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and along with the Flickr account, i also have to start on my main digital photography portfolio. *drum roll*
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..............."the ultimate package design-FASHION"

as some of you know, about a year ago, i did an extensive research paper on package design and how the different colors of the packaging affects sale rates. that study got me interested in how to make packages and how to design them. for this year, my new love is fashion. one day when i was driving home i looked at a billboard and it reminded me of how the clothes we put on are like a billboard to the world about ourselves. and moreso, a package design that we use to sell ourselves to the people around us. just as there are different types of packages, there are different fashions and different times where certain fashions are more called for than others. also, sometimes we have to design the package around the product. (the body) and sometimes the product doesn't have any packaging but has a seal or stamp which makes it ready for sale. (nudes, piercings and tatoos.)

so that's my idea for my portfolio / artist statement. what i really would love to do (and this gets back to flickr) is make a book and not only include the photos but also do informal interviews with the models that i use. (1) how do you want people to see you. (2) what makes your fashion sense yours. (3) what kind of product are you trying to sell. (4) is that how people really get you.
one of the supporters of flickr makes books for really freakin cheap.
check out [link]

soo that's pretty much it for now. anyone have any fashion pointers for myself????

]]> ~artistscar http://artistscar.deviantart.com/journal/14876407/ http://artistscar.deviantart.com/journal/14876407/ Mon, 01 Oct 2007 19:23:56 PDT
some things are for the better though. like lets see here-i have a great new group of friends. and this is my senior year after all

the artwork, well, it'll be coming soon. i promise!!!!


just need to photograph and the like and have the time to post everything!!

but yeah, there will be more....just wait!

]]> ~artistscar http://artistscar.deviantart.com/journal/13172436/ http://artistscar.deviantart.com/journal/13172436/ Fri, 01 Jun 2007 04:54:17 PDT (and the best part...ITS A PAYING POSITION!!)

i'm thinking that's about all the interesting news...

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in other parts (of DA i guess) i am going to try to post more artwork durring the summer. most of the artwork that i'll be putting up is from last semester at Rio. (classes include; printmaking, photography, and graphic design)

hope to see you all soon!

-Sara

]]> ~artistscar http://artistscar.deviantart.com/journal/12072122/ http://artistscar.deviantart.com/journal/12072122/ Mon, 05 Mar 2007 18:14:10 PST
in photography, my instructor actually trusts me enough to let me take home a large format camera....and well, i thought i was going to break it when i got my hands on it...and i think i might have!!! i went into the dark room today to develop my film and well.....there was nothing on the film....so hopefully my second go at it will end up happy and not crappy.

in printmaking, making a bunch of prints....bunches...

in movies about art, we watch movies about art....2 weeks ago, we watched "how to draw a bunny" and for those of you out there who haven't seen it, i highly recommend it...its about ray johnson....and for that class, with that movie, we decided to pay homage to ray by sending out moticos to our classmates....and several of you on here will be reciving one once i finish all of them i have planned out!

in graphic design, i'm currently looking for an internship over the summer...right now i have my fingers crossed for working in the graphics lab at Victoria's Secrets.....but right now, i'm open for virtually anything...perferably in the print media though...i absolutly hate doing web design, even though i know how to do it.

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now that i have my 8 week courses out, all i am left with are these art classes....i know i haven't posted anything new in a long time, but don't fret, new stuff is on the way!!! (i just need time to post everything!!!)

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:newmoonmaiden: decided to do just that with this very touching poem:

My thoughts are trapped in another room
Shrieks and moans like no other
Lamenting the impending doom
Take a peek if you'd bother

A contortioned gymnastic platoon
Dancing to the organ grinder
Following the tragic moon
Thinking none could be kinder

Shriveled hands, 4 in a can
For sale at your nearest
The maker, a charismatic man
Whose workers are all useless

And in the midst of it all
Stands my favorite phantom
Who, like the perfect doll
Has eyes I cannot fathom

Beside him is an open door
Where everything but him goes
Its name was "Forget" before
And still is, as everyone knows


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beautiful and touching....and if you liked what you've read so far... I STRONGLY ENCOURAGE EVERYONE TO GO VISIT :newmoonmaiden:'s gallery....ya'll will definatly not go wrong with reading some more of this goodness!!!

also, again, i would like to thank :christiana: for even hosting the contest..it definatly opened everyone's eyes and minds and allowed everyone involved to be quite free and yet, still challenged us all to do our best work!....and also, congrats to all envolved too!!

]]> ~artistscar http://artistscar.deviantart.com/journal/11390698/ http://artistscar.deviantart.com/journal/11390698/ Wed, 10 Jan 2007 18:54:02 PST
and of course, this would have to be the day that i got a call from home when i have class all day long....

well, update on my daddy....

he's on oxygen right now. he went in for an ecocardiogram this morning. the results...

one lil part of the heart that pumps oxygen i think out into the body has been overworking...therefore the chestpains....

and where the lil connecty thingy is between his lungs, well, its not working too hott...

his lung compasity is down to 70%...which, for him isn't that bad..but where he has to work so hard to move the oxygen and where he's loosing weight, the doc desided to put him on oxygen.

he goes back to the doc's office on friday to see his test results. he already has an appointment with a lung speciallist....and prolly surgery will be next in line for him. he isn't going to be back at work for prolly another week or even maybe longer....who knows....

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so with everything going on....i though heck, might as well tie in my school work to deal with my issues right now that i'm going through...
so for photography, i'm going to do a portfolio of ten prints dealing with the subject matter of dying and dealing with death in the household/family.

o yeah, and my classes this time....i'm thinking, please shoot me now....its only the first week and i have a bunch of work i already need to do....(why did i sign up for this????)

but yeah, if anyone needs any design work, let me know!! i need to get some work for my class....my grade depends on it!!

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hope all is well with everyone else out there!!! take care and keep praying please!

]]> ~artistscar http://artistscar.deviantart.com/journal/11326354/ http://artistscar.deviantart.com/journal/11326354/ Fri, 05 Jan 2007 15:23:22 PST
well, some changes i don't really care for. like changes in my dad's medical condition. this wierd change of weather (isn't it suppose to be winter right now in ohio???). getting older. gettting gray hairs. getting more stress that i particulary don't want or need right now. and why am i not looking forward to going back to school?? (yes, that is a change for me!!)

i don't know what it is with me right now. maybe its from all the stress and lack of sleep from last semester that i haven't fully recovered from, but i am soo totally fucked up mentally right now (and people wonder why i don't smile at work or school..hmmm). last semester...i didn't sleep. i have abandonment issues from having two of my best friends pretty much leave me hanging by myself at a rough time for me (they ended up dropping out of school for whatever their reasons were). eh, it might be selfish, but o well...for once, i would like to have some sort of stability in a female friend (and then i wonder why i am in a sorority..go figure). o and with that abandonment issue, i picked up a new lil friend that happens to be my boss/partner for the newspaper...which is sending me mixed signals because he wants to do EVERYTHING with me...and not his own girlfriend....and then i start thinking about my own boyfriend, mark....which i haven't gotten to see or talk to that much either due to both my hectic schedual and his own work schedual. the stress of classwork seemed minimal...heck, i ended putting EVERYTHING off to the last minute, didn't study for any of my tests and didn't prepare for anything and i ended up having the best grades of my whole freakin college carreer. there were some bright spots though, but they were few and far between since i was preoccupied by others (a.k.a...my partner for the newspaper)

soo, now that you know i'm reluctant to go back to school because i really don't want to work my ass off again and not get any sleep and bitch at everyone that i care about because i'm starving myself and i'm sleep deprived and very depressed, my dad's health had to take a turn for the worse yet again.

earlier this week, he was complaining about his feet and ancles being swollen and his chest hurting..well, he went to the doctors today and they found out that his lungs are working even more than they are suppose to and his heart is starting to fail. THIS IS JUST WHAT I NEED TO START OFF A NEW SEMESTER AT SCHOOL!!!!!!!!!!!!!!! i was at work today and he called...i started to cry right in the bank's lobby where i was working. we're trying to act like everything's ok though on the homefront...but we all know that things won't get completely better though...especially with his illness that he already had. i'm trying to think positive though...but it is soo freakin hard though. i'm praying more than just thinking though...since thoughts can't do shit by themselves alone. and if any of ya'll out there has any religious beliefs, could you also pray for him and my family in general. i know mom is taking it hard too, even though she doesn't show it..she never shows her feelings like that because it would show that she is weak and she wants to be strong for my dad and me...(that is the same way that i am).

and what is up with this warm weather???? is it freaking other people out too???? all i'm asking is for a lil bit of snow and colder weather for wintertime..is that so much to ask??

o yeah, and i'm getting more gray hairs...go figure that one...

and mark tells me not to worry......that's my new year's resolution...but i don't know how well i'm sticking to it though....

so yeah, things change....and if they didn't, wouldn't our lives be boring? change is also what shapes us into who we are...our ability to react with the change is the test of who we are.

-sara

]]> ~artistscar http://artistscar.deviantart.com/journal/10899294/ http://artistscar.deviantart.com/journal/10899294/ Thu, 30 Nov 2006 08:27:08 PST
yes, the newspaper that my partner and i so dearly love and cherrish like its our own child, sponcered this art show...got submissions, layed things out and had an opening all in three days time. yes, matt and i were freaking out....

but i have to say, having this first art show (first art show that i was half way planning, hanging and sponcering and advertising) i am extreamly pleased with how it turned out. the two of us ended up having a five min crash course in the proper way to hang things in a gallery and also in how to do lighting. and with that being our first attemps with something like that, we sure did get a lot of compliments on everything! heck, the president of the university came over and supported us!! and all of the art professors came over and gave everything a look over and were really impressed too...so much that the head of hte department wants to let us have shows up in the museum all the time!!!!!!!!

so yeah, i guess this means that i'm moving up in the world (or at least here at rio )

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for those of you who were wondering where i've been....that's what has preoccupied my life for the last few days.....but i'm back for the moment and ready for everyones wonderful artwork!!! ]]> ~artistscar http://artistscar.deviantart.com/journal/9951670/ http://artistscar.deviantart.com/journal/9951670/ Sun, 03 Sep 2006 13:16:55 PDT
about stuff.....

a bunch of stuff......


......i'm tired. lol................ ]]> ~artistscar http://artistscar.deviantart.com/journal/9912798/ http://artistscar.deviantart.com/journal/9912798/ Wed, 30 Aug 2006 21:29:36 PDT
oo and i realized today, that da is soo much cooler than myspace....and peoples are nicer too....

and another thing i realized today.....i like creating landscapes on computers...because it always looks better than what i can do on my own...and it inspires me....

and another thing......stress sux.....like, i can't sleep sux......

and what am i doing on here instead of working....i'm addicted. to art. and people. and a few other things too.....

ooo!! and i discovered two bands that i'm like secretly falling in love with
[link] (dropsonic, ticonderoga...there's other awsome artists on there too!!!)

is anyone else hungry??

(grr....more stuff on the brain.....people breaking up and getting together and getting sick and work work work and classes and books i gotta get and oo i need to get my parking permit and why in the world is my stomach growling???)

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i think my journals are becoming a recurring theme of random night talking...
hehe, i should submit them to the contest like you should submit real art ]]> ~artistscar http://artistscar.deviantart.com/journal/9890161/ http://artistscar.deviantart.com/journal/9890161/ Mon, 28 Aug 2006 21:39:46 PDT

(meesa bright one )

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but ice cream is good for staying up and working on ideas for stuff...and i have ideas....bunches....and i dunno if i will be able to sleep, but i want to sleep but i don't want to....*screams* hehe, not really, its quiet time here in the dorms...but yeah....hehehe......

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<<< ~artistscar http://artistscar.deviantart.com/journal/9885006/ http://artistscar.deviantart.com/journal/9885006/ Mon, 28 Aug 2006 13:32:24 PDT
first class, art history: found out that i HAVE TO GET this art history through the ages book, which is BIGGER THAN ME!!!!!
and do a journal/portfolio deal that is a majority of my grade, which means working my ass off...

animation/landscapes: not as bad as i thought it would be, using truespace 6.6 and mojoworld

junior design studio: free as always, BUT the cool thing....one of my classmates approached me today and was like, you want a job? so of course i said yeah, because i need money!! and he wanted me to be his partner on the school newspaper (how sweet will it be with two design students doing the layout and everything??? total sweetness!! ) soo yeah, i'll be working hard on that, and then for class, i really want to get into product packaging....and my professor said, i need to pick out books and he will order them for me soo yeah, that makes me really really happy (paid job, and free books....of my choice!!)

soo much stuff, but i believe it will prove to be a great semester ]]> ~artistscar http://artistscar.deviantart.com/journal/9856119/ http://artistscar.deviantart.com/journal/9856119/ Fri, 25 Aug 2006 22:08:06 PDT
THANKS TO ALL OF YOU BEAUTIFUL PEOPLE!!! :BLOWKISS: :HUG:






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>>:ICONCHRISTIANA:<<<<<
SUBMIT TO THE CHALLENGE!! ]]> ~artistscar http://artistscar.deviantart.com/journal/9847552/ http://artistscar.deviantart.com/journal/9847552/ Fri, 25 Aug 2006 06:34:32 PDT and i still have a bunch of packing to do...
and all i want to do is play online and not do anythng but i really want and need to get stuff around so i can go back to school...


things to look forward to this semester:

more graphic design stuff...

cg landscapes...

animations...

and whatever i might get into

and this all starts on monday!!! are you ready?? i'm ready! 1..2..3...GO!!

LOL


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you know what.....i'm sure yall have checked out 's journal, so i'm not gonna make a huge point about it....submit to the contest...i have...don't you wanna be a winner and not a weiner??? (totally obsessed with who wants to be a superhero)...but anyway, yeah..if you haven't done so, do it now!! fame and slight fortune could just be a click away!!! ]]> ~artistscar http://artistscar.deviantart.com/journal/9820107/ http://artistscar.deviantart.com/journal/9820107/ Tue, 22 Aug 2006 19:34:53 PDT
in my scraps you will see my dad's original sketch that he did....but he didn't want me to post his watercolor...lol, probably because i said it looked like a 5 year old did it......but o well..it was all fun

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yeah, go there and check out the journal and submit to the coolness of the contest ]]> ~artistscar http://artistscar.deviantart.com/journal/9807242/ http://artistscar.deviantart.com/journal/9807242/ Mon, 21 Aug 2006 17:30:52 PDT
tonight he got the basic sketch done..and tomorrow we break out the watercolors...and possibly roast marshmellows afterwards so it should be fun ...or at least get a few good laughs in...

i'll post the results in my scraps when it gets done
(lil hint, there is a pooping unicorn, excaliber, and a turtle-beaver in there as well with the waterfall....so some stuff to look forward to )

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hey, you! go see chris's page and read the good news about her contest
>>>><<<<<<<<

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peace to the world ]]> ~artistscar http://artistscar.deviantart.com/journal/9773953/ http://artistscar.deviantart.com/journal/9773953/ Fri, 18 Aug 2006 16:31:11 PDT
the box.

one day my father and i were sitting at the dinner table discussing what i could do for an art project. he looked down on the floor beside him and he said, "the box, do something on the box!"

i looked over at him with a perplexed look on my face.

"just think of it. if the box could talk, just imagine the stories it would tell."

then i knew from then that this was gonna be an interesting story...

"well, now think of it...the bottom says that it was made in china. it had to travel all the way here probably on a boat. and then go back even farther, what trees were used to make it? was it made from several centuries old trees?? or even older??? and how many souls are in the trees that made the box?? what stories do they hold?? listen...."

there was a deep pause to ponder all the possiblities.

but my dad went on from there....

"just open up your mind to all the possiblities. if you were taught as a child that black was white and red was blue....hot was cold...would you have the same sensations as everyone else around you?? or could you be invincible to the pain of the world if you weren't taught about pain? everything we know we are taught. if we all pause just for a bit and think...we can learn soo much from just the objects around us....can you hear the trees cry when you cut them? if you were taught, you probably could. but most of us are not trained to do so. just think.....all the answers are within the box."


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this same story that was told to me when i was in 11th grade has captivated the minds of many individuals throughout the years now. and now the story is to you....think about it....think about the box.....share the box...... ]]> ~artistscar http://artistscar.deviantart.com/journal/9715375/ http://artistscar.deviantart.com/journal/9715375/ Sun, 13 Aug 2006 16:23:25 PDT

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EXCITING COOLNESS RIGHT HERE>>>>

>>>GO THERE.
>>>READ THE JOURNAL.
>>>SUBMIT TO THE CONTEST. ]]> ~artistscar http://artistscar.deviantart.com/journal/9695977/ http://artistscar.deviantart.com/journal/9695977/ Fri, 11 Aug 2006 21:20:11 PDT
brains shouldn't work this well...it needs to rest...WHERE'S THE OFF BUTTON??? lol.....

1) people
2)work
3)school (already..classes haven't even started yet)
4)sorority/school some more
5)projects/artistic ideas
6)people/projects w/art
7)family/yeah, those people too...
8)gray hairs
9)temperature of my body
10)test results

imagine 1-10 all happening in the head all at once...fun times.....i tell ya...geesh...

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IN OTHER NEWS!!

is having a contest...go check her out...read the good word that is in her journal!!! SUBMIT TO THE CONTEST!!!! you bet i will be...because i'm just cool like that ]]> ~artistscar http://artistscar.deviantart.com/journal/9566294/ http://artistscar.deviantart.com/journal/9566294/ Tue, 01 Aug 2006 13:18:53 PDT is having

the theme:
recurring themes

catagory:
pretty much all of them...

Prize:
art/3month subscription to da, journal features

for more info, check out her journal [link] for more information and details

or even better, check out her whole page and stop and say hi to a really cool gal down in aussie

PLEASE SPREAD THE WORD!! MORE PEOPLE MAKES MORE GOODNESS!!!
(and who doesn't like goodness?? )

((yes, i will be entering....and i want you to enter as well!!! ) ]]> ~artistscar http://artistscar.deviantart.com/journal/9557789/ http://artistscar.deviantart.com/journal/9557789/ Mon, 31 Jul 2006 18:36:00 PDT
1) i'm very accident prone

like yesterday...

i closed my finger in a car door....and well, it bled and will prolly leave a scar on me....which for right now, means that i have to be extra careful around all those lovely paint thinners that i should be using right now..but alas, no painting for me until its all good...or at least none with oils and that goodness...ggrrrr

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on a happier note for everyone that knows my regular glasses that i normally wear....

they are gone and are replaced with cool new ones that are black wire frames with green rhinestones framing the eyes...quite pretty and dainty...i'll post a pic when i can

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carr, sara carr ]]> ~artistscar http://artistscar.deviantart.com/journal/9284606/ http://artistscar.deviantart.com/journal/9284606/ Wed, 05 Jul 2006 18:17:39 PDT
so i did...

and it was something to pass time when i was bored...and i know how people are when they are online...many times bored...SOO!!! yeah, fill it out..lemme know...it'll pass time..and it makes the brain cells work... thanks!!

1. name:
2. birthday:
3. place of residence:
4. what makes you happy:
5. what are you listening to now/have listened to last:
6. do you read my journal thingy:
7. if you do, what is particularly good/bad about it:
8. an interesting fact about you:
9. are you in love/have a crush at the moment:
10. favourite place to be:
11. favourite lyric:
12. best time of the year:
13. Do you remember when we met?
14. Have I been a good friend to you?
15. Tell me something you've never told me before.

PLUS
1. one thing you like about me:
2. two things you like about yourself:
3. put this in your journal so i can tell you what i think of you.
4. post or link a pic of you (if possible)


(royce, lets see your answers ) ]]> ~artistscar http://artistscar.deviantart.com/journal/8895211/ http://artistscar.deviantart.com/journal/8895211/ Sat, 27 May 2006 17:46:03 PDT
thanks for everyone's support through the years this is a great community and i have enjoyed everyone's friendship and artistic insights and i can't wait to see more and meet more wonderfully tallented individuals




*party time!!!* ]]> ~artistscar http://artistscar.deviantart.com/journal/8722828/ http://artistscar.deviantart.com/journal/8722828/ Tue, 09 May 2006 16:39:29 PDT
feels good to be outside doing art outside of class

wait for pics ...there will be some done!!! ]]> ~artistscar http://artistscar.deviantart.com/journal/8584251/ http://artistscar.deviantart.com/journal/8584251/ Tue, 25 Apr 2006 17:40:50 PDT ...

didn't win any awards..

BUT, i think i got a bigger honor when my printmaking professor bought one of my mono prints to put in his house!!! ....too cool (yay, thirty bucks for me!!) ]]> ~artistscar http://artistscar.deviantart.com/journal/8350562/ http://artistscar.deviantart.com/journal/8350562/ Mon, 03 Apr 2006 06:15:05 PDT ---

last thrusday i went to a party and had a grand ole' time. the next morning i got a call from my mom wondering when i will be home because my dad was sick. i went home as soon as i found out. it was an understatment.

it was hard to watch my dad struggle all weekend long to stay awake, move and sleep. it was even harder for me to watch him light up a cigarette when he has a lung infection and imphazema. i didn't want to come back to school.
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i haven't been sleeping too well. or eating as well as i s hould be.
last night i couldn't stop dreaming about my ex....bad dreams, but i miss him so much and all i want to do is to talk to him(but that won't happen since he never wants to speak to me)

o well
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so if you see me and i look sorta out of it, its because i am...don't try to cheer me up it will only piss me off (yep...sorry for yelling at people here lately...just been a lil moody is all) ]]> ~artistscar http://artistscar.deviantart.com/journal/7734616/ http://artistscar.deviantart.com/journal/7734616/ Sat, 28 Jan 2006 18:17:47 PST
BUT!

he remembered what he wrote, so he took me back to his office so he could see if he placed it somewhere else...couldn't find it....

BUT!!

like when i was back there, he ended up telling me what he wrote...pretty much it was like, 'you are great...and if someone came asking me for students for a job, your name would be at the top of my list'

so yeah, that feels good to hear that my professors back me up that much...and from coming from this guy, it means a bunch (he's got some good connections too!! )

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in other news.....

BLASTED WEATHER!!! i've been sick for like the past week..literally...ended up missing a day of classwork...felt like missing more, but pressure from my mom made me go to class....so like the past week, i have been sleeping like crazy, coughing up my lungs, and it feels like my brain has been oozing out my nose too ......

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in matters of the heart....

last night i had an artist reception at my local regional arts center and my boyfriend ended up driving 50 miles just to accopany me
its funny though....like the guys that i sorta liked or was going out with in the past, NEVER went to any of my art stuff before....so yeah, big thing in my life...and it feels great to have his support

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stuff to see in the future.....

currently i am enrolled in a web graphics class, 3-d digital design II, printmaking, and sculpture.....

web graphics...currently working on a web page about waffles

3-d....who in the world knows what we do in there

printmaking....whatever you see here lately is what i have been doing..i'll keep posting the goods

sculpture....currently working on a paper casting which should be finished by the end of this week...next is bronze casting

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well, i think that wraps it all up.....sara's life sumed up in a few words ]]> ~artistscar http://artistscar.deviantart.com/journal/7481507/ http://artistscar.deviantart.com/journal/7481507/ Sun, 01 Jan 2006 17:35:36 PST
...for all of us ]]> ~artistscar http://artistscar.deviantart.com/journal/7281022/ http://artistscar.deviantart.com/journal/7281022/ Sun, 11 Dec 2005 08:55:53 PST
also on friday, i ended up getting an early bday present from draunaturel (check out his stuff!! cool stuff he has..must go see!!) which was a big suprise and made that day even sweeter. (thanks again!!)

then on saturday was my bday...i'm 20 now!! (crazy stuff there....i actually think i have that many gray hairs ) went to work and came back to a house full of my friends and family waiting patiently for my arrival. it was a good time and i found out that my bf actually does pay attention to what i say lol....the other day he reminded me that next saturday will be six months since we went on our first date....(that is soo sweet!!)....well yeah, bday stuff....anyway, life has been good here lately and i can't wait to see what else is in store for me this year ]]> ~artistscar http://artistscar.deviantart.com/journal/7170577/ http://artistscar.deviantart.com/journal/7170577/ Mon, 28 Nov 2005 18:29:12 PST
why o why do i have to be an obsessive-perfectionist art student???

the answer: (because i love it!)

blasted me and my enjoying myself..messes up the sleeping...grr....


hehe ]]> ~artistscar http://artistscar.deviantart.com/journal/7107677/ http://artistscar.deviantart.com/journal/7107677/ Mon, 21 Nov 2005 17:21:00 PST ~artistscar http://artistscar.deviantart.com/journal/6996977/ http://artistscar.deviantart.com/journal/6996977/ Wed, 09 Nov 2005 05:31:49 PST
but dont get me wrong, i love the man i am with, and i am happy being with him...it is just...i dunno, something....

then outta no where..my yoga instructor (who is a student here at rio) sorta was going to ask me out...you jknow how guys sorta ask if you have a boyfriend before they "go in for the kill" ??? well, he did that.....

and still after several months living with my roomate, we never had a conversation....pretty much everone on my floor here doesnt talk to me...one time they even called the cops on me because i had my music a lil loud...didn't approach me and ask me to turn it down, went straight to the cops....geez

other bad stuff at home going on right now...just gotta pray for them

blahness.....crying does cleanse the soul...or at least that is what i say....but after everyday when you wake up and you do it.....it gets pretty bad

*****************sorry everyone!! i just felt like ranting a lil************* ]]> ~artistscar http://artistscar.deviantart.com/journal/6857030/ http://artistscar.deviantart.com/journal/6857030/ Mon, 24 Oct 2005 16:47:54 PDT

Reading: hardcore
Watching: batman begins

so i was in class today and my professor called me out to the hall...i was like, what did i do now....it ended up, i was introduced to the guy that i did my first design for and he ended up paying me like $75 for a logo design for his furniture company!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!

soo gotta love going to graphic design class...where it really does pay to go to class

(yeah, in our class, we get outside work when we can and we can decide to take the business if we want to...we sorta get graded, but sorta not...all based on the customer and if they are happy with the designs we come up with.....we do have compitition with each other and also the professor, so it is like a design company...which is very sweet .....o yeah, gotta love the university of rio grande!!!!....even though the poorest school is the school of fine arts....our buget is cut like crazy all the time...but hopefully that will change )

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Listening to: far away...nickelback
Reading: hardcore
Watching: corpse bride

hehehe....my fraturnity has pledging going on right now...and one of the activities that the pledges have to do is hold a fund raiser to pay their dues....they decided to have a "pie the actives" fund raiser.....well, they informed me since i was an "active lil sis" that i would have to partake in the funness....talk about fun.....i think i still smell whipped cream on me as i am typing...and that is after two baths

the things i do for my friends...

(i'm tellin ya, that takes some love there..taking pies to the face....and the boobs too..lol....just wish my bf was there to help me clean up a bit hehe....fun times..fun times )

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Listening to: far away...nickelback
Reading: hardcore
Watching: corpse bride

this morning my photography class is going to go to canter's cave!! woo hoo!! can't wait....have 16 mins before i gotta be in class...soo yeah.....fun fun, i can't wait!!

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nothing much to say...just feels good to be loved and to love someone.....and to take naked pics....and to have a job and get money...and to have a home to go to in general....

another hurrican...rita is her name i guess.....another time to stock up on gas prolly....moving on, life goes on, gets scarrier and wierder...but that is what makes things interesting....


in class this week....finished my tshirt projects...started on a wallpaper....got two more prints made in photography, i hate horses...(3-d digital design class we are making chess pieces....having some trouble with the knight...have everything else...)....was sick from monday morning until weds....ended up skipping three classes...only one of which was cancelled because my professor ended up having an illergic reaction to pain pills from having his teeth pulled.....um....pledging still going on for everyone...my bf ended up quitting....(lil dissappointed, but o well, i still love him).....and i think that is about it....

i hope everyone else's week went well and hopefully next week will be as grande ....(lol, i go to school in rio grande...ahaahahhahaha....ok, that was lame, i know, but hehhehe, still funny to me )

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what to do indeed!??? i want to get him stuff, but time to do it and lack of funds is a big problem...and the time to give it to him too once i get his stuff...another problem...so therefore i am plotting stuff..


good stuff.......

like......

going shopping after class on tuesday...while he will be doing his pledging stuff....and then get him some stuff i know he will like....aka, anime, t-shirt, handcuffs ( ), candy and a roll of film....

but the problem is the timing.......soo very frustrated....

i dunno if it will be a late night and he won't be able to do stuff until it is time to go to bed or if it will be early or if i should just wait until the weekend or if he will have to do stuff then or not...it is blahness...but in the end, i think things will be good ...or so i am hoping

so yeah...my AHO brothers out there....got any recommendations for yer lil HO???? desperate girlfriend in need of advice on plotting total sweetness for her honey ]]> ~artistscar http://artistscar.deviantart.com/journal/6516103/ http://artistscar.deviantart.com/journal/6516103/ Thu, 15 Sep 2005 21:45:25 PDT


until next time in sara's crazy wacked up life......

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so yeah, i love my photography class...it is the greatest ...nuff sed...

in graphic design, we set up our classroom like it is a gd company...and actually get paid!!!! so yeah, total sweetness there.....

what else in my life?? um....stuff with the bf is going great....last night i went to his house because i was in a really bitchy mood...(pms does that to me sometimes) and people were being very annoying so i thought to myself, hey, how about i go hammmer a few nails down to take out some agression.....needless to say that we got a bunch of the deck done that he has been working on all summer long ....

i realized last night that love is special...like if you have someone that at one moment you can be yelling at them and the next they are right there holding you while you cry...that is one facet of love....(speaking from experience....hehe, i warned him i was in a bitchy mood, and well, he let me yell all i wanted and then we made up really good )

ok....so yeah, i think that is all for right now....hope yall have a great day!!!!

ps.....going to be putting my graphic design stuff in my scraps if anyone wants to look at them...

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Mood: loved
Listening to: say it again...badly drawn boy
Reading: hardcore

was interesting....a day that i have been waiting for for a very long time....but it did come at last....and all i am going to say is, "ouch, my tougn hurts!"

]]> ~artistscar http://artistscar.deviantart.com/journal/6294177/ http://artistscar.deviantart.com/journal/6294177/ Mon, 22 Aug 2005 05:08:29 PDT
yes, it is the first day of classes here at the lovely university of rio grand where i am currently a residental student....yeah for high speed internet!! (makes lookin at everyones beautiful artwork soo much easier )

it is currently 8:03am and i am thinking, why in the world do they have to schedual graphic design classes this freakin early in the morning!!!????? (got class in like 27 min...)

but today, i have mixed feelings...i am excited, but yet, kinda dredding the stuff that might go on today....drama.....don't want to deal with it...(but that is what you get when you go to a really small school) but yeah, i am hoping and praying for the best day possible right now

soo, since school has started up for me, i will be posting things that i have been working on in class...either in scraps or in the gallery...

that's it for now....i'll tell ya later how the day went ]]> ~artistscar http://artistscar.deviantart.com/journal/6182365/ http://artistscar.deviantart.com/journal/6182365/ Tue, 09 Aug 2005 20:46:48 PDT
Reading: the new harry potter book

so yeah, i was reading...and one of the guy's thingys at the bottom had reasons to date a paintballer...(which my boyfriend is really really into pb...).....

" 10 reasons to date a paintballer
we arent afraid to get down and dirty
we know how to listen to directions
we have at least a 10 inch barrel
we can fire off 100's of rounds without getting tired.
we always wear protection
we LOVE to be agressive
we never forget to lube
were quick to reload
we make sure our balls are in perfect condition
we have quick finger action"

i just loved it..i had to share...and it is true!!! ]]> ~artistscar http://artistscar.deviantart.com/journal/6177055/ http://artistscar.deviantart.com/journal/6177055/ Tue, 09 Aug 2005 09:27:13 PDT Mood: artistic
Listening to: how you remind me...nickleback
Reading: the new harry potter book

i don't know why..but for some reason i am like in a creepy wierd kick in my gallery....i don't know what that is about....i guess i just feel like doing more darker stuff right now....or just plain bizzare......anyway, i just thought of that....

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today is a new day and the possiblities are endless. therefore, live life as you must and stay true to yourself....

(i did it...and i feel so much better....i am ready for battle..watch out!)

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why in the world does everything seem to happen all at once????
i woke up thinking maybe today would be different than any other day and would be good and without drama and without the shittiness of life being blown in my face....yet again i was dissappointed....

i turned on my computer and i read my lone email from my ex...tinamil, saying he pretty much doesn't ever want to talk to me again...ever....and that i have 24 hours to change his mind....that started my day out right....

then some little drama, talking to friends...the regular, didn't bother me...

then my mom comes home all depressed moreso, tells me that someone took our garbage can...(wtf???)....and that my cousin just found out that he has cancer...and that the cell phone that i bought doesn't work in the area that i need it to and that she couldn't find the reciept to return it....blahness....

o and i really want pizza badly and to watch movies with my boyfriend, but that didn't happen either...

i am wondering what else the night is going to bring....it really makes me wonder.........

]]> ~artistscar http://artistscar.deviantart.com/journal/6153737/ http://artistscar.deviantart.com/journal/6153737/ Sat, 06 Aug 2005 21:35:51 PDT ~artistscar http://artistscar.deviantart.com/journal/6124568/ http://artistscar.deviantart.com/journal/6124568/ Wed, 03 Aug 2005 16:42:51 PDT ]]> ~artistscar http://artistscar.deviantart.com/journal/6115683/ http://artistscar.deviantart.com/journal/6115683/ Tue, 02 Aug 2005 18:45:31 PDT ~artistscar http://artistscar.deviantart.com/journal/6106454/ http://artistscar.deviantart.com/journal/6106454/ Mon, 01 Aug 2005 21:42:54 PDT ANCE: :WO0T!:
(1000 PV'S) ]]> ~artistscar http://artistscar.deviantart.com/journal/6095438/ http://artistscar.deviantart.com/journal/6095438/ Sun, 31 Jul 2005 23:36:37 PDT
why am i upset?

i guess love is funny sometimes....there is nothing more in the world right now that i want more than for him to be happy. but in doing so, that means that he has to leave me and go on living his life out in the world on his own....pretty much w/o me

i want to be there with him and support him...but due to cercumstances, i can't....

i almost feel like i wasted the past three months, hurt my best friend really badly and just screwed up everyone else....


think i need to just go back to not talking and stop being sociable and be greedy and think only about myself for the rest of my life....but i know that won't happen....but it would make life so much more simple ]]> ~artistscar http://artistscar.deviantart.com/journal/6061092/ http://artistscar.deviantart.com/journal/6061092/ Thu, 28 Jul 2005 19:19:51 PDT
returning with pics, stories and a bunch of bears and chocolate

but apon arival...got some sad word that my cousin was killed in a car accident on his way to practice *crying a bunch*
i am begining to hate this date....last year today my grandma passed away.....just really shitty......o well, it is a cycle of life.....

ooo...hehe, no offence to anyone that lives in penn....but that state sucks!!!! we ended up getting lost there like all the time
(the signs are all messed up and the roads are crazy...and the drivers are crazy too *grr* ) beautiful country though....
but more on vacation when pics come out.....

just letting people know that i am back home and that i missed everyone!!! *blows big kisses to everyone * ]]> ~artistscar http://artistscar.deviantart.com/journal/6018731/ http://artistscar.deviantart.com/journal/6018731/ Sun, 24 Jul 2005 06:48:26 PDT
(wheeling wv....hershey pa....gettysburg pa)

as you can tell, i am very very very excited about the hershey pa part.....never been there but always wanted to go....

what can i say, i love my chocolate!!!!

so yeah, i will be gone for like a week...but do not fret, for i will return with many pics (hopefully) and some good stories

best wishes to everyone out there...hope things will be well...don't kill anyone out there...remember the love ^_^ ]]> ~artistscar http://artistscar.deviantart.com/journal/6015867/ http://artistscar.deviantart.com/journal/6015867/ Sat, 23 Jul 2005 19:52:52 PDT
the other day i had a discussion with my dad about the stuff going on in my life (yes, i am very very close to my parents) and he finally made it simple...and it all makes perfectly good sense...

i can't please everyone....i am the only person that has to live with my own decisions.

this is scarry for me....i am the type of person that wants to make everyone like me...and everyone happy....

i found out the hard way that this is impossible....




thanks daddy ]]> ~artistscar http://artistscar.deviantart.com/journal/5988925/ http://artistscar.deviantart.com/journal/5988925/ Wed, 20 Jul 2005 17:54:33 PDT
i really am seriously thinking that i should just curl up with my harrypotter book and say "fuck the world"....i seriously feel like it, but i really don't like using that sort of language. even though i have been trying to avoid people, it seems like they find me...and when i want the people around, they go away....

as you can read..i am still very frustrated....not my last deviation, but the one before that, "trapped"...i did that after i was upset with him after a phone conversation that we had...he commented that he actually liked it...something that never happens (one, leaving a comment, and two, saying that he likes any of my art )....the newest sadness, i don't even know why i am sad about it, but he like stopped watching me for like the second or third time now...he came back because he said that he liked some of my stuff and wanted to see what i could come up with..whatever....lies as i see it, he left again, i think he is trying to play mind games with me again....he knows that i care way too much about him and his feelings...and it is like he doesn't even care about mine...really, tell me why i should be sad...or why i shouldn't is more like it...i guess when you get to know someone and love them so deeply and then up and leave them after more than a year of being there at their side and go as far as to mention marriage to them and then wanting nothing-not even to be friends-after telling each other that you feel like you are best friends....it hurts emensly.....he probably doesn't realize that i actually do still think of him everyday..sometimes bad sometimes good...argg.....fuck fuck fuck fuck fuck fuck.....i soo need a hug right now....actually i need to be with my boyfriend and stop thinking about my ex...that is what i need...but i think he might be in new york right now with his sister...guess i will have to wait........I HATE WAITING!!!!! I HATE MINDGAMES!!!!!!! i do, i really really fucking do........i also dislike living in a home that is filled with a bunch of depressed people...brings me down more...and my parents then wonder why i spend so much of my time in my room instead of with them.....

"and my weakness is, that i care too much...the scars reminds us that the past is real...i tear my heart open just to feel......"

(my song for my life right now.....) ]]> ~artistscar http://artistscar.deviantart.com/journal/5948384/ http://artistscar.deviantart.com/journal/5948384/ Sat, 16 Jul 2005 05:26:40 PDT
have that song in my head now...love it....great song......

ok, currently i am at my friend's house waiting on going to a wedding....i worked for the past two days.....been sick and running a temperature too........i think i got it under control for right now....hopfully...but i thought of something...remember how i said i wished that i got mono back...think i have the same symptoms that i did.....thought that was interesting......it is like a sign that i am suppose to slow down stuff or something and do some more thinking......or something like that.....*blahness!!* but not too much, b/c like i did ask for this...i just hope i will be better for when i go on vacation .............currently, my temperature is down and i have this awful pain in my side and back (spleen area)....and it is making it a little hard to get too much sleep..........but o well.......so i am kinda tired since there was like a party here and i was trying to sleep.....but o well...today is a new day...filled with funness (hopefully).....hopefully stuff will get better than it has been......(hopefully)......all i can do is say my prayers and hope for the best ]]> ~artistscar http://artistscar.deviantart.com/journal/5903450/ http://artistscar.deviantart.com/journal/5903450/ Mon, 11 Jul 2005 10:54:53 PDT
i have some other stuff i want to get out of my mind too right now, but i can't really write because people might read it that is involved.......BLAH!!!

feel like i need to get mono again to sort things all through...or just avoid people in general......make life a little less hectic....maybe a little more boring, but less drama...and easier........again, i am feeling weak, and i am hating it.........

but i do like ice cream....^_^ ]]> ~artistscar http://artistscar.deviantart.com/journal/5579983/ http://artistscar.deviantart.com/journal/5579983/ Tue, 07 Jun 2005 13:17:23 PDT ~artistscar http://artistscar.deviantart.com/journal/5540468/ http://artistscar.deviantart.com/journal/5540468/ Fri, 03 Jun 2005 08:23:22 PDT
still getting over the breakup....he called me like two times today so far, and it is before noon(agrevation)...told me that i was right on some stuff (that is a first).....and he wants me back really badly....but no...i will stay here....at least he is getting over his bitterness twards me

right now i am soo bored....like i still want to go to sleep but i don't....i should sleep, but i don't want to either....*blahness*
-_- ]]> ~artistscar http://artistscar.deviantart.com/journal/5505103/ http://artistscar.deviantart.com/journal/5505103/ Mon, 30 May 2005 18:30:22 PDT
i had love and i felt the love, but end the end, it wasn't meant to be.....life goes on, another page turns....and boys come and boys go, but the first is always hard

i had time to think things through while i have been sleeping....and things are getting better mentally, if not physically....but still, i think it is for the best all the way around...but that doesn't mean that i can't cry about it too.... ]]> ~artistscar http://artistscar.deviantart.com/journal/5436872/ http://artistscar.deviantart.com/journal/5436872/ Mon, 23 May 2005 08:58:02 PDT
ok...star wars 3 is freakin amazing!!!!!

my bf and his family took me to see the movie on saturday....and yeah, it was amazing and i want to see it again.

on sunday after a cookout at my aunts house, i ended up going to a health clinic b/c my sore throat wasn't getting better and my mom thought it was strep for sure b/c i started to break out in a rash after walking just a bit....well, it turns out that it wasn't strep that i had......it was mono! blah...but yeah, my throat is starting to feel better now....the swelling has gone down a bunch just over night.....but now i am more tired and achy than anything else.....so if i am a little late at commenting on stuff, that is why everyone stay safe out there and wash your hands

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