http://search.deviantart.com/?q=by:aurakiel&section=today deviantART RSS for by:aurakiel en-us Copyright 2009, deviantART.com Wed, 23 Dec 2009 06:11:03 PST deviantART.com http://blogs.law.harvard.edu/tech/rss http://s.deviantart.com/minish/widgets/apple-touch-icon-precomposed.png http://aurakiel.deviantart.com/journal/3251953/ http://aurakiel.deviantart.com/journal/3251953/ Tue, 31 Aug 2004 01:15:06 PDT I can't come up with the words
He taught me so much
But what?
Life
Friendship
Addictions
Guilt
Try saying that with passion
I can jazz it all up...but it sounds fake
I try
But I catch myself crying
Why is it that we don't realize things until it too late?
When we can't go back to say...You helped me...You saved me.
Retro-spect is a bitch
When I find the words
I'll find my closure
Until then...Im still mourning. ]]> ~aurakiel http://aurakiel.deviantart.com/journal/3201789/ http://aurakiel.deviantart.com/journal/3201789/ Tue, 24 Aug 2004 09:16:08 PDT
I talked to Ellen and Jess about everything. When you're laying in total darkness with someone for hours on end with nothing but the sound of the crackling fire dieing in the distance...you open up...you confess. ]]> ~aurakiel http://aurakiel.deviantart.com/journal/3158075/ http://aurakiel.deviantart.com/journal/3158075/ Wed, 18 Aug 2004 17:21:11 PDT I smoke a cigarette...
I shower and brush my teeth...
I smoke a cigarette...
I take the pills that are suppose to make me beautiful...
I take the pills that are suppose to keep me from mother hood...
I smoke a cigarette...
I go to work...
I have a moment of "me" time in my car, with my music, with my cigarette...
I come home...
I shower again...
I brush my teeth...again...
I smoke...another cigarette
...I do all this...and I die alittle
Now I know why people kill themselves....
To end...THIS
It's rutine
It's boring
It's life
....and it kills us all a day at a time.
Yeah, Im finished.
I'm gonna smoke another cigarette. ]]> ~aurakiel http://aurakiel.deviantart.com/journal/3143643/ http://aurakiel.deviantart.com/journal/3143643/ Mon, 16 Aug 2004 23:52:05 PDT I pause before replying.
"I'm going to wash dishes for the rest of my life. Some goal?"
He laughs...he always laughs...he thinks I'm fucking funny.
I love him.
Grant...you crack my shit up.
So I worked today. I feel like shit. I'm working on a new piece that will eventually grace the head of my boyfriends bed. It's a black and white pencil sketch of an actress everyone of us has a hard on for. It's huge so...if you see it, I'll have to take a picture of it. I swear...I'm a negative bitch.
Bring on the day. ]]> ~aurakiel http://aurakiel.deviantart.com/journal/3087683/ http://aurakiel.deviantart.com/journal/3087683/ Tue, 10 Aug 2004 01:26:45 PDT ~aurakiel http://aurakiel.deviantart.com/journal/1827452/ http://aurakiel.deviantart.com/journal/1827452/ Wed, 11 Feb 2004 09:52:09 PST
I've had a bad couple of days. The guy that I'm beginning to see I can never see because he works all the time. No lie...I seen him Friday at Marley's and he was there long enough to give me a hug, tell me that one of our mutal friends was at another bar, hug me again and say goodbye. He had to work in 4 hours and he had no sleep...he didn't inform me that he had to pull a 16 hour shift when he went to work. NO...I found that out much later. The next day actually when I went to his house and Jason and Bobby were the only two there...he was still at work. It was 8:30 pm and he'd been gone since 6:00 that morning.

THEN...I gain a new roomate. I don't know if I'm gonna be cool with it or not. I'm pretending pretty well...but hell, that's what I'm good at or else learning to be good at...I'm a theatre major. All the words my stage and it's a god damn tragedy. ]]> ~aurakiel