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deviantART: by:baby-alien91 http://search.deviantart.com/?q=by:baby-alien91&section=today deviantART RSS for by:baby-alien91 en-us Copyright 2009, deviantART.com Thu, 26 Nov 2009 21:49:57 PST deviantART.com http://blogs.law.harvard.edu/tech/rss http://s.deviantart.com/minish/widgets/apple-touch-icon-precomposed.png What I learned this morning upon waking up http://baby-alien91.deviantart.com/journal/27988235/ http://baby-alien91.deviantart.com/journal/27988235/ Tue, 27 Oct 2009 01:08:37 PDT This morning, I witnessed the beginning of our solar system in a dream.

The sun was originally a small flat bar of orange, much like a 1x4 line of pixels. It then unfolded itself a few times (similar to a bamboo mat for rolling sushi) and was four lines or varying length on top of each other... once again very pixellated. Then one line lengthened forever along the horizon, then heightened... like the opposite motion of the light of a TV screen turning off... suddenly WILD SATURN HAS APPEARED! Not actually... well actually kinda yeah it was pretty big and out there, and vibrant as fuck.

And then all the planets were hanging out at the pub later. Turns out that the reason that the planets are in the order that they're in is because Venus, a big pink balloon with giant breasts was too attracted to Mars and kept messing with his orbit accidentally from floating over too close, so Earth intervened and separated them to avoid a planetary collision. Shortly after, Venus popped and was replaced by the most convenient, qualified balloon: a small red one hovering near the window, because it had a very Goldilocks/Littlest Bear quality to it... not too big, not too small, just right.

_{_{_{Afterwards I had another crazy dream about The Office... too long and strange of a storyline to get into there. Let's just say after I realized no matter how much Jim Halpert loved me, he would always choose Pam over me (which I was fine with, it's CLEARLY the right thing) some crazy stuff happened involving a plastic car bed owned by Dwight's cousin Mose that actually drove, and Karen took me on a date with the car, and Dwight got really angry and yelled at her. More happened but it's pretty vague. It's funny because I'm completely straight. (Haha yeah... that's the funny part...)

I have thus concluded that I should stop watching episodes online until 4 am every night. I passed borderline obsessed about 26 episodes ago into obsessed... going on ridiculous, but it'll never get there. I promise you that. I've just been meaning to watch every episode for a while, so I'm just getting it done while I have time.}}}

]]> ~baby-alien91 Do you... http://baby-alien91.deviantart.com/journal/27641682/ http://baby-alien91.deviantart.com/journal/27641682/ Wed, 07 Oct 2009 20:52:19 PDT
]]> ~baby-alien91 Okay... http://baby-alien91.deviantart.com/journal/26907100/ http://baby-alien91.deviantart.com/journal/26907100/ Sun, 30 Aug 2009 01:23:25 PDT
I haven't felt this much love for a character since I was first introduced to Gregory House, and before that, Jack Sparrow.

Is it just me, or is Col. Hans Landa one of the best characters of all fucking time? I've been searching Christoph Waltz for the past two days... what an amazing actor!!! The entire movie I just wanted him to talk and never end. Kept me on the edge of my seat.. I knew what was going to happen halfway through each conversation but each time I wondered HOW was he going to get there. Smoothest-talking villain ever.... deliciously sinister. The words flowed like poetry, and the crooked half-smile sent chills sometimes. Christ. Oh, and when he walks up behind her at the restaurant, my stomach churns every time. And the milk. God the writing is beautiful. And the laaaaaanguages! Everywhere! I want to watch it over and over and over. All the characters were excellent, Brad Pitt not excluded there. Wonderful, wonderful. However, I have to give it to Waltz. That smiiiiiile. So eeeeevil. It's beautiful. Landa is the best ever. Very Jules (Pulp Fiction), but looks less like a dog. Oh Sam L. Jackson, you and your weird face.

Kudos to Waltz and Tarantino. Just another beautiful example of everything coming together as perfectly as it possibly could.

P.S. Sally died. Trying not to think about it... Little fuzzy girl.. I'll miss her. But she's much happier now. I could feel every vertebrae through the doubled up blanket as I held her for the last time... she probably weighed the same as the blanket itself.

]]> ~baby-alien91 Which word is simultaneously a noun adj. and verb? http://baby-alien91.deviantart.com/journal/26827163/ http://baby-alien91.deviantart.com/journal/26827163/ Tue, 25 Aug 2009 22:53:24 PDT
]]> ~baby-alien91 Feel better soon my darling. I'll miss you. http://baby-alien91.deviantart.com/journal/26808622/ http://baby-alien91.deviantart.com/journal/26808622/ Tue, 25 Aug 2009 01:04:32 PDT
When I was five, I got my first pet--Marilyn, the loveliest old gal in the world these days, a regal yet playful cat that is always up for a snuggle. However, after a couple of months we decided to bring home a companion for her, and so we chose her younger sister, the smallest of the litter. We named her Sally.

Marilyn and Sally grew up together, grooming, playing, and occasionally squabbling with each other, but were always inseparable. Now it's been 13 years (nearly 14) since we got the cats and as is completely natural, their sprightly youth isn't all it used to be. Particularly Sally.

This weekend my family and I were out of town visiting family, and my dad came home a day earlier than us due to business. Upon his arrival Sunday night, he came across little Sally curled up in a ball, nearly comatose, on his bathroom rug. Now... lately we've been noticing wet spots everywhere but were unsure as to the source as it didn't SMELL like cat pee. We've also noticed that Sally hasn't been taking care of her fur.. it's matted and not as clean as usual, and she's been moving a little slower than usual... and she hasn't been running for the tuna (her favorite) whenever she hears a can opener. At first we attributed this to their flea collars, and so we took them off, got them a new bed, and all was dandy again.

Clearly not. My dad nursed her through the night, but she was too weak to drink and she didn't even look up when he brought her favorite fishy treat. He called us this morning and told us she made it through the night, thankfully, and he took her to the vet, who said they'd call when they'd diagnosed her problem. She weighed in at only 4 pounds (we didn't notice, her fur is super long and thick) and they hooked her up to an IV, and took blood tests. On our way home this afternoon, my dad called again, saying our possibilities were diabetes, kidney failure, or cancer... all three of which, we'd end up putting her down for.

Turns out it's her kidneys, so the "hospital" said they'd try to flush out enough toxins for her to be well enough to come home for a couple of days... and after that we'll probably take her to the vet for the last time. I can't stop tearing up... I just hope she doesn't suffer any more than she has to... my poor little girl. Marilyn knows it too... she's acting fairly normal but I can see in her eyes, and she's more affectionate towards us than usual.

In other news, I went to the doctor today to fix my tongue-tiedness, and now my tongue fricken hurts like a bitch. The skin under my tongue was attached too close to the tip so they stuck a needle in it to freeze it, and then cauterized the hell out of it. It was the worst smelling/tasting thing I've ever had to endure... and also I'm not really one for being on the table so I didn't refuse the nurse's hand when she offered. It's a good thing my grip isn't any stronger, I'd have probably really hurt her fingers. Looks like I'm eating nothing but smoothies, jello and porridge for the next few days... do you know how much you use your tongue when you chew??

]]> ~baby-alien91 My life philosophy http://baby-alien91.deviantart.com/journal/24786587/ http://baby-alien91.deviantart.com/journal/24786587/ Sat, 16 May 2009 12:15:14 PDT
]]> ~baby-alien91 Sad. http://baby-alien91.deviantart.com/journal/24762526/ http://baby-alien91.deviantart.com/journal/24762526/ Thu, 14 May 2009 22:35:19 PDT
I'm just sad, plain and simple.

]]> ~baby-alien91 The "mood" says it all. http://baby-alien91.deviantart.com/journal/24626852/ http://baby-alien91.deviantart.com/journal/24626852/ Wed, 06 May 2009 21:29:32 PDT Alex
May 4 at 10:15pm
I think I'm making a big deal, but we're friends. If someone is being an ass, their friends should be calling them on it. I don't know what I expect out of this, I'm not trying to get you back. I don't know.

If I'm horribly, horribly wrong and there is a huge flaw in my logic, set me straight. With a real, honest reason.

I'd also like to know if I'm right though.. haha.

Anyhow.

You were fine when you asked, "When I get back to Brandon, do you want to go out sometime?" (Even if you meant go out once or twice, it still means you liked me enough to say something, which you would never have taken lightly)
You were fine when you kissed me on my birthday.
You were fine when I was surprised and asked "So you actually do like me then?
You were fine when you put your hands on my shoulders, looked me in the eyes and said "yes" as firmly as you could.
You were fine when you held me on the dance floor for the rest of the night.
I think you stopped being fine when you realized people were going to make a big deal out of it.

You transferred this over to your interpretation of my behavior, thinking that I was the same as everyone else. I'm not even a separate entity, apparently. Yes, I was a little bit excited, because I thought (and still think) that you were being genuine, but I knew you didn't want all that pressure so I downplayed it whenever I could.

I asked you to hang out so much because I missed you! You're one of my best best friends and you were gone for 8 months. What do you expect?

I couldn't always ask someone else to come with because they were busy or away or something e.g. Britta/Derek (broken up), Justin (Halifax), etc. Besides, we hung out every single day, pretty much, of Christmas break and reading week. Why is it so different now? Different expectations? If you ever talked to me and set things straight you could tell me "I'm not sure," or "Take it slow," or ANYTHING. Anything that could possibly make things clear.

Plus when we hung out it was pretty much just as friends, nothing was even different anyway so I don't know why you would even have said that I was acting like we've been dating forever.. I was acting exactly the same as before.

About 90% of the time when people start seeing each other they're not head over heels in love with each other, it's almost never love at first sight. I mean yeah, I've liked you on and off for a while, and I love you to death, but I'm not IN love with you. There's a huge difference.

Stop making excuses. Man up and be honest. I'd MUCH rather you say a stupid real reason than a stupid fake reason, because the fake reasons never add up, and I'm not a total idiot, and you telling me things that are obviously not true makes me think that you think I am one.

I still can't believe you wouldn't talk to me in person about it either.

Conclusion:

It's not that you don't like me enough to want to date me, it's that you don't like me enough to put up with the two weeks of people making a big deal out of it. We hardly even tried to make anything work.

You're not an idiot, and you over-think EVERYTHING. I can't imagine you thinking, "Eh why not, I'll ask Alex if she wants to go out when I move back. What could possibly happen?" without thinking about it first. Christ, you couldn't pick up a letter at the Y before rehearsing it for a half hour.

It sounds melodramatic, but it pretty much boils down to this:

If (I including our friendship, my feelings, etc) I'm not important enough to you to deal with two or three weeks of being uncomfortable, then you're right. I don't know how anything between us could ever work.

Him
May 5 at 10:48am
i think i have said this a hundred times: i dont know what you want me to do or say right now.

i cant see how there was any point to this note besides you trying to make me feel bad.

we can still be friends if you want, but i dont see how this is helping.

Alex
May 5 at 8:34pm
Well try to figure it out, instead of using it as an excuse to ignore it or deflect. Of course I want you to feel bad. As bitchy as that sounds, you NOT feeling bad would just show me that you have no respect for me and don't care about me in any way.

And of course I still want to be friends, but if you're going to continually hurt me and not care enough to take it upon yourself to make things any easier on me, then what's the point? Could you have been any harsher on me? You blame it on me trying too hard, on you not being able to handle the pressure, when you could easily have just talked to me and said something like "I'm having a hard time dealing with everyone making a big deal, can we ta... ]]> ~baby-alien91 Look out... http://baby-alien91.deviantart.com/journal/24419064/ http://baby-alien91.deviantart.com/journal/24419064/ Fri, 24 Apr 2009 22:15:13 PDT
I'm an adult, I do what I want!

In other news.. Keir asked me out, and he moves back home tomorrow. Woo woo!

]]> ~baby-alien91 Ladies? http://baby-alien91.deviantart.com/journal/23559219/ http://baby-alien91.deviantart.com/journal/23559219/ Fri, 06 Mar 2009 15:25:00 PST
So I'm on the pill to regulate stuff, and it's great! You know, I usually don't get too bad of cramps, my skin is better, etc etc. EXCEPT... the dark blue pills make me absolutely volatile. The last week before my period, I swear it is like manic depression.

For example, I came home for lunch today after being ecstatic about something we did in bio, and upon finding out there was no chicken in the house (I REALLY wanted chicken fingers) I stood in front of the fridge in shock, and cried for 5 minutes.

Clearly something is not right here.

Other than changing my pill, is there something I should be doing? I heard Vitamin B6 or E is good for that due to some chemical imbalance in your blood during these crazy hormonal fluctuations or something like that. I'm making an appointment with my doctor for next week... but is there anything I can do for the next few days, or if a new pill doesn't work? Because this is beyond pathetic.

In other news... Who watches the Watchmen? I fucking will tomorrow night woop woop!

]]> ~baby-alien91 What do you think when.. http://baby-alien91.deviantart.com/journal/23472066/ http://baby-alien91.deviantart.com/journal/23472066/ Sun, 01 Mar 2009 14:21:44 PST

I think of

1. Chips
2. Tampons
3. Poop

In that order, but in very very quick succession.

]]> ~baby-alien91 Oral sensations http://baby-alien91.deviantart.com/journal/23307918/ http://baby-alien91.deviantart.com/journal/23307918/ Fri, 20 Feb 2009 14:43:32 PST
Say it.

Artichoke.

Artichoke.

Chokecherry.

Mmm... it feels good, like biting into a rose.

If you've never tried it, do it someday. Take a rose, and bit RIGHT THROUGH the petals. Mmmm. It feels so nice on your teeth.

]]> ~baby-alien91 Ramblings http://baby-alien91.deviantart.com/journal/23245144/ http://baby-alien91.deviantart.com/journal/23245144/ Mon, 16 Feb 2009 22:41:03 PST
Because the months that we weren't speaking after he moved were the loneliest days of my life, and the only times I don't feel lonely is when I'm with him, or I know he's around and I can see him at any time.

Is that pathetic? How can I still feel this way after everything... past experiences, and especially now that I hardly see him, a couple times every couple of months if I'm lucky. But the truth is... I think about him every single day. Every single day, whether I talk to him or not... it's not even anything I can help. Impossible to forget. They say that these things fade over time but I guess half a year isn't enough.

And! It's only been half a year! It feels like so much longer since we were sitting on my kitchen floor eating Fruit Loops. (I can't spell it froot... it bothers me too much). But I guess I can't complain too much... if anything, the distance has made us closer. Something did anyway because at some point he became my best friend, someone who will text me at 10pm asking if I want to go buy corn chips. Then does. Someone whose mere presence drains all the grey from my system. Someone who actually gets all of my jokes, and vice versa, and understands things almost immediately... someone who understands when I say something nerdy about Harry Potter because he also remembers the EXACT line in the book that I am referring to. Someone with whom I can agree with on almost everything, and vice versa. Someone who understands my being extremely uncomfortable with almost anything that has to do with teeth, because writing on skin, popsicle sticks and stickers make him cringe... someone who I can argue stupid subjects with, someone to play card and board games with (even though he always wins, it's okay). Someone else who things grammar jokes are so funny. ([link]). Someone who is a male version of myself. Someone who makes me thank God that he came into my life.

And it's hard to believe we've never been more than friends.

It's even harder to believe that we never will.

Hope is too dangerous though. I've been burned by that before, I'm not going down that road again. It's a hard thing to fight.

]]> ~baby-alien91 doot doot doot http://baby-alien91.deviantart.com/journal/22915167/ http://baby-alien91.deviantart.com/journal/22915167/ Sat, 31 Jan 2009 00:26:19 PST
Whilst driving little Rhys home, we commented on how some cars are definitely female and some male. Most pickup trucks are male while most minivans are female.. cars vary. Odd, eh? He also commented that the left side of his street has predominantly male cars, and the right predominantly female. I think.

Also, I downloaded the first and second seasons of Dexter... I fricken love that show. But also.. I've caught two Rorschach references so far. Has anyone else? One, there is a guy in a costume really briefly in one episode, and at one point Angel says, "Even Rorschach would say you have a hard time relating to people." But really.. they have very VERY similar values.

I fricken love Rorschach.

]]> ~baby-alien91 Woo woo! http://baby-alien91.deviantart.com/journal/22716669/ http://baby-alien91.deviantart.com/journal/22716669/ Wed, 21 Jan 2009 15:39:49 PST
I still am waiting for my french results though... yeesh.

In other news, the nice weather triggered some memories and I miss the guys more than ever.

Sad sad.

Oh well, I got an awesome mark considering I wrote about a sperm.

And I get to see Ava today! I haven't hung out with her in a while, I miss her

]]> ~baby-alien91 EDIT of my life :P http://baby-alien91.deviantart.com/journal/22243383/ http://baby-alien91.deviantart.com/journal/22243383/ Sun, 28 Dec 2008 23:23:53 PST
So.. things have been going swimmingly for me. Not fighting with Justin, not fighting with Natalie, Cam is still a little distant but eh, it's okay because Keir and I are better than ever. I don't know what happened, I wonder if it was when Jodie told him he was mean to her all the time at a Christmas party, and I agreed and he sat me down and forced me to listen to him apologize, that he never meant to be mean, etc etc. He didn't let me leave until I accepted haha. Small victories. Anyhow since then things have been superb, he even asked ME to hang out last night. I know that sounds so dumb, but considering he never takes initiative.. haha. No it's just nice to be close friends again. We played Clue until 3 am last night, then drove around singing The Shins for a little while before I dropped him off at home.

Anyhow. Time to go to work. Screw you, Pizza Hut.

EDIT: How typical. Frick.

Shortly after I post this, I go to work, Natalie and Justin show up for supper. So I am talking to them, like, oh man I haven't seen you guys in a while, I missed you. Natalie's been texting me wanting to hang out for the past week or so but we never have a chance to hang out because of work and stuff. So we FINALLY make plans, the three of us, I said I'd call after work. Nat and Justin go to a movie, but they're turning into the theatre when Nat gets a call from someone who wanted to jam with her, and she's like... I feel like I really SHOULD... Justin, drive me home, get my bass, drop me off there, and I'm not going to answer my cell phone for a few hours. (She didn't say the last part)

So we're trying to get ahold of her, Justin finally calls Marshall's cell (the guy whose house she was at) and he gives her the phone. She says, (kinda out of it, clearly been drinking) I think I'd like to stay for a little while more.

About an hour later, she texts us saying "If you'd like to come rescue me, that'd be nice." So we go pick her up so she can be drunk at my house. She also seems to think it's a good idea for her to be offended at ME because I seem to be slightly annoyed.

FRICK. THAT IS SO TYPICAL. I am sick of this. Things were going so well too.

Still, things are good with everyone else.

]]> ~baby-alien91 Wishlist meme http://baby-alien91.deviantart.com/journal/21745271/ http://baby-alien91.deviantart.com/journal/21745271/ Sun, 30 Nov 2008 09:24:59 PST
If you want to get in touch with me though, just note me

My list of wishes, commonly referred to as a "wish list":

1. Make me something awesome. Card, movie, knitted scarf, anything.

2. Stop my chronic procrastination.

3. DVD burner for my Mac

4. New socks and cute underwear

5. $ 5,000

6. To see any of the following in concert: The Shins, Mother Mother, Coldplay, Feist, Spice Girls.. hmm.

7. Jo in Little Women

8. A new calendar

9. Reorganization of my state of mind which seems to be in shambles as of late.

10. A certain somebody whom I seem to perpetually love despite everything bad that has ever happened... (Legs)

Wow.... could I be any harder to shop for?
_{_{Wishlist Meme Guidelines
STEP ONE
# Make a post. The post should contain your list of ten holiday wishes. The wishes can be anything at all, from simple and fandom-related ("I'd love a Snape/Hermione icon that's just for me") to medium ("I wish for _____ on DVD") to really big ("All I want for Christmas is a new car/computer/house/TV"). The important thing is to make sure these wishes are things you really, truly want.
# If you wish for real life things (not fics or icons), make sure you include some sort of contact info in your post, whether it's your address or just your email address where Santa (or one of his elves) can get in touch with you. Your home address is not required!
# Make sure you post some version of these guidelines so that the holiday joy will spread.

STEP TWO
# Surf around your friends' journals (or friends' friend's journals, or just random journals) to see who has posted their list. And now, here's the important part...
# If you see a wish you can grant, and it's in your heart to do so, make someone's wish come true. Sometimes one person's trash is another's treasure, and if you have a leather jacket you don't want or a gift certificate you won't use - or even know where you could get someone's dream purebred Basset Hound for free - do it.
# You needn't spend money on these wishes unless you want to. The point isn't to put people out, it's to provide everyone a chance to be someone else's holiday elf - to spread the joy. Gifts can be made anonymously or not - it's your call. There are no guarantees with this project, and no strings attached. Just... wish, and it might come true. Give and you might receive. You'll have the joy of knowing you made someone's holiday special.}} ]]> ~baby-alien91 Instead of doing my french, I watched this. Shit. http://baby-alien91.deviantart.com/journal/21573965/ http://baby-alien91.deviantart.com/journal/21573965/ Wed, 19 Nov 2008 21:41:43 PST [link]

Hahaha this is excellent.

]]> ~baby-alien91 Life plans http://baby-alien91.deviantart.com/journal/21472752/ http://baby-alien91.deviantart.com/journal/21472752/ Thu, 13 Nov 2008 16:33:07 PST
K.. so after a good year of debating what to do about it, I've considered choral director or musical theatre as a profession... teacher as a backup if the musical theatre thing didn't work out. OF COURSE... my DREAM career would to be in a super good a capella group and be like Rajaton... but that's a pretty tough thing to make a career out of.

However, performing arts school is a huge step, really expensive and far from home and I am just not ready to do that next year. On the other hand, there is no way I am staying here. Not a chance. I thought about taking a year off of school but I don't really think I want to do that either. So moving to Winnipeg is my best option, especially considering that is where the majority of my friends are moving as well. While I'm there, I'm going to take a course in graphic arts and design at RRC, who look like they actually have a really decent program. Looking through the portfolios of the third year advanced students I actually stumbled upon ~ruddiger, someone I recognized from dA.

Anyhow that is my plan I think. By the time I finish the course I'll be 20 or 21 and ready to move on, and I'll have a nice security blanket... what I get in that course I can bring with me wherever I go and hopefully find a job wherever I am. Also, while I'm in Winnipeg, as my first idea was to go to U of M to work with Elroy Freisen, I'm going to go sing in his choirs maybe, along with Prairie Voices. Then maybe I can get an a capella group together... and if I'm not too busy maybe some theatre as well?

In other news, auditions for Little Women are coming up in a couple of weeks... I'm hoping for the part of Jo but obviously since I had the lead last year I probably won't get it again... but still, she has such a fun part.

Also, my best friend Natalie has really been getting on my nerves lately. Two nights in a row, Halloween and the night after, she blatantly ditched me, stood me up.. of course both nights she showed up hours later, all apologies (once totally smashed at two in the morning, and promptly passed out on my couch) but I think the second time was just because she wasn't having a good time elsewhere like she thought she'd be and I sounded angry over text. Also, we'd been planning a trip to go see our friend's show and we were all set to go in my car, she even told me to turn other people down for her, then she has the nerve to say "I think I'll go with this other person instead." She didn't, of course, because I kind of got mad at her... things like "Are you effing kidding me? If you ditch me one more time I'm ACTUALLY going to be pretty upset.."

"When did I ever ditch you?"

And she only hangs out with me if she hasn't already made plans with someone else. I know I sound possessive and stuff but really, I'm really not. I never see her as it is and she is supposed to be my best friend. SHE got jealous when I hung out with Cam and Keir a lot... but after a while she was with us a good 75% of the time. I would hang with her and HER friends too but she never invites me. So.. thanks Nat.

Mind you it's partially my fault because I don't really fit in with them. I don't like to smoke pot, you see. ARGH. And if she's not hanging out with them (she's so sick of them) she's hanging out with other people.

She knows I'm practically alone now that everyone's gone and yet she does this.

Speaking of Cam and Keir... I still miss them an uber lot. I actually cried through half of HSM 3 not because it was a touching story but because we did HSM as our show in my grade 10 year and also because Cam looks a lot like Troy. A lot. I didn't miss them too bad for a while there because I was making new friends... but unfortunately you tend to find things you HATE about new friends rather quickly. So yeah.

But it's okay I have my life figured out kind of.

]]> ~baby-alien91 Journal Entry: Nov. 11, 2008 http://baby-alien91.deviantart.com/journal/21436596/ http://baby-alien91.deviantart.com/journal/21436596/ Tue, 11 Nov 2008 11:10:43 PST
One of most brilliant things ever read.

Ever.

Will begin second reading later.

Ho. Shit.

]]> ~baby-alien91 ATTN: All http://baby-alien91.deviantart.com/journal/21347025/ http://baby-alien91.deviantart.com/journal/21347025/ Wed, 05 Nov 2008 18:51:20 PST
]]> ~baby-alien91 Bahahah take that long line of cars http://baby-alien91.deviantart.com/journal/20911811/ http://baby-alien91.deviantart.com/journal/20911811/ Thu, 09 Oct 2008 19:45:46 PDT Mood: Exuberant
Eating: Better
Singing: Eleanor Rigby

!!!!

I got my Jeep today! The cutest little Jeep I ever did see. It's a blue 95 YJ, and it's SO AWESOME. I love it. So much. Weird how fast I connected with it.

Haha, it IS a standard though. Which means even though I did well in my lesson with my dad on how to drive it, I still managed to stall about six times in a busy intersection on my way to work.

Hahahahaha everyone behind me hated me so much because I took up the entire green light. I think I was accidentally in third and not first. Oh good lord.

In other news, I'm kinda eating better. Woo woo!

]]> ~baby-alien91 Woo. http://baby-alien91.deviantart.com/journal/20881875/ http://baby-alien91.deviantart.com/journal/20881875/ Tue, 07 Oct 2008 21:15:41 PDT Mood: Desolate
Eating: Too much.
Singing: Jersey Boys

I've had enough of you, weight gain.

I'm going to lose 20 pounds, get down to 120. I've had enough of you, 140. I mean I don't LOOK fat, but I could certainly look better... and fit my old jeans haha. I've gained about 15 pounds since the end of grade 11 and I was 5 pounds over my target weight as it was. So I'm formulating a plan.

I have to:

- Develop an eating plan
- Join a gym
- Stop buying treats (ice capps, etc) on my way to choir and work
- Continue not using my 50% discount on my shifts at the Hut
- Stop eating at 11 pm
- Just get SOME exercise at all. Anything will do.

...And I'm not going to starve myself this time.

]]> ~baby-alien91 It wasn't there a little while ago http://baby-alien91.deviantart.com/journal/20818194/ http://baby-alien91.deviantart.com/journal/20818194/ Sat, 04 Oct 2008 00:58:03 PDT Mood: Desolate
Eating: Too much.
Singing: Voice Dance

Lonelier than before...

I don't want to be with you anymore. Something's different. Changed.

I don't know if it's just because the last time I saw you about a month ago, I was tanked... and sobbing, which later transformed into blinding (and unfair considering how you treated me that night.. thanks again) anger. I'm sorry that I put you through that but I'm not sorry that I did it. You see, it was a manifestation of my innermost feelings that had never seen the light; the frustration, the sadness, the loneliness, the anger and the hurt were buried beneath a few complaints and superficial tears. And I think you needed to see what I actually went through because of you.

I guess I'm still a little bit bitter, but it's not an "I wish it would happen again" bitter, just a "you didn't even apologize without me bringing it up and you SHOULD have just been a man and said it of your own accord because you saw how much it totally killed me and we're supposed to be friends" kind of bitter.

I don't know if you truly understand how much you hurt me. I mean certainly it wasn't that bad compared to so many other people... just a kiss, just a couple of built up hopes then rejections. Basic stuff, really. Still... I can't believe it still aches. Three times you crushed me, mind you, the first one doesn't count. It was my fault. The second and third times, however, were more on your side of the fence. You can't deny that you weren't sending signals up until when I finally decided to try again. And then you, knowing how I felt about you, how much I loved you, did something that you KNEW would send me spinning, something so completely out of character that I wonder if I ever even knew you at all.

Now you hardly seem happy to see me.

And you, I know I'll never even have a chance with you. I love you with all my heart but I know there are no real sparks between us, so I'm glad we're just friends... however... to both of you, I know you're moving on, making new friends in university and everything. I'm glad you're doing well. And... well, I hate to sound selfish, but I wish you'd realize how I'm really not doing so great right now. And when you guys came to visit, it left me feeling even lonelier than before. It just felt really distant, like all of a sudden there was some kind of invisible wall that I couldn't get past because the door was invisible too and all the windows were too high.

Sometimes I'm just feeling like I put too much effort into friendships, despite the fact that I feel that the people I love are worth it. A lot of the time I just don't feel like they're really willing to give it back... that when I try to tell them how I'm feeling, that all I want is for them to tell me they love and miss me just as much as I do them... that I'm just not special enough to hold the same place in their lives that they do in mine.

Maybe I'm just being selfish, it's probably just me and my mentality in the end anyway. That's the problem about being the one in the group that notices these things... sometimes it just feels like you're on your own.

And from the way it sounds, one would think I'm focusing too much on those two guys... but honestly... I'm not. It's not just them. My best friend just feels like it is her right to take and take, like everything that is mine is rightfully hers, and that everyone is supposed to just bend to her every whim. My one guy friend left here has a double life in the city, and really doesn't place any importance on anything I say anymore. He has kind of developed a condescending tone in his life. I feel like I've been neglecting one friend just 'cause of other things going on in my life right now, I've rekindled another friendship due to camp but she's always, always busy so it's not like I ever get to see her. Another friend just likes to change the topic to herself whenever I want to talk about something.

I don't know.

All I know is that when I came home tonight and looked in the mirror, I noticed a sadness behind my eyes that wasn't there a little while ago.

]]> ~baby-alien91 :O Boobs? http://baby-alien91.deviantart.com/journal/20610024/ http://baby-alien91.deviantart.com/journal/20610024/ Sun, 21 Sep 2008 21:14:15 PDT Mood: Indifferent/Elated
Eating: Pizza Mia Pizza from Pizza Hut... two hours ago at my staff meeting.
Playing & Singing:Shed a Little Light & Baba Yetu

No, just one.

Mostly I just wanted to point out to everyone that since I started taking birth control pills to regulate my period (which was ridiculously inconsistent for like three years) I have to get new bras due to growth. The catch... I think only one is growing, hahaha! I swear it's a cup size difference. Frick. One A, one B I think. Not gonna lie... it's pretty annoying.

That's all really.

]]> ~baby-alien91 Wow. I am a man. http://baby-alien91.deviantart.com/journal/20584204/ http://baby-alien91.deviantart.com/journal/20584204/ Sun, 21 Sep 2008 00:32:11 PDT Mood: Indifferent/Elated
Eating: Nothing!
Playing & Singing: Dobbin's Flowery Vale - Rajaton and 5446/Ball and Chain - Sublime

What soprano can sing a low B below middle C?

That's baritone/tenor range that is. And it's a real note and not just gravelly nothing. AND I'm not even sick. I'm so impressed with myself today haha.

Cam came back this weekend, I was so happy to see him. He gave me the best hug ever too. Hung out with him for an hour last night, gave him a ride to the bar haha what a douche. But actually I missed him so much. I've been kind of a bitch since they left actually, him and Keir. I'm having a hard time adjusting to this year... I feel alone a lot of the time. Here is a list of my best friends

Natalie - Has developed a "pretentious music student" attitude
Justin - See Natalie. Is worse.
Cam - Moved away. Bad texter haha.
Keir - Moved away. Kind of having issues.
Ava - Only in one class with her, but at least now I have a spare with her so I'll get to see her more. Don't sit near her in choir at lunch.
Julia - Two classes with her, she sits elsewhere in both classes and in choir. She goes to another school in the afternoon.
Jodie - isn't really a BEST BEST friend but she's still a good friend. And we're fine but I only have one class with her.

Oh, and speaking of Keir. A friend of ours said he told her he was coming back this weekend. But he didn't tell me. Man. Is it just me or is he being a total jackass as of late? Frick.

I don't know the story behind the Keir thing though so I'm not gonna think about it. I don't know if he's actually going to visit anyone while he's here...

But. Actually I'm not too sad anymore. My life is fitting back together again... I still hate my job but now I have a good reason to find a new one (not getting enough hours) so that's cool. And I finally got a car, learned to drive standard. And my phone is back and all fixed too. I just have to work on my relationships with people haha. I suck at that lately

EDIT

I'm glad I used my common sense and didn't get upset about Keir. Turns out he didn't actually come, which I thought was the case due to him "attending" a different party in the city. Thanks facebook! Anywho texted him and everything is good between us again.

Everyone cares about this so much. I'm so sorry

]]> ~baby-alien91 I would just like to say... http://baby-alien91.deviantart.com/journal/20399532/ http://baby-alien91.deviantart.com/journal/20399532/ Mon, 08 Sep 2008 21:50:15 PDT Mood: Cold
Eating: Chiliiiii
Playing & Singing: Viva la Vida or Death and all of His Friends

I had an exciting day.

1. Nearly burnt the house down.
2. Got my new Macbook!
3. Had to kill a wasp (while house was nearly burning down)
4. GOT STUCK IN A FREEZER AT WORK.

]]> ~baby-alien91 Telephobia http://baby-alien91.deviantart.com/journal/20377579/ http://baby-alien91.deviantart.com/journal/20377579/ Sun, 07 Sep 2008 15:10:52 PDT Mood: Sick
Eating: blah
Playing & Singing: Viva la Vida or Death and all of His Friends

The fear of using the telephone.

Hahaha so I had to get ahold of my friend Natalie at work today to tell her a meeting had been cancelled.

For the past few days, I've been sick... sore throat, painful cough, phlegm, sneezing, fatigue... etc. It's awesome for the first week of school. But anyway. I actually tried riding my bike to Sobey's to tell her. However, our town has two of them and I coudl have sworn she told me the West end sobeys, but no she works at the one down by the mall. So I'm like, crap. I am not riding my bike all the way there, I feel too lightheaded and stuff.

So I am forced to call her. It took me a good 5 minutes of working myself up to actually call Sobey's and ask for her. I considered biking all the way there again. I even call my mom to see where she's at with the car. She replies by saying, why don't you just call Sobey's?

Ugh.

Which leads me to believe I have a slight phobia of telephoning people. I've always had this problem. So I decide to look up the name, just so I could say "I have this."

The website that came up was horribly ironic.

Trusted, Effective Treatment for Telephone Phobia
Our board-certified team specializes in helping individuals overcome fears, phobias & anxiety of all kinds, and is particularly focused on problems such as telephone phobia. With a success rate close to 100% we offer a lifetime guarantee to our clients.

To learn more about our 24-Hour Telephone Phobia Program, please call us at 1-800-828-7484 (+1-650-249-5120 from outside the USA) for a complimentary consultation to discuss the problem, or contact us using the form below.

]]> ~baby-alien91 I hate grade twelve. http://baby-alien91.deviantart.com/journal/20326400/ http://baby-alien91.deviantart.com/journal/20326400/ Thu, 04 Sep 2008 15:21:07 PDT Mood:

Eating: sometimes.
Playing & Singing: NOTHING BECAUSE I CAN'T FIND MY FUCKING IPOD.

Arrrfghgfhklsj;lkghjs;dlfjsdfs;fjsrf!

I do not like grade 12 one bit yet. Yes I know, it's like two days in. But those two days have been stupid and I've hated them.

I've been stuck in a stupid english gym class that is full of TOTAL MORONS because my stupid school:

A) screws up everyone's schedules
B) give them out so that most people don't see them 'til the first day of school
C) is SUPER SLOW and understaffed so that there is a HUGE waiting list for course changes and even then I can't get my semesters right.

Not to mention I REALLY FUCKING HATE GYM. And my family is not on my side at all, they keep telling me oh you need exercise this is AWESOME blah blah and I'm like NO IT SUCKS BECAUSE I WILL NOT GET ANYTHING OUT OF IT.

It's like they think it's awesome that I'm picked LAST EVERY SINGLE TIME.

And I mean it's not like I'm out of shape or anything, gym is just an asshole of a class.

FUCK. And I REALLY just want to go change my schedule because it is bunk and am missing IMPORTANT BIO AND FRENCH BECAUSE I AM TWO DAYS IN AND HAVE NOT GOTTEN TO ATTEND ANYTHING FUCK FUCK.

Plus, I am so pathetic. I miss Cam and Keir so, so, so much. It's the worst. It's like, everything reminds me of them. Like, oh man, they'd think that was so funny, or oh wow remember when we did that... oh and it doesn't help that Keir's brother is like exactly like him and I see him everywhere. And yeah they're only two hours away but when are they ever going to get to come visit? They'll want to party with new people on the weekends, and they can't even make it to the WMYC concert in October.

Speaking of which. I'm not going to be able to get through that without being totally and utterly depressed because Keir isn't there for the first time. And yeah that's a negative way to think about it but shit, it's inevitable. I've never missed anyone more in my life. Times two! This is the worst.

And PLUS. I don't have any way to get home or to school anymore for a while because CAM ALWAYS GAVE ME A RIDE. And if he couldn't, then Keir and I would hitch a ride with Shaye, who is also gone. And if not, we'd catch the bus.

It is no fun anymore without him

And please don't tell me to you know, think positively, get over it, I'm really sick of it. It is an actual physical ache sometimes. I mean it'll pass soon enough but I've never had this with friends moving away before. I have lots of friends who have moved away, that I've moved away from... even when one of my best friends moved away in grade 8 it wasn't this bad. I cried for a couple of days, moved on. It's more like that time my boyfriend broke up with me in grade 9 the day after he kissed me for the first time. It's like that but pretend he's two people and nothing like that ever happened and I didn't hate him after and we were still good friends.

It's the same general depression.

Also. I lost my fucking ipod in the university somewhere. I really hope i just left it in my voice teacher's studio and not the bathroom. Cause I don't know if they have a lost and found but even if they do, what are the chances that it's there?

Sorry. I'm just whining. I'm gonna go eat some cookies from my mom's "secret" stash.

]]> ~baby-alien91 Sober now, don't worry. But... advice? http://baby-alien91.deviantart.com/journal/20298259/ http://baby-alien91.deviantart.com/journal/20298259/ Tue, 02 Sep 2008 20:25:03 PDT Mood:

Eating: Nothing, oh god not more food.
Playing & Singing: Samson--Regina Spektor

Although by the amount I'm spending on my income you'd wonder...

K. K. I hit my dad with a proposition to give me a loan so I could buy a laptop and a car (basically all I need for now). It looks like it'll work out. I will probably have to take more than a year to pay everything off. Maybe I'll flip my car, 'cause I'm getting it so cheap. (Inside deal, you know... know the owner blah blah).

Just ordered a MacBook from the Apple store online (Canada... free shipping, woo!!). $949 refurbished, not too bad. Approximately 80 bucks a month and it's paid off in about a year.

But I am going to be in debt for the next year. Thankfully only to my dad. He is also helping me buy a car. He owns a Kia dealership and is helping me buy a used Jeep Wrangler hahaha. It's gonna be awesome actually, I'm so so pumped. I did the math though, I'm gonna have to work at least 25 hours a week to pay it all off and still be able to pay for gas and insurance and all that. That's kind of a lot during school.

Potential problems up the road, once major production hits, depending on how big my part is, I won't be able to work nearly as much. So that means for a good chunk of the first semester I'm gonna have to work so much. Goddamn. At least my managers are good, they offered me a bunch of hours during the school year and told me I could just ask for some more if I needed them.

PLUS. I'm gonna try really hard to get my teacher to reconsider this trip, haha. Okay so we're going on a choir trip to London/Paris come July, right? Well even if I fundraise my butt off I'm still gonna have a hard time coming up with the 5 grand. (Yes, I know, expensive... bah). Obviously my parents will help, but it's gonna be a tough year for money as my brother is going on his year-end school trip and my dad's chaperoning.. plus it's my grad year so there's all the year end grad stuff, shit. PLUS I need to move out. I need to get out of this town. Everyone I know who's stayed to work for a year then leave... hasn't left yet. I know that'll happen to me if I don't leave soon. And pretty much every single close friend I have is moving away to "the city" and I know it's dumb to follow, but I would be totally fine just moving away and working there for a year, even if I didn't go to school. Because I don't know what I'm doing yet. I'm considering taking a course in graphic arts, but I'm not sure yet. I think I'll end up going with performing arts but I'm not ready to move to Toronto or BC or anything yet.

Life decisions!! What is this?! I'm seventeen!!!

I've also considered some other ways of making some money. I don't know how much time I'll have for commissions, but what can I do for extra money on the side? I have so so much I have to pay for this year. So I'm open to any ideas.

ALso, kudos if you ACTUALLY read this whole thing. It must have been hella boring. I don't even think I want to read it again.

Arrggh.

PS. Sorry for my last journal, although it is kinda hilarious. Hahaha it was SO dramatic that night... hilarious.

]]> ~baby-alien91 I'm really fucking drunk http://baby-alien91.deviantart.com/journal/20228625/ http://baby-alien91.deviantart.com/journal/20228625/ Sat, 30 Aug 2008 00:54:34 PDT Mood:

Eating: Special K Chocolatey Delight
Singing: Choc-o-late Rehhn....

Every single time.

Hahahahahaha.

Oh god, life.

Anyway, thank you Andrew L for taking my shift, and John my manager. You guys are the BEST!! AND i'M having a hell of a time typing.

Anyway so I got into kind of a fight with keir, I'm so mad at him. Jodie went and yelled at him while I cried at Raine who just broke up with CAm. Hehehe, thanks guys. I then cried about how I felty bad about being so close with CAm to Raine about how she must have hated me and she was really nice about it and stuff. And She was grest, thanks Raine. I appreciate it. Thanks for not hating me too much.

But I don't know if it'a true that cam and I don't have a think cause I was comforting him in the car cause raine was being dumb to him and he was mad so I was hugging him and I held his hand and stuff and kissed his cheeks and said "I love you Cam it's ok it'll work out" and he said "I love you too" and then i got out of the car cause it was my stop. And stupid Keir made sure Sarah C dropped me off first. DOUCHE!!!

But then I texted Cam asking if we had a "thing" and will probably regret that in the morning.

Whooooooooooooooooooooooooaaaaaa.

I should have eaten probably. I didn't eat for like 11 hours then drank a bunch of vodka. Hahahahaha DUMB.

Oh well.

Gaga=999a oko I can't teype hahahahahaha druuuuuunnnkooooo

Sorry Sasha, you'll think I'm so dumb lol.

| lve yoyu! "I can't hear this! Noooooooooooo"

Kinda like that but NOT AT ALL HAHA.

]]> ~baby-alien91 Yum. http://baby-alien91.deviantart.com/journal/20145655/ http://baby-alien91.deviantart.com/journal/20145655/ Mon, 25 Aug 2008 09:56:19 PDT Mood:

Eating: Special K Chocolatey Delight
Singing: Choc-o-late Rehhn....

Every single time.

Never fails. Whenever I pour myself a bowl of delicious Special K Chocolatey Delight cereal, I get the near-uncontrollable urge to sing Chocolate Rain.

Every time.

]]> ~baby-alien91 Huh. http://baby-alien91.deviantart.com/journal/20077540/ http://baby-alien91.deviantart.com/journal/20077540/ Thu, 21 Aug 2008 12:17:10 PDT Mood:

Kinda silly and nerdy
Listening to: The Shins
Reading: The Vampire Lestat - Anne Rice

Dumbest first semester EVER

I just looked at my timetable for next year online, and it is the dumbest thing I've ever seen, especially considering I'm dropping band. They must not be done yet, as it consists of:

1st Sem:

Band
spare
spare
English comp
spare

2nd sem:

band
psych
bio
English lit.
Math

And I don't even have french, which I need to graduate with my French Immersion diploma.

I'll just go change it. I'm dropping psych and band, switch bio over, get french, and if I can wiggle my way out of getting that mandatory gym credit we all of a sudden need (worst thing of my life, no kidding) then I'm set.

But I bet I have to take gym.

Yes, I'm pretentious enough to think others are interested in my timetable

Also breaking news, just opened my choir camp letter. What the HELL are 26 grade 10s doing in my choir?? Get out!! Haha just kidding, but seriously there were like 7 in the year before me, 6 or 7 in my year and like, 5 last year. It must be wrong.

But yeah get out of my choir.

]]> ~baby-alien91 I thought summer was supposed to rekindle fires. http://baby-alien91.deviantart.com/journal/19729010/ http://baby-alien91.deviantart.com/journal/19729010/ Sat, 02 Aug 2008 01:39:45 PDT Mood:

Meh
Listening to: Mother Mother (great band)
Reading: The Witching Hour - Anne Rice

Creative fires, that is.

But however creative I wish to be, unfortunately it's like working with damp wood. It can still produce mediocre results with lots of effort but I mean at that point why even bother? Just do something else.

Or get a magic wand. (Incendio!)

I'd just like to point out that the past few months feel like they've been the most uncreative months of my life. Not sure why this is. I can't write anything worth reading, I try to pick up the guitar once a day but it's tough just to bring myself to play any covers after I've learned them, never mind find new ones to learn... or God forbid write anything... heck I can hardly draw anymore. Even my crayons and coloring books have gone unused. And I love coloring!

At least music still conjures colors for me. I dunno. Maybe I can make a good mixed CD or something still. Here's hoping.

I've also gained some weight.

Damn.

I really shouldn't write journals at 3:30 AM. It's far too depressing for my usual witty/positive nature.

Oh! But in writing this journal, I noticed a little button near the bottom. It says "Add CSS..."

My first thought, "Wow non-subscribers get CSS now too?"

Dumbass, hahaha.

Thanks so much to `Zikes

for the subscription.

You're seriously, seriously the best.

]]> ~baby-alien91 Proof of my life inexperience http://baby-alien91.deviantart.com/journal/19717792/ http://baby-alien91.deviantart.com/journal/19717792/ Fri, 01 Aug 2008 12:02:38 PDT
First off, to anyone of the male gender: Please read this and tell me it's just because of alcoholic influence. It'd probably give me more peace of mind.

First off, we need some back history here. This guy Keir, I've been in love* with him ever since I met him two years ago. He's kind of an awkward guy, pretty timid with actual girl stuff, and I doubt would ever say anything if he liked a girl (or guy, whatever). I've told him how I feel twice now, both with less-than-pleasing results, to put it one way, but we've become pretty close friends over the past year (in fact many people thought we were secretly dating, and they were so sure he liked me back... of course I knew better) but I think I'm almost over him, which is good I suppose because he moves away in about 20 days. Anyhow.

So we've just finished a couple drinking games, and everyone's kind of drunk... if not, at least tipsy. We're like, yeah let's go in the hot tub! Much agreement ensues, and we all clamber in. We're sitting around laughing, saying hilarious(ly dumb) things, no doubt. Here's where it gets kinda fuzzy... I don't remember exactly what the discussion was about, and I definitely am not sure how this happened, but I was talking to Keir and all of a sudden he kissed me. You have to understand how out of character this is for him, even drunk. For a while he didn't even want to hug me because he was trying so hard to avoid leading me on. Everyone goes super quiet, I think Natalie or Cam said something like "Wow I can't believe I'm actually seeing thing, I can't believe this is happening, blah blah".... and we pull apart and are like "Whoa, what just happened there?" Followed by more drinking.

Of course in the back of my mind I'm like super WTF for the rest of the night. I'm thinking, "I'd never, EVER expect that from Keir of all people, why me, what do I say?" etc. I chalk it up to pure drunken behaviour. Of course, then Cam tells me (indirectly) than he'd said he didn't want to start anything because he's leaving. So I talk to Keir later after we'd sobered up a bit, he says something like, I don't know, I was really drunk, it just happened, and I just want to stay friends... but then says "Especially because I'm leaving in less than a month." I ask him how he feels, he says "Just friends," and when I ask if it'd be different if he wasn't leaving, he says "yeah sorry, bad choice of words" which I take as a no. I accept this. It doesn't really matter anymore I guess, but of course now I question whether he's completely telling the truth or not. Plus getting this all out helps.

But it's not all bad. In the end I had a lot of fun with the best friends anyone could ever ask for, learned some revealing things about many of them, kissed the guy I've been wanting for ages (as ridiculous a situation it seems to me right now), and had chocolate chip pancakes in the morning!

The fact that I wrote this entire journal about one drunk kiss just shows how much life experience I have, hahaha.

_{_{*figure of speech. Not actually "in love," but I CAN say I love(d?) him. You know how these things go.}}

]]> ~baby-alien91 An Adventure Involving a Parking Lot http://baby-alien91.deviantart.com/journal/18585658/ http://baby-alien91.deviantart.com/journal/18585658/ Fri, 30 May 2008 23:19:36 PDT
So we're watching a movie, and they have a hot dog eatiang contest and we're like... I want a hot dog... let's barbecue something (keep in mind it's 11:30 pm). So we look for something to barbecue but there's nothing there, and Justin's like... I really want some meat. So I suggest, "Hey, why don't we just go get some fast food... my little brother can pay--he has lots of money!"

So we go up to him, he's twelve, and we're like.. "Joey... want to go get a burger or something... if you pay?"

So off we go, making sure to lock the doors and stuff, as we're home alone. We get there, and we're like... frick. We're so fat. Faaaaaaaaat. Let's high five for being fat! (High fiving is kind of a big deal with my friends and I... one of my personal favorite fads) and so we're standing there waiting for our food, high fiving like idiots, and Justin's like, wanna high five? And I say.. yeah sure... but then he psyched. What a jerk! So I'm left there hanging, and so then I think... shit... now what? So I think quickly and high five Joey and go to high five Justin BUT PULL AWAY so now he's left hanging...

So he goes up to the guy at the till and says... "Hey uh, can I have a high five?" And the poor little guy just looks away and sheepishly high fives Justin, this huge tank of a kid, and runs away into the back, hands us our food and we quickly leave.

We get back to my house... my key is GONE. Nowhere to be found! I search everywhere... my bag, the car, my pockets, the ground... no cigar. So I go into the back to get the spare key... but it's also missing!! Where is it?? I still don't know. Well now what? Then Justin gets a call from home, by now it's quarter after 12 and he has to go home.. so we load back up into the car and drop Justin off, and Joey and I go back to McD's to form a very small search party.

We look around where I had parked. Nothing, so I say, "No worries, I must have left it inside," so I try to open the door. Locked. I look through all the windows trying to catch the eye of an employee to ask if they've seen a key. I look at the floors through the windows. I think I knocked at the windows for about 5 minutes straight, I must have looked so fat, hahaha! Anyhow, I FINALLY catch the attention of the janitor, and he's like... USE THE DRIVE THRU! And I yell through the window... HAVE YOU SEEN A KEY? I DROPPED IT AND I'M NOT SURE IF I DROPPED IT INSIDE OR NOT!!

Suddenly I look down, and lo and behold I see my key lying in the gutter NOWHERE NEAR where any of us had been and I'm like.. OH SHIT I AM A GENIUS, gesturing through the window that I had found it. The whole time I was thinking, "Hahahaha good Lord, my day has improved so much just with this last half hour, this is fricken' awesome! Hahahahaha!!!"

After I thanked the man and left with Joey, we finally returned at quarter to 1 and now I am at home wondering where the hell that goddamn spare key is.

]]> ~baby-alien91 I feel sick to my stomach. http://baby-alien91.deviantart.com/journal/18312299/ http://baby-alien91.deviantart.com/journal/18312299/ Tue, 13 May 2008 20:34:24 PDT
I just.. wow. Nothing is good.

Sorry. Worst journal ever.

At least I have good music to listen to.

]]> ~baby-alien91 An update on my life (not really, just listen) http://baby-alien91.deviantart.com/journal/15957982/ http://baby-alien91.deviantart.com/journal/15957982/ Sun, 16 Dec 2007 11:12:00 PST
[link] My best friend Natalie's solo. I love her voice.

[link] One of my favorites. I don't know why, it was really easy, but James was pretty good on the djembe. As a side note, you can hear my friend Keir's lisp in the part where a couple of tenors go (si-ti) on top. Speaking of which, he got jaw surgery and may be coming back next week. Will he still have his lisp? We shall find out.

[link] I love singing this one, the 8 of us in my choir that were in this choir as well sang it at a gig once, it sounded really good. On another side note, we always made fun of the girl who goes "woh-oh" after "sweet, holy spirit" (woh-oh)

[link] This is the one that everybody cried during, because our conductor told us this story and it made people all emotional. It sounds really good, but it wasn't my favorite. I dunno.

[link] This one was a lot of fun. It was ridiculously hard in some parts, but that's fine. Like, six million overlapping time signatures.

[link] This is the one in which most people got solos.. my favorite is Rio's at "What do you do when life drives you crazy.." he's such an old man. The last guy one, if you listen.

[link] And of course, my solo. I rushed it though and it sort of sounds bad in my opinion... but if you want to hear it, I am the first solo.

Wow, if you listen to any of those, I am impressed. But that was my life for about a month, it was good. I still have them all memorized.

What else? I had a cold this weekend, that was fun. Especially during my voice recital.. and hmm, Christmas is so soon, I am slightly panicked because I have to make so many presents. Argh. Also, talking to somebody who is a foot and three inches taller than you is ridiculous. I just need to say this. He's so cute.

]]> ~baby-alien91 Aww, what a sweetie -edit http://baby-alien91.deviantart.com/journal/15395418/ http://baby-alien91.deviantart.com/journal/15395418/ Wed, 07 Nov 2007 15:45:30 PST

Thanks so much to

Sasha (=Mystic-Scream)!!!!! Maaaaaan. You do so many nice things for me!!! I definitely need to do something really nice for you too.. maaaaan. I love you so much!

In other news, I did promotional stuff all day for a woman opening a dessert bar. I had a bunch of little desserts, they were so, so good. I'm so excited for it to open.. dang. You have no idea. And plus, I will probably be getting a job there eventually, sometime after she opens in February.. though it may have to wait until I'm done with Aida. But she definitely offered.. so I would love to get a job there. It'd be awesome.

Why is my life so awesome? I don't even understand.

Update slash edit:

Thanks for reminding me, dA

I don't think I'm going to bother renewing though.. I don't do much anymore, I just lurk. I mean, no subscription sucks.. but I think yesterday marks my 2 year anniversary.. I'm definitely not as active as I used to be.. so I just won't bother. So now I might be even more inactive.. haha. Who knows? I still login everyday though

Goodbye subscription as of 1:35 or something close to it!! *mwah*

]]> ~baby-alien91 There are no words. http://baby-alien91.deviantart.com/journal/15094470/ http://baby-alien91.deviantart.com/journal/15094470/ Tue, 16 Oct 2007 21:22:42 PDT
But in response to my last journal...

I GOT THE LEAD! OH MY GOD. I am so, so, SO excited. I am so happy. I found out the first day of tour, after everyone got there but before we "gathered."

The emotions I'm feeling right now.. I am amazed I am not a weeping mess. I thought I would be at the end of tour.. I'll admit I was close to losing it completely before supper.. there were definite tears, but they were silent with one or two sobs.. and I welled up in a couple of songs but I didn't even cry when we all parted ways. Surprised myself. There is way too much going on in my life. Too much. I love it.

But I'm also incredibly exhausted. 9 concerts in 4 days. Good night!

]]> ~baby-alien91 Whoo! http://baby-alien91.deviantart.com/journal/15040425/ http://baby-alien91.deviantart.com/journal/15040425/ Sat, 13 Oct 2007 08:07:26 PDT
Callbacks were last night. Honestly, I was there from 6 until about 12. Good lord. Actually I was dismissed at 11:30 because they didn't need me anymore.

I'm excited.. but I don't want to get my hopes up too high. We're doing Aida, that Elton John/Tim Rice musical (so good). They called me back for Aida (lead) and Nehebka (smaller female part) but they never actually got me to do anything for Nehebka.. and as there were only four people called back for Aida.. and one of them was grade nine, and one got a lead last year (and doesn't really fit the part in my opinion) I think that there is a pretty decent chance of me getting it. I sure hope so.

But also, what's really stupid is that there were grade 9s called back for major roles... oh, and. Ron got Radames, but I feel so bad for Keir because he got the smallest guy part and then they SPLIT IT IN HALF for the girls. They made him a sister because there was too much girl talent. But I feel so bad, because Ron is a big douche and doesn't deserve it. He skips choir and Keir is pretty dedicated, and Ron got the lead last year and Keir has never gotten it.. but I guess Ron fits the part better. But Keir was bored because there was nothing for him to do at callbacks, and Ron was all.. Yeah I'm so glad I got the lead so that I have something to do. Man. I was like.. what, really? Douche.

OKAY BUT I AM LEAVING NOW. Whoo.

]]> ~baby-alien91 Oooold maaaan riverrrr http://baby-alien91.deviantart.com/journal/14706738/ http://baby-alien91.deviantart.com/journal/14706738/ Wed, 19 Sep 2007 19:41:34 PDT
About 4 didn't show up for the first rehearsal, and there were only 16 in the choir to start with.. the main missing people being from the tenor section which, as a result, consisted of one person.

So I get there and everyone's standing around. We sit down, talk, blah blah. They've recently introduced an EBS "matrix" thing to our school where they hand out tickets for being kind, respectful and a good worker. I mean come on. High school? Reeaally? But anyway, (Sasha, you can imagine this) Keir wouldn't shut up about "being willing to learn" all class, and demanding tickets. And I called Justin "Dickmott" for doing something, I don't remember what, and Cam burst into laughter at that because I guess he's never heard it before, EVEN THOUGH I wrote it on Justin's chair. Anyhow he burst into laughter and Gwy gave him heck for calling him Dickmott and it was basically the best burn ever on Cam.

Frick the guys are funny.

And then we moved up, and were basically sitting on each other's laps around the piano.. and then we sang Old Man River in one part of a song and the guys were being ridiculous because of the Family Guy reference. And yes, there were many other hilarious jokes. It was excellent. Too bad you can't be there. I'd go on, but really you just wouldn't get it. Our school has its own sense of humour.

But really, I have way too much music going on this year. Like.. man. Four choirs, three band classes (one a school rock band.. intense..) and a band of my own, and voice lessons. So I have to memorize 21 songs for WMYC for weekend after next, about a million songs for my jazz combo, and I have to learn Phantom of the Opera in about three weeks, and I'm taking violin lessons, and I'm taking a dance class now too. Not to mention I still have Driver's ed and then you have to take into account concerts and school! My sight reading skills should be getting better, but really they're just getting worn out and I can hardly do it anymore. Oh well.

EDIT: I forgot to mention our school's Major Production.. I'm not sure what it is yet but I'm hoping for a lead.. which would kill me a little bit more but it'd be worth it. I have fairly easy semesters. And I also have to deal with fundraising this year, because I'm on the Choir Executive Council.. and my teacher also gets me to do posters and stuff... but not always. It's okay. But fundraising.. yikes!!

I'm tired, I need to sleep. I'm going to get sick if I don't.

Okay.

Yeah.

Cool.

Oh, also, it was

's birthday yesterday. Much love to her!

]]> ~baby-alien91 Bah. http://baby-alien91.deviantart.com/journal/14494797/ http://baby-alien91.deviantart.com/journal/14494797/ Tue, 04 Sep 2007 21:00:53 PDT
God, but our school is so disorganized.

Aaaaand, I guess there is still a soft spot because he makes me so mad, I pretty much hate him. He doesn't ever talk to me until I don't want to talk to him, and then I am sort of cold and leave, and then feel bad after and finish the conversation. But I'm sure he doesn't notice. Goddamn, why is there such a terrible selection of guys around here? As if I would actually ever like him anyway. Bugh. What a bad situation. I'd be so over him if there was somebody else. God. Damn.

But it's okay, I don't ever even think about him until night time. And even then it is just about how I would like to kick him in the face, but I'm too nice to even ignore very much.

AND! Sasha

is teaching me how to play the violin! Oooh I'm so happy, I've always wanted to learn. But god, bowing is the devil. Not even kidding.. it tries to enter my soul when I yawn and everything.

But I like it so much. And it's odd, because she was one of those unexpected friends.. the ones you never expected to be friends with but all of a sudden you are. It is pretty good. I like her. We've had some good moments. And plus we have the same love for Pirates. I'm glad.

But uh, that's it. I like blueberries, damn they're good this time of year.

9 days!!!

]]> ~baby-alien91 How do red and green make yellow? http://baby-alien91.deviantart.com/journal/14418981/ http://baby-alien91.deviantart.com/journal/14418981/ Fri, 31 Aug 2007 00:45:13 PDT

~AquaticFishy

"List ten things about your art, then tag ten people to do the same."

1. Yeah, so I draw this little skinny-but-tall blond dude with messy hair and a red cap quite often. He usually plays the violin and has a stripe on his shirt. It's from when he was a favorite of mine in real life. I'm over him now. It's good. But his character remains a favorite to draw. If I were to ever animate him, he would walk with a bounce.

2. I draw better when I'm surrounded by people, as long as they're not watching me.

3. I remain convinced that the only things I can draw really well are eyes, apples, and the forementioned boy-with-stripes, and that I am going to be arrested someday for accusation of stalking.

4. I stopped making emoticons when it got far too easy to get favorites, and plus you can only do it for so long. Plus there was a major overturn of emoticonists and I decided it was time to stop. That's a part of me that's finished. It used to act like a form of therapy though, sometimes. I would just emote my emotions. It was a release.

5. Whenever I draw eyes, it is always a left eye (my right) looking up and to the right (my right). I wonder if that is a reflection on my state of mind? Also, I always draw people facing the same way.. to my left, 3/4 view. Unless there are multiple people in the picture.

6. I don't think my oekakis are good enough to post on dA. Nor my paintings. Nor my sculptures (plus I've given all the good ones away as gifts). Nor my pencil drawings or films.

7. I'm hopeless at abstract. In fact, the only thing I am good at right now is cartooning skinny little figures with tiny torsos and loooong legs. I try to caricature all my friends, but it only works for a few. The ones with distinctive features.

8. I always look for distinctive features in a face. I also analyze every little thing when I can't figure something out.. and when I do it's usually this amazing insight that helps.

9. When pencil drawing, I draw small so that it's easier to shade and give depth.

10. I hate titles. If I could I would leave them all blank.

There is so much more.. but it's 2:30 am. Give me a break.

I tag whoever wants to do this.

*******

I'm so looking forward to the violin my gigi gave me.. I'm still waiting for the music repair guys to call though, it's taking forever to reattach the tailpiece and restring. I mean come on!

And school starts soon! I'm beyond excited for choir. I'm such a geek. But bah, I'm already making posters and stuff for it. Ridiculous!

2 weeks 2 weeks 2 weeks 2 weeks holy crap I am going to die of anticipation. Guh.

Trainspotting was an excellent movie.

Going out to the lake tomorrow with a group of friends. Thank the lord for Julia.

Sash... Morgan's leaving tomorrow! At 3:30! *le weep* I'm so sad. But she'll visit. It'll be okay. But I'm afraid I probably won't be riding shotgun in her beat-up neon with the wrecked door ever again. Oh well, it was a piece of crap anyway. A piece of crap with memories attached!

Okay okay, she's not dying. Moving on.

LeChuck scenes are so stressful.. I've been putting off finishing the third game for days now, because I don't want to do the actual action part of the game. Goddamn, he keeps interrupting me. What a doucheface.

Actually it's been a stressful couple of days, I'll elaborate when I get back from the lake.

Twoooooo weeeeeeeeeks

Lord.

I'd better get to bed.

]]> ~baby-alien91 The internetz is safe again lolz http://baby-alien91.deviantart.com/journal/13817880/ http://baby-alien91.deviantart.com/journal/13817880/ Sat, 21 Jul 2007 07:29:28 PDT
Anyway, I played a set with two of my very close friends at the release party and it went spectacularly, then went to Hairspray with everybody whom I invited who'd showed up to watch us perform (about 7 of my friends), then raced back to the bookstore to pick up my copy. I then proceeded to set up a cozy little nook on my couch in the basement, complete with tea, and read the entire book in about 7 and a half hours (with computer breaks, of course). Also, the ending was one of my original theories. I called it so hard, you don't even know. And oh man, Hairspray was SO GOOD. The visual and musical stimulants! I couldn't even handle the excitement of my night. Although I couldn't help noticing that there was one bass line identical to "Stick to the Status Quo"... and black people are fricken' awesome.

In other news, vanilla soy milk in cereal is the best thing I've eaten all day.

]]> ~baby-alien91 Come on, it was morning! Daylightplz. http://baby-alien91.deviantart.com/journal/13566031/ http://baby-alien91.deviantart.com/journal/13566031/ Sun, 01 Jul 2007 16:03:40 PDT [link]

Way to go, little man.

]]> ~baby-alien91 Look out! Oddish uses... stun spore? Aaaand... mis http://baby-alien91.deviantart.com/journal/12515417/ http://baby-alien91.deviantart.com/journal/12515417/ Sun, 08 Apr 2007 19:20:55 PDT Even

$lolly is in on it, man. He never changes his avatar!>>>>[link]

In other-but-relating-to-the-same-so-really-not-other-at-all news, Oddish is the most useless pokemon (other than Magikarp) but it is also one of the cutest.

Oh, and I've been listening to a band called The Fugitives lately. They combine Folk with lovely harmonies and spoken word poetry. You should check them out, they're amazing. Plus, they're Canadian (from Vancouver). Mark Berube, Barbara Adler and Brendan McLeod. [link] (myspace) and [link] (official website)

]]> ~baby-alien91 The ultimate emo? You tell me. http://baby-alien91.deviantart.com/journal/12380356/ http://baby-alien91.deviantart.com/journal/12380356/ Thu, 29 Mar 2007 19:03:46 PDT
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What the hell is Ron not doing on the cover? Malfoy is, why not Ron? Is Ron suddenly not good enough for the cover? What is this?! (Burn on you Ron, you B-list fiction character)

A startling occurrence: Does Ron die?! I'd much rather have Harry die... what a whiny, caps-lock kid. Waah, nobody understands me, my parents left me at a young age, I have so much pent-up rage that I don't know what to do with.. waaah. The ultimate emo, right after Romeo. I'd demonstrate by typing a passage from the book but I just can't be bothered. It goes something like:

Dumbledore: You do care, Harry. You care so much that you feel you could die from the pain of it all.

Harry: I DON'T CARE. I DON'T! I DON'T! *throws things at Dumbledore* *sob sob* I'm so tragic. Wah wah. *cut cut cut* I'm saaaad. *writes emo song*

Yeah Ron, you go ahead and die. Leave Hermione all alone-y on her own-y. See if I care. I bet I won't.

God, life is such a soap opera.

]]> ~baby-alien91 I knew it! http://baby-alien91.deviantart.com/journal/12132426/ http://baby-alien91.deviantart.com/journal/12132426/ Sat, 10 Mar 2007 14:43:05 PST

I have superhuman powers. They haven't shown themselves yet, but I'm certain it's only a matter of time.

How did I come across this striking revelation? Well, I've had an oddly sore throat for the past few days.

"What is this? I never get sick. How odd... oh well."

After a couple passing days of no relief, I decided there must be something new, something changing. I feel so tingly... so strangely powerful.. I looked in the mirror, and lo and behold, my tonsils were three times the size of a regular human being. I am three times the regular human being! (It's because I'm superhuman. Not to be confused with fat.)

Isn't that just the most amazing thing in the world? Imagine that! Real, documented superpowers! Just you wait, it'll be in all the newspapers and on all the forums (because you know you haven't actually made it until they're creating theories about you on the internet).

]]> ~baby-alien91 Not obsessed with jazz... seriously! http://baby-alien91.deviantart.com/journal/12106876/ http://baby-alien91.deviantart.com/journal/12106876/ Thu, 08 Mar 2007 14:37:14 PST
Hey hey, look who hasn't updated in ages! I haven't even been keeping up with my message box.. I had about 600 deviations to go through so I probably won't now. I haven't had a journal entry for over a month now, so I figured I might say something.

This week = best week of my life.

I'll start on Saturday.

Saturday, March 3.

Jazz festival. I play the bari sax (My first year on it, I normally play alto.. but I went to band camp and tried the bari and I liked it a lot) in the big band, and it's been giving me odd problems ever since I got it. Squeaking, not playing at all, made me wonder if I just sucked a lot. The week before our performance, it was working surprisingly well. It was great! I could hit all the high and low notes with no effort.

We get to the festival on Saturday, and 5 minutes before we go on, it cuts out on me entirely. It wouldn't play anything higher than a high A, and I needed to come in on a high C#, and hit a high E (Quite high on a bari sax... I believe E is the highest, and C# is 4 half-steps higher than an A) later on in the song. But no, it refused to play. So we walk on, and I tell my teacher that my saxophone isn't working. One of the volunteers had their bari sax there, so we tried using that with my own reed and mouthpiece, but to no avail. It was quite the drama, but the show must go on. So, we tried for the first song, it was pretty decent, considering it was all in the low range. Then came the second song that is entirely super high on the bari. It refused to work, squeaking and crying out like a tortured cat. No lies. So, in the middle of the song, I quickly switched to my original sax. Nope. Still not working. So I didn't play that song at all, I just pretended. The next song went well though. It was all mid-range, and I was glad because I got to play the soli. (A solo section involving all the saxophones).

Also, my trusty backpack broke, and there is no saving it.

Oh well, my mom said she'd get me the Shakespeare bag from Married to the Sea! Yay! All is not lost!

I want some sushi..

Monday, March 5.

Oh yes, jazz band. Time to listen to the adjudicators' recordings. There are two, and a written piece. One of the adjudicators was a bit of a nut, but I really liked her. Before we started you could hear her laughing about fried chicken to the guy next to her. In the background, what do I hear? Oh yes, my half-dead cat of a bari sax, squawking away. Oh, music to my ears. It's a darn good thing that a dysfunctional instrument doesn't affect the adjudication. She said.. "Ooh, I wonder what the story with the bari sax is? Hmm..." The next guy was good too. He said that we were one of the best big bands he'd ever heard. Then he said.. "Oh wow, switching saxophones mid-song... this is so dramatic. I am impressed... I wonder what is up with the bari sax?" Good thing I have an excellent sense of humour, I might have cried. And I still don't have a bag. And the bag from MTTS doesn't ship internationally

Tuesday, March 6.

Pretty normal day, catch the bus at around 8-ish, yeah, go to school. Blah blah. Now I have to sell 3 boxes of chocolate bars... good, shouldn't be too hard. I've already sold about 10 bars.. Oh wait, what's this? Choir until 6 tonight? No worries. Oh... rehearsal for Major Production at 7.. better call my mom. Oh dear, looks like I'm not going home until after rehearsal... oh wait, no. There is a jazz concert that I have to go to at eight. Darn. (We have to go to them for marks for jazz band.) Maybe my mom will bring me food. Oh dear, she sounds upset for me telling her last minute. Oh, but my teachers are wonderful! They are going to give me some leftover pizza from the open house tonight. Hoo-rah, I'll call my mom to tell her she doesn't have to come after all! Oh... oh.. no, she's angry. Oh dear. Sorry mom.

So, rehearsal starts at 7.. that's cool. Oh... I think I heard my teacher say his name in the hallway.. he's been away for two weeks. Oh somebody else has heard it too! He's back! Hooray! And he's tanned.. he's practically orange... hahahaha burn. (Everybody mobbed him, it was amazing. How do people become so popular? It's absolutely ridiculous.) Well, I've had a "crush" on him for long enough... it's time to say something because I know he knows, and I know all of his friends know too, and I've never actually said anything anyway. And even though I am pretty sure he doesn't like me back I have to get that out of the way so that I won't ever regret not s... ]]> ~baby-alien91 How convenient http://baby-alien91.deviantart.com/journal/11591343/ http://baby-alien91.deviantart.com/journal/11591343/ Sat, 27 Jan 2007 18:44:01 PST One Million Masterpiece calendar. Why is that convenient? Well, I lack a calendar. Guess who is going to have the best calendar in the world as soon as it arrives? Yeah. Me. You know it. 'Cause that's just the way I roll, baby.

I actually, in secret, made another square. Greedy me, I know. I couldn't help myself. See if you can find it... it is a classy picture of an apple... southeast edge.

Also, I'm thinking I want some new CSS, but I don't know of what yet. If anybody cares to leave an idea or several with me, I'll see what I can do to figure it out. Because my coding skills aren't fantastic.

On another note, exams = over. Me > exams. Second semester starts on Monday... how glad am I to be done Pre-calc? What a silly question.. even though we had a Tuesday treat day, I am so glad to be finished with it. But not as glad as I am to be through with Geography. Honestly... worst class ever.

]]> ~baby-alien91 Hey, move your fat foot http://baby-alien91.deviantart.com/journal/11327816/ http://baby-alien91.deviantart.com/journal/11327816/ Fri, 05 Jan 2007 17:26:44 PST

I caught it myself

My 10K. What a milestone. Hooray for life changing experiences on the internet.

Just kidding, but thanks yo.

Also, I feel like I am stuck in a routine.... any ideas on how to break it? Any spontaneous things for me to do? It's really boring, I need to do something different and new.

PS [link] My one million masterpiece square

]]> ~baby-alien91 Oh. How embarrassing. http://baby-alien91.deviantart.com/journal/11250195/ http://baby-alien91.deviantart.com/journal/11250195/ Sat, 30 Dec 2006 20:46:22 PST
Imagine that.

I hope not many people saw my MSN name.

Seriously though, I was thinking it all day. Aaaall day... I didn't even realize it until one of my friends told me. It's a really good thing I had decided not to go to a party that I was invited to. Also a really good thing I didn't ask everyone what they were doing tonight.. maaaaan.

Oh well, I got the second Pirates soundtrack, it is so better than the first. Fo' serious yo. My favorite character theme is the Jack Sparrow one with the cello and whatnot. It is great.

]]> ~baby-alien91 Word up G http://baby-alien91.deviantart.com/journal/11151646/ http://baby-alien91.deviantart.com/journal/11151646/ Fri, 22 Dec 2006 14:50:54 PST
So happy holidays guys. Today was our last day, so the choirs and a drama class put on a show in the afternoon. I was in the choir, the chamber choir and I was a caroler (whoo). So carolers is a group of 8 girls (11 understudies) composed of 3 Altos, 3 Sop 2s and 2 Sop 1s. I was the understudy for the soprano ones (the highest part), but only because I am the youngest... next year I'll either be a serenader or a caroler for sure. However, I missed the last two rehearsals because I came down with an awful flu type thing, and I am still hacking away a bit. I sound a bit like a 13 year old boy just hitting puberty when I sing, but I got it under control for today.

However, considering I missed the last two rehearsals, I didn't have it memorized.

So of course, I messed up "And God bless you and send you a happy new year, and God send you a haaaappy new year" by saying "God blend you a happy new year".

Yep. Real smooth

]]> ~baby-alien91 One more day http://baby-alien91.deviantart.com/journal/11140580/ http://baby-alien91.deviantart.com/journal/11140580/ Thu, 21 Dec 2006 15:52:20 PST
One more school day! Just one!

PS We got our WMYC CDs in the mail... plus our conductor flew in from Rochester for his holidays, and did a workshop with us. It was great, all of us who were in WMYC went out for lunch with him and got to skip our entire afternoon. Sadly I sounded like a thirteen year old boy hitting puberty while I was singing, because of my just getting over the flu... oh man. It was entertaining though.

]]> ~baby-alien91 Karma--aftermath x2 http://baby-alien91.deviantart.com/journal/11043391/ http://baby-alien91.deviantart.com/journal/11043391/ Wed, 13 Dec 2006 20:20:32 PST
My teacher is pretty lenient, and very deep.. a profound thinker. He has these karma coaching cards, and so one day he handed them out to the class. They give you things to do to boost your karma.. things like.. buy a flower for somebody on the street, go to the art gallery alone and look at the art... the one I got was "wash your underwear and socks by hand.. then wear them again the next day"

Well I didn't. I was far too lazy.

Then the next morning I missed the bus.

Still didn't bother.

Then the day after that I lost my scarf.. the one that I knitted and I love it... it is just great, but I will be sad if it is gone.

Still didn't bother.

This morning I lost a glove and somebody I know won't even look at me or acknowledge me, I have an idea why but there isn't anything I can do about it. Laaaaaame.

I finally bothered... we will see what happens tomorrow. Perhaps my scarf is in the lost and found. It may be too late for my karma though, as I may have only done it for personal gain which is probably not the best reason.

edit: No less than a few hours later, my friend told me she found my green scarf.

edit x2: No less than about an hour after that, my choir teacher emailed me to tell me that she wants me and a few other people to go caroling at a gig we've been invited to.. it's (one of) the bank's Christmas party at the outdoor skating rink and they wanted two trios to go sing carols for them, so me and two of my best friends get to go do that, along with another trio.

I told people about it at school the next day and they all want karma cards now, so look how much good I am putting into the world

My English teacher got so excited when I told him. Everybody, go do random acts of kindness! Do it!

]]> ~baby-alien91 -Threeeeeeeeeee *high pitched voice* http://baby-alien91.deviantart.com/journal/10951170/ http://baby-alien91.deviantart.com/journal/10951170/ Mon, 04 Dec 2006 16:53:44 PST
Any question, no matter how personal, strange, or inappropriate they may seem!

Stolen from =sereneworx (man that kid is only 13... crazy!)

]]> ~baby-alien91 Oh my god http://baby-alien91.deviantart.com/journal/10825631/ http://baby-alien91.deviantart.com/journal/10825631/ Thu, 23 Nov 2006 16:54:03 PST

Looks like I'm going pawn shopping tomorrow.

]]> ~baby-alien91 Drama in the Theatre Group http://baby-alien91.deviantart.com/journal/10802283/ http://baby-alien91.deviantart.com/journal/10802283/ Tue, 21 Nov 2006 16:26:51 PST
OKAY so I didn't get Sharpay, I was upset about that, but at least I got Martha Cox, the hiphop girl (which I actually predicted would happen). I was upset that my friends who are actually in the same grade as me got Sharpay AND Gabriella, despite not having seniority.. but I mean, it was double-casted so that's alright. I was sort of bitter, for about 30 seconds, and then I was all.. you know, screw it I'm going to do my best to be happy for them. (I still had to hide in the bathroom for a couple of minutes though while I lost my composure... it was a long day and a lot of stuff went wrong... it was just a bit of a last straw... I couldn't look at anyone for the longest time. I felt so guilty

) So yeah, yeah. I am still sort of sad, but I am so proud of them. I thought about it for a while during choir, (which was pretty silent... all the girls were depressed or mad or something) and I thought, hey, these two girls suggested this musical in the first place, they did well at their auditions, and they are huge fans. I think that it's better that the girl who got Sharpay got it, instead of me. We're pretty good friends and I'm envious of course, but it isn't going to affect our friendship. In fact, I'm pretty mad at all the grade 12s who are all... "oh man we're older than them we should have gotten those parts" (It's sort of funny, because the girl who got Gabriella dated the guy who got Troy. They're on different casts though.)

Okay, so yeah. There are a couple of girls I would have liked to see as those parts, but not any more than I'd like to see as these ones now. Plus, it was double-casted so it's not like the entire cast is dominated by non-grade 12s. I can understand why they'd be upset, but whatever I guess. There isn't a whole lot that can be done now. I think that the two girls deserved it anyway.

You can tell how exhausted I am, mentally, physically and emotionally, by the amount of "Okay, so yeah's", and other stupid phrases that there are in this entry.

]]> ~baby-alien91 Laawwwwd the anxiety is all too much to bear http://baby-alien91.deviantart.com/journal/10791873/ http://baby-alien91.deviantart.com/journal/10791873/ Mon, 20 Nov 2006 17:28:55 PST
Yeah, so auditions for High School Musical were done over the weekend, and oh man, I am so anxious for the cast list to be put up. This is the worst kind of anxiety. Well not the worst, but it is terrible. It's like.. NOW WAIT PRACTICALLY A WEEK TO SEE IF YOU GET A PART AND WE WON'T EVEN HINT ANYTHING AT YOU gahhhh it's horrible.

Oh my lord.

I want the part of Sharpay, it would be so much fun. It'll probably be double-casted, most of the roles, and the two guys who are pretty much obviously playing Ryan are awesome, it'd be a party playing Sharpay with them. For those not familiar with HSM, Ryan and Sharpay are twins (but they don't even look alike) who have starred in all the school productions since kindergarten. Ryan isn't too bright, but Sharpay is pretty much a total bitch... and an over-the-top drama queen. How awesome of a part. Sadly, I don't have seniority so there is only a small chance of me getting it, even though I was just as good, if not better, than most of the people older than me. I can sing pretty well, and my acting is not bad, but I hate seniority. Lord give me strength.

It's terrible, because I made callbacks--singing and acting--but it's still doubtful I'll get the part. I am such a geek.

I guess I'll keep you updated on that. I also wouldn't mind getting the piano girl... though it wouldn't be nearly as awesome as Sharpay.

EDIT: Oh, also if you want to be happy never try to get involved with guys. Just don't do it.

Eat perogies instead. Then you'll become a whale and no guy will ever want you and you'll be happy. Forever!

That's my goal in life.

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