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My jaw really hurts. Maybe I should stop eating this pretzel.

So, where am I in life? I have graduated from high school, and am in a state of limbo--somewhere between feeling like I'm on top of the world, and the tiny inkling of chilling dread that sneaks upon you before heading off to university. Come to think of it, I'm quite nervous, actually. I don't drink. I'm not very sociable. It would be most depressing if I turned out to be a hermit...

It doesn't help that almost every single one of my friends is headed to Canada while I'm going to England! D:

Eh, anyway, in other news, I haven't been taking photographs lately, hence the lack of deviations. I'm still in my lazy stage (ehheehheh...have been for a month), but I expect I'll do a proper day of shooting around the streets sometime soon. I owe myself one.

]]> ~astereilla http://astereilla.deviantart.com/journal/11048395/ http://astereilla.deviantart.com/journal/11048395/ Wed, 13 Dec 2006 07:38:34 PST
kthxbai



(Also, plz to be not using the flower mode, also commonly called Macro mode, if you have a nice DSLR.)

That is all. Your ranty-headed Dawn, bowing out.

PS. Whoo, I'm 17! And just as bitchy.

]]> ~astereilla http://astereilla.deviantart.com/journal/10928719/ http://astereilla.deviantart.com/journal/10928719/ Sat, 02 Dec 2006 19:17:00 PST
Sweet Jesus. What have I gotten myself into?

Oh, and Nottingham--conditional offer of 85% or above average on all subjects, and a pass in AP Calculus.

]]> ~astereilla http://astereilla.deviantart.com/journal/10830767/ http://astereilla.deviantart.com/journal/10830767/ Fri, 24 Nov 2006 05:17:30 PST
What did I see, you ask?

1) Royal Holloway, University of London, has offered me a conditional offer
2) This offer is subject to your obtaining Advanced Placement Examinations OBTAINING 4 FROM 5 IN CALCULUS

Ergo:
1) Squee'd
2) Thought about it for a bit, and decided 4 in AP Calculus AB was a pretty low offer from RHUL and rejoiced
3) Thought about the fact that I scored the highest mark on our AP Calculus test out of a class of 6 (66%)
4) Squeeing balloon punctured and deflated rapidly

That aside...I have an offer, I have an offer, nyaaaaah! (This is for a collective you who don't believe in Canadian students receiving offers from a high ranking English university)

Also, in other news, I have my interview with the University of Cambridge on Dec 7. Five days before my birthday. Preposterous! NO WAI! Applied for Biological Natsci. Wish me luck!

]]> ~astereilla http://astereilla.deviantart.com/journal/9936098/ http://astereilla.deviantart.com/journal/9936098/ Sat, 02 Sep 2006 00:22:28 PDT
Grade 12, how I abhor thee.

In short: I'm sitting out temporarily. Also, my desktop needs upgrading because it crashes whenever I try to open Photoshop or anything that requires a lot of memory usage (ergo, no editing of the photographs anyway).

In the meantime, if you would like to hire me to annoy you or your friends, feel free to call me up. I will gladly sing the cake song for you. ]]> ~astereilla http://astereilla.deviantart.com/journal/8762650/ http://astereilla.deviantart.com/journal/8762650/ Sat, 13 May 2006 20:26:27 PDT Where does one find Polaroid film in Hong Kong? I know, I know, I should probably look up the Hong Kong retailer and call them. However, since I have an extreme phobia of phones, I'd like to avoid that unless I have to.

*FYI, it did not cost an inordinate amount of money.

P.S. World of Warcraft? Skullcrusher? Anyone? T_T ]]> ~astereilla http://astereilla.deviantart.com/journal/7408629/ http://astereilla.deviantart.com/journal/7408629/ Sat, 24 Dec 2005 23:38:37 PST Rudolph and Santa are eating the Christmas tree!

D: Redundancy here, but I did want to update my journal, so again, I reiterate the words that many of your friends have already uttered: merry Christmas! ]]> ~astereilla http://astereilla.deviantart.com/journal/6171439/ http://astereilla.deviantart.com/journal/6171439/ Mon, 08 Aug 2005 18:05:44 PDT Still not working out. Wish they would. Bloody hell.

Right, must salvage entry from the depressing rut. -wrenches entry out with a squelching sound- Um. Not much happy thoughts, apparently. I'll submit the photos soon, when I don't feel quite so lazy. I've got stacks of summer work and people to catch up on.

I miss almost everything about Cambridge x.x ]]> ~astereilla http://astereilla.deviantart.com/journal/5873681/ http://astereilla.deviantart.com/journal/5873681/ Fri, 08 Jul 2005 03:34:29 PDT
Leaving for Cambridge, England, from July 8th to August 6th. Hopefully will be back with many photos to share. Oh, and if anyone happens to read this: does anyone know where to buy 120 film in Cambridge? Muchas gracias in advance. ]]> ~astereilla http://astereilla.deviantart.com/journal/4949448/ http://astereilla.deviantart.com/journal/4949448/ Wed, 30 Mar 2005 04:58:35 PST ~astereilla http://astereilla.deviantart.com/journal/4543098/ http://astereilla.deviantart.com/journal/4543098/ Fri, 11 Feb 2005 06:42:48 PST
I have writer's block after writing another half paragraph. Damnit, I can't keep writing like this. It takes about 3 months just to write a three-paragraph long piece of awful prose and I'm tired of taking such a long time to produce one text file I can't read without cringing at least once.



Eh, if you have livejournal, add me on my photolog. It feels lonely. ]]> ~astereilla http://astereilla.deviantart.com/journal/4147247/ http://astereilla.deviantart.com/journal/4147247/ Fri, 24 Dec 2004 15:50:29 PST ~astereilla http://astereilla.deviantart.com/journal/4092895/ http://astereilla.deviantart.com/journal/4092895/ Sun, 19 Dec 2004 04:38:07 PST
Well, no, I don't mind the gifts (heh heh ), but I just don't understand why birthdays are so extravagant to some people o.O

By the way, I turned 15 on December 12th a week ago. Which means I'll be getting a camera (probably the Canon Powershot A95) tomorrow, hopefully. Whee.

Edit: Bleh, got the Canon Ixus 40 instead. I wish I bought the Powershot, but my mother insisted on getting me the other one. Oh well, I suppose I should be grateful. ]]> ~astereilla http://astereilla.deviantart.com/journal/3890203/ http://astereilla.deviantart.com/journal/3890203/ Mon, 22 Nov 2004 03:27:25 PST
If you thought it was nothing, take away 15 points.
If you thought I came back from Japan, give yourself 2 points.
If you thought I had a good time in Japan, give yourself 3 points.
If you thought I discovered my true sexuality, take away 10 points.
If you thought I just got hit with important news, give yourself 20 points.
If you thought the important news was regarding my education, give yourself another 20 points.

And if you thought I got accepted to Hockerill Anglo-European College, give yourself 85 points.

Got over 100 points? Give yourself a cookie and a pat on the back, because you guessed correctly.

Honestly, I don't know whether this is good news or not. On one hand, I face a better university, I face better education, quality teaching, and happy and proud parents. On the other hand, do I really need to get into Cambridge or York? I also face crappy accommodation, leaving friends behind, the guilt of leaving them behind, and homesickness. There's also the chance that I won't be able to adapt quickly enough to get my grades up and me all happy.

I want a compromise, but I can't find one. ]]> ~astereilla http://astereilla.deviantart.com/journal/3729304/ http://astereilla.deviantart.com/journal/3729304/ Mon, 01 Nov 2004 21:40:09 PST
I realise all my recent photos I've submitted are old. Sorry about that; I refuse to take any photos until I get a new camera. The one I currently have takes horribly grainy photos, doesn't have shutter speeds I can choose, and the battery cover dangles off. Hopefully I'll get a new camera by the time I get to Japan; I really don't want to bring a crappy camera, because I'm supposed to take loads of photos there.

And I'm not really making sense. I'm rambling. XD Bah, I don't even have an mp3 player with me...it's at home, and you can only hear out of one headphone anyway. An iPod as a Christmas or birthday gift would be nice, but my parents are stingy about their money.

Can't say I blame them.

Anyway, Halloween was...stupid. Laura, Eugenia, GaBo, Toby, and I watched The Grudge. Well, Toby watched for twenty minutes and left...heh. Note to people who intend on watching the movie: the plot goes kaploot, it's stupid, but the movie itself is freaky. Things just suddenly jump out at you.

I really am not making sense. This is ridiculously incoherent, but I'm so bored I have to submit this anyway. Muahahaha. ]]> ~astereilla http://astereilla.deviantart.com/journal/3552781/ http://astereilla.deviantart.com/journal/3552781/ Sat, 09 Oct 2004 20:40:59 PDT
I have loads of homework, according to my mother's standards (which are high), I'm failing history, a complete bimbo (sorry) got a higher mark than me on a math test, I don't get any of my computer programming work about loops and random numbers and integers, and I'm just completely overwhelmed by everything I used to do well in. Not that I was ever good at programming, as this is my first time, but...c'mon, I have to get something.

More ranting, we just had a band performance on Saturday, and two out of the three bands I played in screwed up. I missed the second endings for show band, missed the notes, played the wrong rhythm, got too tired to play properly during the septet and went out of tune, and flies kept buzzing around in front of me, so I couldn't see my music. Bloody flies.

One thing I'm good at: screwing things up at the worst times possible. ]]> ~astereilla http://astereilla.deviantart.com/journal/3386819/ http://astereilla.deviantart.com/journal/3386819/ Thu, 23 Sep 2004 01:57:47 PDT Ah well, I suppose I should be happy I still ran with my sprained ankle. Ladida.

On another note, I haven't had much time to submit/create any new deviations or anything. Not much photo opportunities, and inspiration seems to skip over me. I've been feeling kind of recently. Bah.

Edit: I'm putting this dA account on hold for awhile. I might be able to post a few deviations, but until I get a break (next week...then the next one is in October), don't expect me to submit anything, eh. ]]> ~astereilla http://astereilla.deviantart.com/journal/3244512/ http://astereilla.deviantart.com/journal/3244512/ Fri, 03 Sep 2004 06:36:49 PDT hell. We're doing conversions right now, and I'm already swimming in confusion over quad and decimal...bah! @)($*)@!

On the other hand, I got into Symphonic Winds (highest band in our school). Then again, it actually counts as an extra course, which means I get an extra credit (assuming I don't fail). Which also means we're going to have exams, tests, and assessments.

If I don't do well in this band (er, course; I'm going to have to start getting used to it as a course and not an extracurricular), this is going to pull my average down. Bah.

Member of: ]]> ~astereilla http://astereilla.deviantart.com/journal/3121990/ http://astereilla.deviantart.com/journal/3121990/ Sun, 15 Aug 2004 00:51:34 PDT
No, seriously, it was. It was fantastic meeting everyone at the devmeet :} 'Cept I, as always, kept my mouth shut tight and tried to shrink away in the corner to be an antisocial Dawn. I'm going to be a hermit when I grow up; I can't seem to open my mouth and talk.

It was unfortunate that I had to leave early (hey, my mother wanted me to come home earlier xP), and in the middle of a question, too. Whoops. Heh heh. I'm sure everyone thinks I'm a deluded idiot now Whee.

School in 8 days and I'm nervous x.x

Member of:

Edit: Well, that took long enough to reach 200 pageviews, haha. ]]> ~astereilla http://astereilla.deviantart.com/journal/3076057/ http://astereilla.deviantart.com/journal/3076057/ Sun, 08 Aug 2004 17:45:49 PDT
Pros:
1. I get to see everyone again, if I don't get the chance to see them during the next two weeks.
2. I will finally stop complaining about boredom taking over my mind.
3. [Hopefully] I'll become smarter again and won't sound so much like a dumbass. (Or do I sound like one anyway? )
4. I don't think there are any more pros.

Cons:
1. I will become extremely stressed out and will wake up each morning to find another few strands of hair leaving my body (head, scalp, whatever, you fool).
2. I will no longer have the honour of complaining of boredom.
3. Expanding on number two, that will be caused by the lack of free time.
4. I don't think there are any more cons...wait, I might get stuck in a cruddy class with cruddy people. If that turns out to be true, I'd rather stay at home whinging about being bored doing nothing.

I'm still having a hard time deciding, but I won't worry about it now. School is good.

Excuse my English; I may have a few grammar mistakes and my sentences might not make sense, because I'm listening to my music right now with headphones on and it's sort of affecting my typing. I think. ]]> ~astereilla http://astereilla.deviantart.com/journal/3020714/ http://astereilla.deviantart.com/journal/3020714/ Sun, 01 Aug 2004 18:18:24 PDT I'm sort of thankful that I didn't join the Alliance Francaise course now; I wouldn't have had time to finish all my other work (hunt for an appropriate boarding school in the U.K., my Kumon, Chinese, etc). I don't know why I still complain of boredom, though. Probably because I leave everything to the last minute to do...which does not produce pretty results. I whinge about being busy on the last days and whinge about being bored on the off days.

Must. Stop. Complaining. I'm supposed to be an optimist, damnit!

I want a new camera and jeans (Was that random?)

I think I'll practise my piano for a bit now, seeing as I haven't exactly practised the last week and my piano teacher is coming in about 3.5 hours, and the way I play some of my songs is absolutely atrocious. ]]> ~astereilla http://astereilla.deviantart.com/journal/2952343/ http://astereilla.deviantart.com/journal/2952343/ Fri, 23 Jul 2004 19:38:24 PDT Even if I really [and most likely] haven't. I think highly of myself, don't I?

I run the risk of being kicked out of his band, however. I'd post the conversation we had between us here, but then it's quite long. I'll post a snippet No obligation for you to read it, however.

(20:44:55) [AHC 2004] wtf is ur god damn problem?? fuck u: abt my mom
(20:45:00) [AHC 2004] wtf is ur god damn problem?? fuck u: im very pissed thats all
(20:45:19) fermez la bouche, s'il vous plait; dead girls dance they burn and twirl: oh? what's wrong?
(20:49:27) [AHC 2004] wtf is ur god damn problem?? fuck u: well..
(20:49:38) fermez la bouche, s'il vous plait; dead girls dance they burn and twirl: you can't seroiusly hate your mum that much, she bore you
(20:49:58) [AHC 2004] wtf is ur god damn problem?? fuck u: ....ur point?
(20:50:34) [AHC 2004] wtf is ur god damn problem?? fuck u: she said that whenever i use money i hafta tell her and ask her permission
(20:50:34) [AHC 2004] wtf is ur god damn problem?? fuck u: wtf
(20:50:58) fermez la bouche, s'il vous plait; dead girls dance they burn and twirl: ...that's not too bad
(20:51:05) [AHC 2004] wtf is ur god damn problem?? fuck u: wtf?
(20:51:21) [AHC 2004] wtf is ur god damn problem?? fuck u: theres something wrong wif u u noe
(20:51:25) fermez la bouche, s'il vous plait; dead girls dance they burn and twirl: dude. she's trying to help you learn how to spend your money wisely and all you can say in thanks is fuck you?
(20:51:46) fermez la bouche, s'il vous plait; dead girls dance they burn and twirl: I can assure you there's nothing wrong with me...
(20:52:25) [AHC 2004] wtf is ur god damn problem?? fuck u: its none of ur business and no shes not trying to help me learn how to spend my money
(20:52:43) fermez la bouche, s'il vous plait; dead girls dance they burn and twirl: you put it up for everyone to see. /me shrugs
(20:52:57) fermez la bouche, s'il vous plait; dead girls dance they burn and twirl: don't want the attention, don't post it
(20:53:15) fermez la bouche, s'il vous plait; dead girls dance they burn and twirl: then what's she trying to do? you didn't earn that money
(20:53:43) [AHC 2004] wtf is ur god damn problem?? fuck u: actually i did
(20:53:50) fermez la bouche, s'il vous plait; dead girls dance they burn and twirl: did you? doing what?
(20:54:02) [AHC 2004] wtf is ur god damn problem?? fuck u: i put it up for every1 to see not for every1 to cmt
(20:54:10) [AHC 2004] wtf is ur god damn problem?? fuck u: i write for money
(20:54:22) [AHC 2004] wtf is ur god damn problem?? fuck u: so i suggest u find out the facts b4 u talk to me
(20:54:29) [AHC 2004] wtf is ur god damn problem?? fuck u: i dont need u to tell me wt to do
(20:54:36) fermez la bouche, s'il vous plait; dead girls dance they burn and twirl: I can comment if I like. I am entitled to my opinion, am I not?
(20:54:36) [AHC 2004] wtf is ur god damn problem?? fuck u: who do u fink u r?
(20:54:52) fermez la bouche, s'il vous plait; dead girls dance they burn and twirl: ...
(20:54:53) [AHC 2004] wtf is ur god damn problem?? fuck u: no
(20:54:57) fermez la bouche, s'il vous plait; dead girls dance they burn and twirl: ok, I'm not telling you what to do.
(20:54:58) [AHC 2004] wtf is ur god damn problem?? fuck u: so shut the fuck up
(20:55:02) [AHC 2004] wtf is ur god damn problem?? fuck u logged out.
(20:55:03) [AHC 2004] wtf is ur god damn problem?? fuck u has closed the conversation window.
(20:55:04) fermez la bouche, s'il vous plait; dead girls dance they burn and twirl: ...excuse me?!

fermez la bouche = me

There's much more to that, but you probably don't want to read it (not like many people are going to come across this, anyway). Hee.

I can't wait until August :] Everyone comes back from vacation by the time August rolls around, and hopefully I can see everyone again before school starts. ~astereilla http://astereilla.deviantart.com/journal/2884111/ http://astereilla.deviantart.com/journal/2884111/ Sun, 18 Jul 2004 04:19:03 PDT
We spent quite a lot for that one visit. Unfortunately, while I was in Canada for two weeks, my mum brought him to the vet for another visit, because the tumour had come back. When I came back, my mother told me something that I don't think I've been able to fully grasp yet.

We have to put Beggie to sleep. She was waiting for me to come back to Hong Kong so I can decide when to take him to the vet for his final visit. I'm thinking beginning of August, a few weeks before school starts (August 20-something) so it won't affect my schoolwork.

I really don't know how to feel about all this. I don't think I understand all this yet, because I'm feeling pretty emotionless. Either that, or I have no heart. Which (hopefully) isn't true. I know it's for the best...yet I've had Beggie as my pet for over 10 years.

A couple more weeks to go until it's time to bid farewell... =/

Edit: I didn't realise he's almost deaf in addition to being almost blind =/ ]]> ~astereilla