what I am not sure, because he has never said that to me.... but just knowing he feels that way is enough.

Spoiled Girl

=angelbabiau — Sun, 06 May 2007 22:31:02 PDT

My sweet Hubby just upgraded his computer and didn't neglect me either.... I got a new HD widescreen monitor, a 320 gig hard drive (which I actually installed myself...lol, a Wacom tablet, Vista a couple of weeks ago, his gaming video card and new memory. Just waiting for the Vista 64 bit disc to arrive and hopefully all will be well. Going back through my pictures I can see things in a new light....even more grainy...lol. Hopefully that problem will now be solved. He spoils me. Thank you honey

Crap!

=angelbabiau — Fri, 20 Apr 2007 23:50:02 PDT

After meeting everyone from my husbands work today, hearing them tell me how good I was at taking pics, blushing.... and taking 330 pictures of all his class on their graduation day, big wigs and family shots....I took the worst pictures ever!!!!! LOL. I'm so embarrassed. Nothing went right at all.

Sorry I'm so flakey lately

=angelbabiau — Mon, 09 Apr 2007 22:42:28 PDT

I don't know how popular Deviants can keep up with their comments and favorites, because I can't keep up with mine at the moment and I'm not even close. I can't keep up with anything right now...thankfully I'm in a creative rut ...lol. Had a really nice storm approaching and that didn't even inspire me to get out there and take some pictures. I did manage to plant a lot of seeds today so that the front garden will be amass with flowers everywhere. I went to water them and the water was off to the front and I was too lazy to turn it on in the ground. The powers that be stepped in to help me tonight and it's been raining heavily ever since. Good for the garden.....not good for the Husband who will be getting wet and muddy tomorrow at weapons training. 9 more days and he is back to his regular post and we are going to head out of Dodge and go camping for a week. I really enjoy doing that....I may have been born in the city but I much prefer the middle of nowhere, in good company of course . I'm not a loner...lol.

Hope you all had a wonderful Easter

Moving on....

=angelbabiau — Fri, 30 Mar 2007 23:46:39 PDT

See.... Happy now and all is well

Can I be Depressed here?

=angelbabiau — Wed, 28 Mar 2007 23:26:03 PDT

Arghhhh! I don't like me....

Uploads

=angelbabiau — Mon, 05 Mar 2007 22:31:38 PST

I don't know about you all but when I upload my files to Deviant I want instant gratification....taking 12 hours for my pictures to show in my gallery really pisses me off. What's up with that?

After Midnight.....

=angelbabiau — Sun, 04 Mar 2007 00:24:51 PST

One day when I have time I will actually change the layout of this journal...the only real reason I went to Beta tester...I have it in mind...I just have to have some peace and quiet to actually get it done. CSS is new to me but I understand enough to make it happen.

Not alot happening in my part of the world...we did take a drive today but photographically speaking, nothing much came of it despite the lovely snow filled canyons.
I was just invited tonight on Flickr to join the Department of Art and Visual Communications and they offer assignments, which I already completed like a good student...lol. .

It is "What Would Otherwise Go Unseen" So that gave me some purpose tonight...after I sorted all my computer issues out. Well it was Hubby that sorted them out actually but I did try first. I have always loved photography and I did sign up for a course many moons ago but only got so far as to go off for the day in Brisbane and take pictures. on my way home that afternoon I decided to stop at a mango tree in a park and managed to get some sap on my face. I ended up being allergic to the sap and broke out in the biggest rash on my face that I was too embarrassed to return to the class...lol.I gave up. My biggest problem in life...giving up too easily.

Leenie

The Past

=angelbabiau — Fri, 12 Jan 2007 00:16:25 PST

I recently had all my belongings sent from Australia...well the most valuable anyway. Every journal from the age of 12( totally embarrassing )...a few nic-nacs and the most important of all...PHOTOGRAPHS!!!!!!! Every picture ever taken right from my great grandparents...until I left Australia. My Grandfather was really into photography from a young age...once even running into a burning building to save his negatives when he was in the Airforce...Those negatives I have been having alot of fun trying to resurrect these past few months.( when the kids give me a break ). There is so much history...perhaps of some historical value as far as Australia goes, places that no longer exists . I'm also trying to figure out who is who in the really old 1800's photographs.....

The above picture is of my Grandfather (2nd left), aged 16 on a camping trip with his friends. Taken Xmas 1929. He took thousands of pictures and it will probably take me the next 10 years to figure them all out...but I'm enjoying this...people I love that have now departed...living a life I never knew.

Leenie

1939.... 10 years later

Happy New Year

=angelbabiau — Mon, 01 Jan 2007 02:45:36 PST

Hope everyone has a fantastic year this year..... My only resolution is to make sure I find more time for being creative. I have had a really hard time the past year for some reason.....and I think the kids have had something to do with that.... My Husband is working more and the kids take advantage of me when he isn't around because I have "walk all over me" stamped on my forehead...even my 2 month old can read that !...ha ha. Anyways....one of my favorite things to do aside from photography is to write...and I have kept an online journal for just about 2 years now ( really impressive for being an ADD sufferer )...winning "journal of the week 2 times". I was more interesting when I drank too much and vented on every issue I had at the time.... Baby # 5 arrived in utero just in time for me to pull my head in and get to the bottom of what was bothering me. The answer is never at the end of a bottle ! I still drink...I'm having a drink right now at this ungodly hour but it's a New Year and I'm not pissed off anymore.

Happy New Year...again!

Leenie