http://search.deviantart.com/?q=by:angelsangelicangel&section=today deviantART RSS for by:angelsangelicangel en-us Copyright 2009, deviantART.com Wed, 16 Dec 2009 12:14:58 PST deviantART.com http://blogs.law.harvard.edu/tech/rss http://s.deviantart.com/minish/widgets/apple-touch-icon-precomposed.png http://angelsangelicangel.deviantart.com/journal/28003076/ http://angelsangelicangel.deviantart.com/journal/28003076/ Tue, 27 Oct 2009 20:52:43 PDT
So first off i see that the first thing that i need to talk about is my dad. On my last entry i was coming to terms with my dad's situation and about how he was going to die eventually and i didn't know what i was going to do but guess what he died. I couldn't believe it. It wasn't sudden and it was something that we all was going to expect but i was stunned. In August he died. I guess i need to come to terms with that but how can a girl comes to terms with loosing her daddy.

I was always daddy's little girl. I tried not to be that way but it was just the way things were growing in my house. I was the baby and then i was sick so it was all about our bond and he had a great bond with us all but he and i were just we were everything to each other. he was sick for a whole year and i never went to see him because i couldn't take seeing him that way.

The cancer was killing him and just like with my mom i didn't go and see him and everyday since i didn't go and see her i regretted it and you know what it's starting all over again with my dad and i know i know that i should have known that i was going to feel this way but i feel this way and once again it's something can't be solved now. But i don't know what to do. I see him every where i turn and that's not good. I miss him so much. His birthday is coming up and it'll be the first without him. i had already gotten his gift so yea what i'm going to do. i don't know really. i guess that is just something that you can't turn back time but if i could that would be the one thing that i would so that i could tell him one more time that i love him. Although the last day i did see him while he was alive and well and i hugged and kissed him goodbye i made sure that was indeed what i said so he knows.

Okay on to some other business that pissed me off. Lets talk about the website [link]. They are bastards. They make this rule where you have to name where you get all the images for your artwork and yea i'm all about that. i agree that this is something that you should do. so i was taking the time going through my gallery of like three years from the front to back and back to front just in case the day for them to destroy me well get this i'm almost done and you know what happens? They get me without a fucking warning. you are supposed to be given a warning you know. they didn't though. It's all good though i'm totally going to add all my stuff back and then i'm adding something to where i get them and then what will they do. But man i'm still pissed. I had been adding stuff for years and now they do this. Oh well what can you do.

later days

latoya

]]> ~angelsangelicangel http://angelsangelicangel.deviantart.com/journal/24316325/ http://angelsangelicangel.deviantart.com/journal/24316325/ Sat, 18 Apr 2009 22:11:25 PDT
i don't know how i can you know. everyone in my family are just waiting for me to go nuts cause he and i are so close you know nad they think that well when it happens i'm going to crash. I find myself speaking to him in past tense and i hate that. Then i've only been to see him three times since then and i know that is wrong but i just can't see him that way cause that's not my dad and then it pisses me off cause he could be better if he wanted to be but he doesn't want to be he chooses to be an asshole and then i find myself wanting to walk in that hospital room and slap the shit out of him but then i realize what good will that do really? None at all. god i'm just so lost and i just wanna die sometimes.


Thanks those who listened.

latoya

]]> ~angelsangelicangel http://angelsangelicangel.deviantart.com/journal/23477862/ http://angelsangelicangel.deviantart.com/journal/23477862/ Sun, 01 Mar 2009 19:33:30 PST
I love my father. He's all that i have left. I mean sure i have my own family but he's my father and we're too close for words. He had Cancer and then in October he had a stroke and i swear i just can't take it. I've only been to see him once. I've talked to him but today my god today it was different.

My sister called to check on him because we've been having dreams about him escaping from the hospital that he's at and well today the call was different. He was different. I put the phone to my ear and the voice i heard it wasn't his it was incoherent and i think my hurt stopped while i listened. All the hairs on the back on head stood up and i just had the feeling you know. The feeling deep down that his time is up.

He's dying you know. He has refused all help and because he's mind is lucid we can't make him take the treatment. We're trying to make it so but we can't because well we can't. I'm so fucking scared. My mom was all that i had she and my dad. She left me when i was sixteen and i can't loose him i just can't.

When i got off the phone i just left the house. No one noticed. I went out for a ride. My little one and i. i just i can't take it if it happens. What will i do? How will i go on? He's my dad. I need him so much and i'll die if he dies. if he dies i think i'll die too, i know i will. i've been on edge all night and i feel funny and i need someone to talk too and the house is full of people and they are going on like there's nothing going on and they say this is how he always is but i can't take it. I just feel like a part of me is dying and that is what scares me the most. That's what scares me. that if i feel this way then it must be happening and how the fuck am i suppose to accept it.

Thanks for listening.

]]> ~angelsangelicangel http://angelsangelicangel.deviantart.com/journal/22458585/ http://angelsangelicangel.deviantart.com/journal/22458585/ Wed, 07 Jan 2009 18:37:22 PST 002. Nickname →U Toy Toya
003. Status → Attached
004. Zodiac sign → Aquarius
005. Male or female → Female.
006. Elementary → Rains Centenary Elementary
007. Middle School → same
008. High School → Terrell’s Bay High School
009. Smart → Common-sense wise. Book-smart, no.
010. Hair color → Red and Curly
011. Long or short → Afroish
012. Loud or Quiet → Loud
013. Sweats or Jeans → Sweats, Jeans nothing girly all about the boy style
014. Phone or Camera →hone
015. Health freak → Hell No
016. Drink or Smoke? → Neither
017. Do you have a crush on someone? → Celebrity, yes. Normal yea but he‘s dead.
018. Eat or Drink → both
019. Piercings → wouldn’t you like to know where
020. Tattoos → wouldn’t you like to know what

FIRSTS:
023. First piercing → Ears (only piercings)
024. First best friend → Cheryl. We were cousins and unseperable what ever she did I did where ever she went I went but then she got all pretty and now she’s a bitch and I loathe her.
026. First crush → Antron I told him I liked him and then he went to camp and told me he wasn‘t coming back. He drowned there..
027. First pet → Pup Pup a dog
028. First big vacation → what’s a vacation?
030. First big birthday → still waiting on that one

CURRENTLY:
049. Eating → nothing
050. Drinking → nothing
052. I'm about to →finish this quiz up.
054. Plans for today → the day is over so I shall stay up all night fucking around on the net.

YOUR FUTURE:
058. Want kids? → yup
059. Want to get married? → Marriage is good
060. Careers in mind → law abiding citizen by day criminal mastermind by night.

WHICH IS BETTER WITH GIRL/BOY?
068. Lips or eyes → Eyes
070. Shorter or taller? → Taller than me.
072. Romantic or spontaneous → both
073. Nice stomach or nice arms → Arms. So he can grip all this gorgeousness
074. Sensitive or loud → loud
075. Hook-up or relationship → relationship but I quick fuck ain’t bad
077. Trouble maker or hesitant → hesitant

HAVE YOU EVER:
080. Lost glasses/contacts → All The Time
081. Ran away from home → Thought about it but was too afraid to leave the porch
084. Broken someone's heart → nope but my was constantly trampled on
085. Been arrested → Nope but I keep trying
087. Cried when someone died → YES

DO YOU BELIEVE IN:
089. Yourself → yes
090. Miracles →yes
091. Love at first sight → yes
092. Heaven → yes but I hear hell’s the shit
093. Santa Claus → Santa Claus Satan same damn guy
094. Sex on the first date → If he can get it up
095. Kiss on the first date → Yea with lots of tongue


ANSWER TRUTHFULLY:
097. Is there one person you want to be with right now → no
098. Are you seriously happy with where you are in life → Fuck NO
099. Do you believe in God → I am god. Seriously yea I believe in the big guy.
100. Post as 100 truths and tag people.


Tag ur it.

]]> ~angelsangelicangel http://angelsangelicangel.deviantart.com/journal/20867568/ http://angelsangelicangel.deviantart.com/journal/20867568/ Tue, 07 Oct 2008 00:00:25 PDT
[link]

It's the ebook to Twilight Book 4 Breaking Dawn. Enjoy.

]]> ~angelsangelicangel http://angelsangelicangel.deviantart.com/journal/20822719/ http://angelsangelicangel.deviantart.com/journal/20822719/ Sat, 04 Oct 2008 09:51:11 PDT
If you want to see my art go to [link] and it's still going strong with all my walls, stories and poetry. Yea so i live on there. Somehow i'll put previews to my new stuff here in the journals for you all to see and enjoy. I'm going to do a test to see if that's even possible in a second. so speak to you soon.

]]> ~angelsangelicangel http://angelsangelicangel.deviantart.com/journal/20583892/ http://angelsangelicangel.deviantart.com/journal/20583892/ Sat, 20 Sep 2008 11:20:53 PDT
also if you were a fan of the walls here and want to see the ones that dind't make the cut or have been gone so long no one remembers them. Go on over to [link] and knock yourself out cause i have five hundred things over there and there's something to tickle everyone fancy.

]]> ~angelsangelicangel http://angelsangelicangel.deviantart.com/journal/20279582/ http://angelsangelicangel.deviantart.com/journal/20279582/ Mon, 01 Sep 2008 20:07:08 PDT
I don't know how to feel. i'm sad but i mean he's right here beside me and he's doing the same things he always did i think it would be wrong if i just kill him off you know.

so i mean tell me how am i suppose to feel?

]]> ~angelsangelicangel http://angelsangelicangel.deviantart.com/journal/15570653/ http://angelsangelicangel.deviantart.com/journal/15570653/ Mon, 19 Nov 2007 00:33:42 PST
The performances were good. My favorite was Chris Brown because not only did he dance all around the stage he literally danced on the ceiling, take that lionel richie.

They had a lot of performances due to the fact that they didn't have writers so people didn't have stuff to say and some folks should have kept their mouths shut like Natasha Beddingfield who couldn't even open a envelope.

The show was great though they had legends Duran Duran performing hungry like the wolf, a song everyone in america knows, and rhianna and ne-yo performing there new hit.

Jimmy Kimmel was funny as the house as usual, I think he's funny all the time i do love him.

Daughtry rocked tonight considering he didn't win american idol, i'm sure that katherine mcphee was stuffing down burgers and taylor hicks was fighting the soul patrol, this guy came in what fourth place and totally took over. I say that next year that will go to Elliott Yamin cause he's rocking and he came in a lower place to Daughtry or maybe they were right behind each other.

Alicia Keys performance was good, she did a jamaican rendition of No One which i for one was glad for cause if i would have heard that song the original way i may have shot myself literally in the head.

Queen Latifah rocked the song from Hairspray, I love that song I don't kknkow there's just something about it.

BUT WHAT NO ONE EXPECTED AND WHAT I WILL BE THINKING ABOUT FOR THE REST OF THE NIGHT WAS SUGARLAND AND BEYONCE'S IRREPLACEABLE!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!! That was the surprise of the night and it was surprisingly good.

The awards were good tonight but what shocked me was i was waiting for maroon five to sing wake up call or even makes me wonder and they sang something totally different but you know what it was a great song and now i'm looking for it to download.

It was a great show and if u missed it, you'll be kicking yourself because it's all anyone is going to be talking about at school and work tomorrow.

later readers

latoya

]]> ~angelsangelicangel http://angelsangelicangel.deviantart.com/journal/10739781/ http://angelsangelicangel.deviantart.com/journal/10739781/ Wed, 15 Nov 2006 22:46:21 PST
But to let u know MIkey and i are doing fine and i'll be creating more soon.

]]> ~angelsangelicangel http://angelsangelicangel.deviantart.com/journal/8299207/ http://angelsangelicangel.deviantart.com/journal/8299207/ Tue, 28 Mar 2006 20:44:56 PST ~angelsangelicangel http://angelsangelicangel.deviantart.com/journal/8042367/ http://angelsangelicangel.deviantart.com/journal/8042367/ Wed, 01 Mar 2006 22:38:47 PST [link] I'm getting great reviews about it on the shows official website. Making a lot of cool music videos.

later days

latoya ]]> ~angelsangelicangel http://angelsangelicangel.deviantart.com/journal/6876815/ http://angelsangelicangel.deviantart.com/journal/6876815/ Wed, 26 Oct 2005 19:49:23 PDT [link] When i'm done it'll contain all of the hundreds of walls i have so don't be a stranger.

later days

latoya ]]> ~angelsangelicangel http://angelsangelicangel.deviantart.com/journal/5436390/ http://angelsangelicangel.deviantart.com/journal/5436390/ Mon, 23 May 2005 07:45:56 PDT
Thanks in adavnce

latoya ]]> ~angelsangelicangel http://angelsangelicangel.deviantart.com/journal/5357451/ http://angelsangelicangel.deviantart.com/journal/5357451/ Sat, 14 May 2005 15:59:50 PDT ~angelsangelicangel http://angelsangelicangel.deviantart.com/journal/5295509/ http://angelsangelicangel.deviantart.com/journal/5295509/ Sat, 07 May 2005 17:23:58 PDT ~angelsangelicangel http://angelsangelicangel.deviantart.com/journal/5247458/ http://angelsangelicangel.deviantart.com/journal/5247458/ Mon, 02 May 2005 13:54:09 PDT [link] and at myspace at [link] whore. In about an hour for now you can hear at both sites and it will bring a tear to your eye. It is now five to five eastern time. ]]> ~angelsangelicangel http://angelsangelicangel.deviantart.com/journal/5228251/ http://angelsangelicangel.deviantart.com/journal/5228251/ Sat, 30 Apr 2005 08:48:18 PDT [link] you hve to type it just like that or it won't work. Or click on the word link i don't know how it is going to appear in ths journal. Anyways i have over 300 wallpapers like the ones that were removed from here so why don't you go and check them out.

later days

latoya ]]> ~angelsangelicangel http://angelsangelicangel.deviantart.com/journal/5218723/ http://angelsangelicangel.deviantart.com/journal/5218723/ Fri, 29 Apr 2005 05:05:47 PDT that is when i first fell in love with DA but to my disbelief they banned me. I was crushed so i tried again as and all things seemed to be going well. So well that i started a group and at and i thought everything was honky dory and you know what they banned me again. Why you asked? Becasue i made wallpapers, or manipulations of musicians, artist, tv, movies, and other celebrities and here at this site that is called DA they don't consider that art so they delet your stuff and before you know it they delete you. I myself think this is wrong and totally not fair so i ask that you join sheezyart. They are a great site. They are down right now for maintenace but the promise when they come back up that they will be better than ever so i'll keep you posted for when they come back up

I just started this account here and i love being but they deleted all of my work and only gave me explanations for two. I shall keep this site up and post my poems and journals but when you want to look for my manips that so many of you loved so well you can find me at [link]. I have over three hundered wallpapers there and counting when the site comes back up i shall add the ones that were deleted from here and i hope you all join me at [link]. It is truly a great place.


Thank You for your time,

LaToya ]]> ~angelsangelicangel