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]]> ~anniex0r http://anniex0r.deviantart.com/journal/8990896/ http://anniex0r.deviantart.com/journal/8990896/ Tue, 06 Jun 2006 16:34:09 PDT ]]> ~anniex0r http://anniex0r.deviantart.com/journal/8380226/ http://anniex0r.deviantart.com/journal/8380226/ Thu, 06 Apr 2006 02:50:18 PDT
Here's what I got:

Deviant: +ewm (#240660881)
Date: Mar 31, 2006, 10:57:55 AM
Thank you for your inquiry. I have sent your case up to the appropriate parties for review, you should be hearing from them as soon as possible.

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Evanita W Montalvo
Help Desk Representative
Commmunity Development
deviantART, Inc.
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Deviant: ^superkev (#240665179)
Date: Mar 31, 2006, 11:12:58 AM
The reason I moved it was because the date shows up as:

Details:

* Submitted: Mar 28, 2006

on my screen. Must have been a time zone thing. Sorry about the confusion.

--
Have some every day: [link]

kevinthom.com
[link]
Reply, Parent

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I'm not so pissed off now... though that did kinda suck. At least it got cleared up. ]]> ~anniex0r http://anniex0r.deviantart.com/journal/8306571/ http://anniex0r.deviantart.com/journal/8306571/ Thu, 06 Apr 2006 02:39:11 PDT
[link]


I submitted that as an entry into the "Show Yourself" contest... For no reason - and with no explanation - it was moved to "Scraps." Honestly... this offends me. Quite a bit, actually...

Who's place is it to tell me that it doesn't count as a valid contest submission or even a finished deviation? Who says this isn't finished? And why? Because I didn't put some big, black/white photo border around it? Because I'm unhappy with where I am in my life and mentioned that in the description? Because someone just didn't like it? How do any of those facts make it any less my ART? I'd really like to know. It's a fucking self portrait... Perhaps I misread something, but from what I can see, it meets all the requirements... Well, it did, until it was moved.

I didn't expect to win the contest. I don't give a shit about the prizes either. I posted it to be posting a self portrait with the theme of "the hell with still self portraiture, I sure am sick of trying" in a contest full of "look at me!" and "see, I'm trying to be different!" types. To see it moved - not even to my gallery, but to "scraps," is a slap in the face.

What's even more retarded is that I used to be a self portrait artist, with quite a number of fans. I've done so many self portraits in the past 10+ years that I don't think there's much of anything left of my soul that the camera hasn't already stolen.

So, fuck this.


*** UPDATE ***

This is the note I got saying it had been moved back... At least they did something.
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anniex0r,

Your deviation, listed below, has been moved from its current category as it was determined that it did not adhere to the submission guidelines of the gallery it was found in. The deviation will retain all of its comments and statistics. The updated information is as follows:

URL: [link]
Title: Lost without hi-8...
Submitted: 2006-03-27 9:01:21 pm
Original Category:
New Category: Contests: Show Yourself

This notice requires no further action on your behalf. In the future, please take heed of the gallery descriptions that are presented to you when a deviation is submitted or edited. These descriptions detail the submission guidelines for the galleries and categories being submitted to. Making note of these guidelines will help to avoid corrections of this nature in the future.If you feel that you are receiving this notice in error, or have questions regarding it, then visit the deviantART Help Desk to submit your inquiry. It should be noted that replies to this note will go unanswered, as it has been sent from an automated messaging system.

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deviantART Gallery Direction Staff


ALSO:

[link]

Apparently there was a time zone confusion issue. ]]> ~anniex0r http://anniex0r.deviantart.com/journal/7704395/ http://anniex0r.deviantart.com/journal/7704395/ Wed, 25 Jan 2006 13:06:02 PST [link]

Do it to it, bitches. ]]> ~anniex0r http://anniex0r.deviantart.com/journal/5980809/ http://anniex0r.deviantart.com/journal/5980809/ Tue, 19 Jul 2005 19:54:31 PDT
Figures. ]]> ~anniex0r http://anniex0r.deviantart.com/journal/4497368/ http://anniex0r.deviantart.com/journal/4497368/ Fri, 04 Feb 2005 15:26:00 PST
That confuses me... I mean, I can see why people think that, but it bugs me. It's not like I'm cam-whoring it up here. So, I kinda want to clear this up real quick...


because actually, you know, i'm not interested in myself so much as i am in creating other people.

when one becomes trapped somewhere and the only real human interaction to be had becomes a rare event, one may exhibit schizophrenic tendencies... one may also find that creating new people can act as a mitigatory agent for the stress that arises from being alone in a 35,000 sqr. ft. building in the middle of nowhere.


in other words: forget me, i don't have access to other models... a face can be a blank canvas no matter who's face it is. these faces aren't me. these faces are makeup, lighting, camera work...


I care about music, art, ideas... the only time I get excited or happy with myself is when I have a "brilliant idea" or a new invention... not when people say "you're attractive."

In fact, I much prefer it nowdays when someone says "she" or "the model" in reference to a girl in one of my photos. I wish I had models... that would be nice. I could even fix some tea. ]]> ~anniex0r http://anniex0r.deviantart.com/journal/4373759/ http://anniex0r.deviantart.com/journal/4373759/ Fri, 21 Jan 2005 00:42:34 PST so distraught, so unable to sleep or eat...

so drained... so stressed...

that though i lack the self esteem or confidence to drag myself out of it, i don't feel as ugly as i typically would... in fact, i feel prettier than i have on much better days - maybe even vainly so... what a strange situation... dispair, and i feel so numb that i'm in love with myself... cause there's nowhere else to find it in a perfect sense... as long as i can pretend i love who i am, i have that... i have that little bit of faith inside that says "this is who you are and that's enough for now."


and i'm ok... or at least, i'll be ok. sometime. ]]> ~anniex0r http://anniex0r.deviantart.com/journal/4085340/ http://anniex0r.deviantart.com/journal/4085340/ Fri, 17 Dec 2004 02:43:54 PST
Anyway... My video camera is like totally broken now... It won't play back tapes, it won't record, it won't do much of anything. I've tried various things, reset it numerous times, etc... I think it's dead...

Soooo, yeah, that's it.. all I have now is a cell-phone cam... I can't afford a new camera, video, SLR or otherwise... and I can't do what I do with a film camera either, unfortunately...

So, I guess I've hit a brick wall for now, not that I've been uploading much here anyway... but for those of you expecting me to one day post something new (unless I dig up something random and old.. or put in a digital art piece) - don't hold your breath.


Sorry.. I guess this is life. ]]> ~anniex0r http://anniex0r.deviantart.com/journal/2457309/ http://anniex0r.deviantart.com/journal/2457309/ Tue, 18 May 2004 17:02:23 PDT
that is all. ]]> ~anniex0r http://anniex0r.deviantart.com/journal/2283917/ http://anniex0r.deviantart.com/journal/2283917/ Fri, 23 Apr 2004 17:44:43 PDT
I have new work, but I don't feel like (or see any point in) posting it... ]]> ~anniex0r http://anniex0r.deviantart.com/journal/2217351/ http://anniex0r.deviantart.com/journal/2217351/ Tue, 13 Apr 2004 18:04:28 PDT
- moved to texas
- changed jobs a few times
- started playing "city of heroes"
- was depressed for a while
- got better, kinda
- stuff, stuff and more stuff. ]]> ~anniex0r http://anniex0r.deviantart.com/journal/1443992/ http://anniex0r.deviantart.com/journal/1443992/ Mon, 24 Nov 2003 03:36:25 PST
However... Since I really had nothing to say here, I decided to whip out one of my notebooks to see if there was anything that might make a worthwhile post... there wasn't.

9-30-03: don't sleep with knives in your bed ]]> ~anniex0r http://anniex0r.deviantart.com/journal/1161197/ http://anniex0r.deviantart.com/journal/1161197/ Sun, 14 Sep 2003 12:27:44 PDT

On another note...


A#


Also... What's the point of sucking up if you can't taste it? Some people really need to go out and get real lives.



I have nothing more to say... ]]> ~anniex0r http://anniex0r.deviantart.com/journal/972270/ http://anniex0r.deviantart.com/journal/972270/ Mon, 21 Jul 2003 21:11:58 PDT
Everyone wants to create things like those that inspire them... I can't... and this has led to years and years of stress and frustration, for which the only release has been the artwork that I've done and the photos I've taken.

I am losing my ability to cope and create... I hardly make anything new anymore.

Music is more than just an audial thing now though.. I can smell it even... and it's overwhelming.


Through attempts to pursue the visual side of an industry, I've found myself surrounded by the very people that create the things that inspire me... and it's becoming something too big to handle... It's not that I don't enjoy the things that inspire me... it's only that artwork as a release just isn't enough anymore... I only wish I had the creative ability to do the things I've always dreamed of.

I'm not bitter or jealous - though I suppose I do envy those with musical skills, but not with a negative kind of mindset.. I just wish I could be blessed with such abilities too... It's really more like a longing feeling than it is a jealous feeling.


The images I've made and the photos I've taken are all visual representations of things I could never accomplish... Images of the sounds I wanted to make... Photos of the people I thought I wanted to be....


Maybe I've always just wanted too much from life...
]]> ~anniex0r http://anniex0r.deviantart.com/journal/504155/ http://anniex0r.deviantart.com/journal/504155/ Thu, 20 Feb 2003 01:50:15 PST
this time i'm carrying a door stop and a shiny new lock... just to contradict reality. ]]> ~anniex0r http://anniex0r.deviantart.com/journal/425161/ http://anniex0r.deviantart.com/journal/425161/ Sat, 04 Jan 2003 19:16:30 PST

On another note:

"The Reply" - Too Long To Be A Journal Entry: [link]

]]> ~anniex0r http://anniex0r.deviantart.com/journal/424158/ http://anniex0r.deviantart.com/journal/424158/ Sat, 04 Jan 2003 05:22:31 PST
-Adam (Boating With Adam)

Fuck you, you can't ride on his boat.



On another note:

"The Reply" - Too Long To Be A Journal Entry: [link]

]]> ~anniex0r http://anniex0r.deviantart.com/journal/421104/ http://anniex0r.deviantart.com/journal/421104/ Thu, 02 Jan 2003 12:09:51 PST
Journal entry: [link]

]]> ~anniex0r http://anniex0r.deviantart.com/journal/362284/ http://anniex0r.deviantart.com/journal/362284/ Tue, 26 Nov 2002 01:40:04 PST
If you're near one of these cities and wish to go for lunch/coffee/beer/whatever, lemme know.. I'd love to meet some more fellow deviants! :*)

Just drop me a line at anniex0r@arthappens.com!


Also, anyone who's just interested in reading about my trip can visit my website (www.arthappens.com) for more info and some cheesy trip pics...

-anniex0r ]]> ~anniex0r http://anniex0r.deviantart.com/journal/361395/ http://anniex0r.deviantart.com/journal/361395/ Mon, 25 Nov 2002 14:06:13 PST
I'm in Slovakia now though, so if you're interested in my trip, you can visit my website (www.arthappens.com) for more info and some cheesy trip pics...

-anniex0r ]]> ~anniex0r http://anniex0r.deviantart.com/journal/327035/ http://anniex0r.deviantart.com/journal/327035/ Fri, 01 Nov 2002 15:04:58 PST
====+

"The rock show was excellent like Checkspress...

The band played it on
The band got down
The crowd roared like a lion
The rock show was awesome

...the rock show was whipping a horse's ass." -W. Willis


This is in reference to DROUGHT's performance last night at the Old Daisy.

They're playing Dora's CD release party at Newby's tonight, so if you're in Memphis, you should come on by...


Lulu will not be playing the Cheshire guitar though.. as I had not finished it, and his girlfriend did not want to let me finish it, she took a bottle of alcohol to the work I had done on it - and now it is, once again, just another black guitar.

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Also- I will be in Europe in November, touring with my non-existant band and visiting friends and what-not. (Translation: I'm flying to Slovakia - and from there, I'm visiting people from Devart all over Europe.) So, as of now I'm planning for Slovakia, Ireland and France... If you live in one of those countries (or one I might consider going to if there are enough people for me to visit), we'll do coffee/tea/beer.

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Lastly, on another completely unrelated note, don't forget to read the "Massive Jornal Update" - this being the big FAQ I wrote in October. If you have a question or, really, any reason at all for noting me - you should read it first. (Journal entry date: Wed Oct 09, 2002)


-anniex0r


p.s. there's a new temporary site on [link] - inspired one evening by listening to the song "Climbing Up The Walls" on repeat for 2-3 days straigt.

]]> ~anniex0r http://anniex0r.deviantart.com/journal/312644/ http://anniex0r.deviantart.com/journal/312644/ Mon, 21 Oct 2002 11:10:48 PDT
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Down to other matters... Regarding "Magniflite" - I'm going to discuss the possibility of prints with Hanzie sometime this week. If he thinks it's doable, I'll have them on my website in the next month or so. NO promises!

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Regarding [link] - Sadly, Breed is down this month for expansion and rebuilding... However, since the four images I made to contribute to this months would-have-been pack were all rather dark, I've decided to upload one every three days here for October.

Sooo, images will be released on the 21st, 24th, 27th and the 30th. The preview thumbnails are in my "webcam" pic.

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Also, last, but not least... If you live in the Memphis, TN area (or might be passing through on Halloween), there is a local show ("Macabre Metal Massacre III") planned for the OLD Daisy theatre on Halloween Night (Oct. 31st) at 7 P.M.

[link]

I highly reccomend attending, soley for the fact that DROUGHT is playing. (...and if I finish it in time, you might even catch a glimpse of Lulu's hand-painted Cheshire Cat guitar. ;P)

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So, that's it for now... Happy October and what-not.


-anniex0r ]]> ~anniex0r http://anniex0r.deviantart.com/journal/298731/ http://anniex0r.deviantart.com/journal/298731/ Wed, 09 Oct 2002 17:11:24 PDT
Today I am going through the many notes I haven't responded to and am kinda/sorta posting answers to relevant ones here. Not that "you rock," "you're awesome," "marry me," etc.. isn't relevant, but you know.. "Gee.. eheh.. um, thanks!" (Sorry, but I can't/won't marry you.)

Now down to business... THE FAQs.

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Section 1: "I'm A Newbie, Please Tell Me How/What/Where..."

A lot of people Note me to ask about "getting into photography" - I can't help you. I mean this in the nicest possible way.. I'm not a teacher and I don't use ordinary methods of doing things. I taught myself all that I know - and I'm still learning on my own. I cannot recommend a "beginner camera" for you or explain "where I get my ideas." - I use a Sony DCR-TRV 820 Video Camera with 8mm "Hi8" tapes. I record hours of video footage and take stills. This is how 99.9% of my photography has been done.

"How do you capure stills?" I use a slightly modified "Snappy" with the original 1.0 software. You can probably buy a Snappy on eBay for $5.

"Why/How are a lot of your photos green?" Because I use various lighting effects and combinations.

Most of the color effects are from mixing infrared with fluorescent and/or incandescent light. I like green.

"How do you take pictures of yourself?" I hit record. Sometimes.. SOMETIMES... I use a remote.

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Section 2: "May I Borrow/Use/Whatever Your Work?"

Here's a tip.. if you wish to use my work in something, the best way to ask is to contact me by instant message. I'm on AIM, ICQ, MSN and Yahoo (trillian) as anniex0r (AIM), 369769 (ICQ), anniex0r@hotmail.com (MSN) and anniex0r (Y!)... or even email me, hell, you can even call me if you need to (731.658.1194)... I really don't check (or respond to) my notes very often.

Typically I don't like people using my work on their web sites.. I guess I'm weird, I'm just the type that likes everything to be original. I even take my own texture photos. Regardless, I do consider such requests if the situation is clearly explained and I can see the full web site (or whatever) prior to the implementation of any work of mine.

I am -almost- always cool with tributes and/or drawings/paintings/whatever based on photographs/works of mine... in fact, it's flattering.

Images made with/from works of mine are what bug me. If I wanted my work to be used for stock photography, I'd put it there. However, Like I said.. email me or message me with your concept and I'll consider it.. Sending a note that says "I want to borrow one of your images for a pic/website/project I'm doing" - without mentioning which picture it is you'd like to use and/or what for - is totally insufficient.

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Section 3: Projects, "Can You/Will You?"

No. Not to be rude, but I just don't have time to take requests or "help you out with something." I have my own projects to work on.. from my job to freelance web development, to [link] releases, to local friends' guitar painting projects, to photographing local bands, to designing web sites for friends/local bands to oh, god.. say.. getting my life on track... I am swamped. Oh yeah.. and Halloween's coming up too.. damn.

Notice how my uploads are scarce. I haven't had time to do -anything- lately. I love to help people, but at the point in time, I can't. I can barely help myself.

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Section 4: New! Advertising With Notes!

Um, WTF? I know everybody likes comments, but I really don't have time for.. yeah.

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Section 5: Deviation Print Requests

Everybody likes Magniflite. I get it already. My other work is all pointless, but Magniflite- oh, yeah.

I'm not a member of Deviant Prints. If I ever end up releasing anything for print it will either be on [link] or my own site.

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Section 6: "It's Not Manipulated." - "Great Manipulation Job!"

Read the descriptions, fockers! It's not a mirror, it's a MAGNIfying glass. It's not a filter, it's a camcorder feature. I don't put edited pictures under "PHOTOGRAPHY."

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And so.. I guess that's it for now.
]]> ~anniex0r http://anniex0r.deviantart.com/journal/237859/ http://anniex0r.deviantart.com/journal/237859/ Mon, 19 Aug 2002 14:24:25 PDT


]]> ~anniex0r http://anniex0r.deviantart.com/journal/231738/ http://anniex0r.deviantart.com/journal/231738/ Wed, 14 Aug 2002 18:40:31 PDT --------------------------------

I am seemingly but an object. Perhaps -the- object at times.
I am knowingly objective. I am openly a creator.

I am not a girl, not a man, not a worldly manifestation.
I am the camera, the fingertips, a processor, the mind - and, at times, the object of my own artificial obsessions.

I am made up, shot down & worn out - herein.

...and what I want just may not be what you like-
and what I like, is just that.





]]> ~anniex0r http://anniex0r.deviantart.com/journal/197463/ http://anniex0r.deviantart.com/journal/197463/ Wed, 17 Jul 2002 22:19:06 PDT
If I knew the way to get there, I'd have the ambition to drive it.

If I knew the detour, I'd take it.

If I knew what it was that caused the pileup, I'd perhaps feel somewhat justified.

]]> ~anniex0r http://anniex0r.deviantart.com/journal/190713/ http://anniex0r.deviantart.com/journal/190713/ Thu, 11 Jul 2002 10:37:15 PDT
my heart bleeds for this...
the deluge from within
that containates my tears
that soaks the land
and stains the skin...

maybe if i could just rip it out
i could wring out all the vitiation.

maybe i don't want to.


(gothic is not the same thing as an ulceration... and for once i'd like to hear someone say "woah, that's shallow" because depth is an anomaly to me.) ]]> ~anniex0r http://anniex0r.deviantart.com/journal/190638/ http://anniex0r.deviantart.com/journal/190638/ Thu, 11 Jul 2002 09:19:25 PDT ~anniex0r http://anniex0r.deviantart.com/journal/190633/ http://anniex0r.deviantart.com/journal/190633/ Thu, 11 Jul 2002 09:13:33 PDT ~anniex0r http://anniex0r.deviantart.com/journal/183365/ http://anniex0r.deviantart.com/journal/183365/ Thu, 04 Jul 2002 14:51:37 PDT
i don't feel well 'cause i'm breeding ulcers in my stomach.
i need them out of me before i turn into one.
if they evolve they could eat you too- try not to get involved.

i need positive reinforcement for living ... i need tons of affirmation to work...

things that want to inspire me fall upon an invisible shield of nescience.. and i am feeling rather manqué.


-annie
]]> ~anniex0r http://anniex0r.deviantart.com/journal/170842/ http://anniex0r.deviantart.com/journal/170842/ Sat, 22 Jun 2002 12:57:12 PDT
yeaaahh, that's someone else in the webcam pic. dig it.

I am back in the bumblefuck abode; my always absolutley trashed mansion located in the middle of nowhere; the big empty; an undecorated industrial haven for dead radios, brown recluse spiders, animal hair, dust and other such untraditional curiosities...

it's bleak, but it's home.. it's filled with worthless junk, but it's not in midtown... it has nosey police officers, but it's not in the city... it's isolated - but not... there's way too much wasted space - but it's tainted... there's an overwhelming sense of claustrophobia - but it's huge... it's lonely, but it's haunted.

oh, you just wanted to know who the other chick was...

well, my curious journal reader... the girl on the lef is the fabulous meagan. with absolutley the longest, most awesome golden hair i've ever seen, she is the only other person i've been at ease photographing... if i scream at her to "no! damnit! look THAT way! no, damint! OVER THERE!" she doesn't get flustered or upset, no... she laughs at me.

(and, yes, the girl on the right - yeah, the one doing the ginger-spice impersonation - that's yours truly)

anyway, since i'm back in the country, i have access to the fabulous "meay" once again for the next few months.

..and just maybe you can expect to see some more photos of her in the future.

it's nice to have a model because i can experiment more with different angles... but at the same time i seem to lose a little control over things.. however, past shoots with meagan have gone rather well, so i'm hopeful that the future will be ripe with some new photos of a fresh face.

(and i'll stop getting criticized for photographing myself for once.. w00t...)


-annie ]]> ~anniex0r http://anniex0r.deviantart.com/journal/163585/ http://anniex0r.deviantart.com/journal/163585/ Sun, 16 Jun 2002 02:19:07 PDT 06-16-02
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Update? omg.. i am so hungry.. I'm starving and bruising and all I really want is a cheeseburger.

(I am really feeling my deficiencies right now.. )

By the way, there's a new Breed Release.. w00t.

One of my newest, most emotional pieces is up.. Apparently it's "not my best work" - but who is anyone to tell me that? No, really. Apparently my "artwork" is unappealing unless it involves alcohol and being in front of the lense... and that's just totally screwed up. This is how I feel. This is how I'm going to be.

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06-12-02
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Soooo, life's been kinda hectic lately - but no, I didn't forget the comdev... I'ma post it asap, I promise... It's kinda weak, as very -very- few people actually participated. (I was kinda hoping some new images would eventually roll in, but alas...)

If you still wish to submit an image- go for it, or message me on AIM as anniex0r.

Anyway, I'll post a more detailed entry regarding the current situation with my life soon...

There are some great photos waiting to happen on a couple of Hi8 tapes that are sitting on my desk, however Axion *sucks* and I'm going to have to have to find a new place to order a controller card from. I have no hard drive space left on this drive - but there's an 80gig on top of my comp, just sitting there, gah.

Anyway, much lurve to everyone who still checks my userpage.. It's good to know that people still care.


-annie ]]> ~anniex0r http://anniex0r.deviantart.com/journal/160687/ http://anniex0r.deviantart.com/journal/160687/ Wed, 12 Jun 2002 16:52:28 PDT
If you still wish to submit an image- go for it, or message me on AIM as anniex0r.

Anyway, I'll post a more detailed entry regarding the current situation with my life soon...

There are some great photos waiting to happen on a couple of Hi8 tapes that are sitting on my desk, however Axion *sucks* and I'm going to have to have to find a new place to order a controller card from. I have no hard drive space left on this drive - but there's an 80gig on top of my comp, just sitting there, gah.

Anyway, much lurve to everyone who still checks my userpage.. It's good to know that people still care.


-annie ]]> ~anniex0r http://anniex0r.deviantart.com/journal/133044/ http://anniex0r.deviantart.com/journal/133044/ Tue, 14 May 2002 03:18:29 PDT
so, here's the new story...

i am/was driving the most ghetto car (this would be the old, white pontiac grand am with DIY tint and a license that said "SHADES2" - oh, no cd or tape player either... no TAPE player! gah!)

Things were' going alright... I have 2 tickets to L.A. to fly out for E3.. a new business in the works (sort of..), I broke my lease (yay!), I'm moving back to the country and quitting my job... I bought a cheap ($800) 1987 Prelude to learn to drive a manual on... So far I have not left the driveway, however I have gotten the starting and stopping thing down (and I didn't stall once!). Soon I shall get a new car. I'd like a 968 or a 944... But I might just settle for a miata.

So now it comes down to this... The Ghetto-Pontiac busted a brake line today... around midnight. FOUR hours later, tripple A finally got a tow truck out to us, we rode to Wade's and he drove me in... Now I'm at my apartment without a car.

(So, yeah... 60 miles away there is a cheapass prelude with no insurance that just happens to be titled to me now... but it doesn't count because I still haven't figured out that whole keeping-from-rolling-downhill thing... and it's not on the insurance policy yet anyway.)


I have one week to get all the necessary materials together for E3 media registration, to move all of my furniture and belongings 60 miles away (lease terminates on the 20th) and to explain to my busy-with-2-trials boss that she's going to have to find another assistant.

One week.

My stomach is churning. ]]> ~anniex0r http://anniex0r.deviantart.com/journal/115105/ http://anniex0r.deviantart.com/journal/115105/ Mon, 22 Apr 2002 00:45:25 PDT

[02:24:40] anniex0r: i thouhgt things sucked this morning
[02:26:10] anniex0r: my coke addict neighbor's friend wants to like kill me and rob my apartment, (and now i'm scared of the apartment and scared to be alone), my job sucks, i'm very unhappy, my dad's moving to eastern europe soon and is leaving tuesday to be gone for a month, i'm depressed as hell...


and now i don't have a car....
(there goes the hair appointment tomorrow.)

anniex0r (1:41:41 AM): and thus, annie says as she wipes the mud from her forehead and applies neosporin to her elbow, another life saved by volvo and airbags

anniex0r (1:56:45 AM): it felt like a small twister or something.. i had just turned on the radio to see if there were any tornado warnings - since i thought i might have seen a funnel cloud

anniex0r (1:57:04 AM): and then my car fishtailed back, forth, back and forth again and just as i had nearly gotten it straight, out of nowhere it was like it was just picked up, spun around and flung into a ditch


anniex0r (2:36:14 AM): the impact was so fucked up
anniex0r (2:36:29 AM): just like a blank and suddenly a rininging in my ear and a horrible smoke and an airbag
Evilzug (2:36:31 AM): Yeah I can imagine
Evilzug (2:36:33 AM): wow
Evilzug (2:36:41 AM): did you get sucked into a tornado?
anniex0r (2:36:45 AM): i dunno
Evilzug (2:37:00 AM): it just rocked you?
anniex0r (2:37:09 AM): the people in the trailor near where i crashed said that they felt a big gust of wind just about exactly when i crashed



my life sucks, but at least i'm alive, thanks to volvo's incredible safety standards. ]]> ~anniex0r http://anniex0r.deviantart.com/journal/107783/ http://anniex0r.deviantart.com/journal/107783/ Fri, 12 Apr 2002 17:28:46 PDT
i wonder why... maybe because it's a photo of myself and i'm a girl, what do you think?!

lame. lame fucking lame. -- i used to get critisized for this.

i'm perturbed.

regardless, my experiment turned out as i had expected. how novel.


i could do an artistic airbrush piece, put a lot more "real feelings/emotion" into it and - just generally do somethig that *I* care about. and it'd be worth nothing to anyone else.


but if i take a picture of myself on an alcoholic day (last year) with a glass up to my mouth - wow, watch the comments and "adds to favorites" roll in.. (I'm not saying the picture lacks the emotion you'd all like to think it has- cause I'm sure at the time it probably did have some significance, but that's beside the point.)

"ooo, a chick photographer with an artistic picture of herself" how original! what a concept!


llamas.
]]> ~anniex0r http://anniex0r.deviantart.com/journal/91132/ http://anniex0r.deviantart.com/journal/91132/ Wed, 20 Mar 2002 23:01:17 PST
Halo... is... addictive...



]]> ~anniex0r http://anniex0r.deviantart.com/journal/91130/ http://anniex0r.deviantart.com/journal/91130/ Wed, 20 Mar 2002 23:00:20 PST

Halo... is... addictive...



]]> ~anniex0r http://anniex0r.deviantart.com/journal/88316/ http://anniex0r.deviantart.com/journal/88316/ Sun, 17 Mar 2002 09:00:49 PST
Monday is Wade's birthday... I'm trying to get a couple of our friends to come over today for a sunday "un-birthday" -- he said not to get him anything for his birthday. He thinks I have not had time to anyway... eheh, well, there's an X-box hidden in a suitcase in the closet and, inside a box i brought from home yesterday, which I said was "fragile stuff my dad was supposed to bring me last time he came in", is a cake with Rally Sport Challenge hidden in the middle... ehehehe. ]]> ~anniex0r http://anniex0r.deviantart.com/journal/82471/ http://anniex0r.deviantart.com/journal/82471/ Fri, 08 Mar 2002 17:36:24 PST ~anniex0r http://anniex0r.deviantart.com/journal/80254/ http://anniex0r.deviantart.com/journal/80254/ Tue, 05 Mar 2002 05:35:16 PST ~anniex0r http://anniex0r.deviantart.com/journal/60707/ http://anniex0r.deviantart.com/journal/60707/ Fri, 25 Jan 2002 17:57:18 PST
but what's the moral of the story? ]]> ~anniex0r http://anniex0r.deviantart.com/journal/58073/ http://anniex0r.deviantart.com/journal/58073/ Sun, 20 Jan 2002 07:02:41 PST
Last night the last of my x-mas presents came in.. Probably Monday Wade and I will assemble all the pieces and make my new work/gaming computer.

My father gets home from his 3-week trip to Europe today..

I'll get to see him a little this evening, but despite tomorrow being a holiday (and half of the firm is getting off..) my boss is making me work. I won't go into how upset I've been recently with work.

One day I will work in legal no more.

Someday this week I'm going to get myself a fax machine and FAXTAG will be born... I hope you're ready.

If you like surprise, and would like to "sign up" for faxtag before you've even heard a description, feel free to email me your fax number. (No work #s, please - unless the fax machine is on YOUR desk.) - anniex0r@breedart.org ]]> ~anniex0r http://anniex0r.deviantart.com/journal/55192/ http://anniex0r.deviantart.com/journal/55192/ Sat, 12 Jan 2002 16:41:24 PST
My life is becoming null and void of creativity; recently i have lacked any kind of general toleration of life.

On a better day you can ask me about "faxtag" - which is an idea for group I'd like to start if I actually had time. Right now, only Mantik, Keith and a non-dev friend of mine named Eric actually know the details. ]]> ~anniex0r http://anniex0r.deviantart.com/journal/44090/ http://anniex0r.deviantart.com/journal/44090/ Sun, 09 Dec 2001 11:52:26 PST
It's no longer the deviant burnout.

As of October, I have acquired a daily "routine" - yes, it's all disgustingly normal like that. It's neither glamorous or devious.

I now work as a legal assistant.. I wake up at 6:30 or so- sometimes 7:00, it all depends on how long I can stand to hear the alarm beeping. I then brush my teeth and hair, apply my cosmetics, get dressed and leave for work around 7:30, sometimes 7:55. I drive.. and drive.. and drive.. I then arrive at work around 9:15 - 9:45, depending on traffic, which route I take and whether I left on time or not. So then, I work.. and work.. and.. work. Sometimes I stop for lunch. Usually I take the elevator to the 2nd floor every now and then to get a $0.25 refill on my cup of diet coke.

Around 3:30 I start thinking about how great it will be to get out of the office at 5:30. At 5:30 I become swamped with work and stay till 6:30, sometimes slightly later.

I then proceed to drive home. Most nights I stop to visit Wade. Usually he comes with me to grab dinner at Wendy's- or if I'm not too tired we'll go sit down somewhere and eat.

Sometimes I go to R.P. tracks with friends to have a drink or two. Sometimes Charlie, Wade and I will split a pitcher or two- or three- of Killians, Newcastle or Boddingtons.

Anyway, I usually get home around 10 or 11 on a normal night. On nights when I've gone to Tracks, I get home as late as midnight or 1:00 AM. However, sometimes I make it a point to be home early for television viewing purposes. (TLC's Junkyard Wars & Cartoon Network's Adult Swim)

Sometimes I take showers in the evenings if I'm not too tired. This grants me an extra 15-30 minutes of sleep in the morning.

After all of this is done with, sleep is long overdue. This the point where I'm really fucking ready to crash.

I check my email.. no new messages. Apparently, no one loves you when you're gone. Oh, wait.. no, my server is down.. Figures.

(Note: the only email address that works for me now is anniex0r@breedart.org)

Then I talk to a few people on AIM, apparently I'm dull because I'm too tired to think.

I turn on some music and I think to myself "gee, wouldn't it be great if I could sit down and work on some art projects" - then I beat myself up for failing to respond to Eric's (of antitext.com) postcard. (Sorry Eric.)

Then I set my alarm and fall asleep..

6:00 AM rolls around and the annoying beeping commences. I toss and turn and groan to myself about how much I don't want to get up. The beeping stops, I sleep for 5 more minutes until it starts again. This 5-minute sleep routine continues until around 6:30 or 6:45- sometimes 7:00 AM.

I then repeat the cycle until the weekend comes.

Friday night, I usually have dinner and drinks with friends. Sometimes, however, I'll be tired, So I'll go home.

Saturday, I sleep late, wake up, go back to sleep and then wake up again around noon. I then get online, sometimes I try to do something artistic. Usually, the week has been so draining that my creativity is null and my attempts to be even remotely creative seem to fail miserably. Sometimes I drive in to Memphis on Saturdays to hang out with people (especially if I was too tired to do so on Friday). Occasionally, Wade and I will go shopping on Saturdays. Come to think of it, I'm rarely home on Saturday afternoon.

Saturday nights, unless I have plans in town, I sit at home and talk online. Sometimes I'll watch a movie. Usually I'll drink mass quantities of either vodka or Killians. If I'm feeling special, I'll have Wade pick me up a 6 pack of Flying Dog (www.flyingdogales.com).

I then realize it's Sunday and depression sets in. I sulk.

Monday triggers drive/work/sleep routine all over again.

The end.
]]> ~anniex0r http://anniex0r.deviantart.com/journal/27709/ http://anniex0r.deviantart.com/journal/27709/ Thu, 27 Sep 2001 15:43:58 PDT
I just.. really don't want to do it anymore. I'm tired of lying to myself. I'm tired of trying.

This isn't what I want.

I'm sorry. ]]> ~anniex0r http://anniex0r.deviantart.com/journal/25169/ http://anniex0r.deviantart.com/journal/25169/ Mon, 03 Sep 2001 01:58:25 PDT [link] - label art by Ralph Steadman..

"It all started innocently enough, with more than a few bottles of Doggie Style Ale being shared between friends George Stranahan (Flying Dog founder), Hunter S. Thompson and Ralph Steadman -- while no one is quite sure what exactly transpired that fateful night, the end result was Road Dog Ale ... the rest is Flying Dog history."

-flying dog web site ]]> ~anniex0r http://anniex0r.deviantart.com/journal/22804/ http://anniex0r.deviantart.com/journal/22804/ Mon, 13 Aug 2001 00:23:14 PDT

lalala.. ok, fo'ty night 0wned my arse... I think it was the beer I decided to drink AFTER the 40 oz bottle of schlitz... what were we thinking anyway? (Jason: let's get fo'ties!" ..doh.)

today was definitely a day to recuperate..

on another note... the Joydrop show I saw that night was AWESOME... it totally blew me away... everyone should see them live... ( tour dates: [link] ) ]]> ~anniex0r http://anniex0r.deviantart.com/journal/22696/ http://anniex0r.deviantart.com/journal/22696/ Sun, 12 Aug 2001 02:14:09 PDT
statz:

people: 3 (wade - aka chinchilla, jason - aka cupcake, annie - aka anniex0r the great)

beer: 3 fo'ties (annie: schlitz "it has a bull on it! rawr!", jason: hurricane, wade: colt 45 "it'z dah fi' dat getz j00.")

1 six pack turbo dog, 1 sis pack killians, 1 six pack.. "wade? how do you spell heineken?" wade: "just call it that green german beer" jason: "i call it piss lager"

jason: "it's like college without the education ... oh wow! a staplegun! "

zee anniex0r tele line = 901.878.1153 (10th caller wins um.. errr.. something.)
zee anniex0r on hold music: who knows.

(and tomorrow i'll tell you all about the absolutley amazing joydrop show i saw earlier this evening! ;D) ]]> ~anniex0r http://anniex0r.deviantart.com/journal/20848/ http://anniex0r.deviantart.com/journal/20848/ Tue, 24 Jul 2001 02:06:55 PDT
i'm not saying that people aren't trying.. cause i'm sure some people are - and the last thing i wanna do is be judgemental (about once every couple of months i have to find something to get pissed off about or i go insane, i guess..) i'm also not saying that everything that's effortless is shit: cause, you know, some people improve on stuff that way.. but, well, it just.. doesn't impress me.

i just wish there were more fuses and more keiths, mantiks, sycophants and the like... people who are not only talented but are also are damn smart and have damn have good taste in art/music/etc...


and as for my last few pieces:

[02:42] i got so sick of this airbrushed-photo-tracing-shit that i felt compelled to throw something back at everyone.. first by doing 2 airbrush-over-photos to prove that it's not that fucking hard... and one to show that some people can do it w/out smudging a photo. ]]> ~anniex0r http://anniex0r.deviantart.com/journal/20833/ http://anniex0r.deviantart.com/journal/20833/ Mon, 23 Jul 2001 22:32:18 PDT
i wanted to write a big long journal entry on talent, effort and artwork in general - but, i'm tired...

all i'm gonna say is that i'm sick and tired of trends like the ridiculous recognition and praise regarding effortless artwork.. i'll write a big long explanation here when i am not so tired and mentally drained... ]]> ~anniex0r http://anniex0r.deviantart.com/journal/20558/ http://anniex0r.deviantart.com/journal/20558/ Sat, 21 Jul 2001 20:37:32 PDT [link]


....weeeeee! ]]> ~anniex0r http://anniex0r.deviantart.com/journal/20531/ http://anniex0r.deviantart.com/journal/20531/ Sat, 21 Jul 2001 16:38:26 PDT ~anniex0r http://anniex0r.deviantart.com/journal/20141/ http://anniex0r.deviantart.com/journal/20141/ Wed, 18 Jul 2001 21:38:04 PDT
i hate being meaningful..
i like beauty. i hate depth.
i love depth in beauty.

i hate feelings.
i think...

amor morbus est...

i have half a heart.
i really don't care.

nothing is important.
feelings are opinions. ]]> ~anniex0r http://anniex0r.deviantart.com/journal/19204/ http://anniex0r.deviantart.com/journal/19204/ Thu, 12 Jul 2001 19:29:28 PDT


rawr?! ]]> ~anniex0r http://anniex0r.deviantart.com/journal/19203/ http://anniex0r.deviantart.com/journal/19203/ Thu, 12 Jul 2001 19:28:50 PDT ~anniex0r http://anniex0r.deviantart.com/journal/19202/ http://anniex0r.deviantart.com/journal/19202/ Thu, 12 Jul 2001 19:28:08 PDT
wheeee!


so, like... RAWR!

geeeee, evybuddy lurves meee! hehe!

wheeee! I 0wn j00, mantik!


so, like... RAWR!



-anniex0r ]]> ~anniex0r http://anniex0r.deviantart.com/journal/19201/ http://anniex0r.deviantart.com/journal/19201/ Thu, 12 Jul 2001 19:28:02 PDT
wheeee! I 0wn j00, mantik!


so, like... RAWR!



-anniex0r ]]> ~anniex0r http://anniex0r.deviantart.com/journal/19200/ http://anniex0r.deviantart.com/journal/19200/ Thu, 12 Jul 2001 19:22:55 PDT
wheeee!


so, like... RAWR! ]]> ~anniex0r