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Not too much has been happening in the art section of my life recently... mainly because I havn't had a lot of time, and not a lot of creativity and good results.. which I have found to be quite frustrating at times...

Besides art, most of my time has been put towards uni, assignments and exams. I will find out the results later this week, hoping it all went well. As for uni, it has been a surprisingly fast semester. I feel that I have somewhat adjusted to uni now... just when the semester ended. But also I think I am much more clear on what I want to do as far as course/career issues are concerned, narrowed down to 2 similar options. I'm fairly accepted now that I would like to transfer to either Economics or Education/Commerce, so either an economist or teacher are the 2 main careers I'm tossing up between.
Unfortunately, i came to decision over these holidays that visual arts is all but gone from any thoughts of university/career options. This is due to requiring a folio to transfer since I am no longer a high school student, but also I aimed/tried to get some sort of art done (not nessarilly for a possible folio) and just couldn't get anything done.. o rvery poor stuff that was depressing.. I feel that not drawing for about 6 months has had a terrible effect on any possible art making I wish for... thats what I get for putting it aside to my other best subject economics. So with that now, this time around at uni art is not going to happen, even though if I want to be a teacher of economics I would also prefer to teach art as well, not just economics... but I guess not right now... I can always go back and do a visual arts course if I feel I need to.

Other things, I brough a playstation 2 about 3 weeks ago (yes I'm a bit behind...) mainly been playing Final Fantasy games, X, X-2 and XII. X is awesome I have never been so drawn into a game before, however XII has something about it that has drawn me away from finishing X.

So yeh... not too sure about whats going to happen in the future art wise...
But I am reading most of my watchers journals and looking at your art, even if I am not commenting on them

]]> ~asukaevaunit02 http://asukaevaunit02.deviantart.com/journal/24249781/ http://asukaevaunit02.deviantart.com/journal/24249781/ Wed, 15 Apr 2009 01:38:00 PDT I'm still fairly inactive around dA, I'm very busy with uni and barely had any time to draw if any.

So, its now half way through the mid-semester easter break (1 week) so I thought it would be a good time to write a little something.
Uni stuff:
Uni has been pretty full on, the last 2-3 weeks all I have been doing is assignments, all of which were due pretty much at the same time, so 3 assignments were handed in with the space of 4 days. Still doing the accounting assignment which is due on Monday, so that is taking up my easter break. Accounting is really frustrating and time consuming, I really don't like it.
I've come to the conclusion that so far uni isn't quite my thing. There's so many people that I don't know, and only have a small handfull of friends, but don't see them much, coz they are in different subjects or courses altogether. Though I have 1 friend that I have most of my subjects with so thats nice, but I don't have any really good friends like I do from high school sorta thing, but I guess friends like that take time.
Also on uni I'm thinking of transferring courses, I don't think business is exactly for me. For many reasons, 1. I don''t like many of the study areas, and those 2 that I am interested don't have many career opportunities in them, 2. I don't think my personality fits that needed for business, I'm very quiet, caring which seems to be the opposite of that I feel is required, 3. I'm not as passionate about it as I thought I was about 6 months ago.
So with that I'm thinking of transferring to some sort of Art & Design course. I'm considerring Visual art/Education, Fine Art or Design (Visual Communication). All need a folio to be admitted now that I'm no longer a high school student. So I am seriously considering taking 6 months intermission to work on that folio, as it requires 10-15 pieces, and knowing how much work is required of uni at the moment I wouldn't have any time to produce even half of that requirement.

Art:
As I said I have been so busy with uni studies that I have not had any time to even pick up a pencil to think about drawing, let alone have any ideas to draw, which is really disappointing. I feel that I'm really out of it at the moment and stuggling to draw or find much motivation to do so. That said the long weekend/break gave me a bit of a break from studying, so I had a bit of a scribble for a self portrait, didn't get a lot done, but something I hope to finish maybe this weekend. I have a few ideas in mind but not sure if they are worth drawing or just concepts. However I am considering fixing up re-drawing/designing my last folio piece from high school "Resolution" [link] as I feel since it was the last piece I kinda rushed it, and havn't quite done it justice as I feel it's one of the strongest meaning pieces I have, but thats a long way off due to time constraints and re-designing it properly instead of a napkin sketch.

So thats about all... sorry not for being too active lately, but I do read most of your comments/journals/deviations etc even if I don't reply to them

Hope to be more active sometime soon....

]]> ~asukaevaunit02 http://asukaevaunit02.deviantart.com/journal/23568336/ http://asukaevaunit02.deviantart.com/journal/23568336/ Sat, 07 Mar 2009 04:28:57 PST I met about 6 good people during orientation activites mainly the beach day last friday. Unfortunately of all the people I met I dont have class with any of them, I even do 3 out of 4 units the same and still dont have any same class... lectures and tutes are a bit quiet but am sorta meeting people in those areas.
Lectures have been good, microeconomics is easy as, its just a repeat of year 11 and 12 economics in 13 weeks, business stats is easier than I imagined, management is ok, but accounting is hard... I have never done accounting before and the whole lecture made no sense... and I find it boring I will not do accounting after this semester.
So summing up uni its good, a very different place/atmospher to high school, its more social and free... I have to get back into the habbit of studying.. I havnt studied in about 4 months...!
I'm studying a business degree, I plan to major in Economics, and maybe double major with Banking & Finance but not sure about that, and apparentley very similar and related to accounting so maybe not... but to be honest I dont know what I want to do.. its something I wish I knew what I wanted to do...

Art news... I havnt drawn in atleast 2 months... mainly because I have been busy with work... I dont have any ideas... I have nothing to draw... nothinig comes to mind.... I hate not drawing... but I dont know what to do.. coz nothing has made me want to draw...
So thats why I havnt been very active the past few months... I really hope things change and I can get some art up and more active...

Well thats all for now, I will keep it short

]]> ~asukaevaunit02 http://asukaevaunit02.deviantart.com/journal/23204639/ http://asukaevaunit02.deviantart.com/journal/23204639/ Sat, 14 Feb 2009 20:37:01 PST Just a quick recap of what happened.
I was offered education/visual arts by Monash, my 7th preference... when I wanted to do anything business related which were by 6 preferences before that, and I was also offered Asian studies/Commerce at ANU. I could have gone to ANU but then i would ahve to move interstate to a place where I know nobody, and financially it would have been very hard.

So what happened, the good luck!
About a week after the offers came out I was offered a scholarship to Monash university, of $6000 a year. This would have been more than enough to pay for my education/visual arts course, and leave me some extra money for myself. So this made the descision between Monash and Canberra easier. And in 2nd round offers I was lucky and got offered a single degree in Business at Monash, which was my 2nd preference and probably most prefered and flexible option.

So now I will be going to Monash university (Caulfield) to study Business, and I plan to major in both economics and banking and finance. So now everything is going well I have the course I think I want to do along with a scholarship which pays for about 80% of my fees. Although Caulfield is considered a bif far by some, I dont mind its closer than Clayton, and easier than moving to Canberra. So I'm happy I will be able to stay in Melbourne. Its just a hour and a half train trip each way to the uni, but thats ok, for about 6 months, after 6 months or so I pplan to move out and live on my own, somewhere close to the uni and city.

I'm now waiting and looking foward to O-week in 2 weeks and meeting many new people, it should be good fun.
Though a part of me would have liked to done education/visual arts and be a teacher... but will have to wait and see what I think of business... I've also thought about maybe doing a double degree with journalism or chinese.... something like that, but its just a thought, I have plenty of electives to use later.


So I just have to wait for uni activities to start and see who I meet, as I dont know what kind of people to expect to see that would study business... unlike visual art/education I had some idea what to expect.

As for my art... I havnt drawn or submitted anything in a while... though I wish I had more time to do so... but work usually takes up my time... as I work late nights usually 12 or 2am. But I will try to get something down, even if its a scribble/sketch... I want to draw!!!!

]]> ~asukaevaunit02 http://asukaevaunit02.deviantart.com/journal/22833443/ http://asukaevaunit02.deviantart.com/journal/22833443/ Mon, 26 Jan 2009 20:58:43 PST
From the main university I applied to Monash University, I was offered Visual Arts and Education... that was my 7th preference!!! Not what I wanted at all, it was very disappointing, espcially since I had all the prerequisites for my business/ecomonomics courses I applied for at the top of my preference list. If I had recieve this offer about 3 months ago I probably would have happily accepted it with excitement, but within the last month I decided that I want to focus soley on business as a career, and wanted to be an economist, wanting to do a Commerce/Economics course, majoring in economics and finance, which seemed really appealing to me. But I wasnt offered any business related courses, even though I had results far better than required...
With such a poor offer, I rang the school careers lady, she was useless, pretty much told me, that my maths wasnt good enough, and should give up. So I rang the university directly for 2 days, with no success, people I rang had no idea what I was talking about, they didnt know what my level of maths was. The only sort of answer I got was your maths is being reviewed, and might revieve a 2nd round offer. So it doesn't look good....

I also recieved an offer from ANU (Australian National University) in Canberra, for Asian Studies(chinese)/Commerce. It was a bit of a nice surprise, but at the same time unexpected. I had decided a while ago I wasnt going to go to ANU unless I wanted to do Chinese with Commerce, which I sort of decided I didn't want to, but I could do it. So its seriously worth considering because its my Commerce offer at the moment. The only problem is I hadnt considered going there, and dont really have the momey on such short notice to move states just for uni. I roughly need $1000 just to set up accomodation, and $500 for starting fees, I think $2000 to be safe... at the moment I only have $450... but am working, but I will be lucky to have $1000 within the next 2 weeks before I would have to move up to Canberra.

So its a bit of a waiting game again, this time for 2nd round offers, on the 4th and 5th of February, which leaves me very little time to decide and organise where I'm going to uni, thats if I even get any 2nd round offers, because there is no garuntee that you will get a 2nd round offer, because they are the courses that are remaining from 1st round.

So its a very stressful time right now, because nothing is certain at all, I have no idea where I'm going to end up or what I will be studying. Its a juggling act between the 2 uni's... its jsut so frustrating because the universities arent overly helpful if at all. To make things worse today was enrolment day for my visual arts/education course at Monash, but I enroled online so I assumed I didnt have to attend, because it was very hard for me to attend, because it started at 9:30am, and I have to travel 2 hours by train to get there, meaning I would have to leave by 6:30am, and I had finished working at 1am... so it would have killed me. So I rang the faculty today (because yesterday was a public holiday..how convinient) and the person I spoke to wasnt very helpful, saying I should have attended in person, even if I had enroled online... so no help there because there was someone she said I should talk to but she wasnt available at the time. So I don't know whats going to happen... I also checked my ANU accomodation status, apparently I'm being considered for accomodation, and will be made an offer if something becomes available... so thats not helpful

Nothing is going my way in relation to university... which annoys me, because I did really well in high school, and "should" have gotten into anything I applied for easily... and friends who got lower marks have already gotten into their 1st preferences easily...

On a better note, I started working, I have my first job! I started working at Subway 2 days ago, and going through the training, although I'm working late shifts its ok right now, coz I need money incase I have to move to Canberra... tommorow I have to work to 2am, so thats going to be interesting.

Sorry about being really negative but I'm really frustrated with these things...

]]> ~asukaevaunit02 http://asukaevaunit02.deviantart.com/journal/22588793/ http://asukaevaunit02.deviantart.com/journal/22588793/ Thu, 15 Jan 2009 01:39:14 PST Firstly I finally got my high school results about 2 weeks ago. I did fairly well. I got an IB score of 36, which is equivalent to a 95.45 ENTER score. So it is pretty good, and will get me into any of the university courses I’m interested in. Here’s my results
English A HL – 6
Chinese B SL – 5
Economics HL – 7
Maths SL – 4
Biology SL – 6
Visual Arts – 6
Visual Arts Extended Essay – B
TOK – B
Bonus Points – 2
Total 36
The results were generally good, and had a few nice surprises, such as English and TOK, the only bad surprise was the 6 in Visual Arts, I was expected to get a 7, the highest mark, but didn’t, I didn’t like that because of how much work and effort, personal emotion I out into my work. Maybe it was the examiner as nobody was given a 7. But with a 6 it sort of makes me feel that my art wasn’t that good, especially when I see other people that got a 6, which I feel my work was above theirs… I know that sounds really full of myself… Otherwise besides that I’m very happy with the results, though with the 2 extra points I think I should have got I could have got 38 which would have given me an ENTER of 97.60 and a higher chance for a scholarship. Just a few things to know if you don’t know about the IB diploma, 45 is the highest mark, and 7 is the highest mark for a subject.
University offers come out next Tuesday, so I will have to wait and see what I get offered. I’m still not 100% sure what I want to do at uni, but I have narrowed it down to 2 options, Business/Visual Arts or Commerce/Economics. The first option is my 1st preference, by doing this the main aim is to be a teacher, I would like to teach economics and art. I think I would be happy as a teacher, and most people I have talked to said I would make a good teacher, and I would get to go to art school. However some people say they couldn’t see me as a teacher at all, and/or should do something better with my high marks. Some said I would do good in business, I did a bit of research into courses and think Commerce/Economics would suit me best if I were going to try myself as a business man, though sometimes I have doubts about me being a business man, I think I’m too nice and sometimes not serious enough, even though economics has always made sense to me… so decisions to make soon…

Besides school/university stuff…
Tuesday me and my mate Peter went to the city to visit our friends Ariel and Sandy. It was an ok time. This time me and Pete cooked dinner, as the girls cooked last time we were over. So that was good fun to cook, and it came out quite nicely. However we spent a long time cooking, then the girls decided to make desert by time this was all finished it was about 11, and the girls were tired and went to bed. So we didn’t really get any time to play games, or just chat like we did last time, which was a lot of fun. So it was just me and Pete. We stayed up as usual. We watched the Little Mermaid. Then just talked as usual to the early hours of the morning around 5am. In the morning we woke up and had breakfast cooked by Sandy who left early to go to work. Ariel was fairly busy in her room, so just me and Pete again. After a while me and Pete played some Uno by ourselves, Ariel finally came and joined us after a while. Then Pete left at 12, so it was just me and Ariel, we played a bit more Uno, then she decided she had to make me lunch, so soon after eating I left.
The visit wasn’t as good as the last one. I think the main reason was Ariel seemed very preoccupied with other things in her life. She is moving to Canberra next week to apply for university, so it looked like that she was thinking about that more, and wasn’t that much fun and didn’t say much. This was exemplified by her being in her room a lot while we cooked, and on the phone to the bank right before I was going to leave, so didn’t really get much of a conversation/nice goodbye to her, which I didn’t like. Also as me and Pete were busy cooking most of the evening and her being busy with her own things I didn’t get a chance to have her pose for my independent women drawing I wanted to do of her. Guess that’s the other side of the independent women… which I didn’t like as much… so I’m a little disappointed about that. Also didn’t give her the Ariel drawing I did for her, for several reasons, one I felt it looked bad the face wrecked a good drawing, and secondly it didn’t feel right with her being busy.

Ok ok… lastly about my art, lately I haven’t been posting too much, mainly because I have been doing more realistic/larger drawings that take a bit more time than usual, but also I’m not drawing great at the moment, its ok but not great. I mean this by drawing pretty well, but then making one mistake that ruins the rest of the good work, this has been happening recently, such a... ]]> ~asukaevaunit02 http://asukaevaunit02.deviantart.com/journal/22273063/ http://asukaevaunit02.deviantart.com/journal/22273063/ Tue, 30 Dec 2008 04:12:05 PST
2008 was again interesting year, lots of things happened. It was kind of the reverse of 2007, the start was eventful, full of fights/conflict, and the end of it was happier and peaceful. It’s the year where everything started taking place and make sense, helped particularly through my art work.

Good things of 2008

Two words “Ultimate Victory”
These 2 words sum up everything of this year. Basically means happiness. The theme of Ultimate Victory is about being happy with life, and what we have. When you start thinking like this everything is great. This started taking a strong meaning for me around June, my school marks were the highest they have ever been, I was physically the strongest I had been, and had great close friends. When you are happy with everything, and not being sad about what you don’t have, life is truly great!

Probably one of the best memories of 2008 is my art exhibition. The best night I have had. So happy to show my work to my friends, and those I didn’t know, and have them take an interest in it. I will never forget that night. Also I’m so proud of the folio of work I produced for it, especially the end I felt was so mature and forgiving.

Another good night was graduation dinner. Finishing my final exam was great and then that night celebrate with my friends, a great time and relief. I love wearing a suit, and seeing others in formal clothes as well… I’m looking for any opportunity to wear my suit again… so far no luck. That night I won the CAS award, which was a great achievement, for all the hours and effort I put into my extra-curricular activities, they helped me develop so much.

My friends! They have been there for me the whole time through all the hard times, and me there for them, and together we got through all the drama that came our way. Now we enjoy the happy times together, and laugh at all the conflicts we got through. Honestly without my close friends I don’t know how I would gotten through those situations. So a big thanks Fern my best griend and to Peter, Aaron my 2 closest friends. And thanks to new friends this year Iris and Sandy, and all those that have inspired me and my art along the way, and those that gave me a small light of happiness!

Also a big thank you to all my good dA friends, for all your support, comments, and tips. You people really make me enjoy putting my work up here. Thanks to Aquasakura, Mleth, Czaren, CandyKins.

There was so much good times of 2008, especially after living by “Ultimate Victory”

My 3 favourite art pieces from 2008 are:
Resolution [link]
Self-Doubt [link]
It's finished [link]

These 3 pieces sum up my journey of 2008, and my new look at life. they are they most meaningful to me.

The bad of 2008

After realising Ultimate Victory and being happy its very hard to remember bad things.

Well at the start of the year their were some problems with Asha, but looking back I laugh at what happened, and thankful for it happening. It taught me so much about myself, others, and gave me the perfect inspiration for half of my art work this year, and leading to Ultimate Victory pieces at the end. So I don’t take it that bad now, but at the time was bad. So big thanks to Asha, for letting me see so much even though we didn’t get along at all.
I don’t know what else to put here… overall I look at the year as a very good one.

So that’s a short summary of the good and bad of 2008. A good year, I now have a much clearer idea on many things, and how to go about things and life in general.


As for 2009
Get my high school results, and then start seriously look at uni and which course and where.
Continue to keep in contact with all my friends, in person or email for those who are too far away.
Continue with my art, and continue to take it to new places/ideas. (maybe even attend art school at uni)
Still hope about going to China (in the near future)

Just enjoy life!

Happy New Year to all! Hope that your 2009 starts great and brings you happiness!

]]> ~asukaevaunit02 http://asukaevaunit02.deviantart.com/journal/21893865/ http://asukaevaunit02.deviantart.com/journal/21893865/ Tue, 09 Dec 2008 06:47:31 PST
So firstly since the last journal about the art exhibition/exam a fair bithas happened. A week or so after that was muck up day, the last day of classes before final exams. All the year 12's went to Bendigo for a day of fun. We did a range of activities inculding indoor laser wars, rollerblading, and go-karting, and ate plenty of pizza. Go-karting was the best, but it was only 10 mins long, and a mate in my group had a bad kart that kept crashing so I think we spent half the time stopped because of that, but it was still awesome!

Photos from much up day [link]

After that final exams started. First was chinese for 3 hours, the papers were ok, the essay topics were not very good, but had to make do with them. Maths followed, paper 1 was insanely hard, but paper was quite good. English was the usual ok, nothing too hard, though I had to rush the ending due to running out of time, which lefdt the final point not as good as it should have been. Biology was a real surprise, it was really easy, things that I studied and knew well came up a lot. And lastly economics was ok, nothing came up that I loved but at the same time nothing I didnt know, should be ok. All that is left is to wait for the results in early January.

After finishing my last economics paper 3 on the Thursday, that night was the graduation dinner, at crown casino (very nice, but VERY expensive, $125 per person). But the night was very nice, very nice feeling of being finished, and just fun being with friends, no longer stressed about school. It was great to see everyone dress formal, everyone looked great. I won the CAS award. For those that don't know the IB diploma, CAS (creativity, service, action) is a requirement of the diploma of a 150 hours, 50 of each creativity, action, service atcitivites, you could kinda call it community service. Anyways I won that award, which was cool. Unfortunately I didn't win the Visual Arts award, Asha won that (the person I used to really like, but then hated). I was a little disappointed, and have reasons why she might have won it over me, but I won't go there, and just leave it with her, coz she can draw quite well.
It was a nice night, full of so many photos, everyone wanted photos with just about everyone, even people I didn't know very well, came up for photos, but it was all good.
The night after grad went back to a hotel had a few drinks with some friends.
The next morning hang out with some friends, then me Arron, Asama and Sabrina went to the casino (my first time) I played blackjack, I turned $40 into $120, though I did have $175 at one point, but still was good.

Photos from Graduation Night [link]

One thing I noticed towards the end of the year is that everyone became a lot more friendly towards each other. I got to know a few new people, which is kinda sad coz I won't see many of thos people again due to different uni's and not really knowing them in a short period of time. It would have been nice if people were like this a lot earlier in the year. Instead of all the nonsense and fighting that went on throughout year 11 and 12.

Since graduation its just been holidays, in the first week I went go-karting again with friends, but this time at a much better place, and for longer 30 mins, but this cost $75, so there went most of my money, but was worth it. It was great fun.
Besides that just seeing friends and such, and gotten back into drawing, more drawing is to come, which is good. I'm currently finishing a portrait of a friend I will see this weekend, its looking good.

I need to find a job but havn't had any luck with the ones I have applied for so far... I need a job so I have money so I can go out a have fun with friends.

Oh in the long absense, I realised I have been on dA for 3 years now, and hit 8,000 pageviews, so a big thank you to all those that watch/view my work.

Anyways thats about all, just have lots of holidays to think about things, while I wait for my results in January. Just keep practicing art, just incase I decide to do Visual arts with something at uni...

]]> ~asukaevaunit02 http://asukaevaunit02.deviantart.com/journal/21088914/ http://asukaevaunit02.deviantart.com/journal/21088914/ Tue, 21 Oct 2008 01:33:37 PDT The exhibition was great not only to see my work finally coming together, but others to see it as well. We had 2 rooms for the exhibition the large drama room (46) and the small class room behind it (45), I was in the smaller room. Which at first I thought was a bad thing because the main room was the other room, and the spot I was ‘given’ for my work to be shown was given to me because it was the only space left… But in the end I feel that the space actually worked really well for me, as it gave me more space to show my work that I first thought, and it was the first work to see in the room as I was along the back wall (left) as soon as you walk in and then a bit on the right.
The exhibition started a little slow being in the other room, but it picked up after a while. One really strange to see was people actually taking photos of my work, and really liking them, since they were often other year 12 students. Which was even stranger when some of them took photos, when earlier while I was setting it up they laughed at my work… weird huh?
But after the opening speech things picked up for me, I was asked a few times to explain a few of my pieces. And surprisingly some people understood my work with me having to explain it, which was good to know, because I was always not sure if it would make sense to people unless I explained it to them, because my work is so personal and self portraits. So things continued to pick up, I had a group of 3 chinese girls who were yr 11 art students, and they were very interested in my work, and asked what it was about. So this started my first long explanation of all my work. It was a really good experience because one of the girls was really interested in my work and asked questions not only about my work, but how I did certain things, and just being an art student and problems faced through that, I just reassured them about how I was doing at their time, and not to worry and be confident in their ideas, and just do it. So after about 40mins I had finished explaining my work to them, and found my friend Aaron, and told him to find his parents so I could explain my work to them, because it was his dad that made me the 3 awesome frames for some of my work. Then I explained all my work again but to Aaron and his parents, which was a very rewarding experience, because his dad was really into my work and had a lot to say and relate to my work, which was good to see such and interest and understanding of my work. Overall both talks were great for my confidence going into todays exam, because I was able to explain everything, and other people were able to understand my work from just one explanation, in contrast to my art teacher who we often talk to about where our work was going.

Today the art exams started, I was first, I find that a little ironic/funny because I was the last to join the class back half way through last year, but now the first to finish. No one knew the examiner because he visits schools and that so it’s more objective. He turned out to be a old man I would say around 60, but he seemed very nice not strict. He left how the exam folded out pretty much up to me, so I structured the whole thing talking about my work, and occasionally he would say something or make comment allowing for me to further expand on something. But overall very good, I feel that I have done enough to get a 7 (highest mark in IB), and also he has very good sense of time, and letting me know by ending it when it got to about 45-50 mins, so very well done. Now I don’t have to think about doing art, and can focus on studying for my other 5 subjects which exams start in exactly from today.

So things are going not bad. I will get photos of my work up soon, and maybe some photos from the exhibition.

]]> ~asukaevaunit02 http://asukaevaunit02.deviantart.com/journal/21026891/ http://asukaevaunit02.deviantart.com/journal/21026891/ Fri, 17 Oct 2008 05:13:29 PDT So we were both really excited about the frames!!! also on art, the exhibition is Monday night, which is good, I've been looking forward to the exhibition pretty much since I started art just over a year ago, and I've wanted my friends to see my work, and all of it in context, I'm sure their are going to be impressed. So we have to set up the rooms of the exhibition over Sunday and Monday.
On the art exams they start Tuesday, and i'm lucky number 1, the first. The teacher had confidence in my work and said your working hard how about going first, so why not, just do it and laugh at everyone else. So, I'm not too worried about the exam, its just an interview talking about my work to the visiting examiner. I'm confident in my work, and have done all the hard work so I just have to convey that to the examiner and hopefullly he likes what he sees/hears.
Theres a little irony in me being the first student to take the exam, since I was the last to join the class, back in 2nd semester last year. being behind, to catching up and then passing everyoneby the start of this year, and now to be the first finished, I find that funny.

So thats all for now, just a short update about the frams and exhibition/exam. I'm so excited

]]> ~asukaevaunit02 http://asukaevaunit02.deviantart.com/journal/20915772/ http://asukaevaunit02.deviantart.com/journal/20915772/ Fri, 10 Oct 2008 04:58:46 PDT English - Paper 2 -56% (havnt found out paper 1 mark yet) 5
Chinese - 57% overall 5
Economics - 78% overall 7
Biology - 63% overall 5
Maths - 38% overall 3
Visual Art - exam mark unknown - but overall 7 (highest mark)

So Economics and Art was really good, and were as expectedm, unfortunately failed maths. Biology was a bit of a surprise, chinese was a little lower than usual/expected,a nd english was about normal.

So now there is 3 weeks left until final exams, so everynight I'm studying a lot, re-writing notes, reading notes, practice exams the lot.
The art exhibition/exam is next Monday 20th, I'm not too worried about that, I'm confident in myself and my work that I can achieve the highest mark. Although I am a little worried about finishing my remaining 2 pieces which are about half done, mainly my flower collection, but I'm sure I will make it. But I'm also happy that the exhibition is finally here, I've waited so long for this to show my friends my work and others.

Besides that not too much other stuff is going on, few little minor bad things, but nothing worth getting me down, which is good, coz its not needed at this time of year, just before exams.

Bad news about graduation dinner, my best friend is unable to come, because its too expensive $125 (even for my parents) which I was a little sad about, because we promised back in year 10 when she left the school that we would go to each others graduations, but unfortunately its not going to happen, maybe she can come to my art exhibition...

Thats abouut all, I might get to submitting some of my school folio work soon since I have been taking photos of them this week because I am one of the samples that is being sent overseas for moderation...

Thats all for now...

whats up with you guys?

]]> ~asukaevaunit02 http://asukaevaunit02.deviantart.com/journal/20736095/ http://asukaevaunit02.deviantart.com/journal/20736095/ Mon, 29 Sep 2008 05:46:23 PDT Started the holidays with fun, the day school finished I held a bit of a games night at my house, we played monopoly and uno for hours it was a really good time. Even though one person didnt turn up and wasnt contactable...which was a disappointment but I forgot it very soon. so that was good, would be good to do more things like that more often, but we dont especially in year12, where everyone stresses about studying... which really annoys me... or maybe I'm laid back now towards it (not saying I'm lazy... I just dont stress)
Besides that the holidays have been very quiet and boring, partially due to having 2 migraines in the past 3 days...

Yeh so not much happening, was planning to go to the city, since its probably the last time I will have time to go AND others will even think of takng time away from studying. But, I was going to meet up with Iris, but she sent me a message the other day that shes going to see her uncle up on the Gold Coast. Least she was nice and let me know...unlike someone the other day

So thats about all for now. I really want to post something here on dA, its been so long... but I havnt really drawn much lately, besides folio pieces for art, which the final exam/exhibition is in 3 weeks. I tried drawing an idea today, but it just hasnt been coming out as good as I would like...

If you read all that, thanks, hope to post more, though school may not provide me with the time....wait and see...

]]> ~asukaevaunit02 http://asukaevaunit02.deviantart.com/journal/20563050/ http://asukaevaunit02.deviantart.com/journal/20563050/ Fri, 19 Sep 2008 04:18:03 PDT So with that said I will sit down tonight, and read all the comments/journals that are in my message centre, and over 400 deviations (yeh its been a long time since i have read any messages)

Good news about mock exams! Economics was really good I think,choice is a great thing. But ecoonomics exams are very time limited, and the amount of work is a lot, so you are writting all the time to the last minuet. For paper 3 (data response) I ended up writting 17 pages in 2 hours... my poor hand.
Maths wasnt too bad, paper 1 was ok, but paper 2 today was long and hard. However doing paper 1, I felt like my maths had improved since last semesters exam, I felt I had a better idea of what I was doing for just about every question.
English was the usual. paper 1 was ok, and paper 2 wasnt great, just making up more stories. I need to study the exams texts a lot better before finals.
Art was great! I'm now back on good terms with the art teacher, and I'm feeling very confident in my marks for that. She said I shouldn't have any problems for the end of year interview (which is exactly one month away) And also that my work shows a lot of maturity, and to realise and live by some of the things i said is really something special, espcially at my age. So that was a good experiance.

So, yeh, I hope to be more active, but if I'm not its because its coming up to the end of year exams and that, so I might not be as active as I would like to

]]> ~asukaevaunit02 http://asukaevaunit02.deviantart.com/journal/20205561/ http://asukaevaunit02.deviantart.com/journal/20205561/ Thu, 28 Aug 2008 16:51:38 PDT I started a collaboration with a friend, because I couldnt do my original idea, it's been fun so far, I've gone VERY abstract, I will post pictures when I get back on Sunday

Just a quick update before I go, Sorry that I havnt replied to past journals so far, just each time I log in, I have written a new one, which is sort of an answer, I will write responses when I get back

See you all soon!

]]> ~asukaevaunit02 http://asukaevaunit02.deviantart.com/journal/20160213/ http://asukaevaunit02.deviantart.com/journal/20160213/ Tue, 26 Aug 2008 03:02:53 PDT
Ok, ok , why am I not impressed? Well Today I got around to asking a former friend who recently said sorry if they were interested in doing a collaboration to symbolise the whole forgiveness idea and at the time I felt it was very nice of her to say she was sorry after all that time. Well I didn’t get the response I was looking for, in fact far from what I could have expected. She declined, very bluntly with no interest. As she said she didn’t think it was necessary, she had sorted all her problems out and saying sorry was enough, all her work is “very personal and private.”

Firstly what really annoyed me was how they had no interest in the idea, I barely explained the idea, I just mentioned if they were interested in a collaboration as a symbol of resolving the issues of the past, and I get a very blunt no. she could have declined nicely but no, stuck to her usual self saying wasn’t in her interests, and saying sorry was just part of her issues…. This further annoys me, as the way she said it further proved to me she could never mean saying sorry, and actually know what she is saying it for, it was just in her interests or was advised to do so, so that really pisses me off, especially since I thought she might have actually meant it somewhat this time. Guess I was wrong again, or maybe just expecting too much…I guess I’m too nice and forgiving….
It is also quite ironic that she said no, as I was talking to my art teacher about my idea of a possible collaboration idea, prided that she was interested in the idea as well, which she wasn’t. it’s ironic because I explained the whole how she said sorry to me to the art teacher, also mentioned couldn’t be sure if she meant it or would understand… haha she didn’t….

Secondly her comment that “her work is very private and personal” makes me just as mad, because to me I take that as a slap in the face to my own work. This may just be a personal bias against her but others have said it as well, she just draws flowers and other random stuff, and makes up a meaning when she’s finished, I can’t see how this is personal. Especially compared to my work which is based on myself and pretty much a series of self portraits that are such deep reflections of my most inner emotions. So for her to suggest that her work is personal, in the sense that mine isn’t really pisses me off, probably more than the fact she didn’t want to do the collaboration, also since this collaboration idea I had was very personal, deep and meaningful to me, and I assumed it would have been some personal value to her to say sorry….

A little more irony in there I guess, since my work is all very deep and personal to me, especially since all the problems I had with her in the past gave me the inspiration for about half of my work, and of those half all of them are directly about her in some way… very ironic to me at least, who knows what my work is about, and IS deep and personal, some of which I’m not particularly comfortable with expressing to everyone, especially my parents.
Also all art class I spent time preparing the canvas for the work, now it’s useless, because I don’t have an idea for that canvas to use, and I still need to buy my really big canvas for my other idea, so now I have nothing to do in art class for the next week, and potentially the week after as well, because this weekend I’m going to Canberra to attend the ANU open day, so I won’t buy it this weekend… all with about 3 weeks to mock exams where, its best to complete as much of my art work as I can, especially I plan to do my large canvas as a oil painting, which the art teacher said it could take up to 2 weeks for paint to dry with such cold weather, which again would be wasting more time…

Well that’s all for now, I think that’s more than enough, whinging for now, sorry to be quite negative, just the whole feeling of being slapped in the face over the collaboration idea, really annoys me…

But on a much brighter note, tommorow Mixtape Messiah 4 finally comes out!!!! I have been waiting for so long for it to come out, I kow its going to be an amazing cd!!!
Chamillitary Mayne!!!

]]> ~asukaevaunit02 http://asukaevaunit02.deviantart.com/journal/20089821/ http://asukaevaunit02.deviantart.com/journal/20089821/ Fri, 22 Aug 2008 04:39:04 PDT
So at the time I still didn’t believe her 100% but I felt she really was sorry, so I thought since shes said she is sorry I admitted that I wanted to say sorry to her several months ago but didn’t because I decided to never talk to her again because I hated her so much. Actually saying sorry did feel relieving, which comes to my main point of this.

The more I thought about her apology, the more I felt good about saying sorry, and that its gotten rid of my anger/discontent towards them, although I do not have any intentions to be friends with her again, after several past failures and rebuilding’s.
Yet, it gave me a interesting idea for art. I have the idea to do a collaboration piece with her, to symbolize forgiveness, and I would have wanted to work with her when we were friends. I still have to suggest my collaboration idea to her, but I think it is a good idea… and fits the subject matter/theme of my other work.

So what do you think of such a collaboration, good or bad? Why?

]]> ~asukaevaunit02 http://asukaevaunit02.deviantart.com/journal/20035065/ http://asukaevaunit02.deviantart.com/journal/20035065/ Tue, 19 Aug 2008 04:25:22 PDT Also today we had a representative from ANU (Australian National University) visit the school and give a talk about the uni. Me and Lenore snuck in half way through. I have to say I'm quite impressed by ANU, not only is it the best ranked uni in Australia, but the offer a very good course of International Business, which is everything I'm looking for in a course put into one simple, and very smart course, combining a commerce/business course with a language as one single degree. So I don't have to worry about combining degrees, or adding a diploma of languages to do both commerce/business with chinese for international business. So it’s added to my list of universities I'm considering. However, the only down side of ANU is that it is in Canberra, and last time I went it’s a very quiet town, full of very professional people, not a lot to do from what I took, and it also means I would have to move to Canberra away from everyone I know, and be on my own, but I still have a few months to decide on preferences and that....

Other than that, not much, school is slowing down, most classes are now just revision for mock exams which are in 4 weeks, and the final exams in November...

I will try to get some of my art up here when I can get a nice photo of them

So how are you all going?

]]> ~asukaevaunit02 http://asukaevaunit02.deviantart.com/journal/19713068/ http://asukaevaunit02.deviantart.com/journal/19713068/ Fri, 01 Aug 2008 06:24:40 PDT
Well whats been happening… not much unfortunately, back to school earlier this week, its been a pretty boring week, just going over last semesters exams

Even art has been pretty boring (never thought I would ever say that) I’ve had nothing to do all week, because I discussed my next idea with my teacher and suggested somethings, so I came to a decision on the media to use, watercolour under layer and then graphic pencil shading on top of that, but for that she said I would need some special paper, which she didn’t have, or not in the size, and maybe I should go to some art shops and have a look, so I had to put it off until next week, and my other idea wasn’t ready to start as I need photos of my friend for their portrait, also got some more ideas for that piece too.

Still on art, great news! Yesterday I basically had a full day of free periods with nothing to do, so I didn’t do much, but at during art it came to me! The idea for my 12th and final piece for my art folio! I have been waiting so long for the right idea to come to me (I’ve been waiting about 8 months!), but I finally have it which is big relief I was wondering if I couldn’t find the right idea.
Heres the songs that provided the influence
"Believe Again" - Delta Goodrem [link]
"In this Life" - Delta Goodrem [link]
"Possessionless" - Delta Goodrem [link]
Like I could have drawn anything, but I didn’t want to draw something because I need 12, because it would be like the odd piece out of all my work, so its great that I found this idea and it fits perfectly with the rest of my works. I’m so excited about this idea, in many ways, one just because I feel the idea is so beautiful, and its again inspired me to try a new medium, I want to do this as a oil painting. Its good because it will show varied use of medium form my normal black and white tonal pencil work, but the downside is oil painting can take a bit longer, and I’m not particularly experienced with them, but enough to know I can’t use them like watercolours (which I thought I could, a few years ago). Also time is most important there is about 8 weeks left for most of work to be finalised, and I have to complete 3 works, and oil paintings can take up time. But luckily I have 2 free periods a week, both of which I can probably use for art, and then theres tutorial time once a week for a few hours, so that’s possible 8 periods a week I have for art, so if I can get my work started this week I should make it, there are a lot more people far worse off than me.

Still about art (I talk a fair bit about art lately don’t I?) This weekend I’m off to the Monash open day, to see the university, as that’s where I have decided to go to uni next year. At the moment I have changed my mind on what I want to do at uni, now I want to do Business and Visual Arts. Yes Visual arts!!! I was so inspired on the holidays through my research and decided I would love to continue this sort of art in uni, just for personal development, as its so rewarding and can learn so much about yourself, and art history is really interesting. So I really want to check out their art faculty areas in person. I talked to my art teacher about doing art in uni, she said it was great one of the best things she has done, but recommended that if I was really interested in art that I go to the best arts uni in the state, but it was only a arts uni, so I decided it wasn’t for me, because I also want/need to do business.

So that’s about all for now

Thanks for reading and catch you all soon

]]> ~asukaevaunit02 http://asukaevaunit02.deviantart.com/journal/19231149/ http://asukaevaunit02.deviantart.com/journal/19231149/ Sun, 06 Jul 2008 07:30:04 PDT
Pretty much for the first week I just took it easy and relaxed, I got straight into drawing some ideas I had thought up of recently, which was good to draw something that wasnt related to my school art works

Starting to go to the gym more constantly again which is good, becuase due to school commitments, I didnt go as much as I usually did, so with that combined with the cold for over a month, I lost a lot of ground, and starting to make it up now... oh how badly I want to get back to benching 80kg easily and then try to get back to my peak of 90kg....that would be so nice... well I have a month to get it back, I think its do-able

So whats planed for the next 3 weeks? Nothing too exciting, I have plenty of work to finish for next term.... This week I aim to finish my Extended Essay (4000 words), then the week after I should prepare my topic for my final Chinese oral, and the last week I should read 3 english novels, and constantly over those weeks to continue working on my art, visually and research writting.... so I've got plenty to keep me busy....

While I'm talking about school and such... I read my report yesterday, and I was very surprised with some of it!
The thing that amazed me the most and make me so happy and excited was I got a 7 in Visual Arts (7 is the highest mark in IB) which I wasnt really expecting because my teacher never has given a 7 as far as I know, and have been told the same by the others, so I guess thats a really big achievement. Its also nice to get a 7 now, because I always have been aiming for a 7 in Visual Art, and I asked if I was doing the right things to get a 7, but she said that I shouldnt think about a 7 yet, that anything was possible... when she told me that I wasnt too confident about what mark I would get...
I am really happy with finally getting the 7 I always worked so hard for, and finally to be rewarded for all the hard work really means a lot to me, especially considering my circumstances compared to the rest of the class.
I only changed to Visual Art this time last year, so I started a semester behind the class, yet pretty much all this year and now I am ahead of the whole class in everything, such as folio pieces completed (9 of the required 12 - most of the class has 3--5 pieces, some have less than that...the exhibition is in October...) and amount of research written, so that also makes me feel really good, so with reading that I am further encouraged and enthusiastic to continue working hard, and write plenty of pages of research... I'm really loving art, and the direction my art is taking now

Well I'm sure I have rambled on long enough about my art success... now to start finishing my Extended Essay tommorow (which is also in Visual Art)

Hope everyone is having good holidays, and I will try to keep submitting art as much as time will allow me to draw...

See you soon!

]]> ~asukaevaunit02 http://asukaevaunit02.deviantart.com/journal/18943678/ http://asukaevaunit02.deviantart.com/journal/18943678/ Fri, 20 Jun 2008 06:32:03 PDT
Firstly my birthday was last Thursday, it was nice, I got this really nice Seiko watch (for some reason I always wanted a really nice)its silver with parts of gold in the band, and around the watch, and my parents got a message enggraved on it as well "Happy 18th Matt, Love Mum and Dad 2008" that was really nice, and the writting was really beautiful, I'm impressed with whoever the guy did the engraving to get in there and do a great job.
Also with the idea of my birthday in mind, I decided to hold a little get together with close friends, but unfortunately most of the poeple I invited couldnt make it, so in the end only 2 people were able to come to the night in the city, but during the day I got to catch up with my really close friend Fern who I havnt seen for about 6 months due to the distance we are apart, so the few hours with her were great as usual, just had another great chat as usual, also my good mate Pete came to the city since he couldnt attend my get together at night, which was also cool.
Ah Fern was so cute, she was affraid to get on the train because she thought she saw some people that scared her, so me and Pete caught the train home with her so she would be ok, that was so cute
Anyways what happened at the get together, firstly we went bowling at Crown, and I kicked ass then played around in Galatic Circus for a while, that was the most fun I had in a arcade ever, then we headed off for some food, since it was only 3 of us we went to a chinese restuarant in China Town, which coincidently was the same one I went to with Pete for a snack a few hours earlier, but was still good, then we got home after 11, so a very nice day out

Besides that great day exams started yesterday, and i have already completed 4 exams, they were probably the hardest ones so now I do not have to study much for next weeks remaining exams which is nice, might get some spare time to make a start on my 10th folio piece for art to take home over the holidays


So thats all for not, just another week of exams then a month of holidays, I am really looking foward to it,a s I really need these holidays, I have had enough of school for a while its been a really long term, full of so much work, so its going to be a good break

]]> ~asukaevaunit02 http://asukaevaunit02.deviantart.com/journal/18360911/ http://asukaevaunit02.deviantart.com/journal/18360911/ Sat, 17 May 2008 02:30:28 PDT
Besides the art gallery it was my own time in the city... firstly the weather was terrible it was raining and wet everywhere, my jeans we soaking up all the water... and i didn't really have much to do, I looked for a birthday present for my friend, i got her a nice necklace with a pink butterfly at the end with few jewels, I thought it was cute, so did Iris, just to give it to her now, I think I won't give her flowers as its going to be hard to get them to her....
There was supposed to train at 3:15 but when I got there there wasn't only one at 4:30 so I had a hour and a half to waste... didn't really want to go out again, or had anything to do, i went in search of Ted's camera shop somewhere on Elizabeth street, but I didn't find it and i walked all the along both sides, well that wasted a bit of time, but I went back to the station with about 40mins to wait...so I read my book for english... pretty boring....

But the train back was pretty good, Iris came and sat next to me, and we had a good chat about a lot of things, she has some very interesting stories and such, good hour of talking to someone I don't really know too well, besides a few little chats and such on sport days, which are only twice a year, but shes very nice. Also she mentioned she had seen me at gym plenty of times, and knows how strong I am and that, which a bit surprising to hear but at the same time nice, I guess people do actually notice me working out or my muscles even if they don't always say so, so that was nice

Well thats about all, tonight will probably write a few pages about the exhibition and such, then maybe get back to my drawing of roses that I gave to Sandy, I'm not sure why I decided to draw them but want to finish it, because they were really beautiful flowers

From now on theres a LOT of work going on for me, theres basically now rest until the end of the term, heres what I have to finish in the coming month or so:
This week: Economics Commentary
Next Week: English World Literature Essays
Week After: English Final Commentary Orals
Week After That: Chinese Oral and TOK Essay (My birthday is in this week, and the day inbetween both of theses assessments)
Week after that: Exams (final week of term)

As you can see very busy...its going to be a very long and hard working month... so I will try my best to get some work up soon, I should finish another art folio piece in a week or so

Thanks if you read all that I know its a bit but yeh...

]]> ~asukaevaunit02 http://asukaevaunit02.deviantart.com/journal/18207695/ http://asukaevaunit02.deviantart.com/journal/18207695/ Wed, 07 May 2008 06:59:06 PDT
Well today was the day when I gave my arrangement of roses to the girl I like, man I was really nervous about it, but a bit of luck has been shinning my way lately, and things that seemed bad turned out really good, so I got my opportunity with them alone after school i had to wait until 6pm but I didn't mind, it actually worked really well as I had to pick up my flowers after 5:30 so i had time to get them, and when I got back there she was, so I pulled out my arrangement of roses and explained how I felt, she was so shocked, and surprised (well I guess you would be, you don't really expect to recieve roses when some says "I have a surprise for you") and didnt really understand why I gave her flowers if I wanted to be better friends, and I had to give them to her before she took them, I think she wasn't quite sure why I did it, and felt liek it was a little strange to accept the flowers, although she said it was really nice, we could become better friends but she wasnt really going to have a boyfriend in highschool as she promised her parents she would study very hard and get the best marks she could, which was understandable, but seriously she had the best let down, I never for a second felt sad for what happened she knew how to keep me feeling good, like she keep appologizing and saying really nice things, like she was really impressed, and it was really nice and really brave of me to do it (which was really nice to hear, because I always have been nervous to talk to her, and we are both shy people) so we kept talking about things and knew that we were going to better friends with each other, and be there to help each other with out studies, so we could do the best could, so we are alot better friends, and I really feel that the nervousness between us has been reduced/disappeared because of this which is great easier for us to talk etc
Anyways walked her back to her dorm, at the lights, I said if she knew what the flowers meanings were, she said she didn't know that they had a meaning, so this was great to explain to her, so I explained yellow roses first which are for friendship (easy enough), then she asked about what the pink roses meant, this was a little awkward considering what just happened, but wasn't too hard to tell her that the pink roses meant admiration and sometimes love, then came to the red rose (this was really funny, in a strange way) and I assumed that she would know what the red rose stood for, it's so common, so i told her "well everyone knows for what the red rose stands for" she didnt to my surprise, so I had to tell her, the red rose stands for "I Love You" so we walked back to her dorm, and again talked more, the whole thank you from her, really brave etc, but finally I had to walk away, but was all good, I am really happy now, I have no regrets what I did, and would do it all again

EDIT: Here's a pic of the flowers [link]

Well a really nice day, besides being pulled over and harrassed by the police on the way home...but I won't go into that, dont'y want to go into it again after it almost took all the above happiness away....

So I'm doing well, and fairly happy, thanks if you read it all
I should have some more work up by the end of the week

]]> ~asukaevaunit02 http://asukaevaunit02.deviantart.com/journal/17806764/ http://asukaevaunit02.deviantart.com/journal/17806764/ Sat, 12 Apr 2008 04:32:54 PDT
First thing I decided to do was go to the art shops I looked up and get what I needed, man this was the first time I have been to an art shop, I was so amazed I was like in heaven, it was amazing they had so much and it wasnt a huge store, I was just amazed I was looking for atleast 30mins at the pencils and pens, I didnt look at the paints beciase I'm not painting, but the range was amazing they had so many different types and brands of pens, I wanted to buy them all! But anyways I brought the Pastel Pencils and a few other things, all was left was new Graphic Pencils which I found at the 2nd shop I went to, that hop was a little bigger and agian I was in heaven, but I didnt stay too long, back to the first shop to get some more pencils, and then I was all out of money, I spent $100 on pencils today, and now all out of money which i saved up for alittle while and the most money I've had in a long time, since Christmas, but I'm really happy, and my experiances at the art shops were amazing

The art gallery was not bad, some of the same stuff form last time, but this time I had more time so I got to look at the paintings that I missed last time, and i was very impressed

Overall a pretty good day, but a little strange being in the city by myself for a whole day, would have been nice to have a friend or two come along, but I had to go this weekend to get the art materials so i can continue my art works

Still kicking ass at gym now benching 80kg for 3 sets of 8, which is agreat improvement from Wednesday when I only got 3 reps, so I'm performing really well

Well being in Year 12 thats my fun for a few weeks, and now to get back into work....

Hope you are all good, and take it easy

]]> ~asukaevaunit02 http://asukaevaunit02.deviantart.com/journal/17759012/ http://asukaevaunit02.deviantart.com/journal/17759012/ Wed, 09 Apr 2008 05:55:24 PDT
Well thats what happened today, and I'm really happy about it

]]> ~asukaevaunit02 http://asukaevaunit02.deviantart.com/journal/17658510/ http://asukaevaunit02.deviantart.com/journal/17658510/ Wed, 02 Apr 2008 20:28:16 PDT
that was mostly why i wrote this journal, just somehting nice that happened to me, otherwiswe i have been pretty busy with school work, working on extended essay, i finally did something for it i have about 1500 words i need 4000, but thats just the background/history, i should start analysing art soon which will add words, but no rush its not due for a while, i have tried to continue world literature essays but i cant get into them just yet, i hope i can click again and continue them.... and then every night i have been doing lots of art work, not drawing but written work research and development of past folio pieces, since the holidays i have written about 20 pages of stuff in my book, the last few nights i have been up late writting about things for art, last night i was up to 2am.... its not like its needed but just shows that im really getting into it.....

i had an interesting dream this morning, im going to try to make some sort of picture out of that sometime today...hoefully... it was very interesting and nice... so i will try to capture something from it on paper......

well thats all for now, just a quick little journal, now to get back to school work and write more work.... man these arent holidays, just days without school, but lots of homework constantly on my mind....

]]> ~asukaevaunit02 http://asukaevaunit02.deviantart.com/journal/17567515/ http://asukaevaunit02.deviantart.com/journal/17567515/ Sat, 29 Mar 2008 03:40:07 PDT thats enough about camp, in short boring, pointless, and very disappointed in myself

I havnt updated for a while due to being really busy with school and all, so I will try to get something happening before I go back in a week, and back to insane amounts of work for this term, theres lots of assessment this term all around the same time, includes english - world literature essays, english final oral, tok essay, tok oral and whatever else comes along .....

so will try to get something up, and try to be more active here.... sorry

Well I will keep it short, and see you all soon, enjoy the holidays for those that have them

]]> ~asukaevaunit02 http://asukaevaunit02.deviantart.com/journal/17234233/ http://asukaevaunit02.deviantart.com/journal/17234233/ Sat, 08 Mar 2008 03:36:58 PST
so since school keeps me pretty busy i havnt had a lot of time to draw outside of school, so the only art ive been doing is in art class which is working on my folio pieces for the end of year exhibition/exam but im progressing as i planned which is to start my 6th piece before the end of term, which i am, this week, so that leaves 6 more pieces after this one by october, so there is a little pressure but im in a ok position, better off than everyone else as far as i know, which i find it funny as i only started art in 2nd semester last year, so i was the last to do art, yet im ahead of everyhone in the number of folio pieces completed and in terms of pages in research books, im about the same

yeh but things are not too bad, they were a little down, but i wont go into the details of it, but im feeling better now a bit more positive, just because of 1 smile i got from someone after school one day, funny how just a smile can make u feel happy for no real reason....

well its going to be a busy week but ill hang in there, and sorry baout not much updates, i will try my best to get some more stuff up more often

]]> ~asukaevaunit02 http://asukaevaunit02.deviantart.com/journal/16922168/ http://asukaevaunit02.deviantart.com/journal/16922168/ Sat, 16 Feb 2008 23:47:00 PST
I realised...
You havn't changed...I just thought you were better than that...

so now with that behind me i say:

"Well thats another chapter in this book of games closed, now to put the book back on the shelf forever...."

I dont know what promiscuous is but the icon is how i feel, somewhat proud as well



Besides that thigns arent too bad, my new mp3 player rived on friday, its a Song and has 8gig of memory so i can lots of my music on there, and videos and pictures its pretty cool, and was cheap 2nd hand off ebay, but in very good condition, but now i am out of money.... oh well its cool

]]> ~asukaevaunit02 http://asukaevaunit02.deviantart.com/journal/16732866/ http://asukaevaunit02.deviantart.com/journal/16732866/ Tue, 05 Feb 2008 02:16:19 PST
So few new things, firstly ive had 3 periods of economics, and we have a new teacher, he doesnt seem too bad, though everyone else seems to, and 2 smart guys keep asking questioning and saying he is wrong half the time, so its very annoying they keep asking trying to prove themselves right when he was wrong once, but then cleared it up, everything else made sense... we had a double today, and we are just going through the exam for about a week since half the class is still overseas... but I got bored and annoyed because of all the questions that were being asked over and over, on things we already knew, and whats more annoying is these people are really smart, but have to be right, so he ends up explaining everything like 4 times.... but he does a good job, I'm doing well, but then it gets to a point after nearly 2 hours of that where you cant take much more...--* anywways I think he does a not bad job, ofcause he isnt going to be the same as my old economics teach who Ireally liked, we were like friends, which was good as I was the only one who speaks english as first language, the rest are chinese, I'm starting to feel it now as my chinese friends are not back yet so very strange feeling.... oh well

On the very good side of being back at school, is art! I've really bene wanting to go back top school, so I can do more art, as I've been working on 1 piece all holidays (2 months) but had about6 or so new ideas that I really like and really want to do.... unfortunately I cannot do 6 at a time.... but anyways first art class a double first in the morning, love it, got my piece I had been working on the holidays,got it out everyone looked, and loved it, I was blown away by this, my art teacher loved it, she said she couldnt believe it, she was really impressed and blown away, I was at loss of word I didnt know what to say... and lots of wow, amazing sorta things from everyone, I have never recieved this from anyone or so many people ever for any of my work, so I was really shocked by this... all I could think was about all the time I spent over 2 months were really worth it, really worth it although it consumed a lot of my holidays

I was going to post it up here on dA before I showed everyone at school, but that didnt happen so you can see it tomorrow sometime as I will have to take my camera to school and get a photo of it, so please look foward to it, you wont regret it, I'm so proud of it

Oh and lastly, today we got our "black year 12" jumpers, its like the speciual yr12 only jumper, they are black instead of the usual red, and say yr 12 on them, so now I feel like a yr12 and bigger, people notice us as yr12's now, and say hi more often, and get out of your way, lol its good

Well thats my first couple of days of school so far

I will try to get that pic up soon, and catch you all soon

]]> ~asukaevaunit02 http://asukaevaunit02.deviantart.com/journal/16544438/ http://asukaevaunit02.deviantart.com/journal/16544438/ Wed, 23 Jan 2008 22:28:46 PST well there goes the last week and a bit of my holidays.. im getting depressed that im spending them like this, as ive been sitting home the last 2-3 days working on world lit 1 and only am about half finished, but im loosing any interest to finish, and the though of writting a 2nd is hell....

also since dad smashed my old laptop I got a new one, its better than my old one in every way evven id just slightly, but it came at a cost, i had to put $200 of my christmas money into it, or else i would have got something average and 2nd hand... not how i wanted to spend that money.... but its a not bad laptop, just took some effort to get rid of vista and put xp on it, as vista wouldnt let me run any games as its uses a lot of resources for whatever it does....

i will try to get a pic up soon, i have one thats half finished that i started while i was out at a friends for a few days... so i will try to finish that, since i havnt submitted anything in a while....

well just letting ya all know im still here.. just real busy, but will read all your messages and deviations slowly

]]> ~asukaevaunit02 http://asukaevaunit02.deviantart.com/journal/16397386/ http://asukaevaunit02.deviantart.com/journal/16397386/ Mon, 14 Jan 2008 03:40:54 PST so after that happened, i thoght screw this and got some clothes and important scool work and left with my bike just rode aorund kilmore thinking what i was going to do and how to get there as i live kinda in the country, and the nearest town is 15km either way, but i have no friends that live in my town and 1 in a town 15km away but i think they are still onna cruise, so i thought i will go to my best mates but he leaves pretty far away about 35km.... so i went to the train station which is 5km out of town, called him up and he was really nice and said thats ok, and even picked me up from the train station, so ive been at his house until today where he dropped me off at another friends house but i will go home some time tommorow, as its been 3 days so far hopefully everythings cooled off....
so since i dont have my laptop i dont think im going to be on for a while, and no digital work if any will be sumbitted im guessing for atleast....

so im sorry to be away and miss peoples work but i will be back soon i hope

take it easy until then

]]> ~asukaevaunit02 http://asukaevaunit02.deviantart.com/journal/16338796/ http://asukaevaunit02.deviantart.com/journal/16338796/ Thu, 10 Jan 2008 03:32:59 PST The main thing this journal is about is, I noticed that my last 7 deviations have also been about this one person, to me isn't a good sign of trying to forget, if anything, I'm using to create what I don't have, which is ironic as I was talking to my art teacher about and my folio piece about my tattoo as I probably wouldn't get a tattoo so big in real life but nice to think about theses things, and then she said something along the lines of "Use art to explore your desires and curiosity, things that you want but know you wouldn't do it real life, for example the tattoo." Well which is what I have really done with recent deviations, mostly the actual pictures not too sure about the poems, but still they were just creating images of the person I miss, like I replied to a comment received "I'm creating some happiness for myself, even if it is just on paper"

Well thats about all, I guess....

Is there something wrong with me? Can I really stop myself from thinking so much about this one person? If so any suggestions?

]]> ~asukaevaunit02 http://asukaevaunit02.deviantart.com/journal/16262050/ http://asukaevaunit02.deviantart.com/journal/16262050/ Fri, 04 Jan 2008 21:13:16 PST Now that its January, my "holiday" is now over, I don't go back to school until Feb 4th, but now its a "break" as I have much holiday homework to do before I start Year 12, its a lot, and I find it very hard to study when its a weekend or holiday, but I must do it....

So heres what I have to do this month....

English - 2 World Literature Essays - Each 1500 words in length, and should read 3 novels....
Chinese - Internal Assessment Essay (300 words min) for Oral on Feb 28th
Economics - Find article for 2nd commentary, think about a draft 750 words
Art - Continue research, and work on folio pieces
Extended Essay - Read, do research, start a draft - 4000 words
Theory Of Knowledge - Pick a topic for Essay 1600 words, and research

I think thats all, its a fair bit, but I will have to do my best to get most of it done, the most important are English, Chinese, Art and Extended Essay.
I could probably get away with not doing Theory of Knowledge until I get back to school, and the same with Economics, but must do the rest....
Man I have no holidays from now until I finish Year 12 in November....all study...its going to be a long year.... but if I get the marks I'm aiming for it guess it will be worth it
My friend who finished Year 12 last year got his results yesterday, he got and IB score of 37 which gives him and ENTER of 96.95 which is really good, I'm aiming for about a 36 which should get me into what I want...

Lastly I miss my best friend from school, who is back in China for the holidays....its the only thing I'm looking forward to about going back to school, but thats about it.... I miss her so much, I havn't seen her since the start of December, and havn't talked to her for about 3 weeks, its so quiet and boring with out her... come back soon.....

Well thats all, speaking of all this work, I'm going off to do some art work, catch ya all later, and have fun for the rest of your holidays for those that have them....

]]> ~asukaevaunit02 http://asukaevaunit02.deviantart.com/journal/16175356/ http://asukaevaunit02.deviantart.com/journal/16175356/ Mon, 31 Dec 2007 00:14:37 PST
Well I’m not going to list 7 of everything this year, just things that really had an impact on me, and remember clearly for a reason.

Well I guess I will start with the good things of the year
First thing that comes to mind is Asha – new friend I made in the 2nd half of the year, just started with simple things, but we spent a lot of time together and got close, we did everything together well most things, so now after clearing the bad things with her, we are back as great friends and her as my older sister 姐姐 and me as her younger brother 弟弟, her Chinese name for me is 特特.
Another thing that was good about this year was, I really started to see people as what they are really like, I learnt about all the trouble that is going on in the school, why some people don’t like others and that sort of thing, which leads to the next point.
I became support for some people, I really developed some good friendships through this, and now it’s kind of become something I want people to do, to talk to me and I want to help them, I’m not talking everyone, but those that are close and that really need it, leading to the next point.
Through my help and support I have seen one of my friends who was really down and sad for a long time (I’m not talking sad, but depressed, seriously) get back up and now is really happy, which is really pleasing to see, after what they had been through, I feel so happy for them and proud of them, as at times it was looking very dark and grim for them. So my congratulations to that person, the change they made is amazing and deserves to be where they are now.
I am still good friends with Fern, why is this good your thinking? Well at the end of last year I was afraid that I might not be friends with her as she moved away, but no worries I still talk to her and have caught up with her in the city a few times this year, I saw her about a month ago before she went back to Thailand for the holidays, we are still the same as we were before, which is good as she is a really special person to me, we talk about anything, I mean anything openly and really help and support each other, not to mention have a great time together. “A true friend”
I switched to art, yep after 1st semester I decided that I wanted to change to art as someone said “I do art as I love it, I can express myself” in reply to why they do art, then the idea came to me “I love art as well, but I’m not doing it right now…maybe I should be…” So I decided to drop Chemistry High Level and switch it for Art High Level, and keep Biology Standard Level and Economics High Level, by doing so I gave up on any future in medicine, but now I have all pretty easy subjects and should be able to get some good marks next year, I’m aiming for around 36 which will get me an enter of around 96, which will easily get me into Commerce/Arts at university. Not to mention taking art has taken me into new directions with my art, and really opened my ideas to art. Also the subject change is what got me to know Asha, if I had stayed with what I had before I would probably never known her. Now shes in half of my subjects, 2 which I really enjoy Art and Economics
I have become built, I have been going to the gym for nearly all year, and I am very impressed with myself and what I have accomplished in this time, f... ]]> ~asukaevaunit02 http://asukaevaunit02.deviantart.com/journal/16159614/ http://asukaevaunit02.deviantart.com/journal/16159614/ Sat, 29 Dec 2007 22:50:41 PST [link] they are cheap and going to help me to China next year

Well getting to the point of this journal...
I'm not sure what I'm feeling about a certain person, but they are always on my mind lately since they have gone back to China for the holidays.... but seriously they always come to mind whenever I'm not really thinking about anything, I think I'm really missing them, but I don't know why and the reasons for it, but its starting to scare me how much I'm thinking about them, and the things I'm thinking about them, its going to be atleast another month before I will see them again....

So my question is.... "Is it strange to think about someone, constantly all the time?"
What does it mean to you?
I have got the same response from all my friends that I asked which was "they must be very important to you"
Is there another answer, or explanation?

Below is just something I wrote a few days ago, they are thoughts I had on the same person, so if you want to read feel free... like it says "I'm confused"

Lastly before that, tomorrow I will put up my reflection on 2007, peace out, take it easy


I wonder....what is what we have? what is it really? I have started thinking about this the last couple of days as I have just been sitting and thoughts of you come to mind.... strange yeh? well I think it might be a little....it's not like this is the first time I have wondered about you.... its something that I find myself thinking about quite often so far these holidays and it's just past a week and a bit, and I'm thinking about you so much.....

Who knows why either..... maybe I have so many things that remind me of you or cause me to think about you..... and strange thing is I think the more I look, listen or talk to these things, it emphasizes that need or whatever this thing is for you to be here..... yeh I know this is starting to sound really strange but its true..... when I listen to your chinese songs I have thoughts of you, and can really relate them to you, and sometimes myself in some way....although I don't understand them all, but I can get the idea, and sort of make the rest up....

Another thing that is the fish sort of reminds me of you, its strange I don't really see how I come to this, but I really like the fish, I love talking to it, joking to it, telling it secrets, it's the you I can talk to when your not actually here with me, and I can't see you for a long time.... surprisingly I have even found myself talking to it in chinese, a few times about how it likes its new bowl.....yeh quite strange.....

While I'm talking about the fish I have started to see it as a symbol, a symbol of our friendship.... I'm still not too sure how it is a symbol of our friendship, but I start to see it more clearly when listening to chinese music.... it is a symbol literally of the fish, if its alive our friendship is good, if it dies I think our friendship will die along with it ...... maybe that's why I am taking such care with it, and being so careful, as I would hate for it to die, and what that could do to us as friends.... yeh I know that's probably a little bit extreme but, its one way I see it....

Probably some past emotions come into this but with the combination of the fish, chinese music, and emotion.... not having you here, only in my thoughts and the fish, has made me want create my next folio piece about you two, you and the fish, the being a symbol of you and our friendship, so where does the chinese music come into it? well just a few words come to mind, “再见爱情” (goodbye lover) then I looked at the fish and it made sense, well to me at least...

I guess the fish is starting to become more and more important to me now, especially since your gone for a while, maybe that's why I'm making such an effort for it, giving it 2 new bowls and tanks, just so it will be better for it, kind of similar to how I treat you, do anything for you... makes me wonder sometimes why do I do these things? The simple answer is because I'm a nice person, or try to be.... but I have a feeling that there is a more complex and deeper reason why I do these things..... I start to wonder if what I do is appreciated, or just taken as me being nice.... I do really start to wonder about this lately but not quite sure why, I guess it must mean something to me or say something about our friendship maybe.....

I guess the last thing I have been wondering about is the other side how they feel about me, do they feel the same? Should I expect something similar from them? Should I really expect anything? Is that wrong? Do I know? Would I want to know? What would knowing that side do to me, and us? The reason I'm probably wondering about t... ]]> ~asukaevaunit02 http://asukaevaunit02.deviantart.com/journal/16117451/ http://asukaevaunit02.deviantart.com/journal/16117451/ Thu, 27 Dec 2007 00:49:37 PST
The idea: Go to China after I finish year12 next year, to travel, maybe go to work and/or study at university, so I would really put a lot of effort into learning Chinese at school rather than just taking it lightly, maybe also visit or stay with my friend who, originally asked me to go to China with them this year but was sort of short notice and too much money, I don't know if I will go with them this time or by myself, but the idea seemed so great, go see what its like there, what schools are like, go to university, I had images of me being a teacher, and then going out at night with friends and stuff, its like a dream,
anyways the only little problem is money to get there....I'm trying to get a job but not having much luck as I live in a small country town.... and also when I'm back at school I just won't have time as year12 is just constant work, no holidays until I'm finished....sounds like hell....
So I thought I could make a little money by doing commissions/requests for people, as I will have some time to do some drawings...anyone interested?

Well heres what I'm thinking for prices (roughly)

Traditional
Basic sketch - $3

Detailed/Good Sketch -$5

Fully Shaded Detail (without background, or very simple) - $7.50

Fully Shaded Detail (more detailed background) - $9

Fully Coloured Detail (without background, or very simple) - $8.50

Fully Coloured Detail (more detailed background) - $10

Digital
Fully Coloured (basic background) - $12

Fully Coloured (more detailed background) - $15

For a copy of the actual photoshop file along with the print +$1

(all prices are in $AUD)

All Prices are rough, and will be discussed maybe more or less depending on what you would like, and what I'm capable of, and things like that, but easy to negotiate something that will work for both of us...

Prices can be cheaper if you don't want the actual work sent to you, if you are happy with just it as file


So please if you have ever wanted me to draw a pic for you now is a good time to ask, and you would help me on my way to China

also welcome any tips or suggestions on commissions welcome as this is my first time and not too sure on how it all goes.... this is my understanding from what I have seen others do

]]> ~asukaevaunit02 http://asukaevaunit02.deviantart.com/journal/16067699/ http://asukaevaunit02.deviantart.com/journal/16067699/ Mon, 24 Dec 2007 00:36:36 PST
Nothing much going on for me tomorrow, just staying at home with family for lunch, and I think we are visiting some relatives after dinner....oh well all of you have a great day

Also check out this awesome pic drawn by the wonderful [link] for catching her kiriban, its beautiful yeh? also check out all of her work its beautiful, Thank you once more

Best Friend :

AkumaFern


Friends/nice people :

http://asukaevaunit02.deviantart.com/journal/15968025/ Mon, 17 Dec 2007 03:24:08 PST you want to thank you all that enjoy my work, all those that watch me, commented, and faved my work, thank you all
and a big thanks to all the people below

Best Friend :

AkumaFern


Friends/nice people :

http://asukaevaunit02.deviantart.com/journal/15856737/ Sun, 09 Dec 2007 02:06:10 PST

RULES:
1. Put your music player on shuffle.
2. Press forward for each question.
3. Use the song title as the answer to the question even if it doesn’t make sense. NO CHEATING!
4. Tag 5 people.
5. Bold the questions and with the answers, give your own comments on how it relates to the questions.


How are you feeling today?
Hands In The Air – 8 Ball
Hmmmm…. I don’t know about this one….I feel pretty low today for some reason…

Will you get far in life?
Holla @ Cha’ Boy – Ice Cube
Doesn’t say much about my life, I guess I’m going somewhere….

How do your friends see you?
Ridin’ – Chamillionaire feat. Krayzie Bone
Yeh this sorta fits, laid back just rolls….and its rap music how most people see me now

Will you get married?
Hustlin’ (remix) – Rick Ross feat Young Jeezy & Jay-Z
Not sure about this one as its about getting money and hoes… I really don’t like hoes or people that I see as hoes or act like that….

What is your best friend's theme song?
Can’t Me Nothing (remix) – Kanye West feat. Young Jeezy
Umm…not really my best friend can tell me a lot of things, and vice versa and none of my friends like rap music…..


What is the story of your life?
Thank You – Xzibit
…..fitting to yesterday as I was looking back at everything that has happened this year and somewhat thankful for what happened and what others did, they made me who I am now and helped me grow….. a really good reflective rap song I would recommend it


What was high school like?
U Ain’t Me – Rass Kass feat. Xzibit & Chamillionaire
Well still in high school 1 year to go now……I guess the whole being who I am and you cant be me, and I don’t need you if you got a problem with what you think of me

How can you get ahead in life?
Dreamin’ – Young Jeezy
Yeh true you gotta have dreams and gotta make them happen and you will get somewhere in life


What is the best thing about your friends?
a little pain – Olivia inspi Reira(trapnest)
They are beautiful just like this song, and we will fly to the moon…..

What is in store for this weekend?
Hate it or Love it – The Game feat. 50 Cent
Well pretty true about this weekend I hated some of it but there were some good parts to it…..


To describe your grandparents?
November – Milk Inc.
I don’t think any song I have could really describe my parents….. especially rap music for that

How is your life going?
I Don’t Give a F*ck – Lil’ Jon and the Eastside Boys
Yeh that’s pretty good, I don’t really care about much right now or today, but otherwise I’m good…..


What song will they play at your funeral?
Lookin at You – The Game
Lol… yeh this for sure….. hard gangsta rap “guess whos back on the west coast tracks, it’s the motherf***ing messiah of gangsta rap” lol


How does the world see you?
California Vacation – The Game feat. Snoop Dogg & Xzibit
Yeh I live for what I live for… keep it going ….


Will you have a happy life?
如果的事 (The Matter of If) - 范玮琪/张韶涵
I guess so….its a beautiful song.. so I would like my life to be like this song


What do your friends really think of you?
Tough Guy – Xzibit feat. Busta Rhymes
Yeh this is kinda true especially now that I’ve become a tank, now people are like “man I wouldn’t want to get into a fight with you” lol

Do people secretly lust after you?
Why Worry – Sylver
Lol, “why worry, I’m still here for you” I would like to think people do….

How can I make myself happy?
I Will Be Heard – Hatebreed
Yeh true I will be happy I guess if I am heard more often…. But very heavy metal stuff don’t listen to this very often, its on the XXX soundtrack

What should you do with your life?
Let’s Ride – The Game
Yeh just roll and chill ….


Will you ever have children?
Like a Boss – Slim Thug
… doesn’t really fit, but I do want to have children….



people to tag.....

oh i dont feel like tagging people feels mean so if u wanna have some fun do it!

]]> ~asukaevaunit02 http://asukaevaunit02.deviantart.com/journal/15843233/ http://asukaevaunit02.deviantart.com/journal/15843233/ Sat, 08 Dec 2007 03:43:13 PST Though its good to be on holidays now, but its not all good, as I had to say goodbye to some people, some just for 2 months but some for much longer, like Mr.Bertotto hes leaving, so I was sad about that as hes a great man and has been there for me all year, and some of the things he said about me today were so nice, that I'm keep going forward thanks to his nice encouragement, so I will hopefully keep it up, also had so say goodbye to Asha which was also a bit sad as we have become really good friends again lately, and now I'm not going to see her for 2 months but I still will see her on msn and stuff, so I'm looking after her fish over the holidays so it better not die, or shes going to kill me, but yeh a good but sad day aswell, I don't like goodbyes....luckily we usually only have to do them once and not very often....

But back to the holidays, already got my first week planned out sorta and I'm quite busy, already had my mate come up and hit the gym and pool, got Pete staying the night, and Monday Aaron's pool party overnight so all good, a good start to the holidays, and maybe I will get onto my awesome art work that is hanging on my wall

well I guess I'm keeping this journal relatively short, more as things happen, well I could go one for ever but exmas have taken a lot out of me

]]> ~asukaevaunit02 http://asukaevaunit02.deviantart.com/journal/15612785/ http://asukaevaunit02.deviantart.com/journal/15612785/ Wed, 21 Nov 2007 22:17:24 PST Well it was on a Sunday but it was ok, just wanted to see her, as I have wanted to see her for months.
It was a simple day, but that was so good about it, met her at the train station, she hasn’t changed much still so cute, then went for a little shopping as she wanted to buy a shirt she saw the other day, so I was fine with all that . After that we tried for lunch but where I went was closed so we just walked around going no where in particular but was good just to talk and catch up. Got a slurpie and sat down and talked was good, but then a bunch like 10 asian guys came out and started smoking so we moved as she coughs really bad around smoke….so we ended back at Bourke street I wanted to look at Myer as I found a gift card in my wallet but didn’t really such much worth buying. So we decided to try lunch again as it might have been a bit early but it was still closed at 2pm….but we caught the tram as we couldn’t be bothered walking but just our luck the tram stopped for a long time I thought it was just a red light or something, but then the driver said that there was a protest riot going on and they couldn’t go any further, but luckily we were close to where we wanted so we got off. The protest was about something to do with Macedonia and culture, history or something is all I got from reading 1 of the signs….
So since where I wanted to go for lunch was closed she said we should go to Melbourne central and get lunch there so we went to this shop that I have walked past so many times but never noticed, we both got katsudon and just sat, ate and chatted was all good. I kinda felt bad though as I told her of the story about the last time I went to the city with another girl and we went to Lygon street and I brought lunch which was really expensive like $15 a plate of pasta and she ate barely any and wasted it all. So I think she didn’t want to waste it but towards the end she was like I cant eat any more, I was like its ok you have eaten most of if you don’t have to eat it all…. Kinda felt bad….. after that it QV to get some water then we just sat at the state library talking about things again, just great to talk as we can talk about anything freely, and she told me I was one of those friends that she felt that she could to talk to about anything, this made me feel really good, as that’s the way I felt as well then she said she had to go back home and stuffy a bit for chemistry, even though she finished her exams last week…. Lucky girl I still haven’t started mine yet….. so was off to Melbourne central station, waited for her train talked some more, gave her a present all the Nana anime, she was really happy with that, then her train came said good bye and waves and all that, and saw her off…. Last time I will see her until next year when she gets back from Thailand. Hopefully next time will be as good as we planned, as this time was simple but great. Next time we will do all the good stuff we planned like going to St. Kilda beach, Lygon street, do lots of fun things Was a very good time shared together even if it was a short 3 hours, still great.
After that I went and visited the art gallery, for art homework that was set last holidays but didn’t get down as I wasn’t allowed to go the city, it was not bad, but there was a lot of crafts on display like cups, plates and that sort of thing, at the end I got at some European paintings but, it was a bit late, as the gallery was closing.

For other things since then, on Tuesday in maths my left eye felt really strange, Lenore looked and noticed my eyes were yellow some sort of possible liver failure, and that wasn’t a good thing…not that I knew or really cared…. But I think I started to believe something is wrong with me later that night at home I felt really tired and didn’t do anything, Wednesday I decided no to go to school and see a doctor, saw the doctor wasn’t too concerned told me to get a blood test, and see him on the weekend to see the results and that. The blood test was a first for me, I knew it involved a needle so wasn’t looking forward to it, but it wasn’t as bad as the lady said it was going to be, I was expecting some pain, but barley anything, though she said she had to be a little careful as I had lots of tendons near the vein she wanted to use (all that gym) but a... ]]> ~asukaevaunit02 http://asukaevaunit02.deviantart.com/journal/15542152/ http://asukaevaunit02.deviantart.com/journal/15542152/ Sat, 17 Nov 2007 02:03:49 PST too much work and that maybe like every night didnt go to bed before 12 but thats kinda normal but i felt shit every morning like that feeling when ur having a good sleep and u want more but couldnt get up before 8 so doesnt leave much time to get to school, anyways got exam timetable looks like this

Thursday 29th
Morning 9:00-10:30am - Chinese B SL paper 2 (second language) 1.5 hours
Afternoon 2:00-3:30 - TOK (Theory of Knowledge) 1.5 hours

Friday 30th
Morning 9:00-11:00am - English A HL paper 1 2 hours
11:30-12:00 Art HL 30mins (im the first to have an art exam in ourt class, and its my first time doing a art exam as i started this semester.....)

Monday 3rd
Morning 9:00-11:00am - Biology SL 2 hours
Afternoon 1:15-3:30pm - Economics HL 2 hours

Tuesday 4th
Morning 9:00-11:00am - Maths SL 2 hours
Afternoon - No exam this afternoon

Wednesday 5th
No exams at all for me

Thursday 6th
Morning 9:00-11:00am - English A HL paper 2 2 hours
Afternoon 1:45-3:15pm - Chinese B SL paper 1 1.5 hours


then finish yr11 and move on up to yr12 yay holidays, but i already have holiday homework... for english she wants us to write 2 essays as preperation for our World Literature essays which are due sometime next year, reasearch for my Extended Essay.... im sure the will be more before the end of year... as they say its not a holiday its a "break"


well thats school for now, next week is house carnival and im house captain im looing foward to it gonna be fun, cant wait coz i wanna give a big encouraging speach and then win hockey, as ive sene the other teams for kockey i would be disappointed if we didnt win hockey as most of the people that were on the list probably havnt played hockey before

well tomorow should be good gonna go the city and see my best freind Fern before she goes back to Thailand for the holidays in 2 weeks, so thats gonna be great and i am able to the city again so im also happy abut that, hopefully the weather is good and not raining and bad like today, when yesterday was like 34... strange.....

]]> ~asukaevaunit02 http://asukaevaunit02.deviantart.com/journal/15486952/ http://asukaevaunit02.deviantart.com/journal/15486952/ Mon, 12 Nov 2007 23:20:11 PST
yeh i know most of you are probably thinking big deal its just a bike... well to me my bike is probably the 2nd most valued material possesion i have besides my laptop, also its a really good bike one of those light racing bikes i love it, and this happens i am so angry, also its my transport everywhere my escape, and now its broken for a while

hopefully its just something little i can just use a puncture kit and fix it or otherwise i might have to buy a whole new tyre which is gonna cost $30-40 so not very happy....

]]> ~asukaevaunit02 http://asukaevaunit02.deviantart.com/journal/15455955/ http://asukaevaunit02.deviantart.com/journal/15455955/ Sat, 10 Nov 2007 22:14:48 PST
fisrtly though the weekend what strange weekend its been, as usual went down the gym and man ive never seen the gym so empty all year, on saturday there was like 5 people there when i got there and no one from school no girls.... which was disappointing, today was sorta the same but picked up and some bigger guys turned up but no one from school but today was a great gym session was able to do 2 hours which is good coz last few weeks ive been feeling really tired after 1 hour and the following day feel really tired, but my pecs still are bit strange and having trouble benching my usual 50kg.... a lil annoying but other wise really good

finished my 2nd folio piece for art last weekend though it was pretty simple a few hours lots of charcoal and blackness but i really like it nowe ready for 3rd piece but just doing research at the moment and practicing anatomy as im in no rush do do it as i have 2 for this term and thats what the teacher wants even though i hate my first piece....
my 3rd piece is about tattooes and im gonna do some annotomy and put my tattoo that i want as a sign of rebelion, its great coz im combining 2 things i really like and want, big muscles and a tattoo, though im feeling pretty happy about my muscles at the moment

unfortunately i didnt get a long weekend for melbourne cup i went to school in monday as someone said it was required that yr11 student attend on monday well only 5 local australian students turned up... was such a shit day did nothing all day and half my classes i was the only aussie but thats kinda normal on anyday anyway....

and ive been pretty busy with work this week, like 3 essays and a maths test, man how much i studied for that test, the most ever i studied 3 and half hours for the maths test on calculus, and because i spent all night studying for the test i didnt do my TOK essay draft which i will be doing tonight.... but the test was ok, as it should be since i studied so much so i better get at least 70% or more!

today was good my friend who left the school called me up today and said lets catch up since he was in town so i though why not so we had a swim and lunch then he went off and later came ova to my place, great to catch up

and lastly i noticed something the other day after school, i was just hanging round school with some mates and then this girl that im interested in who we talk a lil with here and there just a lil hi and that, she was walking by and was smiling and looked so happy, man just seeing some look so happy makes ya feel so happy, has anyone had this before?

im sure thats a bit to read and that my week gone by, about 3 weeks until exams.....



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http://asukaevaunit02.deviantart.com/journal/15310392/ Thu, 01 Nov 2007 01:34:44 PDT
1.finished my first art folio piece, even though it looks shit and i hate it its done, and im just want to forget about it, as ive already moved onto my next piece which im very happy and excited about it involves an drawing from a few months [link] so its a great idea, but u will have to wait until i finish it, i wil get a pic up of my first folio piece soon, when i find someone with a camera, then i can put it in a drawer for a long time until next year....

also had our house meeting today for the school sport day later this month and i am the captian voted in easy no one really wantd it, so i got it fairly easy lots of friends in yr11 got captain for the colours aswell like Pete got it for yellow Vishnu got it for green, i think all aussies were captains well except for Bow in red but the rest were aussies, and i liked having some power as captain as i got to yell a little to get people to be quite whne i needed their attention, also gave a few speaches so its good to be captain, hopefull we win later this month though there was 1 really funny moment during the meeting where i was talking to everyone and saying we hadnt won for a lil while or so i thought then nearly everyone said we won it last time.... man that didnt look goof, but empahsized my point i wanted to win

also all the shit that had been going on before is completly out of my life i have bearly anything to with that person any more, their loss in the end really been strengthening my close friendships and thats good, and building old ones so friends are great, and see what happens with other people that would be great if it started to work out with this new person.... though have missed a few opportunities in recent weeks and today as well....... but i hope that there will be more opportunites.... and i better take advantage of them...!

on a bad note i think i may have injured my left achillies tendon again....i hope not! as last time it took like 3-4 months to heal and during that time i was very restricted exercise wise.... so i hope its just a bad feeling and it goes away soon, or else im gonna be angry.....

so thats bout it kept it short and simple

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http://asukaevaunit02.deviantart.com/journal/15239421/ Sat, 27 Oct 2007 06:47:48 PDT time im not going to go into as much detail just the basics

monday our soccer team won the grand final for the school competition, we beat the yr12 team 2-1 on penalties i was goal keeper, so was lots of fun, confident of victory when it went to penalties

started drawing my first folio picec for art this week, doesnt look very polished but isnt finished, i guess thats the effect of pastels, hopefully i can sort it out, but its good just to get started

viewed the yr12 art exhibition, to some awesome work, font know if i can do stuff that good.... but very good work in there

on another good side, ive been talking to my really good friend Fern the last few days she called last night we had a lil chat then she had to go, and i called her tonight we had some great talks, too bad she had to go to bed though or i might have still been on the phone now... but i love talking to her and i feel great when i talk to her, cant wait to the end of term go down the city and have a really awesome day with her, we keep planning and adding things to do, its gonna be great, were gonna go to the beach since she hasnt been to the beach, also im gonna show her lygon street, and have some italian food, show her that, man its gonna be the best but its not gonna be for at least a month after school is done early December....

well something to look foward to, and im feeling a lot better with all the bad things of the past pretty much out of my life so things are not too bad

]]> ~asukaevaunit02 http://asukaevaunit02.deviantart.com/journal/15095931/ http://asukaevaunit02.deviantart.com/journal/15095931/ Wed, 17 Oct 2007 01:15:23 PDT for some reason i sat where i used to sit in economics which was next to her, a bit coz i had my chinese oral next and she had been helping with it for about a month, but we didnt talk about it, and i like sitting at the front feel involved, but to sit in the front i have to sit next to her.... big mistake.... said nothing... silence, so for some reason i got depressed and just didnt look at her for the whole double period....

kicked ass on my chinese oral, well that what lots of people said after i walked in, man urs was really good, sounded good etc.... which was good as i had been preparing for atleast a month with my friend i dont talk with anymore (same person as above and previous journals) so it paid off i guess, just happy that i dont have to practice anymore the same 15 questions and answers that id been practicing for that month after school on mondays, and the last 3 weeks of chinese class......

back to the depressing silence.... after school saw her, told her that i did good and thanks heaps (in a really happy sorta way) and all i get is a oh thats good..... again kinda made me angry/disappointed...... and a few other little things happened after school but wont go into them....

i think whenever i see her, i just get depressed/frustrated whatever i dont know why... and im getting angry because im getting depressed/angry coz of that lack of respect or care for the things they do and dont obviously care about the effect it has on me... so inconsiderate.....



but whats wrong with me? why do i care what she does? why does it make me feel sad/angry/depressed?



and then hopefully i can completely forget all this shit, though its hard coz i have lots of classes with this person and see them a lot during the day even though i dont have to talk to them it still gets me.....


the only thing to come from all this pain is it has given me some good things to use for my art work, which today was finally decided how i was going to do it, completely changed the idea again but decided and tomorow will begin the drawing of it, it will be interesting if she can pick up that my art is going to be about my pain from her.... i doubt she will... unless she reads this, then more shits gonna start as thts the reason for our really bad end of friendship coz she read what i thought about her, though it wasnt things id say to her face, though she doesnt understand that......


with that said and currently feeling low, i really cant wait to go the city and see Fern, i know i will be so happy this weekend just by seeing her, i think thats the only thing thats good for me now, something to look foward to.....

SO PLEASE WEEKEND HURRY UP AND COME!!! I NEED YOU

]]> ~asukaevaunit02 http://asukaevaunit02.deviantart.com/journal/15067229/ http://asukaevaunit02.deviantart.com/journal/15067229/ Mon, 15 Oct 2007 01:09:41 PDT
as for things they are starting to look up, things are not as dark as i thought they would be, and really learnt abut not just myself but those around me, and true friendship, which was not quite what i thought it was, or with who i thought it was with..... so now realising how nice people really are has touched me
i decided what my theme for art is emotion/feelings which is going to be closely directed around friendship and that portraying different feelings.emnotions associated with that, so im very happy that i now have direction in my art, instead of drawig random things that were not related to anything in general

and this weekend im going to the city with my good mate Aaron (if he can come) and im going to see my best friends Fern who i havnt seen in about 6 months as shes a very hard working student so she doesnt come out a lot, so im really happy to see her especially after all the things that have been happening, and we are going to the beach as she said she hasnt been before, so its going to be, i hope the weather is going to be good, havnt seen the news yet....

so now im really looking forward to the weekend, and things sorta of looking better

]]> ~asukaevaunit02 http://asukaevaunit02.deviantart.com/journal/15050774/ http://asukaevaunit02.deviantart.com/journal/15050774/ Sat, 13 Oct 2007 22:26:30 PDT "girls are tell the biggest lies, but men lie the most"
lead to
"you lie about everything, and you want me to tell the truth? bitch fuck off!"
firstly LMAO!!!!
secondly its so true right now
i was so honest and you lied so much, theni say 1 wrong thing and you never talk to me again, think about the quote
its unfair i wanted to end it nicely and honestly yet you read my journal (surprised) and never want to talk again coz i said a few mean things which were in my thoughts not that i would say to your face...

well things are done so i dont know why im writting this...

but man the 30 mins of that Chris Rock thing i saw was so funny and so true

]]> ~asukaevaunit02 http://asukaevaunit02.deviantart.com/journal/15038438/ http://asukaevaunit02.deviantart.com/journal/15038438/ Sat, 13 Oct 2007 03:28:36 PDT
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~asukaevaunit02 http://asukaevaunit02.deviantart.com/journal/15009720/ http://asukaevaunit02.deviantart.com/journal/15009720/ Thu, 11 Oct 2007 02:42:14 PDT [link] in short, hurt, betrayed used etc by someone i thought to be my best friend and in their words 弟弟"younger brother" and her my 姐姐"older sister" yet obviously means nothing to her, as she doesnt talk to me besides when she needs something from me,
so i came to the conclusion if since you cant be honest and trusting, i want nothing to do with you again as you say you understand that it has hurt me but you lied straight to my face about that as well so i do need someone like you in my life so fuck off!
thing is shes pretty much left me for my best friend and hes been after for a while even when i was sorta together with her, and now to find out just baout everything she has ever said to me is a lie or not true hurts, also that shes liked my best friend since the day i told her my feelings for her, yet she keep playing me.... now they are both all over each other....
i know most people that read this are gonna think im jealous and havnt moved on but your wrong... the reason i want nothing to do with is her, is the whole no trust thing and lies, what kind of "best friend" lies to you constantly and uses you to get something else to me thats not a friend so she can get fucked for all i care
ive talked to 2 closest best friends who have been through similar things which was ok, and what really got through to me was a chat with my economics teacher who is also the year level co ordinator, we get on really well, i wanted to talk about extended essay and then he asked how life was and he know about me and the girl which i was a little surprised, but i explained about it and got some advice from him, i was realy surprised he know about us students not just me, but people that i mentioned which was interesting...

i have really come to love irony lately, not for me personally i laugh at myself

although i think im starting to worry some people about me coz ive told a few people (close people) about this, but the last few days ive been letting my anger out (dont know why i feel angry, not coz of this) through violence/hurting myself, ive been punching wooden poles that are around the school, i did it once yesterday and cut some of my knunckles and blood to come out (i thought it looked pretty cool) and today for some reason i just became really depressed and angry so after school i punched every pole i saw then again after i finished teaching my photoshop class, i punched some more poles and cut myself again, then miss allen noticed in art tutorial and was concerned and got me a tissue and told me to let my anger whatever other ways like walks or gym which is really enjoyable for me.....
but im not going to stop for some reason i kinda like it.... though it kinda makes me angry to do so....

and from talking to other people and they have been through through a similar experiance to me in some way or another, and spent some time with Candy today after school, we used to be good friends but havnt talked to her much as i dont see her much anymore, but talked to her, and went to tute with her and then we walked her home and talked about her life and shes been through a similar thing to me, and we listened to each others stories but slipped somethings i probably shouldnt have, and could end up around the school (damn anger!... wants to punch something again) but was nice to talk to her again and about the same sorta thing, geez when u get involve in these things you start to see and hear lot sof things like this man.....

well enough shit for another day, and see what happens tomorow......

keep on punching!!

]]> ~asukaevaunit02 http://asukaevaunit02.deviantart.com/journal/14921428/ http://asukaevaunit02.deviantart.com/journal/14921428/ Fri, 05 Oct 2007 02:34:21 PDT
They want their email?
Why? Is it him? Quiet possibly could be, from the pieces, Tuesday night, me being in the way, he won’t call message etc, doesn’t have his email, so ask me…..

So quite possibly him…

Do I give it to her?
Why?
Best friends (well so I think) want her to be happy, find this guy even though I know it will hurt me more, especially if it is who I think it is, makes me look like I still love her, can’t move on, look weak, so by giving her it kinda ends anything happening…, definitely just friends might become distant again, slump, sad, depressed, betrayed, used all again

Why not?
If it who I think it is its going to hurt a lot, just when I got back to where it used to be and happy as friends, it would crush me and I know I can’t take it again so soon, just too soon too much pain, might find some things about our friendship, maybe its full of shit, as she doesn’t always tell me everything, secrets, which annoys me, as if you are “best friends” I assume there is great trust between both of us so you can tell each other anything, but she doesn’t tell me much about her feelings and that, its like she is embarrassed about this especially if she tells me and it doesn’t work out

What I want to know

Are you honest with me? If it is him are you just using me to get to him, because without this you are kinda screwed. Have you ever lied to me? I fell like you don’t tell me things or lie about things, maybe you think its best like that as you might not hurt me, but when I find out how things are it hurts much more than if you would just have told me, I feel betrayed and like you don’t trust me, are we really friends? If you lie to me about this I don’t think I can forgive you, not because you might end up loving this person and not me (because I am over that) but because you didn’t want to tell me as you think you would hurt me or don’t want me to hate that person. Do you trust me?

Who would I “hate” if it was the way I think it is?
I think I would hate her more than him, because you could never tell me the truth, you didn’t trust me, why couldn’t you tell me? We are best friends right, brother and sister? Why not? I wouldn’t hate him so much if you would tell me. Of course I am not going to be happy if it is him, but I doubt I would hate him, as he’s one of my best mates and hang out with him most of the time, so of course I would feel a little angry at him but not forever and we would still be friends, though it does hurt to see him with you especially just after you moved on so soon, and yes it did hurt but its not all his fault so its not like I’m going to hate him, its also partly your fault. If you don’t want it you don’t have to take it, but it seems like you enjoy it, but you say its nothing and your not interested. Again are you lying to me? Why do you lie to me and say things that make me feel comfortable but in the end you just lie and its actually the opposite to what you say, and I have to find out myself the hard and painful way. Why?

If you don’t trust me say so, or something. As I trust you and would tell you anything but I don’t receive the same back. I want you to be honest with me, I know it may seem that I can’t let go, maybe that maybe the case but I’m pretty sure that I have moved on, well the feelings now are not the same as before as you crushed them last time. So please be honest and tell me is it him? If you lie again I don’t think I can trust you anymore, I don’t think I can take the pain again or the frustration. So be a friend and be honest and tell the truth, or if I find out the truth I don’t think we can be friends anymore as I can’t trust you and not going to put myself through all this pain and confusion again, and again.

]]> ~asukaevaunit02 http://asukaevaunit02.deviantart.com/journal/14749695/ http://asukaevaunit02.deviantart.com/journal/14749695/ Sat, 22 Sep 2007 21:25:26 PDT also i notice i looked back at the first pics i submited 2 years ago and then through the rest of my gallery and realised how far i have come since, and how i have improved (i think...) so its good to look back and reflect
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http://asukaevaunit02.deviantart.com/journal/14667625/ Mon, 17 Sep 2007 00:31:15 PDT why?
why did she have to do that, its like we broke up, but we were never going out to begin with, yet she sent a few messages and chats yesterday that sounded exactly like break up things you would say... why? i knew that we couldnt be together but she really let me know, i love her as a friend and it made me really happy to have her and talk with her etc.... now gone, i hope it gets better or else i dont know, its so depressing on me and i feel terrible and dont want to do nothing...

a few things i have learnt recently

those that have negative attitudes drain everyones energy around them thats so true, read that i think in Asha's homework and realsied that in the city

being depressed/sad whatever is really draining i feel so tired and weak, like all day today i felt hungry and really weak....

money is evil, and money cannot buy happiness, thoughi knew this, i learnt from experiance, which was ironic as me and Asha were talking baout this over breakfast in the city.....

its funny how one thing that brought so much happiness, can also take so much more out of you when it turns bad


i dont know what else to say i had lots but the low is taking so much out of me, and feel like nothing i do wil make it go away, i dont feel like i have anyone to talk to, well i have someone but shes always busy, i could have talked ot her after school but had chinese with Asha, probably would have been better to talk to Lenore about it.....

of well one last thing for those that watch NANA i think i was in a similar situation to Nobu with Nana, like she told me that she didnt think it would work between us and i told her i understood, but i kept being friendly, and i guess she still thought i still wanted us to be together, so i guess she told me bluntly
like Nobu said "Then come on. Shatter my illusion. Because I dont know what else I can do to stop loving you" just how it happend for me was it didnt work out and no hug etc so far quite the opposite.....

though i dont know why i feel so depressed, as its not like we went out, or that she was ever mine or something like that but then why do i feel so bad.... i think im starting to understand the difference between us, as if i could pick up some 20 yr old chic anyway, what was i thinking... i need more time alone byself with out her or anyone so i can think....

]]> ~asukaevaunit02 http://asukaevaunit02.deviantart.com/journal/14650740/ http://asukaevaunit02.deviantart.com/journal/14650740/ Sat, 15 Sep 2007 21:06:47 PDT well went to the city yesterday with best friend Asha and expected to have an awesome day, but the real result was pretty much the exact opposite for most of the time, a real disaster, so we got to the city and ahd breakfast at a chinese restuarant and that was interesting, then i though i will show u lygon street, it where there is a lot of italian shops and that for those that dont know, got lost but saw some really cool churches and gardens so it was all good, finally got to lygon street, walked round all good, she wanted me to get a new bag coz my bag was starting to fall apart so we went into a FCUK shop and she brought be a bag after i lost to her in rock paper scissors so now i owe her $80 that i dont have and wont have for a long time, which she didnt seme to understand.... which started to make feel abit down, then decided to go to a starbucks for a drink then time for lunch, i was to pay as she payed for breakfast, so we ordered pasta, but in the end i didn thave enough to pay as i spen some of my money earlier or else i would have paid fully, so that was really embarassing and again more low....then cant really remeber oh she brought a fish then it was either go to st kilda or the casino, she said she already been to st kilda so lets go somewhere else (but all we planned ot go to st kilda....) so we went to Crown and to the arcade and they changed it a bit las ttime since i went usually u get a game card and that was usefull for just about anything, so i thought a game card was the way to go, but in the end it wasnt nothing she wanted to play accepted the game card and you cant refund them either.... so again i stuffed up wasted more money.... so were now really bored and the moon was really low... nothing much happened so she wanted to go shopping so we went lots of shops myers clothes shops melb central everywhere, she brought lots of stuff, she said it makes her feel better if she buys stuff when shes sad.. (half way through this i realised that having a girl friend costs lots of money... well shes not my girlfriends but still)so by now the mood was really low coz i had been out of miney since lunch, and she had said she had spent too much money so really low.... back to train station really low, she slept and yeh back home.... so angry with myself, the day happened just like i thought it would either really good or really shit, and you know how it ended up.... so really depressed all night, drew a little waterd new naruto and to bed by 9 really early for a sat, just felt so low, no energy nothin to anything... and the mood continues today.... i though dont htink about it, but i got a txt 6:20 this morning from asha and that didnt help to forget about yesterday.....well school tomorow should be interesting, as yesterday i felt so low, depressed, disappointed with my self i didnt want to look at her.....


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http://asukaevaunit02.deviantart.com/journal/14597451/ Tue, 11 Sep 2007 23:06:08 PDT
well this journal is a BIG THANKS for 4000 pageviews which was due like 3 days ago, but stuff happened and so i didnt thank you all when it happened
SO thank you all very much for the 4000 pageviews, to all my friends/watchers thanks for all the support also anyone who hasd viewed/commented/fave my work etc so THANK YOU ALL, it coz of all you nice people i love dA so much!

also my life in general for tha last 3 weeks have been awesome! im on a high everything is great, im doing alot better in shool, i got the highest mark on the last economics test 90% and i finally passed a maths test this year, it was a very hard test and i just passed like by a few % but all the extra effort i put in gave results, i got 2nd highest mark on the chinese oral with 83% and this week ive had 3 tests and im really feeling good about them, todays economics test was easy as im expecting aroun 20/24
and i have a great friendship with Asha been having a lot of fun together/spending time etc so thats great, she helps me with my chinese which is fun so im going to kick some ass for next terms important oral, im teaching her english and helping her with economics, and anything else really so thats going great best friend ever!
and lastly i have a new bike, well its not like brand new, its from the op shop i got it for $2.50 which is really cheap coz its one of those racing bikes thats really light, with the thing tyres i think you know what i mean, and man its an awesome bike, i love it i fly now.. lol

well thats enough and that bene my life summed up very briefly for the last 2-3 weeks sincve i havnt been too active on dA lately but i should have a pic by the end of the weekend


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http://asukaevaunit02.deviantart.com/journal/14584153/ Tue, 11 Sep 2007 02:37:23 PDT
well things have been going great over tha past 3 weeks or so, with this great new friend of mine, shes great we get along together really well, we even share tha same birthday, which is cool! and its been getting really good, we are really close, and i was pretty sure there was something between us, but i admit towards the start its a bit up and down, like i thought she didnt have a boyfriend then some one said she did, so that kinda crushed me, but found out that she doesnt... which brought me back up, and all weekend we spent a lot of time together and had great time together, more closer etc... and then got some messages from her that were really nice, that made me decide that there definately somethign there on both sides so, i figured dont let this great person go by like others ahve, so today was a little down i thought but had dinner with her and stayed around school with her for a while, then brought the whole thing up and she said we were best friends and we didnt need to be like that, even though i pretty much told her how close i felt with her and that, but its an age thing with her, i think
shes 20 and im 17, to me it means nothing age if i feel that, but that seemed to be the main reason... which really seems to frustrate me, or something like that.... but why i just dont understand she didnt want to do it mostly coz of the age, she treats me equally most the time bu times she treats me as some younger, often referring to me as younger brother and her older sister which is ok
dont get me wrong we are stil good friends im sure, but im just disappointed as i put my self out there and it didnt work i kinda feel stupid....

any ideas why the age i such a thing, coz it dont get it...

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well thats the main reason im happy this week , but also got my fitness assessed on wednesday as i want start toning up and defining my muscles, and im starting to reachmy plato on my own, so got a program made for me, and man its great! i love it its really tough and exhaustung but i feel better already and stronger and ive only been through the program 2 times since, but already im feeling better,and seeing some results, if i keep going like this im gone be looking even better im so happy, but too bad theres no one i want to impress thats going on my end of term camp.. me pete and dave, but no girls that im interested in

also my studies are going not too bad, well execpt for maths i hate maths and my maths teacher... ive really been trying this term with matsh doing all my homework, going to his tutorial every week, and i understood most of the topic and was confident that i could at least past this test (as ive been failing all year, though last semester i didnt really put any effort in) so a pass would have been great, to show that my effort was going to pay off... im wasnt asking much just a pass would have made me very happy.. im talking 40-50% but i got to the test and not much appeared to be what we knew, i was so angry from some confidence to anger and dissapointment.... well ihad a terrible feeling about the test but i will have to find out my mark on monday... maybe its not as bad as i think.. who knows... though talked ot Mr Bertotto at parent teachers about it and said he will have a talk to my maths teacher and other people so maybe somehting will change if not then he said for me to complain to the principal, coz every subject for maths is going great...

well thats enough for now i guess or i could go one for ever but id be boring you, if you already aren't lol


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http://asukaevaunit02.deviantart.com/journal/14249175/ Mon, 20 Aug 2007 01:43:45 PDT
at the gym i was talking to the guy at the gym about toning up, and he explained all about it, and the word i had never heard of before "CUTNESS" whiohc i found out is another word for tone, definition etc that sorta things, so i got myself booked for a fitness assessment and program greation to help me tone up since i dont really know how to tone up so ill get some tips as ive been building up strength and mass for the last 6-7 months and really wanna tone em up coz that looks really cool, though he mentioned it takes work and time (which i already knew...) and i probably wont end up with arm like Ben Cousins, but i wasnt really going to that extreme lol

and the other interesting phrase i heard yesterday was at my mates house, we were talking bout achool, gym and girls, i was telling him bout this new girl that started who i like and shes pretty hot and nice and he asked "Does she put out?" i looked at him and was like what? put out? then i caught on... im a little slow, never heard of that before, but what was really strange is my mate hes 14/15 and i didnt expect anything like that to come from him but was interesting and a good laugh tallking bout hoes and that lmao

well thats bout all for the weekend, got lots of work to do this week with tests and stuff, but really looking foward to wednesday to my fitness assessment and getting toned up, im really excited

also i read some Nana manga and i love it! it took a while i didnt realise it was 100 pages long so i was up late last night reading it but love it, and now downloading more and starting the anime!

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http://asukaevaunit02.deviantart.com/journal/14221192/ Sat, 18 Aug 2007 04:48:52 PDT

Go to your music player of choice and put it on shuffle.
Say the following questions aloud, and press play.
Use the song titles that come up to answer each question.
NO CHEATING.

1.How does the world see me?

Invade My Space – Xzibit
I don’t really care bout others thoughts, or trying to be something I’m not


2. Will I have a happy life?

The Others – TV Rock vs Dukes of Windsor
I dontknow what that could mean…?


3. What do people really think of me?

Party Starter – Will Smith
Um, I don’t think this suits me too much, I don’t like parties, but I’m kinda fun sometimes…


4. Do people secretly lust after me?

Block Lockdown - Ludacris
… what the? Doesn’t fit….

5. How can I make myself happy?

Throw It Up – Lil Jon and the Eastside Boys feat. Pastor Troy
that makes me happy? I think not, well I find it funny to listen to any Lil Jon YEAH!


6. What should I do with my life?

Scandalous Bitches - Xzibit
???.... be a pimp or something? Lmao!

7. Will I ever have children?

MoonLight Densetsu (sailor moon theme)
well I guess I could since the song kinda suggests so, as being destined and so on….


8. What is some good advice for me?

Not Gonna Leave – The Game feat, Trae & Paul Wall
well, it kinda is advice don’t give in just get the job done

9. What do I think my current theme song is?

Klack - Xzibit
I guess so I can be quite aggressive at times and wanna go start some shit but not with guns and body armour etc… lol

10. What does everyone else think my current theme song is?

Go To Church – Ice Cube feat Snoop Dogg & Lil Jon
well all I talk bout is Ice cube lately and its aggressive rap music which people sometimes associate with me.. lol

11. What song will play at my funeral?

Laugh now,Cry Later – Ice Cube
Hmm.. I don’t think people play rap music at funerals….

12. What is my day going to be like?

Click Clack, Get Back! - Ice Cube
Hmmm…I don’t think theres going to be much of that gunshots and fighting going on today….

13. Why am I here?

Saturday (Ooooh! Ooooh!) - Ludacris
to get rich and smoke weed??? I don’t think so but im here for Saturday’s coz they are fun

14. What will people remember me for?

Thank You - Xzibit
Interesting, not an abusive rap song, quite the opposite, saying thanks for being there, and helping me, does fit me, as I like to be there and help those that need me


15. What song will I get stuck in my head tomorrow?

Smoke Some Weed – Ice Cube
I wouldn’t be surprised it gets in my head a bit the beats is a bit strange, bit catchy, and the lyrics are funny

16. Are there people outside waiting to take me away?

Sorry I’m Away So Much - Xzibit
not sure what the question means?

17. What will this year be all about?

Child Support – Ice Cube
Lmao!!! I don’t plan to have any kids this year or any in the next 4-5, and don’t pay anyone child support I’m too young for that thing

18 - If you reached the top of Mount Everest, you would scream:

Party up in Here - DMX
lmao!! Id love to hear that from top of Mount Everest, and I can see me yelling this while doin some sorta dance

19 - The next time you stand up in front of a group of people, you'll say:

Go To Sleep – Ludacris feat.
I don’t think I would say any of the words in this song to anyone or a group of people, I mean who gets up in front of people and says “go to sleep hoe, if you tired go to sleep hoe”.. I don’t think so

20 - Your message to the world:

Extradition – Ice Cube.
I don’t know… “keep my hand on my gun”….?


21 - Your deepest secret:

Back 2 the way it was - Xzibit
yeh I would like things to go back bit, then things w... ]]> ~asukaevaunit02