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-not-FUCK

~asexule — Fri, 04 Dec 2009 09:34:00 PST

;edit;
I redid it and it looks like a million times better than before, lololol. I'll upload it here later.

I just spent a good portion of my morning doing what I consider one of my best pixel pieces ever, and it didn't save before I closed the computer.

fuckfuckfuck.

Well...

~asexule — Tue, 24 Nov 2009 12:42:49 PST

Wish me luck.
I've crying on and off for the past few days because of this kitten that at my barn, and some (unpleasant) revelations. However, I finally got the guts up to ask my mom if I could try to save this kitten, and she said to ask my dad because she wouldn't.

So I braced myself, and asked my dad, and I'm PRETTY SURE he's going to let me, he just said "let me think" and if it was no (and sometimes even a yes) he'd still say no, so I think it's almost a for sure, because I've promised them both I WILL give this one way, not keep it like Poky.

Send me and the kitten good wishes, I don't think she'll make it much longer out in the barn.

Gad.

~asexule — Fri, 13 Nov 2009 12:39:02 PST

(Lol @ New York accented "god")

Anyway. Yeah, I won't be on much for the next few days (well, maybe more so, since this is the weekend, and I may be able to steal my dad's laptop) because mine has died. My power cord no longer works whatsoever, and as of... two days, or yesterday, they said it'd be 3-5 days, and I don't know if that's business days or not.

Soooo. It could be here tomorrow, or monday, or far longer if they mess up the order.

If you want to talk to me, you're going to have to be on MSN, because I have no access to skype whatsoever. :'C

Das ist alles.

Bahaha.

~asexule — Tue, 10 Nov 2009 14:52:40 PST

Isn't this sweet? Journal skins for all us non-subbied people.

I wish I could have my own, but I guess I'll just have to count my blessings with this.

Thank you, deviantart!

Happy Moods

~asexule — Sun, 08 Nov 2009 15:46:23 PST

...never last long.
Bah. I wish I could draw it out, but I can't anymore, I'm failing with it pretty bad.

I'm so...

~asexule — Sat, 07 Nov 2009 17:48:30 PST

ridiculously bored right now.

.____.
I NEED SOMETHING TO DOOOOO.

I keep wanting to do a mating thing, like, see what any of my characters would make with someone else's.

And I'm really tempted to join , however, I don't think I'm dedicated enough.

^{...doesn't mean I dont' still want to, though. ;w;}

The Wicked Die Alone

~asexule — Thu, 20 Aug 2009 21:42:45 PDT

And I hope you die very alone, fuckface.

Ftw for wicked quotes. They fit my mood.

Character Give away! &&Updates

~asexule — Mon, 03 Aug 2009 11:48:04 PDT

haha, I think it's fairly obvious I've had my tablet back for like, two months or more now, lol. Time for a new journal!

`Update part first, then character, lol.
`I got a new horse! Her name is Molly (I call her Miss Molly, haha), she's a 7 year old quarter horse, and she's a dream~ I'll do a ref of her whenever I can decide my horse anatomy is okay enough.
`Art is going well, though I need to pay a lot more attention to the sale I have going ion. x_o Failing, sorry minkh...
`I have a new fursona! At least, i think I do. I'm going to try her out for a while, but I really do love her. C: made her for me, she's a lion. Ref coming soon for her, too.
`Erm... I want friends. D: Haha, I'm a failure, but a lot of the times no one's on, so, I need people to talk to me! Yayyy, I'm pathetic. XD

Character Give-Away!
`I'm so attached to my characters, It makes me feel awful to know they're sitting around in my photobucket with nothing to do. D: Yes, again, I am pathetic. I'll send you all the tags I've made for them, (some have none). But, I'm going to be keeping the large art for examples, because some of it means a lot to me, ha.

Komondor Character: [link]
`Was going to be fursona, but meh. Just didn't stick. One tag of her.
Monty, werewolf: [link]
`Was going ot use for a roleplay, but never got around to it. xD No other art of him.
Random Scene Dog: [link] [link]
`ha, I did this for a contest on FP, and she said I won,b ut never paid me, so. No character for her. C:
Random Wolf: [link]
`Crappy crappy ref, but. It comes with a layout image [link] and a tag.
Tarquin: [link] [link]
`You actually do get oen piece of large art from ehr, cause it means nothing to me. xD [link]
Random Irish Wolfdog: [link]
Bahhh. XD; No art of him.

That's all, i think. D: Just say "I want ---" and they're yours! I doubt many will want, but, eh. Gotta try. XD I dunno if a limit is nessasry, but 2 per person.. I may add more later, doubtful, though.

WHY NO MORE ARTZ?!

~asexule — Thu, 26 Mar 2009 13:35:48 PDT

Lolol, so I guess I forgot to tell my adoring public (-insert sarcastic gigglesnort-) as to why art has been a little... lacking..

THAT IS BECAUSE my tablet has bit the dust. XD
That's right, it's not longer usable..

HOWEVER! As of today, it's on it's way in for repairs.
It's on express shipping, so it'll be there in two days, and it said to allow 20-25 days for processing. Sooo. it'll be a few weeks, lol.
Sigh.

So yep. Just so you know XDD; I am doing traditional if you guys... want to see that...?

TRADEYES?

~asexule — Wed, 25 Feb 2009 17:11:57 PST

I want to do trades. DDD8
I won't be too picky.
Butyeah. ;;
PLEASEEE.

HAI GAIS~ +watercolor.

~asexule — Tue, 30 Dec 2008 13:29:06 PST

YEAH, SO. I know I haven't posted anything in a long time.
Gomen, gomen. xD
I do come on daily, I just never reallyc ared to do anything. Hahaha, lazy? Me? NEVER.
Anyway, I'm going to try to keep this up, I'm reallys tarting to like my art, believe it or not.
But, as is commonplace now, my tablet is kaput, to put it simply.
SO I WANNA DO WATERCOLOR.
But I hate doing my own characters.
So.. I NEED YOU.

Just post your characters here, I'll I'll atempt them in watercolor.
If a good amount of people post (YEAH, RIGHT. LOL.) I may not get to anyone, but I'm not just going to go with characters I like, because well... D: You don't get better picking and choosing.

SO I'LL PROBABLY DO SIX.
ein.
swei.
vier.
funf.
sechs.

Maybe more if I actually get that far. x3 SO YEAH.

;-;

~asexule — Thu, 21 Aug 2008 11:37:42 PDT

^{OKay, so yesterday I was amazingly excited, because I actually got THIRD SINGLES POSITION in tennis. For those of you who don't know, that's GOOD.

My mom and dad and even my sister, they were all so proud, as were my friends, and it was just a great day despite having an otherwise EXTREMELY embarrasing moment and having a panic attack, more or less.

Today, she took it away.

She told us that we were all even, so that we were going to rotate in the 3rd, 4th, and 5th spots, and I guess I was okay with that.
THEN she decides that she's assigning us spots, and I was in the rotation for 4th seat.

Fucking FOURTH seat.

That fucking bitch. ALL the girls in the rotation for third I had beat out in the competition for the spots! (not personally for some, it was a bracket thing, so I was ahead of them.)

I wanna fucking kill myself. :/ That just pisses me off to no end, and I didn't say anything because I was going to cry if I opened my mouth (I teared up on and off all practice thinking about it) and after everyone left but my two friends, they brought it up again, and I tried to talk and ended up bawling. BAWLING. :/ I mean, we got to play mariocart which made my way a little better but fuck.

That's just not right.

>>; Hopefully we're going to talk to the coach tomarrow, but I don't know how well that will go, because frankly, out of 9 time members, I'm the only one who's the worse off for this, so it's not likely anything will happen.

FUCK THE WORLD.

c: Expect some submissions soon, I'e been working on some human requests that turned out decent.}

Recent happs + 100 THEME CHALLENGE

~asexule — Thu, 10 Jul 2008 17:54:11 PDT

^{:3 I'm in a pretty much AMAZING mood. Yeah, that sums it up.
(AKA, the girl I like, and my close friend just told me she's bisexual too, and I told her I was. HELL YES MAN. Bring on the girlies.)

+

1) Introduction
2) Love
3) Light
4) Dark
5) Seeking Solace
6) Break Away
7) Heaven
8) Innocence
9) Drive
10) Breathe Again
11) Memory
12) Insanity
13) Misfortune
14) Smile
15) Silence
16) Questioning
17) Blood
18) Rainbow
19) Gray
20) Fortitude
21) Vacation
22) Mother Nature
23) Cat
24) No Time
25) Trouble Lurking
26) Tears
27) Foreign
28) Sorrow
29) Happiness
30) Under the Rain
31) Flowers
32) Night
33) Expectations
34) Stars
35) Hold My Hand
36) Precious Treasure
37) Eyes
38) Abandoned
39) Dreams
40) Rated
41) Teamwork
42) Standing Still
43) Dying
44) Two Roads
45) Illusion
46) Family
47) Creation
48) Childhood
49) Stripes
50) Breaking the Rules
51) Sport
52) Deep in Thought
53) Keeping a Secret
54) Tower
55) Waiting
56) Danger Ahead
57) Sacrifice
58) Kick in the Head
59) No Way Out
60) Rejection
61) Fairy Tale
62) Magic
63) Do Not Disturb
64) Multitasking
65) Horror
66) Trap
67) Playing the Melody
68) Hero 1 & Hero 2
69) Annoyance
70) 67%
71) Obsession
72) Mischief Managed
73) I Can't
74) Are You Challenging Me?
75) Mirror
76) Broken Pieces
77) Test
78) Drink
79) Starvation
80) Words
81) Pen and Paper
82) Can You Hear Me?
83) Heal
84) Out Cold
85) Spiral
86) Seeing Red
87) Food
88) Pain
89) Through the Fire
90) Triangle
91) Drowning
92) All That I Have
93) Give Up
94) Last Hope
95) Advertisement
96) In the Storm
97) Safety First
98) Puzzle
99) Solitude
100) Relaxation

The rules
a) I should make (at least) 100 new pictures, each theme should have at least one picture. Themes may be combined, but each picture only gets to be placed under one theme.
b) I can draw, paint, take photographs, or create whatever I find fits my idea for that theme. No medium limits, and they may vary from sketches to finished designs.
c) Completed pictures will have a link on this page. Their sources can be on any of my sites, depending on who or what I drew, and this page is to keep track of them all.

So yeah.

Peace out, Jamee}

CAL-MAN IS AMAZING. c:

~asexule — Thu, 05 Jun 2008 13:19:48 PDT

[link]

^{Luff you, and I wanted to post that as well as:

Requests; open
Trades; open
Commissions; I wish. ;--;

Peace be with you, James.}

IT MUST BE THE BLUE MOON.--

~asexule — Tue, 03 Jun 2008 17:33:09 PDT

Because I'm actually doing something on this account rather than lurking. You know, when I came here I had this like, VOW to myself to be more active... yeah, no, that didn't happen at all. Lol, oh well. You'll just get times like this when I'll get the mood to write really long journals and submit my stuff and call it crap, like always. |D Anyway.

Lol, I thought this was pretty significant that JUST before I started this I was really happy, because I just finished the host (which you'll most definately hear more about later) but I'm on the verge of tears, because okay. There's this guy from another school--we met at a bandfast and had a freaking BLAST--but he usually ignores me on myspace and I'm too wary to add him on MSN. Regection thing, you all know (I hope). Anyways, he left this comment on my myspace, and even though I KNOW he probably put it on everyone of his's friends comments, I always take it very personally when people leave me comments/messages, because well.... it's not a communal thing. But the thing that sucks was, he left a message about a dance where he lives, which is a fair good distance away to begin with, and that would SO FUN TO GO TO. Lol, now, you're probably thinking something along the lines of a personal invitation--not that way, dearies, he's gay. But i would give my heart and sould to go to this dance with my crush, though AS A FRIEND for more than obvious reasons to those who know me. But I have a fucking horse show that morning to begin wtih, but that'd be okay, I'd get over the exhaustion even if it ment collapsing when I got home. The thing that sucks is that I know my parents would never let me go in the first place; that's just a simple fact. :/ He lives so far away, and my parents don't know anyone, and... it'd just be a mess, flat out. My friends' parents probably wouldn't let them either. So i want to relay a message of my grief and how upset I am taht I'm not even going to bother asking my parents, but what would he care anyway? I was just someone he knew for a day, sure, we had some good laughs, good times, but how much can I except when he won't even return a message from me on myspace that he had sent first? And it wasn't a like, end of the conversation one, I has "how're you?" that should warrant and answer in my opinion. So that comment that means a hell of a lot to me will go unanswered. :/

Lol, HOST TIME. Okay, off the bat--I like Stephenie Meyer's writing and story lines. But I'm not as obsessive as EVERYONE seems to be with the Twilight series, just because it is all pretty cliche. But this book was really good, and if you don't want a spoiler, then don't read my next sentece. I was unbeliviable amazed that wanderer (because I HATE the name wanda) ended up with Ian. Seriously, I didn't see it comeing, and I didnt' seem them actually going through with seperating her from Mel. It just... caught me off guard and in a really good way. Now, again, this book was pretty predictable in the whole, but individual details were a lot less predictable, which made this book really good in my opinion. And now that I'm done with a book that for the first time in months has a happy ending, I'm kind of happy, and I REALLY feel like drawing how I imagined the characters, though I know I didn't perceive them the way that others did--I never do, despite how much emphasis Meyer seems to put on how the character's features affect the story line. It's just easier for me to imagine them the way I want to. :3 But still--really good book, I'd definately recommend it anyone.

And the horror of my life at this moment: finals. Now, obviously, finals aren't the hell-whole that everyone makes them out to be, but they aren't enjoyable by any stretch of the word. I'm especially fearful for my last two, German and Bio. Which wouldn't seem to be hard normall, i do pretty well in those classes. But seeing as in german, my friend who's a senior and almost ALWAYS got the same grades on things as me got a 51%, and in bio, the average right now is about 50%, though people have been as low as 10% and as high as... 75. That means that no one's gotten anything but a F or D, and I think only about two people have passed so far. Not comforting in the least, especially since the teacher has about eight chapters in there that we've never once gone over; not that we did much with the other chapters, but we weren't even NEAR these ones. So tomarrow should not be interesting at all, becaue I also have to recite 35 lines from romeo and juliet with my crush. :/ FUN FUN FUN TIMES, I'M TELLING YOU.

And then... yeah, I'm only going to briefly mention it, beccause, frankly, I don't even want to BEGIN to think about it is that I have a horse show this weekend and a 9 mile trail ride and another the next weekend. :/ Not looking forward to it at all.

So yeah. You may see more art from me, you may not; I got a drawing book, and it seems to be...

Well, fuck.

~asexule — Fri, 09 May 2008 07:44:20 PDT

^{Today was one of the worst days I've had while in a happy mood, generally.

Okay, so. The last few days at school, I've been really tired, like I haven't gotten any sleep at all. Sometimes, I've actually fell asleep in class, and I wanted to catch up on my sleep, and I can't do that on the weekend, because those are just as busy as my weekdays.

So I stayed home.

I sleep four extra hours, and it was glorious, and I slept in, and yeah. Just a completely nice time.

Until I realized something.

I'm fucking missing dissecting today.

THE ONE PART OF THE ENTIRE CLASS OF BIOLOGY THAT I'VE BEEN LOOKING FORWARD TO SINCE LIKE, FIFTH GRADE.

And I don't think we're doing it any day but today.

It's fucked up.

And now I'm really upset at myself and the world.

;-;}