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deviantART: by:autumnava http://search.deviantart.com/?q=by:autumnava&section=today deviantART RSS for by:autumnava en-us Copyright 2009, deviantART.com Wed, 25 Nov 2009 04:39:19 PST deviantART.com http://blogs.law.harvard.edu/tech/rss http://s.deviantart.com/minish/widgets/apple-touch-icon-precomposed.png It's Not Easy http://autumnava.deviantart.com/journal/28407799/ http://autumnava.deviantart.com/journal/28407799/ Tue, 17 Nov 2009 04:27:06 PST

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I've heard enough whining about how art students have it easy. You think your college is hard? No. Trust me. You get to sit down and study a book, memorize some information, maybe have a bit of talent in your subject. But WE have to spend hours upon hours just pulling ideas from our head, rendering our thoughts onto paper. I'm not saying regular college is easy. I wouldn't know. But we're not having a picnic and going out smoking weed like irresponsible little children. I personally have four studio classes, and can tell you, no lie, that my finals coming up in a few weeks are going to be absolute hell.

Lets look.

A complete self-portrait reflected in a mirror for drawing.
A complete rendering of a scene in pittsburgh, not counting the huge one point perspective interior of a surreal room.
Whatever Fundamentals of Design throws at me.
And both an image painted in black and white, original color, and arbitrary color.
This doesn't count my Freshman Studies and Computer Literacy classes.

So, I don't like bitching, trust me. But shut the fuck up when you whine about how we're having a party up here. Because I assure you, everything that you see around you is due to the lack of sleep by one of US.

]]> ~autumnava One last time http://autumnava.deviantart.com/journal/27389683/ http://autumnava.deviantart.com/journal/27389683/ Thu, 24 Sep 2009 10:16:20 PDT
But, if you do catch 9000, please tell me so I can get you a gift. Thanks. <3

Also, if anyone sees Flashforward tonight, tell me how it is. I can't watch it, damnit. =\

]]> ~autumnava IT'S OVER 9000!!!!!one!!!!one!! http://autumnava.deviantart.com/journal/27320479/ http://autumnava.deviantart.com/journal/27320479/ Sun, 20 Sep 2009 13:14:12 PDT
]]> ~autumnava Today http://autumnava.deviantart.com/journal/27155468/ http://autumnava.deviantart.com/journal/27155468/ Fri, 11 Sep 2009 17:35:40 PDT
]]> ~autumnava It's Over http://autumnava.deviantart.com/journal/27117681/ http://autumnava.deviantart.com/journal/27117681/ Wed, 09 Sep 2009 16:16:39 PDT
]]> ~autumnava Thoughts http://autumnava.deviantart.com/journal/26960403/ http://autumnava.deviantart.com/journal/26960403/ Tue, 01 Sep 2009 15:29:55 PDT
And I'm not one to disrespect my mother. I see it all around me - friends screaming at their parents, whining like idiots just because they don't want to mow the lawn. If you told me to do something, I'd do it. But that's the whole point. She never even tries to be a parent. Tell me what to do - yell at me, ground me. Care. But I know I'll never get that.

Yet the point of that is to say that this. Sometimes she just does things. Out of the blue. That make me want to cry. I walk in, she's polishing my table. I come home from my girlfriends, she's cleaning the blades of my fan. And every day, the laundry is done. Most of everyday anyhow, hah. But these things, I think I've come to take for granted. I'll have to do everything myself. Alone. The bills - she always took that stress and never let me help. Be it out of frustration or care, I'll never know, but regardless, I love her for that. I love my mother, with all my heart, despite all these things that I as a whining child would say. We've been through a lot in our lives, and I've questioned if I ever really came from her womb, that crazy woman. But all the same, she took care of me. She housed me.

And now I'm going to be alone. Buy my own clothes, my own...everything. How do you adults deal with this? This pain? Of separation?

The safety of my home, stripped from me. That first night, I don't even think the thralls of the arms of my own lover can comfort me. To think that when I wake, I won't be able to come to the haven that has been my sanctuary for most of my intelligible life. I'll look at the ceiling and get that first wave of 'where the fuck am I.' And I've no idea how you adults handled it. Yet I will! I must, right? I can't stay a child forever. For through that fear, I'm more excited than I've been in my entire life! The things I'll do, the people I'll meet, the places I'll go. Unrestrained, with only the world ahead of me. Will my art get me as far as people predict, or are their softened praises only a shadow of the downfall that will be mine? One can only speculate.

See? I get too deep with this crap. Haha. Here I sit, still lounging, my stomach hurts, and I'm whining like a baby in my little journal that no one reads. XD But I suppose the theory was right. I feel better after getting that down. My writing has always soothed me somehow, although I can definitely go over the top and overboard. But that's what makes me me, you know?

I'll shut up now. XD

]]> ~autumnava Slow Down http://autumnava.deviantart.com/journal/26822015/ http://autumnava.deviantart.com/journal/26822015/ Tue, 25 Aug 2009 17:41:57 PDT She wants to see how many people get her poem.

It is quite the poem. Pass it on.

This poem was written by a terminally ill young girl in a New York Hospital. It was sent by a medical doctor - Make sure to read what is in the closing statement after the poem.

SLOW DANCE

Have you ever
watched kids

On a merry-go-round?

Or listened to
the rain

Slapping on the ground?

Ever followed a
butterfly's erratic flight?

Or gazed at the sun into the fading
night?

You better slow down.

Don't dance so
fast.

Time is short.

The music won't
last.

Do you run through each day

On the
fly?

When you ask How are you?

Do you hear the
reply?

When the day is done

Do you lie in your
bed

With the next hundred chores

Running through
your head?

You'd better slow down

Don't dance so
fast.

Time is short.

The music won't
last.

Ever told your child,

We'll do it
tomorrow?

And in your haste,

Not see
his
sorrow?

Ever lost touch,

Let a good
friendship die

Cause you never had time

To call
and say,'Hi'

You'd better slow down.

Don't dance
so fast.

Time is short.

The music won't
last.

When you run so fast to get somewhere

You
miss half the fun of getting there.

When you worry and hurry
through your day,

It is like an unopened
gift...

Thrown away.

Life is not a
race.

Do take it slower

Hear the
music

Before the song is over.

...
....
.....

Dear All: Please pass this mail on to everyone you know -
or even to those you don't. It is the request of a special girl who will soon leave this world due to cancer.

This young girl has 6 months left
to live, and as her dying wish, she wanted to send a letter telling everyone to
live their life to the fullest, since she never will.

------------

Thank you for giving me this, Autumn. <3 It really made my night. I hope some of you take this to heart - it's one of my greatest philosophy's in life.

]]> ~autumnava My Life According to Metallica http://autumnava.deviantart.com/journal/26590526/ http://autumnava.deviantart.com/journal/26590526/ Fri, 14 Aug 2009 13:29:51 PDT

Pick your Artist:
Metallica (who knew)

Are you a male or female:
Human

Describe yourself:
Master of Puppets (Heheh.)

How do you feel:
Unforgiven

Describe where you currently live:
Wherever I May Roam

If you could go anywhere, where would you go:
Stone Cold Crazy

Your favorite form of transportation:
Battery

Your best friend is:
My Friend of Misery

You and your best friends:
Fuel (Gimme fuel, gimme fire, gimme that which I desiiiire...OH!

)

What's the weather like:
It's Electric

Favorite time of day:
My Apocalypse

If your life was a TV show, what would it be called:
Free Speech For The Dumb

What is life to you:
Mercyful Fate

Your last relationship:
Sad But True

Your fear:
Broken, Beat & Scarred

What is the best advice you have to give:
Whiskey In the Jar (

Although I don't drink, haha. )

Thought for the Day:
The Day That Never Comes

How I would like to die:
Outlaw Torn

My soul's present condition:
I Disappear

My motto:
Nothing Else Matters

]]> ~autumnava CATCH 8000 http://autumnava.deviantart.com/journal/26561006/ http://autumnava.deviantart.com/journal/26561006/ Thu, 13 Aug 2009 02:31:10 PDT

EDIT: OR WHOEVER CLAIMS IT CLOSEST. <3

]]> ~autumnava Quiz time! http://autumnava.deviantart.com/journal/25925218/ http://autumnava.deviantart.com/journal/25925218/ Mon, 13 Jul 2009 16:44:27 PDT 1. Post these rules
2. Each tagged person must tell 8 things about themselves
3. At the end you have to tag 8 people and post their icons in your journal
4. Then go back to their page with a comment saying you tagged them
5. No tag backs

1: IÂm learning guitar.

2: I pride myself in my writing Â although I suppose most of the time I try to suppress my confidence for fear of coming off as pompous or arrogant. But. Some would say I CAN write.

3: I am leaving in the last week of September for the Art Institute of Pittsburgh for Media Arts and Animation.

4: Before that, I hope, I am finally getting a dream fulfilled and going to see Metallica live in Cleveland. <3

5: IÂve tried writing a book. Stopped writing in it. Might re-write it and start again.

6: I was never personally close to my father when he died, and I have mixed feelings about whether or not I should mourn his death or not, even if I am never one to hold a grudge.

7: IÂm going down to South Carolina Â Myrtle Beach Â this Saturday.

8: I was born in Rochester, Beaver County, PA.

Whoever wants to do it, go ahead.

------------------------------------------------------------------------

Your real name: Victoria Brown
Age: 18
Height: 5Â7
Weight: 150 - thatÂs what the scale said at my UncleÂs place.
Natural hair color: Dark Chocolate
Eye color: Cerulean
Skin color: Whitish. IÂve got tan shoulders, milky arms. Blah. XD
Glasses/contacts?: Both. Ânods.-
Piercings: My ears.
Tattoos: Once I have the money Â I plan on a nice spinal or shoulder tattoo.
Braces: IÂve been told I have perfect teeth. Never had a cavity in my life.
Mannerisms: Always polite. Gentle. Selfless.
Other distinctive markings: IÂve got a lot of dumb scars, if that counts.

FAVOURITE
Color: Blue and Orange
Band: METALLICA<<<3
Video game: No real favorite. I play loads! Right now IÂm playing a friends boyfriends copy of Fallout 3.
Movie: Requiem for a Dream is pretty high up there. Gran Torino was pretty epic, too.
Book: The Messenger. Hands down.
Food: ThatÂs a hard one. I donÂt each much, although IÂm told I should. I kind of just forget. BuuutÂI do love, love my motherÂs corn beef pie. Excellence incarnate.
Game on a cell phone: DonÂt have a cell phone.
CD: ThatÂs another hard one. I LOVE Volume One by Hurt, and the S&M Album from Metallica is pretty close, too. Right now IÂm listening to 21st Century Breakdown, and itÂs pretty epic itself.
Flower: Iris
Scent: Jasmine and Tea. Especially English, Black, Lemon, and Honey.
Animal: Cats are my kryptonite.
Comic book: DonÂt really read emÂ. MangaÂs, however. Heh. Junjo RomanticaÂs pretty good.

Cereal: Frosted Flakes, bitch.
Website: A few of them. Roleplayerguild and Ayenee for roleplaying, Ctrl+Alt+Delete as a webcomic, Devart for my art, and I frequent a lot of Foamy on illwillpress and friendsoffoamy.
Cartoon: Courage the Cowardly Dog.

DO YOU
Play an instrument?: Does it count that IÂve been practicing guitar for five days? Probably not. ‘

layingÂ probably constitutes to sounding like you know what youÂre doing. XD
Watch TV more than 60 hours a week?: My sister always has the internet hooked up, so no television.
Like to sing?: Everyone sounds good in the shower.
Have a job?: Wish I did. I will when I get out of here.
Have a cell phone?: Mm-mm.
Like to play sports?: Volleyball was fun. I would have played something if I didnÂt want to get involved in the politics and popularity contests.
Have a boyfriend/girlfriend?: Yes. <3
Have a crush on someone?: We were best friends first, thenÂwell, the rest is history.

Live somewhere NOT in the united states?: Nope. Might one day.
Have more than 5 TVs in your house?:... ]]> ~autumnava Quickie. http://autumnava.deviantart.com/journal/25341445/ http://autumnava.deviantart.com/journal/25341445/ Mon, 15 Jun 2009 23:55:18 PDT
I especially want to thank someone who barely knows me that featured my most recent work of James Hetfield [link] in their news article [link]
which gave me a lot of attention and favorites, surprising me. Thank you

Also, I promise you, if any of you are still watching me, I will submit something. I haven't been in a state of inspiration recently, after having been confused with graduation and summer break. I drew something, but it got scratched and I refuse to put it up in such a condition now. I've got three months left until my life is turned upside down and I'm hurtled into the world. So, have some sympathy for the Victoria.

]]> ~autumnava A Few Things. http://autumnava.deviantart.com/journal/23340250/ http://autumnava.deviantart.com/journal/23340250/ Sun, 22 Feb 2009 10:19:44 PST
Everything is coming so fast its almost hard to grasp. The weeks are flying by. I just got a call a few days ago - they reviewed my portfolio and I'm completely accepted into Media Arts and Animation at the Art Institute of Pittsburgh. I'm totally hyped for it, but they scholarship thing just weights it all down. I'm afraid half of my tutition is going to be paid for with loans, but what college student isn't up to their necks in debt?

Three months till graduation. It feels like yesterday it was a whole year away. I'm going to prom, my senior project presentation is next week, finals are a month away. I've been told I'm more mature than most of the other people around me, yet its now that I can finally feel it. The 'It's time to be an adult' time.

I can only hope I make it out of this year alive.

My friend is also living with me now - seeing as her home life couldn't get any shittier. I'm glad to see her smile again, because now that she's with me she looks tons happier. Our group of friends has gone through a lot lately, so I want you, all of you to know, I'll love you forever, despite the ties that are going to be severed by graduation. You've made me who I am today.

Thanks for reading, guys.

]]> ~autumnava Meadows of Heaven http://autumnava.deviantart.com/journal/23275317/ http://autumnava.deviantart.com/journal/23275317/ Wed, 18 Feb 2009 16:43:07 PST 1. Put Your iTunes, windows media player, MP3player, etc. on Shuffle
2. For each question, press the next button to get your answer.
3. YOU MUST WRITE THAT SONG NAME DOWN NO MATTER HOW SILLY IT SOUNDS
4. Put any comments in brackets after the song name

Are you male or female?
Signal Fire

Describe yourself!
These Hard Times

What do people feel when they're around you?
Misery Business ( T___T )

Describe your current relationship.
Faint ( Fuck no. xD )

Where would you like to be now?
Dream On ( Sleep. Wooot.)

How do you feel about love?
Re-Education ( Through Labor) (True. Love teaches a lot of lessons. )

What's your life like?
Last of the Wilds (FUCK YEA! !@$!@#)

What would you ask for if you had only one wish?
Dead Reckoning ( What? o_O)

Say something wise.
No More Sorrow.

If someone says "is this okay?" you say...
Points of Authority ( RESPECT MAH AUTHORITAH!)

What do you like in a guy/girl?
The Islander ( I like dem ruggish ones.)

How do you feel today?
From Yesterday ( Because today doesn't exist.)

What is your life's purpose?
Hallelujah

What is your motto?
May It Be

What do you think of your parents?
Hot N' Cold (LOLOL. One's got a temper and the others dead. XDD )

What do you think about very often?
Superman (Claaaaaark. Mmmmmmm....)

What is 2 + 2?
Breaking the Habit ( I thought it was fish? )

What do you think of your best friend?
The Begining is the End is the Begining ( Whut? Paradoxical whuzzits?)

What do you think of the person you like?
Animal (LOLOLOLOLOL.)

What is your life story?
Nobody's Listening

What do you want to be when you grow up?
Lux Aeterna ( Requiem for A Dream) (Yes. I want to be the most fucking awesome song in the world.)

What will you dance to at your wedding?
Last of the Wilds (Piano) ( That would actually be pretty sweet.)

What will they play at your funeral?
Until the End (CELEBRATE ME HOARS.)

What is your hobby/interest?
Tick Tick Boom ( Alalalala! Woops. )

What is your biggest fear?
Sahara

What is your biggest secret?
Unknown Soldier ( O_o )

What do you think of your friends?
Vicarious ( We will not be satiated until we see blood.

)

What will you post this as?
Meadows of Heaven

]]> ~autumnava Progress http://autumnava.deviantart.com/journal/22890237/ http://autumnava.deviantart.com/journal/22890237/ Thu, 29 Jan 2009 17:20:27 PST

Xiaos
[link]

- Character Kaya or
Kish from Tokyo Mew Mew

- Character KDx or Kara

If there's anyone else who wants a work from me, feel free to ask, eh?

Another list to help keep track.

THE LIST............................
1. Introduction
2. Love
3. Light
4. Dark
5. Seeking Solace
6. Break Away
7. Heaven
8. Innocence
9. Drive
10. Breathe Again
11. Memory
12. Insanity
13. Misfortune
14. Smile
15. Silence
16. Questioning
17. Blood
18. Rainbow
19. Gray
20. Fortitude
21. Vacation
22. Mother Nature
23. Cat
24. No Time
25. Trouble Lurking
26. Tears
27. Foreign
28. Sorrow
29. Happiness
30. Under the Rain
31. Flowers
32. Night
33. Expectations
34. Stars
35. Hold My Hand
36. Precious Treasure
37. Eyes
38. Abandoned
39. Dreams
40. Rated
41. Teamwork
42. Standing Still
43. Dying
44. Two Roads
45. Illusion
46. Family
47. Creation
48. Childhood
49. Stripes
50. Breaking the Rules
51. Sport
52. Deep in Thought
53. Keeping a Secret
54. Tower
55. Waiting
56. Danger Ahead
57. Sacrifice
58. Kick in the Head
59. No Way Out
60. Rejection
61. Fairy Tale
62. Magic
63. Do Not Disturb
64. Multitasking
65. Horror
66. Traps
67. 67%
68. Hero
69. Annoyance
70. Playing the Melody
71. Obsession
72. Mischief Managed
73. I Can't
74. Are You Challenging Me?
75. Mirror
76. Broken Pieces
77. Test
78. Drink
79. Starvation
80. Words
81. Pen and Paper
82. Can You Hear Me?
83. Heal
84. Out Cold
85. Spiral
86. Seeing Red
87. Food
88. Pain
89. Through the Fire
90. Triangle
91. Drowning
92. All That I Have
93. Give Up
94. Last Hope
95. Advertisement
96. In the Storm
97. Safety First
98. Puzzle
99. Solitude
100. Relaxation

]]> ~autumnava Open http://autumnava.deviantart.com/journal/22779674/ http://autumnava.deviantart.com/journal/22779674/ Sat, 24 Jan 2009 10:47:00 PST
I don't really feel like pouring my heart out into a journal right now, so I'll try to keep it short. I'm stressed out because my senior year is coming to a close, and scholarships are raining down on me like rocks. Money is tight and my mother couldn't be more stupid if you'd have hit her in the head with a baseball bat when she came out of the womb. I'm eighteen now, and guess what? I'm even doing the bills now. On the first of February, I get the money orders, I get the bills filed, and I pay them. Goes to show who's really taking care of the family. I feel bad for my sister when I leave. Who knows how she'll end up.

OH ANOTHER NOTE. I am actually not in a bad mood. Don't mind the fruitless rant above. It's good to be back and frequent deviantart again. I even showed up right when they gave us new user pages. It's not all bad. I'll probably post a lot on all of your works now, so hopefully I don't get my ear chewed off.

By the way, I GOT BETTER DIDN'T I?

I'm so proud.

]]> ~autumnava January 9th, 2009... http://autumnava.deviantart.com/journal/22481070/ http://autumnava.deviantart.com/journal/22481070/ Fri, 09 Jan 2009 02:17:46 PST
But. I have received the wonders of cable internet and will now be amongst you once more. If you want me.

Of course, I'm not too excited. Maybe because it's only five in the morning, but I just don't feel too hyped up on the birthday thing. Except that I'm 18.

I can get free pROn now. <_<

]]> ~autumnava No Subject http://autumnava.deviantart.com/journal/21837102/ http://autumnava.deviantart.com/journal/21837102/ Fri, 05 Dec 2008 19:07:14 PST
I'm going to the Art Institute of Pittsburgh. My starting date is October 5th, and I move in the last week of September. Yay.

And, I'm planing on traveling to England for a small fraction of time for my summer vacation. Hopefully I can get the money in time.

There. Two legitimate reasons why I haven't said anything since August. And excuses that hide my laziness from you all. Oops.

I've got dozens of drawings but I'm just terribly too lazy to put them up. Sorry. Maybe one of these days you'll get to see how much I improved. >:3

Hope you're all doing well.

]]> ~autumnava Urban Quiz http://autumnava.deviantart.com/journal/19937871/ http://autumnava.deviantart.com/journal/19937871/ Wed, 13 Aug 2008 16:09:22 PDT
It's been...uh...a while, huh?

Well, I've gotten way better, but there's no telling you that seeing as I've been too lazy to put it up. Besides, I don't feel like kissing ass to get comments.

Much love, for I have been accepted into PTI and am on the highroad to college. It's a great school, and I can't wait to call it home.

Hopefully my lazy ass friends will submit their applications. -_-

oints:

---------------

1) Your name?
Victoria - [I don't care. I liked this one better. =\ ]
Victoria (n): pretty much the most awesome person you will ever hope to meet. many people try to be as ballin as victoria but in many cases do not succeed. victorias are pretty awesome and pretty much the greatest thing since...there basically goddesses and are super gorgeous! <3

2) Your age?:
17
The right age to start having sex, according to Chef on South Park.
...heh.

3) One of your friends?
Deanna
Divine or beautiful.

4) What should you be doing?
Nothing
Actually means "something," but is used when you don't feel like explaining.

5) Favorite Food?
Watermelon
A favorite food among the negrafolk.
Sup, nigga?

6) Hometown?
Rochester
A upstate NY city in which the main attraction are the filthy panhandlers downtown!

7) Middle name?
Lelanie
Nothing. x_x

8) Car you drive/ want?
EVO
A mitsubishi Lancer Evolution, known as the Lancer EVO for short, or even just EVO.

9) Last person you talked to on the phone?
Amy
to take, hold, or steal your heart. a person who is a soulmate. a good lover.

10) Last name?
Brown
an East Indian person
...yep.

]]> ~autumnava Getting Critique http://autumnava.deviantart.com/journal/19255174/ http://autumnava.deviantart.com/journal/19255174/ Mon, 07 Jul 2008 13:23:11 PDT
[link]

Also - for anyone who wants to join a Sexy party. --> [link]

]]> ~autumnava To America http://autumnava.deviantart.com/journal/19200183/ http://autumnava.deviantart.com/journal/19200183/ Fri, 04 Jul 2008 10:27:26 PDT

A shout to the soldiers, who, regardless of the hipocracy of our home government, dedicate their lives to preserving the Constitution, and the lives and rights of all Americans both living and past.

Hope you all see some great fireworks, and have an excellent day.

]]> ~autumnava <_> http://autumnava.deviantart.com/journal/19094719/ http://autumnava.deviantart.com/journal/19094719/ Sat, 28 Jun 2008 14:53:21 PDT
Uh...

I posted?

?

Well, with my lack of nets and my not caring, I still haven't found a way of posting much. Besides, I haven't drawn much lately anyway. I have a painting underway, but I can't submit it without a decent camera. ;-;

Buuut...my appointment at The Art Institute is in August, so I may just be right around the corner to college. It's...weird. A senior already.

And, for the millionth time, I'll ask, what's up guys? Anything new?

]]> ~autumnava Hi. http://autumnava.deviantart.com/journal/18673829/ http://autumnava.deviantart.com/journal/18673829/ Thu, 05 Jun 2008 05:24:11 PDT
Well, it's been a long time, and my life's been a little clustered. Inbetween my appendix, the SAT's, my finals, college application, etc., etc., I barely have the time to come online anymore. I've done at least three huge projects in between now and Feburary, all of which I have no way of showing them to you. I have a giant acrylic of a Siberian tiger, which is my first. I'm amazingly proud of it.

So I guess I haven't spoken to you all in a while. I got a thousand views in my absence, which I have no idea how that happened, but regardless, it feels good to be back in DA. I missed it here.

I don't have much time these days, seeing as we've still got one week left of school because of our school's strike. Then, after that, I really don't feel like going to the computer lab everyday and hunching over a computer surrounded by strangers for six hours. Nuh uh.

I will, however, put up a few things so you guys can see how much better I've gotten. Believe me - after I took anatomy class things just came into perspective.

That is, if anyone's still alive to see. Lol.

]]> ~autumnava ...D:< http://autumnava.deviantart.com/journal/17113083/ http://autumnava.deviantart.com/journal/17113083/ Fri, 29 Feb 2008 06:13:46 PST
Hah. I didn't know I could actually feel that much pain, either. I was told that pregnancy is a breeze in comparison.

Long story short I was going through some heavy stomach pains last Monday, then Tuesday I couldn't sit or stand or even breathe without it feeling like a knife in my right side. Turns out I had appendicitus, and it was acute, too. They scared me when they said it would have burst if I hadn't actually told someone about the pain I was having.

Happily, however, I'm back in school already and get to look at the pretty depression in my side.

I figured I drop a note to tell why I haven't been around, and it just so happens I'm only here on chance in my math class. No worries. I feel bad about not submitting anything lately - I have improved alot recently. Alot has changed, too. It's hard to describe, but when your Senior year is looming over you, things seem to look different in a way.

Hopefully I can get some stuff up soon. That is, if anyone's still around. It's so dead around here.

Thanks for reading.
Peace.

]]> ~autumnava o_O Tommorow is...January 9th. http://autumnava.deviantart.com/journal/16316004/ http://autumnava.deviantart.com/journal/16316004/ Tue, 08 Jan 2008 13:35:04 PST
It's been so looong. >\

I MISSED YOU.

HOW COULD YOU ABANDON ME?!

...I see how it is. ;-;

No love.

Lol. That's the reaction I plainly expect. I post a journal, people post, and I don't even have the dignity to respond. Well, to answer anyone's question, yes, my head is okay. My life's been terribly hectic, and I felt the need to at least stop by the computer lab and remind myself that tomorrow is NOT*cough* my birthday. Again.

Joy!

I've never had it on a school day, or at least not since my middle school years. Goody gumdrops this'll be fun.

So, give me an update. What have you all been up to? How were your holidays? Did you get what you wanted? I mean, sure, we had our fair share of family to deal with, but it couldn't be all bad. Me and my 360 are beeeest friends.

I'm sorry, also, that I cannot and have not been posting in your art and journals. I've been absent so long that my messages have piled up so much I or any other human could never answer them all. I'll get to some of them, of course, but if there's something you really want me to look at, just message me.

That is...if I still have anyone that reads up on my page. o_O

And when did I get over 4,500 pageviews? Maybe I should do something.

Anyway. I don't know when I'll be fully back online - I just haven't the time to sit down anymore. College is right around the corner and I've got a final project to start, as well as the splendid amount of homework 11th grade is providing. So...yeah. Maybe I'll pop up every once in a while.

So...I'm done now. Much, much, much love, and hopefully this year my 17th birthday will be far better.

]]> ~autumnava D:< http://autumnava.deviantart.com/journal/15733247/ http://autumnava.deviantart.com/journal/15733247/ Fri, 30 Nov 2007 10:39:44 PST
*listens to the echo.*

Uh...I'm sorry. Really, I am. I wish I could go to all of my regular sites and appoligize, but this is the only place that I have time. My last what...three journals have been lengthy appolgies for being absent and not commenting. It's so sad. ;-;

But I still love you guys.

I lost my internet, due to an accident where my laptop fell onto my head and broke. Long story. But...once Christmas is over with and we break into the new year, I can sit down with a new laptop, and tell you all about my long, looooooong vaccation. Does that sound agreeable?

Haha. That is if you're even reading this. =\

I do have to note this, though. I went to Pitsburgh, and I am absolutely blown away by the college I'm going to. And I'm SURE I'm going to it, too. Hopefully I can tell you more about it. The city scares me a little, actually.

Anyway...would you guys like to see some of the sketches I did? I mean...they're not much, but at least they're a little something. Right?

I hope you're all really well. If you need anything, don't hesitate to ask.

]]> ~autumnava Lotas Stuff. http://autumnava.deviantart.com/journal/14984953/ http://autumnava.deviantart.com/journal/14984953/ Tue, 09 Oct 2007 12:43:38 PDT
My school has officially gone on strike, and I have no idea when I'm going back to school. It actually kind of ticks me off, because I have plans for college. Then again, teachers have rights too, so I'm not going to be a hypocrite about it.

I swear, most of my watchers are gone. x3 Like, vanished. I only got two comments on my last deviation - which is pretty sad, even for me. XD Maybe I'm not the one that should be appoligizing for vanishing!

Anyway, we're in need of roleplayers here --> [link] because we moved it to a different hosting site that has a much more eye-pleasing value to it. If any of you roleplay, join up. I'd appreciate it kindly.

And I will end with something my stupid friend tagged me with, just because I feel like actually doing one.

1. Post these rules
2. Each person tagged must post 9 random (hopefully interesting) facts about themselves
3. Those who have been tagged should write a journal of these facts
4. At the end of the post 9 more bloggers are tagged and named
5. Go to their page and leave a comment telling them they're tagged

1. I like spinach.
2. Someone got me to actually say 'I'm pretty.'
3. My walls are nothing but my characters from ceiling to floor.
4. Sight is for suckers.
5. I write smutt and give it out like it's candy.
6. My middle name is Hawaiian. 'Leilanie.'
7. I've never had Vault.
8. My irises aren't round, they're shaped like a nebula.
9. I'm not wearing a shirt.

Whoever, whoever, whoever, whoever, whoever, whoever, whoever, whoever, and whoever.

]]> ~autumnava Devious Journal Entry http://autumnava.deviantart.com/journal/14771856/ http://autumnava.deviantart.com/journal/14771856/ Mon, 24 Sep 2007 12:22:45 PDT

Well, a lot of you really won't get this, because I can see I'm not the only one that vanished. I apologize - for the millionth time - for vanishing. It's just how my life is.

Sometimes I like to get on, others, I just don't really feel up to it. I have, however, been drawing a lot. I just don't have the time to put them up right now. I haven't had much heart in art right now - even my projects in art, which I'm normally really hyped up about, aren't giving me the juice I need. I've been writing like HELL, though. It's just sad I haven't been really focused on the things I should be. Like my book.

I even got a really angry person online yelling at me because I'd stopped roleplaying.

I feel so guilty.
Uhm...otherwise, I'm cool. What about you guys? I haven't spoken to you all in almost two months, so I'm sure things have happened that I don't know about. Is school fun? XD Hahaha. That was a dumb question.

Anyway, I hope you're all doing well.

Peace. <3

]]> ~autumnava Devious Journal Entry http://autumnava.deviantart.com/journal/14364697/ http://autumnava.deviantart.com/journal/14364697/ Mon, 27 Aug 2007 12:44:21 PDT [link]

It's just me and

and it's really lonely. I guess I shouldn't let her do all of the advertising, so I'm going to go everywhere I frequent and spam like hell. LIKE HEEEEELLL.

Anyway, yeah. I'm going to submit a few drawings...say, tomorrow. Alright? So be prepared. Put on some superawesomezomgprotectthineeyesglasses.

Today was the first day of school. I have to say...it was great. Or at least, for me it was. I mean, there were some times where I had to be alone, or listen to idiots being idiots, but I can manage that. My teachers are great, my best friends are in a lot of my classes, and I got a good nights sleep, even though I'm as sick as a cow. My headaches still haven't gone away, though sadly, I won't be able to find out what's wrong with me until December. Oh well.

So...yeah. That's all I've got to rant about. My cat's probably at home, driving my mother mad because of her separation issues. Did I tell you guys I got a new kitten a few weeks ago? Here's there kicker, for those of you who know who my characters are. I named her Fianna.

And she acts in PERFECT sync with her, too.

Peace.

]]> ~autumnava ZOMG. http://autumnava.deviantart.com/journal/14197869/ http://autumnava.deviantart.com/journal/14197869/ Thu, 16 Aug 2007 14:45:09 PDT
In other news...

[link]
I'm up to 25 chapters in my story now! I'm so proud of myself.

Also...

You guys are dunces. I ask for requests, and what do I get? People offering ME requests. Bah. *gets cast iron-skillet.* Time to run the gauntlet, guys.

So...yeah. Sorry. Quick journal. I have a headache again ( duh ) and I'm off to destroy my sister.

]]> ~autumnava Much, much love. http://autumnava.deviantart.com/journal/14150039/ http://autumnava.deviantart.com/journal/14150039/ Mon, 13 Aug 2007 13:40:22 PDT

I've been getting better, haven't I? Like, I'm in the middle of a major cleaning of my gallery, and I was about ready to cry when I reached the beginning of 2006. I'm quite proud of myself, realizing how careless I was with my sketching back then.

Schools coming. This is the first time I haven't actually looked forward to it. This summer, perhaps, is one of the better that I've had. I'm sure my friends would agree with me, too. There have been some ups and downs, sure, but with all of this growing up we've been doing, sheesh. x3

Also. Anyone who reads this journal, go HERE -->

She needs attention, and lots of it. Me and her have both been moping around about how little attention we get unless we kiss ass on every site we go to get comments. Not that I'm saying I don't love my watchers, it's just, you know, I don't get heavy stuff anymore. You're all so used to seeing my crap that your eyes have gotten natural protection. XD

Anyway, as an official thank you, I want to give out some free sketches. That is, if you even read this. >

I love you guys.

]]> ~autumnava Well... http://autumnava.deviantart.com/journal/14074193/ http://autumnava.deviantart.com/journal/14074193/ Wed, 08 Aug 2007 11:38:00 PDT
Yesterday, at around nine in the evening, my mother got a call. That call just happened to be my Uncle, giving my mother the news that the three of us ( my sister, my mother, and I ) have been waiting for for quite some time now.

My father passed away, after almost two years of being on his deathbed. Now this is where I don't want you to misunderstand my feelings. I know my uncle may be reading this one day - who knows. I put my feelings as thus, so that I myself won't be confused for the rest of my life.

I respect the dead - their life has ended, and it would make me the scum of the earth to take them or their existence in vain after their crossing. I believe in the respect of such values, and want to assure my family - I hold no grudges against my father, regardless of what he may have done to me in the past. I haven't seen him in over six years - thats a lot of time to accept his nonexistence.

The problem I'm having, the confusion, is the feeling of guilt when I see other people weeping over him and I'm not. Almost like a criminal, mind you. Should I be crying? I feel I cannot - I feel will not. But does that make it disrespectful? I don't see how.

I will not be going to the viewing this Friday - I find funerals quite pointless. I would like to ask my available friends if they have room for me to stay with them - I feel I need a little company this weekend.

All I can say, without feeling guilty about it, knowing that others will be reading this, is that I am grateful that you brought me into this world - but that's all. Rest in Peace.

]]> ~autumnava Heal Meh. http://autumnava.deviantart.com/journal/13988859/ http://autumnava.deviantart.com/journal/13988859/ Thu, 02 Aug 2007 15:44:31 PDT
I've been having searing headaches everyday for the past three months - no exaggerations. I don't even tell my friends anymore, because they know - "Victoria ALWAYS has a headache."

That and my stomach has been acting up, just to add to the fact that I'm feeling horrible emotionally, but that's probably me just being a wussy. My confidence has been going on a huge roller coaster ride of ups and downs, and I wish I could just sit down and be happy. I hold crap against myself that happened months ago with my friends, even if they've already forgiven me.

And my arts are teh terrrrrible. Hur, hur. But I always say that, don't I?

Anyway, a short rant. Yeah. Sorry about the load of crappy art I dumped on you. *dies.*

]]> ~autumnava Devious Journal Entry http://autumnava.deviantart.com/journal/13770626/ http://autumnava.deviantart.com/journal/13770626/ Tue, 17 Jul 2007 13:44:14 PDT

RULES:
1. Put your iTunes, Windows Media Player, etc. on shuffle.
2. For each question, press the next button to get your answer.
3. You must write down that song name no matter what!
4. Put any comments in parentheses after the song name.

If someone says Âis this okay?Â you say,
Signal Fire
[Lawl.]

How would you describe yourself?
Hey You
[Âyeeeeah.]

What do you like in a guy/girl?
Lonely Train
[Ooooh, Lovely LonelyÂ]

How do you feel today?
Paralyzer
[Yowzah! :3 ]

What is your lifeÂs purpose?
What IÂve Done
[Duh?]

What is your motto?
The Diary of Jane
[I donÂt even know who Jane is. Lmao. ]

What do your friends think of you?
The End of Heartache
[YEAH RIGHT. ROFLMFAO. ]

What do you think of your parents?
Less Talk more Rokk
[Hell yea, bitchez. My moms the bomb.]

What do you think about very often?
The Diary of Jane [acoustic]
[Haha. I have OCD. ]

What is 2 + 2?
The Kill
[Two humans, three humans, four humans, die! ]

What do you think of your best friend?
The War
[ XD. ]

What do you think of the person you like?
In the Air Tonight
[Oh, can you feel the loooooove toniiiiight?]

What is your life story?
Time after Time
[Indeed.]

What do you want to be when you grow up?
Fat Lip
[HAHAHA.]

What do you think of when you see the person you like?
My Curse
[Irony? Is that you knocking on my door?]

What will you dance to at your wedding?
Anna Molly
[ Yesssssss.]

What will they play at your funeral?
Lightning Crashes
[Whoa. Seriously. IÂd love that.]

What is your hobby/interest?
Woman
[I ARE NOT A LEZBO. *cough.* ]
What is your biggest fear?
One Thing
[And IÂm not telling. o_O]

What is your biggest secret?
Wolfen
[Haha. If thatÂs that same as AmandaÂs, IÂm going to die laughing. ]

What do you think of your friends?
Du Hast
[You Hate? Tch, you know I love you.]

What will you post this as?
Beast and the Harlot
[WHORE ALERT. Weewoo!]

-----------------------

Anyways, I just submitted my most recent digital work. It's so...blaaaargh...Oh well. It was a first, so at least I tried.

Sorry, again, for vanishing like that. I keep forgetting to get on because of how busy I am with my story and family problems. You know, all that louzy crap.

Who got to see Transformers? It was The. Best. Movie. Evar. I want that air freshener soooo bad...

And what about E3? Did anyone see that? I was a little disappointed that it was closed to the public, but at least it was aired live. Microsoft won my vote before it even started. Halo 3, bitches. Halo 3.

Hope you've been well! Ciao.

]]> ~autumnava <3 http://autumnava.deviantart.com/journal/13566699/ http://autumnava.deviantart.com/journal/13566699/ Sun, 01 Jul 2007 16:55:13 PDT )

I'm going to start a contest, perhaps, but I need to see if any of you are interested! I don't have frequent commenter's as much as others, so I don't know if I'll have enough entries. It'd be nice, though.

I'm so sorry for not posting on a lot of you guys' artwork. I looked through the majority of it and was impressed by how good you guys are getting ( unlike me. o_0 ).

It astounds me how arrogant some of the more popular people on this site are. This place frustrates me. Some people with as little views as me deserve a lot more, but don't get it. *snarls.*

Anyway, I'm back, or at least mostly. If there's anything you'd like to see from me that I might be good at, go ahead and suggest it. Thank you.

Haha. I love the obsessed emocon. ]]> ~autumnava No. http://autumnava.deviantart.com/journal/13496935/ http://autumnava.deviantart.com/journal/13496935/ Tue, 26 Jun 2007 10:03:21 PDT
Last night on the USA network the three hour special of Raw was dedicated to the memory and life of the Benoit family. Today, only moments ago, I learned that their deaths were the result of a double murder-suicide. [link]

I'm just too...I don't know.

Humans make me sick. I'm sorry.

]]> ~autumnava 4l1\/3! http://autumnava.deviantart.com/journal/13434325/ http://autumnava.deviantart.com/journal/13434325/ Thu, 21 Jun 2007 14:43:36 PDT

Still on vacation, though. Psh, like you care. o_O

Anyway, new account!

I will be hosting my story here! This is for all of you who love to read, and love to read mature romantic fantasy...stuff. You know. I will warn you now, it is VERY mature, and contains malexmale romance. Bad, bad stuffers. Blood, gore, you know, the works.

I WILL BE ALIVE AGAIN...SOONER OR LATER.

]]> ~autumnava Blah. http://autumnava.deviantart.com/journal/13126757/ http://autumnava.deviantart.com/journal/13126757/ Mon, 28 May 2007 14:47:17 PDT
I'll stop in every once in a while, don't worry, but for the most part, you won't be seeing from the Victoria as much. My dumb friend broke my internet card, and I'm paying for it. Oh well, I needed to take a long break anyway.

Have a safe, warm, and wonderful summer, wherever you may live.

By the way, Potc3 was a great movie. I, personally, think they could have done better. They put it together much too quickly and it was rather choppy in certain places. The cinematography was impressive, though, and the characters were as interesting as they've always been. If you want to go see it, don't worry, it's worth watching.

Peace out, luvs.

]]> ~autumnava Devious Journal Entry http://autumnava.deviantart.com/journal/12956190/ http://autumnava.deviantart.com/journal/12956190/ Mon, 14 May 2007 17:06:52 PDT
I am, right at this moment, a pulsating estrogen Molotov cocktail. Right now, I'm calm, but about and hour and a half ago I was ready to tear someone a knew hole.

My mother is cool. She doesn't prohibit me from doing things, like watch R rated movies or play M rated games. She lets me stay out late and I can invite friends without even asking. I can take care of myself, and I'm well aware of my high grades and outstanding loyalty to her.

One problem in that heavenly equation.

She's fucking lazy.

She takes her pills and sleeps all day, then wakes up and takes off with her boyfriend or watches TV. I don't get much attention - I live alone in my room. I'm like a house maid, too. She makes me babysit when she takes off to have fun, I have to do the dishes, clean my room, change the cat litter box, and so on. It's rare to even have a cooked dinner these days. I have to cook for myself and my sister, and most of the time when she does cook I'm never made anything.

I understand that this is a typical teenage situation, and I'm not the only teen loaded with chores like these, but my mother has NO job, and does absolutely nothing. She lets me do what I want, and we get along well enough, but I can't help but let out my feelings when she complains about ME not doing anything. When I feel I need to voice how I feel, then the war starts.

Today, when I walked in, I was already in a raging mood. The monthly thing had started, and she wouldn't leave me alone when I went to fix the problem. I came down and I didn't get a 'How was your day,' but 'I have a note for you. Its bingo night. And you have to do your own laundry from now on.'

Laundry was the only thing that she EVER did. EVER. Now I have to do pretty much everything. I might as well be the one that owns the damn place, but seeing as we're actually being PAID to live here, I don't think I deserve to hear this from someone who doesn't have a job or a life.

She even uses MY social security money to buy her cigarettes, and other necessities. Ever since she got her knew boyfriend everything has been shifting to my shoulders, and it's driving me up the wall.

Even worse - finals are coming. They're standing at my door, pounding. I've got to study like crazy, and I hope to god I make it out of these last three weeks of school alive.

Sorry for the long read.

Peace.

]]> ~autumnava Frustrated. http://autumnava.deviantart.com/journal/12930509/ http://autumnava.deviantart.com/journal/12930509/ Sat, 12 May 2007 14:22:21 PDT
By the way, if you've already read it, read it again. I added and fixed a lot of things, and am in need for reviews! Please, I'm begging you. <3

[link]

]]> ~autumnava Devious Journal Entry http://autumnava.deviantart.com/journal/12864679/ http://autumnava.deviantart.com/journal/12864679/ Sun, 06 May 2007 14:58:44 PDT

[link]

In other news...hm. Well, lets just say I've gone wild and crazy. I've found a whole CRAP load of awesome artist lately, and I think I may kill myself trying to comment on all their recent stuff. :die:

School is coming to a close, obviously. I may be vanishing again, but will here and there submit a few things. I know lately I've submitted a lot, but it doesn't seem like anyone likes them. xD Poo on you people who look and not comment.

Ah well, no big deal. I haven't actually sat down and enjoyed writing a journal on DA in a while. I wanted to say hi and ask how all of you are doing, but most of you are too busy to even look at this journal. o_O

I'll sumarize it to one question. If you love mah, RAISE YOUR HANDS!

Of course, I love all of you too. I'm not conceded like that.

]]> ~autumnava Lah, lah, lah. http://autumnava.deviantart.com/journal/12807450/ http://autumnava.deviantart.com/journal/12807450/ Tue, 01 May 2007 18:44:46 PDT
I seriously hope I made up for all of the times I didn't comment. That's probably half the reason none of you look at my stuff. Cuz I don't look at yours. ;-; I'm really sorry about that.

Nooow, I'm going to make this short and sweet. I'm thanking all of you for your wonderful posts on my VA Tech Journal. I'm glad some of you think the way I do.

On a side note, I hope my most recent works haven't offended you in any way. I'm sorry if they did. If you want to know why I did writings and drawings like that, I guess I'll give you the straight up answer. I'm not restricted by the fear of what other people say about what I draw and write. Some people may think me really fucked up, others may think me very creative and inventive. Either way you interpret it, its art. No lies. And to those of you who enjoyed them, I'm really thankful for that.

Aaaand, in conclusion, I'm doing a little advertisement for both me and my best friend. We've been writing, a lot, and I promised her I'd advertise for her.

This is my friend,

's fanfiction about Matt and J3ff Hardy from the WWE. Mostly for wrestling fans, but its soft and really a lovely read. She's still working on it, but I'll follow it till' I die. ---> [link]

I, myself, have decided to post the rest of my own works on fictionpress and fanfiction so that I can relate more to people in that field. Of course, I'll still give a few links here and there, but that's bout' it.

A Dream Knot --> [link] [Thank yar, Jade, for your lovely review.]

Aaand, my slash of Matt and J3ff. This IS explicit and should only be viewed by mature and civilized beings with a head on their shoulders. Otherwise, it was quite fun. <3 -->[link]

]]> ~autumnava Heeey, homes. http://autumnava.deviantart.com/journal/12755591/ http://autumnava.deviantart.com/journal/12755591/ Fri, 27 Apr 2007 14:12:18 PDT
[link]

Oooh, and I'm sooo sorry I haven't posted on everyones art lately. One, I'm lazy. Two, I'm been soooo busy. I can't believe how much I've missed.

ALSO! I seriously want you guys to read my newest work continued on FictionPress. It's too much of a hassle to keep submitting it here because of the tag system.

Please, good god, give me some reviews. ;-;

[link]

]]> ~autumnava VA Tech. http://autumnava.deviantart.com/journal/12663712/ http://autumnava.deviantart.com/journal/12663712/ Fri, 20 Apr 2007 05:27:20 PDT
The responses of people to this are varried in that all of them are relatively cliched and say the same thing in every incident. 9/11. Katrina. Iraq. They all say the same thing. Bush, you need to open your fucking eyes. Schools across the nation are going to increase their security severly and the slightest thing is going to set them off like we're at war!

This was one fucked up kid; there's nothing we could have done to stop his stupid ass mistake. He shot 32 people and then boom, he shot himself. What was his reasoning, people ask. It doesn't matter what his reasoning is! You should be worried about the families, the friends, the teachers and people who died in this event. It wasn't something like Katrina, 9/11, or Iraq. It was someone INSIDE our own society. One of US. How much are we really fucked up? Are we even seeing a clearer picture? No. Why? Because we're stupid, retarded, thriving off of drama, human beings.

Live another day, because yesterday is not tommorow. There were NO womd. in Afganistan. Osama Bin Ladin was NOT directly connected to 9/11. And the war has lasted longer than two years because BUSH IS BLOWING THINGS OUT OF PROPORTION. Look at America. A free country indeed. I feel for the families, I feel for the dead, I feel for the friends, and I even feel for the man who shot himself because SOMETHING must have driven him to do something so horrendous that he was either too ashamed to live on or afraid that if he didn't leave some kind of impression, people would forget who he was.

Open your eyes.

We're not going to be having a Utopia anytime soon.

]]> ~autumnava Hey. Happy Easter. http://autumnava.deviantart.com/journal/12513565/ http://autumnava.deviantart.com/journal/12513565/ Sun, 08 Apr 2007 17:04:58 PDT

Well, I don't know when it started, but my mother tends to actually get us gifts on easter. She says its better than giving us candy and rotting our teeth. She still ends up getting us candy anyhow.

I got the new Chevelle CD, Vena Sera. <3 <3
How about you? I got two packages of Peeps, a solid chocolate giant hersheys kiss, a crispy chocolate bunny, a bag of hersheys kisses, a bag of recesses easter eggs, and another bag of solid chocolate eggs. Candy! :]

Uhm...other than that, I hope you all have a safe and lovely easter with lots of love and candy. Oh, and if you all pitch in, throw a whole load of character names at me and I'll make a big chibi drawing. It doesn't matter who's characters, yours, mine, anyones.

]]> ~autumnava Looking back. http://autumnava.deviantart.com/journal/12364916/ http://autumnava.deviantart.com/journal/12364916/ Wed, 28 Mar 2007 15:56:37 PDT I can't help it; was my anatomy really that bad?

My most recent artworks have been utterly horrible in execution, and I know I've been making you all go through a crazy hell. My perspective needs a LOT of work, so soon you'll find me putting up strictly confidential perspective pictures that will be in heavy need of criticism. I sure hope thats okay, because recently I just got totally bashed again. Thank to you guys I got through it, thought it was kinda hard to handle someone dishing out 2/10 on your sketches.

Oh, well, I don't feel like putting that stupid unhappiness into my journal. I know some people who read this that don't tell me.

Anyhow, I was thinking about making a friends list as well as start up my next contest! Of course, I have to know if anyone is interested this time. Don't say it and not enter. You HAVE to enter if you say you're going to. >< I don't get enough entires because I'm not big and popular. Of course, I'm partly glad I'm not.

Peace.

]]> ~autumnava Bah, humbug. http://autumnava.deviantart.com/journal/12338540/ http://autumnava.deviantart.com/journal/12338540/ Mon, 26 Mar 2007 15:41:53 PDT
DO NOT mistake these for anatomical mistakes. It's irritating to reply to, and someone with even a tiny bit of sense on the creative side of their brains can tell that someone with wings and a tail, as well as arched heels and pointed ears that can hear for two miles, with NOT have a normal proportional torso.

...yeah. Now that that angry rant is over, how are you all? I know I don't get replies out of most of you because you're really busy or have other things to do, but I just feel like busting out the question.

I've been leafing through some really talented people on DA and feel like I'm seriously not up to par. That or people who keep tearing me down have been doing really good at their jobs. HATE ME BUT DON'T HURT ME. ><

Anyhow, I wasn't hoping for Summer to come dead quick, but the heat came before Spring even started. I moved from a winter jacket the size of a polar bear to a tank top and a zip up hoodie as thin as paper. Anyone else having that kind of problem?

's for everyone who doesn't hate me. ( No one raise their hands. )

]]> ~autumnava A quick hello. http://autumnava.deviantart.com/journal/12152443/ http://autumnava.deviantart.com/journal/12152443/ Mon, 12 Mar 2007 05:32:29 PDT
I don't have anywhere else to put this because I can't save it to the schools computer without loosing it.

His appearance didnt faze her in the least. Impressive, of course, but she was never one to moon over the physique of the opposite sex. A near impassive look crossed her face before pure amusement lingered on in the form of a chuckle.

For a while she didnt respond to his words, leaning back and taking the rag across her hands, wiping them clean of the dirt and grime picked up from her surroundings. It wasnt a place to live, but it was somewhere. Shed rather be here than locked up in a metal cage surrounded by pig-eyed freaks with nothing better to do than care about their own selfish wants. She had been living in someones house and eating all of their food, after all. The thing shed miss the most, however, would be the painting. Having a brush in her hand made her feel safe, more secure. Now she just felt naked in a world of impure human beings.

For now, this would have to do.

For where you are, youre in a rundown building off the corner of the Tops Club and the Industrial Boulevard. Rich people, mind you. The woman shifted on her feet, standing with a strange inhuman grace like a hawk swooping into the skies. She added with a shrug, As for my name, Im not telling. She never was one for titles, but just throwing out her name to random people who collapse inside strange buildings wasnt one of her comforts. She wasnt stupid.

As for his name, he received but another shrug in return. ( continued. )

]]> ~autumnava Make up http://autumnava.deviantart.com/journal/12092512/ http://autumnava.deviantart.com/journal/12092512/ Wed, 07 Mar 2007 12:16:46 PST
I'm in a really somber mood, so I don't have much to say. How I feel is quite inexplicable and I can't really explain it thoroughly in words. I've been at a really block lately, and I'm sure the majority of you wondered where I went for such a long time. I think I've lost my care of anything. Why? It just seems like my life is dedicated to making everyone around me happy. My happiness doesn't mean a damn thing. And even when I try to be happy, someone tears me down with them because they're not.

Anyhow...yeah. Make up. I'm going to post as much as I can on all of the deviations that I haven't seen. I apologize for that delay, but my much-hated comments will be on their way.

Heres a little teaser for you l33t fans. Can you read what it says?

/\/\'/ \/\/(-)/-\7 4 l_0\/3l_'/ cl4'/. D0 j00 l_1l<3 l333l2? 1 l_1l<3 l333l2 2.

]]> ~autumnava Of course. http://autumnava.deviantart.com/journal/11814711/ http://autumnava.deviantart.com/journal/11814711/ Wed, 14 Feb 2007 12:39:56 PST

's! V-day. Well, as much as I hate to admit it, even if it's just another wendsday for someone as lonely as myself, you just can't help but spread the <3's. I'm probably going to go to every single one of my watchers, and for each one I will add another heart to my message of love for you.

You don't have to have a bf/gf to spread the love, right? <3 <3

Since I won't get to see some of you today, I just want to point out a special few who hold very special places in my heart.

for being there to cheer me up and knowing that my unsupressed love with be hers for all eternity, as she knows is evident in every post I pump out for her. Till' I die, Raze. Till' I die.

to whom I owe the most of my artist abilities to, as well as a best friendship that has lasted strong since I moved from my past and made a better present with her and my other friends by my side. I don't know how she feels about me, but I know that I'll always love her and will always remember the hugs she gave me when I was down. Rock and Gaze, ftw.

for being one of my first watchers and making me smile when it really counted. <3

for being yet another good friend, sticking with me thin and through, even through some nasty arguments that meant nothing but strength to me. I'll always be a shoulder for you to lean on.

<3

And a lot of extra, heavy hugs for

(I'm sorry I'm such a bitch, call me sometime? <3 ) ,

( best friends forevah! <3 ) ,

, and everyone who's given me a reason to keep drawing.

Sorry for making you read all of that, even if you didn't, but I hope you all know I love you and know that even though I'm almost never on, I still will keep loving that gorgeous art of yours. Till' I die, as I will say forever.

~autumnava Featurette. http://autumnava.deviantart.com/journal/11398188/ http://autumnava.deviantart.com/journal/11398188/ Thu, 11 Jan 2007 12:40:26 PST The first ten people to comment on this part of the journal will be featured in this journal. I'll rummage through your gallery, pick out my three favorite pieces, and put them up for display in my journal. The catch is, of course, you've gotta put this up in your journal - I'll be checking. No cheaters.

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Hey! Omg, I'm so happy. Of course...I feel a little bad for breaking one of my friends presents, but she forgave me. <3 I wuff you.

Shout out to

for making me a wonderful birthday picture, just like she did last year. It really brightened my day.

Another shout to

for always cheering me up when I need it the most, and announcing my Birthday to the whole freaking world. XD Thank you.

I didn't get anything, of course, from my home. Just my friends, but it doesn't really matter. I wish I got a cake, but at least I'll be getting one next week!

Uhmm...anyhow, I'm giving you an advanced warning for another contest! I'm not on as regularly as I'd wish, but it'll come along eventually.

Thanks for reading! <3

]]> ~autumnava Aaaaaand... http://autumnava.deviantart.com/journal/11361954/ http://autumnava.deviantart.com/journal/11361954/ Mon, 08 Jan 2007 12:24:01 PST
Guess who?

Still don't remember?

Are you even thinking?

Wait. Are you even reading?

Hey. How are you all doing? I know, I haven't responded to ANYTHING at all since last year, but who's to have known I would have gone off for so long?

I've released a print of my most recent submission, and if by luck someone buys it, I will be oh so very happy.

But...what would make me even more happy would be for you to know that...tomorrow is my Birthday! HEAR THAT?! MY BIRTHDAY!

Uhmm...yeah. I dunno, I just had to get that out of my system. I've been having huge arguments with my friends, all at my party, which didn't go so well.

I want you all to know that I will be coming back into the DA business and you can hope for future prettiness!

On another note, what do you think I should do for prints? I really want to see them come out like that, on a poster or something. Wouldn't that be neat? I'd think it's a little embarrassing, but otherwise, I wish you all the best.

]]> ~autumnava :] http://autumnava.deviantart.com/journal/11116065/ http://autumnava.deviantart.com/journal/11116065/ Tue, 19 Dec 2006 12:21:35 PST
Haha, okay, done with the POTC obsession and onto the matter at hand. After weeks upon weeks of stress, depression, and over all, no artwork, I feel I may have my muse back. I've had constant headaches every day, a stomach turning over every second I breath, and the sight of a bat during the day. After getting new glasses at last, I have been relieved of some of these symptoms, excluding the fact I had an argument with my friends and family that left me in the pits of my life, and I almost truly was convinced that I had reached the lowest part of my existence.

I am quite rusty in my skills, seeing as I haven't made anything decent when I put pencil to paper in over two months now, I feel that I may make up for that by announcing, if you are reading, a distribution of free sketches!

Of course, there are no catches or anything, I'll just give out freebies to whomever sees fit to post here. I don't normally get anymore than five or six comments anyhow, so might as well give everyone something to look at.

Your request can be anything at all that I can grasp within the limits of my sad, sorry, and deteriorating style.

If you want it in color, I will attempt to do so, in any medium that you prefer.

]]> ~autumnava *Ahem.* http://autumnava.deviantart.com/journal/10867283/ http://autumnava.deviantart.com/journal/10867283/ Mon, 27 Nov 2006 11:36:10 PST
Other than that, I guess I'm going to ask a few random questions to my happy little audience. How was your Thanksgiving, if you had one (if you did something else, tell me), did you enjoy the lovely mashed potatoes and turkey (or whatever else x3), and what, might I ask, did you do on Black Friday?

]]> ~autumnava No one's reading this, so why am I making it? D:= http://autumnava.deviantart.com/journal/10507337/ http://autumnava.deviantart.com/journal/10507337/ Wed, 25 Oct 2006 14:04:31 PDT
I've made a new account! ----->>

It's not even very far in progress, but that's where I'm going to start the 100 themes drawing challenge so that I don't clutter up this gallery. I'll also post up, on permision, the art of anyone and everyone who makes a fanart of my characters! :3 That's still just and idea, though.

â¥ I still don't know about that, but I do know that I must make an appolgy to everyone who's wondered where I've been and why I'm not commenting! Of course, I know that most of you have been busy yourself, but stuff happens, and I'm sure you understand. <3's for everyone.

:] With that said, I'll leave you to your business and say that it was an honor talking to myself. X33

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Works : 100 theme drawing; 1% done on

Gifts/Requests:

- Kaisivi Verus 0% done

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- Janista - 15% done

--Requests are open, so if I forgot a request I was supposed to do or if anyone wants to see me draw something in my own style, then go ahead and ask. I don't mind.

]]> ~autumnava Wewt. http://autumnava.deviantart.com/journal/10350260/ http://autumnava.deviantart.com/journal/10350260/ Tue, 10 Oct 2006 17:11:34 PDT :] Sorry for the delay.

]]> ~autumnava Hey ducks. http://autumnava.deviantart.com/journal/10259522/ http://autumnava.deviantart.com/journal/10259522/ Mon, 02 Oct 2006 12:45:24 PDT
I'm extremely sorry about this, me being gone and all, but I've been having some major issues lately, with inspiration and all. School is getting closer and closer to being a prision each and every day.
I've got thousands of messages. I'm going to go through a select few, and if there are any you think you want me to look at or critque, then just drop me one.

As for me being gone, I have so much to say that I can't fit it all in one short little journal. Besides, you don't want to know what happens to little old Victoria, do you? No, you don't. x3
Aside from the Pirates being one of the crappiest American Baseball teams on the planet, my life hasn't been too eventful.

Hmm....what else? Along the lines of art, I guess you could say that I've been having a laughable streak of ugliness. BIG BLOCK. That is what I shall call it. :\

In an ending statement...what do you think I should draw next? Any themes or requests? I know I've probably forgotten a lot of requests, but please don't get mad at me.

Uh...I think that's it. Baies! :]

]]> ~autumnava ...@_@... http://autumnava.deviantart.com/journal/9986738/ http://autumnava.deviantart.com/journal/9986738/ Wed, 06 Sep 2006 10:33:24 PDT
I'm guessing some of you want to kill me, though right now I'm having to crouch down to hide my screen from the teacher so I can tell you all that I'm still alive. I haven't updated in forever and I've got over four hundred messages to surf through, so I might as well just tell you all that I've been having a serious problem with my artistic side of things these days. Before this morning I have not even tried to pick up a pencil or even attempt at something close to decent. I guess you could say I'm having one of the worst case senario artist blocks that has been jammed up by, not only the overload of school work, but the stupid incident that happened with the camera next week.

Luckily I'll have a picture up today for you to see! <3
It might not be a master piece, but it's a birthday submission for one of my characters, Gaze. It's a little late, but I'm sure he won't care.

Uhmm...oh, and I have this odd feeling that I owe a lot of people art that I have mindlessly forgotten over the last two weeks. If you read this, tell me if you want something drawn for you so I can get myself out of this crazy artist block crap. x3 ]]> ~autumnava .......Okay. http://autumnava.deviantart.com/journal/9886026/ http://autumnava.deviantart.com/journal/9886026/ Mon, 28 Aug 2006 15:04:42 PDT
Point number one, people are immature. Everyone can be, and everyone is at some point. But right now, I just don't understand. I feel distrusted first, because at first this little incident was blamed upon me. Now, I'm not too mad at this fact, but the fact that someone could think of doing this too me in the first place.

Point two, being, that someone took, from my house, a disposable camera. Then, not just the taking of property, they took nude pictures of their rear ends. I don't know much as of this moment, but if someone has the nerve, or hates me that much, I don't think that's much of a practical joke.

I trust my friends with my life, and that being said, I would never think of them doing such a thing, or at least three of them. I have the utmost respect for people, even if they are my worse enemies at things like this. There are no words for how close I was to crying my eyes out, even though it's been two whole years, no lie, since I've done that.

This neighborhood, and these people around here, have no respect at all. I'm not your idealistic vision of beauty, but if you don't have the respect to treat me like a person then your jokes are more immature than anything made just for making you laugh.

That isn't the end of it though. I've been sitting here, going through all four hundred of my messages, and three immature people, all of which I know, take my ID tag for school and hide it from me while I'm busy working on a roleplay.

Right now I'm about ready to colapse, because apparently no one has respect in this era. I know I should be thinking positively, and that I'll make it farther than most of them anyhow, but I just cannot seem to grasp the concept of such actions through amusement right now. I've done nothing to deserve treatment like this, and all on just the first day of school.

Oh, I'm so sorry. You didn't have to read through all of that. I just...needed to get it out of me. ]]> ~autumnava Rawr! http://autumnava.deviantart.com/journal/9678855/ http://autumnava.deviantart.com/journal/9678855/ Thu, 10 Aug 2006 14:01:37 PDT [link] <--- My Freewebs website! Keekee! x3 It's still a work in progress, but if I ever get the money, I'll make it my own domain!

Sign my guestbook and look at my stuffers! There isn't much there yet, but yeah, it was fun to make.

I also need sugestions! Is there any drawings on DA that I should put up there? Or any layout ideas? Gimme input! >__< ]]> ~autumnava Whoa. http://autumnava.deviantart.com/journal/9648471/ http://autumnava.deviantart.com/journal/9648471/ Tue, 08 Aug 2006 13:11:00 PDT
The new layout...not so much to my liking. I can't figure out how to scrap images, and yeah, I'm a total doofus.
On the same track, it's a little too bright at certain times, but it's more pleasing to see than the older one. I just hope they do a little more to it. For now...the feelings neutral.

With that said, I've bastically got little to say than other that I'm alive. I've got several requests to work on, but I still need the other entrees to give me their request for their pics in my contest. For now, here's what I've got.

- Kazin & Lynn - commission for

- Foxx & Seig - commission for

- Character* ? - commission for

Other than that, I'm run out the rear with things to do. Don't worry, I'll get them all done, just give me some time! Oh and I finally got to post on everyone's drawings! x3 Or at least most of them, yeah?

Luff yous!

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