http://search.deviantart.com/?q=by:arch-nemesis&section=today deviantART RSS for by:arch-nemesis en-us Copyright 2009, deviantART.com Thu, 10 Dec 2009 14:22:46 PST deviantART.com http://blogs.law.harvard.edu/tech/rss http://s.deviantart.com/minish/widgets/apple-touch-icon-precomposed.png http://arch-nemesis.deviantart.com/journal/1887364/ http://arch-nemesis.deviantart.com/journal/1887364/ Sun, 22 Feb 2004 07:03:12 PST ~arch-nemesis http://arch-nemesis.deviantart.com/journal/763999/ http://arch-nemesis.deviantart.com/journal/763999/ Mon, 26 May 2003 23:12:39 PDT ~arch-nemesis http://arch-nemesis.deviantart.com/journal/660035/ http://arch-nemesis.deviantart.com/journal/660035/ Sat, 26 Apr 2003 00:24:38 PDT ~arch-nemesis http://arch-nemesis.deviantart.com/journal/323143/ http://arch-nemesis.deviantart.com/journal/323143/ Tue, 29 Oct 2002 13:05:49 PST I don't really have anything clever to say today...
I'm a little over tired and my six year old niece will be here soon to take over my house...Anyway
xspecsx has drawn a beautiful picture of me Link If anyone is interested in seeing it click the link...I think thats gonna be enough for me... Maybe I'll do another journal in a few days...but who knows! ]]> ~arch-nemesis http://arch-nemesis.deviantart.com/journal/135777/ http://arch-nemesis.deviantart.com/journal/135777/ Fri, 17 May 2002 05:03:17 PDT as time goes by
feelings change
people move on
hearts continue to beat
happiness comes and goes
along the paths we walk
a new day brings a new light
and the beautiful song of love will come again...
]]> ~arch-nemesis http://arch-nemesis.deviantart.com/journal/128122/ http://arch-nemesis.deviantart.com/journal/128122/ Tue, 07 May 2002 16:40:37 PDT ~arch-nemesis http://arch-nemesis.deviantart.com/journal/125109/ http://arch-nemesis.deviantart.com/journal/125109/ Fri, 03 May 2002 20:31:34 PDT My feelings have turned against me
I didn’t want to know my feelings
I wanted to hide them forever
Because I knew that once I let them out
I would be vulnerable…I could get hurt
But I didn’t care…I didn’t think
Now I can’t stop thinking
Of all the heartache I could have avoided
If only I had listened to my mind
But I had to follow my heart
The same heart I wish would turn to stone
Freeze in place…stop the beating that reminds me
Reminds me of the pain
Reminds me of the good times
That are now gone forever
]]> ~arch-nemesis http://arch-nemesis.deviantart.com/journal/121728/ http://arch-nemesis.deviantart.com/journal/121728/ Tue, 30 Apr 2002 00:51:35 PDT Running down my flesh
So gently, so soft
Then you came along
And gave them a push
You didn’t have to
But you wanted to
My life is like a game to you

Sabotage…. I feel it deep within

Every time you get bored you want to play
But you don’t play fair
And you don’t play nice
I feel the blades sinking in
Into my delicate flesh
Not so gentle, not so soft
I feel like screaming
You cause me so much pain
Blood runs down me oh so softly

Sabotage…. I feel it deep within

Every time you want something
You run to me
Though you know you hurt me
You want me to help you
But how can I help you
When you just keep bringing me down
I still feel those blades you pushed into my flesh
I can’t help you
You won’t help me
That makes you angry
So you kick the blades in further
The pain penetrates my bones
I feel like dying
I can feel the hurt in my soul
Blood streams down my body in a rush
Why did you do this to me?

Sabotage…. I feel it deep within
]]> ~arch-nemesis http://arch-nemesis.deviantart.com/journal/116012/ http://arch-nemesis.deviantart.com/journal/116012/ Mon, 22 Apr 2002 23:59:57 PDT As my body goes numb
I feel so cold
The darkness hides my tears well
But I can still hear my cries
And I can still feel my tears
But when I am alone I can hide it all so well
I can just act like it never happened
Go on like everything is perfect…
That is the way I want people to see me
That is the way I want people to know me
So I sit alone in the dark
And cry myself to sleep.
]]> ~arch-nemesis http://arch-nemesis.deviantart.com/journal/115985/ http://arch-nemesis.deviantart.com/journal/115985/ Mon, 22 Apr 2002 23:18:06 PDT charring my soft delicate flesh
Such impurities in my head…
I can’t shake these thoughts in my mind
They’re controlling my every move
my every action
I can feel the blood on my lips
The drips fall onto my breasts
A single swipe of my hand
and I smear the blood across my chest
I bend down and pull my knife from my boot
I burn the blade with my lighter
Until it’s too hot to touch
Then I slice into my thigh
The pain is numbing
But tears still roll down my cheek
The knife slips from my fingers and falls to the ground
I sit on the cold ground
as I watch the blood stream down my leg
I watch in amusement, as it doesn’t stop…
I begin to laugh at myself wickedly
relishing in my own pain.
]]> ~arch-nemesis http://arch-nemesis.deviantart.com/journal/113991/ http://arch-nemesis.deviantart.com/journal/113991/ Sat, 20 Apr 2002 16:12:30 PDT
I don't really understand what I'm feeling right now. Things just keep happening in no particular order that don't completely make sense to me. I guess love will do that to you. It takes a lot of work to keep up a good relationship. He makes me feel things, things I can't describe. I've never felt so alive. It's like when we're together the whole world stands still. I don't even always have to be right with him. I can except it when he is right, and admit it too. Something I never thought would be possible. I thought that I was always right no mater what even if I wasn't. Now I know when I am wrong and can accept it. I don't really understand how this all happened. It kind of snuck up on me. I guess the feelings were there for a long time....but it took me a while to become conscious of them and realize just how I felt. Now that I realize the depth of the situation. I want him to know everything about me. I want him to know I have nothing to hide from him. I want to be open and honest...Something I don't think I've ever experienced. But I guess thats part of being in love...experiencing things you've never experienced together. ]]> ~arch-nemesis