My friends and family refuse to believe me when I say I won't ever have kids. I'm not though. I'm not going to bring someone into this violent and quickly fading world. I'm still on the line about getting married. I haven't decided about that one. For now it's a no because I haven't met anyone decent enough for me to even consider giving my heart to.

I am dissapointed to even think I'm going to college in Florida. But I want out. I don't want to stay in this place any longer. Every single one of my moves are watched and I can't take it anymore. I'll do whatever I have to to leave and find a place to call my own. It's not everyone I dislike here. My family and friends mean the world to me and I'll always visit and remain in contact.

I am defiantly going to Italy in 2010 following my graduation. I'm so excited about that. My twin and I also might work in Alaska for the summer. I don't think there is enough time to plan for that this year. Therefore it has been moved back to it's original year. I will gladly welcome the cold and the guys. I saw guys because I get along with them better. Girls tick me off way too easily.

Which leads me to my next point. I'm about to snap at the girls at my school.
One: Y'all broke up. He movedf on so should you. I am tired of her asking me where he is at, what is he doing? I am no one's keeper. Get out of your fake depressed mode.
Two: If you like someone tell them. (I've learned that lesson the hard way.) Don't be worried about what could happen. If he doesn't like you oh well. If he's a jerk about it then he wasn't good for you anyway. Stop worrying so much.

I talked to some friends this week. Wow, that was so nice. I've been craving their conversation and I finally got it. Good luck at the basketball game tonight and have fun tomorrow(see you in one year maybe).

I'm glad the dissapointing things happened. It's made me a lttle bit smarter. Even though I knew something like this was going to happen. That is why I was so quiet. Because I knew that person would prove me right and my friends wrong.

Katie and I are already planning everything for when we go to Texas. (no Brokeback Mountain!) haha Lots of pictures of course. And besides I need someone to cover for me. My "brother" and "sister" certainly won't help me out.

Writer's block is gone. I have writing both of my books and they are going fast. Thanks to those who have helped me work out those areas that I was having trouble in.

I finally get a day where I can just relax tomorrow. That's a weight off my chest. I always feel so content when I'm there. The ocean breeze is so comforting and all of the history is wonderful. Something inside me is hoping for something while I'm down there. It hurts though to even think of bringing up that thought.

Ben from This Beautiful Repbulic is trying to come to Charleston. We are both hoping things will work out so we and our friends can meet each other. Thanks Ben, you're pretty much amazing!

I can't wait to get away from everything. From everyone who has proved me right.