http://search.deviantart.com/?q=by:angstforless&section=today deviantART RSS for by:angstforless en-us Copyright 2009, deviantART.com Fri, 18 Dec 2009 07:33:28 PST deviantART.com http://blogs.law.harvard.edu/tech/rss http://s.deviantart.com/minish/widgets/apple-touch-icon-precomposed.png http://angstforless.deviantart.com/journal/19799705/ http://angstforless.deviantart.com/journal/19799705/ Tue, 05 Aug 2008 22:51:44 PDT I have been horrible about updating, replying, etc. I keep promising to turn over a new leaf, but instead it seems I just get busier. it has not been for nothing though. I have found myself becoming completely immersed in what I love most about life, that being art, and music..and of course Joji. who is very vocal about his demands..and that is mostly "DADDY DADDY DADDYYYYYYYYYYYY!!!"
so it's already August. I have survived Joji's second birthday. I will post perhaps one more deviation on this account, but on my new one..oh yeah:
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I will be posting all of my new stuff. I dunno.. I might tie up some loose ends for this account, in terms of deviations. we'll see. in the meantime I will leave you with a tune I wrote for my son, it's called "Joji Let's Play!" see you soon!
love,
r
incidentally,
If you would like to purchase prints of my art, I have an account at:imagekind

]]> ~angstforless http://angstforless.deviantart.com/journal/16620997/ http://angstforless.deviantart.com/journal/16620997/ Mon, 28 Jan 2008 22:30:55 PST stay warm, stay well. C-U-SOON! :hugs:

]]> ~angstforless http://angstforless.deviantart.com/journal/15251129/ http://angstforless.deviantart.com/journal/15251129/ Sat, 27 Oct 2007 23:53:19 PDT
ah..hello. it's nice to be back, but my god these cobwebs! I will be cleaning up my gallery soon. If you fancy anything in it now is a good time to download.
My apologies to anyone who has dropped by and found me absent. To those who have been loyal friends throughout. I thank you. I have been in a tumult of sorts for the past couple of years. The tumult of course is not through, but I have found my way to a bit of driftwood which I can cling to. I realized after a while that I am incapable of doing everything I am asked. I try to be there for my friends, neighbors, strangers I meet..but then I noticed I was not paying attention to my own projects. Things have lapsed, and it was starting to get critical. I let several good opportunities pass to further my art, my writing, and my music. Being a Daddy is also a big job, and I have truly enjoyed it. Joji astounds me and I never grow tired of being with him. I feel sad when I dont get to see him. He is such a great person!

my music has taken some unexpected turns, since it has been one of the few avenues that I can still work on, usually long after everyone has gone to bed, when I am too tired to do anything else. I usually fall asleep mid-composition and wake up with headphone hair and a slobbery keyboard. you can now find my stuff on mog.com/angst4less and myspace.com/angst4less as well as some more at soundclick.com/angst4less for those of you who are interested.
as some of you may know I have been composing a soundtrack for my graphic novel Placebo 99. Which is fairly ambitious if you consider I dont know how to write music, or play an instrument. I use a program called fruity loops. it let's me compose, by ear, the music I hear in my head while I am writing, or painting and/or drawing panels for the graphic novel. Though lately I have really been into altering my compositions, and digitally breaking them, because they sound kind of cheesy to me. so some of it has been getting rather "experiMental" heavy on the mental.

poetry..well I haven't been writing it at all. sorry to those who were expecting a stash of revisions to be posted. I will write some. I do feel inspired to do so, but the words have not, as yet, coalesced. I will say my style has suffered a complete meltdown though. I note when I try to write poems lately, they are less lilty, and fluttery, and more like a cramp between your shoulder blades. I am not sure what has brought this change in vision, but well, I'll let you judge with the first few I post...when it happens. please be patient. I wish there were two of me..I have so many things going on at this moment, but at least they are all my things now.

though..I am still working on that grpahic novel with my friend Kiyan..we have both cooled on the project because other things took priority. with his permission I will post a few example pages here.

art. ah..thought I forgot didn't you? Painting...my style has also changed..and it still seems to be transitioning at the moment. But the direction it's been taking has been catching even me by surprise. I cant wait to get some of my newer paintings finished so I can show them! I'm not saying I'm some sort of innovative guy or anything...no, not at all, I'm just really excited about the way I sort of fell into this way of painting! I dont know how well it will translate in photographs, but in person..well it knocks my socks off..and I wonder how the heck I did that. In the meantime I will be posting some of my photoshop experiments and maybe a couple of wallpapers from Pla©ebo 99.
and finally.
I love you my friends. I thank you everyone who has stopped by my page, faved my work..I really appreciate it. It has been a little difficult working in a bubble. I dont get too much critique on my work, though I daresay that will change. as I finish my work I will be soliciting galleries..finally. I have a body of work now that I can present in several different style markets. The abstract is still my favorite..and it is the most dominant, however, it is now mostly used for establishing the tone of the painting. I find I am covering up some of the tasty bits of texturing ( with much hestitation) that I love so much, so that I can offer a nice stable solid colour to play my composition on. well..you'll see. I wont say I do it every time. I am not into formulas..but I do it sometimes..and sometimes I just go crazy and let it all happen on its own...I love to paint. I will also be posting some sculptures soon....but I am still working on creating the finishes I envision. I have been using found objects and well, basically, garbage to make these. I have been thinking lately about how much we waste as a society. I dont like it.

I will also be posting some tutorials. like how I paint with crayons. (ther... ]]> ~angstforless http://angstforless.deviantart.com/journal/9555772/ http://angstforless.deviantart.com/journal/9555772/ Mon, 31 Jul 2006 15:07:24 PDT 21 inches head to toe
2:05 PM july 29th 2006

watch out world. ]]> ~angstforless http://angstforless.deviantart.com/journal/7538871/ http://angstforless.deviantart.com/journal/7538871/ Sat, 07 Jan 2006 19:49:33 PST
wow. it's already 2006. 2005 was a blur, a strange red and yellow blur. I vaguely remember New Years 2005 as something I was unsure of, but it seems like it all turned out okay for me. I did not spontaneuosly combust and I actually accomplished something I have wanted to do my whole life.... no it wasn't updating my journal..though it seems like that at times. almost herculean. to sit and paste words together. still I'm not gonna write a book..not here at least. I just wanted to emerge from my creative cocoon long enough to wish all my friends..and potential friends a happy new year. and since I really cant provide too much information about Placebo 99 which seems to be eating up my waking and sleeping time with little regard, I thought I would share some of my music with you. I write music when I want to uncramp my brain from formulating plot curves..hah! as if I even know what that means! See I dont "know" how to write, to draw, paint, write music. I truly dont. It's not some lie or semantic play on a concept. I honestly create by the seat of my pants. I "feel", or "intuit" the process at hand and let the medium take over. Often my dreams influence the process, but not always..sometimes it is a random bit of energy that just floats over and guides my hand. so before this gets any longer.

details: composed and created on my computer. no instruments. using Fruity Loops and Acid Pro. I did create some rhythm samples from vlf modulations of lightning on Jupiter, Saturn's rotation..stuff like that. It sounds like static, but when you chop it up it can be a snare..or whatever. Marble is a tragic character in
Placebo 99 but this concept bit was fitted with a new rhythm loop this morning. It sounds more upbeat than I had originally conceived, but meh. I guess it'll work for now. "Topper Riot" is a bit I wrote while thinking about string theory and particle migration and how it might affect world events ( ie the riots in france at the time) I initially imagined a reiteration of a sequence that changes as it migrates and perhaps some of the signal gets deflected into various dimensional phenomenon..WHA?!!..it's okay.. I dont even understand most of the time..I just let my fingers hit the keys at random, but i love making my computer think it's an electric guitar heh heh. Pop Damage is me making fun of myself. I tend to write dramatic little bits..and I worry sometimes that I might start sounding cheesy. I might put a rhythm to it one day if I get enough happy type feedback..but for now..it was a way to resolve my need to compose something that went too far. "always my friend" I tried to send to all my friends before I left for Japan..but dial-up had other ideas..and I ran out of time. so please feel free to try it now. it's a little new-agey I'm told..meh. I wrote it for all of my friends who have been so patient with me..but I composed it as a homage to life who has been my friend since before I was born and whom I love very much. so without further harrassment please feel free to download. I will not be placing most of these in my other music sites..they are exclusive to this journal entry. I might post more as an update later..but for now:

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one of these days I'll actually learn to write music and compose properly. thanks to everyone who actually sits down to listen to my crudely fashioned caveman style. I truly appreciate it. Happy New Year my friends. I hope it is a good one for us all! ® ]]> ~angstforless http://angstforless.deviantart.com/journal/6859752/ http://angstforless.deviantart.com/journal/6859752/ Mon, 24 Oct 2005 22:02:29 PDT I know I've said my apologies ad nauseum to my friends for being such a flake. But there are also people who have commented on my work, that I've neglected, unintentionally over the last few years. Not for any reason but a lack of time. I usually spend my time on DA rapidly perusing the deviations list in my message area, intending to write a brief but meaningful comment on each one. Instead I usually end up sidetracked with research projects. The nature of these projects I will do my best to reveal soon. I will give a little glimpse by journals end of the projects I am involved in. Then perhaps my apologies might make more sense.

In the meantime I wish to send out a million hugz to everyone who still thinks kindly of me after all my flaky tendencies. I believe it shows a true commitment to our friendship and I do not take that lightly. Thank you. I endeavor to return in kind, the benefit of such a supportive relationship. I believe in each and every one of you.

Thumbnail sketches:
I know I've whined incessantly to anyone who would listen, that 42 days in Japan was not enough! I got drunk on the place and am in the middle of the reality hangover. It was 42 days of thumbnail sketches and a book full of blank paper. the only marks made in my journal after the first three days were quickly scrawled email addresses, and attempts at communicating concepts. The visual thing works when my lack of vocabulary becomes an impedence. I also made little shopping lists of people's interests and observances about the things they generally favor to help me in designing gifts to send. I met so many really nice people, who went far out of their way to help me in one respect or another.

Truth be told though, I know it comes off as though I am a spoiled, self-centered brat. 42 days!! That's way more "vacation" than some people get in their entire lifetime. I went to places some people who live in Japan will probably never get to visit. I can gripe all I want about how much I wished I could've stayed longer in each spot, to savor the nuance of each new discovery. I learned a lot about Japan, and myself in those few weeks, and even so I wanted more. Japan is a beautiful country, and it has a richness in the culture that permeates even the contemporary settings. I think it's probably something that you would find in any of the older cultures. Places with a history longer than 200 plus years ( I know there are cultures that endured in America before it became "colonized" but sadly these cultures are not as evident due to the assimilative properties of modern American culture and a society born of convenience. It's still there, but it's buried pretty deeply and not as accessible as I found Old Japan to be.) It was everything and nothing that I had envisioned it to be. I went with no expectations per se, but you know you can't escape some of the preconceptions that infiltrate the common perception. I will write some of my "memoirs" (post partum) in the descriptions to the "snapshots" I will be posting in my scraps ( I will, soon, I promise, really! pronto. honto.) but I wanted to say, that I appreciated each and every day. And I appreciate where I am now even more, as a result of this journey. So let me explain where I am right now.

I had put my name into a lottery to be included for a project which, once completed will greatly benefit the artist community in Seattle. It is the rennovation of the old Rainier brewery. 3 artist co-ops are turning 3 of the buildings into artists living/work spaces. The end result will include recording studios occupied byJambox, a local recording company. An onsite Gallery and a host of other amenities that should bring a strong cohesive element to Seattle's art inclined. When I put my name in the lottery, I had no idea how I would finance this venture, but I have faith that life never hands you something that it doesn't provide a solution for. Please remember, every crisis IS an opportunity, to learn if nothing else. I felt that if it happened, then somehow I would find the way to fund it. Upon my return from Japan I was greeted with the news that I had indeed been picked in the lottery. That I had a studio as soon as the developers gave us the 30 days notice then we had 2 months to complete build-out and get everything up to code to acquire a certificate of occupancy. This sudden induction into a group environment was an incredible learning experience for me. The dynamic is incredible, and I think it teaches you to organize and prioritize your energy in an entirely different sort of focus. I met some really incredible people, and suddenly I was very glad to be a part of this project, even though I had no idea how I could provide for it. Suddenly a solution presented itself, and it seemed things were progressing full speed ahead. I began to research in earnest and ALL aspects of my personal life got p... ]]> ~angstforless http://angstforless.deviantart.com/journal/6455207/ http://angstforless.deviantart.com/journal/6455207/ Thu, 08 Sep 2005 23:22:53 PDT ciao4nyao bellas!
®obert ]]> ~angstforless http://angstforless.deviantart.com/journal/6043496/ http://angstforless.deviantart.com/journal/6043496/ Tue, 26 Jul 2005 20:54:11 PDT Yeah it's been awhile again. I have to say..planning a trip like this is detrimental to free time. As if I've had much of that recently anyway. I joked with someone recently that it's almost like I'm dying or something..the way all the loose ends need to be tied. and in a metaphoric sense I suppose it is indeed a death of a sort. I have never been to Japan. Yet I dreamt of it nightly when I was younger ( not so much these days) these vague impressionistic dreams. Not at all kids dreams, just a series of imagery, not so much a story line. So that part of me that waits in the land between will meet the part of me that embraces tomorrow after a very long flight. I have no expectations, rather I have no idea what the meeting will be like. I have studied Japan for a number of years, but I confess I am still ignorant withall. I will be taking a lot of pictures while I am there and I hope to post the best ones here. I will also be riding my bike, and soliciting some galleries while I am there...oh and climbing Mt Fuji!. Yeah..it's going to be Fun! I am sorry if anyone felt slighted by my absence. It was not intentional, and in fact I had a hard time staying away. I truly love all of my friends on this site, and it sucks that I cant visit more often now that I am finally in a happy spot..unfortunately..needs must be met. There is work to do..and tons of it. But well, after my resurrection in September, we'll see what kind of coalesence takes place in my being. I sense a change in the air. I feel myself shifting again, so I know change is inevitable. I welcome it. I have been in this current region of development for several years, but I see it as coming to a close. This is the beginning of the next step. Wish me luck! I'll see you all in September! Love ya!
® ]]> ~angstforless http://angstforless.deviantart.com/journal/5339529/ http://angstforless.deviantart.com/journal/5339529/ Thu, 12 May 2005 14:29:47 PDT Angst4less Studios thing. OH that's right I forgot to say. I've started my own business. I finally gave up working for someone else as a bad habit. Unfortunately the downside is operating capital. It takes alot to stay in business and needs creativity to legally make it work. So I have been devoting MANY hours trying to keep myself in business and therefore, neglecting my friends, families, loved ones. My deepest apologies. So I lost my old PC as you might know. But now I have a new one....upgrade people, believe me, you will LOVE the difference. so to current news:
I got featured in today's Stranger in their visual arts section.

I have a whole lot of new art to post..as well as news and links to fun stuff I have been working on. Thank you to everyone who has faithfully remained my friend during this transitionary period. I hope you still feel it is worth it. I will of course be gone for 45 days July 27th-September 6th. I am going to JAPAN!!! I hope to take alot of pictures there, and yes I will be riding my fold-up bike alot. (º __º )/
ciao4nyao bellas! I will do my best to be back shortly.
4now
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[link] if you want to see one of the projects I'm involved in. ]]> ~angstforless http://angstforless.deviantart.com/journal/1251223/ http://angstforless.deviantart.com/journal/1251223/ Wed, 08 Oct 2003 14:01:40 PDT ]]> ~angstforless http://angstforless.deviantart.com/journal/898734/ http://angstforless.deviantart.com/journal/898734/ Tue, 01 Jul 2003 21:52:30 PDT see you on my return. I have a wedding to attend.
back on the 8th. ciao for niao.




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]]> ~angstforless http://angstforless.deviantart.com/journal/736936/ http://angstforless.deviantart.com/journal/736936/ Sun, 18 May 2003 21:57:35 PDT
it occured to me while meditating today, okay maybe I wasn't meditating exactly, more like sanding a piece of junk plywood in preparation for yet one more bid on exploration of the Id. a junk acrylic persona with a satiny gold leaf memory. I was busy getting splinters implanted on my palms when I looked at the wood, it just sat there like a bump on a log...no more like the log on a bump. Being wood, and here I was sanding away trying to make it fit into my ideal. It would never be that. This particular piece was of a less than premium nature donated to me by someone who was desperate to rid their yard of what had to be several years fo scrap accumulation. The smooth side had several of those eye-shaped plugs where they never match the wood grain, and the other side, marred only by a couple of knots was like the untamed Splinter City of the frontier days, saloon brawls, killing in the streets and about a quarter inch of my epidermis lying like a drunkard on main street, forlorn and missing the local thumb which had left only moments earlier. I remember when I was younger, okay maybe about 8 hours ago, how it was all about the finish. The end of the project in mind. Goal set, focus go, finish reward, of discovery and the satisfaction of accomplishing my concept. without ever giving thought to the surface on which I would apply my imaginations whim. One could say a painting is only as good as the base on which it is painted, but what is the measure of that really? Those of you who know me, are probably sick of my wandering metaphors, so I'll try to shorten this a bit. So I stopped sanding, staring at the wood and breaking several woodworking rules for craftsmanship. I saw the splinter strewn landscape as unique to the piece, and enhancement to the art which drew from a source beyond my reckoning. With this concept I began sanding each contour for its own merit. Splinter City tamed to a farming community, of terraces and thatch roof houses. I stared thoughtfully for a moment at the wood, which to my surprised gleamed back at me under a sudden tempting peak of sunshine which crept through the partially opend door next to me. I was amazed at the change this piece of donated wood
had undergone. One concept had changed my approach and totally altered the outcome of whatever finished product would be produced. I wonder if perhaps the art is only as good as the surface, and perhaps the surface is only as good as our understanding of it. change happens in each breath, what are you thinking right now? be mindful.






]]> ~angstforless http://angstforless.deviantart.com/journal/617120/ http://angstforless.deviantart.com/journal/617120/ Sat, 12 Apr 2003 21:39:45 PDT
stay tuned. a for you a buddha to be.






]]> ~angstforless http://angstforless.deviantart.com/journal/570459/ http://angstforless.deviantart.com/journal/570459/ Wed, 26 Mar 2003 19:07:17 PST
don't know how? stay tuned.






visit corporatewhore, piggleteus,justb, Evad, epitomei and yes lilmissle is back. ]]> ~angstforless http://angstforless.deviantart.com/journal/568253/ http://angstforless.deviantart.com/journal/568253/ Tue, 25 Mar 2003 20:28:45 PST
if this war is for FREEDOM why is anyone exercising that right wrong? I saw a clever editorial cartoon recently. something about being stuck in the middle, but with slogans like "You're either with us or against us" how can there ever be a middle ground? I would simply like to express a simple physics lesson now, dont worry I'll leave out the advanced equations and fractal geometry, simple...we're talking Isaac Newton here..."Every action has an equal and opposite reaction". Now this may be seen as karma or whatever, and it certainly applies as quirky as only quantum physics can be, but I would think this fact alone would be a reason to think hard before applying enormous pressure to an area already suffering from stress fractures. I am through speaking out about how wrong everything is. If it is not evident then nothing I would ever say could change that, and many a "pro war" person has made my point all the more eloquent without ever having to cast an inflection of emphasis from weary vocal chords. I think the world will need healers soon. I dunno, maybe I'm just getting idealistic. maybe this is all just part of a greater plan. something Darwinian nd reverse evolutionary about this whole event. Survival of the fittest may be a strong argument for cockroach superiority. It would have been nice to see another century of human development though. *hugs* to anyone who stopped by and read..hell.. hugs to EVERYBODY.. I think it would be a good thing. ]]> ~angstforless http://angstforless.deviantart.com/journal/549657/ http://angstforless.deviantart.com/journal/549657/ Mon, 17 Mar 2003 18:09:27 PST ~angstforless http://angstforless.deviantart.com/journal/536290/ http://angstforless.deviantart.com/journal/536290/ Mon, 10 Mar 2003 20:18:53 PST sorry for having been gone for so long. I will be posting some of my portfolio pieces, in case anyone wanted to see them, and I will be online semi regularly now, but I did mean what I said. Despite the rejection, I will continue to paint and create, because.. I have to. I am not content to be a Joe Corporate, even tho it seems I keep getting sucked back into latte heaven....be back up in a bit my friends.. thank you for stopping by and being so darned patient. *Big Fat HUG* you all rock my socks!! ]]> ~angstforless http://angstforless.deviantart.com/journal/497792/ http://angstforless.deviantart.com/journal/497792/ Sun, 16 Feb 2003 18:46:40 PST Hope to be online soon!! in the meantime please forgive me.




]]> ~angstforless http://angstforless.deviantart.com/journal/423899/ http://angstforless.deviantart.com/journal/423899/ Sat, 04 Jan 2003 00:23:49 PST


clayboards are fun.
I'm very syck of my temp ID...I must delete it.
hope everyone is doing well. much hugs and...ah I gotta sleep.









]]> ~angstforless http://angstforless.deviantart.com/journal/417909/ http://angstforless.deviantart.com/journal/417909/ Tue, 31 Dec 2002 11:03:18 PST
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hit f1 to reboot

Happy New Year Devart!















[DJ Shadow - Midnight In a Perfect World]
]]> ~angstforless http://angstforless.deviantart.com/journal/386319/ http://angstforless.deviantart.com/journal/386319/ Tue, 10 Dec 2002 23:09:26 PST
[coming soon to a deviant near you]

















]]> ~angstforless http://angstforless.deviantart.com/journal/361953/ http://angstforless.deviantart.com/journal/361953/ Mon, 25 Nov 2002 19:41:06 PST


okay.. I'll be online again soon--working on a soundtrack for a little indie film ( nothing big, just someones school project)
meanwhile say hi to Kat [link]
The Amazing Brett [link]
and Evad ( there's always room for Evad) [link]
chow..ciao...and how. - R- ]]> ~angstforless http://angstforless.deviantart.com/journal/322228/ http://angstforless.deviantart.com/journal/322228/ Mon, 28 Oct 2002 19:00:30 PST a story, complete with soundtrack-Talk about a multiplex muse! I am also doing some remixes for a local bands' soon to be released CD, and reimagening some stuff for Dissection Theatre...and *deep breath* working on my own tunes, and a couple of paintings--real.. not digital. I dont know what has inspired this current fire of creativity, but I intend to work it while it's here. I will be back, if that's even a concern. just dont be upset with me if my comments are even more sparse than usual. I still love you all.. it's just a muse thing. *hugz* to everyone who took the time to read all this! ~Robert ]]> ~angstforless http://angstforless.deviantart.com/journal/300286/ http://angstforless.deviantart.com/journal/300286/ Thu, 10 Oct 2002 23:22:50 PDT [link]


nice colours!! I thought so too. the result of a dance with the devil by the pale moonlight. JustB-Have!

please visit Kat [link]

piggi!!
chaoskitties will rule the earth one day! ]]> ~angstforless http://angstforless.deviantart.com/journal/295265/ http://angstforless.deviantart.com/journal/295265/ Sun, 06 Oct 2002 17:27:46 PDT











]]> ~angstforless http://angstforless.deviantart.com/journal/285511/ http://angstforless.deviantart.com/journal/285511/ Sat, 28 Sep 2002 10:51:13 PDT [link] page soon.











Soon to be released :Liturgy,IncrimiNation, Natsu, Project Kokoro, Shinto no Yume











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]]> ~angstforless http://angstforless.deviantart.com/journal/276826/ http://angstforless.deviantart.com/journal/276826/ Fri, 20 Sep 2002 11:59:29 PDT Hope you all have a fabulous weekend!

My heart will be here even though my calves will be slaving away on some remote backroad.
Ciao!


]]> ~angstforless http://angstforless.deviantart.com/journal/272842/ http://angstforless.deviantart.com/journal/272842/ Mon, 16 Sep 2002 19:14:15 PDT [link] -- feel free to give a listen if you wish!






Coming Soon: Natsu and Project Kokoro





]]> ~angstforless http://angstforless.deviantart.com/journal/272838/ http://angstforless.deviantart.com/journal/272838/ Mon, 16 Sep 2002 19:11:12 PDT [link] -- feel free to give a listen if you wish!






Coming Soon: Natsu and Project Kokoro





]]> ~angstforless http://angstforless.deviantart.com/journal/268769/ http://angstforless.deviantart.com/journal/268769/ Thu, 12 Sep 2002 22:55:15 PDT sorry.






]]> ~angstforless http://angstforless.deviantart.com/journal/255556/ http://angstforless.deviantart.com/journal/255556/ Sun, 01 Sep 2002 20:17:42 PDT --just wanted to say "HI" to everybody who's been visiting. my apologies for a long absence, but the collab projects have almost made it impossible to work my regular job...if things go well, this may not be a problem. In the meantime though.. I'm trying to squeeze some extra minutes out of the day to return the joy and love my friends here at devart have bestowed. much love to you all!!! . I will return..soon!! lo prometo!









]]> ~angstforless http://angstforless.deviantart.com/journal/234620/ http://angstforless.deviantart.com/journal/234620/ Fri, 16 Aug 2002 18:00:58 PDT Kat rocks the whole place like a frickin rockslide!!! like a toe socks militia..You have been warned! .










]]> ~angstforless http://angstforless.deviantart.com/journal/229135/ http://angstforless.deviantart.com/journal/229135/ Mon, 12 Aug 2002 18:55:12 PDT thanks Kat I blow you kisses...oop wrong emoticon. I am happy I am still here... I would hate to have to set up an account with a name like djbannedforgood. dont go kickin anyones booty right now..you might scuff your boots.











]]> ~angstforless http://angstforless.deviantart.com/journal/227860/ http://angstforless.deviantart.com/journal/227860/ Sun, 11 Aug 2002 21:22:27 PDT

I have tried to contact people.. and leave journal messages.. deviant messages.. but I dont know why I am being banned?
that would be nice.. at least to know why. my apologies to those who've commented, but I am unable to return comment at this time.


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hopefilly this will be resolved and I will be back online soon. ]]> ~angstforless http://angstforless.deviantart.com/journal/227844/ http://angstforless.deviantart.com/journal/227844/ Sun, 11 Aug 2002 21:04:55 PDT















hopefilly this will be resolved and I will be back online soon. ]]> ~angstforless http://angstforless.deviantart.com/journal/221556/ http://angstforless.deviantart.com/journal/221556/ Tue, 06 Aug 2002 21:19:14 PDT this is embarraskin....dont hate me.. I'll be back soon.. honest










listening to Arcturus: The Sham Mirrors ]]> ~angstforless http://angstforless.deviantart.com/journal/205492/ http://angstforless.deviantart.com/journal/205492/ Wed, 24 Jul 2002 22:01:14 PDT I feel a bit guilty for not being online, but it's been IMPOSSIBLE>> I will be online soon hopefully.. just to take a break from everything else..yeesh.. see you then.. buy the remixes.














listening to OHgr :Welt.. in case anyone was wondering ]]> ~angstforless http://angstforless.deviantart.com/journal/196350/ http://angstforless.deviantart.com/journal/196350/ Tue, 16 Jul 2002 21:38:02 PDT it's been awhile, but it seems I have a more or less regular connection, now if I could just fix this hard drive crisis. (one thing at a time. next week a new HD)
thanks for being patient, I will be bringing more stuff online soon, but first I want to comment on all the people who have been kind enough to stop by and read, or comment. It has been a pleasure having you visit. I hope you will return once in awhile. I will give my usual shout outs in the next journal. right now..I'm off to visit. ]]> ~angstforless http://angstforless.deviantart.com/journal/191326/ http://angstforless.deviantart.com/journal/191326/ Thu, 11 Jul 2002 21:57:40 PDT ]]> ~angstforless http://angstforless.deviantart.com/journal/169213/ http://angstforless.deviantart.com/journal/169213/ Thu, 20 Jun 2002 23:01:20 PDT [link] in the next week..I Hope. In the meantime, I have not been aloof, or ignoring anybody. just frustratingly unconnected. hopefully I will be online for some time, and I can resume a more normal viewing/commenting schedule. If you have messaged me. I will be replying shortly. I promise.

and while you're at it check out:
Ed somebody wake Ed up please.
more than meets a healthy whack with a 2x4
Sweetness with an Attitude
FF Junkie
Art Incarnate
can we build a shrine here?
wow coming soon! a playlist to satisfy your deviant urges :hungry:

thanks for stopping by!

IF.. two letters mean so much ]]> ~angstforless http://angstforless.deviantart.com/journal/164213/ http://angstforless.deviantart.com/journal/164213/ Sun, 16 Jun 2002 15:57:02 PDT So it seems, I have become rather busy of late and have not been able to get online as much as I would like.
Both a good thing and a bad thing, in that it means I am accomplishing some of the groundwork I've spent planning, but sadly it means I have not been as attentive to those who have stopped by and graced my page with comments. I do apologise, and I will rectify this as sson as I am able. I appreciate every one. I have never considered myself much of a poet, since it used to be, the only time I wrote poetry was when I was grinding an angst. I guess somewhere my muse must've grown bored with the trend because it seems I tend to waiver between dark and light in my writing. I have been saddened by the loss of a couple of deviants in my absence, I wish these individuals the best throughout their life, and I would like them to know how each has influenced me in my approach to expression. I will be submitting some stuff later in this week, as my hard drive permits. I think it's time for a new computer thank you for dropping by!
and while you're at it check out:
Ed somebody wake Ed up please.
prose to tickle your funny brain
Sweetness with an AttitudeBebe le tube
FF Junkie
Art Incarnate
can we build a shrine here?

coming soon! a playlist to satisfy your deviant urges!

thanks for stopping by!

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]]> ~angstforless http://angstforless.deviantart.com/journal/151666/ http://angstforless.deviantart.com/journal/151666/ Mon, 03 Jun 2002 22:51:21 PDT in the meantime check out these wonderful artists!:

Ed all that and a bag of catnip.
the answer to all those unasked questions
divine deviousness
Bebe
talent & Beauty
amazed? you will be
soon to be famous. hurry be one of the first
a playlist sadly in need of updating

thanks for stopping by!

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in the meantime check out these wonderful artists!:

Ed all that and a bag of catnip.
the answer to all those unasked questions
divine deviousness
talent & Beauty
amazed? you will be
soon to be famous. hurry be one of the first
a playlist sadly in need of updating

thanks for stopping by!

if this had been an actual emergency you would have been instructed....don't you feel better knowing that?


[link] clique here
]]> ~angstforless http://angstforless.deviantart.com/journal/150662/ http://angstforless.deviantart.com/journal/150662/ Sun, 02 Jun 2002 18:14:05 PDT

in the meantime check out these wonderful artists!:
[link] all that and a bag of catnip
[link] the answer to all those unasked questions

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divine deviousness
[link] a playlist sadly in need of updating

thanks for stopping by!

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[link] clique here

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]]> ~angstforless http://angstforless.deviantart.com/journal/149575/ http://angstforless.deviantart.com/journal/149575/ Sat, 01 Jun 2002 16:46:03 PDT
I talked to a friend today, whose opinions I totally respect. I had told him I was writing again, so he said he would like to see it. I submitted some of the prose posted here. After reading them he told me that it was tired and cliche, that it seemed as though I were trying, a bit lamely, to imitate some of the more accomplished poets, and that I should "find my own voice". I think I will read these poets he spoke of, I have not read their work, and I would like to know wherein lies my error. I value his input, and I know his words instruct and inspire, so I will probably not post much in the way of poetry for awhile. I have a couple of pieces yet to finish which I've promised, but beyond that..who knows. I've never wanted to cliche the vision, so I will not tarnish it with tired phrasing.
in the meantime check out these wonderful artists!:
[link] all that and a bag of catnip
[link] the answer to all those unasked questions

[link]
divine deviousness

[link] a playlist sadly in need of updating

thanks for stopping by!

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[link] clique here
]]> ~angstforless http://angstforless.deviantart.com/journal/146090/ http://angstforless.deviantart.com/journal/146090/ Tue, 28 May 2002 22:11:23 PDT playing in photoshop, being devious.. will be submitting soon.. hopefully in the meantime check out:
[link] all that and a bag of catnip
[link] the answer to all those unasked questions

[link]
divine deviousness

[link] a playlist sadly in need of updating

thanks for stopping by!

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]]> ~angstforless http://angstforless.deviantart.com/journal/146086/ http://angstforless.deviantart.com/journal/146086/ Tue, 28 May 2002 21:54:37 PDT playing in photoshop, being devious.. will be submitting soon.. hopefully in the meantime check out:
[link] all that and a bag of catnip
[link] the answer to all those unasked questions

[link]
divine deviousness

[link] a playlist sadly in need of updating

thanks for stopping by!

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]]> ~angstforless http://angstforless.deviantart.com/journal/135422/ http://angstforless.deviantart.com/journal/135422/ Thu, 16 May 2002 18:40:38 PDT
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star era emos, some are rats
live tips spit evil
smart trams step on no pets
hoop pots stop pooh
flesh ah self
I am Mai

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]]> ~angstforless http://angstforless.deviantart.com/journal/127345/ http://angstforless.deviantart.com/journal/127345/ Mon, 06 May 2002 17:00:20 PDT mp3.com..honto. I think it turned out okay for my first attempt at such a thing..thanks to Jonnos cool cover art!
the next one will be mostly stuff I've composed in fruity loops & other nifty lil softwares which allow me to play composer and loopmaster. in the meantime, I'll be actually reading the tutorials instead of looking at the purty pickchures.. I promise.
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]]> ~angstforless http://angstforless.deviantart.com/journal/123170/ http://angstforless.deviantart.com/journal/123170/ Wed, 01 May 2002 17:10:40 PDT
critiques are welcome since I'm still learning to wield the beast called Photoshop.. it's a very COOL program, but since I am not familiar with all it can do..It's like reinventing the wheel each time I make something in it. thanks for stopping by!
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critiques are welcome since I'm still learning to wield the beast called Photoshop.. it's a very COOL program, but since I am not familiar with all it can do..It's like reinventing the wheel each time I make something in it. thanks for stoppping by!
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]]> ~angstforless http://angstforless.deviantart.com/journal/121599/ http://angstforless.deviantart.com/journal/121599/ Mon, 29 Apr 2002 20:59:16 PDT .. I totally misread the mp3.com info.. so yeah.. I can still do cover art!! yay!
new song "Midnight Tokyo" released, and already getting alot of feedback from the several sites I have released it on...guess that's a good thing. It's been compared to Aphex Twins "Analog Bubblebath"..now that blows me away because I really like AT.. of course someone said my "Percussive Interlude" sounded like Chemical Bros..I never know what category to put my stuff in. Thanks to everyone who has stopped by because of the AMAZING Corporate Whore [link] I appreciate the thought and the time involved.
and especially thanks to those who've went the step further and shown love to the mp3.com site. every play makes me that much more determined to try harder on the next tune.
so.. summary? short and sweet?.. to ALL DA Thank YOU! Merci, Molti Gratsi. Muchos Gracias! Arigato Gozaimasu! Cam O'n Nhieu La'm! Danke!Spaceeba! sorry I wont try the Chinese because I'm not sure of phonetics, and I already butchered the Vietnamese rendering..
ciao~ robert
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]]> ~angstforless http://angstforless.deviantart.com/journal/119963/ http://angstforless.deviantart.com/journal/119963/ Sat, 27 Apr 2002 19:30:32 PDT My newest track "midnight Tokyo" inspired some prose in a rush of creative imagery which manifested while putting it together. Those sexy, trashy horns in the middle originally suggested a title along the lines of "erotic.." something, but when I got the little movie playing in my head.. well.. it had to be Midnight Tokyo. It was hard to get the song to under 6 mins for the "radio edit" there is so much going on that the original piece goes on for about 13 mins.. struggling to finish even then, man talk about a track writing itself! I hope you will give it a listen when it's approved..and I hope you enjoy it. looking forward to feedback, see ya later!!

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]]> ~angstforless http://angstforless.deviantart.com/journal/117698/ http://angstforless.deviantart.com/journal/117698/ Wed, 24 Apr 2002 20:30:11 PDT have some prose if you wish, I just bought a whole bunch at Costco...generic, but it's okay.




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]]> ~angstforless http://angstforless.deviantart.com/journal/115851/ http://angstforless.deviantart.com/journal/115851/ Mon, 22 Apr 2002 19:27:14 PDT
Happy Earth day.

wondering about the nature of how we're remembered.
..not how we think we'll be remembered, but what are the renderings of our persona which somehow gel into the collective conciousness. I guess this was somewhat prompted by the discovery of Layne Staley some time post mortem. I wonder will he be remembered for the insight of his angst ridden drug driven lyrics, or for the thought of a bloated, "scientifically identified" corpse prepared by Heroins loving hands? We can say "talented individual, what a shame.." and think no more on it, but I'm wondering what part of his vision was so inescapable that he couldn't shake the enslaving monkey of his addiction? This seems to be a trait of those who feel acutely the passion of their art, who interact on a intimate level with the crashing chaotic jumble that comes into our everyday world. drugs are never the answer to anything, and the escape only lasts as long as our bodies. reality will catch you sooner or later, ask Layne.
I suppose a lesson, even though I grew out of AIC, before grunge even got the biggest part of press. I understood alot of the feelings expressed in the songs. I did not identify, as much as sympathize. Now I see this as a culmination. I will put a couple of my darker writings up for Layne's memory.

Pax.

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