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Makes me think something really dreadfully awful is going to happen because of it. Yay for pessimism!

]]> ~angelic-recluse http://angelic-recluse.deviantart.com/journal/23479721/ http://angelic-recluse.deviantart.com/journal/23479721/ Sun, 01 Mar 2009 21:32:18 PST
Mind you, life is still angsty and dramatic, mind you, and it's gotten much worse, if you were curious, from the last journal to now. I've just become too apathetic, and I don't feel like dealing with myself and confronting all the crap going through my head right now. It's too cluttered, my mind. To alleviate the pressure, I've been resorting to primitive tricks to take my mind off what is right in front of me each and every day and night. Sooo, my point is for those of you that know me IRL, no, I'm not any more perverted, immature, or depressed than usual. I'm just trying to not cope right now. I'm not ready to cope, so being more obnoxious than usual takes my mind off all this clutter.

ENOUGH ANGST. I will be uploading some yaoi smutty shit soon enough. :3 Yes, but boys, keep reading, because I'll also be uploading some femslash too, eventually. And maybe in some twist of fate, I'll upload some Akira/Vincent hetero smut. But the normal shit just isn't as entertaining as the slash and femslash.

I love how I got like, one comment on my awesome gorgeous picture. XD There really are reasons I don't draw. XD I'll keep the pen to NOTEBOOK PAPER, when I lose the lines and words, I lose everything. EPIC FAIL. <3

Another subject change, I'm listening to this really hot version of Dance Dance by FOB, and Patrick Stump sounds really gaspy in his singing, and it's freaking amazing. This version pwns the album version, kthxbye.

Literally, that's what I'm leaving you all with. <3

]]> ~angelic-recluse http://angelic-recluse.deviantart.com/journal/22655815/ http://angelic-recluse.deviantart.com/journal/22655815/ Sun, 18 Jan 2009 15:13:02 PST extravagantly shitty has occurred to force me back into my depression, and yet I feel like something extravagantly shitty did happen. I could say I blame it on this or that, but honestly, I don't even know. Sure, I'd say it could have something to do with the fact that I have no idea who any of my friends are anymore, considering the majority are throwing themselves at men, ditching me for other, more shiny friends, or both.

And maybe it is that. Who knows. In all honesty, it's really scary to sit down and really think to yourself..."Who are my real friends?" and it's even worse when only two come to mind. I have an abundance of acquaintances/friends, and a couple weeks ago, I'd say that I had enough real friends, but lately, I really doubt that. The girls that know even when I'm beaming and chatty something's wrong with me. The girls that when they ask me how I am, I smile and say "fantabulous", but they manage to pry it out of me. And they're the girls that when I have melt-downs at 2 in the morning, I know I can call, waking them up from a beautiful dream and they'll still be willing to listen to my incomprehensible blabber.

But the thing is, that I really thought without a doubt that I had both online and offline friends that were like this, and this hellish week has completely changed that opinion. I feel like in multiple friendships I give and give, and yet when I need support, they don't even want to talk. And I'm an arrogant woman, so me actually asking for support is nearly impossible. (It also sucks when a friend that you've known for like...what seems like ever doesn't even know something's wrong, and yet your ex boyfriend who you've known for a year knows something's wrong and pries it out of you.)

On top of that, I feel like I'm just spiraling out of control. Like I'm just climbing out, trying to see the sun, but all I see is the night. It's getting to the point where it feels impossible for me to truly be happy. I can smile, and laugh, and make all my usual sexual jokes, but all the while it's sucking my soul right out of me. I want to be happy, like nothing else, but I really just can't make myself anymore. And the whole facade thing only derails me more.

So, whatever. I'll manage somehow. What doesn't kill me makes me stronger, god knows I've learned that lesson many a time before. Just gotta keep pushing alone, because when push comes to shove, all you got to lean on is you.

]]> ~angelic-recluse http://angelic-recluse.deviantart.com/journal/22309194/ http://angelic-recluse.deviantart.com/journal/22309194/ Wed, 31 Dec 2008 16:20:53 PST
1. Smoked
2. Drank alcohol
3. Cried when someone died
4. Been drunk
5. Had sex
6. Been to a concert
7. gotten/given a handjob
8. gotten/given a blowjob
9. Been verbally/sexually harassed
10. Verbally/sexually harassed somebody.

@ 96%

11. Felt someone up and/or been felt up
12. Laughed so hard something came out of your nose
13. Cheated on a boyfriend/girlfriend before.
14. Been cheated on by a boyfriend/girlfriend.
15. Been to prom
16. Cried at school
17. Gotten lost in a WalMart or a department store.
18. Went streaking
19. Given or receieved a lap dance
20. Had someone of the opposite sex in your room

@ 91%

21. Had someone of the opposite sex sleep over
22. Slept over at someone of the opposite sexs house
23. Kissed a stranger
24. Hugged a stranger
25. Went scuba diving.
26. Driven a car.
27. Gotten an x-ray.
28. Hit by a car.
29. Had a party.
30. Done serious drugs.

@ 87%

31. Played strip poker/darts.
32. Got paid to strip for someone.
33. Run away from home.
34. Broken a bone.
35. Eaten sushi.
36. Bought porn.
37. Watched porn.
38. Made porn.
39. Had a crush on someone of the same sex.
40. Been in love.

@ 80%

41. Frenched kissed.
42. Laughed so hard you cried.
43. Cried yourself to sleep.
44. Laughed yourself to sleep.
45. Stabbed yourself.
46. Shot a gun.
47. Trash talked someone and then acted like their best friend the next day.
48. Been online for 9 consecutive hours.
49. Watched TV for 9 consecutive hours.
50. Watched an animal die.

@ 74%

51. Watched a person die
52. Kissed and/or messed around somewhere with at least 1 person present.
53. Pranked somebody
54. Put somebody in the hospital.
55. Snuck into someone's room and/or your own room after being out.
56. Kissed somebody of the same sex.
57. Dressed punk.
58. Dressed goth.
59. Dressed preppy.
60. Been to a motocross race.

@ 71%

61. Avoided somebody
62. Been stalked
63. Stalked someone.
64. Met a celebrity.
65. Played an instrument.
66. Ridden a horse.
67. Cut yourself.
68. Bungee jumped.
69. Ding dong ditched somebody.
70. Been to a wild party.

@ 65%

71. Got caught stealing something.
72. Kicked/punched a guy in the balls.
73. Stolen a boyfriend/girlfriend from a friend.
74. Gone out with your friend's crush.
75. Got arrested.
76. Been pregnant.
77. Babysat.
78. Been to another country.
79. Started your house on fire.
80. Had an encounter with a ghost.

@ 62%

81. Donated your hair to cancer patients.
82. Been asked out by someone that you never thought you'd be asked out by.
83. Cried over a member of the opposite sex.
84. Had a boyfriend/girlfriend for over or 3 months.
85. Sat on your butt all day.
86. Ate a whole carton of ice cream all by yourself.
87. Had a job.
88. Gotten cut from a sports team.
89. Been called a whore.
90. Danced like a whore

@ 56%

91. Been mistaken for a celebrity.
92. Been in a car accident.
93. Been told you have beautiful eyes.
94. Been told you have beautiful hair.
95. Raped somebody.
96. Danced in the rain.
97. Been rejected.
98. Walked out of a restaurant without paying.
99. Punched someone/slapped someone in the face.
100. Been raped

50% Oh wow, that's hilarious. GO ME, A VIRGIN THAT'S ONLY 50% VIRGIN. This is a bit cracked up. AYA. DO THIS.

]]> ~angelic-recluse http://angelic-recluse.deviantart.com/journal/21445823/ http://angelic-recluse.deviantart.com/journal/21445823/ Tue, 11 Nov 2008 20:26:47 PST 2. Make them answer the following questions

1. Esmire Lola Fae
2. Peon (As affectionately referred to by Dr. Isabella Dellacroix)
3. Mao (Isa) Giavelli
4. Zach Quintin

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How Old Are You?
Esmire: 29, oh god. So old!
Peon: 30. *Dies inside*
Isa: 19. HAHA. I beat all of you!
Zach: Except for me. 18.

Height?
Esmire: 5'0. Damn right. I'm a sexy shortie.
Peon: I'm a minor character in a short series that doesn't even have a real name!! And you expect me to know how tall I am!
Isa: 5'5
Zach: 5'11. I'm 2-0 in pwning all of you today.

You got any bad habits?
Esmire: Well, considering that my two best friends are oncologists, and I, myself am a doctor, smoking probably isn't one of my most attractive traits.
Peon: I left morphine out! I'm getting sued for malpractice!! Gah!
Isa: Nah. I'm perfect of course!
Zach: Does believing that Isa actually perfect count?

You a virgin?
Esmire: Oh hell no.
Peon: Seriously Marie. Come up with more on me. >____> *Coughyescough*
Isa: Nope!!
Zach: Contrary to popular belief, no, I'm not. (yes, even super geeks like me get laid. Be jealous.)

Who's your Mate/Spouse?
Esmire: Uhhh, that doesn't sound awkward at all. Well, I'm torn between James and Calista.
Peon: I lack one of those, considering in the first short story there were NO MEN in it. *Throws things at Marie*
Isa: I guess Zach, on and off maybe. Or the guys I hook up with to make him red with jealousy. *Cackles*
Zach: Isa in my dreams. Ohhh yeahh. (Marie: XD. I love you Zach!)

Have any kids?
Esmire: No!
Peon: I'M A FREAKING VIRGIN!
Isa: No?
Zach: I hope not.

Favorite Food?
Esmire: Haha, do James and Calista count? *Devious smile*
Peon: DRUGS. ...... No, not really. >_>
Isa: Italian! That's why I work at an Italian restaurant!
Zach: Whatever Isa cooks.

Favorite Ice Cream flavor?
Esmire: Chocolate, just like any other smart girl.
Peon: Vanilla! I like 'em white. (Yes, she just went there.)
Isa: Rocky road! Yeah!
Zach: Allergic! Yeah!...*dies*

Killed anyone?
Esmire: It's a fact of life, as a doctor I will eventually kill someone, just not yet.
Peon: Yes...that's why I'm being sued for malpractice.
Isa: I agree with the bi bitch. (Esmire)
Zach: NO. That's why I'm going into engineering, so I don't have to worry about any of that!

Hate anyone?
Esmire: Calista at times. And Seung Ri when she's being annoying.
Peon: People who sue me. (Only 1 person! I'm not that bad of a doctor!)
Isa: My brother Alex.
Zach: I like to keep my conscience clean.

Any secrets?
Esmire: I have (or will have, to be specific) a horrible illness, but I'll manage!
Peon: I didn't mean to leave the morphine there!...(Is ignoring questions now, and just rambling)
Isa: I lack self-confidence, so I belittle others. (Marie: It's okay, Isa. The first step to recovery is admitting you're weird!)
Zach: That I'm in love with Isa? Well...that's not much of a secret.

Love anyone?
Esmire: Back and forth between the British beauty, Calista Bloome, and that dude from Oncology. Seung Ri would murder me if she knew about the latter!
Peon: Nooo!
Isa: It's off and on when it comes to Zach.
Zach: Obviously, Isa. I love her unconditionally, completely. Though I wonder if we'll ever really be, and last too.

What is your job?
Esmire: Sexy doctor! I'm that infectious disease and immunology chick with the red eyes that you hear about all the time. <3
Peon: Doctor! I lack a specialty.
Isa: Italian restaurant A! Cook! Wooh!
Zach: I tutor little brats when I'm not at school.

Boy or girl?
Esmire: Well, my boobs tell me that I'm a girl. (And the obvious of course, *sexy wink*)
Peon: Girl!
Isa: Girl!
Zach: ...I'm the only one here with a y chromosome!!??

What do you do to relax?
Esmire: P-A-R-T-Y!
Peon: I never relax. I'm too spazzy, and Dr. Isabella always has me doing pointless things anywyas.
Isa: Piano baby!
Zach: Piano also. Or Calculus (yeah, he just said that, poor thing's a complete math nerd.)

Any hidden talents or something no one else knows about you?
Esmire: Something that no one knows about me? Well, if I told you, then people would know! And that's no good!!!
Peon: I'M STILL BEING SUED FOR MALPRACTICE! Damn it Marie! Write the second short story so I can stop being sued!!
Isa: Nobody ever expects that I can sing pretty good.
Zach: And no one ever expects that I play piano. Or do anything musical for that matter.

What color is your hair?
Esmire: Aubur... ]]> ~angelic-recluse http://angelic-recluse.deviantart.com/journal/21044469/ http://angelic-recluse.deviantart.com/journal/21044469/ Sat, 18 Oct 2008 09:16:44 PDT Marukomuru featured me in his journal! w00t for me! He featured My Bright Sky Page 1 ([link] which I have yet to work on more. *dies*), I Need To Shout Out Falsities ([link]), and my most recent work, Stop Falling Chapter 1 ([link]). So because I love him, you all should go give him hugs and kisses (preferably kisses, he'll like those more. XD)

On the artistic fry-pan today, I'm planning on working on some more inking (but I'm tracing for practice, so HAHA you never get to see ((If you REALLY want to, message me and I'll upload them to Photobucket. XD)), type up Stop Falling Chapter 2 (I mentally forbid myself to start writing chapter 3 until I type 2. DARN YOU BRAIN!) and make me some lit tags! But of course, because I'm so very benevolent, I will make a large as shit zip folder of them for the writers out there (Specifically Sasa, Aya, and Shvat) so that the gray can disappear and I can look at color.

Yes, so once again, go visit =Marukomuru!! (#)

---RANDOM TAG---
Since my homie (yes, I just called you a hommie, Maruko. <3 you can make fun of me. XD) has been plugging me in his journal for awhile, I decided to do the same! =Marukomuru is a really good friend of mine, an awesome artist (for mature/perverted minds) and all around awesome. SO GO VISIT HIM KAY?!

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]]> ~angelic-recluse http://angelic-recluse.deviantart.com/journal/20637502/ http://angelic-recluse.deviantart.com/journal/20637502/ Tue, 23 Sep 2008 15:03:19 PDT
And since I am ACTUALLY getting views, I decided to have pageview party! (I won't call it a Kiriban. >_> If you see and send me LEET (1337) I will either draw you something, make you an eye (you can describe it to me) or you can send me a high-quality picture of YOUR eye/face and I will go Photoshop crazy on it. It's your choice, just catch the LEET!!

I actually have nothing else going on currently to rant about!

---RANDOM TAG---
Since my homie (yes, I just called you a hommie, Maruko. <3 you can make fun of me. XD) has been plugging me in his journal for awhile, I decided to do the same! *Marukomuru is a really good friend of mine, an awesome artist (for mature/perverted minds) and all around awesome. SO GO VISIT HIM KAY?!

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]]> ~angelic-recluse http://angelic-recluse.deviantart.com/journal/20472318/ http://angelic-recluse.deviantart.com/journal/20472318/ Sat, 13 Sep 2008 13:04:48 PDT how much of a basket-case I am. I was reading a pervy manga (Welcome to the Chemistry Lab) and thinking about how much I like Shibaura when he's an asshole. This is when I really noticed it, it was after a chapter where he called this one guy "utterly pathetic" I think it was. The next chapter he was all lovey-douvey with his boyfriend.

And I caught myself going "Damn, I like Shibaura so much better when he's being prideful and cruel--WHAT THE HELL?!"

Normal people DO NOT think that way. XDD So apparently, I'm much more attracted to assholes, as opposed to lovey-douvey people. There is something VERY...VERY wrong with that.

But it did quite entertain me. XD

]]> ~angelic-recluse http://angelic-recluse.deviantart.com/journal/20443897/ http://angelic-recluse.deviantart.com/journal/20443897/ Thu, 11 Sep 2008 18:04:07 PDT
It goes like this:

(Choose a singer/band/group.
Answer using ONLY titles of songs by that singer/band/group.
Tag 6 more people to do so and let them know they've been tagged, of course. If you want)


Here we go:

.Are you male or female?
Ma Girl

.Describe yourself
Bitch
(Haha, well, it's true, is it not?!)

.What do people feel when they're around you?
Marvelous
(Dude, I had no songs called Crunk....wtf. o.o)

.How would you describe your previous relationship?
We Are So Last Year

.Describe your current relationship.
Dedicated to the Lonely and the Desolate
(Hell yeahhh!!)

.Where would you want to be now?
Anywhere but Here

.How do you feel about love?
Love Addict

.What's your life like?
Wreck of the Day

.What would you ask for if you had only one wish?
Rockstar
(Ehhh?? Interpret it how you wish!)

.Say something wise.
Time Goes On

I tag:
Shvat
Sasa
Aya
Double tag for Maruko XD
Whoever else wants to do it?! XD

]]> ~angelic-recluse http://angelic-recluse.deviantart.com/journal/20292126/ http://angelic-recluse.deviantart.com/journal/20292126/ Tue, 02 Sep 2008 14:54:01 PDT
I finally have all of my paper, watercolour pencils, and inking supplies all at the house with my lightbox, so hopefully if my dwindling creative juices ever kick in I'll be able to draw something.

When the school year starts, my drawing juices leave me, but my writing juices always kick in full-force. It's a proven fact that I get almost all of my fiction writing done at school as opposed to home. >_> So, on that note, I have 2 short stories coming up! One I need to finish for a contest, like TODAY. And the second a few of my friends are waiting on (YOU KNOW WHO YOU ARE) and are threating me in Latin class over it. >_> Yeahhh, I'm still not very far on it. If I didn't fall asleep for the entire hour in Algebra II I probably would have finished it that hour. My body disagreed. >_>..<_<

I still have to catch up on my AP Euro notes. I hate being OCD-perfectionist. >_> I've written 30 pages of notes so far. AP Euro consumes the little amount of life I am hardly holding onto. XD

Oh, for IRL friends, ANIME CLUB TOMORROW, JOIN PLZ. Brown's room 612, 3-4:30. Ranae, I can still take you home too, so join.

]]> ~angelic-recluse http://angelic-recluse.deviantart.com/journal/19897705/ http://angelic-recluse.deviantart.com/journal/19897705/ Mon, 11 Aug 2008 13:04:58 PDT
When it first came out, I actually didn't hate it. The sleek new design caught my eye, my biggest gripe with it was that I'd have to find out where everything was AGAIN. Though, now that I've messed around with it enough I have some issues with it. My computer lags like a dial-up bitch when on dA, and I have cable. My computer NEVER lags. When I go to x out of deviations and comments/journals a few minutes after refereshing the page, those same comments or deviations will be back. Last night I x'ed out of the same 4 comments/journals/deviations 7 TIMES in a 2 hour span. And yes I counted. If I wasn't doing 10 other things in those two hours I can be sure it would have been more than 7. While I like that you can go to your messages and see a thumbnail of the deviations this does not redeem the glitches and lags in my mind.

I'm pretty sure I am not the only one who has ranted about this new dA, so I'd love to hear your comments about it. Do you like it or do you agree with me?

And if you agree with me, I have a petition for you to sign that's already been started. We've got a long way to go, and it probably won't do anything in the end, but it certainly doesn't hurt to try.
[link]

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]]> ~angelic-recluse http://angelic-recluse.deviantart.com/journal/19719590/ http://angelic-recluse.deviantart.com/journal/19719590/ Fri, 01 Aug 2008 13:45:14 PDT
1. Pick 4 characters
2. Have them fill out the questions
3. Tag 3 people!!!


1. Characters.
Hananaka Keiko
Nakatsu Masatoshi
(I've changed his last name too many times) Hiromu
Akira Saiiran


2. Gender?
Keiko: Uhhh. I'm a chick.
Masatoshi: GUY. HOW DARE YOU ASK ME THAT?
Hiromu: Well if I was a girl, half of Aoyama would be gay.
Akira: Against popular belief, I am in fact a girl.


3. Who do you love?
Keiko: Medicine! And diseases. (Me: <_< Freak. Why did I make such a weird girl like you?)
Masa-Masa: Keiko. I know eventually she'll figure out it too. ;__;
Hiromu: Any girl who seems to have the hots for me. ^_~ You know that includes you too!
Akira: No one, I love to kill demons though.


4. Do you have any children?
Keiko: Do my siblings count? I take care of them more than Mama does.
Masa-Masa: No. I don't even have the chance that there could be kids that I just don't know of. (Still a bitter virgin at 17)
Hiromu: Oh jeez, I hope not. -.-'
Akira: Hell to the no. I don't have time for them.


5. What time is it?
Keiko: 3:30, which means it's time for my afternoon study. Today is investigating the heart's electrical system (And now she starts to babble about how fascinated she is by the heart)
Masa-Masa: If Hanako-chan is studying, I guess I need to also.
Hiromu: And since their studying TIME TO PARTY. Where are the ladies?
Akira: Idiots. >_> Why am I even here? I'm not even from the world where My Story is set in?!


6. What is your favorite song?
Keiko: Oggi by Lost. I keep it real with my Italian roots.
Masa-Masa: Moments by Hamasaki Ayumi. (DON'T CALL ME A CHICK, IT'S A PERFECTLY GOOD SONG, HIROMU!!!!)
Hiromu: Baby Got Back by Sir Mix-A-Lot. It's such a true song. (But you are still a chick, Masatoshi.)
Akira: I don't have time for any of that. I have money to make, demons to kill, and booze to drink.


7. ABCDEFG..
Keiko: JKLMNOP?
Masa-Masa: QRSTUV!
Hiromu: I'm not in English class, so my brain is in the off-switch.
Akira: *Sigh* I really don't have the time for this.


8. Favorite drink?
Keiko: Water. Remember to drink lots of it! (Goes into health mode)
Masa-Masa: Whatever is in my glass?
Hiromu: If I say, Taylor will probably get banned from dA for explicit-ness. >____>;
Akira: Coffee from morning until 8 at night, and gin (or whatever other booze I can get my hands on) for the rest of the night.


9. Who is your best friend?
Keiko: I donno. My brother maybe? Or maybe Lahn Fan. (<-Cousin)
Masa-Masa: Keiko. Hands down.
Hiromu: Well thanks thar buddy, I WAS gonna say YOU Masatoshi. But now I'll just say EVERYONE BUT MASATOSHI!~
Akira: Vincent maybe? He follows me pretty much blindly. Doing whatever I ask him to do, yes! It would be Vincent.


10. Favorite food?
Keiko: Okonomiyaki! An Osakan favourite!
Masa-Masa: Uhhh, pasta. Why is the Italian eating Osakan food, and me, the 5th Generation Osakan, eating Italian food?
Hiromu: Once again, I'm not going to say, so my beloved creator doesn't get banned. >_> (Me: Why the hell DID I CREATE YOU?!)
Akira: Well, now that is difficult, as I usually don't pay attention to what I am eating as it's usually stolen by Vincent or Mo. >_>


I shall tag....Raquel...Sasa and Shvat. (Do you two even have OCs?)

And now we will allow Miss Akira go back to her own world. (Akira: THANK YOU. Hasta La vista freaks.)

]]> ~angelic-recluse http://angelic-recluse.deviantart.com/journal/19645735/ http://angelic-recluse.deviantart.com/journal/19645735/ Mon, 28 Jul 2008 16:23:22 PDT
I FOUND MY EFFING KNEADED ERASER!! HELL YEAH!! No more Pink Pearl eraser shavings! WOOOOH.

It was a big accomplishment for me, I've been looking for it.<33

Another good thing, my aunt Joanne, who went into the hospital last week to get a biopsy and 1: There wasn't any cancer in her pancreas!! Yeah! 2. It was all in her intestines, which is, given what it could have been, very good. They were able to get all of it out in surgery so she doesn't have to do chemo or radiation. 4, she isn't yellow anymore, which means her liver is okay.

And 5, which matters most, she got out early and is at home and eating/drinking!!! (She had been on the feeding machine for the past few months) I am very VERYYY happy/relieved.

On to some more randomness, everyone needs to listen to this song: [link] for it is my life. DBSK/TVXQ is in fact, god. Kthx!!


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]]> ~angelic-recluse http://angelic-recluse.deviantart.com/journal/19484792/ http://angelic-recluse.deviantart.com/journal/19484792/ Sat, 19 Jul 2008 15:14:19 PDT 3 or 4 loops in a row that just completely knock you on your ass. It's when you can finally get up off your ass you know you made it through and have changed and become stronger...

Except I'm FLAT on my ass right now.

What happened next to help out in Taylor's AWESOME life? My beloved Guinea Pig passed away a few days ago. I, luckily was not at my dad's to see that, or else I'd be a pile of wreck. All in all, I'm handling it better than I'd expect, excluding the random outbursts of occasional bawling.

He wasn't sick, but small animals like that sometimes just die randomly. He was about 4 years old, so I guess, if I think about it, it's not relatively surprising. He was hyperactive for a Guinea Pig, always running around and chirping when I'd be home playing my cello or video games, or even just talking to him. This summer though, he's slowed down quite a bit, and while he still chirped a lot, he usually just laid around in his house. Before we went to Washington he wouldn't eat his food for a couple days, I had to give him more carrots and lettuce instead of his normal food.

So if I really think about it, maybe it was coming. Sadly though, it doesn't make it any easier to accept. In his own way, he alone has gotten me through some of the hardest parts of my life to date. So it's kind of going to be weird going home and not having a chirping white fatty waiting for me to talk to him.


Also, TVXQ doesn't really have anything to do with any of this except that I was listening to their Beautiful You today as I was writing this. It makes me a bit happier, so GO LISTEN TO IT!

]]> ~angelic-recluse http://angelic-recluse.deviantart.com/journal/19302756/ http://angelic-recluse.deviantart.com/journal/19302756/ Thu, 10 Jul 2008 01:01:29 PDT
Had a nice time on vacation.

Am a little cranky.

Got back yesterday night,and today went to see my aunt, who has a mass on her pancreas, and yesterday night my older cousin called my mum telling her to go see my aunt (which we did today) because she is turning yellow. (AKA Liver failure)

So my gallant return back to the Flatlands, with the breezy hope that everything would be back to normal and everything would be peachy, has been evidently thwarted.

But none the less, thank you Raquel, Cindy, and Sasa for your comments, they made me feel slightly better. :3

]]> ~angelic-recluse http://angelic-recluse.deviantart.com/journal/19117798/ http://angelic-recluse.deviantart.com/journal/19117798/ Sun, 29 Jun 2008 21:46:33 PDT _<;;; Wakes always get to me.

Also Wednesday I go out of town to WA. So lack of updates but when I get back expect a pile of photography/drawings. I have a ton of stuff piled up currently and the pile only gets bigger.

Oh and to those who have been reading "My Story", I have a few updates on it, it now has a name: "My Bright Sky". I also have a few pictures regarding the characters, one being a (Sort of) family portrait of Keiko, her older brother, one of her younger sisters and cousins. I left out 3 of her other siblings though. XD It's got a bizarre feeling to it though. I also have a picture of Asuki from the first chapter, a picture of Keiko and another girl in their Seibi Academy uniforms anddddd....dadadummmm, 3 pages of My Bright Sky manga!!! Whether or not that manga ever sees the light of dA, though is another question. But it is being worked on, so maybe you can count on a page or so of it. XD

]]> ~angelic-recluse http://angelic-recluse.deviantart.com/journal/18785267/ http://angelic-recluse.deviantart.com/journal/18785267/ Wed, 11 Jun 2008 13:38:39 PDT isn't imminent.

For the psat few weeks I have been on an asian movie rampage, I found this site with asian movies for download and I had some writable DVDs laying around and I decided that I would burn me some DVDs. Of course, neither of my XP computers HAVE DVD writers. (Which I learned about after an ENTIRE DAY of screaming and shaking the tower of my computer) So today I get the ingenius idea that I will try my stepdad's vista computer. (It has a writable DVD player, OMGYAY) But of course, like everything in my life, it never goes as planned. For some reason, the computer won't recongnize the disk drive. So then I have to find a guide for getting it to work yaddayadda. Long story short, I had to do some regedits (which is kind of scary if you have never done it, as one wrong move and parts of your computer could be fucked forever) and then I had to re-boot it. So as I re-boot it, I pace around the room for awhile, and when it finally logs on if wants an EFFING PASSWORD to log in. Luckily for me there was a hint for the password, and my stepdad is simple minded, so after about 15 tries I finally got it. So now I'm feeling pretty proud of myself, you know as a regediting hacker of Vista. I go to look at the drives AND THRE IT IS!! The E drive!! And the sun shone and I burned my first movie to DVD. YAY!....

Not yay. I triumphantly go running to my DVD player only to find out that it doesn't read THAT KIND OF DVD. I had a DVD-R and it only reads DVD+R or +RW. Difference? I didn't think so, but aparently there is.

Damn you electronics.

Now for a bit on My Story, does anyone have an idea for a better title. Because My Story as a title pretty much fails.



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]]> ~angelic-recluse http://angelic-recluse.deviantart.com/journal/18647343/ http://angelic-recluse.deviantart.com/journal/18647343/ Tue, 03 Jun 2008 15:14:17 PDT disturbs me about dA is their "Photography" section. According to the Dictionary (Merriam Webster) Photography is "the art or process of producing images by the action of radiant energy and especially light on a sensitive surface (as film or a CCD chip)". And yet, all across dA, the web, and many other places people PHOTOSHOP Photography. This severly bothers me, in my opinion Photography should be simply what comes out of the camera and what can be produced in the darkoom. Photoshop shouldn't have anything to do with photography in my mind except maybe MINOR adjustments, as in if a picture is rediculusly blurry or insanely dark. Not completely altering the picture's colour and such.



EDIT: I have decided that I'm not going to add to this...I'll save that for a later rant when I get pissed again. I think I have made my point here. XDD

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I seem to have developed a crush for Dr. Umeda-Sensei along with Nakatsu-Kun, Nanba-Sempai, and Oscar-Kun. Well that's a problem....considering he's gay and all. *Dies*....*Coughwouldbeaguyforhimcoughhhhhh*

I didn't actually like Dr. Umeda-Sensei as much until I started reading the manga, because in the manga he is FINNNEEEE. Dayum, that's all I got to say about that.

On another note, I've come to the conclusion that I may be the only fangirl who spazzes over Oscar Himejima. I just think he is so AMAZING and dramatic/charismatic. He cracks me up 100% of the time. One thing I found interesting is the actor for him in the JDorama is actually 28. Dayummm! He looks older then everyone else but not THAT old. >_> Also on Fanfiction.net, I actually only found 1 good fanfiction for him, and 2 overall. *Dies*

My Top 5 favourite guys from the JDorama:
1. Oscar Himejima
2. Nakatsu Shuichi
3. Nanba Minami
4. Dr. Umeda
5. Sano Izumi (OMGWTFBBQ!!???)

But you can see a drastic change from my favourites when it comes to the manga:

My Top 5 favourite guys from the Manga:
1. (Ze Tie) Dr. Umeda/Oscar Himejima
2. Nakatsu Shuichi
3. (Ze-nother Tie) Sano Izumi/Nanba Minami

OH MY! I don't completely hate Sano-kun in the manga. Actually I like him A TON in the manga. Can't stand him in the JDorama though. It's the same with Dr. Umeda-Sensei (Well sorta) I liked him in the JDorama, but OH SHIIIZ I really spaz-tastically love him in the manga. Then Oscar is just Oscar, I already ranted about him, and like any typical fangirl I have to say this:

OMGWTFIKUTATOMAISSMEX.

Yup. 'Nuff said about Nakatsu-kun.

Then there's Nanba-Sempai, here's one of the few things me and my cousin will agree on. We would both let ourselves get played by Nanba-Sempai, doesn't matter whether it's the manga version or the JDorama version, he's smex all around.

Hmm, well I feel better now that I have gotten my rant out of my system...<33

]]> ~angelic-recluse http://angelic-recluse.deviantart.com/journal/18167268/ http://angelic-recluse.deviantart.com/journal/18167268/ Sun, 04 May 2008 15:24:02 PDT I opened a forum!! The highly anticipated (<-I wish) forum of mine, powered by XMB.

It has just about everything and I'd love for any and all to join it. <333

I temporally sacrificed my bloggy for this, so certainly I'd love it to be active.

[link] <--<3 ((I am Oh!Akari on it.))

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